#trans kids deserve to get to adulthood

[thedelusionreaderbitch]

say it with me people

trans kids deserve to live, gender affirming health care saves lives, leave us trans people alone you dickwads, queer education is suicide prevention

[sillysongwithlarry]

I always check the vibe when introducing myself. Like, do I use my playful name or my serious one.

So I’ve discovered by legally keeping my maiden name that actually in 90% of situations (anything that doesn’t require an ID and isn’t a legal or financial document) you can use your husbands last name “socially.”

So now it’s fun it’s like which name is the vibe for this volunteer sign-up sheet?

[wickjump]

Not exactly hurt comfort but I am enjoying the idea that every time Cross reveals something about his past/childhood it slowly but surely makes the team angry. Like he happens to share a "funny story" or mention how he was treated and one by one the gang is horrified to the point where if xgaster actually showed up in the same au as them they would all be gunning for him immediately.

Also the stars showing up during this fight and like Dream: Nightmare stop this!! What are you doing to- Nightmare: (goops over and whispers something in Dream's ear) Dream: WHAT?? No fuck that (starts aiming his arrows at xgaster)

IVE SPOKEN ABOUT THIS SO MANY TIMES WITH FRIENDS/MUTUALS I AGREE SO MYCH HE HAS SO MANY TRAUMATIZING CHILDHOOD STORIES HE INTERNALLY NORMALIZED GOD. HE DOESNT REALIZE HOW BAD IT WAS AND THE REACTIONS HE GETS ARE UNNERVING. THANK YOU FOR THIS AND OTHER CROSS RELATED ASKS YOURE SO GOOD WITH THEM THEYRE MY FAVORITE

ok ya this is just plain whump warning for lotsa child abuse including physical. like beating the shit out of an 8 year old physical. also I’m so tired right now

chances are that’s not even the worst of it because you know his seven year old ass was told ‘don’t tell anyone about me beating you to near death’ and he still sticks to that. but he speaks about abuse he doesn’t even grasp counts as abuse.

withholding food. sleeping in the yard. eating food on the floor while the others sat at the dinner table as punishment (or to eat out of a dog bowl on the ground i had to do that once lol). as a kid still scared of the dark he was locked in dark rooms until he got over his fear (he’s still scared to this day but he won’t seek help because he doesn’t want to be punished again). cross touched something he wasn’t supposed to? put your hand on the burning hot stove for however many seconds that item was worth in G (maybe divided by 5/10), or until he cried.

cruel and unusual punishments were xgaster’s forte but he tells them like funny stories to the horror of literally everyone around him.

cross is not coping well with figuring out that no that’s not normal and no that’s fucked up. most of his scars are probably from xgaster (excluding the red one on his face obv). and when he delves into the traditional abuse it gets worse somehow?? anyway xgaster is on THE multiversal hitlist. star sanses and bad sanses all want his head on a wall. even ink because ink didn’t know about the abuse because xgaster never told him for obvious reasons and it’s not like cross was willing to share.

i think that once he starts talking about the abuse he can’t stop (same) and he’s just. slowly crying and eventually hyperventilating and oh he’s been holding onto that for SO long. and then he hates that he told people because he wasn’t supposed to and is scared that they’ll see him less or punish him for some reason or hate him now, but he isn’t expecting to be comforted after? wtf? he doesn’t grasp that saying ‘yeah i got in trouble at school so my dad beat me until i lost two of my baby teeth and got a temporary crack in my skull’ normally results in being hugged or something. like dude you were 8 wtf. and he’s so scared but he just wants to feel safe AUGH HE MAKES MY HEART HURT. like dude, he almost beat papyrus at a time he was so young he had to use a step-stool to reach the sink to brush his teeth :( dude…

anyway ya cross is me fr (the burning hand stove happened once/twice to me actually idk i was like 5 lol. my grandfather is not the best man) and he deserves to go through hell on earth and be tortured in his childhood i think. oh and experience comfort or whatever after idk. kross maybe because their dynamic is ‘my childhood was ruined’ x ‘my adulthood was ruined’ and i think that’s sweet. or mtt + cross poly with nightmare as the outlier wondering why they’re so affectionate all of a sudden (he’s aroace…)

BUT THATS SELF INDULGENT LMAO what really matters is how much we torture the poor lad that is cross 🥰

also make him trans because abuse isn’t enough he needs extreme dysphoria all of the time. xgaster isn’t transphobic btw this is independent from everything else

[enbycrip]

ID: “HOW MY DAD CAME OUT

It was at Thanksgiving and everything. Just me, my sister, and my dad.

Dad: So, since it's sort of tradition to confess things over Thanksgiving dinner, I think I ought to let everyone know that I'm...uh, bisexual.

Me: Cool.

Little sister: What's that?

Dad: It means I like girls and boys.

Little sister: Oh. (my sister and I keep eating)

Dad:...and everyone's alright with that? Everyone:...yeah...

Dad: Oh. Okay, good. (sits down, then stands up again) At least act surprised, come on! I'm fifty, I've been sitting on this shit since I was sixteen!

Little sister: (confused) But you've always said you wanted to marry David Bowie!

Dad: Well, I thought you assumed I was kidding when I said things like that.

Me: Nobody is kidding when they say things like that about David Bowie.

- Submitted by Anonymous”.

Sometimes I think it’s hard for younger folks to get how difficult and shitty this stuff was in the past.

I didn’t get that I was nonbinary when I was a kid, but I knew I liked girls from when I was about 11ish.

There were no out queer people in my life or my family’s lives when I was a kid, and it was under Section 28 when there was a legal moratorium on this being talked about by educators.

I was *terrified*. I felt so much shame about it. I figured everyone would be able to read it - and, Tbf, they clearly could read my queerness. I got a huge amount of homophobic bullying thrown at me that was just as much about my non-binaryness as about my sexuality, and throw my (then-undiagnosed) autism in there too.

These days, me being bi isn’t even something I mention all that much because me being nonbinary is treated as so much of a bigger deal. But if I hadn’t had the luck to meet queer people in adulthood, gone to uni and read queer theory, and had the internet to connect with my queerness - I can see how this could have been something like that for me?

No one deserves this, btw. That sense of shame and wrongness. And that is what the TERFs and the GCs they connect with want; first for trans folk, and then for all queer folk, because the GCs are fascists and fundamentalists.

[vixxdaemon]

Hi! I really liked your Termina oc and so I was wondering if you could share some information about him

Hehe, for sure !

Beforehand, as a disclaimer, SheepMasks are a fanmade cultist group I have made up for Sol’s backstory. They’re like the WolfMasks and BunnyMasks but the Alll-Mer worshipping equivalent.

They are actually the most structured animal masked cult amongst all of them, because they have a hierarchy and members have roles they have to fill in. Said roles are separated by genders. They look down upon other animal mask cults because they consider them «primitive» and «violent» (spoilers alert they’re not any better). SheepMasks are spread out around the world as little groups, akin to herds of sheep. A herd is led by a Ram, which has to be an adult man, and the Ram leads Ewes, which are all women (very binary language here when I talk about gendered roles for the sake of convenience). Baby boys are sent to become Rams and make their own herds when they turn 16, and baby girls are destined to remain in the herd they were born in to become priestesses/nuns and serve the Ram.

SheepMasks worship Alll-Mer, the Ascended One. Ewes are supposed to help the Ram preach the word of the Lord. SheepMasks organize sacrifices for one of their member which they consider the purest amongst newborn kids they get, which is called a Lamb. The Lamb is chosen as a child and will be sacrificed when they reach adulthood, as a way to offer «another servant to the Lord and Ascended One Alll-Mer».

Here is what the standard SheepMask outfit looks like (the character here is Sol when he was younger, please refer to him as he/him, as he is a trans man) :

Now onto Sol’s backstory (TW : child abuse, religious abuse, overrall violence)

Sol Doukas, born Selene Doukas, was born a bastard to a WolfMask father and a SheepMask mother in basically the equivalent of Greece in Fear and Hunger’s universe.

He was supposed to be killed at birth, because his wolf half «soiled the pure and holy lamb heritage with the blood of a beast» he had, but the Ram of his herd, in an evangelical fashion, decided to keep him alive because he figured the child would be grateful to not be killed for his forbidden existence.

Sol grew up as a pariah in the herd. He never knew his mother, as no children in herds do, and even less knew of his father (and his father probably does not know himself that he had a kid). He was shamed and berated for being a bastard, a hybrid, a crossbreed. Because his blood was considered impure, he was never chosen to be a Lamb, for the better and for the worst.

Sol was forced to worship Alll-Mer since he knew how to understand what was said to him. This made him resent the worship, and later on have deep distrust for his worshippers.

Sol grew up to be a bitter and angry young adult, often lashing out and acting up, and being constantly reminded how ungrateful he is for being still alive still to this day.

When he was nearing 18 years old, he decided to take matters into his own hands and flee the herd. He carefully prepared everything, managed to get himself a weapon and hide it where no one but him could find it, and was resolved that if he died in the process of leaving, at least he wouldn’t have died rotting in a cult that hates his existence.

Sol almost managed to flee, until the Ram caught him and confronted him, shoving more berating into his mind, up until things got physical and the young «Ewe» took out his pocket knife and stabbed the Ram with it when he got distracted. Sol afterwards cut off his head and disposed of it to make sure he was dead.

On the run, Sol tried to make himself money the best ways he could. He found out he had talents in killing other people, and so he started to become a bounty hunter. He would profit off of people who wanted revenge over people who wronged them before. He found it justified because it was people he deemed deserved what they got.

In the process, he gets interested in Gro-Goroth, his WolfMask heritage affecting his affinity to the God of Destruction. He starts to worship this God and manages to even secretly learn spells made by his magic.

At 26 years old, Sol gets an unusual bounty. Reila Haas, Bremen citizen that used to be held by the Bremen Empire’s government for treason, but was freed by the NLU, an organization that she was allegedly affiliated with. Reila is a terrorist, Sol is told. And the price of this bounty is so high it could possibly make Sol prosper for the rest of his life.

Sol gets on the first train that would get him to where Reila is located, which is Prehevil, a secluded city, lost amongst the country of Bohemia, formerly at war with the Bremen Empire.

When he arrives there however, he is dragged into the festival of Termina, where he is told that he should kill 14 other contestants if he wants to get out of it alive.

[secret-diary-of-an-fa]

I Saw the TV Glow Review (Weirdly, It Works Better Without Subtext)

SPOILER ALERT

ALSO TRIGGER WARNING: Gender Dysphoria, Depression, 90s Television, Kid’s Parties, Rishi Sunak, Skittles (and the repackaging thereof), Unaliving Oneself onstage with a Prop, Ontological Dread and Birds Flying Into Windows.

So, there’s a bit of a buzz about I Saw the TV Glow in cult cinephile circles, and I’m a bit glad about that because it’s a genuinely interesting film and we don’t see genuinely interesting films get the attention they deserve very often. Note, however, that I said “attention” not “praise”. That’ll be important later. So… why is everyone talking about this film (and by ‘everyone’, I mean ‘like, maybe, me and eight other snooty movie weirdos’)? Well, we’ll get there, but first let me lay out the plot for you: protagonist Owen is a socially-awkward, doesn’t-fit-in-anywhere boy right out of the mumblecore ‘90s Indie Cinema Playbook and, during his middle-school years, he befriends a lass called Maddy (though ‘befriends’ might be wrong word for the weird codependence they strike up) and she introduces him to a show called The Pink Opaque: a dark, disturbing, supernaturally-inflected TV show about two psychic friends who fight ��Mr. Melancholy’ (a sinister occult psychopath with a moon for a face- just go with it). Ostensibly, The Pink Opaque is meant to be for kids, but from the beginning, there’s something very obviously not quite right about it. Weirder still, when Maddy disappears in a doomed bid to find herself, the show gets cancelled, almost as if it was a part of her. Fast-forward, via a few narrative leaps and bounds, to Owen’s adulthood and Maddy reappears, claiming to have been inside the show, which is actually reality. She and Owen, she asserts, are the main characters from the programme and Mr. Melancholy has sent their minds to the ‘Midnight Realm’ of their present, false reality. In order to escape, they need to bury themselves alive, because that’s what’s happening to their real bodies and it’ll reestablish the connection (I’m adding the technobabble, by the way: the phrasing in the movie is nowhere near that logical or concise). Spoiler alert: Maddy does this and then vanishes from the plot, Owen doesn’t and we see him grow old, trapped in his own personal suburban nightmare… right up until the end of the film, where we see him leaving his place of work in a manner very open to interpretation. Is he finally about to wise up and go bury himself in order to emerge renewed, or is he just going home for a cuppa, a biscuit and a long overdue review of his mental health medication?

Now, clearly, all that sounds like a real fucking trip of a movie, but that’s not why it’s generating buzz. See, Maddy believes that she and Owen are the two main characters from The Pink Opaque, but both of those characters are female. Owen, as you can tell from the fact he’s called Owen, is not. Thus, the flick has been interpreted as a metaphor for gender dysphoria and the process of transitioning/ the decision not to. There’s a lot of allusions to Owen feeling like there’s something wrong with him (on one level reality) and feeling like he’s being buried alive and is dying while, er, that’s literally what’s happening to his meta-self on the Pink Opaque level of reality. There’s a bit where he has a break-down at a kid’s party and screams “HELP ME! I’M LITERALLY DYING RIGHT NOW!” Although, in fairness, kids’ parties make me feel like that too and I’m not even remotely trans. The point is, it’s a film with a big, fat, capital-I Issue at its centre, which has given people a license to enjoy it despite the fact it’s weird, schlocky, neon-doused pulp of the highest order. And, fair play to people suffering with gender dysphoria, if this film really speaks to you, you go right the fuck ahead and enjoy it on that level. But (and here I’m about to piss off the entire internet), I actually think it works a lot better if you just take it completely fucking literally. Like, forget the metaphorical nonsense and focus on the actual plot and it instantly becomes one of the best and most upsetting horror films of the last five years. Try and draw real-life parallels, however, and it starts to seem a bit overwrought and melodramatic.

Right. Time to try and explain what I mean without upsetting anyone more than I already have (please don’t send me hate-mail: I don’t read it and you’ll just give yourself carpal tunnel syndrome, which, trust me, is a bitch). It’s pretty obvious that there’s something wrong with the world Owen and Maddy inhabit from the get-go. The school they go to as sprogs is called Void High School, which (aside from having the initials VHS) is also just NOT A REAL NAME FOR A PLACE, and it has really creepy, weird text on its message boards in place of the usual papers and kids drawings (one strip that caught my eye, rendered in stark black-on-yellow font, simply reads ‘PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY’). There’s a supermarket that just seems like a giant, sprawling liminal space devoid of people. Characters from The Pink Opaque show-within-a-film get referenced in places that have nothing to do with the show. Daytime, though it never vanishes altogether, seems to become less and less frequent as though the characters are sinking into the deepening night of impending death. Characters who should be key to the protagonists formative years have no dialogue at all, as though they’re just set dressing in a shared delusion. The lore of The Pink Opaque shifts, so that the characters memories cease to align with the show itself, just (it seems) to fuck with them. And, creepiest of all, Owen has to continually narrate his own life straight to camera, like he might forget who and what he is and come unmoored from reality if he doesn’t constantly tell the story. As the clues stack up and the evidence becomes more and more incontrovertible, the realisation slowly dawns: this is not madness. This is not too mixed-up kids bonding over a crappy horror show on TV. This is the story of a person condemned to a slow, humiliating false life by a vengeful cosmic entity while their real body dies in a freshly-dug grave on another level of reality. In that context, the existence of the show The Pink Opaque, is their oxygen-deprived brain trying to warn them to get up! GET UP NOW! YOU ARE DYING! GET UP! And that’s genuinely terrifying. “What if reality isn’t reality?” is already one of the most disturbing questions you can ask yourself. Add to that the questions of “Who is perpetrating reality against you?”, “Why are they doing?” and “What if the real me is dying while this happens?” and you’ve got some pure, solipsistic, philosophical nightmare fuel to keep you up at night!

The gender dysphoria interpretation, in contrast, is probably the intended interpretation, but if you focus too much on that, it makes the whole thing feel a bit, well… silly. Don’t get me wrong. I’m sure gender dysphoria is very, very unpleasant. I’m sure being trapped in the wrong body and not knowing how to express the all-pervading feeling of wrongness is one of the most traumatic things a human being can go through. However, none of the trans people I know in real life have ever collapsed onto the floor in their place of work to scream “I’M LITERALLY DYING RIGHT NOW!” (although my sort-of-adopted trans daughter did once call me after a night of heavy drinking to claim “I’m sober now! I’m just putting these skittles back in their packet!” like it was the dexterity-challenge of the century and somehow proved something. That has nothing to do with this review, I just thought it was funny and that you’d like to know it happened). Nor, to the best of my knowledge, has burying oneself alive and popping back up out of the dirt like a jack-in-the-box ever been considered a useful, therapeutic part of the gender reassignment process. Meanwhile, Owen’s life isn’t just a bit constricting and mediocre, it’s downright oppressive, devoid of even the most fleeting moments of joy, and his only meaningful emotional connection is with someone who fucks off for a decade at a time and reappears claiming to have been living inside a TV show. Nobody could be that miserable all the time, even if they tried. Think about how long human beings live: the number of years and the number of days in each year and the number of hours in each day and the number of minutes in each hour. At the very least, at some point in all that, you’d accidentally catch a Monty Python rerun or see a bird fly into a window and then try and strut off like nothing happened and then… Whoops! You’re laughing like a fucking idiot and your perfect record of being resolutely unhappy is completely fucking ruined, you loser. My point is that, as a metaphor, I Saw the TV Glow feels a little hammy: like an actor beating his chest and wailing to express grief, possibly before committing fake-sepuku with a very obviously cardboard knife. But if you forget it’s a metaphor and remember that Owen’s life is so unremittingly miserable because it was created to be unremittingly miserable by a cosmic entity of terrifying malevolence and power, suddenly it all makes sense… and scares you badly enough to keep you up all night worrying that maybe we’re all trapped by Mr. Melancholy… or Prime Minister Rishi Sunak as we call him here in the dystopian wasteland that used to be Great Britain.

Anyway, I recommend I Saw the TV Glow. It’s stylish, weird, quite clever (though not as clever as it clearly thinks it is) and, frankly, some of the visuals have to be seen to be believed (the monster of the week made of melting ice-cream, for example, is the kind of thing that you’d normally have to neck quite a lot of absinth to see, but the film-makers have brought it to life here so that you don’t have to and, consequently, your liver won’t start to hate you like an abused spouse).

[trans-advice]

Hi, I’m not trans myself but I have a trans friend who’s in a situation.

Warning for Suicide mentions and depression

I’m gonna use they/them for them even though those aren’t their pronouns because, well, you’ll see.

So I’ve know them for about 6 years now and they’re a few years older than me. In January of this year they came out to me and some other friends as a trans girl. They’ve apparently known they were trans for a good long while and were only out to close friends.

It became clear that they had depression when they had several venting sessions in discord servers that turned into talking them down from suicide and or self harm.

The friend group they came out to me through kinda fell apart which was definitely stressful for them and me and everyone involved but they’re the one I was life/death worried about.

I also found out that their mom is supportive but their dad isn’t. Well recently they let me and other friends know that if they go forward with transitioning (theyre 18 now) their dad will leave.

They’ve decided to “not be trans” so as to not split up their family. No transition, not socially or medically. They said “[chosen name] is dead” , they’re just gonna be their deadname now. They said they’ve masked for 18 years, they can keep going. Obviously I don’t want this for them because I want them to be happy but they don’t think they deserve to be happy.

But logistically I don’t know what to tell them. They don’t want their dad to leave because he’s still their dad and their mom would be unhappy and I just don’t know what to tell them.

The unsupportive ness of their dad is obviously a sizable contributor to their depression and suicidal thoughts. I don’t want to talk them out of suicide again. I want them to not have to be talked out of it because I want them to not even consider it. It’s taking a toll on me and I’m not a professional, I’m just a kid.

Advice? Please?

To my friend if they’re reading this because it will be obvious I’m talking about them: Hi! I hope you don’t mind I sent this. <3

Call trans lifeline: they're more trained they don't call the cops on anyone, and we're not professionals here either.

Seek help from someone trained in dealing with domestic violence! Your friend is an abusive family & needs an escape plan. -- Transition can wait, they need to get out & or distance for their safety, they are in danger. (Especially considering how the political situation is developing.)

They're in an abusive family. I obviously don't know everything, but my suggestion is that if your friend is able to get out of the house away from their family, then do that as much as possible because having autonomy will obviously support bodily autonomy.

When I mention resources for adults, my hope is that it will click that life goes on, and recovery from abusive families is something that is ongoing into adulthood. I'm hoping they & you survive into adulthood. AA & al-anon tend to be carceral with philosophies of "rock bottom" involving "white coats, blue coats, black coats", but still.

Like the reality of potential of divorce happening doesn't just happen due to what your describing. Like there's probably a bunch of other built up things, and it's going to become a "stepping on eggshells" situation. -- The other factor with divorce that needs to be looked out for is property since divorce procedures are also about divvying up the property held by the couple. Of course, couples can stay married but separate because they can't afford to divorce, but like, I feel like that might help with some grounding.

Parent is a verb/role not a noun/body. "Love is an action, not simply a feeling." -- bell hooks. If the father's abusive then he's an abuser instead of a father. There might need to be grief over losing their father, but the father is already lost as of now, it's just a matter of whether the father comes back (as in stops being an abuser, makes amends, etc) or dies abusive. Look up familial rejection, look up resources for adult children of abusive parents etc.

Grief is the feeling one has when the brain's mental maps (such as knowing where access to supportive people such as a father), has to adapt to something no longer being there. Grieving is feeling you have with that. Grief will always be there. Grieving can become "less" with time because you learn how to better adapt to that stress.

Transition is separate from gender identity. Basically your friend is grieving over their father. -- The problem to this whole reasoning of going back in the closet/grave (which I once had to reckon with the fact that I had basically buried my inner children, and it was brutal)... is that the father's body is still above ground & free, & he's abusive, and a threat to your friend's & your friend's family's safety. The rest of the family would still be in danger regardless.

So my advice, in general, would be for your friend to get out of that abusive family, live somewhere else, etc, as much as possible.

Y'all are kids, I hope y'all survive childhood, and if any of y'all get further harmed I want y'all to remember that: the harm was not self-inflicted, that the adults around y'all hurt y'all.

Since y'all are kids y'all also qualify for the Trevor project, but be careful with them because all 988 providers will call the cops if "imminent harm" is believed to be near.

Good Luck, Peace & Love,

Eve

[liverbiver9]

Act Two Notes: 後悔莫及 (Too Late for Regrets)

On AO3

Relationships: Jiāng Yànlí & Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn; Jiang Yanli/Original Character; Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn & Wēn Níng | Wēn Qiónglín & Wēn Qíng; Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxian

Characters: Jiāng Yànlí; Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn; Original Characters; Wēn Níng | Wēn Qiónglín; Wēn Qíng (Módào Zǔshī); Wēn Níng | Wēn Qiónglín and Wēn Qíng's Mother; Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī

Additional Tags: Time Travel Fix-It; Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence; Jiāng Yànlí-centric; POV Jiāng Yànlí; Genderqueer Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn; Trans Male Character; Kid Fic

Hello!

TBH I considered posting this fic here but I truly can't be bothered to figure out how to put all the links and everything so I'll just post the whole fic once it's finished on AO3. In the meantime, I have literally So Much to say about this fic because it's been rotting my brain for weeks now, and there's only so much I can fit in the author's notes, so here we are!

DON'T READ PAST HERE IF YOU DON'T WANT SPOILERS

So, act two:

I have SOO much to say about this chapter and I’ll try to go chronological:

I was very careful with how I presented Jiang Yanli here. On one hand, to get the ending I wanted, she needs to literally stage a coup all by herself (at first). On the other, I didn’t want to fall into the same pit so many authors do when trying to bring power to female characters, which is make them girl boss.

I don’t think Jiang Yanli would ever try and build her martial skills, as we get in the text that she had little interest in it. As cool as it sounds, she wouldn’t do such a thing as wield a sword or Zidian unless pushed to great lengths. This fic has her using cooking as a way of cultivation, and I became obsessed with the idea. I did my best to veer away from copying it and instead adding my own twists, which is why I leaned into traditional Chinese medicine, specifically food therapy.

WEI YING WITH SAILORMOON BUNS AND RED BOWS!!!!!!! Pls I’m obsessed 😭😭😭😭 his ponytail is cute and all but I just love the image of him with cute, more feminine hair styles bc he would look SO GOOD! Imagine Lan Zhan’s reaction…

I added the bits about Wei Ying’s tantrums because I wanted him to be a kid, something I don’t think he was ever allowed to be, hence the playful, childish mannerisms he keeps up well into adulthood. “Xianxian is three” is adorable and I love that inside joke with his shijie, but it has some really sad implications. I think Wei Ying was forced to grow up too fast and too early, and that kind of trauma Fucks You Up. Hence, he deserved to have a meltdown once he felt safe.

Wen Ning and Wei Ying being best friends and then siblings? It’s just what they deserve!! They’re so cute

OOOHHHHH BOY I was so excited to finally introduce Cai Yiben!!! This character really grew on me. When I originally had the idea, I was just going to have Wei Ying be trans/genderqueer and let Jiang Yanli have a nice cottagecore-esque Lesbian dream life, but I thought 'You know what? No, she deserves a hot transmasc to rock her world,' and I believe I made the right decision.

Jiang Yanli realizes her feelings for Cai Yiben so late because of comphet, but as a commenter said it could also be read as her finding him more attractive (NOT in a fetish way) once he came out as trans, because trans people are HOT.

Next chapter is a short interlude focusing on Cai Yiben, so stay tuned!

[psychoblush]

Will add that minors deserve to be treated with dignity and respect and autonomy. 16 year olds are allowed to drive, 14 year olds are allowed to have jobs in many places. If a minor wants to begin some aspect of medical transition, especially when it’s enormously clear that it will markedly improve their mental and physical well-being, we should support them in doing so.

It behooves one to be able to accept that transness and queerness is not something to be gated behind adulthood in the way things like using substances, viewing porn, or buying a firearm are. Queer and trans people deserve the chance to exist formatively in their bodies in the way they see themselves. The mental damage of such dysphoria and incongruities can often be unchangeable, which people don’t realize.

By focusing the discussion on how minors rarely if ever get medical affirming surgical care, it construes trans identity as being something that is inherently adult, which IMO inadvertently leans heavily into aspects of culture war rhetoric that our very existence is sexually provocative and perverse. Adult, as it were. Something not for children to see - hence the conservative fixation at “children at pride” and “kids at drag races”.

Just as minors should be allowed to have unrestricted access to contraceptives, sexual education, and abortion, the degree of access that minors have to affirmative healthcare shouldn’t be legislated upon by governing bodies. Laws and regulating directives hardly cover the breadth and diversity of trans existence. I know 17 year olds who have transitioned legally, medically, and socially, and a myriad of trans folks who are still seeking those stages of transition and would have loved to have the chance to transition younger. I know trans people who transitioned younger who have had more positive relationships with their bodies, identities, and sexualities than those who have had to “relearn” what it means to exist in their body because of a late transition.

I think the culture wars rhetoric on transition is often rooted in the narrative of the grotesque. It focuses on the idea of a distinctly draconian, negative, or otherwise repulsive idea of transition that is designed to revolt. This idea is bullshit and harmful: a lot of us get wisdom teeth surgery and that’s equally grotesque, painful, inconvenient, and gross - hell I got wisdom teeth surgery at 16. Surgeries are *life-saving*, having trans care is scientifically documented to be something that *saves trans kids lives*.

Also why the fuck are transphobes so fixated on minors’ bodies? Like if it grosses you out, don’t think about it! There is nothing inherently gross, violative, grotesque, sexual, or adult about being trans and transitioning. And I’m sick of people acting like that’s the case, that our existence is a dangerous phenomenon that is hell-bent on indoctrinate children. You know what institution is that? Evangelical Christianity. The insistence that trans people disclose our genitals to our fucking teachers. The inability to discuss openly people’s sexual identities, experiences, and bodies. You know what prevents sexual abuse? Children having the vocabulary to discuss discomfort, actions, and their bodies in relation to their own identities. You know what does prevent sexual abuse? Comprehensive sex education, a holistic definition of sexual consent, and adults around them that are tolerant, open-minded, validating, and supportive individuals.

Anti-trans-ness is anti-science. The groomer narrative is anti-science. I’m sick of this shit. It’s getting people killed and I’m sick of it.

Pronouns are words used to refer to yourself and others. I, We, You, Your, He, She, They, You're, Theirs, His, It, Herself etc are ALL pronouns, it's very hard to speak English without using them. Singular They/Them has been used for centuries. The word "You" used to only be used for groups, see how language evolves.

Cis and Trans are Adjectives which are describing words. Cis is not a slur or a pronoun. Cis is a Latin prefix that means "On the same side of" whereas Trans means "On the other side of."

Puberty Blockers were first created in the 80s to stop children from starting puberty too early. Children can get their period as early as 7 years old and a child shouldn't have to go through that. The effects are completely reversible, all the child has to do is stop taking them whenever they're ready and they'll start their puberty again. You only have a problem with puberty blockers when Trans kids use them.

No doctor is performing gender affirming surgeries on under age children, there's so much that you have to do before even being approved for top or bottom surgery (or any kind of gender affirming surgery), it's also very expensive, none of this would ever be performed on a child.

Drag Queens reading stories to children or dancing for them isn't any different than hiring a professional to dress up for your child's birthday party or going to Disney World where everyone is dressed up and playing characters. There is absolutely nothing inappropriate about Drag Queen story time. Drag Queens wear far more clothing than literally any of us. If you're fine with taking your child to Hooters or to a sports game with cheerleaders but you have a problem with Drag Queens... You sexualize Queer people and say it's inappropriate for us to be around children yet you have no problem with over-sexualizing women if it's for your entertainment and you have no problem with your child seeing it.

[againwiththeturtles]

I love that each book of Infinity Train is so rooted in the ages of the protagonists. So much so that it’s almost WHAT the stories are about. Tulip has to learn how to cope with her parents’ divorce and how to ask for help, and 13 or so is a reasonable age to have your eyes opened to all the family BS that used to fly over your head. When you’re 15, you have to assert your personhood. Remind adults and your peers that you deserve respect and autonomy, though it went even deeper for Lake, since they had to directly defy the system (transcoding who? realizing that you’re trans can happen at any time, but sexuality and learning adult gender presentation tend to be a theme of teenagehood). Then Grace and Simon, more than any other protagonists, are forced to look back on their childhood and make some difficult judgements about it. Being an older teen is about biting off more than you can chew and realizing that you're still a kid, because you've never had to take responsibility like this and fuck it's scary. And then Min-Gi and Ryan are on the verge of adulthood. Do you chase your dreams and optimism, or do you follow the path of least resistance? And really, it's hard to even know which path is which. Who are you, now that you get to be your own person, and do you want to discover it alone? Really, I think those last 2 questions apply to every season, and every protagonist.

[tobi-smp]

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I'm really glad to see these kinds of responses, because they're exactly right. sometimes people will use privileged groups as a scapegoat for their bigotry (hiding ableism behind criticizing men, hiding misogyny behind criticizing white women), but more often you'll see people using these groups (or these individuals) as a scapegoat for otherwise justified anger.

it's so much Easier to clown on This Guy than it is to change the system that controls your entire society. it's so much Easier to seek that catharsis from a person that you can exert control over, whether or not you Should or they deserve it.

though I'd Also like to add a little more nuance to the situation as well:

while it's Absolutely true that men are often afforded privileges that women aren't, it's Also true that there are many situations where they Aren't.

the white kid with the money and supportive home environment to get away with whatever he wants and the traditional beauty necessary to make him "quirky" instead of weird can get away without masking in a way that women often can't.

but the black kid can't afford to do the same thing. the black kid is annoying or Worse, scary for traits that the white kid can get away with. for traits that white Women can get away with. it's life threatening for a black man to be Different.

and trans men often Are those "women" who can't get away without masking. seen as exactly the same for that foundational portion of their lives, following them into adulthood as they transition and often long after (in the form of transphobia, in the form of the kind of trauma that being raised under ableism can cause).

men of color, queer men, disabled men, impoverished men, abused men, Oppressed Men.

(moreover, trans women Aren't men, but terfs target them in part by painting them as dangerous privileged men trying to oppress and hurt women.)

people like to see privileged groups as a monolith and speak as if every individual in group A will always have it better than every individual in group B. but at the end of the day it shuts out the experiences of oppressed people. it gives people an excuse not to show compassion to a group of oppressed people by painting them As privileged. and most importantly, it's those oppressed men that are used As a scapegoat, because it's exactly their oppression that makes them reachable To Be Hurt.

it's those oppressed groups that have their status as men (or as being perceived as men) used as a weapon to justify abuse being hurled at them in place of the privileged that sit too high in their ivory tower to ever be touched.

and it's not any one joke post or essay that throws these people under the bus that reinforces this issue, it's All Of It in tandem.

men should be aware of their privilege, but so should everyone else. you can't decide that an entire kind of person is The Privileged Group and treat them all as a monolith without, eventually, contributing to oppression yourself.

people will be like “[describes a neurodivergent trait without actually calling it that] isn’t this thing men do so stupid? all the ladies in the replies know what I’m talking about #feminism”

[elierlick]

10 years on hormones! As someone who transitioned as a teen, here’s 10 things I’ve learned: 

1. Listen to trans youth and respect their needs. 

2. If your trans child asks to medically transition, let them. If they don’t, they’re just as trans and deserve the same amount of respect. 

3. Ignore the haters. There are a lot of them and not worth your time. 

4. I still see the same debates about allowing minors to transition as I did 17 years ago. These arguments will change over time and we will win. 

5. I wouldn’t be alive if I wasn’t able to transition before adulthood. The same can be said for many other trans youth. 

6. Building community is the most important thing any trans kid can do. 

7. Transition is a blessing, not a curse. It may be hard but it means living in a more sincere way. 

8. Give your kids agency. They can make their own medical decisions. 

9. Don’t listen to JK Rowling. Writing a children’s book isn’t the same as having firsthand experience with trans kids. She’s a concern troll and doesn’t deserve your attention. 

10. Finally, things don’t simply get better. Trans people fight hard to make them better. Trans youth, in particular, aren’t just our future: they’re leading our movements today.

[autisticlenaluthor]

Not in the cancer au, do you hc any supergirl characters as having medical trauma?

lena for a few reasons and not just because I'm projecting okay so

growing up with the luthor's it's unlikely any of lena's illnesses or injuries would be taken seriously.

she has a fever of 101 and has been vomiting all night? well, she has a test the next morning so she needs to go to school. she can suck it up until the weekend. her academic and social standing would always come before her health in Lillian's-- no matter what.

that sort of repetition (being sick as a kid, told she's fine, forced to push through) would so easily transfer into adulthood. like-- do you see lena as EVER taking ibuprofen for period cramps? no? probably because lena is the type of person to think that if the pain isn't absolutely debilitating than it isn't actually painful and she isn't worthy of feeling uncomfortable.

when it comes to medical trauma in an actual hospital/setting-- I think there would be a lot there too.

in her childhood/teen years, if it got to the point where lena had to be taken to the ER, there's no way Lillian would let her get off easy about it. hey'd make her feel awful-- like she's derailing the family or making something out of nothing. i can imagine her being told things like "we're going to go and all of us will be exposed to -insert illness- from all those kids in the waiting room" or "I can't believe you've dragged us all into this when you're clearly fine". i can also see lillian and lionel complaining to each other about the whole thing right in front of lena-- inadvertently making her wonder if she's really deserving of medical attention

the luthors would also likely downplay lena's symptoms to the doctors too. so even if there iswassomething truly wrong it won't matter because all the doctor would hear is lillian going off about lena being a pathological liar with a far too active imagination.

fast forward to adulthoood, any time lena is sick and needs medical attention she'll convince herself she's just being dramatic and that she's inconveniencing those around her by seeking help (and that she doesn't really need help, she's just doing it for attention)

there's also a huge link between PTSD and chronic illness !! specifically untreated childhood trauma manifesting in physical symptoms as the brains way of screaming "hey something is wrong, if you keep ignoring this I'm just going to fuck up every other one of your organs"

if you combine lena's relationship to being sick/having to see a doctor and all the inevitable gaslighting and manipulation that would occur when seeing a doctor for illnesses manifesting from PTSD, she would inevitably have some sort of medical trauma.

like lena is a woman in her mid 20s-- right off the bat, no doctor is gonna give a shit about what she has to say or if she's in pain. that paired with any mental health problems or past trauma, it just adds from there.

i think it's plausible for any of the supergirl characters to have medical trauma just because of how shitty the system is. lena just comes to mind because she's the most obviously already traumatized and trauma causes your body to get fucked up. but now that I'm thinking about it I feel like nia would also have a ton just from existing as a trans person

[sa2chaogarden]

i know i joke about how it took me a couple years combined with making two fleshed out characters who are transmasc to figure out i was transmasc. i know im the projection king but ive been doing a little introspection lately and wanted to write out my thoughts so hey feel free to read

wheatley I’m so sorry you got named as a joke years ago and it stuck for this long because whoops…

odds are, I treat wheats how i would treat my own past self if i had also figured out gender stuff in my early teens. congrats dude, you get a family that supports you 100% in regards to sexuality and gender also your needs are met they best they can be in regards to your autism. wheats exists in a world where any societal factor I had to repress in my teens, he is allowed to express without question. the people around him love him for who he is. his problems do not come from gender, sexuality, and neurotypical expectations…at least not directly. he still lives in a capitalistic society, but that’s not the point I’m getting at here. like if I was allowed to explore who I was more other than the rigid catholic upbringing I had and was not reprimanded and forced to mask and repress neurodivergent traits, wheats represents a sort of alternate timeline of myself.

yes so many factors are also different, but at this point I feel like he exists as a extension of my younger self, something that could have been if a lot of factors were different. so I treat him with a lot of kindness but also give him character development appropriate for someone who is 16 and still navigating the world (and also the plot of the story he is in) at that age. he isn’t perfect, he has flaws of his own, he still has to deal with growing up, making friends, and high school nonsense.

I love all of my kid ocs equality and each one gets their own sprinkles of self love through projection, but wheats is pretty special for this reason. he was the first step for a couple of my own self discoveries and creative processes so he has a special bread shaped place in my heart.

now matty…

hey, maybe making a taller, transmasc, recolor of yourself to roleplay as has consequences. look, if I had the option to slice my tits off for free and take a potion that makes me taller, gets rid of my hips, and deepens my voice over the span of 24 hours I fucking would. matty wasn’t just me getting the chance to play dnd for the first time and be a funny cursed pirate man once a week. no, I also got to try being a guy for a couple years before realizing that the transmasculine character i was rping was really comfy. from the very start he was someone everyone poked fun at because he really is just some guy in a wacky situation. all the teasing was out of fondness and funny enough, matty helped me realize I was masc. turns out I was also just some guy.

but this lucky son of a shit also has family that knows he’s a big gay trans idiot and isn’t all that neurotypical as well, and I get to be his voice lmao. I only talk mean about him because he’s just so easy to make fun of. I’m so easy to make fun of! but I do it out of love! out of fondness! he doesn’t deserve anything bad or horrible! just suffer the consequences of his actions. all the goofy stupid things that come to bite us both in the ass…I love that shit. I see my own flaws that I’ve learned from, project them onto mattheu and have him learn from them but through his own story.

matty is me if i lived without anxiety or shame of who I was coming into adulthood. more than just a gender presentation ideal, he’s a confidence role model in a way. he’s a pathetic wet cardboard box of a man, but he owns it.

there’s a whole lot more I could probably write but these two are characters are in a current wip and dnd campaign so, fear of spoilers if anyone ends up reading this bc I’m posting publicly

anyway, the middle of the venn diagram of wheats and matty is just me and i love it. love these two and how they helped me figure stuff out while also letting me flex my creative muscles. we’re all just a couple of guys

[asmollbisexual]

Hi hello welcome :)

This is my second legacy challenge I've made for the Sims 4 and I can tell this one is so much better.

Currently this is only a six gen legacy, as I haven't figured out what to do with the other characters I've made yet, so eventually I'll probably make a part two :)

Each generation is closely based on one of my OCs. I always play out their lives but I thought it'd be more fun to turn it into a legacy challenge. I know they have quite a few rules for each one so feel free to cut any out to make it more fun for you if you decide to play :)

Basic Rules

- No money / need cheats (within reason)

- No career / aspiration / skill cheats

- Any and all mods are allowed

- You can play on Normal lifespan, however I find it better to play on Long, that way you have more time to do the challenges and still play with the sims yk?

- Have fun :)

- Also the Sims don't have to have the same names as the character it's based off ofc

Generation One - Kobe Nakamura

Everything seemed impossible to you. Your parents were super strict and super old fashioned, so when your little sister came out as trans, they didn't treat her well. That was the breaking point for you. You ran away from home with your sister and tried to give her the life she deserved, even if it meant giving up on your own dreams... Whatever they were...

Traits : Hot-Headed | Paranoid | Loner

Aspiration : Super Parent

Careers : Salary Person | Tech Guru - eSport Gamer

Skills : Mixology | Video Gaming | Cooking

Challenges --

Create your teen founder and their younger (child) sibling and move to an apartment

Master the Cooking skill before becoming a YA

Play video games with your sibling all the time

Own a bar and drink every night after your sibling is asleep (the stress is too much)

Only have one best friend until Adulthood

Marry that Sim and have 2 kids (preferably twins)

Get to level four of the Salaryperson career, quit after you get married

After you quit your job, your spouse helped you discover your passion. Max the Tech Guru career - eSport Gamer branch

Be the best parent ever

Generation Two - Hanako Ito

You had possibly one of the best childhoods you could ever ask for. Your parents spent everything on you and your sibling, both their time and their money. One Christmas your parents bought you a camera, and by the end of the day your room was covered in photos. Yeah, this is your purpose in life. You have photos of your friends and family EVERYWHERE!

Oh, and you love parties.

Traits : Creative | Art Lover | Insider

Aspiration : Friend of the World

Career : Freelance - Photographer

Skills : Photography | Singing | Dancing

Challenges --

Complete the Friend of the World aspiration

Go to Karaoke with friends and/or family every Sunday

Have a photography studio for both work and personal use

Have your very own club for your close friends, gather every Saturday night to go dancing

Take photos with/of your family and friends, display them all around your home

Marry someone you meet at a Karaoke bar

Have at least one friend in every available world

Generation Three - Jakob Nagame

Ever since you were young you've been in love with cooking. Every night you would help your parent make dinner. Seeing the joy in people's faces as they ate your food gave you great satisfaction. So you decided from a very young age that you want to be a chef!

Traits : Foodie | Cheerful | Squeamish

Aspiration : Master Chef

Career : Culinary - Chef

Skills : Cooking | Gourmet Cooking | Baking

Challenges --

Go to university to study culinary

Master the Culinary career - Chef branch

Maintain a strong relationship with at least one Sim from university

Reach level 10 in the listed skills

Complete the Master Chef aspiration

Marry your childhood bestfriend

Have an outdoor winter wedding

After you get married, have at least 2 kids, adopt at least one

Own a restaurant

Generation Four - Ren Takahashi

Life wasn't the easiest for you, what, with being trans and trying to make it as an actor. Luckily, your parents were incredibly supportive, for both you dreams and being trans. You were very easy to get along with, and you just seem to make friends everywhere you go.

Traits : Romantic | Outgoing | Active

Aspiration : Master Actor

Career : Actor

Skills : Charisma | Acting | Bowling

Challenges --

Get max level in the Drama Club

Date at least four other actors/actresses

Marry a close friend

Go out drinking at least once every other week - always make a friend each time

Max the bowling skill, after having you have kids take them bowling often

Have 2 children

Generation Five - Hide Nishio

Music is your life. You can't live without it. You would sit alone in your room blasting music, and whenever you were with your friends you were always singing with them. You want to write your own songs. You want to be in a band with your friends. You want to live every stereotypical musician's life.

Traits : Music Lover | Party Animal | Bro

Aspirations : Serial Romantic | Musical Genius

Career : Fast Food Employee

Skills : Guitar | Juice Fizzing

Challenges --

Get at least level 2 in all music related skills

Reach level 10 of the guitar skill and make most of your money licencing your own songs

Get a high level in the Juice Fizzing skill - you like to make your own drinks at parties

Go to a bar or night club at least every Friday night

Date at least 10 sims

Woohoo with at least 15 Sims, in as many different locations as possible

Complete the Serial Romantic aspiration first

Make a club, this is your band

After completing the Serial Romantic aspiration, have a romance with all of your band mates (but don't date them). When you start dating your future spouse, ask your band mates to just be friends

After marriage, complete the Musical Genius aspiration

Generation Six - Hannah Jefferson

Unlike your parent, who loves people and all things loud, you just wanted to sit in a cozy conservatory and read... And practice witchcraft. What? It fascinates you. No one ever finds out though, not having friends helps keep it a secret. All your hobbies are typically done alone, and that suits you perfectly.

Traits : Bookworm | Socially Awkward | Maker

Aspirations : Spellcraft & Sorcery | Master Maker

Career : Freelance - Maker

Skills : Fabrication | Herbalism | Wellness | Knitting | Cross Stitch

Challenges --

Reach at least level 5 in Knitting and Cross Stitching skills

Max the Fabrication and Herbalism skills

Reach high level Wellness skill

Go on vacation to Granite Falls at least once a year

Compete the Master Maker aspiration as a YA

Before you marry attempt to complete the Spellcraft & Sorcery aspiration

Sell your candles, knitting, cross stitches on plopsy, then eventually in your own shop

Have a conservatory filled with plants, books, and wellness stuff

Have only one child, any more than that is too much socialising

If you try this challenge or like it please let me know!! :)

[somelazyassartist]

@mulletmarcy THANK YOU BUNNY,,,, PREPARE TO BE ANNOYED!!!

Okay so like,,,, Hallows is 70 (though in the body of a 90 year old due to some magic ghost bullshit that's a long story). Which like, is basically the Elven equivalent of a like, 18-19 year old kid. Like, old enough to do things on her own and about the same maturity level as Esvele, but certainly not an ADULT, ya know?? And yeah, she's "claimed" adulthood, as is Elven tradition, but she claimed it in her 30's, when most others claim it in their 100's- while she's legally an adult no sensible Elf would actually entrust her with the responsibility they would give to an Elf that claimed their adulthood in a more traditional manner. Kay and Vikki wouldn't even call her Hallows if they could see her at this age, they'd still be calling her Traki*.

(*Note: Elves have a VERY different naming convention than humans do, they're not being transphobic- hell, they're trans too! Elves have "child names" and "adult names", all child names are completely gender-neutral without exception, and all elves choose their own name when they claim adulthood, regardless of if they're cis or trans. Kay and Vikki calling her Traki would have nothing to do with gender since Elves have such a different concept of gender anyways, and more with saying "no matter how old you are, you're still my baby". This is not an uncommon practice either, many Elf parents still call their kids by their child names well past 100 years old as an affectionate- and sometimes maybe endearingly embarrassing- gesture.)

But yeah. Naming conventions aside, Hallows isn't just small height-wise, she's just small.

And in a way, that makes me happy when it comes to the Best Friends Force. Like, she's a broken little kid without a home that found a family that loves her, that can give her a sense of safety that she hasn't had in years. She's able to resume learning stuff, she can afford an education for the first time in her life, she could find a passion in alchemy and science instead of constantly worrying about how she's going to afford to eat today or where she's going to sleep that night. She's got stability, for the first time in years, what every little kid deserves.

But also I just feel so bad for her sometimes. Just thinking about how small she was when she ran away from home and how small she still is during the time she met the Best Friends Force.

She was only 35 when she left the Feywild, and she was homeschooled her whole time there. Elves have so long to be children and to learn about the world. While obviously she's able to read and write properly, she hasn't been taught a lot of things, was never shown how to live on her own because they assumed she wasn't going to have to for at least another 60 years. And even then the Feywild is just a lot different from the Material Plane anyways, a lot of what she did know couldn't be applied to her new home and had to be abandoned to start learning how to survive here. On top of that, she had to learn most of what she could from libraries and any books found during her travels, since she couldn't afford to go to a proper school and get a real education in this plane anyways.

Her first relationship was with someone around her age but much more mature than her (not that she realized the difference at the time- since Tia was the first Tiefling she ever met she wasn't aware that there's a HUGE maturity difference between a 35 year old Elf and a 35 year old Tiefling. And obviously Kay and Vikki didn't know either or they would have put a stop to their relationship much sooner instead of just citing it as a kid's enthusiastic first crush). And after she left the Feywild, that was the only true relationship experience she had to go off of until she started dating Esvele, which really left her with a damaged idea of what a relationship was supposed to be like. (Also I feel like I have to say this every time I post about Tiana or Sylvaire but I've seen the fuckin reading comprehension on this site so yeah just so y'all know: Tiana's a bad guy in the story, she does fucked up shit, as villains are known to do.)

But what I had been thinking of the most recently is her being a parent. Specifically when she first adopted Ciggus, since her other kids became a part of her life when she was older and more equipped to handle that responsibility. But like, Hallows was only 70. If we're talking in terms of maturity, she was only a little ways ahead of Ciggus, just enough that it makes a difference and she can still call him a kid compared to her. She was so worried about someone else growing up without a childhood that she continues to neglect her own need for having a childhood. If I'm being honest, I'm pretty sure Hallows feels like that's a lost cause for her, like she'll never be able to go back to being a kid so she just tries her best to make sure everyone else gets that chance to make up for it. She's still so young in her own right, and keeps pushing herself to act much older than she is and to take care of everyone since she never had anyone to take care of her for so long. As much as I love Hallows' kids, and as much as she herself loves them, you gotta admit, it's gotta be stressful for her sometimes. And that's not even taking into account the fact that none of her children- or her wife for that matter- are (full) Elves, which means that they all have a SIGNIFICANTLY shorter lifespan than Hallows does. Which, uh, yeah, is probably gonna not be great for Hallows' mental health. Just a guess. But, we're talking about Hallows' past here, we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

Okay like I could seriously go on for a lot longer but I've been typing this out for like two hours and if I don't stop myself now I never will so I'm gonna end this particular post right here though I am always open to being annoying and rambling about my OCs if anyone ever wants to send asks about them okay byeeeeeeeeee <3