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Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the world— but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need.
They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.
anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustín gómez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'
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I think a big reason why I find Cucuhalo so insane, yet so entertaining is that it's very valid, but the implications are absolutely terrifying, yet the way they actually are, is so comical it's absurd. It's a crack ship, but they are actually so insane, you can find so many things in their dynamic to pick apart and talk about.
First of all, no, I don't think it's romantic. Their dynamic is toxic as fuck, are you kidding me? But the inherent toxicity is what I find so entertaining because if you deconstruct the ship and analyze all the themes in the characters and the dynamic itself, you get a gold mine of symbolism about topics like loneliness and manipulation.
Because qBad and cucurucho have plenty of symbolism by themselves already. qBad is a fallen angel that fell from grace- from perfection, and Cucurucho is all about achieving perfection. Put them together, and you have this delicious dessert of sweet, sweet, venomous codependency.
On one hand, you have qBad who doesn't want to be alone- as we saw from his new friendship with Ollie, he will lie about everything just to keep a friend. No matter how bad Cucurucho is for him, he doesn't want the bear to go away because they are the only person keeping him company every day. Why would he want to lose that? He inches closer to Cucurucho every day and their relationship is more banter-like? They don't really like each other, but at the end of the day, they live under the same house and see each other every day.
Then you have Cucurucho who is most likely taking advantage of qbad's loneliness and desperation for company to gain control of the demon and manipulate him to his good will. That, coupled with qbad's recent amnesia, is a golden ticket that primarily benefits Cucurucho's goals and advances the Federation's brainwashing of the islanders.
Initially, Cucuhalo only sparked an interest in me because I was like "haha cucurucho x bad that's so absurd it's funny" then the more content they give us, the more I started taking it seriously and was like, wait, you can analyze so much symbolism from their dynamic. 0_0
Basically, Cucuhalo makes me insane, and I'm rattling the cages of my enclosure because I need more people to talk about this or else I'm going to explode-
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thinking about 4halo again and dying
they just. they used to be so sweet together. and then the election arc managed to genuinely turn them against each other (and bad is still affected by being caged in the museum) and i would NOT have been surprised if a rebellion had started within the next few weeks after their last fight and. they used to be friends and then they almost destroyed each other
and then the eggs went missing
and there are so many parallels between them, but one of the biggest parallels is how they're both protectors. they both protected the eggs (and, when he became president, forever extended that protection to the other islanders) but the eggs went missing and they had to put all of that aside. Forever was quicker to put it down than Bad was (it felt like only a very temporary truce, from Bad's end), but they put their problems on hold, because their eggs. were gone.
and another parallel. the destruction. both of them with their plans to cause ruin because then, maybe, theyll get their kids back. bad caused most of the grieving arc damage directly, and got aypierre and antoine to help him. he dug holes in the ground. he placed mines everywhere and leapt into them. he started the lavacasting process of the fed building (and was interrupted by admins, so he stopped, but philza and fit were still right to laugh at him lmaoo). he drilled a hole through the side of the federation office from a huge distance away. he has chosen to hurt his friends and himself to get the eggs back. whatever the cost.
forever destroyed the island. or he planned to destroy the island. or he was interrupted just before he destroyed the island or or or. I don't know. but it was big, and it was bad. bad enough that the feds had to step in and forcefully drug him, and kickstart the happy pills arc.
and the happy pills arc..... oughghghgh as fucking awful as it was for their characters to experience i genuinely truly think that it saved them from each other. when he was first told about forever being fucked up bad was still in the "i need to kick his butt" mindset, and was all ready for an excuse to kill forever. and then he saw forever. and the first proposal happened. and bad was angry and he was sad and upset and he was careful. forever tried to kill him. bad decided to save him. forever kept trying to marry him. forever kept taking the pills. forever was so scared of his own anger and all of the damage he could and would have caused to his family that he kept taking drugs that kept him so out of his mind he hallucinated his son was just sleeping safely at his house.
and they both tried to kill each other. and they both failed.
and bad showed phil and cellbit (and tubbo) the item scanner that dapper discovered, which could destroy him, because nothing else was working. because they needed to save forever. because bad was reminded by then that forever was a victim of the federation instead of just a mouthpiece for it. and then when forever woke up he saw bad, suffering, and so excited to see him awake.
and now they're here on opposite sides again with forever projecting his protection urges onto the fed worker in bad's basement and bad frustrated that he isn't being believed and his evil plans of giving ron lemons apology brownies is being interrupted and. look at them. soft "i hate you" and the appreciation room and bad's quiet heartbreak when he learned about forever being missing and the "i miss you" book bad got mad at because it asked him not to torture fed workers. does anyone hear me im so ill about them. do you understand they care about each other so much and the happy pills arc reminded them of that. forever realized bad is colourblind and bad assumed forever was poisoning him and then forever helped bad cheat on another colourblindness test and forever was giving bad flowers and bad was accepting them and accepted that he was colourblind despite his previously constant denial and! i don't know if im being comprehensible and i dont really care i will be honest i just need you to know i am frothing at the mouth like a rabid little beast. they are a TRAGEDY of miscommunication and external pressure but they love so so much. platonic or romantic or qpp they CARE and it tears me to shreds
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Munto, small HC
Quick sketch...
The night all of the Heavenly Realm celebrated the return of the cycle of Akuto, Munto slipped away from the celebrations
Yumemi found him in his throne room, standing in darkness, gazing out at the twinkling lights and fireworks (precious Akuto being spent, an unthinkable extravagance just a few days before) in the distance of the ongoing celebrations
He looks tired but his eyes soften as she steps over to him. She can tell that he doesn’t wish to talk, and truth be told, neither did she
They stand together in comfortable silence for a while, before she glances up at him and sees tears spilling silently down his cheeks
Nearly all his life, he had been walking a tightrope of despair
Teetering between having to be strong for his people, honoring his parents by bearing the duty he had been born to shoulder, fulfilling his destiny as the one to save them all…
All the while frustrated by his weakness, hiding his powerlessness behind a veneer of authority, praying that somehow, some way, he wouldn’t fail his people, his loved ones, his parents.
Things were far from over, there were a million things left to do
But for now, he could finally have a moment of respite
True rest, without imminent destruction snapping at his heels
Yumemi has seen his memories, felt his fears as her own
She hesitates before reaching out and sliding her hand into his
Slowly, almost as though he were in a trance, he turned his head to look at her
Before gradually taking her into his arms and burying his face in her hair
She can feel wetness on her scalp
All of a sudden, he sags onto her as complete exhaustion overtakes him, his full weight bearing down on her petite form
She startles and calls his name in alarm
He manages to rouse slightly, slurring reassurances as she helps him to his throne
She's about to pull away, promising to find help, but he grips her wrist and effortlessly hauls her into his lap
She lets out a squeak, but he simply cradles her in his arms and lets his cheek lay against the top of her head, breathing her in
"... Stay. Just... stay."
It was more plea than request
She's rigid in his arms for a moment, then relaxes cautiously.
"... Okay."
Munto promptly blacks out into a long, dreamless sleep, into which Yumemi follows him not long after
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