#to reach and accomplish

[diomedrian]

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[dykedvonte]

Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.

We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.

Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.

He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?

I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

I have all of these extended thoughts on my head about the amazing way themes and character relationships are handled in Iruma-kun and the inclusion of queerness and the handling of the coming of age narrative in this shonen manga/anime

And every time all that comes out when I'm reccing it is "You should watch/read it"

Do it. Go watch/read Mairimashita! Iruma-kun/Welcome to Demon School Iruma-kun

Please.

[stuckinapril]

i literally have the bestest friends ever. like of all time

[transingthoseformers]

But what if everything in Earthspark Tarantulas's plan has been working out though

What if he's living part time (or most of the time?) as a human holoform right now

How does he feel about it?

Does his human disguise feel foreign or fake, or does it feel like merely an extension of him?

What if I pull a megamind and make him fall in love with a human in his holoform

[grassoftunnel]

Choice Theft in the second degree, with utter disrespect

“To take the choice of another … to forget their concrete reality, to abstract them, to forget that you are a node in a matrix, that actions have consequences. We must not take the choice of another being. ”

from Perdido Street Station by China Miéville

The way Genji, Kumasawa, and Nanjo constantly refer to the rape as being like…The One Sin that Kinzo ever did in regards to Beatrice 2. As though they weren’t there actively helping him to raise her in isolation, imprisonment, lying to her about the world, about herself. As if that’s not also a nightmarish abusive situation already, just on it’s own. We have so little of Beatrice 2, but it’s an undeniable fact that she was a human utterly devoid of agency in every single way.. They stole from her even the choice to be angry or upset or aware about what was happening to her, what had happened to her. Of the choice to be a human and not a witch. Of the choice to be a daughter and not a wife. Genji’s half-truth phrasings during the games too when dodging confirmation from the siblings about whether Kinzo had a child with his mistress are especially disgusting. Since he’s not just outright lying like Nanjo, but denying Beatrice 2’s personhood as an individual, and slyly using Kinzo’s grooming logic that she was not really herself, but someone else (her mother), even if he did genuinely feel bad for her. I’m sure Genji, Kumasawa, and Nanjo contented themselves by thinking that a bird in a cage doesn’t long for the outside. But that’s a theft in itself. And this choice theft is only continued with Sayo. Robbed of her own unsurgically-altered body. Robbed of the context of her life. Robbed of the ability to make choices based on those two things. And then in telling her, far too late, she is robbed of the mundane, uncomplicated love that had existed in her heart for Battler. Robbed of a lineage not tainted by the most horrific abuse. Robbed even of the ability to look at her own father, at the people who raised her, with respect. Like…HELL IS NOT HOT ENOUGH!!!!

[havocmadden]

so you're just... admitting you wrote a bad movie on PURPOSE?????? i am going to hunt everyone involved in this film's production for SPORT. i am going to buy chekov's gun and start shooting it AT THEIR HEADS.

[ruthytwoshakes]

my one and only Tadc post (this is a lie)

I was picked up by the armpits and buckled into the car seat of the clown car know as the digital circus kicking and screaming. I like the lesbians though they’re cool.

[heartbeatbookclub]

FINALLY

[lonestardust]

carlos' eyes in the meeting room........ carlos' eyes at the hospital..... at the IC room..... his guts are boiling with hot rage!!! this very stubborn hope. it's in the clench of his jaw since the funeral. the lump in his throat that he swallows back every time because that's how the gut-wrenching vestige of murder that hasn't received its justice yet feels like."i see it now. the eyes.." because that's the glimpse of the resolute unswerving gabriel in him that echos 'if there are tears to weep we do it when the time comes, not before'. you grief but you don't get defeated when there is still work to do in order to rest in that grief. and GODDD carlos is so righteously resolved about getting there. i want him so so bad to solve the case. finally bring that retribution and avenge his family and himself. he's been in the waxing and waning throes for too long he only deserves the purgation and finality of it more than anything!!!!!

because no way all of this relentless endeavour and sharp stubborn wit would culminate to anything but cracking it. even storytelling wise that would be disheartening not to bring it to its desired ends. because imagine. all this time carlos was so right about the rangers from the start. then he looped in. was kept so close under their wing. and then he now realises that he wasn't really truly '''stuck''' but he was trapped and misled instead and it's all tumbling down now over their heads and he's seeing through the cracks. finally the darkness makes sense and he can move in action through the pinnacle and into the resolution!!!

[worfsbarmitzvah]

honestly. at no point since i first became aware of politics have i ever felt excited for the future of america. i feel excited now

[standardpoliticalsideblog]

i actually find it kinda funny how for a while tumblr went through a phase of understanding that guilt-tripping for reblogs is bad, and the practice never fully died out but it definitely went way down...and then everyone just forgot all about that and now literally every single post that is the slightest bit political or involves donations has like three different "i see you not reblogging this you selfish evil piece of shit who contributes nothing to human society how dare you not reblog this if you don't reblog this you are personally responsible for thousands of deaths"

[waywardsalt]

bc its been bouncing around in my head i think another little tiny grievance i had with totk is that i got to the end and just felt a sense of ‘well what the hell was that all for then’

[iristial]

FINISHED ALL THE COURSEWORK

And slept after staying awake for 36+ hours!

LIFE IS GOOD AGAIN

(Well, I still have stuff to do before the next semester but I'm so relieved I feel like I'm being held together with a single piece of sticky tape)

[pandasaurio-espacial]

Cult of the Lamb achievements on steam are crazy like:

1. Get your first follower <(˶ᵔᵕᵔ˶)>

2. Defeat God without getting hit (ง ◣_◢)ง

[simptasia]

once upon a time, my mum crawled into my bedroom drunk at 3 am, woke me up, squished my face in her hands, breathing scotch smell directly into my face holes and told me earnestly "my baby girl. my sweet beautiful girl. you could turn zachary quinto bi"