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i drive myself absolutely bananas, because the writing i'm most proud of? that i love even more than anything i've done for star wars (except maybe dha kar'ta) or any other fandom i've posted for in the decade and a half i've been writing? that i want to share more than anything? unfinished witcher fics. over 80,000 words spread over a few stories, not including the thousands of words of the quick notes/ideas i have for even more stories and i love them so much. but if i post them before they're finished i'm never gonna finish them, or at least that's what it feels like. i haven't worked on any of them in months, but have put dozens and dozens of hours into plotting and timeline-ing and researching. i want to share them and brag about them and collaborate on them, but also like. i'm definitely a star wars blogger. i follow like three witcher blogs and none of them are active anymore, and i don't particularly want to make a witcher blog. and the unfinished stories on my ao3 already give me so much anxiety
but it also just leaves me sittin here on my own vibrating out of my skin with no outlet
#delete later#cj rambles#i dunno y'all just#mutuals and long time followers know how much i love obi wan kenobi#now imagine i loved jaskier indescribably MORE than that#and i've made so many revisions of the beginnings n such when i've added or changed the lore or learned new things#so like ive also really fallen in love with making a work complete before posting so i don't have to retcon or just settle for old ideas#does that make sense?#but fuck i love these works of mine so much and sharing has been an intrinsic part of my writing and storytelling for so long that it's har#to keep it all to myself#but i have no fandom friends#blehh just really feelings the like toddler-level overhwelm of emotions about how much i love what i do and how i do it#but also hating how i do it
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the moment I heard elphaba's delivery of "there's a girl i know..." in i'm not that girl i knew i had to draw this comic, i strongly recommend listening to it while you read for the full experience!
this comic is a companion to this piece (which was inspired by glinda's delivery of the same line in the i'm not that girl reprise).
pages 1-4 are from elphie's pov, pages 5-8 are from glinda's.
prints of individual pages: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
flower meanings in order of appearance:
#wicked#gelphie#(girl who has so many thoughts about i'm not that girl)#even jonathan bailey said i'm not that girl is a queer anthem. if nobody gets me i know he does#had to hold myself back from doing an animatic to the entire song (i don't have time)#i don't usually work in b&w so i was a little nervous but i'm really proud of how this comic turned out :')#it was a labor of love of many many weeks drawing this in between work#updated with prints for all 8 individual pages since a few people asked♡#might compile it as a little pdf zine when i have time for anyone who wants to keep it in higher resolution to re-read it#elphaba#glinda#gelphie fanart#wicked fanart#wlw#sapphic#lesbian#wlw art#sapphic art#lesbian art#comic#artists on tumblr#glinda x elphaba#elphaba thropp#glinda upland#galinda upland#i'm not that girl#flower meanings#language of flowers
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"You never know, you could surprise us all in time. Who’ll ever know if it was you that caused the crime?"
(video lyrics under the cut)
"I heard a word that they paint mirrors on their face And soon forget that they reflect but don’t create.
I suggest that you address your appetite For to be seen to cast your beam across the night."
#hi. i churned this out in less than 3 days. it was a lot of fun ngl.#the song is 'bloom at night' by lump. the whole thing is good u should give it a listen. it is so vibes#funny how both my posted isat amvs end with loop at the favour tree. idk i just think theyre very picturesque#anyway uhm sorry in advance. i did put loop in the jar and shook it INCREDIBLY hard. i couldnt keep it all to myself#will i ever stop thinking about loop's struggle with identity and forced change and the loss of all they knew and loved? probably not#A6SE#2hats spoilers#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat loop#my art#my animations
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go loud
#YOU KNOW THE SCENE#camilla hect#tlt#the locked tomb#gideon the ninth#in all honesty i only wanted to draw camilla .........😭#but i also really wanted to set the mood... a lil greyscale... a lil bs'd perspective... way too many people... yanno how it is#pal got a little cleaned up bc hes integral but...#unforch i do not see myself finishing this piece bc of everyone involved... im weak and even roughing them was too hard 😭#i keep putting myself into situations i dont understand (perspective) and then giving up bc i cant finish it LOL#ah well. my beloved. maybe i will try to polish more at a later date and do her justice#fanart#art
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looking at next month's schedule and between the end of 7-12 and the wishing lantern event it's like
February is officially RIDDLE MONTH, brace yourselves to be absolutely blasted into ashes everybody
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#negai no lantern#gif warning#gifs that have memorized all 800+ rules and expect no less from you warning#sorry cater and azul i hope you have very happy birthdays but i'm going to actually explode#just laying on the floor and thinking about rapunzel-themed event feat. riddle#and ESPECIALLY right after we get his big dream sequence wherein he fistfights his deep-seated personal issues#and i'm STILL processing trey's dream and what it says about his friendship with riddle especially like#i'm#i just#okay hold on i gotta distract myself by looking at the other lantern boys#and their beautiful long flowing tresses that defy physics to blow dramatically behind them#whoever keeps putting jack in the shimmery sparkly delicate floaty chiffon events is my personal hero#his card is incredible. he looks like a perfume ad.#he wants us to know that you can live a rugged outdoorsy lifestyle and still have an undertone of delicate floral notes#god. everyone looks amazing this event is going to be amazing#and like...it probably isn't going to go too deep because silly event versus main story and all#but just the act of casting riddle as the center is still just so#like#i gotta go lay on the floor some more
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11/20
#big day for doomed yaoi enjoyers#(me)#i’m never ever doing this again i was screaming every minute coloring this i literally cannot do hard light#biggest case of “trust the process” i’ve ever experienced in my life#also i was gonna originally do a gun instead of knife to keep it canon but i quickly learned i can’t in fact draw guns#a knife is more symbolic anyway. stabbed in the back. yk#(trying to comfort myself that i can’t draw firearms even after eight years of art)#i remember playing this scene for the first time and actually breaking down at 2am bc that betrayal STUNG#i actually had no remorse for akechi after that 😭😭 i actually felt like a sadist for enjoying beating his ass in shidos palace#akechi as a character was specifically designed to make me go through all five stages of grief within a matter of minutes#absolute rollercoaster of emotions#ANYWAY IM FINALLY FREE TIME TO NOT DO ART FOR THE NEXT FOUR MONTHS 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼#persona 5 royal#persona 5#p5#p5r#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#goro akechi#akechi goro#shuake#akeshu#lotus draws
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THAT'S A LOTTA DAMAGE (emotional damage that is)
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
#undertale#deltarune#undertale fanart#deltarune fanart#comic#crossover#utdr#crossover comic#twin runes#twin runes comic#twin runes au#art#my art#susie deltarune#chara#you thought we were done with the trauma?#I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED#i had this idea of mind-reading parasites that take the form of the traditional comedy masks for a while now#originally they were more sack shaped#they were based on the bags of dirt in asgore's store#mainly because I wanted to call em “sad sacks”#but then I questioned myself why they should be here of all places#I then turned them into the kinda clamps that keep glass displays together and stable#because that is what the labyrinth is#it's the glass display in asgore's shop
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my artblock muse
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk yuji#ive been using what little energy i have at the end of a workday to chip away at this all week#i am TIRED of looking at it take it take it take it#i feel like im reusing poses and that my render is muddy but i am trying 2 convince myself im seeing things#except the poses part . yuuji rubbing sheepishly at his neck needs 2 stop i cant keep defaulting here#it doesnt matter how cute he is i need new material or i will get a bad grade in anime fanartist#im being dramatic fr the most part fgsdjj i dont hate this im just ready 2 move on#its not bad! yuuji 1 and 2 are my favourites. after 3 i burnt out#altho this new addition to yuujis hoodie collection is a banger i love giving yuuji all the fv merch that doesnt exist tht i wish i had#so 3 has that going for it i suppose#anyway long weekend god bless SURELY i can use my time 2 draw smth more substantial. surely.#<- coping
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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#fanfic#ao3#archive of our own#fandom things#tumblr things#i may have said this at some point#i'm sure i have#but whatever - just in case#i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics#but just if anyone is so inclined that's all#ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog#i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting#but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen#not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy#at least of fics bc i save everything#not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about#that i've made or done and only posted here#anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today#i have plans to stare into the void now
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It's still surprising to see people say that when they see the upcoming strike post I made that this is the first time they're hearing about it, especially because I've seen several posts now talking about the same strike.
That being said: regardless of what kind of blog you are, please spread the news about the genocide, the strikes, boycotts, etc.
Even if you are a small blog, spreading word allows for more people to know what's going on and also do their part in protests and strikes, and maybe even the right people will be able to do more than what you're able to do.
And reminder: there is an upcoming strike on February 18th-25th. Prepare accordingly, protest, boycott, call your reps, and spread the word so more people are aware.
#ceasefire now#free palestine#palestine#it still stuns me because i can count maybe 3 different posts myself included that has all the information about the strikes#and just this morning someone rb mine saying this is the first time theyre hearing of it#do you see why its important to keep talking?#i'm not going to apologize for suddenly posting this midway through clearing my likes. it's important#free gaza#gaza#congo#free congo
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Animation based on this gorgeous animatic that I kept rewatching for 2 months (and finally gave up) made by @wolfythewitch
#animation tag#I had no idea about the epic story#I did know plenty about it only because of the animatic artists and some others#But I dearly love the music itself creators behind it and all fan content that goes beyond imagination#epic the musical#I couldn't calm down before finish it and even then forgot to add some “shiny” on gold parts but bahhh#my hand is already burning too hard from this week#I keep rewatching some epic animatics like crazy#I keep rewatching a lot of animatics like crazy actually#I wish I had 10 clones of myself to animate them all
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i’m mad this is my most liked post right now so look at my cat instead lol

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edit (10/23/2024) now that the poll is over: Original version, with 10 questions, from April 2023 here
And, given that the original is from April 2023, that means I can very easily say:
No, this was not an ISAT reference!
Just because I use parentheses and 2nd person pov and love the same concepts of what a time loop can do to a person doesn't mean it's ISAT
(Yes, I like ISAT, the original poll is why I was recommended the game! But if you look at the original, you can see all the origins of the options to choose from, including what spurred me on with the moss option from the replies)
If I were going to make something for ISAT, I would never be so vague, you can simply look at my ao3 for proof of that
#egg speaks#writing#polls#my writing#egg writes#my polls#poetry#time loops#listen I want to run this again#time loop poll#<- check that tag on my blog for the original 10 option version lmao#unreality#you know I didn't think I'd get fed up with people making isat jokes about this#I thought it'd be like oh hey neat same hat#we both like the same game#but people keep going “oh this is JUST an ISAT reference”#as if it's not a genuine work of creativity I did myself. it feels a bit devaluing#“op you played isat” yes but that came after the original!!!!!#I KNOW it's not meant like that but I want people to engage in my work as its own thing. you can make jokes about similar media!!!#but this is it's own thing!!!!#I want people to like it for what it is. I want people to enjoy it outside of other media. I want it to stand on its own#I'm flattered someone said it was good enough that they think it could be narration from the game and read just as well!!!!#but like. idk. all the other medias popping up (pmmm. orv. higurashi. etc) aren't people calling it a /reference/#if I wanted it to be an ISAT reference I would have tagged it originally. I would have targeted it toward ISAT fans more intentionally.#I love fanworks but this was an ode to time loops alone. I wanted people to think. to have to CHOOSE. I wanted PARTICIPATION#time loops as a narrative and as horror and as a group activity via polls on tumblr. also s/o to the person who said 40 hr work week so tru
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One of my favorite parts about the writing of Howl's Moving Castle is how easy it is to write off all the things from our world at first as him just being a weird wizard™ (also thanks to bestie @jutenium for spotting this I wouldn't put it like that without you!!/pos). Sure, Sophie uses weird descriptions, but readers have every reason to believe them because of the way Howl is presented as a character. When Sophie says he wrote with a quill that doesn't need an ink, you wouldn't think it was actually a ballpoint pen, you would think Howl had just enchanted his quill so that it wouldn't need ink! When she adds that she can't make out a single word, you think he has matchingly terrible handwriting, but in fact Sophie has simply never seen a pen writing. When she sees the mysterious labels on his books, you think he's keeping a lot of obscure magical literature, but it's really just an encyclopedia and a guide like "Top 10 Rugby Tips." When Sophie notices the bottles in Howl's bathtub, you think they're some kind of magical jars where he keeps girl's hearts, but I'm almost certain that they're just 'Dove' and 'Head and Shoulders' that he's enhanced with his spells and put silly labels on. When you read Calicifer singing a song in a language Sophie doesn't understand, you think it's some kind of ancient cipher or code, but it's actually just a rugby song in Welsh that Howl sings when he's drunk. And finally, when you see the terrifying black door, which is completely shrouded in darkness, you imagine a passage to an eerie, mythical place, similar to what Miyazaki showed us - but it's just fucking Wales.
#howl's moving castle#sophie hatter#howl pendragon#howell jenkins#hmc#howl's moving castle book#hmc book#diana wynne jones#I love him he's a mess#he just goes 'I'm gonna make myself such a quirky horrible image so that no one wouldn't question the weird stuff I keep using'#('because no WAY I'M GONNA WRITE WITH A QUILL 20TH CENTURY GUYS)#and it WORKED#(Also that probably why Suliman can't do the same thing. He's too classic Royald Wizard™)#(and ppl would have questions to him)#(but Howl? He's fine guys he's like that All The Time)
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Current WIP
#keep going back and forth on the injuries#kinda already feel like I’ve traumatized myself enough#kinda wanna completely cover jeans face in blood#all for the game#jean moreau#aftg#the sunshine court#the foxhole court#fanart#riko moriyama#tetsuji moriyama#the ravens#edgar allan ravens#the nest#my fanart
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summore misc NU doodles
#nicktoons unite#danny phantom#jimmy neutron#spongebob squarepants#the fairly oddparents#dewdles#i didnt forget to post on tumblr this time i just..... procrastinated#i keep reminding myself all the time but id always be like 'ill do it tomorrow' *does not do it tomorrow*
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