#to experince this show for the first time

[planetwaynez]

bad ideia right?

Jason x Roy x Fem!Reader

Notes: I've been cooking this JayRoy x Fem!Reader for some time now, the only thing is... I got excited and ended up writing waaaay too much so this will be separeted in two parts. This is part one, if you guys like it lemme know if you want part two, pls!!!

PART 2!!!!

WARNINGS: Talks about stalking, nearly death experince, violence, murderer, being socialy secluded, a lot of complicated feelings. This is part 1!

Words: 4,7k

Synopsis: It never crossed Roy's mind that his cute civilian ex would be knocking at his apartmant door asking for help. Jason never tought that he would've to help his boyfriend with his ex, but he is, especially because she might die if they don't help her out.

Things are not so great at the moment. And she knows it, that's why she stands in front of her ex boyfriend's apartment door, picking at her nails and looking everywhere but the door. She knows she shouldn't be looking for him, but in the situation that she finds herself, Roy may be the only person that can help her out. Rationality, she knows it's no biggie, showing up and asking for her ex boyfriend, who is a very known vigilante, to save her skin. However, emotionally, she knows it's fucked up. 

Taking a deep breath, she knows it's a bad idea, but she reaches for the door and knocks. Taking a step back, y/n can feel her muscles starting to shake in a nervous fit.

It's been two years since she saw Roy for the last time, and she wonders how much has changed since then. 

The door is open and y/n looks up, to find a tall brunette looking at her with an arched eyebrow. She smiles, trying to be polite. He doesn't smile back.

“Hi! Is this Roy Harper's apartment?” She asks, still picking at her nails and the man in front of her notices.

“Yes” he answers, his voice deep and intimidating and for the first time she knows for a fact that this is more than a bad idea, it's a terrible one. But then again, it's better than dying. 

“Is he home?” The man crosses his big arms over his chest, taking in a more intimidating stance than before.

“Yes” 

He is not the most polite ever, and it's starting to make y/n panic turn into frustration very quickly. 

“Can I talk to him?” the man clicks his tongue, obviously not liking her request. Well, what can she do, a girl needs to try her shot.

“Who is at the door, love?” a familiar voice asks and now she understands. The huge guy in front of her is acting up in a jealous fit. Does he know who she is? Probably. 

“Your ex” he says, and yeah, he knows who she is. 

They can hear steps coming in the direction of the door and a very confused Roy shows up, wearing only a pair of gray sweatpants and his hair is longer, long enough to be put up in a man bun. Cute.

“Y/n?” He is pale and it seems like he just saw a ghost in front of him. She smiles and gives a tiny wave, not knowing how to act. When she decided to ask Roy for help, she knew that there was the chance for this to happen. A chance to find out about his new partner, a chance that he would look terrified, a chance that he would say no and let her die. Simple stuff.

“Hi, Roy” things are awkward, the three of them looking at each other like idiots.

“What are you doing here?” Roy seems offended that she ever had the guts to show up like this and honestly, she understands him and would deal with this situation in a more aggressive way if it was her in his place. 

“I need your help” she can feel her cheeks burning and her heart rate increase, she feels the sting of a broken nail and her palms are sweating. 

“With what?” Who asks the question is the brunette man, and y/n finally looks at him. He is wearing the same attire as Roy, paired up with a long sleeve black compression shirt, and she realizes how big he actually is. If he wanted to, he could throw her through the stairs of the building with ease. He is scary. 

Instead of actually answering the brunette, she started rambling all of her thoughts to them, feeling her chest tight. 

“I know you told me not to go, I know you said my brain would put me in danger one day and that my smart mouth would kill me and honestly I never believed you, but I fucked up. I fucked up real bad, Roy.” Desperation seeps through her voice, making her look ridiculous but the amount of panic in the woman in front of Roy only sparks his worry. 

“What the fuck did you do?” He asks, taking her wrist and pulling her inside the apartment, practically throwing her in their living room.

“I stumbled across files I should have not stumbled across.” Roy Harper is not a man to worry, unless it's his daughter, Jason or Dinah. Or Y/n.

She was always one to worry about. Always too smart for her own good, always too clever to her own safety, always too curious. She found out way too easily his identity as Arsenal when they were dating. He knew that one day she would have a price over her head.

“What does that mean, y/n?” He is basically yelling at her now, frustrated that she doesn't give him the information he needs. She pouts, hating the fact that Roy is yelling at her.

“It means you were right, ok? I am too curious for my own good and now some rich people want me dead.” 

Fuck it.

Jason didn't see this one coming, not even a thousand miles away. When he woke up this morning, sore from their last mission, he wouldn't have guessed that Roy's most recent ex and only civilian ex, would show up at their doorstep asking for Roy to save her skin from rich people. 

Jason sighs, drawing the attention to him. He closes his eyes, hoping this is some weird dream, but when he opens them again, two pairs of eyes are staring at him. He thanks the gods that Lian is with Alfred. 

“And how could Roy help you?” Jason asks, wondering what is going through this stranger woman's head. 

“As Arsenal, obviously” she says, as if Jason is one dumb fucker, and he can't believe that this is happening. 

“She knows?” Roy shrugs, as if saying ‘I have no control over that’. 

“She found out when we were three months into the relationship” Jason looks at her again, shocked with this new piece of information. He knew they dated for over a year, and also knew how heartbroken Roy was when she left to live in Ireland because of a job opportunity. He didn't know she knew about Arsenal, though. 

“It was actually quite easy to figure it out” she says, her eyes roaming over him, not in a ‘I am attracted to you’ way but in ‘who are you?’ type of way, and that made an uneasy feeling set in Jason's stomach.

“How?” He needs to know how she found out, how her brain works. Jason knows a lot of people, for fucks sake, he knows Tim and Tim found out Robin's identity at the age of nine, not many things shook him, but it's eight in the morning and this woman is definitely weird. 

“I noticed they have the same scar on the left arm” 

Jason's eyes bulge just a little and he looks at his boyfriend, who is looking at the floor, probably embarrassed with how easily a civilian found out his identity. 

“I know” the read head says, clicking his tongue “she is a freak with that brain of hers” 

It's y/n's turn to sigh, rolling her eyes. She looks at Jason again and says, very calmly.

“I knew I could say Roy is Arsenal near you because I firmly believe you already knew. Not because he told you, but because you are like him” the nervous and anxious girl from before is gone and she looks more confident and comfortable, and that uneasy feeling of having someone with a bigger brain than yours in the room comes back to Jason's stomach. 

“And why's that?” Roy chuckles, and Jason looks at him with a quizzical look but the redhead says nothing, just smiles.

“You keep analyzing me, noticing every single move I make. For a guy your size you are very quiet and silent” she point out, numbering everything she says in her manicured fingers “Also, you keep reaching for your thigh, as if you keep looking for a gun in a holster” Y/n points to his hand, resting in his left thigh, and he wants to curse himself. 

“I will make an educated guess and say you are Red Hood, the guy that is always with Arsenal” She says and smiles, tilting her head to the side, exposing her neck that has a hand imprint on it. “You are him, aren't you?” 

Jason nods, not verbally answering her, but he knows there is no use lying since she knows about Roy's identity. What actually sparks his interest is the marks in her neck. She notices him looking and she once again hides her skin from them. Jason looks at Roy, to see if he saw the same as him, and his boyfriend's gaze is focused on y/n neck as well. There is more to this story than she is truly telling, and they know.

“She found out about Dinah in forty minutes in the same room as her.” Roy says, instead of saying something about the purple marks, walking to the kitchen to get a water bottle for himself. 

Jason looks at her, doing exactly what she said he was doing before, but now he takes his time. Analyzing her. Meanwhile, she keeps an eye on Roy, who is not caring at all about the exchange behind him.

Roy turns around, holding his water bottle and looks at the two of them. He drinks all the water with a few gulps, feeling the cold water calm him down to the conversation he will soon have. He really wants to know who is the fucker that tried to choke her to death and left those marks on her smooth skin.

“Come with me” he says, pointing at a very shocked Jason and a very smug y/n to follow him. 

The three of them get in a room decorated to be a study, Roy sits on a couch in the corner of the room and Jason sits next to him, his big arm going around Roy's shoulders.

“Explain yourself, pookie” Roy says and y/n takes a deep breath, collecting her thoughts to start explaining herself to the two vigilantes in front of her.

“It all started a few months ago when Campbell Enterprises, the place I worked at, developed a new project. One that was secretive and only a few would participate, the HR did a whole campaign to encourage us to participate in the selective process to choose the ones that would be a part of this new project. I was hoping I was not chosen, honestly, I was fine with the workload I already had at my lab at the time, but it was mandatory to participate” she pauses, taking a deep breath and looking at the window, watching the sun come through. 

“They chose me and a few others to be a part of it, but it was all too secretive, even for us that were working on it. It was tiring, since my regular workload kept coming” she clicks her tongue and blinks, as if she was transported back to the moment that she is telling them about. “One night I stayed later than usual, it was just me in the laboratory, I was tired and annoyed with a few things so I started digging around, just so see if I could see the development of the others that I worked with.”

She blinks again, swallowing tears and looks at them. Roy and Jason are looking at her very attentively, waiting patiently for her to continue. There is no pressure, no tension in the room, just two men looking at her as if she was made of glass and that, for some reason, soothed the pain inside. Y/N is too used to not allowing herself to be fragile, but right now, with Jason and Roy, she feels that she can allow herself to be a little bit vulnerable. 

“That's how I ended up coming across the real motivation of the project. They told us that we were developing a new medicine for kids with cancer, when in fact, we were developing a new drug so they could kidnap children and teenagers with more ease.” There is silence in the room and inevitably, they all thought about Lian, that is safely with Alfred, but she could not be, like many others are not. 

“And they found out you came across those files and that's how you got five fingers in your neck?” Roy asks, arms crossed and a frown between his eyebrows, looking irritated. 

“Not exactly” she says, her right hand going instinctively to her neck, gulping just to remember the touch of that man on her skin. “They found out I knew, but they didn't make it obvious. I knew they would find out eventually and come after me, but until then I thought I could keep living my life.”

Silence reigns the room, the three of them knowing she was just living an illusion until reality came knocking on her door.

“I went out on a date” she says, and that sparks even more their interest. Jason scoffs, not believing what he just heard.

“You knew you had a target on your back and you went on a date?” He asks sarcasm in every word that he says. She nods and Roy looks at her with disbelief in his green eyes.

“I was needy” she simply states, shrugging as if it was not a big of a deal, except it was. “He was a hitman” 

Jason and Roy look at each other, not knowing how to actually react to her words. It all seems so out of this world, especially with the way she tells things, so calmly.

“We were kissing, he grabbed my neck and said that I was too curious, he had a good grip but I had a pocket knife” she is smiling and Jason knows for a fact now that she is crazy.

“So you stabbed him” Roy says, a smirk forming in the corner of his red lips. She nods.

“Didn't kill though, just enough to run away” she looks again at the window and takes a deep breath, “that's how I ended up in an airplane to Gotham. I called Dinah and asked where you lived, she told me you moved to Gotham, gave me your address and that's how I ended up here.”

She looks at them again and they can see in her eyes that she is lost. Desperate. In panic and disbelief of herself. What Jason can't see but Roy can is that Y/n truly believes she is going to die if they don't help her out.

Roy is not happy to have his ex, who broke his heart even if their break up was mutual and mature, standing in front of him. Roy is not happy that Dinah just gave information on him so easily. But he is less happy with the idea of y/n dying. No, he gets angry just with the idea of her not existing anymore. 

And Jason may not know y/n, but he knows his boyfriend. He knows Roy just as well he knows himself and Jason can see it in the redhead's eyes that they will help her out, even if it fails, they will try their best. Jason can also see the care and admiration in Roy's eyes every time he looks at her, it's the same way Roy looks at him. 

Jason will have to swallow his pride and jealousy, because he is going to help his boyfriend's ex to not die.

“We will help you” Roy says, looking at Jason for support and he finds everything he needs in his lover's eyes.

“But with a few conditions” Jason says, now looking at the younger woman. He knows she is younger than them, but now she truly looks like it. The sun is bathing her from her side, making her eyes shine and seem bigger, her lips are painted a glossy red and her cheekbones are chubby and pink. He can't deny, she is adorable and pretty.

“Anything” she says, her lips quivering just slightly. Jason smirks, he knows he is an asshole, but he also gets the job done.

“You will be staying at one of your monitored safe houses, and you won't leave the house, unless one of us is with you.” Roy nods, his gaze focused on her. The redhead forgot how beautiful she looks with her hair down and a turtleneck and he can't stop staring at her now that he noticed. 

“We will make the groceries for you, just give a list. Also only burner phones and not social media” Roy says, and y/n was expecting nothing less than that. She is asking for them to keep her alive and she knows they will do it, even if it means keeping her away from society for a while. 

“And we need all the information that you have” Jason finishes, reclining himself against the couch, relaxing his muscles. 

Y/n stares. She was always curious and when she thinks something - or someone - is pretty, she stares. She didn't look at Jason until she did, and now that she sees what Roy sees, she can't stop looking. 

They are both attractive men, she can't decide which she will take a look at longer, her brain working faster than normal to keep up with everything that she is thinking, from the information that they need to Jason's muscles and Roy's pretty lips.

She knows it's going to be a long ride with those two around her.

4 MONTHS LATER

It  was comfortable to stay hidden from society while Roy and Jason were dealing with the issue she put herself in. It is comfortable to stay in and watch movies, read books and cook whatever she feels like cooking. It is comfortable not having to go out to do her own grocery shopping, since Jason did that for her in the last four months, and he never forgot anything from the list. It is comfortable to have them around all the time, it is comfortable to have Lian over on the weekends to play with dolls and paint ceramics with her.

However she knows it's not going to last any longer. Actually, all this comfortable scenario is over as she stares at Roy and listens to him talk.

“It’s all over, we fixed everything up, you can go back to living your life, pookie” he says, his green eyes shining with something she can’t quite comprehend, but she knows the feeling that is attached to her chest. He is sitting in a chair in front of her, only a table stopping Y/N to reach out and hug him until her heart stops growing with pain.

She got comfortable, she created an illusion for herself once again. They were there almost everyday, talking, making jokes and eating homemade food made by her, she even got to befriend Jason in the first month, just to develop feelings for him in the third. In the second month she already knew she still loved Roy with her whole soul, and seeing him so dedicated to see her safe again only intensified that. 

She can’t explain, really, how she feels. She just knows its different but she loves them both. Roy is like a ray of sunshine that comes through the window, always warm and welcoming, always making her feel important and cared about. He was always good at making her feel like she is the only girl in the world, like she is actually important and easy to love. It's hard to let those feelings for him go, since she can’t get enough of his smile, his green eyes and his stupid jokes. She thinks that deep down, she never stopped loving him. It was like coming home from a long trip, the feeling of having Roy around again was that. His hugs became frequent again and she thinks she can’t let him go, the warmth and the intimacy are just too good and keeps her sane in the difficult days. 

Jason was a surprise. Y/N never thought it was possible to love two people at the same time and in the same intensity, but so differently from each other. At first, she thought she was going crazy with guilt because she still loves Roy, and Jason is his boyfriend. But then, slowly, she realized she fell for him just as hard as she had fallen for Roy. Jason is attentive, caring and even though he is more introverted, he understands her on a deep level. He knows when she is upset before she even acknowledges herself, he always has a good book recommendation and he always helped her in the kitchen when he could.  Lian loves him and he is good with kids just as much as Roy is. He is calm and collected and somehow, he soothes her mind. 

She loves them.

But she is sure they don’t love her back.

“Really?” she questions it, not believing that she can once again live in society without risking herself. 

“Yes” Jason says, he is behind Roy, his arms crossed and he doesn't look at her for longer than what's enough.

“Everything is clean, then?” She questions it once again, fear creeping inside her head, telling that they couldn’t do anything and that she will die if she leaves their embrace.

“Yes, pookie, everything is clean” Y/N nods, pressing her lips together and looking away from them, not knowing how to actually feel. She is happy that she is once again safe, that she can walk around without risking being murdered, that she can talk longer to her parents. But she can feel that pain in her chest, the one telling her this is the last time she will ever talk to them, see them and feel their presence. She is free to go anywhere, but the only place that she wants is not available for her. 

While she sits in sorrow, she doesn’t realize that both men are devastated as well as she is. Roy knew it was possible to love two people at the same time, to want to be romantically with two people at the same time, but it never crossed his mind that he would be living this feeling so intensely. He loves Jason with his soul, he would die for his boyfriend and kill just anyone Jason asked him to kill. But he can’t deny that he also loves Y/N, she is everything he could possibly want and not deserving to have. Her smile, her scent, her eyes, her lips, her body, her hair, everything in her was an invitation to his heart. Roy loves her with his heart, he would do anything for her too, he just did. He killed for her last night just to be sure she would be fine. He doesn’t want to let go, but if that's what she wants, he will do it. 

Jason was always skeptical about feelings until he fell for Roy, and he fell hard. He loves Roy more than he could ever be possible, he would take Roy in his worst days just as much as he would take Roy in his good days, and he would go against the world to see his boyfriend happy and calm. Jason stopped drug dealing because he thought it was disrespectful with Roy since he is clean and healthy after a long period of darkness. He takes care of all the things Roy doesn’t want to and he is nice to people that once hurt him because he wants to be good for his boyfriend and to Lian. It never occurred to him that he could possibly fall for Y/N during this time working for her safety. But he did.  And it was embarrassing. He could not look at her longer than a few minutes or his mind would drift to scenarios they would never live, and then he would feel guilt eating him up. Jason was going crazy over his feelings for this woman, she was diabolical with the way she made him feel. The way she would make him blush with a brush of fingers while cooking, the way she would make his chest warm with happiness when she smiled at him and the way she would make him feel euphoric when she complimented something about him. She was diabolical, and that's why in the last month he told Roy about his feelings.

Jason remembers how long the talk was, and he was not shocked to know that Roy still loves her and he truly understands the readhad, it's easy to love Y/N. Her ramblings about things she likes, the way she walks on the tip of her toes when happy, the way her hair falls over her eyes when she is focused. Jason feels like he is not some monster around her, she makes him feel light and makes him forget about all the vigilante stuff, he feels normal around her and good, he feels good. She makes it seem it's easy to be around him. 

They agreed to let her go if it was truly what she wanted, but if she decided to stay, they already talked about asking her out on a date, with both of them. If she didn’t want them both, they agreed that they would move on. It was the three of them together or nothing.

“What are you going to do now?” Roy asks, voice hoarse trying to keep the tears away. The young woman shrugs, her gaze on the wall next to her, deep in thoughts Roy couldn’t imagine what is about.

“A penny for your thoughts, sweets” Jason says, once again looking at her, he can feel the dread polling at his stomach and he just wants to hold her until she gets tired of him and Roy. 

“Thinking about my mom and my dad” she says, finally looking at them with tears stuck in her bottom lashes, making her look like a crying angel in the dim light of the kitchen. 

“Are you going to stay with them until you find another job?” the redhead questions, his fingers tapping lightly at the table, a clear sign of anxiety. 

“Yeah, I think I will,” she says softly, her shoulders drooping and her head falling, somehow hiding her face from the vigilantes in front of her. 

“Nice” Jason says, his voice thick with something not even him can say what it is, but he knows it’s not a good feeling. He feels like he is losing her without trying to actually have her in the first place. “They must miss you”

“They do,” she answers Jason quickly, trying to stop the conversation in its tracks, but it looks like he won’t bite the bullet.

“Where do they live, again?” the brunette asks, not wanting to stop because if they stop talking he won’t be listening to her voice. 

“New York City” 

Jason clicks his tongue not knowing what to say anymore so he looks at Roy, expecting to see the redhead formulating a plan to keep her around longer, but there is only acceptance in this eyes and Jason knows he lost the battle, he knows she would be leaving soon to NYC and if he tries to stop her, Roy wouldn’t help. Not because he doesn’t love her, but because he isn’t the type to hold people where they don’t want to be. 

Roy gets up and smiles fondly at Y/N, hiding his true feelings behind a mask. “If you need anything, just call us.”

She smiles, a tiny one, and nods again understanding that she is not wanted around when in fact what they wanted more is for her to stay with them.

“See you around, boys” she says, leaving for the bedroom that will no longer be hers in the morning.

[sunnydust2003]

Vent:

It's official

I'm scared of her rn because since i deleted my account, she won't leave me alone.

She's still stalk and harassing me despissd facts, i left this god awful website.

She's calls me like a pedo, zoophilia, child murder and etc with no proof and took out of context.

Like explame this as possible i am:

1. Pedo stuff:

The reason why she's call me a pedo because i favourite parody of Cuties which was make funny of pedo which i favourite because i like people make fun of this type people who deserve that from piece of shit but i regrett favourite this art.

And one thing, i hate Cuties because you know why.

I'm glad it's got remove from good.

2. Zoophilia:

She's calls me a Zoophilia just because i comment of one my friends art of "Oh No, He's so Hot" gif of Squidward from picture of Donald being muscular (it's not fetish art btw) and she's believe i have crush on Donald which i don't have actually crush on Donald Duck.

Do i like Donald Duck, yes but do you have crush on Donald.

The answer is fuck no.

Donald isn't my fictional crush.

3. Shipping Ren and Stimpy.

She's believe i ship Ren and Stimpy just because of i comment one of person which i ask person where she's start ship Ren and Stimpy because i like heard when they start liles ship or anything.

Beside i don't ship Ren and Stimpy because i see them as friends and nothing else more.

4. She's hates when someone favorite artwork just because they don't like.

She's blame me of i favourite Spongebob x Vocaloid: Lust because she doesn't like song which okay fine but why you blame me from this.

Oh yeah because he's was prevent to female or some shit which btw i never actually listen to Lust or anything because i'm not interest on song.

Only i favourite because artwork was amazing and that's why favourite art in first place.

5. She's blame me over i ship something.

She's blame me over i made status about i cringe myself when i used ship Elsa and Selena Gomez just because i thought it's was adorable.

Keep mind, i was minor back the day, i didn't have brain development until i get olded and realized:

What the fuck is wrong with me.

Idk what's wrong with my younger self when ship this two.

I'm glad i stop ship this two because it's was weird af.

6. She's calls me a child murder.

Yup she's calls me a child murder because of i was hyper about FNAF movie and says i'm only watch movie because i want see kids get killed which wtf are you talk about?!

I'm not watch movie because kids get killed, i'm watch this movie because of how adoption of game it's was.

And i'm glad they didn't show kids get killed in movie because last time i have experince with kids get killed is was hard to watch.

7. She's rant about how i so called treat my friends shit.

Now yes, this was true i was asshole about my friends about whole of "Freddy hates his friends" but i was only mad at this because my friends is remind me of toxic cartoon community and i don't want my friends become one of them but since i watch AOSTH and Scratch, Grounxed and Coconuts are become my new favorite characters, i realized i was asshole towards my friends and i apologie to him from real this time and he's accept this apologie.

This now, we talks about Freddy fight Peck or other his interest, hell i even give him a idea and drawing based of i comment on this because i want make him a happy and i love make friends a happy.

But what really pissed me off is she's lying about me so called sent my whiteknight to my friends which it's was bullshit because i don't even have whiteknight and don't want harassing my friends over this.

I may was asshole but at least i apologie about my action and i want improve myself.

She's just lying herself with no proof of this.

8. Finally she's get trigged over i made one meme of Lincoln get kick out which was meant be make fun of toxic TLH fanbase of how overprotective Lincoln when Lincoln is no better.

Now if you see Such No Luck, i made meme this because i want pissed TLH fans off because how over sentisive about this when Lincoln is no better because he's was lying about he's got bad luck just want have free time when he's could tells his family honest.

Before you say, no i'm not defense Lynn Jr and facts, both of them are unlikable.

So yeah.

9. She's blame me over the facts, voice actor of Abby (Back at the Barnyard) is anti vaxxer and she's say i should proud of her because she's so called cares her children which i have question:

If she's so called cares her child, she shouldn't realized maybe i should protect my kids from infection but nope, she doesn't give a fuck about her children and forced on people who tells to wear mask is canceled culture which prove me a point, she doesn't care from children.

And i want talks about her double stands ass because i like how she's called me a pedo when she's also defense Rev Says Desu who is lolicon and she's defense him by saying:

"Oh he's not going after a real kids, they are just fictional characters" which is gross af.

And thing is she favourite of My Melody and Kuromi from Sanrio x Yu-Gi-Oh pillow sexual which remind me of:

"My Melody and Kuromi are underage" which is red flags because how she support this type shit.

So remember i tell you about she's thinks calling me a child murder just because i was hyper about FNAF movie.

About that, she's also double stands because she's calling me a child murder over FNAF movie but yet, she's have favourite FNAF on her DA.

Hey are you same person telling me about i'm so called support child murder just because of one movie but yet, you favourite FNAF despised facts, you just said to me i support child murder but i guess, she's become stupid af and acting like she's a innocent person.

Yeah fuck this bullshit.

So yeah, i'm done with this shit.

It's time to move on from good.

So yeah, if you reading this:

Please leave me the fuck alone, i don't want have deal with you or anything.

I just want get free from stalker and harassing i got from you.

So please leave the internet and get some seriously help.

[flower-boi16]

Bring the thunder down

Well time to give my thoughts on the latest episode.

POSITIVES:

-Seeing callbacks to previous episodes in season 1 was pretty nice

-Holy shit Verosika development? HELL YA!!!! I'm just going to say it; Verosika is the best part of the episode hands down. I like that we get to see a real side of her beyond just being a one-dimensional bitch, her being friendly towards Stolas due to seeing him, and how SHE felt when she was hurt by Blitz.

And she deeply empathizes with people who were also hurt by Blitz and holds this party so people can cope with their experinces for how Blitz damaged them, a place where they can all get together. Viv developing a female character...? That's insane! Verosika feels like an actual person in this episode, not just a one-dimensional bitch.

-We don't get a rushed resolution to Blitz's feud with Verosika like we did for his feud with Fizz, which I am very happy for. I liked how they handled the reletionship between the two here,

-The development for Blitz here is genuienly great...? Like, the episode does a good job of showing him finally realizing how his actions have hurt others, and shows him trying to play victim here in the final scene of the episode before accepting that HE IS THE PROBLEM. And it's now the begining of him finally deciding to grow and become a better person, which is probably going to be a major arc in both season 2 and the rest of the series.

-The characterization here for Blitz is also great. Again it shows him playing the victim here because he's too much of an asshole to accept how he might have hurt others, until he realizes how his actions actually affect those he hurt. He feels genuine remorse now for his actions after the song that Stolas' sings on the stage.

-SPEAKING OF THAT SONG NUMBER; I have some issues with it when it comes to Blitz victim blaming but for the most part it's not bad. The visualls during it look quite nice and the singing is really good. This also serves as a good moment for Blitz as a character; as he sees that actually did, genuinely, have real feelings for him, and it helps Blitz realize all the mistakes he's made throughout his life and how his actions have genuinely hurt others.

-The episode, generally, does a good job of showing how Blitz's actions have hurt others.

-The finale scene in the episode is fantastic. Like I said we get some great development for Verosika and some insight on how she felt when Blitz ran off, characterization for Blitz and growth with him finally realizing his mistakes and the begining of him growing as a person. The voice acting from the two especially sells the emotions in it.

This episode has a suprising amount of good stuff in it when it comes to Blitz and Verosika...unfortunetly there are still some issues.

NEGATIVES:

-Unsuprisingly the Stolas stuff here is awful. The episode constantly frames him as another one of Blitz's victims who was hurt by him which just shows more Stolas victimization. Whopee. The begining scene is especially awful when it comes to this. The thing that really gets me is the line "since when have I ever looked down upoun you", like, dude, YOU CONSTANTLY BELITTLE HIM THROUGHOUT THE FIRST SEASON. OF COURSE HE'S GOING TO THINK YOU LOOK DOWN UPOUN HIM.

And then he says that Blitz is like Striker which is fucking stupid.

(though tbf Blitz is deffiently an ass in this scene so I can get Stolas' perspective to a slight extent, but some of the framming here and dialogue is still questionable)

-Speaking of that begining scene, its...eh. It has the issues with Stolas victimization as I already talked about here but then there's the fact that they used Blitz not telling Stoals about Striker as a way to create cheap drama. YAY! Also this...never gets resolved in the episode btw.

-The stage scene where Stolas sings his "motherfucker" song is good enough in terms of development for Blitz but since Blitz isn't in the wrong here for not believing Stolas loves him it still come across as another instance of Blitzo victim blaming to a slight extent. I already expressed my opinions multiple times about why Blitz is not in the wrong for not thinking that Stolas has real love for him so I'm not gonna repeat myself here, but I'm really sick of the Stolas victimization in this season and I just wish the show would stop pretending that Stolas is the victim here.

-The conversation the two have after the song isn't an awful scene but still shows Stolas victimization. Again, more Stolas victimization and a lot of the dialogue from Stolas here really seems to point to this. Like the scene has Blitz apologize to Stolas and act like the latter deserves better than the former because the former was soooo mean to him UwU, and it just. Ugh. And then the episode has Stolas whine about how he just wants someone to care about him and I'm just like. Viv. You aren't going to make me sympathize with this stupid fucking owl. You just can't.

-The episodes seems to be implying that Blitz has feelings for Stolas...? Huh???? Since when??? And also why does Blitz even have feelings for Stolas to begin with? Like everytime Stolas and Blitz interact Blitz always shows physical discomfort around Stolas, why tf is he suddenely interested in him NOW???

-How exactly was Verosika able to know of Stolas' reletionship with Blitz?

-Blitz decides to go into the party WITHOUT A DISGUISE. Like he takes one eventually but why didn't you bring one to begin with...?

-Is there no one guarding the entrance to this party? Because Blitz should have not able to get in here.

-Blitz comeing in without a disguise doesn't bring any attention for some reason???

This episode was...actually kind of good. Like, I'd say this is probably the best episode of season 2 so far. It mainly suffers from more Stolas victimization and some very weird plot holes and the out of nowhere development of Blitz getting feelings for Stolas but there is genuinely fantastic stuff in here that's good enough to make the episode at least a 7.5/10, hell maybe even an 8. I could forgive a small amount of plot holes if there's enough great stuff in the story and in this episode there is.

So ya, I actually kind of enjoyed this one.

[citr0us]

NSFW ALPHABET - MATT STURNIOLO

Summary: alphabet headcanons about what sex is like with matt

!warnings: smut

A - Aftercare (what the are like after sex)

Matt is supeeerrrr affectionate with you after sex, asking if you´re okay and then going to shower with you. He gets very clingy with you, he loves just to cuddle while watching someting. Super cute

B- body part (their fav body parts of theirs partner)

Matt love your ass and thighs. he loves feeling them, and squeezing them. When you wear short shorts, he loves to watch how hot your ass looks in them.

C - Cum (where he likes to cum)

He loves cumming in your face, mouth and titties.

He loves watching his cum dripp in your body.

D - Dirty Secret (self explanatory)

He has a video of you masturbating that he uses to get off.

He tried with your photos, but it's not the same

he loves hearing you moaning, and he lovesss seeing your face while doing.

E - Experince (how experienced are they? Do they know what they are doing)

He has at least 1 or 2 bodys before you. He kinda knows what he is doing tho

I believe that yall will need to talk, and you will have to teach him some things

F - Favorite Position (self explanatory)

when he is on top of you, being able to see your body, curves and tits. he likes to see your face and expression

G- Goofy (are they serious in the moment?)

At first he would gigle a little, but then he would get serious and focused on your pleasure

H - Hair (if they have a lot of hair or little? is shaved?)

he's not full shaved

I - intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he loves going slow and sensual he loves to making you feel good and take his time with you

J - Jack Off (masturbation)

he doesn't have to do it anymore because of you. If you are far from each other he would see some photos and videos of you to get off

K - Kink (pretty self explanatory)

Him being dominant, and bossing you around

L - Location (favorite places to do)

his bed where he can be comfortable with you. If it's at your house, I believe he'll accept it anywhere. sofa, bathroom…

M - Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

your moans, evertime that you scream his name and show him that you are enjoying it

N - No (something that they wouldn’t do)

anything that involves his ass (idk)

O - Oral (preference in giving or receiving)

Matt is a fucking giver

everbody knowss about matt the munch, This man loves to eat you outt and hear you moan for more and more

he know how to use his tougue

P - pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

I feel like he can be both It depends on his mood. but generally is more slow and sensual.

Q - quickie (their opinions on quickie)

He would never say no to a quickie, but he likes more having time with you

R - risk (do they take risks?)

He's not the type who likes to take risks, he likes to do it at his house or yours

S- stamina (how many rounds can they go for?)

Matt usually can go for 2 rounds at least. but when he really wants he can go for 3 very easily

T- toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn't own any toys, but if you do he would use them on you.

U- unfair (how much they like to tease)

He loves to tease you, and see how long you can last. doing things and saying things to you

V- volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc)

It's not that loud, you can hear some groans. But when he's getting close he gets kinda loud (like when he is playing fortnite ifykyk) and he starts talking too ''yeah, just like that'' ''c'mon yn don't stop''

W- wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Matt loves the idea of him fucking you on his car, with the loud music in the back.

x- x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Matt doesn't have big dick energy, butt i know it's long guys. trust me

y- yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

HORNY all the timeee.

everbody knows that he his a fucking slut bro, he would get turn on by you just looking at him.

z- zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He is soo exhausted afterwards, he tries to wait for you to sleep first but he always sleeps first

[petsmask]

it starts when you knock on his door, your blouse and skirt getting drenched by the rainwater as you wait for a response. your church sent you out on a rainy friday evening, and you can’t help but pray that you won’t be punished by god for resenting it. it’s been miserable.

until he opens the door, his demeanor so soft and…silly? he invites you in with the promise of pie, and when you come in you can bet that you were met with the sweet, buttery softness that is pie crust baking in the oven.

things go so well that you keep on coming back to his house on your behalf rather than your church’s. no one really knows where you run off to, but you like to keep it that way. you’ll talk for evenings upon evenings about everything from art to religion.

he’s the first person you’ve met in a long time who you feel like you can open up to about your shameful doubts. doubts regarding yourself, your community, your god. he’s there every step of the way to listen to you and provide insight.

until his insight turns into him teaching you how to properly touch yourself. you’ll be sprawled out on his couch with your phone turned off, probably a million calls from your parents or fellow sisters wondering where you are while his fingers are inside of you.

when he touches you, he studies you. your facial expressions and movements. even the small, soft sounds you let out. he knows your patterns so well that he’d consider them predictable.

you can’t even be bothered that he doesn’t really believe in your views. he supplies you with the best conversations and the best experinces that you can put your differences aside. only for him.

he talks to you so sweetly, yet not patronizing like everyone else does. he’ll treat you like the adult you are, yet you’ll still be his little muse. the girl he gets all his inspiration from. the gift who showed up at his door.

[six-eyed-samurai]

LETTERS TO SANEMI

This can be read as a standalone, but if you'd like you can read my previous thoughts on Genya's literacy.

dear aNiki,

kocho gave me a Notebook today aNd told me to write down any after efects or experiNces after eating a demoN iN here but said I should also keep a jourNal to show you oNe day. she gave one to tokito to for his memory loss I thiNk.

she started teachng me how to write receNtly. she said if I caN’t become a hashira or talk to you by the time i've fiNished learNiNg, i can come up with a good apologi letter for you.

himejima-saN is very proud that I'm learNiNg how to write. he was sad he couldn't teach me Himself but Now I can help Him deliver messages he caN't write or Read.

i caN't do aNy breathiNg techNiques, but himjima-saN’s traiNing is iNteNse eNough that i can slay demons eveN without eating them sometimes. maybe i will be able to become the first hashira without a techNique.

Im Not sure yet Of what to write iN here, so thats all for Now. I hope you like the ohagi I seNt you. kocho said she'd pass it for Me.

***

Dear Aniki,

I'm very embarrassed to say this, but when I showed Kocho my writing it turned out I got a lot of things wrong. She was very nice about it when she saw how red I was but couldn't teach me today so the Butterfly Girls had to do it. I think they were too scared to laugh but it's embarrassing anyway to have them know more about writing than I do.

For one apparently I got all my captal (is that how you spell it?) letters wrong. Small letter n and captal letter N are also very different and it's confusing. And I'm glad Himejima-san won't find out I didn't write his name correctly.

The demon I ate the other day left me with a very weirdly shaped hand that hasn't gone away yet, so I'll stop writing for now since it's tiring to hold a pencil with talons. Kocho offered to cut my nails for me but I said no because she was going to use her katana.

***

Dear Aniki,

It really hurt me to find out you threw away my apology letter. I really want to apologize for that night but you keep pushing me away. Are you disappointed in me for joining the Corps or because I can't use breathing techniques? I promise I'll do better.

At least you didn't reject my ohagi. I found out because Tokito was eating it when I met him today. The Mist Pillar is really weird. I didn't know his amnesia was so bad to this state he wandered into the room I was staying in at the Butterfly Mansion thinking it was his. I found him standing by the window holding my gun without moving for about ten minutes. I thought he was a girl for a second so it kind of stunned me into silence. He didn't even notice I was there until I yelled at him to put it down.

It was really awkward at first because I had to explain to him it wasn't his room and he had to explain to me he wasn't a girl, then there was an awkward pause where we just stared at each other. He called me a rooster too…which is still confusing.

I find it really hard to believe he's fourteen and already a Pillar. Jealous, really, because he gets to see you and I don't. Although he called you a wolf and I'm not sure what that means when I asked him where he got the ohagi from and he said the “old white wolf looking Hashira…I forgot. I think I bought it…wait, but I didn't bring any money.”

Somehow I ended up agreeing to his demand of training with him first thing tomorrow to show him how to use a gun. Thankfully the side effects of the demon I ate is gone now.

Kocho told me he'll probably forget about it though.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today's my birthday. Do you miss me as much I do for you? I wish I can still celebrate it with our siblings and mom, or at least with you.

Kinzaki and the Butterfly Girls made me a cake. Kocho gave me a new yukata after I ripped my old one from my last fight. Her tsugoku gave me a coin for whatever reason. But I got really shy and didn't say much.

Muichiro forgot it was my birthday and thought it was Kocho’s, so he gave me her present. He thought it was funny to pin the butterfly to my hair. The girls started giggling at me so I chased him around the Butterfly Mansion.

Himejima-san gave me a cat. She's very cute. I named her Shizu, after mom. She followed me everywhere and even peed on Muichiro’s foot. He said she was stupid but later on I found him carrying her around.

Her white fur made me think of you. If you ever forgive me one day I'm sure you'll love her too. She likes the smell of ohagi too apparently.

***

Dear Aniki,

Rengoku-san the Flame Pillar and Kanroji the Love Pillar came to visit Himejima-san today. Rengoku-san gave me ohagi, so I thanked him but he said it wasn't from him. I'm praying this means you don't completely hate me.

Muichiro came over to Himejima-san’s estate today too by mistake, but he decided to stay and train with me anyway. He asked to see Shizu and that's when I realized she was missing.

How hard could it be to find a snowy white cat? That's what we thought until we (me mostly, Muichiro kept forgetting where he had looked) hunted everywhere for her. Then Rengoku-san said he saw her run pass him and when we looked she jumped off a tree and took off.

I still can't stop turning red whenever I think about how I slammed into Kanroji chasing Shizu, so I immediately ran off with Muichiro. I hope if I meet her again she'll have forgotten about it.

Dumb cat.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today that Kamado kid - the one who broke my arm back at Final Selection after I grabbed the Ubuyashiki girl; hope she doesn't hold it against me - picked up the stack of letters I accidentally dropped. You know it's the anniversary of everyone's death today, so I was planning on taking the letters I've been writing to them to burn. Usually I would just leave flowers and prayers at the shrine Himejima-san helped me make because we never got to bury them, but since Kocho taught me to write I decided to make a new tradition.

Anyway I knew he didn't mean to read them but I got mad anyway until he told me his family died the same way and he was happy that I was still honoring their memory of whatever. I wish me and you were like him and his sister. I wonder what would've happened if we had stayed together? I never meant to hurt you like that.

I don't remember writing any of this. Did I change my handwriting or something? Who's Aniki?

I've just chased away Muichiro. I can't believe he got our notebooks mixed up and started reading mine. I hope he didn't read anything…too personal. Foggy brained idiot just stared at me and left.

He came back later. He didn't apologize but handed me a watermelon. He's forgiven…I guess? I don't even want to know he got it from, especially when I can hear Kinzaki and that pig head boy shouting.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today's the day before the final battle and I don't have much time to write as much as I want to, so I'll make this entry quick.

Muichiro has become a much nicer person, and I've had a lot of fun with him over time. I'm gonna miss training with him and talking and cloud gazing together afterwards. I hope we both don't die. He called me his best friend the other day and although I got really flustered I don't want it to be the last time.

Kocho and the Butterfly Girls celebrated my “graduation” of learning how to write the other day. Maybe one day you'll be able to come and celebrate some other occasion with us.

I will never be able to repay everything Himejima-san has done for me. I owe him for the slayer I am today. I hope the wooden bracelet I carved will be able to convey it. I can write now but I'm no good with words.

I'm really grateful to Kamado and his sister for reminding me during the battle at the Swordsmith Village why I joined the Corps. I'm going to prove myself to you and apologize for once and for all. I don't know what I'm going to do if you keep pushing me away even after all this. I miss you a lot.

I swear we'll be brothers again after this battle.

[valar-did-me-wrong]

Adar thoughts if you're up!!

Who do you think Adar would have seen as a co-parent if he saw himself as father of Orcs and Uruk? Mairon himself? another fallen avari? would Galadriel be able to overcome the challenges to go into that role if Adar desired it, or is she too "anti-Orc" for that? Or is he just a single parent?

And if he had/does live into the Third Age, what would his feelings and attitude towards Saruman be?

Ooooooooo interesting questions!! (Sorry for not replying right away, asks just dumb me down everytime 🙈)

I'd like to start by saying in my head when I think of Adar this is how I see these questions answered & I bet a lot of amazing fan fic writers & meta discussions have influenced most of these opinions..

1. Who do you think Adar sees as a co-parent if he sees himself as father of Uruks?

I believe he alone was not the sole father of the Uruks, he's just the last surviving one. I believe all of the Moriondor were involved in the process & Sauron was not physically involved in the process (Adar might have held love for Sauron in the beginning but I believe Sauron despises the Uruk too much to be involved in birthing them in any sense. He was just the mastermind evil scientist breaking elven biologies and bodies enough to create Uruk from them)

I see it as a few dozens of Uruk descending from each Moriondor and then interbreeding among themselves there after.

The other Moriondor mustn't have been strong enough to survive through the ages, or something prevented Adar from dying off like them (maybe Sauron's favour because he was obsessed with him or just his grit & resilience which might have made Morgoth to consider him for a bigger role in his army!)

So I believe he sees himself and the other Moriondors as co-parents while they survived and then himself as a single parent..

Whichever poor elleths were involved in the process (which must have been torturous for them and Adar both because my Adar is not a sadist & I'll die on this hill) he believes them more as victims than willing parents and is confident they must hate the children born out of their unions just as much as they must hate their abusers the Moriondor & the dark lords.

2. Would Galadriel be able to overcome the challenges to go into that role if Adar desired it or is she too anti orc for that?

Let me put on my Adariel tinfoil hat & scream out how much I LOVE THEM real quick! 👀

Okay, so the way he forgave Galadriel for the uruk-killings I fully believe that means he would have let her take that role eventually.

Though I think that would have taken an age on both sides to learn & let go. And more than that for the Uruks to accept her. But as Second age is a tragedy, I don't think the Uruk could have been saved in canon 2nd age even if Adar is saved.

(ofcourse in a fix it they are saved! In my fix it the Uruks & Adar have Mordor, they have successful trades starting up & Sauron is shipped away to Valinor)

3. And if he had/does live into the Third Age, what would his feelings and attitude towards Saruman be?

Hmmm now there are two places he can live in till 3rd age, either Rivendell or Lothlorien.

(though for the show's story I'd have planned his death in the Battle of Last Alliance but JD & Patrick cowarded out maybe because of the time limit.. though Adar living to see Bilbo is my fix it fantasy ngl)

In both the scenarios and all of shipping & non shipping perspectives, I believe Adar's behaviour to Saruman & Gandalf would be pretty much the same.

He would distrust them & judge them personally for a long while because he has a lot of experince of Maiar which was horrible! I think eventually he will hear of Gandalf's friendships with mortals who seem not exactly men & those stories warm him up to Gandalf.

But Saruman's personality always reminds him of Mairon so he never really gets too comfortable with him & is the first one to doubt him when signs start to show.

[mah-t-wordblog]

It looks like Giyuu has experience if he got Muichiro to laugh the loudest, the other hashira must have been so surprised that someone quiet like giyuu could do that! And I love how you made Sanemi pat him on the shoulder too, the poor guy must have been thinking "shinazugawa is actually laughing with me here, wow I hope we can start being friends... I need to get him some ohagi" 🤣

But now I'm curious as to how Giyuu has this experince with tickling Mui, he was scared of him the most! 👀 I hope you can make a fic about that ☺️

I'm sorry for making another request so soon after my first one 🫣 but please take your time and of course feel free to decline 🫧 Take care! 🫧

I am back!!!!! I missed my plane but I managed to come back from the USA 😅 I hope you like it

How Gyuu discovered

Lee: Muichiro Tokito

Ler: Gyuu Tomioka

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Ships: NONE

Warnings: This is a tickle fic, if you don’t like it, just scroll down

This fanfic is originally in Portuguese, my English is translated using an automatic translator, if there are any big errors you can tell me so I can fix them

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After the last Hashira meeting, everyone discovered how mean Gyuu could be when it comes to tickling.

And why was Muichiro so afraid of him? We will see

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Gyuu has never been very affectionate, but with some people he likes to be more affectionate.

For example, Tanjiro, he adores Tanjiro and always wants the best for the boy.

But there are some people they don't have as much intimacy with.

He was alone in a room at the Butterfly Mansion with Muichiro Tokito.

The awkward silence was too great

“Tomioka-san, why don’t you ever smile?”

This question from the boy was very random

“I smile, but only when I have a good reason to do so” Gyuu shrugged

“But you’re not smiling right now.”

“Of course, I have no reason to smile now.”

Muichiro sighed

“You’re not smiling either, child.”

“But it’s because I don’t even remember what to do to smile”

Gyuu was confused “don’t you remember?”

"No"

“There are so many: spending time with people you love, receiving gifts, you can smile even if someone tickles you”

Muichiro turned a little red “yeah… I know that very well”

Gyuu looked at him, the man was already thinking of something cool

"You know?"

“I know, people love tickling me.”

“Oh, is it true?” Gyuu wasn’t smiling but he was finding it funny “are you that ticklish?”

Muichiro stopped and thought, Gyuu had never tickled him, he turned red

“I-I can’t say”

“But you csn show me” the adult approached

"No!"

“Yes~”

“Get out of mehehehehe” Muichiro tried to look serious but his anxiety made him laugh

"Why? It looks like it won’t be that bad for you.”

Gyuu finally attacked, squeezing Muichiro's sides

“Hehehehehehey!”

“No… it’s not the worst point… let’s see” he moved his hands higher “what now?”

Muichiro shook his head, his laughs were loud but they didn't change much

“Not yet… what about here?”

The boy choked, Gyuu pressed him in the belly

“HeheheHEHEHEY”

“Oops!”

“SIHIHIHIHIHIHIR”

“I guess I found a weakness~” Gyuu knew how to tease Muichiro, but what if he had never tickled him?

“You still haven’t told me to stop.”

Muichiro's eyes widened but he couldn't say anything, he just started squealing like a pig in the middle of his laughter.

“Do you like this, Tokito?”

“AHAHAHAHA SIHIHIHIHIHIHIR”

“Answer me and I’ll stop”

The boy tried to slap the man

"No! Oh, Tokito, I think someone needs to be punished for this.”

Gyuu filled his lungs with air and blew a raspberry into Muichiro's belly.

“AHAHAHA IHIM GOHOHOHIHING TOHOHO DIHIHIHIEHEHEHE”

The man stopped, he laughed a little

“So you like it?”

Muichiro said yes with his head

“It’s okay, whenever you need me I’m here to do this favor for you.”

The teenager smiled “thank you sir”

"Your welcome"

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It wouldn't be easy for Gyuu to forget Muichiro's weaknesses, he would definitely use it against the boy sometimes.

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Thanks for reading 💛💛

[jpriest85-blog]

Some more fan art of @barbwritesstuff Thicker Than, featuring my single parent Vampire, Dr. Roxane Blackwell, playinging ukulele while sininging a lullaby to her son, Percy.

The top image is of Roxane before her death, in Percy's nursery singing her infant son his favorite lullaby "You Are My Sunshine" while he's nodding off in his crib cuddling his stuffed rabbit. Underneath are the lyrics of the song's chorus, bordered by glimpses of Roxane and her son. One image is of Roxane in a red dress lifting Percy in the air after watching his class play of Peter Pan. The other image is of Percy giving his stuffed rabbit to Roxane, because even this young he knows how much his mom misses him. The bottom shows an older Percy in his room, next to Roxane during her imprisonment. In almost a mirroring of the top image Percy is playing his mother's ukulele along with an old CD Roxane burned of her singing and playing Percy's favorite lullabies. Meanwhile Roxane is laying in her cell, cuddling her son's stuffed rabbit and singing the same lullaby.

It's interesting to think about Roxane's three allies and fellow prisioners potental reaction to hearing a parent Blackwell trying to stave off the isolation by sing a lullaby. Espically since Tracy, Marcel, and Iliya all have their own issues when it come to family and parent child relationships.

Tracy was the first to find Roxane, and learn she had a son. She knows better than anyone the kind of grief Roxane going througe, having been an unwed teen mother before her death. Tracy never got a chance to raise her own son, she could only watch him from a distance untill he eventually dies from old age. This only adds to Tracy's guilt not only for getting Roxane involved with the Night Court to begine with, but because she knows Roxane is going to experince the same loss of outliving her son. Only with the Night King's 100 year sentance Roxane will not only miss her son's last moments, she might not be able to find his grave anymore.

Marcel while being one of the oldest vampires in the cell oddly enough could probably relate to Percy the most. Roxane confided in Marcel about where her son lives, because the foster home is in his territory, and thankfully he has kept his promise to her about keeping them safe. Considering the time period Marcel was born into he never got the chance to know his own mother, and being raised on in souther plantation it's possible the other adult slaves acted as foster parents for him. Marcel would have had to experince being ripped away from the mother figures in his life over and over again. Watching them being sold off, or even dying due to the abuse they suffred at the hands of their masters. Even after 200 years and the end of slavery, Marcel knows too well their are still many threats to people like himself, Roxane, and Percy. A brilliant and beautiful black woman like Roxane, trying to raise Percy by herself while becoming a doctor. No wonder Marcel was so drawn to Roxane, even with his fondness for fledgings, she was able to have a family and finish medical school with top marks! These were things that seemed like a dream for Marcel when he was still human! This also fuels Marcel's hatred for the previous Blackwell and the court that they stole Roxane's family and future from her, espically since during those 5 brief years Roxane has become so dear to him (either as a lover or friend depending on the playthrough).

Iliya's cell is right next to Roxane's so he would potentaily be able to hear her lullaby the clearest. While Iliya might agree with the other's Roxane's singing is better than his, the song is probably painful for him to hear. Eventhough Iliya never had children of his own (at least that he knew of) he does still keep in touch with Judith, the grandaughter of an old flame, and probably feared for her saftey as well as his own when Lucius hired him. While Roxane can potentaly introduce Iliya to Percy during his romance route, it's possible he could have already learned about Roxane's son while spying on her. Iliya was a soilder before his death he knows very well how quickly family can be used as leverage, and how easily innocent civilans like children can wind up as casualities. He would not wish those same horrors and tragities he lived through on Roxane and her son. Eventhough he did ultimately did side with Roxane over Lucius, Iliya will probably spend the rest of his immortal life trying to make amends for betraying Roxane's trust. Even if she does forgive him Iliya has spent the last 5 years learning about Roxane. She's inteligent, witty, driven and very easy on the eyes but still judges herself more harshly than anyone else. Roxane tries so hard to be a good mother to Percy and a compassonate doctor to her patients. Espically since under diffrent circumstances Iliya could have been under Roxane's care as an elderly veteran (and would have shamlessly have flirted with her, as Roxane would definatly be prettier and smarter than the doctors and field medics Iliya knew in his youth). She doesn't deserve any of this!

[tastytoastz]

I just want to say that the most recent chapter, at the time of writing this, of your fic (where Pac and Mike travel back in time to a 2b Fit, forgive me for forgetting the name) had me so enthralled. I've said this before but I don't think there are nearly enough fics that thoroughly explore the absolute internalised homophobia a man would develop in a place like 2b, so to have a fic like yours properly portray it is like a dream. That chapter has been stuck in my mind since I first read it, and I've reread it a couple of times.

I can't get over how well you showed that he wasn't just angry, but genuinely terrified. I love the emphasis on him being above all just so fucking scared of that information existing out loud. It's such a good angle. And he's not completely dead shocked by the revelation, and jumps straight into denial, which makes it come across - to me, anyway - as if he has already been aware of this fact about himself for a while, like he knows, and he actively works to hide it everyday. There's so much implied in what isn't said . It leaves you wondering how long he's known, how much he thinks about it, if anyone else in his life has ever known, if he has witnessed first hand what happens to people like him (has he ever watched someone get killed for that while having slurs and horribly vulgar and vivid insults thrown at them, and tried his hardest not to picture himself in that position, as the victim?) ... And most of all you wonder what the aftermath of the interaction looks like on his end. Is he panicking silently up in that room, expecting a mob at his door by morning? What is he thinking, what's running through his head? What does he expect to happen now?

I just love the angle you took and how it was written, and that you decided to pick up the heavy subject matter and write it where a lot of other writers seem hesitant. It's so intriguing .

Thank you so much for this ask!!! I could go crazy over this chapter as well and point out so many details, I'm gonna get into some here, but not all (since I wanna keep some stuff ambigitous/secret still and cuz if i mentioned it all it would be a long post, but I will probably go deeper into some more things once the fic is over cuz I have so many things and smaller details I wan't to get into!!! ) (Also I guess if you want to keep thing ambigious and not 'peek behind the curtain' about some things with this fic don't keep reading)

I have seen some people say Fit's reaction to Mike's comment is with self-denial but honestly it's a lot closer to just being him denying Mike and Pac's words. He's not lying to himself, he's strictly lying to Pac and Mike, and I'm glad I was able to make that clear and people are picking up on it!

Not gonna go to much into it right now ( that's for later in the fic 🤫), but he's very aware he is gay.

As a queer person myself homophobia is sadly not something i'm unfamiliar with. I have experinced it directed towards me and I have seen it happen to other people. Meanwhile i've also done research about internalised homophobia as best I can. I know it's a heavy subject matter (and the fic has a lot of violence/gore as well, it's rated M for a reason) so I'm glad so many people are intrigued by the fic despite it (however I fully understand if someone would not like the themes and cuz of that won't read it). I'm hoping to portray it and handle the themes as best i can.

I also think it would just makes sense from a character perspective, you have a man who has been on 2b2t for years, surrounded by slurs for all lgbtq memebers and wathcing people get specially targeted for stuff like that, and that would fuck with you as a closeted gay person. Not only bring you fear of being "found out", but also adapting homophobi language to look less like "one of them" while also just ingraning it in yourself.

Fit's been told the person he is bad, and knows that if people find out he's gay there will be a lot of negative consequnces, so he hides it. And then here comes Mike, not only saying that he knows he's gay but also that "it's obvious" that he likes Pac. For Mike and Pac it's a factual thing they know, while they also know is dangerous to Fit in the wrong hands. They also think it's obvious Fit likes Pac beacuse they know what to look for.

For Fit it sounds like these random guys, despite his best efforts, knows he's gay, the other says he has photo evidence he's gay, and then said he is awful at hiding it. These two people could ruin his life and have him killed so easily. That's what Fit heard and that is terrifying.

This is also one of the reason this fic is only from Pac's POV becuase I want it to be as unclear for the reader what Fit is thinking as it is for Pac. You don't know how Fit thinks in the past, what ideas he has or how he looks at thing which I think it both intruging for readers but also terrifying. You never know what Fit's next move is going to be.

Once again, thank you so much for the ask! I love talking about my fics so thank you for giving me a reason to!

[popculturebuffet]

Nickmas: Rugrats Holiday Triple Feature! (Comission for WeirdKev27)

Merry Christmas, Happy Chanukah and Heri Za Kwanzaa to all of you! It's once again time for the n n nickest time of the year, Nickmas! We launched it with christmas and july this year and it's back again. This year the last night of Chanukah and first night of kwanza are both on the same night and the same week as christmas. So this Holiday Convergeance calls for a matching celebration, thus i'm covering three rugrats specials on all three holidays. I'll get to the rest of the rugrats specials next year

So we can focus on the good stuff, a nice spread that not only captures three great holidays , two of which are badly underserved by holiday specials but three distinct eras of rugrats: It's early years, it's revivial era after it's surge in popularity, and it's post movies era now with Kimmie and a sprig of dil. So join me under the cut for a fun holiday trek through christmas, chanukah and kwanzaa past!

The santa experince comes to us from season 2, when the show still had it's old fashioned coloring and more wobbly deisgns. It was a good time.

The Santa Experince reminded me why I loved rugrats as a kid. As an adult the baby talk, parental neglect and what not wore on me a bit last time I checked them out.. but this episode reminds me why the series works. For adults you relate to the parents: their joy in sharing christmas with the kids, their panic at getting it together and the perils of worrying about your kid's waning belief in santa. For kids there's the joy of the babies and their unique understanding of the world, their piecing together somethign WE get and the simple holiday trials of giving gifts or being scared of santa. Combine them and you get both warm nostalgia and relatable hyjinks and a fairly good show. Still not in my top tier of nick toons but I get more what I saw in it, especailly in these early days where they experimented more.

The Santa Experience is a solid special, and befitting a special it has a lot of plots going at once: Angelica has a run in with a store santa where she pulls his beard and finds out he's a fake, and in general is angelica about it. I love Drew's misguided belief she now isn't beliving in santa.. and missing the actual crisis as Angelica starts to worry her actions have consequences after she swindles Phil and Lil out of their presents. This includes your standard scarring for life rugrats nightmare. As a kid I didn't like this specail, felt it was mean... and found out why as santa putting COAL, COAL EVERYWHERE is still creepy as hell. It's not Angelica's little brother nightmare baby terrifying but it's still unsettling. Rugrats had a knack for both nailing down childhood terrors.. and creating them.

Childhood Trauma aside the rest of the plots are slight but still good fun: Chucky is, naturally, terrified of Santa, something Chas wants to help fix and Tommy is of course optimstic about him, while Phil and Lil have a gift of the magi plot thanks to angelica's machenations, using the free toys she gets from her santa encounter to steal theirs. It... exists.. and really works best as a vehicle for Angelica. Her guilt and attempts to right things are charming, especially since the parents shuffling her or the twins around on christmas eve makes her attempts to get on the nice list near impossible and you don't feel too bad for her as it's entirely out of self intrest: she dosen't have a genuine turn towards some noble goal, she just wants her presents. It's honestly one of the better angelica plots: she still bullies the babies but isn't as harmful and her own guilt is eating at her. She could TELL the adults why, but she knows she'd be punished so she instead twists in the wind and only gets out of it by doing something kind, gifiting the gifts she grifted back. The gift of the magi thing bores me as it's been done so many times and usually makes little sense, but Angelica's part of it is great. Chucky fearing santa is a neat runner.

Naturally the adults steal the show a bit as Chaz and Drew to have santa himself show up. Chaz wants to be Santa but Drew is a dick and decides "no i'lll hire an actor because you suck at this Chaz.' Drew is the kind of guy who has valid points, he is often right that Stu struggles to support his kids doing his dream job, but is so smug about it you just want him to be proven wrong. He can't just say "Chaz I want someone who looks more like santa" he has to mock Chaz' acting talent. When he points out repeadtly Stu's unstable he has to mock his talent as an inventor which isn't in question, the 90's just wasn't friendly to self enterprise. Nowadays a man making bespoke toys out of his basement.. would probably still struggle a bit, I say that as someone who does comissions, but would probably get way more work, especially from people wanting statues or custom toys. Also a lot of realdolls but Stu is a professinal and a non judgmental guys. He'd make you that sex doll of the fish from shark tale because he is a real one. Didi would probably get a bit upset and Drew would be judgmental but Stu gets it. Sometimes you want to fuck a cartoon charcter. As long as it's not a current one his kid watches he gets you. Stu Pickles gets your kinks.

I had a point.. ah yes. Drew Pickles sucks. If he were an ice cream flavor he'd be pralines and dick. He's a great character but the smuggest of the group, that judgmental asshole you hang out with because you have to: he's Stu's brother, he's one of Chaz's only friends and Howard i'm sure has opinons, but no one cares about howard so let's move on. I could dunk on Drew all day to be honest, he's just that kind of punchable man you have to deal with. Everyone has a Drew Pickles. It's why he works so well as a character.

Thankfully for me his plan fails as his santa calls to say he can't make it while lounging on the couch. And look man I get it: their at a cabin, they rented a cabin btw, it's nice and christmassy moving on, it's christmas eve you don't want to work and your job is probably not plesant. I don't want to work on christmas eve eve. But as a professional if I can't do something I tell my clients; if i'm sick or my works backed up I tell them, I give them their money, or I tell them it'll be delayed. I'm trying to get THREE reviews done today that piled up while I was sick son. I'm trying to avoid working on christmas eve but I will if I gotta because i'm a fucking professoinal. Have some respect fictoinal santa actor. Have some damn respect.

So the REAL santa shows up, gives everyone present.. and in my faviorite bit of the episode leaves some Coal in angelica's malibu synthia mojo dojo casa house as a reminder that she was good enough to get a present.. but he's watching. And he'll send the OTHER santa next time

All in all a decent episode. Not a new holiday faviorite but i'm glad I revisited it. Way better than I remembered once I got past my Coal Trauma.

Now to put on your yammukah for Rugrats Channukah. I'm not jewish, but this special was a yearly treat for me as a kid and taught me what Channukah even was and is the gold standard for covering the holidy for me. I grant there aren't a ton of Channukah specials: off the top of my head we have the excellent Ghost and Molly McGee episode I covered last year, occasional mentions in Christmas specials, and that holiday classic 8 Crazy Nights.

There's some good sitcom episodes, see the Goldbergs and Friends, which also tackle how hard is with Christmas encroacing, but there should be more hannkuah specials. Get on it peanuts, your active again. Make one.

Still this isn't just the best by lack of choice: RC treats the holiday with holy reverence, holiday fun and helps teach kids about it without stopping for several minutes. It organically threads everything: the story of hannkuah and the religious opression and the candle that burned 7 days thanks to god are all threaded in naturally. Didi makes Latkes. They go to a Hannkuah Festival at a temple.

Not only that but i'ts clear Didi's faith means a lot to her: She enjoys celebrating it and makes sure it's as important as christmas to her kids, with the babies, both Tommy and his gentle buddies, all enjoying it. Except Angelica but angelica sucks so she's the perfect "who gives a shit about hannkukah" kid. She just wants to watch her Cynthia special. She does not for some reason want to watch it's lead in santa vs the alien. That's right Santa's fighting Xenomorphs people!

Disney pay me to make that movie... or just take the idea but put the trans subplot back in Win or Loose and no one gets hurt. Specifically Pluto. He's the only one of your precious sensational six I'll dare harm.

The Pickles are all going to the Hannkukah Pagent at the temple, hence the festival, centering on Grandpa Boris. Grandpa Boris is a character i've grown to appricate over the years. The biggest reason is that he's an immigrant... and that fact's fully present and never hidden or fully laughed at. He brings up "the old country" a bunch sure and speaks with an accent.. but they mostly stay away from "HE'S FOREIGN" jokes. He's just Tommy's weirder grandpa and most of the humor comes from his arguments with his wife Inka, which themselves are just refeshingly "old married couple" and not "MARRIAGE IS A SINK HOLE FROM WHICH THERE'S NO ESCAPE".. something really common in rugrats. The major marriages all seem to be happy apart from Betty steamrolling over howard, and even then they seem happy. Granted it could just be that their mutual beards given the revival but they still seem to get along. Borris is just an old man with at thick yiddish accent who comes from russia.

It's also what makes the story work as he has a petty rivarly with his costar Schlomo, which Didi brushes off as "oh their just friends".. which they aren't: Schlomo is egotistical and Boris is resentful and they've hated each other since before they came to this country.

This in turn sets up our fun misunderstanding: The kids search for the "meaning of hannukah".. and see schlomo as the "meanie of hannukah" and want to protect him. It's honestly adorable as is the fact Tommy loves both his grandpas. His bond with Lou's more apparent, but he eagerly jumps in to defend boris as does everyone else.

Sadly the pagent ends up a mess: Schlomo and Boris end up getting worked into a shoot as Schlomo is playing king herrod and the two end up fighting for real, while the babies attacking Schlomo only gets them sent ot daycare. Focusing on that... while I like Didi sometimes... she really is far from the best parent when it comes to reading her children as she's utterly baffled. Deed, A bunch of kids attack a mean man who was attacking someone they clearly like. It's not rocket science. This is why your kids always escape. It's not because of neglect or plot convience, it's because you overanylize simple shit. Which i'll grant is my job 5 days a week, but but your not getting paid for it Didi.

Angelica also got thrown in as she pissed off a dredle she stepped on earlier. I shan't elaborate further. So she tricks the babies into stealing the tv then fights with them over it till it ends up breaking in front of scholomo, whose backstage while a random actor stalls because Stu is struggling to get the menora there on time with Lou. Oh Stu has a b-plot about a massive gaudy menora he made for the play that he had to fix. Only really notable because it's plot relevant and there's a great gag of him and Lou getting stuck in a parade by accident.

The ending is just.. the sweetest thing though: Angelica's tv breaks, so she breaks down and Schlomo has no idea how to calm her.. but Boris does, having them both sit and Scholomo read them the story of hannukah.. and thus when Stu arrives it rises on both rivals having set aside their diffrences to help the kids, all reading peacefully together. It's a touching tribute to the meaning of hannkuah, together and a wonderful capper to the specail as a whole and it's various segments of the babies acting out the story of hannkuah. Which includes tommy leading a fucking army. The reboot have better of had tommy as aragorn in some sort of lord of the rings parody.. or chuckie as bilbo int he hobbit. Jus tsomething tolkien with a lot of death.

This special is truly excellent: touching, informative for us gentiles, sweet and really funny: Angelica's subplot is nice and hilarious and relatable to any kid dragged to church when they'd rather watch holiday specails, and Stu's exists but has that one good gag and pays off real well. Easily the best of the three today.

Rugrats Kwanzaa comes to us late in the series. Santa Experince was early and while I didn't really talk about it in that seciond, Channkuah comes from the early days of the second production run, with slightly smotoher animation, digtial coloring etc by popular demand. BOth at least early enough to have played a ton. In Contrast Kwanzaa is from that era I barely watched the show and Rugrats, while still an instution, was no longer THE show for Nick but just A show for nick. It'd gotten them two great movies, would net them a third movie that's eh later, it'd kinda run it's course.

That being said it still could put out a good episode and a Rugrats Kwanzaa is solid. Admitely part of my love for it is who it focuses on: the Carmicheals, Susie's family. I forget about them as the show rarely used them compared to it's core families: They used Susie plenty but it took till the reboot for them to mingle more actively, and I feel it's a wasted opporunity as Susie's family is one of the most unique. Not just for the obvious reasons of "she's the only black character int he main cast", but that she's the only rugrat with older siblings. Phil and Lil are twins, Chuckie is barely older than Kimmi, but Susie has two older brothers both kids, and a teenage sister. It's a dynamic we don't really see. I ssupect her sibs didn't get as much focus as they can't understand the babies, but it's still neat.

It also drives the episode: Her Aunt T is visiting.. but her jerky older brother Buster, the sportier one and the asshole (Edwin, the geeky slightly older than susie sibling is my faviorite), says she dosen't have talent, something her sister Alisa backs up. So Susie spends the episode in self doubt not helpd that her gift from Aunt T is a scrapbook.. not getting it's signifigance.

Aunt T herself is great, a vivacious woman whose eager to celebrate Kwanzaa with her family, snarks at her nephews and nieces and is generally a hoot deciding to the Kramu, the celebratory dinner, early to bring the family together as the kids are too distracted with their own stuff: Alisa's new phone, Buster being a dick, Edwin.. edwin did no wrong. Edwin is a precious bean. I also love her snarking with Randy, whose career as a children's tv writer she dosen't get, as I forgot how prentetious randy could be. Like don't get me wrong, writing for a children's show is important, but he's a bit pompus about it.

The episode isn't as throught about Kwanzaa but hammers in the important parts of it: it's about your roots, family and what you can do.. and thus poor Susie thinking she has no talent as her sibs all have trophies tries to find one. She is pretty good at hair, having a new hair styling kit she uses on chucky. Chucky rocks those fucking bows. Also the other kids are here, but the focus is Squarley on Susie, something I don't remember the show doing often. She had spotlights and a really good episode at her house with tommy early on, but didn't have a ton of episodes that didn't involve angelica. here she's just.. a kid trying to find herself.

Aunt T Comforting her is touching as you'd expect, explaning it's about family as a whole not being specail and that even if it was.. Susie is. We also get some REALLY fantastic flashbacks over the history to show why susie's mom, Lucy, loves her aunt so much. While we're just meeting Aunt T it dosen't feel forced, everyone has relatives who live out of town, and shows why: It shows her and her husband meeting dr king, aunt t encouraging Lucy to sing in a choir and my faviorite... Aunt T giving LUcy the money to go to harvard. It's a smallt hing but it shows how that shit can be tough. That T was there for her and got her the life she has now. It's a sweet episode.. not much ot talk about honestly and not nearly as personal as Channkuah felt, but still a deeply sweet episode that both shows off it's holiday well and let's susie have an actual showcase, let's her be a character and the others just support. Let's Her family as a whole be the center. I"m honestly shocked their spinoff didn't take off as I think it woudl've been great.

So with that I bid you all a happy holidays. i still have one christmas treat left in the bag, but whatever you celebrate, enjoy it and remember i'm pulling for you we're all in this together.

[tasty-littl-snack]

If ghost files alone becomes more popular then ghost files I will be so mad lmao the only reason I watch ghost files is because of the skeptic/believer dynamic. I wanna support watcher in everything they do, but another ghost hunting show with only the believer sounds pretty boring tbh. I hope I’m wrong though.

Oh I don't think it will for real, seeing as when Shane doesn't appear in videos/on a thumbnail they get less views (compare Shaneless top5 beatdown from this year and the fact that first episode of s3 of ghost files first had Ryan's face in it and then they changed it to Shane's face and it got more views). Also when they first mention it in the podcast even Ryan says he wouldn't want to repeat the experince of ghost hunting alone because he is more scared without Shane there.

I think the way they talked about the new show it in the podcast sounds intriguing. (First as "Locking Ryan in a haunted house in 24hrs", and then in this weeks pod watcher it's more like "Ryan going ghost hunting alone".) With the way people whine about Ryan not being scared anymore I think it's a good move and finally something refreshing to the format. But they talk about it as a separate show I don't think Shane will quit ghost files or they will stop making it.

While I also tune in for their banter first, I think it will be an interesting experiment. What I mean with "it would be funny if it got more popular than the main show" is that oftentimes people are stuck doing a thing just because it works, and there isn't often a chance to tweak it or do what they really want. If Shane doesn't want to be dragged to a ghost hunt and Ryan would really like to do that then maybe they don't need to rely on both of them being in every video so that way they can have more variety in what they're producing. They are trying to make content that they really want to make and I think it's fine for Ryan to try something without Shane for once (Altho the reason this came to be might be something most boring like "Shane has to make puppet history and doesn't have time to go there", which is my theory why we get this before PH airs. Maybe they wanted to make more eps of Ghost files this season like they had 8 mf eps this year but that didn't work out so we get this, but all of this is speculation on my part.)

In the 8 years of them ghost hunting there wasn't a opportunity to try a new content like this, so I'm glad we are finally seeing something new. Like it or not Ryan is more passionate about ghost hunting than Shane and while many tune in for their dynamic some people really watch GF for the finding ghosts evidence, so I think having a mini series where the host is scared and exploring a location alone could tap into the "serious ghost hunting" that Ryan really wants to make, and some people really want to watch. I'm looking forward to it, especially because Ryan edited that show himself,(you can see that mentioned in the podcast and in last week's evidence room) so I'm curious to see how it turns out. It sounds like a passion project for him so I'm glad he gets to make it.

[domaslut]

LOVE ME LIKE YOU.

Starring: Merula Snyde x f!reader

Warnings: none, just fluff!

Plot: you have to pick a date for the incoming Ball and all of your friends seem to have suddenly picked an interest in you. No one, however, made you feel as alive as Merula did. After a tormented night spent wide awake in your bed, you finally confront and confess your feelings to the lovely brat you have fallen in love with.

REQUESTED BY: @btvdc

VALENTINE’S DAY EVENT: “LOVE ME LIKE YOU”.

Quote: “Last night, I laid in bed so blue 'Cause I realized the truth They can't love me like you I tried to find somebody new Baby, they ain't got a clue Can't love me like you”.

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“Let me guess… You haven’t picked a date yet, have you?” Tonks quizzically inquired, plopping down on the empty seat next to you.

“Bingo” you shortly replied, fidgeting with the umpteenth note you had received since the beginning of the week. Where did all of these secret admirers come from? Further more, why did they not sign their gushing letters, if they desperately yearned to be your date for the Ball? You were officially done with them and the absurd situation they were putting you through.

Your pink-haired friend chuckled and propped her chin over her hand, her bright eyes scanning the Great Hall in search for a potential candidate to accompany you to the infamous Ball “What about Andre? He has declared countless times that you’re his muse… I wouldn’t be surprised, if one of these notes has been sent by him?” she observed, pursuing her lips at you.

You averted your droopy eyes from the note to your ravenclaw friend, who was currently showing a new, expensive fabric to a rather joyful Penny. Well, maybe Tonks was not wrong about Andre… But the blonde potioneer was probably one of the other anonymous senders. You thought you had recognized her calligraphy earlier and, judging by the languid glances she was directing to you from across the room, there was no doubt about it. Penny had a crush on you.

“You’re probably right, but I’m not interested in him… And, for what can matter, I’m not going to choose Penny either. – you said, folding your arms over your chest – She’s way too sweet and pure to be my perfect match” you clarified, lolling your head back in dispair.

At this point, you had almost given up on going to the Ball. If a romantic experince had to turn into a stressful loop of anxiety and dissatisfaction, you would have rather spent the night locked up in your dorm, cuddling your pets.

Tonks snickered and stood up, shooting a knowing look at you “Ouch, poor Penny... Well, then I guess I should probably let you know that Tulip heard Talbott and Badeea talking about you in the ravenclaw common room yesterday. – she casually informed you, stretching her arms over her head – Actually, they were arguing. I mean, isn’t it weird? They’re both so calm and rational, then again they’ve lost control over you!”.

Your left eye twitched, your hand ripped up the note in your hand at the shocking revelation. When did she think it was the right time to let you know about it? Not that you were going to consider them as an option in the first place, but you would have surely avoided them down the corridors earlier. Any kind of interaction would have been detrimental in your desperate search for the right date.

“Tonks! – you whined, stomping your foot as a sign of irritation – Is there something else you wish to tell me?” you rhetorically asked her, palming your forehead.

She shook her head and turned her back at you “Nah, I’mma go to bed. And you should do the same!” she replied, ambling towards the exit calmly, as if she had not just dropped a bomb.

She was right. Maybe you were just too tired. And, maybe, you had already made up your mind. You knew who your heart desired, who you enjoyed sharing your meals, or butterbeers with. You had a fling with her. Nothing official, yet something important. You had not kissed many times. Actually, you had barely kissed. However, the way your lips brushed over hers, and the fact that the spark igniting your heart that very night was still vividly stuck in your mind were a clear sign that you were in love with her.

Dragging your feet along the floor, you made your way to your dorm and slipped under the covers without even changing into a proper attire. You were too stressed, too nervous and you struggled to fall asleep for hours. You tossed and turned continously, as you tried to make up your mind. You were conscious that, if you decided to pick her as your date for the ball, this time it would have been forever.

“Fuck it, alright?” you cussed, rolling on your back and staring at the ceiling.

Did anyone else make you feel the way she did? No. Was there someone else residing 24/7 in your mind? Of course no…

“Well… Maybe Barnaby? Argh, who am I kidding? He is always so sweet with me. Just stop, Y/N! I love her! There is no going back. I choose her” you said, maybe a little bit too loud, considering it was 2 o’ clock in the morning. One of your roommate groaned out in frustration and threw a pillow in your direction, that you easily dodged.

“Shut the hell up and ask her out. I wanna sleep...” she ranted, slithering back underneath the blankets to try to get some sleep.

The morning after, you met her at breakfast. You had a very hard time to approach her, especially when Ismelda shot daggers in your direction and seemed to be a minute away from jinx you. Your purple-eyed crush, on the other hand, had no troubles in glaring at her and making you the center of her attention.

“So, what’s the matter? Have you slept last night?” she commenced, cocking her head to the side.

You rolled your eyes at her and rubbed the back of your neck in distress “Please, Merula, don’t make things so damn complicated. – you complained, locking eyes with her – Be my date. I … I’d very much like it, if you just said yes” you blurted out, cheeks flushing up as she stared at you dumbfounded.

“Are you serious?” she asked, blinking skeptically at you.

“Yes, I am”.

“Prove it then” she challenged you, folding her arms against her chest.

You chewed on your lower lip in nervousness, fists clenched at your sides as you pondered her request. You were there, opening your heart to her, making the first step, and she had the audacity of teasing you? Was it not clear enough that you were serious about your proposal? Yet, that side of her personality, what most of your friends loathed about her, was exactly what drove you crazy.

“I love you” you simply quipped then, watching her lips parting in disbelief. Yet, you were done playing games. Sticking up to your intent to make your relatioship official, you cupped her heart-shaped visage in your hands and smashed your lips against her ones.

That was the kiss you had dreamt about for years. That was the kiss you craved and the one you could not wait up until midnight to finally steal from her. Merula was completely shocked, as if a lightning had struck her and she was left fuzzy and disoriented right after it.

“No one is quite like you” you breathed out, pressing your forehead against hers.

She blushed, pulling you in for another brief kiss “I get to have the last word, though. Don’t forget it” she joked, winking at you.

You chuckled and took a step back, bowing your head as a sign of resignation to her umpteenth declaration of her supremacy “See you tonight, miss Snyde”.

AUTHOR NOTE.

Hi there!

Happy Valentine’s Day, guys! This is the first request I had got from my “Valentine’s Day Event”. I will publish the other ones in the next few days. I hope you have enjoyed this drabble♥️

And, if you cannot find me online on tumblr, just text me on my wattpad account: Domaslut! I hang on that platform quite a bit❤️

x o x o

[skytroops]

And we start Year 2 by showing off the roster of the cats who have died since the beginning of the game. Moving forward, I'll start off every yearly update by drawing the cats who've died during that year, so you won't be seeing me draw these guys again unlike the living cats. Also don't expect constant updates--that'd kill my ass.

Now onto our recently (and not so recently) deceased! Coatidance | female | died 103 moons old | righteous / smart While she was alive, Coatidance was an absolute firecracker who tended to leave Kestrelwhisper and Fumblefreckle in the dust. She died after overestimating her own swimming ability and ended up with too much water in her lungs. Coatidance takes her job as the clowder's spiritual guide very seriously and tries her best to make the transition between life and death smoother for her clanmates. Clayfeather | male | died 23 moons old | bold / good teacher Clayfeather took his death rather well, despite dying so young and so soon after the clowder's founding. He sees death as a new adventure, though he is glad that he'll never have to experince drowning again. He has took a shine to Deltapaw, and has promised to help the apprentice in searching for his father's spirit. Kestrelwhisper | male | died 156 moons old | childish / valuable tactician The oldest of the original trio, Kestrelwhisper was very mindful of what he and his elderly mate could do. He dealt with chronic joint pain and started having memory problems after the loss of Coatidance. He realized something was wrong on the night he died, but he decided to spend his last hours watching the sun rise out of the ocean. He still loves Fumblefreckle, but is glad to see him beginning to move on. Deltapaw | male | died 10 moons old | strict While Deltapaw's mentor was officially Tawnyripple, he was usually trained by Slipleap and Cloudlight as a group in his early apprenticeship. Deltapaw wasn't happy about this at first, but he grew to like having them around. He had even started to open up to his Gravelspeck when his life was cut short after he was swept away in a flash flood while out training with Tawnyripple. Now he spends his time with Clayfeather, planning on going out to look for what remains of his father. Savvyshadow | female | died 57 moons old | confident / great teacher Savvyshadow joined the clan after she was saved from a dog by Snipleap, Cloudlight, and Tawnyripple. She had only just begun to settle into life as a clan cat when she died after being caught off-guard by a starving rogue who was protecting their catch. She has become a wandering spirit, but she does try to keep an eye on Snipleap. Snipleap | male | died 29 moons old | righteous Up until his death on moon 23, Slipleap had a relatively good year. He and Cloudlight helped Tawnyripple with training Deltapaw, and had joined Cloudlight in bringing outsider cats into the clowder by simply keeping watch over the dragonpath. He had been left with a badly hurt leg after a rogue attacked him. While he did recover, this leg failed him when he tried getting a cat out of the way of a dragon--resulting in his death.

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

For the Asian QL Ask Game 10 and 17

Hello there!

10.Which Asian ql couple do you think is under appreciated?

Ok. so this is a tough one ( btw I say this to all the questions actually. you see, I think these games are really fun until I have to actually answer and then I have a hard time picking one of anything. ever.) Anyway, so when I saw the question first I thought I could answer this two ways, a couple that is underappreciated because the show is overlooked, or a under appreciated couple from a more well known show. The first one I don't think I wanna go there. And I'd be here all week.

So I'm going with the second option. And even considering that I'm not really sure this is underappreciated or it just suffers from being the side couple on that particular show. I'm talking about these two.

Bo Xiang and Lu Zhi Gang from History 3:MODC. Before anything else, I actually like the show as whole. It's my favourite of the HIStory series. And second their story was beautiful to watch. Bo Xiang was young and inexperienced but he was so earnest in his love for Lu Zhi Gang. So unapologetically in love that Lu Zhi Gang really had no choice but to surrender, and let himself be cared for again. It's definitely one of my favourite side couples in all of BL.

17.What Asian ql would you like to see adapted by another country, and which country?

Ok. So I don't know if I'd want for them to do this exact adaptation but I would love to see Korea do a BL within a BL, like At 25:00 in Akasaka. They have a lot of experince in the drama world in general and I would like to see what they'd do with it. When they want to, they can really bring the angst as well as the happy so I'd be very excited if they did something like that.

Thanks for the questions💜

Asian QL Ask Game

[scuorge10]

Oh I'm actually curious now what's your sona? Or if you'd rather show some more of your ocs I'm interested in learning about them! Maybe some more info on Jesper and Jackson I am such a fan of rival-like relationships lol

My sona is a unicorn! I love unicorns :]

2. I have so many OCs to the point it's kinda a little embarrassing but it is what it is lol. But, if you want more on Jesper and Jackson then I'll give you info on how they started to heavily dislike each other!

Basically;

Jackson didn't start out rich but he did enjoy creating wooden sculptures. Jesper saw this and decided to invest in him, getting his work out there and helping Jackson rise through the social ranks.

Jackson unfortunatly experinces two bad relationships and it made him so insecure about himself and kinda loath himself to a point he decides to leave and stop his business. He wants to wonder around as his life is starting to feel hollow and wants to rediscover himself.

Jesper gets angry at Jackson wanting to leave (because Jesper is a spoiled brat who can't take no for an answer). He argues with Jackson to the point he slaps him out of anger. Before Jackson can fight back with his sword, he is carried out by two guards. Jesper vows that the next time they see each other that he would make Jackson's life a living hell (he's salty af over losing one of his money schemes cause he took half of Jackson's profits).

And they will be meeting each other soon again :)

(Also Jackson never really liked Jesper in the first place so him leaving was kind of a breath of fresh air for him anyways).