#tinygemjournal

[tinygemin-i]

I’m doing so shit at work and I think I’m gonna get fired lol it’s actually not funny

I’m so not the type of person to be fired I’m genuinely hard working and reliable but I just find this job unbearable my boss is awful and I’m so lonely here and I know I’ve been doing shit I just can’t motivate myself to do better and I haven’t told anyone how bad it’s gotten

But yday my boss was screensharing and I saw he had a slack channel called ‘*my name* productivity’ which obviously means they’re talking about how shit I am right?

Every now and then I look at jobs bc I know I can’t stay here but I’m trying to move house I just can’t switch jobs right now until I’ve moved and I seriously can’t get fired it would actually be devastating it would ruin everything I’m freaking out

I’m gonna be ok I think I just need to get my shit together

[tinygemin-i]

I’m seeing friends tonight that I haven’t seen since June last year when I think I was around 180lbs.. I would’ve loved to be at my gw and have them be so surprised but I only started losing weight in June this year

I’m now 150lbs but omg I actually look the fucking same???? Like I really see no difference, I’ve had people notice but I think they’re lying bc bro look at me 😭

Anyway my point is I don’t even think they’ll notice which is so embarrassing but I’m excited to see them we’re gonna go see Wicked

[tinygemin-i]

21/11

Goal: 400

Barr’s cream soda 3

Coffee 18

Golden vegetable cuppa soup 80

2 boiled eggs 143

Protein flatbread with light cream cheese 195

Hot chocolate 148

Total: 587

Exercise: badminton 280

Net: 307

Water: 2500ml

Steps: 2948 (not including badminton)

[tinygemin-i]

I haven’t lost weight for 2 weeks.. well first week of November I lost 4lbs and since then gained it and lost it again so I’m in the same place I was 2 weeks ago.. yeah

This is driving me crazy I need a new LW tomorrow

[tinygemin-i]

19/11

Goal: 400

Coffee 18

Strawberry soothers 45

1/2 Tesco chicken pasta ready meal 243

Protein flatbread with cream cheese 258

Total: 564

Exercise:

Net: 564

Water: 1500ml

Steps: 2319

[tinygemin-i]

18/11

Goal: 400

Co-op iced latte 178

Coffee 18

Bean chilli and reduced fat cheese 360

Total: 556

Water: 2000ml

Steps: 2213

Idk why I wasted so many calories on that coffee that was actually so dumb. And I’m sooo bad at going for walks I actually need to leave my desk tomorrow lol

Under 600 is ok but I wanna keep it under 400 for the rest of the week

[tinygemin-i]

Hello everyone 🩵

I thought I’d do an intro bc although I’ve been here a long time, I’m pretty quiet on here and I’ve never used tags. But I do want to start writing journal entries, and I also would love to find more mutuals and have people to talk to!

So, I’m Cece, I’m a gemini obvs, I live in a little house in England with my boyfriend of 9 years and our 3 cats 🖤 NOT PRO anything, my stats are pinned

I stopped eating at 13, had a lw of 95lbs, ‘recovered’ at 19 (aka swapped one 3d for another), my weight yo-yoed for the next 7 years until I reached a hw of 185lbs, which I maintained for a while and this year finally managed to stop binging on a regular basis, so far I’ve lost 34lbs. Defo too much info that no one asked for but maybe someone can relate 🥲

Anyway that’s it, like I said I wanna chat to more people so messages are always welcome, oh and also this is a side blog so if you get a follow back from quartz-tinted that’s my main! (If anyone knows how to follow from a side blog lmk🥴)

[tinygemin-i]

16/11

Goal: 800

Ham and cheese sandwich 389

Melon 29

Starbucks caramel waffle latte 203

Total: 621

Exercise: incline walk 336

Net: 285

Steps: 3037

Water: 500ml

[tinygemin-i]

Omg I’m supposed to be trying to get more steps in but my lunch break came and went and I didn’t leave my desk i actually annoy myself so much

[tinygemin-i]

age: 28 height: 162cm

sw: 185

cw: 151

waist: 73cm

gw: 105

34/80