#tinygemjournal

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I usually avoid tumblr out of shame after a binge but I wanted to make a list of all the negative feelings that come immediately after and things to remind myself next time

I feel so physically uncomfortable

I feel ugly

My clothes look ugly

Stomach cramps

Teeth feel fuzzy

Gassy

Guilt and self hate

I feel heavy and moving takes more effort

I’m bloated

I feel like a failure with no self respect or control

I feel lethargic

I’m now in a shit mood and taking it out on people around me

I feel sick

I wasted money on mid food when there are 5000 things I’d rather save money for

The short term satisfaction was not worth it. It felt good for literally the few seconds the food was in my mouth and now I hate myself

The cravings will pass

Feeling empty is so much better than feeling full

Idc if you’re on your period. Grow up

F4st1ng/r3strict1ng feels sooooo much more rewarding

However hungry you are right now, you can wait until you get home where there is plenty of healthy food that won’t make you feel guilt

No, you don’t need to buy the box of snacks just to have on hand because you can practise restraint and only have one. You will eat the whole box. Save your money, don’t even go into the shop

I’m further from my goals than I was this morning

I had come this far without binging and now I’ve ruined my progress and have to start again

I’m terrified to weigh myself tomorrow instead of excited to see how much I lost

The longer i go without a binge, the easier it gets

The post binge clarity has me stressing the fuck out but what’s done is done, all I can do now is try to be better.

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I want more cute aesthetic tsp0 (im lazy to go look for it or post it myself i just want it all over my feed lol) any recs for cute tsp0 blogs??

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bf just spontaneously booked us a holiday to Italy for our 10 year anniversary in August….

yeah I’m n0t €ating

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I’m doing the ABC diet starting tomorrow (15th Feb)

(it’s Valentine’s Day and I’m in love so I won’t be tracking cals today)

Rules:

Start from beginning if I make a mistake

Fast days can be 50 cal limit to include a ginger shot or a piece of fruit but only if I’m feeling unwell

Weigh in only every 10 days

If I have an event planned on a low cal day I can swap it for a higher cal day but still must not exceed

Post wieiads with pics daily

10k steps daily

2.5l water daily

Cardio on days of 400 or more

Im lowkey excited to see the result in 50 days and i need some discipline and structure so lets go 🤪

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I fall asleep each night gripping the fat on my body and trying to pull it off. Chat am I normal?

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Idk if this will help anyone but this is how I get over 10,000 steps while having a full time office job without going to the gym

Found a carpark 10 minutes away from work, that’s an extra 20 minute walk each day = about 2,000 steps

If I can, I get to work a bit early and walk around the block before I start

Never take the lift

Get out of my seat at every opportunity and go to a different floor for water, coffee, and toilet breaks

Drink a ton of water so that I need to go toilet frequently

Walk for my whole lunch break. I’m lucky to get an hour for a lunch. I’m in the city centre so I literally just pick a random direction and walk somewhere different each day, 50min walk = about 5,000 steps

By the time I get home I’ve usually done about 8,000 steps

If bf isn’t home I’ll usually spend 20mins getting the last 2,000 in by pacing at home while watching Netflix or something (I would feel weird doing that while he’s around)

If he’s home we might go for a walk together, or I’ll go for another short walk on my own

If I can’t do either of those, I’ll try to get them in with housework, going to the shop or whatever errands I need to do

With housework, I’ll try to do it the most inefficient way possible lol like putting things away one at a time and making multiple trips from room to room and going up and down the stairs

I do go to the gym when I can but I treat it as a bonus and try to have already got my steps in regardless

Honestly, sometimes it’s just not possible. It’s hard as a busy adult if you also spend 8-9 hours sat at a desk. So, if I don’t make 10,000 during the week, I don’t stress too much because I’ll make it up at the weekend

I think it’s mostly common sense but there are little adjustments you can do throughout the day to get more steps in without having to do them all in one chunk okkkk hope this helps someone

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thankful that my friends and family would never guess I have an €d because when I go to eat with them I will eat a normal meal 🫠 but what they don’t need to know is that one meal is 3 days of food bc I didn’t eat the day before or after

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Hi!🦋 I’m Gem, 28 she/her

had 4na since 14, ‘recovered’ at 19 (aka swapped 4na for BED) and my weight literally doubled so I’m back, and I will be my ugw before I’m 30 watch 👀 bc I refuse to spend my 30s the same way as my 20s

currently following this plan with the tag #tinygemapril25

about me and stats below

🦋I live in England with my bf and our 3 cats

🦋I love hiking, fashion, travel, interior design

🦋currently watching: The Traitors

🦋currently reading: The Bell Jar

🦋currently listening to: Tate McRae

🦋currently obsessed with: extinct animals

💎height: 5’4”

💎sw: 190 (May2024)

💎cw: 149 (Mar2025)

💎lw: 95 (Sept2016)

💎41/95

🔓🌸gw1: 175 perfume18/07/24

🔓🎧gw2: 168 headphones09/11/24

🔓🧶gw3: 161 jumpers10/10/24

🔓💄gw4: 154 makeup07/11/24

🔑♊️gw5: 144 tattoo

🔐📚gw6: 135 books

🔐⌚️gw7: 127 watch

🔐🧢gw8: 115 gymshark stuff

🔐🎀gw9: 105 beachwaver & dye hair

🔐👗ugw: 95 new clothes & Apple Watch

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once I get to healthy BMI ima start posting b0dy ch3cks ahhhh im scared tho. I literally never take pics of myself but I kinda wish I had from the beginning for a good before and after. It feels a bit pointless starting now like I’m still too fat for b0dych3cks but also I was fatter but there’s no evidence 🥲

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not sure how relatable this is but my fear of avocados comes from reading Vicky Angel by Jacqueline Wilson at 14 🥑🪽

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I am so pear-shaped my thighs are huge I don’t think I’ll ever get a thigh gap ☹️ I don’t remember ever having one even when I was bmi 16

honestly i wouldn’t even mind as long as i looked skinny but the thing is i get chub rub and it hurts so i want a thigh gap so bad

like am I doomed to have chub rub forever even if I get skinny? What is even the point if I can’t wear shorts and skirts

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Reblogging when I can move my ring to my first finger and my watch strap down a hole

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I binged tonight 🥲 I’m so sad I had been doing super well

Trying to stay positive and remind myself that 1 day shouldn’t ruin my progress, all the same I’m liquid fasting until Tuesday evening

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I’ve started going back to the gym to do weights, nothing too crazy, I just think I will overall look better when I lose weight if I also try to be a bit toned

but oh my life the weigh ins are scary

I may have to fully go like 2 weeks without weighing myself just to let it balance out and not get too disheartened but that is gonna be rough

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I have my waist trainer back finally 🥰 (it was under my car seat and I couldn’t find it for like 3 weeks)

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my period was only 3 days long this time

and before it started I had some brown spotting which is what happened the first time I lost my period years ago.. is it happening????? 👀