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GO WITH IT
MARK LEE (ìŽëŻŒí)
ABOUT đ àŁȘË âhave sex with me so I can finish writing thisâ inspired by this tweet or when mark offers to solve all your problems, it's much better to go with it
WARNING đ àŁȘË language, mark is a bit of a slut, 18+ spiderman kiss (youâll see lmao), allusions to fat cock mark⊠đ”âđ«, overstimulation, unprotected sex, markâs name repeated like 78 times (no seriously, itâs up there), reader bent like a pretzel, orgasm denial, this author loves a comma, a pinch of softdom!mark, silly ending
PAIRING đ àŁȘË bestfriend!mark x bestfriend!reader
WORD COUNT đ àŁȘË 6k
AUTHOR'S NOTE đ àŁȘË a little surprise drop for my favorite neo! i guess it's also a wee bit of a belated birthday gift to him :) i skimmed it for typos and stuff but i unfortunately did not edit it the way i should have, sorrryyyyy hope y'all enjoy! omg also reader's room is yu nabi's from the kdrama nevertheless hehehe
Nobody was busier than your best friend, Mark Lee. Between his job, his vibrant social life, and his weekly family dinners, you were lucky to be offered a slot in his schedule. It was always a yes to Mark Lee. Usually.
The last three times Mark had tried to make plans with you were all failed attempts, and the excuses varied each time. There was nothing shameful about the truth, but you just couldnât bring yourself to tell him that your friendship was being thrown to the backburner while you sloppily attempted to get your life together. He knew all about your small business, taking commissions for art prints and ceramics, but he had no idea how much time and effort went into each piece. Besides, knowing Mark he would offer to help, and that wasnât going to be of service to you in the slightest.Â
All you could do was rot in bed, hoping that something would spark your creative mind to no avail. Frustration was starting to take up every corner of your mindâ from the nonstop orders that you couldnât fulfill, to your supplier raising prices, to the fact that you hadnât had a good date in two years. You were wound too tight to function, and any minute now you were going to start pulling your hair out in chunks.
The sound of the pin-pad at your door let you know that Mark was about to come barreling through. There were so many times that youâd be in strict creation mode, headphones in at full blast while Mark banged at the door pleading for you to answer; when it started to feel like a normal part of your routine, he just requested the code to let himself in. âYo!â
Except, this time, none of that was necessary. Your headphones were stuffed in their case on the other side of the room, workstation completely untouched with your multiple projects stacked on top of each other. Despite the custom orders piling up over the last two weeks, you hadnât had the artistic strength to move forward with any of them. The only thing you could do to buy yourself a little time was to post a message asking for patience and understanding while you navigate some vague emotional hardship. Realistically, though, it would only buy you another week or so before people would start to get angry.Â
âHi.â Perched on a stool near the kitchen island, eyes locked on the cup of coffee you warmed up seventeen minutes ago, you were out of it.
Mark waved a few inches from your face, trying to get your full attention. âHello? Earth to ___, are you okay?â
You snapped out of it, looking over at your best friend to see that he was dressed for a night on the town. âSorry, got a lot on my mind right now.â
White, distressed tank top, loose plaid button-up undone, and his sexiest pair of black jeans. The way the meticulous curls fell around his face, looping around his forehead in a way that feigned boylike wonder. He looked oh so delicious, but you would never tell him thatâ his ego was big enough for the both of you. âAnything I could help with?â
A stifled chuckle barely reached his ears before you cleared your throat, turning toward him with renewed energy. âNo, not really.â
Mark put his phone and keys down on the counter, taking a quick intermission to wash his hands before walking back over to you. Heâd never been in your apartment in this way beforeâ an unannounced hangout where youâre clearly just a stop along the way, being so underdressed in his presence. Heâd seen you in a swimsuit before, but something about a big shirt and underwear felt far more intimate than the two strips of fabric. âThis is like the third time youâve curved me, if you hate me just say that.â
âOh, youâre so fucking dramatic. Iâm just busy.â You shoved at his shoulder, urging him to take a seat so you wouldnât feel so awkward with him standing over you. He refused cooly, taking a look around your apartment to make sure you hadnât been aimlessly rotting since the last time he stopped by.
âEven I'm not that busy. Whatâs going on?â
âIâve justâŠâ You sighed heavily, a breath you didnât even know you were holding in. Talking about everything wrong in your life felt far too heavy, too much to divulge to a friend seemingly just doing a wellness check. âI think Iâve bitten off more than I can chew, and Iâve got all these creative blocks that wonât go away and honestly I just need to be fucked like properly fucked to get my juices flowing again but all of the men worth giving it up to are in hiding.â
Mark stood there, mouth agape in disbelief. He did ask, after all. âWoah.â
âYeah.â It felt embarrassing to hear laid out like that, but there werenât too many secrets between you and Mark in the first place. Your sex lives werenât off limits for discussion, and the two of you had plenty of chats that were NSFW in nature. But blurting out how badly you needed to be railed? That was a new one.
The silence spoke for itself, apparently. You didnât want to chance a glance up at him, but you knew that youâd have to say something. Maybe something to cover your ass, let him know that youâre well aware how âTMIâ that was. Or evenâ
âIâll fuck you.â
You nearly choked on air,âWhat?!â Now you had no choice but to look at him, scanning the twinkle in his eyes in search of sincerity.
âIâm really good, too.â He took a step towards you, eyes never leaving yours as his hands found home in his shirt pockets. This was a side of Mark you rarely got to seeâ charming, smooth, confident. There were times, namely on nights out, where youâd get a taste of it, watching him chat it up in some dark corner with the prettiest girl youâd ever laid eyes on. But this, being on the receiving end? Watching his eyes drink you in like sweet tea on a balmy Southern summer afternoon? It was enough to make your heart skip several beats.Â
âMarkââ
The smile he cracks at you makes you embarrassed for even considering it. âIâm just messing with you, geez,â Heat takes over your face as you try to hide it from him, palms rubbing at your cheeks as your heartbeat tries to find its resting rate. âAlthough, given that reaction, maybe I shouldnât be.â
âShouldnât be what?â
âMessing with you. Joking, rather. I can definitely mess with you, if you want,â Running so hot and cold in such a short window of time has you shivering under his gaze, scared to make the wrong move and ruin what youâd beg him for. âHm? Is that what you want?â
The air is thick with anticipation, nothing but the consistent drip from a ceiling leak as the soundtrack to your staring contest with Mark. He was so close to you in all of his Friday night glory, cologne a cloud around you as the heat from his chest permeated your personal space. You were certain that just one taste, just one night in the throes of passion with a curly haired Mark Lee would solve all of your problems. If you closed your eyes, you could picture itâ sweaty bodies intertwined amidst the sweltering heat of your studio after dark, the fanning of his breath in your face as he rocks into you, his strong frame caging you into the bed so all you can focus on is Mark, Mark, Mark! His sighs and whines of pleasure flooding your senses so theyâre all you can pay attention to, just his voice and his unrelenting pace as heâ â___,â The sound of your name on his tongue snapped you out of your lustful haze. âOfferâs about to expire, baby.â
Mark slipped his jacket off without breaking away from you, dropping it carelessly on the floor while your attention wandered to his arms. He seemed to know exactly what he was doing, crossing his arms against his chest as he awaited your answer. âYouâre serious? This isnât some cruel prank where if I say yes, youâll tell me it was just a joke?â
âThatâs not my idea of a prank, princess, whereâs the fun in that?â Mark licked his lips, a faint smirk taking over. âLook, if youâre uncomfortable, we can pretend this never happened,â His fingers ghost along the side of your face, sweetly making their way to your lips. âBut if it were up to me? Iâd have you seven ways to Sunday all over this apartment.â
That was all you needed to lunge into a kiss with him, throwing him slightly off guard as you practically tossed yourself into his arms. But his lips were ready for you, steaming hot and sopping wetâ just the way you like it. The smush of your lips together so suddenly garnered the sweetest moan from him, just enough to tease you of whatâs to come. His arms wrapped around your torso like a claw machine, pulling you so flush against him as though he was afraid youâd slip through his fingers.Â
Your lips were still tingling as he pulled away to lap kisses against your neck, peppering anywhere his lips could reach. âM-Mark, hmngh.â
It was no secret that Mark had a bit of a reputation in the bedroom, but you never thought youâd witness it firsthand. His hands delved blindly to your legs, hoisting you around his waist so he could move you over to your bed. You almost had a mind to remind him of the three big steps up to your bedroom area, but he was far suaver than you gave him credit forâ this wasnât exactly his first rodeo.
He tossed you on the bed, the slight recoil exhilarating before he was all over you again. âIf a proper fuck is what you wantâŠâ His kisses had shifted to your chest, lips and tongue sucking in the essence of your skin like he couldnât bear not to. He was almost more excited than you were, his touch reaching anywhere and everywhere all at once, like he couldnât get enough of exploring everything you had to offer. It was all starting to feel real as Mark made a move to lift up your shirt and the implication of your best friend seeing you naked caught up with you.
âWait, wait. Weâre gonna see each other naked.â
Mark, with the fabric of your shirt caught in his teeth, stared at you blankly. âYeahâŠâÂ
âShouldnât that be weird?â
He rolled his eyes playfully, squeezing at your hip with the hand closest to it. âMaybe, but how do you suggest we fuck then? Through my jeans?â He pulled your body swiftly down the mattress so you could feel how hard he was through your panties.Â
âShut the fuck up, oh, my God.â
âI was trying to before you got all weird and jittery,â Mark made a move for your shirt again, and this time you didnât fight him on it. The balmy air hit your pert nipples the second they were exposed, and Mark couldnât stop the gruff noise that formed in his throat. âJust as pretty as I imagined.â You squirmed at the compliment, cheeks heating up at the sight of him drooling over you. âLike that? Hm? Are you my pretty girl?âÂ
His lips wrapped around the peak of your breast, tongue swirling to the same pattern his thumb and forefinger followed on your other nipple. âYes!â It was embarrassing, how fast you succumbed to his commands. He struck with confidence, maneuvering his way around your body like heâd done it before. âIâm your pretty girl.â
âSo sexy saying that for me, baby,â Your legs part instinctually to make more room for him, and Mark took that as his sign to shift gears. âYou know⊠sometimes, every now and then, Iâd think about you. If I needed a little extra push towards ecstasy, youâd pop in my head. Think about the way youâd look if I got my hands on you. How youâd feel, how youâd taste,â His fingers prodded at the growing wet patch on your underwear. âGonna let me see?â
Your back arched off the mattress, hands pulling him impossibly closer to you. âMark, please stop asking, just do it.â
âMm, say âpleaseâ again.â
âMark!â
His laugh would be even sexier if it werenât at your expense. âAlright, fine.â Your panties stayed on as his tongue lapped at your folds through them, the flimsy cotton doing absolutely nothing to stop him from devouring you. You jerked at the feeling as his tongue licked a bold strip through your folds, your hands entangling themselves in his curly locs. âYouâre so wet, holy shit.â
One quick motion moved your panties to the side, puffy wet lips on full display for his greedy eyes. His eyes sparkled at the sight, mouth watering at the mere thought of getting to taste you. âSmell so good, pretty girl.â He was so hungry and you were the only one who could satiate him. His tongue had a mind of its own, pressing flat against your folds without a second thought, âTaste even better.â
Markâs grip on your thighs held you in place as he licked you clean, running his tongue against every nerve-ending he could feel for. He pulled them apart just enough to spread you out for him, just enough to be on full display for him. Your taste occupied every corner of his mind as he blacked out in pleasure, lapping up every drop your gushing pussy offered up.
He circled your clit until you saw stars, your squirming uncontrollable as his tongue darted inside of you. âYouâre so good to me.â
Mark groaned between your thighs, in love with the praise you were showering him with. There was something about how natural and seamless it was for you to compliment him that turned him on even more, if that was possible. âI don't think I'll ever get enough of how you taste, Christ.â
His free hand slithered up your torso, sinking his thumb into your eager mouth while his continued working at your core. He wasnât shy, either, licking boldly from your ass to your clit while shaking his tongue side to side. Slurping up every drop that dribbled out of your entrance, twisting his tongue as far inside of you as he could reach. You were dripping down his chin by the time he introduced his fingers, prodding at your glistening hole with just one to test the waters. He took the way you gripped onto his hair as his sign that you were more than enjoying it. âF-feels good, oh, God.â
âMm, donât be shy.â
Laving at your clit, he drank up the praises the way he was drinking you up. He only pulled away to fully discard your panties, diving back into center with renewed vigor. âNeed more.â You didnât want to push him any closer to you, scared youâd smother him, but he didnât seem afraid to drown. Heâd awoken something desperately greedy inside of you, and you were slipping further into a haze of pleasure with every passing moment. Two fingers pressed their way inside of you, pumping slowly to get you adjusted before the jerk of your hips told him to pick up the pace. You couldnât hold still with the way he was devouring you, mouth and hands prying you open deliciously all for his enjoyment. He would die between your thighs if you let him, youâre sure of it.
You had to physically pull him off of you to get him to stop, orgasming bubbling inside of you in record time. âWant you inside of me already.â The entirety of the lower half of his face was a sticky mess of your arousal, from his nose to his chin completely covered in you. âBro, you need to wipe⊠that.â Times like these, you were glad that you kept tissues on your nightstand.
âYou cannot and will not call me âbroâ now that I know what you taste like. How insulting.â
It hadnât dawned on you that Mark was still fully dressed, sans his plaid jacket-shirt that was curled in a sad pile on the floor. âIs that an order?â
He bit at his lip, eyes darkening as he drank in your bare figure sprawled beneath him. Your hands ran themselves up and down his arms, finally getting a chance to admire his body after all the focus was turned to you. Maybe it was the lighting, the way his hair fell over his eyes, or just the fact that he was the best kisser youâd had the pleasure of test drivingâ but he looked divine. Halo of light circling his head as he fumbled with his belt, biceps flexing as he lifted the tank top off of his lean frame. Suddenly, he wasnât your friend anymore; he was something new entirely.
You were so lost in your own adoration of him that you hadnât noticed he was undressed, pulling you directly underneath him as he kissed at your collarbones. âWhereâd you go off to, huh?â
âItâs nothing,â you shook your head, snapping back to reality (which was so much better than whatever was going on in your will they-wonât they fantasy). âThank you, for this.â
Mark didnât respond with words, instead opting to kiss you softly, tenderly. Slowly, deeply, passionately kissing you as he lowered himself atop of you. He wasnât in a rush anymore, pulling you into him like you were made of glass, grinding against your center like you had all the time in the world. Everything was so delicate, like he was savoring the moment for years to come. It scared you, if you were being honest. âMark? You know you can still kiss me while youâre inside of me, yeah?â
He hummed in approval, connecting your mouths again in a slow, languid kiss, tongues slithering into each other's mouths and twisting messily. You could feel him lining up with your entrance, his hand wrapped around his girth to guide himself into you steadily. Chancing a look down, you tried to hide the way your eyes bulged out at the sheer size of himâ he would never let you hear the end of it if you fawned over how huge he was. It took all of your willpower to remain still, your body welcomed him as though it had hundreds of times, the shape of him slotting inside of you like he was made to. His fingers tangled in your hair, angling your head so he could travel to your neck, groaning out his praise against your sticky skin. The absence of his lips on yours made you whine, hands wandering the expanse of his back just for confirmation that this was real. âTell me how it feels.â
You couldnât. Months of the worst dry spell youâd ever experienced coming to a head with Mark milking you for everything you had couldnât be described. All you could do was moan, coiling around him even tighter as he started to rock his hips forward as though he was testing the waters. He was the only thing you could focus onâ his scent, his taste, they way his nose pressed right against yours, the feeling of his fingers intertwining with yours against the mattress, the dionysian desire his hips were fulfilling. It was all just Mark, Mark, Mark. âMark!â His teeth couldnât resist nipping at your lip, pulling on it playfully before letting go to let his tongues soothe the area.
âI canât help it, youâre so fun to play with.â He kissed you to make up for the quick dot of pain, relishing in the way you immediately kissed him back with just as much enthusiasm.
âIâm, Iâm close.â
He spread your legs further apart to give himself more room to buck his hips, pressing at your thighs as he fucked into you faster. âHold it.â
âWhyyyy?â
âYou asked for the Mark Lee experience,â His thrusts grew pointed, almost exaggerated as his hips drove forward with precision, âand Iâm gonna give it to you.â
You could feel yourself teetering dangerously close to the edge, stomach coiled tight and lungs working overtime. The mere thought of being denied your orgasm was getting you worked upâ you hate not getting your way. Your legs wrapped around Markâs waist, locking your ankles together for good measure. If he wanted to play games, you were down for it. âHarder.â
But instead of faster, Mark slowed to a complete stop, hands drifting down to your hips to pin them to the mattress. âOh, baby, do you think Iâm stupid?â He chuckled in your face, shaking his head as the laughter subsided. âThatâs a sure fire way to get nothing.â
âWait, no, please! I didnât mean it.â
The damage had already been done. His patience with you was wearing thin, and he didnât take kindly to disobedience. âHave you learned your lesson?â Each second that passed stole a piece of your orgasm away with it, that delicious ball of tension and heat simmering down to a cool pit of nothing the longer Mark held your hips down. Your heart stopped fluttering with urgency, slowing to its resting rate as you dealt with the consequences of trying to outsmart your best friend. âSpeak up, baby.â
âYes,â You hissed out, annoyed that your declaration of needing to be fucked was currently going unanswered. Who is he to deny you of the very thing he promised you? âI learned my lesson.â
It was exactly what he wanted to hear, âGod, youâre so sexy when you behave yourself.âÂ
You rolled your eyes, slapping his chest as he pulled away from you entirely. âWhat happened to âhaving me seven ways to Sunday all over this apartmentâ?âÂ
It was Markâs turn to roll his eyes, fingers running through his hair as he sat back on his heels. âUp against the wall.â You did as he said, spreading your hands against the wall as you felt him behind you, lining himself up with your sodden entrance. The inward arch felt unnatural at first, but you settled into it as you got comfortable in it. âLook up at me.â Mark was towering over you, quite literally. From this angle, all you had to do to see his face was look up and there he was with that devilish smile. His cock pressed into you as you watched him, the sheer thickness splitting you clean open for him, sucking him in like your pussy had been waiting for him. âFuck, you feel so good.â
Maybe it was the taboo of sleeping with a friend, but your body was on fire. You felt your entire body heating up at the sudden change in his demeanor, switching your flirty best friend to a man absolutely starved. With your eyes screwed shut, you reached a hand out to hold onto his arm, fingers giving it a squeeze, head bumping the bare skin of his chest.
âFuck.â
You were even wetter than you were while he had you pinned to the mattress, the feeling of being filled by him more electrifying after a brief intermission. He was all over you again and that was all that mattered, walls tightening around him with a vice-like grip that had both of you gasping for air.
âShit,â he hiss, already lost in the sensation, âso good to me, ___, so fucking good.â He emphasized the last syllable with a gentle thrust that had your nails scratching at the wall. Your orgasm was building back up faster than you wouldâve liked it to, considering you knew Mark wouldnât let you cum so soon after denying you.
It hit you deeply, in all the right places at the right angle. Mark was that good from the start, and you couldnât believe youâd been missing out on it. If you knew he was this goof, you wouldâve ruined the friendship ages ago. âSo fucking deep, Mark, keep going like that,â you moaned, just as caught up as he was.
He captured your lips in a searing kiss, fucking into you with much more vigor than before, gripping your ass with such force you half expected to see the dents after. You moaned all you had to say, all you had to feel into each otherâs mouths. When his velvety tongue enveloped yours you could almost taste the remnants of your arousal and the chocolate muffin he ate right in between sweeping and mopping. The water was still running, hitting part of his back and your leg.
You couldnât pull away from him even if you triedâ he was a part of you now, molded into each otherâs bodies until you became one. âWanna keep fucking you forever,â he groaned, pouring his all into every touch. âKeep you on me forever.â
It threw you for a loop. Keep you forever? Mark was a lot more emotional than he let on, sure, but you couldnât shake the feeling that he meant it in ways other than platonic. You couldnât even stop him to ask what he meant by that because he was so deep in your guts that you were starting to feel him in your throat.Â
âDonât stop,â you cried out, biting your lip when he hit a certain spot inside you and kept hitting it over and over againâ the taste of blood didnât stop you. âDonâtstopdonâtsopdonâtstop-â Â
âFuck,â he whisper, voice strained and raspy, smacking at your ass before gripping it and bringing you down to meet his increasingly harsh thrusts, the slap echoing throughout your studio apartment. âWanna fuck you forever, baby.â One hand kept its vice grip on your hip while the other grasped at your neck, forcing you to maintain eye contact with him. âGimme a kiss, pretty girl.â Your lips found his despite the blurring of your vision, a supple lock as he steadied rocking into your core. Kissing him upside down felt worlds away from the first kiss you shared with him, and yet you still couldnât get enough of it. The hand on your hip slithered up to cup your breast, rolling your nipple as he pulled away from the kiss. âSo obedient.â
All the shame had disappeared from your body, the satisfaction of finally being fucked numbing you to his quips completely. His name was on the tip of your tongue, begging to be set free, but the way his hips ricocheted off your ass made you short circuit. Your skin was hot to the touch, goosebumps littering the expanse of your body as your toes curled around the fabric of your duvet.Â
âWho knew you were such a dirty girl, hm?â Mark tutted. You hold back your moans, reveling in the sensation of his tip sliding up and down you dripping folds. Interrupting his own rhythm just to get a rise out of you, giving you no warning before shoving himself right back in.Â
âBet this was your plan all along,â You ignore the fact that he technically initiated all of this, too blissed out to snap back at him cheekily. âDripping all over my cock, fuck.â Heâs thinking out loud, eyes locked at the way your pussy invites him in, grip unrelenting with each thrust. He drew his hips back again to repeat the same unforgiving tempo, laughing to himself at the way your thighs shake in anticipation.
âWanted this for so long.â You whine, bashful about the confession rolling off your tongue so easily. Mark had always occupied a special part of your mind, but the barrier of your friendship with him always kept you from thinking of him in that way for too long. Heâs hot, sure, and one of the most genuine guys youâd ever metâ but risking that by dating him felt too stupid to risk.
Mark didnât keep you waiting for too long, filling you to the brim with one stroke that had your toes curling. You gasp, a shiver running up your spine as he adopts a frenzied pace that nearly knocks you into the wall in front of you. âYouâre so fucking warm.â He canât help but moan out at the feeling, clutching onto your hips as he pistons in and out of you. Blunt fingers digging into your skin as you let your body fall forward. You felt so full.
âMark, fuck.â you whine, probably a tad too loud considering how thin the walls feel at night but you couldnât help it, with the way he held onto you and fucked you like he had never had good pussy in his life. âFaster.â
âWhereâd your manners go? Say âpleaseâ.â He teased, testing your obedience despite knowing youâd obey him. There was just something about knowing he held your pleasure in the palm of his hands, knowing that youâd do anything he asked of you.Â
âPlease, please, please Mark, need you so bad.â It sounded pathetic, and it only makes Markn screw his eyes shut as he fucks you harder. All control lost as he watches the drool drip from your mouth down the wallâ he was really fucking your brains out.
Mark's rough groans were slowly morphing into needy moans, the sound causing even more slick to build up between your legs. âTaking my cock like such a good girl.â And you really were, considering you had nothing but the wall to grip onto, you let your body go wherever Mark led it. Each thrust sending you closer and closer to your climax, his dick hitting every single spot that youâre sure youâd see stars.
âIâm gonna cum, fuck.â
âYouâre gonna cum? Mm, you can cum. Cum all over my dick, lemme see that pretty face.â You arched inward one last time for him, looking up at the man sending you to heaven and back on a loop. âThere you go. Good fucking girl.â Mark smacked your ass sharply, holding onto your ass as he switched his rhythm to harsh, precise thrusts that were sure to throw you over the edge of pleasure. He kissed your forehead as the growing tension in the pit of your stomach snapped, your walls contracting around him in a tight frenzy that nearly triggered his own. He didnât slow down, though. The clutching of pussy did absolutely nothing to deter him from fucking you with the same rigor, hips just as quick as they were before he finally let you cum.
âM-Mark, I donâ...â The aftershocks of ecstasy silenced you in your tracks, the sparks of pleasure like electricity through your bloodstream. âDonât stop.â
He laughed at the change of your tune, thumb flitting down to flick at your clit. âBaby needs more? Havenât had enough yet?â
Even with him poking fun at your desperation, you were too drunk on his cock to care. All you could manage was a chorus of fuck me, fuck me, fuck me as Mark held you flush against him. âGod, yes, fill me up like that.â Your arousal was dripping all over the inside of your thighs, the sticky slick glistening under the moonlight that peaked through your curtains.Â
âThatâs right, Iâm not fucking done with you yet, pretty girl.â This side of him was lethal. He was insatiable, obsessed with the way your body responded to him, greedy for the way you bent to his every whim. It was such a change of pace from the way he was kissing you in missionary, the way he treated you like a doll that he was afraid of hurting you. âFeel good?â
He was mocking youâ of course, it was good. You didnât have to tell him that for him to know; but feeding his ego was so addictive. The way heâd reward you for praising him was enough for you to fall for the trap every single time. âSo, good, Mark, hngh.â
The smack of his hips against your ass bounced off the walls, echoing the depravity that you and Mark were oh so good at acting on. All of your senses on overdrive, the overstimulation pulling at you from every end, you werenât sure if you could take it all for much longer. Drool slipped from your mouth onto Markâs arm, the edges of your vision blurring as you could feel yourself bubbling over. âGonna cum again?â
ââm gonna cum again.â
He was drunk with the power of controlling you. âHold it.â
âMark, I canât.â You were surprised you were even able to do it the first two times he commanded it, not used to having gratification delayed against your wishes.
âGonna fill you up and then you can cum.â It only took a few more targeted thrusts before he was spilling his seed into you, an endless leak of evidence of what took place over the last hour or so. Even as his cock began to soften, he made sure to fuck you through it, massaging tight circles into your clit until your legs spasmed. The air was snatched from your lungs, eyes flittering shut in sweet relief. It was only two orgasms, but the build up had really taken it out of you. Mark flipped you over gently on your back, brushing the hair out of your face as you sleepily opened your eyes.
âLook at that. Take a look at the mess we made, baby.âÂ
He gestured between your legs, a slippery canvas of cum smeared across your most intimate parts. âSo muchâŠâ You couldnât stop yourself from gathering some on your fingers, popping them into your mouth for a taste of the two of you mixed together.
Your brain was on fire, neurons alight with the molten sensation that was Mark Lee. Even though you took him up on the offer, you werenât expecting him to completely change your world. A solid orgasm and a pat of the back, maybe. But now you were afraid that he was your new addiction that youâd never be able to feed.Â
You woke up in a fresh sleep shirt to the smell of toasted bagels and coffee. Mark balanced the plates and mugs the best he could as he tackled the steps leading up to your bedroom area. âMorninâ sleepyhead.â
âWhat time is it?â
He shoved a mug of steaming coffee into your hands, kissing you on the forehead. âDonât worry about that. You were exhausted, wanted to let you sleep.â
âThank you.â The coffee was exactly to your liking, just what you needed after a night of fucking like rabbits. âSo, should we talk about⊠it?â
Blush rose to his cheeks and there was no hiding it, his hair pulled back into a messy bun so his face was on full display. âI mean, only if you want to? Iâm okay with proceeding however you want to.â
âYouâd be fine staying friends? Never talking about it? Pretending that nothingâs changed?â
He shrugged, âif thatâs what you wanted, then yeah.â His attention shifted to his breakfast, eyes zeroed in on his eggs and toast like it was a gourmet meal. âJust donât wanna make you feel weird about it, you know?â
âMark?â You placed your coffee and plate down on your bedside table, turning your full attention to him as he continued to avoid your gaze. âWhat did you mean by all the âkeep you foreverâ stuff then?â
He rushed to try to explain himself, scrambling his words into a whole lot of nothing. âItâs not, like, a big deal or anything. I just get possessive⊠in bed, sometimes. Iâm not a weirdo or anything, I promise.â
None of that mattered to you anyway, your dreams of Mark that clouded your head all night giving you the push you needed to throw caution to the wind. Would it be the worst thing in the world to risk it all with him? One kiss, chaste and sweet, was enough to shut him up for just a moment. âSo if I said we should try exploring further, maybe go on a date or something, youâd say yes?â
His eyebrows shot up to his hairline, mouth falling agape as he searched your face for any signs that you were being facetious. âY-yeah, yes. If thatâs what you want.â He was so bad with his feelings, sometimesâ but you were more than willing to be patient.
âWell, good, because thatâs what I want.â
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can you make one with matt murdock where they're good friends but one night they're drinking and having fun and then the reader kiss him but when they making out he ends up saying someone else name and the reader leaves, later on they talk and reader apologizes for misreading their relationship and continue to be friends but theres tension in it until bradley finally admits that he likes her and he try to make up for all the time lost
~Friends Don't Treat Me Like You Do~
Pairing: Matt Murdock x Reader
Word Count: 3k
Warnings: none really, embarrassment?? Alcohol consumption, mentions of injuries (nothing major)
Genre: mostly fluff very minor angst
Summary: You've had a crush on your friend for a very long time and when you finally make your move it goes terribly wrong; And that's why friends should sleep in other beds // and friends shouldn't kiss me like you do ... // my friends won't love me like you - Friends by Ed Sheeran
A/N: I know it's a typo of some sort but it's sending me to the moon that the name Bradley is jus thrown into this ask cuz I can't even figure out what it's replacing lmaoooo anyway thank you for requesting! I hope you like it anon! :3 (also I didn't edit this plz be nice)
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Your friendship with Matt Murdock is in some ways rather unconventional. You've been friends for many years, but these days most of your interactions consist of him stumbling over to your apartment at odd hours covered in bruises you don't ask about- not because you don't want to know but because you're pretty certain you've guessed it and you're not sure what acknowledging it would mean. So you don't ask, instead, you give him food, and tend to his wounds, and talk to him about whatever comes to mind until he inevitably falls asleep on your couch for a few hours and sneaks out early enough to go back to his place for his day job as a defense attorney with his two friends. Both of whom you'd consider friends- although not nearly as close as you are with Matt.
Tonight Matt's invited you over to his place. Apparently, he's been feeling a bit guilty that most of the time you've spent together in recent days has been just him coming over in the middle of the night. As if you'd ever actually be annoyed with taking care of your friend. Your friend you feel for more than he can ever know. Still, he insisted you come over for dinner so you did, he ordered your favorite from a takeout place near his place and now you're eating and drinking wine you brought along with you. Well, you're drinking wine, Matt's been helping himself to the beers filling his fridge.
"Whenever you come over I do all that talking Matty so today you can do the talking this time. Tell me what you've been getting up to lately." You tell him once you've covered asking each other how your day was.
"I don't do anything interesting y/n- I go to work, spend all day reading or writing lengthy opening statements or discussing things with Foggy and our clients until ungodly hours according to Karen. Sometimes they drag me out to Josie's but- there's really nothing I 'get up to' and you know that."
"Why do you do that?" You frown.
"What?"
"Make yourself seem so dull when you're not."
"Excuse me?"
"I've known you for a long time Matt and I can't think of single period of our lives where you had nothing interesting going on and yet you always talk about yourself as if you're the color beige personified. It's like you're worried that if people think you're too interesting they'll," you trail for a moment "find out something."
"What does that mean?"
"Nothing in particular. You're just way more interesting than you want people to think. For some reason."
"And what about you?"
"What about me?"
"You're not exactly an open book either."
"You got something to ask me about Matty?"
"No." He shakes his head. You stare at him for a long moment.
"We should play a game!" You announce.
"I don't really- have games?" Matt says.
"There are tons of games that don't require having anything Matt we just have to pick one."
"Like what?"
"We can play 20 questions- the right way, last letter first letter, I'm not a fan of Ghost but we can do that too, or word replacement- to name a few."
"I'm- not familiar with those besides 20 questions?"
"Well, last letter first letter you pick a category and we name items except the last letter of one item has to be the first letter of the next one so like if we're naming office supplies and I say stapler you'd say something like ruler. And Ghost is a spelling game, kinda like hot potato meets Horse the basketball game- so like you take turns spelling a word and you don't wanna be the one who finishes the word- if you do then you get a letter from the word ghost- first person to finish ghost loses. And then word replacement is just a silly game where you pick a movie or show title and change one of the words to the silliest thing you can think of." You explain quickly.
"Let's do the title one. Requires the least amount of thinking and I don't have to compete with you." He says.
"Then I'll start. Fast and Constipated." You giggle.
"Fast and Constipated!?" Matt's laugh is incredulous.
"Yeah, fast and furious but not so fun."
"Okay um- John Tucker Must... Juggle."
"That's way less fun than him dying." You laugh.
"True."
"What a Chupacabra wants."
"Goats- obviously."
"Shut up." You giggle.
"Now you- resent me 2."
"Oh that's- why would you say that?" You chuckle.
"I dunno I'm too drunk to think of movies." He mutters.
"All I've got are rom-coms in my head and those titles are not nearly as fun to fuck with. Two weeks- paleontologist?"Â
"Paleontologist!? What movie was that even supposed to be?"
"Two weeks notice. Duh."
"I don't think I know that one." He frowns.
"It's about a woman who ends up working as the PA for some rich businessman when she tries to protest something he's trying to build- I forget the details but he turns out to be a giant useless manchild and when he disrupts her personal life for something frivolous she tries to quit but somehow they fall in love or whatever. It's been a while since I've watched it honestly." You shrug.
"Rom-coms are such a curious collection of movies."
"True but that one is pretty average compared to some others I've seen."
"Do you watch a lot of them?"
"I like to laugh at them mostly." You say. "You know what's a weird one? The Notebook."
"Is that not like- a classic?"
"I mean yeah but like the guy gets the girl to go on a date with him by dangling off of a moving ferris wheel."
"And that works?"
"Somehow! I mean I guess she didn't wanna feel responsible for him dropping himself off the wheel in front of an audience but I dunno it seems like he was just looking for reasons to die in that movie." You explain. "Although I never finished that movie maybe he does die. Except then it wouldn't be a rom-com I guess. It would be more tragedy, like in the Shakespearean sense."
"You are always somewhere else." Matt laughs.
"Not always! Oh! I brought that CD you wanted to borrow. We should play it." You sit up suddenly and grab your backpack.
"Are you sure all you've had is that bottle of wine?" Matt asks sitting up slowly from where he's laying on the floor.
"Where's your player?" You ignore his question.
"Should be in the bookcase." He waves absentmindedly.
"Do you want another beer while I'm up?" You ask walking over to the radio to pop the CD.
"Nah. I'm good thanks." He says. Music fills the apartment, and you can't help but sing along to the upbeat tune from Matt's CD player. You dance, well mostly spin, around the apartment giggling as you go.
"Are you dancing?" Matt turns towards you with a smile on his face although you're not looking at him.
"Of course I am- I love this song. Do you wanna dance with me?" You ask walking towards him, still dancing but less now so you can get where you're going.
"No no- I'll leave the dancing to you." Matt says before you make it all the way over to where he's sitting on the floor.
"Suit yourself." You shrug but when you attempt to change directions you trip on your backpack still on the floor and go tumbling towards the ground. Matt moves quicker than you'd expect for a blind guy off several beers but his arms shoot out and yank you towards him before your head hits the hardwood.
"Careful y/n." He says softly as he settles you into his lap.
"Do I need to be if you're here?" You joke smiling at him as you toss your arms over his shoulders.
"Y/n-" Matt's tone is warning in a way only he could get away with using on you.
"Relax Matty, I know to look after myself." You say quietly. Matt frowns slightly as if he's going to protest, but you don't let him get the words out. Alcohol coursing through your system, you seize the opportunity of his closeness and kiss him before you can talk yourself out of it. Matt lets out a noise of surprise, he heard your heart rate spike sure but he couldn't have guessed this was why. His lips move against yours for a second before something catches his attention and he's gasping out a name. Except, it's not your name.
"Karen." He breathes and it reaches your ears like a bucket of ice water dumped on your head. You jerk back suddenly.
"Oh my god-" You say scrambling out of his lap. "I- I am so sorry. I'm gonna go." You grab your bag and b-line it for the exit before Matt can even get to his feet.
"H-hang on a second y/n I-"
"I'll- I'll see you around Matt." You force yourself to say before leaving his apartment. You feel sharper than the amount of wine you've had should allow as you walk the few blocks to your place. Only once you're back in the safety of your own home do you let yourself wallow over how absolutely embarrassing that was. You might have just ruined one of the most important relationships in your life only for him to call out for another girl. You stumble into the shower in hopes of washing away some of the embarrassment you feel, or at the very least distracting yourself enough that you can shelf it and get some sleep. You spend hours tossing and replaying the moment excruciatingly but eventually, exhausting wins out and you do fall asleep. The next couple of days you pretty much ignore Matt's calls and texts. You really bury yourself in work to avoid dwelling on that awful night but you know you can't dodge him forever. Evidently, two days is as much as Matt's willing to give you to do so because on day 3 of avoidance he comes knocking at your door late at night as he sometimes does.
"Look- I know you've been avoiding me and all but-"
"Whatever you're gonna say Matt no need. I'm sorry I overstepped, I- I totally misread things the other night but hey- alcohol will do that sometimes. I'm sorry. We're good though. I'm good. I just needed a minute to lick my wounds of embarrassment. Everything's fine. Come on let's see the damage tonight hm?" You lead him into your apartment ignoring the confused look on his face. You let yourself settle back into your routine with him, patching him up, giving him food, getting him up to speed on the last couple of days of your life, telling stories, and just talking until he falls asleep on your couch. You're determined to shake this stupid crush of yours off and go back to the way things have always been between you. And if you're gonna shake this crush step one is putting yourself out there. Which you do, and for the next few weeks you find yourself on dates almost every night. Tonight's date is going surprisingly well all things considered. He'd planned to take you somewhere that ended up being closed after a freak accident the other day that he didn't know about. It was around the corner from Josie's so you brought him here instead and the conversation has been well worth it- even in a place like this. The one downside is that it's Friday and Foggy and Karen usually drag Matt here for drinks on Friday. You had hoped they'd skip out on that tonight but you of course could only be so lucky. When the bell over the door rings and you turn to see Karen leading Matt into the bar with Foggy behind them you almost want to groan. Dating has been nice but seeing Karen and Matt so close is like picking a scab. You turn back to your date with a smile, intent on ignoring the trio, except of course it couldn't be that simple.
"Oh my gosh! Y/n! Hey!" Karen beams at you.
"Karen! Hi! Foggy, Matt, good to see you all." You smile.
"You didn't tell us you'd be here tonight." She says.
"Well I didn't plan on it otherwise of course I'd have let you know." You tell her. "James this is Karen and that's Foggy and Matt. They're friends of mine. They all work together we've- kind of crashed their spot tonight." You tell your date.
"Oh! Well, any friend of yours is a friend of mine. Nice to meet y'all." James shakes each of their hands. "Did you guys- wanna join us? Since it's pretty crowded in here you might not find another table."
"That's so nice of you James!" Karen says. Very nice indeed.
"I'll track down some chairs." Foggy says. You shift your seat closer to James to make room at the table since apparently they'll be joining you. You try not to pay too much attention to Matt's silence as everyone settles around the table.
"So y/n, you told James how we know you but you didn't mention how you know James. Are you guys work colleagues or something?"
"We have a mutual friend that set us up." James offers.
"Oh my gosh! We're crashing a date?! Why didn't you say so?" Karen shakes her head.
"No no no don't even worry about it, we've been here a couple of hours already. I invited you to sit with us so the night could go on." He says.
"Asking me, also would have worked." You smile.
"You guys are just the cutest." Karen sighs.
"I'm guessing this is a first date since- y/n's never mentioned you before." Matt says.
"It is. Not that I have to tell you about every guy I see." You say.
"You tell me everything." He scoffs.
"That's not true and even if it were that doesn't change the fact that I don't have to."
"So you keep things from me?"
"Am I missing something?" James chuckles.
"Matt and y/n have been friends since they were teenagers. They fight like they're siblings sometimes." Foggy explains.
"Sorry about that James. Matt's just-"
"Like a brother- I get it. I have siblings so I definitely know what it's like." He nods.
"Exactly." You smile.
"Like a brother." Matt quirks an eyebrow at you.
"As good a way as any to describe us." You nod. Matt hums and raises his glass to his lips without another word. The five of you sit and talk over drinks for another hour before you're ready to leave and James is happy to walk you out.
"I had a lot of fun tonight." He tells you.
"Even with the date crashers?" You ask with a goofy grimace.
"Heck yeah! Your friends are great." He laughs. "Next time I'll have my friends crash us. How about that?"
"Next time?"
"If you're willing. I'd really like to see you again."
"I- I'd like that." You nod.
"Cool. I'll- start coming up with second date ideas."
"Hopefully this time the place you pick doesn't impromptu have an incident." You laugh.
"I will quadruple check." He tells you. When you reach your block, but not your building, you stop and turn to him.
"Sounds good. I'll see you around James." You smile. He leans forward and kisses your cheek softly.
"Goodnight y/n." He says and walks away. You make it up to your apartment, kick off your shoes, and take a long shower. You enjoyed talking to James and you actually are interested in seeing him again for sure. Soon you're showered and pajamaed and pretty much ready for bed but before you can flop into it there's a knock at your door. Who could be knocking on your door right now? A quick check shows you it's Matt standing in your hallway.
"Matthew?" You open the door with a frown.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"Well- right now I'm wondering what you're doing in my apartment."
"Like a brother to you?! Seriously? Last time I checked most people don't make out with their brothers."
"Depends on where you are I suppose." You shrug. "But regardless Matt that was a mistake we both know that." You shake your head.
"A mistake? Is that how you feel about it?"
"How I- I'm sorry did you forget calling out Karen's name while I was kissing you?! Cuz I've been trying to so if you've got tips to share on how that'd be great."
"Goddammit y/n." He sighs dropping his head.
"Matt you really should go. I know you worry or whatever but- James is, nice and it's late I'd like to go to bed."
"Screw James." Matt scoffs.
"Um- it was only our first date- you're skipping a few steps."
"That is not what I- it's like you do this on purpose."
"What are you doing here Matt?" You sigh.Â
"I don't like you dating him. I don't like you dating anyone for that matter. How could you kiss me like that and just... move on like nothing?"
"I dunno it's pretty easy when you call me the wrong name." You say.
"That was not what you think."
"I'm sure."
"It wasn't y/n. I'm serious. I could-" Matt stops and lets out a breath. "I'm Daredevil." He says.
"I know." You nod.
"What? You know?"
"You come in here at the witching hour every few days covered in bruises Matt how many explanations could there possibly be for that?" You roll your eyes.
"You never asked."
"I figured you'd tell me when you were ready." You shrug. "Why tell me now?"
"Since I can't see- my other senses make up for the loss. They're like- very developed. I heard Karen scream somewhere in Hell's Kitchen, she sounded like she was in trouble that's- that's why I called out her name. I thought maybe one of Daredevil's many enemies managed to connect her to me. It wouldn't be the first time, I'm always listening for her and Foggy these days and I just-"
"Well was she in danger?" You ask.
"Nightmare." He mutters. "But by the time I pieced that together you were gone."
"Of course I was. Having a man say someone else's name when you kiss him is not something that encourages-" Matt cuts off your snarky remark by cupping your face in his hands and kissing you. You react quickly, kissing him back, your hands wrapping around his wrists. By the time you pull away from him, you're breathing heavily.
"I'm in love with you. I have been for as long as I can remember. I'm sorry I wasn't clear about it." He says.
"Oh."
"Oh?"
"Well in my defense I've spent the last few weeks trying to get over you-" Matt kisses you again, hard, possessive, fiery.
"Don't." He says.
"Obviously." You grab the collar of his shirt and kiss him again. You spent years thinking you'd never get to kiss him, now that you know the truth you fully intend to take advantage and Matt has years of pining he wants to make up for.
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super early draft, but i'm spending nano wordcount working on the accidental vigilante story. it's really neat to revisit something in a new way. this reads a bit like it could belong in the sweeter, softer cute-guy AU, but it won't stay that way for long. this content is probably going to be what part of the first chapter once i get enough of the series offering done & edited to start posting, but i want to share early even if this part isn't terribly exciting. Writing is writing and it's been way way way too long.
Fun fact, most of this was written with voice recognition, so if you notice some weird punctuation or typos, no you did not. I'll be sweeping for bugs before sharing on AO3. Thank you for reading!!
He turned down his mother's help to help find his new apartment. He'd already done so many things on his own (from the relative safety of his childhood home) that surely this low-stakes task is something he can accomplish given enough time and resources.
Maybe if he'd been pressed for faster turnaround, kicked out and wandering the streets with nowhere else to go, he might've been willing to accept an adultâs help navigating the strange world of leases and rentals and potentially shady (or dangerous) deals.
But no, he does some poking around online, asks his friends what they would do, and then does his best on his own. He tries a few places in person and is immediately turned away at the door.Â
He should have figured. Itâs not exactly safe to walk up to an unfamiliar building and ask to see available units.Â
Thereâs been too much crime in the last few years for people to be very trusting of strangers.Â
After that, he tries calling places before showing up. He gets similar results. No one is willing to meet with an unknown variable with a suspiciously nervous youthful voice and promises of enough cash to cover the first three months of rent.
He starts to get a little frustrated, but he runs his fingers through his hair and takes a deep breath as he leans against the glass wall at the local bus stop. He shouldnât expect to find much in only one day of apartment searching.
He needs a mediator. A contractor. Someone who knows these people and can get him an in, or can at least take down his information and find a few willing parties to hear him out without assuming heâs going to rob them blind.
A local realtorâs office doesnât seem very impressed by his youth, and even less impressed when he hands over one of his faked IDs. Foreigner, but at least it lists a quirk. He doesnât want to think about what kinds of dismissal heâd see if he dared trying to apply for an apartment as a quirkless citizen.Â
Their interest perks a little at his available budget, but he gets a firm denial within thirty minutes.Â
Nothing available in the surrounding areas.Â
He wilts a little.Â
Itâs fine.Â
Probably.Â
He can keep looking for something.
The realtorâs office isnât completely cruel, though, and promises to put him on a waiting list.Â
He jots down his phone number in the middle of a dusty page in an aging binder, feeling very little hope theyâll call him back.
He picks up a little pint of strawberry ice cream on his way home that afternoon, a little bummed that heâs had no luck.Â
Itâs not worth getting upset over one fruitless day of searching.Â
He still has plenty of time to figure something out.Â
The warm scents of home-cooked food greet him as he pushes open the front door. He only has one key on his keychain, so thereâs nothing to jingle as he pockets it and kneels to remove his shoes with a little sigh. The door clicks quietly as he locks it, and his mother is waiting for him with a soft expression when he turns around.Â
Sometimes it surprises him that she knows when he gets home even if he hasn't yet said a word.Â
âWelcome home,â she murmurs, her keen gaze catching sight of his half-smile. âNo luck, today?â
He shrugs and holds out the pint of ice cream.
Dinner is quiet, but by the time dessert rolls around heâs feeling a lot better. She refuses to let him help with the dishes, instead shooing him toward the living room to pick out a movie they can watch together.Â
He selects a goofy pre-quirk spy flick and pauses it on the opening title, then opens his laptop to poke around on the forums until his mom joins him.Â
His inbox has over a dozen unread messages.Â
âWeird,â he mutters, clicking into them with cautious curiosity. The subject lines are usually the first indication of spam mail, but these are all well-written, and he quickly discovers they're advertisements for apartment offerings from all over the city.
Not spam.
But he doesnât remember giving his email to the realtorâs office. He chews his lip as he thinks back through his day. When could he have-?
He absently skims the first message.
Amenities: Rooftop pool. State-of-the-art heroNet connection speeds. Â
Izuku scoffs. Being out in the open, exposed to the elements and also anyone who might be flying/jumping/sneaking about overhead? Maybe before quirks that would have been nice, but not anymore. The heroNet connection claim sounds pretty good, but he doesnât need speed as much as reliability, and his wireless setup can keep him running from nearly anywhere in the city.Â
Amenities: One block away from the city library. Gorgeous floor-to-ceiling picture windows. Park within easy walking distance.
He pauses and purses his lips. The library is a little tempting, but he really has all the information he needs at his fingertips. And he likes looking out of big windows, but he doesnât feel very safe around them. Curtains would be a necessity. Park close by is both a blessing and a curse, probably beautiful and very dangerous, unless thatâs a more expensive part of the city that still retains some hero presence. (In which case, he probably canât afford that apartment, anyways.)Â
Amenities: Well-aged closed-circuit security system. Cafe on first floor, residents only.
Izukuâs finger hovers over the touch pad. This one sounds promising. Closed-circuit systems are notoriously difficult to get into without being on-site. And he likes cafes, especially ones that sound like he wonât have to worry about being surrounded by a lot of strangers.Â
His mom joins him on the couch with a blanket and two cups of tea.Â
He shuts his laptop with a bright grin, already feeling the hope welling up within him.Â
The advertisements can wait until morning.Â
With the clarity of morning and even more apartment offerings in his inbox, he starts thinking back to the day before. Heâs certain he hadnât written his email address on anything. He stares at the messages, tapping between them, searching the metadata for clues or patterns as his mind whirs through possibilities. Maybe his phone number is linked with his email address in some obscure database?Â
He absently starts a search on his phone number in a background window to see how many hits he can generate before he returns to the advertisements. No other identifying information can be found within the messages, so he doesn't think it's been somehow linked with his name. All the messages come from different addresses, different systems, different networks. There doesn't seem to be a common thread between any of the sources.Â
It's as if he's been added to some kind of housing mailing list.
The background window flickers to indicate the search has completed.Â
No hits.
He breathes a little sigh of relief. That's one less thing to worry about. But stillâŠÂ
Had he really handed out his email address and forgotten about it?
He absently taps his finger against a key.
He hates to think he's forgotten something that important, but he also hates to think that someone took one look at his face as he walked into the realtor's office and immediately knew how to reach him.Â
(That seems nearly impossible, but quirks are capable of some nearly impossible stuff.)
there's more coming pretty soon as scenes sneak out of my notes and outline. <3 ily
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I finished the third draft of my book a couple of days ago. The next class starts in nine days.
I'm going to try to proofread as much of it as I can in that time, polish it up a little bit more, make the descriptions make more sense, that kind of thing. I'm catching a lot of typos.
I kind of think of this as the "first draft of the third draft," though I know that doesn't make a lot of sense. Basically, I wrote the whole thing from start to finish, but I didn't go back to edit anything after I wrote it. I just wanted to write it. I did the same thing with the second draft.
It's about 100,000 words, so I don't think I can proofread it in such a short time.
Anyway⊠writing 100,000 words in eight or nine months isn't really anything all that special. Lots of people do it, and do it better than I do it.
I'm still not sleeping as much as I should. I'm working on it. I'm trying to at least be in bed by 10:00 most nights. I'm up at 5:00 every morning, without exception, so that means seven hours in bed each night. An attainable goal. A reasonable goal. It's not easy, though. It should be, but it isn't.
It's the kind of thing I get mad at other people about. It's like when people ask me how I managed to lose weight and keep it off when, statistically, that's literally impossible. As in, the number of people who manage it rounds to zero percent. But I did it. And all I can say is "diet and exercise," because that's the truth. And I've had people respond to that by saying it's just so hard, you know? Like when the family wants to have pizza for dinner, right? And I shrug and say "then only eat one slice of pizza and go to bed hungry, I don't know what else I can tell you," because I don't. That's how I did it.
It's very easy for me to apply that same logic to my sleep problem: "Just go to bed earlier, what the fuck, man. You gotta spend less time playing video games or something, I don't know, get the fuck off your computer and just go to bed."
It's just so hard, you know?
We all have problems, I guess.
I honestly can't recommend my diet method to anybody, for the record. I fucked up my ability to feel hunger. I can go all day without eating without noticing that I'm hungry. I can eat a huge amount of food without noticing that I'm not hungry. I have to be very careful, these days, about what I eat and how much I eat, because my body just doesn't give me the right signals anymore. I see the advice "listen to your body" a lot when it comes to people with eating disorders, but I genuinely don't know how to do that. I'm not sure I ever did.
âŠWe all have problems, I guess.
I've spent the last couple of months, ever since I finished watching all of those Marvel live-action shows I mentioned shortly before my cat Tina died, trying to find new shows to watch while I work out in the morning. I rewatched "Gravity Falls." It holds up. I still like that show quite a lot. I've made it a thing, in the past, of finding lines from things that go far, far harder than they have any right to. I hope to steal them for my own usage someday. For example, in the novel I just wrote, there's this exchange:
âIf we donât surrender, weâre going to have to fight them. Weâre going to have to kill them.â
âI didnât come this far to lose.â
Those are two different quotes mashed together from two different sources, with the serial numbers filed off. So you can't just punch them into a search engine to find out where I got them. I guess you could still punch them into a search engine, but I did, and the original quotes didn't come up, so, good luck to you, I guess.
Anyway, the line "Turn around and look at me, you one-eyed demon," from the final episodes of "Gravity Falls," is one of those good lines. I'm not sure how I can steal it yet, but you can rest assured that, if I live long enough, I will.
I'm not gonna give context or explain why it's a good line. Either watch the fucking show or don't, is all I can say. Then you'll either get it or you won't, and my explanation won't tilt the scales one way or the other.
I also got around to watching "Over the Garden Wall" at long last. I'd watched the first episode years ago, when it was much newer, and really didn't like it. I didn't like it this time, either. I didn't like the show. It wasn't fun or interesting to me. I think it relied far too heavily on the idea that I'd like the way it looked and sounded, and I didn't, so the shoe-string plot didn't impress me.
Still, the last couple of episodes did have some good lines. "I wasn't much good to him alive, either" got a grin out of me, and dual attempt at saying "Are you?" is pretty goddamn good.
But I fucking hated Greg from episode one to episode last, and I won't apologize for it. He really ruined the series for me.
Well. I'm pretty tired. Let's wrap it up.
I still want to write what I said would over a month ago about those Marvel shows, but the longer I wait on it, the less passion I have on the subject. So I'll say this: I think that all of them had a lot of potential, and that none of them deserved to get additional seasons after their cliffhanger endings, from Iron Fist ending with the idea that Danny had found a new way to channel his chi energy into a gun to Peggy Carter ending with some guy getting shot in his hotel room by some other guy. They were perfectly fine shows, solid 7s out of 10, but I sure as hell wasn't left wanting more.
Most recently, because Disney+ keeps telling me about all the Hulu shows I could be watching, I switched to Hulu and tried really hard to find one of the many anime shows they were promoting to watch. I really hate isekai stories, which limits me much more severely than I would have ever expected, but I made it through a couple of episodes of "Yozakura Family" before I decided to read the manga and WOW does that manga turn into magically-powered shounen craziness a lot faster than I would have expected. It's fucking nuts, man. But I'm also over a hundred chapters into it, so I must not hate it, I guess!
I made it all the way through Dragonar Academy, another show that I'm genuinely glad only had one season. It's the worst kind of anime cringe, and I couldn't help but laugh at how far it went out of its way to try to turn me on by having all its female characters get their clothes blown off or removed at every opportunity. It's the kind of show that my younger self would have been embarrassed to talk about, but now I'm an old man who can unironically say that I thought it was a great example of a good bad show. The kind you can only laugh at because it's trying so hard to be a good show and failing so fucking hard.
Currently, I'm almost at the end of the first season (of four) of the 2012 Ultimate Spider-Man series. The one that had Drake Bell play Spider-Man. I like Spider-Man, and, even knowing his recent legal problems and his genuinely tragic past, I really don't have anything against Drake Bell. I mean, I donât like what happened to him or what he did, but it looks to me like heâs trying. I might be wrong. Iâm in no place to judge, though, is the point.
And, you know, a dumb kid's show about teenage Spider-Man is really the kind of thing I like to have playing on TV when I work out.
Hopefully I'll find something else when this one runs out.
There we go. Wrapped it up.
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In Hushed Whispers | MLQC Victor
Fandom: Mr Love: Queenâs Choice
Pairing: Victor/Reader
Rating: 18+/Explicit/NSFW
Word Count: 5k
Summary: It started out as a mission, as a wicked gameâand then things spiralled out of your control. With a past shrouded in darkness and a need to protect him, will you be strong enough to step into the light?
A/N: Iâve been daydreaming about a Black Swan!MC concept for so long and finally found the willpower write something for it. This was was supposed to be a lot cooler and hateful, but Iâm not cool and itâs Victor XD MCâs a producer, but thatâs more of a cover, or a surface job.Â
the title is a quest from DA: Inquisition! I donât own it, or any of the characters from Mr Love: Queenâs Choice.
(warnings/tags below the cut)
warnings/tags: explicit sexual content, explicit language (mild), Black Swan!Reader, vaginal sex, oral sex, semi?-public sex, the answer is yes, goodbye black swan cuz that D is too good, too much talking (imo) during sex, slight spoilers for chapters 12-13? (and onwards)
It's clear enough to those look closely.
There was an undercurrent of tension in your interactions, in every traded look, in the eyes that tracked each other through the crowds around them. You can see the inquisitive looks they shoot your way, curious and envious, and you can't control the slight quirk of your lips.
You know what theyâre probably thinking. Theyâre not wrong, but they arenât quite right.
Even as you mingle with the crowd, greeting the elite of Loveland City with a bashful smile fixed in place, you can feel his gaze boring into the back of your head. For someone with such an impeccable poker face, he really isn't all that subtle.
'Or maybe it's just me.'
You barely stifle a grin at the thought, brushing back soft curls before glancing back over your shoulder once more. He stands there, just barely keeping up with the conversation taking place around him, his eyes smoky with discomfort and temper. A sly smile from you prompts him to finally tear his gaze away, and you turn back to the elder couple who had stopped you for a chat. Theyâve been watching you watch him curiously, but they only smile knowingly when you give them your full attention.
"Father always spoke very highly of you, Mrs Waldorf," you recall fondly, the wistful twist of your mouth genuine. "He also said Mr Waldorf was quite lucky you found his attempts at poetry endearing."
"That brat was the one who helped me with them!" The mock offence in the elderly manâs tone had all three of you chuckling. You feel the weight of his gaze on you once more, and a flicker of wicked thrill unfurls in you. This conversation, with people who had so clearly been fond of your late father, isn't a forced one, and your smile is far from strained as you excuse yourself from it.
Your dress, sleek and sequined, sways around your legs as you work the room, avoiding people you're not quite in the mood to interact with, and him. It's not as if that you're afraid to face him, because that would be ridiculous; it's just that the thought of looking into those eyes would require acknowledging everything reflected in them.
Victor has never been one to shy away from confrontations, though, and although you have been expecting it with anticipation bubbling in your throat, your confident stride still falters when he steps into your path.
Thereâs a clear pause, a slight shift in the air between you as you drink in the sight of him up close. The strong lines of his well-built shoulders, enhanced by his perfectly tailored suit, the all too familiar patrician features set in smooth lines; the tie you had picked out for him yourself.
You hadnât quite expected the way your breath catches in your throat.
"May I have this dance?" The deep timbre of his voice dissolves any protests you could muster up. You canât say no, not without raising brows all around the room. You take his proffered hand with a faint smile, allowing him to lead you to the dance floor, all too aware of the people watching you.
There are mostly couples dancing here, you note, trying to keep your mind off the warmth of his hand as it settles on your waist, guiding you into a simple waltz. He's closer than is polite, familiarity and ease clear in his body language.
"Don't you think people might get the wrong idea?" you whisper, glancing up at him as he looks around, seeming to finally notice the others twirling and twisting across the marble.
Victorâs tightening grip on your waist is answer enough. The cut-outs on the waistline of your dress don't seem as cute now, with his thumb stroking your soft skin instinctively.Â
"You're being reckless." You don't keep the sharpness out of your voice as a frisson of unease begins to build in your chest. If anything, you'd thought he would do the smart thing and do his best to avoid you tonight.
"I didn't think I'd see you here tonight," Victor finally says, his expression clear and eyes glinting with danger.
"Anna couldn't make it." You shrug lightly; it's true enough, as the older woman had called you with sighed apologies and a lot of crying in the background. One of her kids was sick, and her wife was caught up with other work. "Why, aren't you happy to see me?"
His mouth purses at the feigned hurt in your voice, and he tugs you closer. You ignore the thrilled shivers racing up your spine as he leans in.
"Let me rephraseâI didn't think I'd see you ever again."
Your lips curl into something that almost resembles a smile. "Careful, there. It almost sounds like you didn't want to see me again," you tease, smirking at the way he pulls back to glower at you.
"So you are capable of logical reasoning. And yet, here you are."
"Here I am," you agree. You fall into an easy sort of synchronization, spinning around the floor with effortless grace. This isnât your first time dancing with him, but it still makes your heart thrum with delight. "It's your own fault. You make it so hard to stay away."
He doesn't roll his eyes the way you know he wants to, his hand flexing around yours the only hint of his agitation, and your eyes dance wickedly at it. If you'd been alone, you have no doubt he would have you pinned against a wall by now.
"Your actions say otherwise," he mutters, drawing you away from the filthy route your mind had taken. "You just-" He cuts himself off, clearly unwilling to say more. But you know what he would have said, and you're irritated by the way your heart lurches painfully in your chest. Â
"I thought you needed time to process everything," you murmur, taking in the way his shoulders tense further. "To think things through." All the lies, manipulations and secrets. You remember his expression clearly, and how quiet he'd gone that night. Really, itâs a wonder heâs even speaking to you.
"There's nothing to think about. I've already declined the offer," Victor informs you frostily. You make sure to knit your brows at his words, forcing your lips into a strained smile. It's a nice touch, you think.
"It's an open one, thereâs no expiration date. We're quite generous, don't you think?" You wonder if the words sound as bitter as they taste in your tongue. Generous is not the word you would use to describe yourself or your 'friends.' While itâs true that theyâre reluctant to kill him because of his EVOL and influence, the option isnât completely off the table, much to your personal displeasure.
"Quite generous. I'm afraid it's still a waste of your time, though. I won't be changing my mind." The firmness in his tone leaves little room for doubt, and you know he means it. But the people you work for haven't spent hours in his company, studying him, touching him, working with him, shivering at the things he whispered in their ears. They don't know how infuriatingly stubborn he is, and how deeply you admire him for it.
But what crawls from your heart and into your veins isnât admiration, and itâs on that note that you decide youâve put on enough of a show.
You slip your palm from his grip, stepping away from him as the progressively lighter notes of the song fade and your dance comes to an end. "Well, then, I think we're done here for now. I'll see you around, Mr CEO." Your smile feels syrupy in how sickeningly sweet it is, contrasting greatly with the yearning that twists your insides, demanding that you do whatever it takes to feel his touch once more.
With a quick wink, you spin on your heel and walk away, grabbing a flute of sparkling champagne off a passing waiter as you go.
âThat should be good enough to keep them off my back.â
You wait until you've exited the ballroom to drain the glass completely, leaving it on a table outside. You donât think, sweeping past random corners until you're in a deserted hallway, the sound of your heart thumping madly blocking out most sounds, even of your heels clicking against the marble floor sharply.
Still, you hear the heavy footsteps as they grow closer, echoing in the empty halls. You're not surprised when a hand seizes your wrist, jerking you around to face the perpetrator. You glare at Victor even through the elated satisfaction coursing through you.
"We're not done." You should be more discomfited by his fury; instead, as it often does in his presence, a certain kind of hunger pools in your belly. His grip is unyielding, his determination even more so.
It makes you want to purr.
"Oh, Iâm sorry. Did you have more to say?" you ask casually, eyes wide and breath hitching when he squeezes your wrist tighter. His steps closer in response, moving into your space and prompting you to back up until your back hits the wall. Your senses are overwhelmed by the scent of his cologne, his warm breath tinged with alcohol, growing heavier as he struggles with his words. The space between you is negligible and all the confidence you'd adorned yourself with before coming here seems to have fallen somewhere.
âA thing or two, yeah.â
Victor tugs at your wrist, pulling it up to press it into the wall above your head, his touch gentler as his thumb rubs the skin over your racing pulse. He takes your other hand in his free one, pressing his lips to your wrist as you watch, skin tingling pleasantly. He pushes it to join its captive counterpart, pressing them into the wall with one hand while the other comes to rest on your hip.
"For someone so prone to running, you seem to be doing rather well in this position," Victor murmurs, lips hovering over your ear as you try to maintain control over your expression. He has you trapped, and you've never felt more on edge and desperately turned on.
"You make an enticing captor." He's got you, but you could get out of this position if you really tried. That makes you think he's not really trying. Does he have more questions? You can't think of any you would want to answer here, where anybody could stumble across you, which begs the question: what does he want?
Victor's lips press into the skin behind your ear and your stomach tenses.
"That didn't stop you the last time." He traces the shell of your ear with the tip of his tongue, his nose brushing your temple as he inhales deeply. âYou vanished into thin air.â
"For someone who doesn't want anything to do with us, you sure seem to be complaining about being left alone a lot," you taunt. But you deflate when he doesn't rise to the bait, only pulling back slightly to observe you. Youâre close enough to count every single one of his thick lashes, to see the tiny mole on his right earlobe. There is none of the hate you've been expecting, not a hint of the fury you'd glimpsed earlier. It leaves you scrambling because you don't know what to expect now.
"I don't want anything to do with them," he agrees, pressing his forehead to yours. Something in your chest trembles at the action and you feel so raw, so vulnerable, you donât know what to do with it. "I never said anything about you."
"I-if you refuse them, you refuse me." His lips brush yours and you realize he doesn't have to use force to keep you here after all. "We're kind of a package deal."
"Are you?" Uncertainty sprouts in your mind at the way he smirks, as if your words amused him. "It didn't seem like it when we were together."
You can't bring yourself to respond; you begin to struggle against his grip, but he pushes his hips into yours, pinning you in place. Heâs too close, and itâs messing with your head. It would be so easy to just give in, to sink into him and let him in. You want it so badly it frightens you.
"In fact, it almost seemed like you were happy to forget all about them. Isn't that why you never even attempted to convince me to join them?"
Them, them, them. But he was right. You had known, within a few weeks of your acquaintance, that Victor would never join Black Swan. You had convinced yourself that growing closer to him was the smart thing to do. It was the classic seduction. He's stubborn, but he's loyal.
It's just that once you got a taste of it, you wanted to keep that loyalty for yourself and not share it with anybody else, least of all your charming colleagues. Your greed had won out over everything; with every meal he cooked you, with every scathing word followed by encouragement, with every warm kissed pressed to your fingertips and the arches of your feetâyou were in too deep, and you still are, and youâre still fucked.
It had been a happy dream while it lasted, but you had to come back to reality eventually. Could you really give everything up for this man?
The answer scares you, itâs implications terrifying and Artemis was right, you are an idiot.Â
"Do you understand now?" he whispers, lips dragging along the length of your jaw, your eyelids fluttering at the way he nips at your skin.
"I do." It tastes like defeat, like something broke and you're choking on the pieces, but you get it out. For him, youâll swallow every bitter piece. It's not the pleasant realization they write about in books. "I'll...I'll let them know your answer won't be changing."
He pauses. "And?"
"And I'll stay away. I won't bother you again." The words are said so quietly you wonder if he even heard them, something in you wilting as you say them; you get your answer when Victor begins to laughâat least thatâs what you think he does. Now this, this strikes fear in your heart because it's not the startled laughter you pull out with silly words, no. This is a breathy sound edged with jagged furyâit's caustic and you feel his chest vibrate with it as he nearly collapses against you, chuckling like you've said something stupid and for once, he doesn't find it cute.
"Stay away? y/n," he stops laughing abruptly and bares his teeth at you in a very unsettling attempt at a smile, "you're a fool if you think I'm letting you walk away from me tonight."
For a moment, there's a strange buzzing in your mind. Your emotions pull you in different directions. A part of you wants to rip into him, to make him bleed and show him what you do to people who threaten you. Another, bigger, part of you wants to moan and plaster yourself to his side and beg him to say that again.
All you really do is stare at him, speechless.
"And they're fools if they think they can take you away from me," Victor adds, and crashes his mouth against yours, hungry and careless with it. Once again, in a concerning trend, any resistance you wanted to play at dissolves. Itâs not gentle. You squirm against his grip on your wrists, trembling with the need to run your fingers through his dark hair and hold him against you. You moan when his tongue brushes yours, wiggling until you feel and hear the amused sound in the back of his throat before he releases you.
It's easy to twist and manoeuvre your bodies until you're pressing him into the wall, rising on the tips of your toes to lick into his mouth fervently, reacquainting yourself with the taste of his tongue.
It's a little too easy to lose yourself in his touch, to let everything else fade and fill your senses with just him.
His hands smooth down your back to cup the swell of your ass, pulling you flush against him. Almost every inch of him is pressed against you and youâre starving, with a terrible ache that weeps for him, and a part of you curses him for ruining you. Your blunt fingernails curl into his hair, digging into his scalp, and you will never get enough of the little groan he lets out.
Your hands rove across his torso greedily, your teeth sink into his lip and your breath stutters when you feel his hardness pressing against your stomach.
You freeze, shaken by how completely you lost your composure, and with the way Victor seems to be smirking you know heâs thinking along the same lines. His tousled hair and blown out pupils are an effective deterrent against the part of you that thinks this is a terrible idea; your hair is wilder than it had been before Victor got his hands in it, your lipstick smeared over your mouth and his.
âCome home with me, y/n.â
A tempting offer. You glance behind you, peering down the dark hallway. You donât think this fear will ever leave you completely, of looking into the darkness and wondering whoâs watching you from within.
You know what happens to those who stray. Helios is the greatest example of it, and you firmly steer your thoughts away from that particular pit.
âI took a different route. They didnât see me," he nuzzles the juncture of your neck before sinking his teeth into soft skin.
You're mortified by your startled yelp, and can't help but look back again reflexively. âThey're not here. I wouldn't put you in that position."
You snort, but the effect is ruined by the soft moan you let out when he soothes the stinging skin with his tongue. "I didn't think you cared."
âWouldnât be the first time you were wrong,â he retorts, not missing a beat, his fingers massaging the base of your scalp while the other draws nonsensical patterns on your waist. Although you know he meant what he said, with how handsy heâs being itâs clear Victorâs going to be difficult about this; he wants you in his bed tonight.
'And many other nights, apparently.'
Youâre more than a little unnerved by the sheer warmth that sends through you.
âIs it just the sex?â you ask carefully, locking eyes with him, battling with the urge to blush at the way heâs looking at you.
âNo.â He doesnât even pretend to think about it, doesnât consider anything other than the simple truth. He doesnât say another word, but his eyes were always his most expressive featureâalong with his hands.Â
You nod slowly, because as delightful as that is, youâre not ready to dig deeper. Into his feelings or yours. And you have no idea what to do here; you've lost control over your own actions. You know what the smart thing to do would beâbut that would result in losing Victor. For good. There is no part of you that finds that acceptable.
Or you could continue the mission. Get close to him. Keep trying to convince him. Itâs unlikely heâll change his mind about that but itâll give you time.
âThis is a terrible idea,â you say anyway, because you should at least try to put a stop to it. You canât believe youâre trying to be the sensible one in a situation that involves Victor Li.
He flicks his tongue against your bottom lip, swift and teasing. âI donât give a fuck.â
âSeriously, who seduced who here?â
You lace your fingers through his, stepping away and pulling him along hurriedly. It would be best to continue this in the bedroom, for now. Just for tonight, you'll do what he wants. You'll do the smart thing later.
But, as is apparently the recent trend in your life, your plans donât quite work out.
It wasnât your fault, as your teasing was mostly innocent while Victor drove at uncharacteristic speeds. Just a squeeze of his thigh, a few careless whispers of how much you had really missed him. Hiking your dress up and letting out a loud mewl when he cupped your clothed sex possessively.
You end up in an empty parking lot near his building; with his suit jacket thrown onto the back seat, you sprawled over it, your mouths meeting frantically as he pushes the hem of your dress up until it bunches up over your waist. He shifts back, opening the door and stepping one leg out, the other folding on the floor of the car.
The cool breeze has goosebumps erupting all over your skin; you shiver from it, and the way the moonlight highlights his dark hair and torrid gaze.Â
Warm hands curl around the back of your thighs, pulling you closer to the edge of the seat, and you let one foot drop to rest on the floor as he watches in approval. The other is pushed up into your chest, leaving you spread shamelessly for his consumption.
Control was never really an option, you had realised sometime when his hands had slipped beneath the edge of your dress to rub your cunt through your soaked panties, which now hang precariously from one ankle. He knows where to touch you, and you know itâs only been a few months, but it still brings a stinging feeling to the back of your eyes.
Youâre desperate to feel his mouth on you, to work you open with his talented tongue; his lips find the tender skin of your inner thighs instead, kissing and sucking blushing tokens of his affection across them. You twitch and moan as he fixates on this, his possessiveness clear in his actions, and a distant part of your mind thinks itâs not going to be as easy as giving yourselves this one night.
Its voice is suppressed by a long, languorous lick along your slit.
âOh-â
âFuck.â Your back arches as he presses the flat of his tongue against your clit and a steady hand on your folded knee pushes you back down. He laps at you with a zeal he only ever displays when his head is between your thighs, his mouth slurping every drop of your arousal, and you writhe beneath his touch, failing to suppress your moans.
A hand reaches for the edge of the seat, clutching it for dear life, while the other slides into his silken hair as you rock your hips into his mouth with an urgency that takes over every part of your brain.
He works you closer to it, swirling his tongue around your swollen nub; your gaze is unfocused, all you need is to reach the edge, and if he groans like that again you might just come-
A pitiful whine escapes you as he pulls back, his smirking mouth glistening with your arousal you tug at his hair insistently. Your angry motions still when he reaches for the buckle of his belt, sliding the accessory out of the loops.
Before he can even think about tying you up, you snatch it out of his hands and throw it behind you. It hits the door with a sharp clack that sounds jarring in the silence of the car and its surroundings.
He climbs over you carefully, keeping one foot on the floor of the car while the other leg comes to rest on the seat. Itâs a tight fit, and you could giggle at how he moves around so cautiously to avoid bumping his head on the ceiling. He reaches for his zipper and your amusement flees quickly as you reach out and shoo his hands away eagerly.
Your teeth dig into the pale expanse of his neck as you pull his straining cock out, wrapping a hand around its base, pumping it slowly; he doesnât even attempt to control the mouth-watering groans escaping his mouth, his hands braced against the seat on either side of your head.
Stopping was never really an option either, you acknowledge, as you tease your slit with the swollen head of his cock, your lips parting with anticipation. His shirt is unbuttoned halfway, tie hanging loose, marks peppered over his chest, his dark hair in disarray.
You try to maintain the eye contact as you guide his cock through your entrance, engulfing it with your heat, walls clenching around him as your head tips back involuntarily. Itâs one of the best sensations in the worldâfeeling Victorâs cock push through your tight cunt, and you wouldnât give him up for any power in the world.
Victor leans in, slotting his mouth over yours, a hand urging your knees up while the other tugs the straps of your dress down, baring your breasts. His hand, warm and trembling ever so slightly as he bottoms out, cups your breast gently, thumb stroking over a taut nipple.
As you try to get him to move, he stops you, keeping you still as his fingers dig into your skin.
âV-Victor?â You wiggle your hips and he squeezes your breast firmly, as if warning you to cease your attempts. âWha-â
He shushes you quickly again, pressing his forehead to your shoulder; youâre quite annoyed for just a second and then you notice the tension coiled in his muscles as he tries to keep his bearings; he moves his hand from your skin to the headrest, knuckles white from his right grip, to keep from drilling into you violently and ending this quickly.
You card your fingers through his hair before tugging on it, until he lifts his head so you can kiss him sloppily. He relaxes as you wrap your arms around him, holding him close for a moment as you place one last kiss on the corner of his mouth, nuzzling his cheek soothingly.
âThere were moments,â Victor begins, hoarsely and slowly, âwhen I thought I would never get to feel this again.â
He presses his lips to your forehead.Â
âIt was foolish, because I knew you would come to me eventually. But I was forced to acknowledge that there was a chance that my rejection had...consequences I would rather not think of.â He looks down at you, a tiny smile dancing along his lips. âSo, please, y/nââ Donât leave. Donât run. Stay.
You still, meeting his gaze, pained and unwavering in itâand it hurts. It hurts so deeply you canât breathe for a moment, because heâs letting his guard down and letting you see how much you hurt him. All those games, all those moments spent cursing yourself for falling so hardâit was real for you, but it was real for him too. And maybe heâd known who you were from the start, or maybe he hadnât; your mission had hit a roadblock once he found out, and youâd taken that chance to disappear, to pretend you were reevaluating things. You thought the distance would do your aching heart some good while BS decided whether further pursual was required.
Youâd never thought, even for a moment, that he would want you to stay.
Victor doesnât resist when you push him back, watching as you slip out of your dress and drape it over the front seat, until heâs sitting with you in his lap, holding on to you as you reach for his cock and sink down over it. With your hands braced against his chest, you begin a slow grind against his pelvis. Your lips twitch with the urge to smile at Victor's near blissful expression, his hands stroking along your waist and thighs fervently.
You can't help but lean over him, one hand coming to rest on the seat, smiling slightly at the way his lips part as you lift your hips and drop down, repeating the motions languidly. You press a kiss to his cheek, and another, repeating the action all over his face until he catches you in a kiss that has your heart throbbing harder.
"I'm sorry," you whisper. He looks at you through half-lidded eyes, a flush riding high across his cheeks. You clench your walls around him and his hips buck involuntarily, prompting a quick glare from him. âI never meant t-to leave like that.â
"Or take your sweet time to come out of hiding?" he mutters, and you laugh shakily, kissing the top of his head. âAh-donât laugh. I couldnât find you anywhere.â
âIâm good at hiding,â you quip with a breathless smile, rocking your hips faster, now determined to see him in pieces underneath you. His hands hold onto your hips just as you get into it, keeping you from moving faster, and you nearly hiss at him in your frustration.
"Just donât hide from me.â His eyes glitter dangerously, daring you to argue.
"Donât give me a reason to,â you snap, only for your scowl to be wiped off your face when his hand wraps around your throat, yanking you forward until you're eye to eye.
"I will never give you a reason to leave me," he promises darkly, squeezing until a strangled protest escapes you. âI take care of whatâs mine, sweetheart.â He doesn't release you, adjusting his body beneath you until he gains a solid foothold, and within the next second he's snapping his hips up into yours, all traces of gentility vanished.
Your eyes roll back, skin flushed and sweating; with every thrust, he seems to be obliterating your entire thought process. You meet his unwavering gaze, your eyes teary as you try to match his pace; you watch him soften slightly, only for him to tighten his grip on your windpipe and reach between your bodies with his free hand.
Bright spots start to appear on the edges of your vision. Your head starts to feel light and a part of you is once more delighted by the practised way his fingers work your clitâand then you stop thinking. For a long moment, you're floating, drifting, quaking, and then you tune back in time to see Victor's pace start to falter, hand unwrapping from around your throat, his eyes alternating between unfocusing and staying fixated on you as he bounces you in his lap.
He spills into you with a throaty groan, unaware of your hungry eyes committing the sight and feeling to memory. He pulls you in, holding you close, and you sag against him tiredly.
His thumb strokes the tender skin across your throat in a silent apology as you both lay there panting, your head falling to rest on his shoulder as you relax completely. It terrifies you, letting your guard down so thoroughly when youâre not even in his bed. Itâs just for a moment, though. You want to give yourself this moment to relax.
âItâs not going to be easy,â you murmur because youâre a fool who canât relax when thereâs danger lurking in every corner.
He hums, in agreement you think, tugging his jacket out from under him to wrap it around your shivering form. He reaches for the door, pulling it shut as you wonder how youâve been here for this long without getting caught. âWeâll deal with it. Whatever comes our way.â
Thereâs a lot to consider, a lot of plans to be scraped and a lot of people to be contacted. But sitting here, in the silence of his car with his arms tight around you, you think you can do it. You think it might just be possible to protect both of you from Black Swan.
And if not you, then him. Because just as he canât let you go, you canât let them sink their claws into him. Youâll destroy every single one of them before that happens.
âGuess I really am a fool.â
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A/N: not my best banner or my best writing, but i saw this prompt and thought it would be fun. i had a mr & mrs smith au a little planned out a while ago and never got around to it and the prompt was perfect for it. i donât know if iâll ever write this out in full or write another part for this drabble, but it was fun to write! i didnât edit so iâm sorry if there are typos or grammar issues. Iâm a sleepy bebe and worked all day. kind of halloween related, only really halloween adjacent. either way i hope you enjoy! (prompt is bolded in the text to avoid a spoiler.)
rowaelin // 1424 words
Everything had been fine and perfectly normal when Aelin Whitethorn Galathynius woke up that morning.Â
Her husband had showered first while she made her first cup of coffee, and once she felt appropriately awake she took her turn. Rowan made breakfast like usual, leaving a fresh cup beside her egg-white and spinach omelet at the table. The two ate in complete silence with him flipping through a newspaper while Aelin skimmed her emails then scoured the news on her phone. They got dressed side by side in their nearly-too-big closet, fixed their hair at the jack and jill sink, brushed their teeth, and left at the same time. Aelin pulled out of the driveway first with Rowan close behind, and the last thing she saw of him that morning was his tail lights in her rearview while they drove opposite directions to work.Â
It was how every morning went in their house. If today had continued to be normal, she would have skimmed the food-box recipes after work, made a selection, and had dinner ready by the time he was home an hour later. They would have eaten with only a few words exchanged between them before going to their separate offices to do more workâ or whatever the hell he did in thereâ then sat in silence and read books until it was late enough to go to sleep. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.Â
It had been around nine-thirty in the morning when her entire life took a nosedive straight to hell.Â
âWhat the fuck do you mean?â Aelin had hissed through her teeth, eyes flaming with ire. Lysandraâs lips twisted to the side as she flipped the monitor around to show her friend the findings. While Aelin normally only screamed internally, she went off like a teapot if said teapot had the mouth of a sailor and the boiling anger of a woman scorned.
The targetâ her enemyâ was her fucking husband. As if her job as a covert spy and assassin wasnât tricky enough, the person she had been hunting for the last several weeks was Rowan Whitethorn of all fucking people.Â
The foul language pouring from her lips didnât go unnoticed. It wasnât long before she was sitting in her bossâs office with her head between her knees while she fought back tears of anger. Did he know? Was this all an elaborate game of cat and mouse, or was he going to be just as startled as she was when he realized?Â
It had never been a marriage with love, only one of convenience. Neither of them had family, only close friends. The two had never really been romantically involved with too many others, and Aelin needed a good cover. For awhile, theyâd pretended to be madly in love and even had a fantastic sex life to work out the pent up frustration from work. Now she realized she was likely just as much a cover for him as he was for her, and she had been played like a godsdamn fiddle.Â
It was just as infuriating for her to realize she hadnât picked up on any of it at all. If anything, she thought he was just profoundly boring. They hardly spoke anymore because there wasnât anything to say. Rowan workedâ so she had thoughtâ as an accountant. He thought she worked for a fashion magazine. They had little in common, save for the occasional drunken night when they could agree on giving each other pleasure before crashing into a deep slumber.Â
Apparently they had many more common interests than they ever could have thought, starting with their jobs and lives were a complete and total lie and ending with hidden guns, daggers, and other various tools for murder that lay hidden within their home.Â
âI like to hunt,â Rowan had told her one afternoon when she wandered into his shed out back. In hindsight, it was a little funny. He didnât hunt animals, he hunted people. Just like she did.
Gods fucking dammit.Â
âAre you compromised on this?â Rolfe asked her, leaning his tattooed forearms against his desk while he appraised her. Aelin fully lifted her head, squinting her eyes and looking at him like he had sprouted two heads.
âOf fucking course not. There isnât any attachment on either side. Iâll put a bullet in his head when he gets home from work.â It was said dismissively, nonchalantly. Like it was just like any other job and hadnât just become personal on a visceral level. Overkill would be hard to avoid, if only because she was so damn mad at herself for missing all the signs over the last two years. How had she not seen it? The woman who never missed anything had missed something massive, something staring her right in the face.Â
Aelin glared at one of the wedding photos on the wall of the living room, barely registering the beep beep beep of the oven timer in the kitchen. Her conversations from the day played over and over in her mind as she smoothed the front of her apron and made her way to the kitchen. With shaking hands, she set the dining room table and laid dinner out. The thoughts kept slamming to the forefront of her mind one after the other, and she narrowly missed burning her fingers more than once.Â
It was like any other job, and she knew that killing him wouldnât be what did her in tonight. If anything would be her downfall, it would be her shaking hands and the barely concealed rage that still coursed violently through her when she heard the garage door open.Â
Quickly and quietly, Aelin hung her apron on the hook by the pantry and adjusted the little black dress she wore and the pearls around her neck. Her freshly cut, golden blonde hair was straightened and tucked behind her ears as she walked back to the dining room and began placing his food on his plate. At six pm on the dot, Rowan strolled into the house with his jacket hanging over his arm, pausing to kiss her cheek like he always did.Â
âYou cut your hair,â he noted, tossing his jacket on the coat rack as he loosened his tie. His sleeves were already rolled up to his elbows, and she wondered if he had been sneaking around trying to get dirt on her life all day before coming home to taunt her. Bastard.Â
âI did.â
âI like it,â he said, pausing by the front window and pulling the curtains back to peer out onto the street. Aelin tensed, hyper aware that she could barely see him in her peripherals. The hold she had on the knife in her hand tightened, ready to bring a knife to the gun fight if she had to, but instead he added, âTrick or treaters will start coming by soon.â
âIâll turn on the porch light after dinner. The candy is already by the door.â There was a small bit of relief that he didnât immediately pull a loaded pistol on her, but she didnât lay the knife down quite yet.Â
âSounds good,â he agreed. âSmells really good, too. Thank you.â
âMm. Wine?âÂ
âRed?â
âOf course.â Aelin nodded, finally laying the knife down as she moved toward the wine rack in the kitchen. Behind her, she took stock of every single sound he made, relieved when all he did was pull out his chair and sit down. The towering heels she wore clicked against the hardwood floors as she returned to where he sat, popping the cork on the bottle and pouring with her right hand. Her left slipped under her dress and wrapped around the grip of the small gun strapped to her thigh. The pouring of the wine covered the soft sounds of her dress rustling, and Rowan had little time to react as she shoved the barrel against his temple.
âTrick,â she whispered, leaning around to see his face as she cocked the gun, âor treat?âÂ
Shock blasted through his expression for a single heartbeat before his wide eyes turned to a hard glare. His jaw clenched along with his hands, his knuckles going white around the knife he was going to use to cut his dinner. Now, she figured, he would be using it to cut into her.
âYou.â
âOh yes, my dear husband,â she purred, finger caressing the trigger as she slammed her hand down over his wrist to keep him from driving the knife into her stomach or worse. âMe.â
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A Little Braver - 20
Even if I had a crazy day at work I did manage to do my Monday post as promise... but if you notice typos...I am sorry. I read it and edited but my brain left with the boat tonight (I work for a ferry company, hence the joke)
This is the first of a few chapters where our bird boy is away and Hamel is causing problems to our gang.
Also, Aelin tries to cook... well... you can imagine how did that go.
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After the trip to the base Aelin had taken home a very sad Elide and then got back to her own place and cried herself to sleep while hugging Rowanâs pillow. It was very late in the afternoon and it was her day off and she had no intention of leaving her bed.
Her head was buried under the pillow when she heard her phone buzz so she scrambled to get it and her heart raced when she saw it was Rowan.
âHi,â she said with a croaked vice.
âAre you okay?â Rowan was already in fussing mode.
âYes I just woke up.â She heard a lot of background noise âwhere are you?â
âVultureâs row.â He activated his camera and showed Aelin the view of a fully functional flight deck. âUh, wait.â He pointed the camera stern of the ship and showed Aelin a jet landing.
âThat was so cool.â He turned the camera to him and she saw him with his sunglasses and his hair messed up by the wind. Then he switched off the camera and they went back to normal.
âAre you there yet?â
âWe are skirting around. We still have a few hours before we are fully in enemy territory.â
Then Aelin heard a siren of some sort and Rowan swore âIâll call you as soon as I can again. I need to scramble. Love you.â
âBe safe.â She managed to add before he closed the phone call.
She collapsed again in bed then decided to call Lysandra and Elide and organise a day out the three of them shopping. Elide needed cheering up as well.
The next day Aelin, Elide and Lysandra had decided to have a girlsâ afternoon to cheer up the two ladies who had their boys away. They met at the entrance of the shopping centre and Aelin went to hug Elide first of all âhow are you doing?â
âLorcan gave me a brief call yesterday telling me they were on the ship and on their way, then he had to go.â
Aelin sighed âtoday we donât think about our far away boys.â
âAnd maybe you can buy some very sexy lingerie as a present for when Lorcan comes back.â Commented Lysandra and Elide blushed.
âWhatâs the point?â Asked Elide âyou are taking it off anyway.â
Aelin laughed and took Elideâs hand âremember the dress I had at the navy party?â
Elide nodded âit was stunning.â
âI was not wearing anything underneath. It drove Rowan crazy.â
âI have done it a few times with Aedion and I agree with Aelin. The sex afterward has been amazing.â
âHow do I learn all these things?â
âStick with us and we will teach you.â
âLetâs go for some food,â said Aelin, âI havenât eaten yet.â
âHow will you survive now without your sexy chef in the house?â Asked Lysandra.
âOh, Iâll just go back to my usual order in and ready meals.â Shrugged Aelin who had no intention of even trying to cook anything.
Lysandra took Aelinâs hand and walked toward a restaurant ïżœïżœïżœcome on Elide, letâs get this girl properly fed.â
The three women got into the restaurant and sat down and Aelin started perusing the menu eager for some decent food and not long after they placed their order. Lys was right, without Rowan she would be lost when it came to food. Rowan had properly spoiled her.
âHow are the wedding preparations going?â Asked Aelin.
Lysandra and Aedionâs wedding was not far away and she was excited to see her best friend finally having her happy ending.
âWe are getting there.â
âDo you have a dress yet?â Asked Elide all excited.
Lysandra took out her phone and showed them her dress.
âThat is gorgeous. Aedion will not be able to keep his eyes off you during the ceremony.â
ïżœïżœThat is the plan.â Lysandra smiled wickedly âbut the biggest question is who is going to be next?â
âMy money is on Aelin,â chimed Elide âLor is not emotionally ready for such a step. You and the captain on the other handâŠâ her eyebrows flicked in amusement.
âShe is right, and the two of you basically live together.â
âYes and no.â
âWhat do you mean?â Lysandra was confused by the admission.
âWe havenât covered the subject yet. He still has his flat and some of his stuff there. Even after I recovered he never left and I never pushed because I like having him around.â
âWill you ask him to move in officially?â
Aelin sighed âmaybe. When he comes back. I donât know. Things are going well and I donât want to mess it up.â
âDo you think heâll say no?â Asked Lysandra. Brainstorming with her friend was always helpful and recently she hadnât done it enough.
âI donât think so. But living together is as far as we can go just now. For many, many reasons.â
âIs it because of Sam?â
âOnly partially.â She was not going to tell her friends Rowanâs story. She had no right. So she remained vague hoping the two friends would get the hint and not ask anymore questions.
âStill, my money is on you two.â Added Lys âElide is right, Lorcan does not seem to have yet the emotional ability to commit.â
âHey, he kissed her in public. And yesterday at the base he seemed quite nice to her.â
âQuite?â
âI donât know, I was concentrating on Rowan I just cast a brief glance at them.â Replied Aelin.
âHe was super kind.â Added Elide taking biting on a breadstick.
Their food finally arrived and Aelin was the first to tuck in.
âDoes the captain know about your crazy eating habits?â Asked Lysandra amused.
âYes,â replied Aelin, enjoying her food âhe calls me his bottomless pit. When we had our first date he joked that he might need a mortgage just to feed me.â
Elide laughed âSam used to joke and say that he needed a second job just for feeding you.â
âI move a lot,â replied Aelin with a grin âI have a big appetite.â
âI think it must be a firefighter thing. Aedion is the same.â Lysandra grinned âand we burn a lot of calories.â
âEeewwww, I did not need to know that. He is my cousin.â
âOh come one, as if you and hot captain do not engage in illicit activities. The whole squad guessed that the other night you two had sex in the shower after the call at the club.â
âI was just giving him a special goodbye.â Her hand gently brushed the spot where she could feel his tags. She did a bit of research and she was happy she had a copy. Having the real one meant he was gone and she could not think about that.
âAre you okay?â Asked Lysandra worried at her sudden change of expression.
âYeah.â She added flatly, then gave them a big smile. It was their day off she should not spoil it.
âSo, are we taking Elide lingerie shopping?â Aelin teased trying to raise the spirits of her friend.
âYes, itâs going to be fun.â Added Lysandra all excited.
âGirls⊠there is really no need. What I have is okay. Lorcan is not fussed.â
Aelin took a bite of her food âoh but we will make sure he is fussed and also that he knows how sexy you are so he does not decide toâŠ. wander.â
âHow do I keep him? I am nowhere near as interesting as the two of you. He might get bored of me very soon.â
Aelin stared at her friend and it broke her heart that her horrible past left her with no confidence at all. Elide was brilliant at her job and she was an intelligent woman and she was positive she would make quite a few heads turn.
âDonât you say something like that ever again.â Lysandra preceded her. She was even more protective of Elide than her âI work with you everyday and I know how awesome you are and I am positive that if we go to a club youâd have your share of men looking at you.â
Aelin nodded.
They finished their meal and went back wandering around the shopping centre and visited a few shops. In one of them Aelin wandered in the male department and spotted a couple of lovely jumpers. One of them was a deep green and looked very cozy and she realised she had no idea of when it was Rowanâs birthday.
Silly question, you never told me your birthday. She sent the text and knew a reply might take a long time to come. She grabbed the jumper and tried to decide whether it was the right size for him.
âThat is a lovely jumper.â Said Lysandra joining her at her side âalready thinking about useful presents? You are like an old married couple.â
Aelin laughed.
âBut I think this one is really nice and the man seems to look amazing in green.â
âI am just wondering about the size.â
Lysandra grabbed the tag âthis one will fit Aedion so you should be fine.â
A moment later Elide rejoined them, her face beetroot red âI feel so silly.â And showed the girls her bag with her lingerie purchase.
âHey, Ace and I are joking. You didnât have to buy it if it makes uncomfortable.â But Elide surprised them âI will buy just one pair for now and Iâll see how it goes.â
Lysandra laughed âAelin is already buying presents married couple style and you are still in the sexy lingerie stage. My girls have grow up so much.â
âAnd what stage are you and Aedion?â Asked Aelin with a grin.
âThe one where I go to the grocery store and I phone him to ask him if he wants beef or chicken for dinner.â
The rest of the afternoon went swimmingly and she loved spending the day with Lys and Elide. They didnât do that nearly enough.
Now she was back home and in the kitchen trying to accomplish her new mission. She had bought a cooking book for beginners and she had decided she was going to try and cook dinner. Lysandra had told her to start with something as simple as a stir fry. So she had bought a few more kitchen supplies and a pan Lys had told her was called a wok. She had mused why she could not use the pot she already had and Lys had rolled her eyes. Aelin had also bought the ingredients and now they were all lined up in front of her, the book open and a fire blanket and a small fire extinguisher on the counter just to be safe it was her cooking after all. She took a photo and sent it to Rowan then started working. When it got to cut the onions she cursed herself for deciding to cook.
Her phone rang and put it on speaker âhey,â her voice sounded strained and Rowan went in full fussing mode âare you okay?â
âYeah, cutting those blasted onions.â She sniffled.
Over the line she heard Rowan roar with laughter âwhat are you making?â He asked as soon as he stopped laughing.
âA chicken stir fry. Lys said itâs easy to do.â
âWhy are you putting onions in it?â
âBecause I like them, mr I know how to cook.â
âI even bought a wok. Apparently I cannot use my pot.â She added as while throwing the ingredients in the pan.
âSeriously, when I get back we are going to have a massive overhaul of your kitchen.â
And Aelinâs heart raced in joy. It sounded like he had no intention of going back permanently to his flat. Maybe when he got back she should ask him the question after all.
âAelin, itâs a miracle you have cutlery and two plates.â She could hear the humour in his voice.
âHow are things going?â
âI just came off patrol. I am on my way to my quarters to get changed. I donât have the most appealing scent just now.â
âShower without me, so what? Two minutes max?â
âThatâs about it. The water supply is not endless.â
He finally got to his quarters and collapsed on his bed after removing his boots then lay down and activated the camera.
âHi sexy,â she did the same and placed the phone against the wall in front of her so he could see her as well.
âI donât see any smoke. Thatâs a good start, considering itâs you.â
Aelin gave him the middle finger and then showed him her small fire extinguisher âI am prepared.â She took a bit of her food âfor now it tastes edible, but not as good as yours.â
She saw him give her a smug smile and her instinct was to wipe it off his face with a kiss.
âThe answer is July 16th, by the way.â
Aelin looked at him not understanding his statement.
âMy birthday? You asked me earlier on.â
That she did âThatâs two months away.â
âAnd when itâs yours?â
âMay 3rd.â
âAelin, thatâs in two days.â He added sadly âand it sucks I canât be there.â
âLys has planned to drag me out with the girls of the firehouse. Itâs also her bachelorette party. I have to go.â
âI almost forgot they were getting married. That came around quickly.â
Aelin laughed ânot when you have been around them for years.â Aelin placed her food in a plate and moved to the sofa, taking her phone with her.
âWhen is the wedding?â
âThis weekend. The weather is meant to be gorgeous which is a good thing since they are getting married outdoors.â
She heard him sigh âI really, really wish I could be there with you.â
She did not add that she had been thinking the same. So she just took a bite of her food.
âEdible?â
âFuck no,âAelin spit the morsel back in the plate âI must have done something wrong with the spices. It tastes horrible.â She grabbed her house phone.
âWhat are you doing?â
âClearly ordering in. I am not eating this.â
Rowan rolled his eyes âyou should practice more.â
âWhy bother? I am clearly not cut for cooking. I am hopeless.â
âDo I need to tell you the amount of times my food sucked when I was still learning to cook decently? I got better with trial and error.â
Aelin huffed âfine Iâll try again on my next day off.â Then she put her house phone down after placing the order âI thought you were going for a shower?â
âEager to get rid of me?â
âNo, I just was hoping to have a peek at that nice arse of yours.â
Rowan laughed âIf you behave.â
âDo you have the quarters all for yourself?â
Rowan nodded in the screen âthe perks of rank. Gav is sharing with Vaughan. The twins are on their own.â
âIs that wise?â
âThis carrier has a nice number of female officers. No one wants to go anywhere near that room.â
âRemember I am jealous, Whitethorn.â
âSome of them are middies on their snot cruise, so very young. The others⊠still not interested.â
âWho is a middie?â
âItâs short for midshipman or woman. They are the lowest ranking officers in the navy, just above the cadets. And a snot cruise is their first time out at sea on a proper mission.â
âAre your students middies as well?â She loved asking all those questions that might have sounded silly to him, but he never made her feel stupid for asking. He was always happy to answer.
âNo, my students are called pilot officers. Then they become Flying officers, then flight lieutenants which is what the twins are, then Vaughan is our squadron leader, Gav is the Wing commander and then you have me.â
âSounds so complicated.â She definitely needed to do more research to understand his job a bit better.
âItâs like you guys. Aedion looks after one rig as a lieutenant, you are the captain and are in charge of the operations of both at the same time and Dorian will be in charge of all the engines in case multiples houses are involved. Am I correct?â
Aelin nodded impressed.
âSame for us. Vaughan looks after our small squadron, Gav two or three squadrons, which is called a wing. I look after a unit composed of different wings and then Lorcan plays god in the CIC.â
âNow it makes more sense. So I could be your wing commander.â
âHaving you fly with us would be insane. We would not concentrate on the enemy.â
Aelin laughed, then the buzzer of the door went off âjust a sec, buzzard, food is here.â She went to get her food and plopped back on the sofa resuming her call with Rowan.
âIs your ship nice?â
âI served on her before. Not as swanky as the new one, but she is decent enough.â Rowan sat back up âhey, I really need to take that shower and then itâs chow time. If I miss it I donât eat until tomorrow morning.â
âGo. Sorry for keeping you.â
âYou did not such things. I have been looking forward to call you.â
âI love you.â She told him, sending back the tears that had started forming.
âI love you too, Fireheart.â
Aelin waved him goodbye and went back eating while tears had begun flowing down her cheeks. It had only been two days and she hoped it would get easier being so far apart.
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The next morning she arrived at the station bright and early, got changed and went straight to Aedion âAre you ready?â
The man nodded âPeter is covering you until we get back from the police and I got Manon in charge of the second rig.â
âGood. Letâs go.â
They arrived at the police headquarters not long after and Chaol met them at the reception area âHi guys,â
âHereâs my favourite cop.â Aelin went to hug Chaol.
âJust because I keep reporters away from you.â
She gave him a huge smile back.
âCome, detective Ytger is waiting for you.â They followed behind him in silence and stopped in front of a door and knocked.
A female voice told them to go in and once in the office Aelin recognised the same woman at one of the arson cases a few months back.
âCaptain, Lieutenant, we meet again.â The three shook hands and the detective sat back down and invited both cousins to do the same.
The detective threw a thick file on the desk âyou two have just made a very powerful enemy.â
âThe man is a bastard.â
âBelieve me, captain, when I tell you that Hamel has been a thorn in my side for a very long time.â
âAnd why is he still at large? Two people died and the man did not care.â
The woman pinched the bridge of her nose âhe has very powerful lawyers and always gets away with murder. We have been working on him for a long time but whatever piece of proof we bring in is never enough to get him behind bars for good.â Aelin could sense the tiredness in her voice.
âDid you close his club as I asked?â
âWe did, but he owns almost all the ones in Orynth. And so much more.â
âCanât you arrest him for murder?â voiced Aedion.
âNo, his lawyers showed us the papers of the latest inspections and the place was deemed to code. He blamed the company that did the inspections for lying to him.â
âDetective, I hope you are aware that is a bullshit.â Said Aedion, fury burning under his surface.
âI am well aware.â The woman added almost apologetically âthe closure is temporary. It will not stick too long.â
Aelin almost swore âHave the other clubs been checked?â
âWe did some undercover recon but we donât have the full skillset to know whatâs up to code.â
Aelin smiled wickedly âwell, itâs a good thing that you have a firefighter whose birthday is very soon and was planning to go to a club.â
âYou are not dragging Lys and the others in this.â
âCalm down. Hamel does not know them, they are safe. I will wear a disguise.â
âI donât like the sound of this.â He protested again but he knew Aelin could be stubborn.
âI am coming too.â
âNo,â said Aelin âOne: Hamel remembers how you lifted him up and he will not forget such act. Two: itâs Lys bachelorette party as well. So, no.â she paused âyou can take the guys to another one.â
âWhat happens if we find both clubs not up to specs?â Asked Aelin worried that it was going to be a lost cause.
âWe can start by closing them and gather a bit more time to have more material against him. We have other leads. We just need something significant.â
They discussed with the detective which clubs to hit and they left.
Once in the car Aedion made his displeasure quite clear âI do not like this.â
âNeither do I, but the police has no idea what to look for.â Replied Aelin.
âWe are not cops.â
âAnd they are not firefighters.â
After that they drove in silence all the way back to the station.
***
Two days had passed and Aelinâs birthday had arrived. She arrived at the station and laughed at the scene. One of the rigs was covered in balloons and a sign saying happy birthday, cap and the second rig was for Aedion and Lysandra and the front of the truck had a long white sheet over it that looked like a bridal veil and two massive papier mache rings attached to the front.
She laughed and joined Ansel and Manon who were doing some checks âdid everyone see this?â She pointed at the engine and truck. The two women nodded.
âThen letâs clear it. I do not want to go on a call in that state.â
âYes, captain.â Said the two women in unison.Â
The locker room was empty and she sat down on the bench and looked at her phone again. She was hoping for a text from Rowan or a call but nothing yet. She kept telling herself that he was busy and probably out flying. She removed his dog tags and hung them in the locker and stood and stared at the pictures she had hung up. It was some of the photos they had taken in Doranelle. With her finger she brushed a photo of him. He was standing and looking up to the sky. His eyes closed and a small smile painted on his face and his hair all tousled after she had messed it up. It was one of her favourite photos of him. âBe safe, please.â And she blew him a kiss.
Aelin got dressed and then reached the team who was having breakfast in the communal room.
âShe is here.â Shouted Nox happily.
Luca grabbed her arm and pulled to the table where a cake was waiting for her.
âChocolate hazelnut cake. Your favourite.â He cut a slice and offered it to her.
Aelin grabbed it eagerly âmmmmmâ
âGet a room you two,â shouted Ress.
A moment later Manon came through with a man carrying a large box âhe says this is for you, captain.â
âThanks, Manon.â
Aelin grabbed the box from the courier and sat down on the sofa. It came from a shop in Orynth. Strange. She opened the box and when she peeked inside she saw a massive stuffed toy. Once she lifted it she realised it was a bird and she had a feeling she knew who it was from.
âA bird? Why a bird?â Asked Lysandra.
Aelin smiled, grabbed the stuffed toy and walked to her bunk to be alone when she noticed the letter inside.
Once alone she sat down on her bed and placed the bird at her side and read the letter
Happy birthday, fireheart.
I wish I could be there for you but I canât and it hurts more than I thought possible.
If you are reading this, you have met your new friend. I could not find a buzzard but a toy shop in Orynth had a white-tailed hawk and since I have silver hair I thought it was the closest option. Do we look similar? He will keep you company while I canât be there with you.
I will try and call you tomorrow if I get a free moment, but the guys and I have pulled alert crew duty for the day so no phone for me.
Have fun with the girls and leave the other guys alone especially if they are navy and army. Aelin chuckled at the joke
I miss you already.
I love you. Madly.Â
To whatever end.
Yours,Â
Buzzard.
By the time she had finished reading the letter she was in tears. She hugged the soft toy and for a moment she hoped to smell his scent of pine and snow. She went to her locker, grabbed the dog tags and put them around the birdâs neck âyou look after them while I am on shift, but then I take them back.â After that she took a photo and sent it to Rowan âI think I will call him Rowan.â
**
It was later that night and Lysandra and Elide were at Aelinâs place to get ready for their fun night. Aelin though, was not in the mood. Rowan had eventually called her but the phone call was cut short when he had go and scramble. Soft toy Rowan was on her bed, his dog tags back on since she would not be wearing them with her dress.
Lysandra was going through her wardrobe looking for a dress for the night.
âSo, the captain does have clothes that are not uniform,â said the woman going through his clothes but Aelin glared at her and Lys went back to Aelinâs side of the dresser.
âDid he phone you?â
âYeah.â Said Aelin flatly while wearing her dress.
âLorcan said they were having a couple of shitty days.â
Aelin ignored her friend or she would end up in tears and ruin her make up.
âDid he give you his dog tags?â Asked Lys noting them pending from the birdâs neck.
âNo, he canât. He made a copy. And I donât want the original ones until he retires.â
âWhy?â Asked Elide while she was busy fixing her hair.
âBecause it means he is dead. They are used for identification.â Replied Lysandra flatly. She had learned that from Aedion.
âCan we please change subject?â Snapped Aelin.
Lysandra grabbed a green dress âwhat do you think?â
âIt will go perfectly with your eyes.â Said Aelin wearing her blue dress.
âI thought you loved the captain.â Said Elide.
âUh?â
âThat dress?â Added Lys pointing at her attire âit makes you look as if you are open to being chased.â
âToo slutty?â
âAnsel will be proud of you.â
Aelin smiled âI do love the captain and I have no plans on taking anyone home. My only companion in bed tonight will be bird Rowan.â Then she wore a wig of red hair.
âWhy the wig?â
Aelin and Aedion had decided not to tell anyone about their plan for the night, so she had to lie although it hurt lying to Lysandra âjust for some fun.â
They arrived at the club half an hour later and Manon, Asterin and Ansel were already there and apparently already having fun.
âYou made itâ shouted the red-haired woman. âAnd who is the hot red-haired friend?â
âItâs me, Ansel.â
âCaptain, you look hot.â
Aelin laughed âthank you.â
âWe got some drinks already,â said Manon.
âHappy birthday, captain,â said Asterin raising her glass âand congratulation to Lys for bagging the meanest lieutenant in the TFD.â
Their glasses clinked and then Aelin spotted Chaol in the distance. What the heck was he doing at the club? She nodded at him and he gave her a small nod back. Everyone knew Chaol and if the girls spotted him it could raise some questions so she texted him with the pretence of being the overbearing girlfriend checking on her man.
The girls went out dancing and she stood behind saying she was not in the mood when she was actually trying to check out the place. She was about to join Chaol in his hideout when a guy stopped at her side and blocked her way âarenât you a stunning creature?â He said and Aelin cringed. She really hated clubs and the pigs that came with them.
âOf course I am.â
She felt his arm sneak around her waist and his body move closer to hers and she closed her eyes at the fact that those arms were not Rowanâs.
âWhat if I buy you a few drink and have some fun you and I?â
âYou couldnât handle me.â She said to him in a whisper.
âI love a good challenge. My flat is not far from here.â And his hand slithered up on her back.
Aelin scoffed âIâd never have sex with you even if we were the last two humans left in the world.â
She made to walk away but he grabbed her arm. She almost punched him but in that instant she felt someone hugging her from behind âitâs me, follow my lead.â He whispered in her ear and she noticed it was Chaol.
âThank you for finding my girlfriend. I went to the gents and I lost her.â
âSorry darling,â said Aelin caressing Chaolâs face.
The stranger walked away annoyed.
âThank you.â
âYou were holding your own anyway.â He commented.
âI was about to punch him and cause a scene and mess up the mission.â She whispered then grabbed his hand and pulled him to a quiet booth at the back of the club
âWhat are you doing here?â
âDetective Ytger sent me here as back up. Hamelâs minions know all of the detectives but not us beat cops.â
âHow do you want to proceed?â She asked him.
âYou are the firefighter, I am just here to make sure you get out okay.â
âOk, I need to walk around. Just keep an eye on me.â Chaol nodded and Aelin walked away.
She went back to the bar area and smiled when Elide walked toward her âAce!! Come on itâs your birthday, you need to come and have fun.â She also had a job to do but felt bad at abandoning her friends. So she joined them again and Lys grabbed her for some dancing.
âHow how many hearts did you break?â
âJust the one but he was a pig.â
âDid you tell him you have a super hot captain waiting for you?âÂ
Aelin shrugged and turned to Elide.
âHow many drinks did Ansel give you?â
Elide lifted three fingers in front of her face âtwo.â
Aelin laughed âno more alcohol for you.â
âBuuut I am sad and I miss Lorcan.â Aelin hugged her friend knowing full well how she felt.
âStill, no more alcohol, you just canât hold it.â
She walked Elide to Manon âcan you keep an eye on her please? And just water please. Elide has reached her alcohol quota for the evening.â
âOf course.â
Aelin smiled at the white-haired woman. She was very introverted and of a very few words but she did not care about that since she was good at her job. She was the complete opposite of Ansel.
Speaking of the womanâŠâwhere did Ansel go?â
âLast time I have seen her she was dancing with a brunette.â Aelin dragged a hand on her face âI am going to the ladies. Just behave, okay?â
She used the excuse to slip away and walk around as she was supposed to do. She wanted to try and take some photo as proof but covert operations were not her forte.
âYou are back,â whispered Chaol at her back.
âIâll pretend to be drunk and lost.â
âBe careful, this is making me nervous.â
She nodded and walked away from him. Part of her was glad she had not mentioned this to Rowan, he would have gone in full protective mode.
She kept pretending she was drunk and dumb and ended up in the kitchen âsorry,â she slurred, leaning against the doorframe âare these the loos?â
âNo miss,â said one of the staff âthey are down there and on your right.â She gave the man a goofy smile and a wet kiss on the cheek âthank you, sweet man.â The hug had given her the time to have a very quick look in the kitchen and note there was no safety equipment. That was enough for her to shut down that club as well. How could they run a kitchen that way? She really had to take down the bastard. She hid in the shadows of the club and and checked the fire doors without activating them and found them of shoddy quality. She was fuming. She had a good look at the club and realised even the numbers of people allowed in was probably over the limit. Those doors were for 60 people, she could only see three on ground level, which meant a limit of 180 people. There were probably over three hundred, all crammed and spread on two levels. It was a firefighter nightmare. She ran back to Chaol âgo home. I have seen enough. Tell the detective this place needs to be shut down as well.â
âIâll phone her as soon as I am out. She was waiting for news anyway.â
âGo, and say hi to Yrene.â
Chaol left and she ran back to her friends nervous that she was placing them in danger. She wanted to go but the idea of leaving all those people behind made her nervous. She texted Aedion and rage surged back when he told her that their club was the same.
The girls took her dancing in the middle of the dance floor and danced away ignoring a couple of guys basically dancing on her. She hated clubs so much and the music was horrible. She bit down her annoyance and went to hug Lysandra âhow does it feel to be almost married?â
âWeird.â She looked at Aelin âare you having fun?â
âYou know I donât like clubs but I came for you, itâs your night after all.â
âItâs your birthday too.â
Aelin shook her head âI get one every year, you better marry my cousin and stick to him.â
âAnd you stick to the captain. I want to come to your wedding.â
Aelin laughed âweâll seeâŠâ then she turned and saw Elide leaning against the counter half asleep âwhat if we take the party to my place? I am sick of this place.â
âPlease,â said Manon in a hopeful tone. She hated clubs as well âwe can get alcohol on the way home. If I hear another man asking me why my hair is white I am going to start snapping necks.â
âHey Manon, no need to snap necks,â then Aelin looked around for Ansel.
âIâll get her,âsaid Asterin when she noticed the woman in the distance.
The woman came back with Ansel in tow and moved closer to Aelin âthe fire exits are not enough and one is blocked.â She whispered.
âI know, I am going to call Peter and explain the situation to him.â She took her phone out âtake the others to the cars. Iâll be there in a moment.â
Aelin watched Asterin walking the group to safety then hid in dark a corner and phoned Peter explaining that they had to pretend they had an anonymous call and come and pay a visit to the place and shut it down. The man agreed after she explained him the situation in terms of safety. She was playing dirty but could not care less. Peopleâs lives were at stake. Hamel could just go and impale himself for all she cared.
Quickly she left the building and she went to her car joining Lys and Elide. The remaining women were in Manonâs car.
They stopped for booze on the way and finally got back home. Aelin took Elide piggyback style as the woman had fallen asleep. Once in the flat she placed Elide in the spare bedroom and covered her with a blanket then went back to the rest of the group camped in her living room. A text from Peter told her that the club had been safely evacuated and closed. Apparently he had found even more infractions that she had not the time to spot.Â
âOk, ladies back to the party.â Aelin grabbed a mixed selection of glasses and mugs for the beer.
Ansel stood and went to use the bathroom and came back a few minutes later âwhy do you have guyâs stuff on the bathroom shelf? Do you live with the silver fox?â
Aelin sighed âRowan has been living here since I was discharged from the hospital.â
âThat was a while ago.â
âI know.â Aelin sighed.
âYes!â Shouted Ansel pulling Aelin toward her âour captain is shacking up. I am so proud of you.â
After a few drinks, Ansel would become very friendly with anyone. It was a good thing they had left the club.
In that instant she got a text from Aedion saying that he had activated the fire alarm in their club and evacuated the whole place after he had spotted a shit ton of infractions. Well, that was probably another club down. Definitely not what they had agreed with the detective but they had to do something.
âOk, since this is a bachelorette party as well, we can have a bit of spiciness.â Said Asterin while drinking her beer âunusual place where you had sex. We need to give Lys some ideas.â
âDo we?â Joked Aelin âLys would definitely teach us something.â Then everyone looked at Ansel âafter her of course.â
âI once hooked up with civilian pilot and we did it in his cockpit before he got to fly the planeâ
âWhere you flying as well?â Asked Lysandra curious.
Ansel nodded âitâs a long story.â
âAelin, you are up. I bet the captain is wild.â Lysandraâs eyebrows lifted suggestively.
âHe is pretty amazing but the strangest places have been a beach, the sea, behind a waterfall, a pool at the foot of two different waterfalls and almost on a military ship.â
âAlmost?â Asked Manon curious.
âIâll show you the dress.â
Aelin went to get her black dress and got back a moment later âand he knew I had nothing underneath.â
The group of women cheered loudly âthat must have driven him insane.â Joked Asterin.
âThatâs why the almost. We would have been in a lot of trouble if we got caught.â
âI have nothing left to teach you.âAnsel was sprawled on a chair and lifted her beer in acknowledgment.
âLys?â
The woman blushed savagely âin a car wash. Aedion and I stayed in the car while it was getting washed and⊠well.. it was quick but fun.â
âDefinitely nothing to teach you,â Aelin clinked her bottle with her friend.
âAsterin?â
âMy previous firehouse, with one of my colleagues on top of a rig on a night shift.â
Manon gave a light chuckle âwas it when you were at the Regional 2?â
Asterin nodded âhe was some hot firefighter. We are still friends. We did it once and then it felt so weird and never happened again.â She explained.
Aelin sighed âThe night of the mayorâs party, Thomas and I hooked up. We ended up at my place. We did it, realised it was rebound sex and finished the night with tv and junk food.â Thinking about him still pained her.
âNo friggin way. More than the kiss?â Asked Lysandra shocked.
Aelin nodded âafter you saw us kissing I left, he found me, we went back to my place.â
Aelin looked around and noticed that no one wanted to make too many comments, his death was still too fresh for everyone and he had been Manonâs and Asterinâs captain.
âDoes Rowan know?â
âI told him and he is fine. We were nothing at the time and I was mad at him.â
In that instant Elide joined the group and Aelin stood and went to her âhey, how are you feeling?â
âMy head hurts.â Replied the woman leaning against Aelin.
âI should take her home. We are working tomorrow we should all go home.â
âLys is right,â added Asterin âanother 24hrs shift ahead, we need some sleep.â
Manon and Asterin offered to take Ansel home and Aelin remained with Lys and a sleepy Elide.
âI am sorry the evening sucked.â
âHey,â Lysandra placed her hands on Aelinâs shoulders âit didnât, and to be honest we were all quite tired. All it matters is to marry that annoying cousin of yours.â
âTake Elide home, she is about to go to sleep again.â
Once Aelin was alone she finally shed the dress and opened one of Rowanâs drawers and grabbed a t-shirt. They were usually far too big for her but she loved them as pyjama. She went to the bathroom, got ready and then finally got in bed with bird Rowan and squeezed close to his pillow to inhale his scent.
She grabbed her phone and found a text from Rowan
I hope you had a nice evening. I wish I had been there with you because itâs bad out here. I hope bird me is keeping you company. Have a nice night, Fireheart. Love you.
Aelinâs heart sank at the anguish in his voice. She tried to call him but had no answer.
I love you, come back to me, was all she managed.
She squeezed bird Rowan and tried very hard to fall asleep.
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aah i thought of a req!!!!! could i maybe request one shots or hcs (separate) w dream, sapnap, n wilbur with a s/o (preferred he/him!!) who draws a whole lot,, n one day they catch him drawing him?? tysm :]
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gn i just realized i made a typo i meant cc catching reader drawing them- but ty again :)
of course! it's kind of long, sorry about that
I took a little creative liberty with the notion of "catching you drawing." also Sapnap's looks kind of long but it's also dialogue heavy. if you want me to redo it, I will. hope you like it đ
& a note to everyone else, I don't write for Wilbur yet! I only write for the dream team at this time. sorry about that! this will probably change in the future, though, so look out đ
CW: swearing
format: one-shot
people: dreamwastaken, Sapnap
pronouns: dreamwastaken's piece is ambiguous, Sapnap's piece uses he/him
edited 27 April 2021
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dreamwastaken
since he doesn't use his camera, you find yourself with your boyfriend in the studio more often than not. when he's gaming casually, you play together, or one of you will cheer the other one on. when he's streaming, sometimes you interact with the viewers, or read donations for him; sometimes you just sit next to him, soaking up his energy and warmth. when he's working long days and long nights to edit videos, you're content with just relaxing together in the same space. at times you have to drag him out to the kitchen to eat, or help him to bed if he passes out, butâŠhe's really cute when he's focused. (and you're starting to think he does it on purpose just so you can dote on him.)
today is a little different. he's recording for a manhunt that's meant to drop in a couple days. you're quiet, trying to avoid disrupting them. you're perched up on the loveseat, staring fondly at him across the room. he's so animated, the way his eyes shine when he talks to his friends, how he tears up when he laughsâŠ
Patches mews at you from the arm of the couch, as if to say, disapprovingly, I cannot believe how sickeningly sweet your inner monologue is.
and you try to understand where she's coming from, you really do, but the sun's starting to set, and the gentle rays slotting through the blinds are shifting from white to gold.
he looks so divine, you decide. it's unfair. how could I not love him? he's seriously pretty. and before you can stop yourself, you're sketching him out on your tablet. you glance up at him fast to get the details right, and look away just as quickly. he never meets your eyes. soon your whole page is covered in little Clays, capturing the way he feels, the way he acts, the way you feel about him. Patches jumps off the chair, with all the moving. and before you know it, you've drawn up a whole page of concept art of your unfairly beautiful boyfriend. Patches was right about me, you muse to yourself.
fuck. Patches. the same Patches who's been meowing at you for the better part of an hour, now sitting patiently at the door? there's no way Clay didn't pick up on all that noise, you fret. but he's still playing, looking intense as ever. relief washes over you, replacing the guilt.
come here, girl, you think to yourself, knowing Patches wouldn't have even understood you if you spoke. sorry to keep you waiting. and you rise, slipping quietly out the door with his cat in your train.
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you're coming back to the studio. Patches, fed and sated, is napping in another room. opening the door, you have to stop yourself, you freeze. your boyfriend's kneeling on the ground, sitting on his heels, right next to the doorâyou'd have hit him if it opened any further.
"baby, what are youâŠ" the words die on your tongue.
my book. my sketchbook. my sketchbook full of drawings of him. shit, he's gonna think I'm such a simp! the embarrassment, the shame, the fear, it's overwhelming you.
you hear your voice break. "âŠwhat happened to recordingâŠ?"
"finished half an hour ago," he says simply.
and that was that. for the first time in ages, the silence hanging between you was thick and heavy with tension. you wait. and wait. and wait. you wait for the criticism, the hate, the argument that never comes.
suddenly, he seems content with what he's seen, when he looks up at you adoringly, and takes one of your hands, giving it a soft squeeze. "is thatâŠme?"
you've lost your voice, all you can do is nod.
"youâŠyou think I'm beautiful?" he glows.
ah, I suppose I did write that, somewhere in there. you look away. all the things I've saidâŠ
he brings your hand up to his lips and leaves kisses on your knuckles.
you sound small. "do I not tell you that enough?" you pause. "that you're beautiful? that I love you?"
and just like that, his nervousness dissolves into euphoria. you both start laughing at the same time.
"oh my godâ" he wheezes. "âyou're so sappy."
"only for you," you blurt out, and start laughing harder. but he quiets, he hesitates.
"only for me," he repeats.
you sink down onto the floor next to him. he's staring so fondly at you, you can't help but smile back.
"only for you," you affirm.
he rests his hands on your knees, pulling himself closer to you. he's so close to you, you can feel his blush. you let your eyes close, softly.
but the kiss never comes. instead, you're met with a "then what about all those drawings of Patches?"
laying on the floor, tangled up in each other, in hysterics, you distantly think I hope he remembered to leave the call from recording earlier.
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over dinner, you meet his gaze, and he gives you that look. that stupid, handsome look; the one with the smile and the danger behind his eyes. he makes a point of pausing mid-bite, but it takes you a minute to notice that he's stopped eating.
"what's up, honey?" you ask, sounding a little more concerned than you should have been.
he shrugs dramatically. "oh, nothingâŠjust figured you'd appreciate a muse." there it was. the teasing. you knew it would happen eventually. but the tone, it's kind, it's tempting; gentle, unlike a serious jab.
so all you do is roll your eyes, but you can't help the way your mouth quirks into a smile. "you're so dumb," you murmur with affection, and shake your head at nothing in particular.
Patches curls her tail around your ankle as she passes you by.
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on the couch hours later for movie night, you're the last one up. Patches is curled up in Clay's lap, purring. Clay, in turn, sleeps soundly in your lap. (you think if he could purr, he would, but he settles for humming softly when you play with his hair.) you might think it's funny looking back on it later, but it feels so tender and vulnerable now. you like calm evenings like this one. Studio Ghibli plays quietly on the flatscreen; you don't know which one, you're not really paying attention anymore.
you're busy tracing the contours of Clay's skin, feeling more than seeing his shape in the dark room. mapping him out in your mind, learning his figure like you're seeing him for the first time again. you think you understand him a little bit better, every day you spend together. and with confidence, you make your first stroke, illuminated by the moon.
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Sapnap
you only barely stop yourself from drawing a big "X" across your paper. exhale, and start erasing furiously. don't rip the paperâwell, we didn't need that sheet anyway. ball it up and throw it at the dark, cobwebbed corner of the room. along with the rest of your mistakes.
you're trying. you're really trying. but those lips. his fucking lips. fuck.
your boyfriend smiles at the camera as he gets a donation with a sweet message on it. it should be so easy. he's right there. right here.
you check the time. it's been an hour. you've been trying, and miserably failing, to get his lips right for an entire hour. today, at least. you scoff at yourself, your misery, and pinch the bridge of your nose. it isn't fair.
his camera's on, and he's live, so you know you can't be in there with him. nobody knows you're together, and you don't want know what kind of backlash to expect if people found out. so you've been avoiding his streamsâŠthe whole room where he streams, really.
you've kept yourself busy by drawing. and you've cycled through many subjects in your life, and eventually, been able to draw whatever you put your mind to with enough time and effort. the problem is, your sights have been set on Sapnap, even for months before you got together. okay, maybe that isn't the problem. the actual problem is that you fucking suck at drawing him.
you get going, start it out, do an okay job, but midway through screw it all up somehow. to make things worse, your reference is his 2D image. he doesn'tâŠknow that you draw him. you're terrified to say. so you can't use the real life Sapnap as a reference, like you would prefer.
ugh, and this one's ruined too. you rip it up and throw it at your growing pile of paper balls, but being tiny confetti-sized pieces of paper, they don't make it very far. great, something else to clean up later, you huff at your own thoughts. it isn't fair.
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"[name]?" he calls for you. you're one step ahead, already opening the door. you can't remember when you got here and decided to brood outside his room.
"hey, do you think you canâ" he tears his eyes from his camera, his waiting audience, to look up at you expectantly. when he sees you he stops immediately, looking concerned, standing to meet you.
"what is it?" your voice is flat.
out of view of the camera, he mouths, are you okay? you only shrug and avert your eyes.
he falters, contemplates, sits back down at his desk and starts to talk to his viewers. "hey guys, I'm sorry for the short notice, but I gotta cut this stream short. myâŠ" he glances at you for approval, only to see you motioning with your hands as if to say, no, don't.
(you yourself don't really know what for. no, don't end the stream for me? no, don't out us like this?)
he looks back. "âŠmy friendâŠsomething came up with my friend. I have to take care of it. it's really important." you can tell he has trouble finding the right words. you can tell it throws him off, he's acting out of character for his internet personality. do you blame him? isn't this your fault? "sorry again. bye guys!"
the second he made the last click, he gets up and pulls you into a hug. it's unexpected, it knocks the wind out of you. you're certain he feels the tension.
"babeâŠwhat's wrong?" it's muffled by your neck and the sweater you're wearing. you just hold him, saying nothing.
he pulls away and holds you by the shoulders. "look at me. what's wrong?"
you feel all the more embarrassed. it's so silly to be upset about. "IâŠIâŠwell, it's a lot."
he shakes his head, to say I'm not going anywhere, but his expression softens, his grip loosens. "do you want to talk about it?"
you sigh. "it started as 'I can't draw for shit', then it became 'why am I afraid of asking you for help?', and finally, worst of all, 'why the fuck can't we be seen together?' it isn't fair. it's never been fair. I'm sorry."
he thinks about it for a second. "okay, what makes you feel like we can't be seen together?"
"are you joking?" you snap. "we're two fucking boyfriends. in this society." he didn't look hurt by the outburst, but the guilt crept in anyway. "âŠI'm sorry."
he shakes his head, "do you really think I'd let that happen? I wouldn't ever let anyone hurt you, darling. remember that."
"I know, I knowâŠ" you don't know what to say. "it's easy to forget, I guess."
"what are you afraid to ask me for help about?"
"IâŠ" shit, you guess you have to tell him. close your eyes, breathe, "I've been drawing you. trying to draw you. but I can't, it never turns out right."
you peek, and he's red in the face, stuttering. "me? you draw me? of all the hot people out there?"
you furrow your eyebrows at him. "don't give me that shit. you know you're cute."
he shakes his head incredulously. "are we talking about the same person here?"
"dude, your smile is literally the most radiant fucking force of nature I have ever seen."
"you're hot too! why are you coming after me?"
"I'm not 'coming after you', you're being defensive about your looks, when you shouldn't be! you're gorgeous, baby."
you're both giggling like girls at a sleepover, the anger and frustration long forgotten. now it's a war of who can be more grossly in-love with the other.
"what part of me," he manages between laughs. "are you having trouble drawing?"
"oh god," you groan, remembering yourself and your dilemma. "your lips."
"my fucking lips? you would think thatâ"
"no," you warn. "shut up. don't say it. don't you dare say it."
he leans in close, his hands have moved up to cup your face. you shiver.
"don't worry," he grins. "I won't."
the kiss is long and sweet, nothing like the ones you've shared in the past. he takes his time, you savor each other. you feel time stop ticking, you feel your heart stop beating, you feel the way he tilts his head. you grab him by the collar of his shirt and pull him in. and when you part, you're breathing heavy, in tandem.
"thanks," you manage. "but I needed to see your lips, not kiss you into next saturday."
"nah," he laughs. "I think you needed that too."
you choose your words thoughtfully. "do you need me, too?"
he hums, andâ
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you could die. you could really, seriously die.
the response is instant. you don't even see Sapnap move from you to the PC, flushed down to his neck, apologizing, apologizing, and apologizing again. "change of plans, guys, we're doing an art stream!"
the chat is filled with "huh?"s and "what?"s.
"huh? what?" you didn't have the time to process what just happened.
karljacobs: I thought we were doing a make-out-with-our-secret-boyfriends stream :(
he smiled warmly at you. "yeah. my lovely boyfriend is going to draw me! he's been wanting to for a really long time, and his art is really good. let's go get your stuff."
you're in so much shock that he makes it past you and out of the room, while you stand there waiting. after a pause much longer than you intended, you hurry after him.
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down the hall, in your room, he's got your sketchbook tucked under his arm, closed. you're sure you left it open when you came out.
you only barely get the words out. "um, did youâŠgo through it? please don't laugh."
your heart sinks when he laughs heartily, but he grabs your hand, resting it on your book, about to hand it off. but he holds you there for a second. "of course not. I respect your privacy." he ponders for a moment. "I respect you."
you can feel the sigh of relief when you let it out. "IâŠlove you."
your holding your book now, as he moves to collect the boxes containing your pens and pencils and colors. he gets them all together, but before he picks them up to head back, he turns around to face you. "is this too much?"
you absently reach for a hand, tracing over the lines on his palms. and you think about it. am I okay? is this too much?
"I don't think so. not with you. I'm okay."
he moves to open the door and grab the rest of your things. "well then, let's not keep them waiting!"
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FFXV A/B/O au 18+ includes fingering, yandere, controlling behaviour, alludes to forced breeding, depression, mentions of self harm, low self esteem/weight issues. F!reader/Ignis/Gladio
So this was going to be a pretty dark forced breeding kinda fic but my mood changed and it ended up being half the beginning of a forced breeding fic and half depressed reader suffering from a depressive episode. The change in my mood is very noticeable half way though and probably a little jarring so we shall pretend that the second half happens a month or two after the first half, when the topic of kids has been soothed over and temporarily forgotten! No proofreading, no beta.
EDIT- Just correcting a typo that was annoying me!
ââŠ.having children.â
âWhat??â Youâd been spacing out, a mixture of the Eos version of antidepressants you were taking and the fact that this meeting with King Regis was more than a little boring. Or had been at least. The end of Regisâ sentence shocks you back into reality abruptly.
Ignis shushes you quietly and you look at him aghast, but he ignores you, focusing on the King.
âApologies Your Majesty.â Regis briefly glances at you then back to Ignis, âShe is your mate? Bonded?â âYes Your Majesty, myself and Gladiolus.â
Regis looks back at you âAnd the nature of your relationship with my son isâŠ.?â
Ignis answers before you can, âShe is companion to all pack members.â
âCan she speak for herself?â Your gaze flicks to Ignis and he nods. âYes Your Majesty I can.â You feel foolish and more than a little embarrassed as your voice echoes in the hall.
âYour pack keeps you close, understandably so, although I have heard you do not have much freedom?â The King watches you, waiting for a reply you think but youâre not sure what to say. âSheâs very quiet isnât she?â It feels like a jab, and you look at Ignis for direction who looks uncomfortable. He shakes his head minutely so you bite your tongue. Regis sighs and you feel a little like you just missed an opportunity.
âI believe that as Pack Alpha and as The Prince of Lucis Noctis should have first breeding rights.â
Ignis freezes and you bite your tongue so hard you taste blood. Breeding rights?? âI am unsure if that is something Noctis ââ
âIt doesn't matter,â The King interrupts with a wave of his hand. âI let my son live as independently as possible, and have allowed him to start his own pack but having an omega is an opportunity to continue the Caelum line. An opportunity we may not see again and one that should not be denied.â
You feel incredibly taken off guard with this whole conversation. âYou cannot be â â
Ignis grabs your hand and silences you with a tight squeeze of your fingers. You must be dreaming right? This is not truly happening. The floor feels like its tilting beneath you and you have to look down at your feet to make sure itâs not.
âI will let you discuss it with Noctis and within your pack but I hope you will not forget my opinion or interest in this matter.â Regis gazes at you for a few seconds. âApologise to Noctis on my behalf, I will not be able to make our dinner this evening.â
Ignis bows and you reluctantly do the same. You feel dazed. Ignis tight grip on your hand doesnât let up as you leave the throne room. He keeps giving you concerned glances out the corner of his eye as you walk back to your quarters, but it takes you until youâre walking down the corridor to your room that you shake yourself out of your stunned stupor enough to say anything.
âDid we just negotiate over which one of you gets to knock me up?â You ask incredulous. He doesnât answer you but he frowns at your choice of words.
âIgnis, you â please tell me I just hallucinated that whole meeting.â
He sighs âwe will need to discuss it.â
âYou are not serious. The answer is no!â âIt's an omegas role.â He snaps and you flinch, not used to Ignisâ anger.
âMy apologies. If the King has taken an interest we will need to discuss it.â he repeats.
âHe cant make me have children.â
Ignis hesitates barely a fraction of a second but itâs enough to send a pulse of terror through you that he immediately picks up on. he stops, turning towards you and cradling your face in his hands. âI nor the rest of your pack would force you into anything you didnât want love.â He lets you go and takes your hands again. âHowever it is the future of the royal bloodline, it will be something we need to talk about seriously in the future, whether we want to or not.â âWe do not! I donât want kids Ignis!â He flinches and something dark flickers across his face as he looks at you. Itâs gone before you can interpret it as he turns away, pulling you after him as he continues walking.
You feel tired. âI thought I was your mate,â you say sullenly ânot Noctisâ.â âYou are, unfortunately itâs more complicated than that.â You think you should be more upset by this than you currently feel. The medication you were on was new and felt a lot stronger than the antidepressants you had been taking back home. It left you feeling a little more numb and placid than you think you would have been otherwise.
He stops outside your room and pulls you into a kiss. Moaning softly when you immediately respond. Heâs purring, trying to comfort you and you give in to the calm emotions it provokes, not wanting to feel the disorientated confusion anymore.
He leans closer, pushing you into the wall and his hand tugs up your dress until your thighs are bare. âYou did well talking to the King, I was proud of you.â His praise makes you shiver. You thought Gladio was the one with the high sex drive but as his fingers stroke up your thighs you think Ignis is just as bad. Although a little more polite and less aggressive about it perhaps.
You're both quiet as his fingers slip between your thighs and he rubs softly at your clit. He presses harder and increases his pace at your gentle sigh and you turn to bury your face into his neck as the pleasure builds. Youâre panting into his neck and he has his face buried in your hair, youâre not sure why you feel like you have to be quiet but you do your best to hold back your moans. Heâs saying nothing, breathing hard he slips his hand up, pressing onto your abdomen before dipping into your panties and sliding a gloved finger inside of you. He gives you no time to adjust before he starts fucking you, like heâs desperate to make you cum. His palm grinds against your clit as he adds another finger, your orgasm is building fast, and as he continues his ruthless pace you feel another kind of pressure building slowly low in your stomach. It makes you gasp out his name in mild alarm, âSl-slow down, Iâm gonna pee!â He nuzzles against your ear, his purr increasing in volume. âNo youâre not love, just relax,â he nips at your ear, âLet go for me.â He curls his fingers, stroking your walls quickly in just the right way to have your back arching. Itâs a quick hard orgasm that takes you by surprise and has your whole body jerking and shaking as you ride out the aftershocks, biting into his shoulder as you try to control your twitching muscles. He seems a little disappointed but heâs still purring quietly and it helps calm your racing pulse. âGood Girlâ he slowly withdraws his hand and removes his gloves. Leaning around you to open your door he gives you another quick kiss. âNoctis will be disappointed about this evening, perhaps we should eat together?â Your legs feel shaky as you enter, Prompto is sat on your couch, watching what sounds like a musical and Gladio appears in front of you, pulling you into a kiss before you can even say hello. The kiss Gladio gives you is ravenous, his teeth nipping at your bottom lip. Both hands squeeze your ass as you try to pull away, conscious of the growing slick between your already wet thighs. âGladio!â He chuckles at your breathless gasp and pulls away, letting you go. He slaps your ass hard as you walk away, almost crossing the line into genuinely painful but he only grins at your glare. You wince as you sit down next to Prompto and he gives you a sympathetic smile. He pats his knee âLie down.â
Head resting in Prompto lap you half-heartedly watch the musical as he enthusiastically tells you the plot. You gaze flicks between the TV and Ignis and Gladio talking quietly by the door. You canât make out what theyâre saying but you have no doubt what theyâre talking about. Youâre still a little shook from your meeting with King Regis but you trust your pack to look after you. --------- âShe looked to me for permission.â âhmm?â âWhen the King spoke to her. She looked to me before answering.â Gladio surprises him with a kiss to his cheek. âWe trained her well.â âItâs not the way I wanted this topic brought up.â Ignis says after a few seconds and relaxes a little as Gladio strokes a hand down his back. âI didnât realise that was what the King wished to discuss.â âRelax babe. Weâll do damage control, itâll be fine.â Gladio watches Ignis expression closely, âShe wasnât happy with the idea I take it?â âShe said No. Emphatically.â They both stand there quietly, watching you as youâre subjected to Promptoâs retelling of the filmâs plot. âAccidents happen.â Gladio says quietly. Ignis frowns. âSheâs on birth control and heat suppressants.â âYou're in charge of her medication Iggyâ Ignis finally looks at him, but says nothing. âWho can really tell one little pill from another?â Gladio shrugs. âJust saying.â
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âNoctis said you cancelled your plans with him today.â Ignis stands next to your bed watching you. He frowns slightly when you donât respond, gently pressing the back of his hand to your forehead. You push him away and he sits next to you on the mattress. He sits and waits watching you patiently until you give in and make eye contact with him. He's worried about you, itâs written clearly across his face and it makes you feel ill. You shrug. You're half expecting him to force you to go anyway.
âBad day?â
You don't answer and snuggle deeper into your duvet.
âLove?â
âI'm fine,â Itâs an automatic answer and a lie. âJust tired.â Not quite another lie but close enough. You are tired. Just not the type of tired that's going to be helped by the 12 hour nap you want to take. You try to force a smile but it feels awkward and itâs obviously not convincing from Ignis expression.
He sighs and cautiously shifts a little closer but you flinch away when he goes to stroke your hair. It's a dirty greasy mess and the thought of Ignis touching it fills you with disgust and embarrassment.
âDonât.â His nostrils flare as he scents you and the surge of hatred for that invasion of privacy makes you feel physically sick. Nothing is ever just yours anymore.
âTalk to me love, I care about you.â
âWhy?â
It's a choked sob and you angrily bite your lip in an effort to stop the tears.
âBecause I love you.â
âWell you shouldn't.â Itâs a snappy angry retort but he doesnât flinch or pull away.
He reaches forward, gently brushing some of your hair away from your face. âSit up.â You scowl but you do as he commands. He pulls your hair gently in to a ponytail, combing his finger slowly through it to ease the knots before tying it with a band.
âHave you eaten today?â You shake your head reluctantly. You hadnât even got out of bed today let alone eaten or drunk anything. âHave you taken your medication?â His questions and attention are starting to irritate you. You just want to be left alone. âLove?â You shrug. You genuinely donât remember. âI can take care of myself.â âCan you?â You donât reply, annoyed at his patronizing, but probably correct assumption and instead lie back down and curl up into a tighter ball and try to ignore him. He sighs and entwines his fingers through yours despite your attempt to pull your hand away.
âI will go get you something to eat.â
You donât want to eat but you want to be left alone so you nod. He looks almost sad, maybe disappointed and it feels you with a surge of guilt.
âTell Noct I'm sorryâ
âYou have nothing to be sorry for love, but I will talk to him?â
It's a question and it surprises you for some reason.
You don't want him to know, it makes you feel pathetic. Ignis notices the way your thoughts have gone and links his fingers back through yours. âHe'll understand.â He squeezes your hand on the last word and you look up at him. Noctis is the one most likely to understand you know that but it's still embarrassing.
âI won't tell him anything you don't want me to, just enough to ease his concerns.â
You nod reluctantly, but the thought that Noctis could genuinely be worried about you feels absurd. âWill you be safe on your own?â his gaze sweeps down your arm as he stands, you know what heâs looking for, what heâs thinking, and you feel irritated at yourself for having shared so much with him in the past. The frustration at his question is unfair, you know that but you still feel it.
âIâll stay.â Gladioâs voice interrupts your reply. You watch with increasing exasperation as they talk quietly by the door, wishing they'd just go away before Ignis comes back to you. You squeeze your eyes shut and try to ignore his intense gaze. He presses a gentle kiss to your forehead and entwines his fingers back through yours. You crack open an eye when he doesnât move away. He looks so concerned about you that you find yourself crying before you can stop yourself. âIâm sorry.â Itâs half choked half sobbed from your throat. âYou donât need to be sorryâ he repeats. He makes no move to come closer and you feel grateful for that. You donât think you can handle too much affection without breaking down completely.
âWhy do you put up with me?â you whisper, voice cracking. âI donât do anything, I canât fight, I canât help with hunts, I just do nothing. Iâm a burden.â âLove.â he sighs. âYou are not a burden.â He kisses your palm. âYou are a part of our pack. Our omega. Our mate.â He kisses you. âWe love you.â âWhy?â you sniffle. You canât wrap your head around it. He wipes away your tears with a sad smile, âBecause I do, because itâs you.â Youâve fooled him somehow, tricked him into loving you. Your stomach twists painfully.
âI wonât be long.â âOk.â Itâs a weak feeble reply but he doesnât pull away from you, instead waits until you let go of his hand. You watch him leave, expecting him to go and not return now heâs seen what you are truly like until Gladio steps in front, blocking your view.
He stands next to your bed, arms crossed as he looks down at you. âCan I?â
You hesitate in answering and he takes that as a yes.
âMove over,â he says expectantly. Pushing his way into your bed and nudging you gently with his elbow when you donât move.
You feel guilty that heâs having to stay with you, the urge to make it up to him is strong. You hook your leg over his and slide your calf over this crotch. He grunts in surprise and grabs your leg. âRelax baby.â
âYou don't want to?â You're not surprised really, you probably don't look or smell very attractive right now but it still hurts. Why would he stay if you can't give him what he wants?
âAlways, but we're napping right now.â
You don't believe him, and even though you don't even want to have sex you still feel the sting of rejection. He notices and presses a kiss to your forehead. Grabbing your wrist he tugs your hand to his crotch. âI'm always half hard for you omega.â And he is. You curl your hand around the bulge in his pants and squeeze tightly. His hips jerk forward and he chuckles pulling your hand away to rest on his chest. âNo, donât be naughty.â
You slump down on his chest, somewhat sullenly, still a little sore from his rejection.
You lose yourself in Gladioâs presence for a while, his heart beat strong and steady in your ear. âWanna talk?â
âNo, just cuddle.â
âI can do that.â He tightens his grip around you, pulling you until you are practically on top of him.
The self hatred comes back and you tense. You try to pull back but he tightens his hold.
âWhat's wrong?â
âI'm ââ Was he really going to make you say it?
âI'm heavy.â You mumble it into his chest.
âWhat?â
âAren't I too heavy?â
âNo youâre perfect.â he slides his hands down your sides to your ass. âI love every inch of you,â he continues his movements, gripping your thighs. âYou know how much Prompto goes on about these thighs? Gets me jealous with the amount of marks he leaves on them.â
You want to cry. He freezes as your breath hitches.
âWe can work on it if it's something you really want baby.â He says it hesitantly, quietly, like he's scared of upsetting you further. Linking his fingers with yours he tugs your hand to rest over his heart.
You donât know if it is something you want, you canât separate the dark voice in your head from the logical one. But heâs listening to you. Heâs not dismissing you, and heâs definitely not ignoring you and it makes the tears run freely again. Youre not worth such care. His free hand is still wandering, soothing strokes that start at the nape of your neck, swirl down your spine to your ass and dip just barely under the hem of your shirt. Itâs a soft gentle caress and even when his hands slip a little higher under your shirt thereâs nothing but love and tenderness in his touch. âYouâre sexy and youâre smart,â he kisses your thumb, âfunny, kind,â he makes his way along your fingers with each word, a kiss pressed to the tip of each one. âbrave, and my favourite kind of brat.â he nips at your pinky with the last word, before moving onto your other hand. His hands still when he hears you sniff. âWant me to stop?â
You bury your face into his chest to hide your tears. âYes,â you hiccup âNo.â
He squeezes you tighter and lets your hand drop, resuming his touch down your back.
âand I like you on top of me,â he says his voice dropping to a low whisper âI love watching you ride me.â
His horniness is predictable, and you smile into his neck, and although it doesn't last long it is a genuine smile.
âI felt that.â
You feel him relax underneath you, heâs not purring but you feel grateful for that.
You're still tired, still sad but the heavy dark emptiness in your chest lessens slightly as you lay there and listen to Gladioâs heartbeat. You feel like you can breathe a little easier. You turn on to your side away from him and all though he looks apprehensive he lets you go.
You shift and squirm until you are comfortable on your front and reach behind you to pull Gladioâs arm across your back. He goes willingly, only resisting when you try to drag him on top of you. âThe weight feels good. Please? It makes me feel,-â Itâs hard to describe how it makes you feel exactly, ââŠsafe.â You finish quietly. He opens his mouth to reply and you beat him to it. âNo talking, just squish.â His amused huff rustles your hair but he does as heâs told, draping himself over you until your half wedged under him and wrapped tight in his arms.
âI lo-â âDonâtâ you interrupt him quickly, with a surge of panic. You canât hear that right now. âIâm- I cant. Not now.â Youâre pretty sure youâre not making sense, that heâs not going to understand. âOk.â It's murmured against your hair, a simple acknowledgment but it makes you feel better. âCan I touch you?â You nod and he slips his warm hand under your shirt to rest across your ribs just under your breasts, holding you snugly against him. It still doesn't sit quite right. His affection, his obvious care, still feels alien, wrong, like itâs meant for someone else. The feeling that youâve tricked them into caring about you and your depressed mood still linger, and probably will for a while. But youâve been through this before, youâve made it through this before, and with the sound of Gladioâs steady breathing in your ear as he holds you, the heavy emptiness in your chest lessens a little bit more.
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âforeverâ paxton hall-yoshida x reader
genre: fluffy romance + mutual pining (not too slowburn tho lol)
word count: 3.4k
au: none?? jock x theatre nerd ig
pairing: Paxton x broadway baby!readerÂ
requested: yes !! i hope u like it uwu
warnings: one hell one motherfucking and i think thatâs it for swearing?? um brief self deprecating/talking bad abt urself from paxton (bby boy needs a self love boost), reader and paxton are home alone together for a little while but nothing bad happens, uh,,, i think thatâs it
summary: when Eleanor canât run lines with you, she sends over a very attractive, mutually pining substitute.
reccomended songs: âSeventeenâ - Tuck everlasting OBC, âThe Kissâ -The Princess Diaries score
a/n: iâm p sure i kept the reader p gender neutral but thereâs implied slightly long hair, and you play the lead (a girl named winnie) in ur schools production of tuck everlasting but like itâs theatre so anyone can play anyone lol,, this took so got dam long bc iâm fucking s o f t for jock x artist and it just sorta happened lol aLsO,, not super thoroughly edited so there might be a typo or two?? im tired lol
requests r open <3
You had only ever seen two athletes present during rehearsals. Once when Madeline (who at the time was playing Penny in your production of Hairspray) was dating a guy from the soccer team. The other was when the star of the basketball team had come in to give your choreographer pointers for the basketball scenes during High School Musical.Â
Until now.
You had run onstage part of the way through âLive Like Thisâ, which wasnât out of the ordinary since so much progress had been made on the costumes. You were still tying the ribbon on your pinafore as you jumped into the song, but when your eyes met a face in the usually empty auditorium, you faltered. You almost sang the wrong verse, but recovered quickly, continuing with the blocking. What felt like a moment later, the number was almost done and you were nearing the end of your counterpoint with Mae Tuck - played by Eleanor, of course. Who could be better for the part? You held out the last note, trying to stay in character despite all the distractions in the back of your mind. You had to talk to Eleanor when the director called for 10; sheâd started telling you how Devi was being weird recently. Also, what the Hadestown was Paxton Hall-Yoshida doing chilling in the auditorium? You shoved all that away, focusing on staying in character until the director called for a break.Â
âI want to go to the fair. I want to go so badly! I just need a change, need to get out of this house for a little while. I never do anything, so this canât be asking for too much, right?âÂ
You projected all that into your everything - face, voice, mannerisms, energy.
âHold!âÂ
Everyone froze.
The director wrote a few things on his paper, sighed, and underlined something several times.Â
âOkay, good job! I need to revise some of the blocking, then weâll do notes, so take ten.â Your sudden nerves had definitely made you pitchy, you knew that would be one of your notes for sure.Â
A chorus of âThank you tenâs erupted, and you immediately ran to Eleanor, telling the others good job as you passed.Â
You leaned in and started speaking to her, quietly.
âOkay you need to finish telling me about Devi, and that other news youâre being so cryptic about! Also, whatâs up with Fierro over there?â you nodded towards Paxton hoping he wouldnât see, and you noticed Fab is sitting near him. You realized theyâre probably waiting for Eleanor and/or Devi. That must be it, heâs been hanging out with them lately, right? Eleanor gasped.
âYouâre right! Paxton is such a Fierro!â
You cringed inwardly a little bit as her voice carried through the auditorium, mixing with the others. Your eyes darted over to him for a fraction of a second. Oh god. He was looking at you. Or in your general direction at least. Lena, the costumer, walked around the set gingerly, following you around and getting you out of your dress incredibly carefully as you and Eleanor walked off stage.Â
âNo! Well, yes- but no. Whatâs he doing here? Jocks never come here during rehearsals. I saw Fab too, are you guys and Devi getting dinner or something?â You said, entering the auditorium, and stepping out of the dress. You grabbed sweatpants and a silky, floral kimono jacket from your bag to throw over your leotard and tights. She waved back at Fab before sitting down in the front. You both grabbed your fans and dramatically flicked them open in sync. Your wrists fluttered, cooling both of you off. A knowing, and slightly mischievous, look came on her face.Â
âDevi and Fab and I are. Paxton must be here for something⊠else.â she shrugged, nodding towards Paxton. You looked over again. He was staring at you. You did a double take and tried to hold back your smile.Â
âWh- I do not know to what you are referring.âÂ
âTo what I am referring is the blush on his cheeks.â
You barely held back a nervous, bubbling laugh.
âHe is not blushing! Why would he be blushing!â
âI donât know,â She shrugged, âJust like how I donât know that heâs been loitering in the halls outside the music room during your last three solo music rehearsals.â
You struggled for an answer. Before you could form one, you were interrupted.
âOkay, okay what is the best Lin Manuel Miranda musical? Because Kathryn thinks itâs Hamilton-âÂ
âDuh!â
â-But I think itâs In the Heights! Itâs an underrated jewel!â Jonah interjected, still wearing his Jesse Tuck hat.Â
You considered for a moment.
âI mean, theyâre too different to compare. In the Heights has the same energy as Rent - showcasing what goes on in ordinary peopleâs lives, and how love ties us all together,â he nodded in agreement, âBut Hamilton is on a way larger scale, almost Les Mis meets Fun Home vibes. But in terms of personal preferenceâŠâ Eleanor scoffed at your answer, and Jonah went back to debate further with Kathryn.
âAnyway,â you turned back to Eleanor to ask her what the hell she meant by Paxton Hall-Yoshida was blushing. But before you could-
âEleanor, we need you to try on your blue dress again,â Lena was already pulling her away, âI had the empire waist in the right place but half the pins fell out, and itâs just...â And she was whisked away before you could finish the thought. You just had time to help Holly get out her wig pins and drink some lemon water before notes. Eleanor still wasnât back, so you made sure to write down hers for her. It was pretty standard; be quiet backstage, go over your lines, donât touch props that arenât yours, donât eat in costume, and a couple blocking changes you made note of. After your end of rehearsal warm downs and huddle, everyone left relatively quickly. You ducked into the bathroom to freshen up a little. Sometimes it was hard coming down from such intense energy after rehearsal. You mentally ran through your to do list. You needed to get some more tea, write that essay when you got home, go over your notes- You gasped, cutting off your own train of thought. You ran out of the bathroom to look for Eleanor, still clutching her notes in hand.Â
~
Your voice still echoed in Paxtonâs ears. He wished he had a whole album of you singing. Your voice made him want to ruin his spotify algorithm by listening to nothing else. You had looked at him a couple times, and his heart had almost stopped. He didnât know eye contact could be so intense. Itâs probably just cause youâre like, the only person in the audience. Where else is she supposed to look? He deflated a little. He heard his name and looked over to you and Eleanor talking together. Hopefully it was about him. Hopefully it was good. He checked his phone, trying to look busy. When he glanced up to see if you were looking, you were gone. He started to look around for you when he saw Eleanor waving at Fab, and sure enough, you were next to her. What he didnât expect was you dropping your dress to the ground. Time slowed down (and his heart sped up) as you stretched a little, and pulled out sweatpants from your bag.
Wow.
 You had on what looked like a bathing suit on underneath, and a few other people had done the same, but he knew that image would be in his memory, probably forever. His heart was beating in his ears and he knew he must be blushing.
âYou okay, Paxton?â Fab asked, a seat or two away. Oh god, he didnât want people asking why he blushed every time he looked at you! He muttered something about needing to make a call and headed for the doors. Donât look back at her, donât look back at her⊠His eyes involuntarily darted in your direction right before he left. You had on a flowy translucent jacket, your hair thrown back supermodel style as you fanned yourself to cool down. He needed to cool down too. Maybe a cold shower, a really cold shower.
~
You managed to find Eleanor just before she left. Two girls were with her, you had seen Fab once, and youâd heard a lot about Devi, but had never been introduced.Â
You gave Eleanor her notes, and she hugged you.
âYouâre a lifesaver!âÂ
âOf course, I-â
âUh, whoâs this?â you looked over, and the shorter girl - Devi, based on what youâd heard about her -Â was giving you a weird look. You introduced yourself.Â
âNice to meet you. How do you know Eleanor?â said the taller girl - definitely Fab.
âOh,â you smiled, ïżœïżœsheâs my almost mother in law. And my arch rival,â you counted on your fingers, âmy sister, my niece, my lover, my husband, andâŠâ you trailed off, trying to think of the other dynamics your characters had had in past shows.
âYour co-conspirator.âÂ
âRight,â you laughed. Devi and Fab looked at you two.
âWeâre in the musical together.â you clarified. You were about to part ways when you called to Eleanor, âHey, weâre still on for running lines tomorrow night?âÂ
âUh⊠Sounds good!â she walked away quickly, speaking to Devi and Fab in hushed tones. Something was definitely up. That was typical Eleanor Scheming behavior.Â
~
That night, you almost couldnât sleep. This wasnât the normal post rehearsal canât sleep. In fact, Tuck Everlasting was the last thing on your mind as you readjusted your pillows and snuggled into your duvet. You stared at the neon blue stars projected and swirling on your ceiling. You sighed. Again. Your brain was a 24/7 livestream of Paxton Hall-Yoshida to relax/study to. You saw him again, his face in the dimly lit auditorium, Adonis in a sea of faded seats. If you hadnât been sure before, you knew now that red was definitely his color. You rolled onto your side. Your heart picked up speed as a thought crossed your mind. You could almost see Paxton now, kneeling next to you, his fingertips brushing your cheek. The piano underscore to âSeventeenâ ran through your mind. You could imagine him saying âWait with me, we could share the worldâŠâ so vividly it almost hurt. He leaned in, andâŠÂ
You let out a loud sigh and rolled over again. Your heart was fully saturated. Thatâs more than enough pining for tonight.Â
~
âPaxton!âÂ
He was a little surprised when Eleanor just walked up to him at lunch the next day. Most people were too intimidated to approach him out of the blue.Â
âI have a plan.â
âUh, I donât know what you-â
âCut the crap, I know you like her.âÂ
His face blanched. Well, yeah of course he did. Who wouldnât? He was going to ask Eleanor if there was something he could do to win you over, just not here, not now. Not where everyone could watch and jeer and rib him for it. Just like they were doing now.Â
âWoah, dude, who is it?â Trent asked. He fumbled for words. He couldnât believe this was happening. He hadnât kept his crush a secret because he was embarrased of you, heâd kept it a secret because his dumbass friends wouldnât get you. Hell, he barely got you. You were so deep, and emotive, and artistic...Â
âBro, if you like her as much as it seems like you do,â Trent continued, âyou gotta win her over.â He was a little shocked at the agreement murmuring through his group of friends. He didnât know how to respond. Trent turned to Eleanor.
âWhatâs the plan, drama mama?â
âFirst of all,â she said, an almost humorously dangerous look on her face, ânever call me that again. Second,â she shoved some papers into Paxtonâs hands, âmeet me in the music room immediately after school.â She started back for her table. Trent looked back over to Paxton.Â
âYou gotta do it, dude. Weâll cover for you at swim.âÂ
The rest of his friends agreed. He was pleasantly surprised at how supportive they were being.Â
âYeah, I guess... weâve got a plan.â
~
The next day went by pretty smoothly. No rehearsal was scheduled since they were finishing construction for some of the sets, but everyone was instructed to do a couple read throughs of the script, focusing on scenes theyâre still forgetting, to make sure everyoneâs off book. You stopped by 7 Eleven to get a blue slurpee (for homework) and a couple coconut waters (for run throughs). You texted Eleanor on your way to the slurpee machine.Â
okay so do you like the mango coconut water or the pineapple one?? Itâs the mango one right?? i always forget lmao
sent at 4:16 pm
btw I donât have that much homework so you can probs come by around 5:30 if youâre ready by then
sent at 4:16 pm
Bae Tuck
OMFG!! I totally forgot about running lines tonight, I canât make it! :( but Iâll send someone over to help you out. :)
sent at 4:17 pm
You squinted at your screen. That was weird. Eleanor never used colon parentheses smilies. Like, ever. She always used emojis, and usually way more than two per text.Â
yeah np, are u good? âĄ
sent at 4:17 pm
Bae Tuck
Yes :)
sent at 4:18 pm
Bae Tuck
Also get the passionfruit one đ„„đ đ
sent at 4:18
thatâs,,, el thatâs a sweet potato,,
sent at 4:19 pm
Bae Tuck
Close enough đ€·đ»ââïžđ€·đ»ââïžđ€·đ»ââïžđ€·đ»ââïž
sent at 4:19pm
...Okay? That was definitely weird. You shook it off and headed for the counter to pay. You stopped half way there, and turned back to swap the mango for passionfruit.Â
Not long after you had finished your homework and tidied up your room a little, the doorbell rang. You exited the kitchen, drinks in hand, and opened the door. Your heart caught in your throat. Paxton Hall-Yoshida was standing outside. And you were pretty sure he looked nervous. You both just stood there for a second. No one breathed, no one spoke.Â
âUh, hi, do you want toâŠâ you backed up, motioning for him to come inside.Â
âYeah, thanks,â he said, entering the doorway. Paxton motherfucking Hall-Yoshida was in your living room. You held out a hand to him.
âCoconut water?â he took the box, looked at the label, and smiled.Â
âYeah, thanks,â he said again, this time a faint, yet unmistakable note of joy in his voice. He took a sip. He smiled.
âPassionfruitâs my favorite.â You silently thanked Eleanor, who you knew must have planned all this. Most of the evening was a blur, and you thanked god your family wasnât home right now. You went upstairs, texted Eleanor asking what the actual fuck, made some surprisingly comfortable small talk, then filled him in on how to run lines.Â
âDo you think playing the soundtrack would help you⊠get into character?â he asked.Â
âI would probably just end up singing the whole thing,â You laughed and tried to ignore the butterflies in your chest. The main scene you struggled with was before âSeventeenâ. It was harder to get into Winnieâs head because you had no romantic feelings for Jonah, and you always just made each other laugh. You had started with a few easier scenes of Winnie and Jesse, like the fair, and the dialogue before âTop of the Worldâ.Â
âThat was really good,â he said, and you felt the sincerity of his words.Â
âThanksâŠâ you smiled and took a sip of coconut water, hoping you werenât blushing too hard.Â
âSo what next?â he asked.Â
âProbably the scene before âSeventeenâ,â you said, giving him the page and scene number, âitâs one of the hardest ones for me. I guess I just canât connect to Jonah the way Winnie does.âÂ
âHuh,â he said, skimming the page. When you looked up at him, he had something between a smile and a smirk playing at his lips. You made yourself look away before you got too distracted. You refused to think about the fact that you were sitting across from Paxton Hall-Yoshida on your bed, in your room, like you were⊠close with each other. His eyes skimmed the script, finding the dialogue. He glanced up at you and nodded, indicating he found his place. You began.
âI was so afraid you wouldnât get away,â you said, jumping into character.
âI may be 102, but I can still outrun anyone,â a smile played at his lips. You smiled, then let your face fall.
âIâm so sorry, I-I tried to warn you-â
âNo, no,â he interjected almost seamlessly, âItâs okay, itâs⊠refreshing having someone look after me who isnât my mom.â His eyes flickered between your face and the page. You smiled with him for a second, then let distress cloud your face.
âJesse⊠that man came by my house today. He heard the music box, he knows about you-â
âI know he knowsâŠâÂ
You continued on with the scene and he trailed off when he came to the sheet music for the song Seventeen. You took in a breath to start the dialogue in the middle of the song, but before you couldâŠ
âSix years from now you will turn seventeen,
Turn seventeen,
The same age as me,
Six years from now,
Go to the spring,
Go to the spring and drinkâŠâ
He was singing to you. He was looking at you and singing to you. His eyes only flickered down to the page to confirm the lyrics. He was nervous, you could tell. But through his hesitance, the emotion in his voice was sincere. Your heart was beating faster. You didnât even notice your pulse was ringing in your ears, you were too focused on Paxton.Â
âI'll wait for you till you turn seventeen,
Turn seventeen,
The same age as me,
Six years from now,
Go to the spring,
Go to the spring and drinkâŠâ Your hand rose to cover your mouth. He hesitated, and you remembered your dialogue.
âUh, wh-what if I⊠forget where the spring is?â He reached out and took your free hand in his. Your pulse was off the charts. âIâll go get you some water. Just⊠remember to keep it somewhere safe. Somewhere no one will find it.â You got the feeling he wasnât just talking about the water. You knew he had never really been in a serious relationship before, and it clicked suddenly - if he learned an entire song to duet with you, just how much he must like you. You exhaled a breathy laugh, unsure how to process the sudden euphoria you felt.Â
âYou make the world sound so⊠exciting. I just want to drink the water right now!â
âUh, no. You have to wait.â you both smiled, anticipating the upcoming joke.
âWhy?â you ask, âWhatâs the difference?â You held your breath as he tried not to laugh through the delivery of the punchline.Â
âBelieve me,â he rubbed his thumb over your hand, âthereâs a difference.â You both chuckled, and he continued singing. You were so focused on him, so⊠touched that he would do all this for you.Â
âWinnie, wait with me,
And we could be married,
Winnie, wait with me,
And we'll share the world,
Winnie, you can stop time,
And live like this,
ForeverâŠâ
âI could live like this forever,â you echoed.
âLive like this...â you sang in tandem.
âWhat do you say, Winnie? Do you want toâŠâ he broke character suddenly, and asked, his eyes boring into yours, âDo you want to go out some time?âÂ
He could see the adorable smile blooming on your face, even from behind your hand. You nodded.
âYes, I-I would love that,â and you began to sing the last line in the song, âForever-âÂ
But before you finished holding out the note, his lips were on yours. His mouth moved slowly, intentionally, against yours. You followed his lead, flustered. He leaned further forward, his palm caressing your cheek. It was everything you imagined it would be, and you had quite the imagination. Your head was angled up and your hands rested themselves on his back, one tracing little shapes. Your shoulders were pressed against each other and neither of you could think. He was so warm. He tasted like coconut and passion fruit, and a distant part of your mind silently thanked Eleanor again.Â
You really could live like this forever.
#paxton hall yoshida x reader#paxton hall yoshida#never have i ever#nhie#nhie x reader#never have i ever x reader
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MLQC Boys And The Domestic Life
I kept this as PG-13 as possible.  You guys know I can be a little...naughty with my HCâs but I know that isnât everyoneâs cup of tea, so I try not to do too much. I apologize if you were hoping something else! Apologies for the typos and such!Â
Warning: Slight Spoilers for those who know nothing about their backstories or current events!
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Kiro
Kiroâs life is crazy enough as it is, so coming home to you is a nice change of pace. No cameras flashing in his face, no overly excited fans, and no manager to hound him about what he can and canât eat. Itâs just you and him just the way he likes it.
Your boy is a gamer and will always try to pull you into whatever heâs playing.Â
He will buy a lot of two player games just so you can play with him.Â
If its a single player game you enjoy watching him play! Heâll even offer to teach you how to play!
Since heâs also a huge fan of comics heâll talk your ear off about them!Â
Bonus points if youâre a comic book lover and/or a gamer too!Â
Will fall even more in love with you if you go out of your way to buy things heâs interested in.Â
âI got you this limited edition Iron Man statue! Like it?âÂ
Heâll marry you right then and there!Â
Kiro is very playful so expect tons of play fights! Tickle fights, pillow fights, and wrestling which...turns into....you know....
Kiro enjoys going grocery shopping with you. Of course he has to be in disguise in order to shop with you in peace, but he enjoys the company while he buys things that would get him into trouble with Savin.Â
However, Savin has nothing to worry about when it comes to Kiroâs eating habits, because while youâre pretty lenient with Kiro and often him join his mischievous activities, you do a great job with following his diet routine.Â
Youâll sometimes join him on his diets to support him. Its hard on you, especially when the sight of french fries makes your mouth water.Â
âSee, honey, drinking a protein shake isnât so bad!âÂ
âBut I want a milkshake, barbecued ribs and a nice juicy burger!!!!â Poor baby just wants to eat!
Youâre normally the one that cooks mainly because Kiro never has time to do it himself and almost always settles for something quick or whatever his nutritionist shoves down his throat. Â If he does have time off you both cook together.Â
If Kiro ends up breaking his diet you join him on his workouts. Kiro doesnât mind because thereâs something about you being all sweaty and panting heavily that really gets him going.Â
 âIâm sweaty and gross...âÂ
âWhat a coincidence?! Iâm all sweaty and gross too! Lets take a shower together.âÂ
In the bedroom, Kiro is definitely a cuddler and it doesnât matter who cuddles first as long as he can feel you against him.Â
Because of his busy schedule Kiro becomes extremely needy. Both in the sexual and non-sexual sense. He hates being away from you for too long and calls you almost everyday while heâs away.Â
Heâll be in the middle of rehearsals while FaceTiming you and Savin is like âBOY IF YOU DONâT STOP WITH THAT PUPPY LOVE BS AND FINISH THIS DANCE NUMBER IâLL...âÂ
If your relationship isnât public yet, Kiro wonât do too much, but he will steal kisses when he thinks no one is looking. You two have been caught fooling around by Savin a few times, which always ends with him scolding you both.Â
But once you go public, EXPECT TONS OF KISSES AND HUGS ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE! THIS MAN DOESNâT CARE.Â
He wants the world to know how much he loves you and will continue to broadcast it until hell freezes over.Â
Will put his fans in their place if they try anything with you. Your sunshine ainât afraid to lay down the law!
Top 3 Pet Names: Miss Chips, Honey, and Cutie. Honorable Mention: Cookie
Gavin
As you know, Gavinâs upbringing wasnât exactly the best and seeing what his mom went through, he never wants to put you through that.Â
This man practically worships you! Youâre everything heâs ever wanted in a partner so heâll do anything to keep you in his life and happy.Â
Casual dates. Nothing too fancy unless its a special occasion like a birthday or maybe....a wedding proposal?!Â
Aside from that, Gavinâs pretty simple and often lets you take the lead which you find infuriating since you want him to have some sort of input in decision making when it comes to little things.
Gavin is the cook of the household mainly because you think heâs the better cook. If you make such claims, Gavin will always say that he prefers to eat whatever you make.
In bed, Gavin likes to hold you tightly from behind with his faced buried in your hair. His favorite position is where youâre hugging him and he has his head pressed against your chest. Its easier to hear your heartbeat that way.Â
If you stroke his hair while holding him then heâs a goner. Heâll be out like a light and youâll just watch how adorable he looks sleeping against you.
Days where youâre both home are referred to as âLazy Days.â Youâll sit around, do absolutely nothing, and enjoy each otherâs company. You may wash Sparky after its gone through a full week of riding through the city, but sometimes the laziness is just too strong.Â
Doesnât help when Gavin has you in his arms. The entire day can escape you when youâre in such a comfortable position.Â
As for PDA, this man doesnât care whoâs watching! If he feels like kissing you then heâll kiss you and heâs all about hand holding. If youâre uncomfortable with such gestures then heâll refrain from doing so.
Until you say otherwise, you will be getting a lot of affection out in the open! If people glare, then heâll just glare right back and go back to loving on you.Â
Being in love with you and not caring what people think isnât a crime, right?!Â
Obviously, he wonât do anything too wild, but Gavin can be a bit mischievous when he wants to be.Â
Heâs not as bad as Kiro in the cheeky department, but a lot of the âaccidentalâ touches arenât accidents at all!Â
Always your protector. Is always up for kicking someoneâs ass if they look at you funny. Heâd go to jail for you or...at least make whatever heâs about to do look like an accident.
Clingy Baby #2!
When heâs gone for long periods of time, he clings on to you and never lets you go once he returns.Â
Holding you in his arms while youâre trying to cook, casually playing with your hands as the two of you watch TV, and heated make out sessions that often end in a night of passion.Â
No one would have guessed Gavin could turn into a touch starved crazy man. But could you blame him? The things he has to go through on missions really puts him in a mood. He needs your love and affection after a long mission.Â
Prefers to spoil you instead of the other way around, but letâs you pamper him. He hasnât been shown any form of affection since his mother died, so bare with him!Â
Gavin has never told you this outright, but youâre the closest thing to a home he has ever had in a very long time. Wherever you are, he wants to be right by your side.Â
Top 3 Pet Names:Â Babe/Baby, Beautiful, and Angel
Victor
Victor loves taking you out whether its to nice restaurants or out of the country.Â
Has no problem dropping thousands on you because you deserve the world. Youâll have to tell him to calm down with how much he spoils you, but he most likely wonât listen.Â
Of course heâs not completely insane and has some level of restraint.Â
Ever the professional, there is a difference between how Victor treats you at work compared to when youâre home.Â
He always wants you to be at your best and doesnât want you slacking off just because youâre with him. Â
At home, Victor is a way more affectionate with you. The first few times he pulled you in for a loving embrace or a kiss, you had to do a double take. This isnât the cold-hearted CEO who picked a part your report and verbally ripped it to shreds just hours before!
Victor does most of the cooking, but if you want to help him he wonât complain. Just listen to the directions he gives you and he wonât critique you.
He does appreciate it when you cook for him. Sometimes youâll wake up before him just to prepare a nice breakfast and his heart just swells at the sight of you doing your best to make scrambled eggs.Â
âIts a little runny, but edible.â Wow...thankâs, honey.Â
Victor loves taking you to Souvenir so he can cook for you. Lunch dates and dinner dates are sometimes had there.Â
Sleeping wise, Victor will entwine his fingers with yours and hold your hand over his chest as he sleeps on his back and you sleep on your side. He will never admit it, but heâs a big fan of being the big spoon especially after a night of intimacy.Â
Will teach you French if you ask! Will sometimes tease you by throwing out random French phrases and if you figure out what he says heâll give you a reward!
TRIPLE POINTS IF YOU RESPOND BACK IN FRENCH. Leave him shook!
Your man is a workaholic! You sometimes have to convince him to sleep after he spends countless hours working. Even on his days off his eyes are either glued to his phone or his computer.Â
Heâll be reluctant, but heâll drop whatever heâs doing if youâre adamant about him getting rest or spending time with you. Â
If heâs already in bed looking over paperwork you can just snuggle up to him to distract him from what heâs doing. Of course heâll complain, but all of that stops the minute he wraps his arms around you.Â
Victor isnât one for too much PDA, but he will do small things.Â
For example, youâll be at a company event, heâll squeeze your hand gently and kiss the back of it just to see you blush.
Speaking of events, you attend all of the banquets with him. Everyone knows who you are and who youâre with. They wonât dare try any funny business with you.
 There is a big part of him that likes to brag about you to his business associates.Â
âThey saved a dying company through hard work and determination, has to deal with me on a daily basis, and continues to persevere even when the odds are against them. Theyâre one of a kind.âÂ
Top 3 Pet Names: Idiot/Dummy, Dear and Darling(Victor normally uses nicknames when youâre in an intimate setting and very rarely)Â
Lucien
Ever since he was young Lucien has known nothing but hardships and just how cruel and twisted the world was.Â
Having you in his life really changes his perspective on the world. Who would have thought that a man like him would have someone as precious as you in his life?
Your dates consist of art exhibits, aquariums, and picnics in the park. Honestly Lucien prefers private and more intimate dates with you. It gives him a chance to learn more about you and to really focus on you without the distraction of the outside world.Â
You cook together and its pretty much a perfect balance. You learn different recipes together and think of it as a bonding experience.
You often visit him on campus for lunch dates and to work on whatever project youâve roped him into.Â
Youâre not sure why, but his students practically adore you. Youâve heard them whisper about your future with the popular professor. Talks of marriage often fills the room whenever they catch wind of you being on campus for the day.Â
You find it embarrassing, but Lucien only laughs off the murmurs of his students.Â
They have active imaginations, but heâd be a liar if he said he didnât think of spending the rest of his life with you.
Lucien is fine with PDA. Heâll hold your hand and give you gentle kisses. Heâll tease you a lot!! Thereâs never a time where he doesnât have you blushing.Â
He enjoys catching you off guard! Lucien will even go as far as to steal a quick kiss while youâre rambling about how much stress youâre under with work.Â
Lucienâs favorite thing to do with you is to relax in a nice warm bubble bath. It only turns steamy 70% of the time but Lucien truly enjoys little intimate moments like that with you.Â
When it comes to sleeping, Lucien really likes it when youâre sleeping against him with your head on his chest and he has an arm around your torso.
He also likes listening to your steady breaths as you sleep. Thereâs something soothing about how calm you sound in your most vulnerable state. He sleeps a thousand times better when youâre with him. Â
Lucien appreciates how accepting you are of him despite the fact that heâs done a lot of harm in the past.Â
You trust that Lucien will never hurt you and while he knows this, he sometimes feels like he has a lot to prove.Â
Deceiving you is his biggest regret and if you continue to love him, Lucien will devote his life to making you happy.
Top 3 Pet Names: My Little Fool, Love, and Silly
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The Ones Who Came Before: An Aura/Harvey short
Heyyy... Trivia Tuesday: Pride Edition.
This short could count as a lost mini-chapter of Breathe With Me. It would take place somewhere in the weeks between chapters 4 and 5, in the late winter or early spring. It touches on Aura and Harvey's respective romantic pasts.
I decided along the way that I viewed both Aura and Harvey as bisexual. At first I didn't really want it to come up in the fic, because I didn't want it to be a source of tension or drama. I wanted it to be a simple fact that they accepted about each other easily. So, I wasn't sure going back and writing a scene like this would be worth it, but, well... why not?
1,364 words. Mentions sex, and has a few swears but is otherwise pretty user-friendly.
Oh, and... proofreading was half assed so forgive any typos đ
The Ones Who Came Before
Their respective romantic histories hadnât been something theyâd discussed at all before they began dating. Despite mutually agreeing that they would take the physical side of their relationship slowly, Aura seemed to have decided it was important to fill Harvey in on her rather adventurous romantic (and not so romantic, at times) history.
âAfter Stephanie and I broke up, I was alone for a couple of months⊠then the letter from Grandpaâs lawyers came, and a few weeks later, here I was.â She seemed a bit tense. âI know that we decided to kick sex down the road a bit⊠but I want you to know that despite that laundry list of exes, I have been tested for everything under the sun. So⊠whenever we decide weâre readyâŠâ She trailed off glanced at him, her expression uncertain.
âThatâs, ah⊠thatâs good to know.â He wondered, not for the first time, what she wanted with the likes of him. Judging by her history, she could have just about anyone she wanted. Though she hadnât gone into great detail on every relationship, she had been with several men and a few women, including her most recent ex before moving to the valley. âAs a doctor, I shouldnât be embarrassed to talk about that⊠and Iâm clean as well.â
âGood to know.â She bumped her shoulder with his. âSo, youâre⊠not bothered by it?â she added, her tone hesitant, shoulders tense, hands wrapped around her mug as she stared down into it. Her gaze flicked up from their contemplation of the coca when Harvey failed to answer.
âIâm not bothered by it.â Harvey shifted uneasily beside her on the couch. His own mug saw empty on the coffee table in front of them. His hand slid down her back, wondering how the green wool that had seemed so itchy when the sweater belonged to him suddenly felt so soft. She sat up a little straighter and smiled at him.
âReally? Not by the sheer number or⊠or the women? Because⊠some people have been super weird about it. In the past, I mean. Itâs crazy, right⊠same sex marriage has been legal in Zuzu City for like, fifteen years, but some people are still so threatened by it.â Usually so cool and collected, Auraâs voice was a bit rushed and strained. âAnd Iâm babblingâŠâ
Harvey cleared his throat. He supposed it was his turn now. ââŠItâs not that Iâm bothered by it. I think I will come off rather boring compared to you, thoughâŠâ It was his turn to be hesitant. They had such a nice time whenever they were together. Sheâd assured him multiple times that even though he had been the one to say he wanted to put off sleeping together, that she was willing to go with what he needed, and that she wanted to change her own patterns when it came to relationships. ButâŠ
âYouâre not boring. And you donât have to tell me anything youâre not comfortable with. Whether youâve been with one woman or a hundred⊠Iâm just glad youâre with me now,â She scooted a little closer to him and sipped at her cocoa.
âIâve been with two women⊠and one man.â Harvey couldnât help but feel a touched of amusement as surprise flickered across her features. âSo⊠only three⊠rather pathetic, isnât it?â
âItâs not pathetic at all, itâs just⊠Iâm a little surprised. I didnât think⊠that is, I didnât have you pegged forâŠahâŠâ Aura trailed off, a blush darkening her cheeks.
Harvey shrugged. âWhat does a bisexual look like?â It felt odd to use that word out loud, but considering how long heâd been alone, it had become little more than a background detail in recent years.
She winced. âWell⊠shit. I was worried the women in my past would throw you off, but now Iâm the one being weird. Iâm sorry.â She set her mug down and offered him her hand.
He took it, lacing their fingers together. He liked holding hands this way- it felt so much more intimate than simply clasping hands. âItâs all right. I do tend to notice women more often than men, but⊠I do notice them.â He hesitated. âDoes it⊠bother you?â
She shook her head. âNot really. Iâd be a big damn hypocrite if it did. It just surprised me a little, thatâs all. Do you want to tell me about any of them?â
Harvey blinked, surprised with himself that, yes⊠he did want to talk about them. They might be few in number, but theyâd all been very important in his life. A nervous blush heated his face as he nodded, releasing her hand so he could slide his arm around her shoulders. She put her head on his shoulder and a little of the tension eased from his body.
âSybil was my first⊠my first girlfriend, first⊠you know⊠first heartbreak, first everything. I mean⊠I was only nineteen but⊠she was everything to me. Or at least⊠she was at the time. But we ended up going to different medical schools and that was that. Sheâs one of the top cardiologists in the Republic now⊠married, with two kids. She sends me a Winter Star card every year.â That breakup had been hard, but heâd thrown himself into his studies to distract himself, and the pain had faded in time. Now it was little more than a distant memory. âMedical school kept me too busy to date, for the most part⊠but⊠then came Phillipe.â He smiled faintly at the memory. âHe was so handsome. And funny and charming, and⊠well, everything Iâm not.â
âWill you stop saying shit like that?â Aura muttered, poking him in the side. âI havenât even seen this guy and Iâd pick you over him, so there.â Despite her aggravated tone, the words did please him. Not that heâd admit it out loud.
âIâm sorry⊠well⊠Phillipe and I were in medical school together⊠I donât know if youâd call it a relationship, exactly, but⊠well⊠we enjoyed, umâŠâ
âBlowing off steam together?â Aura suggested, then giggled as he glared at her.
Well. Yes, she was right. BUT STILL. âHeâs a plastic surgeon in Sereness now. I get Winter Star cards from his well, but we havenât spoken in years, so⊠I assume heâs doing well. At least I hope so. And as for my most recent ex, well⊠thereâs not much to tell there. Another fellow doctor. Linda and I worked together at Zuzu General. Iâm⊠not sure she even counts as an ex, exactly. We only dated a few times⊠the, um⊠the chemistry⊠didnât really last beyond a few encounters. We decided we preferred to be friends and colleagues. When I find myself in the city, I often have dinner with her and her wife.â And⊠that was it. That was his whole romantic history. It had taken less than five minutes to roll the whole thing out.
ââŠI mean⊠I may have quantity, but it sounds like you had quality,â Aura remarked, reaching up and running her fingers over his hair briefly. âA few of my exes and I wanted to stay friends, but⊠no one sends me Winter Star cards. I think it speaks well of you.â
ââŠI donât want you sending me cards,â Harvey blurted out, turning to face her. âI⊠I like to think Iâd be a big enough man to remain friends with you if⊠if things donât work out, but⊠I donât want you to just be a pleasant memory, Aura.â
Auraâs eyes widened and she blushed, but she seemed to recover quickly. âIf youâre not planning on dumping me anytime soon⊠I donât think youâll have to worry about that,â she said, reaching up to caress his cheek. âAnd I thinkâŠâ Her fingers slid from his cheek to curve around the back of his neck. âWeâve talked enough for the time being. I have to get back to the farm soon, so⊠why donât you kiss me goodbye?â
âIâm definitely not planning on dumping youâŠâ Harvey managed, unable to say anything more articulate than that as she pulled him to her.
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Written very quickly and with minimal editing so I apologize for any typos or inconsistencies in verb tense lmao, but some birthday Grzork!
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Anders steps off the ice at Warrior feeling good. Thereâs no reason for him not to, itâs the same feeling he gets after any good workout, and itâs also his birthday. Heâs got dinner plans with some of the other guys later tonight. But thereâs one of his former teammates he hasnât been able to catch, and heâs the one he wants to see the most.
Right up until the trade deadline, Anders had thought he and Matt might be on their way to being something more than friends. Of course, covid had put a damper on that, they werenât allowed to see each other outside of the rink, but they always made the most of the time they did have together. Matt would always laugh at his jokes in the locker room and on the bench, even if they werenât that funny or didnât make sense, and Anders wants to think that he did so more for him than for anyone else. They always found each other first in cellys when they were both on the ice together. In those moments, Anders could almost let himself believe.
But then.
It had all happened so fast. One day he was taking warm-ups before a game as a Bruin, and the next he was showing up to practice at Warrior, but as a Sabre, wearing new colors and a new number for the first time in his professional career, about to play against the guys who were just his teammates a mere 48 hours ago. In a way heâs almost glad Matt wasnât able to play that game, because heâs certain it would have made it so much harder than it already was.
Itâs not that they fell completely out of touch after that, but neither of them are really great about answering their phones. They would go weeks between answering texts sometimes, especially when Matt was in the playoffs, and then in the summer⊠itâs not that being halfway across the country made it impossible, but it certainly made it harder. And this doesnât seem like the type of conversation that should be had over text, anyway. He wants it to be in person, and he thinks Matt would, too.
When he came back to Boston, Anders knew Matt would be skating at Warrior, and although the main reason he was too was to keep up with his off-season workouts, he canât deny that thereâs a little extra incentive at the chance theyâll run into each other and be able to talk finally. To maybe even hug. But it seems like they just keep missing each other. Matt would come in on a Monday when Anders is there on Tuesday, or heâd be there in the morning when Anders comes in the afternoon. He knows he could probably text him, but texting has not proven to be the most efficient way to contact each other. So he just holds onto hope that theyâll finally run into each other one of these days, before he has to pack up and go to Buffalo for the season.
Anders has no reason to believe today will be any different. Itâs another day where Matt was on the ice in the morning and Anders in the afternoon, so when he steps off, he knows Matt will be long gone. He makes his way down the hallway to the locker room to shower and change, but when he gets to his stall, heâs surprised to see a little gift bag. He sets his stick down and takes off his gloves to open it, and inside is a card, addressed to him in Mattâs neat handwriting, and a box. He opens the box first to find a metal bracelet, with numbers carved into it. He smiles and slips it onto his wrist with the others. Itâs a perfect fit. He opens the card next to read it.
Happy birthday, Anders! I wish I could have given you this in person, but I hope you still like it. Itâs the coordinates of the Garden and the KeyBank center, and if either of us end up on another team I left room to add more (but I hope we don't). Anyway I hope you have the best day ever, you deserve it :)
Love, Matt
Anders has to stop himself from crying. Itâs not even just about the bracelet, and the meaning of the numbers, although that alone is enough. But also just how much thought Matt had put into it. The fact that he still cares about him enough to give him a present at all on his birthday. Leaving room for their future, because he wants Anders to be in it. Signing the card with âLove.â He really wants to believe thatâs what this is, because he knows he still loves Matt, too, even with all this distance and time between them.
âJust text him, man,â a voice says from behind him, causing Anders to jump. He turns around to find Torey, who has also been skating with them, and who had to put up with the two of them for several years. Not as much last year, obviously, being in a different division, but Anders doesnât blame him for wanting them to just get it over with. So he pulls out his phone (which he was going to do anyway) and sends him a picture of the bracelet on his wrist.
Thank you so much, I love it â€ïž
He hesitates for just a second before sending a follow up.
Do you want to come with us to dinner tonight?
He sets his phone down in the stall next to him and starts taking off his gear, not expecting a response right away. So heâs surprised when he hears it vibrate only a few seconds later.
Iâd love to âșïž
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Notes from Stephen Kingâs âOn Writingâ 07: The Revision Process
Next, King walks us through his revision process. He makes it clear that this method is not the only method. It is merely a method.Â
How Many Drafts?
âFor me, the answer has always been two drafts and a polish (with the advent of word-processing technology, my polishes have become closer to a third draft).â
King admits that this number of drafts is not the golden rule. Kurt Vonnegut rewrote each page of his novels until he got them exactly the way he wanted them. This meant that when the manuscript was finished, the book was finished. (I certainly am not that big of a perfectionist, nor am I that patient lol.)
For beginner writers in particular, King offers the following advice:
âLet me urge that you take your story through at least two drafts; the one you do with the study door closed and the one you do with it open.
âThis first draft--the All-Story Draft--should be written with no help (or interference) from anyone else. There may come a point when you want to show what youâre doing to a close friend because youâre proud of what youâre doing or because youâre doubtful about it. My best advice is to resist this impulse. Keep the pressure on; donât lower it by exposing what youâve written to the doubt, the praise, or even the well-meaning questions of someone from the Outside World. Let your hope of success (and your fear of failure) carry you on, difficult as that can be. Thereâll be time to show off what youâve done when you finish...but even after finishing I think you must be cautious and give yourself a chance to think while the story is still like a field of freshly fallen snow, absent of any tracks save your own.â
Basically, King just wants you to get it all out onto the paper, with no external forces influencing you (for better or for worse). Just get that first draft out, and then open it up for closer examination both to yourself and others.
Let It Breathe and Then Dig In!
Okay, so you finished writing the first draft! Celebrate! Rejoice! Maybe cry!
...And then throw that manuscript into a drawer, lock it up tight, and donât look at it for a minimum of six weeks. And in the meantime, do something totally unrelated to what you wrote. Get into knitting. Write a short story that is nothing like what you just finished. Itâs consumed you for months now--so give your mind and imagination some time to reset and chill.Â
King recommends a minimum of six weeks, but even longer is okay. Resist all temptation to peek at it. And once the six weeks have passed, do the following:
âTake your manuscript out of the drawer. If it looks like an alien relic bought at a junk-shop or a yard sale where you can hardly remember stopping, youâre ready. Sit down with your door shut, a pencil in your hand, and a legal pad by your side. Then read your manuscript over.
âDo it all in one sitting, if possible. Make all the notes you want, but concentrate on the mundane housekeeping jobs, like fixing misspellings and picking up inconsistencies. Thereâll be plenty; only God gets it right the first time and only a slob says, âoh well, let it go, thatâs what copyeditors are for.â
âIf youâve never done it before, youâll find reading your book over after a six-week layover to be a strange, often exhilarating experience. Itâs yours, youâll recognize it as yours, even be able to remember what tune was on the stereo when you wrote certain lines, and yet it will also be like reading the work of someone else, a soul-twin, perhaps. This is the way it should be, the reason you waited. Itâs always easier to kill someone elseâs darlings than it is to kill your own.â
Youâll also be on the lookout for any glaring holes in the plot or character development. And if you spot any of these big holes, you are forbidden from feeling depressed about them. Donât be hard on yourself. Everybody makes mistakes, and they can all be fixed.Â
Generally King goes through the first reading fixing all the superficial issues, like typos and unclear antecedents. But as heâs doing that, heâs also asking himself the Big Questions:
Is this story coherent?Â
If it is, what will turn coherence into a song?
What are the recurring elements?
Do they entwine and make a theme?
Whatâs it all about?
âMost of all, Iâm looking for what I meant, because in the second draft Iâll want to add scenes and incidents that reinforce that meaning. Iâll also want to delete stuff that goes in other directions. Thereâs apt to be a lot of that stuff, especially near the beginning of a story, when I have a tendency to flail.â
I can understand what King is saying here about the flailing at the beginning. Because I do not plot when I write, I have ideas that crop up halfway through that would require being introduced earlier, for example. Or perhaps as my understanding of the characters evolved as I wrote more, I realize that they behaved out-of-character earlier on. This is certainly one downside to not plotting. But isnât is also kinda liberating to be able to take detours and wind up at a different but equally interesting destination?
Okay. So go ahead and fix all of the issues you found, and your first revision is complete.
Second Opinions and the Second Revision
âDo all opinions weigh the same? Not for me.â
Now youâre done with the first draft. Youâve patched over any plot holes and smoothed out those typos and grammar mistakes. Youâve polished the symbols and themes until they shine.
Once this is done, King gives a copy of work to his wife and several close friends (4-8) to receive detailed feedback. In other words, he has several close friends beta for him.Â
âMany writing texts caution against asking friends to read your stuff, suggesting youâre not apt to get a very unbiased opinion from folks whoâve eaten dinner at your house and sent their kids over to play with your kids in your backyard.Â
âThe idea has some validity, but I donât think an unbiased opinion is exactly what Iâm looking for. And I believe that most people smart enough to read a novel are also tactful enough to find a gentler mode of expression than âThis sucks.â Besides, if you really did write a stinker, wouldnât you rather hear the news from a friend while the entire edition consists of a half-dozen Xerox copies?â
What he gets back is 4-8 very detailed and different analyses of what he wrote. Whatâs very important to remember is that every reader looks at a work through a different lens. If half of them say a characterâs portrayal is far-fetched but the other half say the opposite, than their feedback regarding that point has balanced out. However, if the majority of them say that something doesnât work, then King goes back and sees if he can improve it.Â
Also, different readers pick up on different details. This is the age of internet and now we are able to check facts whenever we like, but it is still nice to have something of a subject matter expert on hand, because they are liable to pick up on details that the writer may not.Â
For example, I often beta fanfiction for anime. I am fluent in Japanese, live in Japan, and have studied Japanese culture and history. While I would never claim to be a âsubject matter expertâ on Japan, I am able to make certain corrections regarding, say, the type of kimono a character should be wearing, that the writer would not have considered.Â
Itâs very easy to accept feedback that deals with facts (i.e. a beta corrects you on the standard procedures for CPR). However, itâs much harder to handle subjective feedback (i.e. âThe ending felt inconclusive.â). Having put as much work as you have into creating this, it can feel like a personal attack because this story is a very dear part of you. What do you do if your beta tells you something like this?
âSubjective evaluations are, as I say, a little harder to deal with, but listen: if everyone who reads your book says you have a problem, youâve got a problem and you better do something about it.
âPlenty of writers resist this idea. They feel that revising a story according to the likes and dislikes of an audience is somehow akin to prostitution. ... But come on, weâre talking about half a dozen people you know and respect. If you ask the right ones, they can tell you a lot.
âDo all opinions weigh the same? Not for me. In the end I listen most closely to [my wife], because sheâs the one I write for, the one i want to wow. If youâre writing primarily for one person besides yourself, I advise you pay very close attention to that personâs opinion. And if what you hear makes sense, then make the changes. You canât let the whole world into your story, but you can let in the ones that matter the most. And you should.â
I think, especially in the age of prolific fanfiction in which the author usually updates as they write the story, the author feels a lot of pressure from their readers. Readers chomping at the bit for the main characters to have a naughty scene, or demanding to know about that one secret thing that you keep alluding to. A lot of fanfic writers struggle to tow the line of âwriting a good story based on reader feedbackâ and âpandering.âÂ
My advice to fanfic writers out there is to tell those thirsty readers to read a one-shot if theyâre looking for a quick fix of smut, and to have some goddamn patience. Youâre trying to tell a story, one that builds and progresses, and that takes time. Donât give in to those âOMG MAKE THEM KISS ALREADYâ reviews. But if a lot of readers say something like, âI feel like this character wouldnât do that,â then perhaps you should re-evaluate that.Â
On Pace and Reducing Glut
âFormula: 2nd Draft = 1st Draft - 10%.â
So now you have your first draft done. You have your feedback from your trusted betas. And now you need to go and make the final changes.Â
King states that you should rely on your most trusted betas to gauge whether or not your story is paced correctly and if youâve handled the back story in satisfactory fashion. âPaceâ is the speed at which your narrative unfolds.Â
âThere is a kind of unspoken (hence undefended and unexamined) belief in publishing circles that the most commercially successful stories are novels are fast-paced. I guess the underlying thought is that people have so many things to do today, and are so easily distracted from the printed word, that youâll lose them unless you become a kind of short-order cook, serving up sizzling burgers, fries, and eggs over easy just as fast as you can.Â
âBut you can overdo the speed thing. Move too fast and you risk leaving the reader behind, either by confusing or by wearing him/her out. ... I believe each story should be allowed to unfold at its own pace, and that pace is not always double time. Nevertheless, you need to beware--if you slow the pace down too much, even the most patient reader is apt to grow restive.â
So how can you strike a happy medium? Rely on your most trusted betas and their input. King says, âEvery story and novel is collapsible to some degree. If you canât get out ten percent of it while retaining the basic story and flavor, youâre not trying very hard. The effect of judicious cutting is immediate and often amazing. Youâll feel it and your betas will too.â
On backstory, King issues some opinions and advice:
Itâs important to get the backstory in as quickly as possible, but itâs also important to do it with some grace.
A reader is more interested in whatâs going to happen instead of what already did.
Even when you tell your story in a straightforward manner, youâll discover you canât escape at least some backstory.Â
âThe most important things to remember about backstory are that (a) everyone has a history and (b) most of it isnât very interesting. Stick to the parts that are, and donât get carried away with the rest.â
Source: King, Stephen. On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft. Hodder, 2012.
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youâre a part of me
(WHAT?? Jax wrote ANOTHER fic?? THREE FICS?? in TWO WEEKS?? I know, Iâm shocked too. Weâre gettin closer and closer to bein a Real Fic Writer lads.) How many juke first kiss fics will you write, Jax? all of them. as many as I want. I dunno. you're an adult obsessed with a tweeny-bopper show. shut up. who even has the patience for 5 +1s in this house it's 3 +1 and only barely bc I don't know how structured fic works so it's not even separate like it's supposed to be. anyway enjoy some dumb teenagers falling in love if the dialogue is cringe sorry lol I was trying to stay in the tone of the show and may have gone a little bit too disney channel (Also if you see typos/the same adjective used twice in one sentence/paragraph, no you didn't I don't edit it makes me nervous)Â ------------------------------- (ao3) ------------------------------ '... Luke has thrown out any semblance of personal space. He orbits around her just as closely as the others, no longer threatened by or hyper-aware of the consequences of his proximity. Basically, heâs getting entirely too comfortable.'
(3 times Julie and Luke almost kissed and 1 time they did) ------------------------------------ Luke is overly physical. Theoretically, Julie already knew this. Sheâs seen him with the boys, the way he lives in other peopleâs space, hanging off Reggie and lurking next to Alex, not caring where his lanky limbs or knees or elbows end up, even if itâs in other peopleâs ribs. He was never like that with her, too afraid of the crushing disappointment that came when she phased through his hands. But now, there isnât the strange, tingles-up-her neck way-weird, way-wrong sensation that came when she accidentally brushed through him. So even though Julieâs used to keeping a respectful distance, Luke has thrown out any semblance of personal space. He orbits around her just as closely as the others, no longer threatened by or hyper-aware of the consequences of his proximity. Basically, heâs getting entirely too comfortable.Â
She notices it the first time during rehearsal, when theyâre hashing out the particulars of a melody -- Luke wants it to go down, and Julie thinks it should go up. She plunks herself down at the grand piano to prove that her idea will sound better, fanning the half-finished sheet music out across the top, pointing out the measure theyâre arguing over, smudged and crinkled from repeated erasings.Â
Luke narrows his eyes at her from across the room, his face set in his trademark (adorable) grumpy expression. âIt just sounds better!â she argues. âListen.â She puts her hands on the keys, left hand hitting the chord, right dancing over her proposed melody. âSo please, keep chasing meâŠâ she sings, building to the last word and sliding her voice over an intricate run ending in a step up. Looking up, she tilts her head, her wild hair piled into a tenuous bun, curly tendrils framing her face. Lukeâs stomach does an interesting flip. âSee?âÂ
He stands up, swinging his guitar strap down across his chest before walking around her, putting his right hand over where hers had just been on the paper. He stands just behind her shoulder, sending goosebumps down her spine. âIt should go down,â he insists. âItâll flow better with the next line and then the break before the chorus makes more sense. Listen.â He puts his foot up on the bench and swings his guitar back up like it's an extension of him, playing a riff and singing the line theyâre arguing about before dipping in to the next. âSo please keep chasing me,â he sings, his voice gracefully stepping up and then back down, âCause even though Iâm runninâ, I know youâre the one I need.âÂ
âYouâre making it too simple!â she cries, slamming her hands down in her lap and turning to face him. She opens her mouth to continue the argument, but when she looks at him, she starts, finally realizing just how close he is. The toe of his sneaker brushes her leg, and he leans over the sheet music, closing her in against the piano. His dark eyebrows pull together, mouth slightly pinched as he concentrates, solid and strong and very much in her space. âUm --â she says.Â
He shrugs, shaking his head a little bit. âWhat,â he says, not understanding what sheâs having a problem with. Julieâs eyes drop to his mouth, close and stupid kissable, and he notices the motion. The air crackles as both of them unconsciously draw closer, song forgotten, focused only on each other. Luke leans in, half an inch, and Julieâs breath hitches in her chest. This is stupid. She knows this is stupid. Luke is dead. Full ghost. Not real. Well, real, but not a viable option. He might have a physical presence now -- a very strong, very warm, very attractive physical presence -- but that doesnât make him any more possible. And yet, here she is, pulled into him like he has his own gravitational field and sheâs helpless to it. Luke licks his lips, and Julie tilts her chin up, fractional motion tiptoeing toward something irreversible and dangerous.Â
Just as sheâs about to step over that uncrossable line, thereâs an almighty crash. Both of their heads whip up in time to see Alex topple off his stool -- heâd fallen asleep as they were arguing. The noise wakes Reggie, whose head was lolling against his amp. âI didnât do it!â he yells, flailing into sitting up straight.Â
Julie clears her throat and turns back to the keyboard, stretching her hands over the keys. âYouâre, uh --â she says, glancing at Luke out of the corner of her eye to find him smirking in an infuriatingly adorable manner. âYouâre right. It should go down.â He stands up straight, mildly surprised at his easy victory, and backs off from the piano to show Reggie the chords. They sketch out the verse and Alex adds a backing beat, the moment forgotten.Â
That is, until Carlos comes in to nag her to eat. Alex poofs out and Reggie dives behind his amp. Since the whole discovering-corporeality thing, theyâre not totally sure if Julieâs the only one who can see them still, and theyâd rather not have to explain to Julieâs dad what three teenage âhologramsâ are doing living in his garage. Carlos delivers his message and then darts back inside, eager for dinner, and Julie stands up from the piano, gathering the half-finished song and tucking it into the folder she keeps her in-progress projects in.Â
Reggie emerges in a comic mess of limbs and grins at her, Alex poofing back on to his stool. âIâll be back after dinner to finish this,â she says, hoping they don't notice the shake in her hands as she tucks the folder away. Luke pops his chin over the edge of the couch, behind which heâd taken cover.Â
âHey Julie!â he calls, and she turns back to look at him. âJust remember; KISS.âÂ
Her brain short-circuits, heart tripping over itself as she remembers his eyes on her, his shoulders and his hands and his stupid concentration face. âI, uh -- What are you --â she sputters.
A shit-eating grin spreads across Lukeâs face as he puts his elbows on top of the couch and pushes himself up. âKeep it simple, stupid.âÂ
Julie practically runs out of the garage. Alex raises an eyebrow, his gaze arcing from the door to land on Luke. âThat was uhâŠâ Luke schools his expression into one of false innocence. âBold.â Luke rolls his eyes and brushes him off, but Reggie gives Alex a knowing look. Their friends are idiots.Â
It happens again one afternoon when Carlos has a baseball game and Julie has the house to herself. Or, so she thinks. Sheâs lazing around on the couch, avoiding her history homework spread out on the coffee table, Adventure Time babbling on the television. Sheâs slowly working her way through a bag of gummy bears and m&ms (her favorite candy combination), wearing an enormous hoodie that used to be her momâs, home alone; life is fantastic. Until --Â
âOh, sweet, cartoons!â Luke poofs into existence directly next to her on the couch, and she starts violently enough to shake candy into the couch cushions. Some of it lands on his chest, and he holds up a green gummy bear with a wistful expression. Julie just stares at him, still mildly in shock, definitely still annoyed, and really not in the mood to endure his moping about food when she was having a perfectly nice time by herself.Â
âHey,â he says, either ignoring or unaware of what heâs just done to her heart rate and her peaceful afternoon. âYou think now that Iâm corporeal --â (he over-pronounces the word, having just learned it from Flynn days before) âI can eat like, regular human food?â It isnât until he looks to her for an answer that he realizes what heâs just done. âOh, sorry,â he says, that same stupid-ass grin settling on his face, not sorry even a little bit. âDid I spook ya?âÂ
His glee at the pun, which he definitely stole from Reggie, sparkles in his gray-green eyes, and Julieâs heart, which had just started to recover from his sudden appearance, trips over itself one more time. Emerging from the shaken-up snowglobe of her brain, she blurts out her first thought. âYouâre the worst,â she says, even while thinking the opposite.Â
He looks genuinely hurt for about half a second before turning the gummy bear towards her, too, and speaking for it. âYou should be nice to Luke,â he says in an absurd voice. âHeâs so handsome and talented!â He laughs at his own joke and pitches his voice up to continue with the bit, but she snatches the candy out of his hand and pops into her mouth, grinning. He feigns shock. âThat bear could have had a family, Julie.âÂ
âIf they did, theyâll all be happy together in my stomach,â she says, eating another one to punctuate the statement. Luke laughs, and the sound has a heart-stopping melody of its own. Itâs comfortable, the relationship that theyâve developed with each other. He always laughs at her jokes and is the first to offer her a compliment after rehearsal, and she loves his dorky sense of humor, even when she gives him a hard time about it. They write music and goof around, and even with the (very strong) undercurrent of romantic (she hopes) tension between them, a friendship sits comfortably on top. Heâs only been in her life for a short time, but she canât imagine it without him. Her feelings for him endanger that, so she does her best not to let it show. He asks her what sheâs watching, and she explains the basic premise of the episode so that he can understand whatâs going on.Â
Sheâs hyper-aware of him as they watch the show, and she envies the ease with which he occupies her space, his shoulder brushing hers, their knees occasionally bumping. He slouches all the way down on the couch, one foot kicked up on the table, turning the remote in his hands and messing with the battery cover, completely at home. (Heâs always fiddling with something -- a pen, his necklace -- or bouncing his leg, or clicking a guitar pick between his teeth. Itâs a habit thatâs mostly adorable and only sometimes annoying.) If he notices her staring at him, he doesnât say anything.Â
It takes a couple more episodes, but she finally relaxes, and the distance between them -- already spare -- vanishes, her shoulder tucked under his, her head angled toward him, their feet bumping on the table. Half her attention is on Finn and the land of Ooo, and half on the boy beside her, who doesnât seem to give any indication that heâs thinking about this as much as she is. Luke has a way of pulling her in until sheâs closer than she ever planned to be, like she canât help but touch him. Ever since the night they played the Orpheum, heâs become magnetic, his presence a force she canât resist. If she tilted her head down, just a fraction, it would be resting on his shoulder. What would he do? Would he shrug her off, or rest his head on hers? She watches his hands play with the remote, imagining what his strong, slender fingers would feel like laced with hers. Sheâs had crushes before, of course -- she liked Nick all the way from seventh grade up to this year -- but nothing so real and powerful as this.Â
âDonât you think Finn sounds just like Reggie?â Luke asks, pulling her from her thoughts. She looks up at him, and he looks down at her, and -- oh.Â
Heâs very close.Â
His eyes always remind her of an overcast sky, swirling with unknown depth, and they widen when they meet hers, filled with awe. Blood rushes in her ears, muting the TV, tuning out anything that isnât him. Her heart is beating so hard and so fast she wonders peripherally if he can hear it, and then that thought fizzles out with the rest of any kind of logic when his gaze drops to her mouth. Heâs going to kiss her. Heâs going to kiss her!! Panic and elation and anticipation all scramble in her chest. Sheâs never kissed anyone before, and even though sheâs never asked, she knows he probably has. What if sheâs bad at it? Sheâs half freaking out and half telling herself to shut the hell up as he turns his entire body towards her, his hand reaching up to hold her face and --Â
The front door slams open, announcing Carlos and Ray. âMija!!â her dad calls. Luke jerks back from her like heâs been burned, eyes filled with absolute terror, before he disappears.Â
âJULIEEEEE!!â Carlos hollers, launching himself across the living room at her and landing on her stomach, knocking the air out of her. Her arms come up around him automatically, despite all the sweat and the diamond dirt sticking to it. Feeling mildly shell shocked and like sheâs been hit by a hell of a lot more than her little brother, she barely listens as Carlos and their dad babble over each other in an attempt at telling the story of Carlosâ game-winning home-base slide. Sheâll be happy for him once her heart rate slows down.Â
Luke stays away for almost a full twenty-four hours after that particular mishap, long enough she almost asks Reggie and Alex if he talked to them about it. Thereâs about a thousand reasons not to, but mostly, she doesnât know if she can even explain just what happened. She does tell Flynn, who launches into a very confusing monologue that starts with her admonishing Julie for thinking anything good can come from involving herself with a literal ghost and ends with her gushing about how many cute love songs they could write together, zero percent of which makes her feel better.Â
The only reason he doesnât continue avoiding her is rehearsal, which, of course, he would never miss. Sheâs hoping to talk to him before they get started, but then the bus gets stuck in traffic and all of her boys are already set up with their instruments and having an impromptu jam session by the time she gets home. âWhat --â she hisses as she heaves the doors shut behind her. âDid I tell you guys about playing in here without me?â Alex shrugs and apologizes, and she canât really be mad at Reggie, at least not for long.Â
But Luke -- he barely looks at her, nervous fingers dancing across a complicated riff even as the other boys stop playing. It takes a second of silence before he looks up to see the rest of his band staring at him. âOh,â he says, the phrase ending in the discordant sound of fingernails on steel strings. âYeah, right. Sorry.âÂ
They get started, but nothing sounds right. Luke rushes the tempo and refuses to make eye contact with anyone, spinning off into fancy riffs that have no place in the song theyâre working on. Reggie keeps trying to keep up with him, tripping up Alex and frustrating Julie, and when the song grinds to a cacophonous halt for the fourth time, she stands up from the piano. Reggie takes a step back.Â
âWhat is your problem?â she practically yells, stomping over to Luke. Heâs been surly and unusually stubborn, and the shift from his usual cheerful, passionate demeanor builds her own stewing anxieties to a dangerous head.
âItâs not my problem you canât keep up,â he says, and then, after watching the words register in Julieâs expression, immediately regrets it. Alexâs eyebrows shoot up and Reggie makes a very soft âooooohhhâ noise under his breath.
âItâs not keeping up if you canât hold a steady tempo,â she says, too upset over his refusal to cooperate to catch the reaction from her bandmates.
âOkay, so maybe I was rushing,â he admits, trying to walk it back. But Julieâs on a roll, and once she gets started laying into him, she very rarely lets up.
âThank you!â she yells, the sarcasm clear in her tone. Sheâd been especially fond of the product so far, a song she thought embodied the perfect blend of Lukeâs harder edge and her singer-songwriter roots. His sudden, uncharacteristic left turn is as much an interruption in their rehearsal as a knock to the tenuous pride sheâd been building in the piece. âAnd what are all those riffs youâre tossing in? You have to hear how they donât fit.âÂ
âOh come on,â he says, proud in his ability and therefore less willing to step down. He rolls his shoulders back and moves toward her, the challenge set in his spine. âI was shredding and you know it.â Luke is sweet and kind and silly and compassionate, but heâs also a musician, and a lead guitarist at that. His ego, though it rarely becomes an issue, is far from insubstantial.Â
âIf you want a solo, fine!â she cries with exasperation, her hands flying through the air like they always do when sheâs upset. âBut you have to say something so we can give you room for it!â Her annoyance has turned down the sensitivity on her Luke-nonsense monitor, caught up enough in the trouble that she canât see that heâs riling her up on purpose.
âWhat, you afraid of a little improvisation?â Heâs smiling now, and his obvious glee, such a stark flip from where she thought this was going, throws off her tirade. He starts walking toward her, and his newfound physicality gives him an ability to fluster her to a much greater degree than before.
âNo --â she stammers, stumbling backwards, distracted out of anger by his sparkling eyes and the power in the body approaching rapidly. âThatâs not what I --â There it is again, that power he has to turn the rest of the world into radio static, her vision blurring and her hearing dulling until itâs just Luke filling up the world in front of her.Â
âCâmon Julie,â he says, and right now she hates his stupid smirk and the stupid way he rolls her name around in his mouth before letting it out. âyou have to take risks once in a while.â Sheâs backed up against the piano now, her hands wrapped tight around the lid, and heâs still pushing it, strong and warm and undeniably, frustratingly male in her space.Â
But Julie isnât one to let him intimidate her into silence, no matter how cute and well-muscled he may be. She takes a breath and looks him in his ridiculous sparkly eyes, poking him in his absurdly firm chest.âI am not afraid of taking risks, mister,â she says, âLetâs not forget who performed in front of her entire school to get back into the music program --âÂ
âMy idea,â he scoffs, not backing up. Why isnât he backing up.
âOr who fronts a band of actual ghosts!â she continues, her voice increasing in volume again, and the speed of her heart tripping over itself could be from the argument or the boy whoâs collarbones are less than a foot from her face. Both are entirely possible.Â
âLess ghost now,â he reminds her, tilting his head, his weight leaned one one leg, his hand resting on the head of his guitar, relaxed when theyâre supposed to be arguing.Â
âYou just get to poof out after we perform!â she says, only about two-thirds of her mind still focused on the fight itself, the other third completely wrapped up in the feeling of Luke in front of her. âIâm the one who has to stick around and ask questions!âÂ
âSo youâre saying you take chances,â he says, diabolically diplomatic instead of challenging. He leans forward, putting his hands on the piano behind her, caging her in with his arms. She refuses to back down again, even though his face is now inches from hers. âYouâd take a leap of faith?âÂ
âYeah,â she says, only half-certain, because sheâs not totally sure theyâre still talking about music, and her heart is in the base of her throat and her stomach is somewhere around her shoes, and suddenly her hands are sweating when they definitely werenât a minute ago. This definitely isnât an argument about the song anymore.Â
âOh yeah?â he says, and thereâs the challenge again, except this one sounds more like a dare, and heâs definitely looking at her lips this time, not even trying to be subtle about it, and her hands are braced on his forearms and when did they get there? And Luke is warm and when she looks up, his eyes are on hers, and despite all that bravado and provocation thereâs still a question there, and all she would have to do to answer is lift up on her toes and finally, finally press her lips against his, and --Â
Alex coughs. The oxygen goes out of the room like someone opened an airlock, and Julie feels herself sink, just barely, back down on her heels. The world fills back in, colors and sounds suddenly too bright, too abrasive. Tearing her eyes off Luke, she glances over his shoulder to where Reggie and Alex are, still with their instruments, watching them intently. Alex looks politely put out, his eyebrows tilted up with incredulity, like he's asking if they seriously just made him watch that. Reggie, on the other hand, hides nothing in his expression, shock and amusement there in equal parts as he glances between Alex and the two of them still tucked close against the piano, jaw askance in a surprised smile.Â
"Are you done?" Alex asks, in a tone that sounds less like a question. "Itâs not that I mindâŠ" he gestures between the two of them with a drumstick. "This, but like, time and place, dude." He's not talking to Julie. Luke clears his throat, appropriately chastised, but still looking smug as shit.Â
"Um, sorry," she mutters as he returns to his spot next to his amp.Â
Alex shrugs. "Not your fault," he says, "from the top?"Â
"Uh," she says, frozen for a moment in embarrassment and confusion. She looks to Alex, and he gives her one of his soft, kind smiles, the sort that makes her feel like everything is going to be okay. âRight, okay,â she finishes, as her hands twitch and she settles back into her body. Rushing back around to the bench, she flexes her hands over the keys, curling them into fists and then back out again when they tremble. âFrom the top.âÂ
The rehearsal goes -- okay, after that. The magic is missing; therefore, while she usually feels inspired and courageous and empowered walking out of the garage, she just feels exhausted and drained. She eats dinner with her family, and her dad definitely notices that sheâs uncharacteristically quiet, but saves asking about it until after Carlos is safely sequestered with his iPad. âHow ya doin, kiddo?â he asks as she helps him clear up the dishes. âEverything okay?âÂ
Julie looks at her dad with mild alarm, wondering what exactly he knows. He does his best, he really does, but it took him a while to even notice she was in a band. Not to mention, he still believes theyâre holograms. âUm,â she says convincingly. âYeah?âÂ
He smiles kindly, in the way that means heâs very politely calling bullshit. âAlright, mija. Whatâs going on?âÂ
Heaving a sigh, Julie keeps her eyes on the dishwasher sheâs loading, trying her best to plan an escape route out of this conversation. âI promise, Dad,â she says, âItâs nothing.â and then, what she thinks are the magic words. âBoy stuff.âÂ
But Rayâs been prepping for this, had conversations with Rose about it before she passed, while the cancer slowly ate her alive. She knew she wasnât going to be able to be there for her daughter through the time in her life a girl needs her mother the most, and she wasnât about to let him hide behind toxic masculinity and leave Julie to figure it out on her own. âOkay,â Ray says, trepidation clear in his voice but also not unwilling to approach the topic. âWhatâs his name?âÂ
Julie almost drops the pot sheâs scrubbing. âDoes it matter?â she asks, her voice crawling up several octaves.Â
âJust trying to learn who is in my daughterâs life,â he answers diplomatically, sitting down at the counter to make it clear heâs not letting her out of this one easily.Â
âI promise, Dad,â she says, doing her best to frantically dodge the interrogation she knows is coming, regretting she brought it up at all, cursing herself for being so obvious. âItâs dumb. You donât even know him.âÂ
Ray nods slowly, pretending to believe her. Julie goes after the pot a little harder, because maybe if she just finishes the dishes she can go upstairs and bury herself in her bed and not have to have this conversation anymore. âItâs not that guitarist, is it?â he asks, and her spine goes stiff as a ramrod. Rayâs her dad, but heâs not blind. Heâs seen the way they look at each other when they perform, the way the boy follows her around the stage like a puppy, desperate for her attention, disappointed when she jams with the other members of their band and not him. Heâs an excellent musician, but Ray knows too many stories of near-legends gone sour with misdirected young love.Â
âNo!â Julie cries immediately in an obvious lie. âOf course not!â She turns, half-laughing, explanations falling out of her mouth âWeâre just friends,â she insists, lacing her fingers in front of her and nodding exaggeratedly. âJust friends. Only friends. Uh-huh. Friends. And!â she continues, gesturing widely, âhe doesnât even live here! So that⊠wouldnât even make sense!â she laughs awkwardly. âSo no way. That itâs him. No way itâs him.âÂ
Ray sighs out a laugh that Julieâs too panicked to hear and leans forward on his elbows. âAlright, nina. Just be careful, okay?â Sheâs nodding along, edging her way towards the stairs. âYou and your bandâŠâ She looks like Rose, in that hoodie that practically swallows her, hair piled messily on top of her head. Her mom was also a terrible liar, he remembers fondly. âYou have something special. Donât throw that away for a boy.âÂ
Julie nods rapidly and then bolts, thundering up the stairs before throwing her bedroom door closed behind her and diving headfirst onto her bed, burying herself in decorative pillows. How does everyone  know?? First Flynn and then Reggie and Alex and now her dad? Is she that obvious? (Um, yes.) She flops onto her back, staring up at the colorful tapestries slung across her ceiling, the string lights and posters and art. Usually, she loves her room, the feeling of her creative mind as a space she can inhabit, exploring her heart and the things she loves without having to shut out the outside world. But tonight, she feels trapped in her own head, so she grabs her notebook and squeezes out the window, perched on the roof outside her room.Â
The evening air is cool and crisp, the gentlest bite warning the oncoming winter, as much as there is a winter in LA. She spends a while scribbling down half-baked lyric ideas and doodling angry black scribbles around the edges of the pages when nothing comes out right. Itâs harder to write on her own, now, without the steady pulse of Lukeâs genius behind her, the electricity that flows between them as they create impeccable harmonies. Sometimes, it feels like music belongs to the both of them together, a joined force, like theyâve given up their individual melodies for something greater. Itâs thrilling and terrifying all at once.Â
Eventually, she just ends up holding the notebook open to âPerfect Harmonyâ with one hand, the other arm wrapped around her legs, her chin propped on her knees. She still hasnât shown it to Luke, afraid of how real it feels, how clear it makes her feelings for him. Also, itâs a ballad, which they havenât even approached yet, and she has no idea how Reggie and Alex will feel about such an explicitly romantic duet. Sheâs thinking that maybe she might be able to vague it up, maybe even make it a solo piece, when Luke appears next to her, like thinking about him draws him to her. (Which might actually be true -- she hasnât examined that very closely.)Â
âHey!â he says cheerfully, all awkwardness from the eveningâs rehearsal ostensibly disappeared. He plucks the notebook out of her hand, using the other arm to hold back her immediate demands for its return. âNew stuff?â he asks. This is not normally such a grievous invasion of privacy. Ever since they started writing together, their songwriting journals have become common property, and half the pages in hers are marked up with his handwriting and vice versa.Â
âItâs not ready yet!â she cries, pushing against the (stupidly strong) arm he has across her collarbone, willing to climb bodily over him to snatch the notebook back. Lukeâs face very slowly falls as he reads it, the lyrics sinking in, and her protests trail off as she stops scrambling to grab it out of his hands.Â
He stands suddenly, pacing across the roof. âDid you --â he starts, breathing shallowly, his tongue tucking his teeth between his lips, nostrils flaring before he speaks again. âWhy did you copy this out of my songbook?â Itâs not accusatory, only a question, born of true confusion.Â
âI didnât,â Julie replies without skipping a beat, equally baffled.Â
âI wrote this after the garage party,â he says. âHow is it in your notebook?âÂ
âI wrote it at school before the garage party,â she replies, doing her best to keep down the memory of the Luke in her imagination and the song coming to her fully formed in the form of a Patrick Swayze-esque daydream. She didnât even tell Flynn about that part.Â
âAt schoolâŠâ Luke repeats, studying the lyrics with a furrow between his eyebrows, and as much as Julie is also reeling from shock at the mystery, itâs kind of adorable to watch him try and solve it. âThis doesnât make sense,â he says, looking up at her, signature grumpy expression in place. He tilts the notebook flat, like heâs presenting it to her, hoping she has the next steps. Like heâs reached his conclusion, and itâs that heâs confused.Â
âIt doesnât,â she says, and it comes out as half a laugh unintentionally, just looking at his ridiculous, adorable face.Â
âWhy are you laughing?â he demands with exasperated urgency. âThis is super weird!â He rushes over and collapses next to her, a mess of flannel and limbs and beautiful dumbass. He shoves the notebook back into her hands as she folds her legs underneath her, relinquishing her grip on her knees.Â
âYeah,â she sighs, unable to wipe the grin from her face. âYeah, it is.â Luke looks like he wants to ask her what sheâs smiling at, but then he starts smiling, too, because her happiness is his happiness. Julieâs already past the strange coincidence, lost in the joy of his gray-green eyes and the feeling of him next to her. Sheâs too used to strange, to the ever-changing rules of the afterlife and the constant uncertainty that Luke and her boys bring to her life. Yes, itâs strange, but sheâs in a ghost band and her crush is dead and still manages to look at her like that so she has a certain level of perspective when it comes to things like this.Â
âWhat are you --â Luke tries to say, but her eyes are on his and theyâre warm and brown and kind and heâs finding it a little hard to form sentences.Â
âThis is ridiculous,â she says, and heâs nodding without knowing what heâs agreeing to. âWe wrote the same song on the same day,â she laughs, and he nods again, half-listening, half lost in her. Sheâs excited now, about the possibility brought on by magic and her connection -- their  connection -- souls tied together with passion and music and love. âThatâs impossible!â It cements something for her, the feeling of coming together, of sliding into place. Theyâre so solid, tight, together, on the same wavelength⊠musicians have put it a thousand ways throughout the years, to communicate the feeling of a co-writer, a bandmate, a partner, reading your mind, singing the next line, playing the next riff that was just in your head. Julie and Luke get the added bonus of being inexplicably spiritually linked. Nothing can break that, or replace it. Sheâs not scared of it, anymore.Â
âImpossible,â he echoes. He always feels a little bit stronger, a little more alive whenever heâs with Julie like this, just the two of them, hanging out or writing music, and heâs in her immediate proximity, soaking in the warmth of her brown skin and brown eyes and the chaotic energy of her wild, incredible hair. She pulls him in, without knowing the power she holds or the light that she emits, casting a golden glow over everything around her.Â
âLuke,â she says, and he tunes back in, realizing that heâs steadily leaning toward her as they sit on the roof, Julie cross-legged, Luke angled toward her, one leg stretched out, his elbow propped on his other knee. âAre you listening?âÂ
âUm,â he swallows, âYeah?â but heâs looking at her lips, not her eyes, and heâs thinking about kissing her, just once, just to see what she tastes like, remembering the smell of gummies and m&ms, hoping sheâll be just as sweet. She doesnât say anything, mostly because she forgot what she was going to say in the first place, watching his eyes watch her mouth, breathing him in. Heâs too close again, closer than any friend or bandmate should be, and thereâs no mic between them, and the door to her room is closed, and thereâs no bandmates or brothers or dads, and her heart pounds in her chest.Â
When she tilts her chin towards him, she feels ready, finally, knowing what he means to her. Only a breath separates them, but they both stop, waiting for the inevitable interruption, the door slamming open, or someone calling up from the yard below, but it doesnât come. Realizing what theyâre both waiting for, they breathe out a simultaneous laugh, their foreheads dropping together. The tension fades, and Julieâs smile feels uncontainable, demanding every inch of her face as this beautiful, goofy, genus, talented boy adores her while she sits there, falling in love with him.Â
Itâs easier, this moment, than the one before, because it feels less laden with the weight of someone pulling away, unsure or unwanting. This moment is comfortable, joyful, the two of them acknowledging every minute of want and disappointment and hilarious misfortune over the past few days, acknowledging what they would have asked for instead. And when Luke finally reaches up, pulling her in gently with his hand on her neck, his thumb sliding over her jaw, itâs with confidence and tenderness, reassured that she wants this, too. Julie leans easily into the touch, and when their lips meet, the spark and rush is better than any performance, any screaming crowd drowning in lights. They kiss each other, moving together, leaning in as one, harmony made in the movement of mouths and the press of lips, and this moment -- itâs perfect.Â
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