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I just saw what is probably the most insane and out of touch post I have ever seen in my life about supporting ao3
#some ‘antis’ or purity obsessed people need to seriously and i mean seriously go outside#like they have completely lost touch with reality and let the algorithms completely destroy critical thinking and empathy#please do seriously go outside and touch grass. drink some water#absorb some sunshine#it at least gave me people to block but jesus#those people genuinely scare me#text
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i found a god awful doc about this one person (who, too, is a god awful being) trying to reason why mudClaw would be a bad leader. I'ma try to find the doc but meanwhile I'll submit this because someone could have the link, I'll need your honest thought about it bcs why are we defending oneWhiker now
Anon, buddy, I'm gonna have to sit you down and gently discourage you from casually calling random human people "god awful beings" in my inbox like this. Not when you're just talking about relatively basic media analysis. That isn't ok or normal.
I hope that when I speak harshly, it's coming from a place of condemning hurtful actions and the tangible harm that they cause. I don't appreciate people trying to get me to directly beef with other people directly by requesting I break down their individual posts or analysis documents (when I ask for people to share links, it's so I can see and prepare to counter the ideas because they usually "float downstream" if they get popular); but in a second ask, you linked this document and there's nothing harmful in it. In fact, it's got a far more neutral tone than I'd take if I was writing an analysis about Mudclaw.
If you couldn't tell the difference between a document like this and one that contains active abuse apologia rhetoric, I would be filled with concern. But I don't think you read it. I think you maybe skimmed it and stopped reading, or just heard the title.
Because this document literally says this;
and your takeaway, something you felt so strongly about that you came to me hoping I'd validate it, was "Why Are We Defending Onewhisker Now."
Art is a tool we can use to explore our own biases, and teach us something about ourselves. That overwhelming sense of anger and disgust that you probably felt when you saw "Mudclaw Would Be A Bad Leader" made you jump to an emotional conclusion and you assumed something that was not said. I know the feeling. You might have had a reactionary impulse.
You are not a bad person for doing that-- you're human. You can grow.
Why did it upset you this much, though? Is there something very personal about this that set you off? ...are you spending a lot of time in spaces online that keep you angry? These are questions for you to reflect with.
I do not know the owner of this document or "what they've done," if anything, so I will not link it, because their Discord is at the bottom of the doc. If they are truly a "god awful being", please do not engage, just block and move on. Nothing is accomplished by following around 'A Bad Guy' and boosting their cat takes.
But something VERY bad WOULD be accomplished if I indulged an anon for a situation I know nothing about and unwittingly became part of a harassment campaign. How do I know that you've got good intentions?
I usually just delete unsolicited links to docs and videos that are 'fightbaiting' like this-- trying to get me to beef publicly with a 3rd person. But I've seen more of these than usual lately so I would like to try and cool it down.
#Those are genuine mindfulness questions btw. i always mean it when I ask people to reflect.#And sometimes you DO have a good and legitimate answer to them#Sometimes the thing that is personal about it is that they are spreading harmful ideas or being bigoted.#But you need to learn to be specific about What the harmful idea is.#And How it is harmful.#bone babble#I'm also going to be clarifying this over in the ask etiquette because I don't want this place to turn into a drama blog.#This is not about saying that I won't comment on fandom discussions or ppl can't ask my opinions on things#It's that we can talk about the ideas without demonizing some guy about it#God Awful Doc from a God Awful Being is not even remotely an ok thing to say in this inbox when i know nothing about anyone involved#it DOES kinda concern me that The Youths seem to have 'BAD PERSON' as part of their lexicon#im seeing the sentiment in a looooot of places lately and that does actually scare me#My partner halfjokes with me that everyone should be made to take a mandatory 5 hour class on Splitting before being allowed online#and by 'halfjoke' I mean 'halflife' because it becomes 50% more correct every single day
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Pretty proud of how far I’ve come this year
#I have struggled with crippling anxiety for a long time and this year I really wanted to overcome it and become more independent#like#I used to be absolutely terrified of leaving the house#things like driving and going places alone would make me have crazy panic attacks#but this year I’ve done a lot and I’ve overcome a lot and gained so much confidence#I’ve flown across the country twice this year#driven on some pretty intimidating roads like the highway and freeway#gone on solo bike rides for miles through the woods#eaten tons of new foods#I know those sorts of things might seem very simple and normal everyday things#but I have ocd and it can make my anxiety pretty bad#it can also make a lot of my fears rather irrational#likes like trying new foods and going new places are genuinely intimidating for me#bc it makes me feel like I’m going to die lol#but I’ve done ALOT of things I was scared to do#I’ve come along way#and it may seem like boring basic stuff to some people#but considering I couldn’t leave my house two years ago without panicking to the point of losing feeling in my hands and feet#I think I did pretty good lol#I’m starting to feel like a confident person again#I’m starting to feel like I can LIVE again#and it’s pretty nice#just wanted to write this out somewhere lol that’s all#maybe it will be helpful for anyone struggling in similar ways#to see that improvement is possible#lol anyways happy November#mae rambles
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#persona 4 spoilers#persona 4#p4#gsa sl au#moel gas station attendant#izanami persona#⛽️🌫#tohru adachi#nanako dojima#souji seta#// needed to draw this freak being a freak like genuinely#// people need to get my vision of making the most out of this loser#// car hood fell on them and they bit their lip i dont know#// adachi being touchy is like . essential to the definition of their relationship like#// maybe you think 'oh i gotta stop this idiot from hurting himself' no brother you just want 2 hold a man tell me why youre at inaba pd huh#// also love how nanako was scared of the attendant thats like my favorite thing and nobody understands#// you think god is a gamer WRONG that qte wasnt even rapid press maam you can calm down look shes not even holding the controller right#// girls who hook up a human facade to ps2 mapping yeah like i care at this point#// SORRY ABOUT THE TV SET? ive never seen the backside of my own tv until those things were thrown out sorry.
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pals and other things :D
#art#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#oc#cat cup#doodles#eye strain#! ! ! they are like terrarium creatures to me hbsfh :3#//my brother reed had the idea for them to have little goats for their wagons and honestly. Yea lfsfhv#//oh so the other two cats are Smokey (or Smokes sometimes (he/him)) and Quarry (she/her) :D#there are about 6 other characters in their group but they are not so important so bfsh#/the dragonflies are fairies!! it's only right imo lol :>#for species i have so far are 1) the cats 2) humans 3) trolls (small guys) 4) fairies and 5) hags#'what's with the hags' technically they're just magical old people and can be of any species but i think it's funny so hfbhs#asked some of my siblings which species they'd like to be and they all deeply considered hag so it was a hit hgshf#OH! i almost forgot about 6) The Beasts#<- they're kinda inspired by whatever those things were in the wizard of oz#genuinely scared me as a child so hbfsh :>#forgot what they were called though!! creepy guys lol <3#/oh there may also be banshees 👍 another thought from reed ehe :3#//oh and i'm using the little drop thingies to represent spirits in this story !#which include ghosts and fairies and banshees and da da da da ykno :>#//yep yep!!#i'm gonna head off rn though..#toooodles toodles [waves handkerchief]#hey i can write handkerchief first try!! sick :D#bye though hbfsv - bye !!
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Just looked at the digital remains again and oh my god why are we not talking more about the original lyrics to backslide
If I were to backslide, tell everyone we know
Thanks for the last time they came out
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Why did I not thank you more, saving me those other times
(Don't you dare jump in)
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I'd rather you hurt me, than do nothing at all
I'd rather you let me down, than just gas me up
I'd rather you cuse me, than do nothing at all
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You won't make a sound, pick someone else I won't be around
Trapped inside your smile, don't put me on trial
Don't you see you take, everything from me
#christ this is so sad#oh my god i am havimg Feelings#something about the#why did i not thank you more#saving me those other times#(dont you dare jump in)#this is breaking me#im kind of glad those lines didnt make it on to the album i dont think i would have survived it#im curious as to why though#i really really hope its because he was doing better when actually making the song than when he originally wrote it#but i dont know#im worried about him#not to be pathetically parasocially attached to a man i dont even know#but these lines just. scare me.#i hope hes doing okay#i hope hes surrounded by the people he loves#and i hope he genuinely knows how much of an impact hes had on so many peoples lives#and i hope that doesnt scare him too much#it feels like these lines are about us#i dont know i cant articulate why this is hitting me so deeply but it is#and i hope josh is doing ok too#its easy to focus more on tylers thoughts and emotions because hes the one who verbalizes them#but i worry about josh too and i hope he also knows how much of an impact hes had#i just want to hug them both so bad#and it does reassure me that in most of the songs theres still an undercurrent of hope and a desire to keep fighting#twenty one pilots#tyler joseph#josh dun#clancy#clancy digital remains
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me talking to my flatmate yesterday: "hey i saw you've been using my frying pan quite often, you can use it but could you please wash it right after that? because lately every time i want to use it it's lying dirty with dried food that i can't clean right away :(" to which she was like yeah sure sorry
and right now i come back from uni and want to make myself dinner and you can probably guess the state of my frying pan
#i brought from home a pan a pot and two bowls#she keeps using ALL of them and leaving them like that#but with pan it's especially annoying because there's only one small one#i kept pouring water into it and putting it in a sink so the dried food would come off and later i could clean and use it#but i have yet to be able to do that#because i put it in the sink filled with water in the morning but in the evening when im back it's back lying dirty on the oven :((#and im the kind of person who's scared to ask people to do something when it's bothering me like in this case#so it was already a lot that i actually talked to her about it yesterday#but it was all for nothing and now i don't know what to do 🫠#not to mention her cat walks all over my stuff when im not home and also the litter box smells so bad because she doesn't clean it T^T#initially i was only a bit jealous when she moved in (because she's my roommate's best friend aka friend higher in hierarchy than me)#but now im starting to genuinely dislike her because of those living conditions she brought#im a calm in nature and over-polite person and it's killing me inside#ij wish i could just go and make myself clear that i do NOT want that and it's not up for discussion#with my roommate i also had some BAD situations but this is so much worse#because she's not my friend so she doesn't care and doesn't want to talk with me about it#after i talked with roommie and we both said what bothers us in each other and we established rules and boundaries it got SO much better#but this one feels like a hopeless case it's like im trying to have a conversation with someone standing the other way
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it's normal to be disappointed when you learn that your dreams are already dead. but just like a phoenix, our death will lead us to our own rebirth; and like a supernova, some deaths are beautiful.
#context is in the tags where i hide#which will be a lot#so uh#you all probably know about... my au.#all the team is busy. of course including me.#one's in uni; the other... idk. probably living his life.#as i mentioned in a previous post i've been missing the times when the group was still as active as how young people would be#and the youthful days i had in general#one thing i used to be scared of is change.#now i don't think i'm scared of change anymore. just dreadful but no longer scared#because change is inevitable and there's nothing we can do#so uhhh#go with the flow i guess#i always let the people i cherish live their own lives and i give them all the privacy they need#even if it means not being able to keep in touch with them#that is if they'd still remember me#whether they would or wouldn't that's okay with me#(no hard feelings everything is genuine and honest)#so... let's go straight to the point#the au would probably end up being solely written... that is if the art stuff doesn't push through#it's not like i've grown sick of those 'promises' i totally understand them i SWEAR.#i just don't wish to be misunderstood but like i just. couldn't spit all of it out in front of them#i'm sorry for being a coward#and if you see this... i don't know. probably tell me how you're doing? and either give me hopes that this could all still be sorted out-#or tell me if it's impossible at this point?#please just don't give me any false hope.#and... if we all ever don't push through#i'm genuinely sorry if i tired you or wasted your time and energy.#i'm sorry for dragging you to all my demands and perfectionisms and insecurities#missing entry
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if kosa passes i will have to delete all my accounts. i will have to lose all of my friends. my moms very against me being online and doesnt know i have a partner. ive been a shut in for years and at this point have no irl friends, losing my online friends would be the final nail in the coffin. i could get their phone numbers but theres only two people i know well enough to be comfortable with that, my partner and my friend val. kosa passing would mean i couldnt post my thoughts anymore, i couldnt share my art, id lose contact completely with the people i still want to be friends with but have drifted apart from and that terrifies me. if kosa passes and my mom is able to see what i post id have zero outlet, no way to have any privacy or space to myself. i would lose everything thats kept me alive, all the people whove saved me and cared for me, if kosa passes i feel like my fate as a corpse is sealed.
#im sorry if this seems rambley im genuinely very scared#if we havent talked in a while please talk to me. so that if it does pass ill be able to say we talked one last time#this all mixed with the death of nex in my state and my senator calling me and my people filth. im so sad and scared. i wish i could curl u#and sleep until everything is simple and nice again#if were pretty good friends im happy to give out my number. im just scared to lose those i love#kosa#kosa bill#stop kosa#important
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when the dnd session was so insane you’re like “damn I want to rewatch that bit” but you can’t because it was not an incredible fantasy film but just you playing make believe with your friends
#INSANE SCENES THIS EVENING#dialogue echoing in my head includes: ‘resurrection isn’t my strong suit’ // ‘then make it your strong suit’#‘oh darling! don’t scare me like that. come here. let’s go home.’ // ‘what the fuck have you done?’#‘(laughs) oh yes. I’m sure if all those people had just had a sword and a shield that things would have turned out differently. I’m being#lenient but my patience is running out. so spare me the insult of your sword. cunt.’#‘ten million is a big number. it should feel different to one body in a cage or one hanging from the rafters but somehow it… it feels the#same.’#genuinely stopped typing to do a despair event horizon stare into nothingness#our dm can cry on command lads and he was weaponising that today :’)#so many unbelievably fucked up things happened I cannot believe it and I am having a conspiracy theory board moment trying to make sense of#it#DnD#so many other moments I have written down but can’t remember verbatim but also WHY DIDN’T THEY ASK ME… IF I WANTED TO LEAVE#@CASUALAGRESOR IF YOU ARE READING THIS HOW DARE YOU I AM SO SAD
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girls being nice to me gets me higher than ecstasy ever could
#SORRY for the corny post but this is how i truly feel not waxing poetic here like literally it does#i just met the cool girl i keep talking about & IT WAS SÅ FREAKEING ÅSUM ^_^_^_^_^_^ YAY#HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY#OK sorry for screaming But i really am very excited...#turns out she is autistic & we discussed our neuroses while eating & ugh she is just as cool as i thought she was#always tell people you think have Swag that you noticed it on them see how it worked for me#i was so scared of spilling my spaghettis but turns out that was exactly what i needed to do to be friends ^_^ YAY#we went to a lot of different libraries together & i got a small old eyeless bunny plush from the event we went to caus i felt bad for it#i even showed her my pony art & i told her about my cringe interest (that music event i like...♯RealOnesKnow )#& she thought it was COOL.& i felt like it was really genuine & she talked about reading BL LOL we discussed fujos together#we even talked about finding moids ugly#it was so awesome she was so cool & Nice To Me... i feel like i am on CUMULONIMBUS ( cloud 9 ) ^_^_^_^_^_^#talking to her in person was so much better than online OMG now i wish i really was friends with you muties IRL#i wish you a Girl Friend experience just like this to those who post about wanting them i really do#also the reason why i even like my Music Event so much is because the first time i watched it was with a bunch of women#& i had so much fun & they were so nice to me i keep returning & now that Event means so much to me & I LOVE IT sorry (NOT)#i know this sounds like tumblrina fiction i would not believe it either IDK what to say to make it sound legitimate 0_0 like it is so crazy#to me as well IDK i can barely get over it & IDK if i really want to so um well YAY ^_^ AIMU SO HEPI :DDD
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lets think of everyone who had persona blogs and obliterated them off the face of the earth instead of just archiving and keep them in our thoughts tonight. everyone else who directly caused them into doing that go and fucking behave
#kommento#// talking about people I admire or just knew and realized the majority of the persona ones completely blew up what related them to prsona#// some started from scratch or picking up off of anything salvageable and are now living a better online life only to be haunted by#// those who knew them before and would rather not be reminded and just lightly brush away those asking because they genuinely don't know#// the games aren't all that bad and their flaws are of different circumstances that can only be explained differently from one another#// but that one scrap of the community can just tear away at your soul taking something you love and made with love to become fuel for fire#// it's clear when you've been scarred and everyone handles those scars differently. if they show them valiantly or still hide them#// in any other case. stepping out of your bubble you made around you reminds you just how horrid everything you blocked out really is#// it's worse when it seeps into the cracks you couldn't patch and it comes back to make you rot until you deal with it#// I know how others would just get up and abandon their blogs or accounts and let them be archived#// but with this community I fear they do their best to wipe that entire footprint off of the face of the web as much as they can#// and these people were the smartest and sweetest ever and handled the characters they love with care and consideration and love#// to be caught in the middle of a war they didn't want to fight for their characters or opinions that the best option was just leave#// my complete and utter fear to never get to viral heights and if I did I'd try to keep my anonymity as much as possible because#// the tales have been told scare me so much I don't want to experience it#// its been too long I really shouldn't be a hater about this at this point but something got me to pinch my nose bridge really hard#// well whatever. I'm glad I've made this space for me and for all of you. whatever you see this place as. a gas station or what#// everyone of you here warms my heart even if you come and go. I'm just glad I know I touched people's hearts and circulated#// my love for something so silly around other people
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people are so unbelievably cruel to people struggling with hoarding, and it's genuinely sickening to see
"oh you shouldn't help them with cleaning it'll just be back to the way it was in under a year!!" like, do you people hear yourselves?? what the fuck is wrong with you that you feel the need to talk about people who are struggling like that
even IF, the problem continues and the person ends up hoarding again, that doesn't mean that they don't deserve support and help and empathy???
#as someone who comes from a home with mild hoarding issues it genuinely makes me so mad to constantly see people say this shit about-#-people who struggle with hoarding#because most of the time it's due to mental illness or life circumstances#and even when it isn't it's still just fucking disgusting to be an asshole to people who are struggling like that#it comes to a point where you're just putting so much effort into being so needlessly mean that it's just incredibly disgusting to see#AND ALL THAT CRUELTY DOES IS JUST MAKE PEOPLE SCARED TO SEEK OUT HELP IT LITERALLY ONLY CAUSES HARM#AUGH this shit makes me so so SO mad#and it's so unavoidable because people can't just have basic compassion for those who are suffering no they just HAVE to make a mean commen#bee shouts
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It's always a "let me know if you need anything" until I try to tell them to not misuse the word delusional and then I feel like they're suddenly acting off to me specifically and fully expect them to avoid me and that in turn causes my symptoms of paranoia to act up which answers my previous "I'm pretty sure this word *probably* doesn't apply to me, I don't know. Does it affect me? I dunno, probably doesn't directly affect me right? But even if it doesn't, I need to try to correct them and pray they listen and take me seriously"
#bpd#stpd#bpd + stpd (suspecting)#actually borderline#actually schizotypal#vent/rant#- reblogs/etc okay#✃#i dunno. i guess it just hurts that the ones i thought would listen and care the most considering they also have suspected pds in the past#are kind of not really caring about this like i am. i try to communicate like people tell/ask me to but they just do Not like to listen#and even if the word itself doesn't apply to me#that doesn't mean it's not important?? especially if it's for the sake of those it DOES apply to??#i'm genuinely scared to feel like i'm an outcast in my only friend group and things like this make me question the safety of Everything#and again people wonder why i'm so closed off ghfhygdh i wonder why tooo !!
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Man I might jus be vanilla
#toxic yuri this#toxic yaoi that#mf that's not romance that's a domestic violence case#watching one person emotionally manipulate or straight up abuse another person is not hot or sexy it's disquieting and deeply uncomfortable#i understand if its used to explore abusive relationships and how to avoid or overcome them but like#abuse isnt sexy just because it's gay#manipulation and torture isn't sexy just because its gay#no offense to those of you who enjoy it but i#genuinely cannot#im down for obsession but not possession#I'm down for jealousy but not straight up ownership of a person#'oh this guy regularly beats up that guy and declares his genuine hatred and disgust for him#so tsundere we all know they're actually in love'#HE KILLED HIS MF PARENTS#THEY ARE NOT IN LOVE THEIR MORALS ARE THE ANTITHESIS OF EACH OTHER'S#tHEY COULD NEVER POSSIBLY GET ALONG#LET ALONE BE IN A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP#'oh that girl is emotionally manipulating and controlling another girl and the other gurl is to blind/sad/crazy to see it'#'clearly she abuses her and controls her emotions because they're in love'#THAT'S NOT SEXY#i.L UNDERSTAND WRITING A NARRATIVE TO EXPLORE TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS BUT WHEN YOU WANT RELATIONSHIPS TO BE TOXIC IT CONCERNS AND DISCOMFORTS ME#PEOPLE WHO ONLY SHIP FOR TOXICITY SCARE ME#sorry i had to get that off my chest ive been meeting alot of people that seem enamored by abusive relationships and i dont understand it#or care for it
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......can we as a Phandom agree that "AI art bad" ? idk this fandom is so full of incredible talent and creativity, and a lot of the fan work is based on other fan work, the fans are basically feeding themselves here and the Phandom has survived for this long thanks to all the love for genuine artistic expression.... seeing AI "art" in the DP tag kind of shocks me? it seems like such an antithesis for all the Phandom stands for
#yes it's a negative vague post but as an artist AI shit rly scares me#and what I love about the DP fandom is that there is such a variety of skill and talent here#yet all of it is loved and appreciated and has a chance to be seen and spread#people don't seem to pick out one or two pro-level artists who dictate everything#there is such genuine amazing variety here and it's really motivated me to create more#idk I guess I'm having one of those vulnerable moments bc I'm sad I can't draw fanart rn xD
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