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before the year ends, i had these engraved on my new pens :)

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that art vs artist trend

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wrote a silly little cringey love letter-ish poem for utdr that i always wanted to post on christmas to commemorate the first year of my second life.

thank you utdr for finding and saving me when i needed it the most.

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Ask boxes on all my blogs will be temporairly closed for the time being due to this DO NOT CLICK WITHOUT READING FULL POST Apparently, people are sending in literal gore, and considering I have image asks turned OFF but someone managed to slide me an infographic (much less offensive) with it off, I'm not taking chances.

I suggest you do the same, the date they are planning this for is December 25th - Or Xmas, if you celebrate.

This post is okay to reblog.

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*all my writing ideas the moment I sit down to write*

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and for utyversary i confess that i have only recently watched the pacifist ending and... i cannot handle that

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the fanfiction in my head is soooo good wish you guys could see this

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I was thinking really hard about the Kamiyama High Festival event. More specifically, about how some bits are meant to parallel Mizu5 and Ena5, and this one stuck out to me the most.

It’s interesting to note how Mizuki often comes across as reluctant about referring to the other Niigo members as her friends, and this is a constant throughout the whole event: while Rui appears as more willing to recognise WxS as his companions, Mizuki hesitates, because how can she label their relationship at all when she’s incapable of being honest with them? How can she call them her friends when there’s still this huge rift between them, when she’s being nothing but elusive and they’re being hurt by her in the process?

But then Ena shows up and puts an end to all her insecurities. Ena, who wears her heart on her sleeve and is not afraid of voicing her true feelings, tells her that nothing has ever changed between the two of them from her perspective, and Mizuki still is her most precious friend.

It doesn’t matter how much Mizuki will hurt and break down along the way, Ena will always be there to carefully pick up the pieces and fix the situation over and over again. She will forever be Mizuki’s pillar and strongest connection.

They make me a little sick.

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“I don’t care if Mizuki doesn’t feel like talking, I don’t want to see that expression again…

I mean, Mizuki’s my…”

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i love people drawing an with color

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maybe i am just a notorious pessimist when it comes to queer rep in media, but ena5 is pretty much exactly what i expected. this event is about ena’s perception of mizuki over everything. the whole point is that ena doesn’t care.

would i have liked for them to outright confirm mizuki as trans? absolutely i would, but i can also understand that they have been confirming it for the past four fucking years and you gotta be either illiterate or outright transphobic not to understand that. and as for the transphobic fans, giving them the time of day is not going to stop them. even if mizuki looked at the camera and said “i am a transgender woman”, we all know they wouldn’t have stopped. it would not have shut them up. the most we can do now is fucking ignore them and stop reposting rage bait that hurts us trans fans.

ena5 is good, at least for me. i’m happy with it. it’s not perfect, they were a little bit of a pussy about it, but it’s what i expected. i have enough faith in this game to know they’re not skirting around the truth or going back on anything.

tl;dr, ena5 is good, mizuki is trans, clpl are a little bit of a pussy, but it’s literally fine. goodnight

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if there was a murder in hometown napstablook would have to learn forensics by watching youtube tutorials

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what happened in ena5. i am deprived of the knowledge

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catharsis

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A little thing I may have noticed about Ena5/Mizu5!

The Mizu5 event name was "Where Does The Path Of Thorns Go?"

The natural purpose of thorns are to protect and deter people from getting to what's past them, whether that be a plant, a doorway (in a certain fairy tale, lol) and to just overall keep things away.

Mizuki has built up this wall/path of thorns around themselves/their secret to keep their friends, specifically Ena, from knowing the truth. The path of thorns is long, thick and difficult to get through because of how much they're determined to protect themselves.

Which brings us to Ena5's card name - "Even if I'm covered in scars."

Thorns, obviously, are very sharp - they're meant to deter predators, they have to be. You can't get past them to what's beyond without getting cut/scratched by them.

So, what does this mean, I hear you ask?

Well, I'm gonna reach a bit and interpret this as Ena fighting through all the thorns, the brambles, everything, to reach Mizuki. To withstand all the pain and scars and fear to get to Mizuki because of how much she cares about them, how much she's willing to let Mizuki just open up to her. And based on Mizuki's card name, it seems like Mizuki will finally tell Ena their secret, completely of their own free will.

(All I could think about while writing this was Sleeping Beauty lmao)

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Ena Shinonome save us. Save us Ena Shinonome.

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you ever write such a banger line of fanfic that you have to sit down and stare at the wall for awhile lest your own hubris get to you like a tragic greek hero