#those are milestones i guess
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so… i think of moving blogs (you dummy, you had this one for barely four months) because i feel bad about not being able to use this url to like posts, send asks, or follow people. but i won’t delete this one! no worries! ✨ i think i’ll treat it as an archive — to reblog only my future works without the casual yapping 🌸
#talking.#i still cannot decide when to do this dfhbghdjfgbd i am very torn on this even tho i’m not deleting anything haha#because i will probably have to change this url and link my whole masterlist once again and make new pinned#and probably have to prepare some fics to have a good start and make the official announcement at some point and rb it a few times#i know i’ve become much more chatty on this blog and some people don’t want to unfollow but are annoyed probably haha#so they can stay here and i will just reblog fics here and yap on my new blog i guess :3#i just feel a bit sad because i barely hit a milestone on this blog and feels rude (??) to restart#but i hope that those who like me/my writing will refollow <3 thank you mwah mwah i have to make preparations
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i read the hunger games books multiple times over as a kid, and i didnt like katniss' ending at first, bc my hyperlexic ass could read the words long before i could REALLY Comprehend the concepts, but as soon as i got a firm understanding of aromanticism and trauma and and etcetc... i like it a lot now
#^bro had the most subtleeeee learning delay !!!!#it kind of disturbs me because like. i just. didnt have a teacher that really helped me UNDERSTAND stuff like themes? i was shy#and i was REALLY good at guessing on questions like theme and mood based on what the teacher said#but i didnt. GET them i usually got half points or missed those questions or wasnt detailed enough#same thing with character motivation#unless i was intimately familiar with the story#and even then stuff like hs and su and mp100... it took multiple times over and also participation in fan discussion to Get what was happen#idk what happened or why it clicked#it was like. slowly thru junior year and into senior i had 2 great teachers in a row#the texts we read were interesting and were about things i could identify as giving a shit about from a fairly surface level#i dont know what made it click..#which is what makes me think its hyperlexia#it was really like an epiphany? or a set of epiphanies#but i could read a LOT of words really fucking fast#i was reading on my own when i was 4#which apparently isnt normal#and they said i read at a 7th grade level when i was in 3rd grade#and by the time i was in 7th grade i was reading at a college level#which! at my school was pretty much just based on knowing vocab!!!!#and damn did i know vocab. i just couldnt.. see.. the bigger picture....... Um. *gulps in missed autism diagnosis*#just connected that thats a manifestation of focusing on the details..#but yeah its weird#i was always pretty sure i didnt have any major developmental delays#just trouble communicating and socializing etcetc sensory issues whatever#im p sure i hit all my milestones on time or early as a bebe#except that... also i was (am...) a wanderer. i got the cops called on me by my family cause i wandered to a neighbors house (there were#kids a little older than me there and i had an older neighbor friend from another house so i thought it was chill. plus they had video game#and i lived w old people so i didnt get any games until i was 7 (dsi))#im pretty sure they wouldnt have called the cops if it was a white family -_- they would refer to them as Them Patels -_-#but regardless i was pulling the irish goodbye before i shouldve LOL
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It's not that I think sex, partying, and employment are requirements for maturity. Some people aren't into or can't do those things. But you gotta leave your bubble to gain life experience. You can't learn it second-hand. Mistakes need to be made; you need to have new experiences to grow. And if you can't leave your bubble right now, then at least keep it in mind when you're forming your opinions and passing judgment on others.
#believe me when i say i understand about being stuck in the bubble—i spent those formative ''college years'' as a true agoraphobe#and bc of that i've missed many of the traditional life milestones#but that doesn't mean that i could never leave the bubble#just that it didn't happen in the usual ways#idek where i'm going with this. i guess just that living life is a lot more important than learning about it from behind a screen#and it's better to keep an open mind than be stubborn#self.txt
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Developing a new intricate set of solstice rituals it goes like this
- jack off for like an hour
- pour one (splash of 40 Creek bc you have no wine) out for dionysus in the parking lot behind apartment
- big cup of tea while looking outside and going yep it's dark as fuck out there. but not for long
#is this anything#not really. i did pour one out for dionysus genuinely. mostly bc i want something to use my sick chalice for#and also bc i did want to do something to mark the solstice. happens to be the end of term for me as well and i always feel like i dont#acknowledge those kinds of milestones in time#um the jacking off for an hour is bc im ovulating dont worry abt it. just now in retrospect im like wow thats kind of dionysian......#qlso to be fair did a lot between pouring one out and the tea. pack and return to my parents house for instance#and watch alien with my little brother which i guess could be part of this ritual idk#my shit
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#today I am sad about something that I know objectively is dumb#my 30th birthday is next week and the party will be next Saturday and I’m having a dinner at a nice restaurant in town#I wasn’t supposed to make it to 30 and never thought I would but now somehow I have and so this birthday is like…#a really huge deal to me you know#and I always wanted to be able to have a big party to celebrate this specific occasion and in my head I pictured all my friends/family there#I figured this would be one of the biggest parties I’d ever get to throw because to me this is the biggest milestone I’ve gotten to so far#but out of all the people I’ve invited the most that will probably reasonably show is about 10#and even that’s a bit iffy because tbh I’m pretty sure my bestie will flake on me like he always does#and if he doesn’t show up that might just end the friendship but that’s another matter entirely#also iffy because I haven’t gotten a lot of responses still even though I made the event and sent invites two weeks ago#I just… thought I had more friends than that if that makes sense#like I had bigger parties with more people attending in high school and I barely had any friends then#I’ve thrown low key Halloween parties in my mom’s apartment that had more people show up#now I’m at the most important moment of my life (so far) and I’ll barely have anyone with me#lately it just feels like less and less people care about me for real despite how many I know around work or how many are on my Facebook#it feels like my world keeps shrinking and I really don’t want that because it’s been small enough as it is#I just feel like I’m never really going to find my place or have big groups of friends like everyone else#I’m never going to have a group of friends or people I can rely on to spend time with me when needed#as it is planning things gets harder the older we get anyway just due to needing to tend to adult life#guess I still just want what everyone else has and I don’t know why I can’t have those things#and I know it’s stupid and selfish and whiny but I really want to cry because I’m so depressed that I have barely anyone in my life at all#barely anyone to celebrate something so important to me and so few who even seem to care at all either#I’m grateful for everyone I do have honestly#but that doesn’t offset this weird pain in my chest over this whole situation#maybe I should just curl up and cry until this all passes and I can go back to pretending it doesn’t matter#personal
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kinda personal but i pretty much entirely stopped drawing for a few years because i was recovering from a really awful relationship and i couldn’t find joy in my art anymore. but after making kaja in april i started drawing again, and started actually finishing drawings, and over the past months i’ve drawn more and more and tried so many new things.
the fact that i’m feeling ambitious enough to start drawing backgrounds again…whew. i stopped trying new things with my art and stopped drawing for months at a time and now i have finally taken art back for myself and it feels like such a huge victory. i’m really happy. thank you all for your encouragement and your kindness in the tags on my work, it’s been so so wonderful to share art again <33
#my creativity was really tied up in that relationship#and i experienced a lot of emotional abuse during that time#so the fact that i am taking those parts of myself back finally is so so so important to me#I actually want to draw again and i want to keep drawing and even more importantly i’m having FUN with it again#to those of you who know the details you know just how big this is for me and i’m just. :’)))) i’m so proud of myself#this is just a really huge milestone for me and i guess i wanted to share#i owe kaja a lot. and the rest of my ocs but especially him.#and you guys!!!! you have all made it fun to share art again!!! you’ve all been so so kind#.txt#personal#tw abuse
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just enrolled in my job's 401k, opened a brokerage acct and will invest in an IRA soon after that account is all set 😌
#adultthings #adulting #adultlife #allgrownup #ifuckinghatecapitalismbutihavetodothisagainstmywill #midlifecrisis #girlboss #financeguru
#😁 ← smiling so hard my gums split and my teeth creak#okay so yeah this is a good 1st step towards a better financial future ofc#but doing all of this while the govt crumbles and all of our businesses go bankrupt is so....#like ugh#like YEAH i know i should be being financially responsible#and in a small way im proud of myself for taking the time to set all this up today#but URGH capitalism is failing. how tf is a roth ira gonna pull me out of the brink of disaster when im 65?#are 401ks even gonna be A Thing during the collapse of capitalism#sigh#idk#im doing this whole adulting stuff and like hooray! yay! good for me#but. idk.#it just all feels so empty and hollow to me tbh#like im miming adult milestones but not feeling anything bc i just feel like in the end this shit probs wont matter as much#older adults who'll reach their milestones sooner than me will probs get to those resources sooner anyways#like soc security#which btw might i remind yall is DWINDLING every 5 years or so#ugh#hashtag hooray for adulting tho! 🤪#if investing in index funds will help pull me out of this stinkin student loan debt tho.... well#i guess it wont be so useless after all#we shall see what happens ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#clown horn
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Just disappointing to follow your blog and see negativity on it. Makes me sad.
okay so is this about the p!atd anon or the flyleaf anon? bc i’m fairly certain those are like the only two negativity-esque things on my blog to date.
if not then i’m gonna need you to spell it out for me as if i actually were dumb~🎃
#oh okay so it WASNT a band then#i have a sinking suspicion that this is about the flyleaf/lacey sturm anon#but again. you’ll have to give me more.#one of those things where if you’re gonna complain then you have to be specific if you want there to be a chance of me understanding#frnkiebby#anon#hey look my first unhappy anon#milestone i guess?
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i was part of a discussion lately about success and how one should never falter from their road to success when faced with failure, they should always find a way to bounce back. And the whole time, I understood the sentiment they were going for. it’s meant to inspire and it did but there’s a part of me that doesn’t like it. sometimes failing is a sign to stop, that whatever you’re striving towards actually isn’t for you. sometimes it’s not. It would be about what perspective you take. But I don’t think I like this steadfast idea of “success” and “failure.” I don’t believe success looks the same for everyone and I think always, always, always striving for some goal, always pushing yourself, never stopping to smell the roses kinda life is missing the point of what it means to be human
#lately I’ve been thinking that all I want out of life is experiences#i think that’s what a fulfilling life means to me#but I guess when you’re striving for the usual societal milestones that’s what makes success feels so rigid#success is going to school -> getting a high paying job that lets you support a family -> getting a home -> grandchildren etc etc#but if I ever and I mean ever do those things I think i only consider them as a part of life rather than them being what makes my life#‘successful’
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re that post i think the reason why i have so many friends that are 20-40+ years older than me is because my life experiences don't align with those of my peers anyway. i have nothing in common with people my age that is to do with age, so, like, it doesn't matter. and i usually get along better with people that are older because they're less hung up on age and don't expect me to have certain experiences or be a certain way based on age
#my brother has been like. 'well. i dont think i could do that' re my old friends but hes also a normal guy with normal experiences hitting#like the milestones that are normal for our ages. so i guess age is more of a factor for him considering he actually acts his age#i really cannot identify with people my age i had to smile through his girlfriend going 'i love old people they're so cute' the other day.#those are real people with you know. with full complex personalities having lived whole lives. can we stop talking about them like theyre#pets or something. anyways i like her shes nice but i have more in common with cute old people than i do with her#i cannot relate to normal people my age i just really cant. i have absolutely nothing in common with them#<- not to sound like ouuh im so special or whatever. it's very distressing a lot of the time
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ayooo wordcount cheeeck 😜😝😝
#feed the roses#typing those emotes made me wanna hurl if im honest. but i'll do it for you (the bit)#anyways the old word count chainpost was getting insufferably long so i guess i'm making a new one#new milestone check
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Why is Tumblr doing this to me
#50 reblogs#tumblr milestone#thank you#those are the automatic taga byw#fifty whole reblogs#and theh like 2k more for fun but i only care about the 50 i guess
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It's my 15 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
#15 year tumblrversary#tumblr milestone#oh those are default tags okay#I gotta teach my tumblr to drive next year i guess#i didn't realize ive raised a teenager#tumblr#gpoy#linds posts
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huh the actor playing Louis, Jacob Anderson, is only five months older than me.
#ah yes I'll be 34 soon#I guess because I'm not married no kids don't own a house or plan on any of those adult milestones I don't feel like a real adult#if that makes sense? so when I see actors my age I'm like huh we're literally the same age how interesting!#he's a 1990 baby! me too!
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Tumblr just gave me a notification that this reached 5 reblogs.
they're like angels
#5 reblogs#tumblr milestone#thank you#it automatically puts those tags on I guess 🙏 what a milestone#the other blogs adding additions r both also me. hehe.
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ATEEZ selling less is okay because apparently sales in the industry REALLY peaked last year. I think the highest sale was 6-7 million albums for one group? That was bonkers. Also, I think some fans are boycotting for various political and environmental reasons. I'm not worried about ATEEZ, I'm just curious to see the industry shift this way and what it'll be like when BTS come back and other big groups start going into the military.
#ATEEZ#kpop#I was just thinking I hadn't seen a pre sale or sale number announcement in ages#those only come around for new highs or milestones#so I'm guessing the big groups aren't hitting those milestones
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