#this week has been so positive & fun i love it <333< /div> Explore tagged Tumblr posts

[mvalentine]

Hi Mal! I'd like to thank you for being such an amazing member of our fandom. Even though we haven't interacted much yet, I've seen you on my dash many times before and I've always admired how you go out of your way to support people and send so many brilliant asks to engage everyone. You seem like a genuinely kind and cool person. Thank you for everything you do to keep this place going! ❤️

P.S. Your lovely Lana is an absolute stunner. I have your latest fic saved in my drafts and I'm excited to read it and get to know her. 😊

dori!! first of all this edit is absolutely stunning i’ve always admired your gorgeous edits so im so thankful to have received such a stunning one!! look at my babies 🥺🥺🥺

& this is so nice of you to say thank you!! & i hope you know that the feeling is 100% mutual because even though we haven’t interacted much (excited to see that that’s changing!!) i’ve always seen you being so supportive of everyone in our fandom & it’s so lovely to see <33 it’s people like you who make the fandom such an amazing place despite the occasional bs. also i can’t wait to learn more about emma she’s absolutely gorgeous!!

and oh my god ngl that’s one of my fav fics i’ve written for them so far so i really hope you enjoy it <33! sending you lots of love my friend & i hope you have the best week ever 💘💘💘

[sawyer-is-eepy]

goodbye campfire fest!!

this has been so so much fun- i'm so happy i got to be able to be a part of this wonderful event with so many talented artists and writers- it's been so beautiful seeing everyone's interpretations and writing and i've loved seeing everyone come together to create something unique. being so excited to open tumblr everyday and see what people's contributions are has been the highlight of my days this week, and it's so cool to me that i can be a part of this for the first event, and even though it was a teensy bit stressful, i'm so glad i've been able to hit all the prompts.

i can't wait to see what people might post during late submissions!! gonna keep checking every day to see. I've found many new talented artists and writers I had never seen before through this event, you all are seriously so nice and have been so sweet to me and to each other, this event has made me so happy.

I can't wait to see more from all of you. happy fest and much love!

@outerwilds-events

some more doodles(base game and eote spoilers) + random sappy rambling (positive vent?) below cut

some other random doodles from this weekend <3

yes I gave prisoner ears. I'm sorry I'm too much of a furry for this fandom aha

on a serious note, this fandom and this game have been my favorite thing about this year so far. Seriously, I was actually having a really tough couple months around the start of this year. I was dealing with a really really toxic friend in November and December and I was struggling to get over them. I was having a hard time letting go of my hurt and of the memory of them and our friendship- I was hurt and angry and I missed how great it was in the beginning. It was really tough for me, I didn't have any way to distract myself and I didn't have a way to let out my feelings. I felt stuck and trapped with a horrible memory and I didn't have the motivation to let it go. Then comes along this silly little game, that I remembered trying to play forever ago. I decided that I should probably try to play it again, and god it was the best decision I've ever made. This game, it has brought me so so much joy. I finally felt like I was able to let go and learn to move on and just enjoy the good memories while still remembering that they're in the past and while I can't change what happened, I can look forward to the future and hope. this game helped me cope with the grief, it helped me learn how to take care of myself and recover. It affected me so much in many ways, I will never ever forget it. This community has also brought me so much happiness, I've met so many wonderful and kind people, and I've became friends with some really cool people(one person in particular has been especially swaggers, you know who you are you weirdo /affectionate /plat). campfire fest has been great and I'm glad I got to be a part of it!! When I was thinking of what to draw for today, all I could think of was the immense amount of support I've received and given, and seen being passed around. So I figured it should be something to express that love!! Much love, and goodbye to campfire fest!! Can't wait to do this again next year <333

[tsarinajissa]

Hiiii! I’m Zanna, I lost this account a few years ago and just recently got it back and am starting to use tumblr more. Most of the people I follow are inactive accounts from 10+ years ago but you’re still going strong and live-blogging and i just want to 1. say thanks bc your posts remind me of the tumblr i love and remember lol and 2. ask if we can be friends and talk about ice skating and stuff.

I started trying to follow real world skating after watching Yuri on Ice (of course lol) and I always watch it during the olympics but i’d like to watch all the other events too and have someone to discuss with <3

You're back! Welcome back!

I'd love to be tumblr skating and fandom buddies-- I'm probably going to be even more on my bullshit than usual because this year my wife (that happened while you were off I think. But the woman I used to call my bestie is now my wife ;) and I will be GOING TO WORLDS.

This is a perfect time to start blathering at each other about it, because the grand prix season just started! If you have peacock from the Olympics they stream all the grand prix as well (no challenger though. Boo), but you have to poke around in the live and upcoming sports area for it. Or, if you were to have non-US internet the isu has streams on youtube (the non-US internet part is required there, because geoblocking).

Every weekend for the next few weeks is one of the grand prix--next up: Skate Canada. I'm super excited for it because it's Jason Brown's first grand prix in a while (he went into semi-retirement after his amazing Sinnerman at the Olympics, where he did ice shows around the world and then only showed up for nats and worlds. As a country we decided he deserved that for doing Sinnerman. But he's planning on 2026 Olympics so he's gotten serious again this year and it looks super good. Much better form already in September than he had at Worlds 2024, when he usual peaks later in the season).

Also coming to Skate Canada are:

Cha Junhwan. You may remember him as Korea's Male singles skater in the Olympics/ the skater with the best ina bauer of all time. He had a tough time last season recovering from injury and switching coaches (to the same woman who coaches all the junior Korean women and seems to wish she were Eteri or Hamada. V worried there). I'm really hoping he has a better time this season and was given proper time/support to recover

Kaori Sakamoto! I saw her new programs at a challenger and think they could be a lot of fun, plus. She's Kaori <333. A double axel that covers one side of the rink, deep edges, gorgeous lines, and a commitment to choreo that can't be beat (literally since the Olympics at grand prix and higher. 3 time world champ!!)

Ekaterina Kurakova is so much fun and will definitely win for best costume change on ice! Also, she had trouble last season and I'm wishing her the best

Speaking of wishing the best: Alyssa Liu. Alyssa has been off since the Olympics to focus on her mental health and this is her second competition since March 2022. She looked wonderful at the challenger event she did earlier this season and I'm really hoping she continues to perform well and feels in a good place. She was forced by US Fed into the position of 'America's Leading Lady' far too young and I'm so glad she took time off for her mental health. I hope it'll be a blueprint for a more sustainable way forward.

Ilia Malinin. You've missed the rise of the Quad God if you haven't watched since the Olympics. He's not one of my faves, but I can't not mention the reigning world champ will be there. He's improved a TON in the past two years, finally gotten choreo he appreciates, and his jumps are still. Gorgeous. The quad axel takes my breath away every time. And, iirc, one of his current programs has him do a quad jump into a spread eagle. His transitions!!

Shun Sato, Sota Yamamoto, Kim Yelim and Gabrielle Frangipani are all others singles skaters I'm excited for. Frangipani is a relatively new Italian senior man who had some great speed and power when I saw him last year & Yamamoto + Sato can both be brilliant when they're on. Kim Yelim is just. I've loved her since the Olympics

Hopefully this wasn't too much blather. I'm just. In full figure skating mode and enjoy every chance I get to talk too much about it!

[oflightningandstars]

🤩/😔/😍/🎁!! (The one about a specific character is for Moocho, of course)

Love you lots, friend!!! I hope today is going well for you :)

Thank you for the ask!!!

🤩 - a WIP snippet about or with dialogue from Moocho! My beloved <333

A small woman, with Moocho’s dark hair and eyes stepped out. “Hi, Mom,” Moocho said quietly and suddenly they were hugging, his mom’s grip was fierce for all that she lacked her son’s stature. Moocho squeezed back, trying to pour every ounce of ache for missing her into it. And then, as quickly as the hug had begun, it stopped, Moocho’s mother stepping back with an easy grin. “It’s been too long,” she said, and Moocho hadn’t realized how much he missed her voice. “I know. I’m sorry."

AHHHHHHHHHHH. Moocho's mom my beloved <333333

😔 - published lines or a section of a fic that was super sad, angsty, or difficult to write?

This is from This head is a hospital, someone please tend to it.

Eventually, she heard the front door open. That would be Milligan. She was glad he was home, but she was also not sure she wanted to talk to him right now. No doubt one of the other adults was going to tell him what had happened at dinner any minute now, and he would want to see her. Kate really didn’t want him to worry about her, to know just how much she was hurting. She also felt a little ashamed, if she was being honest with herself. Kate wasn’t supposed to be the emotional one, Kate didn’t break down crying to the point of having to miss meals, that wasn’t her. With a sigh, Kate buried her face into her pillow and waited for the inevitable.

Waiting for the inevitable "being told on" (not really but that's how it feels) is. not fun dkjfjasdflk (guy who managed to get upset in class pretty much always the week of parent-teacher conferences and was always just. waiting afterwords to see if it had been mentioned). This entire fic was also very sad and angsty to write. It was surprisingly not too difficult to write I just needed to get it out of my brain <3

😍 - published lines or a section of a fic that you loved writing?

So I loved writing the entirety of Return Address. But in the interest of not just posting the entire fic again, I will say this bit:

But years passed, and Moocho darned tents and costumes, learned embroidery stitches, baked pies for the rest of the circus. He met a little girl, so full of life, and found himself looking after her, in quiet ways (she was too independent to accept anything else, and Moocho’s heart broke for her every time she insisted on doing something herself, all of seven years old). He comforted her after a fall left her arms and legs scraped up and bleeding, holding her hand while the circus medic patched her up and thought “maybe someday, maybe this,” and then shook the thought away as Kate jumped up and ran off, seemingly back to her regular cheerful mood.

Moocho <3333 "Maybe someday, maybe this" absolutely destroyed me when I wrote it. Also the part when Moocho's letter to his mom has a return address because they're safe now.

🎁- name a published gift fic someone has given you that you love and can't recommend enough (be sure to tag the author. Or if you don't have an AO3 or haven't been gifted a fic, what kind of fic would you like to be gifted?)

I haven't been gifted a fic, I think I would cry (/positive) if someone did dklfajdlksa. As for what kind of fic, I don't think I would have preferences really. Like, angst and fluff are both so good ahhhhhh. <33333

[rollercoasterwords]

hi rae how are uu!!!

i was reading about mulvey and the female gaze and i remembered you saying something about how it pushes bioessentialist agendas but i don't remember what u said exactly so do you mind sharing a piece of ur mind about this again

also!!!!! i've read captive prince with ur influence and then read ur laurent's pov rewrite and god!!!!! it was so so good it brought me to tears and made me laugh out loud and scream into my pillow at times... the first book didn't stick out to me that well but afterwards?? their dynamic is everything i was missing in life. also reading the first book in laurent's pov was an otherworldly experience, him getting surprised to see damien isn't the definition of all things evil like he thought ahhhh u captured him perfectly i think

also read all for the game series (saw a fanart of neil in ur blog and it kickstarted me getting into yet another fandom) and i was like wtf is this and then later i was like wtf is this but in a positive way. now the characters are all my babies (except kevin like yes i understand his struggles and all but i still see that guy as a little bitch which is a bit ironic when andreil are the biggest bitches to exist but still)

also binge-watched iwtv and goddddd gays with communication problems who happen to be vampires i love them all sm <333 do u have a fav character i wonder AND any thoughts on the last episode?

anyways i hope life is treating you kindly much kisses and good wishes <3

hi i'm good hope ur doing good as well!! such a fun message hang on let me take this piece by piece...

mulvey's male gaze the bane of my existence lmao...yeah the entire theory is rooted in bioessentialism. basically mulvey is basing her theory in freud who assumes that the categories 'father' 'mother' 'son' and 'daughter' are stable + static & therefore assumes that the categories 'male' and 'female' are stable + static biological categories which engender inherently different psychic/interior qualities. mulvey's entire argument hinges on the idea that men will be categorically unable to relate to/empathize with/see themselves as women onscreen--this argument begins to break down when you start asking questions like 'how is mulvey defining 'men' and 'women'? is she defining them, or is she assuming that they're static biological categories? are they static biological categories?' also i disagree with the idea that people are categorically unable to identify with characters across sex and/or gender & think it's kinda dumb tbh. to be fair, mulvey's theory was meant to apply to a pretty specific context and has largely been taken out of that context in ways that are very annoying but not necessarily her fault; still, when the original theory is so rooted in bioessentialism i don't really find any of it useful.

anyway. moving on to the fun stuff captive prince omg!! so glad u enjoyed the series & my own take on laurent...it was SO fun trying to get inside his head & imagine what would have been going on in there i love him so much <3 <3 tricky to write tho bc i was definitely trying 2 walk the line of like. not diminishing/excusing laurent's cruelty while simultaneously showing why he acts the way he does in the first book...abuse as cyclical etc...

and aftg lol such a trip...wtf is honestly an accurate response it's a wild ride but so much fun <3 & not liking kevin...valid honestly i like him but i also don't care abt him that much compared 2 the other characters...u should read 'the sunshine court' at some point it's abt jean & it will probably make u like kevin even less lmao

& finally. iwtv!!!!!!!! i've been obsessed w that show the past few weeks i just binge watched season 1 & have now been watching season 2...SO fucking good omg. personally my favorite character is. armand <3 idc what he does they could never make me hate him...last episode was soooo good claudia is my second-fave character just a smidge after armand i truly think her story is probably the most interesting + tragic out of all of them like. makes me feel a bit crazyinsane thinking abt it BUT her & madeleine. oh my goddddd that scene broke me. don't have many more coherent thoughts currently other than wailing + tearing my hair out etc but i am having a great time nonetheless...

anyway thank u 4 the message love catching up life has been busy but mostly treating me kindly hope it's doing the same for u!! <3

[morroodle]

Towards the end of day 4 of top surgery recovery and figured I'd share how it's going. Idk if this can help anyone else but its at least going to help me. Prepare for out of order chaos

The pain isn't too bad! Like yea it hurts but I got used to it and I can take pain meds to help

Getting out of bed is a pain in the ass though. Going from laying down to sitting up is HARD (it's definitely not because I have no abs)

Speaking of pain: the drains. They don't hurt by themselves but when I shift wrong and they tug? Not fun. Not sure how to explain it but pinching isn't inaccurate

Drain fluid. Does not smell good. It's not a very strong smell and you get used to it pretty fast but it's still not fun

I also. Do not smell good. God I can't wait to shower

My mom spilled the drain fluid on me. Twice. Ew.

It's fuckn ITCHY. Always just below where I can reach through the bandages. I am going to kill someone.

Other itches are annoying too. They may not be covered by bandages but with such limited mobility it's annoying. I got a back scratcher but those don't help much when you can barely move your arms

I've probably been moving more than I'm supposed to

Love it when I move wrong and suddenly there's pain and a very suspicious warm feeling and I can't check to see what's wrong because of the bandages

Bendy straw my beloved <333 the $20 ninjago cup I got from legoland is finally making itself worth it

The first day I was incredibly nauseous. I could barely sit up for a few minutes, much less stand. Made eating dinner... not easy.

Day 2 I was feeling great! Even touched some grass!

Day 3 morning: nearly threw up when changing my shirt. I didn't but oh god it was not fun. I've never been nauseous like that before, I was hot inside but my skin was cold and my mom said the color very literally drained from my face. Made me stuck in a chair for like 20 minutes until I could stomach going back to bed.

I'm fine now (probably)

I've been enjoying being taken care of. I'm lucky enough to have a very good support system and I appreciate it. I also appreciate always getting my pic of food >:D

God I want a hug. I'm gonna get so squished once I'm healed and I fully accept my fate

Mentioning again my hatred for the drains. I was very scared of them going into this, I didn't like the idea of having tubes both in and out of my body. I don't really care about that now, I don't see it and I've gotten used to it, but god they are so annoying

I'm not nearly as tired as I was expecting! Sure I'm a bit sleeper than normal but it's really not that bad.

I'm bored

I wanna draw ;-; I havent had motivation or ideas for weeks but the moment it becomes inconvenient? Release the floodgates!

I haven't actually noticed the lack of boobs much yet. Maybe it's because they're still bandaged and I can't see or maybe it's because I live in my mastectomy pillow but I haven't really had a rush of emotions yet

It's kinda weird. I was expecting to feel so much but everything so far just feels so... normal? It's not normal but I've gotten used to it. Its like I'm waiting for my emotions to catch up

That being said there is one thing I've noticed and definitely felt things about. I had a pretty big chest and there used to be quite a dip between them and now there's just... nothing. It's flat. I'm sure this is just a fraction of what I'll feel when I get the bandages off for the first time but this tiny bit that I can see and feel right now is... wow. It's weird. God I can't wait for the rest of it

That's all I can think of for now, I'll keep yall updated on how things go from here and hopefully this can help someone! I know most of this has been complaining but I am not trying to discourage anyone from this, I've just only experienced the bad parts so far. I'm sure I'll make a similar post listing all the positives once I get there but for now things aren't very fun

[otrtbs]

Hi nat!!! <333

I saw your post about special anons to you and I was the soil science anon!!! I’ve been in college for 3 weeks now and I love it so far!!!!! The first week I actually added an advanced soil class that I technically shouldn’t be taking because I don’t have the pre-requisite since I’m a freshman, but the professor is letting me take it anyway and it’s actually so much fun learning how to classify and judge soil!! I’m actually pretty nerdy about soil and on my art blog @fishsticksart (lol gotta plug it) I made a Webweaving about soil and I somehow found a marauders wolfstar mini fic quote that related to soil and it was a perfect combination of niche interests 💀

Hope all is going well for you!! Sending positive vibes your way AND ALSO IM SO EXCITED FOR THE DINNER FIC YIPPEEEE <3333

HELLO!! HELLO!! HELLO!!! SO SORRY THIS GOT BURIED IN MY ASKS !!!!!!! <33

im so glad you love college yayayay!!! that makes me so happy to hear!!!!!! yayay for advanced soil sample class too!!! oh my gosh this ask has just made me so so happy :,))))

it's also so swaggy when your different interests come together and align !!! THANK YOU FOR THE POSITIVE VIBES MY FRIEND!!!! SENDING YOU ALL THE BEST ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!!

[feuqueerfire]

Cherry Magic TH Live Blogging

Couldn't decide whether to watch Blank Season 2, The Boyfriend reality show, or jump into the first 2 eps of 4 Minutes even though I can't watch it as it airs next week. Wasn't really feeling any of them fully though, so there I am with Cherry Magic TH which I've been meaning to watch for a while. One of the only recent GMMTV series that I've heard pretty much only positive things about because Last Twilight, the other GMMTV BL I've been meaning to watch, had a divisive last few episodes.

About TayNew, I thought their Kiss series side ship was alright but didn't really like Dark Blue Kiss, was annoyed by all the characters. However, I like Tay as a person and have liked him as different characters since then + I was quite impressed by New in The Warp Effect. So I have high-ish hopes, especially because of the general positive buzz toward them for this show even from non-TayNew fans.

Also, it's a long weekend so I can just watch it grey on my laptop for these 3 days and my beloved uorigin.

Ep 1 (Aug 3)

ah, office settings, how I hate them. tend to avoid watching office BLs, esp boss/employee romances because there's nothing romantic about that setting to me but I wanna watch this one.

It really is a little strange to watch this remake because I'm like anticipating things that will happen before they happen. it kinda feels like when you know spoilers but I know more than a random scene that will happen sometime in the show, it's like I'm waiting for the events/sequences like getting his power -> the elevator scene etc. but good thing kinda is that I don't actually remember the Cherry Magic JP much, so it won't be like this for long.

Achi smiling to himself as he tries to find who Karan is complimenting lmfao only to be confronted by the realization that it's him

not Achi finding the Cherry Magic manga during his search. so that also canonically exists?

aww a cute surprise party for Achi from the 2 women whose character names I don't know yet. but hello Jan <333

ahhh Karan looked through reviews for a month to find this cake for Achi omg

the friend's name is Jinta? I just think of 1) Triage mystical Jinta and 2) DFF Jinta myths

loll so fun how everybody also slinks away as soon as the boss leaves. anyway i think i'd pass away if i had to work like that

girl what the hell the samples arrive at 10:30pm and they have to confirm the order in half an hour? After just one person has seen them? omg

Karan and Achi are sooo cute to me already

not Karan's condo romance fantasy lmfaooo

I kinda remember this sleeping in Kurosawa's condo thing but I thought it happened a little later tbh

Good start, very cute.

Ep 2 (Aug 3)

hehehe bonding over manga despite Karan trying to keep up the cool appearence

pajamas Karan specifically bought for Achi?!?! he's crazy lmfaooo

I'm cryinggg Karan is actually so obsessed, the doodle is of Achi's ear and mole?!

Achi's heart beating faster at the good night + smiling when he realizes Karan practiced making the egg for him

ah, Rock got broken up with but also gave Achi more fuel for his am-i-taking-advantage-of-karan's-crush crisis

why did the boss not have any thoughts played

trying to remember if the side couple had an antagonistic beginning like they're doing here.

not Jinta also hearing the cat's thoughts!!! lmfao

ahh the office party and forehead kiss already? Why do I feel like things are happening faster than the Japanese version or do I just not remember. In my head the scene where Adachi has to placate the boss who needs that dessert happened before this scene but maybe not

ahh my poor Karan feeling bad about liking Achi and making him uncomfortable

ahh i love the rooftop convo (and thoughts)

Ep 3 (Aug 3)

almost kiss

Achi ended up accidentally giving Karan more hope than he's ever had

I can't remember anything about a resort or beach trip in Cherry Magic at all so I can't figure out if they invented it for this version or not

Karan buying the drink to give to Achi + making the executive decision to switch seats with Rock + wishing for every misfortune that would delay the bus so that he could sit beside Achi longer lmfaoo

god, Karan being too good at stuff that he wants just as hobbies. wish I had that problem so bad

We didn't get to see Rock and Mr.Tanaka but it's funny that Rock keeps getting stuck with him

We don't get to hear Karan's presentation about Achi?

we're supposed to believe New isn't built?

why do i have to see women being harassed? and was this in the OG Cherry Magic? can't remember

Karan saviour

yayyy Karan bad at singing

oh, Papang appearance. Did I know he was in this? I don't think he'll appear again

yaas let's go Pai. and hope the guy's fiancee breaks up with him too

oh, we do see the presentation final

cryinggggg at Karan's internal screaming at Achi leaning his head on his shoulder that startles Achi awake

Ep 4 (Aug 3/4)

Jinta's heart beating faster because Min thought he smelled nice nad like his grandpa lmfao

okayyyy the client incident is here, idk why it left such an impression on me, I'm looking forward to this rendition of the scene too

Pai likes Achi too?

Achi feels nothing towards Pai but his heart beats for Karan

I think there was a storyline about Kurosawa's sister coming into the picture and being mistaken as his fg right? and lived in his house for a bit? Did Kurosawa sleep over at Adachi's house during that? I'm vaguely rmring some things

I feel like there was a scene of Kurosawa getting jealous/misunderstanding Adachi and his friend's relationship, was that supposed to be here and they didn't do it or a later time?

I thought the heartbeat pen was gonna give Karan's increasing heartbeat away when Achi does something cute

time for sleep, i'll watch the last 15 mins tmrw

oh lol we kinda get Achi's racing heartbeat w the pen

not Pai being a fujo which is fine and expected but the screaming and running out at Karan and Achi being cute is so wtf lol

not Achi passing out when he thinks the sister is Karan's gf

Ep 5 (Aug 4)

ahhh Karan thinking about wanting a keepsake for their first boat ride and Achi doing an origami for him

cryinggggg, not Jinta's sasaeng Hira tease

Karan being jealous of Rock is so cute omg and is also a type of angst that i like a lot where it's not like overdramatic considering what it is but is still a little sad and achy

now Karan's gonna get jealous of Jinta? plss

were Rock and Min in that band from before? I can't remember if this was also in the Cherry Magic JP live action but it probably was, right?

Rock and Min are cute but too long, let's go back to Karan angst c'mon!

omg Karan confessing !! but I wish there weren't random people in the both who can see/hear them

This was such a sad Karan episode! I thought it'd just be a little cute jealousy towards Rock but I love that it's a more melancholic, deeper thing.

Ep 6 (Aug 4)

ahh confession

man it always hits whenever somebody apologizes for being queer to their parents or for having queer feelings toward somebody... it speaks to me

i feel like this scene + Karan walking away needs like a kdrama OST right now

wait Ms. Kem is Gun/Li Ming's very attractive mother, hellooooo

not them letting Karan be sexual harrassed! and being basically given as a sexual favour!! >:(((

my poor fucking Karan T.T

it makes sense that Karan started liking Achi after this

Karan seeing Achi take care of the office and doing small things to take care of Achi is soooo cute omg

and Achi even figuring it out!

cryinggg Pai takes her fujo duties so serious, letting the motorbike driver keep her id and stuff hostage so that she can drive Achi to the airport

enough Rock and Pai, take me to Karan and Achi, the episode is almost over!

I'm gonna pretend they didn't say there were 40 minutes left before the airplane lands and i also don't get why he has to catch Karan at the airport like just go to Karan's place? talk to him tmrw? smth??

aw, confession from Achi too

Ep 7 (Aug 4/5)

5 am?! for a full day date?! girl

Karan buying an expensive shirt for Achi for their first date, that'd stress me out so much if I was Achi

Achi's gonna be nervous about sex all day bruh

interesting contrast between Karan-Achi's highly planned but kinda meh date vs Jinta-Min's impromptu cute date

did OG cherry magic also have a dating prohibition among coworkers?

this ep kinda reminded me of PeteKao's Our Skyy episode lol. in general a kinda meh episode for me even though i get why it's needed and what it's conveying. I ended up doing 1.25x about 20 minutes in and might continue with that tbh

Ep 8 (Aug 5)

naurrrr not Ms. Kem >:(((((((

she wants Karan to kneel and apologize?!?! i'm so mad and even more so bc i would love love loveeeee to see Tay Tawan play a role where he kneels in front of women but not like thisssss D:

I kept waiting for the boss to speak up but why did he not do it until Karan was already kneeling and had his hands together and was already basically apologizing >:(

I have vague memories of the mind reading thing happening in either Adachi or Kurosawa's home in the JP version, so I can't tell if they'll fr reveal now or if it'll be like haha joking

They should not have had Karan go through with all this with Kem, I'm so aghhh >:(

Ep 9 (Aug 5)

lol yeah Kurosawa also took the mind-reading thing extremely well

ohhoooo they're so cute after moving in together and Karan constantly touching Achi and being like test, test hehehe

Jinta-Min is so cute and funny lol suchhh an improvement from the jp ver.

"The scariest thing is to limit myself because I'm scared beforehand." I need to believe this fr...

kiss! and it's pretty good to watch too, not too awkward/stilted (though i was like ok n stopped paying attention halfway through)

Ep 10 (Aug 5/6)

I wishhhhhh that this was still on Youtube so that I could easily down it for my commutes.

practice time apart... for both the couples

ooh, I do enjoy a celeb-ish/non-celeb couple where the fame and celeb culture affect the relationship, like Jinta being jealous that Min's being shipped with another member of his group

aw, Min's group didn't win

Achi doing something nice for Karan

Ep 11 (Aug 6/7)

idk if Achi not telling his new coworkers about dating Karan will come bite him later but I fully get why he doesn't say

Karan goes to sleep at 8pm???

Min reading hate comments, I can't believeeee this show is randomly giving me idol or celeb dreams and the things that come with that!

aw the coworkers are fine with Achi having a bf

i have neutral feelings about Pai and Achi together, though a bit sad about losing our aro queen from the jpn version but this is annoying

i’m on the subway, so i’m not watching 12 mins onward - to watch at home

okay update from home later: *thumbs up*

Ep 12 (Aug 7)

goodbye Achi’s magical powers

i’m skipping through Rock and Pai scene

i wasn’t expecting Too Much of a hassle with the parents but doing the fake-out “they come out and the coworkers/parents seem upset at first but aren’t actually and it’s just a funny thing” twice back to back (11-4 and 12-1) is like give it a rest. i wish the parents had at least some sort of reservations regarding the queerness or were affirming in their support, not this jokey thing like we Just got that last ep!

Min telling fans that Jinta is his bf the day he gets confirmed to debut like let’s chill and think and plan first

lol author fansign basically

okkkk angsty meeting the parents with Karan, i was wanting a bit of this

okay nvm ig bc they’re like ok as your parents we support you but like… why was the mom saying on the phone that they’re busy then? and they acted quite cold with karan and achi too

okkkk yes the parents don’t want Karan to tell others that Achi is his boyfriend

let’s go Karin

goddd, Karan wanting to put his hand on Achi’s but turning around to see his mom looking at them and so keeping his hands to himself and they’re shakinggg

Karan tearing up in happiness/relief at hearing Achi and his parents talk wuahhh

“I didn’t disappoint you, did I?” one of my fave lines in general when it comes to coming out and parents ahh

aw marriage proposal even though it’s too quick for meee but theyre in true love and will be together forever so it’s okay

i loveeee a gay double proposal

the cherry theme for Jinta’s novel, Min’s band name, Achi and Karan’s wedding is killing me like lol

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

i’m quite meh about weddings in shows in general but this was is cute enough

so cute Min thinking like D: is he that serious about me? and Jinta jolting from his sleepy state to be like i only haven’t proposed bc of your idol dream, pls come and propose to me whenever you’re ready

on the other hand, don’t give me lovey dovey Rock and Pai

ah, mentioning the mind reading powers again, I did feel like it had disappeared without enough acknowledgement

Was I more picky and annoyed watching the first half of ep 12 because it’s like 8am and I’m on the train to go to work?

Overall:

I had watched the Japanese Cherry Magic live-action, which everybody seemed to love but was pretty meh and forgettable to me, but I’m glad that I ended up liking this adaptation better. I was quite unsure about the whole thing when it was announced like 1.5 (almost 2?) years ago, so I’m eating my words.

TayNew’s BL work after multiple years apart and they were both better than their Dark Blue Kiss days I think, helped by the fact that they’ve individually done a bunch of acting work since then. Karan and Achi were cute and endearing (and felt more human/real to me than Kurosawa and Adachi I think? but i can’t remember much from CM JP to say it with certainty). The ship is kind of “boring” in that there isn’t much angst between the characters, not as much tension, they don’t end up breaking up 3/4 through, etc. and I find that it can be hard to care about those sorts of couples for 12 whole episodes but Karan and Achi were cute enough and had enough outside struggles to pull it off.

i’m so charmed by Jinta and Min actually, a vast improvement from the japanese version’s equivalent. How cute and endearing and I liked getting my little taste of celeb/non-celeb dating and typical idol show problems bc I enjoy these tropes, even though they weren’t fleshed out at all in this instance (I will love Thame-Po forever if they actually give me a good, proper show but idk if they will lol esp considering what I’ve heard about Only Boo!). I watched Mark and Junior first in their Midnight Museum storyline and it was good enough, a bit heartbreaking the way the stories in that show were but not mind blowing and I don’t think I’ll be watching Perfect 10 Liners, but I’d still be curious to see them in something different later on.

On the other hand, I didn’t care about Pai and Rock whatsoever. I knew they were gonna end up together based on people’s comments + the SingJan ship but it’s a shame that they didn’t keep aroace Pai though i know she’s not aroace in the OG manga). Even without that, I just didn’t care about it, I just wanted Rock to give up and leave Pai alone. Pai is great and I liked her putting her ex his place and choosing happiness etc but not the part where she screams whenever her real life coworkers Karan and Achi do anything cute like okay you ship them but keep it in your head pls.

I enjoyed the adaptation and how it had the Japanese touches (the company try work for specifically) while also introducing Thai elements (religion, festivals, dialects). Great improvement on the kissing department and I’m glad they also squeezed the wedding in there.

Another of those I enjoyed it and it was well-made but I doubt I’ll be thinking much about this and it didn’t give me any soft of brain worms.

Rating: 6.5/10

[rejectdolls]

And we've reached another Friday of October! Can you believe it? Time sure seems to fly as the year winds down. But as the year dwindles, stress seems to multiply- Anxiety and the sads pop up out of nowhere. But something that can help, even a little, is romanticizing your life. It sounds silly, but bear with me; Take that extra time to make a yummy coffee or drink in the morning, sit outside and watch the wind rustle the trees, writing poems, listen to old music, write in a coffee shop, put fun lighting in your room. Do what you can to make existence a little more bearable. There are so many people in this world who are so happy to exist at the same time that you do. I'm certainly one of them. You deserve all the happiness in this world that you give to others, so treat yourself kindly and gently. Have a lovely week, you deserve it. - ♡♡ Victoria

"They say the best blaze burns brightest when circumstances are at their worst." - Sophie Hatter, Howl's Moving Castle

hiiii, happy friday ! it really has been going by fast, TOO fast. i wanna enjoy spooky season forever ! yes, i've been enjoying my life a lot more lately. i have halloween lights in my room and i've been watching sunsets and listening to fleetwood mac. it's a happy time lately <3 thank you for being such a sweet sunshine ! sending the love and positivity right back <333

[nar-nia]

hi!

wow.

omg, its been so long since i spoke to you but a lot of happened in my life kinda (as well as yours from what i saw)

first of all, CONGRATULATIONS on finishing uni!!!!!!! im proud and happy for u!!! u worked hard and it paid off!! and wow, bakery?? that sounds so amazing!!!! like straight up bakery/coffee shops au!!! must be super fun and probably always smells rly good there!! i hope ure having tons of fun!!! and that ure eating lots of cake duh

for me, idk if u remember but i passed that oral exam!!! i did it in the beginning of september!! and i felt relieved and euphoric about it! and now the new semester (so my second year ) starts soon and…… i feel so anxious about going back, talking to people, all the stress and constant anxiety, and the fact that im still questioning whether this was the right thing to study and the lingering feeling that all my friends have it figured  out already with the life and im kinda stuck. like when its right u know? but idk ??

but on a more positive note? my summer was rly great overall so i hope urs was too!!!! im no longer a teenager tho 20 hits hard - especially after olivia rodrigos new album lmaoo

hee has purple hair now and he looks soooooo good!! ALSO  i read jakes and jays fics u posted and they were so nice, omg like???  :((( like made me realize how much i missed ur blog and u!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you, wishing u all the best always!!!!!!!!!!

                            -beloved anon wow it feels good to write it again!! <333

OMG HELLOOOO 🥺🥺🥺 it's been so long, i missed you so much. how are youu <333

please i'm so happy about finally finishing uni, it felt so long and annoying in the end. but now i already kinda miss it 😭

working in the bakery is.. interesting. it's definitely what i want to do in life, the other day i spent the whole workday just making cakes without anyone bothering me and i loved it so so much, but it's also hard and really stressful (which is why i am replying so late and i'm really sorry, first i got sick and then i got hit with a workload again 🥲). i have to do work that's supposed to be for like 4 other people and it's something 😶 let's manifest that they will find more workers soon because this is way too stressful for me (and my coworkers, i haven't seen them smiling in the past two weeks anymore, it's a bit scary). but enough complaining 🫡 the work itself is fun and the food is so good 🫠🫠 apart from onion cake/pie, i have to do it all myself and i swear i haven't stopped smelling like onions those past few weeks 💀

okay but now to you! CONGRATULATIONS ON PASSING YOUR EXAM 🥳🥳🥳 you did so well and i hope you're really proud of yourself 🥺🩷 and best of luck for your second year, i'm sure you will do as amazing as before 🩷

i'm sorry that you feel so nervous about it though. i have to be back in school to become a baker too now and i was so nervous on my first day, i got sick like right after 💀 and my class really is something (not necessarily positive but there are really nice people too). buuut i hope that your classmates are the nicest people you have ever met and that you will have lots of fun this year, you deserve it. and of course lots of amazing grades in your exams 🩷 i think if this bakery thing has thought me one thing is that it's okay to not know what you want yet. i think i have found my place now (although not necessarily in this bakery) but it took me a while to figure it out too. and in our bakery we have two people who tried lots of different stuff too before they settled on training there. so please try not to worry too much for now, i'm sure it will all work out well for you 🥺🩷

but i'm so glad your summer was nice <33 mine was full of job applications and moving but i still enjoyed it a lot (oh i miss the time where i could stay up all night and sleep in and not start work at 4am 💀) and happy belated birthday, omg <33 welcome to your twenties, it's a wild ride 😍

i missed you so so much too, i'm glad you liked my stories but even happier you had time to check in 🩷 but yes, hee 🫠🫠 wow. i love him (although he's not the only one anymore, can you believe?? jay has been bias wrecking me so hard i am so close to making him my second bias. that guy has me BLUSHING)

i hope you are doing well despite it all and will continue to do well 🩷 you deserve the best and you should get it. i love youuu 🩷🩷🩷

[ffriluftslivv]

hello lovelyy 💘💘

happy new year!!!✨️ How's it going? Have these first days of January been treating you good? I hope so!

I'm okay, nothing too out of the ordinary BUT I still have in mind that boy I definitely told you about (and omg it's almost been two years since I first wrote to you😭) not because I've been seeing him or something it's only because this cruel universe has been sending me these "signs", like we had a number that it was our inside joke and yk it's a number so it's normal to see around, but in these last weeks it was everywhere and I know I'm probably just being delusional but it's fun to expect something to happen like the naive hopeless romantic that I am🤡

and that's my little vent, feel absolutely free to write me a book of what's on your mind and I will read it gladly

love you so so much Lu <333

-toothless💃

hiii darling❣️❣️❣️

happy new year to you too!! i was waiting for u😽

it's going surprisingly great actually! like if we ignore some of the negative stuff that always has to be there it's all going pretty fine🥰

two years!! how time flies💓 uh oh that's interesting.. the universe is sending you some signs eheheh. don't ignore them👀

I'm starting school tomorrow and I really don't want to like at all 😭😭😭😭 but I'll try to think positive because i don't want to be already stressed since it's just January. I don't know if you saw some of my posts but I might have a boy who's reeeally interested in me and guess what... im really into him too EHEHEHEHEH. it still feels so surreal because he's literally so sweet but yeah I'm starting 2023 with something good💌

hope you're doing well my dear, love you ❣️🤲🏻

[noki-is-soup]

hii!! i saw that your requests were open and was wondering if you could do nsfw alphabet with george <333 all good if you don’t feel like it or don’t have time! hope you have a wonderful day/night [:

GeorgeNotFound NSFW ABC’s

Warning(s): Smut

Pairing(s): cc!George x afab/amab!reader

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Aftercare-

After you two are done, he would be very respectful, but definitely more shy, so you would probably have to wait a few minutes before doing anything. But once he calmed down, he would definitely be quick to take care of you.

Body Part- (Favorite body part of his and yours)

HIS JAWLINE. He would be so proud of that, bro. Making sure that you saw how well it moved and pleasured you as he ate you out/blew you. Favorite body part of yours would definitely be your tits (afab) or ass (afab or amab). His eyes light up any time you wear anything slightly revealing.

Cum- (Anything to do with cum)

He would probably get so turned on with watching you eat his and your cum, bringing his fingers to your mouth and sucking on them.

Dirty Secret-

Loves watching you sleep, could get off to it if he really wanted to. Has before, too. He loves the way your face looked so calm and parts of your skin were exposed from tossing and turning.

Favorite Position-

Loves pushing you face first into a wall and fucking you standing up, but after a while that get’s too difficult and results in you getting thrown onto the bed in a spooning position. He simply loves being able to kiss you, even though he doesn’t really get you see your tits (afab), but he does get to see your ass.

Goofy- (Can this be fun, or is it really serious)

There has probably never been a time where you haven’t laughed when having sex with him. Neither of you can hold a straight face when looking at each other.

Hair- (How well-groomed are they, do the curtains match the drapes, etc)

He seems like the type to not really shave unless he feels like it, so honestly, it’s a small chance it is shaven. The hair is slightly lighter than the hair is on his head.

Intimacy- (How are they during the moment, romance wise)

In the beginning, he is very touchy. But when he gets closer, he gets in his head and is less romantic, usually more floaty when he is close.

Jack Off- (Masturbation headcannon)

Jerking off definitely didn’t happen as regularly as it could, probably around 1-2 times a week, but really on weeks that you can’t have sex.

Kink-

SOM-NO-PHILL-IA. He thinks having sex with you while your sleeping is the hottest thing in the world. He honestly loves the fact that you are so oblivious to what’s going on, yet are so aware at the same time.

Location- (Where is his favorite place to do the do)

Shower, for sure. He would make sure you two have the best shower money could buy for that soul reason. A close second would be the bedroom, because you can’t go wrong there.

Motivation- (What turns him on)

Any revealing clothing. Things that show off your ass or tits. Either that or pet names. Not necessarily the basic ones (babe, baby, hunny, sweetie, etc) but ones that are less normal (puppy, slut, etc).

NO- (Turn-offs)

Hard Degrading. You can call him a slut or a whore, but anything past that, he will comepletely stop what he is doing. Another is overstimulation. He hates the sensitive feeling when he is fully overstimulated.

Oral- (Does he like giving or receiving)

No matter how much he loves his jawline, he likes getting head more. He’s fine with giving it to you if you want it, but if given the complete choice, he would rather receive it.

Pace- (Rough and fast or soft and slow)

Usually very soft, but able to get you off insanely quickly.

Quickie-

Doesn’t hate them, yet would rather have the full thing. He thinks they are good for before streams or when y’all first wake up. Enjoys them while they last though.

Risk- (Is he game to test new things)

he lives by the motto: If it ain’t broke,don’t fix it. That doesn’t mean he isn’t down to try new things though. He is perfectly fine with what y’all are doing, but it you both agree, he would be down to try something.

Stamina-

He couldn’t go for that many rounds, but he could go for 3-4 rounds if you wanted/needed to, as long as you gave him enough time to calm down.

Toys- (Do they own/use toys)

One or two, but that’s mostly for you to use on him/him to use on you. He wouldn’t necessarily use them on himself because you usually satisfy him perfectly.

Unfair- (How much do they tease)

So. Fucking. Much. He is the king of teasing. He would edge you for hours, smiling widely as he does so. If not that, he would just cockwarm you until you were begging for more.

Volume- (How loud are they/What sounds they make)

He’s not super loud. The only sounds that are heard are small groans, except when he is close. Whimpers are heard when he finishes, sucking in air quickly.

Wild Card- (Random headcannon)

He LOVES cockwarming. He especially loves it when he’s on call with some of his friends. He loves knowing that you could be any of theirs, yet you are his and he will make that known. Hickeys never leave your neck, chest, etc.

X-Ray- (Let’s see what’s going on down there)

He is an average length, a little longer than normal. But he is a bit less girthier than average. Small veins litter the base, leaving a good texture when he’s in your mouth.

Yearning- (How high is his sex drive)

Not as high as it could be, but he could definitely go down on you anytime you wanted. He would be fine with just being close to you.

Zzz- (How fast does he fall asleep afterwards)

Extremely quickly, but it would mostly be him drifting in and out of sleep. Usually fifteen minutes go by before he’s fine enough to help you.

[softiem]

you used to paint his skies (pt. 2)

pairing: Bokuto Koutarou x GN!Reader

overview: The one in which Bokuto is still swearing up and down that he loves you, but the nagging feeling in your chest is too strong to ignore.

word count: ~4.3k

content warnings: mentions of cheating, swearing, MSBY!Bokuto, mildly suggestive scene at the end (no nsfw), our baby Bokuto kind of loses it at the end, don’t let the fluffy interludes deceive you again

notes: I’M SO SORRY FOR LITERALLY BEING DEAD FOR 6 MONTHS,,, Here’s the second part to “you used to paint his skies” :D (I think this is better than part one — at least I hope so). Some people asked to be tagged for this second part, so those will be below. Thank you for reading, darlings ʕ ´•̥̥̥ ���•̥̥̥`ʔ <333

part one.

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“Baby?”

Faint sniffles came from Bokuto, whose head was currently nestled on your lap, the two of you strewn across the sofa. His arms were wrapped tight around your waist, as if he were afraid that holding you any looser would cause you to disappear from his arms. His voice was quiet, meek — nothing like the loud, boisterous ball of energy you’d grown to adore, to cherish.

To fall in love with.

Now, here the both of you were, a pile of cracked and fragmented pieces of the love you once shared, desperately grasping at whatever you could salvage from the mess.

You hummed a response.

“Are we gonna be okay?” Bokuto turned his head, his eyes staring up at you — wide, teary, and filled with a broken sense of hope.

In an attempt to avoid breaking down a third time, you cleared your throat. You still couldn’t look down at him, into his eyes that seemed to praise your very existence, even after the pain you caused.

“Please.” His voice cracked.

“Let’s not talk about that right now, Kou-Bokuto.”

He bit his lip roughly, enough to bite into the skin and draw a slight trace of blood. Choking on a weak sob, he nestled his head into your stomach once more. He couldn’t stop you from calling him that name anymore; he’d lost that privilege.

What could he have been asking for? For you to simply just call him your Koutarou again? For you not to leave him and stay in his arms? For you to kiss him and wipe those tears running from his pretty eyes as you tell him you’ll love him forever, no matter what?

Quite honestly, Bokuto didn’t know what he was asking of you; he didn’t know what he wanted from you.

The only thing running through his mind was the fact that he’d just ruined the best thing to ever happen to him.

You.

You, the love of his life. He knew you like the back of his hand.

He knew how, despite your small tendency to be romantically constipated, you tried your best to love him — even to the point of using stupidly cheesy pet names for each other.

– – – – –

“Please, baby!” Bokuto had your hands tightly grasped in his. “I swear, if you do this for me, I won’t ever ask you for anything else for the rest of my life — okay, that’s a lie because I really want ice cream after this, but you know what I mean!”

“Kou.” You drew in a breath. “I’m saying yes to the ice cream later, but those are the cheesiest pet names I have ever heard of.”

You saw the way Bokuto visibly deflated as he heard your soft rejection of his idea.

For the rest of the night (after stopping by the store and getting yourselves two tubs of ice cream, of course), the two of you sat cuddled up on the sofa half-paying attention to whatever B-list movie was recommended to you. Occasionally, you would hear Bokuto let out a deep sigh, most likely to try and guilt trip you into doing what he asked of you earlier.

Turning your head to face him, you grinned at the little pout on his lips as his eyes bore holes into the TV screen.

“Hey, Kou.”

Nothing. His attention stayed glued to the TV. The only sign that showed he’d heard you was the deepening of his pout.

“Koutaro, pretty boy. I’m talking to you,” you giggled.

Still nothing. You racked your brain for all of the possible ways this could end — every one of them resulted in the same thing.

Sighing, you brought up a finger to poke at his cheek. “Hey, dovey.”

If Bokuto were a dog, his ears would have stood straight up and his tail would have started wagging as he whipped his head around to look at you.

“Say that again,” he demanded, his eyes wide and sparkling and the corner of his lips twitching, just barely restraining a smile.

When you didn’t reply, his fingers prodded at your side — a promise to tickle you if you didn’t humour him right now.

“Say it again! Who am I?”

“You’re my dovey.”

“And who are you?”

You struggled to fight the urge to curl up into yourself as you answered him, “I’m your lovey.”

“And what are we together?” Bokuto brought his face closer to yours, his eyes going back and forth between your eyes and lips.

“We’re lovey dovey.” You completed it with a pair of awkward jazz hands.

With that, Bokuto’s face split into a blinding smile as his laughter rang through the living room. He brought you tight into his arms and buried his face into the crook of your neck.

“Yes! I knew you could do it, lovey!” Your cheeks grew warm as you were subjected to his rain of kisses on your face. 

Pulling him in for one last kiss to your lips, you whispered, “I love you so much, Kou.”

– – – – –

He knew how he was always the first thing on your mind; you’d put him as your first priority without fail, no matter how busy you were, even when he hadn’t put you as his.

– – – – –

Bokuto stared up at the crisp, white ceiling — hospitals were never a fun place to be in. He was broken from his thoughts when the door to his room burst open, revealing you in your ever-ethereal work clothes rushing toward him.

“Babe! Are you alright?” Stopping at the side of his bed, you brought his hand up to place a kiss on his knuckles.

Bokuto let out a light laugh as he intertwined his fingers with yours. “Yeah, it’s just a sprained ankle. Nothing to worry about, honey.”

“What do you mean ‘nothing to worry about’? Your coach said that you’d have to be out for two weeks!”

“That’s not too much! It’s not like I’ll be missing the whole season, angel.”

“But, Kou, you also have to–”

Bokuto stopped your worried rambling as he pulled you down, giving you a soft kiss on your lips and cheeks. He gave you a smile.

“Stop worrying, baby! Everything will be fine because I have the cutest, smartest, and kindest nurse to help me recover, right?”

“And who’s that?” You sent him a teasing look as your hands shuffled through your pockets looking for your phone.

“You, silly!” He paused before staring up at you in concern. “You are going to take care of me, right, baby?”

“I don’t know about that, Kou. Work has been hectic lately.” You pulled out your phone.

“But I’m injured! And I’m your boyfriend too! You can’t just leave your injured boyfriend alone to fend for himself! Baby!” Walking away from his bed, you exited the hospital room, tapping away on your phone.

A few minutes passed before you returned, seeing Bokuto sulking in the hospital bed, a familiar pout on his lips.

Your eyes softened as you gave him a smile. “Guess who just got two weeks off?”

– – – – –

The foundation of your relationship was built upon the fact that the two of you knew each other like no other; you loved each other like no other.

So how had everything culminated into such a mess?

“Bokuto.” You felt the way his body stiffened as you called his name.

“Yes,” he hesitated, “honey?”

“Do you remember what I told you a couple years ago? About what I thought of love?”

Feeling a prickling sensation in his nose, Bokuto squeezed his eyes shut, forcing out a few tears that had collected on his eyelashes.

His voice came out hoarse and weak as he whispered, “I could never forget.”

– – – – –

The sky was enveloped in a cloak of darkness, but not even the onslaught of exhaustion could prevent the two of you from leaning back on the picnic blanket to stare up at the shimmering stars.

“Baby?” Bokuto turned his head to where you lay beside him. You hummed in response, half of your attention taken by the stars.

“What do you think about love?”

You raised an eyebrow, rolling onto your side to fully look at your boyfriend.

The moonlight casted harsh shadows on his face, but the way he looked at you — eyes sparkling with curiosity and the corners of his lips curled into a light smile — softened the darkness surrounding the two of you.

“Where did that question come from?” You raised a hand to lightly trace over the curves and slopes of his face; your thumb caressed his cheek as he leaned into your touch.

“Answer my question first, and then I’ll tell you.” His eyes turned into little crescent moons as he smiled at you. “Deal?”

You pretended to think about it for a few seconds. “Hm, three kisses please,” you said, wiggling three of your fingers.

Bokuto laughed, indulging you with a kiss to both of your cheeks and a final kiss to your lips.

“Okay, okay,” you giggled. “You asked me what I think about love?”

He nodded.

“Well,” you sighed, turning back to face the midnight sky above you, “I think that love is like the sky — the sun, to be specific. It’s always changing, and everything is so unpredictable about it. There’s so much potential for destruction in what the sky holds. But, there’s always one constant. Do you know what it is, Kou?” You looked at him.

“What is it, angel?” His golden eyes glimmered, as if they were holding stars themselves.

Adjusting your position on the picnic blanket (you curled closer into Bokuto, who wrapped an arm around your shoulders), you continued, “It’s the sun. No matter how much it rains or snows or whatever weather catastrophe is happening, the sun is always going to be there. Sure, you can have multiple suns like those Star Wars planets, but…” you trailed off, looking into his eyes. “... I think I’m happy with my one sunshine.”

Bokuto, ever the romantic, pulled you into a nearly-bone-crushing hug as he laughed into your shoulder. After peppering kisses to your neck and jaw, he pulled away to look at you. He sported the brightest smile, but something sparkled behind those eyes of his.

“Baby?”

“Yeah?”

“I think you’re getting cheesier than me.”

You groaned, leaning away from him, “Shut up, Kou!”

He giggled before placing a gentle kiss on your lips.

“Now let’s get home before these mosquitoes eat us alive, honey.”

“And then you’ll tell me where you got that question from?”

“Of course, honey! I never break a deal!”

– – – – –

How could he forget what you said? Every word you’ve ever spoken to him, he’s grasped onto like a lifeline, as if they would be your last. He was so close to bursting — so close to pulling himself off of your lap, looking into your pretty eyes, grasping your shoulders, and yelling at you, screaming at you, asking why you would think he could ever forget anything about you. How dare you think he could ever forget anything about you?

But he couldn’t do that. Not to you. Not anymore.

He didn’t realise that you’d gone silent — his world had gone silent — until your sniffles broke his reverie. His arms tightened around your waist as his head nuzzled into your stomach once again; it was a broken act of comfort.

“Honey,” the edges of his voice cracked as he called out for you. “Talk to me. Please. Don’t… don’t stay quiet.”

Being met with another bout of silence was almost excruciating. Bokuto was struggling to keep himself together, to keep his head above the water before he drowned in his thoughts of losing you.

He launched himself up from your lap, grabbing your face with shaky hands. He had tears running down his face once again. His face was blotchy, and his hair was a mess. He was a mess.

“Please, lovey,” he whispered. If you stayed silent just one minute longer, he’d collapse. He was sure of it. Fighting the urge to just sit himself in your lap, pull you tight against him, and beg you not to leave, Bokuto settled with caressing the skin under your shirt.

Finally, you broke the silence.

“I forgot to tell you one thing that night.” You moved your hand from where it was resting in his hair back to your side; he tensed at the loss of your touch.

He swallowed, his anxiety began to pile up once again. “What’d you forget, baby?”

“Even though the sun” — your voice cracked — “is a constant, sometimes it can be too much. Burn too bright and dry up everything underneath the sky. Sometimes...” you paused to take a deep breath, trying to swallow back the lump that was growing in your throat. “Sometimes the sun can do even worse harm than anything the sky could do.”

Bokuto could feel the gradual increase of his heartbeat. He shook his head, his fingers involuntarily digging into your skin. No, no, you didn’t mean that. You couldn’t mean that. If you did he… he didn’t know what he would do.

“I’m sorry, Bokuto,” you murmured, “I can’t stay here any longer.”

You tried to pry yourself out of his grip, but he wouldn’t relent. His arms were shaking as he pulled you even closer into him. He was whispering something to himself.

“Bokuto, I’m being serious.” You tried to keep your voice stable but failed miserably — it all came out shaky, your tone uneven. “Let me go.”

His whispers grew louder until you could finally understand what he was saying.

“No, no. This isn’t real. I love you. I love you. No, don’t leave. Please don’t leave. I love you.”

You called his name. Once, twice, thrice. As you called for him, his whispers grew to full-blown cries.

“Bokuto!”

“I’M SORRY DON’T LEAVE ME!”

But the only thing your eyes chose to focus on was the trail of red and purple leading down his neck.

You felt a prickling sensation behind your eyes, a feeling that had grown familiar to you in the past few hours.

Bokuto caught the wandering of your eyes down his neck, a faraway mist muddled the irises he loved gazing into; he realised what you were staring at, forcing down a choked sob. He clenched his jaw, violently cursing himself for making you feel like you weren’t enough, like you weren’t the one keeping him standing straight.

Like you weren’t his sun, moon, stars, and whatever else you filled the fucking sky with.

He gently moved your head, trying to get you to look back into his eyes and away from the bruised mistake that marred his skin. His thoughts only filled with one thing — “Come back to me, baby.”

Waves of relief crashed against him once you met his eyes.

“Baby– Angel– I’m so– I don’t– Please–” Bokuto struggled to keep his thoughts straight. Not when you stared at him with an iciness that pierced his heart every time he looked back into your eyes, hoping to find even the smallest trace of love left for him.

He let out a rough sigh, frustrated with his inability to speak through the racing of his heart. His hands, still cupping your face, lightly squeezed your cheeks to ground himself. He looked back to you, his eyes swimming with even more tears, trying to send a message to you that he couldn’t put into words.

You looked away from him, focusing on the ticking clock on the wall as you gnawed your lip. A question had been running through your mind ever since he cracked into your resolve to leave and pulled you to the sofa, laying his head in your lap.

Your eyes turned back to him.

“Can you tell me something, Bokuto?”

“Yes, yes, baby, of course. I’ll do anything you want.” He eagerly nodded, a small spark of hope sparkled within him.

“Why’d you lie?”

He felt as though you just dumped him into one of Atsumu’s god-awful ice baths.

“What’re you saying, angel?” His eyebrows furrowed. “I’ve never lied to you.”

“Earlier,” you croaked. “I asked you earlier how long you’ve been” — you couldn’t say that word; it’d hurt too much — “messing around.”

A glint of recognition passed his eyes.

Continuing, you forced your voice out, even though it grew weaker the more you tried to hide your pain, “You said that it was just this once. That wasn’t the whole truth, was it?”

Fuck. Bokuto took his hands away from your face, opting to grasp one of your hands in his. He gave your knuckles a kiss before looking back at you, his eyes teeming with unadulterated guilt and desperation.

“I-I knew them before this ever happened. We met at one of the team parties, but you weren’t there because you were at work.” He saw a glimpse of darkness shadow over your face, and his heartbeat picked up again (not that it ever really settled). “But we never did anything! Not until last night, at least.” His voice grew quiet at the end.

“And never once did it occur to you to tell them that you were taken?”

Bokuto’s lips started trembling — no doubt he’d begin crying again. He looked down, trying to avoid your glare, but his grip on your hand never loosened.

“Please, baby. I’m so sorry,” he choked out, “I’m so fucking sorry. I fucked up in the worst way possible. But I promise you, I never did anything with them before. We just talked at that one party. I promise you that. I promise, honey.”

The look in your eyes became even colder, even more distant; something akin to hatred was present as well. No, this couldn’t be happening. His worst nightmare was coming true. You’d finally learned the truth and were going to leave him. You might have called him your sunshine that one night two years ago, but, to him, you were his oxygen — without you, he was truly nothing. Just a corpse of a man, not worth wasting a breath on.

He was losing you. Again.

“I’m leaving, Bokuto.” You roughly pulled your hand from his grasp, ignoring his cries for you to please stop, to listen for just a minute longer. “Don’t you dare try to look for me.”

Bokuto whimpered, following you to where you were trying to pick up your bags in your haste of anger. Once again, he tugged at the straps, trying to steal them away from you, but his arms grew weak at the scowl pointed his way.

His breath quickened, and his heart raced. He was panicking, grasping at straws to have to rethink your choice and stay with him so he could apologise for the rest of both of your lives. He’d spend the remainder of eternity begging for your forgiveness if only you’d just stay with him.

But he couldn’t say a word. Not with his blinded panic, and definitely not with the terrible, agonising look you were giving him as you stared back at him.

Was this how you felt when he’d walked out on you last night? Hopeless. Defenseless. As if you weren’t even worth a grain of sand underneath the other’s shoe.

“Lovey, I’m sorry!” Bokuto cried out one more time, hoping that he’d reach out to whatever small piece of love you still held for him. “I said I’m sorry! Please just forgive me, don’t leave me. Please! I’m begging you! Whatever you want me to do, I’ll do it a million times over. Just, please,” he quieted to a whisper, just barely reaching your ears, “stay with me, and we can get through this together.”

His face crumpled as he heard your responding scoff.

“There’s no more ‘together’ for us, Bokuto.”

Your words stung — well, they stung as much as a gunshot or a knife to the heart would sting. He pressed on, desperate to get you to hear him out.

“I’m your sunshine, right? Your dovey. Your babe. Your pretty boy. Your Koutarou. Right?” He gripped onto the hem of his shirt, balling his hands into fists. “No matter what you call me, I’m yours. And I always will be. Even if you leave me right now, I’ll never stop looking for you. You know why?”

You stayed silent.

“Because I am just as much your sun as you are mine.”

His words echoed in your mind — that twisted, gnawing feeling came back in your gut. You knew that if you stayed for one more minute, it’d be over for you, and you’d go running back into his arms that always held you so tightly. Into his arms that smelt like home. Into his arms that made you feel like you were on top of the world as long as he was by your side. Into his arms that held onto another once the two of you reached a rough patch.

You made your decision.

“Koutarou…” His head snapped up to look at you, his eyes wide and glittering with a false sense of hope. “I’m sorry. I have to leave.”

There was another feeling growing within Bokuto. It was ugly, festering in the deepest parts of his mind — coming from a place that refused to acknowledge his faults. This feeling, it blamed

you. Why would you hurt him like this? How could you hurt him like this? You said he was your sunshine, your dovey, your Koutarou! How cruel could you be to lead him on, calling him ‘Koutarou’ again? You said you loved him!

“Don’t leave me!” He raised his voice. This feeling was taking over him, and it was angry. “If you leave, I’ll-I’ll…” His voice trailed off as he tried to regain control of himself.

Your brows furrowed. He still had the energy to yell, huh?

“You’ll what?” You took a step toward him. He looked away from you, trying to avoid your burning gaze. “Tell me, Koutarou. What will you do if I leave?”

He shook his head; you knew what that meant — “I won’t say it.”

���You’ll go back to them, won’t you?” you scoffed. “Have fun, Koutarou.”

Adjusting the straps of your bags, you gave him one last glare before moving toward the door once more.

That feeling came back in Bokuto’s mind, and it was stronger than ever. Pounding against the walls he built up, it roared, telling him to make you regret hurting him, make you think twice about leaving him. Bokuto was panicking, his will to beg you to stay was growing weaker as the feeling inside him became increasingly angry at you for causing him so much pain.

He knew he’d regret the next words he’d say to you, but that realisation came a second too late.

“I’ll never forgive you!”

You froze. Turning back around to face him, your eyes narrowed. “What?”

“If you leave me, I’ll never forgive you!”

His eyes were burning into you, a raging fire behind them.

“You’ll never forgive me?” you spat.

As quickly as the fire grew, it was extinguished as Bokuto’s expression morphed into one of shock.

“Wait, baby, I didn’t mean it! I promi–”

Dropping your bags by the door, you strided toward his figure. Pushing him against the wall, you pulled him in by the collar, melding his lips with yours.

The kiss was rough, angry, desperate — an amalgamation of everything you’ve felt in the past few hours going back and forth with Bokuto.

You pushed yourself into the space between his legs as he finally recovered from his shock and tried to match your tempo, his hands pulling you close into his body. Your teeth clashed together, and you had half the mind to bite his tongue in your mouth, but you held back.

Raking your fingers through his hair, you pulled his head back, ignoring his small, pained whine. The offensive mess of red and purple blotches still covered the expanse of his neck. A scowl grew on your face.

Bokuto yelped as he felt your lips latch onto his neck, sucking your own bruises over the ones already existing from his escapade. You were rough, unrelenting in your nearly-primal way of claiming him.

Trying to ignore your satisfaction from hearing his whimpers of your name, you pulled away, looking at your series of marks covering the ones from his other lover. The two of you were left panting — him trying to meet your eyes and you trying to avoid looking at him at all costs.

Leaning into his ear, you placed a gentle bite on his lobe. He tensed ever-so-slightly.

“You’ll never forgive me if I leave?” you hummed.

His hands that were under your shirt, roaming across your back, froze.

“B-Baby, wait, I didn’t–” He tried to plead with you until your next words completely shattered what was left of his broken, battered heart.

“I think I can live with that.”

You quickly backed away from him, evading his attempts to grab at your waist to stop you from leaving, and picked up your bags by the door. Looking back at him one last time, you nearly broke your facade.

After all he’s done, you still loved your Koutarou — no matter how much you tried to convince yourself otherwise — and seeing him on his knees, sobbing, begging you not to leave for the umpteenth time, your will was wearing thin.

“Goodbye, Koutarou.”

The slam of the front door echoed across the remnants of his shattered heart and all he had the strength to do was cry. Pulling at the strands of his hair, he sobbed, begging into the air, weeping with no one to listen to him.

Without you, his world had no sky; everything was bathed in the shadow of your absence.

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tags: @katelyns-stuff @random-fandom-girl-24

[fairybaby777]

The law of assumption works y’all! DO NOT give up no matter what! I just wanna share a mini success story. My guard dog has been barking like mad for days now, especially around 6am. I just commanded my subconscious to get my dog to stop barking. “Hey subconscious get my dog to stop barking now please and thank you. Because I am God, I know I manifest instantly and perfectly every single time”. (Thank you @sexyandhedonistic) I went to watch a YT video and realised.... the barking stopped lol even when the neighbor’s dogs were barking (one of his biggest triggers lol).

As someone who was struggling with manifesting and even doubting whether it was possible, this has really shown me that nothing is impossible. It all takes off when you affirm & persist with your self concept NO MATTER WHAT THE 3D is showing you. Who needs confirmation from the 3D anyway? We are the power here.

I’ve been manifesting other things but being able to influence my wild ass guard dog in under 3 mins shows me ANYTHING is possible. When intrusive thoughts/doubts come up, I allow them and breathe. I send them love and tell them that it’s okay. It’s okay because this power feels new/uncomfortable and my brain/ego is just trying to keep me safe with negative brain bias. I struggle with anxiety and depression, and allowing myself to healthily process my thoughts/emotions rather than trying to feel happy all the time has been a GAME CHANGER. I used to try and drown them out with positive affirmations but I realised they wouldn’t go away until I actually acknowledged them and processed them.

In fact manifesting didn’t start working for me until I decided to stop blindly following methods from gurus and do what feels fun for me! Until I told myself that the methods and affirmations I choose will work for me no matter what. Until I incorporated unconditional self love, acceptance and belief instead of beating myself up about things not shifting or struggling with doubts/intrusive thoughts.

I’m sorry this is long, I’m just sending this to encourage people NOT to give up. My life was a mess just weeks ago now things are coming together tremendously. If I can influence these changes, TRUST me everyone can too.

I’m wishing you all the best on your manifesting journeys and THANK YOU fairy for all your advice and encouragement! It’s helped a TON. Let me go light up my blunt and celebrate now 💀

wooohoo !! amazing success story anon & im so happy for you !! much much love <333 & call me maddy !

[falsegoodnight]

a new header??? it matches better <3 these are the fics I read or reread and enjoyed this month! like last time, i’m separating it into different sections: main list, wips, and non-1d. rereads will be included in the main list and marked with a star (*). 

*note: this list encompasses the fics i’ve read from the 1st to the 28th only

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main list ~

✰ Don’t Wait Up by reliablyimperfect | NR | 1k

Without Harry’s warmth next to him, he felt the chill of the air creep over his skin. He tugged the blanket down from where Harry kept one draped over the back of the couch for him, grateful. With the blanket, he instantly felt warmer, but it backfired when his eyes began to droop again. Trying to keep his eyes open was impossible, and he was consciously aware of how long his blinks were becoming. They stay closed longer and longer until, eventually, they didn’t open again.

so soft and sweet and lovely! made my heart feel so warm <3 will return to this for some quick comfort in the future!

✰ my ugly mouth kept running by @hadestyles | E | 4k

Sometimes second chances are more important than the first.

rori’s lush writing + abo + exes to lovers = absolute perfection. my fic cameo gives it a bonus too :’) definitely one of my rori favs 

✰ i’ve loved you three summers now honey, i want them all by @softloubabie | M | 4k

The restaurant was small and bright, soft colors filled the walls and tables and fairy lights hung from everywhere. From what Harry had read, the food wasn’t overly expensive but it was still comparable to what you would get at one of the more expensive places. If Harry could he would take Louis to the biggest most expensive and extravagant restaurants to do what he planned to tonight, but this would do.

After being led to their table Harry nervously tapped his jacket pocket, sighing in relief when he felt the small box still there. Tonight was the night. He couldn’t wait till it was time to surprise Louis with all the gifts he got for him. Then finally the big surprise.

so cute and sweet! their kids were so adorable and the proposal so lovely!! they love each other so much <3

✰ love me in between the future and the past by navigator & quitter | E | 11k

Harry's scared of history repeating itself.

this honestly hurt to read but in such a raw and emotional way?? was mad at harry and then sad for him :( this writer duo’s fics never fail to amaze me!

✰ sunshine on my mind by @raspberryoatss | E | 13k

Louis visits Harry in Portland

this was so sweet and lovely! the perfect addition to this wonderful universe! pip’s characterizations and fluff never fails to make my heart feel warm <3

✰ rapture in the dark by @stylinsonsupporter | T | 13k

Harry Styles is a breakout musician who has shed his boyband label in favor of embracing his inner brooding rockstar. His PR team think that his rebrand is the perfect time for Harry to come out of the closet and have devised the perfect plan for doing so. Enter Louis Tomlinson, up and coming (and very openly homosexual) model whose public image as America's Sweetheart is the perfect foil for Harry's new edge. From a PR standpoint, it's a dream come true - a power couple that can slowly coax the public into accepting Harry's altered image. The only problem? They hate each other.

always love a good fake dating au and this is no exception! and model louis >> really enjoyed this!

✰ Maybe, Baby* by thoughtsickles | M | 16k | mpreg

It all feels too easy, too good to be true. It all feels like a scene from Louis' daydreams, the kind of life he'd always imagined he'd have when he was younger and bored at his momma's work, sneaking around the hallways of the maternity ward until the nurses let him in to hold the babies. He'd felt so important being allowed to touch them. He'd told them stories of the lives they were going to have, houses with nice wallpaper that wasn't peeling, yards filled with sunshine and flowers and grass that never went yellow. A hammock to nap in, cuddled up with his husband.

You can't stay here, he tells himself, but Baby doesn't want to listen.

have reread this one quite a bit of times now and it still makes me so happy <3 this Louis and Harry deserve the world <333

✰ Let Me Inside by reliablyimperfect | E | 18k

Louis is Harry’s boss, but Harry is the boss of Louis. 

loved this one! really enjoyed the balance between h&l and how they maintained their dynamic in subtle ways outside of the bedroom while also keeping it separate. very much enjoyed the jealousy as well <3

✰ a scintilla of predilection by @dehydratedpoolfics | T | 20k

There, in the far back of the room, next to the only available seat left, is none other than Harry Styles. Harry, who grew up next door to him, who knew all his secrets as a child and played FIFA with him on Saturday mornings after he would spend the night Friday evenings every week, whose curly hair would tickle his nose as they held each other during bitter cold nights that made his room glow a haunting blue.

love ex-childhood friends with misunderstandings!! louis was so cute and i loved his poetry <3 harry too was so stupid but so smitten and lovely :’) really enjoyed this!

✰ Keeping The Flame Alive by @crazyupsetter​ | E | 20k

Recording with One Direction never felt like this. There’s a couple reasons for that, Harry thinks. One is that they did most of their recording on the road, rushed and in busses and hotel rooms, never in one place long enough to really get an argument going. The other, larger and more important one, is that back then he had the sweetest, meanest little omega around to distract him from all of that frustration.

The first time around, when he’d been recording his debut solo album, it hit him pretty hard. He likes to think he’s better adjusted to it now, but frustration is warring under his skin nonetheless. He doesn’t want to be told what to do most of the time, and he especially doesn’t want to be told what to do when it comes to his music.

What he does want right now is that sweet, mean little omega right in front of him with his mouth on Harry’s cock. Unfortunately, the best he’s got is his own hand and a shared toilet. So. That’s really not going to work.

✰ like it’s a game* by @soldouthaz | E | 32k

There is little Harry hates more than truth or dare.

And Louis.

queen of enemies to lovers! it’s been a while since i’ve reread this but too absolutely no surprise, it’s just as amazing as always <3 sarah never misses!

✰ Too Young To Know by @2tiedships2 | M | 35k

Harry doesn’t present as an alpha… until he does.

really enjoyed this as per usual! exes to lovers is my jam and the added angst of Louis dating someone else at the beginning... love <3

✰ Some Things Take Root* by  navigator & quitter | E | 50k

Louis' ex doesn't get jealous of anyone besides Harry. Harry helps Louis use that to his advantage.

stumbled upon this randomly and decided to reread on a whim... ended up staying up to read it in one sitting! so good!

✰ Safe and Sound (You’ll Always Be) by @all-these-larrythings | E | 58k

When a failed case and a guilty conscience leaves Harry more than a little lost, his boss presents him with a new, less taxing assignment to help him cope. An escape from all the madness is just what Harry needs to get his life back on track. It's just too bad his new client has a grin like the devil, a pair of electric eyes that Harry simply can't get over, and no intention whatsoever of letting him catch a break.

i don’t know how i’ve never read this before??? it was absolutely amazing though! perfect blend of humor and fluff and tension and angst <3

✰ Mind Over Matter (You Under Me) by @youreyesonlarry | E | 74k

It’s dark outside when Harry finishes practice for the day. 

the slow burn in this fic killed me - which is to say, it was perfect! loved how they progressed from working together to being friends to something more and how much they genuinely cared for each other! the hockey was so fun too!

✰ Call Out My Name by frenchkiss | E | 102k

Apparently, it's bad PR to fall in love with the omega you hired to help you through your rut.

Harry Styles begs to differ.

ellen truly knocked it out of the park with this one!! had everything i could ever want: abo, famous/non-famous, fluff, humor, angst, drama, and more! i loved it from beginning to end!

wips ~

✰ ‘cause all our tomorrows lead the way by @loubellies | E | 64k | 7/11

So maybe Louis’ in over his head.

He had signed up for the Bachelor on a whim after his second bottle of wine and well, here he is. He’s just been announced as the twenty-sixth Bachelor and his ass is sweating. Like, literally sweating. He’s positive that if he was to turn around, the entirety of Bachelor Nation would get a nice peek of his ass sweat.

am thoroughly enjoying each chapter!! it’s been a wild ride so far and although things are currently calm, i am still on edge!! but i trust mar with my life <3

✰ Truth Behind Golden Eyes by @lwtisloved | E | 83k | 8/16 

Louis is a royal servant born with magic in a kingdom where his sole existence is outlawed with a war he has no idea he has a part in upon him. Harry is the prince on whom the burden of mending a broken kingdom falls upon and he might be willing to risk it all for a simple servant if only he admitted it to himself.

caught up last night! still really enjoying every chapter and can’t wait to see what happens next!! things are *happening* with h&l and answers are being given!! (love the jealousy too!)

non-1d ~

✰ Keep Me Close (I Need Your Faith) by @princelouisau | E | 23k

Somewhere along the way he had fallen in love and in doing so, had broken the one rule he knew he couldn’t come back from. As quickly as he realised, he decided that he must never dare speak it. He resigned himself to loving Draco in silence.

first foray into reading drarry... and, to no one’s surprise, i loved it! beautiful writing as always and beautiful atmosphere! it’s really not a shock that i fell for these characters and their story when danielle is behind it <3 it had me entranced from beginning to end!!

finally, i myself actually posted a fic this month:

my fics ~

✰ yesterday came suddenly by me | E | 49k | mpreg 

Harry the deadliest member of the NYC assassins’ guild, is forced to face a seemingly impossible task in hopes of finally leaving the underground behind for good, but when ghosts from the past come back to haunt him, escaping the darkness becomes that much harder.

If you read any of these beautiful works of art, remember to leave kudos and comment to show your appreciation!

*if i made any errors, please let me know :)

enjoy!

[oh-katsuki]

🎉 NEW GAME: Introduce your mutuals to everyone and what do you think of them? 🎉

oooo this is fun!!! thank you for the ask!! okay so i cant do all of them so ill just do a few <33 im sorry if i miss u, i love u all the same and so so dearly.

@mikaaberry - a beloved friend. weird but in the best way possible. she sends pictures of herself from an absurdly high angle like at least three times a week and its incredible. genuinely so supportive, i love her so much.

@juniverses - SHE'S A GUARD DOG. i swear to god ... her clit is always twitching. but she also thirsts w me the most in the groupchat about semi-niche characters and i appreciate that. she's so incredibly wonderful.

@planetsano - bria has such an incredible vibe. like her humor is so fucking good and like... her general energy is amazing. she gives off the vibe of like spongebob humor and cindy from scary movie and it's the funniest thing. i really fucking love her.

@honeyzawa - bea is actually fucking unhinged and its my favorite thing about her. she feeds my enemies to lovers slowburn fantasy except for the fact that we're not enemies and we're also in love. the very first person i interacted regularly with on tumblr and my first tumblr mutual back when i used my art account <33

@drakenology - daisy just fucking gets it. she matches a vibe perfectly and always brings the right energy to the conversation. i have an enormous crush on her but like... don't tell her that. It's a secret.

@ratsqueaks - okay so i literally just started talking to annie regularly very recently but she's been a mutual i really like to see on my dash. always keeps it very spicy bc i never know if I'm gonna get bullied or told that i am adored and i think we all need that in our lives.

@miekasa - this bitch is up my ass FOR EVERYTHING!! AND I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY!! she once called me insane and i had to pause and be like "is it that obvious" (it is). very beloved and so so skilled. i adore her.

@ringpop-poppy - my beloved. my sweetest. my fellow batshit crazy sister. me and poppy feed the WORST energy in ourselves and make it so hot and sexy. she's a rabid dog when it comes to thirsting and her clit is on DIAMOND mode at all hours of the day. i love her and i love her brain and I'm rly happy to be her friend.

@bakemonogatarii - G is such a sweet person. we went to see the mha movie together and it was such a blast. genuinely unhinged but who isn't on this platform. she wants to swallow beefy men whole and i respect that so deeply.

@izuukii - i love scout very very much. they're so supportive and always check up on me and make me feel so seen and heard. my jshk mutual and the person i go to to discuss the emotional anguish that the manga puts me through.

@sems-diarie - i don't talk to sem NEARLY as much as i want to but I'm putting her here because i adore her writing and her general energy. she's someone i absolutely love to see on the dash and her energy is so positive and welcoming that it's really hard not to love her.

that's all i can think of off the top of my head at the moment. i love u guys a lot and u make being here so fucking wonderful. my experience on this app is better because of you guys and i hope ur all having lovely days/nights <333

if i missed you, please know that i love u just as dearly and want to kiss u all the same <333