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"Whatever you see awake or asleep is happening no matter what. What you call imagination and reality have the same foundation; an effortless Knowing of them. You are that Knowing. There is no difference"

— @infiniteko

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I don't understand. Bloggers are saying to disregard the senses. I do and nothing happens, no matter how much I continue in my knowing... what am I doing wrong?

"Disregard the senses"???

Do you not realize what that is saying is just loa repackaged.... "ignore the 3D", basically.

3D = world

You are aware of the world, world IS.

Senses are part of the body. You are aware of the body -> body is and its seeing is PERFECT AND FINE. Ignore senses why? You are making them be, they ARE. You are the knower of those TOO if you are the knower of the body. You made senses the enemy now for some reason? Why? They exist through your awareness, they are just part of the body.

If you're not seeing what ego wants is simply because you're aware of yourself living in a world you don't want. Senses are totally under your dominion like everything else. You suddenly separated them for the body and started asking questions about them, to which I'm confused on what kind of answers besides what I've just said you could have gotten.

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”Be fully aware of who you are”, how do I do that? I live the same day everyday; wake up, go to uni, do uni work, eat and then go to bed. I know also that I am not the body that I was born in, but that enough does little to realize “myself”.

I am also aware that thoughts and the body cannot do anything in order for me to be aware, because they don’t belong to me.

With this knowledge, I still live the same day. All I want is to live by doing/being something different. I guess is that I am doing something wrong.

You say YOU KNOW so then why don't you act on it?

This ego is no more you than any other ego. Both exist at the same time and they're both unreal/imagination.

There are two people, Vanessa and Lara. Both are you.

Both lived with their own personality/families/brains whatever their entire lives. Both are complete people.

Yet everyday you wake up and say "this is me." That's you choosing. You won't abandon her caaaause you swear to GOD she's you!

Is it hard for you to abandon Lara when she is only a dream and didn't live as her your entire life? No. And yet she still exists. And you abandon her daily. You don't gaf about her daily. You never think of her. You don't suffer for her being left because you don't take her as you. You have no attachment to her.

You don't think about what she has to do, don't care about "leaving" her, abandoning her, her life, her issues. You do not think of her. Yet her and Vanessa are equal. Both are imagined. Ideas. Conceptions. You are attaching you to one and leaving, abandoning the other.

That is IT. Who you think is "you". None of those people are and both are at the same time.

You are pure consciousness alone. If you knew that Vanessa is unreal and imagined, you would leave her, abandon the thought of her just as easily as you do the one of Lara. You would have no attachment to her either. But you won't accept the thought that she's imagined and consider her real and Lara unreal. Both are unreal. No difference at all. Your attachment is the only thing making the difference.

"If there is no understanding, how can there be any experience?"

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Credits : @infiniteko

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How did you shift from loa to nd?

loa kind of left me feeling like i was missing something, like okay im god and that’s great but what about after i stop desiring something ? what if I stopped desiring altogether ? non dualism kind of explains that and I just found that I resonated a lot more with it. i also HATED the constant separation between 3d and 4d. if I supposedly have it now then why am I waiting for it to be in the 3d?

this post also explains more about why i shifted to nd initially

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an update

last time I discovered nondualism I overconsumed so much that I essentially felt scared and reverted back to the law of assumption. it's been a couple months now since I looked at anything nd related but I stumbled upon a screenshot of one of 4d barbie's post when I was clearing out my camera roll yesterday, and it really resonated with me this time. because I've had the mental space away from the overconsumption, I was able to process this a lot better and more clearly - also instead of overconsuming when I want to understand something, I've taken to meditating on it which usually leads to me needing to write all my thoughts out about 10mins into the meditation because I just have epiphany after epiphany and suddenly everything makes sense. I think the biggest thing that holds anyone back from embarking on these journey's of Self, is the lack of trust in yourself. why do you flee to tumblr or twitter or whatever everytime you start to doubt or are unsure about something? everytime you need confirmation you look to the outside to give it to you, why? I'm asking this because I used to do this too. in order to make any sort of progression in your journey you HAVE to start relying on yourself and being your own confirmation. if you have a question or need reassurance, turn inwards and meditate on it. yourSelf has all the answers you'll ever need and they'll click instantly because they come from within you. anyway, that aside, I just wanted to hop on here and say that I'm back and that I'll be making more diary entry type posts as my journey progresses. I also want to say here to hold myself accountable, that I will not be looking through tumblr posts for answers any longer, I've discovered nondualism, I have a very good understanding of it, now the rest is up to me.

edit: i will add that i am still allowing myself to read books on the subject because i dont count that as overconsumption

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5/02/24

Don’t overthink, literally take this at face-value. It just is.

You create an observation; “I haven't got”, called desire, but you are not the one afflicted by it—the observation of a person is. Most do not allow the observation itself to be free of limits or distinctions. 

‘You’ defaults to observing a person trying to make sense of ‘you’; the “       ” that makes all phenomena be. All things that ‘are’, are observations. Even the ‘pursuit’ of this to attain ‘desire’ is an observation.

 A true observation is not persisted in — because it literally is. [ Do you persist in making tea? ] 

There is no step-by-step for the observed ‘person’. In observing a person, you connect observations of memories, thoughts, sensations, time, space, etc. to it—references. All of this is merely attaching observations to observations etc. 

Assign absolutely nothing to “       ”, no thing can observe what observes it, and that includes a person. “       ”  observes a person trying to comprehend it. Never the other way around. 

Inquiring this, gives instant, direct experience – more than any external knowledge can. Journal about it if you have to—directly observing. Not thinking you are a person doing xyz.

Ask; when everything is only observed, what remains? And, you already are that, so what now? The answers are there.

[ being “       ” ] in its most literal sense, is giving up on all attachments, aversions, and phenomena as limits and/or definitions of “       ”. In doing so, ‘you’ acknowledge that everything is an observation of ‘you’, making yourself everything, everywhere, all at once. You observe, simply because you can, and your observation is.

Why is this person's life undesirable? Because it [is] can be! Can it be 'fixed? It already [is] can be! Everything is a pointer falling short of ‘you’.

✰ Ironically, it is merely an observation of a person that sees infinite peace, zero problems and omnipotence as empty/boring when ‘you feel that way’. This isn’t something that makes the person stop complaining and be at perfect peace; the person will complain as long as you observe it to do so. You though, you will know the full security of your peace.

It can’t even be forced; it’s simply the knowing that all you can do is be, because you already are. Be free of everything that seems otherwise. The point is, you reduce and return to this; you are “       ”, anything else is because of you. What does  “       ” mean?

 “       ”; the only suitable label for what is god, infinity, freedom, the literal supreme principle and beyond.

What does because mean?

 “       ” ; and for that reason; everything.

There is no such thing as a state or action. No phenomena, no realization, no manifestation, no seeking, no truth, no reason, no doer, no trying, no knowledge, no rules or logic, no references of reality—they are simply forms of ‘your’ apparency; observations. The effort of a person is only an observation; and ‘you’ either attach failure or success to that. 

You can observe a person seeking answers, but it is pointless to ask why of the ‘WHY.’ Experience comes from observation only; let that sink in. Basically, what you observe goes — not what you learn, try to apply, try to manifest; those are their own observations and thus, their own realities. 

For example; if you narrated your observation of this person, you would glean a feeling of what’s truly ‘happening’. The observation is the same as the act. 

➤ Observation of [ Luna ] trying to manifest xyz = [ Luna ] is trying to manifest xyz.

➤ Observation of [ Ember ] making tea = [ Ember ] is making tea.

➤ Observation of [ Luna ] wanting to avoid something that she thinks is going to happen = [ Luna ] wants to avoid something that is inevitable.

What about 'manifestation'?

➤ Observation of [ Luna ] applying law of assumption, imagining herself as xyz and having references that bar her from this experience [doubt, fear, criterias, desire, measures of progress] = [ Luna ] applying the law and failing.

“       ” does not imagine, nor does it think wishfully. Observations have absolutely nothing attached to them. Or it would be “Observing Luna imagining a manifestation of xyz.” There is no gap, because observation is ‘you’.

All you are doing when you seek anything; is observing limits and then asking how to free yourself of it.

Stop observing the ‘desire’ of anything. Observe without limits because it simply and can only be ‘is’. What is observed, whether attachment or aversion — IS.

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Stop identifying with the human body.

I can't stop laughing because I spent so long trying to figure out what people meant when they said "stop identifying with your human self" and I would continually tell myself that I'm God/awareness/consciousness etc. While still acknowledging that the "outer world" still looked the same. I didn't realize that acknowledging that was STILL ME IDENTIFYING WITH MY HUMAN SELF because I'm using my HUMAN EYES to look around and determine what's real or not. If I am not the body.. then whatever I "see" out of the human eyes is irrelevant!! Because I am not the human body!! God/awareness knows that they are not separate from anything so anytime they choose to be aware of something, that is what they are observing or experiencing right now. Stop acknowledging anything you see with your human eyes unless it's your desires materializing. Because you are not the human body, including the eyes!

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When you realize that you are absolutely free to be what you consent to be, that you are what you appear to be because of ignorance or indifference, you are free to revolt and change. You allow yourself to be what you are not. You are looking for the causes of being what you are not! It's a futile search. There are no causes, but your ignorance of your real being, which is perfect and beyond all causation. For whatever happens, all the universe is responsible and you are the source of all the universe.

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you have more recommendations like lucy? Just movies on consciousness and stuff

hm i can only think of inception & the midnight gospel (tv show). get the free trial of gaia and search up consciousness, there’s heaps of videos and theyre sooo interesting. i pretty much binged that entire search last year hahah

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https://www.tumblr.com/fairybaby777/729205814386163712/this-movie-is-literally-what-i-imagine-happening?source=share

what movie is it!!

lucy

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THIS MOVIE IS LITERALLY WHAT I IMAGINE HAPPENING WHEN I BECOME FULLY REALIZED LMAO !!! remember in that scene where she no longer had a body and was everywhere and everyone??! that’s what i imagine

experiencing self through a human form i created

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“we think we exist and therefore we suffer”

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has anyone watched the series The Midnight Gospel on netflix ?? i just started watching it because i heard it’s about reality, death and consciousness and it’s so good so far !! there’s all these random things happening in the background but the characters are having a conversation and what they say is pretty profound and interesting

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https://www.tumblr.com/fairybaby777/729069071378907136/im-watching-a-netflix-series-about-psychadelics?source=share

IKR?? I really hope people who have have had these experiences through use of psychedelics like LSD and Ayahuasca who also know about loa and nd talk about this. I personally feel like there's some repressed assumptions at play (psychedelics ought to disarm your brain from acting like a barrier), because I have seen people talk about their veils being removed and them seeing the higher truths but somehow they don't match regarding the same topic, like their outlooks change sure but they don't come to same conclusions. Example- one side would say everything is connected and there is no hierarchy, then other side will say there is hierarchy and God created people to be ruled over etc. Both say that is truth, really against the your truth,my truth dicotomy.

fr it’s so interesting !! i just saw someone on tiktok talking about their ego death experience and they said all at once they felt unified with everything and felt like they were everywhere and everything at once and i was like that literally sounds like nondualism & being Self without the ego 🤨

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im watching a netflix series about psychadelics and currently on the episode about lsd. so interesting because everyone who’s done it said it lead them to profound spiritual experiences & helped them understand consciousness more. it got me thinking, what does lsd do exactly that suddenly makes people have these experiences ?? knowing everything that i know about consciousness and the world, i don’t quite understand how these psychadelics are able to lift the veil of Maya and show people the truth ??? what do yall think