#this was one of my favs i've written so far ngl

[rollercoasterwords]

Ok this may come off as ramble-y but i just wanted on come in here gush abt how much I love your fics!! I'm a big fan of atyd so intially that's how i found your work -- through Sirius' perspective -- and i loved that shit (dare i say more than the original,, they're both amazing ofc I'm just biased coz Sirius is my fav character). I come from a super religious/conservative background and I have never related so much to a character with internalised homophobia -- like the resemblance was a little uncanny ngl lol.

But yeah,, than i read 'thtf' becoz i was craving some lesbian fics (coz the marauders' fandom is in a lesbian drought let's be real). And it was so good and i absolutely bawled my eyes out. You're writing i think especially shined in this fic and i remember i would go back an reread pages because they we're so beautifully written lol.

And then i read ur cowboy and zombie au fics (even tho I don't really ship jegulus/marylily) but they were still amazing and so, so fun!!

My favourite fic of yours by far tho is ur most recent fic, 'As the Worm Moon Dies'. I'm a sucker for fics that expand on the world-building/magic of hp because i feel like there is so much missed potential in the og hp series due to jkr neoliberal centrist politics (gag). I loved how u depicted magic in series as more of a spectrum and how every human has the capability for it. I loved how u described the elves and their enslavement becoz holy shit is that a horrible plot point in the og series (dw!! they liked being enslaved!!). Sirius as a death eater is so weird becoz canon sirius would never -- but it also shows just how much of an influence James and subsequently the Potter's had on his life. Ooooh also don't even get me started on the werewolf fighting rings and the hypocrisy of pureblood societies its absolutely so fascinating to me!! Ahh i've reread it so many times already lol. (and obviously, the wolfstar is *chefs kiss*)

I love ur writing so much i actually started reading the captive prince series solely so ic ould read ur fanfics on it lmao. (up to book 2 -- so far very interesting -- and wondering what Laurent's perspective could possibly contain).

Honourable mentions to ur nobleflower and emmary fics because they were awesome and ur characterisation of emmaline as a butch aloof lesbian is now absolutely cannon to me!!

Anyways sorry for rambling so much i just needed to fangirl about ur works!! I just wanted to thank you for all the time you put into them and your services to the marauders fandom. Oh, and if you ever published a book one day i would read it no doubt.

aww thank u 🥹 this is so sweet it’s always crazy 2 remember that there r like…real live actual people out there who r resonating w the things im writing etc so i v much appreciate the kind words 💕 also reading captive prince just 4 the laurent pov fic is crazy lmao but i hope u enjoy the series…book 1 is rough but book 2 will start bringing u back and book 3?? bananas….

[itsjaywalkers]

Ranter anon is back after a long time of suffering but I finally got the time to start reading "luck came (and died 'round here)" and it really made my horrible week better (so thanks for that! <3).

I'm not very far in (just finished the scene in the first chapter where Barty and Regulus were at lunch) but I love it already very dearly! Your mind ist just so: 🥰

I really love that Lily has a personality besides being a perfect, reasonable, good girl (I mean... she kinda is a good girl... but only Barty's good girl!🤭).

I'm giving you a big kiss and hope that not too much time will pass until I can give you the next updates on my reading progress!

Much love!

OMG HI DARLING IT'S BEEN SO LONG I MISSED U !! got so happy when i saw u had sent me an ask <3 how have u been?? how's life treating u?? i'm hugging u as if we're two friends reuniting in an airport after not seeing each other in years

i'm so sorry to hear you've been having such an awful week :( i can certainly relate.. but i'm very glad that my silly story has helped to make it all a bit better <3 it's the best thing you could've told me really

the lunch scene is one of my favourites in the whole fic!! i just love the barty reg friendship there so fucking much, and i'm so fond of that reg.. he's such a lil weirdo I ADORE HIM !!!

that last comment made me giggle a lil ngl.. always so pleased when anyone tells me they like my lily. that's my girl!!! but yeah she's Everything in luck came and definitely one of my fav characters i've ever written <3 i'm dying to go back to her pov

giving you a big kiss in return, and don't even worry darling, there's no rush!! i just hope that you continue enjoying the story <3

MWAH <333

[signs-of-the-moon]

For the ask thing: 🆕️, 🎥, ❎️, and 🤔?

Tysm anon! Let's get into it :3

🆕️ : are you still up to date / reading the new books? if not, when did you stop?

I am up to date! Well, technically. I've read every book released so far in A Starless Clan, though it's the only arc I've read since OOTS. I feel like ik enough about AVOS and TBC to not need to read em currently. I am genuinely enjoying the newest arc. My favorite character is Frostpaw (totally not biased because of the name lol). I want to protect this little cat with my life, to the point where I've very unofficially founded the Frostpaw Defense Club on my regular wc blog @stargleam-star. I think Frostpaw's in my top 10 favorite characters now, maybe even top 5! Only her chapters interest me, because she feels the most well written. I actually don't mind Nightheart, but Sunneam kinda bores me ngl. If you wanna know more about my thoughts on ASC check out my other blog!

🎥 : fav warriors related youtuber?

@ louixie is currently my favorite! They upload mostly warrior OC related content but it's soooo good. Their animations are so beautiful and detailed, they feel truly magical at times! The composition and flow are amazing, the animations are always so smooth and professional looking.

❎️ : what's the weirdest crossover au involving warrior cats that you've made? (if you haven't made any, then what's the weirdest one you've seen?)

I haven't made any crossover AUs before. I think the weirdest I've seen might have been a Five Nights At Freddy's cat AU. That probably sounds rather tame. And that's because I don't have a huge interest in crossover AUs

🤔 : what's the biggest series plothole that's bugged you?

So many missing cats. Especially once Skyclan came to the lake. Like where the hell did so many cats go? Where is Egg???

Send me a niche warrior cats ask prompt!

[mvalentine]

Hi Mal! I'd like to thank you for being such an amazing member of our fandom. Even though we haven't interacted much yet, I've seen you on my dash many times before and I've always admired how you go out of your way to support people and send so many brilliant asks to engage everyone. You seem like a genuinely kind and cool person. Thank you for everything you do to keep this place going! ❤️

P.S. Your lovely Lana is an absolute stunner. I have your latest fic saved in my drafts and I'm excited to read it and get to know her. 😊

dori!! first of all this edit is absolutely stunning i’ve always admired your gorgeous edits so im so thankful to have received such a stunning one!! look at my babies 🥺🥺🥺

& this is so nice of you to say thank you!! & i hope you know that the feeling is 100% mutual because even though we haven’t interacted much (excited to see that that’s changing!!) i’ve always seen you being so supportive of everyone in our fandom & it’s so lovely to see <33 it’s people like you who make the fandom such an amazing place despite the occasional bs. also i can’t wait to learn more about emma she’s absolutely gorgeous!!

and oh my god ngl that’s one of my fav fics i’ve written for them so far so i really hope you enjoy it <33! sending you lots of love my friend & i hope you have the best week ever 💘💘💘

[morute-addict]

Hello!! What's your favorite piece of work that you've written so far??

(Ngl I've rewritten this question like 5 times due to my own social awkwardness, so I'm really sorry if this comes off as weird!!)

no lol it doesn't come off weird. you're totally fine!! im awkward too.

to answer your question: uhhhh idk

i don't really have a favorite tbh. i am currently writing one that has a really nice plot line and ill probably release it soon! when i publish it that one will be my fav.

it basically dives into Medic's current mental state and how i personally view the story of how he went insane.

thanks for the ask :3

[sibillascribbles08]

I'm sorry the unpopular opinions questions are too good so I'm just going to say ace attorney

Oh god

❤: Which character do you think is the most egregiously mischaracterized by the fandom?

Franziska von Karma, easy answer, I don't really hate Franmaya or anything but so many people do not write her properly in that dynamic

🧡: What is a popular (serious) theory you disagree with?

I don't know a ton of AA theories tbhhhh (I don't browse the fandom a lot)

💛: What is a popular ship you just can't get behind, and why?

Franmaya, again, but it's mostly just cause of how it's usually written. (In some cases I've seen it handled well)

💚: What does everyone else get wrong about your favorite character?

I have nothing to say in regards to Edgeworth so second fav-- Apollo would not be the one to fall in love first are you kidding me absolutely not that boy is not the one pining he's far too focused on some other bullshit.

💙: Which character is not as hot as everyone else seems to think?

Look. Edgeworth is not that sexy. He's a great person and I love him dearly but he is NOT that attractive his uncle (?) is hotter I'm sorry.

💜: Which character is way hotter than everyone else seems to think?

Plum Kitake is the hottest character in the entire series bar none that woman is incredible oh my god.

🤍: Which character is not as morally bad as everyone else seems to think?

Thinking like Larry Butz mainly? Like yeah he does some stupid shit and also flirted with Maya that one time but he's?? generally a good guy? Doing his best.

🖤: Which character is not as morally good as everyone else seems to think?

Phoenix alskjdfalskdjf my man was manipulating the HELL out of Apollo in his game and also still hasn't told Apollo he and Trucy are half siblings like, this guy talks about how important the truth is and is sitting here withholding information like a mother fucker

💖: What is your biggest unpopular opinion about the series?

Turnabout Big Top is not as bad as everyone says it is.

💔: If you had to remove one major character from the series, who would you choose?

Phoenix. Deadass let some of the other defense attorneys have some character development. I'm tired.

💕: What is an unpopular ship that you like?

Hm ! I don't have a ton of AA ships but I did think about Trucy and Vera one day being a thing and it was v cute in my mind (after Vera takes some time to recover and branch out obvs)

📖: If you had to remove one book from the series, which would you choose?

I haven't heard good things about AA6

🏳️‍🌈: Which character who is commonly headcanoned as queer doesn't seem queer to you?

See this is tough because we all know every character in AA is queer except Straight Larry, but I will say Edgeworth is not as gay as people like to say asldjfk

💀: If you had to choose one major character to die, who would you choose?

Ahhh of a major character... ngl it would be funny if phoenix died but then just possesses maya and keeps on doing lawyer stuff, wild plotline

[live-love-laugh-lesbian]

hii!! me again and damnnn you have taste!! and true crime>>>>>

also i almost died when i realised you watch hazbin hotel this is literally fate idc im so obsessed w it rn!! its probably the only one i know a lot of stuff about askdifkejskfr so this ask will probably be focused on that akskrjens

so!!! who's your favourite character(s) x and your favourite ep (if you have one) fav dynamics?

aksjrkwd sorry abt my limited knowledge abt everything else haha!

have an awesome day!!!

-swiftie spring anon exchange

:D :D :D We have similarities!!

Okay so my favourite character is a complicated question...see, I have a soft spot for Lute and Velvet (because my type in fictional women is evil, basically), and I would consider Velvet one of my faves based on how cool she seems so far (cool and evil). But Angel Dust's character has been expanded on so much it's hard not to adore him, you know? And I love Vaggie and Charlie, courtesy of their dynamic. Charlie's so :D and Vaggie's so >:( and it's great, I love it. I also didn't expect to enjoy Sir Pentious so much?? He's a dork and a sweetheart and he's great.

(Ship wise I still ship Vox and Alastor. I can't help it, there's just so many scenarios that would be cool with those two. But I've found I'm pretty fond of most ships that have come about from this show, which is interesting to me.)

I think my favourite episodes are...actually idk. I tend to go based on the songs that stand out XD But episodes 4, 5, 6 and 8 (so only half the episodes...) were especially good to me. And Hell's Greatest Dad, You Didn't Know, Poison and Respectless...ahh I loved them so much. Respectless was what sold me on Velvet. I was like, yes, she's perfect, she's great. I love an evil respectless woman.

I look forwards to seeing where they go with season 2. I'm hoping the Vee's become bigger villains, but also I want to see Lute have a bigger villain role. But also I want to see what's going on with Lilith and Alastor?? And also I feel sad for Sir Pentious being seperated from the others so I want him to see them again :( I really hope we get more than 8 episodes too ngl XD

As I write this, my girlfriend is taunting me with her fanfiction in which she's about to kill off a character >:( She tells me it'll be ok in the end but she's written very sad endings before and is an evil evil writer (affectionate) so do I believe her? ...a little, but not fully. XD

And you don't need to apologise!! I look forwards to hearing from you again!

[wheeboo]

ate ranini <3 imu sm huhu.

i recently showed a friend of mine on discord the cat naps series!! mainly bc we made an au of a college au for our ocs, which was similar but with dogs. i didn't realize 'til i reread cat naps (with you),,,, i love the ocs' relationship and i love mc and wonunu's relationship :( both make me sad in a positive way

also! for no reason whatsoever, here are two questions: (1) what's your favorite flower, and its symbolism? (2) if you know undertale, you probably know SOUL colors and their traits. among the seven canon ones, which one would u be?

(for #2, in case you dont know, here!!)

wahhh i hope your math test (or was it final,,) goes well!! and i hope good things come ur way this december and the coming years ^^

; 🌂

weiwei !! i miss you too i hope you've been well :(( <33

omg pls that's so cool you also made a kinda similar au too!! i'm so honoured you love their relationship ?? but like i can also agree i love them sm :(( prob my favourite couple i've written so far out of all my fics ngl. thank you for loving the series n showing your friend i hope they liked it <3

hmmm uhh i rlly like skeleton flowers and there's a lot of symbolisms for it but my personal fav is probably that it means healing! i also like hydrangeas and idk rlly know the symbolism that well but i think it can mean elegance ... ? (correct me if i'm wrong lmao). do you have a fav flower as well ?? :)

i don't know undertale that well but if i were to pick one of the soul colours i'd probably pick green!! (second option is cyan)

and thank you so much pls it's my last final for this sem i just have to get through it 💪 and i might treat myself after i finish it hehe (maybe some boba? 🤭)

i hope you have a lovely december and new year and upcoming years as well^^ i'll def come by and check you more often on disc n such hehe. wishing both of us a lot of love and stability <33 🫂

[flowersintheimpala69]

Unfortunately, i don't rlly read smut fics for the sake of smut (like i usually do it for an added angst element) so these may not be as pwp as you wanted. these recs may be boring and unfulfilling but i still wanted to offer up my meager scraps!! hope these recs don't all suck<3

summary:

Dean bites his lip, hesitating for a moment before continuing. Sam was open with him, so now it’s his turn. “Besides, I like taking care of you. Wish you’d let me do it more often, if I’m being honest.”

He walks over to where Sam is sitting on the bed, still gripping the little stuffed animal tightly. Dean reaches over and smoothes down the front of Sam’s hair gently. For a minute, he worries if he’s gone too far, said too much.

this fic is literally my all-time fav. i reread it every week. there's a (smut-less) part one that you technically can skip over but it's also rlly good ngl. anyways! this one does sort of have a plot-filled beginning but i swear to god the smut is so good. ageplay but in a way I've never really seen represented and i ate it up. emotional overtones so they're not just fucking nasty so if u want just a pwp probs skip this but i stg this fic is so so good.

summary:

Sam never should have questioned Dean's masculinity, but how was he to know it would end with him in a pair of panties?

yea. this is the good stuff. panty kink sam is as good as crack in my book. basically sam loses a wager to dean and has to wear panties and he likes it a little too much. a smidge of size kink.

summary:

Turns out the only thing more uncomfortable than sitting through class with a half-woody and a pair of panties wedged up your ass is doing it while your panties are soaking wet from your brother's mouth.

(Sam is 14).

another panty wearing sam what can i say I'm a simple woman. i enjoy reading abt that large-ass man with little lacy cotton stretched over his huge cock. anyways. weecest fuck nasty. it's riveting.

summary:

“You get to have this, Dean.” The brush of Sam’s mouth against his own is the sweetest ache. Lips catch and drag and Sam whispers into his mouth, “You get to have this. If you want this, I’m giving it to you. Let me give this to you.” Dean wants to say yes. He wants to say please and I love you and thank you. For the trust, the devotion, the care. It’s not something that has ever needed to be verbalised but god, in this moment Dean wants nothing more than to tell this boy just how much he loves him. “Yeah. Yeah, Sam — I want this.” The words taste like the sweetest freedom and a thousand more years of damnation but Sam’s tongue soothes the burn of them. Long fingers cradle the back of his head tenderly, so tenderly, like he’s something precious to be taken care of, and Dean’s chest feels fit to bursting with how much he loves this kid.

this is my fav daddy kink samdean + praise kink, the smut itself is amazing but the emotional build up is also very very well written just very yummy yummy

summary: A study on normality or lackthereof in the relationship between Sam and Dean Winchester.

wasn't sure if i should put this one here cuz it's def fucked up and def smutty but idk if it's in the way you meant? it's def really really good and one of the best explorations of weecest I've ever read but also really heavy. tw for like rlly rlly underage and child on child sexual abuse. sorry if this is out of left field!

thats all i rlly got sorry!! i should honestly read and bookmark more nasty pwp, yk, expand my horizons. anyways hope at least one of these piques ur interest!

in the mood for some fucked up, smutty samdean. any recs out there?

[shiinonomee]

Hey could u please write hcs on yakumos opinion on MC as the story progresses ? I remember him being like “I doNt tRuSt yOU” and then he’s all baby and I love him😂💕 (he catches feelings along the way ;) )

[lmaoo, I got you, fam. This got a little long because the game is long, but I’m happy with it. Kinda reminds me of something I’m writing, too, so it was excellent practice! Thanks for the request :)] 

Yakumo’s never not gonna be protective of the ones he cares about

He’s compassionate, but he also knows where to draw the line with strangers

He isn’t quite happy Louis is bringing some straight to Home Base, to say the least

In the group, he’s most def Louis’ right-hand man so you can bet he has something to say when you aren’t around to hear it

But he also respects Louis’ leadership and experience

He isn’t about to start a fight he knows won’t change anything—he just wants to know if it’s worth the risk

After he hears about your abilities, he’s cautiously intrigued

Somebody with an ability like that could be a flight risk if they think they’re in bad hands

Alternatively, if they’re smart, they can take advantage of those who are desperate

Again, he recognizes Louis has the last word and resigns himself to watching you closely

The best way to set him at ease is to invite him to partner up a lot and basically just spend time with him

When a few weeks pass and you and Io haven’t tried to rob them blind or drive them out by force, he settles

He’s not one to disturb the waters needlessly, he’ll play nice once you prove you aren’t a threat

It might give you a little whiplash, he can compartmentalize like a pro so it’s like a switch being flipped

You aren’t quite one of the friends he would die to protect yet, but he’s willing to let you help him watch over the ones that are

So…progress!

But given that his primary love language is almost definitely Quality Time, like I said before the more time you spend the softer he gets

By the end of the first boss battle, you guys are good pals (Eliot Waugh voice: I bond fast)

He’s given you his blood code and taken to showing you the ropes

He feels bad asking for help, himself when you have a lot on your plate, but he appreciates you helping return his memories too

From there it’s pretty self-explanatory that you…get closer as time goes on

At the Cathedral you regain your memories and learn of your status as Successor

After speaking to Aurora he realizes your job just got ten times more complicated

He jokes about you taking the Hunter’s offer but you tease he’d be lonely without you

He doesn’t outright say you’re right, but…

If there was ever a time for him to start getting soft it would be around the Ashen Cavern

He trusts you a lot by now and will confide in you what he remembers about life with his friends…and with Mido

Appreciates greatly any comforting words you have for him—this is a man he really never wanted to see again

He’ll act tough, but what he went through was traumatic

Stick to his side; it’ll be rough going for a while

But on the flip, he’ll come to see you as someone he can rely on too

He doesn’t do that often—doesn’t want to be the burden he tries to help everyone lift

But you make it so easy to be vulnerable, even for him

When shit really starts hitting the fan—finding Miguel, lost, Emily, a successor—you being there is what grounds him

You’re a raft in tumultuous waters

And when it’s over? When Miguel can rest, at least for a bit, and Emily is able to regain her mind? When he was able to face Mido down without wavering?

Well, he’s your ride or die, now

He’s newly resolved, and with his new mindset he sees you in a whole new light

Through saving Eva and chasing after Mido, not much changes outwardly because he feels too much is at stake to consider much more

It’s when Mido is defeated and you sign up to basically die that something starts stirring

Throughout the Provisional Government Outskirts, you notice a change in him

A hesitance—which is something not usually associated with Yakumo of all people

You catch him watching you all the time

He never admits to anything when you ask what’s wrong

He knows he can’t say anything without making it about him—he knows you’re suffering too; more than he ever could be

He stands, ever your protector, and leads you to the throne

The closer you get the more noticeable his strange behavior becomes

By the time you reach the second mistle inside the Center you’re sitting him down and insisting he talk about it

He just takes you into his arms and holds you

His face is in your neck and his arms are around your waist and you’ve never felt anything like what you feel now

“This sucks”

You can’t help but agree

That’s all he allows himself to say on the matter, and you both keep moving

The fight with the Queen comes and goes

Io sacrifices herself for the good of all and you’re conflicted with equal parts heartbreak and relief, to your guilt

Yakumo feels much the same

He doesn’t confess his feelings until much later; a lot’s happened and everyone needs time to process

But when he does, it’s out under the stars, staring at the mist from the balcony as you both remember the reason you are standing there today

[bonesandthebees]

I feel like my favorite fic writers have good taste in fics as well. Do you have any personal favorites?

OH BOY DO I EVER

I've given some fic recs before so I won't be repeating those, but new ones since then include

devil town by hoorayy - amazing small town horror, all the characters are so complex and the mystery is written so well, definitely had me on the edge of my seat. AMAZING atmosphere too

I can feel your heart beating under my skin by Drhair76 - medium/empath tommy + psychic ranboo + tubbo wanting to make a profit + sbi with a ghost problem = a really sweet fic about letting yourself be loved... it's so soft and makes me so happy to read, the atmosphere is great and the crimeboys is chefs kiss

Let's make clay figurines together by bari_astralis - art student tommy + substitute teacher wilbur makes for a really funny and sweet fic that deals a lot with how frustrating it can be to deal with the restrictions of school, especially when it comes to creativity. also this is the same author who wrote his curse of binding, which is one of my all times favs, so it's absolutely hilarious bc bari is a master of writing banter

unlikely events by Nymphii - I thought i'd gotten tired of dbh aus when we had the original dbh au phase back when tubbo played it, but apparently i'm not. this is a dbh au but it's focused on hank and connor's story only, with tommy as connor and wilbur as hank. the crimeboys friendship is such slowburn but it's written so well, and I really love seeing tommy grow from just an android to... well, maybe something a little more :) every time it updates I get so excited

Derail by libraryofalexandra - i hope this returns from the war soon... it's a foster care au fic but it starts out with just a very young wilbur being fostered by phil, and wilbur is... heavily traumatized from his past homes. phil is written so well in this, he clearly struggles but is trying his best to help wilbur as much as possible, and it's just such a realistic depiction of trauma and how difficult it can be, it's just so good

and lastly

cataclysm by thanotaphobia (roxy my beloved <3) - ngl, I'm only like 4 chapters in so far, it's definitely taking me a while to read but it's so good. like the worldbuilding in this is just SO COOL i'm so intrigued about the politics of everything. tommy is a child king whose kingdom has fallen to the Antarctic Empire, and is taken as prisoner back to the Empire. it's just so well thought out, I definitely need to catch up fully

[lutawolf]

oh! hi Luta~ 4am thoughts have reminded of a question i've had, that i have tried to find the answer for on the internet, but failed. so i am a big brat lover, all my fav characters are bratty or have sharp tongues or more mischievous. i am also really into kpop, and all my favourite group members are either the designated brat or super mischievous. and its like, that's what I want, in my heart of hearts, but i feel like i can't. i have a really really big deep fear of saying the wrong things and making people hate me more than I already hate myself (which i've gotten to a point where i can maybe say i don't hate myself on someday, so improvement!) but even with close friends, I hold back and never get playful or poke fun. even with your blog, ngl, I read your rule about always saying at least "Hi Luta" and I immediately want to do the opposite like a dumbass jfuisbxjanzjjre. so ... are like, broken brats a thing? bc that's what i feel like i guess. i also feel like a fake human most of the time, biggest of imposters. i exist in a state on constant fear, and like, i don't fight or flight, i freeze like a deer in the headlights. and that freezing and fear is the thing that's kept me alive probably, and i think i want out of it. but what if i am just a fake wannabe brat?? ???? is that possible??? but i guess mostly i wanna know if broken brats are a thing and can they be fixed. sorry for the wall of text, my brain isn't letting me break it up bc i need a physical representation that somewhat matches my thoughts in my head. tysm for reading this far if you did. sorry for being weird on main.

Hey nonnie,

We need to address a few things you said. That honestly have me concerned.

A) It's normal to feel some struggles concerning how we view ourselves. On loving ourselves but it should be surface level not any further.

B) Dove, you are more than surface level. The kink community is not where you fix this. It's incredibly unfair to not only yourself but a Dom who would try.

C) You have a problem with authority and it has nothing to do with being a brat. There isn't a brat who respects me that has an issue addressing me. Even a a good Dominant isn't going to have an issue because it's a sign of respect.

The dangers of you entering the kink community at this point. You would push a Dom to either using their's or your safe word. If you didn't freeze and not use your safe word at all. That is never the goal of a true Dom or submissive. We aren't here to hurt each other or break people but instead help find stability. A submissive, even a brat wants to serve and please. It's not about pushing authority until someone snaps. Even if one wants to be punished it isn't done like that. Even if you aren't concerned about yourself, think of the trauma you could cause a Dom.

What I'm hearing from you is you want to fight authority. Even if you respect it. You are seeking punishment. This usually means that authority figures have repeatedly failed you all while keeping control. So you are now spiraling because you neither want control but can't trust to give it up.

The “freeze” response happens when our brain decides we cannot take on the threat nor are we able to escape. Those with a freeze response have high anxiety. Freezing releases endorphins which serve to calm the body and are also pain relievers. Why would you need pain relief? Because freezing allows one to block out scary experiences that are too difficult to process.

Are you broken? No, but maybe a little cracked and in need of tlc. I once was actually broken but now I'm a survivor. Maybe I have to carry around peppermint to sniff and say the mantra "This Too Shall Pass" but I love and am loved. I also love myself.. now. I don't know what you have been through. I won't even try to guess based off the little I know. What I do know, is for you to have written this and started thinking about the future, that you're stronger than you think. You just need some tlc 🕊 Then we can work on the kink community part.

I wish you the best. Let know if there is anything I can do to help. 💜💜💜

[littlegodzilla]

Hi! (I'm the anon who asked you about your fav requests)

so my favourite story would be definitely Hitchiking, The Three of us and Toying time, little Dixon too

The hottest one would be again Toying Time, That fuckin thing, The Mac basement one is also pretty hot ngl (you should write more Mac 🥺) and the one with Marco where he has a breeding kink that one is also pretty hot!! Now that I think of it the theatre one and the piercing one is very hot too 😭😭 omg i can't choose.

So yeah these were my favourite requests of your so far.

Also you mentioned that one of your upcoming requests with Judas was disturbing but not in a bad sense 👀👀👀 I didn't quite understand what you meant. Judas is one my favorite Norman characters beside Daryl, Marco and Mac, I'm so excited for that story 🤗

And to answer your question about "what would I request" it could be a oneshot about Daryl being a Dad to Judith and pampering her and stuff

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Hi sweetie!! I didn't expect you answer me (usually anon doesn't answer)

I'm glad you liked all these stories, yeah I loved writing The three of Us too I only hated to have my mindblock and I couldn't finish it as I wished but it was pretty fun wrote this story.

About Marco and Mac I love bad guys and when I have any ideas or request I always love write about them, they awaken my evil side 😈 and maybe I'm working on one or two new ideas about Mac...👀

And about the Judas request I wanted to say that it's a little disturbing because I've never written anything like this, but it's nothing bad, I just need a little more time to think about it (it's a smutty request of course)

Daddy Daryl I love it too, the best part of 11B was when Daryl was with Judith and RJ he is so sweet and that smile he has everytime he speaks with them, I loved it.

[multifandomwhore-003]

Thank you so much for the tag @wint3r-h3art

First fic I've ever posted on here: It's not that big of a deal (JJ Maybank)

I remember posting this for the first time along with the many other fics that I had already written on Wattpad, I was so inexperienced on here now it's kinda funny to look back at all the things I changed over, and over, and over again to the original posts.

The soft fic (I'm not just gonna pick one ngl): Fucking Alaska (Rudy Pankow), Mornin' Juliet (Elliot), Coffee breath (Elliot) "Pregnant (Rewrite) 2, 3" miniseries (JJ Maybank), "He just needs time 2" miniseries as well (Fezco).

All of this fics made me so happy to write them yet so sad because my first thought was "Oh, I'm so single," I love all of these fics so much, the one that's most memorable to me is the first part of "He just needs time" it got around 400+ notes in less than 3 hours, by the next day it had gotten me 200+ followers and 1000+ notes, it was INSANE, from having 0 requests suddenly I would get at least one every day, just madness, complete madness. Same thing with all my Elliot fics, they also did well and I'm really grateful.

The fic that I'm most proud of (I'm also not just gonna pick one): "Black Dahlia 2" miniseries (JJ Maybank), Rules (JJ Maybank), Hypnotized (Rudy Pankow), I wanna escape to her too (TAMS! Peter Parker).

These fics hold such a special place on my heart for different reasons, "The Black Dahlia" miniseries was the first time I truly came out of my comfort zone in format, writing, themes; I did so much research on EVERYTHING about it, songs, figure skating, racism, and the amount of love and heart I put into it still kinda shocks me because of how good I think it is. "Hypnotized" was my first smut fic in which I also had to carefully come up with everything, I remember being so embarrassed as I kept writing because I wasn't a really sexual person at the time and it took me so long to kinda accept and come to terms with my sexuality, it's not perfect, but it meant so much to me to be like "Okay, having a sexual fantasy and writing it is completely fine, if they judge you fuck them,". "Rules" it's short, but the thing that makes or made me most proud of was how I managed to turn and twist this popular trope around the JJ Maybank fandom of breaking the rule of "No pogue on pogue macking," because everyone was writing that either JJ and the reader broke it, or they didn't but they wanted to, and so, I was like "Okay, what if she breaks it with someone else and he gets jealous and there like this whole thing of 'why not with me?'" and it was my "eureka" moment and I felt really good with myself of coming up with something a little bit different. "I wanna escape to her too" this fic is not at all unique or at least not the premise of it, but I knew I had to write something along the lines of grief to get it out of my system and although the story may not be super dramatic, or romantic, or anything like that, that fic is vulnerable as fuck and yes, it's about two people who are not me, but in the end that fic is the rawest I've ever been here.

The fic that shows my progress: "The blind boy/girl" miniseries (JJ Maybank)

*sighs* I remember coming up with these in the middle of class, and randomly writing the first part in like 20 mins straight, no distractions, and it was so surreal because of how beautifully invested I was in it, like seriously, after the first part I immediately finished the second; everything on this fic is carefully meditated and thought, nothing on it is a coincidence, nothing is unnecessary, to me it's "my perfect fic". It truly shows how far I've come, how my writing style has been more polished, and although I still play with more than one thing, or at least I try to, this is like the one fic you can put as a reference to identify any other thing I've written.

My fav WIP: Don't you know how to shut up? (Dylan O' Brien), DISCLAIMER, this may not be its final title.

Omg, y'all aren't ready, I'm kinda stuck on it atm, and trust me I open it daily to try and continue it, might have to rewrite some stuff, not gonna give away too much of it, all I'm gonna say is, that the playlist has been made, and once there's a playlist to a fic, YOU KNOW I'm INVESTED, okay?

(Hopefully) Y'all when you read it:

No pressure tagging: @sugarcoatedjj @endofthelinegang @pankowfruitsnacks

[boba-beom]

Hi there! Yeah, sure, I'm not that old, I just feel like it when kpop groups' members are all younger than me. 😅 A lot of my biases actually resemble Yeonjun (I don't know if you know about the MBTI personality types, but a lot of my biases are ENFPs like Yeonjun, so I see a pattern there...). But Soobin, oh boy, he's just so relatable, kind-hearted, precious and he takes such good care of the boys! 😌 Aaand you're not alone with that, Wooyoung, San (+Yunho) are my Ateez biases, so I feel you!❄

Oh my goooosh, girl, same! I changed my ringtone to Run Away too! *-* It holds a special place in my heart, mostly because I saw that Ateez x TXT video I've mentioned before in 2020 March when lockdown started in our country, so TXT was the group that I discovered during lockdown and I'm so thankful for that! Their songs gave me a lot of strength. 🥺 My favourite album is TDC: Eternity, closely followed by TCC: Fight or Escape. All TXT albums are smashing, but these two really stood out to me. ❄

I hope you got my second message because Tumblr didn't want to let me send it twice. :( Well, who knows? You can get to know that after the event. 🥰 I read Whisker Dimples last night and it was sooo cute and sooo funny, it was sooo like Beomgyu! I loved it a lot! 😍 That's right! We definitely learn as we go. 🥰 I've written a lot for BTS and EXO in the beginning, but now I write more about TXT, A.C.E, SF9, ONEUS, ATEEZ, ENHYPEN, GOLCHA, NCT, THE BOYZ, VERIVERY, VICTON, ASTRO, PENTAGON. 🥰

I definitely encourage you to write for Enhypen! I would love to read that. 😍 Oooh, such nice choices! So that means if I gift you a story for this event with one of your fav tropes and Beomgyu, would you be happy to receive it? *-* I love reading fantasy, mystery and dystopian stories, but I don't feel confident writing them. 🙈 I usually write lighter stories with hopeful messages or comedies. I also love cameos haha like Hybe boys mentions in a TXT story. ^^ Have a lovely weekend ahead! 🥰

I'll answer these all in one ask hehe, I fear I may be spamming the feed ^^ my answer to this ask will be under the read more <:

Omo there definitely is a pattern there! I, on the other hand, don't really have a pattern with my biases lol majority of my biases are either INFP like me hehe or just more on the introverted side 🧍‍♀️ though, Soobin, I agree, he's so precious!!! he's definitely climbing up my bias list too HAHAH I'm also still yet to get into ateez a little more, do you have any song recommendations? I've listened to deja vu and that's about it so far ^^ I have been listening to a lot more stray kidz though!! I really like their song Slump from when they performed it on One Take on yt! I started listening to stray kidz because of txt actually! I watched txt's live singing of crown and force~

no way!!! honestly, same though! I fell out of kpop for I think about 3-4 years, but I still listened to bts every now and then, I just wasn't up to date, but during May 2020 that's when eternally era arrived and my sister got me back into kpop with txt <: I agree though! TCC: FOE and TCC: Freeze have been my favourite playlists to listen to nowadays, especially dear sputnik and anti-romantic!

issokay I got it! tumblr can be a pain sometimes but hey ho,, and aweeeee thank you for reading whisker dimples 🥺 I really wanted to get beomgyu's goofy side since that's one of his personality traits that I love about him! I may not be able to make it as effortless as his but I still love it! oh wow! that's a lot of groups but that's also amazing ngl~ kudos to all writers who write for more than one or two groups, I shall definitely check out your stuff if I haven't already! I can't wait to see who you are after this event ends! I'm intrigued hehe

I think the only reason I'm hesitant to write for enha is because I really wanna read enough enha fics so I know I'm portraying each member correctly <: though, I have been with enhypen since the I-Land, so I shall try and test it out maybe!!

and of course! I'll appreciate anything I receive, honestly! but a fic with one of my fav tropes would definitely be something I'll cherish for a long time 🥺 but omg yes! I agree with fantasy and mystery, though I have not come across some dystopian fics now that I think about it, but I'm definitely open to reading that genre! But that's really nice! I love how you can incorporate that within your works because positivity and hopeful messages are definitely a need for everyone these days <3 I actually reading fics with cameos of other artists from a range of groups! It's nice to imagine their friendships because it's kinda sad and a little toxic how in the kpop industry they can't have girls and guys as friends because they'll assume otherwise :( ah well, that's what fiction is for! we'll go ham with our imagination hehe

have a wonderful weekend also! take care and we will talk again very soon!!

[amjustagirl]

nikki jieeee, I appreciate you a lot too, for all the stories written with love (and also outrun my reading speed far far more hhhhhhh), storm chaser will remain as one of my fav au 💖 I too love watching volleyball match with yall 🥺 all the screaming and simping over the only 3d men allowed to be mentioned in baobeis server 💀 and tyty for always indulging me in all the nonsense I've said TT and ngl I'm so happy to know that I'm not the only my/sg ppl lurking on this site hhhhhhh I love you nikki jie, for always taking care of us <3333 AND THE SAME GOES TO LIN AND LEA AND EVERYONE I KNOW TT I hope your cramps are getting better now

alamak why are all of yall so cute YOU DON'T HAVE TO APPRECIATE ME I DON'T DESERVE YOUR LOVE PLS i really just love you guys so much okay (you and lin and dee and lea and qunyh and niko and shay and yuren and basically everyone on our discord channels la). you guys make me feel like it's not so bad to be a grandma here on tumblr HAHA and yall actly encourage me?!?!?! and all the screeching about men on the man shaming channel and the love for the japanese vball team esp yanagida and ishikawa (I HAVE NO SHAME I WILL PROUDLY SAY IT HERE) and even all the sex positive talk on the baobeis discord has really really enriched my life - not just my experience on tumblr ugh ALL THIS TO SAY I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.

my cramps are better! but idk whether its cos of yoga or the 3 glasses of wine (which prob contributes to the fact that i have absolutely no filter now HAHAHA).