#this video is so cute yet i am so unwell about it

[bizarrelittlemew]

"yeees, good boy" "he'll turn around to come back to daddy, won't you" "c'mere, c'mere. yeah, I'll hold your hand. there you go. come back to me. good boy"

Rhys talking to his tiny robot

source: cameo for the Giggle Bytes where Rhys talks about robots for almost 20 minutes (twitter | direct link)

[kerubimcrepin]

Crepinlore and the 30-50 random games 90% of fandom has never heard about

This post, like everything else about this blog, is very self-indulgent. I discovered many things during its making, and I simply can't not share. So, let's begin with something you likely have literally never heard about, and go to more popular things from there:

KROSMASTER ARENA 3D

Krosmaster arena online was a video game it seems nobody played, and honestly, I am mentioning it here because I fear that if I don't document it, it will disappear, and it will turn out that it was simply a vision I had, as if in a David Lynch movie. Evaporating, like tears in rain.

I don't think anyone ripped/tried to rip/found a way to rip the models from it — and considering the fact they're pretty... mobile ad-core, not much may have been lost.

Anyway, here's Keke beating the shit out of some guy.

Wakfu Les Gardiens

Joris appears in the quest "The Tree of Life" of this game, which, as far as I'm aware, was updated in time with Wakfu episodes.

Even back then, Ankama knew that 1. Joris is very sus and 2. you cannot let him get close to you during a battle, or it's OVER.

It's all very cute.

There is something interesting I wanna say about this sprite, actually:

An alternate version of it exists, made as a concept for the Dofus MMO. I am assuming it was Juien Druant elaborating on the ways Joris might look in the game. The first two designs are: baby Joris (probably not used because he looks too young to be a 200 year old man...) and Welsh & Shedar 60yo Joris. They were combined to make the iconic Dofus MMO-era 200yo Joris design.

I'm quite sure that this sprite references the Les Gardiens one very heavily.

One More Gate: A Wakfu Legend

The first game in this list that actually has implications for real lore, and yet its plot is literally "it was all a dream that Oropo was having while inside the Eliacube"

For this reason, the events of this game are not entirely reliable — but are probably based in some way on the memories Oropo has.

The main contribution this game has to Crepinlore is a third Crepin, who might be an ancient ancestor of the brothers, whom Oropo met and remembered, some sort of cousin, or he might be based entirely on fiction, and inspired by Kerubim (though ehhh I severely doubt Oropo would care so much about him that he'd hallucinate a guy like him within Eliacube's fake world).

I really want to headcanon that the events of the game are based on something he really experienced, waaay before forming the brotherhood. But that's just my brain disaeses.

Here we can see the store itself.

Krosmaga

I saved the best for the last — Krosmaga.

A video of the casts of Dofus and Wakfu beating the shit out of each other

There are characters besides Atcham, Joris, and Kerubim in this game — Julith, Jahash, Lou... But I choose to concentrate on my favorite three ones. Or I will die fr.

If this Ecaflip gives the impression of constantly having a bad hair day, it's precisely because he doesn't have any! Brother of Kerubim Crépin, Atcham is fiercely jealous of the man he considers his worst enemy. And how could he not be, when not only does he occupy the prestigious position of Ecaflip's favorite son, but also displays his dense, silky fur without any modesty or sensitivity?

Here are his three forms:

I'm.,. unwell about the white one. I have to draw Atcham in a Bontarian getup one of these days.

They're really giving a fight to this Joris costume recolor from a Christmas event in one of the MMOs... (Now I want to see Kerubim in red too!)

On topic of Joris,

Adopted son of Kerubim Crépin, Joris is a curious and mischievous little boy. His favorite pastime is listening to the childhood adventures of his beloved "Papycha". And when he's too busy serving customers in his antique store, he's off playing with his best friend Lilotte! An avid boufbowl player and fan of Khan Karkass, Joris also hopes to become a star of the horned ball. While his destiny may already be mapped out on the stadium pitch, his origins are much less clear… But the good thing about not knowing where you come from is that you can imagine anything! For the little boy, there's no doubt: his parents were great boufbowl players, and it doesn't matter if it's true or not!

Here are his alternative forms:

I LOVE THE WAY HIS ADULT SELF IS DRAWN IN THIS GAME... I'm insane.

And now, last but not least: Kerubim.

Judging by his adventures, Kerubim seems to have had more than 9 lives! From small-time opera rat, to Bontarian police officer, to lawyer: the least we can say is that during his youth, the man Joris calls his Papycha never stopped working! So much so that today, the owner of the antique store Aux Trésors de Kerubim takes advantage of his free time to purr quietly in his armchair, or to tell his adopted son about his past adventures. Past? Well, not quite! Because when the terrible witch Julith arrives to retrieve Jahash's Ivory Dofus, and seems intent on attacking Joris, the old tomcat doesn't hesitate to get in her way. With Kerubim, there's no age limit to being a hero!

Once again, it is confirmed that the store's name s literally "Aux Trésors de Kerubim". Sorry, I'm insane about the name of the show being the name of the store.

And his alternative forms:

He's beautiful.

[suratan-zir]

Remember I shifted the responsibility to you? Y'all got me into trouble.

this is yet another post about rats, I'm sorry

About a week ago, I was feeling exceptionally anxious and overall unwell, so I did what I typically do to make things even worse. I looked through the rat ads online and found what I was looking for. In a city next to my town, a classic case of a rat in a tiny prison cell. Most likely bought for a child who got bored of it, either because it's not as cute anymore, its claws are too sharp, it smells bad or whatever the reason is. I've rescued quite a few of such unfortunate rats in the past. My most beloved rat of all times, Bambook, the little guy on my user icon, once was rescued from these conditions:

(yes, I keep the old screenshots because I'm sentimental like that)

So when I saw this post, my brain went like "this will be Bambook number two, same age, same conditions, even at the same price! I'll save him, love him and finally, after over a year of grieving, will let Bambook go"

(mind you, this rat is only 4-5 months old, very skinny and weighs 300 grams. Adult males can weight from 600 to 700 grams on average. Yet in this cage he looks big because of how small it is)

I went to that city, two teenage girls, who were looking kinda scared for some reason, handed me this tiny boy. I was asked to bring "a box or something" because "the cage is sold separately". I brought a carrier that was probably bigger than the torture devise they call a "cage".

I could barely talk to them, they started almost running away immediately after handing me the rat. Initially I didn't think much of it, I'm sort of used to people being scared of me. I'm told that I have a weird gloomy, unfriendly look on my face. But they probably wanted to get rid of him before I notice...

On the way home the rat was sweet and gentle, licking my hands and enjoying being petted. But when we got home…oh boy. I always knew that male rats can exhibit hormonal aggression, especially at the age of 6-8 months. But in the years of keeping rats, I never ever encountered such aggression towards humans. Guess I was just lucky.

At first he's cute and cuddly, calm even, then something switches inside his brain and in an instant he goes into killing mode. He attacks not only hands, he bites even knees and thighs, basically every body part he can reach. Then he calms down and demands pets again. He not only bites, but thinks I'm his bitch. After what he did to my hands and knees, they might be pregnant… The girls mentioned that he lived with another rat before they moved him to that cage. I assume it was a female and he mated with her, which made him even more hormonal.

So, everyone, meet Skritch. He went to horny jail and they stole his balls.

Also, the photo where he's stoned is the best photo I have of him, because he won't stop moving.

Skritch is smart, sweet and very friendly whenever he's not attacking me.

He was neutered only yesterday, so it is too early to judge the changes in his behavior. But he no longer bites my hand in the cage, even when we wrestle, which is a huge improvement. But unfortunately, he still didn't pass the couch test. (couch is the place where he gets most aggressive, probably because of the smells of other rats)

He attacked me only once today, the result you can see on the video, it's not nearly as bad as his bites were before. And after that, as always, he acted all innocent and affectionate and fell asleep by my side.

I already love him so much, even if he's a menace. But I am so not looking forward to introducing him to my other boys. Something tells me it's not gonna be easy.

[strhwaberries]

okay, i just want to briefly talk about the wayv fanmeeting so if you’re curious pls read but just know that i’m highly emotional and these are my own feelings and maybe it’s not going to be a super accurate account at all

so first what i want to say is that when they arrived on stage we noticed kun was sitting on a chair while the other four were performing, idk if that was the case in london as i haven’t seen any videos but just to say that yet again, an idol is physically unwell after a very long tour, and ofc he apologized to us and we told him not to, and he was like “i’m feeling better already so maybe i’ll dance a little tonight�� and we were all like nooooooo pls rest, also i have to say this in passing but he looks better for real ?? like how ?? kun pls calm down, i know you used to be my bias but don’t come for me like that

anyway. ten. let’s talk about ten. another man i used to bias. coming for me again too. well well well. obviously the man loves his cats so he travels with cute pictures of them, how can i not fall for that, it’s just impossible. he showed us pics of his previous trips to paris where he had shorter hair and he was like “oh should i cut my hair” and everybody screamed nooooooo and surely that would be a crime, he looks extremely good with longer hair, why is that dude so attractive, also why is he so goddamn cute with cat ears when he asked us what was the french word for nyan and we said miaou and he said it and oooohhhh goodbye my heart, also all his interactions with yangyang are so cute it’s like two brothers, and when yangyang said they didn’t need to go see the mona lisa bc they had ten, why are these men so adorable, i love love love them so much, but i was supposed to talk about ten and now i digress bc i’m thinking of yy

my baby. idk, i don’t have the words, but he said “bonjour je m’appelle yangyang” and i was gone, i ascended and i’m still high up there, i can’t help it how my eyes will always seek him and how i’m always transfixed by his presence on stage, like yes i’m aware there’s ten and kun and even xiaojun but YANGYANG, i only want to look at yangyang when he’s dancing

oh bc yes i forgot to say, i had a seat way up high but right in front of the stage so i had a really good view - unlike at the atz concert where i couldn’t see a thing - so ig maybe that’s why i’m super happy, it’s really nice to actually see the choreos - and yes i typed whoreos and then corrected myself but my god they did love talk and nectar so what am i supposed to say, i love when men are sexy on stage, i love when they’re cute also, kpop is bad for the heart but it also makes me so happy, i hope they know they saved me, like literally, even my mom said i sounded good on the phone today, i wish i could have told them but maybe i’ll do that another time, they promised they would come back for a real concert and i know they always promise that but i hope this time it’s true, i know they want to come back to europe, esp yangyang he looked super emotional when he talked about how he used to live in germany, i bet he was super disappointed they didn’t stop there

i’m talking too much so i’ll just finish with this, they sound amazing live, they’re super fun and endearing, apparently hendery has a lot of french fans, like the venue literally went crazy every time he did or said something, and ten bought macarons and coffee and a lovely antique mirror and wine and cheese and yeah if yangyang wasn’t up there ten would be my man but it is what it is, honestly the dude knows what’s good about life, i’ll just stop there but i’m going to cherish this moment for a very very long time - and i almost didn’t go bc i was feeling so depressed but i’m glad i did even tho i was stuck in traffic jams coming and going and there were thunderstorms on the highway, it was totally worth it

[dreamingsushi]

Legend of the White Snake - Episode 31

Gongfu follows out Xu Xian and asks him wether Suzhen is a demon or not. Xu Xian won’t asnwer that question and keeps on saying Suzhen is a good person and he swears on his life that nothing will happen to Jiaorong and the baby.

But when he comes back to their room, he sees Suzhen doing something to Jiaorong through a spell. He stops her and asks what is she doing. She then tells him she’s helping her and finally gets to tell him what happened. The inner demon is going to use the kid to amplify itself and become super powerful. Suzhen can’t think of another way than to get rid of the child even though it’s innocent. He tries to convince her to not to do anything to harm the baby, but she won’t listen because by doing so she’s saving more lives.

Ruyi keeps company to Jiaorong and pushes her into thinking that Suzhen is a demon and that they should get rid of her.

Finally, somebody has enough common sense to go and see Fahai. I mean, he’s the best at dealing with demons, right? So Xu Xian goes and asks for advice. Then Fahai tells him that if an inner demon comes to life, it’s because it has received like.. stimulus? Something must have triggered it. But Xu Xian doesn’t tell the absolute truth, he says everything at home is fine, nothing to say about Suzhen and Xiao Qing. Then Fahai gives him a pill that can suppress Suzhen’s magic so they can grow old together like normal humans. Xu Xian doesn’t really want to do that, afterall Suzhen spent a thousand year to get to where she is now.

Back home, Jiaorong tries to make Xu Xian take Ruyi as a second spouse since Suzhen didn’t give birth to any baby yet. Of course, Xu Xian refuses. And right then Xiao Qing and Suzhen get back. Hearing this, Xiao Qing gets pretty angry. She’s like you weren’t pregnant for seven years, how come you didn’t let Gongfu take a second wife? Suzhen and Xu Xian have been wed for only a year yet. Suzhen stops her from talking though. Well not enough, because who can really control Xiao Qing? Suzhen asks for forgiveness instead of Xiao Qing, she’s speaking before thinking. Then Ruyi talks about the day in the temple again. But it’s Xu Xian who shuts her up. He doesn’t want to ever hear again about having to take a second wife.

Xu Xian found a cute little house for him to live with Suzhen. It was about time they moved out I mean. But Suzhen doesn’t want to go yet because she doesn’t feel safe about the baby and the inner demon. It’s getting stronger and stronger. As people pass by their house, they all get contaminated by the evil aura. It even contaminates Xiao Qing.

Suzhen goes to see Jiaorong and touches her belly then realizes the baby is about to come out. Right then Xu Xian comes in and takes her away. He begs her not to kill the baby, but she’s not really willing to listen. So he decides to call out for Fahai’s help. Wow. He’s going to give that pill to Suzhen. And of course, Ruyi has to happen to be right next to them and hear everything.

It seems like Suzhen found a way to know how to protect the baby. She uses her power to seek information into the books of Jinshan temple, helped by Xiao Qing. She’s going to go back to the nine heavens to get the thing that will be able to save the baby and Jiaorong. That same night though... Xu Xian gave her Fahai’s thing...

And now she’s going to the nine heavens and her powers won’t be able to come out to protect herself. THAT IS SO VERY BAD.

And now Jiaorong is about to give birth. Xiao Qing tries to keep Xu Xian out of the room. The baby can’t be born before Suzhen comes back. I AM SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW.

Suzhen  meets with a soul and it helps her after she guesses right her riddle. But when she tries to leave she gets caught and barely manages to escape. And I believe something is wrong yep. She got trapped by the deity.

THIS IS SO NERVE BREAKING. Xiao Qing still won’t let them in and Gongfu is going crazy. Omg. I hope Suzhen makes it on time before the pill Xu Xian gave her works.

Omg I am crying out of stress. This is looking really bad and I feel so stressed out. Then the soul that helped Suzhen chose her as her mother. But they notice that she’s losing her powers and they fear she might not be able to get out then. please help her. Suzhen gets hurt so badly trying to leave and has to take back her snake form... Oh no... She won’t be able to return to her human form...

The evil spirit went out of Jiaorong’s body and went inside Gongfu instead. What. I can’t anymore. I’m like shaking from everywhere and screaming and my heart beats so fast. I’m feeling really unwell. Like very very bad. It’s fortunate I’m not doing video reactions, because I would definitely scare people. Even myself. Omg. I have never been that unwell while watching a drama. What is this?

[schnooglepuffs]

Can you do an isugou cuddling? It's my religion

Sorry for the slowness again ^^;Here you go, two of our best girls snuggling ^^

Fic below the click!

***

In Flew Isu=======

Isuzu chapped the door impatiently. She had already knocked a few times but to no avail. She opened the letterbox and yelled “Helloooo?” through it, starting to worry that perhaps noone was at home.

Finally the door opened and an incredibly annoyed Rin with extreme bedhead answered.“Oh hey sleepy! Momo told me you were back.” She looked him up and down, staring at his bare chest. “Nice cleavage, more impressive than mine!” She joked, sticking out her tongue. Rin snarled slightly, he was clearly not in the mood. “C'mon, don’t be like that, you know I’m just messing with you Rin-Rin. Can you allow me in to visit the princess? Or is she in another castle?” She chuckled with the characteristic Mikoshiba grin. Rin rubbed his eyes and yawned. “Don’t call me Rin-Rin. Just be glad you aren’t one of your brothers,” he replied grumpily.“…and why is that?” She enquired, smirking at him.“Well, for a start, I would have punched you for calling me that. Also there is NO chance I’d be allowing either of them in here right now. Sou and I both have a hangover and-”“Oooooh SOU IS HERE! Is that why you’re only wearing pantsu? Oh my god, is he naked? SPILL THE BEANS!” she teased, raising an eyebrow. “Is that why my brothers wouldn’t be allowed in, hmmm? Incase they discover some dirty little… or even dirty BIG secret?” she winked. Winding Rin up was so much fun.

He slid his palm down his face and groaned. “Urgh. Momo is too loud and hyper for this hangover, I’d literally have to kill him to shut him up. Seij is far less irritating but his laugh would cut glass and right now my brain can’t deal with loud noises,” he said, defeated. “If you can keep maniacal laughter to a minimum then I guess you can come in. Gou is in her room, I’ll show you where it is.”

—

“Here we are,” Rin said, suppressing a yawn. “Try not to be too loud, I have a splitting headache.” Isuzu gave out a mischievious giggle. “I’m sure that Sou can help you with your ‘head’ if you ask him nicely,” she grinned. She heard a snort of laughter coming from further down the hallway and couldn’t supress the guffaw that escaped her lips. She grinned at Rin and winked at him again; He facepalmed and muttered “Damn it, Sou…” beforeretreating to his room.

“Gou-chan…” she said as she knocked on the door, awaiting a response. She heard a hacking cough then a small voice saying “Come in,” followed by some more coughing. Isuzu opened the room door and stuck her head in. “Hey Gou-chan!” She said cheerfully, looking around the room. It was her first time visiting and she knew not to expect it to be perfect; she had arrived entirely unannounced and knew it was unlikely that Gou would have tidied the place while unwell. The room wasn’t particularly untidy, but the blinds were drawn, the window was closed and the room smelled of stale air and sweat. Gou was bundled up in a large pile of blankets, shivering despite the large number of layers.

“I heard you were sick,” Isuzu began. “Momo told me you had the flu or something… I genuinely thought he was exaggerating, but now I can see that he was telling the truth.” She couldn’t hide the look of concern on her face. Gou coughed and smiled weakly. “Yeah, I can barely move,” she replied. “Everything hurts. I can’t even get to the window to open it. It smells like illness in here. Sorry that your first visit is disgusting,” she said sadly, trying to hide under a blanket in embarrassment.“That’s okay, don’t worry about it” Isuzu said, striding across the room to open the blinds and window. “There, at least you can get some fresh air now,” she added as she sat on the edge of the bed, patting the human sized lump under the pile of duvets.

“Thanks for coming to visit me, Isu-chan,” Gou croaked as she reemerged from the blanket. “I appreciate the company,” she added before a wave of realisation hit her. “Wait… Isu-chan, doesn’t it take seven hours by train to get to Iwatobi from Tokyo?” “Yes it does,” Isuzu grinned. “I didn’t get the train though, a flight plus a taxi to your door took around an hour and a half. I even stopped to buy you some soup from a cafe on the way here.” Smiling, she handed a styrofoam cup to Gou.“I hope you like chicken, they didn’t have any other types of soup left.”

Gou was overwhelmed. Isuzu had literally travelled around 700km and through 9 different prefectures just to bring her soup. “Th-thank you, Isu-chan!” Gou buried her face into the cup, hoping she could blame the blush on the soup’s heat.“Hey it’s no problem,” smiled Isuzu, noting the pink hue that had graced Gou’s cheeks. "I am assuming I can stay for a few days though? That way I don’t have to travel all the way home until Sunday evening and I can keep you company,“ she said, clasping Gou’s hand in her own; it was cold and clammy due to the sickness.

“Of course you can stay,” said Gou, her voice cracking as yet another coughing fit started. Isuzu raised the back of her hand, pressing it to the other’s forehead to check her temperature. “Geez, you have a cold sweat all over! You poor thing, you are still shivering. Do you feel cold? As your brother has self-inflicted head pain, he will be no use whatsoever when it comes to looking after you. Good thing I arrived when I did!”Gou smiled. “Great, you can nurse me back to health,” she said jokingly between coughs.“Oh dear, I didn’t bring my nurse outfit…” Isuzu teased, earning another blush from Gou. “Move over. I’m going to try and warm you up.”

Isuzu climbed in under the mountain of duvets and blankets as Gou moved to the side. The bed was only a single, so it was a tight squeeze to fit both of them in it without one of them falling off. “C'mere,” Isuzu whispered, pulling Gou closer, resting her chin on the other’s shoulder. Gou did the same, tightening their embrace.“You have great deltoids, Isu-chan,” she sighed. “You’re really nice and warm, too…”“…and you have great glutes, Gou-chan!” Isuzu teased, squeezing a buttock with one hand. Gou squealed. “Oh my god Isuzu…!” She giggled. Isuzu couldn’t keep a straight face and began laughing as well.

Loud banging on the wall interrupted their amusement.“So help me Gou, you are my sister and I love you, but if you two don’t stop being so noisy in bed together I will personally barge in and suffocate you both!” Rin yelled.“Awesome, suffocate me with your pecs, Rin!” Isuzu yelled cheekily with a wide grin. She winked at Gou before they both broke out into shrieks of laughter, tears streaming down their faces.

“Feeling a little better?” Isuzu asked when they finally managed to calm down. She cuddled Gou more tightly, still sharing her bodyheat. Gou snuggled in a bit closer. “A little, thank you. Oh my god, I can’t believe you yelled that at nii-chan, I wish I could have seen his face,” Gou giggled, trying to stifle yet another bout of laughter with a duvet. “I can just imagine the look of annoyance and confusion; Sou probably laughed at him for quite some time, he will never hear the end of it,” she chuckled.“Maybe Sou managed to take a picture… or maybe even a video!” Isuzu sniggered.“Oh god, I hope so,” snorted Gou.

Outside the sky grew darker and the conversation died down. Isuzu was determined not to let go until Gou felt warmer. She herself was overheating slightly due to the volume of blankets, but Gou still felt rather cold to the touch. “Mmm, sleepy.” Gou sighed into Isuzu’s ear. “Isu-chan… lets just go to sleep. Your shoulder is really comfortable and your hugs are warm,” she said as she began to drift off. “Thank you for taking care of me…”Isuzu smiled as Gou let out a tiny snore. “Cute,” she thought, gently brushing her fingers through Gou’s hair as she slept. “Sweet dreams Princess; I’ll be here when you wake up.”

***Bonus:

[getoswhore]

Hey Bella…Those voice things are pretty neat and a good idea. They definitely sound kinda like how my brain was reading you. Really soft yet hyperactive tone. Honestly today’s been a day for you it seems, anons asking for banning, videos that aren’t working, quite the busy bee. I’m not gonna give that one time on the SA and rape thing because of…various reasons outside of it happening later. Am I annoyed? Yeah, but it’s just another naïve person who doesn’t…understand the ill will they wish upon others. As for the reading things, it makes me happy that you’re actually trying something new, even though it isn’t working currently 😅. Glad to see you just enjoying yourself though. Makes me really proud, except the no water or actual nutrition…do I need to start my checkups and go digging for the character anons again? ‘M not happy, but can’t control your life…just worried about your health is all.

If you’re asking about mine it’s been okay. I had a social anxiety attack which is very interesting because those are my silent ones. Like you wouldn’t be able to tell unless I inform you it’s happening. It’s not a great thing but comes in handy. A friend of mine turned 18, she’s actually asleep next to me. I’m normally the night owl on the rarest occasions, but you know. And I am getting the prom dress made! It’s paid for now it’s the waiting game. Too bad I can’t find a prom date because I’m known as “quiet” and “smart” or my mom’s kid because she’s a teacher at the school I go to. I am also magically talking to a 25 year old now…it’s fun and he calls me pretty which makes me feel nice but Idk anymore. That’s the sun up of the last couple of days. Honestly need to be more active but brain gets side tracked here. Oh! And if the thing gets working can I hear you ramble about what you would say to Geto if he randomly appeared beside you in bed? Like real life not fake or imaginary. Just because I know my phrasing to mine would be fun.

Love you bunches Bella. Please do take care of yourself! 😘

heyhey, darling, a lot under the cut. <33

yeah, it was fun for awhile, but i got tired quickly n decided to delete them all cause i was feeling weird afterwards fkgmdk hm idky but i just get super icky about stuff like that.. also, pls dw about that shitty anon, that are clearly unwell and doesn't understand the difference of reality and fiction, and the real effects it can have on a person.. sigh.. we just ignore them and don't give them our energy!1!1 also, pls dw, m super big on my health, but last night was just a, hm.. a pat on the back for always keeping up with myself, yknow? i rlly have a big sweet tooth, so once i start eating it's hard to stop jwnfjs but i work out a lot! so no need to worry, pls you're so cute ifmgmfmg

and talking about health, i really hope you're taking care of yourself as well, mentally and physically. and these panic attacks bb :(( are they getting worse? if you don't mind me asking ofc, like when do you realize they start to come up? around big groups of people? meeting new people? :(( augh, i just feel so bad cause ik how it truly feels, and they are icky :(( i really do hope it settles and doesn't worsen over time, so pls don't overthink things, ik in the moment your mind is all over the place but stay as calm as you can bb :(( or just completely walk away if you need to :/

AWW THE PROM DRESS OFMGMFMG I BET YOUR GONNA LOOK HOTTER IN IT AAAAH 😻😻 i wish to see!11! as long as your comfy ofc, AND M SURE SOMEONE WILL LOVE TO GO WITH YOU. but you always have your besties if anything 😈😈 and that 25 yr old.. hm.. ik your grown but older men can be scary sometimes.. but as long as he's not preying on you or doing any weird shit and only treating you right, it's ok. <33 keep me updated if anything. <33

[simplyotome]

LEON’S SEASON 2 THOUGHTS + SPOILERS BC WOW HOW CAN I NOT TALK ABOUT THIS??

I had this post in the works for days but finally getting to it. 

Might as well just add a ‘keep reading’ tab because who knows? Some fans might not have the story yet and I don’t want to ruin anything. 

Let’s not kid ourselves, I’ve been more than ready for this story and honestly, the first time reading it...it hit me like a bus. I couldn’t keep up because DRAMA plus Voltage finally gave it after eons of teasing.

Plus Leon’s my bias god so...

I swear I had to read this story twice just to comprehend it and like pinch myself in between slides that it’s real.

ANYWAYS!

MOVING ON!

MY REACTIONS A MESS. It’s just as jumbled up as I typed it way back when. But I just am too lazy to change it. 

This story just shot of the gate. Voltage wasn’t pulling punches. They said it’d be “epic” and they were right. The drama chart just hit a peak with Leon’s main stories. 

Plus we’re barely into the second chapter when things go nsfw with the love making holy jesus i was like woahhh but im here for it

But I’m also here for those sweet love confessions. 

Leon’s always like “words aren’t enough to convey how the depth of my love for you” but sweet talk me away

ANYWAYS 

PLOT TIME

It’s crazy that Leon is the next candidate for being the King of the Heavens with this Heaven’s Rift thing. He doesn’t care for it. But hey ho guess what MC is in the way of the plan so basically it’s time to elope.

They hide (?? because it’s in MC’s apartment which is a secret known to everybody at this point) from the King and his new controlled cohorts. But I love the domestic fluff man. Aside from threat of death aside this was cute af. But come on!! Leon stealing meatballs was so adorable!!!! Plus being smug as fuck while doing it, man what a guy. It’s hard to be mad. 

I was reeeeeally hoping I’d see or read something about Leon being in a kimono but there was nothing. But I guess I can go to Hakuouki and find Leon’s VA voice a character in a kimono so I guess I can live. This blog shamelessly promotes Hakuouki btw. 

BUT we do meet up with MC’s mother. Which was short but nice. Leon not putting up his usually haughty airs and genuinely happy to know how loved MC is--though he does mentioning loving MC more which I’m like yesss 

NOW THIS BRINGS UP THAT IMAGE VOLTAGE TEASED OUT.

Of course when I saw MC with the knife during that first teaser CG, I knew she was being controlled. Fucking called that shit.

BUT I DIDN’T EXPECT HER TO GUT HERSELF.

I WAS MORTIFIED and also impressed because she had the willpower to do it. MC I’m sorry if I ever doubted you.

BUT 

THE MENTION OF LEON SCREAMING.

HOLY FUDGE. THAT GAVE ME CHILLS!

HE’S NEVER DONE THAT. EVER. 

AND HE KNOWS HE CAN’T DO ANYTHING TO HEAL HER. 

THE HILLS ARE ALIVE WITH THE SOUNDS OF MUSIC LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

I LOVED THAT ANGST! 

NOT ONLY THAT, IN THE END TO SAVE HER LIFE, LEON GIVES MC ONE OF THE STARS IN HIS EYES TO LIVE AND SEPARATES HIMSELF FROM HER.

Side note: I love how he address how much he loves her before they part.

Because he admits her falling under the King’s control wasn’t because of her doubting her love for him, but rather: she was torn between her love for him and the those she loved on earth. Especially when she had nightmares of their lives were threatened. Her compassionate heart is a strength and he acknowledges it and I was so incredibly moved.

BUT YO TO MOVE FORWARD:

THIS FUCKING CG

I WAS LIKE WHAAAT???

I ALWAYS WONDERED ABOUT THIS

SURE IT’S THE OPENING VIDEO

BUT HOLY FUCK WHAT A MOVE

VOLTAGE I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE

I was tearing up. Goddamn.

I also have to do a shout out to the other gods honestly.

This story wouldn’t have ended so nicely had they all not found MC, who was stuck on earth after being separated from Leon and without any memory of him or the other gods.

I expected the Department of Wishes would want things to work out for Leon, of course being his Department, but the Department of Punishments guys stepping up? Wow, even Zyglavis, a man who is disgusted with Leon more than anyone, defended Leon and MC’s relationship.

Heaven was hell without Leon’s love for MC. 

They all knew it and there was no choice to reunite them because they were stronger together.

Wingmen. All of them. And they bring her up while she doesn’t even have a clue who they are or who Leon is. 

I’m a sucker for amnesia plots, guys. I just gotta confess it now. Finding out the King had taken Leon and MC’s memories of each other was great. And that part when they reunite in heaven and look at each other with no clue who the other is...that was my jam. GRAB ME MY TWO SLICES TWELVE GRAIN BREAD. LET ME MAKE A SANDWICH OF THIS. I’LL GOBBLE IT UP.  I’m simple ok? I live for this kind of drama. 

BUT WAIT: MC IS PREGNANT???

The gods berated MC for not “seeing the signs” but fuck you guys I didn’t expect that! Sure she felt unwell and had a minor episode of feeling sick, but I thought that was from fucking sticking herself in with a knife??? Obviously???

I was surprised the child survived!

A miracle indeed.

Which underlines what Leon and MC’s relationship is. As a god and human, truly, a relationship born of that.

Surprisingly I got the happy end which was honestly one of my favorite parts because everyone is getting a long. I love how each god is looking after MC and even more worried about her because she’s with a child.

OH BUT THIS BEAUTIFUL CG THOUGH:

WAITING FOR THIS SEASON 2 WAS WORTH IT!

I need to see new official Leon art in his new attire now!!

ALSO shout out to MC! I loved that MC’s tenacity to work still showed in the Happy Ending!! Being pregnant won’t stop her! Ha, love it. 

So was this a good story?

Yes, I personally thought it was! The more I read it, the more I like it! 

The ending is very sweet. Almost a bit bitter for me because there’s so much changing. The prior King is dead. I’m going to miss his trickster ways. But hey fuck it: Leon and MC are married! And the gods are having a great time!

AAAND THAT’S ALL I GOT

THANKS FOR READING

GOOD NIGHT

[basketcase789]

Mistaken IV

“Caught in this game of unmet expectations I want to leave it all behind.” - Amanda Falk

Group: Seventeen Member: Woozi (feat. others) Genre: soulmate au, angst, fluff Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Your eyes flew open, and you needed to take a moment to orient yourself. It seemed you’d fallen asleep on the couch last night after the concert. You groggily moved your hand around in search of your phone and found it nestled beside you - when you glanced at the screen you were surprised to see it was only 5:30 in the morning.

The nightmares were getting worse. You’d just woken from a dream where Jihoon told you he never wanted to see you again, and it wasn’t entirely wrong; after the way he’d looked at you yesterday he’d all but said the words. It felt almost as real as your revelation dream had.

Knowing you wouldn’t be able to fall back asleep, you grabbed your jacket and decided to go out for a walk. You decided to forego food, as you weren’t particularly hungry.

You wandered around, first walking throughout your neighbourhood and then heading downtown. You weren’t sure where your feet were taking you, but deep down you were hoping you’d somehow run into Jihoon out here in the streets. Although you didn’t know what you would say to him if you did. But the universe supposedly wanted you two together, right?

You continued walking for hours, eventually feeling lost and cold. The frigid weather definitely didn’t help, but you’d had a chill you couldn’t seem to shake ever since the concert last night.

If you were hungry, you didn’t notice.

If your legs hurt, you didn’t notice.

You were still hoping the universe would let you get another glimpse of Jihoon, if only to apologize to him, before he and the others left for their next concert. They’d said they would be leaving after today, and who knew the next time you’d get to see him.

But you never crossed paths. Realistically, when you thought about it, he was probably laying low inside their hotel until they had to leave. He obviously didn’t want to see you.

Still, you didn’t want to give up.

It started to snow lightly, and the sky darkened as the evening grew late. You walked until you couldn’t walk anymore. You didn’t even notice when you collapsed to the ground, and couldn’t get back up.

You awoke to the sound of steady beeping. You groaned - if you didn’t know any better you’d have thought you’d been run over by a dump truck. Your eyes were heavy, but after a couple tries you managed to open them.

“Good, you’re awake.”

It looked like you were in a small hospital room. The gentle voice came from the end of your bed, where a man in white robes stood reading over your chart. He had very soft facial features, and he looked young.

“I’m Dr. Choi,” he said. “But please, call me Ren.”

“You’re a doctor? But…”

“I look too young, right?” He smiled, and if it was possible he looked even more gentle and reassuring than he had a moment ago. “I get that a lot. It’s because I was in an accelerated program. Don’t worry though, I was top of my class, so you’re in good hands.”

“Why am I here?” you said, and tried to sit up.

“That’s what I’m here to find out. I was called here a few days ago because no one could seem to find out what was wrong with you.”

“Wait - a few days ago?” You brought a hand up to your forehead, noticing an IV attached to your arm for the first time. “Oh no, that means I’ve missed work.”

“Don’t worry, your co-worker was in and said she’s taking care of your shifts for you. Now, can you tell me the last thing you remember?”

You sighed. “Umm… I was walking around, and… thinking about my soulmate...”

“Oh, speaking of, we didn’t have your soulmate’s contact information on file. I’d recommend having them come by to see you, they must be very worried about you.”

“About that…” You frowned. If it had been a few days, that meant Seventeen had completed their last concert and were probably back in Seoul already. “It won’t be possible. He’s in South Korea right now.”

Ren’s voice softened in understanding. “Have you been experiencing any chest pain recently? How about chills?”

“Yes, both actually.”

“And when was the last time you ate before you lost consciousness?”

“Uhhh…”

Ren put your chart back in its spot at the end of your bed. “I think I know what’s wrong. Sometimes when we’re separated from our soulmates for too long our immune systems weaken. Besides feeling generally unwell, other symptoms can include chest pain, chills, mood swings, changes in appetite… sound familiar?”

“Oh… yeah, that sounds like me. What’s the remedy?”

“It’s easy. Once your soulmate returns your symptoms will go away. Until then make sure to eat healthy, get some exercise and plenty of rest. And when your soulmate gets back, skin-to-skin contact is the quickest way to eliminate symptoms.” You frowned again as he picked up your chart and scribbled something. “I’m going to keep you here one more night for additional testing, just to make sure it’s not something else. But you should be good to go home tomorrow.”

“Thank you,” you said, and he left you alone to rest. You didn’t have the courage to tell the doctor that your soulmate wouldn’t be coming back. Or that he didn’t even want you. Or that you’d been coughing up blood.

The weeks passed without much incident. The symptoms persisted, but hadn’t gotten any worse, it seemed. You’d been working hard, trying to keep yourself occupied from the hurt. But to be honest, you were exhausted.

You’d been avoiding any news about Seventeen. Your one relief, looking up cute or happy pictures of Jihoon, wasn’t an option anymore because you were only reminded of the last time you did, and you were afraid you’d be hospitalized again.

You were on your lunch break, scrolling mindlessly on your phone when a suggested video popped up in your notifications - of Seventeen. In the thumbnail Jihoon was smiling, and against your better judgement you clicked on it. It felt like ages since you’d last seen his face.

The video was a new interview with Seventeen which had you laughing within minutes. You’d missed watching silly care-free videos like this. They were just being themselves, and you felt lighthearted for the first time in a long time. Your friend even noticed your laughing and just shook her head.

“So, Jihoon… I hear your twenty-first birthday is soon. What are your thoughts about your upcoming revelation dream?”

He smiled and looked down shyly. The others laughed and poked fun at him. “I’m excited,” he finally replied.

You swallowed past a lump in your throat. You knew you should have stopped the video there, but he just looked so happy that you couldn’t look away.

“Do you think that you’ll be pleased with the outcome?”

He nodded with a bright smile. “Yes, I think I will be. Very pleased.”

The last thing you noticed before closing the video was Joshua in the corner of the screen looking unconvinced.

Jihoon had looked so happy. He was obviously looking forward to dreaming about the person he loved on the night of his approaching birthday. You were about to ruin his life.

You got up from the booth you were sitting in so you could get back to work. Your leg wobbled as you stood, and you had to sit back down as yet another one of your coughing fits suddenly overcame you. You were shaking uncontrollably and your body felt frozen by the time it passed. You looked down at your hand and discovered much more blood than usual.

You saw your friend rush over at the sound of your coughing. You were losing strength, and slid out of the booth and onto the floor. “I think I need… hospital…” you tried to say before everything went black.

“Ji-hoon! Ji-hoon!”

Jihoon’s members were chanting as he brushed his teeth and got ready for bed. He couldn’t stop smiling. It was finally the night he’d been waiting for ever since he was a little kid. Since the day he met that girl so many years ago, to be exact. He couldn’t wait to have a glimpse into her life - they hadn’t spoken in a long time, and he wondered what she’d been up to.

They had a rule at the dorm to be as quiet as possible on the night of someone’s twenty-first birthday. They didn’t want to accidentally wake the birthday boy and cut his revelation dream short. Although, it wouldn’t matter if they did in Jihoon’s case. He wouldn’t be needing any clues to find his soulmate, after all.

Jihoon climbed into bed early, and drifted off to sleep with a smile on his face.

Next thing he knew he was in a small room with white walls. He could even smell… antiseptics? He looked around and there were two other people in the room - sitting in a chair was a man who appeared to be a doctor, and beside him was someone in a hospital bed.

Jihoon’s jaw hung open. Laying in the bed was the girl from that one fanmeeting a few months ago. No, this was wrong, there had to be some kind of mistake. There had to be. He tried his hardest to look away from the scene laid out before him but his view was now fixed solely on you.

His heart sank as he resigned himself to his fate. You were his real soulmate.

You who had shown up to the fanmeeting, who he’d thought looked cute when he first peeked out from behind the stage curtain and saw you smiling innocently to yourself. You who tried to tell him the truth at the fanmeet only to be humiliated instead. You who had courageously showed up to his concert, only to be ignored by him.

He’d ignored a lot of things about you. The way your smile, when your eyes first met at the fansigning, somehow had made him glow inside. The way hearing his name on your lips made his heart flutter. The way you running away only to hurt yourself had given him a twinge of pain, too. And the way Jisoo saying he saw you leave the concert sick made him worried. He’d ignored all of it. How could he have been so blind?

He took a good look at you for the first time. You looked very different now - frail. Why were you in a hospital? You looked like you weren’t moving at all, were you okay?

Just then you opened your eyes, and he sighed with relief.

“I’d say welcome back, but I was hoping I wouldn’t have to see you here again.” The voice came from the doctor, just outside Jihoon’s view. “Your co-worker filled me in on everything. I guess there were a few things you didn’t mention about your soulmate.”

You frowned. “I’m sorry. I know I should have told you.”

“I understand, it’s not the easiest thing to bring up.”

Jihoon watched your conversation with his mouth gaping open. What on earth were you two talking about?

You started to cough and sat up. The doctor quickly handed you a small plastic basin, which you grabbed onto and continued coughing into. When you stopped and sat back, Jihoon was alarmed to see the bottom of the basin stained with blood.

“So what are my options, now?” you said. You sounded weak to Jihoon.

“I’ve diagnosed you with something called cordicitus morbus. Have you heard of it?”

You and Jihoon both shook your heads.

“Not many people have, since it’s so rare for someone to be rejected by their soulmate. It starts off with depression-like symptoms, but evolves into very physical symptoms as well. It’s your body’s natural reaction to not only not getting to be with your soulmate, but being rejected. Since your soulmate is basically the cure, your symptoms will continue to get worse and worse until you’re in a coma, and eventually…”

You gulped, not needing him to finish.

Jihoon felt as if the room had just dropped ten degrees. He’d done this to you?

“Fortunately…” the doctor continued in a gentle voice, “there’s an emergency procedure we can do to fix it.”

“What kind of procedure?”

“It’s an invasive surgery that will, in the simplest terms, kill your bond with your soulmate. It will be excruciating for you, but it will save your life. Afterwards, you won’t feel anymore pain from your soulmate’s rejection, and you can go on living your life. But, you won’t get to experience the same pleasures and joy from your soulmate ever again.”

“Does it have any negative effects on him? Would he then be able to pursue whoever he wants?”

Jihoon’s chest constricted. How could you possibly be thinking about him at a time like this?

“His side of your bond will remain intact, unless he also has the surgery. But he will have no side effects from your procedure. As your doctor... I have to recommend you have the surgery. If you do decide to, I suggest you contact your soulmate, although it’s not mandatory by any means. Maybe he’ll change his mind about things.”

You were tired of wishful thinking. “I doubt it. I don’t want to guilt-trip him into being with me or anything.” You sighed. “I’ll need to think about all of this for a bit.”

“Of course,” he said gently. “I have a brochure here for you to look over. It goes into more detail.” You reached out to take the paper. “Have some rest for now. If you decide on having the surgery we can schedule you in right away.”

“Thank you.”

Jihoon heard a door open and close and assumed the doctor left.

You sighed and lay back down in the bed, flipping through the brochure. He heard you sniffle and then choke back a sob. His heart broke as he heard you say, “I loved you.”

Jihoon’s eyes flew open to stare at the bunk bed above him. He rubbed at his damp cheeks and sniffled. He must have been crying in his sleep, and he found that he couldn’t seem to stop.

He couldn’t stop because the person he thought was his soulmate for his whole life was not. He couldn’t stop because he’d only caused pain to the person who really was.

“Jihoon?” The groggy voice belonged to Jisoo in the bunk above him. “What’s wrong?”

He had the feeling Jisoo already knew. Judging by how he’d told Jihoon after the fanmeet that you’d been glancing at him the same way Jisoo’s soulmate looks at him, Jisoo seemed to know all along. Although Jihoon hadn’t believed him.

What a fool he’d been.

He tried to keep his voice steady. “Nothing. Go back to sleep.”

He had a lot to think about.

[heathered-beinn]

BangtanTV Youtube Vids 3

Dance practice by 정국 of 방탄소년단 - YouTube Dance practice by 정국 of 방탄소년단 (Jungkook of BTS)

This short dance routine was a nice little insight into the level of Jungkook’s dance skills a few months before the band debuts. I looked up the band’s debut date which is June 2013 and this was filmed in January. From what I can remember from previous vids Jungkook didn’t have much/if any dancing experience when he joined the company so this is quite an impressive start! I am not a dance expert in anyway but I’ll make a few observations using my common sense. This short routine shows he has already developed a good sense of flow, has a good memory for remembering steps, and nice posturing for the style of dance (i.e. it doesn’t look awkward or robotic). His rhythm was off a little in places, which was most noticeable throughout the second set of bell rings. I’m going to make another uneducated observation based on this off-rhythm: throughout this video he seems to be dancing more from memory rather than dancing to the music. Is this a one off or is it because he is still learning (and probably under pressure)? It will be so interesting to see how his skills grow from here on out.

방탄소년들의 졸업 - YouTube 방탄소년들의 졸업 (rough translation: Graduate of BTS)

Oh my goodness <3 <3 !!!! This is so cute!! The song is clearly about them graduating from their respective schools. Dressed up in their school uniforms, J-Hope, Jimin, and Jungkook sing a Korean-ised version of Snoop Dogg & Wiz Khalifa - Young, Wild and Free ft. Bruno Mars on school grounds.

It is like, tooth-rottingly cute – all of them are so young and baby faced! Jungkook seems to be the lead singer already and did a little rapping too. He’s definitely a singer more than a rapper but it still sounded good. J-Hope’s voice is smooth and he oozes confidence. He also looks like he hasn’t aged a bit from then to now! Jimin is just a little cutie. I think he was mostly background vocals and visuals in this little music video which I’m sure was down to his lack of confidence in singing since it was so new to him. *sigh*… there was so much youth and innocence in their voices back then. Okay so their voices were a little unpolished and it wasn’t exactly a blockbuster of a music video but, you know what, it was pretty damn good and definitely an entertaining performance.

Observations: so taking into account that this would all have been edited and somewhat scripted, looking and reading between the lines the three of them seem to be genuinely close already. I know Korean culture is generally less conservative with touching between friends than western (yet more conservative in other ways) but the three seem pretty natural with each other. Either they gelled fast or they’ve been working together for some time already – even before Jimin became an official member of the pre-debut band. I really liked how, rather than pretend to be macho males who dominate the school and ogle the girls, the video is just them hanging together and essentially ‘playing’ like young teenage friends. I had to laugh at Jimin measuring his height against the growing Jungkook. Enjoy the inch while you can darling because it’s going to go fast lol!! Also, you really would think they were all the same age but if I’m right, there is four years difference between J-Hope and Jungkook!

 130208 지민 - YouTube 130208 지민 – Jimin 08/02/13 (UK date!)

Thanks to Grace Lee in the Youtube comments for the translation.

Jimin tells us he went to Jungkook’s graduation with Jin and Suga (hyung). They went because they heard Jungkook didn’t have many friends but it turns out he was surrounded by girls (lol!) and Jimin was a little jealous (jealous of JK having more friends than him, or that they were girls, or that JK has a lot of friends who aren’t Jimin/the band?). He then says that now JK is a year older he will probably become a bit more manly (again, is that a good thing or a bad thing Jimin? Are you afraid he will get taller than you? Or that he might not be so playful? Or are you looking forward to those things…? In all honesty I thought this was a bit of an odd thing to say but then it might be the culture difference). The team are getting a vacation (excellent, I bet it is really needed – although if memory serves, by the time American Hustle Life comes around it’s been a long time since they had seen their family so this might have been the last trip home that they talked about). Jimin says he feels bad that RM and Suga can’t go home early because they have to work on songs but he hopes they can go home soon and rest. (Two things come to me here; one, RM and Suga are already the lead writers at this point and they are under a kind of pressure that they can’t go home until they meet some kind of quota? Look, they are both adults at this point and it’s a difficult industry so this isn’t too surprising that there is a lot of pressure, but it shows how hard they had to work to get to where they are today. It did not get handed to them on a plate. Do I think this particular pressure was unnecessary; yes I do. Do I think it’s the worst thing in the world: no I do not. I can acknowledge that there are much worse things to be doing than writing songs in a studio for hours on end. I also think the that the pressure will probably nurse their passion for the job. However, that doesn’t mean they are not stressed, tired, and mentally drained, so I empathise with them and hope they get the break they deserve soon. The second thing is: a small note about Jimin’s concern and regret that RM and Suga aren’t going home like himself. That shows he has some empathy and that he cares about them. As this is incredibly early in the band’s career this is just an observation of the emerging bonds.

 130208 정국 - YouTube 130208 정국 (080213 Jungkook UK date)

Thanks to Hopeful Mang in the Youtube comments for the translation. Before I even get into the video I want to make the observation that JK is wearing a fur-lined coat in the studio – just how cold is it in there???!!!! He also looks tired/cold, poor lad.

Right, so, according the translation, he says he is finally filming his log and he watched Jimin do his and thought he didn’t speak well but now that it’s his turn he realises he doesn’t know what to say. (Well JK, you were quick to judge Jimin – and quite harshly – but now you realise it really isn’t that easy! I do wonder, now, if JK was in the room with Jimin when he was filming? If so, was Jimin maybe teasing him when he said he, Jin, and Suga thought he did not have many friends and that’s why they went to his graduation? Then maybe he made up for it by suggesting he was surrounded by girls, which he may not have been? Who knows, but that’s another possibility lol!)

JK then tells us that today was his graduation and that he had been looking forward to it but now that it’s happened he’s actually not that happy. (I wondered why? I was curious about him graduating anything at 15 so I googled and figured out that since he’s fifteen he’s just graduated middle school! So now I’m wondering if he’s nervous about going to High School? Or if he’s sad about the pressure to leave a certain part of his childhood behind? Or maybe he’s sad he might not see some his classmates again?) He says it is 11:39 and they’ve just finished dance practice (I am hoping that he is talking about 11 in the morning…) Like Jimin, JK says it’s almost New Year and he can’t wait to go home. He finishes the log by saying he misses his mum and dad and that everyone will be waiting for him at home and he wants to go. (It must be hard for JK to be so far away from home at such a young age. I know that many children are, for various reasons, but I hate the ‘oh don’t worry about it there are other people worse off’ mentality. That kind of thinking helps nobody and only deteriorates a person’s mental health because it doesn’t stop them feeling bad but increases their overall stress because they feel guilty for feeling bad. Anyway, back to JK, I wonder how he copes without his family? Who provides his pastoral care? Are there staff there – like the house staff you’d get in a boarding school who are a bit like a stand-in parent? Or do the other band members, like Jin and Suga, look after the younger ones? What does JK have to do for himself? Does he cook his own meals? Clean his own washing? Organise his dental/hair appointments? What about when he’s unwell? Who looks after him? Does the company provide any of that? I know the band live in dorms so there has to be some sort of living arrangements. Hopefully this will all get answered in time.)

 130212 RAP MONSTER - YouTube 130212 RAP MONSTER – (RM’s Log)

Thanks to Grace Lee in the Youtube comments for the translation.

So RM starts by saying that New Year’s is over and that’s he had a [legal] drink with some long-time friends [ones he’s known for 13-15 years]. (I’m glad he at least got to celebrate New Year – the video doesn’t spell out if he actually got to go home but I really hope he did). He says that he’s realised that real friends are the ones who stick with you through the bad times as well as the good (I’m sad it’s taken this long for you to realise darling but I’m glad you know now). He thinks the band is going to debut soon (it’s about four months off from what I read) and after the break he’s recharged and more determined. Starting tomorrow it’s going to be a storm and he’s going to practice more (which I assume means he’s going to launch into song writing with more vigour and determination and try even harder with the dancing – which great for him!! <3 The break evidently did him the power of good. I hope he manages to keep it going x)

 130212 정국 & 지민 - YouTube 130212 정국 & 지민 – 12/03/13 Jungkook & Jimin UK Date

OMG WHAT CUTIES!!! <3 <3 THEY ARE SO ADORABLE Thanks to Grace Lee in the Youtube comments for the translation.

Jimin starts talking first. (He sounds a bit croaky ☹). He says New Years is over. (That was really quick!!! They last filmed on the 8th and it’s now the 12th – not much of a vacation for them! ☹) Anyway, Jimin tells us that as the two of went to Busan they got to film their log together (presumably because they arrived back at the same time? The two of them seem a little awkward – not with each other – but as though they don’t quite know what to say lol. So I don’t think they exactly practised their log beforehand, which maybe they should have *insert crying with laughter emoji*) Jimin then says that as he predicted he put on a lot of weight. (I am… so sad. It’s been less than 4 days Jimin, even if you were on a drip that mainlined calories into your body 24/7 you would not put on that much noticeable weight in 3 days!!! This fixation on weight from all of them is breaking my heart.) Jimin then also says he caught a cold and his throat is sore (which explains why he sounds all choked-up, poor lad ☹. Then it is JK’s turn to speak and, bless him, the silence is awkward – he’s really going to have to work on feeling comfortable in front of the camera.) JK eventually says that he had a good New Years and that he knows it will be a long time before he gets to go back to Busan again (Jimin nods along with a little sad pout and I want cry for them). JK then says he will work harder because of this (I’m kinda reading between the lines here and taking it that he means he will try to block out how much he misses home by focusing extra hard on their work. Whatever helps, sweetie.)

Jimin echoes this by saying that now they’ve caught up on some rest he’s ready to work harder (I want to go all motherly on his butt by saying; darling you are clearly under the weather and you need more rest, not to work harder right now. Get into your bed and let me make you some tea.) He reiterates this to JK by saying ‘we’re going to work hard? Correct?’. They look at each other and giggle a little shyly as JK agrees they will work hard (absolutely adorable, I’m loving this little friendship already). Jimin then draws the log to an end by saying RM needs the studio and that his throat is in a bad condition. He asks JK if he has anything more to say to which (LOL) JK says no and repeats he will work harder. Jimin awkwardly ends the log.

Extra musings; I find it absolutely adorable how awkward they were and it very much came across that it wasn’t that they were awkward with each other - in fact, they appeared to look to each other for reassurance - but that they just didn’t know what to say. I don’t think they aren’t comfortable talking ad hoc in front of a camera. It is really sweet that they clearly tried to help each other through the filming. JK is definitely the most shy out of the two and became a cute little ‘nodding dog’ whenever Jimin spoke as though his friend was saying everything perfectly for him (for anyone reading this who doesn’t understand; the term ‘nodding dog’ is a reference to a cute little toy that sits on a vehicle’s dashboard and nods it’s head to the vibrations. Overtime the term has morphed into a reference to people who sit and nod as someone else speaks – usually during speeches/meetings/lectures. Over-all it is an amusing analogy rather than a mean one and I definitely mean it in a gently teasing way!)

Anyway, these two seem to have a cute little friendship going on, which is nice to behold as we didn’t get to see much about their friendship until American Hustle and that godawful day working at the airport – which I have tried valiantly to scrub from my memory. I really hope to see more of them working together in the future – and maybe they will continue doing logs together <3

130214 J HOPE - YouTube 130214 J HOPE’s log

J-Hope!!!! Sweetheart <3 <3 I love your shirt – you look all sparkly! Thanks to Grace Lee in the Youtube comments for the translation.

J-Hope starts by saying he’s finally filming his first log (and I may or may not have melted into a puddle of goo when he smiled and clapped his hands together – such a beautiful boy, like sunshine personified). His graduation video has just been released (which I assume from my Google research on age and Korean education means he has now graduated high school, well done sweetie and congratulations!!!!). His graduation makes him feel both nervous and excited as it feels like ‘something is starting’. (I wonder if the company were holding back a little on debuting the band until the majority of them had finished high school – which would be sensible considering the band’s workload!). J-Hope says he hopes it’s not too cringeworthy but he wants to talk about his goals (nothing cringeworthy about that and I definitely want to hear about them!). His first goal is to get better at rapping before the band debuts, with the help of RM and Suga (I love how the band members are helping each other and I also admire J-Hope’s desire to improve his skills for the sake of the band). His second goal is to dance more like a pro (after what I saw in American Hustle Life then you have natural talent J-Hope and are already dancing like a pro, I don’t know how you can improve really. You’re definitely the most talented dancer in the group when it comes to hip-hop). He then tells us that it is Valentines Day and that he hopes we are enjoying it, relieving a lot a stress (?) and are eating a lot of chocolate (<3 you too J-Hope, even though I do not celebrate that day in the slightest lol). He finishes the log by wishing us a happy Valentine’s day again.

Further musings: a really cute log and a great start. J-Hope talks naturally in front of the camera and his smile is just beautiful and makes you automatically smile along. Maybe JK and Jimin should take some notes on J-Hope’s confidence and delivery lol.

 130214 지민&정국 - YouTube 130214 지민&정국 – Jimin and Jungkook

Ah the cuties are back!!! And they’re recording their log together again <3 Note: this is 2 days after the last one and the same day J-Hope recorded his first log. Thanks to Grace Lee in the Youtube comments for the translation.

(I may have sniggered at their choice of music playing in the background because I really don’t think they understood the lyrics…) ANYWAY, so, according to the translation, Jimin starts by saying it’s Valentine’s Day but also Graduation Day at his school. (I’m a little lost as to whether he is actually graduating anything specific or even where he might be graduating from). JK chimes in that he graduated today too (which I thought he did the other day? Confused.com). Jimin then says it was a day off school so he didn’t receive any chocolates (I’m guessing Valentine’s Day is quite a celebrated occasion in Korea). JK chimes in that he still received two chocolates (I like how males get gifts too and not just females for Valentine’s Day). Jimin says he got one chocolate. LOL at JK saying he won! Jimin then explains they get chocolates from the girl trainees in the company and that he doesn’t mind just getting one because they are on a diet (cue my angry face because I think I’ve already established I don’t think it’s a healthy diet). Jimin says he looks to Jin to lose weight in which JK chimes in that Jin is good at taking care of his body. (Funny enough, in one of the last Jin logs he said staff had commented on his growing weight, which was a load of bullshit, but Jin was determined to eat more healthily. So which is it? Jin is overweight enough that he needs to diet according to staff (gross and no) or does he have an enviable figure that JK and Jimin want to emulate? I mean what am I even talking about because neither Jimin or JK are overweight anyway and probably have six packs from all the dancing…) Then Jimin says… (and I genuinely want to cry that he says this, I don’t even want to type it) Jimin says ‘in order to not be called cute because of my fat, I will lose weight in anticipation of becoming handsome.’ (I don’t know where to even start with this horrible utterance. Firstly, there is nothing wrong with being called ‘cute’. Cuteness does not just cover looks it also encompasses personality whereas the term ‘handsome’ really doesn’t, at least from where I come from; you can be handsome to the eyes but an absolute dick in personality. Also, being thin does not mean you are handsome either – I have seen some men who are incredibly slender but not physically fit, all ribs and angular bones, and I wouldn’t class them as ‘handsome’. Anyway beauty is very much in the eye of the beholder. Everyone finds different qualities attractive. Also, not to give the game away, I saw what Jimin blossoms into when they appeared on the Late Late Show and he has nothing to worry about. I honestly don’t think it was ‘losing weight’ that truly transformed him either, not in the end. However, I can empathise with the lad, Jimin has a very youthful face that is prone to adorable full cheeks, even when the rest of him is pure lean muscle. I get that he’s at an age too where he wants to be seen and treated like an adult but, Jimin, that comes at a price too – don’t be so quick to try and shake off your youth, it’s precious.) Then JK devastates me by saying he wants to do the same. (Look, there is nothing wrong with wanting to look good – or at least feel like you look good. However ‘losing weight’ – which is ALL they mention so far - is barely part of the answer. So much depends on things like having a ‘healthy diet’ – lots of vegetables etc - being happy gosh that is so vital, getting enough sleep, getting enough exercise, wearing the right clothes, how your hair is cut and how it shapes your face, same with the eyebrows, your personal grooming, getting the right amount of sun, and how you hold yourself – posture. There are so many aspects that can factor in to attractiveness. Also, do you want to attract people who only value you on your looks? Even as an Idol? Surely talent is more important?

Further musings: JK and Jimin seemed at ease together again – JK very much relying on Jimin to lead the log and simply nodding along to whatever he says. I noticed he also clutched his throat quite a bit, something I’ve not noticed before, and I wonder if he caught Jimin’s cold?

Can’t wait to watch more!

[lavender-montgomery]

ramble tw: ed,depression, psychosis and anxiety mention

Really hating being at home at the moment, I take any excuse to go out for as long as I can. I just stayed two nights at my best friend’s house, I wish I stayed longer. There’s this chick I’m talking to who means a lot to me but I can’t see her atm bc of the virus. She doesn’t have it (thank god) she’s being careful which is fair enough, but it’s hard not meeting up with her when all I wanna do is be around her and be cute and hear her voice. 

My Mam is really unwell and it’s not looking good, I am very anxious about it. I can’t see her or talk to her much at the moment. 

I’ve decided to finally do stuff I really wanted to do that my ex didn’t allow, such as more piercings (I took most of mine out) and FINALLY getting a mullet. Also planning my next tattoo as it has been so long since I’ve had new ink. Feels good to be getting back to how I used to look, feels like me again, I changed myself so much for my ex and I just wasn’t me at all

It also feels good to not be denying my sexuality anymore, it used to get me super down

I’m in a really weird mood at the moment, I feel empty yet sad and heavy and anxious. About me mam, my ex, I’m worried I’ve fucked up with someone, sad about my sister, anxious about living arrangements 

That’s another thing, living arrangements. I’m really looking forward to living alone and doing what I want with my tiny ass flat, but the building itself and area I live in is dangerous so living here alone is scary. I’ve become very jumpy especially at home, if someone even unlocks the door it scares me a lot and I am constantly on edge. A lot of bad stuff happens here which has given me this extreme anxiety of being here. I know I could move, but I love the flat itself and it’s near places I wanna work. I suppose I’ll see how it goes living by myself and if it’s too bad then I will look at moving. I’m not gonna lie, my building looks like the crack den Cumberbatch’s Sherlock was staying at. It’s a mess. But my flat itself is nice so I don’t mind.

I just wanna be alone, listen to music, do some art and cuddle my cat.

The lass I’m talking to got me a Pooh plush which made me stupidly happy and I’ve not put him down

I’m getting fish soon and more plants, turning my flat into my happy place

You ever get days where your mental illness just hits you full force? Today is one of those days with my depression and my psychosis and anorexia has been bad again. It’s my own fault, I’m not taking my meds and my ex would get angry at me - but I’m not taking them BECAUSE of my psychosis, my main hallucination which I posted about on here when I first started this blog. It’s a tough cycle that I know I gotta break, I just don’t have the strength or willpower to do that right now.

It’s weird when my anorexia gets bad. It’s very sad, it controls me, I feel physically unwell and it brings my other mental illnesses to light. At the same time, it makes me happy, when I go a while without eating and I feel that burning in my chest and throat and I’m shaky, I feel like congratulating myself for doing so well. It makes me happy knowing I can do it again, and honestly? The only bad thing I can see happening about living alone is my anorexia properly returning long term. I’m torn, part of me is so excited for that, but I’ve also done so well these past few months with my eating. It’ll be worth it when I look better. I wish I looked how I did when I was 18, looking at old pictures makes me sad. I was so, so skinny. I looked ill, my skin was white, I was so weak. The worst part is I’d get praised for how ‘fantastic’ I looked and people would ask me for weight loss advice, which of course only fueled it. Why did no one help me? Why was it unnoticed and not cared about? I couldn’t shop in town as barely anywhere sold my size clothes and the few times I would find my size the range would be so limited. I had to get my clothes sent over from Japan or wear stuff oversized which only made me look tinier. At the time I didn’t want help or for people to know, but looking back I’m wondering why the fuck no family or close friends other than my ex said anything or helped. It got to the point I would be wearing clothes for nine year olds, which I was incredibly proud of. Yet another thing I’m torn about, it was one of the worst times of my life dealing with that but at the same time... I looked the best I’ve ever looked. Skinny, pale, short hair, piercings, getting tattoos, I dressed nice. I still dress the same I suppose but it doesn’t look as good because I’m fat. Despite it being an awful time, I’d give anything to go back to it overnight. I’ll get there, it’s gonna be slow and it’s gonna take a lot out of me. I’ll look like me again eventually. Do I wanna do it? Who knows. 

I’ve been having sensory overload a lot more recently, it’s starting to become an issue. It doesn’t help that my ex gets angry at me and yells, doesn’t let me have quiet and makes it worse. I almost cry begging him to just please don’t talk to me and don’t move near me, but for some reason every time it happens he insists on yelling and swearing at me, getting in bed next to me watching videos on his phone, moving about on the bed messing about with the duvet and he brings his cat who gets in my face and has the loudest purr I have ever heard come from a cat. All this when I am having a sensory overload moment is a nightmare, it’s so frustrating and he makes me feel so stupid for it. He tells me I’m stupid and pathetic. Maybe I am, I don’t know. I’m not diagnosed autistic or anything but apparently I show a lot of traits of it. My ex tells me I’m autistic, he uses it to insult me. Even now, I’m trying to distract myself posting this as I haven’t had a long vent about everything for ages, I’ve asked him to just give me a few minutes to myself and he’s going on at me to clear the bed so he can get in it as he ‘wants bedtime’. It’s 5:30PM, he could always clear the bed himself but he makes me do it. 

Ah, my disability. It’s getting bad again - what isn’t? I’ve only used my wheelchair once since the breakup because I’m unable to push myself in it, I need someone to push me, but it isn’t Lukas’ thing to do anymore. He pushed me the other morning when we went to ASDA. I’ve been in a lot of pain recently, my ex has a go at me for going out if I’m gonna come home in pain and not do things like make myself food when he says or clear the bed for him. He tells me I need to prioritise. I tell him I’m not gonna just never go out and have no social life incase my disability plays up, right now it isn’t even that that’s the issue, I’m in pain because of the cold. He didn’t accept that. What does he expect me to do? It’s the end of December, it’s cold, I can’t just stay inside until spring. Recently I asked him to pass me something off his desk he was sat at because my back was bad. He lost it, called me a lazy cunt. Says he’s in pain too he shouldn’t have to ‘do everything for me’. I told him the scissors are a foot away from him, it makes sense for him to just pass them to me, any normal person would do that. Of course he didn’t accept that so continued swearing at me. This happens a lot.

I told him no more sex. Despite breaking up over a month ago we are still living together while he finds a new place and he is often in the mood so we were still having sex. It was consensual, but I told him no more.

Today’s a bad day and there are some bad things going on, but it’s not all bad. The past 2/3 weeks I’ve been doing better than I have for a long time. Making plans for living alone, returning to bar work which I love, planning to visit my family in Essex and my friends in Bristol. Sorting my appearance out again, embracing my sexuality, getting back in touch with friends. And her. I’ve already mentioned her a few times but man, I can’t help it. She makes me smile like I haven’t in a long time, we talk all day/night, she’s adorable. I’m not gonna get my hopes up, I don’t think I’d make her happy like she deserves, and she deserves so, so much, more than I could ever be; but I’m happy with how it is now even if only temporary. She makes me feel less alone, feel wanted, appreciated, cared for, happy. She’s someone from my past I never thought would be in my life again but I am really happy she is. What a blessing  ♡

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It’s been a few weeks since I’ve done a Friday faves post. I skipped a few while I was on holiday as my faves would have been: cheese, wine and sleeping in… not very interesting! And since I’ve been home I’ve either been catching up with work (my email inbox is a nightmare!) or have been unwell. But enough excuses! Onwards!

Let’s get into my Friday faves!

If any of you heard an incredibly high pitched squealing on Wednesday night then I apologise. It was just me opening my post and finding the new Urban Decay Naked Heat* palette waiting for me. While everyone else goes bananas over the other Naked palettes, I’ve never been a huge fan just because I’m not really one to go wild over nudes. But this palette…oh my. We all know that I’m a fiend for warm-toned orangey eye make up so I cannot wait to have a proper play with this. I’m thinking of doing a post with a few different looks, would that be of interest?

Guys. GUYS. We need to talk about the new @urbandecaycosmetics Naked Heat palette 🔥🔥🔥 We all know that I'm a sucker for a warm-toned eye make up look but this palette is next level. I think I'm going to do a blog post/video on all the looks you could do with this as it's so versatile. Let me know if you'd be interested in seeing that 👏 if you have blue/green/hazel eyes this will be your new best friend 💕 I used 'He Devil' for the transition shade, 'En Fuego' for sharing in the outer corner, and 'Lumbre' all over the lid. Swipe across for some full eye action, and there are some product shots on my insta stories 👀

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I took so many books to France with me, aiming to read all of them and failed massively. I don’t really know what happened. I am now 3 books behind in my Good Reads challenge (50 books in a year). I’m really trying to go to bed earlier so that I can read more, as I don’t have a commute. At the moment I’m reading The Possessions by Sara Flannery Murphy which I’m really enjoying – it’s such an unusual concept for a story and so beautifully written. On holiday, of the books I did finish, my favourites were When Breath Becomes Air by Paul Kalanithi (which made me ugly cry) and The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood (which I’d read before but couldn’t really remember). I really recommend both, especially the latter which feels terrifyingly pertinent at the moment.

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I’m still a podcast addict and the newest one I’m bingeing is Generation Why. It’s yet another crime/murder podcast and it’s great – it’s not funny and silly like My Favorite Murder or Last Podcast On The Left, and it’s not as in depth and graphic as Sword & Scale, so if you’re looking for a middle ground then this will be right up your street.

I finally cracked open my nail art drawer this week and am so pleased I did. This pizza nail art is so cute and has had lots of positive comments which is lovely. Let me know if you’d like to see more nail art from me!

I finally posted some nail art on the blog, it's been a while. But nail art will always have a pizza my heart *groan* 😂 Hand painted with teeny tiny brushes and some patience – I think these are really cute, what do you reckon? 🍕🍕🍕

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This week I had a wonderful facial but it was also possibly the strangest one I’ve ever had (and I’ve tried some very weird facials!) When I read the description of the Skin Aspirations DMK Enzyme Therapy Facial*, it specifically mentioned its suitability for rosacea, which is quite rare. It’s perfect for treating signs of ageing, pigmentation, and acne due to its peel-without-peeling system. Three different enzyme masks are used to ‘help increase circulation, lymphatic drainage, increase free water levels in the skin and enhance collagen production and improve skin functioning’. So let’s get onto the unusual format of the facial… It starts out with the standard cleansing of the skin and then the first enzyme mask is applied which some people find a little tingly but it was fine for me. The second enzyme mask stage came with a handheld fan for me to use which I thought was odd but as soon as the mask is applied it feels extremely warm and so the fan is essential! As I have rosacea anything ‘warming’ makes me panic but the whole point of this stage is to increase blood flow to the skin so I trusted Simona and went with it! This section only lasts about four minutes and as soon as the mask was removed, my skin felt warm but not angry or as though it was flaring up. The final mask stage was the strangest part: a thick clay-like mask was applied over my face and neck and as soon as it started to dry, I could feel the blood pulsing in my face. As the mask dried to a hard finish, it felt like my head was inflating and the mask was getting smaller and tighter, then a part of the mask would crack and it would feel less tight… and the inflating feeling would start again. Then the mask started to pulsate in different sections – I described it to my husband like when a cat kneads your legs when it’s getting comfy, that’s exactly what it was like! It didn’t hurt or irritate my skin, it was just a really odd sensation. If you needed any more proof that it wasn’t painful or uncomfortable: the mask was left on for 45 minutes and I had a bit of a nap!

Here are some photos of me immediately after the facial. As you can see the redness is focused around the areas my rosacea is worst: cheeks, temples and right side of my forehead. It didn’t feel warm or sore at all.

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And here is what my skin looked like by the time I got home (even after the rush hour tube!). My skin was pretty much back to normal levels of redness, it felt soft and smooth, and looked plump and healthy. As with the photos above, I have remnants of eye make up on but no other make up:

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The facial is £150 but I was in there for 2.5 hours and the results are seriously impressive. Simona really took the time to find out about my skin and skincare routine, and talked me through each stage to make sure I was comfortable and informed. The facial’s focus is on smoothing and plumping, reducing inflammation, strengthening capillaries, improving the skin’s healing capacity, and boosting lymphatic drainage. These are wonderful things for all skin types but especially for rosacea and sensitive skin – I definitely recommend it if you are looking for a skin overhaul.

And the final Friday Faves item… last week I decided to dye my hair purple, because why the hell not? It’s only temporary and I just applied it over my natural hair colour so it’s very subtle, but I love it! I used the Crazy Colors dye in ‘Lavender’. It’s already faded quite a lot (as you can see in the picture above) but I quite like the grungey look as it washes out so I’m really pleased with it.

I couldn't think how to mark the last selfie in the #talontedrainbow theme…until I remembered I had some @crazycolorltd 'Lavender' in my drawer and an hour later here we are! It's very subtle as it's applied on top of my (mostly) untreated hair, but I love it 💜 I've really enjoyed the #talontedrainbow challenge, it's helped to make Instagram fun again. Take a look at the hashtag and tell me which is your favourite! All make up brands tagged👆

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A bit of a mixed bag for this return to Friday Faves, I hope you enjoyed it. Don’t forget to let me know your Friday faves in the comments: books, films, TV, podcasts, make up, skincare… anything you love, I want to hear about it!

Lex

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