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lyvm43 · 3 months

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I’m really unhappy

Yesterday was one of the hardest days for me in a while

I can barely sleep. I’ve only gotten like 10 hours of sleep for the past two days and i am so tired

#walks don’t help like they used to #idk what to do #having a job and the whole routine of it and then finally being able to work with people i actually liked and who actually liked me #was really the only thing keeping me together #i’ve been meeting up with some friends here and there but idk #i don’t even know how to describe it #i just wish I wasn’t here anymore #i’m having such a hard time and i truly don’t know what to do #and i have no one to lean on #i’m so tired #i truly hope you all are happy or at least content and always have someone you can talk to and if not i hope someone comes into your #life soon #cause I don’t wish this on anyone #i’ve been here before and i never wanted to be here again #this time it feels 100 times worse #if anyone feels the same i hope everything gets better for you really really soon

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hinamie · 2 months

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big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #megumi #YUUJI WILL NOT COOPERATE TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME >:(((#is it the angle ? is it the expression?? the bangs??????? am i just a fraud and a fake yuuji liker i dont know at this point #god #just . just take it i cant fiddle with the proportions any more ill go insane #it was worse when i tried colouring it but im STILL not 100% sold on it no matter what i shift or tilt #megumi my darling boy i love u at least You always have my back :'<#honestly my leading theory is that bc my yuuji design looks objectively More different than his canon design #its more prone 2 looking Wrong in my head #but even so !!! if i *have* my yuuji design down why does it still feel like im fighting fr my gd life when i try 2 draw him #it feels like he is shattering my drawing hand and smiling at me n taunting me w those shiny puppy eyes th entire time #head in hands I Don't Get It #when will i get it #anyway scoreboard yuuji: 623453766235 hina: 0

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snowyfrostshadows · 7 months

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So.

We went from this for Starclan Cats:

To.

This:

Biggest downgrade of my life.

#warriors #warrior cats #this is almost worse than the disney live action remakes to me #like. i used to stare and study wayne mcloughlin's art in the code of the clans book for ages before moving on to the actual story #it was so good and pretty #richardsons's...#i feel nothing except mild disappointment and concern for his well being from harpercollins #cuz uh.#what kind of time crunch does the wc team/divisionshave him /on/?????#like. the star patterns for reedwhisker are....okay and look like stars #but mistystar..... she looks like she got dunked in the lake first #or like she could be mistaken for ferncloud...cuz man....those are absolutely 100% not stars on her pelt #props to reedshisker for being the first cat in ??? book covers for having a different expression (even if it's a lil wonky) though #star's cover gets one point #a starless clan

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months

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MDZS x ISAT part 1: In Stars and Necromancy.

(Part 2)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #MDZS AU #In stars and time #ISAT #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Double comic feature for today because they are both small.#I had a hard time coming up with a good crossover for these two series for a while but once the idea hit - Boy did it hit!#I've got a longer comic coming. The angst potential is very...very good.#Ghost YLLZ helping out mxy was painful enough but I can make it so much worse for everyone.#I can't say much without crossing into spoiler territory but I will be back.#Other notes here: LWJ is rock type. WWX/MXY are paper type. Thought it fit well B*)#YLLZ in the starry bath is 100% a reference to Eris in the sinbad movie. Her hair animation still haunts my dreams.#I'll have some 'other side of the crossover' doodles after posting a few more main comic pages. Thanks for the patience this week!#I really needed to just...draw some very self-indulgent art. I'm feeling much better now though!

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starch1ldz · 7 months

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Everyone always says that Spencer Reid is submissive and whiney, and I get that! I do! And I agree. However, I also think he is the biggest brat ever. You tell him to do something and he'll straight up tell you no, just to see what you'll do, he rolls his eyes and crosses his arms and everything. Like have you seen season one and two Spence when he's not actually interacting with anyone??? BRAT.

#star child speaks #maybe im projecting #hes just very bratty in my head #i feel like he would stop around the middle seasoms then post prison arc it would start back up again but 100 times worse #spencer reid #criminal minds #spencer reid criminal minds #dr spencer reid #spencer reid fanfiction #im mentally unwell #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds x you #hahahahahahahahaha #put me down.

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sun-marie · 7 months

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"I'm sorry, my love..."

Everyone had a rough time getting through the Survivor Trial on Kazuwari, but Aloth's hands getting crushed by a boulder hit Sabina particularly hard, seeing as he's a wizard and he kinda needs those :(

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coffeeisfortheresponsible · 2 months

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chat what if i made the angstiest animatic of lloyd and harumi and their horribly toxic relationship. would i be burned at the stake and called a llorumi shipper. or does media literacy still exist in the world

#ninjago #lego ninjago #ciftrchats #i’m not a llorumi shipper #i don’t think they should be in a relationship #however. i think that they are both messed up enough and have such weird convoluted feelings for each other #that they would be #and it would suck #and i need to observe them as it gets worse #does this make sense #like they really have the most interesting dynamic and i need to be able to make stuff about it without people trying to call me a llorumi #llorumi shipper*#like no it’s just part of the show #yeah it’s abusive and sucks and lloyd should get a restraining order and harumi should get a therapist and jail time #but it also is what it is i didn’t make the show #i didn’t write them having feelings for each other #that wasn’t me go blame the writers #i think that’s odd as hell actually #why did they do that #but hey i’m going to explore that idea bc they both don’t know how to take care of themselves #and they both would 100% get into an abusive relationship #so maybe i will make that animatic actually

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skitskatdacat63 · 6 months

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"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!!#i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again?????#mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :(#and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭#perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ?????#also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art.#f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

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vashti-lives · 2 months

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PLEASE. I NEED HELP

I'm going on a trip in August and I've decided I really need a new e-reader. I've finally found a company that understands page turning buttons are good! My main beef with them is that they make too many fucking near identical devices and it gives me the worse decision paralysis. TBH this is why I don't already have one.

Pocketbook Verse Pro:

Pocketbook Touch HD 3:

The Touch HD 3 is no longer being produced and the Verse Pro is what Pocketbook is replacing it with. My understanding is that hardware and software wise they're actually quite similar, the main difference being the charging port and the new one is sliiiightly more water proof.

I like the design of the Touch HD 3 more-- to me the buttons look more functional because they look a little bigger and there's some non button space below them. I also just, aesthetically think it looks nicer. Plus it's like $20 cheaper. Is it really dumb to buy a five year old device that's no longer being produced?????????

The Verse Pro will also get to me much sooner and has more cover options.

If I'm going to get the Touch HD 3 I gotta order it ASAP.

Pocketbook has cheaper models but my understanding is that the build quality on them kinda sucks and they're pretty breakable. The problem is Amazon has no problem selling e-readers at a loss and this fucks over the rest of the industry so bad. TBH I would buy a new kindle if they still sold a model with physical buttons, but no. So here we are.

#my phone battery is worse than it used to be #i feel like i can't be on it 100% of the time while at the airport #help me obiwan whoever the fuck. you're my only ho #any of my european peeps have one of these?#e readers #pocketbook pro verse #pocketbook e reader #pocketbook touch hd 3

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spielzeugkaiser · 2 years

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why didn’t lovechild!au geralt ever go looking for jaskier?

That is a good question! I think there are various things at play.

First there is Ciri – which he did take in shortly after they separated. Since I took wild hunt Ciri for this story (when they meet later) this does change her age quite drastically. It deages her quite a bit (if Milek is around 14 and she is ~24) that means Geralt took her in when she was nine. And I think that does change things. His focus was on her.

Then there is Yennefer – I think she wanted to encourage him to look out for Jaskier, but she is also majorly pissed at him. I feel like their dynamic changes a lot because she is aware of Milek. (It’s way cooler, for a start.) It’s not her intention but... Geralt feels even worse because of that? She makes him feel like he did something unforgiveable. Which makes avoidance a bigger topic on his side. And after a while… I dunno. When Yen and Geralt had that talk on the dragon hunt, that this life they lead doesn’t fit and work with a baby – Geralt was not wrong. And I feel like, with time, and what Ciri goes through too, Yen comes to realize that it might be better if he doesn’t know (for now). So maybe she doesn’t outright discourage him to look out for Jaskier, but… She certainly is not encouraging that idea. (it’s messy.)

There is part of Geralt that feels like. Jaskier will come back when he feels ready (he always did) and if he goes out to find him, he isn’t welcome. It doesn’t help that Jaskier is suddenly very hard to find. Geralt wants to respect his wish to not be found.

(little does he know).

And then there is also A LOT of plot happening.

#he can't be blamed for the time when he had amnesia #he can't also be blamed for the time he was dead MHH-#a relevant plot point appears? maybe? 👀#also I have to say it: I want Jaskier to meet Regis so bad #hMMMMM #listen I think Geralt is sad (and poutes a little bit) and is just! an awkward guy sometimes when it comes to emotions!#but the biggest thing is Geralt '0% self worth' of Rivia #this man needs some sign that he is wanted or he will never impose #and the timeframe in which he WOULD have easily gone off to apologize is somehow gone #it's been too long #he still wants too #Geralt is 100% still beating himself up about that #once again #little does he know #that feeling is gonna get so much worse

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dnpg-hiatus-survivor · 7 months

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whenever i’m sad, i play some minecraft and silently whisper to myself “dont cry, craft”

#and then i die and feel 100 times worse so #dont cry craft #dan and phil #dnp #phan #dan and phil games #amazingphil #danisnotonfire #daniel howell

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opens-up-4-nobody · 12 days

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#bleh. i need half the country to pls stop being on fire. id like to go out and run pls. but its so smokey i can barely see the mountain #i live near :-/ also im just tired and frustrated. its incredible how quickly i vasilate between #things r going well. i should stay in my program and work with cyanos forever. to no no no im not cut out for this. i gotta leave. to yay #let me throw myself head first into consuming every second of my life with working. but only on the things that dont require me to think #which is y im not cut out for this and should be bannished to a world of only doing lab work and following instructions #also i have an screening interview monday for an R0DBT group. so i might b going to control freak classes #assuming i cant convince the lady that im not fit for thr class. which obviously i am bc im my therapist listed the ppl who r #usually put into r0dbt and i was like hm im a lot of those things. but also its 2hrs every week and thats a lot of time. and i feel like im #already on the path away from violently structuring my life specifically bc ive done so much damage #ugh. also i have ridiculously high self standards but i only do anything halfway bc i cant fail if i never try 100%.#so im like a fake control freak. or rather i cant even fully commit to being controlling. im lazy and i dont have the drive.#which almost makes it worse bc im stading at this threshold of control where it destroys me but never actually succeeds in being a perfect #thing. which is def a distorted way to think about it but there u go. ugh. im just tired and my arm hurts too much to draw bc #im older and older everyday. and i dont wanna read papers. i dont wanna grade or work on my presentation. i didn't want to spend 3.5 hrs #doing transfers this morning. and my mom's been dead for 6months and 3 days now. and i still dont kno where ill be a year from now #unrelated

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acgamesda · 3 months

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Arlathan Forest: one of the most magically f*cked up places in Thedas.

My Veil Jumper Rook:

#dragon age the veilguard #veil jumpers #Arlathan forest has so much fuckery like time and reality warps #Super thin veil #Had seen centuries of death #Is full of demons and another shit #Veil jumper rook wiping single tear 'home sweet home'#I am pretty sure arlathan forest is 100 worse than brecillian forest so yeah...#Did i mention my rook is bit of a nutsake? Yeah she likes arlathan forest makes her use her fade sensitivity instinct way more #Thin veil allows her some control of the forest and all the bullshit in it #She feels like she finally has some control of her powers and is actually somewhat capable and useful

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shiroselia · 1 year

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Play 13 Sentinels I am no longer asking

#13sar #13 sentinels #Some maybe implied spoilers in tags #I am not okay in any way I love this game so excessively much #I'd need like a 500 slide powerpoint precentation but tldr #Hijiyama's route is my favourite and also Insanely good #Gouto's route is incredibly good and an unexpected favourite I didn't expect that to be as good as it was #They really saved the absolute best for last #I have beefed so much with how late Hiji's route is forced because I loved it from the prologue but I 100% understand and I am 100% okay #with it cause every single time I've been forced to wait for it it was so fucking worth it #Girlies after they finish Live to Protect and ESPECIALLY girlies after they finish Hiji's last event whose name escapes me now #But holy shit dude Hiji's route is excellent I can rant about it for hours #It's enjoyable as hell it's got Excellent plot reveals it hits EVERY emotional beat it pulls #Like she has it all #Not to say that the other routes don't they're all excellent Hiji's just my favourite out of the bunch and succeeds in All aspects #Whereas some routes like Yuki's I feel are Completely carried by how enjoyable Yuki herself is #While not succeeding as much in say the plot department #Which isn't a Problem but it's just something which makes me prefer routes over each other when some can hit Everything it tries while #others might neglect certain aspects in favour of others which doesn't make it Worse but makes it less complete as such

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thedeafprophet · 1 month

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Also applogies in advance if im extra on edge for the next little while, awaiting A Big Surgey is uh. ~ surprisingly ~ quite stressful combined with my usual ongoing stuff that affect my brain space lmao

#my bad health days feel almost worse rn because i know im like. waiting for them to be over lmao #and just like waiting to see. what recovery ill get.#knowing that ill never get 100% better #theres a lot on my mind #so my tolerance for bullshit on here is gonna be at an all time low lmao #the prophet speaks #medical cw

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deanpinterester · 3 months

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i was going to make a post telling yall to stop calling godzilla minus one a low-budget film (because it isn't) but then i remembered disney regularly drops 12 million for ONE EPISODE of their shows without nearly the same cultural impact so. yeah godzilla is low-budget as far as i'm concerned idc

#uhhhh me #film budget is such an interesting thing to think abt #for those curious: godzilla had a budget of 10 million #which seems like a lot until you compare it to an average hollywood action movie which is like. 100 million easy #incidentally that is oppenheimer's budget!#so seeing that you go wow! why the discrepency?#as far as i can figure. american movies go for the big mass appeal so they'll out more money into international releases etc #whereas japanese films only rly care about domestic release so they save a stupid amount of money there #(i'm sure there's more to this and i have my theories but i don't have hard data rn to back it up so i won't say it)#so anyway. 10 mil is a very modest budget by hollywood standards but by japan standards it's above average actually #oh yeah the other thing about budgets i always come back to #is the fact the percy jackson show had 12 million per episode #but did not look or feel nearly as good as shadow and bone which had average 4 mil per episode. literally a third what percy had #the allegiant movie had an estimated ~120 mill budget and somehow was worse in every single way than the scorch trials movie #which had 61 mil. HALF what allegiant had and yet literally everything about it was more pleasing #one of my fave sci-fi films prospect has less than 4 mil budget and yes you could tell the cgi was unreal sometimes #it was done in a way that looked artistic instead of cheap and glossy #and i would watch that over whatever new movie the mcu pops out with like. 200 mil budget that somehow looks uglier-#-than a movie on 4 mil #oh my god what in the fucking world. antman 3 had 300 million. whomst.#and the movie didn't even look good? the audacity #7 times prospect's budget and looks like shit #anyway. budget is a weird thing #it rly comes down to who's handling the project and how smartly they use that money #oh ya the other thing i was gonna say is i do think there's a difference between 'low budget film' and 'film with a lower budget'#i think godzilla is a lower budget film (comparatively to hollywood) but not a low budget film. if you catch my drift.

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