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lyvm43 · 5 months ago

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I’m really unhappy

Yesterday was one of the hardest days for me in a while

I can barely sleep. I’ve only gotten like 10 hours of sleep for the past two days and i am so tired

#walks don’t help like they used to #idk what to do #having a job and the whole routine of it and then finally being able to work with people i actually liked and who actually liked me #was really the only thing keeping me together #i’ve been meeting up with some friends here and there but idk #i don’t even know how to describe it #i just wish I wasn’t here anymore #i’m having such a hard time and i truly don’t know what to do #and i have no one to lean on #i’m so tired #i truly hope you all are happy or at least content and always have someone you can talk to and if not i hope someone comes into your #life soon #cause I don’t wish this on anyone #i’ve been here before and i never wanted to be here again #this time it feels 100 times worse #if anyone feels the same i hope everything gets better for you really really soon

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #megumi #YUUJI WILL NOT COOPERATE TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME >:(((#is it the angle ? is it the expression?? the bangs??????? am i just a fraud and a fake yuuji liker i dont know at this point #god #just . just take it i cant fiddle with the proportions any more ill go insane #it was worse when i tried colouring it but im STILL not 100% sold on it no matter what i shift or tilt #megumi my darling boy i love u at least You always have my back :'<#honestly my leading theory is that bc my yuuji design looks objectively More different than his canon design #its more prone 2 looking Wrong in my head #but even so !!! if i *have* my yuuji design down why does it still feel like im fighting fr my gd life when i try 2 draw him #it feels like he is shattering my drawing hand and smiling at me n taunting me w those shiny puppy eyes th entire time #head in hands I Don't Get It #when will i get it #anyway scoreboard yuuji: 623453766235 hina: 0

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snowyfrostshadows · 9 months ago

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So.

We went from this for Starclan Cats:

To.

This:

Biggest downgrade of my life.

#warriors #warrior cats #this is almost worse than the disney live action remakes to me #like. i used to stare and study wayne mcloughlin's art in the code of the clans book for ages before moving on to the actual story #it was so good and pretty #richardsons's...#i feel nothing except mild disappointment and concern for his well being from harpercollins #cuz uh.#what kind of time crunch does the wc team/divisionshave him /on/?????#like. the star patterns for reedwhisker are....okay and look like stars #but mistystar..... she looks like she got dunked in the lake first #or like she could be mistaken for ferncloud...cuz man....those are absolutely 100% not stars on her pelt #props to reedshisker for being the first cat in ??? book covers for having a different expression (even if it's a lil wonky) though #star's cover gets one point #a starless clan

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months ago

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MDZS x ISAT part 1: In Stars and Necromancy.

(Part 2)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #MDZS AU #In stars and time #ISAT #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Double comic feature for today because they are both small.#I had a hard time coming up with a good crossover for these two series for a while but once the idea hit - Boy did it hit!#I've got a longer comic coming. The angst potential is very...very good.#Ghost YLLZ helping out mxy was painful enough but I can make it so much worse for everyone.#I can't say much without crossing into spoiler territory but I will be back.#Other notes here: LWJ is rock type. WWX/MXY are paper type. Thought it fit well B*)#YLLZ in the starry bath is 100% a reference to Eris in the sinbad movie. Her hair animation still haunts my dreams.#I'll have some 'other side of the crossover' doodles after posting a few more main comic pages. Thanks for the patience this week!#I really needed to just...draw some very self-indulgent art. I'm feeling much better now though!

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starch1ldz · 9 months ago

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Everyone always says that Spencer Reid is submissive and whiney, and I get that! I do! And I agree. However, I also think he is the biggest brat ever. You tell him to do something and he'll straight up tell you no, just to see what you'll do, he rolls his eyes and crosses his arms and everything. Like have you seen season one and two Spence when he's not actually interacting with anyone??? BRAT.

#star child speaks #maybe im projecting #hes just very bratty in my head #i feel like he would stop around the middle seasoms then post prison arc it would start back up again but 100 times worse #spencer reid #criminal minds #spencer reid criminal minds #dr spencer reid #spencer reid fanfiction #im mentally unwell #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds x you #hahahahahahahahaha #put me down.

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coffeeisfortheresponsible · 3 months ago

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chat what if i made the angstiest animatic of lloyd and harumi and their horribly toxic relationship. would i be burned at the stake and called a llorumi shipper. or does media literacy still exist in the world

#ninjago #lego ninjago #ciftrchats #i’m not a llorumi shipper #i don’t think they should be in a relationship #however. i think that they are both messed up enough and have such weird convoluted feelings for each other #that they would be #and it would suck #and i need to observe them as it gets worse #does this make sense #like they really have the most interesting dynamic and i need to be able to make stuff about it without people trying to call me a llorumi #llorumi shipper*#like no it’s just part of the show #yeah it’s abusive and sucks and lloyd should get a restraining order and harumi should get a therapist and jail time #but it also is what it is i didn’t make the show #i didn’t write them having feelings for each other #that wasn’t me go blame the writers #i think that’s odd as hell actually #why did they do that #but hey i’m going to explore that idea bc they both don’t know how to take care of themselves #and they both would 100% get into an abusive relationship #so maybe i will make that animatic actually

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sun-marie · 9 months ago

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"I'm sorry, my love..."

Everyone had a rough time getting through the Survivor Trial on Kazuwari, but Aloth's hands getting crushed by a boulder hit Sabina particularly hard, seeing as he's a wizard and he kinda needs those :(

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months ago

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"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!!#i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again?????#mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :(#and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭#perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ?????#also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art.#f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

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incorrectfatui · 3 months ago

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Crucabena: You know… I really wish you’d just admit you made a mistake sometimes. Peruere, glaring and stirring her coffee: I prefer it with salt.

#Crucabena #Peruere #Arlecchino #The Knave #this is after clervie died so they‘re getting along even worse than before #also Arlecchino is 100% a coffee addict i dont make the rules #We know Crucabena often pretended to be like a regular/nice person #so I feel like it just got more akward as time went on #like maam everyone knows you‘re awful atp why do you still pretend #Meanwhile Dottore probably unironically drinks his coffee with salt #overheard in the house of the hearth

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autistic-shaiapouf · 20 days ago

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Emergency-ish Commissions

Hey guys it's your local florida man in a bit of a tight spot; hurricane number one totaled my car and hurricane number two knocked out the power for 5 days and I haven't had a chance to apply for assistance for food yet. I'll be without a car for most of next month (with someone who can at least help me get to and from work) and am opening up commissions to try to put a little more towards a down payment for a new car.

For 5 dollars I can give you a little doodle (might slip in a little more detail if you ask for a pokemon!) and for 25 I can do a full body piece, with a couple background elements and some light shading/lighting.

Here's some 5 dollar examples:

And here's some 25 dollar examples:

Won't do anything explicit, bigoted, the standard criteria; other than those, I'm pretty flexible with what I'll draw (fanart, OC art, ship art self-insert, anthro, some mech - I'm still learning!) , just shoot me a DM if you're not sure!

Payment is upfront, either through the commissions tab or directly through the donate button in the link, just let me know what you'd like I'll get to it! Every little bit helps, thank you to everyone!

#this is my most formalized approach to this yet.. gonna rely on reblogs bc between the links and the words i'm using #this post will be 100% shadowbanned #god this feels like. e-begging but between the credit cards and the new car and potentially needing to uber #and also not knowing if i can even pick up extra shifts #it would be fine if this happened literally any other time of year i just. it's happening right when i could really get overtime pay #back to back storms. it could've been so much worse; we thought it might hit as a cat 4 at one point but it still did a ton of damage #i'm yapping so i'll finish this off here; anything to help me feel a little more secure in the coming weeks!#i'm not fighting for my life or anything but like. the car thing is really stressing me out #shai speaks

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vashti-lives · 4 months ago

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PLEASE. I NEED HELP

I'm going on a trip in August and I've decided I really need a new e-reader. I've finally found a company that understands page turning buttons are good! My main beef with them is that they make too many fucking near identical devices and it gives me the worse decision paralysis. TBH this is why I don't already have one.

Pocketbook Verse Pro:

Pocketbook Touch HD 3:

The Touch HD 3 is no longer being produced and the Verse Pro is what Pocketbook is replacing it with. My understanding is that hardware and software wise they're actually quite similar, the main difference being the charging port and the new one is sliiiightly more water proof.

I like the design of the Touch HD 3 more-- to me the buttons look more functional because they look a little bigger and there's some non button space below them. I also just, aesthetically think it looks nicer. Plus it's like $20 cheaper. Is it really dumb to buy a five year old device that's no longer being produced?????????

The Verse Pro will also get to me much sooner and has more cover options.

If I'm going to get the Touch HD 3 I gotta order it ASAP.

Pocketbook has cheaper models but my understanding is that the build quality on them kinda sucks and they're pretty breakable. The problem is Amazon has no problem selling e-readers at a loss and this fucks over the rest of the industry so bad. TBH I would buy a new kindle if they still sold a model with physical buttons, but no. So here we are.

#my phone battery is worse than it used to be #i feel like i can't be on it 100% of the time while at the airport #help me obiwan whoever the fuck. you're my only ho #any of my european peeps have one of these?#e readers #pocketbook pro verse #pocketbook e reader #pocketbook touch hd 3

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aeolianblues · 21 days ago

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it is literally not about legality, if you’re in your late 30s literally what are you hitting up 21 y/os for. Don’t you have investments to make.

#Astonishing number of people will jump on the ‘but it’s technically legal!’ defence #But will not answer my question of whyyyyyy. If your date sounds like PTA night and you need to parent your girlfriend #you have an age gap! And! You are the lamest loser on earth; that is fact; hope this helps!!#(Okay. Lowkey? I shouldn’t be thinking about this STILL. Given it’s been like a MONTH since #But I feel a lil let down and betrayed and I think I’m still kinda processing that… but I #I confided in my bestestest friend that an older man was creeping on me. And I expected her to have my back 100%#And idk— I think she’s just had worse experiences with men and has a higher tolerance to bad behaviour than I an asexual person do #But her response was along the lines of ‘you’re an adult; there’s no problem with it really;#can’t blame him for shooting his shot; it’s not really a weird age gap’#And worst of all— ‘maybe he just has an age kink; maybe he gets off on you being younger’#I have to say. I don’t care. The point is that I discouraged it several times and was getting increasingly uncomfortable with it #I feel like in that situation the thing to do is side with me especially when I’m telling you all this.#And like. Sigh i don’t know. I still love her with all my heart but it’s feeling a lil awkward rn #I’m still thinking about that and obviously I don’t want it to ruin the best friendship I’ve ever had #But it’s feeling a little forced right now. I expected her to have my back and for some reason her brushing this aside did make me #Feel completely invalidated and like I should just stop feeling weirded out and man up and discourage this man in words—#When the thing is there was NEVER any hint of interest. I don’t feel like I should have to dignify his behaviour in terms of interest or #Attraction. Because! I just don’t think you should be that forward with strangers repeatedly!! and if I think that’s weird then I’m sorry i #It won’t work with me! I don’t like it! I think that’s grounds enough to stop oh my god.#I’ll be seeing my bestie in a couple of weeks. Flying all the way out to England for her. I don’t want this to be awkward…#but something in me is just a lil heartbroken. Like I feel the girlcode was broken. We’ve always told each other #Not to let men affect our self worth or alter our boundaries. I feel like that was violated.#(ik she said that bc her bf at the time was 30 but like. Listen to my individual situation no? This one wasn’t about you I came for advice)#Rant

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spielzeugkaiser · 2 years ago

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why didn’t lovechild!au geralt ever go looking for jaskier?

That is a good question! I think there are various things at play.

First there is Ciri – which he did take in shortly after they separated. Since I took wild hunt Ciri for this story (when they meet later) this does change her age quite drastically. It deages her quite a bit (if Milek is around 14 and she is ~24) that means Geralt took her in when she was nine. And I think that does change things. His focus was on her.

Then there is Yennefer – I think she wanted to encourage him to look out for Jaskier, but she is also majorly pissed at him. I feel like their dynamic changes a lot because she is aware of Milek. (It’s way cooler, for a start.) It’s not her intention but... Geralt feels even worse because of that? She makes him feel like he did something unforgiveable. Which makes avoidance a bigger topic on his side. And after a while… I dunno. When Yen and Geralt had that talk on the dragon hunt, that this life they lead doesn’t fit and work with a baby – Geralt was not wrong. And I feel like, with time, and what Ciri goes through too, Yen comes to realize that it might be better if he doesn’t know (for now). So maybe she doesn’t outright discourage him to look out for Jaskier, but… She certainly is not encouraging that idea. (it’s messy.)

There is part of Geralt that feels like. Jaskier will come back when he feels ready (he always did) and if he goes out to find him, he isn’t welcome. It doesn’t help that Jaskier is suddenly very hard to find. Geralt wants to respect his wish to not be found.

(little does he know).

And then there is also A LOT of plot happening.

#he can't be blamed for the time when he had amnesia #he can't also be blamed for the time he was dead MHH-#a relevant plot point appears? maybe? 👀#also I have to say it: I want Jaskier to meet Regis so bad #hMMMMM #listen I think Geralt is sad (and poutes a little bit) and is just! an awkward guy sometimes when it comes to emotions!#but the biggest thing is Geralt '0% self worth' of Rivia #this man needs some sign that he is wanted or he will never impose #and the timeframe in which he WOULD have easily gone off to apologize is somehow gone #it's been too long #he still wants too #Geralt is 100% still beating himself up about that #once again #little does he know #that feeling is gonna get so much worse

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dnpg-hiatus-survivor · 9 months ago

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whenever i’m sad, i play some minecraft and silently whisper to myself “dont cry, craft”

#and then i die and feel 100 times worse so #dont cry craft #dan and phil #dnp #phan #dan and phil games #amazingphil #danisnotonfire #daniel howell

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months ago

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