#this should not be working as well as it is. its awesome.

[zorollade]

pkmn masters ex is fun because i make a team of exclusively strike pairs and name it #girlpower and give them max upgrades and watch them win despite it all

[buggbuzz]

well the meds still work but now my fingerpads hurt from typing 💔

also just realized my adhd meds are functionally just ozempic cause of the appetite loss LMAO. especially when you consider how, like, i lost 20 pounds in the first three months on adhd meds, how i had to focus more on not ending up underweight rather than overweight for once, and how my appetite has never been the same since lmao. like, i knew that was bc of the constant lack of appetite for years, but realizing its basically makeshift ozempic really put that into perspective lol.

my healthy weight seems to be 120-130lbs (i'm a 5'1 irish american female for reference). im definitely overweight at 140 and underweight under 120, as i have learned from overworking myself while on meds 💀 (pounds MATTER when youre short bro weight shows easily when there's nowhere for it to go). im naturally pretty stocky so its crazy to me that i know multiple people around 5-5'2 that are healthy at like 110 lbs like WHAT where is your MEAT at if i was 110 i'd be fucking decaying 😭

anyways i just found this stuff interesting lol. boy is it fun to be an organism with a complex body when you're a huge biology nerd! i'm like a personal specimen that i can study 24/7

[yuridovewing]

i actually think berryheart should've succeeded in making tigerheartstar step down for 2 reasons:

it's still an example of how the new rule can be used for both good and bad and shows how xenophobia really can't be cured with a cute new rule after a girl died, the new rule is good in theory but its flawed like the rest of the code. it's also a good way to highlight and criticize the xenophobia in the clan in general given that this arc seems to revolve around that conflict. It's also an actual climax for the book instead of "nuh-uh" that leads into the next book well as now sunbeam might feel worried about her old clan and cats like fringewhisker now. conflict is a good thing to deal with in a story.

tigerstar is just tigerheart again so we can stop having duplicate names of the most important characters, no seriously why the fuck did they do that do they hate us

[whumpy-wyrms]

can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

[electricpurrs]

i cant help but always really like the idea of taking a stablished female character and specially the ones that are particularly girly or feminine and turning them into transmasc pretty boys. extreme gender self indulgence but i love to see it done

[tazzmanian-devil]

guy who hasnt taken his meds in a week: oh so theres no point? were all doomed? im doomed? im going to die? theres no point in trying? its all hopeless?

[girlcockholmes]

now that my PI is like hey you should actually be sitting in the lab to write instead of doing it at home im shooting one million lasers at his head in my mind. fuck off

[sodrippy]

checking my menstrual cycle calendar when i want to make a really big impulse decision like hm ok lets wait five days on this actually

[guinevereslancelot]

please please please let me get the job that is 11 minutes away from me on quiet roads and not have to take the one with city traffic three traffic circles and a scary turn amen 🙏

[botseeksbot]

food . water . vbros women being written well .

[nomaishuttle]

literally consumed by thoughts abt my freaks .

[crystalis]

im sorry for being annoying about pokemon larely

[thesoundofsnowfallingfromeaves]

honestly having a purpose for which i wanna get fit is such a healthy motivator to work out for me, I am so glad I am doing this hike in summer! Before, even when I tried not to, working out always had the 'i wanna change my body shape' undertone for me, because there wasn't really much else to it? yeah bouldering I mostly just do for fun because its also usually with coworkers and it has a real achievement element to it (climbing progressively harder routes and you get to finish many of them in one session which feels great), but everything else was kinda that, even cycling to work when i did it, which is bonkers, cause its mostly also just transportation. But now I am training for my big adventure and the body stuff is so much less on my mind. Its more like "this will help me climb the big hills in 7 months hell yeah!". I feel like I hacked the system.

[ilovemylawyer]

finally got around to watching tazza (2006) and it sparked an evilive related inquiry in my mind...

you know in ep3 how ohjae holds his mic in a lil funny upright style?

well peep this gamblingrelated gangster's eerily similar pose in tazza (2006)

so my question is: is ohjae's stance a reference to this? is it a coincidence? is it referencing something even older that i haven't gotten to yet? are these two going up against each other in a 1v1 rap battle?

[chekovsphaser]

Man I have had an emotional rollercoaster of a day today.

[drchucktingle]

i have copied this comment without name because i think it is very kind and respectful and i do not want buckaroos interpreting it the wrong way. PLEASE UNDERSTAND this buckaroo is very sincere and has important points and please respect their way. i am going to answer in a way that is counter to their point and i do not want buds to go after them IN ANY WAY. THEY ARE PROVING LOVE AND THEY HAVE GOOD POINTS

okay here is what i have to say:

i have not transitioned and in this lifetime i do not expect to. i think you have a good point of 'how can you know?' and honestly i cannot know that is just how timelines and reality and perception work

HOWEVER i must caution against this train of thought slightly because what works for one buckaroos MAY NOT WORK for another. every time i talk about my non-dysphoric way there are plenty of well meaning buds, particularly fellow trans buds, who show up with posts in the tone of 'its only matter of time.' like i just do not understand yet.

this reminds me of bisexual buckaroos who are told 'you just do not know you are gay yet'. as difficult as it is to step out of our own dang minds, i implore buckaroos to accept that there VERY JOYFUL AND FULFILLED NON-DYSPHORIC TRANS BUCKAROOS who do not need to transition and never will and are healthy and happy without that. just like there are bisexual buckaroos who are not just on their way to being gay

a good way to look at it is like this: I LOVE MY MALE BODY. i think i am a very handsome buckaroo. i have masculine features in my muscle and height and frame. as far as how fate could have placed me on this timeline I WON MY OWN PERSONAL FOOTRACE. i am up on the podium and i am standing here with a medal around my neck. GOOD JOB CHUCK

HOWEVER when i look down i see that medal is silver. i am not going to lie and say it is gold. it is silver.

YES my gold medal is a female body. that is an objective truth to my trot. i believe my gender way is that of a women, but there is no part of me that is upset about where i have placed.

I GOT SILVER. i am not upset. there is no tragedy. in fact i am OVERWHLEMED WITH JOY not just to be on the podium but to be in this race in the first place. HECK YEAH I DID IT AND I GOT A MEDAL

of course this is not to dismiss the difficult journey of others. many do not feel the way i do and their trot is VALID. a dysphoric way matters and is important and these voices are important. they should be elevated and supported. i understand some do not share this podium imagery, and they feel PAINED by trappings of their body.

i feel so much for this. i understand and care for my dysphoric buds, but the simple truth is that is not my story. i cant just lie and say that it is.

it will never be my story. i cannot say this enough: i love my body. however i STILL believe my truest way is that of a ladybuck. if it was a simple button push to change me, then i would push it without hesitation.

but it is not a simple button push.

talk to almost any buckaroo who has transitioned and they will say 'transitioning is hard'. it takes time and work and money and emotional support. i am in awe of the bravery of buckaroos who trot this path, but all of that is not worth it for something that i already feel good about. SCRATCH THAT, i feel GREAT ABOUT. i feel overwhelmed with joy every day over just existing in this male body that i have been blessed with. YES buckaroo, i feel joy existing in a male body that i know is ladybuck on the inside. it feels interesting a cool and exciting.

but my truest way is STILL a ladybuck trot

i guess i am just trying to say that i love second place. im happy to celebrate it. i think my male body is really dang cool. it is not a 'perfect me' but it is really dang awesome, and i never really bothered with trying to be perfect