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Thinking about how Itadori and Fushiguro were probably never suppose to meet.
Feel free to disagree with my argument or chalk it up to me being a sad ass bitch, but it does feel like that.
Feel free to add to this post or send me an ask lol.
Why do I feel like this?
Well, I can’t pinpoint the exact reasons for why I feel this way, I can give some evidence to back it up. I know that JJK is a shonen and it was going to start with Itadori Yuji and end with or without him.
Ofc the most obvious one is Yuji’s death and path leading up to it.
(I will refer to the manga at this point if I will put anime screenshots if I just have them at hand)
Their first meeting
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As you can see Fushiguro was impressed by Itadori’s natural strength. Even comparing him to Maki. However that was the extent he was willing to give to a random person. A very one sided interaction.
Until
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This is the moment the narrative shifts for both Megumi and Yuji. Yuji carrying a curse since the beginning of their meeting (how ironic!) and Megumi is going after him. Sure it’s to retrieve Sukuna’s finger but it’s there.
For anyone who doesn’t know for some odd reason, Megumi’s name translates to Blessing hence why Toji and mama Fushiguro call him such. Yes, his name meaning is important to not only Yuji but to the major players such as Gojo.
Also we have to talk about Grandpa Itadori’s last request.
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Of course we know now that Grandpa’s last words were a curse to Yuji. How this last request shapes Yuji as a person in the coming chapters. Another curse to add to the list of curses. (Do the note the rule of three)
Then we get the scene in the hospital after Yuji’s grandfather dies. (Abridged for time)
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This is when the plot finally kicks in. Yuji unknowably putting his friends in danger and Megumi has to go save them and the finger. I don’t personally count this as a curse for Yuji as it’s just the direct effect of the first curse I noted. Remember that Yuji comes in when he remembers his grandpa’s words.
Then finally we get to the final curse
Ryomen Sukuna
Itadori Yuji’s last and final curse that sealed his fate. The very thing that led him to the path he’s in. Not just him but also Fushiguro Megumi. From Shibuya to the current arc (Chapter 244-245) both of them have been by each other’s side trying their best to break this curse.
Remember, Yuji was going to be executed once he ate the first finger but due to Gojo’s interference and Megumi’s own personal feelings he was given a choice.
The first chapter really set them up to meet each other regardless of the factors that scream don’t do it/don’t follow him. Especially in hindsight, you can feel the tragedy brewing before it even begins. You somewhat know the consequences in the first chapter and it only grows worse in the second.
But that what makes a good tragedy.
Fuck you Gege you one eye cat
Now I’m gonna bring up chapter 9 for a bit because it’s history is very interesting. Gege did say that if the series didn’t do well, he will leave Yuji dead. (Ofc this didn’t happen and please help me find the source of this information. I know it was stated in an interview but I couldn’t find a translated version.)
Even then, it just solidifies my feelings.
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This is the ending of the story. How it’s suppose to end.
Someone said that this seemed like a confession and I have to agree. Whether it’s romantic or platonic, Fushiguro’s feelings for Itadori are real.
Hear that?
That’s me sobbing.
With the recent chapters, it seem bleak but I believe that we will see Fushiguro again.
Yuji and Megumi will meet again maybe for the last time. I’m not Gege, but I trust him not really to give them a proper ending.
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#media analysis#this is a long one#sorry for the JJK posting#jjk spoilers#kinda#can be read as platonic or romantic#idc if the post flops or not#I just needed to sort my feeling out#idk man#this shit rotted my brain lmao
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songs from picaresque (2005) as posters :-)
#this will probably get 0 notes but i dont care !!!!! i have the most severe picaresque brain rot#i drew ones for all the songs but these r my faves :-)#yes these posters are for a bday present for my bf but i will be making more picaresque content till my fixation subsides#who knows maybe ill just move onto another decemberists album afterwards lmao#anyway !!!!!!! i love this album. god#the decemberists#colin meloy#picaresque#i really need an umbrella tag for my all my own shit lol#mia makes stuff
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seen one too many snide posts about this in the last week or so but did you know that if you don't enjoy scenes in smut establishing consent or checking in then you simply don't have to read them and you don't have to go online and whine about how they're Consent Posturing and Purity Culture and Sanitizing Everything and God Just Kill Me Now. like you can have a preference without making it into a three act morality play, which is ironically what you are accusing other people of doing.
the same goes for like, detailed content warnings on fics. or content warnings at all. you can just skip those. they're not a sign of Purity Culture Gone Too Far or Those Damn Puriteens or whatever. you can dislike things without being an asshole about them or implying they're Taking Away What's Good And Correct About Fic Or Creativity.
#gav gab#sex ment#there's a running thread in the L2L cinematic universe shower sex fic#about consent and checking in and like. being cautious and careful and Aware of the other party#and whether they want to be doing what they're doing#and it is there for a reason and it is extremely meaningful to the context of what's happening#and if i see one more post mocking the entire concept of addressing consent in a fic#i am gonna heap my lid#i really do think 'consent posturing' is one of the most enraging phrases i've ever seen online tbh#and there's some stiff competition#like. wrow. lot going on THERE.#i just hate that i'm so anxious about this part of this fic#i mean im anxious about the whole thing for various reasons but#seeing those posts some of which have been reblogged by people whose opinions i do respect#has made me really embarrassed and worried about honestly one of the most Meaningful parts of this fic#and i feel like i need to pre-emptively go on the defensive or else people will think it's Bad and Stupid and He Would Not Fucking Say That#etc etc etc#like i have to pre-emptively defend myself against accusations of bad writing#and i know the answer is just to care less about Posts On Line but i would like to cordially suggest perhaps the answer is also#stop being an asshole about a preference and asserting it like it is not in fact a preference#but is instead you speaking some kind of Good Take onto the stupid brain rotted puriteen masses or whatever#i am doing better about not letting the ocd win and caring less about Posts#whatever it may appear lmao i Am doing better with that#but that doesn't mean those posts arent still mean and shitty#and generalizing a lot of weird shit into things like#'establishing consent in a sex scene' which apparently is Inherently Boring And Annoying
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#embarrassment#not gonna comment further because i cba#usually i wait for someone else to post this stuff so i can just rb#but im impatient and wanna go to bed and not forget lmao#i wanna say im surprised by all the random celebs coming out the woodwork with this kind of shit but i really am not#elon musk#nick jonas#receipts#nah im actually just soooooo#like i dont actually care pr like nick jonas is the thing#i should not be talking about this in these tags but oh well#anyways point is i could say a lot but im gonna keep it simple#basically i dont care. and i hate being on twitter because it literally is just brain rotting material on their#like my own personal rage bait. but i also have this incessant need to know about this shit#so i am in a never ending toxic cycle lmao#like id rather know that not and i definitely dont Live on there like i do tumblr#and it does have its plus sides too#but oh my goooodddddd#idk what im saying its 2am pls forgive me i just wanted to post this then sleep and here i fucking am#on the longest rant to ever rant#n e ways#me: im not gonna comment further#me 2 seconds later: comments further#lmaoooo
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A Hobie Dooble! He’s a favorite thats for sure, even if im terrible at distinguising his costume details
#eyestrain#across the spiderverse#across the spider-verse#atsv#hobie brown#spider punk#art#my art#sketch#i wouldnt change his design for the world but i am terrible at reading details so#chromatic aberration#ftw#also for the followers i have a shit ton of ze-lda stuff in the works but im not quite working on it linearly#so expect that hopefully in the near future#i had to wait to watch the movie for two weeks because the brain rot was so bad for it lmao#the theater was still packed tho it was crazy#im glad this one took off so quickly compared to itsv#it needs to win all the awards
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people will hate chuck bass bc of his gothic hero swag and bitchiness
#its the dangerous balance he attains by being cruel and closed off one scene and surprisingly kind and shy the next#sometimes ed estwick just looks like a little boy when hes happy and it throws off my whole vision of chuck#chuck could do wuthering heights but heathcliff could never go up to gossip girl (not bc he would not be able to#but because he could not give enough of a shit about this teenagers website)#lmao ignore ive been watching way too much gossip girl these days with my adorable roomate and it is rotting my brain#chuck bass#gossip girl
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did you know that with the reintroduction of amy’s tarot cards she now has a very convenient excuse as to why she mistook shadow and silver for sonic like amy follows her heart it’s her thing and when reading a tarot fortune you have to put your heart into it the celtic cross spread for tarot cards places the past present and future cards in a row of three like in the above pic and in sonic 06 shadow sonic and silver are connected and represent said past present and future so if amy is blindly following her heart as she was characterised to do back in the day then she would be blindly be following those connected to sonic’s fate—
#this is vee speaking#you don’t have to read allat lmao i’m just excITED OVER PRETTY AND PINK GETTING MORE PRETTY OUTFITS LMAO#YOU DONT UNDERSTAND SHES MY BLUEPRINT LMAO SO MANY CHARACTERS I GET INTO ARE JUST RESKINNED VERSIONS OF HER#AND THESE PAST FEW YEARS OF TRYING TO BRING HER BACK INTO THE FOLD MAKES ME SO HAPPY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#AND GOING ALL IN ON THE MAGICAL GIRL POWER POTENTIAL SHES ALWAYS HAD#WHEN SONIC TEAM LOCKS IN AND MAKES AMY A MISTRESS OF FATE AS HER ‘SUPER’ FORM LIKE VANESSA FROM BLACK CLOVER#YALL WILL KNOW WHOS LOSING HER SHIT THE MOST SHES RIGHT HERE LMAO#god i can’t believe i’m going full brain rot on this series again i can never escape it lmao
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just finished the new fantasy high episode and havent seen anyone talk abt this so i wanted to say i am 100. one HUNDRED PERCENT sure. that fuckin fourdogs was at that party invisibly (the One And Only buttfucker to NOT make an obvious appearance?? rules-follower or no, i dont believe that for a SECOND) and that she stole the piece of the cloud runner that went missing, and that the moment of her swipe was the "something" riz missed on his check -- i also really *hope* it wasn't oisin that made those damn ice mephits (or "muffets" as my beloved drunk adaine christened them lmao) act up like that, but immmmm pretty sure thats exactly what was goin on since it wouldve given his party member advantage/an easier access point :/
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy spoilers#listen i was oisin to be good & real & nice SO BAD. HOT RIPPED TATTED DRAGONBORN WIZARD ??? PLEASE#but. im also a suspicious-ass bitch lmao#also wait ik they spelled his name without the accent on his character art#but doesnt the name oisin have an accent over one of the i's?? idk jack abt shit so i could be wrong ofc#in any case. i like the concepts behhind the ratfuckers as a party (*except buddy. seeing him made me feel fucking ILL lmao.) but#i neeeeeeed them to get fucking TROUNCED by the bad kids. i NEED it. theyd be so much more tolerable if they got briefly asswhooped#like i think after that they could TOTALLY be friends and work together. before that?? FUCK no lmfao#anyway. i love-hate fishykitty whatserbucket and i need to see her lose#i cant wait for the ratgrinders to meet the unstoppable force that is the bad kids bigass hearts#deciding to team up with local shitheads & therefore turning them into op allies by sheer force of will and love#its happened to ragh its happened to aelwyn it kiiinda happened with kalina (jury's still out but my fingers are crossed!!)#spring break i believe in them!!!#bee speaks#its happening yall. i try to keep my incomprehensible blorboposting to a dull roar but now that im fully caught up on d20 i fear i may start#going full pepe silvia trying to figure this out#i cant binge it all in one go and have it rot thru my brain like slow-eating acid to leak thru in a contained matter#waiting for a new episode every week means i have time to THINK
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Have you ever drawn OCs or self inserts that you have shipped with Springtrap in stories?
This is a half validation and a half interest question.
i have yes although they've been few and far between cuz even when im just drawing for myself i get extremely flustered (>////<)
i did a huge chunk when i was like 12
also remember! you can do whatever you want forever, which includes drawing yourself smooching your faves
#WHO GIVE A SHIT IF HE ROTTING I WANT HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗#spacie splains#i would do more x y/n stuff w/springy if it wasnt for the fact that i just get too flustered#like my brain short circuits LMAO#SORRIES BROS#HE IS SO INTERESTING TA ME AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH#I WANNA KISS HIM#i usually only do self inserts cuz
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You can be all I got, what's the difference. You and me and a lot of bad decisions.
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bloodcore
1. excerpts from my diary, inkedpoet 2. in the dream house, carmen maria machado 3. gojo yubari, kill bill vol. 1 / 4. title unknown, solitary-sister 5. bleeding love by leona lewis 6 + 7. blood feast, herschell gordan lewis, 1963 8. bloodstream by stateless 9. anna de noailles tr., norman r. shapiro, from poems; “dazzled, precise,”. 10. image source unknown.
#wake up besties. mer finally got the courage to post a webweaving post#ajsksoskdkslsldk honestly this didn’t take nearly as long as i thought it would bc the experience truly soothes something in me????#like idk. it may not even be everyone’s vibe and honestly maybe il fckn delete this#BUT LIKE ALSOOOO#the writer/creator in me is like !!!!!!!!#webweaving is so lovely 2 me#webweaving#poetry#i feel morally obligated to tag this as a trigger warning for blood but ALSOO#if u follow me/engage w my content you know i LOVE gory shit#blood as concept has always rotted my brain. like it fascinates me lmao#idk man#this is getting long#screams#blood#if you enjoy these beloved mutuals/followers pls lemme know and i shall make more!!!!#gloomcore
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she's just so !!!!!
#that's it that's the post#i just love her w my entire heart#it took......Forever to figure out the correct combination to get her hair the color I wanted it#i am just feral over my high elf wizard daughter#anyway bg3 is still rotting my brain and is the current hyperfixation so ofc i made jemma my tav#i need to figure out a few more details and then i'll like. actually post shit abt a verse for it lmao#my tummy hurts but i'm being really brave about it – out of character.#kate plays bg3
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Shadow the hedgehog cartoon announcement sorry everyone im gonna hermit away four months in advanced so i can be optimally annoying when they talk about it
#not rgg#hes in my pfp this goes here. also because i say so#snap chats#no i AM posting this here idc im gonna throw up crying and screaming#little else can be done to make my week better like first i hang with my bestie and we’re gon hang again later this week#then a buncha shit i ordered a while back finally got shipped and now shadow cartoon announcement#theyre literally talking about it in JULY some may say im too excited too early but have you considered eating my shorts#im scared tho what if its mid#the promo post looks so good … he looks so cute 😭#heard the mates who worked on the rise tmnt cartoon are workin on this …. ouughghh i know im gonna throw up crying#they been doin good things for my boy as of late … ik it his year so No Shit but still …#anyway yeah im putting in my. idk LMAO years notice for rgg posting cause once this is out i will not shut up ever#at least for a week. bossman im scheduling a vacation month once this drops Whenever idk#ok bye i actually have rgg doodles planned but i gotta do comm stuff first fjWWOJDJS#all sega does is rot my brain like all i did yesterday with my bestie was play final fantasy and sonic#what an excellent tuesday i tell you … ok bye
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the untreated depression is depressioning so bad today 👍
#I have unfortunately been alone all day today while everyone else has been at work and hmmmmm#has not been great for my brain tbh#I’ve done lots of art and stuff around the house like chores but oh buddy I needed someone to chat shit with so bad#my brain problems manifest in a way that makes me feel very not human#that sounds v weird of me but it’s like#idk#very dog-like is the best way to describe it#like hm need enrichment need companionship#the YouTube let’s plays are not doing it anymore lmao#I did laugh once or twice at a lethal company video one of my favs did w his friends but like#hmm no#just ended up making me more sad tbh#seeing people have fun w their friends while I’m here rotting in a (very cold!) house jdjdjdjd#idk it’s silly I know but then family have got home from work and like#no one’s bothered with me#for more than a couple of minutes#and I know if you want to spend time w people you have to ask but I legitimately#do not even have the energy to ask#I just feel shite and angry and sad and irritable#and then like a good layer of numb so it feels a bit like uh#you know how things sound muffled when you’re under water#it’s like that but with emotions#idk I feel watery on the inside if that makes sense#but I don’t even have the energy to cry dhdhhddj#shit sucks man I want my energy back please I do Not enjoy being this way
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Hmm someone outta stop me bcuz I'm seriously considering going thru my whole blog just to tag all my Sonic posts cuz the way my brain works I'm casually lookin thru my blog and a thought pops up tellin me like Man just think of how hard it would be to tag all of these tho I wish I could so I don't lose some of the cooler posts I got on here... wait is that a challenge? You don't think I'm capable of going thru all these posts and tagging them? HA! YOU KNOW NOT MY POWER! YOU KNOW NOT WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF! IF I WANTED TO I REALLY COULD and etc etc etc so yeah I'm like super close to biting the bullet and going thru all my posts just to tag some of those potential straggler posts of Sonic stuff I may have reblogged back in the day
#listen if someone says I can't do smth or that it's too hard or doubting my ability to dedicate hours to something that only matters to me#well then I just gotta fuckin do it then cuz I know I can HOW DARE THEY !! YOU CHALLENGE ME!! I'LL PROVE YOU WRONG !! MWAHAHAHAHA type shit#goes Sonic mode I'll make you eat those words! <- not a Sonic thing I'm just rotting my brain with Sonic content lmao#also it's only if it's something I know I'm able to do if someone ''challenges'' me to something I know I can't do or don't care about#then I'm not even gonna think about doing it for even a second#but something like this? oh I'm well aware I COULD do this IT IS JUST SO MUCH WORK IT WOULDN'T BE WORTH IT I'M SURE#I'm talking myself outta it cuz I know what I'm like I'm so close to revving up BUT I GOTTA STOP MYSELF#I am not a competitive person I'm just really stupid mind you I think it is funny to do stupid shit like this and that's the reason#that's the reason I'm thinkin of doin it cuz there is NO reason I SHOULD do it but in theory I COULD do it but I SHOULD NOT
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let it be known that I completed my journal today, like I wrote on the last available page for it
holy shit
#ben rambles about shit#its a green leather one that I bought for summer vacation 2013#it lasted me ten fucking years#what the fuck a whole decade#we forgot to take it with us when we went on vacation in august before 8th grade started#like I wrote in it each time something important enough happened that I'd remembered its existence#we'd had to find it through all the piles of papers and notebooks and sketchbooks on our desk#or when we got the book shelves and couldn't keep it in the same spot for us to find omfg#like this journal was there when I met the most important people of my life#wrote in it when I graduated and went to college#wrote in it sometimes when I had to just write out my thoughts that were keeping me up at night#the process of my handwriting getting to what it is today like similarities can be seen to the chicken scrall I had ten years ago#yet its so damn different to the chicken scrall we have today lmao#the first entry was a sketch of the beach in cali#it was done when I got back from vacationing and realised I forgot it which defeated the purpose of why I got it in the first place#as in to write all the things I did on those days spent away from home#so it became tradition to just forget the journal and a joke to try and finish it at all#the last entry I made today because I finally stopped procrastinating and make the important phone calls#we reached an epiphany of sorts and could finally fill out those last two pages that had been sitting blank since last year#literally closing a chapter of my life#a whole book on it really#idk about getting a new one#like what if it takes another ten years to finish?#also the sketchbooks have served for the same purpose recently when writing letters I can't bring myself to send#plus sketches to go along with whatever brain rot we have going on#hmmmm decisions decisions
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