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Do you think the writers of Season 7's Lessons were thinking about Rupert Giles killing a defenceless man with his bare hands -- and, as far as we can see, never so much as thinking about it again after the event -- when they had Willow tearfully confess to him that she expected to be executed or "locked in some mystical dungeon for all eternity" and that it was only right that everyone she knew should be afraid of her for the rest of her life because she was a murderer? Do you think they remembered that when he was about Willow's age Rupert Giles canonically used magic to summon a demon who killed one man and would later go on to kill several more people and that, when the Watchers Council found out, his only punishment was to be sent back to Oxford to complete his undergraduate degree?

I'm inclined to think not, but it does add a certain frisson to his responses, doesn't it? "I've not forgotten," he tells Willow when she reminds him that she "killed people". Is he thinking about Randall and Ben when he says that? Were they somehow more deserving of death than Warren or Rack? "Do you want to be punished?" he asks her later. Does he?

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“labubu” sounds like a word your auntie would use with your baby cousin to mean “vulva”

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really perplexing btvs fandom thing to me is when ppl are mad that willow & the gang resurrected buffy bc she had finally found peace in death. bc yeah s6 shows us so much of how buffy suffers as a result of having been brought back. but like. if my 21 year old best friend sacrificed her life for me and then three months later i found a way to bring her back to life i would do it. no hesitation. of course i would do it.

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the left testicle is for logic and forward thinking and the right testicle is for creativity and art

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possibly the greatest asoiaf moment ever is when jon gets the letter about bran waking up and mormont expects him to grieve because “sorry kid :( it’s actually bad news :( he’s never going to walk again :(” but jon is all like “my brother is going to live !!!” and then he races out of the room and tells everyone he passes that “my brother is going to live !!!” and he gets back to the common hall and picks tyrion up and spins him around and makes him read the letter too because “my brother is going to live !!!” and he’s so giddy that he befriends grenn and tells thorne to go fuck himself and then everybody laughs and jon is just so happy because “my brother is going to live !!!”

meanwhile bran is back in winterfell listening to robb’s bannermen whisper about how death is a kinder fate than his, how they should’ve just let him die, how he’s too broken to be alive—with no idea that his big brother is out there celebrating because bran is going to LIVE !!!

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*Valley Girl voice*: I must, like, not fear. Fear is literally the mind-killer. Like it’s basically the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will totally face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me, and? When it’s gone? I’m gonna like turn the inner eye to see its path! Where the fear has gone there will be literally nothing. Only I will remain.

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“The architecture of the Minotaur’s heart is ancient. Rough hewn and many chambered, his heart is a plodding laborious thing, built for churning through the millennia. But the blood it pumps—the blood it has pumped for five thousand years, the blood it will pump for the rest of his life—is nearly human blood. It carries with it, through his monster’s veins, the weighty, necessary, terrible stuff of human existence: fear, wonder, hope, wickedness, love. But in the Minotaur’s world it is far easier to kill and devour seven virgins year after year, their rattling bones rising at his feet like a sea of cracked ice, than to accept tenderness and return it.”

— Steven Sherrill, The Minotaur Takes a Cigarette Break

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Tove Ditlevsen, Childhood (1967)

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Some Buffy fanart I drew earlier, changed up her outfit from the original

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ok literally i Am going to bed and i Will stop posting but also i am compelled to post bc i feel like willow's dislike of anya is yes what triangle says on the text about being worried anya will hurt xander but is ALSO implied in the whole "no one says that, no one talks that way" thing as like, willow doesnt like anya because of her own projected self loathing. like willow growing up never said the right thing and was always awkward and off-putting and seeing someone else so brazenly be that and not even want to change? not think anything is wrong with the way they are? (bc like, anya is really into her speech patterns! see — "she speaks with a strange evenness and selects her words a shade too precisely" / "some men like that in a girl" / *xanya shared smile*)

and there's ALSO something about how a good chunk of willow's adolescent self-loathing was all bound up in xander not liking her romantically and obviously i don't think any feelings for xander romantically are still in play after s4, but i do think seeing xander be with someone who is by all accounts dorky and strange and offputting must twinge something in her like, why wasn't it good enough when i was like that? what's wrong with me? i also really love the whole "smart girls are so hot" / "you couldn't have figured that out in 10th grade?" exchange bc yes on the one hand it is this lighthearted and fond ribbing at their romantic history but on the other hand is also about like, those feelings of shame and rejection stuck with willow and affected her to such an acute degree!!! and impacted so much of her transformation of wardrobe and presentation between s4 -> s5. there's the oz rejection and the "why didn't you tell me my shirt looks like a crazy birthday cake" and then there's tara perceiving willow as cool ("you're like a cool monster fighter), and willow wrapping all of that together in, me becoming ~cooler~ is directly proportional to me being attractive and me being attractive is directly proportional to me having worth

like!!! that's her whole thing!! in restless!! is that underneath it all she's still that geeky girl and that fundamentally that is something so shameful, fundamentally that makes her nothing and a freak and so monstrous that it's the moment she's literally murdered in the dream, is in that moment that it's revealed that nothing's changed, she's still that girl who no one wants, deep down

which is WHY this dark willow line hits so HARD?

i dont even have anything to wrap up with im just sad now!!!!!

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One thing that drives me absolutely crazy about Jaime’s narrative point of view is how different it is from what the reader would expect from what was previously established by the story. He is easy to perceive as an extremely cynical and fully disillusioned nihilist as a result of his interaction with Catelyn in ACoK (which is of course a huge part of his narrative on the surface) but what is so great about the prose in his chapters is the fact that this notion gets immediately interrogated.

“An east wind blew through his tangled hair, as soft and fragrant as Cersei's fingers. He could hear birds singing, and feel the river moving beneath the boat as the sweep of the oars sent them toward the pale pink dawn. After so long in darkness, the world was so sweet that Jaime Lannister felt dizzy. I am alive, and drunk on sunlight. A laugh burst from his lips, sudden as a quail flushed from cover.”

His very first sentence in his very first POV chapter is comparing the wind blowing through his hair to the caress of a lover’s fingers. There is an abundance of tactile, auditory, visual, etc (nearly all the senses) imagery. The connotation of the words he uses. The syntax. I am alive and drunk on sunlight. The tone of his PoV should immediately make the reader go like ???? Hello???? What???? Obviously he just got out of the Tully Bdsm Dungeon ™ and he is still feeling the alcohol lol but it’s not like this stops. You keep getting passages like this:

“Jaime lay on his back afterward, staring at the night sky, trying not to feel the pain that snaked up his right arm every time he moved it. The night was strangely beautiful. The moon was a graceful crescent, and it seemed as though he had never seen so many stars. The King's Crown was at the zenith, and he could see the Stallion rearing, and there the Swan. The Moonmaid, shy as ever, was half-hidden behind a pine tree. How can such a night be beautiful? he asked himself. Why would the stars want to look down on such as me?”

His description of scenery is always very rich, vivid, and vibrant. He sees and describes things in such a romantic light and elements of romanticism are so often present in his perspective. The richness of the prose can rival someone like Sansa’s chapters. He idealizes the characters who have a profound and intense effect on him (Cersei, Tyrion, Brienne, Arthur Dayne, Rhaegar etc). It conveys how feigned some of that cynicism truly is and how much of a romantic he is at his core. So much of Jaime Lannister’s identity is a persona, and the subtext constantly battles with his own perception of self, and what he tries to present to the reader and other characters. We can see how he compartmentalizes, how his thoughts, words, and actions are in constant conflict. But the fact that even his own prose gives him away 😭. The fact that the POV structure benefits his character development in every way is so good. The perception and recontextualization thing is obvious, but there are so many more subtle aspects to the way the world is written through his eyes that make the ASoS arc function as well as it does.

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buffy summers in her room dancing around and singing into a stake like microphone

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lying in front of the street cleaner

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i left a poem out over night. one hundred lovesick beetles and ants in the kitchen

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You can’t keep on doing this, Potter.

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There’s my lord husband