#this screenshot is over 2 years old who fucking cares

[kirexa]

Every time I see that jackbox post I'm tempted to post my favorite screenshot from a game

Narutoes was a players username btw

[wisteriaphobia]

Alright time to come out, not out of the closet, but I am Nat (Or Lilnatx) . I wanted to come here and share my story or fairy tales if you don't like me. I was a part of “clique 1”

Not to use my age like a pokemon card but I am 15, and I don't care what you have to say to me personally but I'm sick and tired of my name being dragged through the mud and being used as a scapegoat. But I have lots of pent up anger that I didn't have the privilege of saying.

April 3rd was the day I was banned from nevermore, with no proof. Like at all, I'm still bamboozled and scratching my head like a monkey on what was actually on me and my friends. We were accused of “shit talking” and I have yet to see the shit that we have allegedly talked about.

And honestly? Even if I did shit talk people, why… in a conversation about a predator … does that matter? I'm exhausted with how Red always fights with teenagers (like me) and other friends of mine. It's so despicable that the minions might just leave Gru for her instead. I was in gym class when I got banned and honestly? I would rather get banned 10 more times than do another plank for 2 minutes while seeing my P.E teacher's bald head.

My crimes that I did publicly (in the screenshot that red posted) is me being.. not fucking involved? Right before I got banned I was staying away from people that I previously did not enjoy and in fact I tried my best to not interact with them directly. At one point I had many members blocked on my discord because I was tired of being the villain.

Yet here I am in the year of our lord July of 2024 and people are still referring to my friends as “nats clique” like I said earlier im 15, quince. I have little power over my friends' actions , especially if they're an adult. I can barely get Laci to join me on Minecraft let alone make her collaborate on some high tech scheme, what is this shit? Oceans 11?

I find it petty that red refers to my friends as a “clique” we're a friend group, and the definition of a clique requires a group that's hard to get into. The server (until now) was open, you could pull up to Jinx's profile like a McDonald's drive through and get an invite. Our friend group was constantly expanding and if you personally felt like you were scared to talk to us, I'm sorry that you never experienced the poop closet jokes.

Red being paranoid about what a bunch of teenagers were maybe saying behind her back to deflect about crimson is quite irresponsible I do say so myself. So please Red! With a cherry on top! Show me what I did to you. What sin have I committed on your ego that should banish me to hell. Because I sure as hell don't know what I've done, (and you can quote this) you probably don't know what I've done either, because you made it all up.

Unfortunately I have no screenshots to give, because my phone storage is ass. But you can hit up any of the members of my clique for proof regarding my innocence. I promise I'm not an evil bitch who wants to ban you (not evil not evil no I'm the least evil person I know)

I'm sorry if this response upsets you, but if a 15 year old girl who ships who chicks bothers you so much. Imagine how I feel, imagine now so many people who once looked up to you feel. Everyone in your post looked up to you once as a role model, and have had panic attacks and stress because (allegedly) you harmed them with your cruel words. You can think it's your fault or not that's not my problem.. but for someone who wants evidence and proof 24/7 you sure like to not give out proof of anyone else.

P.S if you were anyone who gave red evidence of my wrong doings, can I see them? Cause I don't know what I have done.

P.P.S I'm not a man, and I write fanfiction of lesbian vampires.

P.P.P.S this is so not sigma that I gotta make this response

[lol-jackles]

tumblr /jenmishperceiver/747567018487726080/i-think-if-anything-put-the-final-nail-in-the> I've seen this assumption before and imo it's spin: Jensen said repeatedly that he told the group he wanted to think about the script, went home TO HIS WIFE and said he was uncomfortable, who then suggested calling Kripke, ect // In all the retellings, I've never actually seen it said Jensen fought with the writers OR EVEN TOLD THEM and Jared he was uncomfortable until AFTER he'd changed his mind to agreed

Bitter Destiel shippers are those kinds of people who fall for IRS telephone scams.

You're correct, Jensen never said in any of his retellings that he fought with writers nor did he tell them or Jared he's having a hard time "digesting" until AFTER he talked to Kripke and was convinced by Kripke that "Carry On" was the right ending for fans. You know, the real fans who watch the show for what it really is: Sam's hero journey with his beloved brother, Dean.

That said, while you're correct that it's Jensen's job to sell the concept, he has also been pitching a Dean-led spinoff for years. Remember his "dream" (X) that he pitched during the SPN press junket?   I didn’t side-eye his PCA campaigns or his pursuit for Dean-centric storylines, but I did raise my eyebrows at his ballsy move to publicly pitch his post-Sam projects in front of Jared and Misha. What does the jenmishperciever's Anon say about that? Hummm?

Actors are always pitching their project ideas, they're just a bit more subtle about it. I'm certain Jensen had hoped the "dream" would catch on with the fans and they would campaign for it. Except not even AAs were down with the idea. Casual fans even less so. Lucky for you I saved the screenshot from the article:

Reading through jenmishperciever's Anon's self-soothing fanfiction is like watching bread grow old right before your eyes; same delusions we've seen for the past 12 years. Blame Jared for playing Sam who was in the way of a fake fetish ship from becoming canon that Less than 1% of the SPN audience ships. Said Jared's drunken arrest (I refuse to call it a bar fight, it was a group hug gone wrong) could have threaten the ENTIRE filming of the SPN final season while ignoring Anthony Starr's drunken arrest, which by the Anon's logic, would have threaten the ENTIRE filming of The Boys.

Lol they still pretend to believe that Kripke gave the SPN rights to Jensen when Kripke is SUEING WB over profit participation over SPN.

The only thing Jensen cared about with his SPN spinoff was lens crafting, which was why The Winchesters was a Shein version of an AU fanfic. Remember when Jensen told TW cast “don’t fuck it up for me”? After 15-20 years, Jensen is used to lead actors/Jareds doing the heavy lifting in carrying the show and being leader of the cast and crew and he benefitted from the sweet spot as #2 on the call sheet i.e. the good guy who is friends with everyone.

If Jensen keeps trying to be in charge of SPN projects, SPN fans’ reaction is going to be the same as today Marvel fanboys’ reaction every time they hear Kevin Feige’s name: “What did you did do this time you Son of a Bitch!? What train did you derail this time?”

Since Supernatural ended 4 years ago, the bitter Destiel hellers and AAs are stuck in a time loop of step 1 through 4 of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression). S tep 5 is acceptance, which is long delayed due to Jared’s continue success i.e. Walker in it's 4th season and #1 scripted show for CW.

[carelessflower]

rating shtv jace questionable moment

let be honest, it will mostly be season one plus two offending screenshots from season two. critical analysis only when i want to, the rest depends. the descent into hell is easy after all

5/10 - see? sh writers can write, first scene with jace they already show how he treat alec the rest of the season.

6/10 - that his job

3/10 - friendly reminder, alec was the acting head at this point aka jace's boss, it's his duty to report any strange occurrence at the institute and now you brought a STRANGE girl into HIS institute, i dont know, just a thought

3/10 - yes it kinda is, and it's alec choice at that seeing how he your superiors

3/10 - jace would be a shit head for the ny institute if a random pretty girl make him act like this. and again, it normal alec get suspicious at clary, because he, you know, can actually think through situations and not dive in first like a headless chicken

4/10 - yes, he has working brain cells

2/10 - dont you love it when the dude you supposedly share half your soul dismiss your valid concerns regarding your life

5/10 - if he's as you said you would be six feet under or in some ceils not here talking shit

1/10 - yes alec stop, don't you know jace is allergic to reasoning

2/10 - he knows you should be supportive of your parabatai

1/10 - all i can say is if a stranger comes into my life, not caring for anything but herself and jeopardizing my job, i would let out far worse things than angry rant

3/10 - no wonder jace fancies clary, they are never ready to hold themselves or each other accountable for anything. true love

🚩🚩🚩/10 - right before this izzy LITERALLY said clary go out WILLINGLY i have no words, alec's way too nice i would have 'oh this you' and drag jace daddy issue to filth back i would go lower than hell. by the way jace never apologize for this so. flop

0/10 - proceed to lose her next episodes

4/10 - flop. flop parabatai of the year

2/10 - funny how jace only bring up the parabatai bond when he needs alec to do something for himm hmmmm. it giving suspicious it giving affection with conditions it giving manipulation

-♾️/10 - that a totally normal thing to say about your brother, the one who you share a lifetime bond with. i normally wish jace choke on a porcupine

0/10 - jace only contribution to the parabatai bond is 2x03 and when he use his nepotism to transfer the head of ny institute position to alec. and even with alec already on his way to that title before imogen swooped in

5/10 - ooh be making that face now suddenly you care? dont make me laugh

0/10 - jace lies so well, all that practice telling himself he looks handsome every morning paid off

0/10 - my three year old cousin has more critical thinking than these two

0/10 - jace the one to talk he's incapable of seeing anything outside clary

-/10 - for whither thou storest, I will steal, and where thou trust, I will trust to betray.

 💀/10 - took them ten episodes to have alec FINALLY punch somebody for joking, using his sexuality against him when he's clearly NOT ready to talk about it. yeah fuck shit up baby

2/10 - oh okay, let talk about how you and clary fuck off to somewhere with the cup when the clave and a race supremacist massacre advocate cult leader are both hunting for it. then you and she proceed to play house with your newly discovered fake dad and left alec to deal with the mess. oh, did i mention izzy's complicit in your scheme and you left her there at the mercy of the clave?

1/10 - your saving cause more problems than elon musk to twt get over yourself

4/10 - selfish intentions + selfish actions = season one clace. a match made in heaven

6/10 - passable apology but why he cant just resist making it all about him lmaoooo

4/10 - the only joke here is your life

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[thetobiroppofan]

one piece rant #4 (i think): the tobiroppo and why i love tjem

one day im going to be famous and whether it be for murder or a simple delusion in my mind it WILL happen one day trust me on this those who read this post. anyways i talk like my business is everyone elses deal cause it IS i mean im posting this to STRANGERS!!! ON THE INTERNET!!! i dont CARE if im judged its the INTERNET. i am THE internet gremlin. ohmygod shoot me for that i change my mind.

anyways this isnt what this post is about (pro tip: if you think youre funny write a script and go animate something i estimate soon we'll be needing the next batch of funny animated youtubers soon like jaiden animations and does anyone remember that one guy with the demon horns?? i think his name was adam smth i used to watch his videos religiously)

I love the tobiroppo if you couldnt tell by my cool awesome username. the tobiroppo are AWESOME. BEST villain group in one piece i dont CARE what anyone says. NO!! I AM NOT INCLUDING KAIDO OR HIS ALL STARS IN THIS. JUST THE TOBIROPPO.

LOOK AT THEM!!! THEYRE AWESOME!!! I LOVE THE TOBIROPPO. I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY IF I HAD THE CHANCE TO MEET THE TOBIROPPO AND THE ONLY WAY TO DO IT WAS THROUGH DYING I WOULD DIE!!!!!!!! LITERALY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ID DEFINITELY BREAKDOWN UPON SEEING THEM SINCE THEYRE SCARY ASF AND ALSO THEYRE SO COOL!!!!!! BUT ITS SOO WORTH IT!!!!!! HEAVEN HELL BE DAMNED I LOVE THE TOBIROPPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one day im gonna travel to japan and find eiichiro oda and stalk him until he breaks down and i force him to tell me EVERYTHING about the tobiroppo from all their dynamics with the other members to their least favorite food!! (ALL JOKES!!! I AM NOT GOING TO STALK ODA!!!)

anyways if i had to rank my favorite members to least favorite itd go in an order like this: 1. ULTI MY GOAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. BLACK MARIA MY QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!

3. PAGE ONE MY MOODY NERDY TEENAGE BOYMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. SASAKI!!!!!!!!!! THE HOT ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. The racist.

6. X-Drake. (i like him but not as a tobiroppo member he knows his place.)

who's who would be higher than 5 but i am a die hard jinbe fan (i say with the only piece of merch i have of him being a funko figure that holds my house keys) and that fishman racism was NOT!!!!!!!!!! cute.

sasaki shouldve gotten more screentime he was sooo fine i love you sasaki mwa

page one is LITERALLY!!!!!!!! me core (not really but let me be insane oh my GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) also i LOVE that one hc i saw one time where he has a special interest for dinosaurs like thats so real ily page one

black maria is THE cuntiest member of the tobiroppo. like have you SEEN her in the anime AUGH!!!!! THE THINGS ID DO FOR HER!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE IS THE GIRLBOSS!!! MOTHER IS MOTHERING!!!!!! CURNTY!!! SINJIN DROWNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ULTI IS MY ALL-TIME FAVORITE THOUGH!!!!!! SHE IS THE TOBIROPPO MEMBER.

THIS SCREENSHOT OF HER IS SO CUTE I LOVE HOW TOEI DREW HER HAIR. ULTIS DESIGN IS ULTIMATELY ONE OF MY FAVORITES FROM THE SERIES ENTIRELY. I LOVE HOW COLORFUL HER HAIR IS AND HOW SHE LOOKS SO CUTE IN HER OUTFIT!!!!!!!! I LOVE HER HAIR TEXTURE AND HOW SHE HAS A CUTE LITTLE AHOGE AnD I LOVE HER LITTLE FLOWER MASK.

ODA!!!!!!!!!

DROP MORE ULTI CONTENT AND MY LIFE IS YOURS.

phew!! sorry gangalang (i say as a 15 year old white boy) i got carried away there. anyways when ulti dies so will i its me and her for LIFE.

i know the tobiroppo members either died or got arrested but in my head theyre living the same reality as the baroque works agents did because im insane over the tobiroppo.

I actually dont even know when this obsession started??? it mightve been when i started one piece which was like a year ago during july '23 (which oh my god?? a year's passed already since last year?? what the FUCK????)

but when i saw the tobiroppo (More specifically, sasaki, he started my obsession) a neuron activated in my brain and ive been OBSESSED with the tobiroppo (and one piece 'by extension' i argue despite having two large one piece posters, like 4 figures, and a stupid ugly law plushie right where i lay my head to sleep. sigh. he terrifies me, the buttsnatcher.)

i think originally my favorite member was sasaki, since i found that greenhaired fishman IRRESTISITIBLE (idk how to spell that word im a bit stupid) and then like idk the rest i dont actually rank my favorites tbh which i really should do in retrospect but its stressful when i have mixed opinions

anyways

i love the height differences between the members its so stupid and funny teehees

Also i need to be honest to you people of the internet but i cant be the only one who thinks page one's mask and hair and hat is like 2020 core

it isnt BAD i think he pulls it off its just when i saw him for the first time i thought "girl 2020 called they want their get up back"

he looks cute though i think he works it yasssssssssssss queen erm give them that nonbinary 2020 dsmp core!!

(I support all lifestyles and I am trans myself, please do not cancel me.)

on another topic i think page one autism hcs are real since like one thing and one thing only: his sit

I love him dont get me wrong, but it is hard to believe that hes any form of neurotypical with this sit. ankles crossed n everything. like my guy has GOT to get that autism diagnosis oh my god.

on another note there is a fly at the foot of my bed and i am going to have a mini heart attack i hate flies so much oh my god tumblr pleease send guns and cannons

i think id die to know the dynamics between ANY of the tobiroppo members outside of page one and ulti because i wonder if any of them were close friends. like

i wonder if they were like some form of friends??? also does EVERY tobiroppo member have some form of tattoo on their torso??

also while writing that i thought "wait a minute"

wake up babe new hc dropped: page one got inspired by who's who to have a chest tattoo of his name when he first joined.

ok thats it honestly i dont have anything else to say this was just a divulgence in my own taste tonight through yapping about nothing specific and just the tobiroppo in general. i really love the tobiroppo genuinely and after this i might make a list of my top 10 favorite one piece characters in general since itd be fun. ok bye gangalang

this is THE tobiroppo fan getting off and remember: i am the tobiroppo's fan trust me on this i love the tobiroppo so much if you see someone claiming to be a bigger fan than me tell me ill follow them back to their house and violently mutilate them (joking! i love you my fellow tobiroppo fans!)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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[taffywabbit]

ok story time let's go

(i guess CW// religious baggage? vaguely cult-y stuff? Mormons?)

so i was laughing at that (presumably bait) tweet that got screenshotted and reposted on here, with the person claiming that y'all is a problematic term used by "bigoted southerners" and someone else dunking on them, because I'm Canadian and I say y'all ALL the time. and like, that by itself wouldn't be too notable - there ARE rural areas of Canada, particularly over in Alberta/Saskatchewan, where the local accent and slang have convergently evolved into something very similar to Texas (and I DID actually grow up in a town like that, though i never picked up the accent myself).

what makes my adoption of y'all particularly odd is that I picked it up in the Caribbean of all places. if you are familiar with my Not-So-Secret Tragic Backstory then you MIGHT know where this is going already.

I was raised in a Mormon family, so when I was 18 i was basically required to go do the missionary thing with the white shirts and ties and nametags. (this is very funny considering my current status as a gay trans furry artist and leftist, but this story isn't really about that.) I got assigned a random location in the world, and was shipped off to the Eastern Caribbean for 2 years. it was very hot and sweaty and overall not a very good time for me, the world's blondest palest scrawniest teen who would have to walk around all day every day in office attire.

ANYWAYS a few months after my mission began, we got a new mission president (the old guy assigned by the church to be in charge of all the missionaries in a region, along with his wife). while he was generally a pretty jovial friendly guy, he also had an occasional tendency to powertrip and institute random arbitrary rule changes whenever he felt that the missionaries weren't performing as well as he'd like and the numbers were down. with missionaries, there's a huge focus on "exact obedience" and "consecration" - this idea that the more single-mindedly devoted you are to Doing Missionary Stuff and Thinking About Jesus and Never Having A Single Fucking Independent Thought In Your Head Or Taking Care Of Your Personal Wellbeing Or Enjoying Yourself, the more god will bless you with like. charisma superpowers or something. to just change people's minds on the spot as you blast them with your Conversion Beam. and therefore anytime that ISN'T happening (y'know, because people have free will, and also because being Mormon is wildly unappealing to any reasonable outsider), it clearly MUST be because those darn young punk missionaries are probably thinking too much about their partners back home or drawing Pokemon fanart or collecting distractingly colourful neckties. can't have that!

so with all that context, I can finally get to the point, which is that one day our mission president decided the reason nobody was knocking on our apartment door begging to get baptized was probably because we, as missionaries, were too casual in our interactions with one another. specifically, he took issue with missionaries calling each other "dude" or "bro" or "man", or referring to each other collectively as "you guys". he insisted that this was "eroding the dignity of our sacred calling as missionaries" and that we should instead strive to call each other "Elder" and "Sister" (the titles used for male and female missionaries respectively) as much as humanly possible.

specifically as an alternative to "you guys", he suggested we start saying "Elders and Sisters" every time we addressed a mixed group of missionaries. which OBVIOUSLY sounds really fucking stupid. and I was in a leadership position at the time, so I had to deliver instruction/training to the missionaries in my area every week AND call them to check-in every night. being a missionary and constantly being commanded to do incredibly stupid arbitrary things really brought out my latent rebellious streak, and there was NO fucking way I was going to say "Elders and Sisters" if i could avoid it - the only people who actually complied with the new rule were immediately identifiable as goody-two-shoes and suck-ups and everyone wanted to push them into the ocean.

so INSTEAD, i and several other missionaries quickly realized that we could simply get away with saying "you all" or just plural "you" with like, a hand gesture to show we meant the group. which naturally just evolved into y'all pretty quickly because it's an incredibly natural contraction of words and it just feels good to say. and the mission president never complained about it, because we weren't using cool youngster slang like "guys" or "dudes" and instead it just sounded like a fun twangy rural affectation. and then i just kinda kept saying it for the rest of my mission, and continued saying it after i returned home and went off to college in the city and all that jazz.

...absolutely no clue where I picked up saying "howdy" all the time tho. i don't have an excuse or backstory for that one lol, it's just fun to say

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e2 wendigo (teleplay: eric kripke, story: ron milbauer, terri hughes burton)

(this is a rewatch, so spoilers abound)

quelled my irrational anxiety long enough to start the rewatch and recap what i have not yet recapped and thank fuck for that because not having my scheduled evening task was not going well. i am staunchly ignoring the not-so-distant future where i will again be out-of-task.

fun fact this is the first screenshot i took while watching this show, long before i considered doing these posts. brotherly chat at the fire, if i recall correctly. we'll soon see! thought it'd be a fun easy draw because it's almost entirely dark with the little kiss of light around his profile.

DEAN You okay? SAM Yeah, I'm fine. DEAN Another nightmare? You wanna drive for a while? SAM Dean, your whole life you never once asked me that. DEAN Just thought you might want to. Never mind. SAM Look, man, you're worried about me. I get it, and thank you, but I'm perfectly okay. DEAN Mm-hm.

now if that isn't love

SAM What, are you cruising for a hookup or something? DEAN What do you mean? SAM The coordinates point to Blackwater Ridge, so what are we waiting for? Let's just go find Dad. I mean, why even talk to this girl? DEAN I don't know, maybe we should know what we're walking into before we actually walk into it? SAM What? DEAN Since when are you all shoot first ask questions later, anyway? SAM Since now.

little cheesy in execution (blaming some of this on the music honestly*) but whatever :p sammy's a new man, hardened by his loss and grief 😤

*guess who did the music this episode 🤪

was curious since this is the same director as the pilot, if he did more episodes this seasons - nope, just 1x01 and 1x02. but this little quote on his wiki page

David Nutter, even with his extensive experience in the industry, was impressed by Padalecki and Ackles' chemistry. Never have I done a show where two actors clicked so well together. These guys had never met each other before and it was like they were instantly brothers.S1Com

we're all sending up our thanks for whatever led to them being cast, for real

HALEY Our parents are gone. It's just my two brothers and me. We all keep pretty close tabs on each other.

coming in hot already with sibling parallels. even when john was alive, he wasn't around and dean's the father mother brother situation. and we've got a vulnerable lookin little brother here we're all gonna be fighting over to take care of

DEAN Well, we'll find your brother. We're heading out to Blackwater Ridge first thing. HALEY Then maybe I'll see you there. Look, I can't sit around here anymore. So I hired a guy. I'm heading out in the morning, and I'm gonna find Tommy myself. DEAN I think I know how you feel.

looking for dad, looking for sam after dad is gone...

s1e2 / s5e14

oh, my dear old friend, untitled 1 and 2!! and what kind of background is this! lol my spn desktop background update tag for all my riveting screenshots of their laptop desktop backgrounds - apparently i called this their snazzy background when it was used in s5, but damn dude look at the coloring differences. how warm/red the s5 is in comparison. skateboard on a chest i guess is what's happening there

aw man, apparently the actress playing the sister, gina holden, was claudia stilinski in an episode of teen wolf but her scene got deleted. and little brother there alden ehrenreich was han solo in solo: a star wars story (which i haven't seen.)

i do know i know someone in this episode though, little surprised i didn't do a hey i know you post for it actually. not sure when the first one i did for spn was. s1e11 scarecrow apparently!

s1e2 callum keith rennie as roy / the killing s1e4 as rick felder / the x-files s1e15 as tommy / existenz (1999) as hugo carlaw

we got an xfiles and the killing alum, and he was in existenz! in fact i did a hey i know you for him when i was rewatching the xfiles a few years ago 😂

someone give this child a hug (and the actor was actually a kid, 16)

DEAN Sam and I are brothers, and we're looking for our father. He might be here, we don't know. I just figured that you and me, we're in the same boat. HALEY Why didn't you just tell me that from the start? DEAN I'm telling you now. 'sides, it's probably the most honest I've ever been with a woman. ...ever. So we okay?

oh yeah, dean? what about spilling your guts about all the family secrets to cassie, huh?? lol. gotta maintain your asshole-man image

wonder if the peanut m&ms was the only actual brand placement they did, their production design people were always whipping up fun fake branded drinks and foodstuff

hey, it's one of the xfiles-y sounds (when she says "our packs!") i didn't notice this until way way later. grabbed a clip of it from 10x12 compared to the same effect used in the xf movie fight the future (because i happened to know where the sound was in that movie, it's def a standard xf score sound.) i think it was just a lot more forward in that s10 clip, maybe that's why it caught my ear and had slid by unnoticed before.

cannot get over him looking like the saddest teenaged baby brother in all the lands

DEAN You wanna tell me what's going on in that freaky head of yours? SAM Dean— DEAN No, you're not fine. You're like a powder keg, man, it's not like you. I'm supposed to be the belligerent one, remember? SAM Dad's not here. I mean, that much we know for sure, right? He would have left us a message, a sign, right?

the brotherly chats *chef's kiss*

SAM Then let's get these people back to town and let's hit the road. Go find Dad. I mean, why are we still even here? DEAN This is why. This book. This is Dad's single most valuable possession—everything he knows about every evil thing is in here. And he's passed it on to us. I think he wants us to pick up where he left off. You know, saving people, hunting things. The family business.

the tagline that never dies

SAM That makes no sense. Why doesn't he just—call us? Why doesn't he—tell us what he wants, tell us where he is? DEAN I dunno. But the way I see it, Dad's giving us a job to do, and I intend to do it.

for real, sam. dad's an ass :p i think someone justified it to me that john couldn't contact them directly because of the demons watching him and he didn't want to lead them to the boys

SAM Dean...no. I gotta find Dad. I gotta find Jessica's killer. It's the only thing I can think about. DEAN Okay, all right, Sam, we'll find them, I promise. Listen to me. You've gotta prepare yourself. I mean, this search could take a while, and all that anger, you can't keep it burning over the long haul. It's gonna kill you. You gotta have patience, man. SAM How do you do it? How does Dad do it?

oh, sam.

DEAN Well for one, them. I mean, I figure our family's so screwed to hell, maybe we can help some others. Makes things a little bit more bearable. I'll tell you what else helps. Killing as many evil sons of bitches as I possibly can.

it's this kind of thing that grabbed me by the throat early on. clear communication, sam has been deflecting but he opened up a crack after dean gently pushed again. and dean is honest and kind, trying to take care of sam. ugh. hurt/comfort my beloved.

buh, this action music when roy gets yoinked by the monster is not great.

SAM So we've got half a chance in the daylight. And I for one want to kill this evil son of a bitch.

snorted. i swear sam got stuck with some cheesy lines back in the day. part of my hot take theory of why jackles's acting stood out more to me initially, i think he just got better dialogue. padalecki hit it out of the park with those moments with jackles, but same episode he had a lot of like... i'm taking charge of the situation moments that felt awkward

sammy brooding with dad's journal, dean staring at sam for a very long time, he's just a baby 🥺

we're all having a moment

this is why i reached the 30 image limit when i rewatched 1x01 :p

LOL. we can't swear really, but we're gonna use the hell out of the words we can say

baby brother clinging on to anyone at this point, sammy holding the line

kinda looks like the game of thrones night king lol

via wiki

Eric Kripke had long been critical of this episode, particularly because he felt the creature wasn't successfully scary. "He looked more like Gollum's tall, gangly cousin than anything else", he says in Supernatural: The Official Companion Season 2. However on February 11, 2018 he tweeted: "I have something shocking, even sacrilegious to say: I watched #Wendigo with my son for the first time in over 10 years. And it wasn't bad at all. 2005 effects were lame, but it was scary. Plus young Han Solo! I'm taking it off my shit list. #spnfamily @cw_spn"

inexplicably some sort of jaguar type roar as the wendigo is burning

HALEY So I don't know how to thank you. DEAN smirks lasciviously. HALEY smiles despite herself. HALEY Must you cheapen the moment? DEAN Yeah.

very cute. deflecting from dealing with the gratitude and lightening the moment

DEAN Sam, you know we're gonna find Dad, right? SAM Yeah, I know. But in the meantime? I'm driving.

this scene obviously has been gif'd to death but i didn't really remember the context and it makes it all the better. sam gets to return the very long staring moment, and lets dean give him a little treat to take care of him and make him feel better that he declined earlier

and jared, you made a choice with that expression. I think that look could be enough to launch a thousand ships alone. the line feels like it should be kind of teasing mischievous little brother vibes, but his face says unbearable affection and something I'd expect more out of a romantic-dynamic teasing feel. wild

my cup runneth over

[arsen1cs4ng0]

i heavily rant under the cut about the chip fandom. no i am not chiptagging this, fuck you!!

(tw for suicide under the cut)

every fucking day i hear something worse about that fucking asshole (gremlin) and im gonna fucking snap one day for reals for almost 2 fucking years ive been dealing with the thought of her. this year i almost lost one of my friends to suicide because of her. last year i was fucking abused by her.

im so fucking happy that shes getting what she deserves but i just keep on fluctuating between crying for everyone affected by her and raging for everyone affected by her.

hearing about everyone's experiences with this fucking hellhole... no fucking wonder nobody wants to fucking associate with the fandom anymore. I DONT FUCKING BLAME THEM. THAT PLACE IS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE. theres a new fandom now that's stronger than ever, but the marks are fucking still there!!!!!!

its even worse when i still have fucking hope for this place. that stupid fucking tiny bit of hope i still hold for my old safespace. I SHOULDVE MOVED ON FROM THIS SHIT AGES AGO. BUT HERE I AM, RAGING OVER THIS FUCKING SHIT STILL. im STILL trying to fix the damage she caused but ITS NOT FUCKING DOING ANYTHING. NO MATTER WHAT I FUCKING DO.

i cant take this anymore im sorry guys i just want a day where i can fucking enjoy my special interest for once without having the thought of her tormenting me. its even harder when recently i found out that she fucking ruined me under a sockpuppet im never gonna get closure from any of this am i????

im so so sorry you guys have to see me so fucking angry but when you've been out there in the frontlines of the fandom, defending your fucking friends from her and the people who still continue to associate with her, for almost 2 years now, it fucking starts to eat away at your sanity.

y'all can fucking screenshot this and laugh at me for this if you'd like. i dont fucking care!! i dont even know how i fucking survived this shit, let alone 2023 as a whole. someone please fucking knock me out already

oh, last but not least, fuck you gremlin. fuck you all the way to hell. i hope you fucking die a fucking painful death go cry to your little cronies, tell them how im somehow the bad person in this. how everyone who has evidence as clear as crystal against you are somehow the ones "lying" and "spreading rumors". is it going to change what you did to azzie and seb and the rest of the people who you fucking manipulated and hurt??

[oolathurman]

so uhh that was the first watch through, let's go over it again

enemies can interact with each other and the environment

still convinced that ganondorf somehow corrupted that arm of link's.

the large chalk drawings on the ground i love them they're SO gonna be puzzles

ok the spotlights seem to be in multiple locations so i'm betting it's for like. wayfinding purposes when you're in the air.

i wonder how long after botw this takes place?

seeing encampments near hyrule castle is so cool tho ahhh ARE WE BUILDING UP AN ARMY????

CUZ CLEARLY WE CAN FIGHT WITH NPCS PROPERLY NOW

giant cloud in the sky five bucks says it's also related to skyward sword shit

i should. probably finish skyward sword huh i never did whoops.

i got close!!!!

the way music is reversed and shit. while ganon's music is cued. mm.

like i know we saw evidence of the zonai last trailer but i'm still seeing traces of twilight princess. such as in this music.

ok so you can't see it very clearly in just a screenshot but

one arm is like. corrupted compared to the right. or the arms different at least.

this continues my theory that ganondorf corrupted link's arm

if he didn't i will eat my shoe

still fucking horny for ganondorf

OK YEAH LINK'S RIGHT ARM IS CORRUPTED IN THE NEXT CLIP, IN THE SCREENSHOT, IN THE SCREENSHOT ABOVE GANON'S ARMS ARE NOT PROPORTIONAL TO EACH OTHER

TELL ME THAT THEY DIDN'T SWITCH ARMS OR SOME SHIT

TELL ME TO MY FUCKING FACE

what is this SPARKLING that zelda's doing as she's falling

it's clearly related to the piece of amber or whatever it is she holds later in the trailer

i love the addition of quicksand in totk it's so 90s to have quicksand everywhere

this underground area where link's wearing the goron armor tho

it's not goron built, the architecture is different and i KNOW nintendo puts careful thought into that shit

but it's underground or otherwise not receiving natural sunlight

is this the temple in the ravine??? the forgotten temple or whatever????

AIRSHIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

[cues mission impossible music]

heehee poncho boy

yeah you can def fight with villager and npcs now and i like that link's learned how to do the spinning spear trick that the bokoblins used in the previous game! that's such a fun touch

if this dragony npc is a zonai by god we are gonna introduce so much more furry bait into the fandom (i say this with amused positivity)

well we're getting so much more furry bait already with their existence but shhh

the tear shapes that they have under their eyes are the same as zelda's WHAT IS THIS. IT HAS TO DO WITH SHEIKAH RIGHT? SHEIKAH ARE THE ONES WITH THE CRYING EYE MOTIF. WHAT DO ZONAI HAVE TO DO WITH SHEIKAH.

wait a second i'm remembering this like. weird conspiracy theory i had when i played oot where a sect of separate sheikah who defected from hyrule were like. corrupted by magic and shit. i suppose i forgot bc it's been uhhh ten plus years but uh

eyes emoji

wait a second what's the zonai theory anyway

bc if my old conspiracy theory lines up with zonai then that means i came up with the zonai theory separately and--

well anyway

what is this script that's being used on the gears and walls in this next scene. it's a new language/script. it's not sheikah, it's not hylian. what is it. is it zonai as well. idr if the twili had a script.

KOROK BABIES IN THE BACKGROUND, ALWAYS THERE FOR LINK, THE HERO. ;U;

ugh the way this unseen npc dresses reminds me so much of. shit what's his face. the other twili person that isn't midna. him. the weirdo. i guess it's just how the clothes drape but i have so much thread on this spool for the conspiracy theory board ok.

that amber i talked about is around her neck THAT AMBER IS AROUND HER NECK also girl cute earrings!!!!

i will say that seeing link using magic 2 part epoxy to glue a shield to a sword is fucking hilarious.

does anyone recognize this rito from the previous game

was she(?) the (modern) champion's daughter or smth idr

HOW MANY YEARS HAVE PASSED

the corruption has spread to mount doom you KNOW this is gonna be a main quest

obsessed with this look yas girl oh my god i just noticed the additional ear piercings I LOVE IT

new 'hit the eyes' boss revealed in the thunder cloud

oh wait the arms thing was a torn sleeve

i mean we still see ganon corrupting link's arm but also i wanna see more of like how it connects

still horny for ganondorf

can someone give zelda a goddamn break like just fucking let her be with her gnc boyfriend already

[chaoticspacefam]

For the SWTOR NPC asks. What happened to Loyat and Cytharat in your canon?

From the [SWTOR NPC Headcanon Asks List]

thank you for the ask, as always! <3

I’ll start with Cytharat since I definitely have more headcanons for him than Loyat atm! 

Based on him mentioning being Malgus’ apprentice and a very newly-appointed Lord, and also being way Pinker than the obviously-older Pureblood NPCs/the PC Pureblood skintone options, I’m assuming Cytharat is pretty Young for a Pureblood, so I figured him around about Ty’s age, maybe 10 years (~2 human years max age difference) younger if that

Vano and Kas are kind of working in tandem by the time the Makeb storyline comes around so they attend to the Makeb questline(s) together. 

Kas had one conversation with Cytharat and immediately went “Yep This Is My Apprentice Now If Malgus Wants Him Back He Can Come Fucking Fight Me” (Malgus was never brave and/or stupid enough to come fight her XD). Since they’re working together, Kas and Vano manage to split up so Vano saves Catha Niar and Kas manages to save Cytharat. Afterwards she offers him a spot on her crew and since its obvious to him that even if she might be A Little Weird, Kas obviously Cares unlike most of the other Sith so he accepts and ends up becoming part of Kas’s crew. 

While he’s hesitant at first about the idea of teaming up with Jedi/Republic personnel, he trusts Kas by that point so when she says they’re going with Lana and Marr to Yavin IV to help deal with the Revanites Cytharat just accepts it. When Kas is reunited with Rai after arriving there, Cytharat meets Ty and maybe (Definitely) gets a crush. They’re only together for a little while before the whole temporary alliance dissolves again and when Rai (and by extension Ty) refuses to go back to the Empire with them they part ways for a time

Cytharat misses Ty a lot more than he was expecting to and Kas Notices (™). She casually mentions that she has Ty’s holofrequency if he wants it and deliberately leaves said frequency where she Knows he can find it. Cytharat sneaks a few message/letters through and keeps chatting with him until Arcann and the Eternal Empire give them more pressing concerns at which point they lose contact again until one day Lana rocks up to Kas’s office with Rai and Ty in tow. 

Ty gets left with Kas and co. while Rai goes with Lana and Koth to Zakuul and the poor kid is a Nervous Wreck about it so Cytharat has to help Kas calm him down because they’re the only two people he Trusts. Kas then pulls a classic old “oh Cytharat do you think you could help us with this star chart, oh wait a second is that Ashara and Khem calling me? You and Ty can handle looking through this one by yourselves right? I’ll check on you later byeeee~” and at some point during their moving everything over to Odessen he ~finally~ asks Ty out. 

So of course Cytharat stays on with the Alliance afterwards. I’m not 100% sure if they’ll ever get married yet (haven’t gotten that far with their relationship planning yet but they’re defo solid as an item :’3) but Cytharat is absolutely okay with being the muscle of the relationship while his bf hides behind him when things get scary (which is, unfortunately, very often. Poor Ty XD) 

And Loyat!! (who I do not have any screenshots of rn since none of my current pub toons are as far as Ilum (anymore, I yeeted a few of them when I stopped vibing with them oopsie)

I have less solid plants for Loyat but I do love her and I am definitely kidnapping her she’s mine now Bioware /hj

Loyat and Aria are definitely buddies. Probably even drinking buddies, much to the abject horror of anyone who happens to cross paths with them when they’re out drinking XD

They absolutely would meet during the Ilum war/storyline. Though it’s not until after (the Assault on Tython FP) that Aria’s officially outed as a Sith plant, Loyat can probably Sense It so she agrees to go with Aria to the Jedi if only knowing that Aria probably has an Out Again if she’s managed to be in deep cover this long and not get caught.

It’s a minor wrench in the plan when Aria tries to fuckin fight Satele and gets arrested, but I’m kiiind of feeling like Loyat might go with her to Manaan. Especially since with Zenith and most of the other Consular crew lickity splitting when they realise Aria Was Sith The Whole Time. Ya girl’s gonna need some crewmates/friends, so why not Loyat? ;3 by the same vein, probably goes with Aria to the Alliance and ends up working under Kas’s Force Enclave sector, but where specifically I have yet to decide owo

I definitely want to expand on Loyat more, but for now sadly that’s all I got for Loyat! 😅😅

[ugh154628]

Part 3 of my posted response to "Cece's" first status about me:

See part 1-2 here:

Context:

Intro: When I said "I've read her blogs", that happened because "Ricky" blatantly showed me them and her nasty posts she was making after she made her first Facebook post about me, one of which included screenshots of our messages the day she started bullying my friend and I was mentally breaking down, basically using my past against me for whatever fucking reason. I repeat though, "Ricky" showed me her blogs and posts on them, to stir the pot between us. I didn't just "randomly" find them, obviously.

#1: I'm not going to delve too much into what I blurred out because I have put my tension with that person whom "Cece" slept with behind me and I don't want to repopen old wounds between that person and I. It took me years to find understanding in what happened and put it behind me, and I really don't want to revive my anger from that situation. In a nutshell, the person I was talking about enabling and influenced my family member's drug use when they were teenagers. In early 2018, there was an situation in which he went went too far in regard to that topic, this family member nearly overdosed, and I was the one who took care of them all night when it happened. It was terrifying for me and I was angry for awhile, being a direct witness to it and because I had begged this person multiple times before to stop giving my family member drugs, too. He knew this family member had a problem, and he disrespected his sobriety as well as disrespected the feelings of his family. There were a lot of people who were "friends" with this family member like a joke and finding entertainment in getting him fucked up, and I was sick of it. I just wanted his friends to be real friends to him and actually care about his sobriety, then when they totally disregarded all the times I talked to them about it and laughed at his drug use instead, it made me even more angry when this particular situation happened. Even worse, I had messaged him telling him to stay away from that family member and me (he knew where I worked), and he intentionally went into my job after that. I snapped shit on him immediately and kicked him out, which ultimately led to my second hospital admission. There was a lot of other things going on besides that situation, and that was the cherry in top that sent me over the edge. Thankfully my employer was understanding, took a two week leave for outpatient admission (since it was essentially like school, 8 hours of therapy Monday through friday and I couldn't work) and came back after that. I never got fired from there. I ultimately left for a higher paying job that gave me more ours 3 months later.

I'm still upset about what happened when I look back on it and I feel like he could have been a much better "friend" to my brother, but I understand that substance abuse can lead to a person making lot of mistakes they normally wouldn't with a sober mind. People with substance abuse issues aren't really themselves when they're on that lifestyle, but as long as the person sobers up, grows up in general, and does better in the future that (somewhat) gives me closure from a situation like that. From what I know, he is doing a lot better, more responsible, etc. and I can respect that.

The point is, if "Cece" and I were close she wouldn't have messed around with this person, and if I knew she was, I would have cut her off immediately back then. I didn't even find out until I started dating my ex "Ricky". He told me everything at that point (may 2019) and how he was one of the guys she was talking to when he was still sleeping in her bed himself and she was still leading him to believe they would eventually get back together supposedly. And apparently she really liked this guy on top of that and he was someone she was trying to date according to "Ricky". I don't think the dude knew about all of that either. It's like "Ricky" was essentially the male form of a mistress to her that last year they were still in contact. He told me she would brag about fucking him (and others) in the spot he slept in when he came over after, that she was obsessed with him and want to be serious with him, etc. But the main point of this is that if we were really close at that time, she wouldn't have went after that guy, and I wouldn't have stayed associating with her if I had found out they were messing around sooner.

#2: I broke up with my other ex boyfriend I started dating in April 2018 in February 2019. Throughout our relationship, I never "talked shit" about him to anyone and especially not "Cece". I never posted about him either. I don't air my relationship business out like that and I also don't like to talk negatively about my partner to anyone because I don't want to cause my friends to think poorly of them if we ultimately work things out. The perceptions the people around you have can greatly impact your relationship with a person, so I think it is better to keep your tension private until or unless you leave each other. And I've said it several times before and I'll say it again, I didn't talk to "Cece" about anything too personal to me following October 2017 when she bullied my friend. So even if I did say anything negative about him, she wouldn't have any way of knowing that in the first place, but that's the thing, I didn't talk to anyone about our business all together. I'm still on good terms with this ex, he's actually engaged to one of my closest girlfriends now, and I'm going to be in their wedding.

Shortly after I broke up with this boyfriend, I had a fling with someone, who is still a good friend of mine. "Cece" knew about it because this friend was a mutual friend of "Ricky" and told him, and then he told "Cece". Reminder, she stopped coming over around well over a year prior and she definitely wasn't there the few times we slept together. So why she thinks she has a place deciding the facts on when we did that is beyond me. She went on to exaggerate what really happened, even though she witnessed nothing and of course "Ricky"...."told her"...what happened. There's a pattern here if you haven't noticed. Just going along with everything this pathelogical liar "tells her" but never actually witnessing an ounce of any of the shit she speaks on. And even I'll admit I fell victim to that because there was a lot of stuff "Ricky" was "telling" me that heightened our tension between "Cece" and I, which was stupid. There's some things I can admit might not be true after learning how much this dude lies to both of us. Although there are some important things he "told" me that have actual proof of being true.

Anyways, she had stopped coming over to the house where that happened a long time ago and after she bullied my friend who was also friends with the person I slept with, so no she doesn't know a bit of how all of that actually went down. The point is that I didn't cheat on anyone like she claimed in the first post she made about me.

And also, it was real fucking rich of her to imply I sleep around too much when she treats sex like a trophy and has a two page front and back list of everyone she's banged. I'm not shaming anyone for having sex, but she's an absolute hypocrite for exaggerating my sex life with her "sleeping around" comment in her post prior to mine here. And everyone knows about that fucking list. Because she shows it to everyone she has sex with, right after she has sex with them, writes their name on it and rates them right in front of them, too. I've heard the exact same story from several people who slept with her and I'll bet probably 1 in 5 people in the town she's from know about the thing honestly. Like you bring up her name and one of the first things people usually say is "oh her? Do you know about the list?" It's the weirdest shit. The list isn't even the bad part. It's when, where, how and why she presents it that's fucked up. It's like she gets some weird kick out of tricking people into having sex then making people feel dirty, unimportant, and used right after she gets what she wants. Because she's a fucking sociopath.

#3: More context to her bullying that friend of mine in 2017. So what had happened was that this friend told me they were diagnosed with an STD, that they gained from an assault. My friend became suicidal and I didn't know how to support her. I was young (20 at the time) and had never handled a situation like that before. I told "Cece" about it since she was an older figure / might have good advice to give. Which she ultimately did give me good advice about it, told me to tell her about the statistics and that 1 I'm 3 people have it, it's not that uncommon, she isn't alone, and so forth. What I didn't realize is that "Cece" didn't like this friend because they had a crush on "Ricky" in the past. And mind you, this friend was 15 at the time and "Cece" was 24-25.

I asked "Cece" not to tell anyone about the situation, and she turned around and did the opposite. The first person she told was "Ricky" of fucking course, because she had a jealousy / insecurity issue and was essentially trying to use this as a defense mechanism to make "Ricky" steer clear of her. And she also told his friend who was I'm the car when she told "Ricky". She then proceeded to fear-monger and say they needed to tell the mom of the house we all hung out at to try to get the girl barred from hanging out there; saying she was a "health hazard" and shouldn't be allowed around any of us. Like yeah, let's try to cut a 15 year old off from her group of friends because she contracted an std from ASSAULT when she needs support now more than fucking ever. How low do you have to be to only think about yourself and your dumbass insecurities to scheme separating someone from their friends when they're going through something extremely traumatic. How EVIL do you have to be.

Meanwhile, I was going through my own stuff, like a lot of things at once and was in the midst of having a mental breakdown. One bad thing that happened was that I had lost my car and I was trying to ride my bike to work down a high way, which is a 1.5 hour dangerous ride, actually got stopped by a cop who told me I couldn't continue for my own safety, and then started panicking trying to figure out how to get to work. Right as all of this is happening I get a text from this friend extremely upset telling me that "Cece" was telling people about her issue and trying to get her barred from out friends house. I felt instant guilt and my breakdown intensified badly. I messaged "Cece" to talk to her about the situation and I wanted to confront her on it, but considering how easily she attacks others, I backed out of doing that and just started messaging her in a confused panic. I was splitting from being so overwhelmed and basically messaged her all the intrusive thoughts running through my head at the time. I ended up overdosing on my prescription (not lethally) on the side of the highway. Mind you, my mental state is no where near as terrible as it once was. This was 7 years ago and I want to make it clear that I have healed from my past issues with self harm. I mostly just deal with anxiety, I weirdly did a total 360 over the years, and I'm actually scared of death now.

Back on the main story, my friend messaged "Cece" angry at her for tellimg other people about her issue. "Cece" then responded by saying awful things to her and then, posting tons of passive aggressive shit about her across social media regarding the issue. My friend was still processing her diagnosis and obviously was not ready for the whole world to know yet, wanted to keep it private unless necessary (like telling a potential sexual partner for ex.), wanted to tell others in her own time, and "Cece" was essentially posting things to scare her into thinking she was going to expose her business to everyone. She already told 2 people and planned on telling more, and it scared my friend a lot. She wasn't ready to deal with that and all the bullying that could come from others knowing when it was all still so fresh. "Cece" was sharing articles about the STD publically on social media with snarky captions and other initimidating things. And then "coincidentally", my friend's nudes were leaked the same week.

While all of this was happening, the friend was at the house "Cece" had planned on trying to get her barred from. The mom of the house was witnessing all of this and told us that she did not agree with what "Cece" did and that she didn't want her over there anymore. And "Cece" stopped coming over.

However, her and "Ricky" randomly showed up late at night once unannounced and wasted a couple months later, gave this friend an almost empty bottle of vodka and a half gram of marijuana and said "this is our truce!" or something weird like that. Like yeah, give a 15 teenager drugs and then also, give them no actual apology for literally bullying/initimidating them with passive aggressive posts implying you're going to tell everyone about something they don't want the whole world across social media to make their life worse when they're already feeling low as fuck from the very fresh trauma they experienced. Go you, you're suuuch a good person. And, a good 5 or more people saw that go down, too. Friendly reminder.

It's also worth mentioning that for some reason, Cece and Ricky just get to decide what a truce means and expect people to go with it, and if they don't attack the fuck out of them. Like they did to me.

She deserved a lot more than your hand me down substances you know. You're fucking evil for what you did. And hey, is it just me or does this all sound familiar? The vague and passive aggressive posts, threatening to expose private information, mocking people for their shortcomings, bullying people on social media in such a way only the victim can usually see it. My friend may not have had to deal with it for over half a decade, but what you did to her mirrors what you did and still do to me. You literally have not changed and have only gotten ridiculously worse.

Sidenote: I already explained in part 1 or 2 when I saw "Cece" the last time following this situation with my friend. Don't really feel like explaining how cold and selfish she was about her actions toward my friend, excusing her behavior toward her, and how I didn't trust "Cece" anymore because of all this again. But you kind of get the gist in these screenshots.

#4: Not much I can say about the section in which I explain "Cece" projecting. I think I already broke that down well enough, and I think what I said in this 3 part series as well as the bit in the above screenshots speak for itself. And I concluded with how it was hypocritical of her to say that I have "zero problem solving skills" in her post when she clearly does not herself. She literally dumped my ex, started dating someone else, and then through a tantrum when he moved on as if she could just keep him on the side just as a crutch to fall back on while she was clearly looking for other people to settle down with. Like excuse the fuck me, know your place before you go off on people or something. That shit was weird and selfish as fuck and you know it.

#5: Yeah so, obviously I let him the fuck go. That whole section of me talking about him being so great and that I'm never going to leave him makes me cringe. It would have made me cringe whether they got back together or not because I learned in that time with him that he really wasn't a great partner let alone human being. But I am a kind person, I am (probably too) empathetic, I actually don't abuse my partners, and I am an extremely committed person that won't break up with anyone until they do quite a bit to hurt me, which is kind of the point I was trying to make. I think she saw us lasting a long time, and that she was pissed off at me for taking her side piece to fall back on away because she was overly dependent on him. As well as always having someone there so she in general, did not have to be alone with herself. My take is that she just wanted him out of convenience, and she got mad that I unintentionally made her co-depency issues less convenient for her to deal with by dating him.

Moreover regarding that section, "Cece" was going around telling people "Ricky" used her for sex when they weren't even having sex or dating for months before he actually cut her off. He just wanted to move on, and it was hard to do that always being around her, but go figure she can't comprehend let alone acknlowedge anyone else's feelings. Only her own.

And I already explained the weird shit with how she was dating one of HIS friends while all of this was happening. Not getting into it again, but wanted to point it out in these paragraphs again because it says a lot about her "she was my friend!!!" excuse for being unreasonably angry at us dating.

#5: "Cece" claimed in her first post about me that "Ricky" lost respect for me after sleeping with our mutual friend a few months prior. Obviously didn't lose enough respect for me if he dated me for 3.5 years after that, but whatever. I actually do think he probably said that too by the way, probably just because he was salty that I didn't go after him, had a thing with his friend instead, after I broke up with my ex earlier that year. He used to talk about how he was insecure because of his friends too, how girls "only wanted to date my friends", and that Cece specifically made those insecurities worse when she herself went after her friends when they were actually a thing.

#6: The entire time I knew "Cece" she was constantly posting statuses judging other people for not thinking exactly like her, arguing with people on their posts, biting heads off, bullying others, etc. Basically, a keyboard warrior, although that would be an understatement at this point. Also, regarding her talking badly about me behind my back when we were "friends", he told she used to diss on my clothes/makeup and brag about random dudes thinking she was the "prettier one" in the few selfies we took together. He told me he would defend me and say "isn't amber supposed to be your friend" and stuff like that, and that they supposedly got in a fight about it once. Which it's doubtful he actually argued with her about that tbh. I think he just told me that to seem like the knight in shining armor, exaggerate his feelings toward me when we first started dating, and to of course, stir the pot between us. But at the same time, I wonder if he did argue with her, say he liked my makeup or something, and if that's why she randomly begged me to do her makeup once before. Point is, I was told by my ex that she was talking badly about me behind my back before we were ever on bad terms and I do believe that considering her pretty clear and extreme jealousy toward me later. And real friends don't do that to their friends. Especially not "close" ones.

#7: Ah yes, my tangent about Narccistic Perspnality Disorder, which she now projects onto me and recently, in the EXACT WAY I predicted she would; me taking selfies. WHICH has nothing to do with NPD, by the way. I really was 10 steps ahead of her, probably more, and even predicted the topics of smear campaigns a whole 5.5 years ahead of time. That's hilarious.

#8: Me not looking at her blog would have worked if "Ricky" didn't keep showing me her fucking blog all the fucking time for a good two months after this. I have proof of him screenshotting her posts and sending them to me, but I will delve more into that on a different post.

#9: "Ricky" told me that "Cece" liked to get revenge on people by messing with their cars, such as throwing bologna on them, putting sugar in gas tanks, and she had also spray painted a different ex's girlfriend's car months prior to our tension. He told me he directly witnessed this, if not bragged to him about if. I wish I still had the messages of "Ricky" telling that person about it and confirming that it really did happen. I guess I could always shoot then a message myself and maybe get screenshots of their chat now though, but I won't for this stupid internet shit. I only will if I have to. Anyways, this becomes relevant when my car actually started getting vandalized after this and that year.

#10: In conclusion, "moving forward" didn't happen, because she decided to stalk the ever living fuck out of me, my ex kept stirring the fucking pot, and there is no "moving forward" when that happens and continues to happen.

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Welp, that's the end of my summary of the first post I ever made about "Cece". I won't lie, I got pretty snarky in certain parts and its bit cringe, but nothing I said was a lie either. And none of this was worth stalking and harassing someone in extremes for over five years.

At the end of the day, all I did was make a fucking status about you on Facebook that would have done been ignored by anyone who mattered to you and forgotten about by anyone who didn't. Not me dating my stupid ex and not even me speaking the truth. No one truly gave a fuck about your relationship with him and half the town we live in was already preaching you were a predator for literal years anyways. Stop acting like it wasn't already heavy gossip around here for a good while and like I was the first person to ever call you out for it. For you to get so pissed off about ME out of the dozens of others who were already saying that honestly says a lot about my position here, too. Like why are you so worried about what I say out of all the other people who have posted about you on social media, huh? Could it be that you think people actually DO listen to me? Hmm. Just an interesting thought.

In conclusion, if you can't take the heat, stay out of the kitchen I guess. Don't bite people if you can't handle being bit back. The fucking end.

Next relevant post here:

[ohhcalamxty]

hello. its been a while? 5 years actually. what a place this is! what a trip down memory lane of many emotions.

a quick tldr: im 25 now, im engaged and live with my amazing partner and 2 cats. i am ed free (for the most part - i still struggle to love my body sometimes), clean, and i am in therapy! a place i never would have thought id be.

i didnt think id come back here like. ever. but ive been having nightmares of sam recently. its odd isnt it, how the brain works? i havent seen sam in 7 years? since the 2nd june 2018 to be exact, and yet he haunts me. why?

this is an odd correlation but recently i got into taylor swift. her music has been wonderfully cathartic and whilst i never assumed id be one of those girls who screams breakup songs and curses them at my exes....here we are.

TTPD (and most of taylors sad songs) unhealed me, so to speak, or at least awoke something in me. i wouldn't ever proclaim i have had bad relationships. i am always grateful for the time myself and owen spent together, and i am extremely happy with josh (I'd say 2/4 of my relationships being good is pretty huge) but here I am screaming and crying over break up songs at the eras tour and tearing up in the shower because they resonate with a point in my life and put my feelings into words in a way I've never been able to do.

elliot was interesting but i try not to curse his name so much as we were 14 and maybe he didn't mean what he did because he didn't understand consent, or maybe i am naive and too nice - i guess we'll never know because he quite literally dropped off the face of the earth! (Also, minor shoutout for him delaying dumping me because my grandma died! i do appreciate that at least!)

sam however....oh where do I begin with sam!

"Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?"

I think I spent a lot of my teen years reflecting on sam, because well, he fucked me up so much. i mean how emotionally spent must I be to have nightmares of someone who I spent less than 12 months with at the age of 16, and then collided with again for a single night at the age of 19. Clearly we're fucked here.

I cannot find the words to describe you, and I'm unsure what i did to deserve a love like this. You had a girlfriend that you loved and were with for years, and then I (your close friend at the time) got dumped, and you make your move. We hang out a lot, cool, fine, nothing new as we were friends anyway. My mind is hazy on how it started or when we went from friends to whatever we were but it haunts me so much lmao.

The constant talks of i was the one, and that yes I will leave her for you. I fear nobody ever talks about being the other woman because its so odd - it isnt a flex, it isnt cool or sexy. it fucking sucks and it fucked me up but i liked sam so much i believed it. I mean picture this: you're 16, just lost your grandma, heavily depressed, self harming, riddled with an ed and have been dumped but low and behold your best friend tells you he loves you and plays with your hair and holds you. we go on dates and have sleepovers with friends (he still had a gf btw) hes fucked up too but he worries and cares about you more than anyone else, but at the cost of if you try to pull away he hurts himself, and threatens suicide (and believe me he'd do it) - stuck between a rock and a hard place aye.

"And the God's honest truth is that the pain was heaven And now that I'm grown, I'm scared of ghosts - Memories feel like weapons"

Less than a year of back and forth, misery and stringing along. I can't remember how or why it ended but I know it took a lot of attempts of pulling away (and him pulling me back) to get away. A lot of bits are hazy but I can assume it must have been around the time when I met owen? There are old screenshots on here of sam talking to me and they make me feel unwell (not an exaggeration) - his words (even after it all ended) and how he tried to act like he cared makes me feel like a pit inside (even now). I do however find it funny that my posts from 2015 and 2016 about him claiming hes ruined my life don't seem that dramatic now that im 25 and having nightmares about him.

"Oh, God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be The tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind - I regret you all the time"

I think I would have been ok if this was it. I don't think I would be grieving my past self, my girlhood, my naivety if this was all - i very much had support through my other relationships to help the sam trauma which i do appreciate. But it doesnt end here does it? Nah thats too easy.

"Cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden"

2nd June 2018: Me and Josh had briefly split up. It was Karlies birthday and we went out in HTC (dire) and I guess because Hinckley is a tiny place and everyone goes to the same places we ran into a lot of people (some good some bad) - including Sam.

Ima be honest idk where he came from or who he was out with but there he was, buying me drinks, talking to me, I dont remember much but I can assume I was happy. I do however remember him leading me away, telling me we're heading to the next bar because that's where everyone else was going but we actually were heading in the complete opposite direction haha. god knows where we were going but on the walk we sat on a bench, i cried, i told him off, told him he ruined my life, he told me he'd missed me so much, he held me, i cried more, i hated him and then we just rinsed and repeated as he pootled me up castle street to wherever he was taking me. My friend rang me, I told them I was with sam, people came running (guess they all know hes bad news) and they (including josh, who was my ex at the time and ig technically hated me) beefed him until he left and that was that. I haven't seen him since - i still dont know where he was taking me or what his plan was. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I didnt answer the phone, sometimes I wish I hadn't and that maybe I deserved whatever would happen. Maybe I'm blowing it out of proportion, being dramatic, but the trauma of the emotions that 16 year old me feels is still there. It haunts me.

"Don't call me "kid", Don't call me "baby" Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me"

So here we are. I guess I'm bringing this up at therapy in a few weeks because these feelings won't disappear (and Honestly I'm not sure why they reappeared other than being repressed emotions). I wonder though, has this affected you as much as it as me? Do you feel bad about what you did? Are you suffering? Do you think about me? Do you feel bad that you had such control over me or did you enjoy it? Claiming you've lost sleep over me and that you want to protect and help me? Was any of it true I wonder.

"And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue? Just between us, did the love affair maim you too?"

I suppose I'll never know, but I can only hope that memories of me haunt you as much as they haunt me. I hope you get everything you deserve, and I hope I can heal. My skin is no longer the skin you touched, I no longer physically feel you, and I hope one day my memories of you will be hazy and faded, and I don't need to jump at ghosts anymore.

And my therapist wonders why I really dislike men huh.

[memento-morri-writes]

Morri!!! first of all, how are you???

I wanted to tell you that I started for the first time playing a solo ttprg with like the whole deal (well this one uses 2 d10 and a d6 but I added a d12 to make a scale yes/no/maybe answers bc sometimes you just gotta ask fate no?) and I look up to you a lot for all your DnD ocs so the moment I started I was like "damn, gotta tell Morri!"

anywayyyy I am playing Iron Valley which is basically a big what if Stardew Valley were a solo (or +2 people! but idk anyone irl to play ttrpgs with so I'm going solo) ttrpg?? Is not DND cause... I need friends for that I think. And it intimidated me. BUT I am having so much fun???? And since is solo there's a lot of writing down and journaling involved so is SUCH an amazing wiring exercise?? (← hasn't written her wip since uhhhh April? yeah more or less)

would you mind if I asked you about your ocs?? I am so curious!

@ink-fireplace-coffee

CARMEN! HI!!!!!!!!

Congrats on your first ttrpg!! I've never actually played a solo one before, but that's mostly because I kind of need other people to keep me focused. (I get distracted way too easily, adkjasd.) But Iron Valley sounds so cool!! I love that you're adding your own mechanics!

And yeah!!! Playing ttrpgs is GREAT for your creativity!! My DnD characters are my current biggest source of inspiration, and they're the focus of most of my creative output right now.

(I also haven't written anything in MONTHS, so don't worry. You're not alone there. <3)

As for asking about my ocs, of COURSE you are welcome to ask!!! I'm obsessed with these ridiculous people in my head!!!!

(putting discussion about OCs under the cut, because I talk too much.)

My two current characters are Rook (half-elf swashbuckler rogue) and Asola (aasimar oath of vengeance paladin). And I adore both of them SO MUCH.

I'm obsessed with Rook to an unhealthy degree, lmao. He's the love of my life, and a complete disaster of a man. (You can find all the stuff I've posted about him on my personal blog here.) Me and my DM are currently plotting on how to absolutely ruin his life.

Our current plans include forcing him to face his intense trauma from Captain Wolf (the woman who held him prisoner for two years and tortured him), and also dealing with cursed nightmares sent by a literal demon lord. My boy is NOT going to be having a good time soon.

Asola is a little less developed, but she's growing with every session!! Just last session I realized that her oath of vengeance isn't against just one person or group, but rather against the unfairness and shittyness of life as a whole. Specifically, she takes anything that hurts the people she cares about personally.

The most recent example of this is our party's 16-year-old bard, who has a very fucked up past. At the end of last session, he was abandoned by his only real friend (who he's known for 11 years). None of the rest of the party even knew this "friend" existed, since he communicated with / lived inside Val's head. But when Sola finds out, she is going to be FURIOUS. (But not at Vallamir.)

(Sola's tag is here.)

I'm also eagerly awaiting the moment I get to use my Grand Fuck You. (Screenshots to follow.) The way I have it flavored is that Sola doesn't know she's an aasimar, and she has no control over her Radiant Consumption. Instead, it activates in times of extreme emotion, usually anger or grief. The only time it's happened in her life to date was when she found out her family had been killed. So I'm just waiting for the day that the DM does something that will break her enough for me to use this. (Also, as a fun bonus, none of the other characters know she's an aasimar either, since even she doesn't know. So it will be fun for them to find out. Especially since they might be trying to help her, but she will be burning them if they get close.)

(if you do the math, and assume I was level 20, and only rolled exactly half on the dice, that one hit would do 70 points of damage, not accounting for any weapon bonuses.)

I have another character, who I'm going to use after Rook's campaign is done. We're going to be playing Pathfinder (which I don't like, but I will survive), and my character is a fetchling witch named Morana Novak. (Her tag on my personal blog is here.)

As for other DnD ocs, I have about 20 more that are in varying stages of development, but talking about them all would require me to write a novel, lmao.

[tamkashi]

happy august 2nd to myself.

one year ago i was hospitalized after a suicide attempt. it felt like an out of body experience. i remember everything yet cant remember having any thoughts about it. i drove for hours and when i finally got back, my bestfriend texted me an old screenshot of us joking around. on a usual day i wouldve stopped to laugh and reply, instead, i ignored it and continued on with my plan without second thought. i had a lot of pills, and i took an entire bottle and more, forced them down nearly dry. i remember finishing my note and calling 911. i was throwing up uncontrollably and i felt like passing out, i was so tired. i remember the 911 operator asking if i could hear the sirens and i said no. somehow i managed to walk myself to the ambulance and met a paramedic who walked me inside and got me onto the stretcher. i was still throwing up uncontrollably, and i remember getting really nervous about getting my first IV. it went into my left wrist and they gave me something to help with the vomiting. i made it into the hospital and i remember every nurse staring as i was wheeled into my room. i remember having to strip into a gown and having all my belongings taken away. i was given more medicine and time is a blur from there. talked to some police and nurses and a psychiatrist. answering the same question over and over. i sat in the room for hours, no thoughts at all. a familiar nurse i had in january was attending me, and he did my EKG. laying exposed, having wires stuck to my body to check on my heart. i had probably been there for 2 hours before a nurse came in and said that my parents were there. i gave them permission and my mom rushed in shortly after, just crying. she held me so close, just crying. my dad just stared and held my hand. i didnt cry, i didnt feel anything, i wasnt there. i remember some lecture from them, and they just sat there with me. i wasnt allowed to close the door because i could be a danger to myself, so i laid in the dark. they almost let me go home, but my heart rate was still through the roof. i remember seeing the doctor walking towards my room and my heart rate went so high that my monitor started going alerting red and he just shook his head and said “you’ll have to stay overnight”. my sister came, crying. they stayed for a while but my mom stayed with me overnight. i finally got my overnight room and the nurse was very nice to me. she set up my heart monitor that i would have to wear for a while and got me water and graham crackers. my mom immediately fell asleep and i just laid there for hours. the nurse came in around 3 and did more things that i cant remember. laid there more, until morning came and we just waited to hear from the doctor. another nurse lectured me with my mom for about an hour before i was finally discharged.

i can say i lied my fucking ass out of there. i just wanted to go home. who gets sent home like 14 hours after a suicide attempt? definitely not most. i wasn’t okay, i thought about doing it again while i was sitting there. i regretted calling the ambulance. i regretted the pain i caused everyone. but i felt better at home with my cats.

it is now a year later. am i better? not at all. but i can say i’m not actively planning to attempt again. i’m just living a miserable life working for no money. i’m basically in the exact same situation and place as i was then. unhappy relationships, unhappy job, unhappy living situation, it hasn’t changed. but at least i can acknowledge this.

i hope one day i can get better. i feel like i deserve that at least.

my head is pounding and i’ve had an awful day. i worked all day, work again soon, and have to do it all again the next day. so i guess ill try to sleep soon, keep myself occupied with all the thoughts of how i could be. i could be happy with a partner who values me and treats me well, financial stability, and living on a farm taking care of all animals. is that too much to ask for?

maybe, we’ll see next august.

[whompingwillowsworld]

I talked to a lawyer. I can't believe this is really where we are. I've loved and cared for you as a friend, a lover, a wife... for over 15 years of my life...

I am super struggling today. It's been a week since I've heard from you.

Your aunt says she thinks this has little to do with me and more to do with you not loving yourself. She wants to continue to have a relationship with me, "regardless of the outcome." I'm not sure why this always happens... why all 3 of my major relationships come to this, and the family still wants me around.

One day I'll have both I guess... or maybe I'll just have a kid on my own. Maybe I'll look back one day and thank you for leaving because I don't know if I ever would have regardless of how absolutely unfufilled and unhappy I was in our marriage. Anyone who loves me could see it, tried to speak on it, and have come to my rescue now that things finally finished falling apart.

I stopped writing, I stopped taking pictures, and I stopped singing. I poured everything into making a life you didn't even want... I asked for years if I should listen to your words or your actions. You could never tell me.

The screenshots I have of you saying that I treat people the way they treat me and that you fucked up by not being part of my life for 6 years when you married your first wife make me want to throw up. I don't know what changed between now and then, but it isn't my job to figure out why you neglected our relationship at every turn.

Today was brutal. I sobbed till I couldn't breathe. Then I realized I've been doing that alone in our marriage the whole time. You called me immature, insecure, and told me you don't know if you ever loved me, then turned back around and said, "WE shouldn't give up." If I am all of those things, then what does that make you? I'm a little lost on how trying to communicate with you makes me any of those things. To me, it sounds like you're trying to justify your horrendous actions.

I wonder which of your coworkers/friends you're fucking. I wonder if it's our mutual friend you lied about going out with alone in Paris while I was asleep. I wonder who justified your non exsistant effort in our marriage. I wonder who gave you permission to once again leave someone you made a life-long commitment to. I wonder if it's another 18 year old like when you left Ashely. I wonder who you've been talking to about how you feel about ME because it sure as shit wasn't the only person you should have been addressing it with. You want to talk about patterns? 2 failed marriages by 30? Hmmmm... I think you may be the common denominater.

I don't want to be your friend again, and the fact that you even thought it was an option after the way you've treated me is hilarious. If this is how you treat a life partner why the FUCK would I want you as a friend? I compromised so much of myself just to be your wife. I threw away an obituary that didn't belong to me... I threw away a keepsake of someone's aging pet because YOU were livid with me for wanting to give it back. I totally lost myself trying to be enough for you.

I don't know how to forgive myself for being so fucking stupid and naive.

[x3rrorx]

Rant, because I know they're reading it:

Rose can at least say she's still in contact with Noah, still friends with him, and he cares about her enough to help pay for her dog's surgery. Carolina on the other hand? 😂😂

Not that Rose seems to deserve it - how could she befriend and talk shit about him with 2 of his, essentially, stalkers - an ex fwb, and a barely 18 year old invasive fan, who is also a compulsive liar (shiprocked, parking permit, the skull slides), after he paid that for her?

And yes, stalkers. Carolina brushed off her old stalking tweets from her old account as a "joke", but its crystal clear that she wasn't, with how she is. She has this whole "🤪 I'm so crazy don't fwm 🤪" persona, but if a guy was behaving the way she has about Noah, especially shortly after his band has blown up and become more famous, it would be a different story.

She made a blog for anonymous people to ask her personal questions about him. She discussed his family life, implied he had an alcohol problem, what hes like with money, shared texts, photos, and a voice note between them. There is also a tweet on her current twt where she claims that the pic of Noah on the bed was taken from her old Twitter account - girl, you do realise that people can see where they originally saved pictures from, right? She posted it, and other pics of him, on the blog. Whether he fucked her over or not, its a massive invasion of privacy.

To those who aren't in the loop on twt - it should have never gotten over there - shes portrayed this victim complex, that cRaZy fans found her, attacked her and leaked her nudes. When in reality, she started all this herself by messaging blogs first. And yes, there is proof. I just wish there was more screenshots of the blog before she deleted it - unfortunately, she posted way more than what is shown on this blog.

She is so painfully, absurdly desperate for any ounce of attention from Noah. If he did sue her, she'd probably relish in it, because it meant she would have had some kind of attention from him. Imo hes doing the right thing and being the bigger man by not rising to anything she's done. He has his own shit going on. Carolina, you need to focus on her own shit too. The best revenge in life is getting on with your own, staying in your lane, making them wonder what you're up to.

I don’t believe RB is friends with Noah anymore. That’s what others have said and what I’d assume but obviously I have no clue. Both were really shitty in trying to expose and talk about him the way they have. That’s not something you do to a friend (or someone you want back in your life).