#this movement is genuinely so interesting to me i love learning abt it

[madwickedawesome]

art niche spotlight - De'VIA!!

De'VIA art, standing for "Deaf View/Image Art," is a form of expressive visual art created by Deaf artists!!!

The term was coined in 1989 by nine Deaf artists (Miller [painter], Johnston [sculptor], Sonnenstrahl [art historian], Baird [painter], Wonder [sculptor], Wilhite [painter], Vasnick [fiber artist], Creighton [fiber artist], Lai-Yok Ho [video artist]) collaborating to create expressive artwork to unveil at the Deaf Way Festival and a word to accurately describe their artworks in relation to their deafness. These artists created a mural (below) acting as part of their signatures, serving as the first official artwork made under the De'VIA title.

(Patti Durr, HandEyes)

De'VIA follows a basic criteria of 4 elements:

Deaf/Deaf-Blind expression of affirmation, resistance, and/or liberation

View of the Deaf/Deaf-Blind experience in the world

Imagery/motifs/symbols of the Deaf Experience

Art, Activism, Aesthetics, and Authentic Expressions of the Deaf Experience

(Museum of Deaf History, Arts & Culture)

It can be identified through expression of the Deaf Experience or any variety of it, rather than by the deafness of the artist; in other words, all artwork created to communicate the Deaf Experience in any way is De'VIA, but not all artwork created by Deaf artists is. It can also be identified by Deaf artists' general tendencies to use bold colors with contrasting values, varied texturing, and exaggerated features in relation to hands and faces!!

(DeafArt.org)

some key De'ViA artworks by key Deaf artists!!

(i preface this with a slight body horror cw)

Bell School, Betty G. Miller

Ameslan Prohibited, Betty G. Miller

(part of the first show focused exclusively on art with Deaf Themes, 1972)

Family Dog, Susan Dupor

Art No. 2, Chuck Baird

(De'VIA exhibited at the 3rd and 4th Deaf Studies Conferences, 1993-1999)

Poetic Hand, Paul Johnston

(part of the first national touring exhibit on Deaf Culture Art, 1999)

(artwork timeline and events courtesy of DeafArt.org)

[jack-kellys]

I gotta be honest, the Jatherine subplot is probably my least favorite part of the show (until west endsies, I really love what michael and bronté did), so 🎤

give me a piece of the show u take issue with and i'll whip up a solution, director-style!

mmh yeah fair enough. they also rly sold it for me, but im gonna put them aside for a bit and just look at what we're given.

i think that maybe not notably but importantly, in watch what happens it's actually sort of explicit that kath does NOT like jack as a person, but literally. as a face. they meet and all she sees is an attractive boy in the street, (and i think it'd be cute if jack stares after her long enough for him to almost miss his "you struck out!" cue...) and he promptly bugs her until she sees who he rly is. legit all their content until wwh(r) is argumentative annoyances. we know that jack's much than that–maybe even the opposite of that–right off the bat with the prolue w/ crutchie.

so i think the genuine key to jatherine is where and when you stage miss girl katherine, when she's not speaking directly to jack.

sneaking her into moments where the real jack is seen. have her see him pick a kid up off the ground a few measures before "can I interest you in the latest news". have her be on her way to medda's show upstage when he's tugging the jacobs in front of him while running from snyder. have her watch more of the scene in jacobi's before she enters and see the pride these boys share in one another. uksies also did a great job at this tbf, but enforcing kath as the observer that denton was in 92sies would serve her so well.

because i think for katherine, which's different than davey imo, she cares first about the movement and learns to care about jack. she learns a lot about attraction because of jack, she thought she "knew what love was" or whatever, but there's something about him that changes her whole view, and i think it's learning that he is caring, sentimental, and afraid- and alone, even if he isn't actually. it's about finding the moments where kath also gets to express it back that is key, bc we already Know that abt jack as an audience- it's kath who's new to it.

give me an ACTUAL "you look like hell" moment. let her rush over to him despite herself, be surprised at her own action, nearly take his face into her hands before she notices how stiff and guarded he is right then. her feelings for him are a surpise, they "snuck up" on her, right, so finding THE moment where she understands that she has them? key. idt we ever rly get that enough so where it stands out.........especially bc davey exists and has multiple moments of this LMFAO.

jack being attracted to katherine is morrrre obvious i think, he has the i never planned on you thing, it's very clear he's making an effort to get her to stay longer or get to know her. kath is hesitant, and THAT'S very interesting, actually– but only if you do something about it.

[transgenderer]

im too shy to reply with my name to prev anon, sorry

yea... eating meat is pretty ethically thorny, but there are a million reasons not to go vegan. im a "carnist" who grew up with a vegan dad and sister, and it shocks me the attitude some people have about diet. just let people eat what they eat.

this goes for vegans too, by the way, who love to point fingers at me (who can pass as vegan pretty easily, for all my knowledge and simple willingness to eat their food, lol) for mentioning eating a burger or honey.... as they regularly buy agave and quinoa. a lot of vegans are hostile and militant right out the gate, and tbh i get it, i saw my sister and dad regularly get antagonized for it, but... a lot of that is a condescending sense of moral superiority, as if their shit don't stink. i think that gets a lot of people fed up with vegans tbh

like... no matter the (moral) reason for your veganism, if you point sneer at meat eaters and still buy from supermarkets you're being, to be diplomatic, intellectually dishonest. i think veganism as a personal choice, or even philosophical or religious choice, isn't. (intellectually dishonest, i mean.) but if its for ecological or animal rights issues.... to me it seems like slapping a bandaid on a gushing artery. which is fine! we all contribute how we can. but to me, whats the point of slapping on that bandaid if it won't do anything?

besides, everything dies -- it's not the slaughtering or eating of flesh that's the issue, but the rights abuses the (human and nonhuman) animals suffer during, and the destruction of the ecosphere, and the unsustainability of it all. imo. this is why i want to learn to hunt and garden, so i can eat local and minimize both ecological impact and animal suffering

i love to sit and have these conversations with vegans, because many of them (like previous anon! very interesting ask) sit and think about these philosophical problems, a lot. and it's very engaging conversation! they have thoughtful and interesting criticism to offer, which is always welcome, especially if you're genuinely trying to do the right thing. but jeeze i get burned by shitheads looking for any excuse to feel superior to everyone around them -- and i think the vegan movement attracts such people because, lets be real, most people eat at least some meat these days. in my country 0.4% of people are vegan. makes an exclusive club.

i think vegans need to work on that tendency big time if they want more people to convert, altho multinationals arent making it easy to eat vegan

anyway sorry if this is obnoxious lol, im not intending to be but im mad high so idk. what do you think?

i dont feel like militant vegans are acting *optimally strategically*, but i do think theyre acting perfectly reasonably given pretty reasonable beliefs about the world. if you care about animal suffering basically at all, animal agriculture is totally unacceptable! so the people around you eating meat are like, sort of monsters? in which case, yeah, youre not gonna be super great and strategic abt it, youre emotional abt it. i for one care about animal suffering not at all, but especially feel very uncertain about animal suffering.

anyway, this is your only actual argument

besides, everything dies

ant its not a good one! "everything dies" is just as good an argument for murder being okay! animals do not want to be killed! (in general) to the extent that their preferences matter, killing them is wrong! and like...its fine, to say "animal preferences dont matter" but you sort of have to then believe that beating your dog is ok

idk, vegetarianism/veganism stuff is weird. i feel like most people believe on some level that eating meat is bad, but just aren't willing to make the sacrifice. which i can respect yknow. pobody's nerfect. but the argument that it's okay actually are so feeble imo (unless they go full on chadyes and say "abusing dogs is ok". which i can respect)

[unfortunatelyilikebnha]

Part 2 of me talking abt class 1a friendships that I rlly want to see: midojirou addition!

Ok so I’m probably so attached to this one bc they’re both my favs and obviously I want my favs to be friends BUT

I think they’d also be good friends like even without my bias for them??

I already made a post a while back about how cute the scene where Jirou asks Midoriya about his notebook organization was but like. Come on it was so cute they have such good friendship potential!!

After Midoriya sees Jirou’s notebooks and offers her tips to organize them, Jirou makes him a playlist of songs she thinks he’d like as a thank you

Midoriya is so Touched and listens to it a lot (nobody’s ever made him a playlist before!!!), especially once he finds that she totally hit the nail on the head about his music taste! He starts asking her music questions and she’s a little self conscious at first, but he’s so genuinely curious that she eventually loses that self consciousness and just starts rambling about music

In return she lets Midoriya ramble about heroes and quirks (he is also self conscious at first since his rambling’s historically been seen as “creepy” or “weird” but she thinks it’s only fair to let him ramble too so once he realizes that she isn’t gonna make fun of him he gets more confident about it as well)! They spend hours talking about their interests and listening to the other talk about their interests, and they both start learning more about the things their friend is passionate about!

Jirou starts picking up combat strategies, new ways to use her quirk, and useful information about heroes/villains/their classmates from Midoriya, and Midoriya starts learning things about music and sound from Jirou (some of the things he learns give him new ideas about quirks, especially sound based quirks and detecting/locating enemies, and battle strategy)!

Jirou finds out Midoriya can sing after hearing him humming a song from the playlist she made him one day, and makes sure to tell him that his voice is really good, which flusters him immensely

One day the class has a karaoke night and Jirou convinces Midoriya to do a duet with her and they end up having fun AND blowing the class away with their talent

Midoriya confesses that at some point he wanted to learn to play an instrument, but he never did and since his hand is kinda fucked up now he probably doesn’t have the motor skills to learn and Jirou takes that as a challenge and starts teaching him something that doesn’t require quite as fine movements (idk what since I don’t actually play any instruments I just sing but I think it’d be so cute!)

One day Jirou beats bakugou in a combat exercise partially bc she utilized information she learned from Midoriya, and Midoriya is So Proud

Jirou already has a good mind (she had good ideas abt how to utilize Kaminari’s quirk at usj + she placed 7th in midterms + she analyzed what each person needed to learn to play their instrument and gave them personalized advice), so the more she hears Midoriya’s analysis, the more she picks up on what kinds of things he analyzes and starts doing it herself, which benefits her a lot and excites Midoriya. He loves hearing what she thinks of and adds commentary of his own and they kinda bounce off each other!

Midoriya tends to like,,, not outwardly mention when things make him uncomfortable or angry unless he’s under a lot of stress (see: when he’s fighting people) and Jirou notices and encourages him to actually voice his opinions when things make him upset bc it’s obviously not healthy to keep all his negative emotions bottled up like that. This results in Midoriya being a tiny bit more likely to stand up for himself, and in Midoriya and Jirou having shit-talking sessions when one/both of them has had a hard day

Jirou wants to get better at painting nails for when the girls do their girls night sleepovers so Midoriya offers to let her practice on him. Then next day Midoriya is just a little more careful in training exercises bc he doesn’t want to ruin Jirou’s hard work, and the rest of class 1a is like “please keep doing that anything that makes Midoriya treat himself a bit more carefully is great!” so because it’s mutually beneficial it becomes a semi-regular thing. The next time Jirou goes to girls night Mina compliments her on her improved nail skills and she’s quietly pleased.

They r bi/lesbian (or just bi if you prefer bi Jirou) solidarity! Jirou: girls....pretty Midoriya: *furious nodding* yeah!!!

They are both really good at mario kart and usually end up being the finalists if the dorm does mario kart tournaments (could not tell you why I think this but I do). Jirou plays Rosalina cause she’s gay and Midoriya plays Luigi (a remnant from when he and bakugou played mario kart as little kids and bakugou forced Midoriya to be Luigi bc he wanted to be Mario)

One time Jirou couldn’t sleep and decided she was hungry so she went down to the dorm kitchen to eat the leftovers from lunch and found Midoriya already there, pulling the last portion of leftovers out of the fridge. They kind of stare at each other for a moment then Jirou’s like “HEY!” and starts chasing him around the common room, quietly cursing as she almost trips when she turns around the couch. As they’re running they’re whisper-arguing about who needs the food more, and when Jirou suddenly changes direction, jumps on the couch, and uses it to springboard to the other side, Midoriya is taken by surprise and she tackles him, causing the two of them to land in a heap on the floor while the food spills nearby. They’re not injured and because of their hero training they manage to soften their landing so the crash isn’t as loud as it could’ve been, but nevertheless they resign themselves to cleaning up the mess and just microwaving instant noodles or something. When Kirishima asks where the leftovers are the next morning they studiously avoid eye contact.

[ohsweetflips]

☕️ bakugou katsuki :)

[just as a general statement: i’m only at the start of season 4 !!!]

okay i LOVE bakugo like tbh i spent seasons 1 and 2 being like “oh my god i love him he’s such a shithead” but then once season 3 happened w/ the training camp and everything after i was like “oh..... OH..............” and also bc i think s3 is really when we start to see him.......... kinda reach out to his classmates? like i dont even remember the context or what he said but i remember early s3 thinking to myself “oh hey bakugo just..... gave his own form of motivation”

but like........ here is where bakugo GETS ME like, the fight he and deku had after the provisional licensing exam......... holy shit like 

1) of all things, i thought bakugo was going on the “i hate myself bc i was too weak and i got caught” route, which would’ve been heartbreaking in itself!!!! but instead we got “i hate myself bc i was too weak and i got caught and that in turn destroyed the hero i’ve admired my entire life and all might absolutely blames me” and that like. really got me tbh like i’ve always seen bakugo as a character whose pride will be his downfall and i think they really did it in such an interesting way bc bakugo truly blames himself for what happened to all might, even after all might assures him that he was going to lose his power anyway, and it just. makes me really sad, you know? bc yeah bakugo can be. aggressive. to say the least. but he’s still a kid, you know? and all might obviously cares for his students and he truly felt like he failed as bakugo’s teacher because bakugo was feeling so guilty and like. thinking back? i think we really do see that guilt? or at least the Effects of that guilt? and it makes me big sad :( not to mention the fact that, maybe it was just my interpretation, but the bakugo we see kidnapped by the LOV seemed to be scared, in his own way? like if im remembering correctly, he was like “you assholes won’t kill me, you want me for your league” but he was still Actually Thinking about his movements and what he was going to do? and during the fight with all for one, he actually admitted to himself that he was stuck? that he couldn’t get away from the LOV and therefore all might couldn’t fight to his full potential bc of the collateral damage? and just like to see bakugo Actually Accept that he’s in a bad situation + the guilt like........ oh boy

2) and also bakugo and deku’s actual fight was top tier holy shit like. the fact that deku was like “i’m not going to back down from this fight, not only am i the only one who understands what bakugo is going through and i know he needs to blow off some steam, but i’m also going to show him that he can’t push me around anymore” and bakugo like....... genuinely being upset that he beat deku? like i just keep thinking abt him asking all might why he chose deku to have one for all, especially bc bakugo then asks something along the lines of “but don’t you see that i’m weak now, too?” like.......... the fight was just so good and we saw how deku has progressed and made one for all his own quirk and also like. we almost see this tragic downfall-esque moment for bakugo? like bakugo’s fatal flaw is his pride and how he sees Any Type Of Help as a sign that he’s weak, and he finally felt this true moment of “everything i have done in my life has been wrong.” like, when he asks deku, “does this mean everything i’ve done to become just like all might has been wrong?” oh boy............. like i really want bakugo to learn that help =/= weakness, and even all might pointed it out that, while deku admires bakugo’s desire to win, bakugo “fears deku’s spirit” bc deku always acts with the intention to help others, and bakugo has always viewed that type of..... team work as a sign of weakness. i think it’s why he’s always going off on his own (like in the licensing exam), though hot take i wouldn’t be surprised if his penchant for doing his own thing is also tied to his guilt over what happened with all might

also though his friendship with kirishima???? top tier like tbh i love how kirishima seems to kinda see through bakugo and they really do seem to get each other :’)

i think my main thing with bakugo, and maybe this is a little too much heart-on-my-sleeve, but i kinda tend to have a bit of a soft spot for characters who are Angry A Lot like. maybe this sounds dumb but it’s very much this protective feeling of “ik what it’s like to be so consumed by anger that it sometimes feels like it’s the core of your personality and God do i want to see you heal” but i think that might be some projection on my end akjdsjkdjkds like i just get a bit sad bc bakugo, along with all the students, are Kids and the show doesn’t let you forget that they are Kids who always happen to be at the wrong place in the wrong time and it’s just like. i want him + all the characters to be able to heal

also tbh ik she’s only been seen like.......... twice but i have :/ thoughts :/ on bakugo’s mom and this is DEFINITELY projection but it really stood out to me how the way she described his quirk was “stupid awesome” in kinda a dismissive way and how she has that same aggressive behavior and. okay. that might have been for comedic effect like “ahahaha see how similar they are!!” like i get it and it also got a few chuckles out of me but also like. i am :/ bc parental figures play a Big Role in the show (such as deku’s love for his mom while all might essentially stands in as a father figure, todoroki having to actually address the hate he has towards his father [though i have hmm thoughts abt his situation with his mom too], and tbh i’ll even put iida with his older brother here bc of how much his goals align with making his brother/family proud) and it Really stands out to me how bakugo’s mom shares his anger/aggressive behavior but also seems to see him like. the rest of the world sees him. like while she did show care in being like “obviously i was worried about him, but when aizawa said that the LOV wouldn’t break his spirit, i knew he was in the right hands,” but i am overall very warily :/ at how similar they are, especially in a show that has already shown the depths of parental/guardian influence on its main cast of teenagers

and also there’s already been stuff said about how deku and bakugo eerily parallel all might and endeavor, right? like someone has already wrote a think-piece about that? bc with a show that actually has a very big commentary on breaking cycles of abuse (especially with todoroki), i am Big Eyes Emoji

(this isn’t to like. brush aside the mean things bakugo has done/said to deku and the other characters but like. i think it’s more than just “oh he’s just an asshole” like yeah he’s definitely abrasive and aggressive and jaded but it stems from this overwhelming sense of pride + a warped view of what it means to be a hero) (bc he really did only view being a hero as Winning and while that’s definitely a part of it, he ignored the more emotional side of it) (also don’t get me wrong his pride drives me up the wall a lot, especially thinking back to the sports festival, and again maybe this is me thinking too much or projecting, but it’s very obvious that he was heralded from the moment his quirk developed and that immediately made a recipe for disaster)

tldr: i love bakugo! a lot! he drives me up a wall but GOD get this kid some therapy <3

[juuheizou]

hi take my overboard numbers again for the obscure asks: 1, 3, 6, 7, 8, 14, 18, 23, 30, 32, 33, 34, 36, 40

yES go as overboard as u want i honestly love it!! anywho!!

1. what’s your favorite way to dress?

comfortable and practical, but still all black and lowkey aesthetically goth. my autistic self can’t do the more elaborate looks w all kinds of horribly uncomfortable materials, but i don’t think i own a single article of clothing that isn’t at least a v dark grey and i do love my leather motorcycle jacket and army surplus boots. i’d probably dress more highkey alternative if accessorizing while autistic wasn’t such a (expensive when it’s not super spoons-consuming) game of trial and error.

3. what movie/game/etc. helps you calm down?

the hatsune miku games. i just love rhythm and music games so much, and find them v calming to play.

6. what kind of music would you listen to if you could only choose one?

ok now i know i’ve rbed this game before bc i’ve answered this exact question before, and i’m glad to get it again bc i’ve gotten over my trying-so-hard-to-be soft boi phase and changed my mind. i would choose metal

7. what song is your aesthetic?

lemme preface that musically i’m a metalhead but i lean more into goth aesthetics, so even though there are songs i like better, imma go with helena by misfits

8. what color do you think goes best with your personality?

black

14. do you like makeup?

idk. i almost never wear it and a full face of it is a sensory nightmare no matter how light, but sometimes it’s fun to screw around with fun eyeshadows (even though i only end up using black and some browns lmao) and lipsticks and i like to think i look manly but in a goth way w my poorly done raccoon eyes

18. what animal would you keep as a pet, if you could?

realistic answer: a big cuddly dog. fantasy answer: a fricking seal.

23. do you like soft, fluffy blankets or rough/smooth blankets?

soft and smooth

30. what instrument do you wish you could master?

guitar. i’m learning but i wish i had had access to one small enough for me to play comfortably when i was younger bc i’d be so much better at it now than i am. (ps, if it’s an option for u ash, look into models known for being particularly small and consider going electric. the fretboards tend to be slimmer and my ibanez mikro changed my 4′10 baby-handed life)

32. do you have any strange interests?

play piercing. i’m sure that one would get me canceled if i was relevant bc it’s considered an s&m thing and tumblr (surprisingly, lgbt tumblr) has really decided to turn against that community, but honestly it’s an art to me and i’d love to master it one day.

33. do you have any strange fears?

already answered, but i’ll give u another one. there ain’t shit i can do abt it that i don’t already do as best i can, but i have this weird fear of my teeth rotting out of my head and losing them. i have so many dreams abt it where it’s the only part i remember and every time my mouth feels gross i'm like “well this is it.”

lately though my dreams have stopped revolving around my teeth and instead started being abt my snake bites. like last night the only thing i remember of my dream was the part where one of my labret studs got caught in my teeth and the ball fell/disappeared and i ripped out the post, and putting the post back in hurt so much i started seeing black spots and almost passed out in my dream it was wild. so maybe just mouth trauma?? in general?? though i love looking at gruesome pictures of mouths that aren’t mine?? idk what that’s about

34. what food do you binge on when you’re lazy?

none really. i used to genuinely binge-eat (i’m sure i’d have been diagnosed w binge-eating disorder if there was a word for it at the time) p bad for years and years since i was a child and am making a deliberate effort to not do that anymore, so i’ll generally avoid the kitchen when it’s not mealtime. otherwise i would tear into my low-spoons meals until there was nothing left. haha sorry if this one was tmi.

36. do you have any impulsive movements? (twitches, ticks, flapping, etc.)

so very many.

40. do you like light blankets or heavy blankets?

heavy. if its too hot i’ll cool down by sleeping butt ass naked before i lighten my blankets

send me some obscure asks

[unproduciblesmackdown]

another reason jere and chris’s relationship is written well (see always: it’s not that hard!! ugh!!! super simple things to do but no we have to have a zillion horribly-handled empty guy/girl relationships!! why not) is just that like.....it doesn’t do that exasperating thing where the girl who is being crushed upon just needs to Notice the guy in the last 10 minutes and it will be like “wow yeah we’re dating now” like the only way to have a positive relationship at all is to be like well i’m your girlfriend now

but like, jeremy and christine actually have A Relationship Development over the entire course of the musical And there are strong suggestions that they have a very parallel experience in terms of how they Like each other, despite jeremy being the one who starts out with a crush while we don’t have reason to think christine has a crush on him at the start of things, but it sure seems like she does start to have this genuine interest in jeremy the whole time even if she isn’t necessarily thinking of it in that way the entire time

like ilpr is a solid and genuine foundation showing that christine can be herself in jeremy’s presence, not even independently of his feedback either, i.e. if he hadn’t responded as positively as he had she probably wouldn’t have been as genuine and open as she was. and we get to see that jeremy experiences this and totally enjoys it, that Reaction when she gets super worked up with the punches and voice all I!! LOVE!! PLAY! REHEARSAL!! is golden thank you william....and like!! they’re kindred spirits!! christine isn’t ~too good~ for him b/c she’s Popular (since she isn’t even officially in the popular group, not even later on when she’s dating jake and considering Jeremy to be popular), it’s that jeremy thinks Absolutely Everyone is too good for him b/c he thinks he’s fundamentally deficient/inferior just As A Person somehow...”like i’m some Normal handsome guy” is really a hell of a verse....anyways the point is that jeremy is in his heart a christine-esque person in terms of the way christine is So Passionate and weird and dramatic and loud!! but jeremy isn’t really aware of this at the time and trying super hard to repress everything abt himself and in being drawn to christine he is recognizing that Quintessential part of himself w/o realizing it

ANYWAYS and at the end of the rehearsal scene jeremy feels put out like once again there’s been a takedown / i just wanna know that christine is aware i’m alive....but she IS aware he’s alive and he HAS made a positive impression on her, he just like, looks at jake as the Epitome Of Popular super appealing guy, (see: jake/jeremy...), and sees himself as the total opposite end of that spectrum, how could anyone like him when jake’s around, and being in such a negative / failure-expecting / self-loathing place that his perspective is skewed and he can’t see that it Wasn’t a total failure in terms of getting christine’s attention

and then! a guy that i’d kinda be into is all like “oh look here’s this love song between christine and jeremy” but then it’s like “syke!! it was christine and jake” but it’s not Really a psykhe because it’s a love song within a love song with the “i guess a part of me etc” section. and jeremy definitely Feels that in the moment but then again gets such whiplash and the whole thing in his mind is eclipsed by once again having it confirmed for him that she’s into jake. but like, of course it’s easy to see why her relationship with jeremy is developing at the same time as she’s interested in jake, b/c there’s no reason for that to be impossible and yknow, once again christine feels like she can be genuine around jeremy and share her real thoughts with him and she Wants and Likes to talk with him. 

and yknow it doesnt help that the squip steps in and is like “its hopeless christine will never like you unless you totally remake yourself” and such, but still, it’s actually going along okay, and jeremy hasn’t even needed the squip to do it. yeah the one incident of him kinda cheating by getting the squip’s help is saying him having a whole Thing at the mall was performance art, but then really it’s all just cancelled out when the squip has jeremy say that he has no reason to join the drama club save his thespianism, and christine is evidently a bit put out by that “why ELSE would i be here”

and then yknow seeing christine liking jake, the center of the whole popular group, and with the squip telling him he needs to be more like those Most Socially Successful people, natch jeremy believes he needs to figure out how to cut it as a ~popular guy~ and then goes off and does that for the rest of act 1 while christine and jake do their own thing

but then Oh The Couch Scene..........it’s so beautiful. and the squip is off and jeremy feels like he’s Messed Up when his impulse is silly and weird....but that’s what he’s really like!! and christine vibes with it and it becomes most obvious that that part of him, the actual Genuine Jeremy part of him, is what’s led him to have what’s arguably his most successful connection with her, just based on sitting down and talking for a second and making each other laugh......like, it Sure Is Something that jeremy learns that christine already thinks of him as popular but just seems to think this divides him from her......this subversion in which now christine thinks of jeremy, who’s supposed to be the loser geek whatever with the unattainable crush, as the out-of-reach Popular Guy......and i like that christine thinks jeremy’s been getting it on with everyone but it just turns into them laughing about her pun. b/c whether he had or hadn’t it’s nice to know christine would not take real issue with that lmao......it’s a great time for someone to express some respect for jeremy’s autonomy. and well anyways!! they have their heartmelting reprise and like. it’s not that christine tells jeremy she doesn’t actually like him and at that point i’m fairly sure that she’s more Aware of possibly maybe liking him. but like!! similar to him she’s been trying out a slightly different version of herself, and it’s just now hitting this roadblock b/c jake in his element here hosting a party w/ all the other popular kids has to be more like his ~Usual~ self than his “i’m also trying new things” self that led to him dating christine.....and, yknow, it’s a lot at once when she’s conflicted abt her and jake and her own sense of identity in general and like, regardless of how she feels about him, right in that moment still at the party of course she’s not gonna feel confident that yes let’s immediately jump into this new relationship. but that doesn’t mean she Doesn’t like him on her own b/c. yknow, their relationship is slowly developing in the background for her even as she focuses on these other things. b/c that’s how it goes sometimes!!

and then yknow the house burns down and everyone’s even more conflicted about everything and jeremy telling christine abt being squipped just freaks her out b/c like, surprise, and b/c yknow, now all these interactions between them which felt very genuine (and were!! the squip doesn’t really direct jeremy at all even if part of the time knowing that it was there gave him this confidence he wouldntve otherwise had, but ilpr / the couch bit was a wholly unsquipt affair) seems like maybe jeremy was just parroting the squips instructions the whole time, and it’s easy to see how that feels like a betrayal, have i said this exact thing before? idk. and then, yknow, her kind of being like “jeremy wtf” is a moment of calibration for him but oh no the squip’s going rogue!! etc. but the fact that it upsets her means her interactions with jeremy held real value to her

and then yknow The Play......first of all? jeremy having the squip for a while means that it’s glitching him up, screwing with his voice and movement, but its still not capable of entirely overriding jeremy’s own commands. thus, presumably, it’s not possible that christine’s 30-second-old squip would be able to force her to do or say something she didn’t want to at all, despite the fact that like, clearly it’s not natural, i really doubt it’s just like the squip mecha-piloting christine’s body and voice. it’s all a bit fuzzy b/c yknow, jeremy’s squip is at the center of the network and everyone’s is being synced to his, and so it seems like jeremy’s squip could tell other ppl’s squip what to do maybe, but it’s hard to say how it truly operates b/c a) chaos and b) jeremy’s squip, a Known Liar, c) is now lying more than ever to try to drag jeremy past the finish line of its plan

but anyways my point is that like. obviously without everyone being squipped, christine at that point would not have just suddenly declared her love for jeremy, and jeremy always Reacts to the weirdness of this and that it doesn’t seem right. but! a)! totally think christine does have her own crush on jeremy at that point. and!! wildly relevantly!! b) the squip just beamed lore from rich’s head (his locker combo) right into jeremy’s via their link, so? if the goal of jeremy’s and christine’s squips was to convince christine asap that Being With Jeremy Would Be Ideal?? why NOT give christine access to jeremy’s real actual feelings for her. she would need convincing anyways, clearly she was just mad at him 3 seconds ago, clearly she was questioning whether any of what she might have thought jeremy felt for her was real!! so it would only work in their favor to let her Know what jeremy’s actual thoughts and feelings are. and then, yknow, if she’s got THAT issue of thinking he wasn’t genuine resolved, and if having her own squip has her like, immediately able to understand why jeremy wanted to have/keep one, and if she’d already had her own Real Feelings for jeremy in the works, and with how she’d probably be questioning her own judgment extra hard anyways thanks to the stress and confusion of the whole Fire problem on top of the vulnerable place she’d already been in re questioning her relationship which she got into while questioning herself.....not super wild to see how she could be convinced vs the squip must totally be forcing her and doing a total system override

but anyways even if, yknow, it IS all of christine’s real feelings at that point like the squip assures him it is in some versions, jeremy recognizes that he doesn’t think it Should be happening this way even if it is supposedly working out in his favor. and then he proves that he’s not gonna let christine stay caught up in his mess and that he prioritizes her like, being allowed to be her own person vs them getting to Be Together, and just icing on the cake that he’s willing to sacrifice himself in a very real way to do that, b/c natch he doesn’t know that the chain reaction thing will happen.........and well then anyways vimh very obvious and even though it’s The Next Scene jeremy’s been legit comatose for however long and christine’s had some time to reflect on events w/o even having the pressure of it being possible to interact with jeremy and been able to make up her collective mind......and anyways the point is that in a lesser piece of media it’d be like “wow thanks for helping me out jeremy, i’ve truly never noticed you but now i’m like cool nice let’s kiss”, but instead it’s that the play and the moment of truth between them and the aftermath is all possible b/c of the way their relationships been developing and the way their individual journeys and their feelings for each other have been awfully parallel in many ways and it’s fitting b/c of that kindred spirits thing and what’s the point of this post? idk. it’s me saying imo christine lowkey has a crush on jeremy already and that this is a way better story than doing the “i didn’t even consider us friends but One Thing happens in the last 20 min to make me go ‘jerry??’ and yeah let’s date now”

what’s my conclusion.......uhhh.......they’re Valid

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#5

no carol this body part is not USELESS please don’t cut it off to prove a point you learned on a superhero tv show from the 2000s

this is cheating you know me for real

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not to worry. the most important website is still up.

7 notes • Posted 2021-10-04 20:26:19 GMT

#3

but also also re the whole squid game subtitle translation thing yes you literally cant translate some things from korean into english because there are things within the language that dont have a good equivalent in english etc etc etc and i completely agree there but netflix isnt cable television its a streaming service literally what is stopping them from adding a section on their translated collections for “translators notes” where whoever they hired to do the translation can explain which things they cant translate accurately 

like for squid game they can maybe talk about how 무궁화 꽃이 피었습니다 (mugunghwa kkochi piosseumnida) was translated as red light green light for english but it actually translates into the hibiscus has bloomed and the way the game is played is you start slow and speed up so people can strategize and the hibiscus is actually the national flower of south korea (and i’m not 100% on this but i think it had a history with the resistance movement during japanese occupation)

and like. just in general they can have a section to explain that 형 (hyung - older brother of a man) and 언니 (eonni - older sister of a woman) etc are kinship terms used for family members or friends you are close with and show a close relationship and all that. or explain abt 반말 (casual speech) and 존댓말 (polite speech) at least for scenes in which its brought up by the characters themselves bc it does not make sense in english

i mean like yeah we all know its because netflix doesnt actually want to pay a translator enough to write out an EXTRA section on their website i bet they would pay their translators 0 dollars if they could. but like. this is something that would actually improve their service. people would have reason to use netflix outside of “they have that show i want to watch that hulu/amazon prime/other streaming service doesnt have”. and people are genuinely interested in what got lost in translation because thats why all those tiktoks and youtube videos about how the squid game translation was inaccurate were doing well. like, i’m sure loads of people would be interested in the fact that ali called sangwoo hyung bc of the meaning that word carries. it would show actual thought from the netflix execs on what they think will improve the experience of using their website. but no.

8 notes • Posted 2021-11-10 01:23:16 GMT

#2

should i start blogging in korean and alienate all my followers or should i go to sleep

9 notes • Posted 2021-10-19 04:14:58 GMT

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i am a mystery i am an all knowing god i am lost in the walmart stationary aisle

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hey ive been trying to figure out how to do this for awhile and since some anons have asked im gonna try 2 articulate my feelings about f*nn and this is not going to be very polite and im sorry, its nothing personal and if you have a perspective on him that i dont its fine and i absolutely get you and im glad you can enjoy that! i just wanted to try and work through how the fuck i feel about him and this is ultimately a pretty personal post and not a Manifesto on How F*nn Is Bad (i dont think he is, particularly, ftr), so like, if youre not interested which I CANNOT FAULT YOU FOR AT ALL, just know that its cool to go on! this isn’t trying to start shit or anything, i genuinely dont want to, im just writing this for Me, basically. its alright. 

thanks thats the intro done okay take care i love u

what...does f*nn have even. he’s good in the ring but he’s surrounded by people who are better. he doesn’t have a character. what motivates him? what the fuck is he even fighting for? what is his personality, even? he absorbs the storylines of everyone around him in any feud he does too often for him to be as underdeveloped as he is and yet we are here and WHY???

i mean. apollo. let’s look at apollo! apollo is similarly kinda underdeveloped character-wise and most of who he is comes from who he is irl, and people don’t really play characters up irl! but like. it’s not glaring in the same way f*nn is, because

1) apollo got called up SUPER SUPER EARLY in nxt where f*nn had YEARS to develop a character and still holds a spot as longest reigning nxt champion, and

2) apollo plays a support role! he’s not a main event player (which is fucking criminal in and of itself but thats another issue) and him being underdeveloped+not as fleshed out lends itself pretty well to him supporting people however they need support at the moment. it’s not Ideal but it works well for who he is in the context of story stuff, which is not the case for f*nn

(also 3 secretly but apollo’s moveset is actually really varied and interesting which f*nn’s is...not but that’s a subjective thing obviously lol)

like. f*nn is just. such a nothing of a wrestler. i’m sorry but genuinely i don’t know or understand what there is there. he doesn’t have a character besides...vagueing people on twitter until he gets what he wants and yes okay i know that’s not an entirely true unbiased thing to say and im sorry but also i dont think im exactly Wrong

(also about vaguing people on twitter i know that has something to do with how bad his 2017 booking was, i WON’T deny that, and multiple people are booked badly in dubya at once and they all deserve more than that, but also f*nn’s the only person who really got any rage on his behalf as far as i’ve seen and it’s definitely affected my feelings about that)

the only thing he’s got going for him is a storied history in new japan, which itself feels lacking in the ring, and which honestly...gets...a lot more credit than deserved (and mostly SOLO credit at that)? he DID create the bullet club but his bullet club was essentially an entire stable of Foreigner Heels. cheap heat. any story he told (and i only know that there was apollo 55, im unaware of any other feuds, so bear that in mind) feels so...like...secondary to that of anyone he worked with. he could be a support role and get away with being the white bread he is but GOD FORBID that should happen, and so he just engulfs the story of anyone around him and does nothing and it’s just

it’s disappointing and its boring and exhausting to see him get shot after shot after shot doing the same thing over and over again because He Can. i have nothing much against him, i think he’s petty and petulant and very...self-absorbed, like, not in an entirely bad way but in the sense that he buys a lot of his own hype? and its...off-putting. i don’t know him personally though obviously, that’s just how i feel about him based on what ive seen, but like, as a person, its whatever. i just can’t stand him as a wrestler or a character. he’s generic and unmotivated and so. NOTHING and it’s exhausting to watch and try to make something meaningful and enjoyable out of. especially juxtaposed with the miz rn, and even with s*th, who i hate but who at least HAS a personality even if it’s a genuinely awful one

not even going into the fan reception of f*nn vs anyone else who’s more deserving and interesting than he is, lmao, i’m bitter as anything about how f*nn is treated compared to the cruiserweights because NATURALLY and OBVIOUSLY i’m biased, you all know this, i don’t deny it, i cant say this comparison is all the way fair when im so so so FUCKING cwuisewweights, but like, the reaction to f*nn getting Beachballed vs any of the 205 dudes getting Beachballed was so heartbreaking in how much More he gets just for the name he’s got

i don’t know. i don’t know. i just think he’s such a nothing of a character, surrounded by people (taguchi, joe, kevin, hideo, FUCK IT, even s*th or like, fucking, KENNY, or the young bucks, or ANYONE) who really care about the character and story they have against him, and instead of being relegated to a supporting role where he’d be like, Worth anything, he’s thrust into whatever title picture or main event there is because He’s F*nn B*lor and it’s so...so much less talked about or acknowledged and for the life of me i don’t understand why. i don’t know what it is im missing

again, i don’t have much against him as a person, i personally don’t like how he acts but he doesn’t seem Proublematique in any way beyond...the foreigner heel stuff which is inherently built in anti-japan sentiment EVEN THOUGH that is strictly kayfabe afaik (though he does fucken. support the special olympics and did some Cool Trendy Straitjacket Entrances as prince nevitt and that is a very VERY personal thing i have against him) i guess that’s what matters. i just. ugh. im over it

i appreciate him being vocally supportive of queer fans but i don’t owe him for that and i still think it sucks that he, a (as far as i know) straight white dude, is getting the platform to do that instead of people who are actually queer and out in the same company. sonya isn’t getting this chance, and more blatantly, darren never got that chance. despite having the block the hate movement, and despite the fact that his coming out is what got him a face turn while it was ENTIRELY and COMPLETELY unacknowledged in the canon universe of wwe proper. like, i guess that’s not f*nn’s fault but there’s a common trend of men of color being pushed down to boost him up and it’s not the best. i don’t think that’s all his fault but i don’t like it

again this isn’t like, denouncing Liking F*nn, its fine! this isnt decrying everything about him, i don’t wanna fight about this, and if you like finn, sincerely i’m glad you can find something there to like and i hope you’re having a good time with him! and to boot i really DON’T know much about anything he did before dubya, and so i could very well be wrong about everything. like, calling the gullet blub just a Cheap Heat Stable? that interpretation could be and probably is wrong. i know that, and i know that’s probably gonna affect how i feel abt him, but also god i do not care even a bit enough to learn and i would rather die than look at pr*nce nevitt/gullet blub anything

i dont know. i hope this didnt come off as.......TOO shitty, i know this is a stupid and mostly impenetrable post, its alright, this is just me trying to work through this for myself and i promise its not like...a huge thing. thats all! thats all. im sorry if i worded this weird at all and i know my perspective isnt the best or most informed on this, but also i am very very tired of f*nn and i don’t think that’s an unfair thing to say