#this man is his own worst critic haha

[disdaidal]

Craig Parker talks about his role as Haldir in The Lord of the Rings [x]

[thyandrawrites]

man. what was even the point of all the parallels the villains (esp. shigaraki, dabi and toga) to the heroes just to have them all die. what's the point. I'm glad i dropped bnha when i did, that's so damn frustrating. they should have been saved. the set up could have resulted in such a good pay off, just for them to throw that all away.

Hi! Sorry for the late reply. I spent most of last night working on my fix-it todofam fic, haha

Anyway, I've been wondering about the same thing. Despite everything, I don't think this is the ending Horikoshi originally had in mind. He has many flaws as a writer, but I do believe him to be a strongly compassionate person. The main problem with bnha imo is that he always seems to struggle to put his foot down and see through his choices all the way. Enji's arc in particular is full of this type of problem. One moment he's depicted as an unredeemable, unchanging monster, and two chapters later he's someone whose journey to self-betterment we're supposed to cheer for—a misguided guy who is trying his best and still failing. You get what I mean?

If it's true that the theme of DV is dear to Horikoshi (and I think it is, from how intimately he writes its intricacies), then I can understand that duality, at least. The fact that he can't quite make up his mind on who he wants to humanize more. But it's still disappointing. It feels insincere, the way he's wrapping up this story by pretending this is where he was always meant to go. For all of his indecision, at the very least he's never denied the Leagues' humanity, not until this very abrupt, tonal-shift ridden ending. And a part of me wonders if it's just Horikoshi's way to cater to the part of the fandom that's always loudest, the one that's been arguing for bloody 'justice' all along. If he's unable to handle that criticism on a work he holds so dear. And yet, by responding to it, by changing tracks on his own set up, he still managed to invalidate everything the story ever said about compassion, and that's the worst part.

[celestie0]

Hii! This is my first time messaging any fanfic author (I'm an extremely anxious person and tend to be more of a lurker LOL) I'm so sorry but this might be a long one lmfao

First of all, the way you write in general? Absolutely phenomenal!! The way you characterise and describe scenes is honestly so incredibly immersing. I've always had a relatively easy time imagining scenes in my head when reading, even with relatively little detail, but the way you word everything puts the scene straight into my head and it's such a wonderful experience!

Your characterisation of Gojo (in all your works!!) is probably my absolute favourite out of any fanfics I've read of him (trust me I've read an embarrassing amount :sob:). The way you actually capture what he feels like in canon, without making him feel super mean or cold, but still retaining that side of being emotionally repressed is absolutely chefs kiss!!

I also really love y/n in both kickoff and ihm so much. I relate to both of them in different ways, but probably more so ihm reader personality wise (might also be because I'm around the same age as her lmao). As someone who is very emotionally repressed due to trauma (especially of loved ones leaving you), the way you've portrayed those sides of reader in ihm is VERY spot on!! And I would like to add that I, for one, LOVE slow burn, so I don't mind the pace ihm is going at right now personally!

Chapter 12 of Kickoff?!?!? Holy shit I was literally sat there blushing, kicking my feet and giggling. It was absolutely hilarious and super cliché in the absolutely best way possible (I absolutely love clichés if they're well used!)

I could honestly wait years for anything you write. Never feel any pressure to churn out your writing and take it at your own pace!! My genuine first thought after finishing the latest chapter of Kickoff was that it was sooo worth the wait haha.

Personally I have an extremely hard time writing anything but angst, because I like making myself sad I guess who knows LOL But I'm sooo excited about your next work!! I absolutely love the song you're basing it off of <3

AND did I also see some talk about a potential Spider-man Gojo fic in the future??? Cos I would honestly probably scream (in a good way lol) if you ever did that, he's my alltime favourite superhero!!

Okok this is getting really long, but I found this photo of four football players a bit ago and thought I absolutely HAD to draw them as Gojo, Geto, Choso and Nanami from Kickoff (adding the art at the bottom)! But I haven't gotten around to colouring it yet (or cleaning it up considering it's just a sketch lmaoo) cos I'm stuck on how to do the jerseys. So I have two questions! I know you've explained the colours of their jerseys, but do you have any particular idea in mind of what the design on the jersey itself looks like? As in where the colours are placed specifically etc? And we know Gojo's signature jersey number, but do you have numbers for the rest of them too? (I may or may not also have a wip of a drawing of just Gojo from Kickoff too!)

I'm sorry there's A LOT of different plot points in my message??? The most important part was just to convey, hey, I love the way you write and you should definitely give yourself some more credit cos you are genuinely a really good writer!! <3 (Though I know us artists tend to be our own worst critics LOL)

hi love i’m so sorry this took me a sec to respond to!! first off thanks you so much for sending me such a sweet ask :’’’) i literally gaspeddd when i saw it

aaa i’m so happy the scenes feel immersive!! and that you enjoy my characterization of gojo aaa i’m so happy to hear that. and yes i totally relate to ihm reader’s suppression of her emotions due to trauma and lack of trust so it’s been very…cathartic yet challenging to write for her, but i wouldn’t have it any other way hahah

i’m so glad you enjoyed kickoff ch12!! i totally agree that chapter was so cliche, honestly it made me cringe while i was writing it because i typically hate cliches esp when they’re corny rather than on-the-nose, but i posted it anyways bc i figured maybe i just hate it bc i’m the author xd but it seems my readers enjoyed it so :’’0 perhaps i made the right choice

oh you are too kind. i really appreciate you looking out for me <3 tbh i’ve been feeling really overwhelmed lately, and it’s been really hard to deal with the emotions, but coming on here and seeing sweet works n ppl interacting w my stories brings me lots of happiness n i can’t thank you enough :’’) yes i will definitely take my time bahahha that i can assure you LOL and i’m so happy to know you’re looking forward to more of my works!! you’re so right about artists/authors being our own worst critics. i swear no one has been as mean to my writing as i have LMFAOOO but alas i think i’ve gotten better in trusting my direction n kinda choosing what i think is best soooo. progress i suppose? hahah

ok. now. i can talk about. THE ART?!?!?!?!? HELLO!!!!!!! OH MY GODD?!?!!?!?! ok i KNOWWW that’s it’s just a sketch so far but tell me whERE MY PANTIES HAVE GONE?!?!?!? WHERE MY CLOTHES ARE AT?!?!??!

the expression on kickoff gojo’s face has me reeling he looks so focused n sexy and THE HEADBAND PUSHING HIS HAIR UP OUT OF HIS FACE YES YES YES 100% THAT’S HOW I PICTURE IT WHEN I WRITE AAA and kickoff geto’s expression too pls i could cum (sorry i hope this isn’t weird to say lmfaooo i am also very respectfully looking at your artwork as well aaa) nanami’s hair looks so nice too

as for the uniforms hmm i know i said like gold and blue colors, i believe actual real-life UTOKYO has more of a yellowish color but i actually like gold better hence why i chose gold. but…i can imagine the whole jersey being blue and then with gold accents then white numbering?

here are some options!! like w the first one, probs sky blue fabric with the white stripes as gold instead, and then the numbers/brand sponsors or whatever are in white? they would probs have like “UTOKYO” in large print somewhere too, maybe underneath their numbers or sumn. tbh i think the middle one is the nicest, i can picture the stripes of blue and gold, and then accents in white. but the third one also works too!!

as for numbers hmm. ok yes gojo is #10, geto is #7, choso is #4 and nanami is #24 :0 that sounds…about right! LOL i hope i don’t have it somewhere in the other chapters that they are different numbers although i don’t think i’ve assigned the other boys numbers before

BUT I HOPE THIS HELPS AND THANKS SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH FOR DRAWING FANART INSPIRED BY MY FIC!!!! I AM SO HUMBLED BY YOU AND I’M SOOOO EXCITED TO SEE THE FINAL DRAWING BUT ALSO NO PRESSURE AAAAAAAA

so much loveee <333

[blkkizzat]

Hi! I'm the anon who asked you a few weeks ago if it's valid for wanting to leave my bf of 3 years for only having sex like two times a year.

I asked him why he doesn't even try to give me pleasure in other ways. His answer was that there's always something: we're tired, we didn't sleep well, the weather is too hot, I'm on my period. I told him he should ask then, to which he said okay.

Last week I specifically told him I want to sleep with him on that day. Credit where credit is due, he tried, but he came too quickly and I don't think I came at all. I thought about asking him to continue with his fingers or something, but he literally called his aunt after he cleaned himself off in the bathroom. No cuddling or aftercare.

The need to leave him is getting bigger and bigger each day. We work at the same place, and I've come to realize that I'm always the one who lets people know we're a couple. He never tells it to anyone. There were already multiple misunderstandings about this, like one of our female colleagues wanted to hook up with him because she thought he's single. I adore the girl and don't blame her at all because she didn't know he's taken, but I'm 100% sure she wanted something from him and he just refuses to believe me. Moreover, he started greeting her with hugs and seeks out her company when there's free time. I say having friends is fine, but I feel like he's testing me on purpose.

Besides these things, I do feel like he adores me with the way he compliments me and looks at me every day. Whenever I need something, he doesn't hesitate to help. I can tell he loves me. I feel like I no longer have the beauty or the confidence to leave him and find hookups or new dates, and us working at the same place after breaking up would make me feel miserable every day.

Long story short, I have no idea what to do

Sorry this took me a minute! Sisss please i beg of you LEAVE THIS NO GOOD MAN!!

The problem is he wants to love you on his terms only and that's not love. He gives you affection when he wants to, not when you need it. He's treating you like a friend not a partner. You can love your friends, you just aren't in-love. He's comfortable.

And that's the thing, you are also comfortable. It's like the phrase "the devil you know", it's easier to deal with the shit we've been dealing with then potentially go out and deal with something worse. But you can't let that type of thinking control you or you won't ever be happy, because while sure there is worse out there, there is also better! ALOT BETTER!

Also fake it until you make it haha. You may not feel like you have the beauty or confidence but trust me, we are our own worst critic, we never see ourselves the way others do. We tend to focus our faults, on the things others would never notice about us and if they do it's not something they even blink at. You already have the beauty and the confidence. You never lost it. It's scary putting yourself out there again I know (I hate these dating apps too babes) but you deserve to be happy! You deserve someone who WANTS to please you. Like if they aren't enthusiastic, tripping over themselves about meeting your needs, kick them to the curb. I cannot stress that enough!

If it weren't for the other stuff I would understand him not wanting people in his business as far as telling others about your relationship at work. That said he needs to draw boundaries which it doesnt seem like hes doing at all. Friends is fine, but seeing as its a work friend if you arent on hugging terms with ol'girl neither should he be.

I know that might make things awkward at work but again. Fake it until you make it. People expect you to act awkward but if you don't, they won't. Even if he is acting weird, let him be the weirdo about it. That isn't your problem.

Also please please please, no more chances. He's had too many. Even if he says he will be better. Nah. He won't. He would just be saying that to keep you around and fall back into old ways.

You got this girl. You gotta look out for YOU.

sidenote if anyone else has words of encouragement for anon, please leave them in the comments!

xx

[lady-lazagna]

May we know what are your top five hated character in the beyblade and why you despise them?? 🙏

I am known for one thing and it's being a fucking hater😎

When I think about characters that I hate, it's less about them being shit people in the show and more about them making my viewing experience worse. Like, sure, you can help save the world and whatnot, but are you funny? Heartfelt? Cool? Do you have any personality traits outside of the exposition you were made to deliver? Do you bounce off the other characters' energy well? (Basically, were you or were you not introduced in Fury😐 /hj)

So overall, this isn't a list of characters I would beat the shit out of if we met; they're ones that made the show worse for me and thus I hate their very conception with a burning passion.

Interestingly enough, I can't actually think of five characters that I genuinely hate, so I've made a top four instead. Sure, there are more I don't really like, but those ones aren't as hate-inducing as they are just kind of bland. So if you expected certain antagonists to be on here, just know that they were likely too boring to hate.

Without further ado, here's the top four worst characters in mfb (to me):

4. Chris

This is just a nothing character. A nothing man. They could've had an interesting idea with the blader for hire idea, but instead, it was squandered for a basic "everyone left me" backstory. What a bummer, man. Never heard that one before. Tetsuya and King are crying their eyes out fr :/

What really gets me about him, though, is that despite being so nothing, he takes up a spot as a legendary blader, when that could've been ANYONE. This character is the first legendary blader we find after we figure out who we're actually looking for; it could be any Winter constellation blader- and it's just a fucking white guy who's a little bit mean. Noah Fence to Mr. Adachi, but his favourite legendary blader- who in the manga is a blue-blooded American military man- is the man standing emoji??? Great.

3. Ryo Hagane/The Immortal Phoenix (more like penis haha)

Avert your eyes, Sadie, Arti and Deity. L FATHER. L DIRECTOR. L HUMAN. Oh, I almost died in a volcanic cave-in that destroyed my home and sent my son on a quest for revenge? THIS WILL BE A GREAT LEARNING EXPERIENCE FOR HIM :) No Hokuto, don't tell him I'm alive while we're 50 METRES AWAY FROM EACH OTHER, he still has some Beyblade things to learn before he can have his father back. And oh man, he came third in that one tournament?? How did he let this happen??? Let me just dress up like a clown and DESTROY ALL THE PROGRESS HE MADE TOWARDS TRYING TO STOP THE GUYS THAT HE THINKS KILLED ME.

And when the jig is up and he's finally revealed, he's just like "I did what I thought was best😌" and Benkei's like "You should be in jail you sick fuck" and that's honestly a Benkei W. But he doesn't go to jail. In fact... some fucking idiot put him in charge of the WBBA, which means he can now make stupid decisions that fuck over not just his own son, but ALL of the children of Japan! Yay!!!

No Hikaru, we can't let Gan Gan Galaxy or Wild Fang rest despite half the kids being critically injured, that's special treatment! Oh but yes Gingka, I will let the TWO teams that attacked you guys outside of the competitions off the hook so that you can still battle them, I love special treatment! And yes Tsubasa, I think you should spend more time with Gingka and the gang to learn about friendship and become stronger, but NO Tsubasa, you should NOT go with Gingka and the gang to look for legendary bladers when you can just do it completely by yourself! L FATHER. L DIRECTOR. L. HUMAN.

The only reason he's not lower is because he leads to funnies (see above).

2. Yuki Mizusawa

Do you ever feel like your one purpose in life is to tell some guy about his fate, and since you don't have anything left to accomplish on this earth you decide to follow him while he achieves this fate? Oh sure, you might feel a little better after becoming a part of that fate, but really, what do you honestly contribute other than "we need to find the legendary bladers that possess the star fragments so that we can defeat Nemesis!"? Because that is all you fucking say.

To really explain my gripe with this pathetic dork whom I could easily fold up and shove in my dishwasher, here is an excerpt from some notes I was making during my second Fury rewatch:

(The first and last quotes are from Ryo. At least he can be funny while also being a waste of space👀)

Maybe I wouldn't hate him so much if he hadn't replaced Based characters like Kenta (who I know was getting some important development at the time, but still😤), Yu, and even my main man Tsoobs (who as previously mentioned, was unfairly separated from the gang by a fucking idiot loser). But he did. He took up that heartfelt, funny, and cool space to be. a slightly damp sock.

Was there potential for Yuki to be something more if the writers of Fury weren't smoking the psychedelic betel nuts that grow in my neighbour's yard that keep falling into our pool? I don't fucking care. If he had more of a personality other than "Mr. Gingka!" and "my grandfather once said-" then maybe I would.

1. Dynamis

SHUT UP. SHUT UP. SHUT UUUUUUUUUP. From the moment this fucker is introduced all he does is spew exposition. And that is entirely it. If I hear ONE MORE FUCKING WORD about "the stars, and what is fated, and the gods, and the will of the heavens, and the will of the stars, and-" THIS TIME I'M REALLY GONNA DO IT.

When my sibling and I first watched through Fury we were simply ASTOUNDED. at how fucking boring this guy is. Seriously, we took a long hiatus from watching after his introductory episodes because they were so mind-numbing (in fact, I think the hiatus might've lasted up until our dog fucking DIED, because I was so upset that I would've rather felt incredibly bored than sad LMAO).

You'd think it would've gotten at least a little more interesting when he gets possessed, but no. He sounds exactly the fucking same or he just doesn't talk at all (I'm pretty sure there was no point in him being possessed at all, but I digress). He gets pulled back to the goodies with the power of friendship or whatever and then BOOM. I GOTTA TELL AGUMA ABOUT THE STARS, AND THE WILL OF THE HEAVENS, AND THE GODS, AND THE FATES AND I'M REALLY GONNA DO IT THIS TIME.

All in all, what I hate in the show is wasting time with exposition, being a nothing person with no character, and teaching lessons that aren't fucking lessons you need to teach. Thanks for the suggestion, anon!

[beevean]

And onto Rush Adventure now:

-Tbh at first i wasnt sold on the materials grinding for ships but later liked how it gives you a reason to improve your scores on the levels so you can get more. Idk i usually dont care abt scores but w the external motivation? Yea

-Same w the misions, good way to have lil extra stuff to do (that said why did they block the sound mode songs behind misions. Game pls my internet makes opening youtube an odyssey and now this too? Cruelty 😔)

-Oh and also the ship minigames! Its fun to have a map you can explore, and the races w Jhonny for the chaos emeralds are way better than the Surely Existing special levels (also srry if i got his name wrong lmao)

-Onto the soundtrack; its more broad compared to rush, and each song does matches well the enviroment. I like the tropical coastal vibes of the main town n training level, and oh man. Sky babylon and deep core my beloveds who literally got engraved in my neurons so hard i was struggling reading hours later bc the darn tunes kept playing in the background of my skull. Well scratch that all the tunes keep playing on the bg of my skull rn, what kind of eldritch curse is this). So yes good ost 👍

-Overall the aesthetic n vibes are also more broad with that tropical relax overtone, its quite nice. The difficulty is also way more forgiving (i mean i played on easy but that's the mode the game came in) and the tutorials with the controls are helpful (yes i struggled with the jump dash in the previous game how can you tell)

- The story is also more calm and silly goofy but in a good way (can def see what ppl mean by the diff eras in sonic writing there). I also liked Whisker being the main but kinda dumb villain for funnies vs the eggmans being a bigger threat)

-I liked the scene in the coral cave where Blaze appears bc my mind was half "haha i knew we were in Blaze's world, neat" and " weeee hi Blaze, game of the year :D"

-Marine was also neat, liked her silly dynamic of cheerful kid who is a bit too full of herself and is kind of a brat abt it, and how she later learns to admit her own limits :) And the koala villagers were neat too i like their designs :)

Overall thank you for letting me ramble into your ask box abt these games, its been fun :D

lmao yeah it's a nice incentive! I think the only other game that gives you a reward with higher ranks is Unwiished (another Dimps game), where the higher the rank the more medals you get.

also sonic 🤝 hector:having to earn their crafting materials

The missions are a good way to extend the gameplay, but IIRC some of the Sol Emerald missions were brutal... I have flashes of the Blizzard Peak mission.

The waterbike was genuinely really fun and I hated that it was considered the "worst" vehicle for travel :( I don't like the submarine, let me travel the world on my tiny waterbike while the best music plays :( also yeah the Special Stages with Johnny are original! Certainly more than Half Pipe 50.0

SRA'S OST was composed by veterans Tomoya Ohtani and Mariko Nanba while trying to recreate Naganuma's style. Definitely unique and underrated. Sky Babylon used to be my favorite too! But there are so many tracks that IMO deserve more love, like Haunted Ship, Blizzard Peaks, the boss theme and Whiskers & Johnny <3

Funny to think SRA came out one year after '06, widely criticized at the time for being too melodramatic :P Whiskers is also a nice case of Eggman being the twist villain for once! Although the credits of the "bad" ending spoil him and Nega, lol. Not that Whiskers looks mysterious himself... eh you get it.

Marine seems to have been reevaluated recently, like many things from the 2000s. I remember that back then no one could stand her and her Aussie accent lmao, precisely because she was an annoying brat. She is still mildly underrated, but I think the modern fandom generally "forgave" her because they understood that she was meant to be a foil for Tails, who is more insecure.

(two fun facts: in some countries, SRA initially got a 12+ rating because Marine says "bugger", which is pretty mild for Aussie slang but is much stronger for American standards. Also, Marine is Australian because in original she speaks in Kansai-ben, and I guess that was a way to recreate the cultural connotations! That and koalas :P)

You're welcome, you're free to rant at any time <3

[gffa]

So, here's my question. How come we can't all just be happy that we are getting new material? Why does everyone have to be so critical about all of it? There are problems with all of it but that doesn't stop me from continuing to love it. Out of everything new that's been released the only thing I have a real problem with is "last Jedi". Rian Johnson did his own thing and completely ignored everything that had come before. Last Jedi is by far the WORST chapter in the STAR WARS saga but it doesn't make me hate the rest. I just don't understand why everyone seems to be an expert on what isn't theirs to be an expert on. Belittling fans and the fandom and the source material makes absolutely no sense to me. If you don't love it then why are you a fan? I do appreciate your views, even though I don't always agree but I don't understand why so called fans have such hate for something they claim to love? Nothing and no one is perfect and until we all figure that out I guess this is something we'll all just have to live with. Thanks for being positive about most things. You are one of the few who takes everything with a grain of salt and I appreciate you for it. May the Force be with You Always

Haha, oh, man, I am so completely of two minds on this! Because I have been there, my friend. So many times I find myself thinking, "Why are you even in this fandom if you seem to hate everything that comes out and don't even seem to like what Star Wars is?" I am baffled by so many people who seem to be so mad about everything they watch/read/play for Star Wars and yet they don't wander off, I don't get how that can be at all satisfying an experience! But on the other hand, the way you feel about TLJ is the way other fans feel about whatever thing they're mad about, they're mad about it but it doesn't erase that they love some other part of Star Wars! I think a lot of the anger in SW fandom comes from how so much of the atmosphere is constantly scraping on people's nerves and so everyone is low-key pissed off all the time because we've all seen so much stupid, annoying shit from fans about other fans, that the slightest thing can set us off. There's also that there are a lot of legitimate reasons to be angry re: Star Wars that aren't just frivolous reasons, but that there's been a shitload of abusive behavior by the fans towards the actors, towards fans of color, towards Jewish fans, towards a lot of people, and being angry about that isn't in the same category as being mad about whether or not Han shot first, but it can sometimes spill over onto those topics because they've been used as weapons against real people. In my experience, there's no one reason why SW fandom is the way it is, other than that all fandoms are like this these days, and I suspect a good chunk of it is how much anger drives engagement drives social media sites making money. Anger gets a lot of instant rewards and there's a lot to be angry about in the world these days and everything gets tangled up in everything else. So, I get it, there's a lot of stupid as shit pissiness in SW fandom, but there's a lot of important anger as well, and a lot of sympathetic anger, because we're not obligated to be happy about stuff just because it has the SW name on it, but also some people have made it their entire personality to be mad about frivolous stuff and, like, if that makes them satisfied, then it's not my business, genuinely and truly. But I spent years building a corner to love the things I love, I'm not going to give that up now. Each of us has to decide what we want out of fandom--including what we want from other fans and what we're willing to engage with. There have been so many times I was genuinely ready to leave SW fandom because people would not stop shoving their pissiness in my face and I really had to do a lot of work to get through that snarl, it's not easy. But it's up to each of us to figure out how to engage with the source material/fandom that exists, what we want from it, what we're willing to tolerate, and what we're willing to build for ourselves.

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

Impatient anon again 👋🏻

I'm always excited to see you posting asks it helps me to ease my mind and do a reality check. Since the release of "Seven" I felt kinda guilty and isolated for my reaction to it (mostly because of lyrics/rap part) in the ocean of adoration and praise about JK's choices in chapter 2 from everyone else. Then I stumbled across your post and it was exactly what I was feeling/thinking at that time. I instantly felt "I'm not the only one!!" I'm not crazy!!" So thank you for that 😊

And I like to listen to your thoughts because I personally don't see it as pessimistic or dramatic, just raw. You don't sugarcoat things and I'm all in for that. To me it sounds quite rational even if it come across as rude or harsh to others. I guess I have the same style of expressing myself: emotions + explanations 😂 I am an emotional person but I always use critical thinking and somehow tend to "roast" the people I love the most (because of emotional involvement and instant reactions).

I love and admire his personality. He is my favourite versatile singer. His voice...is truly healing. But now I can't feel the magic. I'm just an observer who is trying to trust his choices (even if it's questionable sometimes but what do I know about the industry he is working in?). I don't know what to connect to anymore (his lack of artistry/creativity) and that what makes me sad the most. No excitement, more like anxiety for the new releases 😂 I just miss my man talking to bugs and fish and kissing his dog endlessly on his cozy lives ❤️‍🔥 But he chose to release p*rn songs (ah, sorry, matuuuure and honest) and be more "sharp and powerful". Ok 🙃 (btw I'm not against it just wanted him to write the lyrics himself, make it sensual and kill the whole fandom with it. Imo he could make it tastier not that provocative/edgy/american~ish to show his "mature" side). Or maybe it's just me.

I absolutely adore his softness (it's rare in men and I don't necessarily think that's all he has as for his character), I just wish he could accept this side of him without trying to look a particular way in the eyes of the public. But realistically thinking with his position in life this must be the hardest thing for him to do. Not to overthink. Can't even imagine the pressure and craziness of his life. I want an excursion to his brain to finally understand him without drowning in my own assumptions about him (or others). He is always saying something without further proper explanation in the interviews and...I just can't with him 😅

And what's for the teaser...I liked the quality (great director), the vibe and even the song. Sounds better than seven judging by the tiny snippet but the lyrics... I'm expecting the worst 😁 Something is telling me it won't pass the misogyny examination of Namjoon's female professor he is always consulting with on this topic. Let's see what will happen tomorrow 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈

*sorry for any mistakes and over explaining, English is not my native language (but I tried 😅).

Hi impatient anon! Thank you so much for the warm reassurances!!! I'm very happy you can relate to me. I can relate to you as well. I post stuff not only to get if off my chest and process my feelings, but also in hopes that anons like you will reach out and I can feel understood! I understand the way your mind works and the over explaining part haha. I'm the same. I have reservations about Jungkook's songs, and dread them more than anticipate them as well, which kinda sucks haha. I think we're going to get generic lyrics, overtly sexual on Jack Harlow's side, subtle on Jungkook's, with Jungkook walking around holding a bat (he's so baby face, how is he supposed to look tough? and that's such a cliché anyway), and the trailer seemed nice, but who knows what will come of the MV! Fingers crossed though!

Thanks for the ask! I'll see you on the other side! Make sure to over explain your thoughts on the MV later! My ask box is always open!!

[lavenoon]

Hi! :D Ok, so where to start? Man, it really hurts to see Robin so disillusioned with it all. Of course they show no interest in the new neighbors and now their job feels more like a drag rather than the thing that brought them a sense of fulfillment. Though I smiled at them being so critical of the security over in Eclipse's sector haha, even if they're not giving it their all, they still are very much a professional at what they do and it shows.

The fact that they also become quickly endeared to Eclipse is very cute, and very understandable because he's so earnest, even if it exasperates them that he basically easily revealed his identity, the one thing that when they found out about their other coworkers sent them into a worse spiral. But also that earnestness is what managed to break at that tough front that was harming them as they struggled to keep it up. And he relates so easily to them to, and Robin can't help it that he looks right through them! Because he can see so much of his own hurt in them now. It makes sense that he wants to help fix it, even if he himself hasn't found how to fix the communication problem the three brothers have.

In a way I wonder if he did something similar to Robin, in the sense that he latched himself to Robin's hurt to try and make it better, just how Robin latched onto Eclipse's situation to feel the anger they want to feel for themselves but feel like they don't deserve to (because by now they've convinced themselves they weren't that important to Sun and Moon, assuming they had mistaken it as the animatronics caring more than they did). Not to say that they didn't feel for the other genuinely of course! Just that it's easier trying to solve someone else's problems than facing your own sometimes. I do like how Eclipse is the first one who doesn't let Robin convince themself that they hate them. No need to try to worsen the hurt, even if the statement is turned back on him immediately.

It's funny that something did blow up, though it wasn't an experiment XD (sidenote: I hope Robin does get to blow up stuff with Eclipse eventually haha) "I would've left me, too!" though? Ouch. I know Sun didn't have time to process that, but I hope he and Moon can address that later. Clearly a glimpse into one of their worst insecurities that they guard so closely. (other sidenote: Eclipse was like, haha, brother gonna get told off, and then realized oh crap brother might get actually threatened her kjhkjhkñh)

But also Sun is clearly not too capable to paying attention to that right now, so affected he even raised his voice to the person he only knew as his dear friend and landlord.

Though Eclipse saves the day once again with the groupchat of friendship! They're all obviously exhausted by everything, so having the chat as a tentative window where they don't need to be that exposed and just say what they want to say at their own pace is smart. After all, you can't take back words you said, but you can rewrite a message until you are satisfied with it.

And also, the funniest hing to me in this chapter is the agency. They really were like: Robin you might get fired if you don't improve. >:(

Robin: Aight, peace.

The agency: N-no wait, I didn't mean it, come back please :'(

But overall the hopeful ending was really relieving! You always manage that feeling of being able to breathe again after a tough one! Great writing as always!

Robin: Fuck the agency I don't care anymore Also Robin: Smh the security here is lacking, how dare? They are just kinda going through the motions for a while there, only focused on how they lost their friends and any pride in the job they do in one go. Truly, two birds, one stone.

Robin: I've had Eclipse for an hour and a half and if anything happened to him I would kill everyone in this room and then myself Eclipse: Oh we're friends now! Okay okay I will. I will try to not make a meme out of every part of your comment fghdjs Ties into your next paragraph as well - they recognize the pain of the other, and the similar coping styles, with Eclipse a couple years into pretending he's fine. They get angry on his behalf, partly because it's an infuriating position to be in, and partly because they can't get angry on their own behalf. And vice versa in Eclipse - he sees this person in a very similar situation to him, and they're devastated and it's obvious (to him). And he realizes that oh, right, he does have a reason to be sad. He's allowed to feel abandoned and to admit it sucks. Because he faked being okay so long he felt like he'd lost the right to say it did actually bother him.

Please know that if this were the main timeline I'd add many more conversations that address these issues, same as Robin's "I would've left me too". It goes unaddressed, but not unnoticed. To address it there needs to be a baseline of trust again though, so they need to focus on establishing that (That, and that the threat was on his account. Because while he obviously and knowingly relates, he didn't think that Robin might relate too, and do something about it. It's rare enough that anyone would stand up for him.)

No one's having a good time - but they all want this to work, they all miss each other, and they're finally admitting that to each other. They can't get it all out then, but they want to, because they care. It gives them a line of contact - a "flyway" to each other <3 (*Using a very, very loose definition of course)

HQ sure got used to having them try so hard to impress them! But they seek their validation elsewhere these days. They prefer having a family, in the end.

And aaahhh thank you!! The good thing had to get a lil longer to make it feel natural, but it was tons of fun to write! <3

[llycaons]

ep14 (p2): oh god oh fuck

in comes madame yu. it's absolutely insane the impact she has on the story and characters despite being in what, three scenes? four? her influence...

it hurts so much to see wwx so small and obedient in her presence. also WHAT is everyone so mad at him for! he saved jc's life! isn't that the important thing! he's just a punching bag because everyone is mad and because myu hates him and wants to vent

another example of myu being a terrible politician too blinded by her own issues: actually saving the heirs to the other clans is a REALLY good move that earns the jiangs allies in the inevitable war against the wens! they're also sure to be well-trained young cultivators whos assistance would really help during wartime!

and jc believes this didn't he! he believed it right up until the reveal! he tried to kill wwx with that knowledge that his mom was right the whole time!

worth noting that when myu goes too far here, jfm does push back. he's characterized as impotent and spineless, but he stands up here, shouts to myu to quiet her, tries to walk her away. this kind of sucks bc it just villifies myu more, but honestly I think jfm even doing what he can couldn't keep her from being herself

ohhh triangulation or whatever this is called. delicious

jc seriously almost made me cry here this is such a nightmare and I feel so bad for him

not to mention poor fucking wwx over there who has to hear these insults to HIS parents which he can't even acknowledge or defend against because this isn't about him! nothing is about him he's just an interloper the jiang family graciously took off the streets! he owes them everything and he doesn't have the right to speak back to them and he doesn't truly belong here! nightmare nightmare. despite everything im so glad he's out of that environment postcanon

see above. even being forceful won't work unless he wants to physically remove her, which he probably can't

another devastating shot here. it's so horrifying that jc has to deal with all this and STILL he's not in the worst position because at least he's allowed to be upset by it. and at least wwx will always be there to support him

...or so he thinks

oh I love this sequence! zooming in and out and back and forth as jc strides away and wwx tries to catch up to him. it captures the atmosphere of the scene so well, frantic and dynamic

KING OF OPEN COMMUNICATION 16 YR OLD WWX!!!!

jc is literally right and wwx can't even deny it. he can't even say 'no he loves you' but 'oh that's crazy haha what kind of father doesn't love their own son?' well. jfm doesn't

this is such good emotional support and jc literally can't even thank him for it he just has to be a dick and keep on blaming wwx for everything. the perpetual scapegoat! his emotional punching bag! the brother he can't ever support in turn!

jc can't stop hurting him and criticizing him, and wwx can't accept that he did anything wrong. this isn't a heartwarming or bonding moment between them, it's just another example of wwx pouring energy into supporting and encouraging jc, who rejects it and disrespects him for his efforts. it's another disagreement on something neither will budge on that goes unresolved. it's not even the beginning of the end. that started long before this. but it's emblematic of ways their relationship will disintegrate even though in this very conversation wwx swears to be jc's right hand man.

[secretsthatwekeep]

My new student teacher really struggles with behavior management. My classes are really pushing her when it comes to her setting the expectation and then they walk allllll over her. Part of that is her personality. She is very soft spoken and does not stand her ground. She also keeps saying, "Give me five! Give me five!" instead of giving them the time and space they need to quiet down. She has been struggling with giving lots of negative feedback instead of focusing on the positive. Her professor came today to observe her and apologized to me because she really was having the worst lesson. My group of students this year is phenomenal, too!!! So I hate that she is struggling with managing them. We are already at the point in her observations of me where she has taken over the classroom and she is struggling. She is implementing parts of how I teach in her teaching style but combined with her teaching style it just doesn't work. I think our personalities are similar in the soft spoken way, but she thinks she should be able to give them the "be quiet" expectation and they immediately do it. With my personality, I give my students a moment to calm themselves cause we need a moment sometimes!!! She doesn't like that. She thinks it should be immediate respect. Well, sorry honey!!! Respect is earned and if you're being mean and negative to them, then they won't be quiet right away like they are for me. Her professor failed her today and is coming back to reobserve on Friday now that she's given her harsh feedback. My student teacher typically won't stop talking during lunch and today she didn't say a word. Like ma'am, I'm sorry it has come to this, but you weren't even taking my constructive criticism when I gave it!

Some family updates- 

I guess I haven't shared about the wedding. I'll start there! My Mom and I drove to Frankfort the morning of. We grabbed breakfast for everyone and ate before heading to the venue. We spent two and a half hours decorating with Jess, Rusty, Aiden, and Rusty's best man. We set tables, put down tablecloths, lay out decorations, put up an arch, etc. If you haven't been out to West Sixth Farm, it's so beautiful. They are open on weekends with food trucks and all of their beers/ciders. I hadn't been out that way until I was touring venues with Jess. Once everything was good to go, we went back to Jessica's house to meet the sisters and her maid of honor and hair lady. We had snacks. My Mom put together her bouquet. So so beautiful. The hair lady got sick!!! Then did Jessica's hair anyways which was too kind. I did my hair then Faith's. We chatted for a bit while she chugged three mimosas. Haha It was nice to just sit and talk and do girly things like the sisters we were growing up. I got a call around  3:30 from the wedding venue (because I was designated day of coordinator....definitely signed up for that). Apparently all of the plates, napkins, and silverware that we had put at each table BLEW AWAY. SOOOO I drove to the venue and redid everything and just put it up in a different setting. More buffet style than plated style. It ended up being fine, but lawd I was sweaty and hungry and my boobs were about to bust from not feeding a baby all day. Hard. As. Rocks. I know we've had a lot of boob talk with this breastfeeding journey, but girl let me tell you...I literally just had to think about my boobs all day when feeding him or else I'd be leaking everywhere. The actual ceremony was like 10 minutes. Really perfect. Love that. They read their own vows and Rusty cried when sharing his. It was actually super sweet. I got a lot of issues with them and with Rusty, but they really do love each other and I've never seen it so evident than on that day. The party afterwards was really fun! Lots of great music and jams. We had Red State BBQ for food. It was an open bar! Although I don't drink, John and Colson got trashed and it was fun to watch them dance together with Jessica. An unlikely combo, but they were cracking us all up. Rory tore UP the dance floor and was truly the main event. Gigi just kept running in circles around the dance floor with him and it was one of those moments where you want to freeze them in time in their joy. Jonah got realllll sleepy and had a hard time at the end, which luckily let me leave earlier than planned because it was a LONG day. Jessica was such a beautiful bride. She really went all out and did the thang and I'm really proud of her. She made some crazy choices so young and she's out here just busting her butt working hard at her job and finally getting married after so long and being a Mama and just yeah. You know I love my sisters big.

Some updates on the fam. Colson had a cancer scare. He doesn't have it. Thank goodness. I guess. But Faith went down this weird rabbit hole on the internet when he had the scare and they were waiting for the results where she was just blaming everything that had happened on him possibly having cancer. Then when he didn't have it, she was like well shoot. Guess he is the way he is because he just is. Can't say that colon cancer would give you those mental issues...but whatever article you found...I mean.....dang, gotta do what you gotta do. That was hard to navigate with her because she was looking for this hope that maybe she could blame it on something else and then was devastated again in a weird way because she couldn't blame it on something else. Then I felt bad for feeling bad because well he doesn't have cancer and that is a good thing!!! I think Faith is struggling with some feelings for someone else also. That's interesting to observe considering I am who I am. And not something that is talked about, but something that seems clear to me when looking through her Spotify playlists and getting tidbits of info about the person she probably has a crush on. 

Speaking of. I have a crush on you!!! Surprise!!

Things I want to know

-Tell me what you're going to do in your new job. 

-How was the first day???

-When are you coming to my school and swiveling around in my chair to face me and give me a giant hug?

-Which kid are you the most sad about leaving when you leave your current job?

-Your schedule sounds crazy. Do you basically have three jobs right now?? FOUR with the band? That's wild. ARE YOU OKAY!!!

-When's your next show?

-Did Ceire get back to you about the Candlelit show? 

-At which song during the concert are we sneaking away to find each other???

-What do you want for Christmas? :)

- Do you think you'll move to Ireland now that Trump is president again?

-When can I hug you again? :(

- Did you know that wyverns only have two legs and dragons have four? 

[fireflylitsky]

4 & 30 from the fic asks!

From the list here

4. A story idea you haven't written yet. (copied from another ask)

Well, we all know I have a mild obsession with buff Sakura wielding Zabuza's executioner's blade, so prepare to not be shocked. It's a story about Sakura with a big ass sword (cue your not shock) that just so happens to contain the soul of it's last wielder (Zabuza).

His goal is to fall into the hands of someone really nasty, I mean really downright bloodthirsty because he thinks with enough kills, enough sacrifice and penance and tribute (something something blood for the blood gods), he can rebuild his body just as the sword rebuilds itself, and escape this tomb.

So imagine his outrage when this pink-haired kunoichi picks him up for the first time. May many shenanigans ensue.

30. Share a fic you're especially proud of.

Ahahaha the ONE question I was like man I hope no one asks me that 😂 you WOULD (I kid I kid it's fine haha) idk it's hard to feel proud of things for me, not in like a woe is me way but I'm just very critical. Maybe I'll feel proud when I actually complete a fic.

If I have to point to something, it's Oh Honey, There Goes Your Bastard. Arguably my worst fic because it's also my first (and incidentally still ongoing) so I'm proud I haven't dropped it after 334k words ig, but I still have a lot to go. It's helped me a lot in terms of writing and finding my voice, figuring out my own style etc. The age old OC gets dropped into the Akatsuki fic. Those were big back in the day, I tell ya. A lot of drama and silliness.

[weebliss]

It must have been my upbringing, the place where I grew up, the people I'm surrounded with, the things I've seen on TV, the stories I've read or listened to, or my liberal education which made me criticized my mom's (and relative's) requests to marry a foreigner. This was in 2004 and I was 10 then. My mom was 30 years young and disappointed but she found hope in me.

She said to never marry a Filipino because Filipinos are poor. She asked me to look at our neighbor who coupled (not married, rumors had it that she was his mistress) with a Singaporean. They lived in a posh apartment. She told me about her neices' Japanese husbands (90's is the decade of Japayukis'- Filipino entertainers in Japan) and how they left their poor lives in the province. My godfather, who is a Japanese-American, was also set as an example too. I was just listening to her intently as I felt my heart burned in anger - - not with Filipino men (because I knew there are rich, educated, and well-mannered men in our country) but with the reasons why my mother had uttered those things to me.

Little did she know that as early as I have found out that I was academically superior than most of the boys my age (I was 7 and in the last section of our public elementary school), I have developed a strong sense of dislike to depend on them (may they be locals or aliens).

I was just nodding my head and prompting her to tell me more of her anger, so that she'd tell me about her mistakes in life and that the bottom line of our heart-to-heart talk on the dilapidated front porch of my grandfather's house was to be your own person so that when worse comes to worst you have the freedom to leave and live the life you want.

I like the idea of being independent may it be the freedom to survive alone or choosing the man I love regardless of his social status.

So here I am now, typing this. Things have changed and also our mindsets. My 10-year old self is wise you know haha and I'm proud to say she'll like me now.

Haaayyy... little and thinner me, you wouldn't believe this but somebody's interested in me and I am thinking of giving him a chance but he doesn't have enough self-esteem yet to 'really' talk to me, so I'm just observing him from afar. The boys who fall for me are bruised if not intimidated with me. And I'm just waiting for this to unfold. See what happens. I'm not really that thrilled because I know my choices have consequences and they are costly now. I can't play with feelings. Not when I have discovered that I'm sensitive too. I just want to understand people, including myself. This requires patience, so I'll wait. Let's see what he'll do next.

[sallysellsseashellssundays]

Disclaimer: This post is going to be Anti Moffat for anyone who’s reading and is a fan you’ve been warned.  

“The Almost People” is the 6th episode, and after setting up the story in the first episode I felt really let down by the second one honestly.

The Good: Eleven and his Ganger talking at the same time/interacting lol enough said. Clever Amy for looking at their shoes to differentiate, but she didn’t think that the Doctor would also think of that haha. Amy finally told the Doctor about eye patch lady yay, and we now seem to be moving that storyline forward...

The Bad: Wow they’re really going to keep going with the TARDIS sexy thing are they? Eeek not my favorite it just sounds so weird and cringe.

The Worst: Nearly all the non-Ganger versions of the crew dying wasn’t well done IMO it all just happened way too conveniently especially the man that needed to close one of the doors and everyone else was just standing further down the hallway as he struggled. Why didn’t someone else quickly go and help him shut it? Oh it’s because he obviously had to die ugh. They needed to hurry into the TARDIS and get out of there but stood around having a conversation and patting each other on the back for sacrificing themselves, they literally could have all just ran onboard in the time they did all of that. The Doctor having the perfect solution to Cleave’s clot immediately took me back to my criticism of the CPR scene. Going back and forth between the Gangers wanting to kill or wanting to join them got exhausting.

The Unresolved: So now the storylines we have are eye patch lady/pregnancy, Amy apparently being a Ganger for a long time, little River regenerating, and the Doctor’s death too. Seems like Eleven now knows about his death since Amy told him when she thought he was the Ganger, we’ll see how that unfolds now because he obviously already knew about Amy being a Ganger and her pregnancy. Eleven also seems to have something up his sleeve with his own Ganger and giving him the sonic.

Overall I thought it had a good idea for the storyline but it just didn’t click with me. I found myself extremely bored even with the action scenes. Feels like the two parter was a set up for even later episodes and I’m not sure how I feel about having such a big arc with multiple stories involved. I guess I’ll find out how I feel overall after the series finale but right now these two episodes didn’t really do much for me. Probably my least favorite ones of Moffat’s entire time as a showrunner so far.

Side note:  So Amy having a hard time believing the Doctor and the Ganger being the same person is how she would react to meeting the Doctor in a different regeneration, ouch so much for being his best friend. Also makes sense why the Doctor was immediately very accepting of them he’s like “yup same memories same person ok move on not that weird”.

[tobiramamonmari29]

outside perspective:

Tajima and butsuma was married but also a father with a blended family. They had both lost their wives, then had met. Their love was a cow love, two frank men, Critical and stoic. they had a total of 6 children together, it hadn't been easy at first. But they ended up saying that they could discuss this dispute instead because the other had disputed his son.

Tajima: I hate parties.

Butsuma: You've already told me enough in the car.

tajima: the school party is the worst. You meet parents you don't like and kids who aren't yours but you still have to watch. Because your own child is sure to come last.

Butsuma: darling, shut your mouth we can hear you.

tajima: don't worry, we're still in the parking lot.

Butsuma: It's not just us in this parking lot. It doesn't belong to you. He said clicking his tongue.

Tajima: I'm sure we'll see this teacher again that Itama called a curmudgeon.

Butsuma: don't tell me about it....

tajima: i told you that letting the kids speak their mind out loud was wrong.

Butsuma: It never caused me a problem.

Tajima: Yeah, you don't know... It's at my place that people complain.

butsuma: stop complaining, you must have liked hearing them.

Tajima: shut up a bit... Watch out, a mother is coming our way... I don't like her either.

Butsuma: Of course you like people.

Kushina: Hey! Butsuma and tajima how are you.

tajima: long before-butsuma nudged him not to say more.

Butsuma: we are still doing well. But you cut your hair?

Kushina: last month, she said laughing and hitting him softly. If observant butsuma haha.

Butsuma: last month? wow I never would have believed you are so beautiful too.

Kushina: oh butsuma! Don't flirt with me in front of your husband. He could be jealous, let's see.

Tajima: from you-!? Another blow comes in his ribs. I should be worried considering your beauty indeed.

Kushina: Alright I'm going. see you later!! The red-haired woman left smiling with a big gesture. Butsuma turned back to her husband.

Tajima: what?

Butsuma: say what you have to say.

Tajima: I have nothing to say.

Butsuma: if you say so.

Tajima: if you insist my love.

butsuma: yes, I insist oulala. He said with a sigh.

Tajima: I don't like that woman! Does she feel flirted? Doesn't she already have a husband, this tchoin!? Nah what's that hair color? Me threatened by her! I'm laughing about it ! Ah! The dredge more or I stumble you. I'm not jealous or anything! She shouldn't end up disappointed. Chip.

Butsuma: are you finished? It's about to start.

Tajima: Only if you don't tell anyone else.

Butsuma: Hn.

the men arrived where the spectacle of the children of all classes was to take place. Tajima was already grumbling because he wasn't in front and he couldn't see well.

Butsuma: I told you to take your glasses but you never listen to me.

tajima: I listen to half that's it.

Butsuma: Afterwards you will complain of headaches.

Tajima: That's not true. And if so it's because this bitch is screaming at her unworthy husband.

Butsuma: Like you care anyway.

tajima: I hope she won't get up last year there was the woman who was in front always on the end.

Butsuma: she was a teacher she had to film....

Tajima: Well she wasn't transparent! Or even the year before we had to go down a rank for a man.

butsuma: the man was in a wheelchair.

Tajima: they think they can do anything.

Butsuma: Hn.

The show started with Hashirama's class. He was doing a show that talked about ecology and the dangers of the environment. hashirama was a sick tree that had to be taken care of by the other children.

Tajima: your son is a tree.

Butsuma: he's also your son now so shut up.

Madara entered Hashirama's show. he made the fire that burned the forest by throwing red and orange colored fabrics on hashirama who pretended to die.

Butsuma: Madara just threw fabrics at Hashirama.

tajima: Madara is a real comedian, how come he only hits hashirama with fabric!?

Butsuma: they are 9 years old.... What are you talking about.

Izuna and Tobirama have arrived. Izuna was a rich boy and Tobirama a poor boy. they had to show the children that no matter the social status everyone could get along. And also showed that bullying was something really unhealthy.

Tajima: come on Izuna hits Tobirama!!!

Butsuma: Damn darling! Sit down damn it.

Tajima: what!? but why is this the best moment of this show.

Butsuma: This is a scene that shows bullying is not a good thing.

Tajima: so what? That doesn't mean Izuna has to lose.

Butsuma: I'm really sorry. He said to the parents who watched them.

itama and kawarama had finally arrived. Tajima was fed up and butsuma was fed up with tajima. Kawarama and Itama showed that the smallest thing could save the planet. He was dancing with signs and picking up litter on stage playing key, key. The show was finally over.

Itama: dad you saw my show.

Butsuma: That was awesome honey.

Kawarama: and me!?

Butsuma: you were great.

Madara: Dad your sight.

Tajima: Yeah, that sucked.

Madara: what?

Butsuma: That was great! Dad and I are proud of you, the others were to shit!

Hashirama: Me too!?

Izuna: And me then butsuma!!

Tobirama: Hn.

Butsuma: great great! Not real tajima.

Tajima: I say the same as your father.

Butsuma: you had interest. Come on, let's get the kids home! let's celebrate at home.

Children: YEAHHH!! They say running to the car.

Butsuma: you're serious! Asshole.

Tajima: Well what?

Butsuma: let's go. He said with a sigh.

End.

[ratmonky]

Blockbuster

Word Count: 3.6K

Warnings: dub-con, obsession

AO3 Link

“This week’s movie is…” you paused for the dramatic effect and met each one of your club members’ eyes before pulling out the DVD case from your bag. “Sweet Blossoms!”

Everyone groaned.

“Hey!” you laughed, putting the movie down on the desk. A gorgeous smile tugged at your lips. “It’s my turn so I get to choose!”

“You always choose the worst ones,” your classmate mumbled. “I’m sick of watching romantic comedies. Besides, this is one of the last times we’ll watch a movie in our club.”

Yeah, the graduation was close.

You pouted, giving one person, in particular, the puppy eyes. “Junpei,” you said. “Tell them something, you’re the president.”

Junpei chuckled nervously when you put him on the spot like that. “Haha, I… We made a promise to let one of us choose a movie each week, we should keep our promise.”

“I’m not watching that,” the other club member said. “We’re here to watch movies we appreciate, not whatever dumpster trash you like.”

Although the other two members were being mean, they were right.

“Guys,” Junpei was unsure to say something. He could see how your smile vanished, your shoulders slackened as you flipped the DVD to its back so you wouldn’t need to see the cover title. “It’s her turn to choose.”

“Nevermind,” you uttered, putting the DVD back in your bag. “They’re right. I was being selfish. You can skip my turn.”

“But-”

“Great! I rented Pulp Fiction yesterday and brought it with me.” Your classmate dove his hand inside his bag to fish out the DVD.

Junpei noticed the way your lower lip trembled and you pressing your lips together to hide it. When your gaze met him, you forced a smile on your face, mouthing that it was alright.

You were just like him.

He got up from his seat to sit next to you as your classmate put the movie in the DVD player. It was nothing unusual, most of you sat together to make small comments during a movie.

You pushed your stuff on the desk to the side so he could have some space to put his bag.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, the movie had already started.

“There’s no reason for you to apologize,” you softly stated, leaning closer to keep your voice down and not disturb the movie. “It was my fault.”

“Still, we gather here to watch movies our members enjoyed. We’re not actual film critics or anything.” He was trying not to lower his gaze to your chest. One of the buttons had come undone on your shirt, he could see your bra. “Next week is my turn, I can rent the movie you wanted to watch so we can watch it. They won’t complain then.”

Your eyes widened and he could swear that he saw them sparkle. A second later, you dropped your gaze to your lap to fidget with your fingers. “Nevermind, it’ll cause trouble. It’s passive-aggressive and I don’t wanna cause trouble for anyone. Nobody wanna watch the movie I chose anyway.”

“I do,” he whispered, cheeks flushing. While you weren’t looking he had gotten a chance to peek inside your shirt.

Lifting your head, you looked up at him with the prettiest and the most genuine smile he had ever seen. “Really?”

He nodded in affirmation, “We can watch it together after school if y-you wanna.”

“Shh!” The oldest club member turned and pointed two fingers at you and then to his eyes. “No flirting in the losers club.”

Both of you got quiet and it took you a long moment before leaning closer to tell Junpei something.

“So, where will we watch the movie?”

That was how he ended up bringing you to his place. You awkwardly sat on his bed and he tried to stop his shaking hands.

“I wish I had a television in my room too,” you said, starting a conversation to ease the mood. “You’re so lucky, Jun!”

Calling him nicknames like that… you were trying to make him delirious. “I-it’s nothing, it’s some old thing I got from second hand.”

“Still!”

He heard a rustling sound. Once he was done with putting the movie in the DVD player, he whipped his head around to check what you were doing.

His breathing almost stopped when he saw you laying on his bed and checking your phone. You were moving your legs up on the air as you scrolled down some social media platform. Your skirt wasn’t long enough to cover the supple flesh of your thighs, they were squished together and because you were laying on your chest, the skirt’s fabric was relaxed on your ass, leaving not much to the imagination.

Junpei gulped audibly and averted his gaze. “The movie.” That was all he managed to say.

You hummed and sat up on his bed as he took a place next to you. He couldn’t understand why you were so careless, didn’t you think of him as a man?

No, you were purely naive. Not at all aware of the real dangers of the world. Not at all aware of what kind of thoughts about you went through his mind every single day.

The movie opened with the female lead who from her first appearance stated that she was the manic pixie dream girl getting some flowers from a secret admirer despite having a boyfriend.

It was simply trash. That was the only way he could describe the storyline or the mood of the movie.  On his own, under any condition, Junpei wouldn’t pick this garbage up and sit through it but since you wanted to watch it… he had to endure it.

You, on the other hand, seemed to enjoy the movie. Hands on your lap, gasping every now and then when the male lead encouraged the female lead to dump her boyfriend with his shitty compliments.

He found it kind of amusing to watch you react to the movie rather than watch it himself. Soon enough his gaze dropped to your lap. Under the skirt were your bare legs and you were sitting on his bed. Your ass was placed on his bed. The thought of your panties touching the sheets of his bed made his thoughts go south. If you got wet right now, you could soak his sheets.

Slowly, you shifted on his bed, getting in a more comfortable position to watch the movie. Unbeknownst to you, he had a better view of your cleavage now, it was only natural that he couldn’t look away. As vulnerable you were, he was still a man and like any other man, Junpei couldn’t stop himself from fantasizing.

What color panties were you wearing? If he lifted your skirt up to check, would you be surprised? You wouldn’t push him away, that was for sure. You came here all on your own after all, laying on his bed like that and looking like this… There was no doubt you were basically inviting him to fuck you.

The credits rolled sooner than he would have wanted.

You stretched your arms over your head and let out a soft groan. “Thank you, Jun.”

“For what?” He got up from his bed to take the DVD out from the player.

“For watching this with me. I’m so lucky to have a friend like you!” A friend, huh? He thought of you more than a friend but you were probably playing hard to get. The two of you were the same, you just had to be embarrassed to admit your feelings for him. Yeah, that had to be it.

“I liked the movie.” Liar. He didn’t watch it.

Silence.

“I should get going,” you sighed, retrieving your bag and jacket from the floor.

By the time you stood up, Junpei was holding the DVD case towards you. “I hope you had fun.”

“I did.” You smiled, taking it from him. “Thank you again.”

Junpei was languidly nodding, lost in his own thoughts.

As soon as you left his room and apartment, Junpei hurried back to his room. Getting on his knees, he pressed his face into the exact spot you sat on for two full hours. He took a deep inhale, filling his lungs to their limit.

So this was your scent.

Unbuckling his belt, he kept inhaling the smell of your pussy absorbed on his sheets. He was already impossibly hard, if it weren’t for the way he was slouching when you were beside him, you would definitely notice.

His hand wrapped around his cock and he stroked it from the base to the tip, using your smell and his own fantasies about you as his material for today.

Oh, how he wished he could smell you directly.

~~~

The next day, he couldn’t look you in the eye during the club meeting to talk about the movie everyone watched yesterday.

While you were debating with the two other members about how although the cinematography and the dialogue were great you didn’t enjoy the excessive amount of cursing.

“You just don’t understand cinema,” one of them grumbled.

“Couldn’t agree more, I mean… Do you even watch anything other than your weird romance movies?” The other one grinned.

“Let’s not take it too far,” Junpei mumbled, his words went unheard.

“I didn’t say anything bad about the movie,” you argued. “It was well written but the dialogue was too vulgar for my taste.”

“And since when do you have taste?”

Laughter.

“Yeah, she’s such a scatterbrained normie.”

“Guys.” Junpei stood up on his seat to stop the hassle.

“At least I’m not a pathetic loser.” It slipped. As if you had been wanting to say it out loud for so long. “You know that this is why nobody likes any of you, right?”

It became silent.

Junpei sat back on his chair and the other two who had been grinning from ear to ear as they were teasing you frowned.

You clapped a hand over your mouth, realizing what you had said but the deed was done.

“Sorry.” Mumbling, you gathered your stuff and left the clubroom.

~~~

Getting bullied wasn’t the worst part. It was the way other people treated him because he was getting bullied.

People looked at him with pity, sometimes talked to him because they wanted to include him. They were all doing these things to feel better about themselves. It was never about him.

He could let the cigarette burns, all the times he got beaten and the countless lies others spread about him slip but not the fake kindness.

He hated the fakes.

~~~

It was two days after the incident when you finally decided to approach Junpei before he exited the school garden.

“Hey, Jun.”

A shiver rose up his spine and he stopped walking momentarily. “(name), good to see you.” He turned around to face you but you were looking down onto the pavement. You didn’t want to look him in the face.

“Yeah...” You took a deep breath to calm your senses before speaking. “I just wanted to apologize for the other day. I didn’t mean any of the things I said.”

He said nothing.

“I’m really sorry about it, I was being bitter because of the way they talked to me but I shouldn’t have reacted that way.”

He proceeded to stay quiet, though you had a lot to say to him, it was impossible to find the courage or the words to speak when he was being like this. However, you came prepared for anything.

Reaching inside your bag, you pulled out a DVD case with a movie title Junpei had been looking forward to watching. You had heard him talk about it nonstop for months until it got released recently. He couldn’t get his hands on the DVD itself because of how the movie was always rented out but now, you were holding it.

“Wanna watch it together? My treat.”

How could he possibly say no?

“Okay.”

Your nerves eased when he put on a smile.

Thankfully, the walk to his place was short. In his room, you took off your jacket and grabbed the DVD case to put it on yourself. “I tipped the cashier a couple of extra bucks to get my hands on this,” you giggled and turned on his television with the remote control, the player lit up instantly.

“You didn’t have to.”

“Well, it’s just my way of apologizing, don’t sweat it!” Pressing the button for the disc slot, you opened the case to grab the CD. “Besides, I wanted to watch this for a long time too.”

He could tell you were lying but he wasn’t sure if you were trying to be nice to him out of pity or not. Gradually, he realized he couldn’t put you in a box. You two were alike. Exactly like him, you didn’t know where you fit in but he started to get an idea about where might fit in just fine.

As you were standing with the remote control in your hands and waiting for the movie title to show up on the screen, a set of hands were placed on your hips, making you flinch.

“Jun?”

Junpei couldn’t help but press himself against you, his hands on your hips moved to your stomach, and grabbed the remote control out of your grasp. He threw the device to the side.

“Jun?” you tried calling him again, not realizing he needed a hug this badly. “Are-are you okay?”

“I’m fine,” he replied, you felt him bury his face into your hair and heard him take a sniff. His hands moved in different ways. One slid up to cup your breast over your shirt and the other slid down your stomach.

“Um, if you wanna hug me, I can face you. This position is… weird....” You merely comprehended that he wasn’t hugging you when his hand soothed the fabric of your skirt and went under it to grab you by your pussy.

Your thighs pressed together at the same time a surprised gasp left your lips. His hand was pushing you towards him as he was pressing against you, urging you to feel everything.

“Wait,” you tried to say, but when his hips snapped forward it broke into another gasp. A finger pressed on your slit over the fabric of your panties, he dragged it up while his hand harshly groped your breast.

“W-what are you doing?”

“What do you think?” Junpei nosed some hair out of his way and placed his lips on your nape, grazing his lips on the sensitive skin before moving to kiss your neck. “I thought you were here to spend time with me.” His teeth nibbled on the thin flesh and your legs turned to jelly.

“B-but the movie.”

Hooking a finger under the elastic on the edge of your panties, he pulled them to the side and let his middle finger slip inside.

“We can watch it later.”

“Jun, wait.” You squirmed and tried to move away from his fingers but you were trapped. If you moved backward you were going to press harder against his erection and moving forward meant his finger going deeper inside you. The latter was the worst option, so you moved your hips away from his hand.

What you hadn’t calculated was the way you were rocking back on forth with Junpei as he was grinding his clothed cock against the soft flesh of your ass. When you pressed yourself against him harder, it didn’t leave any more space for you to move away from his fingers.

Thanks to your dumb decision, Junpei had you right where he wanted.

“You’re so cute, always trying to act smarter than you actually are,” he whispered, lips brushing against your neck. “When you left that day after we watched your stupid movie, I jerked off to you.”

His hand on your breast moved between your bodies and placed on the front of his pants. He tugged them down while drawing small circles on your neck with his tongue and two of his fingers thrust inside your slick heat.

“I shoved my nose into the exact spot you sat to inhale your scent.”

The revelation of what he did after you left made you tremble. His hot and wet tongue pressed flat against the side of your neck and his fingers moving in a scissoring motion distracted you from his free hand guiding his cock between your legs.

“From the moment we met, I knew we were made for each other, (name).”

Nevertheless the awkward positioning, he slipped his fingers out of you and moved to grab your leg from the back of your knee. He lifted your leg until his cock had enough space to move and his hips surged forward.

A panicked sound left your lips when his cock moved between your folds rather than going inside like he had planned.

Before you could struggle, he pulled his hips back and thrust forward, angling his hips in the right direction. This time, it was a success.

Both of you moaned in unison.

Junpei buried his face into your neck and groaned loudly to the sensation of your warm cunt. Your gummy walls were sucking him right in. He couldn’t help slamming his hips into your pussy with a little too much force. You shook in his arms, nearly losing your balance “J-Jun,” you breathed, tone faint. “T-the movie.”

“Is that what you really want right now?” he whispered into your ear, thrusting in your cunt agitatedly.

You wanted to say something and shove him away so the two of you could focus on the movie that was playing on the screen instead but his cock stroked a sweet spot inside made you melt in his hold. You moaned instead, giving him the answer he wanted to hear.

He picked up a pace to fuck into you in a smooth motion and roughly pound into your pussy to steal cute little moans out of you. He was too lost in pleasure to be able to think. All he wanted was to feel your pussy clench around his cock.

His kisses on your neck turned into biting and you felt him lift your leg higher, launching both of you forward when you lost your balance. You managed to hold onto the TV stand while Junpei didn’t let the small accident interrupt him.

Letting go of your leg, he placed his hand on your back and pushed until you arched your back.

Now, he could thrust deeper inside you. Almost frantically, he started hammering his cock into your pussy. The impact caused you to place both hands on the furniture in front of you and hold onto it for dear life. Your clenching walls around him felt heavenly, he couldn’t stop moving his hips.

A shaky moan escaped your lips when the tip of his cock kissed your cervix. Your hands gripped the furniture and your toes curled at the sensation. At some point, your attention suddenly averted to Junpei’s wandering hands pulling your back flush against his chest as every thrust of his hips left you shaking and begging for more.

“J-Jun,” you whined.

He knew exactly what it meant. If he couldn’t tell from the neediness in your voice, he could tell it from the way your gummy walls started pulsating around his cock. Instead of picking up his pace and fucking you like an animal in heat like you thought he would do, Junpei tried to thrust deeper, stroking your sensitive spot with his cock until your vision turned white and you started rocking yourself back on Junpei’s cock. Only then his thrusts became harder, almost as if he wanted to claim you as his only.

“Can I do it inside?” Junpei didn’t need an answer but you gave him one anyway.

“Y-yeah.”

His pace suddenly slackened, he was close to his own orgasm. He pushed his cock in your pussy down to the base and you felt the slight twitch of his balls on your ass as thick spurts of seed filled your womb.

He lowly grunted, continuing to move his hips and fucking his seed into you with disgustingly wet sounds. Your legs started to shake under you, his hands on your hips were the only things keeping you standing up but once he let go of you, the support disappeared. You dropped on the floor, his cum oozed out of you and stained the carpet.

None of you said anything. Not when you were catching your breaths or when you were fixing your clothes.

It took you a full minute before you asked something so utterly idiotic. “Should I go home?”

At that exact moment, he understood why people enjoyed bullying others who were weaker than them.

“I thought you came here to watch the movie with me.” He dared to say.

You stared at him blankly, your gaze slowly turned to the movie that had been playing the whole time and a faint smile tugged at your lips as you reached for the remote control on the other side of the carpet to restart the movie.

~~~

In the next club meeting, Junpei brought the movie you had wanted to watch last week.

Although the other two groaned in unison, they sat through the entire movie once Junpei told them they owed you this.

As for you, watching the movie you had already seen a week ago was boring but the anticipation to watch another new release you had rented with Junpei after school was enough to keep you on the edge.