#this man has seen some sht

[konnyart]

This is his coping mechanism.

[ducktoo]

Syncing Dream [Aespa x M!Reader]

13. Active in the…sun?

Note: none, have fun with the fluff

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It started with a simple invitation.

Y/n had been going about his day at the SM building, as usual, when a group of idols—mostly from NCT and EXO—caught him by surprise in the staff lounge. Kai, Taeyong, and Chanyeol casually approached, holding their water bottles and flashing familiar grins. He has been hanging out with them often these days, ever since he gained his fame as the “Sasaeng blocker”.

"Yo, Y/n!" Kai called out, causing Y/n to glance up from his phone. "We’re putting together a soccer match later. You in?"

Y/n blinked, surprised at the invitation. "Eh, me? For soccer? Are you sure, hyung?"

Chanyeol nodded enthusiastically. "Of course! We’ve seen you running around with the girls. You’re in shape, man, and we need more players. Plus, it’s just a friendly game."

"Right," Y/n said, scratching the back of his neck. "But I haven’t played in forever. I’m probably rusty."

Taeyong waved it off. "Doesn’t matter. It’s all for fun. If anything, it’s more funny if some of us messed up. What do you say?"

Before Y/n could even fully process the idea, Giselle and Ningning, who had overheard the conversation from across the room, suddenly popped their heads around the corner.

"Wait, Y/n’s playing soccer?" Giselle asked, her curiosity piqued.

Ningning followed up, grinning. "With NCT and EXO-sunbaenim? You’ve gotta do it, Y/n."

Y/n raised his hands in surrender. "Okay, okay! Fine, I’m in."

-

Word spread quickly, and by the time Y/n made it back to the practice room with aespa, all four girls were buzzing with excitement. Even Karina, who usually kept her cool, seemed interested.

"You’re really going to play with the others?" Karina asked, leaning against the wall with her arms crossed.

Y/n nodded, trying to appear nonchalant. "Yeah, but it’s just a casual thing."

Winter, who had been scrolling through her phone, suddenly perked up. "When is it?"

"This afternoon," Y/n replied, glancing at the clock. "I’ll probably head over soon."

Ningning gave him a sly grin. "We’re coming to watch."

“Please don’t.”

Giselle nudged Winter, who had an almost excited gleam in her eye. "It’s not every day we get to see you in action. You better not trip on the field, Y/n."

"I will trip, just to embarrass all of you" he muttered, feeling the weight of their teasing already. But as they all exchanged knowing glances, he could feel something else brewing—especially from Winter. She wasn’t one to normally get worked up about anything athletic, but today, there was a new energy about her.

-

By the time Y/n arrived at the SM outdoor soccer field, the teams were already warming up. The guys from EXO and NCT were scattered across the field, stretching and kicking the ball around. Y/n could feel the butterflies in his stomach as he walked up, spotting his name on one of the makeshift team lists.

“Casual match, hyung said. Yet there is a full list for each team.” Y/n chuckled. “And holy sht they came.”

And, of course, aespa had already staked out a spot on the sidelines. Giselle, Ningning, Karina, and Winter were bundled up in jackets, watching with amusement as Y/n geared up. Winter, in particular, had her eyes glued to him, which only made Y/n more nervous.

Actually, that girl brought a whole cheerleading set. And no, not the cute and girly one. The one hardcore fans wore at a Hatsune Miku concert.

"Good luck!" Ningning called out, waving as Y/n jogged onto the field.

"Yeah, don’t embarrass yourself!" Winter added, her voice filled with playful sarcasm. "Or we're making you eat our cooking."

“You ARE embarrassing! Change your clothes already you hobbit!”

That made Y/n earned a middle finger from Winter, respectfully censored by Karina and Ningning on each side.

-

The first half of the game was fast-paced. Y/n quickly found his rhythm, darting between players and making some solid passes. He even managed to block a goal attempt from Suho, which earned him a loud cheer from the sidelines. He could hear Ningning and Giselle shouting encouragement, but Winter’s voice stood out the most.

"Go, Y/n!" Winter practically yelled, her voice cutting through the chaos of the game. “Kick them already!!”

Y/n nearly stumbled, distracted by her enthusiasm. He shot a quick glance over to the sidelines, catching Winter’s bright smile and the way her eyes lit up every time he got close to the ball. It wasn’t helping his focus, but it did give him an extra boost of energy.

As the game progressed, the boys were getting more competitive. Kai and Taeyong were neck and neck, their teams pushing harder and harder to score. Y/n was right in the middle of it, doing his best to keep up with the pros.

Then, just as Y/n was preparing to intercept a pass from Jaehyun, he heard Winter again.

"Nice pass, Y/n!" someone from EXO called out, and a cheer erupted from the sidelines.

"Go, Y/n!" Winter’s roar rang out louder than the rest, catching him off guard for a second. He glanced over, noticing her beaming with pride as she cupped her hands around her mouth for emphasis. Karina smirked next to her, nudging Winter playfully, while Ningning and Giselle exchanged knowing looks.

Y/n’s cheeks reddened slightly as he quickly refocused on the game. He hadn’t expected Winter to be so... vocal. It was flattering, but also a little nerve-wracking. His mind wandered briefly—Did she do that for everyone, or was it just him?

-

The game was going well at first—Y/n had a few decent moments, made some good passes, and even managed to defend against a couple of NCT’s players. But halfway through the second half, things started to take a turn. The score was tied, and tensions were rising.

Then it happened—a missed pass, a perfect opportunity to score slipping through Y/n’s fingers as the ball sailed wide of the goalpost. He could feel his frustration bubbling up. He wasn’t usually one to let things get to him, but this time, something snapped.

"Ah, for f**k’s sake!" Y/n groaned, louder than he intended, as he slapped his hands on his knees in frustration.

The sudden outburst caught the attention of everyone nearby, including the girls on the sidelines.

"Did… did Y/n just curse in front of others and not us?" Karina asked, her eyes wide.

Winter and Ningning burst into laughter. "I think he did!" Winter replied, giggling. "Who knew our idiot could get so worked up?"

Y/n flushed, realising his mistake, but there was no taking it back now. He tried to refocus on the game, ignoring the snickering from the sidelines. Every time he glanced over, Winter was laughing, clearly enjoying his slip-up.

As the game continued, Y/n couldn’t help but notice how Winter’s cheers seemed to get louder every time he touched the ball. Even the other guys started to take notice.

"Looks like you’ve got some serious support there," Doyoung teased as they took a brief break for water.

"Yeah, seems like Winter’s really into it," Taeyong added with a smirk, nudging Y/n’s arm. "Anything you want to tell us?"

Y/n’s face turned crimson as he shook his head. "Nah, she’s just messing with me."

But when he looked back over at aespa, Winter caught his eye and waved, her grin wide and unmistakably mischievous. The other girls were laughing now too, clearly enjoying the spectacle of Y/n’s growing embarrassment.

"Yeah, right," Taeyong chuckled, not buying Y/n’s dismissal for a second. "You’re lucky, man. Most of us barely get a nod of acknowledgment from them, but she’s all about your game."

Y/n coughed awkwardly, trying to shrug it off as no big deal. But the truth was, it was kind of a big deal. Winter had been acting a little differently around him recently, and it didn’t take a genius to figure out why the guys were teasing him about it.

-

As if things couldn’t get more intense, the skies darkened unexpectedly. Large, ominous clouds rolled in, and soon, raindrops began to fall. It started as a light drizzle, but within minutes, it turned into a full-on downpour.

The players on the field exchanged glances, but no one was ready to quit yet. If anything, the rain seemed to energize them. The ball slid across the slick grass, and the once casual game became more competitive.

Y/n, now soaked to the bone, found himself sprinting harder, making riskier plays, and diving for the ball like his life depended on it. The rain blurred his vision, but he kept pushing, determined to make up for his earlier mistake.

The girls were enjoying the intense match even more after the rain. Although, two different conversations were in the same spot.

"Is it just me, or Y/n actually look good in the rain…" Giselle gawked, feeling proud that dragging him to the gym was worth it.

"Oh right, true!" Ningning slapped Giselle's back repeatedly in excitement. "Damn, he's so manly!"

"Knock it off, you two." Karina smacked the cheeky members' head. "You're lucky that girl paid too much attention to the match like a fanatic right now."

The three of them glanced at Winter, whose voice cut through the rain, louder than ever. As if there wasn't anything else in this world at this moment, Winter kept on cheering with all of her might. She kept on waving around her cheerleading sticks, which gave some teasing ammo to the girls who mimicked her.

However, she was fully enjoying the cheer. "Come on, Y/n! Kick their butt!"

Y/n couldn’t help but smile. Her support was somehow both embarrassing and motivating at the same time.

-

The rain showed no signs of letting up, but the match was nearing its end. With the score still tied, both teams were fighting tooth and nail for the final point. Y/n’s team was on the offensive, and the ball was passed to him just outside the goal box.

"FINAL SHOT!!"

With a slick kick and a satisfying shout, Y/n sent the ball soaring toward the goal. Time seemed to slow down as the goalie dove, hands outstretched, but it was too late. The ball hit the back of the net.

"Goal!" Kai yelled, and the rest of the team rushed over to Y/n, cheering and high-fiving him despite the rain pouring down.

From the sidelines, aespa erupted into applause, with Winter shouting the loudest of all. "Y/n! You ducking did it!"

As Y/n stood there, drenched and exhausted, he couldn’t help but feel a swell of pride. The victory was sweet, but the way Winter looked at him, her face beaming with excitement, made it even sweeter.

-

With the game over, the rain finally began to ease up. The boys gathered at the edge of the field, dripping with water but laughing and talking excitedly about the match.

"Nice goal, Y/n," Taeyong said, clapping him on the back. "You really pulled through at the end."

"Thanks," Y/n said, still catching his breath. "It was tough, but fun."

The girls approached, still teasing him. "I can’t believe you cursed earlier!" Giselle said, shaking her head with a grin. "Our calm, collected manager, losing his cool on the field."

Ningning laughed. "I wish I’d recorded it!"

Winter, though, was a bit quieter, her smile soft but genuine. "You did great out there," she said, her voice barely above a whisper as she caught Y/n’s eye.

"Thanks," he replied, feeling his heart skip a beat. Maybe the rain wasn’t the only reason his cheeks were flushed.

As they all headed back inside, Y/n couldn’t help but steal a few glances at Winter. The rain had brought out something unexpected today—both on the field and off. And maybe, just maybe, things were changing between them even more.

[aethelwyneleigh27]

Fancy seeing you here😳 (in the COD simping club)

I was thinking(horrible desicion but hear me out)

(maskedFem!reader with Simon Ghost Riley, sort of a 'enemies to lovers' but not really cause they are platonics that love-hate each other and they do get along just with a larger vocabulary.

BUt Ghost is kind of swooning over her? a wee bit?(respectfully, in the corner of the room with his arms crossed,silently and lethally tho)

With cero awareness of his feelings, how he enjoys speaking with her and finds her precense borderline rehabilitating, perhaps he thinks his amazement is normal cause she's once in a lifetime of a unit and; she's also a woman and he almost forgets they exist sometimes so he's just a bit taken back, perhaps his brain rebooting the info. That makes sense.

But it's been almost a year so why is her voice such a melody still? Why does he seem to search for her eyes during sunny days the most searching for the color of them? He's too attentive with her, always getting sucked into the banter far easier than he should when she's involved in it. Can he even blame it on men's hormones when he barely feels anything, much less in that department? Do the rest of the 141 feel that too? Should he feel bothered or at ease?

Like some juicy slowburn 😈. During a mission they're bantering about Gaz being bitchless or her drinking coffee with enough sugar to send Price into cardiac arrest, and she's ambushed out of nowhere on her sniping point, taken for interrogation swiftly after being knocked out.

Angsty sht of her informing the ordeal before never responding to her callsign again, Soap mumbling a curse and Ghost entering autopilot to prioritize efficiency and the guys are a bit amazed by how swift he was wiping out everyone on sight.(Jhon Wick looking ass)

Finding her on a table with her hands and arms tightly bound and being held still by two men as another one had already used a scaple to cut through the middle of her torso almost like he intended to perform a surgery on her whilst she was conscious and aware. Simon shooting the two men right between the eyes but for some reason shooting the guy with the scaple on both of his legs and planting a knife on his eye whilst Soap cuts the rope, she barely gets a word out when Simon cradles her shoulders with one hand, his touch careful. And his voice a lot more soft than he anticipated it to be."Are you alright?"

Evac comes, she gets stitched back together at the hospital and needs to rest till it heals over, everyone cheers and hugs, and Ghost comes to acknowledge his feelings(as much as he can) when he closes the door of his bedroom and the emotions finally hit him, autopilot is turned off and he stares at a wall for almost an hour.

She becomes subject of his nightmares for a little while, he's outside clearing his head when she walks in with insomnia, he's troubled by the relief of the sight of her alive and his solitude being interrupted by the cause of his troubles, nevertheless she's still a welcomed sight, always a welcomed sight. "Oh, fancy seeing you here" "Shouldn't you be resting" "You need the beauty sleep more than me tho, Lt." "*Scoffs*" ..... "Wanna see it?(the scar)" "I knew you were a man(your dickl?)" "Is that why you've been up my ass all the time?" .... "Alright show me" she lifts her sweater up, a barely closed scar from bellow her ribs to bellow her belly button, he doesn't mean to but he flinches at the sight, tensed shoulders and furrowed brows the sleep deprivation has him in less control than usual and she notices. Still, he's fine cause he's Ghost and casually comments "It's healing rather quickly" he looks away unable to stand the memory of it just yet, she pulls it back down leaning her elbows over the window, just two feet away from each other. She takes the thin black mask off from around her ears letting the cold night hit her face properly, he looks away instantly. "It's fine, nothing you haven't seen" he very reluctantly glances back "So, they said y'all only found me in record time cause of you Lt." she glances at him and he glances out of the window, if he looks at her now he's afraid he won't be able to look away, "Just didn't want you spilling your guts to em" she snorts and her small laugh fills the silence of the night, perhaps the one in his heart aswell

"Your savior privileges have been revoked" "Too soon?" "....Just in time Ghost" she tilts her head to look at him, he makes the mistake of staring back out of reflex and thank fucking god for the balaclava he's wearing, he keeps his eyes from widening this time, but not from softening,cautiously mapping her face with her explicit permission trying so fucking hard to not make it obvious "Could convince me im the one with the skull balaclava with how avoidant you are" "Who knows maybe you scare more without the mask" she yawns and into her palm eyes getting heavier quickly, he's really fucking trying to unglue his eyes from her, a silence ensues, she looks at him again and "Thank you, Simon" she smiles gratefully, her gaze anchored on his and- isnt she a bit embarrassed to be this outright? He certainly is, his face burns, his heart skips a beat, seems getting flustered does the trick cause he finally rips his eyes from hers she chuckles at his expense and before he can reply she's standing up slipping her mask back on "Sweet dreams lieutenant"

Or

Enemies(frienemies) to lovers(but not really cause Ghost just realizes he's fucked up™) with maskedfem¡reader. Ghost begins to question the nature of his feelings towards her and realizing he's in fact a bit too fond of her. Im not quite good of height differences so if you'll be using height as a factor to describe, can she be atleast as tall as Soap? The whole 'petite' or 'chubby' Isn't my thing at all aswell, i need this woman to be a ball of muscle hitting her chest like a gorilla lmao. That weird drabble i put there is just to give kind of an idea but honestly do whatever you'd like, the way he realizes can be through some jealousy, some kidnapping, her getting drunk and soap putting her on his back or whatever i just wanna see him getting the hibbie jibbies, the toe curler hair twirling disease 💀

Feel free to ignore me i know it can be annoying to get a whole ass fanfic in your asks, have a wonderful day i love your writing💕

If anyone is looking for that whole ass fic this anon sent me then here it is, a fucking masterpiece I tell you <333

Like I can definitely see an enemies to friends to lovers situation with Ghost and of course there's gonna be jealousy because what better way than to push someone's buttons with tension??

[mschievousx]

now and then | b.b.

pairing: benedict bridgerton x ofc, anthony bridgerton x ofc (platonic)

summary: loraine silva always knew she was not normal. she loves unusual things. she loves her father's guns, horses, boxing, climbing a tree, falling from a tree, engineering, astronomy... oh, and a man eleven years older.

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author's end note

omg im gonna cry y'all the most awesome readers. i actually have not finished any ffs before despite starting a bunch (bbc sherlock holmes, james bond, and marvel glaring at me). all of you became the very reason this ff has seen the sunlight. the plot, prologue, and excerpts of this have been sitting in my notes way before season three. i had written it originally with anthony as third party in mind and had to rewrite the prologue since we have kate now. idk what to say else i just love you all so much—still mad abt fucking eggs and some callbacks y'all missed tho. drop your favorite lines or quotes or anythingg. let's have an active convo abt everything that happened in the comments coz y'all fucking crazy and i love it!

easter eggs (only the ones i remember):

- callbacks like really a bunch of them i cannot name each but drop those you know on the comments pls coz im gonna jump off if y'all do not recall any coz that's where the story heavily relied i think.

- bruh this is literally somebody that i used to know by gotye titles of all the chapters are from the lyrics go check ittt, and like from the now and then as main title alone and the lines in the epilogue.

- righttt, fourty-six soldiers for the 47 ronin inspo!! that's like the part i loved the most coz it was so apt for the story and i just realized when we're at chapt nine

the writing process:

- brooo i swear this was supposed to be like a cliche romcom ff like the most that was to happen was the angry confession,, but then i laid down on my bed one night we were around chapter two or three and then it just entered my mind like im gonna fucking kill this girl and everything was a huge coincidence like how her father is in the military and such. so i just had fun really figuring the story out on the process too. in a way, i was like an audience myself as i watched it all unfold in my mind. oh and the harry potter one about the fourth book and sht was the real coincidence lol i did not know about that at all.

anyways, that was it and it's a wrap for now and then aaaaaaaa y'all consumed my life for two weeks thank you so much everyone! will always love youuu!

[bonnvivre]

a funny thing- ch 24/25 word dump

WUAHAHAHA 4AM BABEY YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS

i’ve been cookin low and slow with this one and i mean real slow like. too slow . as in 2 weeks later whoops

this one’s a real doozy so grab a snack

FIRST PAGE ON THE GOSUKU TAG WHEN YOU SORT BY KUDOS LETS GOOOOOOO major rweiser W

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ch 24

thinking abt yuuji flying down the sidewalk and megumi becoming the equivalent of a flag whipping behind him pls yuuji not everyone can keep up 😭

fred says fuck

mmmmmm crunchy cookies i love me some egg shell

yeah with cooking, you can play around with the measurements and adjust along the way, but baking is whole different beast :[ i made creme brulee for our new year dinner, my first time baking actually, and i was terrified the entire process cus one wrong step and its over (they turned out good in the end, though i wanted to leave it in the fridge longer) 

sukuna and uraume on the same wavelength love that

daww megumi just be a kid its okay 

gojo’s nicknames for toji PLS father-fushi and fraidy-guro

hehehe he technically called sukuna pretty ,, i agree

LMAOOOOO AINT NO WAYY OFC HE SABOTAGED HIM 

i feel like toji would actually do well in getting sales (if he had the proper cookies) considering he’s “a pro at freeloading off women” which leads me to believe he’s got hella charisma . 

“Fushiguro stops just before the table, one hand balled into a fist so tight, the muscles of his arm are easy to see, flexing dangerously beneath his skin.” uwwheheheerhfbud sorry

OH SHT THE GIRLIES ARE FIGHTING YOOOOOOOO AND SUKUNA JUMPING IN FOR GOJO ???? in front of the kids in a school fundraiser is crazy lmao

pinky

gojo taking bets on who’s gonna win reminded me of mei mei betting on the gojo-sukuna fight

i had a crazy amount of secondhand embarrassment going thru that hhhhhh yknow that feeling when you just wanna curl up and cover ur eyes and you’re fighting to even look back ? yeaaaaa

“Hurting people is bad. And you’re not bad!” ohh yuuji ughhh he has no idea of what sukuna was before, that he’s done more than hurt people .. children really only see the side of their parents that they’ve allowed to show them. it’s why kids usually think the highest of them, so yuuji saying that sukuna’s not bad gets me cus he’s known and seen only the best of him. but it makes me feel gooey inside cus, while everyone else sees the former king of curses, yuuji sees his dad and when he does eventually find out, he’ll still always be his dad before anything else (does this make sense i hope it makes sense im trying to make my thoughts coherent)

oh hey they’re talking abt it !

I GASPED OH MY GOD PLEAS EOLASOE APLEAS EPLAS EPALEAPSLEAPSH NOOOOOOOOO FFGGHGBBVV HITTING MY BED GRFGHJVNGRRAAGGHHFEG

im being tortured i thinj you’re trying to kill me here this is the worst case of edging ive ever had in my life (no not like that) 

post-chapter notes:

IM ALREAYD RIOTING YASTOP BLUE BALLING ME

id read real housewives of jujutsu sorcery

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ch 25

GRADE 1 ?? AS IN ONE ?? AS IN  O N E  ?? AS IN, YUUJI IS NO LONGER A PRESCHOOLER

when you said small time-skip, i thought you meant a few months later . i was wrong

aight time to update the time board: yuuji’s in first grade so he’s 6 yrs old, we’re in 2013 now (i think), gojo is 24 yrs old  23 yrs old (chap takes place during summer, bday not passed yet)

it’s 2013, he can get a 3ds now :D im gonna get him on smash bros . OR KID ICARUS UPRISING IT SHOULD BE OUT ALREADY

they should totally name the potential pet after me (jk)

OKAYYYY THATS A START HE KISSED HIM ON THE HEAD !! WE’RE GETTING SOMEWHERE :O now go lower. preferably on the li

oh yeah yeah definitely not together whatever helps you sleep at night man

im gonna need the bad bitches birthday bash one-shot someday with the way shoko’s bringing it up

the fact gojo’s heard the threat so many times before that he can finish it and brush it off

CANDY CRUSH  !!?!??

AWWWWWW THATS ADORABLE ;____; sukuna wanting to do something to surprise gojo’s first day as a teacher and yuuji suggesting to make a cake cus he knows his daddy loves sweets AND they spent the whole day prepping awawawawaw so cutee

they called on uraume for help too LOL poor them 

yuuji being a snitch HA i can’t help but think of my siblings

you can’t be serious gojo, not after that? people also don’t usually sleep and cuddle the homies cmon man

mother is mothering and mother is leading the herd (no but i love how he adapted to the role very easily, likely to prior experience)

whuh the fundraiser was last year ? am i overthinking the timeframe … ok im back after going thru the calendar that makes sense 👍 carry on wait hold on first semester of first grade ended so they’re on break ... summer break ?? unless this is going off of a different schooling system (oh yeah duh japan lol)

ohhh please let them meet mama-guro i can imagine the absolute shock on their faces trying to comprehend how someone like toji managed to marry someone like her 😭 bonus points if toji is much more softer around her too and the sheer whiplash of seeing him having ANY sort of loving side is enough to send gosuku into a spiral

“It’s exactly the type of thing Sukuna would never be caught dead wearing, which means Satoru must do all in his near-infinite power to make him wear it.” real

THESE THREE ARE RIDICULOUS LMAOOOOOO sorry kids your fathers are busy trying to one-up each other

“But, then again, these are just go-karts; how much damage could he really do?” famous last words before disaster

oh no

hey sukuna’s living life at least he’s having fun and that’s all that matters 🥰

not the pyramid projectiles

CONICAL AMMO !?$&7)-)26 MARIO KART IRL GONE WRONG oh my god its too late for this i need to sleep

OH MY GOD ?????? 

WHADDYA MEAN THEY’RE GONE ??????

post chap notes:

what just happened

no really what jusr happened

the amount of times i’ve said oh my god throughout the entire go-kart scene i was clutching my pearls

he recreates his reign in the silliest ways, all while wearing nice little red bow :3

nah i get it the entire first arc was dedicated to how messed up he was abt suguru so i understand the doubts but they’ve also near kissed multiple times .. unless they were super down with kissing the homies 

“I sure hope nothing bad has happened to them...” STOP

[tangsakura]

Ok so we all know now that Machi uses feminine language with Hisoka and that Hisoka had more hearts for Machi than any other characters in his speech. Have you noticed any other pattern in Hisoka's speech when he's talking to Machi that is different from when he talks to other people?

I noticed that he never uses double entendres with Machi and it's always masculine or neutral style of speech with her. Also has he ever called any Phantom Troupe member their own name other than Chrollo and Machi?

The ones he had frequent encounters with and feels a connection with (by connection, I mean being an unripe fruit and toy box sht) is called by him by their names.

Illumi and Machi are special cases. I know Illumi is also in the toybox but he's the only one there smiling. Hisoka has some kind of connection with the two of them that are different from Gon and everyone else in his toy box.

Speaking of which, the current arc right now in Hunter x Hunter is the second time both Illumi and Machi are included in. But unlike Yorknew arc, they both know each other. They've seen each other and they are now both Troupe members. It'll be interesting if three of them encounter each other on the black whale. Who knows, we might even get more Hisoka information in the future chapters.

Also, idk if this observation counts, but here it goes.

Hisoka having his back turn from Machi when he asks a question that has to do with himself. But his eyes are directed towards her; his head is just not turned towards her.

Remember the dinner (or something) invitation in chapter 55? The man literally has his back turned but his eyes are like directed towards the side where she is.

Hunter x Hunter Chapter 55 (Colored Raws)

Back turned but his eyes are pointing towards the side where Machi is.

Same thing in chapter 170 during Greed Island arc.

Hunter x Hunter Chapter 170 (Colored Raws)

His eyes are towards her but his back is towards her.

The only time he stared back is when she left and when she never directly answered the question. Look who's being shy here. (jks)

Anyways, that's it for me. Sorry if I took a while to answer this ask. I have a couple more after this. I'm hoping to answer them asap. This is what happens when you end up sick the day after you finish your one and only exam for the term xD

See you around. Merry christmas and happy holidays!!

[dearweirdme]

https://www.tumblr.com/dearweirdme/736353744040722432/well-jm-and-jk-arent-actually-together-and-i

You all really need to get out of shipper spaces and think realistically for once. No one outside of shippers questions their sexuality ever. Even non shipper army can't fathom the fact that any of these men can be anything but straight. Idols have been going for ms forever. Jin and hobi went alone. Are they not makeup wearing idols? Is jimin that weak mentally and physically that he needs jk for protection?

People need to stop portraying jm as some damsel in distress. That man is trained in martial arts ffs. This is such a jikkr mindset. Jk's role on this earth is just being jimin's protector. He made the decision bcs he wants to protect jm 😑. Treat him as an individual for once.

Can we just end this topic now? These same things have been said multiple times to multiple people but people want to stretch it to infinity. This topic has been done to death. Tae and joon are going to enlist in mere hours from now and people are still trying to prove some members' bonds.

Jk and jm are going together. No one knows the reason except for them and their loved ones. We don't know sht about their personal lives and we seriously don't know sht about sk's military and military personnels to be making any claims and speculations.

People are so blinded by their ship wars (esp jikkrs coz I've not seen any tkkr talking about this except for when responding to a jikkr) at this time when the remaining four are going away for 18 whole months.

Just talk about something positive for once people. It's already very depressing

Hi @likeoldlove !

Yes, you are right! I’m catching up on asks a bit (finally feeling a bit better 🤧) but realistically we’re not gonna change our minds and neither are Jkkrs.

I’ve been feeling sad about them leaving all weekend, and probably a bit longer already. It’s.. weird(?).. that it’s already here. But I think I’ve settled into being fine with it already being time, because if they were to leave later.. we’d still have to go through this.. they’d still have to go through this.. and it would only be postponing things. I have faith in them being able to do well.. all of them. And my main hope right now is that they will settle in nicely and find some friendships.

[cestacruz]

i've seen some FATE genderbend tierlists. and i've heard it explained as that S-tier and not genderbend are nearly interchangeable. BTW no neither okita nor Nagao are S-tier, they're usually B-tier, but ibaraki is usually in the S-tier. blah blah blah. personally my favorite genderbends are the 1s that could work, or're really nifty

I like most of them tbh, AND ALSO, there aren't as many as one would think

Like fate is "known" for this trope of making historical men into women but like, compared to the overall number of figures who kept their historical gender(?) , its not that many?

Putting a read more because i just start going into the ones i remember and sht, ALSO ITS MESSY AS HELL BECAUSE IM TYPING AS I REMEMBER and i make a lot of clarifications because i like to overexplain myself!

And ANOTHER clarifications are

1. This is all written from what i personally remember and interpreted from the source materials

2. Me saying this isn't stopping anyone from continuing to Headcanon something different

Some of them are like "yeah i was a woman all along who enjoyed the privileges of a man's life while still being a woman but ig people didnt like that so they recorded me in history as a man" (iirc francis drake is this one, so is yoshitsune)

The "i was a woman but i faked being a man my entire life to be allowed to be (a king or a samurai)" (okita** and arturia, one of those two had way more issues with that than the other. And its actually important to the way the lore was written and focused that Arturia was born female lmao because uther rejected her at birth because she was a girl and merlin was the one who convinced him "hey we can still put the dragon blood on her and just raise her as a man yknow" and then uther accepted but then died because his daughter was a daughter (that last part was a joke but theres so many men like that in modern time irl too so :/ the whole plot overall is very genderqueer still i wont deny it) (and then theres Okita who also kinda needed to do it but it feels like it was way less like, necessary for hee to do that, so its easy for people to hc okita as trans (i dont personally but that hc has some Great fics))

** I ALSO HAVE TO SAY THAT i dont remember if they actually ALSO retconned that and okita was just Trested as a man because of gender roles but never Actually bothered or cared to say "im a girl actually" even Now, she gets refered to as "okita-kun" or "okita-san" which are (kun specifically?) more masculine honorifics

Saito gets called with the "-chan" honorific sometimes, iirc

These two existing might confuse people on "wait if ushi was allowed to be a woman and do all the things why wasnt okita" and that's probably because misogyny strikes at any time in history yknow? Probably by ushi's time, they didn't care that much or because it was incredibly war time, they could Afford to care. Meanwhile, okita would have had a harder time because it was less violent times so roles were starting to set into more "men have the violent jobs and women stay inside"

Or "i was in fact a man but i always identified more as nonbinary or as a woman" (iirc nero?? At Least at the start of her lore it was like that. Idk if they retconned it to being similar as the first tho. And ofc trans icon leonardo da vinci)

Im not mentioning all of them because im too lazy rn (or am i... i mostly dont remember)

Jing Ke iirc was also interesting, but i CANNOT for the life of me remember what was her deal

And then there's Sugitani Zenjūbō who was a man but then (Kashin Koji???) Turned them into a woman literally just for fun ??

Actually will add im not sure if Kashin Koji and Sen no Rikyu are or not genderbends

Bringing it back to Arthuriana for this but its funny Gareth was Also a woman the whole time but she Had to fake it if she wanted ti be accepted as a knight UNTIL she participated in that joust and thats when she revealed "ACTUALLY im a GIRL I WAS FAKING THE WHOLE TIME" and King Arthur who is also faking to be a man starts sweating profusely but accepts her and declares her a knight still even tho she was a woman because at least she can do that. The king wasn't allowed to be a woman still, tho, unfortunately."

Jacques, who we know was a man, but the eldritch god transitioned her good for her she refuses to talk about it, tho

Oda Nobunaga, who either was 1. Always a woman and history recorded her as a man because she enjoyed the privileges of a man's life (which is also similar to Yoshitsune/Ushiwakamaru's case), or 2. Literally from a different parallel universe where she was always a woman and the worlds are so similar that she never realized

Musashi we know is from an alternate universe as well

Raikou is also verily implied to be a trans woman in some dialogues but in others is the "i had to be pretend to be a man to enjoy the things i wanted to enjoy" (which also just sounds trans but still, you know what i mean) (i love the hc of Raikou being trans and you will take it from me only when i am Dead, and even Then)

Frankenstein's Monster, who was just built as a woman iirc

Xu Fu literally just a woman now, no changes in the lore to try and explain or anything at all, incredibly gay woman at that too. Love that they make it explicit that she is in Love with Yu Mei Ren and yes it IS romantic. Im gonna go cry again btw

Pollux who funnily enough is just (probably accidental Or Probably not) implied to be trans because she and Castor are identical twins and we know identical twins cannot be different sexes (that OR Castor is the trans one)

Quetzalcoatl who is a genderless god (usually regarded as male) who chose a vessel that happened to be a woman and is living her best life

Kukulkan i Assume is the same case as Quetz

Kiichi Hougen is treated as a woman rn because their current body is female, BUT when they met yoshitsune, they were using a male form. They are agender, tho, btw, not a woman.

Some people might wonder why arent there any genderbends of Female historical figures Into Men in Fate and to that i will point to hundreds of years of history that bury female and queer accomplishments and history by pretending they were all men becsuse "no way a woman could do this"

JUST like Fate plays into with some of the genderbends (like i said, Francis Drake or Ushiwakamaru)

So if they did that it would just, be normal misogynistic history ? Good old "no way women are as competent as a man"

Anyway

Thats all

[crsbysdot]

I don't know if Tyra's content on Jessica Kent violated tos or not, but what I CAN say, with some certainty, is that for whatever "cyberbullying" Tyra might have been engaging in against JK, I have seen much worse, go on for much longer, and Youtube hasn't done sht about it.

And I'm not talking about calling people b*tches. I'm talking about one creator threatening to come to another's house "with help" and the insinuation there is obvious. I'm talking about someone making fake screenshots to implicate people in crimes. Blackmail to get copyright strikes removed. Years long campaigns of harassment. Someone's information being used to sign them up for things without their consent. Some of this has resulted in several women getting ros on one male creator and he is still active. The man who threatened to smash Not Another Housewife's brains all over a toilet, while suggesting that he kills people for a living... still has at least one channel up.

[alternateanonymous]

6:07 am tonight was a night

heyo, well tonight was the first night i kinda missed you. Idk if i am a p[yscho path or if there is something mentaly wrong with me or what but i haven't missed you yet. I mean maybe it might be ecause i have literally prevented myself from missing you because i dont't wanna tap into that hurt but tonight i did and i it wasn't as bad as i thought. I had a really sht night tonight at work as it was just me working which we al knows how that goes. but whatever lol. yea i was ust about to burst out crying again lol. that damn rom has seen more than a lot of my closest people have seen lol. But yea, it was very dioifficult and i kinda wished (not eventruly missed) haveing someone to talk to about thast lol. I missed being babied and hugged, and told that it was ok. But even when i think about that and miss that i remeber how i used to have to tell you to do that lol. i used to have to tell you how to comfort me, because like normal man reaction you wsanted to give solutions etc. but lol idk. Yea. i feel like my brain is coming to a solid comforting consensous about how we feel about you lol. It is nice, it is hard because i've concluded that i still care about you a lot but i know that it will fade eventually i just need to ride that wave out and find my self in the process because if i find someone else i will feel like i am doing them an injustivce as i want my future lover to have my whole heart. obviously i am still damaged goods but ya know, i can only do my best. I still don't know 100% why i feel so safe and comfortable with you but i do. i wonder if maybe you were the love of my life but we were never able to work out. i'm getting into my dorctor strange feels lol, but yea that would be sad. I am scared that i will never find someone or i will be to scared because i don't wanna make the same mistakes and hurt someone else but as i find myself through this time i am also gaining a thicker skin too. i am realizing for myself what i have always known about myself ( i am just proving it to myself) which is that i am fine alone and i don't need anyone. and i don't lol. I barely have time for myself let alone someone else. everytime i do get into a relationship i do indeed give it my all and damn,m i should give myself some more props but yea. I tried. but yea, i wonder if you think about me and honestly idk. maybe you don't but maybe you do but truthfully i don't wanna know that lol. i really hope you weren't the love of my life because then my love life was really shit lol. i am waiting for that astronomical shit everyone talks about, the natrual falling into love. the clicking once you meet, the "they just get me, ya know" type of thing. and even though i feel really comofrtable with stefan and he doesn't know me lol. He doesn;'t know me, i just feel comfortable with him because he sees me. He is one of the only few people who have been able to see me, truthfully and see what i stand for and who i am, but we were never to work out becaue he had to many fucking things to fix and i needed to focus on me. ugh, lol. not even sad, just unfortabete that i had to go through so much shit to finally get to that conclusion. lol. I still get a little scared and anxious that he doesn't like me as a friend either but he always does prove me wrong. Proving to me that he doesn't h8 me lol. that's just my intrustive thoughts winning but idk. I just hoipe that my future lover will be able to be what he was and sigificantly a lot more in terms of relationshipwise lol. I think back, and i have literally had my most wonderful, fun , beauitiful, most authentic days with stefan lol. I just hope i can find that again with someone else. ugh, i'm scared it;s not possible but idk. i am just scared lol. but at the other forefront i am excited about something new. AHHH so many things to think about. I really need to get mroe sleep but to give you a snapshot about what's up is that i got home from work a while ago, did a workout, my pc setup is my favorite thing in the world. My roomate is currently screaming lol,.

I have club and a club meeting tomorrow as well as a fundraising dinner and classes and muhsin wants to hangout lol. also, i have to keep working out so i can be the hotter/ hottest ex lolllll. ngl legit my motivation lol. I don't think i wil be, like i said i still think i am the middle school acne ridden, flat ass hoe. But lol idk. also, LIKE I SAID being out of a relationship has decreased my anxiety, increased my productivity and general happiness, and i am also comfortable in myh own body againn. AHHH, i do not miss being in that relationship in that terms lol. Buttt if you take out ll the negative things about it which were a lot i feel like we could've been soulmates.. but unfortanetly we were not. and that is why i still care for him so much and why i feel so comfortable. He sees me, we now he saw me. Becaause now our paths have split lol. ahh. i still don't know how it is going to be if he gets in a relationship, idk. Hes an attractive dude, and hell find someone. I'll just feel weird or not, ahh idk there are so many things to consider lol. I just hope he at least treats her better, i would rather shoot myself then see him hurt another woman like he hurt me. lol. not even lying. it's gonna suck because like i said, one of my biggest fears is that he is going to ggive another girl the shit he could've given me but that ship has sailed and we are already in that potential territoty lol. i belive he'll find somethinghg beautiful and i will be alone lol. Intrustvie thoughts babby,. lol,. but i should go to sleep the sun is coming up and i have a busy day tomorrow. So yea,

in conclusion, no i didn't miss you, i just remembered you. And i feel bad about that.

Currenly about to wrap myself in my bed and watch the overwatch champsions series japan, playoffs day 3 lollllll. so yea, its (10% miss niut 90% remeber) quantifying things helps lol. But yea goodnight. hope you are having good dreams over there dude.

[freezeriafan]

Ok I'll just say it. When Robby's flipdeck said that he A.) Spent All of his money on Pizza and B.) Secured a Random Job as a deckhand on a shrimp boat to pay rent, that 100% felt like a manic episode. Like I dont know anything abt anything but also there is no doubt in my mind that that's what that was. I dont want to say that I think hes bipolar bc then when i call him Crazyass it's gonna look Rude but i think hes bipolar and I dont think hes diagnosed but he does have an old-timey sailor nickname and understanding of it all. That's what I think here on September 16 2020

[bakuvantea]

slime tensei imgns!

- synopsis: sneaking in the hot springs to bathe with the best boys

- includes: rimuru, benimaru, and souei

- special appearances from: shuna, shion, gobta, hakurou (for the shts and giggles lmao)

- warnings: slight nsfw implications in beni’s part

-•-

r i m u r u

oh to be the lover of a man loved by many, it can truly be a bother at times

example being your current situation

rimuru was in his human form, trapped between shuna and shion who were giving him remarks and praises about how well he gave his speech to the delegates from yuurazania

now, how will you take your man for yourself

using thought communication, you said to him, “i invited you over here for us to have a moment to ourselves, do explain why shuna and shion are also here with us, hmm? oh great rimuru-sama.”

you saw him flinch, slowly looking over to you who was sitting down a good 5 meters away from where he was

he smiled, making you scoff and roll your eyes

also using thought communication he replied, “(name) i’m sorry! i didn’t think anyone saw me come in here, but alas they followed me to the bath and before i had a chance to explain it was already too late! im sorry (name)! i really am!”

you then looked over to the two kijins, an idea suddenly appearing out of thin air, you smirked and said out loud, “oh dear, it seems rimuru is hungry from bathing for far too long. shuna, shion, would you two be a dear and grab some food for him? you have my utmost thanks.”

you then listed all sorts of rare and hard to cook cuisines to keep them occupied for a good five hours or so

the two kijins smiled and replied, “of course (name)-sama!”

they then glared at each other, immediately running out of the bath to fetch some food and be the first one to give them to rimuru

you smiled victoriously, “finally!”

rimuru swam closer to you and hugged your side, sighing he said, “you’re so warm.”

wrapping your arms around him, you kissed the top of his head and said, “love, we’re in a hot springs, what do you expect?”

dismissing your sarcastic reply, he kissed your lips, parting just enough for his lips to still touch yours, he said; “your hugs will always be the best.”

-•-

b e n i m a r u

benimaru sighed in content as he dipped further into the hot springs designated for gentlemen

it was a pretty rough day, some overconfident human visitors thought it would be wise to try and pick a fight with him

he scoffed, it seems that their survival instincts needed some tweaking, seeing that they failed to see the murder seething from his eyes

after that encounter he had to train the kurenai elite troops in order to prepare for upcoming battles and to strengthen the defense and offense of the jura tempest federation

it truly was such a tiring day

“psst!”

benimaru opened his eyes, he was now standing in the bath, looking to every direction trying to determine the location of the noise when he suddenly felt a heavy weight from behind him, his body plunged forward into the hot springs and he heard laughter as he gasped for air

finally escaping from the deathly grip, he turned around and saw you giggling, saying “sorry” and “oh jura, you look like a hot mess”

he groaned, “(name) what are you doing here in the men’s bath?” yet even as he tries to look annoyed, one cannot deny how his eyes softened when he saw you

“i was looking for you, then i bumped into rimuru-san, he told me he saw you walking here and so i followed suit,” you replied as you scooted closer to him, beginning to play with his dampened locks

“dearest, someone could come in here any second now, we are sure to be teased by the others if they saw our current predicament!”

flicking his forehead and receiving an ‘oi!’ from him, you then replied saying, “oh don’t worry your pretty ‘lil head love, i asked rimuru-sama if we can have the baths to ourselves for the evening and he agreed, he even told us to have fun.”

benimaru shook his head, pulling you closer to him he said, “well then, if rimuru-sama said so, then who am i to disobey?”

trailing kisses down your neck to your chest he thought to himself, ‘its going to be a long evening’

-•-

s o u e i

you were already in the women's bath when you heard rimuru and souei's voice from the other side

he wasn't one to indulge himself, always claiming that he'll be on the look-out for enemies and anything out of the ordinary in the jura tempest territory

you assumed that rimuru may have scolded him and ordered the kijin to go take a break in the hot bath. hearing rimuru bid farewell, you then started to speak, "souei! are you alone over there?"

"(name), i didn't know you were there. to answer your question, yes i am alone. rimuru-sama left since he has urgent business to attend to."

you smiled

nice!

"i'll go over there!"

"this is the men's bath (name). it is not appropriate for a young woman to be seen bathing with a man like myself."

"oh you and your uptight self! relax for a bit okay? if anybody sees us, then they'd know better than to interrupt, and when have i ever followed tradition?"

"hmm, i guess so"

you stood up and used shadow motion to go to the men's bath

appearing near a bamboo tree, you smiled at him and walked over to where he was sitting, dipping yourself in the water you sighed in content

just as he was about to embrace your figure, he heard a shriek and a chuckle

"i-i'm sorry! (name)-san and souei-san!" the both of you saw gobta kneeling down holding the towel covering his body tightly as he continuously bowed and asked for forgiveness

beside him was hakurou, smirking at souei as if saying, "ayeee, my man getting that-"

"oho ho! me and my student will leave now, it seems that we have disturbed you two," dragging gobta by his ear (he was still saying a barrage of apologies) the master and student then left you two to your own devices

souei sighed, this wasn't really how he envisioned a 'relaxing evening' to transpire to

but with you now wrapped in his embrace, he doesn't think its half bad

yep, it really wasn't, he thought when you started nuzzling his naked chest

-•-

hope ya’ll liked it!!

-winamiko

[iamhereinthebg]

my fren, please agree that Kako is so underrated and we need more clock keeper fans? I know we both mutually miss them😭

Y E S Kako is underrated af and I love him sm dshdsj

We don’t have that much on him but this man is tired af lol He definitely has seen some shit too. I mean he is the clock keeper of the past that’s the whole point of it dshdjs He doesn’t seem that shocked by the events too. But he seems to be the only one really concerned to know what destroying the yorishiro really does. I really feel like he has lived through something similar, the clock keepers are the oldest mystery after all (Maybe they are the only one who stayed the same since the creation of the mysteries and all the others changed throughout the years? or were destroyed because of some sht like this? idk I am going crazy)

And even if it doesn’t end up being canon, I strongly believe Kako was the leader of the mysteries at one point he seems way too important and all mysteries are more willing to listen to him than Hanako lol

And I do like Akane but I also feel like the fandom are forgetting the fact that this idiot is the weakest of the clock keepers. THE OTHERS DESERVE LOVE TOO DSHKJDHSKJD THEY ARE OP AF AAAAH

welp I will stop ramblings about them,( I am already writing this big text which is taking me way too long help) but I love the clock keepers with all my heart and I am so ready to have more info on them (because with how much all other character have insisted on how important they are it seems fair to think they will come back to have a big role ahah) I am delusional about them but please AidaIro ToT

[minty-ghast]

C!Techno x male reader

Requested by @demipebble : I saw that you wanted someone to request angst and as one of your anons (not saying which one though it might be obvious) could you potentially break my heart with some Technoblade angst? I'm not the best with ideas though- sorry-

Warning: 1 swear word

An au were techno took tubbo’s last life and the reader is tubbo’s older brother (this was set when tubbo was executed on manburg festival(?) and (for plot convenience) he was on his last life)

Note:I don’t really know that much of the past lore so I’m sorry if it’s incorrect or smtg and sorry this was sht I rushed it

“What happened? WHAT HAPPENED?!? YOU KILLED MY FUCKING BROTHER! THATS WHAT HAPPENED” You shouted at the man, he has never seen you snap like this and he never thought that he would be the reason you would. “It was a job! I was pressured and I had too” you scoffed at his excuse “oh so you cared more about your damn job than me?” He looked at the side avoiding your gaze and tried to think of a answer or an excuse he could use.

“I’m leaving.” He immediately looked back with fear in his eyes, you chuckled at his expression “well that’s a first” you went back to the room and packed everything you owned, you didn’t have that much stuff other than some clothes and your armour so it only took you a minute or two.

“I’m leaving.” He immediately looked back with fear in his eyes, you chuckled at his expression “well that’s a first” you went back to the room and packed everything you owned, you didn’t have that much stuff other than some clothes and your armour so it only took you a minute or two.

When you came out techno immediately held your wrist ��please….don’t leave. I love you” a wave of guilt washed over you, you thought about it for a second before pulling your hand out of his grip “I love you too but what you did was unacceptable” when you stepped out, you felt relieved.

“Don’t worry tubbo, big brother will meet you soon”

Half way of writing this I realised that this was kinda like my dream fic but not really, they both had the theme of the reader’s brother dying

[skribblz]

Okay brainrot is slowly reviving because s2 has way more SenGen scenes than I expected like holy sht are the creators feeding us??? /j

AnywAY

Gen 👏

I've mostly seen content of him as more of a shy/soft-like lee y'know? And I get that, and I love that a heccing lot 🙏

Our fellow mentalist's act is breaking? A weakness exposed? Valid reason to be shy and cute 👌

BUT

Idk if its jst me or if im blind and haven't seen enough lee!Gen content, but I need some more of it where Gen is a bratty lee 👀

Think about it, it would also suit him perfectly! My man's still a cocky bastard! He would still be able to tease his ler back if he had the chance! *Cough* goddamn Senku *Cough cough*

He'll definitely be an annoyance just to get his ler (sENKUUUUU-) to tickle him

"I-Ihit's funny how- Wah!! H-Hohow your fahace is mohohore red thahan mihine, Sehenku-chahahan!~"

*Cue irritatedly flustered Senku here* "Shut up.."

I am doing homework as I speak hshshshs my ability to focus is the same as Senku not caring about science (Hint: Its impossible)

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES A THOUSAND MILLION TEN BILLION TIMES YES

this is my cup of morning coffee LOLLLOOOLOOLL

this fits him so well tho????? omg thank you for opening my eyes to a new world, he would totally try to use his witty words to drag senku down with him. bruh I love this what the h e c k

their battle will be l e g e nd a r y

I wanna see that so bad holy crap

imagine gen calling him different nicknames like bokchoy, cabbage head, etc.

and then senku’s like “oh, youre really asking for it now!”

and gen just wouldnt shut up omg “you look like youre really having fun senku-chan~” “youre smiling a lot” “do you think Im cute?” “I think youre really cute” all while laughing his head off

blushy senkuuuu <3

and honestly, that procrastination is such a mood. I watched like 12 eps of tokyo revengers before doing my work ndndndndn (ended up staying up till 2 am whoops)

[softer-ua]

to me what katsuki's problem with deku is was that what he saw didn't align with what he was told.

like your quirk makes you strong, right? so according to society and literally everyone, katsuki = strong bc badass quirk and izuku = weak bc no quirk. the problem is, Katsuki sees the way Izuku behaves and sees that he's strong , that he has heroic spirit and that doesn't make sense to him because it contradicts the way he's been told society is supposed to work.

so while he insists and tries to convince himself that he's better than deku and deku is weak, he never truly believes it, because he can see that deku is no where near weak.

what makes his view of deku so confusing is that he is lying to himself inside his own head. he knows where he wants to stand with deku (re i am better than him) but that doesn't mean that's where he actually stands, even if he doesn't want to admit it.

in fact having to come to terms with it will literally spiral him into a panic attack

and it's interesting bc katsuki is normally so good at reading situations and people. his intuition is fantastic. he saw shindo was more of a bitch than he let on, he recognized AM was hiding sht about OFA just from AM's 'slight hesitation'

so where does all that stellar sense go??? why is he so bad at reading deku??

it honestly feels like the more invested he is in someone the worse he gets at reading them, since emotions take over. this is particularly true with deku. for example: a) he cares about his record to the point of banning his friends from smoking, but does shit to izuku that would destroy said record were his teachers any good at their jobs and b) first training exercise he basically throws it solely to go beat deku's ass, and like a few days later at USJ he's suddenly acting like a normal sane person who thinks shit through...?

it's like izuku's very existence takes Katsuki's sanity, throws it out the window and runs it over with a locomotive 😭😭

besides, it's not like the guy isn't well versed in contradictions.

with the sludge villain he was told he was strong for not dying after being left to die

deku, the person he's hurt, is also the only person who's ever seen him as fallible in a non malicious way and the only one who's ever allowed him the relief of being weak and having someone hear you out.

his mom loves him while victim blaming him and says that the teachers who chained him up on live television for saying no have a stellar understanding of his character.

the symbol of peace tied him to a podium

he spent a decade being called top hero material despite acting like a loonatic and now he comes to ua and suddenly exploding nerds is not acceptable behaviour? think about it, his teachers saw him doing shit to deku and they were like katsuki broski you're gonna be a great hero, so he was like yup this is totally the way i should act *blows up deku's notebook*

but then come ua and it turns out beating up deku qualifies him to be a villain, and that he has actually been acting like such a villain the actual villains want to be besties with him and the number 4 hero is hell bent on "fixing" him. that's a complete turn of tables.

if i was him i would've lost my mind by now ngl

and he's so emotionally constipated he doesn't even understand his own emotions, like his inner monologue about deku getting stronger and needing to keep up during the war arc sounds like such loser behaviour, but then it turns out the reason he wants to keep up is to be strong enough to help deku and be useful and keep deku from dying bc he is worried about deku.

he is so worried about deku he rips off oxygen masks and ivs and runs around the hospital spitting blood just to see him, but ofc he can't just say, yoo i care about my man deku, because dude is so bad at emotions he doesn't even realise it, so he just starts spewing lines from some edgy romance like "if you die ill kill u"

someone help this kid istg😭😭😭

100% all of this! 😂

When Deku is around Katsuki immediately shifts into being lead around on a choke chain by his feelings, even though him and feelings have never been so much as formally introduced

“I’m feeling something other than anger and that makes me mad” ~ Katsuki Bakugo probably

Also anyone wanna talk about how they left a teen with a heat based quirk who’s known for emotional imbalance unsupervised connected to pure oxygen and then let all his classmates chill in said room with him?

Everyday their entire society wakes up and says “fuck Katsuki lives, all my homies hate Katsuki” and then just leave him to die in various ways