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ATEEZ GETTING OUT OF THE FRIENDZONE
hongjoong x gn reader + seonghwa x gn reader (separated)
this is a continuation of ateez stuck in the friendzone, read that part first so it makes sense!
tw: tooth rotting fluff (+ keep in mind that english is not my first language)
a/n: originally i was gonna make the 8 different scenarios in one single post but then i got reaaaaally carried away (friends to lovers IS my favorite trope after all), and realized itâs probably gonna happen with the rest of the members as well. so be patient please!
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HONGJOONG
hongjoong was sure he was going to explode if you didnât stop your actions in the next following minutes. it started casual, occasionally patting his shoulder in agreement with whatever he was saying at the moment. then, he started short circuiting when you scooted closer to his chair in order to see his screen as he helped you out with new stickers for your laptop. the new distance you established was a bit closer than normal: he believed that he could pull you on his lap with a single movement if he was brave enough.
yet he couldnât cross that boundary, reason why he was feeling like a ticking time bomb.
âdo you think iâm printing too many?â you asked, as you downloaded another sticker from pinterest. hongjoong smiled, finding the amount of fairy cat stickers you downloaded endearing. âknowing you, youâll end up sticking the rest anywhere plain, or on my laptopâ he said in response, earning a chuckle from you.
âyou know me too well hongjoongâ you said in between giggles, before throwing your hand behind the back of his head as you played with strands of his hair. your attention went back to the screen though, but in contrast he could only think about the way your fingers felt against his scalp. unconsciously, his eyes turned to you: he always knew you were beautiful, he didnât just fall for your personality. but sometimes he couldnât help but notice small aspects that normally would go unnoticed by the rest: how you would play with your lips whenever youâre focused on something, the way you would squint adorably as you tried to read small phrases on the screen. also your eyes, he could get lost on them forever and wouldnât even care. in moments like this, he would also focus on your lips, mind wandering about how they would feel against his or-
âjoong, is everything okay?â you asked, pulling him out of his thoughts. he blinked rapidly, regaining his composure and fake coughing. âwhatâs going on in that pretty genius head of yours?â you taunted, getting closer to his face.
âtrust me, you wouldnât want to knowâ he muttered in a low voice, but you heard him anyways. âiâm asking because i want to know, you can tell me anything, iâm your best friendâ
âthatâs exactly the problem y/nâ he sighed, turning his gaze back on the screen, finding the satoru gojo cat suddenly super interesting.
what you did next set the timer in him though: you grabbed his chin and turned his face back to you, staring curiously. âi want to know, joongâ you said in a firm voice. your eyes remained interlocked for a few moments, but hongjoongâs patience started running extremely thin. âi can show youâ he whspered back, gaze going back to your lips. your hand left the back of his head and went down to his neck, pulling his face even closer as you nodded in response.
hongjoong closed the distance between you, finally pressing his lips against yours softly. you tasted the way he imagined: faint traces of strawberry from the chapstick he once gifted you, the one you refused to change despite the years. his lips moved against yours in sync, as his hands cupped your face, angling it to a degree so he could taste you better.
he thought he could kiss you forever and never get tired or bored, reason why he also felt disappointed when you pulled away. he chased you lips, so you pecked him as you tried to suppress a smirk from creeping on your face.
âfinallyâ you admitted, causing him to look at you questioningly. âi wanted to do that for a while, joongâ
âyou literally friendzoned me more times than i can rememberâ he pointed out, shock evident on his face. âi donât get touchy with just anyone! i had to camouflage it somehowâ you said in response, blushing. âplus i also thought thatâs how you viewed me, just a friendâ.
âhell no, y/n never say that word around me againâ he said, finally giving in to his initial thought as he pulled you on his lap in one smooth movement, making you laugh. you cupped his face, looking at him intently. âi like you, joongâ you whispered. âyou have absolutely no idea how much i adore youâ he answered, before crashing his lips against yours again.
now that he knew how you tasted, he was never going to let you go again. youâre his new addiction, just like he always imagined.
SEONGHWA
âi still canât believe my friend is getting married to himâ you said, as you finished applying your lipstick before turning back to seonghwa. he was standing next to the window, admiring the view from the luxurious hotel while you finished preparing for the wedding reception. he was already dressed in a gorgeous wine colored suit, which was a bit oversized yet still looked formal on him.
your friend had announced a few months ago that she forgave her boyfriend for cheating, claiming that it was just a âdrunken mistakeâ. she also informed you that she was getting married too, having already set the date and venue, and telling you that you could bring a plus one. of course, you immediately dialed seonghwa, not just to spill the hot gossip but also to invite him. he immediately agreed.
âthat marriage is already doomedâ he said, turning his gaze back on you, chuckling. âbut at least we get an opportunity to stay at a fancy hotel, get all dolled up and then partyâ you pointed out, carefully pulling out your outfit from your suitcase. you had picked a dark blue long dress, that had the back open. you had picked it because it reminded you of the yellow dress from âhow to lose a guy in 10 daysâ, which, by the way, seonghwa found absolutely gorgeous. in fact, he chose the color of his outfit to match yours.
âvery true, the hotel is amazingâ he said, turning back to the window âi didnât know what to expect when you told me it was in the middle of literally nowhereâ. you laughed in response as you exclaimed âright?!â, before entering the bathroom to get dressed.
a few moments later, seonghwa found himself having difficulty to breathe due to how gorgeous and breathtaking you looked. the dress fit your body like a glove, and when you did a little turn to show it from the back, he had to literally control himself from crossing the friendship boundary. âso? how do i look hwa?â you asked him, a little nervous. seonghwa walked towards you, holding your hand as he twirled you around, before setting both of his hands on your waist. his eyes, unbeknownst to you, were holding so much love and devotion, yet you failed to realize it. âif i was the bride iâd kick you out for stealing my spotlightâ he said, earning a chuckle as you cupped his cheek. he unconsciously leaned in to the palm of your hand, wanting more of your touch. âthank you hwa, you look mesmerizing tooâ you said. you both stared at each other, too lost on the small intimate moment you were having.
in seonghwaâs opinion, it ended too soon, as you broke away the moment you started blushing intensely. âcome, iâll do your hairâ you said, fake coughing as you led him to your shared bed for the night. you climbed on the bed and sat behind him, and seonghwa was sure he died and went to heaven. he unconsciously closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling of your fingers combing his long hair into a half ponytail. once you were done, you straightened your dress and grabbed his hand.
âready to go?â you asked, smiling. he nodded.
âââ
the ceremony was beautiful, and even the vows you and seonghwa swore would be questionable ended up being terribly adorable. once the groom finished what he had to say, seonghwa whispered in your ear âcute, but i still think this is doomedâ, making you laugh silently in your place while simultaneously getting side eyed by other guests.
as the night went by, you found yourself in the need of fresh air from all the intense partying inside the venue. as if seonghwa read your mind, he pulled you from the dancing crowd and led you to the garden with your hands intertwined.
âthank you, i was starting to feel overwhelmedâ you thanked him once outside. he nodded, smiling âi could see it on your faceâ.
âyou always seem to know what iâm thinking about, hwa. youâre amazingâ you said, in a low voice that only he could hear from his place next to you. âof course, iâm the only exception, right?â he said. you nodded âyouâre also my only exception, y/nâ he added, now turning his body to face you entirely.
the garden was lit with tiny lights and candles all over the place, and thankfully the sky was clear enough you could see the stars. you could hear a slow dance playing in the background, belonging to the main venue where everyone watched the newlyweds waltz.
âwanna dance?â seonghwa asked, taking notice of the way your gaze switched from him to the main couple. you looked at him once again and smiled âi donât feel like going back so soon, can we dance here?â you asked. âof courseâ he answered, taking a better hold of your hand as his other wrapped around your waist, bringing you closer. funny, you didnât even realize you were still holding hands. it almost felt natural to you.
you slow danced to the faint music, and you could feel your heart beat louder and louder with each step. a strange feeling bubbled up on your chest, before lifting up your head from his chest to face him. he was already looking at you, making the feeling more intense. âhwa, can i ask you something?â you asked, earning a hum from him. âanythingâ.
âwhy am i your only exception?â you asked in a whisper. you saw the faint blush creeping on his cheeks as he sighed, thinking of different ways to approach the topic. âi think youâre the only one who has ever made me feel the way i feelâ he answered, deciding to just spill the truth he was yearning to say. âyouâre the only exception because you are the only one for meâ.
as soon as he finished saying that, his hands dropped to his sides, as he took a few steps back, giving you space. âiâm sorry i canât continue being your best friend, not when i feel the way i feel every time i see youâ, he said, loud enough for you to hear while averting his gaze.
yet you always managed to surprise him. he was sure you would feel disgusted, betrayed that your best friend of years suddenly viewed you in a different light. but instead, you approached him again, hugging him close and shaking your head. âi donât want to lose youâ you started saying, feeling the way he slowly and cautiously wrapped his arms around your waist. âbut also i would be a fool to ignore the butterflies in my stomach when you say such beautiful things. can you, i mean, can we give each other a chance?â you asked, voice trembling in fear of ruining it.
he cupped your face, thumb smoothing your right cheek. you realized that his stare held a lot more than you initially noticed, for how long did he look at you light that? for how long have you been dismissing his feelings? your questions subdued as he leaned closer, lips now only inches apart. he looked straight to your eyes, as if asking for your permission. you nodded, closing your eyes before his soft lips touched yours.
as cliche as it sounds, you felt like fireworks erupted inside of you. it just felt so right, so genuine and like nothing you experienced before. it felt like the first time you ever experienced love as a teenager, but now you were older and wiser. seonghwa wasnât just your best friend, he was also your only exception, the only one for you.
on seonghwaâs side, he further proved his point of being meant for each other.
#ateez headcanons#ateez imagines#ateez scenarios#ateez x reader#hongjoong x reader#seonghwa x reader#hongjoong imagines#hongjoong scenarios#hongjoong fluff#hongjoong headcanons#seonghwa imagines#seonghwa scenarios#seonghwa fluff#seonghwa headcanons#ateez fluff
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sweet smile â sam winchester
cw : fluff, gn!reader, detective!reader, transfem!sam, barely any dialogue, mentions of death/violence, not proofread, also definitely not my best writing but that's okay, no y/n, 1.9K words. requested !
summary : it's almost startling how quickly you develop a small crush on the most gorgeous fbi agent you've ever seen when she comes in to help solve your case.
on nearly any occasion, sam stays out of the local police stations during cases as much as she can. and usually, with her pantsuit and fake fbi badge, the police are as glad to see her go as she is to leave. but sitting next to you and your meticulously constructed evidence board, she doesnât mind spending extra time here.
youâre the lead detective on this case, and sam finds you both sweet, cute, and clearly very intelligent. samâs pretty sure that she and dean are dealing with a wraith this time around, but even without the knowledge of the supernatural, youâve managed to compile an impressive amount of evidence and string it together in a way that actually makes sense. she thinks that this might be the first time that normal detective work might actually lead her and dean straight to the killer.
so, sam sent dean off to go check out one of the crime scenes while she stays here, listening intently as you carefully explain each and every detail of your evidence board. she can tell that youâve gathered enough information to actually start seeking out suspects. of course, youâre still unable to fully explain the cause of death, but otherwise, sam canât help but be highly impressed with your work.
not only does she get extra help in searching for official suspectsâyouâve cleared her a spot on your desk across from your own seat and offered your help doing researchâbut sheâs also blessed with the pleasant sight and sounds of you explaining everything to her. youâre rather endearing as you talk, and the blinds in the office are open wide, letting the mid-morning sunlight cast a bright line along your profile each time your head tilts to a certain angle.
she gives you a sweet smile when you're done explaining. any other day, with any other person, sheâd give a kind, polite smile. thereâs a difference. and, of course, you wouldnât know that, but the smile sends your heart racing anyway.
âthank you, detective,â she says, sincere and unrushed. now that youâve given her all the information that you have, she doesnât need to stay any longer. but she wants to take you up on your offer. she wants to sit right across from you on your small desk and whatever excuse she can get to keep watching the way your fingers fiddle with the hem of your shirt or hear your impassioned voice as you do everything you can to be sure that the victimâs families receive closure and justice.
âof croup se,â you smile back, hoping that you at least look like your composure remains intact. internally, youâre undeniably freaking out about how absolutely gorgeous she is. âthank you for making the trip over to help us out with this case. i really canât help but feel like weâre missing something big. this cause of death is driving me crazy.âÂ
normally, you hate the feds. but sheâs so pretty and sincere that you canât do anything but love the fact that sheâs here. and she smiles at you in the most lovely way that it makes your cheeks heat up.
âjust doing our job,â she says. her smile isnât quite as life-threatening this timeâyour heart only skips a beat or twoâbut she says those words like sheâs less concerned about the job part than the part where sheâs helping you out. from the way her partner acted early, it seems like they donât really spend all that much time with the local police on cases. which means sheâs staying longer than necessary, for one reason or another. and she says that sheâs just doing her job when her job doesnât require her to be here and looking at you like youâre the reason. it almost feels like sheâs flirting. you might go into cardiac arrest if thatâs the case.
you tell yourself that sheâs too beautiful to be staying behind just for you. then she grabs the chair from you that you picked for her so that you donât have to carry it any longer than necessary. and then when she sits across from you and her long legs keep brushing against yours in the cramped space, she looks up from her computer with a pretty, bashful smile and a sweet, murmured apology.
making eye contact with her is like that tiny, pleased, and slightly childish rush one gets when quickly running a finger through a candleâs flame. itâs simple, not some overwhelming surge of exhilarating adrenaline, but you find this to be just as effective in making you feel something for her. itâs softer, like the melting of wax and slight singe on a fingertip. itâs unwise to keep putting skin to flame, even for a split moment, but her gaze doesnât burn, you just know it. itâs too kind and well-meaning, so you figure it isnât fire, but something akin. some sort of warmth and light that couldnât possibly do any harm. youâll keep locking eyes with her because everything about her feels safe and pure.
her presence is a lovely contrast to the gore and death and confusion of this case. funny, sheâs been thinking the same about you. neither of you are unused to violence or dead bodies, but a pretty face to ease the eyes never hurts.
itâs a bit hard to concentrate with her right there, but you make do. thereâs enough motivation in being some sort of help to her.Â
the shadows cast by the open blinds shift as the sun rises to its noontime peak in the sky. itâs one p.m. before you know it, then youâre hungry and most definitely distracted by her pretty face.
you softly shut your laptop to subtly grab her attention, your gaze already waiting for hers when she looks up. your lips quirk up into a light smile, tired of frowning at police records and endless files and reports. there must be something in the air today, because the moment you have her attention, you rest your chin on your palm and manage not to break eye contact as you speak.
âiâm hungry,â you say simply, âwe should catch lunch and a break.â
sam feels guilty. you look at her with this soft sort of hope, as if it would make a difference in your day to spend more time with her. thereâs not really any expectation along with that hope and sweetness, like even just being friendly with each other while sheâs in town is perfectly nice enough for you.
but sam knows that being around her any more than that could never be good for you. youâre looking to her for a sense of reprieve within all this death and stress of the case. she understands; sheâd love to have lunch with you, preferably somewhere outside the precinct so that it can feel a little more personal. itâs just that sheâs convinced that she most certainly isnât any sort of real respite. sure, she smiles at you when she thinks youâre being cute, but her presence here represents a worse, more violent, and darker truth about your case, about the world that she hopes you never come to know of.
and yet, the look in your eyes is enough to persuade her that lunch canât do any harm.
âthat sounds like a good idea,â she smiles. she should be allowed to push down that constant guilt every once and a while, right? she hopes you suggest eating somewhere else.
you have to keep your smile from growing too wide. you hope itâs not too much to suggest eating somewhere else. âthereâs a great cafe down the street, as long as youâre okay with the cityâs best sandwiches.â
sam thinks itâs quite adorable the way that you come across shy and forward all at once. you look bashful while you speak, but are playful and simple without stumbling over your words. it gives her confidence, lets her wonder if flirting with you would make your cheeks heat up.
âi definitely wonât say no to the cityâs best sandwiches with the cityâs best detective,â she says, closing her own laptop. it was a bit of a fight to maintain eye contact throughout the whole line; her felt confidence doesnât really remedy her inherent awkwardness. but she made it through her little quip and indeed, sheâs pretty sure that sheâs succeeded in making you a bit flustered.
âyou flatter me,â you refute after a moment, trying to sound cool, but laughing awkwardly. if you werenât lost in her damn gorgeous eyes, youâd cringe at yourself. she just finds it endearing.
âiâm serious,â she says, and the way her voice turns all sincere proves just that, âyouâve done some really great detective work. half the time when we show up, the police have almost nothing to go off of. usually itâs not their fault, but most places iâve seen would have been about ten times more clueless than you are.â
heat rises up your neck, but you canât help but feel proud to hear it. she sounds far too sincere to just be flirting. âthank you,â you murmur, smiling softly.
she pulls on the brown knee-length overcoat that she wore when she first came in, and youâd probably start drooling over how good she looks in it if you stared a second longer. so you pull on your own jacket and walk into the crisp november air with her.
the walk is short, just across the street and a few businesses down to the right. even so, you think youâd like to keep walking with her, maybe do this sometime again. it feels like wishful thinking, but maybe youâll have another chance before she goes. itâs startlingly easy to imagine holding her hand or sharing an umbrella or fixing her scarf. sheâs not even wearing one, but you know sheâd look all soft and cozy if she did.
in the cafe, she orders a coffee that sounds nice and a simple caprese sandwich. tomatoes arenât really any good at this time of year, but when her eyes skim the menu, they skip over the options with meats and you wonder if sheâs vegetarian or if she just prefers not to eat deli meats.
when you sit, you call her agent, and she says to just call her sam. it rolls off your tongue so nicely, makes your cheeks feel a little warm. you insist that, if thatâs the case, sheâd better call you by your first name as well. when she does, you nearly choke on your hot drink. if you werenât aware of this little workplace crush on her, youâd think youâre beginning to develop a fever.
sitting and talking with her, sharing looks out the window to people watch or sharing looks to secretly think of how pretty the other is, and wasting time to avoid going back is all soft and sweet with her. considering your nerves, itâs much easier than expected, too.
unfortunately, you canât dawdle forever. she walks back with you, but doesnât sit. instead, she gathers her things and tells you with a regretful smile that she has to meet back up with her partner to continue on their end of the investigation. you donât show it too much, smiling back and nodding in understanding, but youâre certainly sad to see her go.
maybe sheâll be back.
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Tarot Reading: Do Skz want kids? How many? Maknae Line
Finally the long awaited continuationđđť
Han
He does for sure but he's not very sure on how many, and when. There's moments that he's really into the whole love story and baby fever and wants a big wild happy chaotic family with 5 kids or something, then there's monents he just welcomes the idea and thinks its a nice thing for the future and would like to have a NORMAL amount of kids, like 2, one girl one boy, and then theres moments where all of a sudden he gets very hesitant or doesn't think about it at all for the forseeable future as he's so focused on his work and gaining more success and going higher in his career. So i guess he's like most young people in his age regarding the topicđ
Felix
He wants kids FOR SURE! And im seeing him also wanting 2 maybe, so they're don't get lonely and have each others back. Im hearing, 3 is a crowd, and 1 is so lonely, 2 is just perfect. Not seeing much else there.
Seungmin
He really, really wants to have kids. I swear if that guy comes out with news for getting married or being married any time in the upcoming years i won't be surprised at all, his vibes is one if a married man in almost all of the readings i do. So he really wants to be a father im seeing and im seeing that he would prefer to have just one child he can put all his focus on. I think he really wants to be able to focus well on his child and sees it as a "project". He really wants to build a good, capable human being thats gonna be a wonderful addition to society. And he thinks he can do that better if its just one kid he has to focus on and wants to do his best as a father and gibe his most and feels like if he were to have more kids he would be able to give 100% to either one of them.
I.N
He definitely wants kids in the future, im seeing 3, maybe he would even have more if his wife was down for it or if they could adopt. I thinks he's the only one (if i remember correctly) that wouldn't mind adopting and might even try in the future if his wife isn't down for birthing so many kids. Or if she doesn't want to give birth at all, im seeing him being totally down for adopting and it not being a big deal for him at all.
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embracing the vampire autism i have going on apparently means combing through 500 vtm books and making notes on the lore and contradictions in the lore and potential implications and what was intended to be taken from some things vs things that actually make sense in context/with better research and sorting through what was included for mechanical gameplay vs worldbuilding reasons and combining all of this + the information intentionally left vague so i can form my own ideas into an amalgam of schrodingers canon with which to try to figure out what i personally tend to view as canon in-universe and then still figuring out how to insert the contradictory information/alternate interpretations in as like. character opinion/intentional misinformation/etc.
#The upside to this is i actually really like combing through a bunch of information and sorting through it. in theory.#Lowkey kind of house of leaves/arg feeling#the downside of this is i am being So Autistic about it and it is going to take So Long and also#my desire to be Accurate and the fact that this encompasses so many times and places#means that i am going to want to do So Much only tangentially related researchhelp#and there's already So Many vtm/dark ages books even without getting into the other world of darkness stuff#which at this rate i am probably going to want to get at least somewhat into#because it can canonically intersect with/affect vampire shit at times#mypost#'embracing the vampire autism' i say. as if i havent been visibly careening toward this particular collision for A While#it first i was like. no this isnt the autism. at least not any more than usual. i've always Liked this#this is.... a normal amount of liking something. sure.#.....fuck.#and the issue is. i have. other things to be doing. but here we are.#and instead im like. that unhinged conspiracy board meme from always sunny but with vtm lore#attempting to sort all of it out coherently and borderline comprehensively#which is. kind of fitting for people trying to but together all the different lore and conspiracies in-universe tbh#and kind of reminds me of when i first started researching the occult as a younger teenager#with the like. mountains of information and different loosely interrelated subjects to sift through with various degrees of sketchiness#nostalgic. anyway
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im having fun
#art#dp fanart#dp#danny phantom#dp x dc#dc x dp#jason todd#im having. thoughts#just. lazurus water being stinky ectoplasm#potatoe keep ur style consistent challenge#drawing with a mouse sure is an experience#I spend 3x the amount of time I would normally take to draw something#but I enjoy it nonetheless#ms paint my beloved#I personally prefer the auâs that have Jason being just a normal dude that has been cursed by sewage water ecto#zombie man plagued by the sauce#Danny being around literally just eats away at the nasty but I like to think it isnât immediate#Jason gains nothing from this aside from marginally better anger management#maybe I could let him still have scary eyes#as a treat#potatoe rambles#HA WAIT#Danny loves nasty burger#now he gets some homemade nasty ecto â˘ď¸#that was bad#Iâm tired#Iâll go to bed now#red hood
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Man, Curt's got internalized homophobia so bad that for the first 3 months of their relationship he was convinced Owen was straight before Owen had to scream it in his face that he was gay and then Curt spent another 3 months still calling himself straight to Owen's face and Owen's so sick of it like Curt you 2 are actively fucking EVERY TIME YOU SEE EACH OTHER. AND YOU ARE VERY CLEARLY INTO IT. YOU ARE NOT STRAIGHT SIR STOP LYING TO YOURSELF
internalized homophobia agent curt mega ily
#spies are forever#tin can bros#tin can brothers#owen carvour#agent curt mega#curtwen#curt would be like âim not gayâ and owen would be like âcurt you're actively sucking my dickâ#because they're just like that#idk something about curt just being so sure he's not gay for the longest time is interesting to me#even then i don't think he would've ever called himself gay#i don't think curt's very proud of his sexuality he just sorta accepts it even tho he doesn't want to#owen needs to help him get to a place of coping with it#because it's actively harming their relationship and owen's sick of it#because idk this guy who owen likes and who he's got some amount of a relationship with is convinced that not only he's straight but owen i#too#and curt needs to be convinced that both he and owen aren't straight and that that's ok#and i think that never fully goes away until owen is lost#and it's one of the reasons curt leaves owen#he's been with men other than owen for sure#but i do sometimes wonder if owen did feel disposable to curt#he knew curt got over his attempted heterosexuality#but it never felt as tho he embraced the queer side of him#and that if owen was gone he could just live a normal heterosexual life#but that's not the case and then owen dies and for the first time curt truly accepts his sexuality#because owen being gone only makes things worse#because he adores owen as a person and friend#and was genuinely in love with him#and then never fell in love again
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#it's about the intricate laws around social etiquette which basically boils down to corruption and nepotism#it's integral for rome to ever exist at all i tell you#and i knooow it's not that deep but agh. it's about contexts#<- prev thatâs why it Never made sense to me why Richard was like âyeah we donât care about your godly parentâ & gave jason theâ#rags-to-riches praetor story#like undoubtedly jason could have & Did work for his position considering his wholeâŚhand to hand combat with a tian in the war đ§#but also he was 100% a nepo baby primed since a toddler for the position idk why Richard would pretend otherwise yk
Rose I can't be normal about Rome, I'm so sorry for this essay I made but I needed to get this out of my head.
It would actually be great if he just leaned into the toddler priming thing, because that's the one thing that screams Roman culture. A child from an affluent family (in this case, the son of fucking Jupiter innit) would absolutely be groomed to become Praetor, but it's the corruption and nepotism which makes the Romans so interesting!
The way their corruption and nepotism works is absolutely systemized, it's an integral part of the administration. If we go by the Roman Republics system, which I'd argue is the only one we can use for Camp Jupiter and New Rome considering it's a bit difficult to use an administrative system that only exists in the context of rapid expansion and imperialism without said rapid expansion and imperialism, Jason would still have to work hard for his position. It would be easier for him compared to someone with a lower standing, but he'd still have to play all kinds of political games to get it.
You had to climb a career ladder, and win the people over to get elected to a higher magistrate. To win people over you'd have to drain your funds (and take out some loans) to invest in the public and make yourself recognizable, and of course it would help you a lot to have ancestors who were also successful magistrates. If you did have these successful magistrates in your family tree, it wasn't unusual to use their death masks part of your election campaign, like this guy did:
It's all about honour and prestige for the Romans, and powerful ancestors is a part of that. So basically, Jason would be a shoe-in for Consul (fuck richard, why did you call them Praetors, that's a different magistrateđ)
ANYWAY, if you wanted to get to the top you'd still need to go through the cursus honorum(ladder of offices), and start as a Quaestor, then go on to Aedil, then Praetor, and finally Consul. After Augustus they'd elect 20 Quaestors every year, (I think it was 16 before that but I'm not sure, I wrote a question mark in my notes lol) and only 2 of those could end up as Consul in the end, and considering these people put themselves into insane amounts of debt to get to Consul you can imagine the competition was intense. The way you earned back your money was through conquest and war trophies, which you could do by being praetor. So basically use everything you had and didn't have as Quaestor and Aedil, and earn it all back in the last stages. Following Julius Caesars political path will give you a pretty good idea of what a very successful run through the cursus honorum would look like.
Of course this system can't be the exact same in a fantasy book series for kids, I mean it's pretty unrealistic for a 16-yearold to get through all of those steps(you had to be like 30 to even START on the cursus honorum in real rome), and this is just the abridged version of how these things worked so I understand why we can't have an exact replica of the roman republic but I'd like for there to be something more than a few titles (THAT ARE WRONG)and a vague "we're more militant and strict than the greeks" because it would be cool world building, explain New Rome a bit more, and appeal to me personally lol.
I need to not think too deeply about how camp jupiter/new rome could function at all based on the roman republic/roman empire because by all accounts. It shouldn't function at all
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Everything âeyeâ hate
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#art#my art#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 demoman#team fortress demoman#demoman tf2#tavish finnegan degroot#yep it sure is him!#this piece was very experimental because Iâve never really attempted to paint digitally like this before#but I like how it turned out!#tw blood#almost forgot that one#ALSO this peice mainly focuses on his self-worth and how he views himself based on some of his voice lines#and I kinda feel like a lot of that stems from his missing eye#like how it isnât really normal compared to his peers if that makes sense?#I know this isnât really at all canon#but I feel like he thinks that if he had two normal eyes he wouldnât have bad self esteem and all his problems world be fixed#or something like that lol#iâll stop rambling now#I just like Demoman a normal amount :)
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okay last one. au where nothing goes wrong at all ever (a lie) and melia venam gay moment
#i like this game a normal amount (also a lie)#everyone should play now do it now please#pokemon rejuvenation#oh another thing about twitter. makes me sad i cant yell about things in the tags there like i always do because there are no tags there#if i wanted to id have to make it into a thread and im pretty sure people read those. so awful#i mean not that i say anything worthwhile here usually but still. no one reads this here. i could yell my thoughts if i had any#anyways about the au :] i have no idea how it would work#i have no thoughts ever at all i was just replaying the game and the one little line melia says at the picnic made me sad#the one where she says its her last day in gearen and asks the player to go with her to gdc#and then she just goes ah nevermind that was weird of me to ask#and no⌠wait come back⌠id love to go to gdc with you⌠:[#and thats where that idea came from. idk where the rest of it came from though i think ive been cursed or somethinv#and also something something her saying shes afraid to go to gdc alone only for her to end up in the past also alone sometging something. ow#my thoughts are very coherent i promise (no they arent)
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âA king on a planet fallen and scorched by the flames of war,
a bandit on a planet where crystals and sand glitter right and left,
a scientist on a lonely planet that has long forgotten how to shine,
by some turn of fate,
all three of them were watching the same falling star.â
#hypnosis microphone#hypnosis mic#hypmic#hypmic fanart#stella au#ramuda amemura#hypmic ramuda#hypnosis mic ramuda#gentaro yumeno#hypmic gentaro#hypnosis mic gentaro#dice arisugawa#hypmic dice#hypnosis mic dice#â§ame art#god i love stella#made this bc i wanted to draw something i can put on my mousepad since the one i have rn is boring#and it just HAD to be fling posse because i like them a normal amount#ill make sure to post how it looks irl once i get it#id like to draw these designs in more detail so more stella posse art in the future?? perhaps???
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Attempted to do a photoshoot for the one and only cosplay I'll probably ever do and. These are the only pictures I got that matter
#there were a lot of blurrier ones that were completely incomprehensible lmao#i did also get some decent serious ones but. idk if i'll post them/might save them for halloween or something. we'll see#i dont like taking pics of myself and i dont like sharing my face on the internet. it just so happens this particular character has bangs#and also sunglasses so it works out#nicholas d wolfwood#cosplay#trigun#rosie posting#cats of tumblr#i love my girl so so much. but lord she love gettin all in my business when im tryna do shit ykwim#taking pictures or drawing or whatever tf. it dont matter. she must be in the way <3#i went to put my clothes away and like. sure it's a relatively cheap suit but it still cost a good amount#and this goddamn cat is swiping and pouncing on my clothes as im tryna put em away like đđđđ GIRL#anyway pretend ww has uhh curly hair. and literally no jawline. and also a normal/fat waist. and a thick ass neck jesus lordt#that's what my ww looks like <3 sowwy that's just how im built lmao#oh and the wrong nose. i have the wrong nose for every anime character đ#bitch ass half white half pinoy got me out here lookin like a gotdamned Freak lol <3#the absurd amount of cookies in the past week probs hasnt been helping#i live alone and shit's hard yo đđ#this also means i took all my goddamn photos myself and thus. the excessive cat bombing <3
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gonna be so honest marcilleâs Thing About Death is infinitely more interesting to me than her dynamic with falin
#like donât get me wrong I do like them. but theyâre fairly normal all things considered#marcilleâs quest to make everyone live an equal amount of time is FASCINATING.#bc like. I donât even think that sheâs Wrong per se#sure living a thousand years is a crazy burden to put on someone#but also sheâs right about the deep systemic inequality of the lands stemming in part from long lived races (but especially elves who have#2x the lifespan of even gnomes) being able to construct/enforce dynasties in a way short lived races simply arenât#but what the fuck are you gonna do to combat that that isnât infinitely worse. messing with someoneâs lifespan is. bad#n obviously so is segregation thatâs a part of how dunmeshiâs world got so messed up in the first place#especially in regards to demihumans (canonically a pseudoscientific category created to oppress The Other)#there is a deep deep sociopolitical rift that lifespans cause in dunmeshiâs world#n that IN COMBINATION with the simple fact that marcille will outlive everyone sheâs ever loved????#I can completely understand why she was driven to go for something so extreme#she was definitely Wrong yk. but what even is right here#well. I guess sheâll have a long time. to think about all that#sanders bullshit
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dude I was just looking through the 'daigo dojima' tag and literally everything is you. every last photo is you. I mean thank u for providing but holy FUCK man. you need to be studied by scientists
i just got prescribed bupropion if you wanna start there
#snap chats#the MOST COURAGE THE COWARDLY D0G ASS LAUGH I LET OUT THO LMAOOOO#anyway you gotta be looking at most relevant or something cause i been slackin like a mfer with posting art#this happens whenever i start making fanart for any fandom tho. aka fanart for one character#i liken myself to a nuke tbh the second i get attached to a character/s its mental illness for two years straight#Big W for people who like my art but the worst day of their lives if not sorry the chara you like will only be drawn by me now HAHAAA#if you REALLY wanna see some bullshit im p sure most of the yamcha and/or tien tag is still me LMAOOO#been forever since i posted about them but i also posted about them A Lot#im willing to bet three cents the sawashiro/arakawa/masato tags look similar in that My City#but yeh anyway. i like daigo dojima a normal amount. many such cases with characters i like really.
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UHM. so i read the chapter where paragon and vivacia meet!! and
#robin hobb when i catch you. ooooooooooh when i catch you. its gonna be slow. its gonna be painful. i hope you know that.#i had to skip forward a little and skim some pages to make sure that they survive bc i literally do not think i would be able to handle not#knowing. but ARE YOU KIDDING ME. ARE YOU KIDDING ME. ARE YOU ACTUALLY KIDDING ME.#idk man im just tired. like why are these my fun books. they're not fun. im terrified. im shitting my pants. actively. its 1 am now like#this was supposed to be an enjoyable go to bed early night đđ#fuck me. okay. guys ill go read an amount of pages EQUAL TO ANOTHER BOOK to get to the point in this book where the characters that were#happy get to be happy again. i guess.#like im on page 500 i peaked ahead to where i had shoved my bookmark. there was althea and brashen. PAGE 760 SOMETHING. THATS 250 PAGES.#LIKE THAT'S THE LENGTH OF ANOTHER BOOK. LIKE JUST A NORMAL YA BOOK. WHAT ARE WE DOING.#im gonna go insane i have a 10 am tomorrow................ no................... not like this.............................................#and i thought burrich pulling fitz' corpse out of the ground and cradling it was bad!! hah. hahaha.#rote#liveship traders#books
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Hey do you have some visual refs for keir. I ask smoothly for no reason.
eyes emoji... anyway ya here are some snaps of how he looks in game (ignore how bad his hairline looks with this mod i cant change it i have no object permanence. it just needs to be long and slightly messy usually half up. he should have monolid eyes which should be brighter and more yellow than in game. needs slightly unsettling bird of prey type vibes.)
and hereâs how i draw him :)
grey streaks are optional and with the kaddis you can just do fucking whatever, i mimic the mod i have and extend it a bit. little braids in his hair not necessary but he likes them. thick eyebrows, full mouth, broad shoulders, very angular jaw, nose fairly flat and wide maybe a little crooked. he has just slightly pointed ears and the right one is damaged. he is a reaver so i occasionally draw him with little teefies
like so. love how the speech bubble makes it look like he is saying this. anyway final note that i hope goes without saying!! do not whitewash my boy he is asian and has monolid eyes and light brown skin. hereâs a helpful screenshot where u can compare my hawke familyâs skintones in game to someone like avelineâs
uhh thatâs it! <3
#hope this isnt overkill i love to explain and its good for me to have something like this on hand myself#keir hawke#anyone want to make use of these references... for content of my boy... i would be a normal amount of thrilled for sure#i do not have any outfit references except the game#if in doubt use arms of the river dane or rogue champion armour#if i want to have more fun with it i just grab fur and leather refs off like the last kingdom or smth
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Yumeichiya Art Book - Sakura Kinoshita & Kazuko Higashiyama
#tactics#tactics manga#ăżăŻăăŁăŻăš#dothscans#theoretically there are like 40-something more of these on the way#but i am notoriously bad at finishing projects#they are all scanned at least though!!#gosh i had to edit out an embarrassing number of glue stains on this one. I'm a bad debinder. ah well#btw not numbering the pages cause im not 100% sure i didnt get them out of order when debinding lol. this *might* be page 7#ok enough tag rambling. time to spend a normal amount of time staring at his foot!#feet tag
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