#this is what happens when you hyperfixate on a tv show that's fandom has been and gone for almost ten years

[micahdotgov]

im going to be honest the only reason my blog isnt true detective themed is because i cant think of a good url that isnt already taken

[ckret2]

I found one of my other old masterposts so I'm taking the opportunity to finally make a pinned post, prioritized based on what people ask me about most often:

I love spam likes/reblogs. I love comments on years-old fics/posts. If you ever think "this fic is too old for me to like/reply/reblog" YOU ARE WRONG. Does a parent stop loving their baby when it's 20 years old?

Where do I find all the things you write? On my Ao3 or in my #my writing tag! A few things on my blog haven't been posted to AO3 yet. My really old fics are on fanfiction.net.

What about your art? In my #my art tag, but buddy, I only create art to lure in fresh readers. Please read my writing too.

Where's your big Gravity Falls Bill Cipher fic? Right here! Also, every chapter has a link to the masterpost at the top! Also also, every post about the fic is under #bill goldilocks cipher. The fic's not going on Ao3 until TBOB is released this summer.

Where are all your Godzilla fics? Right here! Also, almost all of them have links to the masterpost, too. Nearly all of them are on Ao3.

When are you returning to editing In Short Supply/writing Rodorah/writing radiosnake? When the stars align (and when I'm not hyperfixated on a different fandom). You can find my posts about ISS under #in short supply.

When are you reuploading all the broken BtSDLb images? When I stop having ADHD long enough to spend a day individually uploading over a thousand pictures. I've never had access to the mirror on MSPFA, somebody else made it.

How do I find anything else on your blog? I tag everything and cross-link posts as often as I can. Tumblr search is terrible but tumblr tags work just fine. I try to make it as easy as possible.

Are you taking writing commissions? Not right now, unless you happen to have an idea about exactly what I want to write in the exact fandom I'm currently interested in.

Are you accepting tips without commissions? If you wanna send one!

Can I hire you to write for a big fancy legitimate TV show/movie/video game/comic? Yes. (... Hey, doesn't hurt to hope somebody'll ask.)

[mister-tom-a-dildo-lover]

Just a random thought I had.

I've been spending a lot of time recently going over what I know about myself and my behaviors and the way I have existed my entire life, and have been slowly coming to terms with the fact that I probably have undiagnosed Autism(and ADHD) and I will never have the money to get a proper diagnosis for this because being able to get to just a regular doctor is a luxury that I do not have.

As such, I have been putting all of my interests into perspective and thinking more clearly about the characters I like in the pieces of fiction I like and trying to draw similarities between them and how they behave, compared to me and how I behave.

This brought me to Tom Riddle, clearly. I've always been big into HP and it's influenced my fandom journey heavily. I've gotten into fandoms just because someone wrote a crossover with Harry Potter in their ship.

So, with that in mind, what is similar between me and Tom Riddle?

The special interests.

The obsession with collecting unique items.

The intense hyperfixation on his interests that causes him to monologue for ages about them in relation to himself.

Being exceptional at hiding how he really feels behind a mask to trick people into thinking he's normal like them.

Learning the right words to say to get by even if he thinks they're foolish or nonsensical.

Struggling with understanding emotions either from himself or others, and misconstruing what others are feeling based on his limited understanding.

Making his whole personality revolve around the Thing he's good at(Dark Magic).

Having no tolerance for other people because they cannot keep up with him.

Now that I am forced to come to terms with these things about myself, and even more things, thanks to a lot of help from others, I can't not review everything I'd ever shown interest in. Like, all of my favorite characters end up falling along the lines of depressed character, anxious character, or Autism-coded character. Or all 3 in a character. And I have all these issues and technically should be medicated for some but can't afford it.

And the thing is, I have considered similar characters to Tom, wondering if I'm projecting onto his type of character.

I like Hannibal, the TV show. My favorite character is Will Graham. And would you happen to know that he is depressed, anxious, and very Autism-coded? But the character in Hannibal, that Tom is most like, is actually Hannibal himself. And the ship for Hannigram feels very similar at times to the Harrymort ship, which is why a lot of people ship both.

But if I was to line Tom up beside Hannibal and consider what I know about both of them in relation to my undiagnosed Autism, Tom is the one who feels like he could be Autistic. Hannibal does not. Even with his special interests and masking and monologuing, and all their similarities on the Potentially Autistic List, Hannibal doesn't give me the same vibe. Will does, but not Hannibal.

So, I don't think this is me forcing the 'misunderstood Autistic villain trope' onto Tom. I think it's just that I've gained a new perspective on myself, and it has forced me to reevaluate everything I know about who I am and what I like and what draws me to those things in the first place.

It's kind of like how I liked Severus Snape as a character, long before I realized that I was depressed and that he was also depressed(I was 10 when I started the HP books). Like, the day I finally realized that I had depression(I was 17) and that wanting to kill myself and trying to are actually suicidal issues that I need help for, I thought of Snape. And a lot of things clicked.

Gaining a new perspective on yourself gives you new perspectives on everything else.

I am interested in pursuing these new thoughts in fanfic form in the future, ngl. And my reads of Tom going forward are going to be a lot more nuanced.

[alexwilltellyouthings]

Entirely self indulgent rating post about the top 10 TV shows that made me fucking insane for some reason

10. Sense8

God, this was so good. Such a blessing. I saw part of the cast during a Pride Parade and it's one of my favorite memories. I felt every possible emotion with this show, I love it.

9. The Last of Us

This is kind of a cheat, because the obsession comes from the games, but it is what it is. It's one of the few games that had a big impact on me and I closely relate it to my relationship with my dad. Can't wait to cry my heart out at season 2.

8. Good Omens

It's a given, isn't it? That stupid angel with his stupid demon and their stupid God. GRRRAAWW. A lot of thoughts and feelings came from the fandom, I have to point out. It's been very nice.

7. The Umbrella Academy

I have the first issue of the comics autographed by Gerard Way!! I mean, yes, it's because I'm a MCR fan, but it became even more precious after I got into the show. I'm rewatching right now, preparing for the last season. I'll be a mess when I say goodbye to them. Can't even really think about it too hard or I'll cry right now.

Continues under the cut

6. Our Flag Means Death

LISTEN THIS CHANGED EVERYTHING TO ME. What do you mean we can have a show THIS queer? It's all I want now. I ate it up. I smiled so much. I wanted this so badly and had no idea.

5. Interview with the Vampire

Feels like it should be top 3 honestly but I'll get there. This is also a cheat, I've been reading the Vampire Chronicles since I was like 15. Growing up with Anne Rice probably messed me up but hey at least I have great taste. And seeing them on screen? The way they made it BETTER? And Lestat?? Who has been haunting me for 15 years on and off??? And the second season and their reunion and and and?????????? I'm STILL insane about them and will be forever, I'm afraid.

4. Doctor Who

Listen. Listen. Okay. Yeah. What can I say? If you get into it, you're doomed. And I have been doomed for 10 years at least. I stopped watching for a while and got back last year, and it hit me all over again. I love this dumbass genius alien in a way that's calm, even. Just a permanent part of who I am now.

3. The Untamed

The year was 2022, it had been a while since I had a proper fixation and I didn't think it would happen with this danmei live-action, but then came Wei Wuxian. Guys, if I tell you I fell in love. Couldn't stop thinking about him. Everyday I was plagued by his smile and red ribbon and tragic backstory, yadayadayada. I really like other characters too, and their stories, but WWX did something to me that I still don't quite understand.

2. Queer as Folk (US)

This was a looong time ago and it didn't really persist over time like the others, but it was my first actual obsession. I was clinically insane over these gays. I had no one to talk to about them, so for every episode I wrote several pages of notes to comment to my (only) friend at school the next day, the poor thing. It was pretty much all I talked about because I spent EVERY MINUTE we had to talk going over the notes and explaining the episode. Like, between classes, during breaks, everything. Months of that. She held on firmly because she was a good friend, but I'm aware it must've been terrible. Like I said, insane.

1. Dead Boy Detectives

Maybe I'm putting this up here because it's my current hyperfixation? Maybe. But I don't think I have felt something hit as strongly as this since QaF over there. This time I can participate in fandom so I don't need to write every thought I have because it's all a big talk anyway, but I'm still pretty much having those thoughts all the time for *checks notes* nearly three months. I'm writing more than I have in years. I'm back at Tumblr after I don't know how long. I'm staring at GIFs over and over like I have the fucking time for that. I'm distracted at work daily. I talk about it in therapy. I have the main cast's notifications on. I'm getting involved in fandom discourse sometimes even knowing I shouldn't. It's a nightmare. I love it. I love them.

If you read all of this, congrats! Now you know how my mind works, kinda!! I'm open to talk about any and all of these shows. It's amazing how they mess us up. It's also scary, but anyway.

[tiddiesoutwhenthetisout]

tag from @babyrdie and @greekmythologylover234 .

been a lot of tag games recently huh! thanks for remembering me 🤣

9 people you want to know better

i don't know enough people on here, but i'll be tagging @amnesiaa-on-ice @akhillaous @whorewhouse @naurumii @elnbnt @peggy-sue-reads-a-book

here are the questions to copy-paste:

three ships

first ship

last song

last tv show

currently reading

currently watching

currently eating

currently craving

my answers to them are under the cut so only those who are interested will be reading it (because i'll be yapping) lol

three ships

- patrochilles (duh; probably going to be my favorite, if i'm honest)

- kavetham (admits this semi-shamefully because the rest of the fandom is ass-- but i've left it. glad i did because the recent toxic community will never do me any good. i stressed, i die. simple. was a huge hyperfixation for a year or so though.)

- vashwood (it's been a while, but i really got obsessed with them and the show. watched 1997 once, stampede 3 times, not inclusive of the scattered episodes)

first ship

tbh no idea. it may or may not be solomon and saya from blood+ (great show great show) but i was around 7 when this happened and was just tagging along with whatever my sister had to say about things like these? i'm not a super shippy person either-- i'm not big on these things and certainly a lot less when i was younger. didn't have a lot of interest in couples prolly bc i had no idea what difference it had with friendship. just that you kiss and fuck or something. and i thought that was weird, or well, nothing much to it.

i guess you could say that the first pairing i've ever wanted to defend was zuko and katara from ATLA 🤣 nowadays i understand mai and zuko's relationship and i think it's pretty sweet, but back then i was fixated on zutara chemistry so whee🕺

last song

i haven't been playing music recently since i've been over at my partner's, but "done for" from epic the musical has been playing in my head since i woke up so there's that lol

last tv show

we were looking through netflix for an "easy" show to watch for dinner and got through 2 episodes of the exploding kittens show 🤣 played the game a lot when we got it, plus fond memories of things that happened whilst prompted us to check it out. it's an american tv show i guess, and i've never really vibed with those so it was alright, i guess. the kitties were cute.

currently reading

nothing. finished madeline miller's circe 3 days ago or so, though. my odyssey reading has been suspended for 2 weeks now but i guess it's because i'm pretty much kept up on the plot from randomly reading shit about it on the internet? i'm generally more of a "how did the story go?" person when i get into a book unless i become super obsessed with it. then, i'll dive into the nuances of text and its analysis. which hasn't been happening recently. i'll probably be balls-deep in academic text soon considering i haven't been a good student (our research adviser told us to start doing our thesis papers over the summer holiday so the process will be smoother... guess i'll be disappointing the prof who actually likes me ✊)

currently watching

nothing. finished castlevania (as well as the released season of nocturne) last month and i think that's my quota for shows for a while lol.

currently eating

fast food because the rain started pouring so hard. in time for lunch or so. it was a sign from the lord to spend and have a good time because the world might end tomorrow or something.

currently craving

the other items on the menu i didn't order- kidding lmao. a calzone for some reason, as well as a fizzy drink i usually get from a local cafe run by a nice old lady and youth on the drinks. ok, now i want her pesto sandwich.

ight i'll just eat now brb

[thenotebookwizard]

She-Ra | A Fanboy's Tale

The odd story of how I ended up in the She-Ra fandom. Because I would have put money down on that not ever having happened, but here I am.

So, to frame this story - a few things you should know about me.

My (main) job is Professional Adult™ - which is to say, I teach life skills to folk with neurodivergence, physical disability, and mental illness. I love my job. It lets me be a disability advocate. It lets me work with amazing people. It lets me discover, explore, and understand the world a little better every day. It lets me teach things I am very good at and learn things I am not. And it forces me to examine myself a lot.

I don't watch much TV. Or many movies. Anxiety about things. Lack of time. Lack of interest. Even fewer things I watch are cartoons. There are some older cartoons I love, but I don't really watch many cartoons. Not because they're bad or aren't entertaining or I have a prejudice against the form. Just - usually - I'm not exposed to ones I like.

Or they hit on the thing that makes me really wary of TV shows and movies these days. Which is - I love unironically heroic characters. I am so tired of the gray-area, morally compromised characters. I am tired of gritty, the bad guys win, the good guys have to be bad guys to win, the antiheroes, the Walter Whites (I loathe that show. And that character. It's awful.) Game of Thrones and ASOIAF. (Terrible people. Doing terrible things. For terrible reasons.)

I have worked with some families for more than a decade. Close to two decades, in some cases. Parents who needed to learn things to teach their kids. Kids with neurodivergence who needed someone to be able to fight for them at school when the parents didn't know the right code words and the laws. Siblings and niblings and adopted clans have all asked for my help over the years.

One such family has three kids, two parents and a bunch of adopted aunts/uncles. They are amazing people. Supportive. Accepting. Creative. They work hard, play hard, and find joy in ways I never have been able to.

The oldest kid loved Stephen Universe. They wrote fic. Drew fanart.

The oldest kid is autistic. Some social rules - are hard for them. Understanding the vagaries of fandom culture was just as hard. We never did find out what they did wrong (maybe it was their gemsona. Maybe it was a fic pairing. Maybe it was a youtube ramble. We really don't know.) But they did or said something that got a faction of the SU fandom riled up at them.

This is not an indictment of that fandom. I've been in fandom long enough to know that you can't blame all for a few. These few did some real damage, though. Threats. Mockery. Told my student to kill themselves. Slurs. Online stalking. Doxxing. Threatening phone calls. Threatening letters. Glitter bombs. False allegations called into their school. To police. Their home was vandalized. Their cars were vandalized to the point they were totaled.

They had to move. Both parents had to get new jobs. My student did not graduate from their high school. They were home schooled. They did not go to college. They did not get a job. They went into residential treatment for a year and some change. They have not yet recovered.

So when the youngest kid found She-Ra and the Princesses of Power a year or two ago and dove in with a powerful hyperfixation, their mother called me up in a blind panic. She could not go through it again.

She paid me to watch the show. To explore the fandom. To read the fic. To do what I do as a fandom person online.

So I did. To be fair, I was pretty much coasting along at that point. Coming out of a breakup, a health crisis, and COVID. No real new fandoms in years. Poking at a fic here and there. Not active on tumblr anymore. One or two servers. But my skills were there - I knew how to find fandoms. Servers. Fics.

The youngest was thrilled to find out their Mom wasn't going to take their hyperfixation away. They sent me a list of fics to read. Notes on the show. Youtube videos to watch. Articles to read. Blogs to read. Posts to read. Fanart to admire.

I watched the show - and my old fandom heart woke up a bit. The show had great villains. Great characters. An unironically heroic protagonist. A love story. At least, I thought it was a love story. By the time I was through season three, I figured that there was no way they were actually going to go through with Catradora. It was based on popular media properties from my childhood.

(Full disclosure: I loved She-Ra as a kid, more than He-Man. Mostly, because I saw her show first and Skeletor creeped me out. But I loved both and watched both. I love the Dolph Lundgren live action movie and I used to read the He-man and She-Ra comics. So I wasn't uninterested in my new work assignment.)

Then season four hit, and i was devastated. Glimmer had gone the 'dark hero' route. Adora was a sad, lonely mess. And the writers had taken Catra and, in the coldest, most brutal, purposeful, deliberate way taken her apart. Taken everything away from her. When they'd already given her so little. She always lost. Not just the battle or the war, but - herself. Her confidence.

By the time I started season five, I realized Catradora could never happen, because the things the writers would have to do to fix it, redeem them all and not leave me with the normal pyrrhic victory TV shows give these days wouldn't happen. No writers were that brave. No one breaks the cycle that way and gets away with it.

I was wrong.

Glimmer was saved by Catra, who apologized. Who sacrificed herself doing the right thing. Glimmer apologized. Glimmer owned her shit.

You have no idea how important that arc is to me. They took a character who had morally compromised themselves and had that character say: I was wrong. I messed up. I'm sorry.

And mean it. She didn't do it again. She didn't go back to her old ways. She stood her damn ground and stayed a hero. Hells yeah.

Adora - the titular hero of the show, without her magic, without her sword, said: Fuck it. We ball. And she walked right up to the big bad guy with more courage and heart than anyone since Luke Skywalker staring down Palpatine and said: Give me my friend back.

She rescued her arch-enemy. No one would have blamed her for leaving Catra behind with Prime. Catra was the enemy. Catra had broken the universe to get Adora back. Catra had tried to kill Adora and her friends over and over again. Catra had saved Adora as often as she'd tried to hurt her.

She stood before the Emperor of the Known Universe and defied him. She jumped off a cliff after Catra, and then when she stood back up, she had her sword. She had her power. And she kicked ass.

(Best episode. Season 5. Episode 5. Save the Cat.)

Then the writers doubled down and had them save the universe with love - through a kiss. Not only did all of that fit the old show, it was what I have wanted from a show for a long time. Unironic, unabashed, unashamed radical belief that doing the right thing and being a good person matter.

That you don't have to compromise yourself to beat the bad guys. It's when you accept yourself, you deal in radical acceptance, radical forgiveness, and the idea that people can change, grow, get better, become more -

Then you can save the world.

So, of course, I dove into the fic. And I found out where all the fic I'd been craving for ten years had gone. It was in the She-Ra fandom. Epics. One-shots. Love stories. AUs. All of it was right there, and more and more was being posted.

I read the fics my student sent. I joined servers. I read through tropes. Blogs. Posts. Articles. I even made myself watch videos.

And when I went back to that Mom, I told her the truth: there's controversy there, but here always is. There's a fight between ships. There's a lot of pain. A lot of hurt. Because this show touched on some big things - everything from growing up queer to growing up during war and disaster. It gave voices to a lot of things most shows and media won't touch or even look at.

But it's also a fandom full of beautiful people. People finding themselves, people expressing themselves, and people using story to redefine the world just a little bit at a time.

Which is what fandom has always done. When you scrape away the layers of hyperfixation and obsession and naked want for more of what the media gave us, you find people who believe, very strongly, in something the show expressed.

Just like Star Trek, so long ago. (And, not so long ago. I love you, Star Trek Discovery!)

So, I guess with that, discovering the She-Ra fandom turned me into a Professional Fanboy, because I got paid to do what I should have already done.

[bellisima-writes]

10 Questions for Fic Writers

Thanks so much for the tag @katiefrog217!!

Absolutely NO pressure tagging, but these folks have written some lovely pieces on AO3 and if they want to participate and talk about their art, they deserve to: @di-42, @addledmongoose, @notalostcausejustyet, @hikarry

1. How many works do you have on AO3? |

Two (one completed and one WIP about 40-50% done)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

*shifts uncomfortably in chair*

According to the stats page I just discovered (seriously how long has THAT thing been there?), I've published 185,536 words on AO3 (WHATTTTTTT in the what?!?).

3. What Fandoms do You Write For?

I've only ever written for Good Omens.

If we want to discuss what other Fandoms I have hyperfixated on and created elaborate stories only to not ever write them down? Then we can also include BBC Sherlock, The X Files, Stranger Things, and my OG from when I was a kid, Star Trek TNG. But I've only ever put pen to paper for Good Omens.

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Every. Single. One. If someone cares enough about what I write to make a comment, I am absolutely responding. The only time I don't respond to each is if there are multiple on a single chapter or I respond to one from a later chapter before the earlier one. Otherwise, I really do try to respond and thank every reader who's ever left me a note. It means the world to me.

5. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope.

6. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I've discussed it briefly with some people and would honestly love to.

7. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Aziraphale/Crowley. Though when I was a kid I was also obsessed with Niles and Daphne from Fraiser and every time I rewatch that show I am right back there (yes...old I know but it was good soup back in the Must See TV Thursday era).

8. What are your Writing Strengths?

Ummm...I think I build good plot, tension and (somewhat) unexpected twists into stories well. I have an inability to not try to figure out puzzles, which makes me annoying to watch movies with but turns out is a good skill for actually building twisty stories.

I also personally think my characterization and dialogue are strong, but that could be up for debate.

9. What are your Writing Weaknesses?

One completed fic and one WIP at 185k words is pretty self explanatory, I think. I spend a lot of time in set up and making sure the plot points I write are earned and while I do lean on the source material, I also feel a compulsive need to build out the motivations of my versions of these characters.

I can't write something thats out of character, my brain literally won't let me. It will get painfully stuck until I admit, this would not happen this way and abandon the scene and start over. I have an entirely written alternate version of the Last Angel that I completely scrapped at one point because it just wasn't right...

I also struggle with descriptive language. It's why I never, ever thought to write before entering this fandom last fall. Fanfiction is such a gift because everyone already has a picture of the world you're writing, of the people who are speaking, of their tone of voice, and so you don't have to spend time describing the landscape or physical qualities. So that huge gap in my skillset doesn't affect the story as much.

And humor. I want to be funny, so badly. And lighthearted. But my stuff tends to lean into the difficult themes in the universes the stories take place in. People who write humor well are unicorns and I worship them. Part of the reason I scrapped that alternate version of the Last Angel was because I was leaning into the funny a lot more and it just ended up not feeling realistic to the situation.

And grammar. My grammar could always grammar better.

10. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

My initial Good Omens fic was the first story I ever wrote.

[mollysails]

☆ hi! i’m molly! welcome to my blog! ☆

☆ about me:

she/they || queer || spanish (🇪🇸) || eng/esp || 19

(sometimes i might rb something nsfw so please 18+) (it doesn’t happen that often but still. stay away)

i LOVE watching films and tv shows

writing has been a passion of mine since i was little, and I’ve written short stories that I’ve won a couple of awards for! I’ve also recently started writing poems! I’ve never posted them anywhere though, and I don’t know if I ever will, since I’m a little protective of my writing

i LOVE theater! I’ve been in a couple of plays in the past and I love acting with my entire heart and soul, even if I’m a little shy about it. it’s been a while since I last acted but I’d love to again! ever since I was little I dreamt of becoming an actress, although it’s not something I’m pursuing as a professional career anymore

☆ current hyperfixation:

musical theatre!

also peacemaker!!

also dandadan!!

☆ fandoms i’m in:

musicals (starkid productions, something rotten, legally blonde, school of rock, beetlejuice… and many more!!) || bullet train || good omens || peacemaker || suicide squad || top gun || what we do in the shadows || school spirits || stranger things (fuck noah schn*pp tho) || hellaverse || destripando la historia || kingsman || scott pilgrim || spider-man || deadpool || moon knight || daredevil || guardians of the galaxy (and a lot more marvel stuff even if I’ve distanced myself from it a little) || some anime even though its been a long time (bnha, jshk, saiki k, the great pretender…) || the good place || the umbrella academy || queen || welcome to nightvale… AND SO MUCH MORE

☆ things you should know about my blog:

when i say that this is a multifandom blog, i mean it. i frequently change fandoms and get into new things, and my posts and reblogs will reflect that, but just because i get into a new fandom doesn’t mean I’m getting OUT of another! trust me, they ALWAYS come back. always.

this blog supports lgbtq+, bipoc and disabled people and other oppressed minorities, and it does not stand for genocide. if you don’t agree with this please get out of my blog

☆ other fun facts!:

my favourite colour is pink

my favourite song is Vienna by Billy Joel

my top 4 films on letterboxd are (in no particular order): The Nice Guys, Into The Spider-Verse, The Banshees Of Inisherin and The Royal Tenenbaums

i have two pomeranians

soy de graná!! (andalucía mi patria españa mi castigo)

i speak english with a thick british accent (because I’m cool like that) ((it’s actually a pretty long story but it’s just what comes naturally to me at this point 🤩))

my username is a play on my real name (or parts of it at least) transposed to english!!

as of the latest edition of this post, i have seen 22 musicals, out of which only 5 have been live (hehe)

[nanoa1foryou]

Tagged by @glamorousdrama <3 <3

Star sign: One of them.

Favorite holiday: Idk man. World children's day. Or women's day. Those are pretty dope.

Last meal: Vegetable noodle stir fry. Unfortunately it didn't turn out as great as the one I made before with chicken.

Current favorite musician: Currently? Käärijä, with Bess as a close second.

Last music listened to: Riivattu by Bess is in my head right now so I guess we'll go with that. I may have ended my cooking session on Portrait of a Blank Slate by Lovejoy.

Last movie watched: Pirates of the carribean 3: at world's end. I suggested pirates, sister suggested the third one. A team effort on that.

Last TV show watched: Hannibal. Finished it and then watched the first episode again.

Last book/fic finished: Hot damn, haven't finished anything in a while. Most likely some fic, but I'm pretty sure out of books it is some social work theory book. Wish I had time to read more of those, they're really interesting, especially anything from a multicultural perspective.

Last book/fic abandoned: Any of my academic books really. Just no time to finish any of it.

Currently reading: Still going strong on Nabokov's Lolita (have not read a page in months). Also started up on the tenth book in the Fazbear frights series. Friendly Face is promising but I'm scared (hah) something bad will happen to the cat, so I am mentally preparing myself.

Last thing researched for writing/art/hyperfixation: I spent like good while looking at dozens of pictures and gifs of Bojan Cvjetićanin to get the curve of his eyelids right. Drawing is fun like that.

Favorite online fandom memory: I look fondly back on a lot of my fandom memories. Though nothing has had quite the same effect as this past year with the Kääryleet. I'll say the mcytsexyman brackets. That was a good time.

Wait no, I just remembered! There used to be a weekly post on the Dice Camera Action subreddit relating to the newest episode. And I just loved how engaged and wonderful and welcoming that whole fandom was. The fics, the theories, the fanart! It was such a shame to see it get so abandoned when things got tough. I've been enjoying seeing the resurgance, now that the dust has had time to settle.

Favorite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: All my old fandoms have dragged me back these past few years, from Jedward to Fnaf. What am I supposed to do now?

Honestly, I'm just waiting for mcc to pull me back in.

Favorite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: Sekasin. It's such a good series, I love it to bits.

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For: I have a picture of Bess on my desk waiting for me to keep drawing. And then my billion other hobbies that obviously also need to be picked up. Most of all maybe the lace bed spread. Fucking forever project, that one.

Tagging: @reunalordi @isapun @zomb1edude @darkerthanblack-666 @khihi @ominousmotion

No pressure, just having fun!

[make-me-imagine]

Fandom 1: Star Trek Voyager (I'm watching the show for the first time and curious what vibe I put off haha)

Gender: I'm female. I am open to ship with any gender.

Me: I'm autistic/ADHD and a very big fan of to do lists and scheduling my day (which I sometimes need to do or I forget what I have to do). I've been told I am very generous, sweet and good-hearted. I tend to put everyone before myself, which means sometimes I forget to eat, don't sleep, or skip things I like to do in order to do what others prefer. I'm terrible with talking about emotions so my love language tends to be gifts and acts of service but I often need people to tell me I'm important to them. Unfortunately, I will let people take advantage of me if it keeps the peace.

I'm not assertive, I feel things extremely deeply, (also you can read my emotions on my face...I can't hide them for anything!), and I have a deep-seated fear of never being good enough for anyone.

I love playing World of Warcraft, watching TV and movies (several genres...crime, action, sci-fi, adventure, fantasy), and writing stories. I love to read, sunrises and sunsets, the ocean, weather, volcanoes, the Navy (I have a thing for ships), and history. (If I was on a holodeck I would be all over history...the 20s, the 80s, the 40s, the moon landing...)

My partner has to be patient and have a sense of humor. They have to understand that some days I can't take direct talk, and some days that's all I can do. They have to be willing to give me my space but at least check in with me to make sure I'm taking care of myself. A little tough love now and then is good. Finally, they have to be understanding about my hyperfixations. I am going to get crazy about things and they are going to affect me emotionally. I have no control over this.

Thanks. ❤️

I'm gonna go ahead and answer both ships in one ask! I hope you don't mind :)

I hope you are enjoying Voyager it's a great show!

Fandom: Voyager

I ship you with Chakotay

Chakotay is very caring and genuine and would be able to see you for who you really are a lot easier and faster than some. He is not judgmental or harsh in any way, and he is very patient.

Chakotay never shy's away from telling you how he feels about you, and he will definitely come with the tough love if needed. He knows your love languages well, so he can easily tell just ho much you love him. He will watch out for you and make sure you are eating properly, and drinking water. He will chastise you (lovingly) when he finds out you forgot to eat.

He is also protective and if he ever finds out someone is using you, he will protect you.

He's into history as well, so he would be down for going on history related holo-dates.

Runner Up Ship: Harry Kim

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Fandom: Enterprise

I ship you with Malcolm!

At first my immediate thought was to ship you with Trip. Bu then I realized, that you and Malcolm would probably have a great relationship. BUT it would start out as a sort of love/hate, enemies to frenemies to lovers thing.

You two would misunderstand each other at first. He thought you were an over achiever and were trying to get to something selfishly (but in reality you just worked really hard). You thought he was rude, and didn't get why he seemed to dislike you for no reason.

You would avoid each other as much as you could. But things happen and you get forced together, and Malcolm starts to realize he misunderstood you, and that you were a lot more like him than he had realized.

After that he started to actually pay attention to you, and found himself falling for you. He started to be nicer, and seemed to seek you out. Eventually he apologized and told you that he had misunderstood you. You forgave him and then you two became good friends, which eventually turned into a very loving relationship.

He is not the best with his words either, but you two grew to understand each other so well, that you knew in your actions how much you loved each other.

Malcolm might make fun of you for your hyper-fixations (always in a loving, teasing way), but he supports them, and will discuss the with you as well. He loved listening to you talk about things you enjoy, even if he might not understand them himself.

Runner Up Ship: Trip

[mostlyvoid-partiallyflowers]

For the ask game, can you answer the letters that spell KEVIN DAY? :3c

oh my god absolutely! this is the best ask thank you so much!

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

probably andrew, i love how he learns to find community and satisfaction in neil over the course of aftg and begins to heal

honorable mentions being kevin, i love seeing him being able to stand up for himself and know his worth, and trent crimm from ted lasso actually, i love how he went from this really jaded reporter to being a friendly, community oriented, queer role model to the team, it just makes my heart happy

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what?

no not really, but the first fic i ever published on ao3 (back in may) was one where kevin basically got kidnapped by allison and taken to a sex shop to buy lingerie which is kinda hilarious

V - Which character do you relate to most?

my top five characters i've related to over time has been: jo march, remus lupin, yuri katsuki, henry from red white and royal blue, and probably kevin day

note: i am a recovering harry potter fan, that series was my hyperfixation for over 8 years of my life so i can't get rid of the fact that it was so important to me. i fucking hate jkr and i have serious critiques of the series as a whole which i'm happy to discuss at length

I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?

i can't get into ofmd anymore, people were campaigning super hard to get it renewed back in oct/nov after taika waititi signed the "good on you biden" letter and it was just really off putting for me, like there is a genocide happening and you're worried about a tv show getting renewed? like i wish ofmd had gotten renewed for a third season too but i just really don't like the culture the fandom turned into in pursuit of that. it just felt really toxic and uncomfortable and i just can't really engage with the show anymore without feeling vaguely uncomfortable. this is just my take tho, no hate on anyone who still loves ofmd

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

more aaron minyard love, he deserves the world and i feel like he gets written off as homophobic or boring by a lot of the fandom which is a shame. by extension, more kevaaron. it's my favorite ship rn and i just adore them together so i wish there was more of it. i love it when people draw/write andrew as a big guy, like he's super built but also built like a brick shithouse, that's a fave

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.

idk i like most pairings or can at least see where they're coming from so there's not any i really can't get into under certain circumstances. maybe jonelias? i don't like it that much but i can see why people like it

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

kevaaron, andreil, kevjean, kevjerejean, kevkateaaron, i love jean and neil's friendship, i'm a big fan of kevin and allison being friends, dyhard from tmagp is big rn for me as well, labru (laois/kabru), tedpendent (ted lasso/trent crimm)

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?

there's so many at this point lmao. the silt verses and malevolent are big rn and lots of 9-1-1 and i weirdly get a lot of buffy the vampire slayer posts from time to time (i tried watching buffy a couple years ago and just couldn't get into it but i do appreciate a lot of the posts). i've got lots of tags blocked though because i just get overwhelmed by the number of posts i see about some stuff.

link to the prompts: https://www.tumblr.com/mostlyvoid-partiallyflowers/756757932546359296/gehayi-a-ships-that-you-currently-like-a-lot?source=share

[sillylittlestoryblog]

Annoying Gothic Prick

Angel Torres x Reader

Notes: i guess i sounded very petty last time. The Ao3 fics are amazing. Go read them. But damn there needs to be more hype on tumblr. Maybe i m obsessed maybe i´m hyperfixating. Maybe i `m maybeline?! Okay ill stop. But please nope fandom write more. I’ll read everything. Love, Mai :D

Warning: bad writing, english isnt my first language, some spoilers i guess

You have been working for Fry`s Electronics for half a year now. You didnt mind the job at all. The customers were mostly friendly and the payment was alright. Obviously it could have been a lot better , but you were never someone to complain about that. You truly didnt mind going there every morning and being one of the last employees to leave in the evening. You truly, wholeheartedly liked your job, right?

It was Friday afternoon when you walked into fry´s. You just had a small meal at the diner next door across the parkinglot. You spend almost every lunch break there. The lady who owned it, already knowing your face and greeting you friendly every time you entered her place.

„ heeey! Welcome back!“ Nessie, your coworker and only friend at work, screamed running to you. She was never that excited. She was definitely planning something. Most of the time she was standing in one corner of the store ignoring the customers and playing animal crossing on her phone.

„ you wont believe what happend when you were gone“

You rolled your eyes. You could already imagine what had happened. A customer's pants had slipped down, someone had tried to steal a huge high-tech TV set, or Angel had gotten on Nessie's nerves again with stories of world conspiracies.

Angel.

Angel was the bane of your existence.

You did really like your job. In the beginning at least. But after your first few weeks you got promoted and changed to a different department in the store. And your supervisor wasnt as motivated and friendly as the one you had in the beginning. Your supervisor and therefore boss who was able to let you do everything he wanted, was a overworked, constantly rambling conspiracy theory believer. Angel.

You truly didnt believe you hated him. You were just constantly annoyed and irritated by him. He practically ignored you for the first week or so and then started suddenly interrupting you while you worked. You just knew he didnt like you. And so you decided you weren’t gonna like him.

„Angel for sure has a crush on someone.“

„What?“

Nessie laughed. „Oh so nowwww your interested. You were staring at him again. If i didnt know that you hated him, i could assume you were kinda into him.“

„ Nessie! Shut up.“ you whisper shouted and nudged her arm. „ I could never like him. He is so load and obnoxious, talking about his stupid alien shit and why is he always doing that thing with his hair when he is nervous. Its so dumb. And i mean look at his shirt it’s definitely to small for him. He is probably just wearing that to show of his massive bizeps.“

you knew you were the one who was rambling now. But you couldn’t stop. You just loved to talk about how annoying he is.

Angel saw you guys staring at him. He looked irritated and was doing that thing with his hand again. He would do it everytime he got nervous. He rubs with his hand through his bleached hair always making a mess out of it.

„ Can you two please stop standing in the middle of the store gossiping and go back to your work.“ He teased. „ Or do you wanna share your story ?“

Nessie gave me a wink and said something like „go talk to him about your problem with his shirt“, before she walked away into another isle probably playing on her phone again.

„ and do you wanna tell me something gorgeous ?“ he fake flirted with you. You cringed at the nickname, turning around he was now standing next to you, leaning on a refrigerator that was on sale. He was taller than you, his body towering over you. You looked up only to regret it instantly. He did have a pretty face. Even you could see that. You took a step back almost crashing into a customer who was looking rather stressed. You looked back at Angel, who wasnt looking as confident anymore. Before you began walking away going to your work, you made sure to answer his question quickly.

„Nope“

Several hours later, the sun was beginning to set, you already talked to the last customer. The afternoon was really quiet. Normally fridays were full of people and it was loud and hectic. Today was different, there wasnt a lot going on. Just some minor Angel incidents. How Nessie always called them. One happend shortly after your arrival. You bumped into him while hiding from a creepy old dude who wanted to ask you on a date. An hour later you saw him illegally observe the security camera of two customers that you saw in here the other day. You had a small fight over it, but you didnt really had a chance against his absurd alien arguments. The last thing was more about Nessie, she told you about her theory again that Angel definitely had a crush on someone. She told you how he was staring into the distance and getting all nervous when she asked him about it.

You couldn’t really say that the idea of Angel having a crush didnt make you a little angry. It was confusing. You couldn’t stand him, right? Him with his stupidly handsome face. And that small smirk. And his soothing voice telling unbelievable story’s . And his dumb muscular body and…

stop! You could not stand this man. That’s how its always been. It should stay this way.

He wouldn’t like you back anyway.

The store was closing in half an hour. You were beginning to clean up some things and began walking towards the break room. The room was already dark besides the lighting of the drinks dispenser. Nobody was spending time in here besides in the lunch break time. But the room was to small for all the employees so most of them spend their lunch break rather outside or the diner next to fry’s.

„What are you doing in here?“ of course it was him. You weren’t gonna turn around. You headed towards your locker and grabbing your clothes and purse.

„ you know, i actually wanted to change out of these work clothes here“ you explained while pointing down at the shirt you were wearing. „ but now that you are here, i can forget about that.“

„Oh you know i wouldn’t mind at all“ Angel was grinning. And you started to get angry. You couldn’t believe it. Why was he bothering you all the time. You just wanted to go home and not think about the man for like three hours. You could feel your body getting heated.

„ of course you wouldn’t.

But you know what, i would rather get eaten by a shark, or spend a day in a room full of spiders or i dont know climb the Mount Everst , than have you see me change out of my shirt.“ and again you were the one rambling and talking stupid things. Why didnt you have some better shit in your mind than that come back.

„i can’t believe i never noticed it before“

he was walking closer towards your locker. His hand in his hair again. So was he nervous?! Why would he be nervous…

„Noticed what?“

„ i really didnt believe Nessie at first, but you do like me.“

„ What the hell are you talking about. You are the most annoying gothic prick.“

You truly didn’t had the best responses. But your brain just seemed to stop working whenever he was around.

„ You know you are kinda hot when you’re angry. This could potentially be one of the reasons i love to piss you off.“

You really didnt care about changing anymore. This was stupid. He was playing with you. Nessie probably gave him twenty bucks to say something annoying like that to you. You would definitely kill her later. She was probably sitting in front of the door laughing or hiding somewhere else. You grabbed your stuff and went towards the exit door. On your way out you made sure to bump into his shoulder, not caring at all. You felt tears forming in your eyes. You weren’t gonna cry in front of him.

Angel noticed how your chest rose and fell a lot quicker than before.

„Honestly fuck you, Angel.“

He grabbed your arm towering over you. You were looking into his eyes. He was suddenly very close. Has he always been that tall? You could smell his aftershave and the nicotine of his last smoked cigarette. He was leaning down. Almost whispering.

„Would you?“

You definitely didnt plan to ever do what you did next. You definitely hadn’t thought about it every time you wanted to shut him up. You closed the distance between your lips and he moaned into the kiss. His hands were grabbing your waist as yours where grabbing onto his short hair. „ i hate you“ you where kissing him again. „ i hate you more“ you gasped while he kissed down your neck holding you tightly against his chest. He was lifting up your shirt and tossing it on the floor while you were grabbing on his biceps and kissing his lips again.

It was a full on make out session and you weren’t sure what would have happend afterwards until someone opened the door. Nessie was standing in front of you both. Angel jumped back and mumbled something like „ she was just about to change „ as he left with a red face and tighter pants. Nessie was just laughing and clapping.

„ I fucking knew it“

[lord-of-the-ducks]

This hiatus has been fucking insane. It’s been about 3 months, which honestly isn’t that long when it comes to waiting for new seasons of TV series to be released, but there have been so many fucking leaks/teases and I genuinely can’t tell if it’s normal or not. Like, I don’t really watch a lot of tv, and I’m incredibly hyperfixated on WWDITS, so it’s possible that this is standard and I’m just not used to it, but even then, this poor fandom has been on FIRE. So I decided to rank the flames by how much money Harvey Guillén owes me for emotional damages (even if he’s only directly responsible for two of these I’m still sending him the bill)

Everything on this list is only going to be things that happened after the end of season 3, not everything that we know about season 4. Also, there’s probably a few things that I missed, but I’m assuming that if I missed it, it probably wasn’t big enough to be on the list. I’ll include relevant links or pictures so that if you haven’t heard of something here, it’ll be easy to figure it out. Shout out to @ineffably-human in particular, since I ended up linking a lot of their posts, either because they posted whole transcripts or because they were more active than I was around the time of a big event.

Is it bold to rank all of these as if the hiatus isn’t over and there isn’t a possibility of more leaks? Yeah. I don’t know what I’ll do if we get more information, and I’m worried that if I say “this is probably it” that we’ll get even crazier information tomorrow, but I guess if that happens, I’ll just make a quick edit to put whatever weird thing happens in the ranking and reblog to let people know that I updated it. I’m mostly just making this now to cope with everything that’s happened since October and hopefully organize everything in a way that’s helpful to anyone who wants a little glimpse at what it was like to be in this fucking fandom for the past few months

Edit: hey guess what guys there’s another leak and now I have to fucking update this to say that there’s another leak. I was mostly joking when I was like “oh haha maybe we’ll get some crazier information” because surely that wouldn’t happen, surely that’s not possible, but no, it is very possible. I’m slightly more sane about it now that my brain is also hyperfixated on Our Flag Means Death and I’m capable of thinking about something besides WWDITS but season 4 is going to kill me

Anyway, spoilers ahead

10. Pipes and a new drywall

I’m not sure how many people actually know about this one, it doesn’t reveal much of anything, but I wanted to include it since it was a part of the whole Vimeo fiasco

9. Pretzel Guy

Out of all the leaks, this is the one we have the most information about in terms of it being an actual video with Kayvan Novak as Nandor dry humping a pretzel. Some people have pointed out that pretzel guy is probably Freddie, which I agree with, but this leak just didn’t really keep me up at night in the way others have.

8. “Season 4 ends on a cliffhanger”

This one is pretty basic, it was just Harvey on his Instagram story at 3 am talking about how they finished filming season 4 and that it ends on what he calls a “huge cliffhanger”. Great. Thanks. We really needed another one of those.

7. Colin Robinson goes to private school

This one is hilarious, or at least has the potential to be hilarious. Watching vampires try to enroll their…weird egg child into a private school is objectively funny, and it also shows that they do care about him socializing and having a good education. Also Sean is there and Sean is amazing

6. Richie Suck and Tom

Yes, I am going to be completely normal about this other vampire/familiar duo who have a strong relationship. I’m not losing my mind over how the vampire insists that his familiar should be treated with respect, and how he “protects me from myself”. This is fine. Absolutely no parallels to Nandor and Guillermo. At all. I will not stay up late thinking about Richie Suck or his bad stand up. Or how “Richie” is short for “Richard”, and it can also be shortened to “Dick”, meaning that the writers effectively named this character “Dick Suck”. Nope. That would be ridiculous.

5. Reacher interview (one year time skip)

You know, I’d call Harvey insane for this, as well as everything else he’s done over the course of my time in this fandom, but if I also had the ability to make people on the internet immediately go apeshit, I would absolutely abuse it

4. Al Roberts Spotlight profile

Personally, I had already started to come to terms with the Freddie leak by the time it was confirmed to be true, so this didn’t torment me quite as much as it seemed to torment others, but it did confirm that all the emotions I felt were not for nothing with the added bonus of giving weight to people’s theories that Freddie is the pretzel guy, so it absolutely deserves a place high up on the list.

3. The Hug™️

Remember when this was it? Remember when everyone was freaking out about Guillermo in a leather jacket giving Nandor a hug and that was it? We all just collectively made fun of Kayvan Novak for posting that picture and then deleting it shortly afterwards as if that wouldn’t give people the idea that they had seen something they weren’t supposed to? Yeah.

Anyway, this started my descent into madness, I think about it every time I wear MY leather jacket

2. Freddie

I remember when this happened. I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing. I was scrolling through tumblr while I was at work, got hit with a rush, and then checked my phone about an hour later only to find people collectively going fucking insane. I was stuck for the next 45 minutes only reading what people were saying about the leak (which was usually unintelligible freaking out) because there wasn’t a transcript I could find and I wasn’t able to listen to the audio until I got back to my car and literally played it on my car speakers before I actually left to go home. I don’t think the audio exists anymore, but the transcripts still do.

I don’t think the fandom has been quite the same ever since this happened. There’s a reason why a majority of the leaks on this list are at least tangentially related to Freddie. Seriously, imagine being the actor who accidentally leaked their audition tape and watching everyone go fucking insane as a result. Imagine knowing just how much of an impact you had on a relatively small group of people

I’m honestly surprised that I haven’t seen any fanfics with Freddie as a character though, at least on ao3. I sort of expected to see a bunch of fanfic writers immediately post Greddie one shots or something, but all I’ve found are people talking about how Freddie is probably gonna steal all the vampire’s priceless artifacts because he’s British (derogatory)

1. Dick Genies

Wow. Fucking wow. I’m losing my fucking mind over this. I thought Freddie was bad but all that was is “oh look Guillermo has a boyfriend now” which is nice and all but like… please read the transcript because I cannot possibly sum up everything in a way that makes me sound normal. Again, thanks to @ineffably-human for summing everything up in their post.

[justepilepsy]

Just don't engage

It means a lot to me, when my friends give me headsups and reviews on strobes and intense effects in films and series'. One of the popular rebuttals to complaining about photosensitive effects, seems to be the

"why are you watching it then / engaging in the media?" and "Can't you watch something else then?" And I will be honest. Yes. I could just. Not watch it. I could just decide to quit video games. Or certain video game genres altogether.

And to be honest, when it comes to games, I have decided to avoid first and third person shooters like the plague. As well as VR Games and most Rythm Games.

The thing is, sometimes I don't have a choice in wether I engage with a certain media or not. I work with and in media creation. I am absolutely illiterate when it comes to knowing popular Movie Franchises or classics. This is unrelated to my epilepsy, but let me continue. I want to learn more about classic movies, old anime, old 1920s cinema and historic film. I want to induldge myself in popular franchises and see why people love Jurassic Park or Star Wars. It is generally known, that cinemas tend to be in dark rooms, because it has been shown to have a more immersive effect for viewers attenidng the movie. Movies with a lot photosensitive content, are inaccessible to watch in the theater for me. I could watch them at home. So what is my set up for these movies, on which many great actors, artists and people worked on? How do I pay respect and tribute to their historic work? I put the movie on on my phone. I have a 19'' TV Screen. I turn on all my lights in the room. I watch the movie in bright daylight, just to compensate the intenseness of stroboscopic effects or gunfire. I hardly ever put on movies or fancy shows on my TV-Screen, despite the screen not even being large for a modern TV. I turn up all the lights. I watch the movie on my phone. and by watching i mean: I put the movie on, sometimes with a bluetooth speaker, i put my phone somewhere while i work and listen to the movie. I sometimes glance at it, so i can see characters. Then i look away. Back at my work. or Art. Or at my jigsaw puzzle. I avoid focussing on the screen. I keep distance to the screen. And ultimately i don't end up being engaged or captivated by the show or movie. I barely recognise characters. I remember lines, but could not tell you how good the acting or cinematography truly was. I end up disrespecting the movie. The artists and actors. Because I am tired of having to randomly look away or cover my eyes. To be ripped out of my immersion. So I end up not being immersed at all, while knowing what happened. I'd like to watch Neon Genesis Evangelion. But the show is old and has been made before general rules for safety and photosensitivity applied in Japanese Anime Production.

Telling me or anyone to just not participate in movies or media in general is short sighted. What if you love Spiderman Comics and cartoons? What if you are excited about the adaptation of a specific adventure or franchise? Just don't bother with it. You love this thing, it might even be a hyperfixation or special interest. But you can't even participate in modern fandom culture, because you can't keep up with the media without risking your health. I know it is unrealistic to never have strobes or gunfire in movies. But we need a different way of creating media, editing it or giving viewing options. A photosensitive safe cut perhaps? turning of Thunder and lightning effects in games should be standard and not an option i happen to discover by accident! "Oh did you watch XY thing? IT WAS SO GOOD!" And then I say "well it was rated 10/10 flashing lights. So no. I guess i'll pass this one" It's a conversation killer. And not fun. Not every media is for everyone. That's okay. But I think there is a difference between "Hey this deals with heavy subjects and themes, that may be triggering for some parts of the audience" vs. "Hey this media, which was made for a wide audience for as many people to enjoy as possible, contains effects that can kill a person."

[firecrackerhh]

I’m going to be honest.

When I found out about some VA’s leaving, and all on the same day mind you, I was shocked.

I wasn’t upset per se, but I was…honestly at first I thought it was kinda bullshit until I went on the original VA’s Twitter.

Well, whoever they’ve chosen to replace them, they’ve got big shoes to fill. And if Viv has done the choosing then I, WE, don’t got shit to worry about.

This show is her BABY do you think she would pick VA’s who sucked? Hell if we think the pilot VA’s were so good then by God the professionals she picks are gonna be GREAT.

I’m not saying you can’t be upset or disappointed by this news, nor am I saying it doesn’t suck at least a little that the originals won’t be back, but producing a tv show is always gonna require some changes for whatever reason. It’s part of the process, and thus inevitable.

Calm. Down.

And as for the people leaving the fandom cuz of this shit…see ya! Can’t say for anyone else but I certainly won’t miss you.

I know that Hazbin gets made fun of because a lot of antis don’t think it’s all that “mature” or whatever but I would think at least SOME of us have enough emotional maturity to not have tantrums about it.

I’m not talking about those who are upset, in general, I’m talking about the ones who are shitting on Viv for this decision. The ones being bitter and mean about it.

I get it, you became attached to how these characters sounded, so did I, and the fact Michael Kovach as Angel Dust isn’t coming back does sting a little bit. But don’t act like an entitled brat about it.

Also don’t shit on the new VA’s, whoever they happen to be ok? It’s a job they’re paid to do and they shouldn’t have to put up with the crazier people of this fandom fucking harassing them or some shit. It’s not their fault we’ve gotten so attached to the old voices.

Honestly I bet they already knew long before they told us that they weren’t gonna be the voices but they couldn’t SAY ANYTHING because again, NDA.

At first I thought it was better they tell us upfront, rip the band aid off so to speak, though after talking about it to someone it occurred to me that if they told us after the trailer it would’ve been less of a FUCKING DISASTER because then we would know what the new voices all sounded like.

Yeah that probably would’ve gone better. Though I hear Twitter in particular is having a shitfit about it. Not surprising.

Nonetheless it is what it is. I’m sure many here will go through the 5 stages of grief in a week and then the trailer will drop and we’ll all get over it. I hope.

Besides I’ve put too much time into this fandom to just jump ship over something so petty anyways. I’ve written a fanfic with CHAPTERS, I’m normally a lazy bitch who barely wants to do ANYTHING and yet somehow this show fucking did SOMETHING to me and here I am with a tumblr account spouting my opinion that no one cares about.

That’s a hyperfixation for ya I guess.

What I’m trying to say is this show for whatever reason brings me joy in a world that’s full of bullshit so if you think I’m gonna drop it cuz a few things have changed, change is inevitable and I’m moving forward with it!

The times they are a-changing baby! Those who want to leave can leave, as for the rest of us, WOO THE TRAILER IS GONNA DROP SOON (most likely) LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOOO!!!!!

God I’m such a dork 😅

[notmanagingmymischief]

Taking a break.

So...this really hurts to say. So I think I should give some backstory first.

Hi. I'm Bex. And I have really severe and clinically diagnosed ADHD, along with multiple other mental illnesses. Now I don't want this to be taken out of context; I know there is a huge stigma around the statement "mental illness", which we as a society really need to work on. I of course don't mean this in a negative connotation, it's simply the best way to describe it. I am mentally ill. There's nothing inherently bad about that, but it poses more than a few issues.

The biggest one for me, personally, is hyperfixation(s). A hyperfixation, by definition, is "being completely immersed in something — whether it be a video game, movie/TV fandom culture or a hobby like crocheting." And I suffer from these hyperfixations a lot. I find a TV show, movie, book, whatever it is, and attach myself to a certain character. I can't prevent this, I can't help it, as much as I wish I could just watch something and then forget about it, I just...can't.

Now why is this a problem? Everyone has interests and things that they get hyped about for a while, so why should this be any different? Well the thing is, with me, these fixations can last much longer than neurotypical people's do. They can last for months, years at a time. I get so attached to a character and I hold onto that attachment until it's borderline obsession. This can get so bad that I will get physically ill, have panic attacks, go into complete mental breakdowns and depressive spirals, because it will suddenly without warning hit me that these people aren't real. See, I don't get fixated on real people or things; it's almost always fictional characters.

My most recent infatuation has been Miss Alma Peregrine. It started off as "Oh, she's hot. I should write fanfiction for her." And that was it. I was attracted to her and wanted to imagine being with her. But within the past few weeks, this interest has turned extremely dangerous. Sure, I'm not in any bodily danger, but when you're throwing up, hyperventilating to the point of fainting, and crying yourself to sleep nearly every night over a fictional woman, that's when I have to put my foot down. This is affecting my personal life, and with school having just started, I need to back down.

And it hurts like hell to have to post this, to have to step back from one of the only things that makes me happy, but if I don't then I'm afraid this will become too much to handle. Every song I hear makes me think of her, every time I see something pretty I think "Oh, Alma would love this," and it's hard to separate yourself from a fandom when everything makes you think of another scenario that you'll never be able to experience, and that hurts. It hurts so, so very much. And I know this will upset some of you, since I know that (and I'm not trying to be narcissistic) a whole lot of people really enjoy my writing, especially my Miss Peregrine stories.

Just the other day, I cried for most of the day over the fact that I'll never be able to meet her, never have her hold me and wipe my tears and tell me it'll all be okay. Because she isn't real. And sure, maybe shifting is real. Or maybe it isn't. I'm starting to think I imagined the whole thing, and that's affecting my mental health even more. It feels like I'm going crazy.

Like I said, this isn't something I can just stop, flip some switch in my brain and just forget about her. I wish like hell that I could, because that would make all of this so much easier. But that's not how ADHD and fixations work, no matter how much I and everyone else around me wants it to.

In conclusion, I'm going to be stopping my writing for Miss Peregrine, indefinitely. At least until I can get over her and stop my entire life from revolving around her and that universe. This doesn't mean I'm stopping writing for anyone, not at all. Unless, of course, this happens again with someone else. I'll be posting much less frequently, of course, what with school starting and all that, but I promise that you'll still get at least short imagines for other characters.

I'm sorry. I am truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart.

Please forgive me. I'm sorry.