#this is what going to the doctors gets me smfh

[jankwritten]

The issue with giving me a medical device that I’m supposed to PRESS every time the Weird Thing is happening is that I have anxiety. So IDK if I’m pressing the button too often or if I’m even tracking the right things or if I pressed it and then forgot to write it down or- you get it.

[phagodyke]

SUDDENLY STARTED RAINING SO HARD WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK

[eleanorsmom420]

What not to expect on a Wednesday

Today was a pretty good day. Okay, I was a bit lazy today. We did our first house and our second house I pretty much sat my ass down and went shopping on Te mu...SMFH Thank God for TM who picked up my bullshit slack and rocked her ass off cleaning. I helped the last 5 minutes of the house, lazy bitch. 500 Gold Stars to you today TM. The last house was cancelled so home we go.

What not to expect when you come home from work!

My phones rings and I wasn't able to get it. It rings again as I am in the middle of helping DM clean up the kitchen. I am like who the fuck is calling me??? I see that it is AK calling me on Facebook Messenger. I answer the phone and she is crying. "What is wrong?" SW, her husband. The ambulance is there. SW woke AK up and said he was having chest pains and his arms were not feeling right. She gets up, gets there son in order and they get ready to go to the hospital. As she is almost ready, SW is sitting at the bottom of the stairs and he goes into what looks like a seizure. AK runs down to him and calls 911 and administers CPR as requested. The Ambulance and Fire Department came and attempted to resuscitate SW. They have to use a Lucas which administers CPR consistently. I drive AK to the hospital while JM and TN take the baby to their house.

AK and I arrive at the hospital, I don't even know what time it is. I know its after 4:00pm. AK registers at reception and they take us to a room. Never seen this room before. The doctor comes in and tells AK and myself that at 4:02pm SW was pronounced deceased. They did everything in their power to save his life. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!?!? SW is 49 years old. God fucking dammit, 49 fucking years old. What makes a 49 year old just die? A massive fucking heart attack. AK will know more after the autopsy. So now, AK is now left a widow and single parent. Oh yeah! AK is 25 years old and is a fucking widow. 25 fucking years old. FUCKKKKK! This is something that she does not deserve. No one deserves that type of heart break. They aren't perfect people but they were perfect for each other. They were a team! Best friends! Their own Bonnie and Clyde.

SW is not a bad guy. SW had his quirks but who doesn't? He would do anything to help someone. He wasn't a center of attention guy in the crowd. Hes the guy who watches from afar. But get him in a small circle and he would talk your ear off. Literally sometimes he would not shut the fuck up. But you could have a conversation with him. He was an educated man. He came from a good family. Dude did not deserve to go out like this. Not one fucking bit. He would do anything for his wife and son. He would make sure that AK had everything she ever needed or wanted like a husband should do for a wife.

Ya know what kills me? I am 42 SW was 49. If he can pass away out of no where, When is it my time? I am here with an anxiety attack thinking when? When am I going to die? It scares the fuck out of me.

Rest in Peace SW! Taken from this world way too soon. Please watch over AK and SW (son). I know AK is a beast and she can get through anything but Please SW make sure you show her guidance. That girl loves you so much so make sure you let her know you are there protecting her still.

I will miss you SW. I will never forget you. I will always tell some of the funny stories we had together. Thanks for letting me be your friend. Thanks for letting me be a part of your family. We came from different backgrounds of life but you never judged. You listened and you tried to understand. I love you dude! Always and Forever!

AK I am truly sorry for your loss. You don't deserve this. I really do wish I could take your pain away. I don't know how you feel and I never thought you would have to deal with it too. Just know I am here for you.

This was the last thing I expected today. Fuck dude! You never know when it's your time.

[sufferinggod]

Jesus christ idk what's fucking wrong with me... Soooo this morning I get up to go to work and just as I'm about to get there I notice I forgot my fucking notebook with all my passwords and everything. Smfh. So instead of going to work I turn around and go back lol. Fuck. So yeah. Now I'm back in my apartment and I didn't go to work again! So that's 2 days now this week. Great! This is why I get fired. This is why I never hold a fucking job. Dude and this shit is part time bro. Like this is as easy as it gets and I still won't fucking show up. Now I gotta go to the hospital and make some shit up and hopefully I can't get a doctors note otherwise I'm fucked. I can't believe I went on Monday bro. How tf do I show up Monday hut skip Tues and Weds I'm fucking retarded dude

[panelshowsource]

holy shit the monty python LEGEND graham chapman!!! one of the funniest men ever, and one of the first openly gay men on british television! ★‿★

my parents didn't watch much tv/film with me growing up but my dad sure did love holy grail, so i do especially love that one! i can't even imagine how many other people grew up with a dad who would say i fart in your general direction before letting one actually rip smfh

gasp THE one and only claudia winkleman!!!

you win. you win. what can i say. you win. the only woman in the world, my mother ♕ olivia colman ♕

i'm doing a doctor who rewatch before the new specials come out this month (if anyone is following my main then i'm sure they know that hahaha) but after i plan to do a peep show rewatch! between bruiser, that mitchell and webb look, peep show, and confetti, she was all over my childhood... i really need to rewatch green wing too it's been too long!

woah a big kahuna! mr. big shot michael mcintyre 👀

i used to work at universal orlando theme park and he came on a vip trip with his family, and he was getting on one of the rides and i was like "oh! mr mcintyre! it's so nice to see you" and he just huffed and kept walking hahaha this was 10 years ago though so it's water under the bridge... 👀...

two johns are better than one — and two legendary johns are better than two johns!!!

john flippin oliver!

his running gag in the horne section tv show KILLED MEEE

AND we can't forget john flippin hannah who was just toooo hilarious on taskmaster nyt!

another double whammy! lauren laverne and vernon kay!

did you ever watch 10 o'clock live? since she's on the radio it's one of those things where a lot of british people will know her for bbc radio 6 or desert island discs but i know her from popping up on panel shows ~2007ish, 10 o'clock live, and now pointless heh

not to tangent but that's something i was just thinking about the other day, how some brits don't realise when we say we enjoy someone like, say, danny dyer, we ONLY know him from seeing him on cats does countdown and stuff, so that's our only impression of him — and it's a good one! same with, like, joey essex or jamie laing. i've never seen those horrible reality shows they come from, so i've just seen them being super affable and honestly pretty funny on panel shows and may have a naive impression of them hahaha

ugh this absolutely hilarious combination of names: leigh francis and rhys james hehehe

i can't fucking find it but one time rhys made an instagram birthday post for himself and i commented "it's not your birthday it's keith lemon's birthday >:(" and he responded "i'm the guy who plays him" lmfaooo

get ready to brag: joe wilkinson AND mae martin ٩≧◡≦۶

also lily allen who had a brief but powerful era in panel show world including this iconic episode of buzzcocks!

first of all aww birthday twins! (๑ˇεˇ๑) please share your present of david baddiel!!!

a bit niche for my followers but also eric morecambe!

the. queen. herself. judi. love. period!!!

oh you got the most!! let's go!!

the legend jeremy hardy <3, gino "if my grandmother had wheels she would have been a bike" d'acampo, and konnie huq [heart eyes]!!!

i think series 13–14 of celeb juice when gino took over for fearne were my fave series, but it's been a while and i'm too afraid to recommend them because i can't completely recall just how off the rails they were lmao

the love of my life... ISY SUTTIE !

cutest person cutest answer cutest ellie taylor <333

okay i know this is a stretch but it means something to me bc i just talked about him the other day hahahah but professor green?? he's just been such a funny non-comedian guest on buzzcocks throughout multiple eras, i always had a soft spot for him hehe

p.s. thank you cutie pie ꒰⑅ᵕ³ᵕ꒱˖♡

—

i formally apologise to the other birthdays — there were BIG celebs for all of your birthdays (one of you had the king??) they just weren't related to this lil game :'(

let’s play a game you send me your birthday and i’ll tell you a britcom personality who shares it 😋

[chintzwife]

when i watch black sails. it’s over for all of you.

[shadow--writer]

Kind of hurt/comfort? Main 6 + artist MC who's frustrated about not being able to get something quite right. The classic, it's attempt number 17 and yet that hand still doesn't look like it should, so they end up glowering and cursing at the paper/canvas, doubting their abilities. (yes, yes this is a self-callout)

ugh this is a callout post to ME. And I am UPSET ABOUT IT.

smfh

Main six x MC not quite right

~~~~

Julian

Ah this lad. This lad has no idea what tf you’re doing. I’m sorry but when it comes to the art process he’s left in the dark

But he gets upsetti when you get upset at your art because it’s BEAUTIFUL TO HIM DON’T BE ANGY :((

Drags you away with a kiss to the tip of your nose (“you need cuddles and to talk this out on the couch, scat. Doctor’s orders”)

If you whine he’ll kiss you softly to get you to hush a little. You have been working on that piece for HOURS now and you need a break >:C

Will cuddle you, play with your hair, and listen to you rant because LAWD KNOWS YOU NEED IT

Not great on the art side of things, but he feels the struggle of not getting something right. Gives pretty decent advice ngl

When you get back to work he’ll pop in from time to time with something to drink or snack on and a kiss

Will sit and tell stories as you work to keep you laughing and not caring about if it’s wrong. Even if it doesn’t turn out the best he’ll love it

Asra

Would laugh at you affectionately. Ruffles your hair with a kiss, tugging whatever you’re drawing with out of your hand (getting whatever’s on it on him)

Spins you around slowly, leading you into a dance. It quickly gets heated with your anger and him helping you get it out

Would sing to you as they waltz you out of the kitchen to get some snacks 

Faust would wiggle along with the two of you :D

Amazing listener with the BEST advice. Will listen to you stew about your latest piece over a nice cup of tea

Comes with you to see what’s wrong, hugging you from behind as you erase your latest attempt 

He (if you ask) helps you fix it. Usually by holding your hand and guiding it. Soft kisses to the back of your ear bc u gave them access to the area >:3

If needed he’ll angry nap with you, helping you get back to it later. Sometimes it’s good to step away, or get someone else’s help (IF YOU ASK)

Nadia

GOOD LAWD SHE FEELS THAT STRUGGLE SO MUCH

Would massage your shoulders as you rant about why the other hand is bugging you so freaking much

Always there for you when you need it for this STRUGGLE BUS OF A PROJECT

Gives great advice on the subject. Always mentions to take a break and come back to it later with fresh eyes (taking a bath, sleeping, or getting something to eat are great tips)

Will wrap her arms around your waist and watch you get back to work on it. If you like, she’ll rock the two of you back and forth with a low hum

Doubt your abilities and she gets a little annoyed. You are GREAT but sometimes stuff doesn’t turn out amazing and that is OKAY

If you finish it and it still doesn’t look right she’ll drag you away for angry snuggles. It’s okay it didn’t go well, you can try again later

For now she’s gonna reward you for giving it your best shot and seeing it through :)

Muriel

I HAVE SOME SOFT HEADCANONS FOR THIS MANS BECAUSE I LOVE HIM SO STRAP IN 

He would gently take your hands in his, not caring if you have paint, ink or charcoal on them

Just take you away from whatever you’re doing for some time to calm down and think things over

He makes you a nice cup of tea :], something to eat, and will just sit and listen to you complain and talk about what you’re working on

He doesn’t try to offer up stuff like “oh I’m sure it’s fine” because that’s not what you want to hear. So he suggests you take a short break for a little while

He’ll let you paint on his back, just random doodles :)

He’ll wear the doodles with pride as well. Generally he wants you away from what you’re doing to give you a bit of a break. 

And don’t doubt your abilities. Even if this doesn’t turn out how you want, he’ll still think it’s beautiful 

Portia

DRAGS UR ASS AWAY FROM WHAT YOU’RE DOING 

You need a break. If you are cursing at the canvas her instincts kick in and she’s dragging you away

Will set up something in the garden for you to attack your frustrations on. Generally it’s a canvas and paint for you to splatter on it. It gets MESSY

She gets MESSY

And it’s CUTE

Will listen to you yell and scream about how you can’t get the other eye while you WRECK a canvas with colour and get it all over the two of you

It always ends with the two of you covered in paint and her chasing you around the garden until you’re laughing so hard you can’t breathe 

And with your anger and frustration out, she’ll come join you as you get back to your piece. She’s your cheerleader!

Always there with a canvas to wreck and paint to splatter everywhere :D

Lucio

He would make something MUCH WORSE to make you feel better. A shitty drawing of him flexing? Y’all have like 80 of those now

Blocks what you’re working on with his body when he sees you frustrated (“Don’t you want to see something else artistic~?”)

Will take you to go steal treats from the kitchen as a distraction to calm you down

You’ll snack on cookies and he’ll listen to you rant :]. Ur very cute when ur frustrated. He doesn’t offer advice because he uh can’t but he’ll listen and admire you

Will doodle funny things on your arms so when you get back to drawing you have something to look at and giggle about

Loves doodling on u btw. Loves being doodled on as well

Really good at distracting you so you can get away from what you’re doing so when you come back you can see what you can do to fix it

If it still ends up poorly and you hate it....if you want a good scream he has some nice pillows to scream into 

And he’ll be there for you when you try again

[dazzlerazz]

Enchant, owl,treats 👻👻

HEYOS!

Enchant - Do you believe in magic?

Nah, not actively. I'm like in that weird point where I don't, but I wouldn't be too surprised if it ultimately did exist

Owl - What creature would you have as a familiar?

A CROW, NO QUESTIONS ASKED

Treats - Do you like to go trick-or-treating?

I do! Free candy! I'm starting to get a bit old, but the costume I've been using for like the past four years is a plague doctor, so it covers my face just fine, my height makes me look 13 lmao

Bro when covid hit EVERYBODY suddenly wanted to go as plague doctors >:C smfh /lh

[anunvalidcritic]

The Boys: SN3.2

(DISCLAIMER: MY OPINION IS MY OWN AND CAN BE DEEMED INVALID TO THOSE WHO DON’T CARE FOR IT.)

Alright let’s see what’s going with this Victoria/Naudia drama....

                                  The Only Man in The Sky

Let’s continue this story.

These movies are horrible rofl

Not the fucking cast of Riverdale?!

Is BUTCHER having a hallucination? Is that young BUTCHER?!!

Shout out to TERROR 

Red River = Group home for supes

Damn HUGHIE is that weak he can’t open the jam jar.... why tf is eating the burnt toast?!?!

I love how BUTCHER pushes ppl to their limits lmao

“Fuck SOLDIER BOY. I don’t give a mothereffin’ doo-doo how he checked out.” - M.M.

So from my understanding.... SOLDIER BOY = HOMELANDER...

I think we all know MOTHER’s MILK is gonna come back... he can’t resist the team. 

ROFL THAT SLY SMILE

‘’BLM BLT’ & Woke Wok’, KMSL

SOLDIER BOY met Princess Diana!??!!

I really thought this bitch was singing I Will Always Love You’ Whitney’s version smh... I gotta do better. 

These motherfuckers need to lay off the drugs Jesus Christ. 

Yo, the music video!!!

I see CRIMSON COUNTESS wasn’t on the shit they were giving STORMFRONT.

Ahh mustard and blood... what a combination

Dame Judi Dench!!!! IK that’s a fucking line

“Listen, STARLIGHT, I, I hate to direct you but we’re gonna need a little more ‘JFK just got rimmed out by MARILYN’ version.” - HOMELANDER

LMAO not 53% wanting to DVR the event..

Not two bitchies named ASHLEY

SETH said he doesn’t want to get into this shit 

“I want to get back in touch with my roots, like in Roots” - A-TRAIN

I understand that this woman is fully capable of working but she needs to take her ass home movin’ around like that. 

TEDDY STILLWELL is fucking awesome!

“I’m completely sterile. Doctor says my sperm are bad. Like, really, really bad, like a bunch of fat, dead tadpoles.” - HUGHIE

Once again, I am flabbergasted....

Damn VICTORIA/NAUDIA was just demolishing bitchies!

...not the fuckin’ gun rally smfh

BUTCHER pushin’ the limits

“SOLDIER BOY never touched me like that.” - GUNPOWDER

Then how tf did he touch you?!?!

GUNPOWDER on that WANTED shit

Sooo... HOMELANDER has an annual suicide save?? Now, that’s some weird shit

Did someone drop the vid?!?!

Oh the Nazi bitch committed suicide...oh well....

MARVIN’s daughter is fuckin’ useless. Like you couldn’t open the fucking window and fan the alarm??? Man fuck these kids!!

Oh so it’s NAUDIA without a ‘U’... i don’t give a fuck.

I’m not sorry for laughing at HUGHIE because he can’t open a jar.

I skipped MARVIN’s heart to heart with his ex because ehh pathetic

RIP KENJI

KIMIKO... kids these days play GTA and watch ppl have sex on Game of Thrones like it’s another Tuesday... those kids will live to see another day move tf on lol

You better ride that fucking rollercoaster with a smile on your face.

RIP BECCA gone too soon. 

I’m glad HUGHIE snitched. BUTCHER definitely needed to know that. 

is HOMELANDER having a stroke!?!?

YOOOO he took the V24!!!!!

Looks like BUTCHER will get all the deets as usual. 

wow MALLORY’s invovled in this shit!!

Alright that’s enough....WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY GUY WENT TO FR

That song sounds awful...

MEMORABLE DIALOGUE

A-TRAIN - “Happy birthday, HOMELANDER.”

HOMELANDER - “Hey, thank you.”

A-TRAIN - “Yeah.”

HOMELANDER - “I can see your girdle you disgusting fat fuck. [chuckles] Get off the fucking stage.”

“STARLIGHT lied to you just know. She did. I don’t make mistakes. I’m not ‘just like that rest of you.’ I’m stronger. I’m smarter. I’m better. I am better. I’m not some weak-kneed fucking crybaby that goes around fucking apologizing all the time. And why the fuck would you want me to be?!” - HOMELANDER

THE EGG HAS FINALLY CRACKED!

Ashley needs to chill out with that hair pulling shit.

Ofc TODD likes wtf he’s hearing. 

I’ll admit... that monologue was pretty fuckin’ good though. 

______

We’ve ended the show with a strong monologue from Homelander proclaiming his superioty over all mankind. I can only wonder what the next episode holds! Click here to see the last post! Now let’s move onto episode three!

[mxchowind]

First blood

smfh pun not funny in title

anyways ive died so long have this

xiao reacting to his female s/o first on her period and now

The first time was when the two of you were out, snow viewing because of the early signs of winter falling upon Liyue. You were guarded with coats and all, making sure as not to catch a cold.

Then on the returning journey in the carriage, he spotted blood on your white dress.

Of course, his first instinct told Xiao that he should worry, and he did. 

‘‘You are bleeding.’’

And oh, it was only then that you realised you were, indeed.

He scooted closer, and you only pushed yourself further into his arms, a sharp pain in the abdomen and the cold frosts of wind seeping through small gaps. Curses, this thing came very inconveniently. 

Seeing as you went quiet, he grew more worried in an instant. Xiao’s hands clutched yours tightly, hoping to heat them up in a way possible. He took off his own coat and layed it over your whimpering body, arms hovering protectively.

‘‘Should I call for a doctor right now? Are you feeling alright- hold on.’’

Xiao proceeded to unveil the curtains of the carriage, hoping to talk to the man on the horse, but you held him back by a hand.

‘‘No- please don’t. It’s nothing serious.’’

But you didn’t even get to finish before curling up into a small figure, hands over stomach, the part of the body howling in pain.

He was by your side almost with the blink of an eye, and held you back onto the seat, cradling you in his arms. 

‘‘Hush. I won’t go, as per your request. Just- stay with me.’’

While that was the first time, now he often knows what to do. 

Bringing you hot water and making sure you rest are musts. Xiao knows cramps can hurt more than battle scars he wears, therefore he will do his best to keep history from repeating. 

He sleeps next to your bed when you rest, and takes it upon him to guard you from any harm. He’s willing to do anything for your sake, and that’s proven when he purposely rejects everyone’s visits by blocking the door, sitting an anemo wind barrier there with his spear stuck in the ground. 

When you wake up, Xiao is more than content to see you above all, smiling and chest swelling full of love.

‘‘Good morning. I am glad to see you awake- after a night’s good sleep.’’

But you know, it’s his way of saying ‘i love you.’

[amandabe11man]

2, 3, 8, 9, 18 hc asks, john + zep + lawrence

2. Job headcanon

john: this man has never struggled with money before in his life, I think. Why else do u think the two traumas he faced later in life made him lose it completely?? his life was so easy with the engineering and housing projects and the wifey and he (ironically) took it all for granted

zep: he’s done almost anything under the sun at this point, lmao. probably volunteered as a test subject for some college students’ experiments once in a while when money was extra tight as well

lawrence: much like john, his working life has been easy. he was one of THOSE guys in med school (or just— school in general), getting straight(?) A’s with almost zero effort, being infuriatingly approachable… so yeah, what I’m getting at is he’s literally always been a doctor since graduating and also his parents probably definitely paid for his tuition, smfh (idk how american schools work just bear with me)

3. Drinking headcanon

john: drinks occasionally but not much. Obviously he doesn’t drink booze AT ALL after the big c diagnosis. Teetotaler king

zep: again, he’s the chaotic one in this line-up. Not by MUCH in this case, but yeah… he does drink sometimes after another shitty day in his miserable life, but he ain’t an alcoholic

lawrence: he only drinks the finest wine because apparently, the boxed wine alison drinks with The Girls isn’t good enough for him 🙄

8. Shopping headcanon

john: after the multiple Incidents™ he barely shops anymore tbh. most of the time, he gets the apprentices to do it for him so he can stay holed up in his little dungeon, lol. also idk man, but when it comes to the murder clothes, I firmly believe he’s sewn them himself #malewife

zep: god he HATES shopping. He can’t stop thinking that everyone’s giving him Looks and that they’re all judging him. For what? well that’s not important y’see, the most important thing is that he’s right and they’re all definitely judging his entire existence (spoiler: most of them barely notice him, but don’t tell him that)

lawrence: back in his hey-day, he used to go shop with the fam once in a while. At least for groceries… and then maybe he’d accompany diana to some toy store or other while alison was off doing her own errands. I get the feeling they used to go to the mall a lot

9. Childhood headcanon

john: (he was kevin from Home Alone) nah but 4real, he was a somewhat normal kid. Was mostly a loner by choice, but that’s not to say he didn’t have any friends tho! Just— somewhat of a loner like I said, but also outspoken and social when he wanted to be. Also, the other kids definitely always asked him to draw things for them

zep: *war-flashbacks* Okay, his childhood wasn’t THAT messed up, but still— this was before the bitterness truly took hold of his mental state btw. This means that back then, he WANTED to make friends, wanted people to like him, to the point where the other kids would pretend to ”consider” letting him join their gang or whatever, but he’d have to do a bunch of things for them first. Basically, they’d string him along forever until zep finally got the picture that they were never gonna let him hang out with them after all :(

lawrence: SPOILED BRAT— okay, he wasn’t really a brat. Just a people-pleaser that’d get nasty looks for always reminding the teacher about homework (sigh), and yeah, his parents were well-off but busy, so to compensate for their absence, they’d buy him all sorts of things to ”make up” for it, y’know? (Absent parenthood runs in the family, eh?) He was popular but still only had a smaller group of friends he’d hang out with, rather than being shallow friends with the entire school

18. Family headcanon

john: do NOT even mention the ”normal” family concept to him after the incident with gideon bruh he’s still sensitive about that. The less he immerses himself in those memories, the better, because he’s supposed to be ”reborn” now, alright. he can’t detach himself COMPLETELY though, what with his little adoptees aka. apprentices and billy…. He fully embraced the found family-trope and he’s gonna make everyone else do it too!

zep: barely any family to speak of, or at the very least, he’s not in contact with them. It’s just one of those deals where his parents and relatives (if alive) are all busy with their own shit + their disappointment with how zep, uh, /turned out/ in life is something he’s also very much aware about, so they just barely ever end up talking, cause it’s just less embarrassing for everyone that way

lawrence: NEED I SAY MORE about the alison and diana-situation?? Not much to add there, so lemme touch upon something others rarely talk about: his parents. whoever’s still alive, he makes sure to keep contact with them and visit them for holidays and stuff together with his own fam. But as with most of his relationships down the line, he becomes more distant and detached towards them too after a while

[lilac-melody]

There’s a hot take I wanna address.

So, warning I guess, for weight mentions, body shapes, health, etc.

There’s nothing inherently wrong with being fat, overweight, chubby, etc. It’s fine, as long as you’re healthy. Not all fat people are unhealthy, some do genuinely exercise and diet and their health is in good condition but the fat won’t go away.

However,,, I’m sorry if this is hard to hear but being obese is not a good thing.

I’m all for body positivity, I really am. But medically, being obese is proven to be leading causes to strokes, heart attacks, diabetes, and more.

And like,,, you can’t even exercise obesity off ??? You’re literally damaging your body by doing so.

So, no, obesity is not something to strive for.

I myself have always struggled with weight, I wouldn’t really call myself “fat”, but I am overweight (thankfully people have flat out told me I don’t look my weight, here’s an image of my progress) I went down from jeans size 10/12 (depended on the brand but that was my general size) and now I wear size 6.

I lost as of now 28lbs (or 12.7kg for non-Americans) since last year and the start of the pandemic, and maybe in the span of 1 year that’s not a lot, but it is to me and I’m still going down.

Am I self conscious about my weight still? Yeah. And I’ve done some things I’m not proud of to lose weight. And I wonder if I’m still doing it subconsciously.

But anyway.

So I’m not speaking out of hatred or from the perspective of someone who’s never struggled.

I wholly understand it’s hard, and I wholly believe everyone should love themselves.

Even if you’re obese I don’t think you should hate yourself. But,,, diet? Eat less, eat healthy. If you eat slowly, you’ll get full faster. I can’t say for sure what will help, and I would def talk to a doctor about what you can do, but dieting is your best starting bet.

I see allot of mukbangs on my recommended (wow I watch one documentary on a mukbanger and now I’m being recommended them smfh ew) and I’m....honestly sad and genuinely concerned??? Please don’t eat a whole pizza, 4 burgers, 9 subway sandwiches, 3 sodas and 10lbs of chili cheese fries. Don’t...don’t do that. Please.

I mean, in the end, it’s all up to the person, but...just, I don’t know. It’s not healthy. I don’t like seeing people throwing their lives away for food.

Maybe I’m just a hypocrite, but...

I don’t know where I’m going with this. So I’ll end it off with this:

OBESE PEOPLE. I believe in you! Do your best!

[lunanoirre]

Episodes 11, 12, and 13

Ok, it has been a hot minute!!!

Merry late Christmas and Happy Holidays to all, and since the 19th of this month has passed, I am now 19!!!!

I am still the same ol’ dumbass reviewing Supernatural in 2020 though, so let’s get this show on the road!

Episode 11, the episode which I forgot that I watched. Not to say that it wasn’t a good episode!!! It was, and it scared the shit outta me.

The scarecrow design looks eerily like the one in the OG prints of Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark, and that—.... Horrifies me. So that was awesome!

But, unfortunately, this episode finally shows the boys getting into contact with their father again, and I really did not like it!

I mean, calling up your KIDS at complete random, when they’re worried sick about you, beebopping around America looking for YOU, and just???? Barking more orders at them??? Forcing them back into a job??? I mean, no wonder Sam got sick of this shit, and left for Cali to try and find John himself.

And poor, poor Dean... I really hate watching him bend over backwards to please their dad, and this is the worst example so far.

At least this episode showed how much these brothers need each other to continue this job successfully, which is wholesome yet sad. Siblings shouldn’t be forced to become codependent for survival.

Oh. And what the fuck was with the hitchhiker lady Sam met???????

Of course that hasn’t been answered yet, smfh.

Episode 12 didn’t... really have much in terms of character development???

OH WAIT NO!

This episode shows just how much Dean doesn’t value his own life! Mmm, Christmas fun!

But seriously, an episode about a Grim Reaper that looks like one of the Silence from Doctor Who, was interesting. Well... Interesting until Dean started insinuating that his life wasn’t worth as much as the girl with the brain tumor.

I’m just...

GOD!!!!

Spn, please stop milking me of my empathy for Dean???

Though, this would have been more impactful if his disability lasted more than 3 minutes.

I understand that Sam desperately wanted to get him better, since a prognosis of a week to a few months was visibly tearing poor Sammy to shreds inside...

But...

Rectifying the illness within 3 seconds of introducing it... killed the oomf this event would have held if left to marinate.

Yes, yes, I know, Season 1 still has the monster of the week type vibes and all and it doesn’t yet feel comfortable enough to dive into these inner issues... But it’s just???? Y’know, an odd choice at minimum.

Though it punched me in the gut to hear Dean speak so lowly about himself in regards to the fact that he... admits that he doesn’t feel like he’s worthy of living?

And that hit hard, as someone who has struggled with those sorts of thoughts. The worst part is that nothing really rose to challenge his opinion on that. Not even Sam decided to combat the way he was speaking.

And the fact that he didn’t even fight the Reaper, knowing that he was risking death??? Entirely because he felt like it would save someone who was worth more than him???

GOD.... I am GOING to cry.

And episode 13 was even sadder!!!

Exploring Dean’s first love seemed like it would have been fun... Until he started expressing the fact that he regrets opening up to Cassie. Because Cassie immediately interpreted his truth as an elaborate lie to break things off with her.

😐

Now, I’m not saying Cassie is abusive. She is not (I honestly love her SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!), and her reaction to hearing that he was a professional ghoul hunter was completely rational.

But!

Hearing that this event caused Dean to shut himself off even further... Hurts me???? Because I know how that feels.

I know how it feels to feel the need to hide integral parts of yourself because they’re abnormal, and you know most people wouldn’t react well to it. I know that pain.

So it kinda felt like a slap in the face to see that Dean’s hurt was kinda... pushed aside in favor of make-up sex??? I mean... being on the asexual spectrum myself, I cannot imagine doing something like that anyway, even if the partner was a beloved ex... But with my bias aside, it still felt wrong.

Neither of them are in the wrong per se... Although, the fact that Cassie seemed kinda aggressive when apologizing to Dean about the hurt he was hiding also rubbed me the wrong way. She knows that he hides his inner feelings, so spitting on them like that was the obvious wrong step, but since they’re straight, make-up sex makes everything better right?? 🤪🤪🤪

The answer is no, no it doesn’t. I liked the shirtless Dean fanservice though.

GOD he’s attractive....

But, aside from that, I was glad to see Dean enjoy himself a bit, and be a little vulnerable.

For god’s sake, it’s such a big deal that he told Cassie anything!!!!! It’s just such a shame that she took his confession the wrong way... That, and she point blank told him that she couldn’t see things working out in the end.

Annnnndddddddd I’m sure Cassie won’t reappear anytime soon, if at all... which is sad.

I really do like her!!!

Now, onto episodes 20 and beyond!

Man, a couple more episodes and I’m into season 2...

EDIT:

oh. My GODD HOW DID I FORGET TO MENTION THE FUCKING RACIST TRUCK??????

I DID NOT EXPECT THE RACIST TRUCK TO APPEAR SO SOON?????

[morening]

List of outrageously racist and disgusting things I’ve heard with my own 2 ears since being in florida:

1. “these black people act like slavery ended last night. why has it taken an entire people over 150 years to get their shit together? something is wrong with those people. these black americans deserve to be in poverty.”

2. “hitler was doing the world a favor by burning those [k slurs] in ovens. they are a nasty, horrible group of people.”

3. “i’ll die before i go see a black doctor. they don’t know what the hell they’re doing so i’d probably die in their care anyway.”

4. “i’m not black. don’t ever call me black that’s the most disrespectful thing you could call me. i’m west indian.”

5. “why would i go into a black beauty store when the chinese are cleaner and cheaper?”

the list could go on but i’m honestly feeling sick to my stomach recalling and writing these things down. how fucking tone deaf and racist can you be? what bothers me even more is there were all said by black people. smfh

[the--social--anarchist]

Thursday - 1.23.2020 Tuesday was my rheumatology appointment. It was a complete bust. An utter waste of time, energy and money. The only benefit is that I can officially say I do not have any autoimmune or other rheumatic conditions. The doctor was very dismissive and uninterested. As soon as she heard I was a cash patient she was done with me because “I wouldn’t be able to afford anything.” I can guarantee you she has absolutely no idea I paid $500 just to see her that day. I left the office in tears with literally no idea where to go next. She wouldn’t/couln’t even tell if it would be more fitting to see a new neurologist or a neurosurgeon.  After the appointment I came home and slept for two hours, and then I basically got right back to work researching and deciding what my next steps should be. I was pretty surprised I didn’t stay down longer, but at this point I think I’m just so jaded. Plus, I know if don’t take action nothing will get done. Nobody else is going to take charge of this issue for me, obviously. I decided I needed to go back to my PCP for a brainstorm sesh, and that I need an MRI of the rest of my spine. I met with my PCP the next day and I cannot stress enough how much I value this doctor. If it weren’t for her I would be so so sooo much more lost. She wrote me the order for the MRI, and agreed that neurosurgery would be best to get a complete look and review of my brain and spine.  I did some intense research and I’ve found a few doctors at the local hospital, as well as a private practice with two surgeons in the city. But during my research I kinda took a detour and went back to the Ehler-Danlos Society website and found the single geneticist listed in the state of Georgia. Then I started researching her, and it turns out several people in my online support groups have seen her, and they all love her. I’m changing my plans a bit and I’m booking her for an eval. EDS has been brought up (by other doctors) a few times now, and is very fitting when you look at my symptoms as a whole. Fuck it. This woman will be able to say Yay or Nay and then I can either put this lingering thought behind me or have my answer. The rheumatologist knew basically nothing about EDS and said she did not deal with or evaluate for it, and I would need to see genetics for blood work (so basically she doesn’t know dick squat.) She also said “even if you have EDS there’s no point in spending all your money confirming it because there’s no treatment.” UMMMMM. I don’t feel like I even need to explain to my readers what’s wrong with that sentence, because I’m fairly certain you all have more common sense and empathy than that woman does. SMFH. So tomorrow while Christian is driving us all over town to run errands, I will be calling an opthamologist, the hospital to book the MRI, and the geneticist. I don’t want to be a pessimistic but.. I’m also not holding my breathe that anything will work out.  

[humankoalaa]

BLACK LIGHTNING 3X02

*SPOILERS AHEAD*

we’re not doing this the beginning of every episode tho .... we’re not. like ive had it with the vomiting 😩

bleeding out the eyes tho?! ... is this black lightning or shadow hunters 😫

LALA ISNT IN A TRACK SUIT ?!

ugh poor Henderson.

is that khalils mom tho?

LMAO gambi i said the same thing 🤣🤣 come on sis. we know that mamas cry.

ooooooo jefferson big mad 🤣 sit down. like just take the L you’re used to it.

this commander is such trash.

they can’t even call jenn and anissa?! their daughters?! smfh.

might as well kept the damn collar on jeff. hell all they need is shackles now 😒 kinda shit is this man.

they done got a cell upgrade in captivity, meanwhile anissas jobless in a loft and presumably unconscious still.

😫 grandma and grandpa fighting. keep all that negativity on the green arrow plz and ty.

this adolf reincarnate wanna be bout to be the next reverend with all this screaming huh?! you can get your point across using your indoor warehouse voice at a 6.

“quarantine be damned” 🤣🤣

only black lightning can use “grimey ass” and get away with it and only hendersons ass has the attitude to deliver it. i said what i said.

TIMEOUT. i know good AND got damn well anayah knows that’s anissas ass 🤣🤣🤣🤣

WHY DOES BLACKBIRD SOUND LIKE BATMAN?! WHY?!

jenn 🤣🤣🤣🤣 i love her so much.

odell has officially realized jenn ain’t the one 😂

he’s looking at her like “got dammit you know what just watch the video, take the phone, eat the food, surf the web, tie you shoes and stop frying government property!”

meanwhile jenns like nah. im good love. enjoy.

lawd they were lying through them smiles for jenn 😭

they really pulled out shotguns?! 🤣 also i can’t with blackbird and that mask. like do they really not know thats anissa orrrr

GAMBI!!!!!

henderson 🤣🤣 “do you ever run out of weird ass tech” MOOD.

henderson saying anissa is his heart 😭

i know that’s right gambi.

sis done lost her fingernails? 😩 they need to just let her go on to the thee almighty.

i can’t wait for Henderson to fuck up this commander ooooooo i know it’s coming.

yes for bread and crackers lala. he here preaching about crumbs.

scuse me mr. lala, you ever seen lesbians fight over crumbs?! clearly you haven’t. issa whole 2 seasons and we still ain’t seen anissa and grace hug, go on a proper date, NOT lie about something i mean i can do this all day.

we done been through 60 days and 60 nights, 80 acres and 3 mules, AND had to endure TWO grace droughts in 2018 ok?! meanwhile we’re still here fighting for crumbs.

you ever seen the movie antz mr. latavius?! that is a day in the life of a lesbian. okay?! pay attention. learn you something!

🤣🤣🤣🤣 they still killing lala only for him to get right back up 😂😂

i need lala to get up one of these days after being shot like “surprise mother fucker, got shot five times mother fucker, still alive mother fucker, IM NOT NOT DYN MOTHER FUCKER” i need this.

when did anissa learn sign language? you know what nevermimd she just be out here knowing how to do shit.

anayah ungrateful ass.

i cannot stress this enough.... blackbird can beat my ass to hell and leave me there.

awh lawd they done killed Mariam.

this dude talking to jenn on the stairs has a whole booger in his nose. you mean to tell me nobody in the editing room peeped that?! 😩

NO JAMILA IM OVER U BYEEEE

shut up and run jamila.

KHALIL

still don’t like his ass but heeyyyyyy giirrlll.

khalil... you ain’t even finish highschool ole masters in none having ass 😩

no the fuck he ain’t study none of that shit 😂😂😂😂

OMFG NO ODELL!

lmao i thought it came back on nope watchmen commercial 😂

it’s been on a commercial break for like 30 minutes come on man.

oh wow commander showing he has some sort of humanity left in him.

PAUSE he called khalil “it” 🙄 trash.

odell better stop treating my grandmother like the help thats all i know.

COMMERCIAL AGAIN?! it wasnt even 2 minutes since the last 😑

first of all lynn you’re not mad at my grandfather. relax.

awh lawd grandpa 😩😩😩😩😩

she pulled the “im a doctor card” 😂

this fight is so petty 😂

both of their asses need to be grounded and sent to bed.

michelle..... that ain’t your son sis. that ain’t him sis.

rip michelle. guess that’s why blackbird sounds like Batman so she doesnt end up like Michelle’s non anonymous anonymous interview 🤷🏾‍♀️

why they have her go out like that 😩 looking like kryptonite got her ass 😩

Lawd he done fucked up and called jenn a bitch.

jenn 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 this ain’t a problem you want 🤣🤣🤣

jenn really just beat up the whole wrestling team... yeah she did that. her and anissa fight scenes always lit.