#this is true hater problems like if i could just be normal about it i would. sadly annoying ppl in 2019 utterly destroyed it for me 4ever 🥲

[spxcesuits]

devastating when ur otp and notp are constantly brought up in association with e/o just bc they both have the same character and are compared even tho the dynamics are not that similar at all 😔

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

Questioning npd culture is... (Half a vent)

"do I actually do that or do I just think I do?"

"Well I think like that all the time but it's not like I ever do anything about it"

"no one else would ever think of me like that so it must not be true"

"ok but is that a symptom or am I just a shitty person?"

"am I a hater or am I just actually right about everything all the time? Is me having an ego wrong or am I just actually perfect?"

"am I blowing things out of proportion or is wanting you to die a justified response to this situation?"

"if they don't answer me they must hate me and want me dead so I must have showed them how awful of a human being I actually am"

"is the disorder defined by what I do? Or is just thinking this type of shit enough to be a problem?"

"yeah I've always had this idea that I was going to be famous and loved forever and i break down when I think about how that's probably not going to happen and I'm supposed to be just like any other person because I'm Not, i'm different than all of them and i deserve to be remembered more than they do, but that's not me being irrational, i'm just confident in my own abilities" (i'm not)

"is this a normal level of confidence or am I getting an ego about this because people are praising me? but yeah I am just better at it than everyone else"

"yes getting in arguments online makes me so fucking anxious but it's the only place I can do it without real consequences and honestly I don't care about this at all I just want an excuse to laugh at you because it makes me feel better about myself"

"i don't think I could ever be able to accurately recognize this in myself but i also don't think anyone else could either unless I told them specifically (and then it wouldn't feel genuine, I'd feel like I just manipulated them and i'm faking because I want to seem 'edgy' or something)"

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[seat-safety-switch]

Visiting actual civilization is fun. In most cities, things don't start happening until you leave the endless expanse of suburbia and go to the inner city. Downtown haters will tell you not to do it, of course. It's "unsafe," but so is driving a fifty-year-old car without airbags or the ability to turn left. Joke's on them: not only will they use more fuel over the lifetime of their car idling at lights waiting for a green arrow, but they're also going to miss out on my favourite part of downtown, the sausage cart.

Long ago, according to local legend, this sausage cart was opened by a dude from Poland whose name is lost to history. His descendants now own a network of sausage carts all throughout downtown, but this one – the true original – is the only choice of the tube-meat connoisseur. I love to visit, get a smokie and a questionably-branded pop, and be back on the road, before the parking patrol has even twigged to the fact that I left my car in the memorial fountain once again.

Last weekend, I went down there and there was a problem. The operator, whose name will also be lost to history because I ain't no snitch, was worried that his customer base was starting to get pulled away by the falafel cart across the street. This was a valid worry: not only was the falafel cheaper, more flavourful, and more delicious, but they had a guy dressed up as a giant foam gyro breakdancing on the sidewalk. It was a nearly irresistible combo, one that I could only pull myself away from out of blind loyalty to the Sausage King's bravest foot soldier.

Now, I'm not one to get involved in petty squabbles like this normally. I would have just left, but the dude in the gyro suit started chirping at me as I approached my car. My attorney has suggested that I not repeat the words he spoke about my humble Volare, but I assure you that he ate said words, as I set about doing a spiteful, highschooler-grade one-wheel-peel burnout to enshroud their business in tire smoke. Of course, that burnout then resulted in the half-century-old automatic transmission letting go and splashing white-hot Dexron III® all over the cart full of ingredients, but it got results nonetheless. I don't know what they're complaining about, it didn't even taste bad when I helped myself to a free sample after they ran away.

[plumsaffron]

Why am I not surprised that these miracusalters are still going on with their Lila Rossi hate campaign? These “people” really do have nothing better to do aside from hating on a fictional character since their debut.

I don’t normally compare real people and fictional characters but the miracucunts deadass remind me of Dio Brando (JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure) and even Frieza (Dragon Ball franchise) but way more unlikable. Haters who just can’t let it go and their faux politeness act immediately drops when their opp is around.

Let’s try these jokes on these miracubozos:

You wanna know what’s funny? They hate Lila and similar liar type characters but are now behaving just as bad if not much worse than her. Causing misinformation/Mandela Effects for the unfortunate online newcomers.

Salt fics are brainrot of the worst kind. Akin to addiction of any negative content hating on fictional characters to the max.

Congrats, you not only make most other non-miraculous Xover creators look worse even though some non-ML folks are kinda guilty of similar bad writings. Again, other Xover creators are more stable than your kind as per usual. But you miracubitches ruined Xovers with all that hypocritical preachiness. Not just using characters as your mouthpiece against your most hated OPPs.

Thanks a lot TVTropes users, most popular media’s the negative fan content greatly overshadowed the positive ones. Now the positive fics hardly get attention these days only kudos/reviews at around 30 each... Should I create alt accounts to give kudos for those postive fics? Nah, that’s cheating and too draining.

Y’all are really addicted to bloodsports on hatred of certain characters huh? Why don’t you play violent games then?

So you’re fine with literal murderers getting away with their crimes yet want death on abusers and liars? All bc those murderers showed genuine love towards their loved ones for a little while? What happened to wanting equality for everyone?

At this point I don’t feel sorry for the miracutwats for “allegedly” having a shitty life! I’m going to assume that they’re liars like Lila or Marinette, feigning sympathy for the online sheep. If they do have a crappy life, I bet their trauma melded with canon and assumed that salt is the true timeline. Ah, instability…

Heh heh.

Well between today and yesterday, seems that Revelator miraculous episodes sums them morons up them in a nutshell.

I short, Marinette was acting like woe me there’s suddenly nothing she can do against this liar, Vincent Aza. Earlier was pleasant doing anything upon two her age no matter who is affected (saoatoge to her favor because accepting others povs that could help her and not causing problems is evil and being a liar) til Lila and Chloe were out of her sight in life. So yep they can handle worse but collapse over Lila (or Chloe). Just like Marinette collapses of Vincent apparently so.

I’m not gonna go on about it but these instabilities decided to go be disgusting upon Alya Cesaire/Rena Rouge. All because they were “terrified” of what Alya finds out according to previews. Terrified of Alya not reacting in the favor of Marinette’s crap as shown when release. They must really hate individuality or something when it doesn’t benefit Ladybug. Basically she temporarily found out the truth of what Marinette did and is hidden from Adrien about his father and the world. What Adrien has the right to know especially. Idiots making bait or having to audacity to call Alya the betrayer. And like you said. Spreaders of lies being worse than Marinette and Lila ever can be. Gabi coded supreme.

Everything tells them in their face Alya’s right (even Marinette knows). Still they wanna give their spinal cords to Ladybug again or make it out that Alya’s the problem. Being angry is wrong apparently (ah where do I remember that reoccurrence again hehehehe).

They funny honestly. So brave but then cowards later. Pretending they care of the truth or their interesting disgust against liars til they are given a Revelator treatment (like npcs in that Revelator episode). Then they cower in fear when they become the target for their lame ridiculous abhorrent ways.

Roachtuber (probably making common bait).

Still. clearly making it out a visual portrayal that that Alya is somehow the problem. Yeah if I recall, she willingly wanted her memory of that removed. Like dang, being labeled a possible traitor of Marinette despite Marinette being the traitor and Rena being loyal despite Ladybug unloyalty.

[randomlydreamingsblog]

10 of my top Kakasaku headcanons:

!!!!! Before I start, if you share different opinions or just think something different it’s okay, these are just MY thoughts on how I personally picture the ship. Since they’re not canon, it opens to a lot of possibilities and opinions, so if you don’t like mine just keep scrolling and we’ll be fine !!!!!

1- It takes quite some time for them to start seeing each other in a different light. After the war their bond evolves into a low key friendship that gets them closer. After they both realize they feel attracted to each other, they both experience a lot of self conflict and mixed emotions. Things only switch when the tension between them is so strong they actually kiss and then things finally start to slowly move on from there.

2- Kakashi isn’t a hater of hospitals. He’s a reasonable man and he understands that health and rest are important, so he is not reluctant to doctors or nurses. He always prefers when it’s Sakura taking care of him, and he respects her orders. Even though he doesn’t enjoy being in a hospital bed (who does?) he does his best to follow the rules and let his body recover.

3- Kakashi is the one who falls first when he starts to notice he’s attacked to not only Sakura’s beauty but also her personality, different traits and small details like her laugh, her smell or the way she talks.

4- Sakura falls for him after a medical checkup when Kakashi shows his face to her for the first time. She’s shocked because he’s very different from the old bored man she’d pictured in her head: he’s actually much younger and incredibly handsome. That actually makes her see him in a different way and she ends up feeling attracted, and later, in love.

5- Their bonds with Sasuke will always remain. They’ll always love him and welcome him as part of their family and they’ll always be friends. Sasuke loves Sakura and wishes she has someone who can give her what he couldn’t and he’s happy when he finds out she’s with Kakashi. He doesn’t think it’s weird and actually believes they make a lot of sense together. (I simply don’t like to mischaracterize Sasuke just to make Kakasaku happen. Maybe it’s because I like the canon couple and understand Sasuke’s character)

6- Kakashi had very few sexual experiences in his life. He’s very reserved and doesn’t open up easily, so even though he can get attention from a lot of women, his ninja duties, past traumas and domestic personality don’t really allow him to have a relationship or commit to someone.

7- When it comes to Sakura, I believe 2 things can be true: either she and Sasuke actually have a full relationship for a while and later they end it in good terms, or they don’t even start a relationship and decide to be friends instead. In the fist scenario, Sakura has experienced everything form a relationship: love, intimacy and of course, sex. In the second scenario she has her fisrt time with Kakashi but the journey on love and intimacy is new to both.

8- Kakashi does feel a slight guilt about the way he neglected Sakura when he was her sensei. However it’s not that much shameful or too deep, because Sakura appreciates everything he did for her. It’s just that if he could go back in time he might do things differently, that’s all.

9- Showing his face was never a problem to Kakashi. Of course he prefers to keep his mask on and only takes it off when it’s highly necessary, but it was never a problem to show his face to the people who were closer to him, like Guy and his other jounin friends for example. The thing with team 7 is just because it was fun to tease them when he saw the 3 of them working so well together for something silly, so he kept teasing as much as he could.

10- Sakura is also a minute closeted “pervert” , just like Kakashi. She has a very sexual side but she keeps it to herself. Even though sometimes she might struggle with some insecurities and come off a little shy (which is perfectly normal because it’s very unrealistic to be 100% confident and outgoing all the time) she’s always brave to come out of her shell and enjoys experiencing new things. If she’s in love with someone she’s not afraid of anything and she’s very passionate, so with Kakashi she gives everything she has, and it’s HOT!

That’s it, I have more but this post would be too long. Hope you enjoyed it!

[hcgossips]

You just proved that you're just a fake hater who has no problem letting problematic people on the podium. You want to follow this drama, of course you're free to do so, but that also means you're addicted to it. If I'm contradicting myself in the eyes of the other commenter, she's also contradicting herself, since she could have ignored my remarks. But as you like to say, hcfiles, I must have "touched a nerve" because only your opinion counts. That's why your account is deserted. It's true, compared to accounts that are pro-Cavill, how do they react? Many don't know anything about the actor's private life, others just recently found out that he's a father. What's the difference between you and his others fans? Don't tell me you're smarter. You created an IG account in the past to troll them. But Meta protects verified accounts, that's normal. It's what most companies do to protect their reputation. I wish Henry would already release the dms he gets from his fans or people who think they have a relationship with him. That's on a different level. But you see, it doesn't matter. He just has to keep his mouth shut and let it happen because that is his job.

So, because I want to follow a plot he created for attention, spotlight, algorithms, because I don't care for what happens to Natalie and because I don't have the same "opinion" as you do, I am a hater? What a funny way to see things.

And, if you don't want to consider my "opinion", just ignore it. If you don't like the page, just move on. You are free to go. I answered you because that's what I usually do to my followers (many or a few). Don't make light of my page yet. It's a relatively young blog.😂

But, I'm not the one creating content for attention and algorithms. I'm here just gossiping on who created it: Henry Cavill. I will answer you pleasantly,.... When I feel like it. You are welcome to stay or free to leave. It's up to you. But, your "remarks" give me the popularity. Keep bringing them.

Do you know why my IG was shut down? Because it was bothering. If my content was BS, all people had to do was ignore it and it would easily go away. But, it was somehow, influencing opinions.

And, by the way, I never sent him a DM and never tried to go after his family like his crazy fans. But, yes, I followed the plot. Just like he follows the lead. He put a show for the audience and I am a part of it.

And, no. My "opinion" is not the only one that counts. Proof is I am here giving you the attention I still think you deserve to read your "opinion" on the matter. But, you don't have one, do you? All you have is hate for me, because my "opinion" doesn't fit yours.

[cyprusgirl19]

I have never made a post before but I feel like this is something I have to do because it is really annoying me!

I recently discovered Milo Manheim after watching Disney's Z-O-M-B-I-E-S and found him so charming as Zed. I looked into him a bit more and watched interviews and videos of him on YouTube and he is like the sweetest most wholesome celebrity out there! Then I came across the Zionism accusations and the first thing I did (as any normal person should do rather than just believing everything they read) I did my research and was glad to find that these were all lies and rumours being spread. I want to make it super clear that Milo is Jewish but not all Jewish people follow or support Zionism. Let me take this opportunity to show that Milo Manheim is NOT an horrible, heartless genocide supporting Zionist as some people think.

First of all, the "proof" that people use as evidence has no merit at all!

"Proof" number 1: "My heart goes out to all the people affected by the attacks in Israel". Milo posted this the day after the infamous events of October 7th showing sympathy to the hostages and the people killed by Hamas. The war between Israel and Hamas had not stared yet. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that! How does that show he is a Zionist and a supporter of genocide? It doesn't!!!

"Proof" number 2: He works with organisations that aim to tackle antisemitism which apparently are also Zionist organizations. He is working with these to stop antisemitism not to spread Zionism. Of course he is going to be working with organisations to stop antisemitism he is Jewish for crying out loud! Someone also said that the fact he is working with director Eli Roth who is a Zionist means that Milo is also a Zionist. This is just stupid.

Someone made a post on Twitter/X saying Milo has been posting Israeli propaganda which is so false!

People are also mad at him because he hasn't said anything about Palestine. That doesn't mean he doesn't care. Perhaps he doesn't want to talk about the war. We don't know him and we don't know his thoughts as he never said what he truly thinks. We cannot make assumptions. He supports lots of charities aiming to improve people's lives and is an advocate for teen suicide prevention so obviously he cares about humans suffering. He is not heartless.

It is so sad and upsetting to see so much hate and lies being spread as if people think by hating on him they are better than him. Are the celebrities supporting Palestine but are also antisemitic better than him? No! Milo has never hated on anyone so newsflash haters you are not better than him. Milo is very vocal about spreading kindness. It is also very disappointing to see his own fans giving up on him without bothering to find out if what is said about him is true or not. I am pretty sure a lot of this has stemmed from antisemitism as nobody had a problem with him until the war started. Now everyone seems to hate Jews and I find that absolutely disgusting! I will also support and defend Milo because he is not what people think he is (unless he does or says something that suggest otherwise). I have now made it my mission to clear up this situation because Milo does not deserve this. Sorry for the rant but this upsets me. People don't realise the impact it could have on his mental health.

Also someone on tumblr said Milo supported a post baby ariel made mocking free Palestine but when I searched it up I couldn't find that post anywhere it. The person shared a photo (which was just Milo commenting a heart and Ariel replying back with hearts which doesn't mean anything Ariel and Milo are friends) but it did not show the actual post. I don't know what that is about maybe someone can enlighten me.

He also voted for Kamala Harris in the presidential elections and one of her promises was to secure a hostage and ceasefire deal between I srael and Hamas.

Sidenote since we are talking about the Israel Hamas War: I truly feel sympathy for the Palestinians and the hostages and people killed by Hamas. I pray for everyone affected by the war. However, hating/blocking celebrities who support Israel or haven't spoken in support of Palestine will do nothing to help stop the war. The celebrities supporting Israel want the hostages home and Hamas gone. They don't want genocide unless the openly dehumanise or hate on the Palestinians. People shouldn't be harassing celebrities for this as they can not do anything. It is the politicians who have the power to end the war.

[puhpandas]

as much as I find GGY/greg lore in general interesting, I really hope he gets his own lore completely disconnected from the mimic/glitchtrap too considering vanessa and cassie do. we only get glimpses of gregory’s entire character and nothing else. we don’t even know his family history because his parents are so unimportant that they died off screen.

while gregory’s character is interconnected throughout everyone else’s lore and serves so much purpose in that way, he ultimately has nothing of his own.

I could guess that’s why he’s so hated because there’s very little (that we know of) to latch onto or to sympathize with (not me though, I’m his #1 fan) the thing is, he’s been mischaracterized for so long that I kinda dread he’ll never get any proper development exploring what he could be in the future because of it. he’s only ever seen as the “problem” in other characters stories, completely discrediting anything he’s done up until this point.

I would love to hear more about Gregory's life before getting glitchtrapped if GGY is confirmed canon. he has so much mystery surrounding him rn which GGY can fix a lot of but like you said, I would love more development of just him as himself. with his past life and everything. it would help people like him more (except the violent haters I guess) because he'd actually have more of a person to him to like instead of the things hes done for the story.

it would make GGY in turn more upsetting too. if they develop his life he had ripped away from him it makes it a lot sadder and it helps both cases

I think ur statement about Gregory having nothing of his own is true. to be fair theres only been two games so far but I really do hope in a future game we get more Gregory backstory! I would love to just learn more about him in general and not exactly what he offers to the story as a whole. I dont mean a huge past like Michael afton or something, anything mundane would work better in my opinion. it works well with the idea that now hes stuck having to work against monsters because he got unlucky one day. that loss of his old normal life would be better than any crazy backstory for the 12 year old

sorry I can't say much bc my brain isnt working but you make really good points and I understand what ur saying!! it's not dislike towards GGY it's the hope that theres something more for Gregory alongside that. all we can do is hope at this point, but I do have hope since ruin seemed to be more of a setup than anything! we have HW2 to look forward to and probably many more games. surely at some point (especially with leaving the sb era and kinda getting a fresh slate with no tftp and freshly screwed up story) we'll get some more character for him

[jacquesthepigeon]

(hey if you don't oost this publicly could you just answer privately with a dot. The select text feature is being wonky and I'd like a copy for ease in other discussions, please.)

For the anon asking about Mari-Sue-ness.

I know I come at it from a slightly different angle than some (yes there are just haters) but I think my experience might match some who 'feel' like she is a sue without being able to articulate it well. (Tl;dr Overly Sarcastic Productions has a great video breaking down the Mary Sue trope in general, worth a look)

(addendum this held true until Felix showed up and sprinted to challenge Mari for the lead)

The Sueness comes from the fact that the entire world feels like it exists only for Marinette. It's about framing not specific character traits. There is a real sense that the entire world stops if Marinette isn't paying attention to it. It exists not as a world, but as a toybox to pull things from when she is supposed to play with them. Everything exists for her benefit.

Yes she is the protagonist and yes you do focus on a protagonist, but you generally do so in a world that lives and breathes around them. The journey is the protagonist navigating this world that exists, overcoming obstacles in their way, and growing as a person. Mari should be the most important person in the story, but she shouldn't feel like the only person in a room full of maniquinns.

There are other framing elements as well. The big one is one that divides the fanbase because it is two things that exist simultaneously and so different sides can each grasp the thing they want to prove their point.

1)Mari is never held accountable for what she does

2)Mari is relentlessly punished by the nareative.

Both these things are true and both are sue-elements.

Start with punishment. I call it that because it is what it is. Marinette's punishment at the hands of the story isn't normally tied to her actual misbehavior. It is arbitrary and unjust. That is the *point* It is supposed to evoke those feelings of injustice in you, while providing a fig leaf (see! She doesn't always win!) Bit that's just it. Relentless unjust punishment simply elevates the character into martyr status. It makes you want to protect this poor special person who is the victim of everything and who is hurt for doing no wrong.

The other element is the lack of addressing the wrong that she does do. Let's be clear: a hero who makes mistakes is a good character, and Marinette as shown in the text minus the framing is a *good character.* The show however sets up this strange dichotomy where Marinette has to make these mistakes, but she can't ever really be *wrong*, just mistaken, and the solution a simple fix.

This works when the problems are minor day-to-day episodic plot things. It doesn't when the things are major emotional beats that should require revisiting. When Mari's jealousy makes her accidently give away Fu's ID and makes her ignore her instincts leading to Miracle Queen, that is interesting, humanizing, and understandable. When at the end if the day the narrative just decides 'Fu is happier now and Chloé was always evil anyway' it's absolutely dodging the moment and replacing healthy character growth with 'Mari is always right'

The show doesn't seem to want to admit to any way except Marinette's as being right. It doesn't even want to entertain the possibility. An plotline where Cat Noir voices his feelings of isolation and wanting to be a partner, where Ladybug acknowledges his concerns and maybe shares a little bit not everything because she is still her own person making her own choices? Nah. We'll frame Kuro Neko as Cat Noir throwing a tantrum, right down to him admitting to being 'naughty' and outting zero percent of the responsibility for the divide on her shoulders.

So, yeah. Things like that can lead to accusations of Sue-ness. While at the same time, Marinette herself can be a great character.

I think I get what you mean with the show not knowing how to do things in moderation so it’s always either just looked over or going balls to the walls 1000% everything is her fault

[ruminate88]

My Best Friends And Lovers Were My Enemies Too 😰

I can truly say you don’t ever know a person fully because they can hide thoughts and feelings in their heart and head. The Bible claims to me in Jeremiah 17; The heart is deceitful and desperately wicked, who can know it? (I don’t even know my own heart sometimes and it’s confused me a lot in the past)

I know I’m far from perfect myself and have made countless mistakes. I’m not judging folks, I only tried to trust and find loving relationships but in my past, I was so empathetic and emotional, I attracted so many haters and abusers. People whom could only use me and pretend to care deeply for me. I had an online friend named Bri, from Washington Seattle, that we were on again, off again, for many many years! Bri would some how break my trust, I would pull away but then she would always come back around and some how we were always friends again. She would play both sides too! Bri was also friends with a girl online named Christine and this Christine always hated me from day one. (I never really got to talk to Christine, I always just tried to ignore her and focus on my own problems.) Bri knew this and would act like she was only friends with Christine to get information about her but I knew better. I tried to always give Bri the benefit of the doubt and forgave her countless times until one day Bri went too far.

I had been dating this guy named Andrew, whom, I didn’t know he was a narcissist but Andrew’s behavior in our relationship was very bizarre and confusing. I had made the mistake to complain to Bri countless times about Andrew and Bri took it upon herself to investigate!! Bri went behind my back and started texting Andrew. They apparently talked and sexted for a month behind my back. If Bri was just looking out for me, why did she need to sext with him?? Whenever Bri confessed to me what she had done, I just didn’t see how I could ever trust her again or have a normal friendship with her. I also questioned Andrew and he played dumb, claimed he believed I made a new account and he SWORE he believed that he was only talking to me the whole time. (I wasn’t born yesterday, I knew Andrew was trying to cover up the truth.)

Andrew wasn’t the only man in my life who lied and cheated. Bri wasn't the only dishonest friend in my life either. I learned that people can make mistakes, people can be selfish and can disappoint you. I’ve had special people in my life but even some folks deceive you by making you believe they’re special but they’re trying to gain something from you.

You just have to navigate yourself, having a firm belief system and sticking to it! Always knowing that people can let you down but the Bible tells me in 1 John 4:18: “Perfect Love cast out all fear!” From my own personal experiences, I could easily be afraid to ever have relationships again but then that would be the most cold and lonelist space. I work hard to pray to God and pray for loving people in my life. You won’t always know a persons true colors right away but expecting people not to be perfect, helps me not to be so disappointed and I’m more apt to understand people now and move on. I don’t live so hard anymore as I use to. I use to consistently fall apart and play the victim; having countless pity parties with myself.

Without love and relationships, you put yourself alone in a box and shut yourself off from living. You don’t have to have 100 friends, you do need people though. I’ve felt alone and isolated many times in my past and it’s the worst feeling I’ve ever experienced. I don’t understand people that insist on living alone and away from civilization. I realize the world can be cruel and dark but maybe you can be a light for them! Don’t give up! I know it’s hard to stand out from the crowd and be different. You don’t feel like you even fit in. I was always the empath and the emotional one in all my past relationships till one day God sent me my husband who is even more sensitive than me♥️ My husband cries when I’m hurt. That’s beyond sweet to me and nothing I ever had before.

Make your hellos and goodbyes count!! 🥺 Life is so short, you never know when it’s your last moment. Don’t run from people who actually try to be there for you, cherish them. (I know it’s hard sometimes to know who is really your friend or your enemy) My friend Brianna passed away in 2018 and I never got to forgive her or say goodbye. Even if she was wrong or wanted to hurt me, she still was a human like me and I should’ve been the bigger person and accepted her apologies but I let my disappointment and feelings cloud my judgement towards her. Didn’t mean I had to trust her again but what if she needed my friendship? What if I was the only light in her life?? I’ve asked God for wisdom and for forgiveness myself. I know I’m not better than anyone else and just as I want people to forgive my mistakes, I want to forgive others too but it’s hard. You don’t learn everything about life and people in a day!

Don’t beat yourself up! Forgive yourself too and if someone repeatedly hurts you, walk away but you should forgive them and love them from a distance. Yes you need relationships in your life but you do not have to take abuse from anyone!! God can put the right people in your path but you have to step out of your comfort zone and let people in!! God does not want you to isolate yourself! God created you for relationships! ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[mangoisms]

i love how you trash on fanon things specifically when they’re about the robins so i was wondering if you could tell us which do you think are the worst things that people have come up with?

HAHAHAHAHA thank you anon this is actually an honor ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 let’s see. the dick only eats cereal thing is annoying. i was thinking about it earlier and i do think it was the fanon thing i’d stumbled upon that was weird and surprised me. id heard of it and believed that it was an odd fanon thing that existed but actually encountering it was another experience entirely. jason’s personality is also very….. i don’t know. fandom leans hard into the lit thing which is Fine but. i don’t know. woobification is Also a problem with him i think when it shouldn’t exist like he did very bad things. that’s fine. idk

i also can’t lie, the popular fanon belief that the boys (ie dick and jason mostly it seems like) use nicknames for each other/other siblings is a bit hard to swallow. like that post that’s like jason would NOT be calling anyone baby bird or whatever because he hates everyone, like that is so true. but also with dick? i just. i don’t know. i once saw a post where someone documented actual canon nicknames, i’d love to find it again, but genuinely, in my reading so far—which is pre flashpoint so idk maybe cursed rebirth strikes again there—i haven’t encountered any nicknames ppl like to use in their fics like idk. baby bird. again. little wing?? drawing a blank but You know what i’m talking about….

and i know it’s a thing of affection but i think affection between them can be expressed in a way different from that, i just see the nicknames as being the go-to, if that makes sense? i’m not sure if any of this sense it’s 2am and i am eepy bear with me

steph and waffles seems overdone too. and as we all know. i loathe tim’s fanon personality. the whole sleep deprivation making coffee his entire personality thing is so annoying. and making him meek and shy. AND woobifying him. like that boy has flaws. he has so many flaws. he’s so much more interesting with his flaws. Can we please talk about the flaws.

it’s really just when people oversimplify their personalities that annoys me. dick becomes the happy ‘nice one’ (which isn’t true/again oversimplifying), jason is the ‘mean but soft one,’ tim is the ‘smart/coffee/exhausted one’, cass is the ‘nice quiet one’, steph is the ‘comedic relief,’ duke is the ‘normal one’ (this one REALLY annoys me LMAO), damian is…. the ‘bratty/animal obsessed’ one? (must confess i am not versed in damian’s fanon i think he may be exempt from it—the worst of it but again could be wrong—BUT i do think people take the easy route with his personality sometimes and then with jon. yeah. yeah)

so like out of that. honestly it’s all bad for me. i’m SURE i’m forgetting some stuff but that’s really the core of it and i guess what i consider to be the worst of fanon and the ones that annoys me the most. what about you anon what do you find annoying ❤️‍🩹 also thank you for letting me be a hater here 🫶🫶 LMAO

[larnax]

ok im not strong enough. hater mode activate.

im only so angry about this because its the first time ive ever seen bottom surgery even mentioned in a fandom context and its to shit on it. im gpnna turn into the joker

easy to DIY" this is dumb for the same reason "DIY wheelchair ramps" are dumb. gcs and making hrt both take skill and knowledge the average person does not have. DIY hrt saves lives and is many peoples' only option i am not disagreeing with that but its not your buddy brent making it in his bathtub its someone who has the medical knowledge who just isnt operating in an official capacity. you cannot do it Yourself unless you want to end up injecting olive oil. this is even more true for surgery. do you think you could perform a DIY vaginectomy????? have at least a baseline respect for the people who developed gcs procedures and the people who perform them

"leaves scars" every non op trans person owes me $500USD. i am so fucking tired of people who never bothered to address their internalized ableism/transphobia about ew yuck icky scars making that my problem by loudly announcing how disgusted they are by an extremely normal part of the human experience. there is nothing wrong with having visible scarring and there is nothing wrong with surgical scarring and acting like there is provably makes people avoid procedures that would unambiguously improve their lives

"certain procedures can be risky" aw cmon bud we all know which procedures you mean! pretty please keep fearmongering about how risky bottom surgery is otherwise someone might decide to actually get a surgery which has an extremely normal success rate for surgeries. yes they make you sign a bunch of forms acknowledging the risk thats called Informed Consent and 90% of the complications are true for literally any surgery or literally any surgery on the urethra/genitals. bottom surgery is not some uniquely dangerous procedure

"implants and bottom surgery highly imperfect" every non op trans person owes me $1000USD. would you say this about any other aspect of transition? is there any fucking room in your head for the fact that postop trans people actually exist in real life and could possibly see you talking about how disgusting you find them? because im 1) real and 2) fucking your mother with my Imperfect Dick right now

"doesnt leave scars/looks completely natural" every non op trans person owes me $1500USD. this stupid fucking idea people have that The Natural Body is 1) even a thing and 2) something we should aspire to or protect is so wildly transphobic and ableist that it, too, turns me into the joker. would you say this to an amputee? to someone who had an organ transplant? because people do and its the same bullshit. the right to bodily autonomy includes the right to alter your body! i dont fucking care if i Look Natural(although its worth noting that most people cant actually tell fully healed phallo dicks and natal dicks apart. i went to a urologist and he only realized i was postop when i told him) and it should not be treated as an unambiguously good thing.

LIKE EVEN THE FUCKING DOCTOR IS NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE MEDICAL BOTTOM SURGERY. olberic had an "averse reaction to medicine" <- directly against canon where he can be healed fine WHOLESALE INVENTED just so that we minimize the amount of people who could theoretically have phalloplasty

also youre lying to yourself and more importantly me if you think ophilia has any medical knowledge whatsoever shes literally a faith healer who cant even deal with poison

like ok "a wizard did it" is better than literally not even acknowledging some trans people want to "switch their junk" like most people do or arguing that its ahistorical to have any medical transition, However this is just having that so you can present it as the better alternative to the inferior gross medical transition which . go fuck yourself!!! go fuck yourself.

again im mostly so mad about this because when i saw the words "bottom surgery" in a fandom thing i was really really excited because i never get to see even other fans who acknowledge that their favorite characters could be like me! i had a solid 5 seconds of just being ecstatic to be represented and then i actually read the damn thing and it was just more of the fucking same.

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June 2006

June 1, 2006

a letter to myself 10 years ago, from myself today (idea lifted from d.e.)

dear peter,the first and foremost. i miss you. not the people around you or the world you call yours. i am not who you think i am. i am not who they say i am- by "they" i mean the lovers and the haters. i am in between, still normal and ordinary. i dont know what you would think about the place i am standing right now. its funny i never pictured myself here, simply because i did not picture myself existing anymore. i am sure you know what i am getting at. its kind of funny almost. after seeing the top and the bottom. id have to say there is a much better view from the top, but you have alot more friends at the bottom. even when im trying to disappear its halfhearted. im almost there. you know? the only thing you got is that goddamned pen forever. it will be buried in your hand. youre gonna learn alot of things but none of them will include: unconditional love, modesty, grammar, or impulse control. id like to think that you wouldnt hate me. but who am i kidding? spotlight or no spotlight thats always kind of been your thing- its just kind of funny that its in fashion right now. i never did anything just for a buck back then, and i still wont. dont give up on me. in some ways i think i am walking away from all of this as we speak. here are some books you should read they will make your head rest easier at night, more importantly they will help you understand yourself:the old man and the seaour lady of the flowersthe green hills of africathe motel lifethe every boythe heart of darknessfirst love, last ritestake care of yourself. i am waiting on a letter from ten years from now

.posted by xo @ 2:05 PM

June 3, 2006

my phone cuts out in the same place every single day ("the gospel of gossip").

dear 310,

you can truly think yourself to pieces.

writing too fast for you to keep up.

and why would you want to anyway?

true oranges and sedated blues.

or is it the other way around?

i am millers paris. she is always humming. i hate it.

i wish for autumn. i am always thinking of breath in the air and leaves burning somewhere. somehow i attatch it to feeling okay.

in a running home from school kind of way.

just as easily as you run away from your problems, you can run home to them.

moodswings have kind of become protocol around here. like something you have to cross off of a checklist and then have your supervisor sign.

there isnt enough breeze in the suburbs tonight.

i imagine them to be like italy sixty years ago, only with less flamboyance and wider streets.my head is sticking to the pillow like sleep doesnt want to let me go.

writing alot lately. its like i always just want to mean something, something more than me.

its getting old.

i want to be more.

you make me want to be more.

to be shot out into space or to discover a cure to something terrible.

you cant denie, there is something nice about chicago. calming.

where your waiter is just your waiter and the doorguy is just the doorguy. not the place where everyone wants to be something they're not.

not as thought it matters but it feels safer.

she looks at me like she knows how fragile i am.

but i, we, all have inside of us continents like he said. vast and lush. full of guns and loves.

like the two were different by definition.

but they are the same. linked if only by the way that you will always remember your first ones.

then she said, "many african cultures dont believe in the concept of future".

fuck your futures.

Posted by xoat 4:16 AM

June 5, 2006

Stick around long enough and everyone becomes parody of themselves (see also: if it could happen to the egyptians if could happen to you).

you dont hate me, you hate the part of you that is like me. i cant sit here and ride my flaws until the end because the truth is i live the charmed life because of you and them. we are a gang. maybe its time to disband. im not sure i am thinking clearly but i just want you to know that i waited on you guys calls all night- they never came. i just wanted to say i miss you or im sorry or you know something that would have meant something to you. i would have made it poetic and memorable or at least something you could laugh at while drifting off to sleep. always trying to relive the glory days.

i dont care how poorly these sentences were constructed or how in the light of day i will wish i had not written them- right now i can only curse the fucking light off of this stupid western city because it wont ever get dark enough for sleep but otherwise how could you guide your way back here?

my head always feels warm right before i pass out, i always worry that there is something wrong and i wont wake up or you know i will. promise me that you wont take anything i ever say too seriously

June 9, 2006

“jim dear and darling.”

sometimes its like whats the point in anything. i am glad i have figured you out. it took one million times. but on one million and one i gave up on you. its the opposite of losing your virginity, its the opposite of dreams.im glad i got the chance to be a complete nerd and talk to superheroes on the red carpet. im glad i didnt waste it on movies and people i wasn't obsessed with. i am glad i am three thousand miles away from you right now. i am glad for the view out of my window. it doesnt feel like a prison more like a new start. its funny the way a wish and a curse are so close to each other, just like a grudge and a promise.thank god that shit wasnt live cause i have a mouth like a sailor. edit.im not a boomerang and youre not badnews. were just nothing at all. thanks for helping me figure it out. two lies in one sentence has to be a new record for you, so congratulations.sometimes the people that i only know through these songs and this screen make up for ones i have known for years. thank you for your birthday wishes. they meant alot to me. whether you know it or not.the birds are starting to sing the world awake at my house. get here soon morning."i wish i could stop being around people, i guess i am just addicted to it."w.e.

posted by xo @ 2:19 AM

June 10, 2006

“lets be alone, together.”

"here we are, alone again. its all so slow, so heavy, so sad... ill be old soon. then at last it will be over.so many people have come into my room. theyve talked. they havent said much. theyve gone away. theyve grown old, wretched, sluggish, each in some corner of the world". celine "death on the installment plan"i think i hear the tapping of rain on the roof but only in my head because i wish it so. i have some romantic idea of myself in some dirty apartment in paris writing words that will be cirtically analyzed and translated into languages from countries that i didnt even know existed. but this isnt france in the 30's and i dont have the knack for that kind of wit. tried to put my hand through a wall today in a disagreement i had with myself. i came out ahead and behind if you get my meaning. i think i just wanted a wound to take care of as they seem to be easier to look after than either a plant or a dog. stubborn and stupid are not far off from eachother in the dictionary. we have the same conversations day-in and day-out, im not sure why i even call anymore. just so its not just me talking to myself. though it seems to often be that anyway. im not sure if its schedule or even when it goes into remission its just a phone call or bad day away. i have to hope everyone and everything else is just like this as well or else this is gonna be a pretty lonely ride that goes on for far too long. i am looking at each word that proceeds the word i am currently typing. they look terrible to me right now. or even write now.dear liar, how could i ever ask you to stop. that would be like telling a carpenter he couldn't use a hammer or more like a surgeon he couldn't use a scalpel, because you are indeed precise.sometimes it feels like i am addressing myself surrounded bypeople who are also by themselves.posted by xo @ 10:36 PM

6/11/06 Q&A

question

I just got done watching “Dead on Arrival” and I wanted to know how old was Patrick in that video? Back then he was hot but now he is HOTT!!

answer

im not sure. they had delivered him to my door in a baby basket the stormy night before. the note on the basket said “amazing” but i didn’t realize how true those words were until days later, thanks for adding the capslock, it really captured the feeling.

question

Hey Pete What is your favorite kind of cereal?

answer

currently: frankenberry- 1000 fobrock scene points to the first boardie to name to the two monster cereals that used to be a part of the count chocula family.

question

hows it like being 27 now ? :)

answer

same flaws, concerns and boredoms with just one more candle on the cake. you know what, maybe next year is our year.

question

Have you ever eaten like, four boxes of blueberries before? Cause ya know, blueberries rock hard.

answer

i didnt even know blueberries came in boxes. hence, i am no expert. i like blueberry gum though. i swallowed a bunch when i was little, even though my mom said it wouldnt digest, so that in a million years when they dig up this civilization they’ll know what kind of candy we had.

question

Who cusses the most? Who the most solitary or the quietest?

answer

pete cusses the most and is the most solitary andy or patrick can be the quietest joe likes long walks on the beach holding hands with a man made out of weed… just kidding. we all have different sides to our personalities. just like you morgan.

question

Petah please listen to this amazing song I am obsessing over. It is called EMALINE and it is the live version by Ben Folds 5. I think you will like it. XO

answer

one of my favorite songs ever is this one ben folds song. its called “the luckiest” go listen to it and then have your ears, brain and heart write ben a thank you not for writing it.

question

Hey. Since you guys own Hottopic, could you PLEASE add more H.I.M. merchandise? im looking for a HIM beanie hat online at hottopic.com but i cant find it and i really wanted it. will you please add more HIM stuff?

answer

could hottopic possibly have more h.i.m. merchandise? i love him. im pretty much sure thats all i ever see in that store.

question

can patrick play guitar??

answer

nah. not a single note. hes never even held one. wait i thought that thing said “keytar”. oh a guitar? no he’s never even held one.

question

what keeps you going each day?

answer

sadly. involuntary functions like heart and lungs. but following that: you. honestly.

question

Pete!I just broke up with my boyfriend and I`m completely heartbroken.I can`t eat or sleep.He says the only way we can get back together is if we are friends with benifits.I want him back I just don`t want him to date anyone else.Am I wrong?Thanks for your music-it`s gotten me through some hard times so I wanted to say THANK YOU!!!love you and the boys.

answer

i dont think im qualified to give any advice on this anymore. im pretty much a wreck in all relationships, platonic or romantic.

question

transformers: the movie. how does this make you guys feel?

answer

it will never top the first. with the “you got the touch” song in it when optimus dies. and the way the guy yells “shit” in it. so classic.

question

dose it ever get werid knowing that millions of people know who you are and you have no idea that that person even exsist ???

answer

im not too sure anyone really knows who i am. but in the grand scheme of your question, yes it can be kind strange.

question

Is it okay to feel lonely all the time?

answer

sometimes it seems realistic. other times it just seems too predictable.

question

Peter I made a mistake and I had unprotected sex. I like this guy, but he seems a little strange, bc he makes remarks to me about how he wishes my dad would walk in and see us. He also asks me degrading questions while we are getting intimate, such as where I want it. What should I do about him?

answer

i wouldnt waste my time on someone who treats me that way. i would suggest cutting your losses and finding someone who won’t treat you like dirt.

question

is there any bands you would like to work with?!

answer

the format.

question

Do you think FOB would have the success it does if Patrick has decided to be the drummer?

answer

No.

question

Hey Pete haave you like forgotten about this website or something?

answer

i tried to. but im too addicted.

question

how cum ur older than every1 else in the band? like waaay older. okay not waaaay older but like 3 years or so. just wondering.

answer

andy is 26 and i am 27- patrick and joe are younger because tazakistan wouldn’t let us adopt any orphans our own age.

question

would you guys ever go on Oprah? If she invited you on for an episode. If so, what do you think you would talk about.

answer

sure id just on her couch and say some crazy shit.

question

On 4-14-06 *MEGYN* asked if now that your signed for a bigger label, do you care less about your fans and more about the money and you told her to talk this to the band from under the wallet tree. what does that mean? do you care more about the money or the fans that have been with you since the begining?

answer

no no no, thats the name of the recording studio we built on the moon to record the next record with. i mean we had to do something with all the piles of cash and i was getting sick of lighting cigars.

June 13, 2006

“blue pills / black nights”

history has proven thatyou can put despair on play/.repeat and it will go on forever.and if its loud and bright enough it doesnt matter how much money you have to buy the things you want or how brilliant you are told you are or how the right girls smile at you or how the best cameras flash at you.it is all you will hear or see.posted by xo @ 12:23 AM

June 15, 2006

me and you underneath the honeymoon. I'm not sure if you know but every night I've ever had that white hoody I slept with it. And when you had it back it was hard for me to sleep. And everytime I've ever left I kissed that thing you drew on the board in my room. Now I don't have either. Anything you've ever done I could forgive or forget. Except this. It was something I held sacred and I

xo

June 19, 2006

“im pretty much just a lawyer with the way im always trying to get you off”

i dont mean to have you worried or troubled. its the last thing i want. never take anything i ever say too seriously. youd need a search party to track my moods. who knows where they went? i guess this doesnt make sense. but in some strange way this is me saying thank you for always being there on the other side of this monitor.i am watching reality bites right now.the most exceptional thing about you is how ordinary you believe you are.i want to be kepy.i am a bull.she is a china shop.posted by xo @ 9:44 PM

6/19/06 Q&A

question

you guys looked uber classy rolling into the mmvas with those kickass shirts. what was up with your hand though?

answer

the fratellis put my hand in a blender cause i wouldnt tell them where the goonies were. but seriously. its just got a couple scratches, totally fine. no worries at all. just gotta keep it covered for infection.

question

pete… whats this i hear about policemen and cheerleaders and “the works” at the muchmusic awards? how very diddy style of you. oh and pete…is that you i hear on punchlines new cd? the line in caller ten when a voice goes “maybe fate can only go so far” or something like that? it sounds just like you. danke gleichfalls.

answer

we thought it was hilarious. the cop was a friend and the cheerleaders we met yesterday- so the only thing we had planned was the drum corps. but we thought it was something funny to do. our sense of humor sucks. we apologize.

question

i would like to congradulate your guys for winning an MMVA last night and your performance was ausome. they saved the best for last!! anyways i was wondering, do you guys like performing in Canada and hows the new album coming along?

answer

thank you. we are really happy because it was again a fan voted on award. it made us feel all warm inside. we love canada.

question

Enjoying the World Cup Pete?

answer

yeah but not as much as korean tom cruise. the koreans pretty much are slaying. france was bummed yesterday. i was not.

question

I was just wondering if you guys have ever seen Pump up the Volume with Christian Slater… I have turned it into my best friends new favorite movie.. She thinks that Happy Harry reminds her so much of Patrick … that made me smile for some reason… Have a good day

answer

we called patrick stump up the volume for a couple of weeks in a bad period of nicknames.

question

Pete, you say the phrase “At the end of the day…” a lot and now I say it too- Got any other good phrases I could borrow?

answer

my friends bonnie and leslie say “totes” all the time instead of totally and people think they are a riot.

question

Did you know “JT LeRoy” (AKA LAURA) listens to you guys? Weird.

answer

thats insane. he/she is one of my favorite contemporary writers.

question

does patrick really like baseball?because he sometimes i see him wearing orioles and mariners jerset/shirt things.by the way, im sending him a padres one if he likes it or not.okbyee.

answer

i dont think he even knows they are teams. he just likes bright colors. its cute.

question

I saw DROP DEAD FRED the other day on tv. What is your favorite part of the movie???

answer

probably the dogpoop part. or when his head gets stuck in the refrigerator. sometimes i feel like him. pretty irritating with a horrible sense of fashion.

June 22, 2006

sex and the city (the part theyll never tell you)

its strange here this time of year. because the weather never changes.

it is always summer here. so it doesnt feel like the same desperate love of these three pages on the calander. or at least not what i am used to.

sometimes the worst wishes are the ones that come true.

yellow and white lines to the coast.

you can learn to love anything if its around enough.

some people learn to love their mistakes.

shakes hands. "thank you, our time is up".

what keeps you coming back?

i got a long rap sheet.

(the statute of limitations is running out on you pretty fast).

the powders wet. the sparks arent coming.

the hammer isnt hitting. its spinning.

you can learn to love anything.

Posted by xoat 4:34 AM

June 22, 2006 

“i pack heat like an oven door.”

the circles under my eyes are a sign that says "do not trespass".there is moss growing on the roof of my mothers room.i am jealous of the time she spends thinking of it.it is bright. no matter what chemicals they spray it with-it thrives.and late at night the rain falls like bachelors for bad luck girls.i am jealous of the way it breathes the drops while i just heave.if i had any sense id send her a thank you note for the way my heart wouldnt ever give up on someone.my dad was a weekend warrior.but at least he was fighting.usually with my mother or mortgage broker on the other end of the phone,as i was hushed and pushed out of screen doors.if i had any sense id send him a thank you note for my sense of adventure.consult the map of a world that does not exist.simply part of the no future generation.only (st)all(ed) dogs go to heaven, only the worng dreams come true.sleepwalk of the stars. there is too much green to feel blue.i am jealous of the late bloomers as i am of the wallflowers.in this world of shit. fertilize me.dont worry, youre safe.i am just a tiger sleeping in the shade.just tiptoe by.blackmail myself.give us what we want or youll never see what you love again.i thought you said you were "non habit forming".i thought you said you were "safe to use at night"."use only as directed" and so on.i came back to you.only its more like a relapse.count a thumb then two fingers in.thats the one i want.posted by xo @ 3:52 PM

June 25, 2006

“i am your best imaginary friend. (white lies, gray love).”

at the end of it the only thing that we are promised in life is a hole in the ground. sometimes it gets you through the rough patches just to think that you could change someone. it makes you love them to think that they would change for you. but like i said before its more like the james bond series than anything else- different actors, same character. same shitty dialogue, same shitty songs for the same hearts. and anyone that says any different is a goddamned liar or worse, is just too much of an optim to pay anything mind. talking to you is like selling fire in hell. it can be done, but youre probably gonna have to tell a few white lies to make it happen. and anyone that changes only does it in front of your eyes and changes back when in the blackness of their own room. anyone can paint a gutter to make it look like gold. it only feels strange when the paint washes away. "love me with your head, not your heart". cigarettes on window sills. i love the way the smoke curls off of your lips. it makes me think we are in a period piece until the lexus hybrid drives by the front of your house. its efficient, just like you. went to the pride parade today just besides no one gives a compliment like a drunk gay man. when you are thinking about the first place where it all went wrong- please keep me in mind. you are ancient history- whichever side of this sentence you are on doesnt feel so great. you lob reassurance at me only im playing a different game. somtimes you just want to know that all is okay with the world and that you can sleep tight. only it never is when you need it to be. i keep talking and never say a thing. sleep easy. be well.i am still. i cant think of a single thing. it hits me like a wave. get me out of my mind."ransom notes keep falling at your mouthmid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outsspeak no feeling no i don't believe youyou don't care a bit you don't care a bit"i am a sentimental pessimist, dont blieve the fucking smile ever.love,the hot mess.posted by xo @ 10:30 PM

6/25/06 Q&A

question

So when do the FOB action figures and barbie dolls come out?

answer

come on. youve seen the bratz pics. theres no way we’d put out action figures. dolls with outfits maybe. hahaha

question

I watched “The Lost Boys” for the fist time the other day and i was just wondering what your favourite part was. Mine would have to be the “woah death by stereo” part. please respond.

answer

“maggots michael, youre eating maggots. how do they taste?”

June 27, 2006

“what are they going to arrest me for? being awesome?” i woke from this dream today: i was riding a motorcycle in the desert with this world jumping next to me the whole time. it could jump really far. then my dad was there and he said the wolf was bad news and couldn't stay. i lost it and picked up one of those desks with the table attatched (you know like from little house on the prairie) and asked him if he wanted to die. he said yes. then i threw the desk and he said no he didnt right before he died. i then woke up and brushed my teeth but the toothpaste tasted like it had gone bad. then i woke up for real.kind of crazy.i had to call my dad and make sure i wasnt throwing desks at him over wolves. you know.food for thought again, consider this crash dieting.patrick could sing the phonebook and you would still swoon.currently writing songs.sometimes i watch kids in spelling bees and get so jealous of the talent they have. i wonder what it would be like.did you see the corners of my mouth turn up for a second today? cause i caught you looking.more tomorrow. i miss being on tour. i miss playing shows every night. i hope you love the new songs so we can play more shows.cantsleepcantsleepcantsleep."we must never be apart"...watch: barflyread: death in installmentsposted by xo @ 1:12 AM

6/27/06 Q&A

question

Hey, Pete. Check your aol email for “I was bored” sent today, the 27th. I sent you another poem on the 22nd called “P.E.T.E.” It includes stuff from the Q and A and what I have read elsewhere. Love it…laugh at it…whatever…Be happy and do not fake it.

answer

simply because this has been posted over one million times- there is no aol email account anymore. if it is important please just post it in the q and a…

question

hey pete… what do you do when you feel everything falling apart? who do you turn to?

answer

smashing pumpkins “ava adore”

question

What was the biggest show u guys have ever played and do u ever get nervous before u do a show?? thnx ..luv ya always

answer

i think the biggest was madison square garden or bamboozle- cleveland/dc on the bcandu tour were big as well. i always get nervous, mostly that maybe noone will care about the songs anymore. you constantly suprise me though. thank you.

question

i was wondering when the next cd was coming out?

answer

we are currently getting it ready so either late this year or early next.

question

i just got a guitar, and its hard to learn, got ne tips?

answer

turn it up loud and headbang alot.

question

is it ok to love patrick and you BOTH?

answer

sure. you could even love joe and andy. i bet you could fit us all in your tiny dark little heart.

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Jason, you awesome i loved that striped jacket you wore to the MMVAs lol its funny i was at that store the day before, question: what do u look for ina girl, cuz im just dying to be her

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thanks, jason is a big fan of babez- jason likes girls that will buy him burger king and drive him to band practice.

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I guess Ill try to ask again…..or maybe Ill ask everyday until you answer =P Cause I HAVE to know…..who is singing at the beginning of one of FOBs old song “Honorable Mention” because it really doesnt sound anything like Patrick, but it sounds like he comes in later. Plzzz answer! Lots of love, your biggest fan AsHeLy (Seriously, I know the words to almost every song youve ever recorded)

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its patrick i swear. puberty arrived about a week later. it got stuck in the mail.

6/29/06

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Pete Imagine this: Patrick (with his hat on of course) playing in a bathtub filled with bubbles and has a toy boat, army men, and a rubber ducky. Then he puts all the army men on the boat and pours a huge cup of water on the boat and laughs when all the army men fall in the water.

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i dont have to imagine. i get to see it in real life.

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why cant I choose love AND sympathy?

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because usually they seem to be the same thing.

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pete how many hairstyles have you had?

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when you date a hairstylist you end up getting alot of hair cuts. lets settle on some insane number. like 1 gazillion.

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so do u ever get tired of people whining to u about their problems. cause i def think peeps should own up to their problems and deal with them

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i often wonder if people are sick of hearing about my problems. because thats all these words have ever amounted to. we are in it together, kind of, i suppose.

[bwobgames]

Previous First

"Coffee, finally"

"Man, I can't believe it's over"

"That's understandable, we basically spent the whole night on panic mode"

"I know! And now we are supposed to go back and worry about normal stuff?

This is like when I was a kid and thought quicksand would be a big problem in my day to day life

What do you mean I don't have to think about time resetting maniacs anymore??"

"I mean, who would believe it?"

"That's true.

All of us are going to trauma bond so much"

"I can see that.

I'm glad we got friends out of it, at least.

That's how difficult it is to make friends as an adult, you need at least one stabbing for a dnd group"

"Been there, been there"

The house explodes again, the bomb squad is waiting on firefighters and the police.

The body was found and covered

They all agreed it was an attempted mass murder gone wrong

"... So, how do you feel?"

"Like a very used rope that will snap at the lightest weight"

"I feel like my skin is not as resistant as it used to be, like whatever happened took parts of me that I'll never get back"

"...Yeah, I understand"

"Not to be pessimistic, but part of me feels like I will never leave this place

Even though it's destroyed, even if they tear it down and build a starbucks on top

I think I'll still be here

A ghost of me"

Oliver Beebo recently started believing in ghosts

The supernatural and psychological type

"My dreams are going to get so weird now"

"Hey, I told you, didn't I? I have great contacts in the mental health department"

"Is that why you're so put together still?"

"I am nowhere near put together, I'm just great at acting like I do"

"I think someone called it masking?"

"Comes with the job"

"I'm sure"

Marigold approaches

"Hello! I wanted you two to know that we will take care of everything legal, but we do need you to testify, so if I could have your numbers for further contact?"

"Oh, of course"

"Also, the now renamed family Iraola cordially invites you to any and all holidays and game nights"

"Oh, nice! Does this involve card games?"

"If you ask Owen, he will immediately challenge you to some kind of battle on his multiple card game sets"

"I will bring only my best for such opponent"

"Uh, miss Marigold Iraola?"

"Yes?"

"When should we concrete the legal agreement to pass you the company?"

".... What?"

"You are the one who should have it. It's only fair"

He gives Oliver a look

"... really? But you used so much money!"

"Well, I wouldn't mind a, let's say, monetary compensation for my efforts both here and there"

"I don't think 'efforts' is the right word for your work at the company, Nadia would throttle you for saying that"

"Did it go broke."

"Uh. I don't know"

"...Alright, that's fine. I'll fix it and get you two with psychological compensation, medical compensation, and, well, compensation for the detective work"

"I have been in worse situations and been paid 20 dollars. This is the best thing that could happen to my wallet"

They interchange phone numbers and are put on the "Clock haters" groupchat

Vivi immediately floods his phone with cat memes

He answers with a thumbs up emoji

"... I feel like I should do something"

"It better not be stand up. Your ankle is lumpy and weird"

"No, no. I mean...

When I was at the other house, I promised to let a bit of beard grow, to, yknow, commemorate my survival, I guess.

Maybe I should let my hair grow? Would it look to unkept?"

"If you let someone else cut it, then you could look fine"

"But my money"

"I'll get it for you, im curious too.

Although, now we have these huge gashes on our faces, doesn't that count?"

"No, They weren't made intentionally.

...Maybe a tattoo?"

"Oh yeah! That's a good idea! I'll take you to my usual parlor"

"You have tattoos?"

"Yeah, but it's too cold to show you right now"

"Where will you go after this, by the way. Back to the capital?"

"No, I'm going to be too tired in the way there, I'll just stay the night at my hotel"

"Oh... well... y'know..."

"I don't live that far, well, I live in the region center, but that's way closer to here than the capital so, uh..."

"You could, you know, stay over if you want"

"... And do what?"

"Uh, do you like boardgames?"

"I supposed so"

"I really doubt we would have the energy to do anything else more, um, physically taxing"

"That's fair. I'll crash at your place then.

We could go sightseeing after, or just play video games inside"

"Yeah, and cook a nice breakfast, get some groceries maybe"

"Go to a park, get ice cream, play with your cat...

It would be nice, I'd like that.

A life like that"

"Ah, but I'm taking you to my apartment as well. You will meet the real city life, Coast Boy. "

"Oh, you city people with your underground trains and expensive international snacks"

"Haha, just the best for the capital!"

Silence hangs over them

"... I'm still scared"

"Of the future?"

"Yeah.

Will it ever go away?"

"... I don't know, I'll help you though.

I'll get you a planner. You can be like those instagram girls with a very strict planner"

"... Yeah, I guess.

Sorry, my mood is all over the place"

"I don't blame you"

"I mean, I don't even know what am I going to do after this. I'm basically out of a job"

"Well, what are your options?"

"I could go back to crime. Maybe hacking or something with medicaments, that could be fun."

"No, I'll get you"

"I know, but you'll do it lovingly"

"I guess I could go back to do something security related. It's boring, though."

"I heard my local chuck e cheese is hiring security guards"

"I am not applying as a night security guard in a building with animatronics."

"That's oddly specific"

"I still could be your detective assistant, I can use Excel, you know"

"You overestimate how much I'm paid"

"Or I could be literally anything else, but for now, I'll be on vacation"

"Yeah, me too"

"I'm thinking of taking cases of more haunted houses"

"... Are you out of your mind"

"I know how to stop them, and I wouldn't be going blind like these last two. I could even find a way to do it without entering them"

"Please stop risking your life. The detective life is already dangerous enough"

"I'm the house killer, the home terror"

"Sure, sure

Maybe I should be your bodyguard"

"Again, you overestimate how much I can afford"

They drink their drinks in silence

They can't help but feel slight sadness at it all

But time doesn't stop

"Ángel! Ángel look!"

"Huh?"

"The light, the sunrise is starting!"

It is 8:00 am

The sun is coming out

A cold breeze passes through them

The chatter of everyone quiets down

The sun is back

A new day has started

It always will

A collective melancholy passes through all of them

The eternal night is over

What now?

The future is waiting

They are alive

They will live another day

As many as they can

"We'll be alright

Not all of the time, but we will.

I'm going back home, finally

I've lost so much

And gained as well

I'm full of conflicting feelings that my subconscious will have a blast using

I'm scared too

But I'll be brave

Just to see another sunrise like this

With people that I love

We'll be alright

The future is full of chances"

A new day is born

And they watch it together

Hand in hand.

Thanks for playing

[laceratedlamiaceae]

As a sort of companion to my "every time Izzy fails at something, it's because of Stede" post, I want to talk about how pretty much every bad thing he does is out of a (very misguided) sense of duty to Ed, and I want to talk about why that matters. As a warning, I will be (briefly) mentioning the Toe Thing™ so skip the last paragraph if you're sick of people talking about that.

The only exceptions are taking Stede's hostages, which seems like a normal pirate thing, and bullying Lucius (which I'm not going to defend, but like... if I was stuck somewhere with a bunch of annoying people and the one person I liked was ignoring me in favor of someone I hated I would probably do some fucked up shit too).

Izzy challenges Stede to the duel because he thinks he needs to help Ed with his plot to kill Stede. Ed tells him "we're not doing this," but Izzy clearly took that to mean that Ed just didn't feel like killing Stede because he responds "No, you're not doing this, so I must." (I can't find it now, but I read a post about how awful Izzy and Ed are at communicating with each other, and this is a good example of that). Obviously they should have just talked about it (which Ed even points out later), but talking is hard and stabbing is easy.

Izzy sells Stede out to the British because he thinks that Stede's "done something to my boss' brain." He doesn't realize Ed is just happy and expressing a real part of himself; I doubt he would even know what happiness looks like. He thinks that Stede has driven Ed (who he already thinks is "half insane") fully off the deep end, and so he arranges for Stede to be killed because, from his point of view, it's the only way to save Ed from the man who's ruining him. (I've seen a few takes that he sells both Ed and Stede out, which just isn't true; he sends Calico Jack to get Ed away, and when that fails he convinces the British to let Ed go in return for giving them Stede).

Izzy confronts Ed in episode 10 because he thinks Ed has fully lost it and he needs to pick up the pieces. I've seen a lot of different takes on what exactly was going on with Ed in that episode, and while I don't really agree with the idea that he was getting better before Izzy confronted him, it doesn't matter what was actually happening. From Izzy's perspective, Ed has completely given up on being Blackbeard and just wants to fuck around singing songs all day. I think it's worth noting that Izzy didn't do anything while Ed was hiding out in the blanket fort; he knows the Ed beneath the Blackbeard edifice and he only has a problem when Ed starts making it public. Obviously it would be better for Ed to express himself and explore his identity, but this is Izzy; doesn't know anything about what's emotionally healthy. So instead, he says the things he says. (seriously, just read the linked post; it does a way better job breaking down that scene than I could).

I bring all this up because I want to make a point about one of the reasons he's such a divisive character. I think a lot of the Discourse™ about Izzy gets so heated because it's about a deeper philosophical conflict. Maybe I'm way off base, but I imagine a lot of Izzy apologists (such as myself) are the type to take intentions into account (in philosophy terms, deontology or virtue ethics), and Izzy's intentions are mostly good (towards Ed, obviously he's fine with Stede dying). I'd guess that most people who don't like Izzy lean more towards consequentialism: they don't care what he intended; all that matters is that his actions hurt people.

Hopefully looking at all the Izzy Discourse™ from the perspective that it's about moral philosophy can help people understand the other side; I know I started to get where all the Izzy haters were coming from when I considered his actions from a consequentialist point of view. I still don't really agree with them, but I do now think their view is (in general, obviously some people are way off base) valid.

I really don't want to involve myself in the current discourse, but I think it's worth noting that this is part of the reason why some people see the Toe Thing™ as so much worse than anything Izzy did. Ed did that to hurt Izzy and reassert his control, which is a way less sympathetic intention than "I wanted my boss to be happy but I'm an idiot who's really wrong about what makes him happy." Whether or not that matters depends on your feelings about consequentialism.

[inklingofadream]

TMA Characters as MBMBAM Final Yahoos

Martin:

[Is tea just gay coffee? (Ep. 34)]

Jon:

[What should I do if I dab on a hater but the hater dabs back? I ran into a hater today. I dabbed on them but they dabbed back. I’m scared. (Ep. 411)]

Daisy:

[Does anyone have the problem of croissants tasting like blood? (Ep. 421)]

Elias:

[Does Mr. Peanut need that monocle or is it just a fashion statement? (Ep. 413)]

Tim:

[Any bands that write lyrics about how difficult the job market is? (Ep. 423)]

Basira:

[Is it true if you take a cops badge that there not a cop anymore and your the cop? (Ep. 165)]

Sasha:

[My journey on this site is complete? Bye? (Ep. 476)]

Oliver:

[Does Anyone Know Where To Purchase And Or Make A Coffin Shaped Bed? (Ep. 83)]

Georgie:

[Apart from the well known book, “Ghost Cats: Human Encounters with Feline Spirits” by Dusty Rainbolt, what other evidence is there for the existence of an afterlife for cats? (Ep. 70)]

Melanie:

[If I get blood all over my tax return form, will they audit me? I don’t feel like starting over? (Ep. 521)]

Gerry:

[Would a lot of people watch a remake of Friends but the main characters are all goth? (Ep. 553)]

Agnes:

[Smoke coming from belly button!!? (Ep. 4)]

Simon:

[I’m bored. What do you do for fun? It is raining out also, and I am an old man. (Ep. 55)]

Mike Crew:

[If you could take a walk on the sky, would you do it with a smile? (Ep. 59)]

Maxwell Rayner:

[Is it normal that I eat my hot pockets in the dark? Update: Ham & cheese (Ep. 144)]

Manuela Dominguez:

[If I send a spear into space and it pierces the sun, will the sun explode? (Ep. 335)]

Michael:

[I know this sounds weird and stupid but, who closes the door when a bus driver gets off the bus? (Ep. 353)]

Annabelle:

[Can spiders have fun? (Ep. 155)]

[How do I raise awareness about spiders? (MaxFunDrive 2014)] (Annabelle gets two bc I’m love her)

Tova McHugh:

[If you die on an operating table but come back to life is your birthday changed? (Ep. 372)]

Nikola:

[Is it normal for a woman to arrive on a date dressed as a clown? (Ep. 97)]

Jude:

[Where does the fire go when the fire goes out? (Ep. 151)]

American listeners who misread context etc:

[How Brits can live in UK which is full of haunted house? (Ep. 134)]