#this is the tip of the iceberg for real i really do think it's their movie

[momentomori24]

i have a lot of thoughts about wolfgang’s dad, it’s kinda funny. i also headcanon that he was wolfgang’s sole caregiver, for one reason or another, and i also like to think that he made wolfgang dependant on him. which is why he never learned how to cook or do his own laundry. his dad always insisted on it so he could continue to control him and prevent him from becoming independent.

ANON OUR MINDS ARE LINKED

I can ABSOLUTELY see that being the case! The fact that Wolfgang lacks a lot of basic skills he would need to be able to take care of himself and be independent reeks of severe parental neglect, despite it being played off as a joke. Wolfgang casually dismisses it as being due to going through college as a kid and being too stuck studying to do anything else-- which is already really damaging when you think about it-- but when you have the context that he was likely raised by a very shady, likely very abusive and manipulative man, it becomes so much more sketchtastic and deliberate.

Wolfgang doesn't just lack the knowledge on how to do his own laundry or cook, but we learn through Ulysses that Wolfgang had a surprising lack of upkeep during their bunk buddy situationship. This to me implies that Wolfgang just... never actually lived with anyone else outside of his family before? The fact that he was taken out of school to higher education and then law school at such a young age, drowned in so much schoolwork and being so locked in on studying that he had absolutely NO time for hobbies, extra activities, learning basic skills and literally having a social life, leaving him entirely and solely dependent on his sketchy father is... whack. That's WHACK 💀 It's like being in complete control of Wolfgang's success life?? Like, allowing him to achieve in education, yet still making sure that he can't flourish outside of that? Or mayhaps just a long term scheme to make Wolfgang feel indebted to him for providing everything he needed to survive despite never allowing him to do it himself in the first place? Despite putting Wolfgang in a situation where he literally couldn't keep up with everything and was dependent on him to take care of it? Like you said, I feel like his dad-- if Wolfgang did grow up with him like the blackmail implies-- insisted on covering everything Wolfgang would need to learn to be independent to keep him tied to him. Because if he doesn't do it, then Wolfgang might do it himself. If he can do it himself, then he might leave. And considering how much Wolfgang seemingly despises his father and seems aware of his role in his mum's heavily implied death, I can imagine he would dip as soon as humanly possible if he could XD

This has been on my mind for a while but I wonder about the current living status of Wolfgang's dad. Wolfgang's only 22 (goddamn he should've been at the club *SOB*), so it's not outrageous at all to assume he might still be living with his parents. That would explain why Wolfgang still struggles with chores and basic necessities. But we don't know if Wolfgang's dad is even alive at this point, and I have a nagging feeling that he's not around anymore. I'm on the fence about him being dead (and why he might be dead if he is), but since Wolfgang just avoids every drop of detail about dad altogether it's still very up in the air.

[waywardted]

Believing in rom-communism is all about believing that everything is going to work out in the end... Now, it may not work out how you think it will, or how you hope it does, but, believe me, it will all work out.

[hoothootmotherf-ckers]

can people please stop filming the entire fucking world around them for public consumption? and especially random fucking strangers who you did not ask???

I work at a park and man the front desk. and I'm photographed and filmed a lot. I'm talking easily 20+ times per day. most of the times, it's parents filming me swearing in their kids as junior rangers. which. they're intending to film their kids. what they get is me and the back of their kids' heads.

there's this recurring problem that like. people forget we're real people? like yeah you're filming your kid, but you're filming me interacting with your kid. I could count the amount of times someone has asked me permission to do this in the past year on one hand. and sometimes that's after they already start filming.

Like, I'm not an actor. I did not agree to this. You could be a dick and make the argument that I'm a public figure, but I'm not. This is not a persona and my uniform is not a costume. I'm a person trying to do my job and help people and teach them about science and history. And you know what makes it harder to do that? The knowledge that anything I say or do could end up shared with thousands of people. The fact that if I fuck up the wording of this kid's junior ranger pledge, or I sneeze, or make some basic mistake, it's not just a funny or embarrassing moment for me and this one family. It could end up on tiktok.

And okay, those are the people intending to film their own kids and not thinking or caring about the collateral. What's worse is the people who film everything. A few times a week some guy walks into the visitor center, phone already horizontal in front of their face, narrating what they're doing and seeing. They come up to the desk and ask me questions, phone in my face. They take wide establishing shots of the visitor center and every visitor in it. None of us agreed to this! None of these people consented to be in your youtube video! We are not the fucking set dressing of whatever travel instagram story you're making!

I don't know where I'm going with this. This is really only the tip of the iceberg. Sometimes people ask us to repeat what we just did - swear in their kid, or explain a detail, or hand them a fucking map - so they can get a second take, and they're already filming so if we say no we look like the asshole. Sometimes we're asked innocuous things like to point out a landmark, and next week there's a photo of us in the 15,000 member Rangers Pointing at Things facebook group (yep, real thing). One time my entire 45 minute evening program was filmed without my permission and I was informed after the fact. This happens all the time, and I'm giving park ranger examples, but this happens to so many people in service work or public positions every single fucking day.

I guess just, next time you go to film in a public space, take a second. Think about who you're about to film, if they agreed to that, what might happen if a video of them went viral. there's a reason I'm not out as trans at work. And then, maybe. don't. or at least fucking ask.

[mychapel-004]

I think the most interesting and under-explored part of gf canon is the formation of the blind eye and I'm tired of pretending it isn't: a long post

Because hear me out here, if we really take a look at the timing of the only concrete source we have (mcgucket's video diaries), it doesn't... line up at all?

The clear implication here is that he started making the diaries after the first portal incident on January 18th 1983, so this would be our "day one"

"For the past year I have been working as an assistant for a visiting researcher... But something went wrong. I decided to quit the project, but I lie awake each night, haunted by the thoughts of what I've done... Test subject one: Fiddleford."

But this makes no sense. We know from J3 that the memory gun was actually invented after a series of traumatic events with Ford, months before he left the project. Further, the timeline the video diaries set up of the blind eye show that he began to deteriorate and founded the blind eye on day 22, which would be February 9th, but in J3 the blind eye is already a full blown cult by then.

In addition, where is he in this video? we know from TBOB that he isn't on good terms with his wife after Christmas of 1982 and he likely didn't leave GF after the portal incident, but he was living with Ford up until this so where is this room? If he had somewhere else to stay, why only stay there now?

Now, realistically the answer here is that the lore was changed and slightly retconned between the writing of this episode and the publishing of the book (which alex discusses in some of the commentary for this episode when discussing fidd's character), but I think a more interesting theory to solve this contradiction can be found in the source material.

If we play this all completely straight, there are two options here, both involving Fiddleford lying in his diaries. this isn't entirely new to the series, unreliable narration is a big theme, especially in Journal 3 and TBOB. the only real explanations are that:

A) Fiddleford was lying about this being the first time he used the gun, meaning this video diary takes place after the portal incident.

B) Fiddleford was lying about leaving the project, and was filming these diaries while still working with Ford.

Now, either of them is plausible, but ultimately Fiddleford is a scientist. He has dedicated his life to engineering, and it seems to be his lifelong passion considering it's one of the only character traits that he continues to practice after losing his mind. Would a man who is this talented, this dedicated, really lie about testing results in a video diary he chose to make?

If he had used the gun before, any kind of result he is trying to observe would be ruined. It would be a pointless venture, since we know for a fact that by the time he leaves the project he has used the gun on himself, Ford and other civillians multiple times. It's a complete failure of the scientific method, and I don't think it makes sense for the character we know, the man who quadruple checks his own calculations just to be sure they're right.

However, the other explanation feels like something he might do. We know he invents the gun after the Gremloblin incident likely sometime in August, and seems to use it immediately as evidenced by J3, on both himself and Ford. We know from the audio commentary that for Fidd, the memory gun is very much an addiction, it's something that he uses to curb his anxiety and appear like a better partner, to try and keep himself together until the project is over. But ultimately, he's known something is wrong with the project for a long time, and Ford mentions his tendency towards self destructive anxiety when Fidd rips out his own hair after Ford reveals the tip of the weirdness iceberg to him.

All this to say, I think it's far more realistic for Fiddleford to lie about leaving the project rather than his results. He knows that something is wrong, that he should leave and be with his family, and on the other side of that we know that Bill is using this anxiety to whisper into Ford's ear that Fidd is unreliable and will leave. He's been through a severely traumatic event with the Gremloblin, trapped for days in his worst nightmares, to the point where he is prepared to cause himself potential brain damage to un-see it.

But despite all of it, he doesn't leave. He is determined to stay, maybe out of loyalty, maybe out of fear for Ford's safety, maybe he needs the money from the project for his family. He has a wife and son who need him and we know that he feels guilt for his treatment towards them, he even cites them as his sole reason for backing out of using the gun immediately before he does it anyway, and uses it on Ford to cover his mistakes up. Fiddleford is a man who is wracked by anxiety and shame and is such a bad way by this point that he is absolutely willing to self-destruct and lie to just get through this project.

I think he absolutely would start documenting his use of the memory gun, even if that meant lying that he had followed his instincts and left the project when he should have done. After all, he says himself that he wants to use this gun on a wider scale as a therapy tool, assuming the gun doesn't turn his brain to mush, surely the tapes of his initial testing will need to be peer-reviewed? He's presenting the reality he wishes was true, the one where he is brave and stands on his principles and doesn't fall into step beside Ford on his path to destruction.

So, where does this leave the timeline?

Finding exact dates is difficult, mostly because the only concrete numbers in J3 are few and far between, but we do have the dates of the tapes to go off as follows. This isn't concrete but it's a fun way to recontextualise the events of J3:

Day 1:

First usage of the gun, followed by it being used on Ford

Sometime after the Gremloblin incident, Fidd's arm is either healed or on the mend from the incident as his cast is gone, so likely towards the end of August.

Note on the cast: It could also be gone as a result of him removing it too early, he doesn't seem to take a lot of time to recover from the incident before he gets back to work in fear of disappointing Ford.

The room he is in is likely his bedroom in the Shack, or whatever location he initially uses to form the blind eye, maybe a room in the museum? The "probability of failure" graph in the back is the same one that he shows Ford the night before the Portal test, albeit a bigger version, meaning he has likely been tracking the output results for a while.

Day 5:

Still exhibiting postive results, no deterioration yet.

Day 22:

First signs of mental deterioration

First mention of the blind eye, Fidd draws the symbol onto a notebook but it is already scribbled in the background over a diagram of the portal. The blind eye symbol is first mentioned in J3, when Fidd hands it to the carny who becomes the eventual leader of the cult, so this diary likely takes place after he has begun using it on other people.

Official formation of the blind eye as a group to help people forget traumatic memories.

His room in the shack is in a state of disarray, his plants are dead and there are handprints in oil or ink on the walls. Notably, he seems to be connecting the idea of a single eye and the portal despite not being aware of Bill at this point, which I'll touch upon later.

The carnival is likely in September according to the timeline by @fordtato

Day 74:

Slight physical deterioration, more physical anxiety

It seems that Fidd has been regularly using the memory gun at this point, to erase even minorly distressing images from his head, and his anxiety has taken a nosedive. Likely explanation is that this diary is after the bunker, where he had another severely traumatic experience (kidnapped by a shapeshifter and reduced to mute from anxiety) and seemed to become obsessed with doomsday planning. During the bunker arc he also used the gun on multiple workmen and Ford once again.

Likely takes place in October/November

His room is a complete mess by now, with the walls covered in papers and "Help Me" scrawled on the walls.

At this point in J3, Ford has made his deal with Bill and is allowing him to possess his body whenever he pleases. Bill has also sucessfully driven a divide between the other two by making Ford doubt that Fidd will be able to make it to the end of the project, and Ford describes his frustration with him.

According to Ford, Fidd is just as agitated and nervous before the portal test as he was during the Gremloblin attack, and obsessively checks and rechecks his calculations, causing Ford to worry for his resolve.

In between this diary and the next are the stolen pages from J3 that are in TBOB, which give us slight insight into Fiddleford during this time but not much. We see that he tries multiple times to reach out to him the only way that Fidd knows how, through invention and creation, with the snowglobe and the six-fingered gloves. Ford, however, treats them carelessly as a result of his increased attention to his muse. At the same time, he tries to visit home but is kicked out by Emma-May after he forgets to get her a Christmas gift. This is played as an example of his connection with Ford, him remembering two gifts for the man and none for his wife, but if he really is suffering from his use of the gun at this time, the forgetfulness makes even more sense and his argument with his family means he doesn't have a support system outside of Ford who is paying all of his attention to the project. After this, Fiddleford is more reclusive than ever as he spends early January compiling a thesis for Ford to publish

Day 189

Physical deterioration is in full effect and he can't hide the result of his addiction any more, even just to keep up appearances.

His arm is broken, likely due to the car accident he mentions accidentally causing, but its the same arm he broke during the Gremloblin attack and could be a result of him taking his cast off too early for it to have healed right in the first place which could explain why he wears it for so long.

Significant mental decline as he has started exhibiting signs of brain damage or swelling (decreased vocabulary, forgetfulness, loss of motor functions) however, he is seemingly lucid enough to question if the memory gun is causing negative side effects.

There are actually bottles visible in the back of the room, possbly referencing the addiction metaphor being used here

This would take place after the portal test, likely late January. Ford is at the height of his paranoia, Fiddleford has left the shack and taken every trace of his research with him except his college picture with Ford, and the blind eye is a fully established and seemingly self-governing cult.

Day 273

At this point, Fidd has relocated to a motel and is seemingly completely mentally gone, ripping out his hair and developing his hunched posture. This likely takes place after the blind eye takes his memories, or he continues erasing them himself. It's possible that the blind eye continues visiting him and taking his memories even after he is ejected as a member, or at least until they forget who he is after using the gun on themselves too many times.

It appears to be snowing outside? Which doesn't line up with either the canon timeline or this timeline, so potentially the days on the video diaries could be incorrect assuming he isn't filming them every day, or has lost so much of his mind by this point that he isn't labelling them right and has lost track of time

The final two entries are a similar story, serving only to show us the end of his decline and him eventually becoming fully homeless, retreating to the junkyard he lives in for the next 28 years (jesus, he really deserved that mansion).

Ultimately though, this timeline asks a lot of interesting character questions.

Why did Ford not realise how bad Fiddleford's decline was becoming? Maybe a mix of circumstances, he was falling deeper into his worship of Bill at the time, to the extent that he was regularly being possessed and judging by the lack of journal entries at the time, very pre-occupied. We also know that Fidd used the gun on him at least twice in canon, and possibly used it more than we know in order to convince Ford he was okay.

If Fiddleford was erasing parts of Ford's memory, did Bill know? Personally, I feel that Bill was aware but knew that ultimately it would serve him. Fiddleford, without ever encountering Bill at this point, created the blind eye symbol which is eerily close to Bill's symbolism, how would he know that when we know Ford is possessive of his muse and doesn't share anything with Fidd about it? How does Ford have visions of Fidd in a red cloak without ever knowing that the cult and Fidd are directly connected? My thoughts are that Bill, who we know has erased Ford's memory himself before when he stole the journal pages we see in TBOB, was using most of this as fodder to drive a divide between the two, mentally creating associations in both of their minds so they stop trusting the other. Chess but with troubled gay men.

All in all I think Fiddleford's decline is such an interesting way to approach a theme of addiction, particularly a high-functioning addiction. If this really is how things played out, we know that throughout his use of the gun and even 30 years later when he is considered a write-off, the one thing he maintains is his engineering prowess and his smarts. It makes sense that even when actively using the gun and hiding it from Ford he would be able to keep up in terms of building the portal, especially when we know he secretly hired workers. It's also a great example of someone drawing others into their addiction, even if it was unintentional and he didn't believe they would be hurt in the long run.

I feel like sometimes there's a lil bit of a push to see Fidd as a naive or morally good character even through his mistakes and to demonise Ford in response, but ultimately both of them are very morally grey and have their own vices that they develop and grow from.

[starleska]

73 Yards has devastated me and i have some theories

we all agree that 73 Yards was a genre-defying, harrowing episode...and i think there's some really interesting themes and ideas going on here. tw for discussion of trauma, abuse, neglect and abandonment:

i hope we're all on the same page that the Woman seems to represent Ruby's fear of abandonment, brought to life. always present, always out of the corner of her eye, and whose primary mechanic is to drive people to scorn and leave Ruby without explanation. even people who do not know her, or people she's just met, or who are incredibly warm towards her...they speak to the Woman, and they look back as if to confirm their suspicions, and then run away, maddened and horrified. it is an unbelievable stroke of genius to make the Toymaker's breaking down of the boundaries between science and fantasy bring Ruby's abandonment into being...and for Ruby to weaponise her. but that's it - as soon as Roger ap Gwilliam was taken care of, we expected the Woman to disappear, right? but that could never happen, because Ruby's fear of abandonment will never disappear...no matter how purposeful her life is, or how much she distances herself from others. the use of the cruel, distant individuals in the Welsh pub to set up Ruby sympathetically is excellent...and then, we see people approach Ruby at all levels of emotional connection, when time and again she is considered untouchable, as if her very being is contagious. and all this time, we have the fairy circle being broken and hope vanishing...with hope being the Doctor. the one man who potentially holds the key to uncovering Ruby's deepest desires - to find out why she was abandoned, and by who. and at the end of it all...even in death, Ruby doesn't find peace. she is transported into a neverending hell-loop where she is her own abandonment. the two are inseparable, inexplicably the same, because Ruby's very existence as herself is built on the bedrock of abandonment. and i think this resonates heavily with any trauma survivor...the way that our trauma and our very real anxieties brought on by that trauma are inextricable from ourselves. i think the plot with Roger ap Gwilliam shows off a very real symptom in trauma survivors: we often daydream that our hurt and pain will be useful one day - functional. and not only does Ruby get to do that...she gets to be the quiet, unsung saviour of the whole world, protecting us from a world-ending terror in spite of the abuse and neglect she's faced. she endures menial work and constant fear, while only confiding quietly in one other person...Marti, who i believe is coded as another trauma survivor due to her response to Roger (who she describes as a monster). if Ruby can't receive love and affection from anyone else, at least she can feel satisfied that she served her purpose. on a practical level, the presence of Mrs Flood and Susan Twist in this episode AGAIN gives me pause. my theory that someone here is another of the Toymaker's Legions, and is the embodiment of Story, has only deepened. the fact that we had a cold open without the title sequence, we met Susan Twist very quickly, we seem to have flipped genres for the show and Ruby was able to embark on a self-destructive wish-fulfilment saviour fantasy in real life...it all indicates to me that the boundaries between reality and fiction are fully collapsing. when Kate says things are trending towards the supernatural lately, i think we've only hit the tip of the iceberg. on a broader level: my God Russell T Davies, what a brilliant script!!! this is one of my favourite ever episodes of Doctor Who, and is absolutely my highlight for the season. huge kudos to Millie Gibson for giving such a killer performance...i am now terribly endeared to, and protective, of Ruby, and hope against hope she gets the happy ending she so deserves 💖

[777rare]

SPIRITUALITY (For beginners)

{ Part .1 }

This will be a REALLY long post with around 10 topics covered because of word limit.....🥲

A NOTE:

First and foremost, everything I have written in this post belongs to years of notes that I have taken down and research I have done till this day and am still doing, so not everything written belongs to me but are mostly writings and studies done by many people all over the world and the credit goes solely to them.

Okay, so...when it comes to spirituality the number of things you get to learn are never ending, like infinite. I made this post to help a user who asked me to help her out with her spiritual journey. She made me realise that there are so many people out there who want to begin their path to spirituality but do not know Where to or how to begin. This post will touch upon many topics under spirituality but this is just the tip of the iceberg. There are so so many things to learn in spirituality that even many lifetimes can't encompass the knowledge we get in the scope of spirituality. It is extremely vast but I want to help those who do not know where to begin, with this post.

I am already working on a PART 2 of this post so stay tuned!

1. SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

What is a spiritual awakening?

Spiritual awakening is often characterized as a shift in an individual's understanding of themselves and the world around them, involving a deeper connection to something beyond the self. A spiritual awakening is really coming back to yourself, and it's an awareness of a new reality, and who you truly are.

You'll feel called to uncover the true meaning and purpose of life, and once you start, there's no real going back. You start questioning reality, the government, consumerism, and people's intentions.

Firstly, If you have been awakened, it is because you've been chosen to awaken. Be grateful, not everyone will be chosen.

Secondly, now that you are becoming spiritually awakened, you are approaching a stage where you want to know your soul purpose. Your awareness is expanding and you are realising the bigger picture. You are beginning to see how every event is connected. Your spirit has started to bloom. A fire within you has started to burn. Your time has arrived.

2 Things to know:

One can have multiple spiritual awakenings in a lifetime. Not just one.

Spiritual awakenings are not easy and full of sunshine. It's like the weather is entirely filled with thunderstorm and you're in a lighthouse in the middle of the ocean that's raging with of heavy tidal waves. (Lol. Close ur eyes and imagine it though.. you'll understand it better.)

VISUAL DEPICTION OF AN ACTUAL SPIRITUAL AWAKENING:

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THE STAGES OF SPIRITUAL AWAKENING:

There are 6 stages in a spiritual awakening, being:

The waking up stage: Questioning daily life. You begin to question everything that happens around you. You begin to question your reason of existence on this Earth. You feel a great sense of dissatisfaction with your way of life and crave answers to all your questions.

Hitting rock bottom: Feeling isolated. You begin feeling alone even in crowds and family members. You begin craving meaningful connections and feel a deep void inside yourself. The second stage is where there's massive collapse of everything you thought was going to last. This stage is the 'Tower moment' stage where you are the most hopeless and lost in the chaos.

Hermit stage: This is the stage you think you've past all the darkness but no. You have not. You will feel a great sense of loneliness and need to find real answers and connections. It's exactly like 'The Hermit' card in Tarot. You will spend a lot of time introspecting on various things. You will look more withing yourself than outward. You will start feeling the need to isolate yourself for answers and will feel less needy to speak to others. It's definitely advised to do healing work and inner work at this time like shadow work. Usually the people in this stage will find shadow work on their own, like it's divine timing. Even I found out about Shadow work in my Hermit stage.

Increase in vibration: All things you are aware you need to let go of, fall away. This stage is difficult for the ego. During this stage The ego's need to feel safe will begin so you must talk to it amd assure that it is safe. You will begin to search for friends in your vibrational level. You can even find friends in your vibration during this stage. Your energy is sensitive to the environment at this time so pay attention to what drains you. You will fall out of friendships, no matter how long they go back, if the vibration of you both are in different levels.

Surrender stage: This is a very tough stage for anyone because now the ego has to surrender to the Universe or the Divine. It is hard as an average human who has been living based off on their ego, their entire life to just let go of it's control now. You will not graduate this stage until you learn to fully surrender to the Universe and let go. You will experience a lot of huge coincidences and Synchronicities during this stage, like repeatedly seeing angel numbers like 1111 and 555,222,7777,999,444, etc.

Presence and Service: Soul in action, Ego is asleep. During this stage you will have the strong urge to help others on their spiritual path. You will work actively to bring spiritual awareness among other people who are new to spirituality. You will share your knowledge and experiences with others who wish to get more into spirituality.

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2. LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE

THERE ARE 12 LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE BEING:

1.. The Law of DIVINE ONENESS -

The first law states that everything is connected to everything else. What we think, say, do, or believe will have a corresponding effect on others, as well as the Universe around us. Everything that exists- both, seen or unseen- is connected to everything. When we become aware of this law and believe that everything is one, the way we think and act with respect to everyone and everything around us changes.

2.. The Law of VIBRATION -

The Law of Vibration states that everything and every being is in a constant state of vibration, always emitting frequencies and energies that often aren’t seen on the surface. Everything is always in constant motion. Some are higher frequencies and some are lower. You are also emitting a vibrational frequency.

This frequency can and often does change, and once you understand that you possess your own vibrational frequency, you realize you have the power to tune your frequency to a higher vibration. The level of your vibration has a profound effect on your daily experience. When you operate at a higher frequency, you invite a greater sense of purpose and fulfillment into your world.

3.. The Law of CORRESPONDENCE -

The Law of Correspondence states that patterns continue to repeat in the universe on both grand and small scales.

Look at recurring patterns in your own life. Do you feel like you continually have bad luck with dating? Have you tried and tried to be successful in a specific area but have gotten less to no results? Do you ever feel like the universe is out to get you?

The patterns we experience are directly correlated to our inner worlds. This means that what you’re experiencing in your outer world is a mirror of your own inner world. You have the power to change your lived experiences in your outer world by changing your inner world.

If your life has felt particularly chaotic recently, consider the ways in which you may be experiencing chaos within. To release the external chaos and invite more peace into your life, seek to cultivate peace inside you first.

4.. The Law of ATTRACTION -

You may have already heard about the Law of Attraction as this is the most well-known of the universal laws. The Law of Attraction states that like attracts like; the vibrations, beliefs, and emotions we put out into the world are what we receive in our lived experiences. If you approach your daily life emitting feelings of joy, love, and positivity, you receive experiences in your life that mirror these emotions.

But if you maintain a negative attitude in which you always consider yourself the victim and claim that nothing ever works out for you, you’ll continue to receive experiences that reflect this belief.

You do not have to force yourself to suppress negative emotions and pretend you’re happy when you’re feeling sad or disappointed or angry. You can feel sad sometimes but still believe in your heart that everything is working out for your highest good. You can have a bad day while also knowing that it will pass. 

5.. The Law of INSPIRED ACTION -

The Law of Inspired Action is connected to the Law of Attraction and is often the overlooked step that cause many to claim that the Law of Attraction doesn’t work. The Law of Inspired Action states that you must take real, actionable, inspired steps in order to achieve your goals and invite your manifestations into your life.

An inspired step is action derived from your inner knowing. It’s when something deep within calls you to take action, even when it doesn’t make sense. Inspired action is based on surrendering to the guidance of the universe and listening to the call of your inner knowing.

It's like trusting your gut feeling when taking a certain decision. Suppose you really want to date that one person who seems very genuine, and you really do not want to be single anymore, but you have this bad feeling or undeniable feeling that's telling you not to date him/her.

6.. The Law of PERPETUAL TRANSMUTATION of ENERGY -

This name of this law is quite confusing.

PERPETUAL means constant, everlasting or without end.

TRANSMUTATION means the act of changing or being changed from one form into another.

The Law of Perpetual Transmutation states that energetically, everything in the universe is constantly fluctuating and changing from one form to another. Most of the time, you don’t see these changes because they’re happening at a cellular level. Your vibrational frequency has the power to affect another’s, and another’s vibrational frequency can affect yours. 

If someone approaches you and begins ranting about their own problems, then that negative energy will affect your energy as well. You don’t see your energy changing, but you can feel it; one moment, you were having a great day, and the next, you feel frustrated and unhappy.

Other than that, when you cheer up that person, you will affect their energy positively. Once you understand this power, you can use it to protect yourself from negative energy and uplift those around you.

7.. The Law of CAUSE and EFFECT -

The Law of Cause and Effect states that all actions have corresponding reactions, or consequences. (The word “consequences” tends to have a negative meaning, but consequences can be positive, too). That's why they say helping others can bring more happiness into our lives, because that positivity comes back into our lives in other ways.

For example, when you donate money to a person or organization in need with a sincere heart, this kindness will come back to you, even though you may not always see it right away. Similarly, if you lie, cheat, or steal, you will eventually feel these effects, even if not immediately. This law is directly tied to the Great Law, the first of the 12 Laws of Karma.

8.. The Law of COMPENSATION -

The Law of Compensation is often tied to the phrase, “You reap what you sow.” This can have both a positive and negative meanings, and the idea is pretty closely tied to the concepts in the Law of Attraction and the Law of Cause and Effect. (What you put out is what you receive.).

What is the difference in this law? Well, compensation can come in many forms, both good and bad. And often, what may appear good on the surface can really be a negative thing, and what can appear negative on the surface can be a positive thing.

For instance, say you’ve been trying to manifest a specific job. If you don’t get the job, you may feel like your manifestation has failed, but what if this job wasn’t as good as it seemed? The universe may be saving you from negative experiences and toxic energy tied to this job. Or maybe you get the job, but you lied and deceived in order to get it. Soon, you realize that the job that you believed would change your life is changing it, but it’s for the worse rather than for the better.

9.. The Law of RELATIVITY -

The Law of Relativity states that everything is neutral. When we label something as good or bad, rich or poor, or enough or not enough, it’s only because our perspective is influenced by our personal experiences and relationships. For example, for one person, an 1,800 square-foot house could be considered huge because they grew up in smaller houses, but for another, 1,800 square feet might be deemed small because they’ve always had twice the space.

The important thing here is to remain mindful of your biases and the labels you put on different experiences. When you’re slipping into a state of feeling like you don’t have enough, you can shift your perspective and view your situation from someone who has less than you. This can help you see that you do, in fact, have plenty, allowing you to feel more gratitude and appreciation in your daily life.

10.. The Law of POLARITY -

The Law of Polarity states that everything has an opposite, and the existence of these opposites is vital in helping us to gain a deeper perspective of our own lives. This law is all about embracing contrast in your life; the bad times help you to appreciate the good. A bad relationship may help you to appreciate a good one (and to know what you’re looking for moving forward). Rainy days help you appreciate the sunny ones, and too much sun can help you appreciate the rain. In order to love your life, you should appreciate the tough experiences that shaped you and led to your growth.

11.. The Law of RHYTHM -

The Law of Rhythm states that everything comes in cycles, and nothing stays in one state forever. This can most easily be seen in the changing of seasons. Summer eventually gives way to fall, which turns into winter, which turns into spring, and eventually, it’s summer again.

Are you experiencing hardships in your life? Those hardships won’t last forever. When you understand that this is just where you are in a cycle, and that this hardship isn’t a permanent state, you’re able to cultivate more calmness and peace within.

It’s also important to pay attention to your own inner rhythm, and to flow with this rhythm instead of against it. For instance, maybe you’re feeling tired and need a break from the stress of daily life. Instead of trying to ignore these feelings, you can choose to accept your own inner rhythm, possibly by taking a social media break and instead spending time in nature.

12. The Law of GENDER -

The Law of Gender states there are two types of energy: masculine and feminine. In order to live a fulfilling, joyful, purpose-driven life, we must achieve a balance between these two energies.

Masculine energy is tied to hustling, achieving, and doing. Feminine energy is tied to surrendering, allowing, and just being. Neither energy is better or worse than the other. When you find a balance between the two, you’re able to live your truest, most authentic life.

Here, it’s also important to listen to your inner rhythm. For instance, if you’ve been in hustle mode for too long, your inner being may tell you it’s time to step back for a while and allow yourself to just be.

3. THE ELEMENTS and their QUALITITES:

The pentagram has represented many diverse meanings over the centuries. Since at least the Renaissance, one of its associations is with the five elements.

Traditionally, there is a hierarchy among the elements ranging from the most spiritual and rarefied to the least spiritual and most material. This hierarchy determines the placement of elements around the pentagram.

Starting with spirit, the highest element, we descend to fire, then follow the lines of the pentagram over to air, across to water, and down to earth, the lowest and most material of the elements. The final line between earth and spirit completes the geometric shape.

Elemental Qualities

Warm or Cold

Each element is either warm or cold, and this corresponds with a male or female gender. This is a strongly dichotomous system, where male qualities are things like light, warmth, and activity, and female qualities are dark, cold, passive, and receptive.

The orientation of the triangle is determined by warmth or coldness, male or female. Male, warm elements point upward, ascending toward the spiritual realm. Female, cold elements point downward, descending into the earth.

Moist or Dry

The second pair of qualities is moistness or dryness. Unlike the warm and cold qualities, moist and dry qualities do not immediately correspond to other concepts.

Opposing Elements

Because each element shares one of its qualities with one other element, that leaves one element completely unrelated.

For example, air is moist like water and warm like fire, but it has nothing in common with earth. These opposing elements are on opposite sides of the diagram.

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The issue of a pentagram being point-up or point-down only gained relevance in the 19th century and has everything to do with the arrangement of elements. A point-up pentagram came to symbolize spirit ruling over the four physical elements, while a point-down pentagram symbolizes spirit being subsumed by matter or descending into matter.

Since then, some have simplified those associations to represent good and evil. This is generally not the position of those who commonly work with point-down pentagrams, and is often not the position of those associating themselves with point-up pentagrams either.

ELEMENTAL CORRESPONDENCES:

The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn codified some of these correspondences in the 19th century. Most notable here are the cardinal directions.

The Golden Dawn originated in England, and the directional and elemental correspondences reflect a European perspective. To the south are the warmer climates, and thus are associated with fire. The Atlantic Ocean lies to the west. The north is cold and formidable, a land of the earth but sometimes not a lot else.

Occultists practicing in America or elsewhere sometimes do not find these correspondences to work.

* Daily, Monthly, and Yearly Cycles:

Cycles are important facets of many occult systems. Looking at daily, monthly, and yearly natural cycles, we find periods of growth and dying, of fullness and barrenness.

Fire is the element of fullness and life, and it is closely associated with the sun. Therefore, it's unsurprising that noon and summer would be associated with fire. By that same logic, the full moon should also be in the same category.

Earth is in the opposite direction as fire and therefore corresponds with midnight, winter, and the new moon. While these things might represent barrenness, more often they are representative of potential and transformation; the point where the old gives way to the new; the empty fertility readies to feed new creations.

Air is the element of new beginnings, youth, increase, and creativity. As such, it is associated with spring, the waxing moon, and sunrise. Things are growing warmer and brighter, while plants and animals give birth to a new generation.

Water is the element of emotion and wisdom, particularly the wisdom of age. It represents a time past the peak of livelihood, moving toward the end of the cycle.

Fire

Fire is associated with strength, activity, blood, and life force. It is also seen as highly purifying and protective, consuming impurities and driving back the darkness.

Fire is traditionally seen as the most rarefied and spiritual of the physical elements because of its masculine properties (which were superior to female properties). It also lacks physical existence, produces light, and has a transformative power when it comes in contact with more physical material.

Qualities: Warm, Dry

Gender: Masculine (active)

Elemental: Salamander (Here referring to a mythological lizard creature which could burst into flames)

Golden Dawn Direction: South

Golden Dawn ​Color: Red

Magical Tool: Sword, athame, dagger, sometimes wand

Planets: Sol (Sun), Mars

Zodiac signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Season: Summer

Time of Day: Noon

Air

Air is the element of intelligence, creativity, and beginnings. Largely intangible and without permanent form, air is an active, masculine element, superior to the more material elements of water and earth.

Qualities: Warm, Moist

Gender: Masculine (active)

Elemental: Sylphs (Invisible beings)

Golden Dawn Direction: East

Golden Dawn Color: Yellow

Magical Tool: Wand, sometimes a sword, dagger, or athame

Planets: Jupiter

Zodiac Signs: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Season: Spring

Time of Day: Morning, Sunrise

Water

Water is the element of emotion and the unconscious, as opposed to the conscious intellectualism of air.

Water is one of two elements with a physical existence that can interact with all of the physical senses. Water is still considered less material (and thus superior) to Earth because it possesses more motion and activity than Earth.

Qualities: Cold, Moist

Gender: Feminine (passive)

Elemental: Undines (water-based nymphs)

Golden Dawn Direction: West

Golden Dawn Color: Blue

Magical Tool: Cup

Planets: Moon, Venus

Zodiac Signs: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Season: Fall

Time of Day: Sunset

Earth

Earth is the element of stability, groundedness, fertility, materiality, potential, and stillness. Earth can also be an element of beginnings and endings, or death and rebirth, as life comes from the ground and then decomposes back into the earth after death.

Qualities: Cold, Dry

Gender: Feminine (passive)

Elemental: Gnomes

Golden Dawn Direction: North

Golden Dawn Color: Green

Magical Tool: Pentacle

Planets: Saturn

Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Season: Winter

Time of Day: Midnight

Spirit

The element of spirit does not have the same arrangements of correspondences as the physical elements since spirit is not physical. Various systems may associate planets, tools, and so forth with spirit, but such correspondences are far less standardized than those of the other four elements.

The element of spirit goes by several names. The most common are spirit, ether or Aether, and quintessence, which is Latin for "fifth element."

There is also no standard symbol for spirit, although circles are common. Eight-spoked wheels and spirals are also sometimes used to represent spirit.

Spirit is a bridge between the physical and the spiritual. In cosmological models, the spirit is the transitory material between the physical and celestial realms. Within the microcosm, the spirit is the bridge between body and soul.

Golden Dawn Direction: Above, Below, Within

Golden Dawn Color: Violet, Orange, White

4. CHAKRAS IN THE HUMAN BODY

Chakras are the nerve centres seen in our body. The human body actually has 109 nerve centres, but among those, nine centres are important, and even in those nine, seven centres (Chakras) are of primary importance. And when energy (kundalini) or consciousness flows through these nerve centres, there are different emotions, feelings or sensations that one experiences.

There are seven chakras or energy centers in the human body through which our vital energy or prana shakti flows. Sometimes, these energy channels get blocked and this leads to illness and disturbances in the body’s natural processes. It is important to understand what each chakra represents and what we can do to keep this energy flowing freely. This is possible when the chakras are balanced.

Let’s explore the seven chakras in our body, how they affect the body, what imbalance does to our personality and organs, and how to set it right by balancing the chakras with yoga asanas or poses.

(FROM BOTTOM TO TOP) :

Muladhara Chakra (Root Chakra)

Swadishthana Chakra (Sacral Chakra)

Manipura Chakra (Solar Plexus Chakra)

Anahata Chakra (Heart Chakra)

Vishuddhi Chakra (Throat Chakra)

Ajna Chakra (Third-Eye Chakra)

Sahasrara Chakra (Crown Chakra)

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Significance each chakra, location & yoga asanas to Balance (From BOTTOM to TOP):

1. Muladhara Chakra OR Root Chakra

Element: Earth

Color: Red

Mantra: LAM

Location: Base of the spine between the anus and genitals 

How it affects the body: The Muladhara Chakra influences the health of the bones, teeth, nails, anus, prostate, adrenals, kidneys, lower digestive functions, excretory functions, and sexual activity.

Imbalance in the chakra leads to tiredness, poor sleep, lower back pain, sciatica, constipation, depression, immune-related disorders, obesity, and eating disorders.

Poses that balance Muladhara chakra: Grounding-into-feet poses like

o  Tadasana (The Mountain Pose)

o   Parsvakonasana (Extended Side Angle Pose)

o   Veerabhadrasana (Warrior Pose)

o   Hastapadasana (Standing Forward Bend)

o   Setu Bandhasana (Bridge Pose)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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2. Swadishthana Chakra OR Sacral Chakra

Element: Water

Color: Orange

Mantra: VAM

Location: Situated at the base of the pubis between the genitals and the sacral nerve plexus

How it affects the body: The Swadishthana Chakra deals with the individual’s emotional identity, creativity, desire, pleasure and self-gratification, procreation, and personal relationships.

It governs the sexual organs, stomach, upper intestines, liver, gallbladder, kidney, pancreas, adrenal glands, spleen, middle spine, and autoimmune system.

An unbalanced Swadishthana Chakra leads to lower back pain, sciatica, decreased libido, pelvic pain, urinary problems, poor digestion, low resistance to infection and viruses, tiredness, hormonal imbalances, and menstrual problems.

Poses that balance Swadishthana chakra: Hip opening poses like

o   Standing Wide Forward Bend

o   Sitting Wide Forward Bend

o   Bound Angle Pose

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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3. Manipura Chakra OR Solar Plexus Chakra

Element: Fire

Color: Yellow

Mantra: RAM

Location: At the level of the umbilicus corresponding to the gastric or solar plexus 

How it affects the body: Manipura Chakra deals with a sense of belonging, mental understanding of emotions, and defines self-esteem in an individual.

It governs the effective functioning of the upper abdomen, gallbladder, liver, middle spine, kidney, adrenals, small intestines, and the stomach.

An unbalanced Manipura Chakra may lead to diabetes, pancreatitis, adrenal imbalances, arthritis, colon diseases, stomach ulcers, intestinal tumors, anorexia/bulimia, or low blood pressure.

Postures that balance Manipura chakra: Heat-building poses like

o   Sun Salutation Pose

o   Veerabhadrasana (Warrior Pose)

o   Backbends like Bow Pose

o  Twists like Sitting Half-spinal Twist

o   Abdominal-strengthening poses like Boat Pose

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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4. Anahata Chakra OR Heart Chakra

Element: Air

Colors: Green or pink

Mantra: YAM

Location: On the cardiac plexus in the region of the heart

How it affects the body: Anahata Chakra affects a person’s social identity and influences traits like trust, forgiveness, unconditional love, wisdom, compassion, and issues of the soul.

It deals with the functioning of the heart, rib cage, blood, circulatory system, lungs and diaphragm, thymus gland, breasts, esophagus, shoulders, arms, hands.

An imbalance can cause issues related to the thoracic spine, upper back and shoulder problems, asthma, heart conditions, shallow breathing, and lung diseases.

Postures that balance Anahata chakra: Chest-openers like

o   Ustrasana (Camel Pose)

o   Bhujangasana (Cobra Pose)

o   Matsyasana (Fish pose)

o   Nadi Shodhan Pranayama (Alternate Nostril Breathing)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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5. Vishuddhi Chakra OR Throat Chakra

Element: Sound or Ether

Color: Blue

Mantra: HAM

Location: On the level of the throat, the nerve plexus of the pharynx region

How it affects the body: Vishuddhi Chakra deals with personality traits like communication, creativity, faith, truthfulness, self-awareness, and expression.

It governs the throat, the thyroid, and parathyroid gland, trachea, cervical vertebrae, vocal cords, neck and shoulders, arms, hands, esophagus, mouth, teeth, and gums.

An unbalanced Vishuddhi Chakra causes thyroid dysfunctions, sore throat, stiff neck, mouth ulcers, gum or tooth problems, laryngitis, and hearing problems.

Postures that balance Vishuddhi chakra:

o   Matsyasana (Fish pose)

o   Marjariasana (Cat Stretch)

o   Neck stretches like Balasana and Supported Shoulder Stand

o   Setu Bandhasana (Bridge Pose)

o   Halasana (Plow Pose)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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6. Ajna Chakra OR Thirds Eye Chakra

Element: Light

Colors: Indigo

Mantra: AUM or OM

Location: Between the eyebrows (third eye)

How it affects the body: Ajna Chakra deals with self-awareness, wisdom, intellect, clairvoyance, implementation of ideas, detachment, insight, understanding, and intuitive reasoning.

It governs the functions of the brain, eyes, ears, nose, pituitary gland, pineal glands, and the neurological system. Any imbalance could lead to headaches, nightmares, eyestrain, learning disabilities, panic, depression, blindness, deafness, seizures, or spinal dysfunctions.

Postures that balance Ajna chakra:

o   Shishuasana (Child Pose)

o   Meditation

o   Seated Yoga Mudra

o   Eye exercises like palming the eyes and rotational viewing

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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7. Sahasrara Chakra OR Crown Chakra

Element: Conscience

Colors: Violet or White

Mantra: Silence

Location: Crown of the head

How it affects the body: Sahasrara Chakra influences intuitive knowledge, connection to spirituality, integration of mind-body-spirit, and conscious awareness.

It governs the center of the head and midline above the ears, brain, nervous system, and the pineal gland.

An imbalance in the Sahasrara Chakra causes chronic exhaustion and sensitivity to light and sound.

Postures that balance Sahasrara chakra:

o  Balancing poses like Tree Pose that bring awareness to the body

o  Yoga Mudra

Imbalance is a part of life, however, regular  practice of yoga asanas will help you balance your chakras, enabling you to live a fulfilled, contented, and happy life in the pink of health!

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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5. MANIFESTATION AND IT'S METHODS

Manifestation is a process in which you use your thoughts and emotions to make something happen in your life.

The truth is what is happening around you, your relationship, your financial situation or your life situation all are the outcomes of your own manifestation.

FEW POWERFUL MANIFESTATION METHODS:

1. Manifestation Journal

A manifestation journal is a notebook where you write down your dreams, goals, and desires.

It is a method that uses the Law of Attraction to attract things into reality by focusing your desires, nurturing positive thoughts and inspiring you to take effective actions.

And, you can also incorporate different manifestation techniques to better help you to manifest anything you want in the way that suits you most. (I personally combine Affirmations and Gratitude Journaling with it.)

Here are the steps to start a manifestation journal.

Know what you really want.

Be clear on what you want to feel.

Writing it in present tense.

Visualize it happening when you write.

Express your Gratitude to the Universe.

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2. The 369 Method

The 369 method is an easy manifestation technique combining manifestation journaling and numerology.

You can simply write your goals, dreams or desires on a piece of paper or your journal 3, 6 and 9 times in the morning, afternoon and before bedtime respectively.

Here are the tips while you are using this method: 

Write down your goal 3 times in the morning right after you wake up.

Write down your goals 6 times in the afternoon in future tense.

Write down your goals 9 times before you go to bed in a way that you have already achieved. Plus, a ‘Thank You’ to the Universe.

The 369 method is especially powerful when trying to manifesting abundance as number 6 and 9 are highly related to it.

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3. Visualization

Visualization is a very well-known technique being used for manifestations and the Law of Attraction.

You can use it and practice it in your mind to imagine something you want to experience as if it is happening.

This technique has been widely used by top athletes, top-performers in sales, business owners, public speakers… and more!

In a nutshell, you visualize yourself to have what you want or to become the person you want to become.

In order to make the most out of your visualization process, here are the 5 steps I personally recommend to follow:

Be clear on exactly what you want

Write down your vision in detail

Feel the good feeling while you are visualizing

Take inspired actions

Withdraw yourself from reality

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4. Vision Board

A vision board is a visual collage of images and words that represent your goals and dreams.

It is very useful especially when you have multiple goals in every aspect of your life where you don’t have the resources or means to achieve them.

Generally a vision board involves collages of cut-out pictures from magazines, words, symbols, quotes, or affirmations that help inspire you to manifest your dreams and keep you on track on your life goals.

Goals & Dreams to Achieve or Things You Want to Acquire

Gather Your Pictures

Make a Collage

Use Affirmation or Inspirational Quotes to Strengthen the Feeling

Put Your Vision Board at Where You Can See Everyday

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5. Manifestation Affirmation

Manifestation Affirmations is a very effective manifestation method we can use to manifest what we want by saying them or writing them down in a journal regularly.

You can draft your own affirmations with what you desire, it can be a very simple yet powerful manifestation method. 

It also helps you to tune your frequency to what you want and raise your vibration at the same time which makes it a very fast manifestation technique.

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6. Manifestation Meditation

Manifestation Meditation is a combine of meditation and visualization to make your manifestation process more effective.

Meditation itself is a very powerful tool to remove negative thoughts, raise your vibration, and put you in a state of allowing.

When you visualize your goals and desires in that meditative state, you can focus and vibrate purely at the frequency of your goals and desires.

You can also utilize tools like hand mudras, manifestation crystals, and manifestation frequencies during your mediation to further empower your vibration.

Here are the steps of a manifestation meditation:

Find a place where you can quiet yourself without disturbance.

Focus on the present moment by breathing softly.

Relax your body.

Visualize yourself having what you want, like it has already happened.

Try to see, hear, smell, touch, and feel what it is like when you already have what you want.

Express your gratitude

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7. Manifestation Symbols

Manifestation symbols are tools that can help you focus your intentions and harness the energy of the universe to manifest your desires into reality.

They are powerful because they are able to bring positive results to multiple aspects of your life.

Love, Health, Financial success, you name it.

When you use these manifestation symbols, you can use them with affirmations, visualization, and other manifestation techniques to amplify their effectiveness:

Lotus Flower: For Abundance, Love, Spiritually

Tree of Life: For Growth, Strength, Interconnectedness

Om: To Connect with the Universe

Pentacle: For Protection & Balance

Hamsa Hand: For Good Fortune, Love & Prosperity

Mandala: For Harmony, Inspiration & Abundance

Yin Yang: For Balance, Harmony & Love

Eye of Horus: For Protection, Spiritual Awakening

Ankh: For Protection, Health & Wellness

Infinity symbol: For Prosperity & Love

Triquetra: For Protection, Balance & Enlightenment

Star of David: For Spiritual Growth & Prosperity

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8. Find a Better Feeling Thought

Sometimes when you have a very strong negative emotion about our goals and dreams, it feels like there is no way you can make it happen.

In this emotional state, almost no manifestation method can be useful. The only thing you can do is to soothe your feelings.

To do this, you can either take a nap or find a better feeling thought.

For most of the methods we mentioned, we put most of our focus on how to think and feel about the goals and dreams that we want.

Better feeling thought is a process to elevate your emotion from a lower level to raise your vibration.

The good thing about this process is that you can turn your negative emotions into positive in just a few minutes!

You can literally go from feeling really depressed to feeling appreciation in 15 minutes when you get the hang of it.

All you need to do is to focus on what you are thinking and how your thought makes you feel at the moment. Then reach to another thought that makes you feel slightly better.

Here’s how:

The first thing you need to know is the emotional guidance scale.

If you look at the emotional guidance scale, you can see that positive emotions have higher vibrational frequencies while negative emotions have lower frequencies.

In general, if you want to move ‘up’ your emotion from a lower level, it is easier to up a level at one time.

For example:

If you are feeling frustrated, it is easier for you to reach pessimism than to reach passion.

It is because it requires less energy from you to jump one level up than to perform a few levels of vibrational quantum jump.

If you are feeling “Frustrated” about your financial situation, and you might think “It’s frustrating that my income can barely pay my bills”

You next better feeling thought could be:

“I probably will have nothing left in my bank account this month.” – Pessimism.

“It doesn’t seem there’s much I can do to get rid of this situation.” – Boredom. 

“At least I can afford most of my expenses” – Contentment.

“I really hope I can make more money.” – Hopefulness.

“I hope I can save more money.” – Hopefulness.

“Maybe I can ask for a raise.” – Optimistic.

“Maybe I can start a side hustle.” – Optimistic.

“I know I can do something.” – Positive Expectation.

“I am going to figure it out.” – Eagerness.

“I love every time I decide to make something happen.” – Passion.

“It just feels so good to have a clear goal.” – Joy.

And you can keep playing this game all day long.

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9. The O Method

The O Method, with the ‘O’ denoting orgasm, is a manifestation technique that leverages sexual energy to draw your desires into your life.

It anchors on the premise that sexual energy is potent and can help you tap into the co-creative power of the Universe.

At the climax of sexual arousal, if you visualize your goals, you can align your desires with the high-frequency energy of the orgasm.

When you are at a higher vibrational frequency, you have lower resistance between you and your desires. And by leveraging this state of high energy, things that you want will manifest faster and easier.

Given the nature of the O Method, it serves as an effective means of manifesting love.

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10. The Whisper Method

The Whisper Method involves visualizing a specific person, setting an intention, and imagining yourself whispering that intention into the person’s ear.

The theory behind the Whisper Method is that this process creates a subconscious connection to a particular vibrational frequency which might potentially influence the person’s thoughts or actions to ‘co-create’ your desired outcome.

However, it is not a means for you to manipulate others or control their behavior. It is all about co-creation.

And thus, when you set your intention, it is best to have an intent to benefit the person who would be involved.

This method works especially well for those who had been struggling to make their dreams come true.

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11. The Pillow Method

The Pillow Method is a simple practice that involves positive affirmation, scripting, visualization and your SLEEP to manifest your desires.

Scientifically, the moment before we almost fall asleep, we generally fall into a state of Alpha brainwave.

When we are in this state, our subconscious mind can be very acceptive to whatever idea we try to input to ourselves.

This method simply takes advantage of this sweet spot so we can manifest what we want.

All you need to do is to write down your desires on a paper, visualize it and put it under your pillow before you drift off to sleep.

6. SPIRITUAL PRACTICES

FOR BEGINNERS (if you are not sure where to begin):

= Affirmations: practice positive self-talk because it makes a huge difference in how our lifestyles function.

= Wear Amulets: Wearing protection amulets like Evil Eyes and crystals to bring certain themes more into your life. EX: Rose Quartz can be worn to bring in more love into one's life.

= Gratitude Journal: Write down all that you are thankful for to the Universe and it will begin to bring you more blessings because Gratitude is greatly appreciated by the Universe.

= Meditation: Meditating can impact your spiritual journey greatly so I greatly recommend you begin practicing this as it will relax you more and you will be more connected to the Universe.

= Divination: You can indulge in divination practices such as Tarot, Palmistry, etc. (will get into that in detail in this post).

= Yoga: Yoga is a great spiritual method to relax one's mind and body and activate their chakras better, although one should take precautions since not all yoga asanas can be performed by everyone.

EX: if one is pregnant, injured, had a recent operation, has physical problems like slipped disc, high BP, low BP, etc, then there are certain yoga asanas that should not be done by them. Also please don't do asana's right after you've eaten, most asanas are to be done on an empty stomach or only after food has been digested.

= Gardening: Gardening is a beautiful way to connect with nature and thus makes you more higher vibrational. It is a great way to relax and increase one's vibration.

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7. WITCHCRAFT

Witchcraft is the use of alleged supernatural powers of magic. A witch is a practitioner of witchcraft. Traditionally, "witchcraft" means the use of magic or supernatural powers to inflict harm or misfortune on others, and this remains the most common and widespread meaning, even though many are unaware that there are two categories to Witchcraft practices: White magic and Black magic.

Belief in witchcraft as malevolent magic is attested from ancient Mesopotamia, and in Europe, belief in witches traces back to classical antiquity. In medieval and early modern Europe, accused witches were usually women who were believed to have secretly used black magic (maleficium) against their own community. 

Witchcraft, traditionally, is the exercise or invocation of supernatural powers to control people or events, practices typically involving sorcery or magic. 

THERE ARE MANY KINDS OF WITCHES...

BUT THERE ARE 5 COMMON TYPES OF WITCHES:

1. COSMIC WITCH

Cosmic Witches practices mainly include Astrology, Zodiac signs, Horoscopes and Celestial energy.

2. DIVINATION WITCH

Divination Witches practices mainly include Tarot reading, I Ching, Palmistry and Tasseography.

3. KITCHEN WITCH

Kitchen Witches practices mainly include Cooking spells, Home routine spells, Homemade offerings, Cleansing, and Protection spells.

4. GREEN WITCH

Green Witches practices mainly include Herbalism, Botany, Folk Magic, and Essential Oils.

5. SEA WITCH

Sea Witches practices mainly include Oceans, Lakes, Seas, Lunar Magic, and Weather magic.

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DIVINATION PRACTICES

Divination has been used by occultists, witches, and priests since the dawn of humanity. It’s not just about predicting the future; it’s also a tool for observing events, places and people from a different perspective and acting upon the received revelations.

Whether through tarot cards, runes, or the stars, we seek to connect with the deeper currents of fate and choice. Here is a comprehensive list of the top 100 divinatory methods:

Astrology: Interpreting celestial bodies’ movements for divination.

Augury: Predicting the future by observing birds.

Cleromancy: Casting lots or dice for divination.

Extispicy: Examining the entrails of sacrificed animals.

Haruspicy: Specifically focusing on the liver for divination.

Omens: Interpreting natural phenomena as signs.

Oracles: Consulting divine intermediaries for guidance.

Palmistry: Reading the lines on a person’s hand.

Runes: Using inscribed stones or pieces of wood.

Scrying: Using reflective surfaces for visionary insights.

I Ching (Yi Jing): Ancient Chinese coin or yarrow stick divination.

Tasseography: Interpreting patterns in tea leaves.

Bibliomancy: Using random book passages for divination.

Pyromancy: Divination by interpreting fire.

Alectryomancy: Using a rooster to select grains.

Omphalomancy: Predicting the number of children by the umbilical cord.

Rhapsodomancy: Divination through random poetic verses.

Belomancy: Divination through the use of arrows.

Ifá: Yoruba divination using objects to create patterns.

Geomancy: Interpreting marks on the ground or patterns in dust.

Hydromancy: Water divination techniques.

Necromancy: Communicating with the dead for divination.

Moleosophy: Interpreting the significance of body moles.

Myomancy: Divination by interpreting the behavior of rats or mice.

Oinomancy: Divination by observing patterns in wine.

Ornithomancy: Divination by the flight patterns of birds, similar to augury.

Phrenology: Analyzing skull shape to predict personality traits and future.

Plastromancy: Turtle shell divination, especially in ancient China.

Psychometry: Gaining insights by touching objects.

Rhabdomancy: Using rods or sticks for divination, including dowsing.

Spatilomancy: Divination by animal droppings.

Stichomancy: Divination by randomly selecting text, similar to bibliomancy.

Theriomancy: Divination through the behavior of wild animals.

Alchemy: Seeking divine truths or predicting the future through chemical experiments.

Astrological Geomancy: Combining astrology and geomancy.

Chiromancy: Detailed palm reading, focusing on line interpretations.

Dactylomancy: Using a ring suspended over a board for divination.

Demonology: Gaining knowledge from demons or spirits.

Dream Interpretation: Analyzing dreams for messages or predictions.

Kau Cim: Chinese fortune telling using bamboo sticks.

Lithomancy: Using stones or gems for divination.

Numerology: The significance of numbers in predicting future events.

Oneiromancy: A form of dream interpretation, prevalent in medieval times.

Tarot Reading: Using tarot cards for insight and predictions.

Urim and Thummim: Priestly divination in ancient Hebrew culture.

Xylomancy: Interpreting fallen wood patterns.

Anthropomancy: Reading human entrails, now obsolete and condemned.

Astragalomancy: Using knucklebones or dice for divination.

Axinomancy: Using an axe head for divination.

Catoptromancy: Mirror divination, a form of scrying.

Ceromancy: Wax divination, interpreting the melted wax in water.

Cromniomancy: Divination using onion sprouts.

Daphnomancy: Burning laurel leaves to listen for crackling as a sign.

Gastromancy: Ancient voice divination, often through trance states.

Ichthyomancy: Using fish entrails or behavior for predictions.

Lampadomancy: Divining by interpreting the sound or pattern of pebbles dropped into a water-filled basin.

Margaritomancy: Divination using pearls.

Metoposcopy: Analyzing the lines and wrinkles on the forehead.

Oculomancy: Divination based on the appearance of the eyes.

Onychomancy: Reflecting sunlight off the fingernails to observe prophetic symbols.

Oomancy: Divination by observing eggs, especially the whites dropped in water.

Papyromancy: Folding paper into shapes, then interpreting the forms and shadows created.

Pedomancy: Reading footsteps or tracking for signs and omens.

Pegomancy: Interpreting the bubbles and sounds made by a spring or fountain.

Phyllorhodomancy: Divination by the sound of rose petals clapped in the hand.

Aura Reading: Interpreting the colors and shapes of a person’s energy field.

Automatic Writing: Writing produced without conscious thought, believed to be spiritual or psychic in origin.

Channeling: Mediums communicate with spirits to convey messages or predict future events.

Crystal Gazing: A form of scrying using a crystal ball.

Energetic Healing: Divining information about a person’s physical or emotional state through their energy.

Feng Shui: Using the layout and design of spaces to affect the energy and fortune of those spaces.

Graphology: Analyzing handwriting to determine character or predict future outcomes.

Horary Astrology: Creating and interpreting a chart for the moment a question is asked.

Iridology: Examining the iris to predict health issues.

Numerology: The study of numbers to determine their mystical or divine significance.

Psychic Surgery: Claimed medical healing that involves the psychic removal of diseased body tissue.

Remote Viewing: Psychically perceiving a distant or unseen target.

Spirit Board: Using a board marked with letters, numbers, and other symbols to communicate with spirits.

Taromancy: A broader term for divination using cards, including tarot.

Technomancy: Using technology as a medium for divination.

Telepathy: Transferring thoughts or feelings between people without the traditional senses.

Thermography: Interpreting patterns in heat or energy as a form of psychic insight.

Astrocartography: Analyzing how planetary positions at the time of birth influence one’s life path across different geographic locations.

Biorythm: Tracking physiological cycles to predict personal effectiveness, compatibility, and the future.

Chakra Reading: Assessing the state of the chakras, or energy centers, for insights into physical and emotional wellbeing.

Digital Divination: Using algorithms and software to interpret random digital output for divinatory purposes.

Face Reading: Analyzing facial features to predict character and destiny.

Gyromancy: Walking in a circle until dizzy, then interpreting the resulting fall or patterns.

Heliomancy: Divination by interpreting the sun’s reflection, particularly its movements and the shapes of the reflected light.

Intuitive Counseling: Offering guidance based on intuitive feelings rather than traditional counseling methods.

Kinetography: Interpreting motion or activity for divinatory insights.

Lucid Dreaming: Controlling dreams to receive messages or solve problems.

Morphic Resonance: Using the concept of collective memory and patterns from the past to predict future patterns.

Numeroscopic Readings: Combining numerology with personal energy readings for a holistic divinatory approach.

Photoreading: Claimed process of absorbing information from written materials at a glance.

Quantum Healing: Using the concepts of quantum mechanics to diagnose and heal, often revealing life paths or destinies.

Radiesthesia: Using pendulums or dowsing rods for divination, including health diagnoses.

Synchronicity Exploration: Interpreting meaningful coincidences for guidance or prediction.

Voice Vibrational Analysis: Analyzing vocal tones and frequencies for psychic insights or to predict future events.

8. SHADOW WORK

Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, brought shadow work into a more public view within Western culture.

Shadow work is exploring the hidden parts of yourself that you may repress or judge. It can help you feel whole, heal trauma, and improve your relationships.

The shadow is the repressed parts of ourselves that we find unpleasant or cannot tolerate acknowledging.

It is in the nature of our shadows that we cannot see them clearly.

Shadow work is the unification of who we consciously are with the parts of ourselves that we repress.

To understand what shadow work is, we must first define the “shadow.” The shadow consists of the aspects of ourselves that contradict our characteristics that we do like and want to be recognized for.

When we recognize our shadow sides coming up, we try to avoid acknowledging those parts at all costs. When we see other people demonstrating our shadow traits, we may have strong negative reactions, because we:

do not want to be associated with those traits and

may resent that other people get to express those sides of themselves, while we don’t

HOW DO YOU DO SHADOW WORK?

First, you should keep in mind that Shadow Work takes time. It requires patience and determination. This is because beginners have to develop more awareness of emotions they might otherwise shrug off. You’re going to have to be intentional about noticing your own reactions since you will be dealing with your strong emotions.

While the specific tools and techniques used in shadow work can vary widely, there is a simple framework for describing the general steps in the process:

Recognizing shadow aspects: First, notice certain repeating behaviors in your life.

Labeling shadow aspects: Once you can recognize those patterns, try to backtrack and identify what's really happening, or what kinds of things bring out these parts of you.

Identifying with the shadow aspects: At this point in the process, try to figure out where/what the behaviors might be coming from.

Owning the shadow aspects: Finally, accept that these things are ongoing patterns in your life, something you are responsible for catching yourself doing and then changing.

For beginners, first, you can begin with listing five positive qualities you believe you possess. Then, you describe the opposite characteristic for each of those five positive qualities. Third, envision how a person who has those opposite characteristics would behave.

Then try to identify some positive aspects of how they might behave and what they might say to you if you met them. Finally, acknowledge the strengths that this person who is “opposite” to you does bring to the table.

Benefits of shadow work can include:

feeling whole or integrated as a person

improved interactions with others

healing generational trauma

learning healthy ways to meet your needs

SOME SHADOW WORK PROMPTS:

FOR BEGINNERS

What aspect of yourself do you often hide from others? Explore the reasons behind this concealment.

Identify a recurring negative thought about yourself. Where did this belief originate, and how does it impact your self-esteem?

Reflect on a recent mistake without judgment. What can you learn from it, and how can you use it as a tool for growth?

Consider a fear you’ve been avoiding. What small step can you take today to face and understand this fear?

Write about a time when you felt overwhelmed. What coping mechanisms did you employ, and how effective were they?

Explore a childhood memory that brings up discomfort. What emotions are attached to it, and how do they influence your present behavior?

Identify a habit that you find challenging to break. What underlying emotions or needs might be fueling this habit?

Reflect on a time when you felt rejected. How has this experience shaped your views on acceptance and belonging?

Write about a situation where you felt jealous or envious. What insecurities or unmet needs does this emotion reveal?

Consider a dream or daydream that stands out to you. What symbols or messages might your subconscious be conveying?

Reflect on a moment of anger. What boundaries were crossed, and how can you communicate your needs assertively in the future?

Identify a limiting belief about yourself that holds you back. Challenge this belief by exploring evidence to the contrary.

Write about a time when you felt misunderstood. How can you improve your communication to avoid similar situations?

Consider a decision you regret. What factors influenced your choice, and what alternative decisions could you make in the future?

Explore your relationship with vulnerability. In what situations do you struggle to be open, and what fears are associated with this?

Reflect on a time when you felt shame. How can you practice self-compassion and release any lingering feelings of shame?

Identify a habit that drains your energy. What healthier alternatives can you explore to replace this energy-draining behavior?

Write about a friendship that ended. What lessons can you learn about boundaries, communication, and personal growth?

Consider a goal you’ve been procrastinating on. What fears or doubts are holding you back, and how can you take a small step forward?

Reflect on a moment when you felt proud of yourself. What strengths and qualities did you exhibit, and how can you nurture them further?

FOR HEALING

What emotions arise when you think about expressing your true feelings to someone close to you?

How do you typically react when faced with criticism, and what underlying insecurities might be contributing to this reaction?

Can you recall a time when you felt betrayed by someone you trusted? How has this experience influenced your ability to trust others?

When do you find it challenging to set boundaries with others, and what fears or beliefs might be hindering your assertiveness?

What childhood memories come up when you reflect on your self-worth and value as an individual?

Explore a recent mistake or failure. What self-talk and internal narratives emerge, and how can you reframe them for growth?

Identify a fear that has been holding you back. What steps can you take to confront and overcome this fear?

How do you cope with feelings of loneliness or isolation? Are there patterns in your behavior that might contribute to these feelings?

Reflect on a time when you felt intense shame. What self-compassionate practices can you implement to release this shame?

Consider a situation where you felt a need to control everything. What underlying fears or insecurities might be driving this need for control?

What judgments or expectations do you hold about yourself that originate from societal or familial influences?

Explore a recurring dream or nightmare. What symbols or themes emerge, and how might they reflect aspects of your subconscious?

Reflect on a moment when you felt deep sadness. What unmet needs or unresolved emotions might be connected to this sadness?

Identify a habit or addiction. What void or emotion might it be masking, and how can you address it at its root?

Consider a past relationship that ended. What lessons can you learn about your own needs, communication, and personal growth?

Explore a decision you made based on external validation rather than your authentic self. How can you align your choices with your true values?

Write about a time when you felt overwhelmed by stress. What self-care practices can you implement to better manage stress in the future?

Reflect on a moment when you felt pride in your achievements. How can you acknowledge and celebrate your successes more often?

Identify a belief about yourself that limits your potential. How can you reframe this belief to empower and support your growth?

Consider a goal or dream you’ve been hesitant to pursue. What steps can you take to address the fears or doubts holding you back?

FOR YOUR INNER CHILD

What activities brought you joy and excitement as a child? How can you incorporate some of these activities into your adult life?

Reflect on a moment from your childhood when you felt neglected or overlooked. How does this influence your need for attention and validation today?

Write a letter to your inner child, expressing love and reassurance. What guidance and comfort would you offer to your younger self?

Explore a childhood memory where you felt a deep sense of belonging and safety. How can you recreate those feelings in your present life?

Identify a time when you felt your creativity was stifled or dismissed as a child. How can you nurture and express your creativity now?

Recall a moment when you faced criticism or judgment as a child. How does this impact your self-esteem and fear of judgment as an adult?

Consider a childhood friendship that left a lasting impact. What qualities from that friendship do you seek in your relationships today?

Reflect on the messages you received about emotions as a child. How do these messages affect your current ability to express and understand your feelings?

Identify a rule or expectation imposed on you during childhood that still influences your behavior. How can you challenge or reevaluate this rule?

Explore a memory where you felt shame or guilt as a child. How can you offer compassion and forgiveness to your younger self?

Consider a time when you had to grow up too quickly. In what ways did this early maturity shape your current approach to responsibilities?

Reflect on the role of play in your childhood. How can you reintegrate playfulness and spontaneity into your adult life?

Write a letter from your inner child expressing their needs, fears, and desires. How can you honor and meet these needs in your present life?

Identify a situation where you felt unconditionally loved as a child. How can you cultivate self-love and acceptance in your adult life?

Explore a memory when you felt abandoned or neglected. How does this impact your fear of abandonment in your current relationships?

Recall a time when you were scolded or punished unfairly. How can you provide comfort and reassurance to your inner child in these moments?

Identify a dream or aspiration you had as a child that was dismissed. How can you revisit and pursue this dream in your current life?

Reflect on the role of authority figures in your childhood. How do these early relationships shape your perceptions of authority today?

Consider a memory where you felt the need to hide your true self. How can you embrace and express your authentic self now?

Explore a moment when you felt unacknowledged or unappreciated as a child. How can you validate and celebrate your achievements as an adult?

FOR DEEP SHADOW WORK

What unconscious patterns or behaviors have you noticed repeating throughout different stages of your life, and what might be their root cause?

Reflect on a significant loss or abandonment in your life. How does this experience impact your ability to form deep connections and trust others?

Explore the concept of death and your feelings toward it. How does your understanding of mortality influence the way you live your life?

Consider the aspects of yourself that you suppress or deny. How can you bring these hidden aspects into the light and integrate them?

Reflect on a time when you faced a major life crisis. How did you cope, and what inner strengths or vulnerabilities were revealed during that period?

Identify a source of existential anxiety or dread in your life. How does it shape your decisions, and what strategies can you employ to address it?

Explore the darker aspects of your own desires and fantasies. What unmet needs or unexplored territories might be hidden in these aspects?

Reflect on your relationship with power. How do you wield power, and in what ways do you feel powerless?

Consider a belief or worldview that challenges your current perspectives. How can you engage with and learn from alternative viewpoints?

Explore the impact of collective traumas or historical events on your psyche. How might these influences shape your worldview and behaviors?

Reflect on a time when you betrayed someone or were betrayed. How has this affected your ability to trust and form deep connections?

Identify a deeply ingrained fear that you’ve never fully confronted. How can you approach this fear with compassion and understanding?

Explore your relationship with time and the concept of aging. How do these factors influence your priorities and decision-making?

Reflect on your dreams and nightmares. What recurring symbols or themes might offer insights into your unconscious mind?

Consider a moment when you felt a profound sense of shame. How can you release this shame and cultivate self-compassion?

Identify a destructive habit or addiction. How does it serve as a coping mechanism, and what underlying issues might it be masking?

Explore your relationship with silence and solitude. What fears or discomfort arise when you are alone with your thoughts?

Reflect on a past life event where you felt a deep sense of powerlessness. How can you reclaim your agency in similar situations?

Consider a cultural or societal expectation that conflicts with your authentic self. How can you navigate this conflict and stay true to your values?

Reflect on the concept of forgiveness, both for yourself and others. What resentments or grudges are you holding onto, and how can you release them for your own healing?

You can maintain a Shadow Work journal if you are new to this. By maintaining a Shadow Work journal, you can keep your work organized and it's best for your journey.

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9. REALITY SHIFTING

WHAT IS REALITY SHIFTING?

Shifting is a way to move your consciousness from your Current Reality (CR) to your Desired Reality (DR).

Your DR can be anything you can imagine, and you will experience it as real as your CR. Shifting is a quantum journey such that your body remains in the physical reality, but your consciousness leaves your physical plane to explore multiple realities of your choice.

SOME THINGS THAT ARE NOT TRUE ABOUT SHIFTING:

It doesn't take months or years to shift unless you subconsciously believe it. You can shift anytime.

You cannot get stuck in your DR, you don't die when you shift either.

They aren't clones. They are you, and a part of your consciousness staying here.

Scripting romantic relationships isn't wrong. All you do is specifying which reality you wanna go to.

Shifting isn't Lucid Dreaming. Yes, there is a method where you have to Lucid Dream but it's 100% REAL!

Shifting is the spontaneous mind using all 5 senses and placing yourself in there, it is not travelling into space!!

SCRIPT TEMPLATE FOR ANY DR:

FIRST NAME:

MIDDLE NAME (optional):

LAST NAME:

AGE:

HEIGHT:

EYE COLOUR:

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:

SAFE WORD:

ZODIAC SIGN:

PERSONALITY:

FRIENDS:

CRUSH OR S/O:

SIGNATURE SCENT:

FAMILY:

ETC:-

SCRIPTING TIPS FOR SHIFTING:

Before you actually start your script, you have to ask yourself some basic questions about your DR.

In your script, you can basically do it how you want. Some examples how you should start are:-

"I am __________" you can also write scenarios you want to happen in your DR.

You don't even have to write a script! I highly recommend it, especially if you are going to be using the Sunni or Raven method.

SOME SHIFTING SCRIPT QUESTIONS:

Where is my DR?

What is it like?

What time does it take place?

Is it based on anything?

Who are you gonna be?

What is your family like?

How many siblings do you have? (if you want any)

THINGS TO ADD TO YOUR SCRIPT THAT MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE:

You don't get your period.

Your nails are always done and shaped.

You can't get pregnant.

You always smell good.

Debit card has infinite money.

A safe word in case you would like to leave.

You can't get acne or chapped lips.

You are very smart.

You have a fast metabolism.

A good kisser.

Always get good night's rest every night.

You can't get too badly injured or hurt.

If you have a phone or any electronics, it never dies and has unlimited data.

Your closet is endless and all clothes fir perfectly or as you want.

Instead of describing what you look like, just add a picture.

When you and your DR lover have your first kiss a flock of doves will fly over you in a heart formation.

You're always hydrated even if you don't drink.

You're never awkward and always know exactly what to say.

You have a cute addictive laugh that makes other people laugh.

You have naturally good posture.

Little kids look up to you and see you as an icon.

you can't get bored.

You always give great advice.

You have a nice handwriting or an iconic signature.

You are great at entertaining people.

You have really good instincts and can always tell if someone has bad intentions.

You have a brightening aura and your presence is comforting (to people you like).

I have more in my notebook, but it is too much so if you guys want more, let me know..i'll make a separate post for it.

SHIFTING 'DO'S AND DONT'S'

DO:

Meditate

Listen to safe Subliminals

Keep a calm mind

Think positive thoughts

Take breaks and stay rested

Affirm yourself

Visualize everything (especially small details)

Use 5 senses when visualizing (smell, sight, taste, touch, etc.)

Keep trying

DONT:

Think negative thoughts

Be around people with bad energy

Be upset someone shifting before you

Get discouraged

Listen to unsafe Subliminals

Say you "cant" do it

Treat people in your DR badly (they are actual people and have feelings!)

Let your mind run while trying to shift

Don't give up

Don't try to shift every single day and night (it will wear you out)

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DIFFERENT REALITY SHIFTING METHODS:

You can use methods that you are comfortable with or ones that call out to you:

1. The Julia Method

I love the Julia method because it is super easy, powerful, and believable (I might be a bit biased because it’s Julia’s name…).

To prepare to shift to your DR, start with a short meditation session. I recommend listening to binaural or theta beats in your earphones to sharpen your focus as you meditate.

Next, lie on a comfortable bed and spread your limbs like a starfish. Relax your body and close your eyes. You may continue listening to the focus music.

While in this position, start visualizing your DR while saying I am affirmations, for example, “I am living my best life in Bali,” “I am a successful writer traveling the world’’ “I am meeting my fans who love me.”

Continue with the affirmations, and you will find yourself in your desired reality when you open your eyes.

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2. The Estelle Method

If you love music and connect with the world through tones and rhythms, the Estelle method would be the best method to shift realities for beginners.

Choose music that makes you feel sensual and close to someone you know, e.g., a lover, partner, or anyone you really love that you’d like to get close to in your DR.

As you listen to the music on your earphones, imagine dancing with the person. Take in their skin’s scent, looks, and feel, and notice all the emotions.

Soon, a door will open, and you will be led ”home” where you fall into a void. Open your subconscious mind and experience the deep love you crave in your DR.

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3. The Raven Method

The Raven method is one of the easiest reality shifting sleep methods.

With this method, all you need to do is lie in a comfortable bed and relax your body. You can spread out your limbs like a starfish, but this is unnecessary.

With your eyes closed, start counting down from 100, focusing on your breathing and visualizing your DR the entire time.

After some time, you may start seeing red or white as you enter your DR. Stay in the same position and enjoy your new reality for as long as you want.

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4. The Pillow Method

Pillow method shifting entails visualizing your DR and reinforcing it with a written script.

Write everything you want to see, do, feel and experience in your DR. The more detailed the script, the easier it will be to shift.

Place this list under your pillow and sleep on it for 8 hours. I like drifting off to sleep, saying affirmations, and listening to theta tracks.

Your script is a conduit between your CR and DR, helping you shift into a new consciousness.

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5. The Blanket Method

The blanket method involves sleeping comfortably and then completely covering yourself with a blanket.

Close your eyes and listen to your favorite binaural beats. Cuddling underneath the blanket recreates a void into which you will fall after a few minutes.

Obviously, you should avoid this method if you are claustrophobic.

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6. The Lucid Dreaming Method

The lucid dream shifting method is a bit advanced because you must first learn how to lucid dream.

I strongly recommend this technique as it helps you stay in your DR for longer.

In a nutshell, lucid dreaming lets you control your subconscious mind and the visions you see in your dream.

In one of your lucid dreams, find a portal or a door and step into it. The portal will transport you to your desired reality.

In your desired reality, you can manifest anything you direct your subconscious mind to see, feel, and do.

Speaking of portals, understanding your occult angel number is also a powerful way to open portals to a new reality.

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7. The Coraline Method

This method is named after a character in Neil Gaiman’s book and film, Coraline.

Start by lying down and visualizing your CR room. Visualize a key close by and see yourself getting out of bed, picking up the key, and opening a door in the wall behind which is a portal.

Visualize yourself walking through the portal and opening another door to your DR. Walk into this new world and take in the sights.

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8. The Train Method

For the train method, you need to practice the power of positive thinking and accompany this with shifting meditation.

Sit in a comfortable meditative position. Close your eyes and slowly breath in and out to calm your body and mind.

Now, imagine sitting on a train heading to your DR. Say shifting affirmations such as “I am so close to arriving at my desired reality,” “Shifting is real” “I am grateful the universe is driving me to shift.”

Keep your thoughts positive and feel deep gratitude to ensure that you head in the right direction.

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9. The Falling Method

The falling reality shifting method requires a bit of imagination, but it works pretty well.

So, visualize yourself in an empty hall filled with a beautiful, heavenly aura. Locate a door and open it slowly.

Imagine hearing the Universe/God/Source gently calling your name. Fall through the door and trust your Higher Self to guide you.

As you free fall, feel all the feels. Allow the wind to blow through your hair and caress your skin. Feel the peace, joy, and calmness.

You can break your fall whenever you are ready. Then, you will locate a door leading you to your DR. Open it and enjoy everything you have manifested.

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10. The Mirror Method

The mirror method is an excellent reality shifting technique if you want to manifest your dream body. Of course, you should still eat healthily and exercise for your ideal body.

This method is also quite advanced and needs superior visualization skills.

Close your eyes. Imagine yourself in a dark room with a beam of light directed at you as you stare at a small mirror straight ahead.

Slowly walk toward the mirror, watching your reflection in the mirror. The reflection is of the body or person you want to be.

Place your hand on the mirror while your perfect self does the same on the other side. Feel the connection between the CR and perfect self; imagine being pulled through the mirror and into your DR.

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11. The Sunni Method

The Sunni method is one of my favorite sleeping methods for shifting realities because you can also use it to manifest in the physical world, for example, if you want to manifest money and wealth effortlessly.

This technique tricks your mind into believing you already have what you want. So, it starts with visualizing your desired reality, then shifting and reinforcing the process with shifting affirmations.

Let’s say you’ve always wanted to drive a certain car. Lie comfortably, close your eyes, and visualize yourself cruising the streets in your dream car.

Believe that the car, streets, and surrounding environment are real. Then, say shifting affirmations to transport yourself into your DR.

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12. The Alice in Wonderland Method

The Alice in Wonderland story can actually help you to shift to your DR!

Lie down, close your eyes and take deep breaths.

Now imagine yourself sitting with your back against a tree. Visualize someone running up to you, and you get up and start running after them. Following them, you enter a rabbit hole leading to your DR.

Open the rabbit hole doorway to enter your desired reality.

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13. The Hogwarts Method

You will probably resonate with the Hogwarts method if you are a Harry Porter fan.

If you’ve always imagined living at the wizarding school, you can do so through reality shifting methods such as the mirror, raven, or pillow techniques.

The only difference this time is that you would visualize yourself living in Hogwarts.

It helps to say shifting affirmations related to the wizarding school, for example, “I am shifting to Hogwarts,” ”I live in my DR in Hogwarts,” ”I know I shifted to Hogwarts.”

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14. The Intent Method

The intent method is an excellent shifting realities method for beginners.

All you need to do is tell your mind that you intend to shift to your desired reality. Of course, you must know what you want your desired reality to look like.

To supercharge your shift, try the intention method during the full moon. The full moon is the peak of the lunar cycle and marks the height of vibrational energy.

If you are new to the spiritual impact of the lunar cycle, start with moon reading. Understanding the cycle will also help you set more powerful intentions to transport you to your DR.

Try the shifting realities intention method right before you are about to sleep.

Say, “I intend to wake up in my desired reality,’’ then go to sleep. You will wake up in your DR.

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15. The ADHD Method

This method is known as ADHD, but anyone can do it, even if they do not have ADHD.

Find a quiet, comfortable place to lie down. Listen to an 8D track on your earphones to help you focus and relax.

Start counting upward to 100. You can insert shifting affirmations as you count. When you feel the signs and symptoms of shifting, open your eyes and experience your DR.

By the way, many DR signs are similar to the physical signs of spiritual awakening.

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16. The Eleven Method

The Eleven shifting method is based on the TV series Stranger Things.

For this technique, tie a cloth over your eyes and lie on a comfortable surface. Listen to focus music and visualize yourself walking up to your DR self.

Imagine yourself merging with your DR self. Feel the sensation and watch yourself drift to sleep. Then, open your eyes to find yourself in your desired reality.

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17. The Piano Method

The piano shifting method is powerful because it engages all your senses.

Imagine yourself in a room full of people. You walk toward a piano in the middle of the room with a bright light directed at you.

 Visualize the whispers and silences in the room. You stand up and walk toward a door when you are done playing. Open the door and enter a room filled with bright white light.

Then, open your eyes to enter your DR.

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18. The Eye Method

Use eye movement to shift to your desired reality.

Find a quiet room and lie down with your eyes closed. Count upward to 100 while imagining everything you want to see, do, and feel in your DR.

When you get to 100, roll your closed eyes back and forth. Continuing to say the shifting affirmations, slowly open your eyes to step into your desired reality.

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19. The Hug Method

Is there someone with whom you would love to connect? The hug shifting method can help transport you to your DR, where you will meet the person you long for.

Lie down and close your eyes. Imagine yourself in your DR bedroom, and just as you wake up, the person you adore enters the room, and you hug each other.

Visualize spending quality time together and then parting ways with a sweet goodbye. Imagine your DR self returning to bed and drifting to deep sleep.

To return to this DR, say shifting affirmations in your CR and fall asleep. You will wake up in your DR and be with the person you want.

Try stating your intentions when you are sleepy to enter your DR faster.

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20. The Valentino Method

The Valentino method is another great technique for meeting someone special in your desired reality.

Start by writing a note to the person you want to meet in your DR. Meditate on this note for 10-15 minutes, taking in the essence of what you have written.

Next, lie in a comfortable position, close your eyes and recite shifting affirmations. Visualize your DR room, where you will meet your special person.

When you wake up, you will find yourself in your desired reality.

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21. The Cinn Method

The Cinn is one of the best meditation methods for shifting realities through affirmations.

Sit or lie in a comfortable position listening to a subliminal audio track to help you relax and focus. Try to let go of all thoughts bothering you.

Start counting upward to 100, slowly breathing in and out. After every ten numbers, say shifting affirmations related to your DR.

Repeat your affirmations when you count to 100 until you feel the signs of shifting. Then, you can open your eyes to enter your DR.

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22. The Elevator Method

If your current reality is not ideal and things are going too well, you can use the Elevator Method to change your reality.

I also recommend doing a soul reading to understand how your past lives affect your current reality. You can use what resonates to guide you in your present life.

So, get into a comfortable position and close your eyes to get started with the elevator method. Visualize yourself entering an elevator.

As the elevator goes past each floor, envision various realities. Take time on each floor, taking in the sights and savoring the feelings.

Visualize your energy levels rising as you go past each floor.

Exit the elevator when you feel you’ve gone up far enough and you start to experience shifting symptoms. When you step out of the elevator, you will step into your DR.

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23. The 5 Senses Method

If you are new to visualizing, the 5 Senses Method is among the best method to shift realities for beginners.        

Lie or sit comfortably and pay attention to your CR. Engage all your five senses to focus on your surroundings.

Close your eyes and continue holding the image of your CR in your mind. Try again if it doesn’t work the first time.

Practicing to visualize your CR will help you manifest your DR easily.

Turn on a subliminal audio track, lie down and close your eyes. Start counting from 1 upward, saying affirmations in between counting.

Imagine your DR—feel, taste, see, smell, and hear everything you want to manifest, just as you did with your CR. You will be in your DR when you open your eyes.

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24. The In Your Arms Method

As you might have already guessed, this shifting method is quite similar to the hug method.

Lie on your stomach and hug a pillow under your body. The pillow represents the special person you want to meet in your DR.

Close your eyes and picture yourself hugging this special person, convincing yourself that you really are hugging them.

Say shifting affirmations and count down from 100 until you notice the shifting symptoms. When this happens, you will wake up in your DR.

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25. The Melt Method

With this reality shifting melt method, start by sitting or lying in a comfortable position in a quiet room. Close your eyes and picture yourself in your DR.

As you count from 100 downward, picture your body melting into your DR.

Open your eyes and wake up in your new reality.

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26. The Staircase Method

Climb up a staircase to get to your desired reality.

Lie down on your bed with your eyes closed. Picture yourself in a large room with a staircase.

Walk up the stairs thinking about your current reality. Keep walking until you reach the top of the stairs, where you will find a large door.

Open and walk through the door. Behind the door, you will find another staircase taking you down. Descend the stairs until you get to the bottom, where there is a door.

Visualize opening the door and stepping into your desired reality.

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27. Swirly Eye Method

This method involves altering your vision a bit to achieve your desired reality.

Start by lying down on your bed. Close your eyes and relax your muscles.

Now start counting down from 100 as you slowly rub each of your eyes alternately. After a while, you will see a line helping you create a portal.

Imagine going through the portal. You can also use visualization and recite shifting affirmations in between counting to get to your desired reality.

You may need to continue slowly rubbing your eyes until your energy brings you to the portal.

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28. The Rope Method

The rope method entails visualizing a rope that leads to your DR.

Lie in a flat, comfortable bed and close your eyes. Start visualizing your desired reality and then say shifting affirmations to help you move to your DR.

When you start feeling symptoms of shifting, picture yourself climbing up a rope. You will find a portal when you reach the top of the rope. Walk through the portal to get to your DR.

Imagine meeting your DR self and merging with them to become one. Now fall asleep, and you will find yourself in your desired reality when you open your eyes.

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29. The Heartbeat Method

Use a heartbeat sound to shift your reality. Find a heartbeat track on YouTube, then lie in bed while listening to the sound.

Imagine sleeping on the chest of someone special from your DR, listening to their heartbeat.

Recite shifting affirmations as you fall asleep. When you open your eyes, you will enter your desired reality.

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30. The Tea Party Method

The Tea Party Method is one of the best reality shifting methods for beginners. It involves imagining yourself having tea with your DR self.

Lie down and close your eyes. Then, visualize yourself in a room enjoying tea with your DR. When you are done, picture yourself telling you’re DR self that it is time to return home.

Imagine hugging them and saying goodbye. Then, visualize yourself transferring your consciousness to the DR self. When you open your eyes, you will wake up in your DR.

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31. Ballroom Method

Imagine your CR in a formal outfit walking into a ballroom full of people in your DR. Say shifting affirmations to help you transition to your DR.

Picture someone from your DR asking you to dance. After the dance is over at exactly midnight, they tell you ‘’See you soon.”

Leave the room and climb onto a carriage. Visualize the carriage transporting you to your desired reality. Fall asleep, and you will find yourself in your DR when you wake up.

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32. Cloud Method

Picture yourself on a soft, peaceful, soothing cloud in the sky. Imagine your DR self flying next to you, holding your hands, and telling you that you are now going home.

Close your eyes and fall asleep. When you wake up, your CR and DR self will have merged, and you will have arrived at your desired reality.

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33. TV Method

Visualize yourself watching TV to transport yourself to your DR.

Start by lying on a comfortable bed. Imagine sitting on a couch watching TV.

You flip through the channels until you arrive at your DR. Imagine yourself going through the TV to your desired reality.

When you go to sleep, you will wake up in your DR.

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QUESTIONS:

What happens when you shift reality?

When you shift realities, you use the power of imagination to guide your consciousness beyond physical reality. Time doesn’t exist on a linear scale as we know it in our physical reality. Rather, when you shift, your current and desired realities co-exist.

How long can you stay in a shifted reality?

However long you want to stay in your shifted or desired reality is up to you. You can move from your current to your desired reality and vice versa as often as you wish. If you want to stay in your desired reality for a specific period, you can specify this in your script or affirmations.

How does shifting feel like?

You will notice unique signs and symptoms when you are about to shift. Common signs include feeling fuzzy, experiencing a spinning sensation, feeling like you are falling, experiencing weightlessness, seeing flashes of light, and hearing voices from your DR.

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Your current reality is just one of the infinite realities out there. The good news is that you can experience any reality you desire! As you can see, there are many ways to access your DR. There is no one-size-fits-all method. Try different techniques to see which one works best for you.

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10. SUBLIMINALS

Subliminals refer to messages or stimuli that are presented below the threshold of conscious awareness. These stimuli can be visual or auditory and are often designed to influence a person’s behavior or thoughts without their conscious knowledge.

The use of subliminals dates back to the late 19th century, where they were first studied by psychologists. In the 1950s, subliminals gained popularity in advertising and were used to influence consumer behavior. Since then, subliminals have been used in various fields, including self-improvement and personal development.

Subliminals can be used to shape our beliefs and behaviors by targeting our subconscious mind. For example, subliminal messages can be used to promote positive self-talk, improve self-esteem, and reduce anxiety. They can also be used to promote healthy habits, such as quitting smoking or exercising regularly.

Studies have shown that subliminals can have a powerful effect on our behavior, but the effect is not necessarily immediate. Subliminals work by slowly changing our beliefs and attitudes over time, so it is important to use them consistently and over a period of time to see results.

Types of subliminals

There are several types of subliminals that are commonly used, including:

Audio subliminals: These are audio recordings that contain hidden messages that are played at a volume that is too low for the conscious mind to hear, but can be detected by the subconscious mind.

Visual subliminals: These are images or words that are flashed on a screen for a very brief period of time, so that they are not consciously perceived, but can still be detected by the subconscious mind.

Sensory subliminals: These are subliminal messages that are delivered through touch, taste, or smell. For example, a subliminal scent might be added to a room to influence the behavior of those who are present.

UNSAFE SUBLIMINALS:

Mii Audios, RoseSubliminals, Baddie Audio, Velmental Audio, Mad Happy, Mind Power Subliminals.

SAFE SUBLIMINALS:

Soko Subliminals, Miss Syneray, Baejin Cafe, AKVO, Vel, Kapelsu, Vetela, Raemi, Veruna, Cyan Subs, Eggtopia, Kalepsu, Rainy vibes, Solar Subs, Beauty Kryztalized, Luminalplay, Hynodaddy, Mark Reynolds Subliminals, Beau Subliminals, Sapien Medicine, Minds in Unison, KOTTIE, Vetala, Ms.Exilir, Synergy, SF Station, Halo, Moza Morph.

PART 2 coming soon! Have a wonderful day ahead!✨

[colorfulwastelandvoid]

I’m just gonna post this now cause I saw something that irritated me and I’m about to spiral. Mel thee Medarda😍.

What this fandom has done to her… Is the exact reason why existing as a black fem in a predominantly white ( including white gay) fanbase should come with reparations. This woman is a child of war and pilgrimage. It doesn’t matter that she was a Medarda. she was still a child! That ish will change you and it’s clear in her interactions with her mother she at the very least saw the endings of wars and campaigns, I can’t imagine those being pretty. Mel being the black sheep and lowkey scapegoat child of her family is not talked about either. As a teen she is sent away from the only support system she knows doesn’t matter if it was toxic, it was still familiar, to a brand new land where she had to build herself up again as a TEEN (probably since they never stated when she was casted out)! She spent her formative years in Noxus, where the strong survive. It is not surprising that while she detest violence and aggression, she uses her guile/ persuasion aggressively. By the time Arcane season 1 starts Mel is a young woman in her 20s on the council (the youngest council member too) and like Tok’s said Mel is a young woman who is extremely sure of herself… as a front. Mel is a woman who actually hates herself or at the very least is an extremely aware of how little all this means to the people that matter to her. We see this in the first scene of Mel in the show, where Elora reminds her of the fact she is the richest person in Piltover and Mel quickly remarked saying “And yet I remained the poorest Medarda”. The fandom quickly took that as Mel being power/money hungry when in reality that self depreciation was coming from a real place of insecurity. She knows how the Medardas’ are and how little they care for the fox and it bothers her. She’s not doing this for power in the way that it is presented. She’s doing this to prove a point. That her mother is wrong and the fox can be powerful. She is also trying to convince herself of that too.

From what we can gather in the show through her flashback and interactions with Ambessa, it’s clear that Mel definitely was considered to weak willed and soft spined for Noxus. I mean Ambessa says that to her before she casted her out. The fact that Mel apparently can still say the quote verbatim shows how scarring it was.

Mel is a woman caught in the extremes. She wants to uplift Piltover to prove herself to her family but also knowing what that means she also wants to protect Piltover from Noxus.She is a woman who has a love overflowing but has nowhere to pour into until she meets Jayce ( I’ll save that for a MelJay post though). I think because of how reserved Mel is,due to her upbringing and Ambessa literally discouraging, it’s not really discussed how Mel is probably emotionally stunted.

I have a lot more I can say about Mel as a character, she is literally my number 1 since season 1 but this post is already long and all over the place but this is a tip of an iceberg of how I digested her as a character.

Ps someone on TikTok said Mel was the Arcane version of Apollo and it makes so much sense(she is the beautiful child of an affair but is also the light bringer and a patron of the arts). Her and Ambessa was definitely a Greek Tragedy, at least to me.

[tarotwithdanise]

WHAT IS YOUR REPUTATION ONLINE?

꒰⠀from left to right ; intuitively choose the pile your mind, heart and soul desire for. if you are having trouble choosing the right pile for you, here’s some tips you can do ; (1) take a deep breath (2) close your eyes (3) ask guidance from your guides (4) finally open your eyes and you can choose the right pile for you by the guidance you ask from your guides. if you are still having trouble by choosing the right pile for you let me know because i am willing to help and guide you.

1 - 2 - 3

PILE ONE

Pile one, it can be that you are someone who has a large base of followers and people enjoy watching over you. They may keep you on their tabs, there's something about your post? or you in general that may leave a very good impression to these people. They think you are goal-oriented and a dreamer. If you are someone who likes to post motivational quotes well expect them to get inspired, these people do like your mindset. They want to get you to know better but you only show the tip of an iceberg on your social media. It can be that you frequently receiving compliments, love and appreciation from these people. Some of these people may think you are dark and seductive individual which makes them feel intimidated somehow. These people believe that you guys have an ability to heal them, jeez.

PILE TWO

Hmmm, a very interesting energy. Because of your mysterious nature on social media, people may often wonder who you really are in real life. They may not often see your posts but they do frequently catch you online perhaps they may know a little about you but these people think you are trustworthy and cool based on what they viewed you online. As well as having a secret admirer that may enjoy stalking you online since they know a little bit of you, i also see this person may be a little bit of obsess with you and i think you already have an idea who this is. On the other hand, few people have a good opinion about you online like they like this low-key vibes you are giving in. The colors red, black and grey are important to you as well as the numbers 4, 7, 28 and 18.

PILE THREE

You guys, people online viewed you as someone weirdo and someone who is living a lavish life. They think that you come from a rich family and well, there's 2-3 people here showing that they want to offer a genuine friendship to you but remember there's a wolf in a sheep clothing, one of these people actually don't have a good intentions perhaps one of the reason why they wanted to be close to you is that they think they can benefit something from you. Some people viewed you as mentally unstable person and someone who does not take crap from anyone, has a calm assurance about themselves, and isn't obnoxious or harsh to anyone. For few of you, people think that you have poor eyesight because you tend to wear eyeglasses on most of your pictures online. They also think you really like yogurt a lot.

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[chaifootsteps]

Something about helluvas poor depiction of a sexually abusive relationship is so much more malicious and evil than hazbin. Because it cowers away from the fact it is one, and profits off of romanticising it. I think stoliz and angelval need to be held in the same conversation.

Every day rich powerful men sexually abuse and rape victims because money is leverage. These abusers are massively defended by the public especially if they are celebrity, “charismatic” funny, good at singing or acting. No matter what evil these abusers do, a parade of incels and pick me women with bleeding hearts (for the wrong person) will say

but she couldn’t have been sexually abused victimised by him! Look at the glamorous lifestyle! The jewellery, gifts, and fancy vacations! She’s just a gold digging thieving whore who is ashamed of her body count and wants attention.

Never mind the fact….many sex trafficking victims with high ranking famous abusers get gifts and fancy trips too. To keep the abuse secret. They have a lot on the line if they even dared say no or try to back out. All that money and “””glamour””” is blackmail material. Andrew Tate is an expert of this behaviour.

So what does vivziepop do with stolblitz?

She paints the victim of what is clearly sexual abuse as a hysteric imagining things, a bigot, a gold digger, someone with a “shameful”amount of sexual history, who is sexually excited at all times. All to discredit his validity as a victim. Never mind the fact sex workers (which btw, blitz isn’t) receive little sympathy and aren’t believed in their stories because “well sex workers are always down for anything right?” Or really…any rape victim guilty of the crime of not being a virgin beforehand are treated this way. When I See Him is repulsive because of this. One sensitive man questions if he’s a rapist, and the other is just horny, to make the answer to the audience this: no. He can’t be a rape victim. Look: He wants it.

And Viv uses the generosity argument. What about the outings they had, the supportive gifts “you can’t just ignore all that” Anyone with fundamentals understanding of abuse knows that them bringing up ‘the good times’ does not make the abuse invalid. You aren’t ignoring his kind moments by standing up for yourself regarding the bad. Not to mention, guilt at being unable to repay a rich “generous” person, is a core part financial coercion.

This relationship has layers upon layers of abuse tactics, slut shaming, rape apologia and victim blaming rhetoric. Viv has done a level of damage to SA victims, the sympathy for them and understanding in the public, that should be studied.

Couldn't have said it better. Comical moustache twirling monsters like Valentino are relatively rare in real life, but wealthy, abusive, guilt tripping guys like Stolas -- and stories of the people they prey on -- are everywhere. It's dangerous, disgusting, and wrong, and I genuinely fear the fandom's insistence that "it was sex work" and that sex workers seemingly can't say no is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to how much damage Viv has done.

[forwards-beckon-rebound]

random dick grayson hcs bc i said so!!!

warning: usage of the metric system

got banned from club penguin for making his username dickg0320 and he had no idea why

bruce didn't have the heart to break it to him so he told him it's because you can't use your real name

so he changed it to therealrobin0320

and really they're just very lucky that nobody has ever thought that they could figure out robin and therefore batman's identity from club penguin

(and yes, he did cry when the game shut down)

has the lowest spice tolerance out of everybody in the batfam and he will be bullied for it

his biggest fear is one of those games where everybody eats a spoonful of sugar but one of them is salt or smth

but like the ones where it’s like pistachio cookies and one that’s full of wasabi or smth

jason, tim, and steph conspire to get dick to eat the cookie

terrible at mini golf

i will not be elaborating on that, but let’s just say he thought that would be a great first date idea…

has the most random t-shirts that he wears to sleep and around the house?

i don’t mean like weird weird but like random corporate freebies…

why does he have a boston marathon tshirt from 2008?

canada post merch (very niche but the shirt gets a little extra love during the strike)

he’s never even been there

he probably has a random bing mug somehow too because why not i guess

went to damian’s parent teacher interviews when bruce was too busy and let’s just say he was quite popular with the parents

he genuinely gets so invested, idk if it was just my school but sometimes the parents could volunteer to supervise during recess

dick likes to pop in and make sure damian has friends and check in on his beloved brother

but he’s also so good and sweet to the other kids there

he’s pretty used to cleaning up wounds after missions, and the kids always come to him

like a kid will scrape their knee playing soccer and he’s already there, helping them off the field while he disinfects the wound

he starts bringing those character bandaids (he somehow manages to find nightwing and batman bandaids) because he realizes it distracts the kids from their injury and makes the pain a bit more bearable

he’s already so good with his siblings, especially damian, i just know he’s so good with kids your honour

he is so incredibly confused by the slang though

kids will be like “are you skibidi toilet?” and his brain stops working because what the heck are they saying? what does that even mean? is that good or bad?

he will try to search up the terms and then he will use it in the most cursed way possible

“hey guys, stop being sigmas to each other, that’s not very rizzler of you.”

get this man off the internet and into a nursing home

i think his knowledge of pop culture ends with like 2016 millenial slang

of the recent stuff, i think he knows slay and that’s it

he gives me like tip of the iceberg disney adult…

in the most respectful way possible

like he doesn’t know every single disney world employee by name or like go disneybounding

but i feel like he watched all of the movies growing up and knows the songs by heart

like from when his parents were still alive

sometimes they get to town when a movie has just come out and they have some free time before their show

they go to a diner for breakfast, explore the new city, dick gets to choose what they do before they head back to the circus

one time he sees an ad for dumbo and they go in

and he was hooked (it hurts to even think about the movie now though, after everything that has happened. it’s the one movie he’ll never watch)

sorry that was kinda sad! anyways, i feel like he would like the coming of age leaving home stories, especially when he gets a bit older and can relate to them more

mulan, princess and the frog, tangled (one time he joked that bruce was acting like mother gothel and when bruce searched up who that was, he was…not happy to say the least)

he will ugly cry too but what’s annoying is his “ugly” is unfortunately still quite good looking

and he has indeed forced all of the batfam to watch the movies with him during family movie night

like if you think you’re going to get through a road trip without him blasting i’ll make a man out of you or i see the light, think again

a big fan of the disney renaissance classics

but like any pixar movie will also have him bawling

if he has a kid, he’s sitting them down and making them watch the whole catalogue

i feel like he wouldn’t love the new remakes and sequels as much, part of it is the lack of nostalgia for him, but he’ll still watch it opening night

drives like an old man

hunched over, both hands on the steering wheel, completely straight stare

and he refuses to go over the speed limit, even on the highway

but he’s a MENACE in the passenger seat

lovesss being on aux, i feel like he would love the pop girlies

like taylor swift, sabrina carpenter, he’s cried to casual (so real of him ngl)

but i feel like as an older sibling he can’t help but backseat or i guess passenger seat drive a little bit

“oh, watch out for that stop sign” “the one 5 km from here? how can you even see that?”

drives jason up the wall

A KPOP FAN

i feel like being a gymnast would make you at least a semi competent dancer

dude is vibing to kiss of life, twice, le sserafim and learning the choreo too

eldest son of billionaire bruce wayne spotted at local kpop random play dance

imagine him playing music while he’s getting ready for patrol

he’s singing to what is love while he’s making sure his escrima sticks are fully charged

like are we seeing the vision

[tombfreak]

ASPD and being a "bad person"

the backhanded support for aspd

There's a very backhanded type of support for people with ASPD. In attempts to get moral highground and fight against the demonization/stigmatization of the disorder, it's almost entirely watered down to "Oh you just lack empathy and have mean thoughts :)". It's entirely infantilized to the point where people who actually exhibit their real symptoms are just "bad people", or "using their disorder as an excuse for their bad behaviour" because "that's not what ASPD is actually like!!"

Moralizing disorders does nothing but cause harm to people suffering from mental health issues. You cannot cherry pick which presentations of ASPD are deemed acceptable when the whole disorder revolves around being and doing socially unacceptable things.

"It's ok if you lack empathy!" Is the only support I really see for ASPD, which is true, but only if we don't have empathy in ways that they think is acceptable.

I don't have empathy for people of colour, or people with disabilities, or trans folk. My empathy can't just turn on for people who I know deserve it. I can't relate to their struggles, I can't feel for them, I can't even really care. And lacking the empathy required for me to feel these things towards others is exactly what causes me issues in my life. It's socially unacceptable. It's dysfunctionally anti-social.

But thats very much the tip of the iceberg. Lacking empathy isn't even in the DSM-5 criteria for ASPD, and a lot of people with ASPD do experience empathy in their own way.

There's also the issue of "it's ok to be angry, it's ok to have mean thoughts, as long as you don't act on them" or "it's ok to not care, as long as you pretend you do" or "it's ok if you lack empathy as long as you're compassionate"

The issue is that people with ASPD are only supported and accepted if they're in a place where they can conform to prosocial behaviour, which is incredibly difficult to do and does require a degree of recovery. And not a lot of people are willing, or able to, get to that point in recovery.

If you say you support people with mental health issues, then you need to accept the part that actively causes problems as well, even if it makes you uncomfortable. You can't just love the "antisocial personality" and hate the "disorder".

People with ASPD will act in ways that makes them a morally "bad person". That's the entire premise of the disorder. If you water it down to the point where the person suffering has to be good and follow your social standards, then that's not an anti-social disorder anymore.

And I know it's hard to stomach people with ASPD sometimes, especially if they're not in recovery at all. We can be mean, insensitive, aggressive, insulting, morally skewed, or just a complete asshole in general. We can say unacceptable things, we can do wrong, and we're prone to it. You don't have to like someone to support them.

Supporting someone with mental health issues doesn't mean you have to like what they do, or who they are, or be friends with them. You're allowed to remove someone from your life if they're causing issues in yours. Supporting someone with mental health issues means you are able to leave them alone, and not go out of your way to shame them for things currently out of their control.

Yes, recovery is very important, but trust me as a recovering addict and someone with ASPD, you cannot force someone to be better. All they need is to know that they have room to breathe and grow. Support is giving people the space to do that. Backhanded 'support' is saying that you'll let them have that space but only if they currently fit in to your personal standards.

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ℳ𝒶𝓎𝒷𝒶𝓃𝓀𝓈 𝓈𝒾𝓈𝓉ℯ𝓇

Part 3, chapter 3- running with a bullet in my leg

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“Little change of plans, they did it. They sent Kiara to the wilderness camp.”

“Oh, no.”

“So, uh, I’m gonna need about eight hours for liberation.”

“Eight hours? I don’t have eight hours! We’ve got a jet here, we’re all waiting!”

“I know, dog. I know the clock is ticking. Look, my sister was sent to the camp for like a while, she knows it better than anyone. I’m gonna need to talk to her. If you have to go, we’ll meet you there.”

You got put into the wilderness camp when you were 12. JJ was 10. You had gotten into yet another fight, and the cops had busted you with a pre-roll or two in your bag. You were 12, smoking. They forced you to go, basically kidnapping you as you screamed and shouted against the workers hold.

You were there for almost a year, until your dad finally decided he couldn’t live on his own and take care of JJ by himself. Like an actual father should. But you have learned over the years Luke maybank was no actual father.

“No, we can’t… we can’t. No, JJ, listen, we can’t wait for you.”

“I know! I’m working on it, dude. Luckily I’m a problem solver, just stay in the Matrix, okay? I repeat-“ JJ paused, hearing the tire explode out. He looked out the window.

“Jj?”

“Damn-“ he shouted, the line suddenly ending.

“Son of a bitch.”

“Yo, what’s going on?” Pope asked John B.

“I’m gonna kill him.”

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“God!” JJ stepped out the car, going to the back and grabbing a spare tire and some tools. He grunted, and suddenly heard a car engine behind him.

He turned around, heart racing as he realized who it was. He swallowed the lump in his throat, seeing two men get out.

“Okay, fine.” He turned around, going over to them. The other man pulled out a gun, pointing it to JJ.

“Really?” He realized, looking at the gun and back to the tire. He had shot out the tire.

“After everything you just put me through, you shot my sister, and now you shoot out my… my friends tire! That’s not even my van!”

“You lost the load, JJ. Now instead of me getting paid, I owe them. Which I guess means you owe me, right?”

“I thought my sister getting shot in the leg was perfectly enough tor you.”

“Get in the car!”

JJ paused, thinking for a moment. “As much as I would like to, I kinda got a date, so…”

“You heard him, get in the car.” The other man spoke.

“Okay. If that’s how it’s gonna be. Look, I know you’ve heard the stories. About me, my friends. A little something called the royal merchant. A pile of gold. Is that ringing any bells?”

“I heard some bullshit.”

“Well, that bullshits real.”

“Yeah?”

“And yeah, we found it.”

“Yeah, I saw. That why you got a bunch of dudes throwing your furniture in a dumpster out back your house? Thats why your sisters homeless?You’re living high off the hog, bro-“

“Yeah, yeah, yeah, you’re talking about the house that’s being foreclosed? The cover? The one to throw off the scent? Rule number one, don’t do flashy shit like pay off a mortgage when you’re cashing in.”

“Stop. Let me guess. You, uh… got the gold. It’s buried somewhere in a barn, right? And if I just let you go right now, you’ll run right there, you’ll get it, we’ll split it, right?”

“Not exactly. Actually, it’s a little sweeter than that.” JJ looked over to the other man. “May I?” He asked, going over to Mike now.

“Look, let’s just forget about the Merchant gold. That’s just the tip of the iceberg. We’re going after the main course right now. All right? We’re going after the mother lode.”

—————

“Oh, God.” Sarah mumbled when she heard a car pull up, noticing it as Toppers.

You sat down with Pope and Cleo, feeling like it was better to maybe get out the plane for a little. You’ve been sitting for hours, but it felt better when you sat outside.

“Oh God.”

Topper got out the car, walking towards Sarah.

“Hey, Sarah. What are you doing? You just seeing John B off or what?” He asked, glancing at John B who stood behind her.

Sarah paused, looking at him.

“I’m sorry I, uh… I didn’t call. I meant to call you last night.”

“Oh you meant to call me last night? Okay.” He scoffed. “No, it’s all good. I was actually asking around myself and heard your dad’s plane was here. And I was like, oh, that’s.. that’s interesting.”

Sarah looked down.

“So, are you leaving with him?”

Sarah looked back up at Topper now.

“Are you leaving with him? Yes or no, Sarah.” He spat.

She nodded slowly, he scoffed again and his face fell into a crooked smile.

“You’re just… you’re just a f… a damn liar, Sarah Cameron. You’ve always been a liar. After everything we’ve been through? This… this is what you’re gonna do to me?” He laughed. “I’m done. Okay? You literally just promise John B would go away, you’d stay here with me. I can’t keep doin this..” he rambled on.

“Hey, Top. You got a little something right here, man.” You guffawed at the man, motioning to his black eye.

“Why don’t you shut up? How about that?” He looked at you, going over to John B now. “And oh, buddy, john B. You better be glad I didn’t swing back at you at the wreck cause I think you know what would’ve happened.”

“And your lucky I didn’t shoot your ugly ass on sight!” You shouted from afar, Pope hiding his face while he laughed.

“No one was talking to you, Maybank.”

“I’m not taking the bait, Top.” John B shook his head, looking at Topper. “You’re right. You would’ve kicked my ass.”

“I, um, heard they’re remodeling the Chateau. That’s tough man, how’d that happen?”

John B stared at him in disbelief.

“Oh shit.” You mumbled.

“What did you just say?” John B asked him, Topper backing up. “No, topper what did you just say?” Sarah held John B back.

“Hey, you guys have a nice life, all right?”

“That’s what you call a kook?” Cleo asked.

“Oh yeah.”

“Big time.” You nodded.

Everyone watched as topper drove away.

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“Okay, so the office should be straight ahead. There’s a little wooden dude with a welcome sign at the door. And then, I think the lady there loved cats. Make up some bullshit story, like her cat passed away. Then, I would just wait and see where they go if they fall for it. That’s where Kiara would be.” You explained, sighing.

“Okay, thank- thank you. I’ll call you back when I’m on my way.” He hung up the phone, you sighing and putting it down.

It was getting late, hours passed and JJ was nowhere to be found.

“Has he called?” Sarah asked, they were running out of time.

You shook your head.

“Nothing.”

“We have to to go. We don’t have eight hours. And topper might’ve already called the police.”

“Okay, okay, I’ll try again.” John B said, you nodding.

“Wait. That might be JJ right there.” Cleo spoke, you guys suddenly hearing a motorcycle pull up.

“That is not JJ.” You recognized that helmet as soon as he pulled up.

“Rafe?” You asked him, furrowing your eyebrows as the tires screeched. Ward groaned behind him.

“Hey. It’s okay. You’re okay, dad. C’mon.” He mumbled to his dad, helping him off the bike, he had fallen off with a loud groan.

“It’s okay. You’re okay.” Rafe went to his side.

“Come on, help! Help!”

You were faster than the others to help him, it had been in your blood at this point. Muscle memory.

Ever since you were young, you couldn’t stand seeing people be hurt. It hurt you, you hated it. For as long as your dad could remember, you were always helping someone or something. Whether it was a hurt animal or a dying man like the one before you right now.

If it wasn’t someone you loathed or had beat in a fight before, you cared for them, tending to wounds. And as much as you didn’t like Ward, Rafe did.

He called it your mother’s trait, although you never really knew her, he saw her in you. Because luke knew that you were nothing like him.

And if you didn’t drop out, you would have loved to become a nurse or something. Something to help someone.

Despite the shooting pain in your leg from the bullet nudged in it, you pulled the helmet off of Ward and helping him up with Rafe.

“Fuck.” You muttered, helping him onto the plane.

“We gotta get him off the island right now.”

You let Rafe take over as he pulled him into the plane, through the doors and inside.

Sarah exhaled as she paced. “Shit, this cannot be happening.”

You sighed, hesitating before following Rafe and Ward inside the plane, helping sit him down onto the seats that already had your blood on it.

It was then that he took a glance at your bloody leg, wrapped in an also bloodied shirt. His focus was back on his dad when he let out a low groan.

“It’s alright dad.” He mumbled, more so to himself that anyone else. He took a glance down at his shaking hands, the blood of his father stained on them.

He looked back at you now, hands slowly finding their way to your face.

They trembled against your skin, you put your hand over his.

“Watch after him for me. Please.” He told you quietly. You nodded, and he pulled you into an embrace.

“He’s safe with me.” You nodded against his shoulder.

“Are you okay?” He asked you, looking down at your leg again.

“Got shot by some dude I owed money to. No biggie.” You shrugged it off nonchalantly, he laughed quietly and you both got off each other, just staring at each other again.

He leaned in, and your heart picked up as his lips ghosted over yours. He spoke against your lips.

“When you’re back, promise me we’ll talk?” He mumbled quietly.

“Promise.” You held out your pinky, like you would when you were together. He smiled and interlocked your pinky with his, before putting his lips on yours. When he pulled apart, he turned to his dad again.

“I gotta go. But you’re gonna be fine. You’re gonna be fine with them.” He told him again.

“He’s gonna be alright.” You told him as he began to step down the steps of the plane again.

The corners of Rafe’s mouth twisted up, nodding he walked over down to the pogues.

“We’re not done.” Pope said, putting his hand on Rafe’s shoulder. Rafe ignored it, and walked over to Sarah.

“Please take care of him.” He said, Sarah walking up the stairs to the jet. You were already tending to his wounds, wincing while you did so. They were bad.

John B turned around, going up to Rafe and putting his phone down.

“You do anything to him, anything, I swear to God I’ll find you.” Rafe spoke menacingly, quietly. It was a warning. “If anything happens to her…” he let the words linger in the air, as he heard sirens get closer.

“Wait, where’s JJ?” You asked John B, looking up from Ward, who seemed to be doing better somewhat now.

“We have to leave without them…” John B said, you furrowing your eyebrows.

“Are you serious-“ you began.

“He’ll find a way. He always does.” Pope told you.

Ward suddenly stood up, you just watching as he went over to the steps again.

“Wait, Rafe! Rafe!” Ward said, stepping out.

“Dad, hey! Get back on the plane!” Ward shouted. “They’re coming right now!”

“I gotta talk to you. Come here real quick.” He began to step down.

“Dad, you gotta- you gotta go!”

“Rafe, now!”

Rafe walked over to his dad, who held his thigh.

“Thank you.” Ward spoke, putting his hands on Rafe’s shoulder, looking into his eyes.

“Yeah, thank you.”

“Don’t thank me.” He mumbled as Ward pulled him into a hug

“Yep, yep, you’re a good boy.”

“I’m not.”

“Yes, you are. Look.” He grabbed his son’s face.

“Doesn’t matter what happens in the middle, it’s how you come out in the end. Look at me! Look at me!”

Rafe looked up at him finally.

“I know what you did, okay? I don’t care, cause you came back for me, right? You’re in control now. You’re the man. All of it is yours, everything here. It’s yours, son. You’re the man now. You proved yourself, okay? You’re the man. And I take back what I said about her.” He laughed quietly.

Rafe nodded slowly, tears in his eyes.

Ward pulled him into another hug.

“I love you, buddy.” Those words he waited all his life for.

“Oh god. All right. Come on. I got it.” He turned around, going back into the plane.

“You good?”

“Goodbye, son.” He said, giving him one last look as the door shut.

The plane began to move and the sirens got closer. Rafe stood, accepting defeat as the cops got out the car.

Rafe turned to Shoupe, hands running down his face.

“Well, shit Rafe. Looks like you got a story to tell.”

Ward sat back down across from you, you looking back at him.

“That looks bad.” You nodded to his thigh that he held, still bleeding.

“It is.”

“Uh… fuck.” You mumbled, rummaging through your bag. You pulled out a bandana, one that you had stolen a while ago as a kid.

“Can you… put your leg up?”

He did so, you kneeled down in front of him.

“This is gonna hurt like hell, so… you can do what I did and bite on a stick or something.”

You grabbed a bottle of alcohol, pouring it over the wound and putting the towel back over it.

He groaned, wincing and breathing heavily.

“Thank you.” He told you, you ignoring and it continuing to wrap it with the bandana. “Thank you.” He repeated, you nodding and standing up, going over to sit by yourself, propping your legs up and sighing.

You had fallen asleep against the window, and stirring when your new phone rung out with a notification.

“We made it out.” It read, it was JJ.

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[cillianmurphysdimples]

A female Y/N / Cillian fanfic (Part Twelve)

Absolutely not based on anything real all, all totally fictional, fanciful and all total bollocks.

Gif credit - @remembering-angels

Warnings for sexual references and language. Adult themes. Not suitable for under 18s.

We Got Issues

Part Twelve: Cillian arrives back in Dublin for a mere two days for the Dublin premiere of Small Things. Y/N doesn't get the reception she'd hoped for, and the tip of the iceberg of their issues is aired. They're a united front for the event, and a force back home. [Adult themes. Sexual scenes.]

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Cillian had barely been home an hour when mortal war broke out.

The Dublin premiere is hours away, and he is in the foulest of moods. Nothing you say is right, nothing you do is right, and God forbid you look at him, because that's wrong too. Standing in the bedroom doorway, with your arms folded across your chest, you try to work out in your head how you've gone from throwing your arms around him at the airport, to watching him right now as he paces the bedroom, arms swinging and face contorting, as every curse word and hateful comment he can find spills from his lips. As far as you can work out, all you'd done is ask if he'd spoken to his sons to tell them he was here and arrange a takeout night here at home tomorrow. You don't see a problem with that question at all, but clearly something about it is rubbing him up the wrong way. His eyes are expressive and his accent is thicker, clipping his words and sharpening his tongue. “Ah, don't be standing there with the face on you, looking at me like I'm fucking being a prick.” He roars, but is finally standing still. Albeit he is standing before you with a venomous look.

“You are! I just asked you a question.” You snap back, unlacing your arms from your chest. “A fucking question, Cillian! I just asked if you'd talked to the boys, that's all. I'm sorry that I thought it might be nice to have them over for a fucking Chinese or something.”

“That's not all you fucking said though, Y/N, is it?” He shakes his head. “The little added fucking ‘so they get to see you for a bit’ was un-fucking-called for.”

“You're back in England in two days, Cillian, until nearly fucking Christmas. I thought it would be good for them to see you. And good for you to see them.” You shout loudly back at him. “What did I say that's so fucking wrong? I want you to invite your kids over. What is bad about that?” You're really struggling to see what you've said so out of line, but you can see there's clearly something happening here. He's livid, completely enraged, and there's a shake to his hand when he thrusts it towards you.

“You think I don't know about the amount of time I'm away? You think that I don't know about how fucking little I see them? Y/N, I don't need reminding of what a fucked up situation I have with my kids!” He yells.

And there it is. He hasn't taken your question, or suggestion, as that at all. All he's heard, in his terrible mood, is a criticism of his availability for his boys and of his parenting. You know those misconstrued words, mixed with your call a couple of days ago, his very poor sleep, a busy working schedule, his brain being at least half overtaken by his role, and whatever else is flooding through his head that he doesn't speak about, has exploded completely. Unfortunately, you're in the blast zone. You close your eyes and sigh, and when you open them he has sat down onto the edge of the bed.

“I didn't say anything to deliberately make you feel bad, Cill. It was just a suggestion of something to do, a question if you'd already done it. It wasn't a joke, or a dig at your parenting. You're not just away and not bothering with your kids, you're working. It isn't the same as just leaving them. You have them here every Sunday for dinner, you get Aran from school whenever he asks if you're home, you drive Malachy around all the time. You're not in a fucked up situation - you're a working parent. I wasn't criticising you.” You insist, staying put in the doorway even though he did seem a little bit calmer. You'd wanted him to come home and for it to be soft and calm, for you to have the time with him you'd needed days earlier. But this was your lot. “I didn't want this.” You say, and you realise that the emotion is creeping into your throat. “I wanted you being here to feel good. I've missed you, and I've fucking needed you, and I've wanted to know that…that were okay, and we can be okay.” Your words catch and you swallow around the painful lump in your throat. “I'm sorry you thought that I was getting at you - if I said it wrong, I'm sorry. I didn't mean anything by it.”

He lifts his head from staring at the floor and he looks at you directly. His eyes are still sharp, and you can see the fast rising and falling of his chest. “I didn't want to come home like this either.” He says, more measured and quiet. “I really overreacted.” He admits and for a moment it shocks you. “I'm in the worst fucking mood, and I'm taking it out on you and it isn't your fault.” He sighs and casts his eyes back down, suddenly seeming to find his hands very interesting.

“Why?” You ask carefully, trying to control yourself from full upset. “Why is your mood so bad?”

“I'm fucking wrecked,” he says, raising his head again. “I'm so tired, I'm fucking juggling so many fucking balls.” He shrugs. “I hate boredom, but it's still hard. I miss you, I miss the kids,” he licks his bottom lip. “And I fucking…I fucking felt so relieved when you said the test was negative, but I know that it hurt you to get that result. I feel bad that I don't want what you want here, and that I didn't tell you sooner. I'm sorry for that night in London, I'm sorry for not understanding that I was fucking with your head.” You stand rooted to the spot in the doorway as he gives his confession. Cillian is stubborn, and often holds onto his core or close beliefs regardless of your suggestions. Hearing him letting down walls to tell you he's wrong feels like you've switched though to an alternate dimension. “I wanted to come home and put my fucking arms round you like you needed, I wanted to do that. I didn't. I should have. I know you said you can accept I changed my mind, but I'm not stupid enough to think that means you'll change yours back too, at least not right away. I know you've got to a place where you're ready for a child.” He sighs. “We need to talk about this properly. We need to make decisions together properly.”

And though you know it might start the row again, you can't help the words that fly from your mouth. “Yes. Decisions together. Being you and me, not Yvonne.” When he looks at you with a sharpening to his eyes, you wait for the bomb to go off. But you also proceed. “Your sons matter, too, but your ex wife isn't part of our choices. It's me you should be talking to about what goes through your mind, not her. Whether we do or don't decide that we're going to have a baby, in the small time period we have before were too fucking old, it cannot be determined by her. You say I'm anxious about you going back to her, but you don't assuage that at all when you're calling her for a fucking chat about whether or not I'll be getting pregnant!”

He stares at you and his tongue swipes quickly over his lips. “I know.” He says quietly. You suspect he wants a further chance to discuss this, but you both can feel the depth of the row is passing.

“I know you don't want a baby, I know your mind has changed. And as much as I'd got my head around the idea and was hoping for a baby soon, I can accept that and I can take the time and reconcile. I can.” You mean what you say, despite the multiple conflicting feelings. You want him more than a child. “We don't have to have a child. But I don't want us to not have a child because it's what she wants. It isn't about her. So if that's why your mind changed, then we really need to look at who's in this relationship.”

He sighs loudly but he doesn't argue further. “Y/N,” he says quietly.

You are soft and calm as you speak once again. “I love you, Cill. I want you here for the rest of my life, I want us here, together, happy and proud of our life together. After tonight, after Christmas…whenever, we need to talk about what it is that you really want.” You can see by his expression he is a little knocked back by your words. Does he think you're suggesting a break-up after all this time? Is that what you mean? You walk into the bedroom fully and stop in front of him. He looks up at you, and instantly he places his hands against your hips. He needs the touch as much as you do, you can see easily. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and your hand takes up its habitual spot near the base of his neck, still missing the flicky curls to toy with. “We don't go out there tonight mad with one another.”

“No, of course, I don't want that.” He says, very calm.

“It's a big night here for you all - this film, this story, your work finally showcased here, at home in Ireland. I'm so proud of you, I love you, and I want you to enjoy this as much as you can.” You say as you move your face closer to his, bending a little at the waist. His hands stay on your hips. You kiss his full, pouting lips softly. With your forehead against his, you dance your fingers at the nape of his neck. “I love you.” You say softly.

“I know,” he whispers back. “I love you, too.” he rests his head against your belly as you stand straight, your hands still around his shoulders and neck. “I'm really sorry,” he says quietly. “I overreacted, I'm so sorry.”

“We draw a line under it, okay.* You say calmly. You can appreciate the concoction of pressures he's feeling, even in your own unmet need for the intimacy of his arms when he got home, and you know his sorry and probable guilt are genuine. “Tomorrow, or when you're finished in England, though, we'll have a real talk. Yeah? Get everything laid out in the open and get everything clear in our heads. We don't need to agree on everything, but we need to know we want enough of the same things. Especially the important things.*

He lifts his head a little and peers up at you, long lashes tickling against his cheeks as he blinks slowly. The freckles on his face are standing out more and his eyes are glistening and accentuated in the light overhead. “Yeah, definitely.” He says with a little nod. The conviction in his voice makes you feel seen and heard. “I'll ring boys before we leave, and arrange something for tomorrow evening.” He says, and you smile softly; that's all he had to say earlier, you consider, and this could have been avoided. But you consider the air cleared, too, and that's not a bad thing.

-

“Y/N?” Cillian calls out loudly.

In the bedroom, fastening your necklace around your neck before the full length mirror, you drop your arms down and cast your eyes over your full reflection. “Yeah?” You call back. He's downstairs, dressed and ready to leave, and you know he's both excited for the night and the reception, and anxious about it. When he doesn't respond you call out again. “What?”

“Are you fit?” He shouts again, “We've to go.” You reach for your phone to check the time. Shit! It's later than you thought, and you've not even fixed your hair or found your shoes.

“Yeah. Two minutes!” You yell back to him, and your stomach twists with a little apprehensive anxiety when the stairs creak a little as he begins to walk up them. Running your hands through your hair as you look back into the mirror, you turn your head when the bedroom door moves from halfway open to all the way, and you give a coy smile when you see Cillian standing there with one eyebrow raised.

“Two minutes?” He questions. “You've bare feet, Y/N,” he smirks. “C’mon,” he encourages gently, “The car will be here in a minute. They'll be waiting on us.”

You let your hair fall as it will, and dig around in the wardrobe for your black knee-high boots with the kitten heels. Wearing opaque black tights, a detailed pinafore with a deep red polo neck top beneath it, you feel wintery but chic, and you know that Cillian likes the above-knee length of your pinafore. “Looks okay?” You ask, sitting on the edge of the bed to zip up your boots.

“Grand,” he nods, “But sure you'd look good in a bin bag.” He smiles, and you smile brightly. As you stand up, he looks at you with a soft smile, his head tilted slightly, and he swipes his tongue across his lips. “You look beautiful.” The deep burgundy-brown shade of his shirt and dark blazer over the top is a clean and classy look, and somehow it makes the silvery sheen to his hair and the crystal blue of his eyes stand out more. He's beautiful, too, you think. “Will we go?” He asks and hovers his hand over the light switch in preparation to turn off the light as you leave the room.

You grab your phone from the dresser, mentally remind yourself that your coat is downstairs, and give him a nod of agreement. “Let's go.”

He plunges the room into darkness and proceeds down the stairs with you following closely behind. You find your coat in the cupboard in the hallway and pull it on over your outfit. It's part of the look, and you feel confident enough in your choice. You take your handbag from the banister and throw your phone and a set of house keys into it. Peering inside, you ensure you have ‘the essentials’ - a strip of paracetamol, emergency period products for any unexpected arrivals (because being female is unpredictable), Tic-tacs, and a cereal bar with a battered up wrapper that's been in there for weeks, because Cillian was hungry and grumpy one day so you'd grabbed two in a local shop and now you just carried the spare one around - then throw the strap of the bag up onto your shoulder.

“Jays, girl, your two minutes takes a fuckin' half-hour.” Cillian teases, shaking his head, with his hand in the handle of the front door. He's deliberately thickened up his accent, and he knows it makes you smile.

You chuckle to yourself as you fix the collar on your coat, “I'm ready!” You say, eyebrows high on your forehead.

“Right so, c’mon,” he says, pulling open the door. As the door is dragged wide, the car pulls into your driveway. You let Cillian step out as you set the alarm and lock up. He waits patiently, though, and insists with a smile that you get into the car before him as he holds open the door.

It's busy when you arrive. Enda and Eileen greet you both in a familiar and friendly way, and you’re pleasantly overwhelmed - if that's possible - at the reception everyone is greeted with. While the basic experience and expectations are the same as in London, somehow here it feels different. You feel more excited for him this time, and he seems to be brighter in himself. It's home, in the place this all began, and it's like he feels even prouder to be standing here tonight than he has of the entire project so far. You admire his passion, and that of Eileen, too, as they deliver speech after speech to camera after camera and person after person. You hide as much as you can, but you stay within his sight lines, and you notice he looks for you frequently. It warms your heart, especially after the events back at home, and you can't help smiling every time your eyes meet.

As soon as he gets the chance, after ensuring he can see you among their people, Cillian approaches after bidding goodbye to the string of journalists. Eileen isn't far behind him, nor is Emily, and suddenly you're not standing unassumingly alone. The eyes following Cillian, Emily and Eileen are on you now, too, as you're ushered inside the building at last. Cillian takes your hand, lacing your fingers together immediately. “This is mad,” he whispers, smiling as you walk together. He's not quiet enough that Eileen doesn't hear, but you're sure nobody else has.

“Isn't it class?” Eileen turns her head over her shoulder briefly, then looks ahead again as you all continue inside the doors.

“Will Aran have photos for you from tonight, I wonder?” Cillian smirks, and you smile at the suggestion.

“Thank you for that, by the way,” you say, raising your voice from the private whisper when you clear away from all the people at last. “They cheered me up.”

“Sure it was his idea,” Cillian says as he glances around, then looks at you. “He sent me the yoke and asked if he should send it to you too.” He smiles, cheeks pushing high up under his eyes.

“What does a woman have to do to get a drink?” Emily laughs, rubbing her hands together. “I'll forgo the tea tonight, I think.” She smiles brightly.

You laugh, “I was just about to ask!” You shift your feet on the spot, waiting for the next instruction, and keep your eyes on Cillian even as he steps away to speak to Eileen. Knowing where he is, and how he is, seems to make you feel calmer. If he's good, in this situation, then you know it's all okay. “How was your flight?” You make polite conversation with Emily, and listen intently as she engages with you brightly. You'd grown fond of her in the small interactions and meetings you'd had, and you kind of hoped there'd be at least a distant friendship to remain in the future. You peer over Emily's shoulder briefly as Cillian laughs, his head back slightly, and you wonder what Eileen has said to elicit the big reaction. Looking back to Emily, you smile politely as you realise you have missed what she'd just said. To make your ignorance less awkward you look around you again then stop her, “Sorry, I'm not ignoring you,” you lie gently, “Can you see the loos?”

Emily smiles, “Behind the stairs,” she turns and points behind Cillian and Eileen.

You dip away, simply to avoid embarrassing yourself, and feel a little like you're drawing attention to yourself as the only one moving when your boots clip off the tiled floor beneath you. You seek out the door to the ladies in the direction you've been led and disappear inside. You walk to the sink and stare at yourself in the mirror for a moment. Your makeup has stayed well, despite the damp weather, and you feel pretty tonight. You fix your hair a little and take a deep breath, your eyes still on your reflection, and when the door opens to the left of you it makes you jump. You whip your head around, and fix a smile to your face as Eileen steps inside.

“Oh, you're here. And himself looking for you out there,” she laughs then disappears into one of the stalls, locking the door as she enters. “He was telling me there about filming all night recently,” she calls out.

Lingering at the sink, you feel a little awkward. “Oh, yeah, poor guy isn't getting much kip.” You reply, not sure you particularly feel comfortable talking to her while she's in there! “I'll go out and find him then if he's looking.” You say, and without waiting to hear her reply, you quickly exit through the heavy door. It bangs behind you, signalling your arrival back into the large lobby, and you're convinced your cheeks are pinker than your lips as people you don't know turn to see what the noise was. To your relief, Emily is laughing a little at your discomfort, and oddly it's comforting, and just to her left are Cillian and Enda, looking at you, and you know it's more due to your awkward walk of shame than the noise of the door. You walk slowly towards Cillian, and immediately hide yourself in his neck as you hug into him. “Fuck sake,” you whisper, half laughing.

He laughs into your ear, then wraps one arm around you as you stand up straight beside him. “What's up with ya?” He smirks.

“Eyes,” you shrug. “I can't get used to being seen!”

He clicks his tongue, “Ah, you're alright,” he drops his arm from around your back and instead he takes your hand. “There's Eileen, now. Here, we'll go on in there,” he nods his head in the direction directly in front of him. He looks at you for a moment, reading your anxiety clearly. “C’mon,” he raises his eyebrows. “You're grand, I'll mind ya, c’mon.” he smiles and it's cheeky, playful even, and you're soothed by it. You allow him to lead you fully, and leave yourself at his mercy as you grip his hand.

-

It's late when you arrive home, via taxi, and you're both a little bit drunk. Neither had gone overboard, not with the knowledge that Cillian's boys were coming over tomorrow, but you'd both enjoyed a few drinks after the premiere with Eileen, Enda, and Emily in the bar of the hotel Emily was staying in. You stand at the front door, fumbling with your bag for the keys, whilst Cillian is no help at all as he hugs you from behind, nuzzling kisses into your neck and cursing the collar of your coat every other second for getting in his way. With a moan, you blink in the hopes of clearing your wine-fuzzy vision and dig around in the bag again, giving a quiet cheer when you finally get them out and you wave them about, laughing a little as the jingle in your hands.

“You've a rake of keyrings on that and you still couldn't get it?* Cillian chuckles, and annoyingly doesn't remove his hands from your waist as you step closer to the door to push the key into the lock. He steps awkwardly with you, catching the rounded toe of his shoe against the back of your boot, and curses your shoes then, too. “Fuckin’...” He mumbles, as he pushes his face close to your neck again. “Are you opening that or caressing it?” He asks, his lips moving against the skin on your neck, and laughs at his own joke.

It's him finding himself funny and giggling that makes you laugh, and you shake your head as the key finally slips into place. “You're not helping, you drunken git.” You tease him, pushing down the door handle to finally get inside. You pull the keys out and begin to walk, and only then does Cillian release you. You step inside and turn on the light, and swiftly disable the alarm before resetting it again once you lock the front door. Leaving the keys in the lock, you drop your handbag down and stand awkwardly as you unzip and drag off your boots. When you look up, Cillian is seemingly struggling to get his fingers to coordinate and unlace his shoes. “Did you have a few extra glasses that I didn't see?” You ask, laughing to yourself, as you pull off your coat. You lay it over the banister, instead of hanging it in the cupboard, and mean against the balustrade as you watch Cillian with a smirk.

He's still cursing at every minor bother, and drops down onto one of the steps of the stairs with a bit of a thump. “Fuck it, anyway!” He scoffs, and abandons the laces of his shoes in favour of toeing them both off by the backs. He gives each shoe a bit of of force and all but kicks them across the hallway, where they land in a clatter beside and on top of your boots respectively. “Not a bad shot though.” He laughs, and looks up at you, standing to his right, with your eyebrows raised and your lips in a tight line, trying to decide if you're going to smile at his behaviour or consider the implications of the amount he's had to drink.

“Were you and Enda taking shots or something?” You ask, only half serious, watching him get up from the stairs with a groan. He takes off his blazer and places it over your coat, and you move aside a little to allow him access to the banister. “Or did you two sink a few extra when I waited with Eileen for that fucking taxi?* The taxi had been cancelled twice before finally being assigned and sent, and you'd stayed with Eileen out at the front of the hotel for a good thirty minutes. You feel lightheaded and can certainly tell you've had a few drinks but it's amusing to you just how wobbly and loose Cillian seems to be.

“One maybe,” he stands before you with a soppy smile. His habitually sleepy eyes are even heavier, and when his smile broadens, what is visible of the blue in his eyes sparkles a little bit. “Enda’s a bad influence.” He smirks.

He opens his arms and wraps them around your waist and pulls you to him, closing the tiny distance between your bodies. The kiss he plants is soft and languid, but at the first touch of pressure from you kissing him back, he turns more fervent. He keeps one hand at the base of your back while the other moves a little higher. His breath huffs from his nose and each time he goes to apply more pressure with the kiss, his jaw stays open hungrily, his face touching yours, eagerly awaiting the feel of your mouth again. You know what he's after and you're willing to give it - even a few short days without him makes you long for him as much as he seems to long for you. You're not necessarily shagging every night, but when there's been a lack of hugs, kisses and gentle touches due to distance, sex is always on the cards as soon as it's an option. You want to stop him for a moment, just to remind him that the condoms aren't going to magically appear down here in the hallway, but it's him who stops first. He's lustful in his expression and he takes your hand and brings you towards the sofa. His hand is hot in yours and you know the arousal has built rapidly for him. Reaching the sofa, he pulls you to him again using your hand, and immediately kisses you deeply. His tongue slides against yours and his hands now cup around the sides of your face, keeping you where he wants you to be. Turning your head a little, you break the kiss and, potentially, the passion.

“Cill, love,* you say, and you watch him frown. “Either we need to take this upstairs, or one of us needs to go and grab a condom.”

“Not needed,” he says, shaking his head slowly. He releases your face and takes both of your hands. For a brief moment before he speaks again, you want to punch him at the possibility he's about to tell you he's changed his fucking mind. But he doesn't. “Get the tights off, and the underwear.” He says and there's a sudden huskiness fuelled by whatever he's planning igniting further arousal. “And get on the couch.” Your stomach flutters. Your eyebrows twitch as he tugs your arms a little, guiding you closer to the sofa. When you make no movements to do as he's instructed, you all but gasp when he uses both hands to push up the skirt of your pinafore and begins pawing at your arse and lower back in search of the waistband of your tights. You don't help, and instead you reach out your hand awkwardly between your bodies and cup your fingers around the bulge at the crotch of his trousers. You can feel the heat, and a small spot of moisture, and the infrequent twitches that tell you he's painfully hard. He achieves what he wants to, though, and you can feel the skin of his hands against your arse cheeks as he slides your tights and knickers down together. Even though he's occupied with his task, you don't miss the small thrust into your hand he gives before he bends abruptly, bringing your tights and knickers down to your ankles. Couched down, he reaches up one hand and lightly pushes you against your abdomen. You take the hint and fall back with a flop into the sofa. Once you're off your feet, he pulls the clothing away and throws it aside. He stays down, but moves onto his knees instead. Before he moves closer to you, he unfastens the button and zip on his trousers and pushes them down. With his knees planted on the floor, they can go no further than gathering there in the bend of his legs. The red boxer shorts he's wearing are teasingly dampened in a single but sizable spot, and tented pleasingly while the fabric moves a little as his cock twitches at the sight of you before him, knees wide and cunt on show.

You watch him intently as he reaches into his underwear, still uncoordinated from the alcohol, and withdraws his penis. He pushes his boxers down enough to move the waistband away from being restrictive. His balls sit tight on top of the red material and black waistband while, once released, his cock stands proudly with its ever-so-slight upward curve. Your eyes wander over every inch of his manhood, and you find yourself biting your lower lip in desire. You watch as he wraps one hand around himself, stroking slowly, then wordlessly arches his back down and sinks his face into your most intimate area. Skillfully, and immediately drawing a gasp of shocked delight from you, he runs his tongue up from your vaginal opening to your clit in a slow and teasing stroke. His hand is planted in your thigh and you know by the movements of his shoulder that his other hand is working his cock. He swipes his tongue down and up again, keeping it slow, and cups his lips around your labia with a soft sucking action. His tongue continues to move, up and down, in torturously wonderful, slow, sweeping movements. He takes his hand from your thigh, leaving the skin where his warm hand had been to be assaulted by the comparatively cold air that hits it in its absence. He's not aggressive but he doesn't hold back as he instantly inserts his index and middle finger into your lovingly moistened opening. With your vagina breached by his digits, moving in and out at a slowly increasing rate, he keeps his tongue entirely for your clitoral pleasure. After a moment to lick his lips, he speeds up his fingers as he licks and sucks against your clit. His lips surround your labia as his tongue moves in a controlled flicking back and forth. Your hands are on the back of his heads both guiding him and pulling him back when you feel like he's too quick - you don't want this over too soon. You can barely keep your eyes open as his fingers glide in once against and then he hooks them upward. Your hips rise up and he speeds up his tongue. He strokes and sucks and licks in such a teasing unison that your mind is black and your eyes are seeing stars before you're even on the edge.

You can feel the huffed breaths of air through his nose against your skin and you know that he's working his hand on himself equally as fast as he is his entire availability of tools on you. You're enjoying this too much - your hands through his hair and your cunt thrust against his face - but you're desperate for then orgasm he's teasing you with and you know he isn't far from decorating the sofa’s edge with his own excitement. You remove one hand from the back of his head, not sure what you're even planning to do, then slam it back down as he turns his tongue over your clit in some magical manner that makes your hips buck into him, thrusting your pussy into his whole face. You give up caring about savouring now and grip what you can of his hair as you grind your cunt into his face. He speeds up his fingers whipping in and out of your dripping entrance and your mouth falls open as you groan at the growing intensity of everything.

“Shit, Cill…” You breathe out loudly. “Fuck, Cill…fuck…fuck…” you cry out, “Jesus! Cill…!!!” You gasp loudly as his tongue works impossibly quickly, rolling and flicking and licking amazingly. “I'm c…shit, Cill, I'm….” you stumble and stammer your breathy words before you moan loudly, your jaw slack, and your walls tighten around his fingers as you cum against his face. You squeeze your thighs together involuntarily and keep his head locked in for the pleasure for a minute.

It's a mere few seconds later when the fingers he had inside of you are now planted on your thigh for stability as he strokes himself to orgasm, up on his knees, huffing quick and soft gasps and moans from the open mouth of a face that is slick and coated in you. He cums with a shudder, his fingers digging into your leg as you lie sated before him, and you don't mind as the act itself is achieved against your pubis. You've left your mark upon his face - your pubic hair can take his in return. You lie in a pile of limbs that are too heavy to move as he drops back, first sitting on his feet as he releases his very slowly softening penis, before he draws his own heavy legs out from under him and sits in an awkward tangle of limbs and clothing on the floor.

He sits with his hands held out like they're toxic for a minute, and if you weren't so woozy from the orgasm and the alcohol combining to make your eyes flutter, you might laugh. He looks a sight with your fluids all over his face, his trousers at his knees and his boxers placed funny, and you're sure his flaccid penis hanging over the waistband isn't as appealing now. But then you're sure you look a damn sight worse with your pinafore hitched up under your bust, your knees still spread wide and your pubic hair coated in his rapidly cooled semen. And then the laugh you couldn't muster falls from your lips, a sudden giggle that shakes your upper body a little. Cillian frowns at you and it only makes you laugh more.

“What's the matter with ya?” He asks, blinking his heavy lidded, drunken eyes slowly.

“We look disgusting.” You say, and your laughter starts again when Cillian's response is raised eyebrows and his mouth downturned, whilst actually looking at you, then himself, then back at you. You take a deep breath. “Wash your face, you dirty knacker!” You chuckle, and when Cillian smiles it makes your stomach tighten. God, you love him. In all the shit, in the good and the bad, you love him. You're comfortable to sit with your vagina on show and your bodies coated in one another's ‘leftovers’ and still your tummy flips when he smiles. You love him, and you can't see that ever going away.

“I'm a dirty knacker?” He says. He groans as he is the first to move, and he suddenly seems a little more sober - until he nearly falls over himself. “You've spunk all over you, you whore!” His accent thickens up and you know he's doing it to ensure you're aware he's joking when he calls you a whore. He looks at you as he tucks himself back into his underwear and, wobbling a little again, pulls up his trousers. As he fastens the zip he smiles at you softly. “Actually, you taste too good to be a whore.” He says and you're floored by his sexual openness. He isn't shy in asking for sex, nor in getting what he wants, but he is a passionately sexual person, not a kinky kind of sexual person, and hearing him talk like he just did and being party to his actions tonight, shows you a whole different side of his character when he dared enough. You wonder if it's all due to being Tommy again, or if he's finally showing you different places within him after all this time.

"You're so drunk." You chuckle.

He smiles sleepily then draws his lips in to a tight purse, one eyebrow raised high. "Yes." He nods, and it's so comical you can't help laughing harder. You're in deep with this one, you realise, and you're going to keep it that way even if it's a fight.

[ros-sauce]

may i ask what you mean on the themes of sexual abuse in pjsk? /gen

It's the objectifying way the male faceless students tend to talk about Mizuki that sets off an alarm bell for me. Like, you know how the project sekais don't get to use strong language, for marketability's sake? How they say 'disappear' instead of straight up referencing suicide, and how they use stand-ins for curse words, and the reader is kind of expected to fill in the blanks there with their Real Life Experience with those words?

I see the same thing in "You can't even tell", "Super cute, too", "Are you also a guy?" and similar lines. The first 2 lines are really as far as the game's allowed to go in terms of portraying Casually Objectifying Mizuki. I feel like, with lines like that, they're looking at the reader and going "So that's an example of the kind of shit they say to her, draw upon your own life experience to figure out the rest". And then you look at your own life experience regarding being trans, and you see that people saying things like That to the trans people you know tend to say them in a sexually charged way, and you're like Oh I See.

The third thing is a more glaring example, I think. Like I just don't think that is exactly what they said to Ena. While the first 2 lines don't feel like stand-ins for a worse sentence to me, I straight up cannot read that last one as anything other than a stand-in. Because when I see men giving a cis girl shit for being friends with a trans girl, they're usually either saying "Are you a [insert one of the slurs for trans girls that's most commonly used in porn] too?" or "So do you also have a dick?". 9/10 times it is one of those things. So I think that line from the faceless students was extremely watered down in the name of 4+ Rating and Clinging To Mizuki's Question Mark

In general I don't know how possible it is to separate the trans experience from sexual abuse. I don't think you can, with stories told in the way Mizuki's is. People are Going to be extremely weird about anything of yours that they deem a sexual charm point, and it seems like that's especially true when you are a trans girl and they are cis men with entitled attitudes. So I think that certain lines in Mizuki's story are showing readers the tip of the iceberg wrt what she deals with

[jumpscaregoose]

tss is kind of a weird manga if you think about it. I've been doing that a lot

its main goal is to be a sequel to flowers, and in that a sequel to the original shaman king, but then you read it and that's. really just the tip of the iceberg. tss is already a confusing, messy story if you know what it's doing, but if you go into it only having read og shaman king and flowers (like I did the first time around) you are going to be so lost

takei has this habit of reusing characters and concepts in his work, he's been doing it literally since the beginning. if we're counting each one separately (including alumi), he's written five anna the itakos. the anna that shows up in butsu zone is almost identical to anna from the original oneshot. he does this reduce reuse recycle thing in shaman king too, most obviously with anna and gandhara. and of course this continues into the mainline sequels.

flowers is interesting in comparison to tss, because it is a shaman king sequel in the way you'd expect. it repeats many of the same characters and plot beats as the original (apathetic main character, itako no anna fiance, edgy rival with a goth older sister). hana even mentions a few times that he doesn't want to relive the same beats as his father. compared to tss, the prior work flowers draws on the most is shaman king. for a few chapters. because then we get yahabe.

yahabe is probably the cleanest copy paste into the shaman king universe, excluding butsu zone. it was a oneshot that wrapped itself up after clearly defining its premise while leaving room for the story to continue. except, instead of this continuation being a full yahabe serialization, we just get yosuke in shaman king. yahabe!yosuke and mankin!yosuke could exist on the same timeline, and with how the flowers anime reuses shots from the yahabe manga and ova, that feels like what's supposed to be canon. any deviations from the shaman king canon in yahabe itself can easily be explained away by yahabe being from yosuke's perspective as a non-shaman who doesn't know what the hell is going on. he integrates so cleanly into flowers I didn't even know he was from something else until earlier this year. the same thing applies to death zero, because I fully forgot that was a different thing while writing this.

so flowers has shaman king, and yahabe, and death zero, and it sets up the main plot. and then there's tss.

tss is completely incomprehensible if you haven't done at least 30 chapters of external reading.

or, it's comprehensible, but it's also bad. the reading experience is made so much worse if, for example, you haven't read ultimo and don't know how terrifying not-stan lee actually is. or how important the themes of ultimo are to tss itself. ultimo is a conversation on the objectivity of good and evil, in the same way tss is a battle of ideologies between gods. if you haven't read ultimo, the dong family comes out of absolute nowhere and make even less sense then they do with context.

and then there's senju. the page where senju, when asked what he's learned on his 40 (20 in real actual life) year journey, smiles and says he "can't save people after all" is probably my favourite moment in anything takei's ever written. the weight of that statement means nothing to the reader who's only come from shaman king, because the senju we see in shaman king is sati saigan's spirit ally and nothing else. "I can't save people after all" is an answer to the main thesis of butsu zone, an answer given decades after that manga was cancelled to a collection of readers who might not even know what that is. it's an impactful moment if you've read butsu zone, if you know how it was cut short before takei could take the story where he wanted, if you know the creator has been writing about the same things, about the state of the world and doing what's right and how there are no bad people who can see ghosts, for decades. it makes you think about the thing you're currently reading, the sequel to the one story that author told that made it, that got to say its piece.

because takei's work is kind of cursed. his manga are frequently cancelled, his oneshots never picked up for serialization. the magazines his sequels run in getting cancelled themselves, leaving his stories in limbo. even shaman king, his most successful work, only got its true ending years after it concluded. there is so much in takei's work that has gone unsaid.

when senju stands in front of daremoine and says he can't save people, it's satisfying. it may have been what takei set out to write in 1997, or maybe it was something he thought of in the years between, but either way. this is the ending of butsu zone. this is how its theme's conclude. in the sequel to the sequel of a manga from which its original protagonist was a side character, and underdeveloped plotline. and when you've read butsu zone, it feels good, it feels complete. it hits you like a ton of bricks

this is why I think flowers and super star lose people. because they aren't sequels to shaman king. they're sequels to everything takei has ever written.

to get the most out of super star, you need to have read not only shaman king and its spinoffs, not only flowers, but butsu zone and ultimo and yahabe. hell, to understand shaman king you need to have read mappa douji, or the entire ending falls flat on its face

if you lean into it, this creates an interconnectedness to takei's work, a sense that what you're reading right now is a part of something bigger. whatever is being contemplated currently ties into a much larger conversation about society and morality spanning one man's entire career.

if you don't, you get... a bunch of messy stories. tss makes no bloody sense half the time. ultimo is insane enough on its own, and you're supposed to keep track of that and all the little changes that fit it into this timeline? not to mention the flaws in takei's writing itself, how he tends to pace things weird and leave gaps in his stories, all of it makes tss specifically pretty inaccessible to the average reader.

what is there to take away from this?

I'm not sure, really. I love tss, a lot actually. I enjoy the sense of discovery that comes with engaging in this twisted knot of a story. I think that if you tried to read tss with only shaman king and were frustrated, you should check out yahabe and ultimo and especially butsu zone and try again. you might still think it's a mess, but I think it's worth it to see if that's what lost you

but I know that's also a big ask, that's over 80 chapters of manga to read just to have the backstory for the insane stuff in tss. not everyone's up for that, and that's fair

do I think tss would be more accessible if it only drew from shaman king? yes. do I think it would have been better?

no

[wisteria-lodge]

I really like your blog! I had a question I've been wondering and wanted to hear more thoughts from others in the fandom who are critical of JKR. Do all people with gender dysphoria count as trans or nonbinary? What steps should they take to get help if they're distressed about their gender? I have a friend who is really dysphoric IRL and I'm not sure how to help them.

First things first. I'm going to define some terms.

BIOLOGICAL SEX

What you have in your pants. I'm not a biologist, so I can't get into too much detail - but I do know that while we generally use "male" and "female" as big catch-all categories, it gets a lot more complex and interesting when you get down into it. Male seahorses get pregnant. Clownfish can change their biological sex. Human intersex people are both pretty common, and only the tip of the iceberg.

I've always liked the "Staticians Creed" - "All models are wrong, but some are useful." Basically - we're trying to understand the world, we like patterns and we like to sort things, and a lot of the times those are useful for getting your head around something. 'Male' and 'Female' are useful categories... but I know that sometimes biologists will use "Breeding Type A" and "Breeding Type B" in situations where "Male" and "Female" don't track all that neatly.

GENDER PRESENTATION

But all of that is... honestly not super relevant on a day-to-day basis, because you can't know for sure what someone has in their pants just by looking at them. What you're actually looking at is someone's gender presentation. How they decide to dress, wear their hair, move, speak. I once saw a comedian (George Carlin?) do a bit on how there are some words - like "wonderful" and "aqua" - you only hear women use (and if a guy says them, you think he's effeminate/gay.) Obviously stuff like that depends a lot on location, dialect, etc. But there are gendered ways of speaking, he's completely right about that.

You hear the phrase "gender is a social construct" a lot, and it doesn't mean that gender isn't real, it means it's a thing that humanity decided on. Like money. Or the seven-day week. All that comes from history and anthropology, not science. Mostly we've decided on the two genders, but there are plenty of cultures that have three. And gender signifiers... look. Any 'girly' thing you can think of - wearing pink, high heels, long hair, skirts... I can name you a culture/time period that considered all those things extremely masculine. Fashion affects everything - beauty standards, ideal weight, and gender presentation too.

GENDER DYSPHORIA

So maybe in a sci-fi world where everyone wore identical baggy silver jumpsuits and there were no gender signifiers, there would also be no gender dysphoria. I have no idea. But we do in fact live in a society, like the Joker says, and in the society we live in, your gender presentation matters a lot. It affects how people treat you, what they expect of you, sometimes even what laws apply to you and what jobs you can get. Gender gets very bound up in identity, and it sucks when you feel like your internal truth isn't being projected out and recognized by the people around you. Woman who lose their hair or their breasts often suffer from a kind of gender dysphoria, and so they get wigs and boob jobs. Men who grow breasts after being on steroids suffer through a similar thing.

There's all kinds of study and debate over how things like "personality traits" come into existence, but I would say that a person is a collection of qualities, and depending on the person those qualities fit more easily into the "male" bucket or the "female" bucket. Of course every "male" will have "female" qualities as well, that's not news. That's what the little dot in the ying/yang symbol is suppose to symbolize, and "integrated anima" has been a thing since Carl Jung. But in general.

So I would say that gender dysphoria can be felt for reasons other than being trans or nonbinary. I also think that you can be trans/nonbinary and not gender dysphoric. Kind of a "yeah, if I could press a button and change my gender and have no social consequences I would, but I like the one I've got as a second choice just fine."

Gender dysphoria is absolutely brutal when it does hit though. If you've got a friend who is struggling with it... first, I'd compliment any change in their appearance they make. If they grow their hair out, cut it, paint their nails, start shopping in the other section of the store. It's lonely and scary to start experimenting with a new identity. Depending on my relationship with them, I would probably offer to take them shopping, or do their makeup, nails, or hair if that's something I think they'd like. Invite them to 'boys night' or to 'girls' night.'

I'd also ask if there's a nickname or alternate name they'd like to be called. You could make it a fun thing - pick out a name for yourself too. A friend of mine used "Captain" as a name/pronoun for a while, before committing to he/him and Bryce. Another friend was NJ and they/them before picking Nicole and she/her. I know people who are "'they' like both" "'they' like I don't really care either way" "'he' like an evil supercomputer from the 60s'" "'she' like a ship." I'd also see if there's any kind of of gendered address they don't like. "Bro" can be pretty gender neutral... but it isn't everywhere. Some people are fine with she/her, but absolutely hate being called "Ma'am."

Personally, I think it's wonderful and beautiful when identity can be approached in such an interesting way. I also think that the question "I feel weird in my body - maybe my gender presentation is off" is a far better and more useful question to ask than "I feel weird in my body - maybe I'm too fat."