#this is some messed up shit lmao but there's no point me not being honest

[westanleovaldito]

Leo Valdez x enby!reader? Preferably a child of Hermes? :)

RAAAAHHHH THANK YOOOOUUU

Due to lack of specifics, I'm just gonna do some general headcannons if you dont mind ^^

ʚ yall are always scheming. Wether it be what/how to steal next, a prank, or just overall not mr. D approved bullshit.

ʚ oh you chaotic little shits >:)

ʚ also he puts you on the most important job ever

ʚ youre his gopher >:) he has you deliver things to/for him!!! Its probably a lot cuter in my head but like-

just chillin on a creeper next to his next project, drifting back and forth out of boredom. At some point, he looks over with a sigh.

"Mi amor?" He spoke, watching you perk up. "Would'ya do me a massive favor and head back to my cabin for some bigger ball bearings? I think-"

ʚ youre already gone tho :/ off in search of... being helpful ig? I mean, who wouldnt be at this mans beck and call???

ʚ alsoalsoalso!!! He makes you a little pocket watch that has an automatically set timer that you set when/if you put on bindings!!!

ʚ he asks you which spanish pronoun youd prefer since the language doesnt really have gender neutral terms

ʚ Or if you want, he uses both genders interchangably because hes so great and smart like that

ʚ depending on how androgynous you look and how bad your dysphoria can get, he likes to think of compliments that sound weird out of context that are almost inside jokes

"You look very forest witch, goblin spawn today, mi guapo~"

ʚ also i feel like yall would take random walks?? He just follows you around while you wander- i assume youre good at wandering bc hermes kid???

ʚ hed probably try to make you some flying shoes but im not sure how hermes would feel :<

ʚ oh and back on the enby thing, he messes up your pronouns sometimes, but i SWEAR this man is trying. Hed also correct people

ʚ once he used a gendered pronoun while correcting someone, like that one meme? Yeah you SO know the one :)

ʚ and if your dysphoria gets you down, hes always there, always tellin you how handsome you are if you feel too fem or vice versa.

ʚ hes trying lmao. His trauma makes him feel like if he gets it wrong, youre out the door. (Woah cali great observation)

ʚ but you gotta assure him that youre staying :'( just give him lots of affirmations and be patient ok kiddo?

Sorry its short yall

I gotta be so honest idk if i headcannon him as trans or not :/ like, it makes SOOOO much sense and i love ftm leo with my WHOLE HEART but i cant tell which one just... IS leo to me??? I can honestly see it both ways im just on the fence and i need to be swayed >:(

[artisticxlly]

Kamomedai vs Karasuno; My thoughts

Yet ANOTHER long post about it, so I can get my thoughts onto digital paper. This will be heavily focused on Hiruhoshi, as announced lol

I'm also going to limit this to thoughts I think are less common/more worth mentioning (also for the sake of keeping this at an acceptable length lmao)

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Both of them giving each other props, yet not really directly lol. Very cute

Him not liking the nickname the immovable is fair, but when it comes to Hinata it does fit thematically. As in: I'm not going to move just because you're flailing around a bait in front of me. This is said in a panel but I'm saying it anyways. Also, in my eyes, it contrasts Hoshiumi, who is undeniably fast and adaptable.

It's definitely an interesting point that Sachirou makes about not being phased by Hinata's antics, but I think that he also will straight up not look at Hinata with the intention of frustrating him. He makes straight eye contact with Tanaka while blocking his hit (which is terrifying) but when Hinata is in front of him his eyes stay purely focused on the ball. Ignoring the Karasuno's decoy, jeez. Takes some skill.

What did I say? Words of affection are out, words of defamation are in!

I love that this is something uniquely Hoshiumi and Sachirou get, when directed at one another. Jabs and honest observations aren't interpreted as insults to them.

Actually, if we take that and look at Sachirou's backstory, it makes sense? In two possible ways, actually. For one, he wouldn't feel insulted by someone pointing out his mistakes because duh, that is engrained in his mind anyway. His whole perspective was about finding the places where he lacked, finding the reason for his mistakes and fixing them. It's not a surprise to him, neither is it untrue. He isn't proud of mistakes but he won't deny them either.

But also, it shows just how much he took Kourai's advice. The whole philosophy of things not being so serious, that failure or diverging from a path isn't a death sentence. Mistakes aren't a total evil, so pointing them out shouldn't be an insult, either. It doesn't matter if they happen, but perhaps what they can do to improve upon it.

Either way, them not sugar coating things is so romantic you don't understand /hj (also anyone who ISNT them won't understand because they didn't witness their first 'on screen' interaction)

I'm totally not crying about Asa and Kourai watching volleyball games together while he was still little, nuh-uh.

Also Asa being a 'tough-love' mom is both sweet and just makes a WHOOLE lot of sense to me. Kourai takes after her a lot, I'd say. The bluntness, yet it's all out of care. "I will tell you when you're being an idiot, it's not only because you are but also because I care for you" is a sentiment that happens with both of them! Asa's is a sillier one, telling Kourai and Akitomo to play outside, and with Kourai stopping Sachirou from hurting himself and telling him to quit, while STILL handing him wipes to clean his knuckles. Ugh, that shit just kills me /pos

I love this conversation between Asa and Kourai a lot, but here's a thought: Despite how Sachirou's perspective is painted as 'harmful' in his backstory, it actually wouldn't be bad advice for Kourai in this point in time. "If you didn't win, you messed up somewhere. You didn't work hard enough" is too harsh, sure, but it's pretty much what Asa says, too. Hard work can overcome challenges that we might refrain from because they simply seem impossible to overcome, or failure seems inevitable.

Kourai doesn't need to hear Sachirou's advice/perspective from him specifically since Asa provides the same sentiment here, but it's interesting to me that Sachirou's and Kourai's respectice perspectives about things actually compliment and benefit each other.

This panel truly demonstrates that they recognise each other's growth, too. Sachirou embracing imperfections as part of life and Kourai embracing the 'perfectly unfair fairness' of life. (I mean come on, that smile?? Sachirou is proud, he has seen Kourai's journey from the start).

Both of them grow to accept imperfections in life, insecurities that haunted them for a certain time. They have a really strong relationship, learning from each other in that way.

They also know how the other thinks. Or at least with Sachirou, we have very clear instances. Here it's Sachirou knowing that Hinata's compliment went right to Kourai's head, but this happens AGAIN in the timeskip (quoting from memory here: "that bump was amazing, though Im sure he only gave himself 70 points" - Sachirou. And he's right on the DOT).

Because tumblr has an image limit, I'm posting a second part!

[aviradasa]

I got you 🖤 to make this authentic I smoked a fat ass blunt just for you anyways I did the characters you requested plus a few extra and I decided to do small HC/ drabbles cause I have to many imagines atm 🤣 anyways also I added nuada from hellboy 2 cause he's pookie all the way @horny4bj-blog

Characters included:

Hellboy (2004)

Prince nuada ( hellboy 2, 2008)

Daryl (Alexandria timeline)

Sam (supernatural)

Dean (supernatural)

Castiel (supernatural

Lucifer (supernatural)

Let's get startedddd

Different characters react to you stoned/couch-logged

Masterlist

Hellboy:

Honestly was not surprised when he walked into him room one day to it smelling entirely of weed. Honestly he was mostly impressed because not only did it smell. But when the door opened all that came out was smoke.

Like damn.

When he went to venture further he was also not surprised when he saw you sprawled out on the couch with like 6 cats laying on you.

You didnt register him calling your name until he threw a candybar at your face

This is pretty much how it went

“Hey???” “…” “Hellooo??” “…” “Hey!” “Ow fuck what do you want.” you say as you open the candy bar and take a bite

Honestly he doesn't really care but he expects you to share you weed with him. If you don't he will lowkey just take it without asking and deal with you later. (no he won't pay you back hes always magically broke when you ask him to 😒)

As for you being on the couch he tells you to move over. If you don't he moves you himself.

He finds it funny to mess with you when you get to the point when you think everything is in slow motion And your basically not registering anything the way your supposed to

Like one time yall played Uno. And you were at the point you couldn't even read the cards and you were slumped over leaning on the back of the couch like a corpse thinkin the number 6 was the funniest shit on earth

And what did he do.convinced you to give him your cards so he could read them to you.in your state you agreed. That prick (this is based off a true story i have a lot of these adafia if you see this. Fuck you I should have one that game 🖕)

Yeah naw i dont have much for him he's just an asshole who also smokes so he don't really care yall end up watching a lot of movies though.

Nuada:

Now he's interesting with this idea lmao

He's confused as fuck cause he don't really do shit that could alter his mind, he want to stay sharp and ready for anything (boring fuckaaaa)

He at first acts like a disappointed mother

“ now why would you go and do this to yourself knowing what we have to do.” “because I'm a whole ass adult and it makes it more fun.” “that's besides the point (name)” part of a real argument yall had at one point

Yeah like don't get me wrong he doesn't hate weed he just thinks it makes you act dumb

He's lowkey right though

But anyways back to the prompt. When he walks in and your just spaces out in your bed he just shakes his head and goes to do what he needs to do.

If you are logged somewhere is his way this man with nudge/kick you with his foot until you move and if you don't he will just use his foot to roll you out of the way.

He acts like he doesn't care and to be frank he doesn't have the energy to put into caring about something so dumb so he leaves you alone.

But then there was the one time that he accidentally ate an edible.

He took that shit like a champ though and was able to function decently, but for the most part he was just chillin just silently staring off into space

He says he would never do that again. But you decide not to say anything when you notice some of your edibles missing.

Bro thinks he's slick 🤣🤣

Sam:

Ok gonna be honest his brother is dean. Need I say more

He knows what to do he pulls up with the munchies and some red box movie

If your slumped on the couch this man will sit on the floor

Y'all can talk for hours even if he is sober

Or you pass out from him typing on the computer cause I mean that sound is just relaxing.

Honestly don't have much for him he's just a chill guy

Dean:

He don't walk in

He's slumped with you on the other side of the couch

He eats all the damn munchies

He refuses to watch anything besides old Scooby doo reruns.

(he has a crush on the hex girls)

He's literally just a grown up child when he's high (not much different then normal)

Yall are laughing high people

The jokes are hilarious

Cass

He walks in and sees you on the couch looking half dead and he's confused

Like really confused

“Are you ok?” “huh?” are you ok??” “HUH??” “nevermind.”

He doesn't know what to do so he does nothing 😭😭

If you ask he will get you snacks

He's kinda hard to talk to so if you are laughing its at him not knowing anything

(these are getting short cause of my beautiful bong so its not my fault blame daisy that's my bongs name.)

Lucifer:

Ok let be honest here

He's lucifer he's hilarious

If you wanna feel like your gonna suffocate from laughing then he's your guy

He doesn't even try to be funny he just says out of pocket shit.

All the time

I haven't seen much of his character yet but he's already a favorite

I don't think he would light up with you unless you peer pressure him

Yes you have to peer pressurethe damn devil to smoke the devils lettuce with you.

If yall do he just spaces in and out while your on your phone on that couch unmoving

But during this spacing in and out he just says weird shit

I dare you to show him the dark crystal afterwords tho just trust me.

Daryl:

This man could not give less of a fuck

He's used to seeing people on all sorts of shit so some weed don't scare him

He just goes about his day

He will sit and chat with you

He's a horrible high sitter tho

If you get to high he's your worst nightmare

Will throw fake spiders and shit at you knowing your on that couch to see you jump

He's lowkey funny tho 🤣

He might smoke with you once in awhile

It's rare tho he's more of a drinker

Anyways that's all for today hope you enjoyed dis shitz

Edit: sorry I sounded like a fuckin idiot here also sorry I forgot Crowley and carol 😭😭 I wrote for nuada took a break forgot it was nuada and gaslit myself into thinking I wrote for Crowley 🤣🤣

didnt mean to but its really late and I'm to lazy to write for them rn so I hope you enjoy what I got down please forgive me🖤🖤 also sorry nuadas there you didnt ask for him I was just living it up with daisy at that moment.

[starbuckaroo]

Sorry I know this is going around a lot rn but anyone who wants to say ANYTHING about bad parenting on this show and wants to talk about Eddie mf Diaz can eat a fucking dick UNLESS they can show me they’re not being hypocritical and can show me their posts that rip Athena apart. Fucking hell.

I will preface this by acknowledging that ofc there’s absolutely no way I can know what it’s like to be a black woman raising a black child. I never can. I do have some personal experience with raising a black boy in the US, though, so the episodes with Harry have always hit me really really hard, and usually because I always want to mcfucking scream at Athena for the way she allows her career indoctrination to harm her children.

Yeah my main gripe with this show always always boils down to “Athena quit your job” bc I can’t stand her anymore tbh. She would have stayed an interesting character IF at some point in s4-5 thereabouts she started to have doubts about the system and they did something interesting with that

OR

If they would allow the literal actual conflicts of interest to crop up and let her be a fucking antagonist. Let Bobby struggle with his ethical evaluation of a scene and his marital obligations. Let May struggle with learning and growing away from her childhood home and wrestle with what her mom continues to do. And let that storyline with Harry this season actually carry the fucking heavy and heinous weight that it truly has. It turns my stomach honestly like I had to stand up and walk away, and let me sister tell me when it was over so I could go sit back down.

But the apologism is what is so unforgivable. Like don’t get me wrong, I love the hell out of this show and it’s my full on hyperfixation and has been for years, but its top billed character has been nigh unwatchable for most of the last few seasons. The narrative trying to sell me that she’s one of the protagonists, that she doesn’t have to struggle meaningfully at all about what she does for a living or to her family, and I’m supposed to swallow that without protest? Nah. Can’t happen.

I liked her character a lot in the first three seasons tbh against my better judgment! I was expecting to hate her from day one but I was sold, actually. Michael leaving the show kind of tanked her character, I think, maybe. I think it was their dynamic that made her interesting at first, and then sympathetic later on when she really was trying to make their blended unconventional family work despite her upbringing. But honestly once Harry aged into teenagerdom and Michael left and May graduated it meant there was like…nothing left about Athena that was interesting except her job except that’s actually the worst part about her lmao woopsies.

Anyways. Let Athena be a villain or at least an antagonist. That would fix everything tbh. It would make her interesting again, it would be in character given how many ethical messes she’s caused or been party to, and would allow the show to keep doing their dumb copaganda shit that they’re almost certainly contractually obligated to shove in at least once per season. But it would finally be interesting because it wouldn’t feel like I was being asked to swallow bullshit covered in glitter spray. Maybe they could explore her toxic relationship with her mother and how engaging so heavily and perpetually with respectability politics has done damage to herself (and her parents and her ex husband and her children) over the years. Maybe her magical fairytale white lady boss at the precinct can actually act in character for once and pls god I would just like. I would sell a kidney for a real and honest Athena Quit Your Job plotline. Fuck. They could even take the coward’s way out like they did with Eddie’s military service and just have her quit for some random reason so ethics never actually has to be part of the conversation but neither would we have to deal with the copaganda all the time. You know Angela Bassett would act the fuck out of that kind of complicated character. It would be a real conflict instead of whatever contrived nonsense they’ve been putting on her this season.

Anyways this really fucking got away from me but I’m just not willing to hear a fucking WORD against single dad Eddie fucking Diaz unless the speaker has already done their bit about Athena and they’re just making their way through the line.

Except

I don’t actually want that bc We Know Why they’re saying that shit about Eddie and if they ever opened their mouth about Athena I don’t even really have to wonder about what sort of racist bullshit might fall out. Those aren’t the people I want attempting to critique Athena Grant. So actually yeah can everyone just shut the fuck up.

Myself included.

[decepti-thots]

in lieu of tf fanon, can we all just agree that the fanon around seekers is just WAY too pervasive???? genuinely. why is seeker fanon Like That. why are seekers sometimes treated as a whole exotic subspecies. i feel like people got too attached to starscream, looked at the silly color swapped jet models due to budget in the original 80's cartoon, and just decided to invent a new kind of weird robot racism. sorry that this is on the bitchery side of anons but weirdly set-in-stone fanon stuff like seekers is what turned me off from reading tf fanfic

The answer to this, that is 'why is seeker fanon Like That', is gonna by necessity involve some discussion of NSFW stuff so I will cut this. But it's kinda. Necessary for the topic, lmao, so. And I do think it's worth actually going through ig. I've seen a lot of folks recently express this exact irritation and confusion, so...

OK so the honest answer: a good chunk of it's just fetish porn tbqh. And people, they are horny for those jets, lmao, and Starscream, exactly. Kink with some worldbuilding scaffolded around it as setup. Which to be clear, when someone is straight up just like 'hi, here is some cheerfully self-aware kink about breeding and shit, do not read too hard into this fantasy nonsense as a coherent narrative- we are here for horny egg laying and the implications will not be expanded on beyond that' I am usually like 'yeah cool go for it!!', lmao. Not my thing, can still go places in execution I'm like 'uhhhh think this through better please' about ofc, but like. Kink's kink, and all. Pretend adult fun times engaged in with full self-awareness are fine, a lot of the time.

My irritation really comes with when this bleeds into stuff that is taking itself seriously and is uhhhh. Not that? Or when it's engaged in by people who clearly don't have a level of self awareness about the above. And the answer is... IMO it's just regular fandom racism tbh, with an extra layer of obfuscation over it because it's got the fantasy analogue thing disguising it. Some people enjoy a lot of tropes that derive from certain strands of commercial genre romance, and honestly a lot of classic SFF as well, that are based in things they do not fully realise are rooted in racism, or any number of -isms tbh. And there's also a lot of people who sort of do notice, but they still want to keep enjoying those things without guilt, so they try and take the underlying logics and apply them to fantasy constructs or whatever in the hopes this will make the thing they like Not Racist. (Spoiler alert: the issue is rarely who the tropes are applied to alone, and this basically never works, because humans have pattern recognition and know how analogies work.)

People like stories about Scary Barbarians, or Submissive Sexually Exotic Androgynes, or whatever. And then someone points out 'yeah but mate, those are racial stereotypes, have you heard of orientalism' or whatever, and people feel bad but they sort of. Want to keep enjoying those stories in a way that is not harmful! That strips out that element succesfully. So they try and write an alien fantasy version, but again. This doesn't actually work most of the time, tbh. Because humans have pattern recognition and the tropes, the logic underlying the ideas in the first place, are often the actual issue. Shrug.

And IMO, this is where you get 'biologically distinct races frametypes who are Just Naturally For Breeding' shit, or whatever other example I can pull out of the TF fanon hat, in ostensibly serious stories about geopolitical conflicts or serious personal drama, ones which expect you to engage with this as an actual framework for how a world could work and not just as a loose excuse for 2000 words of smut. It's not as though canon is totally immune to this to be clear- ask me sometime about how I feel about the mess that is functionism being an analogy for 48563 things, lmao- but fanon is more pervasive because you're contending with decades of this stuff being super pervasive in fandom spaces and it becoming standard for fic. We were having discussions about this exact stuff like. When I was 15 on LJ, lmao. And it wasn't new then! I don't think it's anything unique; it's just got those extra layers of abstraction to sort through in terms of 'why IS this happening with these fuckin planes'.

[jeonqkooks]

I missed you too!!! 🫶 haha I bet. It was the universe bringing us back together again 😌 I've been alright, nothing out of ordinary happened lately so that's cool. Working (except for today and tomorrow cause I had a few days off), been spending some time with my little nephew- he's 3 and such a cutie 🥰 I almost got baby fever but then I came back to my senses lmao.. but yeah, that's what I've been doing, ohh and I also have to move out of the place where I live now, in march 🥲 it is what it is..

Idk what's been happening with your blog or the people around here but my best advice is to just ignore them.. not sure if you're aware but we're kind of a mess rn, everywhere you look on sm, in this fandom, someone's always fighting 😶 Maybe do what you think it's best for you. I don't like it either when someone's trying to control my every move like "you gotta do this, you gotta like that, you cannot! say stuff like this" , ofc interactions wouldn't even be fun anymore so what's the point of having this place dedicated to something you like if *some* people are acting up.... If you feel the need to step away from it for some time I wouldn't blame you. And you can still enjoy whatever content you like without someone always breathing down your neck, you know. See now I started rambling and I don't even know the context of your anger 🤣🤣 but my advice is still the same> just ignore them..

But what does it mean "someone from inside the house"?? There's more tea??? 👀 *drags the chair closer*

Also, just so you know, anger issues aren't any better even if you're 5'6..... I'm the type of person to try to be calm and hold it together for as long as possible and then one day I just explode and almost bite everyone's head off 😮‍💨 that's on unexpected tmi 🤪

- 🎃

“but then i came back to my senses” PUMPKIN 🤣🤣 you’re too real for that lmao. you’re moving out in march? how’s the apartment hunting going?

yeah tbh lately i’ve been pretty quiet on this blog so not a lot is happening in terms of broader fandom interactions so thankfully no one’s fighting on the blog as of late (knock on wood, knock on wood, knock on wood). so yeah things have been simmering elsewhere (starts with obs and ends with something that rhymes with “murder” lmao) for A While and honestly i had unresolved feelings about that that i’ve just been trying to brush off (bc it’s literally over the stupidest thing) but smth just really set me off this past week lol. then i found out even more things to be mad about

you build a house with rooms for everyone to cater to their own shit. then you renovate another room for you to do your niche lil thing and people demonize you and burn your fucking house down and scurry off to another house that they built god knows when (god does know when) and still question why you’re not making more effort to put out the dumpster fire.

saurrr yeah, that’s been my past few days :D (and if we’re being honest, since october 23, 2023 too lmao)

[dirtyoldmanhole]

going through CQ has me thinking how corrin/gunter would progress if i had the stamina to write that route on top of YRMR (for revelation). :P

obviously, i'm not going to write another 120k fic. [stares meaningfully @ myself lmao] but here's the bullet points i've been playing with for those interested ~

in general, i think corrin has a much worse time in conquest, and gunter has a worse time in revelation. there's ups and down to rev with corrin, but his longer absence in CQ meant she truly thinks he was, like, for real dead. in yrmr/revelation, she was honestly so distracted with the hoshido/mikoto/dragon stuff that she shoved her grief aside for so long that he came back before it really hit. (unhealthy in a different way but it does keep her going).

i deleted the scene in the fic since it was a little maudlin/cheesy, but lilith feels like she'd be the only one to realize just how hard corrin grieved for him, that very first span of days in the astral plane (in both routes).

cq!corrin, bluntly - feels like she's being constantly broken with the "tests" of loyalty that garon and iago force her through, so there's a lot harsher of an element to keeping her stoic game face on, much earlier. i think she honestly just numbs herself to any and all emotion between that and the grief and basically all the "constants" in her life changing given the new war campaign "for" garon.

once corrin finally re-joins him in valla, she just. breaks down in ugly sobs in his arms. she's a mess, he's almost a mess, and it's kind of a good thing that reunion was mostly private.

ironically azura's the first to know about their... thing. i see the three of them staying in valla overnight to at least catch up on [plot shit] and to speak freely for the first time in like, ever, while recovering from minor wounds from that battle. he totally holds her by his side. uwu

(imagine if corrin had told azura offhandedly 'oh he was like my dad' a few weeks before much like micaiah/sothe's 'he's my brother' and then azura sees. them all but canoodling. lmao. 'if whatever your deal is familial i will eat my entire pendant')

post re-recruitment:

i also think their relationship would, surprisingly, progress much faster than even in the rev route. corrin seeks him out nightly just for him to hold her through the night terrors and in one of those nights, they uh.... stumble into the sex, heh.

i also, hah, think it'd progress a lot "harder" in the kink sense - as mentioned above, corrin has a shitty, shitty time in CQ's route, and i think she'd seek him out as somebody she can safely 'break' with in those scant moments of uncomplicated happiness. cough [nods meaningfully @ the recent 'gunter is totes a sadist' headcanon] cough

i don't think he actually ever tells corrin about his late wife until after the war, or his whole motivation for killing garon. it's..... not great, in ways i actually feel like their relationship in yrmr/rev route is more open/honest? their dynamic in CQ is more ... two shellshocked veterans finding that spark of happiness and nonverbal trust in private vs in the middle of some truly crushing awfulness where they both have to keep their 'game face' on in public.

lategame:

so the thing is. i think kana's an accident in CQ vs them intentionally wanting a child post-YRMR, lol. (parts of it are funny ('oh shit what do you mean babies can still happen') and then parts of it are whiplash-y tragic when gunter's struggling with his feelings given his late wife/child. given he uh. hasn't told corrin about that yet. yeahhhh.)

i'm on the fence as to whether he blurts it out to her in the middle of all that (i can see their nastiest "fight" being here especially when hormones are going nuts, she's a little less patient with him than she is normally, and there's a lot of pressure there.)

corrin/gunter never actually outright tell anyone about their relationship (unlike in yrmr), even when kana's a thing. both of them really don't want iago and garon to be able to weaponise kana or their relationship - not that the stakes are higher here than in rev, per se, but there's much less margin for error. (kana knows who his parents are but is also instructed not to tell anyone, at least until before garon and iago are dead.)

tho i think azura explicitly knows because she'd be the one to suggest the deeprealms as a place for pregnant!corrin to go to for safety once when she can't hide it.

buuut it's obvious enough to the point when lilith dies in the eternal staircase that xander & co just give corrin to him immediately afterwards all 'make sure she doesn't crack ok'. she regresses a bit there - gunter actually gets to see a glimpse of what she was like before; just.... completely dead eyed. (i actually have an old piece of art that was one of my very first gunter/corrin strips that's just that entire scene. need to finish it.)

to that point i think lilith's death also hits hard because out of anything that's been a "constant" loving presence for corrin, it's the northern fortress gang. and lilith was iirc the one person to be there pretty much continuously even when corrin went over in hoshido.

interestingly i also think that gunter is ... while he's still focused on seeing garon dead, he kind of knows this is corrin&azura's endgame plan anyway, so he puts himself more as an advisor/supportive figure to help make it happen. he's quite good with long term planning, and i don't think anankos would have near the hatred or hold on him as happens in revelation.

anyway i haven't figured out post-endgame stuff yet (i totally want to see how anankos slots into this since the silent dragon still has a number of negative feelings to pull off on with gunter) but there ya go ~

[the1975attheirverybest]

I know you probably don't want people to vent to you, but I just had a close friend put me down for liking Matty and it's kinda messing with my mood. They said it was "kinda fucked up" that I liked him. They are a good friend and this kinda came out of nowhere and now Im sad. I know he says some bad stuff sometimes, but my life is so chaotic rn and my enjoyment of this band and Matty is kinda a reprieve from my life. I just don't want them to think I'm a bad person. I don't believe that Matty is bad, but some people don't see that and only assume the worst, and then I feel like the asshole.

- 🦝

Hey, listen, you can ALWAYS vent to me! Promise!!

Also, like, who else are you supposed to talk to? People who don’t know Matty/the band kinda won’t get this sort of thing. Only other fans do! So, this is totally fine.

And, yeah, to be honest, I used to get that a lot. From my sister even! Like, she’s really into punk and emo music. Like really hardcore shit. She does NOT like the 1975, lmao. Even though I’ve told her a thousand times that if she likes punk, she’d love Matty. Cuz he’s legit more punk than whatever bands she likes these days…the genre has devolved into a parody of itself, you can’t really do punk in punk anymore…BUT I DIGRESS!! My point is, she gets all of her impressions of Matty from Twitter. And, we all know what Twitter thinks of Matty. Like, when the podcast shit was going down, she was texting me screenshots everyday like “this is your Matty Healy?” It made me really sad.

It’s difficult cuz it’s not the same type of thing as when people make fun of me for, like, liking Harry Styles. They just think Harry isn’t a “real musician” (whatever the fuck that means) but, with Matty, some people actually think he’s a Nazi!!!!! Like my sister and I got into it a bit cuz she was like “If you’re fine with Matty Healy…I feel like you’re the type of person to end up in a toxic relationship cuz you’ll just let men say shit.” BUT, my thing is, she’s my sister. She knows me. She knows the millions of ways that I stand up for my students when our department policy is discriminatory against some of them. She knows my personal politics and who I am. So, if she can’t give me the benefit of the doubt and/or realize that, if I like Matty, then there must be something about him that PERHAPS! Twitter isn’t showing her??? Then we are in a sorry state as a society. You know?

Besides, I know lots of people say they wish Matty would tone it down for the sake of the rest of the guys and/or the band’s general image, but, I think that’s exactly why he doesn’t what he does. He’s asking for a little more nuance and real thought in debates around art. He doesn’t want art to become sterilized, corporate-friendly, performative activism, cuz art is where real thought and real resistance happens. And if there’s no space in it for push-back, then we lose as a society. So, the way I see it is, the fact that not everyone loves him, that he’s not another Harry Styles or whatever, is proof that he’s right and it’s working. You could try and explain that to people? Some people will get it, some, like my sister, will be like “yeah, sounds like you’re being brainwashed by a dude” … her loss honestly, cuz Matty has given me so much courage and joy and if she wants to dig in and miss out on it cuz punk Twitter can’t candle that Matty is more badass than them…then alright. She’s my sister and one of my best friends but she’s objectively wrong here lmao.

Bottom line is, they don’t have to love Matty but they love you. And if they do, they’ll understand who you are as a person is proof enough that you’re not a homophobe/Nazi/whatever the fuck the world misunderstands Matty to be. If they can’t see that, then, sorry but you may need a new friend? Hope that makes sense?

YOU CAN ALWAYS FANGIRL WITH US THOUGH 💗💗

[amb00bs]

Aaahh, I'm loving the pics from the springs! It looks so beautiful, and the water is so crystal clear. 😍😍 I love being outside, and I'm so jealous. We have rivers, lakes, and mountains where I live, but the rivers and lakes are never THAT blue and THAT clear.

I love to hike, kayak, fish, etc. Get my ass outdoors, and I'm in heaven. It's how I reset.

I've dated a couple of witches, and the witchy things intrigue me. However, I'm more into druidry. 🤗

Thrift store, antique stores, flea markets..... are all places I wouldn't mind spending my weekends. 😂 I use Facebook marketplace (modern yardsaling) entirely too much.

I am an introvert to my very core. Unless it's a concert/music festival, I don't want to be in a large ass crowd. Also, I went through a rough time, and the workers at the only gay club in town know me too well at this point. So, I prefer hanging out with friends around a fire. 🤣😂 I also enjoy disappearing for days at a time (my best friend calls it hobbit holing), and I only talk to my essential people to tell them essential things, like, I'm alive. 😂😂

The camping part of a music festival is ROUGH, and I fucking love camping. I always had our Bonnaroo site set up with a private shower, all the good camping stoves for meals, and a big ass fan. Yet, it still was absolutely miserable. My friends and I talked about doing a final hoorah and renting an RV for it.

I'm always down for music recs, and I do trust your taste now. So, sure!! I'm down. 😁

Thank you!!! I've been feeling so drawn to water lately, so any chance I can, I'm going to a spring. I wanna check out one's I've never been to, as a kid, my mom only took me to a select number of them, but florida has HUNDREDS of springs! I need to see them all!!! Lmao. But where are you from??? You said mountains, and I perked up, we don't got those here in flat ass florida 👀 and I haven't gone kayaking since high school, and that was the first time I've gone lolllll so I really wanna try that. Or paddleboarding. It sounds so fun!

And ooooo what is druiddry??? I don't think I've heard of that?? Im still a newbie with the witchcraft thing, so I don't practice often. But I just love the things I've learned so far. It's so freaking cool and fun hahah

I also use market place often, but my algorithm is messed up and I don't see anything cool other than rvs and places for rent 🥲 I need to fix it to see what cool shit is around. But yesssss my mom always took me thrifting and to yard sales/flea markets as a kid. I grew to love that shit myself lol!

And dudeeeeeee, I camped at Electric Forest and Imagine (with a big group) and I still couldn't enjoy it. I was miserable. I love the aspect of meeting neighbors and hearing all the wooktivities, and going to afters. But I need a proper bed and shower. An rv honestly sounds like a great solution!! But I know renting them isn't cheap, and getting an rv pass can be difficult since tickets for them are limited! But I hope you are able to do that! That sounds like a blast!

And yeah, lately I've been seeing my friends every weekend, but during the week, I'm to myself and take a business day or two to text back. So I get it 😂 and okay!!!! I send send you some mixes. That will probably be easier than sending a whole set of songs. Do you use soundcloud? Here's a Svdden Death mix back from 2020 when we only had digital raves online lmao: https://on.soundcloud.com/zA3dD

And a heavy mix from mvc 10:

https://on.soundcloud.com/vcXNq

They are long, so take your time listening. Maybe on a work commute or while cleaning lol. And if you don't like it, be honest! I can help you find other stuff you might like instead.

[egcdeath]

first of all your thoughts on patrick's honesty being stifled in succession au are so true and interesting because it's such a core part of who he is and what makes him such a great character but!! imagine him losing that over time once he gets involved with the business... like part of why you fell in love with him in the first place despite him being a mess when you met was how honest and raw he is (like how shiv can be) and then you watch that slowly go away over time, even within your relationship, once the succession plot kicks in and it hurts you because it marks a shift in your dynamic especially once you're on opposing sides. also idk how i hadn't put this together earlier but calling specifically josh o'connor's earlobes thick and chewy like barnacle meat... it's perfect.

emotional crutch is absolutely what you are to each other because yes the way tomshiv came together after logan's plane incident (lol) despite literally saying "this is it" about their marriage to each other and the outward appearance of divorce and talking shit about each other is absolutely the core of the marriage and it makes me feel crazy!! like even with all the tension and issues piling up and the marriage being doomed to implode from the start, that relationship and what you are to each other is still so important because nobody cares about him like you do and vice versa and he loves you the only way he knows how. and tom called shiv from the plane first TWICE!!! tom's perspective is also so interesting because we know he has a good relationship with his married parents especially compared to shiv so maybe how that night and day difference plays into the different ways you and patrick view children and romance and commitment and how you were the one to propose at the hospital because you thought it would be a "nice thing" (lmao) also carries over to the pregnancy and how you view parenting and how his fears affect the way you interact

and oh my god the taking the fall for jail thing... insane to think about because the depression tom had about it in s3 and how it altered his perception of shiv and the way he operated moving forward carrying over to you and the ambition you have for climbing up especially after going through that and especially if you were PREGNANT? and actually having physical connection to him and his family without him knowing? it's even crazier than shiv hiding it from tom

and for the kendallrava dynamic... i think art as stewy has a role in this relationship and tension because nobody brings out patrick's jealousy and insecurity like he does and he would stir some shit up if you were having relationship issues. it would contribute to patrick's repression of his emotions and like the blurring of art's involvement in your marriage and in the business at the same time would create such mess and of course nobody can communicate properly in the most toxic throuple of all time that never was. and the fact that you're totally removed from the business and the only reason you're still around is for patrick and your life together is very angsty and makes him basically fall to his knees for you not to leave him because the only reason you're here is him and what happens if he's not enough anymore?

also i have kind of been thinking about where tashi could possibly fit into all of this and the potential answer is right in front of my face but i totally missed it: tashi's kind of like nate. like imagine her and patrick having history and working really well together and the jealousy... ooh

(also i love you too we are on the same wavelength this is very fun <3)

it’s always such a treat to get one of these messages in my inbox 🙏🏽

all the love to josh o’connor but calling his earlobes thick and meaty and like barnacle meat is actually so funny and perfect so idk how i can NOT write that at this point!

i can see the theme of watching patrick lose his true sense of self because of all of the family politics working really well with either dynamic! i think with the kendallrava dynamic that’s just one more thing you have to watch him lose and realize that he really can’t even be honest with himself anymore, and i think with the tomshiv dynamic i can see patrick’s honesty being something you always found really refreshing from him and something that truly made him different from some of the other people you’ve been with, and you start realizing that you’re losing/lost it once it starts to become obvious to you that he’s getting caught up with his family and that it’s pretty possible that he’s having an affair. (also. tashi as nate? so extremely big brained)

the emotional crutch part is just sooo everything to me honestly. like these characters put each other through HELL. even after shiv lays into him a bit and is like we should get divorced they’re laying in bed together HOLDING HANDS!!! i’m just thinking about how devastating it would be for patrick to randomly stroll into your apartment to “grab clothes” (after you’ve just spent the day working with his father to try to undermine the deal he’s working on), wake you up, tell you that you look good, make comments about your love life, suggest that you should actually get divorced (even though you were holding onto a little hope that you could get past this), then end up in the same bed holding hands and talking about how you have it a go. nauseating. then not that later he finds out you’ve been going around to the best divorce attorneys in the city talking to them just so they can’t talk to him and how devastated he would be that you’re taking a page out of his own evil father’s book and kinda turning into him in a way. i love pain and suffering!

great points about their upbringing and how that changes the way they view things like having kids and marriage as a whole! i think reader probably always very genuinely wanted a family/stable marriage with patrick and the second that he tells her on her wedding night that he wants to try an open relationship kinda throws everything for a loop. i think she still holds out hope that their relationship will work out for strategy purposes but also because she really does love that man no matter how hard she tries to hide it! like i think maybe she’d suggest having a child while she thinks she might be going to jail for this scandal because she thinks she might get better treatment in jail if she’s pregnant but also because she actually wants his child!

i do think the taking the fall thing would probably be one of the final nails in the coffin on her side for their relationships. like that kind of betrayal would just be too much for her to personally handle. and you’re right, if she was pregnant already when that happened that would be even more devastating 😭

toxic throuple that never was patrick art and reader is very intriguing to me. except im actually going to say that art doesn’t even really want reader but he DOES want to stir shit up and make it more difficult for patrick to succeed with one more struggle he’s facing in life. i really do need to see patrick be pathetic and beg for you to stay and confess that you’re the only thing keeping him afloat and he doesn’t know what he’ll do without you, and you as reader knowing that the relationship is so bad for you but staying anyway because you love him. devastating stuff.

i know i already said tashi as nate is big brained but it really is. like just knowing of her and googling her a few times and finally meeting her right before your wedding and just knowing that patrick has very obviously been with her, probably pretty recently, is absolutely gut wrenching. maybe not worse than patrick’s sibling committing accidental vehicular manslaughter during the wedding but pretty damn bad.

ugh i love your brain!!!

[funniestsimpalive]

The barely thought a friend of mine told me that maybe I could be someone to my teacher, maybe just maybe he could like me in a cute way

Am so cringy for this

But seeing how he always sits in the chair and lay all his back to it, and as soon as the class gets interesting and we are not just reading, and sometimes I dare to participate, to see him now wanting to sit in his desk, where I can see him properly, I don’t think I mean shit, but then, that day I wasn’t really paying attention to him, and was just reading with the class, he got like bored, stared to the door and stood up, moved the chair and sat again, I eventually started talking now getting the topic a little bit better, and man stood again and sat on the desk.

Weird.

From some time it really felt man didn’t care he was married. Like. For real it felt like that.

I feel overall he’s weird, cause he stares so much at my place, and when talking shit out of topic and I get to explain he kinda points me with his hand as saying ok explain to me what’s going on.

Man is so smart, and I admire him for that, and I gotta be honest, I wouldn’t have dare to do, think, imagine SHIT if it wasn’t because of that friend of mine who just stalked him so fucking bad lmao

I feel guilty over thinking anything about him, even hard full complete admiration.

I mean, man is definitely like 15 years older than me. Why would he

I think he has expectations in me, cause when a student says something really stupid I’ve catch him (and I do too lmao) staring at me, like as if we could be in the same page, and I could feel the same shit as him, and how wrong someone is

How I could be in the same page as experience and knowledge if man is SO smart like why did I make it seem as if I was smart

I messed up since day 1

I admire him, and i see we agree in some topics, but man is living his life and am a kid who doesn’t wanna grow up, the fact that I don’t know how to defend myself and make others respect me puts me in an infinite childish box

I get so tired and well, for some good reason am dealing with what I am dealing

But the little bits of times I actually thought he liked me, was weird, so inappropriate. And I know it’s my fault, it’s my 14 year old fault because of choosing my personality and being so okay with loving the idea I could mean so little I could actually be liked by everybody, as if. I was crazy. And I realize, man is so much disrespecting me, checking to what point I would demonstrate interest, (as if, cause to get started, he’s my teacher and I do have the interest in learning, on the other side he has nothing to loose lol, man knows the topics and repeats every semester the same shit, he has so much free time to think about all my moves) idk I still think he could like me, but am not interested in being liked by someone who checked me, disrespected me, and would mean very wrong ideas I don’t wanna be related to. So wrong lmao

But I do remember thinking, realizing am being seen as an object, as a desire, as a dessert. Seeing I could be the other one to someone and to be okay with it, boils my blood. Of course I don’t have any place in a perspective to a man where If I stare for too long, if I desire to question shit out of class, and ask to get some personal project suppervised, I. Could. Mean. Anything. It’s so ridiculous!!! What the hell how could he started treating me as if I was special? I in any occasion actually felt like so, I was VERY conscious man was being inappropriate and treating me as his favorite, from one day to another he started waking right away after class, clearly avoiding me, AS IF I WAS STARTING SHIT!!?? My friend told me he probably realized he talked me in an inappropriate way in class and let to think he teached me something out of class which could led to weird stuff (not necessarily but yes? ) and didn’t want people to think anything, not that I actually did something,

He knows perfectly what am doing, and I don’t like it

He’s so weird

He knew where I worked and asked specifical questions to students that had similar jobs as me, and didnt ever addressed if I could answer anything, he for an instance when I raised my hand to ask something, and was starting the explanation with an example, said, you work in a n-, sorry where do you work? . For the record, I told his secretary student where I was working. They definitely talked about me some time, maybe that day, maybe recently, but he was about to mess up, and even when I answered the ambient was weird cause he put me in the spot cause I could have answer to all the questions he made, somehow he made sure I was avoiding to answer any of the shit he wanted us to talk about, and made me say where I work in front of everyone.

The other day gave me an extra point someone suggested, and when I gave him my last name he said, very unbothered, nah just tell me when class ends.

Which is as simple as that just weird.

But I told him, class has 4 minutes left ??? And he said, wait till it ends still

I had a cute outfit that day lmao (and I gotta admit I do take care to take my cutter outfits the days I have class with him) lmao

I got mad because everyone in class laughed. Like, am I being seen as desperate?? Does it seem as the teacher is my hard crush and I love and admire him and when he lets me down it’s funny???? Idk

But when I got close to his desk to tell him about my extra point man let me look for my name in his list, I had to lean so I tried to do it quickly, and he left his hand as if he was also looking, but like, my name is at the bottom and he didn’t even looked down, he was expecting my name appeared in the middle ?? Idk like was he pretending to look, cause when I realized he didn’t look for name properly, he was having a conversation with someone else, unbothered. And I thought to myself, did he smell my perfume? Was he nervous to have me so close, leaning on him a bit? Did he did this to take a close look up to my outfit? To get a chance I could wait until almost everyone else were gone? Did he did this cause he had very long time without seeing me very close to him? Is he avoiding me in some way because he realized he was maybe getting to close to me? Cause I remember his first posture and he was so confident and nice just being straight up in front of me. Man is tall, not that tall but I was wearing heels and still looked a bit up. Just the perfect size. Ugh. His hair. The way he blinks SO fucking much.

I gotta admit he has very beautiful eyes, very beautiful skin, and he seems a bit tired but very active, that’s why I wonder so much he would look like younger, I get surprised thinking his skin has very fainted freckles, man definitely doesn’t wear sunscreen

And that’s when I loose it. I can tell by his hands, man is hairy, very lmao. He has thick eyebrows, and his eyes are so deep dark and beautiful, and his eyelashes are also thick, and long, man has eyelashes, and freckles, and he looks so handsome and skinny, I have obviously and gotta admit it, imagine him without clothes lmao, I wonder what his hair after taking a shower looks like, and I deeply wish he could see my hair wet, so he can also get to know all the different normal-acceptable ways to be outside I look like, cause i saw his reaction when I wore glasses and he did stared at me like hmmm I kinda wanna know what he has to think about my red tinny glasses, which are way weirder.

I’ve seen him being quiet, staring at the void, and he looks so young, and so old to me obviously, I love him I guess, I like to see his thighs, which are not wide super big or tiny, man is just so fit, and also his arms are literally just normal, but I wonder what his shoulders look like, I wonder if naked he looks like a kid, like a teen I mean, like if I could see the bits of his young times still. And I wonder how it must feel to sit in his lap, which is obviously incorrect, must feel so warm of course, I wonder what his back looks like, and I wanna imagine it has freckles also, I wonder what kissing him while he’s laying and i’m on him must feel like, I can’t imagine his beautiful hands touching me, I literally can’t, but I have thought what being in top of him must feel. It gotta be me starting obviously cause I know he wouldn’t do me shit, I do think he has seen me in a cute way, he avoids looking at me literally every time I go to the restroom, he must think I do it in purpose which is so stupid lmao,

I just gotta imagine what man looks like laying in a bathtub where I could get to in top of him, I wonder what his love looks like. I think he would like my way of loving. Am just so stupid for him lmao, but I think we have similar values I guess. Am just so few for him literally, I have so much to be still.

I think his stare is the cutest thing about him, when I get to see his soul, his very self. I don’t care about what he could do me, make me, inspire me, that all I could do it for myself, but to see his smile, gotta instantly think what he must have looked like as a beautiful kid smiling. Ugh I love him I wish I could be something to him

Sometimes when am staring at him, I try to imagine what the rest of his body looks like, and it’s so hard cause he looks so handsome because man wears his shirts tight up to his neck, with a tight tie too obviously, and then I look at his feet, and his socks obviously also cover everything. He is so fine. For real. I wonder if he likes rough sex or cute vainilla. I would looooove to know what he does with his hands, with the tip of his fingers, what kissing and sitting in his lap while moving must feel, what his hands taking my waist must feel. I know he wouldn’t like it, it would be pure desire. The pure thinking of having a college student, to get her kiss you, I know and very deep know he doesn’t and couldn’t care about me

He is so much to me, he has a very complete perfect life I just gotta admit I’d love, I mean, I love to imagine what going to bed in any random regular day looks like, what his hugs feel. What having him being interested and take care of someone he loves looks like. I know I will never know that feeling, I imagine his face leaning on my head and his cheek resting on my head, while he demonstrates he’s being patient and caring with me.

Man is so handsome cause I’ve never seen anything of him besides his face, neck, hands, and that’s it. He is so formal.

I wonder if am attractive to him.

I just gotta say, sometimes he is way too confident lmao, excessively, that he leans so much on his back, he has his hands behind his back completely leaning on them, and I mean, we all, all the class could see his balls lmao. L m a o. And i realize, man doesn’t has the biggest dick, but definitely has the regular properly size for his height. I’ve seen his feet I know shit. But it’s so funny we all could see the exact size of his balls, which fit properly all of him. Lmao. It must be so funny to look at him naked lmao. He looks so young sometimes lmao. I looooove how young beautiful he looks. The way he’s always raising his eyebrows. Making hard statements. He has such balls like, he takes shit so serious. I’d love to never met him so I could have a one day something with him. I wonder what kissing him in the car while it’s raining must feel like. To take my hands to his pants.

I just remembered one time I literally could see he had his blazer a bit too open and I could see his waist kinda, and I thought I saw he had little belly rolls and I rewatched so hard because it was so weird to me to think of him like that, then I realized what his torso must look like and it’s so beautiful, with his forever everyday white shirt, and I mean, it was so funny some day he raised his hand I don’t remember how, I could see he was sweating, I mean, does he get nervous in class?? Why is that so cute and hot? And makes me want to touch his tighs while leaning my body between his legs, why does it makes me expect and wait for him to make some fucking shit as a first move? Why does it reminds me how lucky I feel to have class with him and have him all for me 4 hours a week? It was so cute thinking maybe we make him nervous, maybe from all the staring he gets with me could get a bit too much invested???? As if lmao!!! But like, even if he’s just regular nervous that’s also so cute of him 😫 man sweats. As like the people who not being in situations of sweating just start to sweat. It would be so cute to know he has that kind of health problems. So cute. Also, now that’s change of season, he came to class a bit sick, with a cold sore. It would be so cute he gets sick easily. So not of his rude strong way of being. I just admire him so much, he accepted to a student that has deep voice that he shouldn’t be shy about it because there’s people who would have liked to have so.!!!! He would have liked to have deep voice, even said there are people who wish didn’t have kids voice student! (As referring to himself<3) he’s so funny and smart and beautiful and a complete dream I just know that am all the opposite obviously

[thank-your-lucky-stars]

I’m about to post a mammoth essay about the Roles of Fandom, but just to prove that I’m not a total hypocrite who isn’t immune to the Fandom Game, I’m going to tell you the roles that I myself have played in fandoms over the years - and trust me, some of this is really ugly!!

I can actually say I’ve fit into several of the Roles I list in my post, at one time or another. I have been the Popular Blog (the nicer-version, I hope!), but I’ve also been a bit of a Troublemaker too (not in an extreme way, and only from time to time; I have definitely said slightly provocative things about a certain band or band member who I believed to be problematic in order to stir up a little debate. It was never about hurting or offending people personally, but it was definitely in order to get people talking.) I have been a “I’m Just Here to have a Good Time” blog, but I’ve never really been a Fence Sitter, although I guess there have been times where I may have dabbled in that area. I also tried to be The Peacekeeper, but....that never really worked out for me, that was definitely a forced role and not something I slipped into naturally, even though I am someone who strives for peace, that specifics of that role definitely wasn’t for me.

I have, however, been a Mean Girl. I wasn’t actually mean to anyone, but I was a part of a group that could be rather unpleasant (they weren’t like hardcore Mean Girls, but they had a vibe and could be cold and bitchy, although as far as I’m aware and can remember, they were never openly nasty to anyone (that I know of?), not like the more extreme level of Mean Girls) however, they could behave in ways that weren’t cool and even though I was never really a part of that aspect, being friends with them certainly didn’t make me innocent. Who you associate with speaks volumes, and if people judged me for who I was mates with at that time then I do not blame them for that, because by being friends with these people - being a part of their gang - I was enabling some of the more unpleasant aspects of the group, even if I didn’t agree with them. 

They were a clique, they had an edge, and I was kinda fascinated by it, which is why I somehow managed to get involved. It was very much a game to me from the start, it just took me a while to realise it. It was a toxic and manipulative environment, even after we left the forum where we met (this was long before the days of tumblr), and confined ourselves to an AIM chat. We literally named ourselves ‘The World’s Most Hated AIM Group’. It actually got worse then. The in-fighting and the power-playing and manipulation was gross, and I definitely played my part in that.

With a few of the girls in particular, it was sort of a fight to be the alpha-female of the group. It was feisty and filled with drama. I literally barely saw it as something that was real, it all seemed completely fake, like it was just all pretend - a game of make believe, if you will - because it was all so extreme and ridiculous and dramatic. These were mostly American girls, and they knew drama like no other. I wanted these people to be my friends because I kinda found it all entertaining, and incidentally I became closest to the worst one of the lot - she was the Queen Bitch™ for sure, a really nasty, manipulative girl. I didn’t trust my instincts. I went along with it because I was 18 and I was bored and I didn’t have many friends in my real life so I just thought it would be fun to be a part of something, even if it was a part of something with a bunch of people I barely even liked (one or two of them were alright actually).

I was actually already popular within that fandom (the MCR fandom) at that point (2007) and had been for over a year, but things had gotten a little stale and I was getting a little bored, which is why I wanted to sort of mix with these people who were as much fascinating as they were awful. It was only after I got out of it (after being absolutely ripped to shreds - publicly! - by the Queen Bitch - the one I had a rather bizarre relationship with) that I realised just how fucked up it all was, just how fucked up I had been to view something that ended up being so damaging to me as being a game. I mean, it was a game, but it certainly wasn’t a fun one.

I definitely had people distance themselves from me during the time I associated with those girls. My other fandom friends would say “that [Queen Bitch] can be so horrible” and I’d be like “yeah, I know.” Yet I’d still talk to her every single night. That made me fake, I didn’t pay attention to how it made other people feel by mixing with these people, and looking back that was 100% my bad. As a result of this, I am definitely somebody who judges people by the company they keep; be it in fandom, or in the real world. People were right to judge me or turn their backs on me, as I was enabling these people by “hanging out with them”, even though I knew they were shitty. My loyalty lied in the wrong place. I should’ve turned my back but I was ignorant at best and fucking stupid at worst. On some levels you could say I knew what I was doing, but I was a pretty messed up kid at the time and the biggest thing I learnt from that period was that I just desperately wanted difficult people to love me.

I only realised this a couple of years ago actually. I used to see someone edgy, popular, cool, stand-offish, and I’d make it my mission to “break” them, to make them care about me, when it seemed like they literally didn’t really care about anyone else. That’s what I did with the Queen Bitch. I wanted to be close to her because she appeared untouchable, because she wasn’t generally nice to people, and I wanted to be the exception. I suppose I wanted to make her not as much of a bitch anymore, I wanted to “fix” (ugh) her and make her nicer. And I said all the right things, things I didn’t mean, until I got her calling me her “best friend”. And when that wasn’t enough, I went even further. There’s stuff I won’t talk about, that I’ve never really spoken about, but it was so so messed up and while it taught me so much about myself and about other people and about fandom, it’s also something I’m pretty ashamed of to be honest.

But this was something that sort of went outside of fandom. Like I said, we eventually were banned left the forum where we met/were based, the most popular forum in the MCR fandom from 2005-2007, so it sort of went beyond fandom politics by the end. But that’s how we got there in the first place. There were power games at play right from the start.

I completely changed after that. I literally changed my hair and my wardrobe and made a new start for myself. That’s how much it affected me. I mean, I grew up, really, and that was the final kick up the bum that made me take steps to being more of the person I wanted to be. I’ve never mixed with shitty people since then. This was 10 whole years ago, so naturally people start to grow in their late teens/early 20s anyway, but I definitely count that period - about 6 months or so, I reckon - as a significant one in my young life.

And fandom led me to that??? The MCR fandom was absolutely wild from 2005-2007. The Black Parade era was insane. We just got so, so huge. Our forum had like 200,000 members or something. There were official monthly awards where everyone would vote in multiple categories; best writer, most helpful user, funniest member etc etc. - I won Best Writer about 4 months in a row, as I wrote a really successful fic. After that I used to win Most Helpful User, as I was a total nerd and knew everything there was to know, to the point where people called me Yoda. I lost that title once I joined the Mean Girls. These 200,000 members didn’t vote for me as much anymore.

So I’ve honestly had a taste of it all? I was at the top and I sort of sacrificed it because I got bored and wanted to spice things up by hanging with total bitches.

And it was years before I joined a fandom again, the Mnkees fandom in 2012, an already well established fandom with 2 or 3 very significant/popular blogs. I was there for the longest of any of my fandoms to be honest, before it sort of went to shit last year due to trolling. 

And my most recent fandom, the ED fandom, I wasn’t really a full-on, active member for long enough to really find myself in an established role. 

But like....I have definitely seen things from a lot of different perspectives, and I’m able to finish writing my essay about all the general roles within fandom a year after I initially started it, because I’m not currently in a fandom so I can sort of look at things from a neutral point of view and not be influenced by any current goings-on. 

But yeah, I just wanted to make it clear that I’m definitely unbiased when it comes to certain fandom behaviour as I myself have done some questionable shit in the past. I was young when I fucked up the most, and was able to grow, but while I know sometimes some people are sort of beyond getting past certain shit, it is also my belief that everyone has the ability to change and better themselves if their heart is in it.

Anyway I’m going to shut up as I’ve been writing for like two days straight LOL

[disastertwins9000]

I would love to know more about your “homies in a half shell” crossover AU. I love everything about it, the art, the ideas, the characters interactions. All of it and I want- no need to know more. If this is too of an open ended question. Then here’s some specifics.

How do the rise boys find out about Leo’s reactions to the cold?

What is 2012 Leo’s relationship with rise Donnie?

What is 2012 Raphs relationship with rise Mikey?

Is 2012 Leo the only one that likes weighted blankets?

How do the 2012 boys help with the rise boys trauma?

That’s all, can’t wait to see more of your AU! :)

awww i’m so glad you like it!!! honestly i’ve spent hours on this au and this means so very much to me so thank you!! also i love the asks guys don’t be shy!!

get ready to read lmao

so lee and the cold… i’m being so completely honest.. i haven’t thought about how the rise fam found out. i will probably make a sketch about it later cause now you got me thinking about it. i’m thinking that, maybe, just hear me out.. he’ll get cold..? and have a panic attack 😄😄 -more about that coming soon in sketch form:)

leo and donnie: lee is still the mom of the group, but in a way that his brothers respect him highly. lee is impressed by rise donnie and is proud of him but worries that he might accidentally pressure him too much like he sometimes did with 12 donnie. 12 leo is also scared for his brothers, in the way that they value themselves. he doesn’t want rise donnie to think that lee is proud of him because he’s smart, he wants him to know that he loves him for much more then that. trauma am i right:)) on a more light hearted level, the disaster twins are constantly competing with one another to impress lee (praise from their badass big brother) and for the longest time lee has no idea what is going on.

2012 raph is ridiculously protective of rise mikey. this doesn’t mean that he loves rise mikey any more then 12 mikey, it’s just that rise mikey is still very young and still acts like it, and raphs got a major soft spot for him. together they enjoy being sarcastic little shits(affectionate) to their brothers and they like to do art together. mikey uses his ‘youngest and smallest of them all’ powers to get constant piggyback rides from everyone, especially 12 raph. don’t mess with the short boys they will bite your knees off

for the weighted blankets, the 12 twins both use them(lee and raph). raph got one bc lee introduced them to him. rise donnie uses one, and weighted blankets are always kept in the lair if anyone wishes to use one. rise mikey has a few different hammocks in his room that he can change out or hang up all at once and a few of them are therapy hammocks that him and his brothers use to help with anxiety and sleep. basically they have all used one at one point and it just depends on the person.

for the trauma part… not all their problems are solved yet..🤫 but the 12 boys do their best to be there for them. to listen and not dismiss the fear or pain. rarely did the 12brothers get a break to stop and process what was going on and their lives were never normal. while they are there for the rise boys in every way they can be, let’s be honest they need to stop and figure themselves out too.

thank you for the ask, i so enjoy answering and i’m so glad that ppl are interested in my au<3 also i can’t forget to credit @sapphiretanto for all the help with the hcs we’ve got going. lmao you got me info dumping

lucky i had this sketch already in my drafts cuz this is what my little brother does to me 😭🫶🏼

[luxraydyne]

ngl kinda super fixating on the idea of tokiko actually meeting pewter if she hasn’t already, and absolutely set on the idea of bringing him into her fold. this guy conceived of psyncing, not only conceived, but built a *machine*. he’s tapping into some unforseen crevices of the sim here with this shit. how damn valuable would he be? oh, and how easily manipulated. he learns of the sim. he’s crushed. he’s wrecked. he’s angry. and tokiko’s like, this is a slam dunk, so where do we start on breaking out of this thing? and pewter just looks at her like, nah. this isn’t going where you think it’s going. you’re telling me this is all a program. you’re telling me all i’ve been through, all the pain and loneliness was a construct. and this is your reaction? this is what y’all are doing with that information? and you think that’s gonna convince me to *help* you? he’s pissed. if this is all a program, if me being locked in a cell with my grief after losing the love of my life is a simulation, hell if i’m helping you to chase some illusion of escape. i’m not gonna break the simulation just to let you out. i ain’t running away. i’m not letting that happen. i’m staying here. if i’ve been messing with the code already, then dammit i’m rummaging around in there some more and i’m changing it, i’m fixing it. if it was a “simulation” that took renju away, then i’m gonna bring him back. cause i can. watch me. idgaf if you say nothing in this place matters. he mattered, to me. i won’t let them take him. and i won’t let you take this chance from me either. you’re stuck in here with *me*.

what does tokiko even do? this wasn’t the plan. this is bonkers. what, does she keep trying to bring him under her control somehow? does she just let him go on his vengeful faustian quest and hope his meddling somehow tips the scales in her favour? risky, but might work ig. does she just do damage control, try to kill him off? probably. if she can. he’s good but he’s not *that* good. tf is she even up against at this point? and to be fuckin honest, she probably resents him, somewhere, in a brutal place she refuses to actually acknowledge. boy she done goofed.

bosh, and there’s your conflict. gentlemen, i solved ai3 lmao

[normally-o-a-k]

Hey look a fanfiction

Scam/Jodie

Friends to lovers, multi chapter, barely hurt comfort anymore, no beta we die like Glenn, idk what to tag this I’ve never written fic before lmao, some body horror this chapter (descriptions of a creature that looks like the library)

Rating: it’s still pretty teen.

Chapter 4/?

Previous Chapter:

Absolutely delighted by the suggestion Scam sits back up on the couch. “Truth or dare hmm? Thats a bold choice~ Wouldn’t that be more fun with …. Let’s say one or two more players?” As he counts a blue and pink version of Scam appear on the couch on either side of him.

All three versions of Scam grin and eye Jodie like he’s on the menu.

“Or is it too overwhelming to be… let’s call it ‘outnumbered’ for now~”

Jodie figured he’d have some way of giving himself the advantage, But now faced with three versions of Chaos incarnate his confidence was starting to waver. “It’s fine. I can handle it”

“Oooh! Delightful! Tell me since you’re so brave, are we placing a wager? Perhaps the first to back out owes the other one favor~?” The grin that was spreading across Scam’s face had Jodie’s mouth feeling a bit too dry.

“I’ll take that bet… But one rule, no dares that magically change my life…. Deal?” Like hell he was going to play if he was going to pull something like he did to Ron again.

“Deal~ this is a friendly game, I’m not looking to avenge anyone this time so you can relax~ “ he holds out a slightly too long hand to shake on it and Jodie, who’s starting to think he made a mistake, shakes before he can change his mind. “ Go ahead then you brave boy~ start the game~”

Jodie sits back on the couch trying to feign confidence. “Ok. Truth or dare?”

The original Scam laughs “I believe it was Ron who said dare was the sexier option~ so go ahead! Hit me with your best dare~”

Shit. He’d been hoping for truth so he could get him to admit he’s been messing with him. “I dare you not to use any magic for the rest of the night” Jodie grins right back at Scam.

“Ohhh? Interesting! cut me off then~ These two will disappear on their own anyway~” Scam was enjoying this probably more than Jodie knew. It was rare that someone else initiated anything like this with him.

The pink Scam temples his fingers, smirking at Jodie “Truth or Dare Jodie?”

Jodie weighs his options. He was sure all versions of Scam would target him so he was about to get asked the same thing two more times… “truth.”

“I’ll make it a juicy one then~” Scam Pink laughs, absolutely tickled by the fact that he gets to ask something he’d been curious about “Do you miss being human?”

Jodie frowns Scam would be able to tell if he lied, that much he was sure of… So he’d give him the honest truth “It was me but it wasn’t… I lived in that reality for most of Nickolas’ life… every last memory I have of his childhood is back there in that life… so its natural for me to miss it sometimes isn’t it? I suppose I could just go back to earth if I really wanted to… I could look human again… but Nicky…. He’s not who he used to be either…. So it wouldn’t be the same…it wouldn’t be that peaceful easy life we had as a family no matter what I did… I don’t know that I fully want it to be either… Nicky has both Glenn and I and He likes the freedom of going back and forth… so I’ll just keep working, and spend the time with him that I can…So yeah sometimes I miss it… but I don’t want to go back…”

The expression on every version of Scam sitting across from him softens slightly. The pink one speaks up again, suddenly next to him. “It’s normal to mourn parts of your life that are gone~ you went through big changes after all~” He traces a finger over one of Jodie’s horns as if to make his point in the most flirtatious way possible.

“Yeah well it’s not like I miss the time I spent as the battle axe of hatred and that was a big part of my life too…” he doesn’t pull away when the pink version of Scam wraps an arm around him “you’re probably right though…. wait! you lose, you teleported to this couch!”

A chorus of Scam’s laughter drowns out the jazz music for a moment before they settle back down “That wasn’t magic~ I’m just that fast!”

Any victorious feeling that briefly flashed up inside of Jodie just as quickly fizzled out. “You just get more impressive with everything I learn about you…”

The original Scam just smiles, two of his hands clasping over his heart, another hand fanning himself. “Ohh what a flatterer you are! ‘be still my heart’ and all that~” Though he was sure it was unintentional Scam was enjoying the positive attention he was getting. “It’s my turn! Truth or Dare…. Hmm… I choose Jodie~”

He wasn’t surprised, he’d expected to be chosen every turn. What he hadn’t accounted for was losing half his focus to the Pink Scam who was leaning against him. He figured it was Scam trying to comfort him so he just lets it happen. “Truth”

“Hmm~ I can’t help but feel like you’re trying to take the easy way out~” He laughs and leans back on the couch, crossing his legs. It didn’t matter really to him what Jodie chose, he was having fun playing, but truth afforded him some opportunities he wouldn’t otherwise have. “Are you interested in someone~?”

Shit well, at least he hadn’t asked Jodie to name names. “Yes…. There’s someone that’s got me interested”

“Ohhh? Tell me, is it someone we know?~” Both the blue and purple versions of Scam lean closer. The pink version seemed perfectly comfortable where it was, several hands curled around the arm he was leaning on.

Jodie grins at Scam “one question at a time” and there it was, the last time he could choose truth without being in danger of admitting something. He relaxes a bit knowing what was going to come next.

The blue version of Scam folds his arms “truth or dare! I choose… Scam!”

“What?” Jodie’s mind was racing with a million questions, he had thought these were just copies of Scam, but were they thinking independently? Why would he choose himself? What was he playing at?

“Truth~” he swings one of his legs a bit, all four hands folded in his lap as he keeps his eyes firmly locked on Jodie.

The blue Scam smirks as though he’s got one up on himself “has anyone caught your eye?”

“Ohhh yes~ very much so~! I find him incredibly interesting and it doesn’t hurt at all that he’s so ridiculously good looking~ if only he’d get the hint~!” He doesn’t break eye contact with Jodie, staring him down with intent.

He frowns, everything seemed to suggest it was part of the bit directed at him. But…Scam seemed to take games pretty seriously so he didn’t doubt he was actually just confessing to liking someone. He wonders briefly if any of the other Daddies fit that description. There’s a flash of jealousy when he tries to picture it.

“If he’s not picking up on hints why don’t you just be direct?”

Scam shouldn’t be surprised Jodie was still being so stubbornly oblivious, but really that was as close to an actual confession as he’d gone and it’d still failed. “It might surprise you to hear, but I’m not fond of rejection either~”

“Do… you want help?” Jodie knew realistically that he’d probably have a hard time doing it but he honestly wanted to see Scam happy.

“That’s nice of you to offer but the act of seduction is a game in of itself~ it’s not exactly one you play in teams, though if it was, I would love nothing more to be on your team~” Scam’s smile softens even more.

“Maybe that’s exactly why it isn’t working…? You keep thinking of things in terms of games… but relationships don’t work like that… you are supposed to be a team. You can’t build something long lasting if you both aren’t working together… maybe treat it like that and see if it makes a difference?”

Scam goes quiet biting back the want to insist that he’s actually right, sitting back again on the couch a bit rigidly “I think you might be right~ maybe I’m wrong after all… isn’t that concept a novelty?~ It’s your turn again Jodie!”

“Yeah, uh okay Truth or Dare?” He smiles, this was pretty fun after all.

“Who? Me, me or the other me?” Scam visibly relaxes, laughing.

“You” Jodie laughs too.

“Oh of course~ I choose dare! Give me your worst, handsome~ I can handle it!”

He claps his hands excitedly.

“I dare you to…” shit, he was drawing a blank. Everything his brain was supplying was so juvenile. “Oh! This isn’t it right? So show me what you really look like.”

His eyes widen in surprise. “Oh what an interesting dare! Are you absolutely sure that’s what you want~? It’s not going to be very fun for you”

He shrugs, giving him a smug smile “I thought you said you could handle it. I guess you chicken out then ?”

“Oh no, Not at all! I just don’t want you to have any regrets~” he supposes it was a just matter of time before Jodie saw it and any budding interest he could have had in him fades to nothing. He didn’t actually want to do this, but it was a dare and he wasn’t about to lose. “Will it count against the dare forbidding me from magic? I can’t do both~”

“It’s an exception, come on, don’t try to get out of it with excuses” Jodie had been curious since they’d met and now that he’d dared him he was intent on seeing it.

“If you insist~” his skin starts to bubble, his bones cracking and creaking as his limbs and spine lengthen. His skin pulls tight across the changing bones in his face, several more eyes open below and above the three he’d had already, his jaw spitting into a grin that was wider than his elongated face could accommodate.

Jodie stares up at him, dwarfed by Scam in this form. If he was being honest with himself, this didn’t hinder his attraction to Scam in the least.

The other two versions of Scam are pulled into him, disappearing into the skin of his massively long arms. He moves forward, meter long fingers curling around Jodie’s chest, pinning him against the couch with just one hand. He leans in, face inches from Jodie’s, more then a half dozen eyes locked on him .

Jodie’s heart was pounding in his ears. He could feel a blush spreading over his face “shit…”

Scam could feel his heart racing.

He quickly changes back “Oops~ I guess that was probably a bit much for you huh? It’s been a while since I’ve gotten to let loose like that~! But it’s fine~ Really, who doesn’t prefer a more compact and sexy Scam~?” He laughs, uncomfortable with how quiet Jodie had gotten, leaning close, a significantly smaller hand still planted on the center of Jodie’s chest. His heart rate wasn’t slowing. He must have terrified him.

“You… wow….” Jodie smiles, no hint of fear in his voice, there was however an edge of excitement to his voice that was the last thing he expected out of the demon “damn you’re tall…”

Scam makes no effort to move from his position, Jodie’s genuine smile throwing him for a loop. This, he was sure, was not going to be the last time Jodie would absolutely fascinate him. This was enough to tip the scales for him, no more skirting around what he wanted. His voice practically a purr “Truth or Dare Jodie~”

“Dare…” Jodie’s smile widens a bit.

“Kiss me~ if you’re not a cowar—“

Jodie doesn’t wait for him to finish, closing the distance between them, lips crashing against Scam’s in a desperate open mouth kiss. He reaches up, sliding a hand into Scam’s hair and pulling him closer.

Scam moans into the kiss, closing his eyes and losing himself in it. He’d wanted this for a while and it was everything he’d imagined and more… it wasn’t by any means a good kiss… it was sloppy and desperate… but it was the desperation he found so appealing. The way they both held each other tightly pressed against the other, wanting to somehow kiss harder, to kiss more, a crescendo of feelings they’d both been holding back. Any doubts he had about Jodie feeling something back were gone, no one kisses like this and doesn’t mean it.

[straye]

𝐃𝐀𝐒𝐇 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄 : the hella sweet munday meme ( ORIGINAL SOURCE, FORMATTED TO BE A DASH GAME. )

♻ Any advice on improving Tumblr RP experience?

Block and blacklist, block and blacklist. Out of sight out of mind is a real thing here, and even reading everything on someone's blog to be able to do that efficiently.

⛅ Do you believe aesthetics are another form of expression?

In a way, yeah! I mean, the way I have my blog set up is certainly so.

☮ Are you feeling happy and inspired right now?

Happy, I guess. Inspired, errr. Trying!

☄ Has someone ever admitted to being inspired by you?

Maybe once? I mean Ren once said that the verse they made with Ghostshima was for me and I almost bawled my eyes out because I feel passionately about that evil little tape worm and the effect he has on Kogami past the grave. T_T

⚌ Who inspires you?

[dial up sounds]

♋ Are there any FC’s you believe should be used more? Why?

I don't use FCs at all if I can help it, so I think this is geared more towards people who use rl FCs? But if I had to say, as someone who observes secondhand, MORE SOUTHEAST ASIAN / BROWN / BLACK / INDIGENOUS FCS !!!

☸ Do you reblog from the source when someone practices reblog karma or do you follow it?

I reblog from the source for a cleaner activity tab, and I expect the same courtesy. Though, if it's something I can send in, I always try sending in stuff for memes.

☯ Do you believe you’re a forgiving person?

I'll be honest with you, no, and I've had very good reason not to be over the years.

⚑ Have you been forgiven for a mistake you’ve made?

Hard question, because I'd say kinda.

♛ Have you ever seen drama be maturely sorted out?

No lol.

♞ Do you tend to ignore drama?

Generally. It stops being drama if someone is a genuinely bad person or is up to some heinous shit though.

☾ Have you ever tried to bring peace to a situation?

One, a very long time ago. Now? Hell no.

☻ Have you ever made someone a promo or a positive shoutout?

Yes! <3 I always try to.

☎ What do you think about bias lists?

I only do these for like. KPop biases lol. Do you guys remember the mess that was follow forevers? I think we've learned from then.

☈ How many people would you say likes you?

I should hope my following, though idc if anyone hate follows.

♡ How many people do you like? Are there any people in particular that pop up?

Most of my following ??? I know me and @sorrowmarked , @withgutsandglory and @ungodli are super cool. I also wuv @kudakenai and @vtriol forever and ever. me and @yeonban have crazy meow meow to meow meow communication. Me and @n0fa0e have been friends for yeeeeears <3. And @naisetsu is pretty neat too. <3 ALSO @achroanimus FOR THEIR AMAZING IDEAS AND DEPICTION OF THE EVIL LITTLE MAN. I also owe so much to @amaeranthos. I also love love love what @vulpesse and @aahri do for a certain fox of whom I am smitten over ..............

☢ What calms you down after negativity?

Vidya games, talking to my best friend. :3

☠ What keeps you happy?

Thinking about Kogami Shinya.

☘ Is there anything that makes you instantly want to follow someone?

If they're funny as hell. Always.

☕ Is it often you hear people complimenting your blog? Characters, writing, theme, icons, etc.

No, not really, though the latest compliment I've gotten was the fact that my Kogami is so baby girl and I needed a moment to cry (positively) about that. <3

☂ What’s your best RP experience?

This was before this blog's time but when me and an ex made an entire multiverse of OCs. :( I miss that, and my OCs are still around, but that was a weirdly formative experience. Also when me and @ungodli had this rhythm for our first thread where our replies kept getting longer and longer and at some point we stopped apologizing for that LMAO AND WHEN ME AND @achroanimus STARTED OUR KOGAMI AND GHOSTSHIMA THREAD THAT I STILL NEED TO REPLY TO AUGH

⚈ What sweet things tend to happen to you from time to time RP wise?

When me and my partners will reply to something and when we see it we immediately alert each other with raw reactions <3

☐ What trends are you currently into?

girl idk.

★ What fandom do you consider welcoming?

I don't really pay attention to this. </3

☆ What are some the perks with the fandom you’re currently in?

It's small and quiet and if you want to be left alone you'll be well left alone.

☉ What fandom do you believe needs improvement? What could you do to do that?

No comment.

♦ How has roleplaying on Tumblr improved since you started out?

Um honestly yes especially when it comes to NSFW content and what kind of shit we'll let fly. It used to be that you'd see obscurely tagged full blown rl porn on your feed but now people have the courtesy to actually try tagging it better as well as people just feeling safe enough to call people out on bigotry and condoning gross shit. I kinda wish this environment is the one little 12-13 year old me started off on lol.

♨ Have you ever roleplayed with someone that has been problematic but offered critique and then watched them improve?

Yes but they did not improve.

⚓ Are there any small details you tend to like in roleplays?

Quoting some of my favorite medias / poems / etc. If you squint, you'll see my writing riddled with them. >:)

⚡ What are the good sides with duplicates?

I don't have a lot of experience with saying so but some of the villains I play where I don't mind duplicates : we really do understand these characters more than most of their fans do.

☀ What’s the best thing about roleplaying?

What isn't there to like about putting my character in all sorts of whacky scenarios or whatnot with characters he'll probably not have much interaction with or otherwise? Creating AUs, connecting with people through him, and even getting people into Psycho-Pass mwhahaha.

⛵ What genres do you like writing the most?

Slice of life, hurt-comfort, fluff, comedy, action. I want to try horror one of these days so bad.

☺ What tends to bring out your muse the most? What inspires you?

Little things that remind me of Kogami; then, I'm possessed by his spirit to let the world know that xyz is so him. Then his spirit leaves me. It often tends to be other forms of media, music, poems.