#this is so shit

[poug1y]

stupid doodle ( ref under cut )

[ayertrinity]

[maddietries]

Katsuki and you dated a few years ago. You broke up because he just wasn’t there enough. Little did you know you’d run into the man you’d never stoped loving 3years later.

You own a little cafe now, you opened it after you finished school. It’s your pride and joy plus the community loves it. You’ve had a few pro hero’s stop by but you never expect him to walk in. It was like every other day taking orders and making them. You never expected your ex boyfriend to walk in though. When you come back from the kitchen with someone’s order about to call it, the surprise on your face but remembering you have to be professional. You call the order and step up to the counter.

“What can I get you today dynamite?” You ask with a small smile.

“Don’t act like you don’t fuc’in know me.” He says back a little harsh.

“You’re right, Hi Katsuki what can I get you?” You try again.

“Didn’t come here for food. Came to talk.” He says like it’s obvious.

“I’m sorry we close in like 30 minutes we can talk then alright?” i say softly.

“S’fine, gonna sit down somewhere.” He says walking away to go sit down at one of the small tables. I’m completely shocked he’s here but I take the next order and make it. I continue that cycle til we close. I walk over to his table and sit down once the doors are locked.

“What’d you want to talk about?” I ask quietly.

“Heard you opened this place. Been flirtn with red?” He asks bluntly.

“Ah no he comes in sometimes and we joke but nothing more. Yeah I did open this all on my own.” I say smiling.

“S’nice.” He says.

“Is that all you wanted to ask?” I ask gently.

“Let me try again.” He mumbles to me.

“Try again?” I ask.

“Wanna be a better boyfriend. Wanna treat you right.” He says and I just stare at him.

“Do you even have the time to treat me right?” I ask looking down and fidgeting with my hands.

“Do now. Didn’t before and let you go and I shouldn’t have.” He says looking like he’s pleading with his eyes.

“You’re a jerk, because i still love you and we both know that. So I’m not gonna say no. I’m gonna let you try again. Just please let me take care of you this time. Please take care of me to.” I say feeling tears well up.

“If I didn’t love you still we wouldn’t fuck’n be here.” He says bluntly.

“M’gonna take you on a nice date okay?” He says looking at me and swiping away one of my tears when it falls.

“Okay. I’d love that.” I say smiling softly.

[imliterallyf7ckin9crazy]

“ℑ’𝔩𝔩 𝔤𝔢𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔶𝔢𝔱, ℑ’𝔳𝔢 𝔤𝔬𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔞𝔨𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔢”

Squid game season 2

In-ho x f!reader

Warnings: in ho is obsessive, stalking, poverty, cannon violence, manipulation, Stockholm syndrome, loss of sanity, reader is an absurdist, childhood abuse, obsession, sad stuff.

NOT PROOF READ OR EDITED. This will also be a THREE PART SERIES bc quite honestly I can’t write much at one time smh. Also do not take reader too seriously she crazy as hell.

Also sorry reader and in-ho barely interact this chapter bc I needed to set the scene so you know what I’m talking abt. Pls read still tho bc I think it’s cool :3 you’ll need it for part two and part three.

TLDR: this is gonna be long af. So basically the reader is previous winner like gi hun only she went kinda crazy after her first game. So she gets like mentally locked in the games so to speak and so after she wins she doesn’t pay any of her debts and actually tried to accumulate more so she can be recruited again. She gets her card and when she talks to in ho he is like “why would u do this” and she’s like “bro bc i think I understand you and shi” and he’s like “if you can win again we can talk lol” and she is like bet. Only he tries to rig it against her. But she is dead set on winning.

A/N: am I projecting? Maybe. Also this shit is LONG sorry it took so long

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Sometimes, when you find yourself winding through random back alleys or when you lie your head to rest at night, you can still hear the screams..

You can still feel the reverberation of each gunshot fired into the innocent flesh of desperate people. The wetness of the blood that splatters your face as others die before your eyes and you can’t quite tell if the screaming your were hearing was theirs or yours.

And sometimes you can still make out all the promises that were made in the dormitory. The faint memories of the voices of friends you made. The exact sound of their voices lost to time, but the faces of their lifeless bodies remained unchanged in your mind. Some of them were at the hands of players and some of pink soldiers.

And one at your hands.

Life had been cruel to you long before being convinced to risk it all. To say your early life was messy would be an understatement. Years of falling to sleep bloody and bruised, countless hours of begging for basic needs, and endless attempts to run away and make it better. Trying anything to make you feel whole. Like nothing ever happened at all. Once you got a job your parents kicked you out and left you to fend for yourself. At first it was great, you didn’t feel like you were being suffocated anymore. Until you got fired.

The place you worked at was shut down due to the owner embezzling the money and getting caught. The business soon went down at for lack of funds. And the reality of life became clear to you once again. Over time the hope you had to escape your parents and live the life you dreamed of as a young girl was drained from your soul. Ever since then you’ve been doing this. Wandering the streets aimlessly, almost as if you had never been in your home city a day in your life. You can’t even see the faces of those around you. Every face is replaced by one of four faces… ever since then that is.

The first face is younger you, battered and bruised to all hell. You see her face on usually younger people. No matter what they’re saying or doing the expression she gives is always the same. Glosses over eyes and facial features set in a way that screams both “why would this happen to me” and “what the hell became of us”. You cant even begin to answer those questions.

The second is the face of your father. Almost every man looks like him now. Though you haven’t seen him in years, since the game he’s come back to haunt you. To remind you there’s more wrong with you than what happened in those couple days. That there’s more broken about you. His expression stays angry. Tense like he’s going to hit you. For this you almost never interact with men and if you do it always end poorly.

The third is the one drives you insane most.

There was this beautiful, kind girl you once knew. Growing up she was the only thing that made living worth it. You were picked on quite a bit at school, be it because you never really spoke or because you had to be such a goodie two shoes to stay out of trouble at home. But she always stepped in at just the right time to save you. Even though her own home situation was much less than desirable she still found time to comfort you when you were in shambles or got into trouble to defend you. You both told each other everything, both pillars in the other’s lives. But after being kicked out you were forced to lose contact, solely because you couldn’t contact her or get to her part of town. That was until you joined the games at your lowest possible time to try and get some money to keep your loaners from finding you and gutting you for profit. Guess who you saw.

The girl that meant everything to you was suddenly standing before you. Deep You both scolded each other for getting into so much debt you had to meet here. Giving each other shit, like you used to. Looking back you almost chuckle at that for the nativity you both had. You watched people die together. Sprayed and stained with so much blood you didn’t now who’s it was. She kept you alive in there, with out her keeping you calm you probably would have died or quite frankly killed yourself. Against all odds you made it to the final three together against a man who needed the money for his family. She told you it was “okay “to take his life in his sleep after the final dinner because he would have done the same if either of you if you had fallen asleep. That morals in this situation would only get you both stuffed into a gift box. And so you both took his life for the sake of yours. You can still feel your stomach dropping as he pleaded for his life while you and your friend stared down at him cruelly, begging falling on deaf ears as you tore him to shreds with dirty steak knives.

Of course after that it was final two. When the last game was revealed, squid game, you remembered only one could leave. Actually, the both of you used to play squid game in school. Even if it’s typically a “boys game”, she was great defense and you were quick enough for easy offense. Genuinely, those were one of your fondest memories. Of course you’d be pinned against each other for the last time. Though you didn’t know it, the VIPs plans were to be able to watch an animalistic death match. However, you and your friend came to an agreement. No weapons, no fist fights to the death. You both knew you couldn’t kill each other, so you decided to simply play the game for the last time. The loser would take their lives themselves, with honor. And so you did. It became your last good memory. You were laughing for the last time, giggling like you were back to being school girls beating the popular boys at their favorite game. You still roughed each other up, nearing the end you both couldn’t ignore you were fighting for the death. That one of your lives hinged on this moment.

At the end, it was you who had won. You told her that you could both just back down and go home. You tried to convince her but she was set on this being the end, regardless how much you cry. You still remember what she told you before she slit her own throat clean open with her steak knife right before you, blood mixing with the mud and rain of the arena.

She said “I can’t go back there. Not without that money. I’ve had more fun here with you than I ever did my whole life. I got to be a little girl again with you. I can’t go back. This is the way I want to go, y/n.” And gave you a smile with tears turned invisible because of the rain. But you knew she was crying. “I love you”

then she was gone. As you rushed to her side, screaming her name until your throat was raw and starting to bleed you noticed her face. This look of bliss on her face, this twisted look of satisfaction graced her features as she bled from her self inflicted wound and stained your clothes and soul forever. You see that face on almost every woman. Eyes wide in ecstasy, faint smile and whole face covered in bright red blood. How badly you wished it was you instead of her, how badly you wanted to feel the contentment in life she had in those final not. That day you decided when you died it would be like her on that day.

Lastly, the fourth one you weren’t sure if it really counted as a face. It was the black geometric mask of the man who supposedly put you there. After you won you got to speak with him on the way home. Blindfold sure, but you found a tiny sliver where you were able to make out what he looked like. It was less soulless than the pink guards you had seen. It actually looked like a face, only it was made of many shapes. No one ever has his face, but you see him everywhere, more than any of the others. He’s always in the corner of your eye, you can make out his mask in the shadows of buildings, swearing you can see him watching you through your house window at night. No matter where you are you feel him watching.

For those reasons you almost never go out during the day, preferring to slink around and waste your hard earned murder money on stupid shit or alcohol. After all, why not? It goes without saying you were never the same after the games. It became all you thought about, every waking hour became ‘how was that possible? Who was really behind it? Why would they do this?’ So many questions swirled in your mind. You had theories for each of those questions already sure, but physically no way to know for certain. That not knowing sunk so deeply into your blood and poisoned your mind you came up with a new question to silence the voices that screamed at you and the faces you saw.

‘How do I get back?’

You became obsessed with many insane schemes and ploys to get yourself back in. Countless hours poured into the optimum plan to weasel a way inside the game again and truly figure this shit out. So you went back to the basics

Question: how where the games possible? Answer: clearly it was a high budget operation, meaning the money was coming from somewhere. But I mean come on-that’s too much money for just one person not even including the cash prize! So it has to be multiple people funding the whole thing. Thats theory #1

Question: who is really behind it? Answer: Ties into previous theory. If it’s multiple people, then who? Who’s setting it up and then who’s paying? Clearly that masked man is the leader or else he wouldn’t be so reclusive… but who is he throwing these games for? He said it’s just to give people a second chance but that just can’t be true but it can’t be just for him. There has to be people watching, that’s theory #2.

Question: why would they do this? Answer: clearly it’s not just for helping the poor- that much is obvious. Now here’s the theory you have that will be impossible to prove without going back. You were thinking about the games…. Kids games and team games. Like ones you would see on tv. Then you remembered how many cameras were everywhere. LITERALLY everywhere. Could just be security but it feels like more. Then the amount of cash and not everyone has that much money. What if there was a couple people paying to watch? Honestly you couldn’t tell if you were onto something or on something but you couldn’t shake the feeling that you were being watched by something bigger. Theory #3

And lastly and the most important question.

“How are you getting back?”

Why did they pick everyone? Because you had crazy amounts of debt. How did they get you there? Played games in train stations, then got picked up in a car and gassed out.

After months of speculation and planing this was what you could come up with. You had already paid off all of your debt and had so much left over money. You started spending recklessly, at one point just handing out money. People looked at you crazy but you didn’t even know it. You were in your own world let alone had the courage to look at their faces…

You began taking out extremely large loans with no intentions of paying anything. You were going out of your way to accumulate as much debt as possible. Consciously double crossing dangerous people. You kinda hoped sometimes that all these people would be able to find you and put you out of your misery but you were just too good at playing life threatening games. As the year went on you continued to pour so much money into the drain in hopes to be put back on the list for the games. Until that fated time of year came, when you remember being kidnapped.

You eventually realized no matter what you did you’d probably never run out of cash. One very late night after a particularly rough day you decided to gather all your money and dump it into your fire pit and set it all on fire. The tears running down your face contrasting with the wide smile on your face. It was a very bittersweet feeling to watch all the money you killed and almost died for burn in front of your eyes. The money 455 people fought and were slaughtered like animals for being reduced to ashes. But it also felt so good to lose it all and return to at least one about your old life. The time of recruitment was drawing near. You kept wasting money and hiding for your life until you gained even more debt than you had the first time. Honestly you were kind of impressed with yourself- think about it! You were able to accrue more debt in one year than you did your whole life up to this point.

It did briefly cross your mind that if this doesn’t work you literally burned all your money and multiple gangs and organizations wanting to harvest your organs for a quick paycheck. If you don’t get back in this year the chances of you trying again next year before one of many catch and kill you are extremely low. Oddly enough you didn’t mind living on the edge anymore, living within an inch of losing your life daily became so normal to you it almost felt fun. You started to see the world much differently the closer it came to hunt for that elusive recruiter. You think you’re starting understand the whole point of the games themselves.

The more you lived the way you did the more of humanity you saw. The lows of the human experience and the ugliness that controlled the heart of every person alive. And you noticed that the grand majority of these horrors revolved around money. Now that money had lost all value to you it became silly to see all these people just like you were so desperate for just enough money to save them to come along. To be fair it gets to a point where all you can do is pray it will work itself out.

But you watched people run themselves in circles for cash. Kill and be killed for cash. Lie, cheat, betray all for money. You see that no amount of money can take away the wrongs you did for it. All it really is is paper with no actual value. That money doesn’t really mean anything, it’s all an imaginary system people made themselves. All people do to become rich means nothing but they are greedy enough to put money before life. The money means nothing, the actions mean everything.

So then what’s the point of living? If it’s all based off a make believe value system built to extort and corrupt. If everything is rendered meaningless because people put values in the wrong things. If humanity is rotten to the core and unable to see what really matters then what the fuck is the reason to exist?

There is none. Isn’t that beautiful? All that you strive to do in life will not matter once you die. At death a successful man is as poor as a homeless man. In 100 years whatever you did in your small, insignificant life will be forgotten. There’s no point!! You could go and burn all your money, kill someone, lie and cheat and you’d STILL be on the same level as the richest person in the world. That revelation changed your whole view of the world and yourself.

Then the same day came again. The same exact day a year ago when you were suddenly approached by a man with a suitcase full of money and two pieces of paper. You went to the same train station at around the same time as you did before. Your mind was completely fogged with anticipation as your heart raced. You could barely walk straight or hear anything. You had to actually look at people to see if you could see that man, and every face was one you always tried to run from.

You breathed heavily and tears started to prick your eyes as they darted from person to person. You, your dad, your friend. You, your dad, your friend. They were everywhere. You felt as though you were going faint or throw up or both? You knew the people in the station had to be judging you even if you couldn’t quite see them. You felt like a fish In the ocean wandering without a reason. Eventually after you didn’t even know how long you chose to sit down on a bench and you just started to cry into your hands. You heard people mumble about if they should help you or not. Unsurprisingly no one did.

This wasn’t working and you were so fucked. But even as you cried you still believed this suffering was just a drop in the bucket. It didn’t really matter. Not anymore

Just as you were about to call it quits and go back home and hide until you couldn’t anymore you heard a voice so familiar it sent a shock through your whole body. Your head snapped up and a gasp was ripped from your throat

“Ms.(last name). I hoped we’d never have to meet here again”

Your eyes widened as you saw his face. It was the same man who came to you a year ago. You could actually see his face, the first real face you’ve seen on a person since you’ve gotten back since the game. All you could do is look up at him from your spot on the bench with wide delusional looking eyes.

“May I sit here?” He asks politely, to which you responded with a fast nod. He looked at you with this look of… pity? You figured you must look pretty pathetic nowadays. You have maybe 3 outfits total and you really haven’t been eating well. He smiled. before speaking again.

“Your debt has increased since the last time we met, but you knew that correct?” He asks. You nod again. You planned everything but what to say. “Why haven’t you payed it off?”

“Well I uh… kinda did? Most of it now is all new” you said with a shaky voice. He raised his eyebrows and chuckled a bit, finding it at least amusing. You knew it was an impressive feat. “I also set all my money on fire maybe a month or two ago? I’m actually not sure when…” you trailed off, trying to pinpoint the time when it dawned on you that you actually have had no true concept of time. You just know it’s been a year since you returned home. You can only really remember events but the time not so much.

“Ah, grown bored have we?” He mused. You knew that wasn’t quite it but seeing as you didn’t really know what’s made you do everything you have so far, only you knew you had to do it. You gave him another nod. He kept the same customer service type smile as he reached over and opened his case. It was set just as you remembered with the money and the ddakji. You sighed a bit before speaking “do I have to play again? I already know what happens and I don’t really want to be hit right now” you said, not really thinking. You didn’t know if you were in a place to be making requests but here you are.

You got another laugh from him, you didn’t know you were just so passively comical. “You dont have to, no. But maybe it will bring you back to your senses and you’ll live life how you were supposed to”

You couldn’t help but roll your eyes. ‘Live life like I was supposed to’. Is there any way someone is supposed to live? You didn’t think that way. You weren’t supposed to live any type of way, you should have died in that arena and-

“Are you sure this is what you want to do. What are you trying to gain?” His voice sounded pressed now, clearly trying to guide you into walking away. But if that was going to work you would have kept your money and moved far far away. You didn’t like being talked to like you didn’t know what’s made you were doing. You knew better than anyone you had lost your mind. You knew the things you were thinking, feeling, and thinking were most likely wrong. But you had no other option. No treatment for whatever illness is controlling your life.

“Im not trying to gain anything. I lost what I lost and I want it to stay gone…Please, just give me the card” your eyes were looking dead into his, voice wobbly with both terror and excitement. You held your hand out and you couldn’t even tell it was shaking. You couldn’t tell anything from anything. He lightly shook his head before reaching into his suits breast pocket and pulls out a brown business card. Upon seeing it you almost felt as if you were going to throw up right there. Your throat itched to scream and your legs twitched as if you were about to run away.

However when he placed the card into your hand all you did was close your fingers around it. Whole body shaking as you thanked him for the opportunity, just as you did when he gave it to you the first time. You both stood up and got ready to part ways for the second time. Right as you were about to bow your head he stopped you.

“Don’t become too full of yourself. Just because you won before means nothing the second time. I’ve seen many winners over the years, you will be no different than the other pieces of trash when you die in there. Is that really what you want?”

You opened your mouth to retaliate when he lifted his hand to stop you. “Have a great life, young miss. I hope you make the right decision” he says with his signature smirk and bow he walked in the direction opposite of the way you had to go. Presumably off to recruit more clueless individuals down on their luck. You had to hurry home now, you’d been out far too long and you knew people had people looking out for you. Waiting to catch you and make you pay. You quickly got out of the train station and started on your way back to the shitty, cheap hotel you’ve been hiding in. You’d been in that danm station for so long the sun had began to rise. The sky looked more pigmented, the air felt cleaner and you could actually think without hearing stray gunshots or phantom screams. You looked down at the small card in your clutches and flipped it over, revealing the number you had to call.

For the first time you hesitated in your plan. You were really about to go back to the place that ruined you. You missed the old version of you, when your real personality existed and you had a life. All you do all day is cry and shake and bang your head until you can form a thought. You were nothing like you remember being.

Maybe that’s what pulled you back there. The old you bringing you back to the last place she existed. A part of you actually did die in there, the part that still believed in people. She died right there with your friend, you left your soul in that dirt plot. And maybe you could find her again.

Once you got to the door of your room and got yourself inside you dialed up the number on your card and hit call. It rung a few times and when it picked up the automated voice command the same statement as before.

“If you wish to participate please state your full name and date of birth”

The words got stuck in your throat as you held the phone up to your mouth. This was your last chance to find something within you to back away.

“Y/n, D/O/B” you barely got it out fully as your stomach sank. This is what you wanted. This is what you asked for. Nothing matters. Nothing matters. Nothing-

“Player 444.” That’s him. That man with the black mask, that’s his voice. Hearing your number made you hold your breath and lose your balance. It’s been so long since you’ve been called that name. You knew it was him because his voice changer was a slightly different pitch than the other workers. “What is the point of this?” He asked with a serious voice, bordering threatening. You had an answer for this. “There is none. Get it? If there’s no reason to do it there’s no reason not to.”

He only hummed in response. Seemingly understanding at least a bit of what you said. “I have questions for you” you continued. This is what you’ve been waiting for. This was the point. You just needed to know

“questions?” He repeated. You guess he’s never been pressed by someone before. Small amounts of amusement was in his voice as if shocked anyone would speak to him like that

“Yes questions that’s what I said. Who are you and how are you able to get our information. Where did you take me. What is the point of-“

“I’ll tell you what” he cut you off in the middle of your frantic questioning. It’s probably for the best of you would never had stopped talking for him to even answer. You waited on bated breath, hanging on his words as you kept the phone pressed flush against your skin. Compartmentalizing his voice and how he talks into a file in your mind. “You want to play again because you want to know if your right, is that correct”

what he said caught you so off guard you didn’t even reply when he gave you a chance to respond. Every word got stuck in your throat to the point all that came out was strangled starts of a sentence. “You must have many theories in that little mind of yours. You’re coming because you think you’re smart enough to figure everything out, don’t you?”

Well… like kinda yeah that is what you think. You didn’t really know what to say, he hit it right on the head. You did think you could figure it out, actually you think you already have most of it. Not even his taunting could pull you out of that.

“Let’s play a game. If you can win again we can have a talk and I’ll tell you all you need to know. Only if you’re the last one standing.”

You knew it could never be that easy. With an operation of this scale and price you knew you would never get an offer so open. ‘If you can win again I’ll tell you anything’ they must believe you lost your brains when you lost your mind. Suddenly you did feel like you really didn’t know what you were getting into. It feels like a trap has already been set for you, it feels like they knew you were going to return all along. You struggled to breathe until you manged to force out a “okay”.

There was a muffled chuckle you could barely hear. There was something different now. You weren’t so sure about your plan anymore. He hadn’t said anything out right threatening or scary yet you knew he had something in store for you or else he never would put so much on the line. You just made a deal with the devil.

The original phone opera voice came back to tell you where to be picked up and that it would be this night. The phone hung up after that. All that remained was a deafening silence. It was done. You got what you had so badly wanted. But why doesn’t it feel as good as you wanted. Why don’t you feel fixed? Why hasn’t the old you come back to fix everything? That sinking feeling started bubbling over as you stood there with your phone in your hand. Beginning to hyperventilate you make your way to the crumby hotel bathroom and splash water in your face. You keep from looking in the mirror because you know what you’ll see. It will either be your friend or younger you. It used to be a huge problem when you first got out. Every time you’d forget and see them staring back at you you’d have another break down. Now it just puts you on edge, but it would be best if you just refrained from looking. You keep telling yourself that you can figure it out, you keep telling yourself it doesn’t matter if you live or die in there, you keep believing there’s no point in running from what would free you of your pain. Something deep inside tells you that you are close to seeing what the people who run this game do. That the epiphany they had to come up with this would make it all worth it. All you wanted was to see the bigger picture.

You could die happy and content dying just like your dear friend if it meant you could understand what it was all for. It’s on the tip of your tongue waiting to said and recognized.

You spend hours mulling over thoughts similar to these ones while you counted down the time before being relocated to what might as well be hell. You knew at this point you were walking into a death trap made just for you. You were going to either be granted the privilege of seeing the greater purpose of your suffering. You believed there had to be a reason, someone had to have figured out something huge to make them come to this.

Finally the fateful time reared its ugly head and you tugged on your coat. You looked at your room for the last time. You stood in the door way as your eyes brushed over all you had been. Papers scattered about, bottles of alcohol strewn about and random belongings resting in odd spots. It was time to say good bye once again. You are willing to leave it all behind and relive everything if it meant finding a purpose.

Eventually you arrived to you meet spot, an extremely expensive looking limousine was parked and waiting for you exactly where the phone operator said it would be. It was shiny and black with completely tinted windows. The anxiety you felt caused you to raggedly pant as you approached the car with unsteady steps. You gently opened the car door and stepped inside. The interior was white and luxurious and in front of your seat laid a golden pig. You sighed and closed your eyes waiting for the gas to kick in and claim your consciousness. Tears rolled slowly down your face as every even that happened in the games flash before your eyes. The blood, the screaming, the bits of brains and guts dried onto your clothes, and most of all the severed neck of the only friend you ever had. And to even your surprise you began to smile and giggle as you saw what happened to you play out like a movie in your minds eye. The gas started to be deployed into your enclosed car as your giggles became louder and more deranged. Sobs and laughter being mixed together as everything became hazy and burred.

Right before you black out you hear the masked man’s voice come from the little pigs speaker, loud and clear

“Welcome back, player 444. I hope you are happy with your decision”

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Sorry the friend is gonna remain nameless so you can imagine whoever. But next chapter when you get in the games there will be named characters. Again sorry you and in ho barely talked I just needed to get the exposition out before writing the main bits. Thank you sm gang and the next part will be out soon.

Also sorry end is kinda rushed I’m tired

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

Gamer Yang..........................

[motherfuckingmaneater]

Please draw Voldemort teaching dark arts to Bellatrix.

He’s ‘teaching’ her.

[opopstle]

OKAY SO dont ask what made me make this i wouldn’t know how to answer

edited by my friend all art done by me

[aliceinunderw0rld]

idk if i’ll ever clean this up but have this for valentine’s day ig

[tallovines]

"Loving"

Violet has too much love in his heart. He can’t control it. It’s something he’s dealt with his whole life. He finds that he can’t do anything else, but love to his fullest extent. Something sounding so positive, a burden onto the poor researcher.

Ever since we met, it’s all he’s done.

Violet is very clingy, something that isn’t inherently wrong, but it’s very hard for him. He can’t be away from me for very long without him starting to panic– something I do not, at all, blame him for.

Today, I was a bit more busy. I still made sure to see him during lunch break, but I think I accidentally spoke with the wrong tone, being a bit more tired than usual. 

For the rest of lunch, he barely spoke, barely ate.

I worried.

The rest of the day, I worried for how Violet could be doing, how he was feeling. 

I tried visiting him at one of the containment cells for one of the anomalies he researched, as Violet tends to work late after work, but.

He wasn’t at a single one.

I rushed to his office hoping to see him. Thankfully, there, a Violet I see. 

He cries; he cries a lot. Upon entering his office, he sobs some more. Slowly, I approach him– I want to help. I listen to him, what he has to say.

Tears in his eyes, he sobs about a finding, some certain realization. 

“Fuck… I just–” Violet sniffles between his words, “James, do you… Do you care for me?” Violet finishes his sentence, starts sobbing some more.

I get closer, and begin to hug him. I let him speak. Violet is the most loving person I have ever met; he’s cared about me more than I think I’ve ever experienced from a person. I can’t experience the pain he feels, this is what he’s worried about.

“God… It’s so stupid, so…” 

“Take your time, Violet,” softly spoken, words escape my mouth.

“Pathetic! James, it’s pathetic, okay? It feels so pointless! Futile! You’ll never fucking understand! I hate this… You don’t love me, not like how I do for you. Don’t fucking think you can say some shit like…” his voice trembles, “I don’t know, ‘Of course I love you, Violet!’ I know you do– but Jesus Christ, James, it’s exhausting feeling like this. Like the world would like! Explode if you didn’t talk to me. Do you feel like that with me? Do you? You don’t. You never will. Gosh…”

A crying researcher in my arms, he yells, and I hug him tighter. Rubbing soft circles in his back, I allow myself to whisper.

“I know… Violet, it’s okay. I understand how hard it must feel. I’m sorry.” Violet cries harder into my shoulder; I continue, “I do love you. I love you as much as I possibly can. I know how much you care about me. Please don’t think that this takes away from how much I really care. I love you. I love you a lot, okay?”

Violet’s sniffles die down. Together in his office we sit, the world stays still a little longer.

I smile, and I swear I could feel him smiling as well.

[t0rturedangel]

𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 ━ ♡

POST COVID ! KYLE BROFLOVSKI X READER

A/N - I love post covid kyle sm, he's amazing. FYI this is pretty shit so uh yh

KYLE fell onto the other side of the bed, letting out a groan. It was clear that he was annoyed at the fact his old friend- Eric Cartman was his name- and his family began to stay over since they couldnt any where else.

You turned your head to face your husband, a small smile resting on your features. " Hey its okay hun, im sure it wont be too bad " You shifted your body so you'd be on your side, staring at him. Hearing him sigh he turned his head so you'd be face-to-face, his brows knitted " Y/n, you know i love you but you dont know Cartman- he was an absolute asshole when we where younger, he still is now ! "

Quietly laughing, you ran your left hand through his red locks, to which he eased up, letting you do so. He really enjoyed having you by his side, it just made things so much easy for him. " Im sure it'll be fine baby, its been years since you've seen him, im sure he's changed! " " Yeah for the worst " He groaned again before lifting himself up throwing his side of the covers over his body.

His hands quickly grabbed at our waist and pulled you closer to his body, a high pitched yelp left your lips as he did so. Even though he's done this for a good few years it still manages to shock you when he does. He held you body close to his, resting his chin on your head " Ya know, im glad that somehow i managed to find you " he pressed a kiss onto the place where his chin rested not only a second before.

" Same " You grinned against his chest, arms lazily warped around him, " Lets go to sleep now hun, its late " you could hear Kyle hum in agreement but before you could both close your eyes and fall asleep a loud noise and clapping sound could be heard from one of the other rooms. Immediately you could hear Kyle sigh angrily.

Trying to ease him again you gave him a slight squeeze but it did practically nothing as when the voices of Eric and his wife came through the door about their love for Judaism you also got quite annoyed, not to mention uncomfortable. Sensing your discomfort Kyle grumbled quickly letting go of you and getting out of bed, leaving the room.

You knew something bad was gonna happen between the 3 and you really didnt want to intervene even though it would be the best idea to do so. While you were contemplating whether you should or shouldn't go Kyle returned, clearly stressed and upset.

" They'll be gone in the morning n/n " he muttered getting back in the bed, by your side quickly wrapping his arms around you just as he did before. You hummed, brows furrowed "Kyle, let them stay, they have no where else to go " your husband shook his head " No, n/n, i dont want them in our house. They made you uncomfortable for fucks sake! " "So what? Everyone fucks their partner Kyle!" "But no one does it while yelling about their love for Abraham!" "Whatever ..."

deciding to just let it go you pressed your face into his chest, your hold on him loosening causing the man to stiffen, realizing he upset you. he awkwardly hummed, hiding his face in your hair " Ive upset you havent i? ah- shit- I- im sorry babe, i'll uh.... i'll let them stay " you could hear the annoyance in his voice when he talked about letting them staying but you were glad he was gonna let them.

"Thanks hun, i love you"

" I love you too "

[watcherwithathousandeyes]

Head on down to Watcher World! We got... Uh.... Popcorn... And uh... Blinky toys! We got Blinky toys... So many Blinky toys......

We also have soda! It's purple, and definitely safe... So safe... Ignore the hospital records.

Um.. we also, also, have this one ride..! Someone died on it.... I mean not died on it, no one died...

You get free entry if your name's Bill Woodward! And for your daughter... And maybe her girlfriend too if I'm in a good mood..

I um... I'm tired... And feeling ill... Can just... Can Christmas get here quicker...? That'd be nice... Bleh...

[snobgoblin]

Arcana modern au where the Rowdy Raven is instead a nightclub called the Rowdy Ravin'

[cheesecakeislazy]

Disventure Camp All Stars Rewrite! Jakeden!

The Love I Didn’t Expect

Chapter One; Planes And Parachutes

“Is Everything Ready, Emily?”

“Oh Yeah!”

“Gather The Crew! It’s Time!”

“Welcome One And All To Disventure Camp All Stars! You Heard That Right! We’re Back With 18 Of Your Favorite, And Not-So-Favorite, Competitors! We Are Just About To Pick Them Up From All Across The World In This Private Jet. Once Everyone Is On Board, They Will Be Flown To Camp Tipiskaw Where They Will Spend The Next 8 Weeks! Two Years Have Passed Since Our First Season, And One Since Our Second. Imagine What Shenanigans Our Contestants Have Been Up To, Who Will Compete In Our Biggest Season Yet? And More Importantly, What The Hell Have They Been Doing This Whole Time? Find Out Right Here, Right Now On… DISVENTURE CAMP ALL STARS!!”

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When Jake and Miriam got the notification that the two of them had been selected to be in All Stars, Jake was ecstatic. Maybe he finally had a chance to rekindle things with Tom! It’s been.. tough these past two years, Jakes feelings for Tom had.. well they certainly weren’t as strong as they used to be. Jake had been hoping that maybe him and Tom could talk it out and maybe.. just maybe.. get back together? Maybe Jake wasn’t useless.. maybe he wasn’t unloveable.. maybe Jake could find true love?

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Aiden and James were always traveling ever since James won that million dollar prize, and it was amazing! Aiden loved to see places everywhere around the world that he honestly thought he’d never have the chance to see.. but.. something was off recently. Aiden loved visiting James’ family and spending time with him, so why did he feel so weird about James lately? They’ve been together for a whole year, traveling the world with each other, going on dates, and constantly posting each other on social media. Yet, a small part of Aiden told him that he wasn’t happy with James as he used to be. Aiden was so excited that he was accepted into All Stars. Maybe Aiden could have a chance to talk about everything that was going on little more privately to Lake? Aiden just… didn’t understand. James really was amazing! Great personality, amazing looks, the best partner anyone could ask for! So why did Aiden feel so.. awkward with James?

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“We Are Currently In Ottawa, Canada To Pick Up Our First 5 Participants! Here Comes Our Favorite Granny And Grandson Duo, Jake And Miriam!! You Two Ready For All Stars?”

“Hi Kristal! You bet we’re excited! Right Miriam?” Jake really was excited about All Stars, not only could he see some familiar faces, but maybe he could actually win the million dollars this time! …and maybe something could happen with Tom…

“Absolutely! I’m ready to collect another million!”

“I Must Say, Miriam, I’m Surprised. Hasn’t It Been Two Years Since You’ve Played? Aren’t You Worried That Your Age Is Catching Up To You?”

“Bleegh! Nonsense!! I’ve heard it before when I first played, and look what happened! There is no age limit for adventure, Kristal.” Miriam smirked at Kristal as she spoke.

“Fair Enough. Come On In, Guys! The Fun Is Just Beginning..”

. . .

Jake and Miriam step up into the plane and take their seats.

“Hey Miriam, it’s not too late, you know? If you’re not sure about this, we can still leave.” Jake was worried that Miriams health issues might cause.. complications during the season. Jake cared a lot about Miriam, Jake wouldn’t.. handle it very well if anything bad happened to her.

“Of course I’m sure!”

“It’s just.. I’m worried..”

“Have you lost your damn mind?? I didn’t drag my geriatric ass all the way out here, just to turn back!!”

“Well.. Okay..” Jake loved Miriam’s sass, but that didn’t change the fact he was worried about Miriam.

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When Hunter and Ally walked onto the private Jet, Jake didn’t acknowledge the couple very much. To be completely honest? He was jealous of the pair, Ally and Hunter had met during their season and actually managed to become a couple out of it.. unlike Tom and him.

Jake knew that it had been two whole years since he last saw Tom but- his thought was cut off when a figure stepped into the jet. It Was Tom. There he was! In the flesh!! Right there in front of Jake! And.. walking towards him? No no no! Jake wasn’t ready yet! He hasn’t practiced his lines or-!

“Uh.. Hey..?” Tom spoke to the found family duo, it was obvious that Tom hated his existence that very moment. He was cringing so hard that it looked as if the guy had drank spoiled milk.

Jake stared up at Tom, “Yeah, uh Hi?” There Tom was, in all of his himbo glory. ..wait, why wasn’t Jake getting butterflies? Tom was right in front of him! The man of his dreams! Why isn’t he nervous?? Or flustered?? Maybe even embarrassed???

“You know, Tom, you could have at least left a call.. a message maybe? Just to ask how we were, just one little message?” Miriam had that look on her face, that

‘I’m not mad, I’m disappointed’ face, it certainly wasn’t directed towards Jake and yet the blue-haired boy couldn’t help but feel ashamed as if he had done something to displease her.

“W-Well.. you guys know how it is! Cops are busy people! I just uhm.. got caught up with.. work?” Tom had a small bead of sweat trickle down the back of his neck as he spoke to the pair, geez.. Tom made such a mistake talking to them right now..

“A singular call or text doesn’t take any longer than 10 minutes. If that at all..” Miriam gave the taller man a small scowl.

“Uh.. well! I’ll uhm, talk to you guys later!!” Tom couldn’t handle the look on Miriam’s face anymore.. he just had to leave. He took one last glance at Jake, and then walked further into the plane and took his seat.

. . .

Around two? Maybe three hours had passed, when James and Aiden entered the jet. Jake’s eyes landed almost instantly on Aiden..

Aiden was taking a selfie with Lake and James, James and Lake looked over the moon to see each other, yet for some reason Aiden looked.. out of place? Maybe Jake was overthinking it.. he’s never even talked to Aiden before. But.. wow, Aiden was even prettier in person.. even prettier than To-

“I’m still waiting on an apology for almost leaving me to DIE!” Aiden’s voice broke Jake out of his trance, he was saying something to Riya.. what was he talking about? Oh! Right.. didn’t Riya almost kill the guy? Jake thought that he definitely didn’t wanna get on Riya’s bad side..

Jake watched as Aiden and James sat next to each other, James was playing on his phone and talking to Lake. While Aiden stared out the plane window and cloud gazed. Jake couldn’t help but.. relate to Aiden? Jake didn’t really understand why he related to Aiden of all people. Aiden was lucky, just like Ally, he got the love of his life out of this show and they look so.. loving on James’ instagram posts. They certainly don’t look that loving in real life though.. maybe Aiden was just in a bad mood? Ugh, why did Jake care. He doesn’t know these people personally! Jake just needs to worry about his own problems..

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Aiden looked out the window as he listened to Lake and James converse with each other, Aiden was lost in his thoughts. So.. many.. confusing.. thoughts. That photo with Lake that they all took? It felt weird. Aiden didn’t understand, everything flowed so perfectly between the trio when they were all friends, and they still were friends! Well, technically him and James were dating but that couldn’t be the issue! Why would something so minor make such a drastic difference in a dynamic? Aiden really hoped that Lake would be on the same team as him, he loved James but he needed to talk to Lake alone, without the worry of James interrupting. He.. loved.. James.. why did those words seem so uncomfortable to Aiden now? A year ago those words were filled with confidence and truth, so why did it feel so fake now? Lake wrote romance novels.. maybe she knows a thing or two about this mess?

As Aiden stared out the window, his mind drifted to other places, right after James took the selfie Aiden’s eyes drifted towards the back of the plane and had spotted Jake. No.. way.. Jake Hamilton?? This was a dream come true!! Aiden loved Jake in season one! He was honestly a little upset that Jake didn’t win, but hey- at least Miriam won and helped Jake out. Wow.. Jake was such a pretty guy.

“Aiden, baby?” James spoke up to Aiden, snapping him out of his thoughts. What was.. Aiden thinking about..?

. . .

Welp, coming here was a mistake! JUMPING OUT OF A FUCKING PLANE? Listen, Aiden might have gotten a lot better about his fear of heights, BUT JUMPING OUT OF A FUCKING PLANE?? Yeah.. no. This was such a terrible goddamn decision.

As Aiden held tightly onto his parachute bag, he stared down into the clouds and sky.. no.. he couldn’t do this!! There’s no way he cou-

“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-“ Aiden was pushed by who he assumed was Riya, that fucking bitch..

This season.. is going to be such a goddamn mess.

[rreskk]

So I started drawing today because I never draw

5 min sketch of the kitty cat man eating because that’s all he does

[puppyboyfranco]

my cat just woke me up, and it’s 3:54 fucking am

[sabh0]

After the new bsd chapter i hope asagiri puts skk in the basement with verlaine and all the other forgotten characters till the whole situation with fyodor and fukuchi gets resolved 💛💛💛