#this is so nice and also relatable fics always improve my days

[esamastation]

hi!!! i just wanted to pop in after reading some of your AC fics (ones where desmond, ezio, and/or altaïr are at the forefront so in this case: i was born for this, terrible two, stone angel, gift of living well, impermanence, three fold, & earthly scene) and say that you're a brilliant writer. as someone who's trying to write longer, more impactful stories, it's admirable how you prioritize the plot and how romance is a sweet part of it. (this is part 1 of this message bc of the word count!)

you construct romance in an original, cathartic way that feels effortless. i just finished 'i was born with this' and the romance that forms between the characters feels so natural and unforced. another thing i love in your fics is that when desmond goes back in time, he always (unintentionally at first) makes an impact in furthering knowledge, inventions, etc centuries ahead of when they were supposed to happen. more importantly, desmond finds his well-deserved happy ending.

your fic ideas are also so creative and out of the box. i'm currently going through the games right now and desmond has been so so much shit (unwillingly) and he deserves some rest and happiness :,) another thing i love is how you always leave a hopeful ending that makes me ache to know what happens after!! you flesh out the characters so much over the span of + 100,000k words, tie things wonderfully at the end, and make me feel out breath (in a good way)

yeah, to sum that up, you're an amazing writer!! i also wanted to ask you some questions about writing. i aspire to write long fics, but i struggle with plotting out events =( i feel like i rush the events in how i want to get to the end where the characters are happy! do you have a writing process? do you plot out your stories or kind of go with the flow? do you have any tips on improving your writing? i totally get if you don't have any advice! have a great day!

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Thank you for your nice comments, sorry it took so long to reply, I was feeling very antisocial. Anyway.

I do not have a writing process - I'm what they call a gardner writer, I take characters and I put them into situations and see how things develop and plot either happens or it doesn't. Maybe I have vague plans like "here's a scene I want to see in future" and "this is a result I want them to come to" and then try to write towards those goals, but they don't always pan out. It's all very chaotic and leads to lot of dropped fics, but it's how I enjoy writing. (It really helps having someone reading your stuff and poking at the plot holes though, I got a lot of fics that only got as far as they did because nimadge or someone else was there along for the ride.)

I dunno if there's anything other that just practice that can improve a person's writing. Some people recommend writing short stories and flash fiction, some people say your should write X amount of words every day. If all else fails there's thousands YouTube videos on subject.

Personally I'm a huge advocate of taking ideas from other people and putting your own spin into them. Derivate, rehash, put them in a blender, see what comes out. Like, don't copy Lord of the Rings word for word and publish it as your own work, that's bad - but maybe dwarf and elf going on adventures together is a idea that could go places. Fanfiction is all derivation upon pre-existing ideas.

Related, I whole heartedly endorse anyone who wants to take plots and ideas I've written and taking a crack at them with their own style. It's pretty much how I learned to write as wee bab on a typewriter, stealing from the books I enjoyed. And hell, if you don't have a style, try someone else's. One is my most popular fics started with me trying to emulate the style and cadence of narration of a completely unrelated TV series I was watching at the time. I don't think anyone even noticed.

Once you have enough practice under your belt, your style will develop on its own.

[pomefioredove]

Hi hello hi

I really really really LOVE YOUR STORIES

They're so so so so so good

And i love to reread them and i come back to em (my sense of time awareness -temporal awareness???- is terrible tho so sometimes I think it's been weeks since i read one but it turns out to only be a day)

Anyways, your writing

Is

So

GOOD

I love it

It's so WONDERFUL!!

Love the way you write Vil and Rook and reallly all of the characters

It's so delicious so delightful so wonderful and so satisfying and just THE BEST

I don't want to repeatedly reblog at times mostly cause i know that tends to translate as lots lots of notifs (i can be a bit spammy with my comments and reblogs so i try not to be too much but also your stuff is so so so so so so so so so GOOD )

The writing is simply immaculate in that it's so cozy and so delightful to read yet one still feels like it's the character and it's one of those cases of "the writing makes it feel canon even if that character doesn't always act like that". Not sure if that makes sense, but understand it's positive connotations. I love how you create these stories and the way you write them. The wording is so good and it feels both descriptive and gets details and emotions across yet not blandly concise and dry. It's really really really such a delight to read your stuff and i wanted you to know that without obliterating notifs with stuff (also cause i get tired or even WORSE - i blank out in the comment section or reblog section cause i got too excited and then i can't think about what exactly to write down lol)

Anyway, dropping this in the ask box

P.S. - pardon if overly energetic, trying not to be too much after sipping multiple cups of coffee- I'm so jittery and my heart is hype and it doesn't help that i was rereading your stuff and i just get so damn happy that i get jittery and big burst of energy. Like like idk lol

Like being attacked by cozy feelings and joy and kicking your feet under the covers kinda feeling (i wonder if this is how my guinea pig feels when she popcorns and jumps or when my dog does zoomies. I bet they're squeeing lol)

I think it's also cause I tend to have high energy and feel relatively intensely about lots of things (though it's more like JUST feeling though not affecting the actions as much lol- like squeeing but i can get up and do chores after??? Idk)

Anyway, LOVE YOUR STORIES

Super good and super awesome and i love them (again am hype on so much coffee and also from stories so combo whammy lol)

first of all! let it be known that I LOVE getting spammed, reblog and like and comment as much as your heart desires because it makes me SO happy, I love have my notifs blown up

second of all! THANK YOU SO MUCH

I keep like every nice comment I get, they give me the motivation to get through the day =w= I read all of yours especially, I think they're just so sweet and detailed and I love them... I think the first time you left a nice comment on one of my works I showed my friends because I got so excited

and thank you so so much about the comments on my characterization... I really enjoy getting to analyze and understand a character and then writing them with that in mind. I'm not perfect at it for all the twst characters just yet but my scope has definitely improved since I started here! it's kind of an exploratory process

I'd attribute my writing style to my background in poetry ^w^ I was formally trained as a poet until ~15 (tho I kept writing on my own) I'm unable to give every fic my all but I try to be a little creative with them at the very least! and the headcanons too

as for vil and rook... pomefiore has always been my fave dorm since snow white is my second favorite disney movie, I think about them all so much, I really relate to both epel and vil for various reasons too. my beloveds, really

ANYWAY. knowing that I'm doing something that makes people so happy is really the highlight of this, there's no better feeling than seeing someone go feral over my writing in the notes! truly the best part about creating art is seeing its emotional effect on people

this is the first x reader blog I've ever had (I made one like 2 years ago but was too shy to post so I deleted) and the experience I've had here so far has been so good. I used to be very scared of interacting w fandoms, being a naturally kinda scaredy person, but everyone here is so nice and talented?? it's the best I love it here

and feel free to ramble anytime! I love it

[bloodboonfic]

Analyst(hopeful) asked:

Hey a while back somewhere around chapter 20 you said you were a bit over halfway done. Where are you now by comparison? I also believe you said that you have more plot points to hit rather than a chapter count, so unfortunately you likely don’t have a chapter count for how much is left. Oh well for anticipation purposes. Don’t worry I’m pretty sure I am guilty of the same thing regarding chapter count.

Also I have a writing question. I ask this to most other writers because it makes me want to pull my hair out and I am always trying to improve especially if I want to actually publish something one day fan-fiction or otherwise. How do you prefer to plot? 

I do have a question about your ideas about piglin fire tolerance in regards to Bloodboon. I’ve seen most writers chose the route of they still burn and some elaborate a bit more and chose the they still burn it just takes a bit longer than a human and their skin is a bit thicker. I prefer the second option because it makes sense.

I am currently less overwhelmed by questions right now. I am more overwhelmed by the amount of whump you are throwing Technoblade’s way. It hurts. Like all of his subconscious knowledge and conscious knowledge that he can’t make Philza happy and can’t keep the only friend he’s ever had because it is totally not a fair relationship coming to the front of his mind all the time and making him absolutely miserable. That water comparison of yours in the last chapter to tie strings so we could see his line and course of thinking was amazing. I hope it ends happily. 

Also update on my au that I keep running into plot issues which I fixed but… Apparently after some research …I think like someone with more minecraft background than I actually have and I’m actually a little disappointed. Nothing new under the sun I guess or I’ve already read too much minecraft fan fiction, specifically emduo.

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The fic is at the end of the middle, I’d say. Techno and Philza still have one more Event until their friendship meter is maxed out. I suspect the whole fic will come to be just shy of 40 chapters.

Uhhh I don’t like, actively plot? It just sorta happens? When I have an idea, it usually kicks off as a premise, then Events come up, and then I think of connective tissue between the Events. And once it all has stewed in my brain for long enough, I put it down as a bullet point list, then move the bullets around so that Events with causality relations are in chronological order (eg. the scene at the flight range can’t happen before Philza’s feathers grow back), and then move the floater Events (eg. Philza interacting with a pigling child can happen whenever) so that the pacing becomes nice. I try to alter between chill and intense bits, to give the story the chance to breathe. Too much chill is dull and too much intense is exhausting, you gotta go back and forth. And also sometimes things Just Happen, Philza’s breakdown in Ch 11 was completely unplanned, it just Became. And then sometimes you need 500 more words to get acceptable posting length so whelp time for Techno to wax philosophical about bread or whatever.

Also I Can Not write non-chronologically. Scenes are written in the order in which they happen, unless there comes a realisation after the fact that Something needed to happen earlier. I’m pretty sure most people hop around instead of going strictly in order? But that does not agree with the shape of my brain.

I think piglins having higher fire tolerance than humans makes sense. If you live in a hellpit, you adapt or you die.

Yeah Techno’s not having a good time lately huh? Guess stealing a person does not have great long-term results! /j

Not sure what to say to your last point, but in any case, would be stoked to give your AU a read come time of posting!

-Anchestor

[uncleasad]

for that fic ask meme - 14, 26, 50, 53, 55

14. what’s your worst writing habit?

Oof! My entire writing process is one giant bad habit, so it’s hard to pick the worst part 😂

I know I just reblogged that post about ignoring the tyranny of the daily word count, but I’m going to say not trying to write a few words every day, or a sentence a week, or something like that…I let myself get into writing droughts that go on and on and on (and, yes, I’m busier than I was in 2020 and 2021, but I love writing and doing so always makes me feel good), so trying to stop those pauses before they become droughts is something I need to do to break a bad habit.

26. do you like to write one-shots or series, and why?

Both? I write what the idea I have calls for, I guess? (Almost all of my series are collections of one-shots; I have never thought of writing a series consisting of multi-chapter fics, but one kinda sneaked in there 😳)

I enjoy—and sometimes specifically choose an idea because it fits—writing one-shots because they’re a good way for me to get back into writing when I’ve been too busy with life or bogged down in one of my long WIPs. Last Christmas’s Mischief and Mistletoe is a great example of this: short, self-contained, and seasonally relevant 😏 I liken these sorts of fics to artists doing a doodle or quick sketch as a warm-up.

Sometimes while writing a one-shot I’ll think of something that will open the door to a sequel, sometimes there’ll be nothing specific but nothing to rule out more in the same vein (e.g. the Tales from the Salvatore Kitchen series), and sometimes readers will have a suggestion I hadn’t thought of that I love that will turn a one-shot into a series of one-shots.

It’s nice to have a series or two where you enjoy the world/setup, because it’s fun and easy to dip back in and write some more (so all the benefits of a one-shot) and you (I!) can develop ideas, characters, and events without feeling guilty about not updating (vs a single multi-chapter fic where readers have started reading and want more 😏); there’s less expectation.

(My true favorite things to write are the big, expansive, complex stories, but they’re simultaneously my least favorite for all those reasons 😂)

50. do you plan or do you write whatever comes to your mind? 53. when writing, do you have an outline? and do you stick to it?

These two are related, so I’ll tackle them together. I’ve linked to and written about George RR Martin’s post about gardening before, so there’s good background there and I’ll (try! to) make this the short version.

I mostly have a lightweight plan for what I write: a collection of scenes, or some important character beats or plot points, and often, but not always, an idea of what the ending is (sometimes my idea for the fic is “I want to write this scene that is probably somewhere in the middle of an actual fic 😂 but more often it instead is “this would be a fun situation to throw them into; let’s see what happens!”). That’s as close as I’ll get to an outline 😳

I’ll often also make a series of notes as I’m writing, again of the same types of things as in the “plan,” plus dialogue and details, as a sort of “living outline” for what’s next/coming up. But nothing formal or well-structured (which does make it harder to do those bigger stories, naturally). I have hated outlines since elementary school, so…

I’ll diverge from what I have “planned” any time I have an idea I really like or think will improve the story, although to my recollection it rarely happens, and when it does it’s more small changes. I’m much more likely to split “planned” chapters and make a fic 4x longer than I originally thought it would be 😂

So, needless to say, I mostly write what comes to mind. Sometimes that’s filling in the big blank spaces between things I know I want to include, and sometimes that’s deciding where the whole story itself will go. (My mind is wont to come up with crazy twists and tangents #this is the way my mind works 😂)

55. do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?

I don’t think I have any WIPs that I’ve started writing that I never intend to come back to/finish. I have an entire laundry list of WIPs that I have not written on in months or years, though.

My story as a current fanfic author goes like this:

Started writing Have At Least One Totally Epic Love in spring 2020, ran out of steam/got stuck near the pivotal moments.

Had an idea for After Ten Long Years and started writing it to try to work through that block, but got stuck on it.

Had an idea for Old West Hosie; started writing it to work around that block, then got stuck on it, too.

Had an idea for Hosie Alternate Realities; started writing it to work around that block, then got stuck there, also 😳

[Cue Hope Mikaelson: “Love, Lose, Grieve, repeat”]

At some point in there, I wrote the first one-shot in the Tales from the Salvatore Kitchen series, You Complete Me, to break the cycle and publish something, which turned into 3 more seasonal one-shots (initially), and then I finally finished Have At Least One Totally Epic Love, almost exactly 1 year after I had left off. 2021 I think was a pretty good year, lots of shorter works finished, but also several more big works started where I once again ran out of steam/got stuck/got distracted by the shiny new idea 😂

(Also, after the experience with Have At Least One Totally Epic Love, I rarely actually write and publish things serially unless I have a really, really good idea of the scope of the fic and also know I’ll have decent amounts of writing time—so there’s nothing out there that readers would perceive of as abandoned. The biggest example of a fic I’ve written and published serially since HALOTEL is And I Will Always Love You, 8 chapters, 32K words, written from February to May.)

So approaching 200K words of incomplete WIPs now, but nothing I intend never to finish.

Thanks for asking! Lots of great choices 😀 Hopefully I didn’t bore you to sleep with the answers!

[lovesastateofmind1]

20 Questions Game

tagged by @sssammich and I'm gonna do this instead of editing so yall know where to point the blame for the delay

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

9

2. What’s your total AO3 words count?

372,061

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Supercorp currently

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

You, Me and The In Betweens

Tempo

Heaven is a Place on Earth

Can I Have Your Attention Please

Hey There... Lena

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do respond to majority of them. I miss a few here and there and I don't respond to the rude ones. I also take ages to actually reply, which is because I'm super flattered and don't know how to properly convey that in words so I procrastinate. A lot.

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

If we're solely talking endings, Sweet Dreams probably

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of them end on a positive note. But in my personal opinion, Heaven is a Place on Earth

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Every now and then, but usually it comes from Amy - yall know Amy - and even when it doesn't, its typically in relation to my plot choices and not a critique of my skill

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Bro. Yes lmao. Not super kinky. Not entirely vanilla either. Idk that I could really give you a 'kind.' It's solely based on how thirsty I'm feeling on any particular day and then when I have to actually edit it, I want to punch my past self in the face.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Never written one, probably would though.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes and it was so cool to see. Still endlessly grateful.

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

*sigh* I call myself cowriting a fic with @fyonahmacnally and @chaotic-super. I also call myself cowriting a different fic with @sssammich. And then of course that series that we absolutely aren't writing. But thus far, most of the 'writing' has taken place inside our own imaginations. Maybe we'll make progress. Someday.

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

Do you really have to ask me that?

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I think I'll finish all of them honestly. May take 3-5 years. But I think I'll finish.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Injecting the most misery possible into a single fic. Smut. I think I have a nice prose too.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing lmao.

I think most things are a weakness for me. I'm told my descriptive writing is great, but I always think it needs so much improvement because of my inability to visualize anything ever. But if yall can see it, then that's fantastic. Otherwise, long scenes with dialogue. I struggle so bad with extended dialogue.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Would stress me tf out lol. I think it's great. I've almost done it. But I don't trust google translate near enough and I don't personally know anyone who speaks fluent French. So we all just gonna have to use our imaginations when Lena walks through that parking garage.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Technically, Law and Order SVU, though it was never finished or posted anywhere. I needed Katie McGrath to come grab my inspiration by the throat, evidently.

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

Lie to Me. Without question. I put the most into it and I'm incredibly proud of it, even if I wanted to set it on fire most days. It's simultaneously the easiest and most difficult thing I've ever written and I hope I always love it this much.

Tagging @mssirey, @sneezewizard, @someoneyouloved93 and anyone else who wants to give it a go, zero pressure of course!

[mochiwrites]

heard you were havin a hell of a day and i wanted to come give you some nice vibes bc i can relate

in relation to my last ask you answered *sobs at you* /pos dont worry about if you take to long to answer. I can be patient. And also just seeing you match my silly energy in return about that silly silly headcanon made my day so- <3 <3 <3

youre the best. I had been off tumblr for a couple years, but you (and a couple other blogs) actually got me to come back because i love seeing all the stuff you post. I love seeing your thoughts and ideas. And rn youre like the only scarian fic author im subscribed to.

Idk if anything im saying here makes a lot of sense bc i just woke up from a post work nap, but you deserve good things! I hope your day/week improves.

-🍄

uwahhhhh thankie ;w;

your idea was lovely!!! I love getting asks like that, and I always try to match the energy there as best I can (which honestly is exactly why it takes me so long sometimes WHEEZE) but 🥺🥺 I’m very glad it made your day <333 I love being able to contribute to something like that

and I continue to sob at you??? very loud??? thankie 🥹💕💕💕

[desertfangs]

I’ve been reading your Devil’s Minion fic and I just want to say, I’m so amazed by the way you write them! You capture them and the deliriously whimsical essence of their relationship so incredibly well. What was it about them initially that drew you in and made you want to explore more?

Oh wow, thank you so much! That's so nice of you to say! I definitely try to keep them whimsical and wild, because that is the soul of their dynamic.

I think what initially drew me to them was Daniel, to be honest. I relate deeply to his desire to live forever and also his desire to be part of the supernatural and escape the mundane world.

But I love that in Armand he finds someone who matches his brand of weird: they're both insatiably curious and eager to learn and try new things and see new places. In fact, a large part of Daniel's desire to be immortal is to live long enough to see how the world progresses. He wants to be alive when people land on Mars, he wants to see history unfold. He tells Armand as much during one of their arguments about turning him.

But what keeps me coming back is just their dynamic. I'm a sucker for the trope of "this person is an ice block to everyone but this one person who can melt them" and while Armand is not totally like that, Daniel lets Armand open up and be his weird little self in ways no one has before (and probably still does to this day - Louis is not going understand the need to buy a 3D printer and use it to craft a scale model of the Brooklyn Bridge but Daniel will!) and he still loves him entirely for it. Like he loves Armand because of what and who he is, not despite it! And to me, all of the little descriptions we get of Armand, all of the little bits about his curiosity and wonder about him in QotD, that is all stuff from Daniel, a man in love.

And it starts really early on between them, too, while most people would be too busy being terrified, Daniel is captivated by him, attracted to him, and wants to know more about him. He's so fascinated and Armand in turn is fascinated by him, this strange mortal who isn't as scared as he should be and keeps asking questions!

Daniel is sarcastic and impatient, and while he lets Armand take the lead, he's also not afraid to draw lines, argue, or challenge him back, which I think is so important. They know each other so well and they're similar in a lot of ways (like how bad they are at communicating), so I think they argue and fight a lot, but I like to think in a post-canon era this is improving.

After all, Daniel had a lot of time after he came out of his madness to really think about things. Both of them believed, at least temporarily, that they had lost the other for good (Daniel to madness, Armand to the sun) so I hope now they both have a better idea of what really matters and what's important. Does it stop them from fighting over stupid shit? Never! But in my mind, at least, Daniel is trying really hard not to repeat their past mistakes, and I think Armand is, too.

Anyhow, wow, this just turned in a long love letter to Daniel and Armand. 💖 Thank you so much for the compliment! I'm always happy to hear people enjoy my writing! And thank you for the ask!

[dropthedemiurge]

💫🎀🎈💌?

From the writer ask game - thank you for sending in questions!^^ 💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

It's definitely the 'OMG THIS IS MY FAVOURITE LINE (inserts quote) *followed by understandable or keyboard smashing reaction*' And the 'I related so much because...' together with 'I keep rereading your fic!' Because it's a truly unbelievable miracle for me, and even if I don't believe that, it's really heartwarming that I can make someone day better with my silly stories *__* 🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

Find another writer who cherishes bromances, best friends shenanigans (and falling in love a lil bit in the same time), platonic bdsm and rare but nice pairings as much as I do xD I feel like I'm a very niche author who writes for myself and because I cannot NOT write about something I suddenly find passion about but I always find people looking just for what I'm writing! And I'm very happy^^ Also I could mostly read english long fics for about 6 years and my writing was very wonky but last year I had to write 2-3k words a day for 3 months and I believe my writing has really improved so far! It's not what I'm capable of in my native language but I'm not annoyed by rereading my works anymore so that's great~

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

I've touched on it here but yep, it's very flexible and changing all the time, just like my art style xD

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Hmmm, do I have WIPs?.. I tend to just write in small chunks (1-3k) and immediately posting it cuz I'm impulsive and impatient xD But I do have things! Maybe even several things so 👀

a) something that won't be even released in the written form maybe but what I'm very excited about

Namo rolled their eyes, snarling with barely hidden annoyance. "I swear, if people keep try to punch me just because I tell them they are completely fucking dead and can't return to their life, one day I'm gonna quit my job."

Thua chuckled, politely nodding. Yeah. As if the Highest Grim Reaper can just quit their job.

b) and guess which fic it is and with what premise xD

[mcalhenwrites]

One of the things I appreciate as a reader and a writer is that there is so much importance in covering unconventional topics. So much of what I bullied myself for over a kid and felt lonely about, stories saved me from that. "No one experiences this! I'm a freak!" No, I'm isolated from hanging out with other people my age, and now I have the dumbest anxieties about stuff that's 100% human to do. It's normal for kids to have toy animals talk to one another, it's not weird that you get stitches in your side (thank you books for giving me a definition for this)... But also, it's totally normal to have invasive thoughts. I'm not the only one who has kinks. There's your unconventional topics, right there, but necessary ones to include. There's so much emotion to be discussed through writing. I don't know who I'd be without books and later fanfics. (I didn't read fanfiction until I was 19 and had my own laptop, in which case, I immediately wanted to look up Shadow Hearts. I started reading fanfics from there.) And I'm making all these connections to humans who are far away or long since dead from writing about experiences that connect with me. I still appreciate this as a reader to this day. There seems to always be something that makes me go, "Wow, I'm not alone in feeling like this!" or "I appreciate the frankness of this work on a topic that means a lot to me." So it's really astounding to me now that I'm on the writer's side of this more and more, as I improve my skills and post more work out there. I think my best example of this is Seasons, which I posted on anon for several months. Having people say they relate to one of the characters due to their experiences, or having them understand the emotions... I'm not alone, because I'm writing through painful emotions I've experienced, and people have connected with it. It's amazing and I'm just... I don't know. Amazed! (Listen, I'll save the nice writing for my novels and fics. This is tumblr, live with my basic skills lol~)

[scary-senpai]

Can you explain garou x saitama? I really don’t see it but I’d like to know your opinion.

Haha, oh my goodness, this was such a lovely ask to get <3 I’m honestly excited to respond (and maybe a little nervous, haha). So, thank you again, beloved nonny, for asking with an open mind. :D

As I mentioned, I’m a bit nervous because the answer is likely weirder than you expect, and that’s because it’s kind of a personal answer? And I (IRL) also tend to be a lot weirder than most people expect. But when it comes to writing, that’s generally the sweet spot, so here goes nothing.

So, I tagged it as Platonic! Garou & Saitama** meaning it’s not romantic or sexual, at least, not in the traditional sense. I could talk for days about what I find appealing--I answered a similar ask on my main blog a few years ago, and my answer is still the same.

** actually I used “x” rather than “&” and in retrospect, I’m not sure if that’s correct. I’ll have to look into it more. But anyway, Garou and Saitama are foils: they have overcome similar obstacles, they grapple with similar despairs—including overwhelmingly strong emotions and/or the perceived absence of them, which is just as conspicuous and painful. I can’t help but feel if their journeys towards physical strength stem from the same place, which is that they are running from questions they don’t want to answer, and parts of themselves they’d rather avoid.

On a lighter note, though, they’re both a little goofy—I like to imagine they communicate almost exclusively in Dad jokes, and I have one scene drafted where they manage to derail a Hero Association meeting this way. You’ll find a lot of stuff under the brotp and sometimes OT3 tag, but more on that later.

In any case, I think that Garou & Saitama’s goofiness stems from the same place: time spent dwelling in dark places. I had a different reaction to That One Panel Where Saitama Threatens to Destroy the World, I thought, “hey, that’s relatable—most people who care deeply about others oscillate between pain and despair and anger, sometimes this results in dramatic outbursts, especially verbal ones; perhaps this will become a talking point later.” Based on later events/context, I no longer think that’s what the authors intended but I don’t think that interpretation is necessarily wrong—the first step to dealing with emotions is to name them. Anyway, I digress.

I myself am actually a gray ace, so when I imagine Garou and Saitama together, I just give them my ideal relationship which is all of the closeness and all of the shenanigans, but none of the sex. Because at the end of the day, I personally just want someone to gently kiss my hand and affectionately whisper “you’re the literal worst” while giving me the deepest and most genuine smile or drive up outside my window, honking and shouting “wake up, loser! We’re gonna spend all day driving around New Jersey doing nice things for people—but first we’re gonna get ice cream.”

(Anyway, if you follow my main blog or read my more personal posts, it is clear that I Have a Type. Like, really really-- I Have a Type.)

Getting back to OPM, though, when I write fics in particular (but also incorrect quotes or headcanons), I write a lot about Garou and Saitama. I think first of all because it’s fun—they’re very strong but they’re also playful. Saitama is a self-professed “hero for fun,” Garou starts out more like a “villain for fun,” and through various interactions—with each other, as well as their respective anchors—they develop an overarching, shared goal that seems initially dissonant…. but in actuality, their visions are very much the same.

Ultimately, they want a safe and peaceful world for everyone, especially the people they care about. Most importantly, they’re trying to both navigate and improve a world that they themselves always seem to peripheral to & outside of; a world that doesn’t appear to be designed for people like them—even before they gained their incredible abilities.

When it comes to their interpersonal dynamics, though, I think that Saitama has this incredible and interesting ability to provoke reactions in other people without intimidating them. That's the role of the "Wise Fool" character, and I believe that's the archetype Saitama falls into. That levity helps others feel safer as they question their own goals and motives. Villains usually serve a similar role in a story--in a good story, they aren't just a plot device; villains challenge us to re-evaluate our assumptions, expectations, and sometimes our values.

...So, Garou does the same thing: he incites others to flip their perspective. But unlike Saitama, he’s deliberately more provocative and more deliberately irreverent. Saitama certainly can be this way, too, but with Saitama it's usually by accident--but then again, it's hard to tell with him. Despite being perceptive and canny, Saitama is often evasive about the things he knows—at the same time, he doesn’t hesitate to get on a soapbox when he feels like he needs to: Saitama wants to save people from themselves as much as he wants to save them from external threats.

…and because Saitama so often ends up in silly situations, it makes him approachable. As we saw with Reigen and Mob in the MP finale, sometimes we serve others best by showing up as our own divinely imperfect, authentically messy self—which Saitama does. Constantly. (And Garou too! I think the most charming thing about his character, when I first encountered him, was the way Garou laughs off various defeats with beautifully insouciant amusement, so delighted to be growing and learning--which is exactly what Saitama wants for himself, and by extension, the sort of person he might gravitate towards).

In the Before Times, when the MA Manga Finale was but a twinkle in the mangaka’s eye, I imagined Saitama and Garou meeting post (WC fight): Garou is working as a delivery guy (of course), and while on break, he hears somebody screaming inside the grocery store he had been stocking. Lo and behold, and it’s Saitama. Saitama is covered in highly corrosive monster goo, watching in horror as all of his coupons disintegrate—along with his clothing. (Spoiler alert: Saitama is not at all concerned with his clothing).

...understandably, the poor, terrified clerk doesn’t want to take Saitama’s money (which is rapidly eating away the counter) and Garou covers his tab. Garou mutters something like, "for obvious reasons, it pains me to see you like this." Saitama interprets this as longing / jealously and pats the kid on the back with an acid-covered hand, assuring Garou the he will also eventually save the world in his own way--maybe even as a hero. (Garou, meanwhile, is thinking "forget about saving the world... I don't wanna live on this planet anymore"). While maintaining full eye contact, Saitama swipes the entire take-a-penny-leave-a-penny jar and vanishes. It's not a meet cute or anything, it's just it's a weird little moment of catharsis and the beginning of their friendship. It is endgame Gearou, though.

When Genos shows up the next morning to pay Garou back, Garou jokingly asks for 150% interest which Genos pays without blinking. ("Sensei's credit rating leaves much to be desired.")

Anyway, I just feel like there are so many opportunities for Saitama to accidentally get Garou to open up about his feelings. I have a rough draft of the “Dr. Saitama” scene where Garou is pouting silently in several inches of mud, pointedly ignoring Saitama until Saitama comes back with that jar of weird-looking eggs in the upper left corner of the shack scene panel. “I didn’t know you could pickle eggs,” Saitama comments. “I thought you could only pickle pickles.”

At which point, Garou snaps, absolutely indignant that this two-bit asshat cannot grasp the concept of a cucumber. My sense is that Saitama did this on purpose--intentionally prodding Garou a bit, trying to help him express his very real, very painful emotions in a way that feels safer, less frightening. I literally never know what Saitama is doing in my fics though. Probably because Saitama doesn't reliably know that, either.

In the same way that Saitama riles Garou up just enough to make him learn something, Garou riles Saitama up just enough to make him emotional--for example, by discerning Saitama's inexplicable fear of elves and adjusting his Christmas decorations appropriately. It's another Gearou fic, but Saitama is--as I always imagine him--just there, living in the same house, being part of their chosen family. I headcanon that they are always arguing about this (“You said you missed having feelings!” “Not these ones!”). It’s just constant, low-level benign trolling in a way that accidentally makes them both into other people.

So, I don’t really have many romantic headcanons or scenarios with the two of them, although I have entertained the idea. And, admittedly, I do have that “BroTP and sometimes ot3” tag. I’ve kind of entertained the idea of some scenario where the three of them are in a polycule? But it has literally always come from a place I never expected, like I fall asleep after editing a Gearou story and then whatever scene I’m workshopping somehow seeps into my dreams… at which point, the characters nitpick everything I’ve got wrong, including the relationship. “They’re not dating. We are. Don’t you see it?” (Ummm… no I don’t? At least not in that particular instance. Because these are not sexy dreams, mind you, just Exceedingly Vanilla, G-Rated anxiety dreams.)

If I hypothetically wrote a romantic and/or NSFW SaiGarou fic, I imagine it might have something to do with the fact that pain is the only emotion Garou allows himself to feel… and Saitama has already seen him at his worst, and, at the same time, hasn’t been phased by it. So I can imagine a situation where Garou knows he has to revisit that part of himself in order to heal and overcome it—that feeling of being broken and vulnerable but also safe and free, and given that he’s probably a bit touch starved you can see how things might progress from there.

Anyway. If something like this shows up on ao3 a year from now, you will know that it definitely was not me.

So, wow, there’s my answer—something like 1.3k words later :-/ if you’re still here, thanks so much for coming to my Ted Talk. I actually did have a little bit of material prepared in hopes that someone would someday ask me a variation of this question, so I’m grateful to you. This was a really nice thing to wake up to, and well-timed because I woke up at 5a and couldn’t get back to sleep. Also, gosh I'm tired. I hope this all makes sense when I wake up, and please forgive any silly spelling mistakes.

Stay safe and well, Friend!

[pennedbylisse]

𝑵𝑨𝑽𝑰𝑮𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵: Penned by Lisse

୨୧⋆˚₊ 💗 ₊˚⋆୨୧

ɪɴᴛʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

all you need to know about me in one place:

♡₊˚ 22; INTP; leo sun, cap moon, scorpio rising (if ur into that)

♡₊˚ i mostly write prose, but i also dabble in fantasy/AU tannie fics

♡₊˚ thrives in organized chaos

♡₊˚ loves to contemplate ambivalent villains (e.g. Klaus Michaelson, Rafe Cameron, Dan Scott, etc.)

♡₊˚ the following changed the way I look at art and life and I hope their influence makes itself known amidst my writing: One Tree Hill, Outer Banks, Heart Break High, One Day (Netflix), HYYH Bangtan Universe

♡₊˚ lover of Genshin Impact (currently a Kaeya main; AR 22)

♡₊˚ lover of obscure and relatively useless facts

♡₊˚ a-not-always-proud-member of the Spanish aquiline nose female population

♡₊˚ evening iced lattes>>

♡₊˚ works in the medical field by day, with intention of climbing up the ranks!

♡₊˚ cognitively incapable of making up my mind; has too many interests and not enough time to pursue them all (sometimes speaks of self in 3rd POV).

shows/films I love: Merlin (2008), One Day (Netflix), Heartbreak High (Netflix), One Tree Hill, The Originals, Outer Banks, The Empress (Netflix), Anne with an E.

albums/artists I love: Young the Giant, Folklore by T. Swift

oddly specific interests: Victorian glasshouses, lighthouses, repurposing glass bottles as candelabras, dried flowers, collecting journals and sticky note pads without ever using them so as to not waste their beauty, cute pink ghost cartoons, collecting tinted glass vases or mugs.

I'm not good at this! >.<

(I'm usually the one doing the people-watching/studying not the other way around).

If you'd like to know more, I'm more than willing to respond to your asks.

Be nice or I'll block you :)

୨୧⋆˚₊ 💗 ₊˚⋆୨୧

𝗙𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗢𝗠 𝗙𝗜𝗖𝗦

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warning: non-linear thoughts all around from a probable neurospicy brain.

The Raven (MYG)

>> currently 4.1 k implied cult runaways settle into a small town, tend to a flower shop and attempt to bud a new way, a cleaner one, of life. but where-ever they go, their shadow trails closely at their steps, only now, they might just jeopardize the lives of those they've grown to know and love. jjk makes an appearance as small-town tattoo artist. there's a resident calico cat which is obsessed with yoongi. yoongi plays the guitar and writes.

Intellectual Crush (KJN)

>> currently 3 k same universe as operation cupid (below) but it follows the perspective of the boss, his ritualistic visits to an indie bookstore and how he starts a penpalship with another shopgoer.

Operation Cupid (PJM)

>> currently 7.4 k a pair of emotionally oblivious colleagues-turned-friends start falling for each other whilst playing cupid for their overworked boss. their love language? playing house and calling it "part of the plan."

Between Comfort & Chaos (KTH)

>> currently 6 k one day, like any other, you wake up an see everything differently. you start wondering whether you'd seen anything at all before.

Neverland in August (KTH)

>> 3.7 k stand-alone one-shot (completed) there's brief mentions of stars, seashell mythology, pixie dust, neverland, reluctance to mature and let go of innocence, forbidden love(?), and one single event of skinny dipping?? it's a mess, i won't lie. read at ur own risk

୨୧⋆˚₊ 💗 ₊˚⋆୨୧

𝗖𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗠𝗔 & 𝗠𝗘𝗗𝗜𝗔 𝗝𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗦

ᶠⁱˡᵐˢ

An Individual Analysis of A Quiet Place: Day One

ᵗᵛ ˢᵉʳⁱᵉˢ

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𝗧𝗔𝗚 𝗡𝗔𝗩𝗜𝗚𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡

conveniently filter my blog by topic of interest

#memes -> all memes, writer memes, relatable posts/reflections, funny, etc.

#my journal -> all my written reflections regardless of mood or formatting

#lisse writes -> my og pieces of fiction and/or fanfiction

#writing advice -> posts on improving writing skills, motivation and reminders

#writing prompts -> quotes or images that incite story telling

#hyperfixation #topic -> for routine changes in interests

#quotes and scenes -> favorite quotes from songs or writing pieces; favorite scenes or lines from tv or cinema or music videos

[stayevildarling]

Hello~

For the first writers ask game: 💌 & 🚗

And 🤎 & 👜 for the other one :)

Have a nice weekend!!

hi🥺 the way I gasped 😭 I love your account!! tysm for sending these and I hope you have a nice weekend too <3

🚗 What vehicles do your characters drive or use for transportation?

Cordelia drives a mercedes benz g class (she could easily teleport but refuses to use it unnecessarily)

Wilhemina drives a purple audi r8 and she had it customized so the interior is also purple ofc

Billie drives an old black mercedes convertible. she loves driving and the wind blowing through her hair

💌 Which of your fics mean the most to you and why?

honestly just the ones that I relate to so I often reread them and it gives me comfort. especially the „breathe sweetheart“ one lately because my anxiety is slowly killing me

🤎describe your perfect conditions for writing/ drawing, ect.

I love when I have a day off, snuggled up on the sofa with my laptop and my headphones, listening to music. And rainy weather is always a plus🥰

👜 Have you ever deleted one of your published fics / art?

yes I have, some of my older ones on wattpad because I hated them😂 but I decided to keep the rest on there because it‘s a reminder for improvement you know?

[seiwas]

GAME TIME !! 🌝📝

sweet dilly!!! thank you for playing with me!! 💗 and thank you for ur support on 'so this is what it means...' omfg ??? u r too sweet!!!

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

i really want to write for kirishima one day!! (tbh i already have a prompt for him ahsfbhaf) or nanami / atsumu!!!

📝 What is one growth area you have for your writing?

i had to google if my understanding of growth area was correct omg

i'm still unsure but hmmm... if it's points of improvement: related to my previous ask, i have a hard time with plots!! so maybe focusing on smth plot-heavy would be nice to improve on sometime!! i'm also really bad at describing actions ,, like i think i write them really mechanically?? if that's make sense. any way for me to improve on that would be nice too !!

if it's areas i think i've improved on: capturing certain moods in writing !!! / having an overall mood for a specific fic !! i don't think it's that big of a deal but whenever i'm editing i feel like i can feel distinct ~vibes or see certain colors to diff fics of mine ! (i used to just write the same always,,,,,, HAHA)

☕♡🍞 brunch chats or a midnight snack! ☕♡🍞 pick from any of these ask games: 1 | 2 | 3 and let's talkkkk!!

[maxellminidisc]

These tags intrigued me, I have more thoughts (not confrontational or anything just fascinated by difference of experience)

Cause like I definitely don't think fandom was better circa 2012-2018??? when I was involved more deeply in fandom. I think if you're a person of color in fandom the experience then or now is especially always going to be shit and it's going to feel like wading in the fucking trenches. I think fandom culture has always been rotten as long as you got white people being the most vocal majority. And I think the one improvement we've made is that the discussion on adults behavior towards minors and about media about or containing minors, about racism, about other awful shit is now out in the open at a bigger scale. There were always people willing to talk about these things, but the likelyhood of them being drowned out by harrassment and especially racism was like on a different level, like its STILL absolutely happens and I still see it happen but I think a lot of people now have at the very least much bigger spaces to have these convos, especially amongst ourselves as targets of said fandom racism, ableism, etc. But the downside of this is that the people who HAVE gotten called out for shit are ALSO much more openly aggressive and shameless, especially towards minors and poc.

BUT like what I was referring to in my original post as something I "enjoyed" is the balance of fandom related content OUTSIDE and beside fan fiction specifically on tumblr. From my experience, it felt like a pretty balanced ratio of fanfic, fan art, gifsets, giveaways, meta discussion, fan projects like zines, etc cause they were always on my dash plain as day, literally never had to look for it and when I did it was easy to find. I even still have mutuals from those days and they too notice the change!

It wasn't like now, where you practically have to scroll past 20 pages of badly tagged fan fiction. It was always a nice mix of stuff; a fanfic here, a gifset there, a sprinkling of fan art, etc Now it's like can't go into a single interest without at least scrolling past 15 posts in a row of PURE fan fic before you find maybe one piece of fan art sanwhiched between the next ten. I literally have to put additional tags (for example rn let's say you have to be like "miguel o'hara, art, fan art" + show pictures only feature) to find specific things AND EVEN THEN fan fiction will still clog my results because tumblr picks up on the gifs, screencaps, photos, etc. people use to decorate or draw attention to their fan fic for some reason.

So it's like there absolutely is a saturation in fandoms focus on fanfiction and as someone else said in the tags, I think the general epidemic of faster hollower consumption of all things, including media and art, has both contributed to so much of that oversaturation and produced work thats not so fucking great! I mean back in the day you still had people absolutely writing very weak to badly written work, don't get me wrong, but finding and tracking down works with a substantial amount of thought into the original narratives and characterizations of their inspiration, of trying to improve their literary skills, working with editors, OF BEING OPEN TO CRITIQUE, was so much more likely! And the middle of the road stuff wasn't a complete loss either.

Like to me there is just such an apparant change in the ratio of content and quality produced in fandom and now that I think about it like the sense of idk an actual creative community?? The only time I see people really rally is when anybody has actual critique on fandom culture or on someone in fandoms behaviour. Like I mentioned before people used to get together all the time and do like collaborative fics, online zine projects, giveaways of merch they'd made or copies of things they didn't need anymore/wanted to share, other art projects like tarot decks, etc as a fun way to engage with each other. Some of these fun things absolutely still exist but they're usually done in much smaller scales and in smaller fandoms I'm in and they dont happen quite as much. Of course theres other reasons the reduction in these projects has happened (aka disastrous scams lol) but it's interesting that its fallen out of style among fan spaces, I see it more in specificically LGBT spaces that say, people get together to make a zine. Fandom now seems very very disconnected in some particular way now on here that I cant quite put into words that really doesnt feel as capable of enjoyment??? Enjoyment now comes from SUPER curating who and what you're interacting with instead of like more of a casual pick and choose, steady flow of variable content.

[pichitinha]

I’ve had a pretty shitty day and just seeing that you’ve updated your fic made it a little bit better. So thanks for that.

aaaaaaa omg! first of all i hope your day improves anon, and i’m glad my fic was a good thing today! i hope you liked/will like the chapter!!

[eeunoia]

ENHYPEN Series

sarang — yjw.

chapter three

summary: the love journey of you and mafia boss yang jungwon. after meeting and getting to know you, he grew in love, deeply in love that he will do anything to keep you to himself.

word count: 3.2k

warnings: contains violence, guns, killings, abuse, obsessive love & other dark stuff. if you can’t take these things, feel free to scroll away. thank you.

disclaimer: any of these doesn't occur and relate to any person that i will be using in these fics. everything that is similar to any persons, locations, events & etc. are purely coincidence and everything came from the author's imaginations. you may encounter a lot of errors as i am still trying to improve myself. thank you.

note📎: I’m sorry but I uploaded chapter 3 instead of chapter 2 so fixed it. i will fix the masterlist of this series tomorrow don’t worry. you can also check this book on my wattpad, @/eeunoiawrites_. I hope you guys liked it! it really means a lot to me whenever you let me know what you think about them, re-blogs and comments are well appreciated. btw, i love you guys and thank you for supporting me up until now. have a nice day/night! 🤍

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chapter two | chapter three | chapter four 

“Goodmorning, boss.” Jungwon’s eyes moved from his wrist towards Injang who just greeted him. He was fixing his watch while he’s walking outside of his room when Injang talked.

He nodded and his eyes quickly turned over the direction of your room. His gaze remains as his thoughts went blank, just the thought of your sleeping face occupying it.

“What’s my schedule for today?” he asked, eyes still fixed at the same direction.

“You have a meeting today with the board-members. Also, Mr. Lim wants to meet you today.” his brows furrowed at the mention of his name.

He teared his eyes away from the direction of your room before he started walking downstairs. “Mr. Lim? Why?”

“I don’t know, Sir. But I declined it like always.”

Jungwon huffed a sigh before he nodded his head. He doesn’t know if he really wants to do business with that man and hearing him calling again, asking to meet, makes him want to go to him and shot him dead. Jungwon sighed, calming himself. He saw some of the helpers already busy doing their own stuff.

“You’ll stay, Injang.” he said as he stopped walking before he glanced over him.

Injang looked confused, “Boss?”

“I won’t leave her with nobody trustworthy.” Jungwon said seriously as his eyes then darted over the staircase.

It’s been a week ever since he took you here at his home. There was no progress. You still refuse to see him and so he settles in just seeing you by the night while you sleep soundly. He doesn’t even know how he managed.

He wanted so bad to go and check on you. Maybe see you before he goes to work for today but that’s impossible. You might be awake by now and he doesn’t want to pressure you. It takes time. He clenched his jaw as he fights the strong urge of seeing you.

“I understand, boss.” Jungwon snapped his head towards Injang when he said that.

He nodded once, “You can try to take her out of her room today. Just be careful.”

Injang saw how the mixture of strictness and softness mixed through Jungwon’s eyes. The strict was meant for him while the softness was meant for you, and only for you. Injang nodded his head before Jungwon clapped his shoulder and turned his back to go walk outside.

He saw him off together with some of his men to go at his first appointment for today. Jungwon turned his head towards your room from upstairs and saw that the curtains of your room was moved to the side, it seems like you’re awake already. His eyes remains for a couple of seconds before he sighed and get inside his car.

On the other hand, you carefully peeked through the curtains, trying to check if he’s still looking. You moved the curtains in want of sunlight when suddenly, you saw him going outside from the mansion. Fear instantly get to you and you quickly hides through the curtains. He seems to be leaving again today. The only difference is this is the first time you actually get off the bed to do something. You were too scared the past days that you’ve been here. You can’t even get out of the bed and often just went crazy every morning like as if something will change if you continue misbehaving.

It always worked before. The people who bought you before usually gives up after a day or two but as far as you can remember, you’re here for a bit while already. It’s been six days too, ever since you saw him. When you told Injang you don’t want to see him, it really did happen. He really didn’t push it and just let you be. It somehow made you calm down.

You were spacing out too much that you didn’t even realize that Injang was already outside of your room. After two knocks, you snapped your head over to your door and gulped. He didn’t wait for anything and after a bit, he opened it carefully. When your eyes met, you kept your straight face while he kept his.

You will be honest, out of all the people here, you have a slight trust for him. He’s very consistent of visiting you and talking to you for the past week. It made you familiar and comfortable with him, but still fear was there.

“I see you’re already up.” he greeted, tone very formal as always.

You didn’t talk but nodded once. You were standing by the curtains and your fingers unconsciously fiddled with it as you slightly feel nervous about what he will say next. Will he be mad because you get off bed? Will he be mad because you touched the curtains? You have no idea. You’ve never tried doing this before and so this is the first time you’ll see his reaction.

“The boss just left--”

“I d-don’t care.” you do.

Actually, you really do care. It’s just the fear speaking. His intimidating eyes and cold tone just gets the best out of you. Every time you try to remember him, that’s what comes inside your mind. It never fails to send shivers through your spine and make your chest thump in fear.

Injang pursed his lips, preventing a smirk to form. You can try to lie but Injang can already tell whenever you’re not saying the truth. From the way you stutter and from the way you move your brows. He already studied it.

He sighed, “You know, Ms. y/n, fear should be the last thing you should feel towards him.”

You kept your eyes at him, “Why is that?”

“Because he will hurt everybody else except from you. Why do you think he’s doing all of these? Why do you think he’s adjusting just for you?”

You gulped as your heart races once again but you are pretty sure it was for a different reason. Fear was was still there but a new emotion just clicked in. Was it excitement? You have no idea.

“So if I were you, I will just accept where I am right now. Get the best out of it, open up and see what happens next.”

Your eyes watered from mixed emotions. Hearing it from here, you knew he was telling the truth. From the first time you had talked to him up to now, he never broken a promise or tell any lies. One reason why you said you have a slight trust on him.

“He can change your life, Ms. y/n. Just give him a chance.” he said that made your mind go blank and floating in the air.

You were still spacing out when Injang opened the door of your room once again as he slowly walked beside it, seems like he’s already leaving. You remained silent and waited for what’s he's gonna say next.

“If ever you’re interested to slowly open up and accept your fate, you can find me downstairs by the garden.” he said before he flashed a small smile at you then he carefully left the room.

You were confused, surprised and at dazed. Did he really just invited you to go out of the room? For real? Like go outside of this room, walk over the hallways of the house like a normal people and go there? You’ve never experienced such a thing right after the Cha’s got you.

After a couple of minutes, wearing just your clean night clothes, you slowly opened the door. As expected, there’s two body guards right outside but they didn’t said anything when you went outside. They didn’t even stopped you.

“The stairs going downstairs are by the right, Ms. y/n.” one of them politely said. You gulped and nodded your head before carefully started walking to follow what the man just said.

You bit your lower lip as your eyes roamed around your surroundings. You were amused, curious and nervous all mixed up together. This was a new experience for you, you cannot remember the last time you roamed freely around a house. You were caged for a bit too long.

“Wow...” your words slipped through your mouth even before you can realize it.

The only room you’ve been for the whole week was the room you were staying. You can tell it was very elegant just by the furnitures and things you see inside. But now that you had the chance to see the hallway and even some part of the house just amazes you even more.

“Perfect timing.” your head snapped over to the side when you arrived by the garden and suddenly Injang talked.

Your mouth went gapped at the sight of a whole table with a lot of variaties of breakfast prepared for you. Your eyes trailed from Injang who’s standing beside over to the food in front of you.

“It's a l-lot.” you don’t exactly know what to say. This is so far the first time this much meal was prepared just for you.

Injang smiled a little, “Well we didn’t know what you like for breakfast so I told them to just prepare everything we have right now.”

He said and even guided you over a seat. He was definitely taking good care of you but you noticed how he kept his distance from you. It made your brows furrowed for a while but kept your mouth shut.

“A toast can do.” you said as your eyes couldn’t be calmed down to where it will look first. All of them looked so appetizing.

“I believe you deserve to have more than a toast, Ms. y/n.” he said smirking as he ordered one of the helpers to assist you for your food.

As you watch them help you, your eyes went back over to Injang and you saw him still standing beside the table making you furrow your brows a little.

“Aren’t you joining me for breakfast?” you asked him.

“Will you be alright with that?” he asked and that’s when you realized it. He’s being careful and cautious around you.

You almost couldn’t believe it yourself. After gulping and thanking the helpers you looked over Injang and flashed your first ever small smile.

“Y-You can join me.” you said and was quick enough to glance away since you couldn’t take the awkwardness that will come after.

Injang did follow right away and sat down at the other side of the circular table. As he was getting assisted for his own food, you can’t stop yourself from roaming your eyes around the garden. It was really spacious and like normal gardens, you can see plants around. A small fountain can be seen by the corner. It was beautiful you may say but you’re going to be honest, its a bit dull.

“How was your sleep, Ms. y/n?” your head snapped back to Injang and just then you realized you two were left alone once again.

You made face, couldn’t disguise the complete dislike over the way he addresses you.

“Could you do me a favor and not call me in a very formal way?”

“I’m sorry. That’s how the boss wants me to call you.” Injang explained. Of course, the boss have something to do with it.

You pursed your lips and started to dig in your food. “You don’t have to use that formality like as if I’m a very important person.” you said completely clueless of who you are to Yang Jungwon at the moment.

Injang watch how you innocently took a bite over your food. He didn’t saw any sarcasm over you and so he realized that you have no clue who you are for his boss right now. You have no idea what he just pulled just so he can have you with him.

“But you are, Ms. y/n.”

Your hands stopped midway after you heard him say that. With a slow motion, you lift your gaze from your food over to his eyes. He looked so serious but still, that comfort he gives off was still there. You have no idea how does he do that, make you trust him, but it was damn effective.

“I don’t u-understand. I’m just a nobody.”

Injang smirked and slowly held his cup of tea before he said, “Well definitely not for Yang Jungwon.”

“That’s it for today. I would still want you to give me updates for our transactions of guns at Busan.” Jungwon strictly tells his employees. They all nodded their heads before they silently exited the meeting room.

When the last one managed to get out, he sighed out heavily before he rested his back completely over his swivel chair. He didn’t expect his day to be this busy. He already have a lot over his mind and he won’t deny that you are occupying it most of the time.

He tilted his head backwards and closed his eyes before he lets the thought of you once again flood his mind. The memory of your peaceful looking face while you sleeps at night during his unknown visits was still crystal clear. He clenched his jaw fighting the strong urge of driving home to come and see you.

Patience. He needs patience. He doesn’t what’s happening to him when it comes to you but he’s sure is damn need to control himself. He’s known for his strict self discipline and control over everything but then when it comes to you, he’s a whole mess.

His eyes opened when he heard a knock over the door, “What?”

One of his men went inside, “Mr. Jay Park is outside, Sir. He said he wants to see you.”

Jungwon rolled his eyes as he nodded his head before he fixed the way he sits at his chair. He may act like he’s irritated at the sudden visitor but he knew to himself that that’s really not the case. Right at this moment, a friend he can talk to is what he needed the most. Well he have Injang, but then he has to leave him in charge of you because he’s the most trusted one for that job.

“Hey what’s up Wonie!” his hyung was already loud when he entered the room.

Jungwon looked at him after rolling his eyes, fighting a smirk to appear over his lips. “What are you doing here Jay hyung?” he tried his best to make it sound like he’s annoyed by his presence.

His hyung chuckled and even extended a hand for a greeting. He accepted it as his hyung sat down at the vacant seat just beside him.

“Oh come on, I know you missed me.” and he even saw him winked at him while smirking as he fixed his polo.

Jungwon scoffed, “Of course not. I thought you will be at Singapore for a week. Back so soon?”

Jay shrugged his shoulders, “Business deal done already so why should I stay?” he answered and Jungwon smirked at him.

“What else? Girls of course.” he said that made his hyung’s smirk grew wider. Their eyes snapped at the door when one of the worker went inside holding a tray of liquors that his hyung probably requested.

“What? Singapore ladies didn’t entertained you enough to make you stay? Can’t beat local chicks huh?” he said mocking at his playboy hyung.

Jay scoffed as he pour a drink for himself and was about to do it for Jungwon when he shake his head ‘no’. Jay shrugged his shoulders and just put the bottle down so he can take a sip already.

“Enough with me. Let’s talk about you. How are you lover boy?” he asked and even raised his brows twice.

Jungwon sighed heavily. He knew he couldn’t just shut him off this time. No matter what happen, he will still end up telling him anyway.

“I’m fine.” Jungwon shortly replied.

“Okay, let me rephrase the question for you my friend.” he said and even put down his drink at the table for a while.

“How’s the thing between you and the chick at home?”

Jungwon furrowed his brows, “Her name is y/n.”

Jay’s mouth fell in a mocking way before he let out an exaggerated gasp.

“Wait.” he said and tilted his head over to the side.

Jungwon pursed his lips and glanced away before he reached for the bottle of liquor he rejected moments ago. Jay chuckled at the realization.

“You are really serious with her.” Jay stated the obvious.

Jungwon scoffed, “You thought I was playing around?”

“I knew you were interested with her but I didn’t know you were this serious.”

Jungwon chuckled, “Then now you know.”

Jay was silenced for a while but a playful smirk was plastered over his lips as he watch the younger one drink from the glass he just filled with alcohol.

“I can’t imagine you’re going to go Lee Heeseung too.” he said laughing at what he just said.

What he meant by that is that Jungwon may also go crazy over a girl. Because out of all seven of them, only their Heeseung hyung was the one in a relationship and he’s well damn crazy for his girl.

Jungwon scoffed but his smirk was faltering a bit, “I’m not going to be crazy, hyung.” Jungwon said but he’s not really sure if he’s saying that to convince Jay or to convince himself.

Jay saw his expression that made him smirk. “I think you’re already are. From the way you do these things for her, you’re damn whipped.”

Jungwon clenched his jaw and was left with no words to say. Slowly, he took a sip from his glass once again. Jay laughed at how his friend seemed to just give up and agree with what he just said.

“The only thing I can advice for you is not to go Park Sunghoon.” Jungwon eyed Jay and he was smirking so bad.

Jungwon was quick to shake his head in disagreement. “I won’t.”

Jay laughed at how he said it. Well, it’s been an inside joke that Sunghoon was the craziest out of all of them for searching the whole world for a girl who’s existence is unsure.

“Hyung, you make it seem like Sunghoon hyung is very crazy.”

“Well aren’t him? I mean, don’t you think if she really do exist he’ll be able to find her by now?”

“The world’s bigger than you think.” Jungwon said meaningfully. Jay shrugged his shoulders off and once again took a sip from his drink.

“Hmm, you’re kind of right about that.”

The two of them fell silent after that. It was somehow comforting. Having someone to talk to made Jungwon a bit relaxed.

“I won’t go Heeseung Lee, right?” Jungwon asked unconsciously.

Jay laughed, “Aren’t you already on Park Sunghoon’s level?”

Jungwon furrowed his brows and looked at his Jay hyung. Jay smirked at him and sighed before clapping his shoulders once.

“Just be yourself, Won. I know you’ll know what to do since you’re Yang Jungwon.” he said that made Jungwon calm down a bit.

“Thanks hyung.”

“You’re welcome. I’m not sure how hard will it be but you can do it.” he even smirked at him.

“The only thing I’m sure is that I won’t go crazy over a girl.”

This time Jungwon smirk, “I doubt that. I can feel you will find someone who will make you do crazy things as well.”

“And how can you say that?”

Jungwon was silence for a while before he smirked at his hyung.

“I never imagined I would go crazy killing the family of Cha not until I have seen y/n.” he said that made Jay go silent too.

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