#this is so fear soup

[lemondoddle]

[I.D. a photo of an open red nintendo 3ds which is very weathered with a missing joystick and has dozens of small barnacles covering the left side of the device. end I.D.]

3DS found with erosion and barnacles found while diving

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Aw! XL cooking reminded me of when I was working with children and they'd get nightmares/scared of monsters, so was go to the garden and make Monster Soup! Anything that looked good would go into the nearest source of water (often a bird bath) so that the monsters would know we are kind people and stay outside and not come inside. Also the monsters would think of us as friends and protect us instead of scaring us. Now I'm hoping that I have turned any of these kids into bad cooks bc I was like that flower looks good! Toss it in! 😅😄😄😄

Thank you for reminding me of this memory!

I'm-In-Love-With-The-Monster Soup.

[dancewiththedev1l]

Uhhh guys? What the funger???

So firstly, yes I am alive, I just got incredibly unbelievably insurmountably busy (and lazy). That's probably going to continue until I emerge from the depths of my cave (studying) to bestow a JPEG upon you that I have personally crafted every full moon.

I started playing Funger yesterday and why is there so much PENICE. You Scandinavians and your nudity. The game already makes me want to uninstall Steam so it's a 10/10 already.

Have a D'arce! I really like her so far! I have no idea how to shade armour so any questionable colour placements were a result of what I call 'fuck it we ball'-ing.

Also I need everyone to know that I named my D'arce 'Slut' and she got erotophobia and I thought it was funny.

[fisheito]

yakuya in MY swamp? in MY ecosystem? no . i am still in disbelief. i hope you all know that my particles are bouncing off the everything. i am using periods as punctuation but the state of my mind is naught neareth final.

[roitaminnah]

okay i'll bite,,,, but just so you know I am doing these sketches day of with zero preperation..... n e ways... stargazing....

also I re-read maybe I'm not all you thought yesterday (one of my faves) so a little of that too... for sleepover....

[savetheupholstery]

This was the only TMA OR TMAGP statement I’ve ever had to skip..don’t know why it affected me that hard but here we are

[pwurrz]

being obsessed with yakumo is a job and baby i’ve never called in a sick day!!!!!

[bucketfullofstrawberries]

I fear I've accidentally given myself a mild hatsune miku hyperfixation. Its so joever for me chat

[im-smart-i-swear]

unable to let go

something something both of these fuckers have spent so long depending on each other that they cant function w/o the other guy despite Tashi's continously worsening mental state and unhealthy clinginess and Soup's desire to explore the world and meet new people...

like the thing about soup is that she had never really been a person who does well stuck in one place for too long, but also tashi is her brother. theyve been through hell and back together and she feels immense guilt for even considering having a life outside of their little family, and also she has NOT worked through her gladiator trauma AT ALL and has been just holding everything in and trying to be a perfect caring figure despite all the anger and frustration she experiences on a daily basis...

(tashi is dealing with that too, but hes never been as good as her at hiding it, and also he has the tendency to make this stuff everyones problem - thus sidelining soups problems by accident. i think soup is kind of what tashi desperately WANTS to be, in a way. on the outside shes the 'stoic selfless caregiver' and i think tashi is jealous of that, so much so that he sometimes forgets that soup is just as much a person with her own problems and desires and flaws as everyone else)

soup is frustrated by how shes been having to take more and more responsibilities as time goes on (bc of tashis Whole Thing and buddys fear of assuming any kind of leadership position) and a part of her loathes this life and she wants to leave. i think her and zoras relationship plays a big role in her feeling on the matter bc shes NOT part of the family, shes someone new and diffrent and thats enticing... also over the years soup had built up this calm easygoing persona that zora can see through, zora is very aware of soups violent past and she is not sfraid of it, giving soup a safe space to express those more negative feelings freely for the first time in YEARS

Its very hand in unlovable hand coded but they very much love each other still and thats kinda the problem

Also putting some notes on their younger selves here bc this feels relevant to how these two ended up

[fishnoodles]

gotta go back to the soup (making random AUs) . like what if The Strokes were avatars frm TMA. much to think about.

[bucketinyourwalls]

Hollywood Undead Tumblr Fandom I don't know if you're still alive but how would you all feel about the fellas but I put em through the pony beam for shits and giggles. I personally think it would be really funny and kind of nice to design and figure out I ain't gonna lie.

[hydrangeyes]

I really do love how the fandom has their ship but man do I wanna see a bit more of the rivals to codependent to lovers route more

[himbopunk]

i thiiiiink. mav grew up in an alienage prior to the whole semi possession thing. ive got these ideas around them and fear demons and like maybe it doesnt 100% fit alongside canon understanding of spirits and demons but we're also constantly told that binary is kinda bullshit anyhow so. Whatever. but i think the fear demon that inhabits them starts following them around way earlier. i think theres smth there around the inherit fear that lurks around those kinds of environments, and mavs always been a weird kid + i think even if the nevarra city alienage is nicer than say kirkwall or denerim (which, whos to say we dont see it) its still, an alienage so. Shit can always happen especially if you dont stay in line (something mav has Never been good at) like. idk i dont wanna get too into fantasy racism but for all this shit fear will always play a part so i think if you have a magic little alienage elf kid its not that weird for a fear spirit/demon to be lurking around.

point being. the fear spirit that becomes part of them has been around for a hot minute before the possession, but i think what happens maybe is mav doesnt like. realize oh im a mage and this is a demon maybe they interact with it like a friend (something the fear demon is utterly baffled by originally. of the demons that use familiarity to possess a mage i do not imagine fear would often be one, and baby mav wouldnt actively like invite it either its like oh yeah theyre kinda weird and scary but people think im weird and scary so thats okay!)

& i think with all we've been shown about how spirits/demons can grow and shift over time, this is a part of why mavs "possession" happens the way it does. it never stops being a fear demon bc it never stops representing the things that scare them, esp once they get sick. but theres an acceptance mav has w those fears that shifts the nature of their interactions. and in a way they were already kind of connected to each others existence bc the fear demon is already attached to mav in this very specific way, so inhabiting them as they lay dying is in some way an extension of that relationship? is this anything???

and i think like there is also even potential in the idea of them being this unknown thing between life and death, mage and abomination, spirit and demon, the uncertainty of it also creates fear to some degree. so maybe that helps to perpetuate them early on to stabilize what they are now.

[dragon-age-here]

The MGiT would actually be great for Veilguard because you can just explain Rook’s incredibly sensitivity and awareness of mental health and identity stuff as someone who did go to therapy for years and has the skill set but like, isn’t using it for themself.

Like yes, I have seen 13 papers/wiki articles/youtube discussions on gender identity, do not ask me what that means I cannot tell you, btw have you heard of the wide spectrum of sexuality and gender-

[chiropteracupola]

but still I keep your hand, as a precious souvenir...

[miradelletarot]

THE DRAMMAAAAA

I am in the thick of some epic parent drama and strangely? I feel TOTALLY FINE right now lol.

Also, is it bad that I'm telling y'all my shit before I text my therapist? This is fine...I'm sure. Right?