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CLEARS THROAT
After his transition, Dewdrop felt nothing but loss. Everything was taken from him. His element, his pack, his bass. And what pack he had left felt like strangers to him, though some of them were strangers. Mountain and Aether looked at him different. He was just Dew now. No more Dewdrop, the clergy had even stolen his own fucking name from him. No more droplet, no more water lily, no more catfish. Sure, the nicknames changed. Sure, they were still endearing. But they weren’t his. It felt like he’d stolen something from Ifrit - like every passing ‘spitfire’ was desecrating something sacred.
In the weeks and months following, he hides the urge to grimace every single time these new pet names find their way to his ears. Dew wants to like them, wants to feel that familiar fuzzy warmth in his chest. Yearns for the feeling of love to settle into his core like an old familiar friend. He also does his best not to looked like a kicked puppy when Mountain calls this new ghoul ‘tadpole’ for the first time, and the second time, and every occurrence after that. It was like being replaced. More confusing of a feeling though, keeping him around to watch this new water ghoul blossom was painful. Could have been classified as Dewdrop related cruelty.
And there is no way for him to swallow down the resentment and anger that boils in him when Aether purrs the faintest ‘raindrop’ against Rain’s kiss plumped lips. Puts off sparks, the fire in the hearth crackles and flares violently before snuffing out abruptly as he gets off the couch and storms out of the room.
Time blurs eventually. They say it heals all wounds but all it does is numb him to the hurt. Dew can force it down far enough he can force himself to be in the same room as Rain. And then after a bit longer, tolerate a conversation with him, which turns into multiple over time. Spirals into thousands of shared thoughts and words between them until Dew can’t get enough of listening to Rain talk. Disdain and arms length distance becomes infatuation and a desire for proximity he didn’t think possible before.
Dew kisses him. Suddenly and without even considering what he was doing, the fire ghoul was leaning over the sleek white bass in Rain’s lap to sate an itch he’d been ignoring since the day they met. Their mouths fit together like they were made for this. He tastes like everything Dew had dreamed about and more. It tastes like home and conflict mixed in one but it doesn’t drive him away like it should. Curiosity has him licking over the seam of Rain’s lips and dipping past when Rain allows him in. His gasp lights a fire in Dew he’d never felt. Not simply arousal, but something deeper than even he knew. Completion.
They’re lucky Rain has the shoulder strap on because if not that bass would’ve hit the floor because Rain’s hands had abandoned it to fit on a more favorable body. One against his cheek, the other on the back of his neck. Every point of contact Dew can find helps make the world make sense again. He’s practically trying to crawl into Rain’s already occupied lap, wanting to press their bodies together in a way not entirely sexual.
And they part, and Dew’s world feels broken in half. Ripped away by the distance between their lips. The taste lingers and Dew hopes it stays forever. Hopes that this might be the one thing they can’t take from him.
“Rain, I-“
“Took you long enough,” he interrupts and pets his thumb over his warm cheek. “Kept me waiting, droplet.”
There it is. That single fucking word and Dew’s shattered world is flipped on its head and forced back together despite the missing chipped pieces.
The clergy may have stolen it from him, but Rain gave it back just like that.
Dew could laugh, should probably cry, but he just stares at those pretty blue eyes. Frozen until relief thaws him and reminds his heart to start beating again, even if it is a bit faster than it had been. It didn’t matter, his heart could beat right out of his chest and Dew wouldn’t care. Too fixated on the way the word leaves Rain’s tongue, fascinated by the fondness it carries, enraptured by the way he looks at him. It didn’t cure the pain his transition caused him, but it did stitch the open wound shut so it could finally begin to heal.
“Say it again…”
“Again?”
“Call me that again, please.”
“As many times as you want, droplet. Anything you want.”
And each one is a reminder of who he was - who he is. His name no longer felt strange and foreign like ill fitted clothes.
#i kinda lost the plot a little and babbled a lot there sorry its 11 pm and my eyes hurt so this is what i can offer you#void rambles#answered#nameless ghouls#rain ghoul#dewdrop ghoul#raindrop#rain x dewdrop#dOES THIS EVEN MAKE SENSE ACTUALLY??? IDK ENGLISH DOESNT FEEL REAL RN DAWG#I SHOULD GO TO BED PROB
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*gulp* deacon/iris "please just kiss me" intimacy ask........ NYE party- (i am shot)
@oldworldwidgets — [ intimacy prompts ]
It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again
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#if u need me I'm gonna be on the floor thinking abt the doomed love of the disaster besties#aud.. aud my love my darling.. this little scene we crafted has been rotating nonstop in my brain for months#it has fundamentally ruined me#but it's so perfect it hurts so good I love seeing the lines blurring I love them not being able to get it right#struggling to communicate through the heartache *chefs kiss*#him.. him being the one to ask..#I am unwell you are always sending me banger prompts my dear AND you always know how to help put my chaotic ramblings in the perfect words#OUGH miss aud oldworldwidgets I love you with my entire heart and soul you are such a ray of sunshine in my life#also I still have the other two intimacy prompts u sent me for them in my back pocket.....#I've had some ideas of how they can spend the night on the roof under the stars together......#more on that later#ANYWAY#ilysm I am blowing you so many kisses rn#finally the people get to know who miss iris really kissed on new years eve on this fine day of *checks watch* valentine's day#(sorry nicky ✌😔 just bestie things u know how it is)#my art#sole survivor#fallout#fallout 4#fo4#deacon#deacon fallout 4#deacon fo4#oc x canon
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misc thoughts on the retcons
I can’t tell if the pacing is bad or if that’s just me getting disoriented by the past several months telling and retelling the same story.
While the fight between Flash and Sonic ended up more like the webcomic story wise, I didn’t enjoy it the same. The webcomic had a tension to it. It felt distinctly lonely and melancholy. But reading the manga redraws now, I feel kind of similar to how I did with the psychic sisters arc where it seemed like a “fixed” version of the webcomic?
Like, the story is still the same but the character dynamics are altered in a way that doesn’t make sense. They all get along a bit too well. Which would be fine if the story or enough dialogue was adjusted that it made sense, but that’s a step they skipped over.
For the retconned chapters, the emotion ONE and Murata were trying to communicate was different from the webcomic, but ultimately more successful for its place in the context of the manga. Between Flash and Sonic there was still pain and words left unspoken, just in a way that felt fitting. VS now it’s like they’re trying to communicate the webcomic tension but without any of the hard hitting moments where it felt like time slowed down that made the webcomic successful.
Anyways i know the arc isn’t done yet. There’s still time for it to pick up. I’m just feeing irritated and really don’t want to end up feeling more disappointed than I would otherwise because I have to compare whats now canon now vs what was retconned. (considering I liked the retconned version and felt it was successful to begin with 😭)
#opm#rambles#does this count as meta#fuck it we ball#opm meta#sorry for disgracing the meta tag with my poorly proofridden rambles as per usual but here r my thoughts#i’m not gonna complain about the art style i know muratas working on like 20 morbillion projects rn#but damn sonic is getting the tatsu treatment (though not nearly as bad)#*shudders*#kind of random but i kind of wonder if murata used to have more assistants for backgrounds before. it’s been feeling vacant lately.#reading my printed books and starting at the beginning hurts because i have to tell myself#don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be#even more random but i like joking that murata needs to start reading yaoi again. you can tell when he does based on his art it’s funny
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okay I know the immediate thought (for me, at least) was Lewis/Vivi/Arthur. which is fantastic too... but please consider my counterargument: Arthur/Lewis/Vivi
#my wrist hurts too much to draw rn but someone poke me in like two weeks to doodle this#lewvithur#mystery skulls#look inside yourself and tell me Lewis would *not* wear that sheer dressing gown in a heartbeat#meanwhile Vivi rocking the stolen shorts and nothing else casually sitting around the breakfast table reading horror novels#to a still-dead-asleep Arthur face down on his hat. pom-pom fluttering up and down in the breeze when he snores#....I was gonna say something like 'and mystery is just always nude' but technically he has a collar he isn't dog-nakey#but now the idea of him carefully unhooking it every night to Sleep In The Buff™ and then delicately replacing it again in the morning#(while getting utterly scandalized if anyone walks in on him before he has it back on again)#is absolutely sending me right now#mystery skulls animated#sorry for the rambling y'all I'm in A Mood™ today it seems
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my biggest irl secret is that at some point i started telling people i like drawing skeletons because i was too embarrassed to say i draw undertale fanart and that snowballed into getting more skeleton themed things which i liked but didnt really go out of my way for and now its not a lie anymore and whenever i need to buy something i will try my very best to find a skeleton version of it and now i’ve fallen to my self fulfilling prophecy of becoming the skeleton guy
#trousled rambles#its so funny to me now. i didnt wanna be cringe but now im just weird in a different way#there is an actual plastic skeleton (his name is roderick) hanging from my bed in my dorm rn. my roommate gave him mini sunglasses#that bed also has skull shaped string lights under it#half of my tshirts have skeletons on them#i have one ribcage hoodie and have been trying for several years now to get another one for my birthday#i have one singular necklace that is not skeletom themed. my favorite necklace is a cat skull#the only reason i dont wear my shoes with skeleton feet on them is because they hurt my feet#listen. people will tell you not to let lies snowball but they never tell you it can actually be so fucking funny#its not even a lie anymore this is just genuinely who i have become#this lie has consumed me and im better for it#EDIT I FORGOT ABOUT MY SKELETONS SHOWER CURTAIN AND SKULL SHAPED SOAP DISPENSER AT MY HOUSE#AND HARVEY!!!!! MY OTHER PLASTIC SKELETON IM SO SORRY HARVEY YOU WERE TOO HUMAN SIZED TO BRING WITH ME#final edit. i also forgot my jack skellington mug that i'm using as a pencil holder#look when you accidentally give yourself a niche of easy gifts for people to give it is your civic duty to lean into it as hard as possible
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it’s always a surprise and somewhat hurtful being blocked by people you don’t even know/never interacted with
#i have no idea why or what i did#and i know i should not concern myself with it#but it still hurts nonetheless#i’m sorry i’m being a baby rn#risu’s rambles ☆
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hehe~~ i am soooooo sleepy and tired right now :3 i’m all cuddled up in all my blankets🥰 so warm and comfy hehe…..oh and also my past is haunting me😐
#girl help i tried to go to sleep but remembered the Anger™️#experienced a Situation recently that i have been very bravely and sexily ignoring#and - literally WHO would have known - ignoring it is not making it better lol#so now i lay down all comfy to sleep and my brain is just like: the thing😦#and then i gotta stay AWAKE😒 so i can distract myself from the thing#until im tired enough to sleep BEFORE my brain remembers the thing#smh#it sucks#also im good mostly!#it’s just hitting me worse rn because my period always puts my emotions out of whack😪#but im getting proper sleep and everything#and hope to take action to lessen the impact of the thing soon it just takes time ya know#like sometimes things ARE going to hurt you and bother you for a while#and that’s just how it is#but life will move on eventually and good things will come to steal some of the space those bad things take up#just gotta be patient😪#sorry for my nonsense rambles again#i just found it really funny#because tonight i really was legitimately more annoyed by the disruption to my sleep than i was about the life changing situation lol#sleep is my number one priority at any given moment fr#to be fair though i WAS so comfy and tired from cramps and really looking forward to sleep#so i think i was justified😤😤
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losing the battle against whump writing atm
#rambling#none of my stories really have *hurting* going on in them rn plot wise#But I want someone to suffer#I want them to *writhe*#I want them to scream because they physically can’t not#=w=#sorry Evangeline ur up for this one
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Due to the nature of his work, Copperhead isn't active every night. He may spend a week hunting somebody down before delivering the coup de grâce, leaving him with a little free time before picking up his next contract. Copperhead often spends his free time caring for the various snakes and other reptile species that come into his care; sometimes these are animals belonging to former victims but often they are creatures which have been neglected or improperly cared for in some way, the serpent metahuman carefully nursing them back to health before making sure they end up in good hands.
#🐍 || musings#🐍 || headcanons#Sorry for the random headcanon post asdfghjkl just fed the new baby and I am emotional about it😭#Had him for about 2 weeks now and have been petrified I'm ill-treating him or doing something wrong#He's had his second meal and took it very nicely <3#So I can finally relax and focus on today's asks!#I had to move him from his horrible 4lt RUB to Ror's old faunarium as you know#But I kept hearing conflicting information that it'll be a big change which'll stress him#The trouble with RUB's is that they are so hard to thermoregulate#Sweet baby HATED the excessive heat but the faunarium offers a much better gradient#He's pooped and eaten and all is looking healthy so I can look into getting his next upgrade :')#I'm sorry for the random snake rambling you guys have no idea how relieved I am rn asgsff#He's such a sweetheart and I'm terrified of doing anything to hurt or upset him the sweet little puppy-faced guy <3#But YEAH Copperhead is knowledgable af when it comes to reptiles and their care cuz he's kind of one himself#Stuff like improper humidity and care upsets him#He'd absolutely keep babies in his poncho to make them feel safe
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#i hope no one reads this bc my avpd is crazy rn and i cant be affectionate#BUT...#i know there are some good ppl in the world#many ppl on tumblr (and twitter) has been very kind to me#i know not everyone are bad ppl#im just stuck in this bpd mood where only ONE thing is true#and i constantly feel so hurt and trampled on and disrespected#and i feel like i cannot trust anyone#so my brain hones in on that i feel unsafe w everyone#but okkkk listen i know i know some ppl are very nice to me#and i appreciate that more than i can ever have words for#so.. like yeah i've gotten some asks but i cant reply bc i cant be social directly#but no i dont hate everyone on here or think every single person is awful#like when ppl are nice to me no i dont think theyre horrible#but with my trauma brain... and my past experiences#i get very sensitive sometimes and i feel like everyobe are lying to me and making fun of me#and everyone is in on a joke abt me that im unaware of#and i feel like if i lay myself bare i'll only be taken advantage of and humiliated#i just feel right now very weak and like all my skin's off#and im walking around like a huge wound and if someone even breathes on me it hurts so much#so im sorry for being mean and saying so many rude things rn im just kinda falling apart#but i still have capacity to recognize that ppl are nice to me on here ok i just dont know what ro#what to do with it*** bc im not used to that#im used to ppl bullying me or being mean and i hate that but i just cry and hurt myself and i know what to do#when someone's nice to me i feel like the world is upside down and the sky is like green and the water is red i dont get it#anyway.. yeah i hope no one reads this and when i ramble and write a lot the chance of less ppl reading gets higher#anyway... i just wanted to write this and get it out into the universe#bc i sometimes do things to isolate myself even further bc i've never had community or support or comfort or friendships so lowkey i dont#even want to nurture things that can lead to that bc idk what to do with that. how to not fuck it up.#anyway... idk what im saying or thinking even
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bros i just cannot stop drawing them it might be unhealthy
#rottmnt#tmnt#save rottmnt#fanart#art#GOD i love clip studio so much#like#it's not a constant struggle with the program???? wild???#my hand hurts so bad rn tho uuu been drawing for like#idk 7 hours lol#what i won't do for my hyperfixations!!!!!#anyway i read that alligator snapping turtles are the only turtles with eyelashes and i haven't stopped thinking about it since#so raph has eyelashes now thankz#i also felt like drawing them without their masks bc.... i just did#also fun fact i misspelled homicide as homocide at first and i laughed at myself when i realised what i'd done#i mean#it wasn't wrong#sorry im annoying with these tags i should stop#i love tumblr tags tho one can just ramble on and on but it's not as annoying since it's....in the tags.... or smt....#idk i should sleep
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It’s just the fact that Gege isn’t usually THIS straightforward and hasn’t been for a long time….. Whenever he does one thing, that thing usually tends to turn out to be even more ridiculous then what it first appeared to be in the first place, ja what I’m saying. Like every time. Please…..
#that’s 100% Gojo but it could be worse…. it could be kenjaku…. even though he should be dead and his body wasn’t even near Gojo’s when he#was killed#but… Sukuna swallowed kenjaku’s will… what if it somehow released from his body or some shit#I don’t know man… this seems to good to be true and kenjaku’s plans were always overly convoluted#for no reason and you could never tell if he was ever being honest even with Sukuna so meh#rambling#I’ve been thinking about stitched gojo ever since he died but what if this is true I’ll be so annoyed ajajajaj#I really like the concept but I don’t want Gojo if he came back wrong… it’ll hurt me sm 😭#I DON’T WANT GOJO BACK IF HE’S COMING BACK WRONG IT’S TOO LATE TO GET OUR HOPES UP LIKE THIS#PLAYING IN OUR FACES LIKE A BILLIONAIRE WAVING A WAD OF CASH IN THE FACES OF THE POOR#gege… I don’t trust him… also#if Gojo really is back fr fr then gege can’t kill him off anymore either that’ll be even worse than bringing him back actually and just…#like what’ll be the point???#and yuuji is the mc now so he should be the one to finish Sukuna off right??? this feels so wrong even though I am sitting in Gojo’s lap#and playing with his mask rn-#he’s MY butterfly behind glass…#MINESSSSS#sorry for talking about jjk 🧍🏾♀️#sorry…
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So I hardcore burnt my finger while making food earlier and oh my god I'm in so much pain rn send thots and prayers
#demos ramblings#sorry for saying thots in the year 2024 i wanted to be funny#smiling through the pain#at least i was done drawing or else id be double pissed off bc i cant draw rn#IT HURTS SO BAD OHHHHH MY GOOOODDDDD#IM GONNA WHINE LIKE A LITTLE BITCH AND ALSO A BIG BITCH
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I understand the instinct to hear news about something happening and go "ok, now how will this impact me", but folks. With the WGA strike. Please don't make it about your favorite show. I'm sorry something that's important to you has been negatively affected! But the wellbeing of writers should absolutely take priority over that. You can be sad about the impact of a strike and still be glad they're fighting for improved conditions.
#wolfy speaks#wga strike#writers guild of america#current events#its just kind of frustrating to go into the wga tag and seeing ppl talk exclusively about their shows being hurt by it#im sorry! i know its sad! but the human writers are more important rn!#that said it is absolutely an instinct to find out how a news thing inpacts you. i do it too. my first question when i learn something is#'how will this affect my day to day life?'#but then i move past that#some of yall are still in the 'prioritizing me' stage and you have to go to 'prioiritizng others' stage#that said if youre a fandom blog and explaining how the strike will likely affect whatever youre talking about you get a bit of leeway#wanting to understand what the impact of the strike will be is not the same as not caring about why theyre striking#sorry i know im rambling in the tags here... i feel like theyre room for nuance here and i dont want to come across otherwise#just. end of story. you should be more concerned with the wellbeing of the writers who are striking#than the wellbeing of your shows#human lives take priority#but you can be concerned for both
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i fucking hate people who play purity police about art i hate people that cant like a dark piece of art without saying OH WELL ITS FUCKED UP or OH HE SHOULD HAVE GONE TO JAIL FOR THIS ONE!!!! shut the fuck up ITS A FICTIONAL SONG. SHUT UP. SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPPPPPP
#richie rambles#this is abt sarah by ttc. if ur wondering.#like ITS A GOOD SONG!!! LET IT BE A GOOD SONG!!!!! SHUT UPPPPPP#like “how did he not go the jail for this” bc its fiction? its fake? its not real? he didnt actually hurt anyone? i?????????#tell me u have negative brain cells without telling me u have negative brain cells#like fr it actually pisses me off so much. why cant people just let a piece of art be art without always pointing out whats “morally wrong”#with it like whyyyyyyyyy im just here to enjoy a fun little song about murder and cannibalism and necrophilia!!!!! its FAKE who CARES#sorry i would normally try to be more coherent and thoughtful here but i literally cant rn#im so mad. this is dumb but im sooooo fucking mad#i HATE when people equate art to what someone is really thinking/feeling/intending to do like. thats not how this works AT ALL#reminds me of people taking abt lolita *shudders*#anyway. peace. gonna go listen to sarah again#non fandom
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im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)
on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?
i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)
(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)
ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there
#i dont feel attraction to ppl irl mostly bc im just not comfortable around ppl#and the ones i am are my friends and theres obv no romantic attraction#so when i saw haitham and learned more and mroe of him and how he and i share so many traits and ideas and things it was#instant comfort and the feeling of being understood#that its like#if he was real i would seek out his warmth and presence instead of getting away frm it like with my ex partners when it was too much for me#knowing that he would understand me therefore knowing how to handle me without making me uncomfortable or upset#uhh so basically. he made me realize all i want is just someone who perfetly understands me and knows how to treat me#when to come close and when to give me space#perfectly knowing me and reading me#i cant speak and in the rare moments i am able to im often struggling to form my thoughts into sentences that make sense#so he would still understand and put together that garbled mess and know exactly what i mean#not misunderstanding and acusing me of things or tones i never said or used#ppl and things messed me up quite a bit in the past that im having trouble w lots of things unless im alone#only when im alone i feel truly comfortable and safe bc nothing can hurt or upset me but even then you kinda realize in some moments that#you actually want someone with you but it has to be smn you trust and who knows you inside out and all that#i dont have anyone like that and idk if i ever will but rn this character is jsut rotating in my head giving me these things i crave and#thats enough#sorry that was a lot of gay rambling there but yea idk if it sounds stupid or nah but my#mental health issues got way better and balanced ever since haitham so he really#grounds me and gives me strength and comfort to deal with things i would have be unable to do in the past year#bc even if i dont have smn who truly knows and understands me#inside me there is someone#reply#tags tbd#in case i get embarrassed LMFAO
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