#this is not like. a serious post. dw

[deermouth]

Just using my blog as a blog lol

I keep thinking about this bc I'm like... did some of the older kids know? Did the conductor know?? Obviously what the soloists are singing is Very abstracted from TTS-voiced "la cocaína no es buena para su salud" but surely someone looked up the lyrics at some point lol.

It's making me think (tangentially) about an experience I had in youth choir as a kid where a small, group of us from several of the different choirs (we were divided by age and gender) got to perform with my hometown's opera and symphony orchestra. It was a production of dead man walking, a modern opera adapted from the memoirs of a nun (who we actually met; she came to opening night?) who became the pen-pal and later spiritual advisor of a man on death row in a louisiana prison (there's also a non-operatic movie with susan sarandon and sean penn).

i never read her book or anything and i haven't engaged with the material in over a decade so i don't remember all of it, BUT the opera was rated mature (? idk what actual opera ratings are) because... the prologue of the opera is the scene of the crime for which the lead was imprisoned, and included nudity. so... because we were a children's choir, and all under 18, they turned off the monitors in our dressing room. I was I think 16 or 17 at the time, but there were some liiittle kids, like 8, so that was definitely wise. Then they'd hurry us up because we were in the first scene, as the children the sister looks after at an after-school program (this is also uhh... there's a line somewhere in the opera where someone scornfully refers to the children as like "your little black kids in the projects" or somesuch and we were. all white. anyways) playing a call and response song and clapping sorta game. not an operatic role.

fun stuff. anyways me being who i am, I listened to the whole opera on spotify at one point, mostly so i could find out what the prologue was like. sometimes as a teen you watch fucked up videos on the internet, sometimes you listen to the operatic interpretation of a double rape and murder of a teenage couple. anyways. no point to this. do you think those kids knew they were singing abt cocaine.

im so happy that choral crystal castles cover showed up on my dash. i had totally forgotten it and it genuinely makes me so happy i love youth choirs

[missingn000]

hey all! i wrote a comedy/drama character study fic about kaku & lucci, exploring their relationship and everything they're feeling post water 7/enies lobby. i’d really love if you gave it a read! thanks so much!

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happy reading!

[musicalmoritz]

There is not a single straight bone in Mitsuba’s body like I genuinely believe that man could never like a woman. Sousuke I know what you are

[applestorms]

FUCK IT. DEATH NOTE CLASSPECTING. GO:

LIGHT: prince of light. both class and aspect are non-negotiable here. moon-wise i’m actually inclined to assign him derse, if only cause of the whole “accessing the powers of dark gods” thing (guess that makes ryuk a horrorterror? hmm), though prospit would probably fit better personality-wise.

L: prince of void. i’m quite confident in the aspect for this one, though the class is a little more iffy. having them both be princes feels oddly fitting though so let’s run with it. moon-wise i’d actually like to give him prospit, mostly just to be complementary to light, but also cuz it’s funny to imagine him cloud-watching in the piss pjs.

MISA: page of doom. i’m quite proud of this assignment actually, i think it fits quite well w/ her whole thing in canon about being loved by death (though here the terminology would be more like “served by doom”). prospit dreamer for sure probably maybe, to be honest i have no fucking idea how dream moon assignment works? fuck it, i’m giving up on that from here onward.

MATSUDA: knight of hope. again, less certain on class, but i think it’s very sweet if he’s a hope player <33 esp since his Belief in light lasts (almost) the whole series…

MELLO: thief of light. making him & light both light players is fucking hilarious to me so we’re rolling with that. also assigning him thief is making me think of vriska parallels now which is vaguely horrifying to consider but he did kidnap sayu and kiyomi so let’s move on quickly now.

NEAR: heir of void. take a wild guess who he’s inheriting that void from, fellas. this one kind of breaks my heart to think about, which i think is a good sign that it fits well. not much else to say, i’ve had this one pretty cemented since one of my earlier astronaut rambles on near, so…

MATT: knight of breath. as we all know, this bitch only shows up for like 2 seconds so there’s probably a lot of room to consider other options here. i just kinda like how this reflects his role in helping mello + being a pretty chill, laid back dude most times we see him, but i’m certainly open to other takes for this one in particular.

NAOMI: sylph of mind. this is incredibly vibes-based. she’s got that interesting mix of brutality paired with loving motherhood-esque associations that feels very sylphy/kanaya to me, plus an analytical approach that feels fitting of a mind player.

BEYOND: heir of heart. there’s a lot of aspects that could fit beyond, honestly— blood, rage, doom, and time are all other considerations that could easily work as well. i just like heart for how he mimics L, and heir makes an interesting connection between him and near, though i considered mage too. also heart to match naomi’s mind etc. etc. (you may notice i’m quite partial to good connections/pairings like that, even if it doesn’t fit the individual perfectly— classpecting is just as much a social thing as a personality test, in my mind. but i digress.)

KIYOMI: maid of life. i haven’t essay posted about kiyomi much but this one seems kinda fitting, though she perhaps interprets this title in a slightly different way than jane. someone go angst about kiyomi a little more so i can get a clearer read on her. life is also to match misa’s doom, as well as…

MIKAMI: knight of doom. i’m kinda hesitant to have two doom players on this list since they’re supposedly somewhat rare, but really, what else would fit for mikami? serving light his doom is basically his most notable action in the story, ultimately. guess it makes sense that DN would have a lot of doom about it, or at least it seems more like a doom series than, like, a rage series. in my humble correct opinion.

SOICHIRO: knight of blood. one final one where i’m more confident in the aspect than the class, but i think this one ultimately works— albeit in a very different way from karkat, ofc ahhakdjf. he serves his family, he works for the benefit of People. the tired dedication of blood just feels very soichiro all around.

[riiviir]

so uh. idk what happened but I have 5 different COTL AUs now

[boxwinebaddie]

Hi Uncle Neen! HYH! It sucks to see you struggling cuz you are a big inspiration of mine :( but you said you did your makeup the other day. Can we seeeeeeeeee maybe?

d'awwww ksahdlkdss, you are so sweet, nonnie! thank you so so soooo much, baby! xx i really needed this. i hope i heal ( i will...i have to, i am too much of an asshole to let god win, fuck him ) and i hope you heal from whatever harms you as well! you can do it! mWAH!~

-- also brb crying ;-; <3333 whenever y'all tell me i inspire you, it seriously makes me want to cry; you mean SO much to me, so to mean so much to you; it's Everything to me, my love. thank you for believing in me, know i believe infinitely in YOU and will keep fighting the good fight, living authentically and modelling pos behavior on this blog bc i take being a role model very seriously. :')

BUT ANYWAYS! sakhdlasd oh my god aaAaaAAAaa please!!! YOU ARE SO CUTE, THIS IS SO CUTE OF YOU, hELP AAAAA!!!!!! but yes, of course, of course. considering i am super bacteria nina right now and had to resign from my ( admittedly ) trash job and am no longer, at this moment, an education girlie ( besides on here, ofc, educating you on my two gay sons in love ), i can freely exist and post pictures of myself again! thank you for for giving me a safe place to do that. <3

i'll elaborate on what 'safe' means to me down below, but just for context i took this...sigh...last week, when i was told i would 'all better', just trying to feel like myself again after a month of being unmadeup and unfitted and ugly and troll-like and on death fucking row and fucking miserable as hell, i had my new hair appointment lined up, was about ready to take life by the balls again...and that shit BLUE BALLED ME SO HARD AND SAID *ravenstan vc* JK, BABY!

okay, sorry i have some really bad scarring and wounding up there by my neck so i had to cover her up but...there she is! the she beast!

as for posting pictures of myself just...please...PLEASE BE KIND. and i wish i meant that as a joke, i mean it very, VERY seriously. i am at a point right now, where i look my very fucking worst, i am weaker than i have ever been in my life, there are abrasions all over my body, which per the results of my culture ( i was right...several fucking times and no one would listen to me ) my body is trying to kill me and right now...it is Winning. ( i'm not gonna lose tho, dw, i am a nasty bitch from hell and i refuse to die this ugly, i fucking won't; choke )

tldr; I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT HOW I LOOK. I DO NOT FEEL PRETTY, I AM LIKE ONE BAD COMMENT AWAY FROM TEARING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE AND I AM TELLING YOU GUYS I CANNOT DO THAT, I CANT CREATE ANY TEARING ON MY BODY OR THE BACTERIA WILL TUNNEL AND ITS HARD ENOUGH AS A BITCH WITH DERMATILOMANIA.

PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.

i know we shoot the shit on here and are funny and clown eachother, you guys are my family; it's what families do, but my boundary is that you can say i am pretty and be objectively kind or Please do not send me anything At ALL about how i look; i CANNOT take it rn. i know were just joking, but please, please, PLEASE Do NOT compare me to any ugly creatures, make me feel weird about any part of my face, tell me i look blurry, say anything is too big or too small…

please don’t meme on me abt my appearance...Ever.

it’s a very sensitive spot for me and makes me v anxious.

all this to say, i love you; thank you for being my home.

HYH.

-uncle nina, single ravesey mother and human petri dish

[denversucksdik]

somebody please explain to me, not what, but HOW a lesboy or gaybian or turigirl or whatever you wanna say is. because the only thing i can think of is a trans man/woman who still has a deep connection with their agab, at least in terms of sexuality, which i can understand as a tmasc lesbian. but i genuinely do not understand how a fully cis man can call himself a lesbian.

[tea-earl-grey]

i do like the general concept of dot and bubble but rtd please hire Black writers, i'm begging you.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Can anyone help word this more formally

[being-of-rain]

If I had a nickel for every time in 2020s Doctor Who that the Doctor splits into multiple Doctors for literally no narrative reason, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that the writers couldn't be bothered to set-up even a flimsy explanation for something like that twice.

[onebillionghosts]

*worries about tagging somebody's post with an oc in case the other person thinks i'm weird and blocks me* "oh no :["

*remembers that cringe culture is dumb and if somebody thinks i'm weird for indulging in something i'm passionate about, then that's on them not me, and if they don't feel comfortable with that then they are fully in their right to block me, and that's not my problem* "oh yeah :]"

[shuihuzhuan]

does anyone know how to find it in your heart to forgive yourself

[angel-baby479]

hi- just checking in to make sure you're alright- remember that you matter and we love you. stay safe :) <3 /p

im feeling a little better now 💜 ty for concern

[reinemichele]

Yeah I can't find it on my blog or in my horrible reaction images folder on my phone or through various google searches, but I thought this was such a funny sentence that I wanted to remake it, but to be clear this wasn't my original joke

[sleepingfancies]

Kind of extremely hate "my roman empire is x" it's just rehashed "girl dinner" "girl math" "girl driving" can we please for the love of god stop reinventing a rigid gender binary centered around the most arbitrary stupid shit and calling it a "joke"

[bisexualdinahlance]

I hate when two characters with the same love interest (regardless of who is dating who at the time) interact in fics and it's clear the writer assigned who would be jealous as either some sort of moral failing or a way to put the jealous character down, instead of people being real about a character's personality. Some people just aren't going to be that jealous! Even around a partner's ex, or an ex's new partner! And sometimes someone is going to feel jealous because that's just a character flaw they have, and that also doesn't make them a bad person. Idk the use of jealousy in fanfiction is so incredibly weird, I hate it