#this is not even getting into some of the SMALLER fandoms

[st-eve-barnes]

I always make this end of the year post on here looking back on the good and bad things that happened that year but I don't really know where to begin this time. Ever since we buried my aunt in February and had a car accident on the same day this year has felt very off and it hasn't changed since.

Even yesterday we celebrated Christmas with the family and it ended in drama, which just does not happen in our family, ever. (it involved my sister's bf, our family is fine). But it just feels in line with the rest of this weird year.

There's been several deaths around us this year and I've never had as many sick days before, nothing big (I'm lucky here) but many smaller things piling up.

I've been quiet on here lately in fandom as well because I feel like I lost my fangirl vibe a bit. I stopped writing months ago and just been feeling very meh about it all (of course the disappointing season 2 and now lack of content doesn't help). It is what it is, I can't force it.

But let me end with the positive because there have been a lot of good things and many beautiful moments as well. One of the major things for me this year is that I managed to kick my depression. I was in a very dark place last year and the beginning of this one, crying so often for no reason and feeling very out of touch with everything. I'm glad to say I've been feeling much better in that department. The goal for next year is to now kick my anxiety because that one has been on a high this year (how could it not with the state of the world right now??)

But back to the positive, while I've been quiet on here I've been more present in real life, focussing on other hobbies and spending more time outside. When I stopped writing I also picked up reading books again and I'm really enjoying it and indulging in it. My husband has been through it all with me last year and it only confirms what I already knew, that he is the best guy in the entire world. We've grown closer this year (if that was even possible), he is my rock and the absolute best thing in my life.

I'm not quite sure what next year will bring, my anxiety makes it hard to feel entirely positive, but we have a lot of things to look forward to and I hope fandom can pull me back in and I might even write something again one day. But I'm not forcing the muses to come back, things are good as they are now and you might get more aesthetic than fandom posts on this blog for a while longer ;)

I want to tag some people that have kept me company during this year. I hope your holidays are everything you want them to be and the next year will bring you good things❤️ (this goes for all my mutuals not just the ones I tag because I will forget so many people)

@neonhairspray @whitedarkmoonflower @koediepatoedies @sihtricfedaraaahvicius @boundlessfantasy @arcielee @bouncehousedemons @lipstipsky @felteppsters @kaelatargaryen @ms-oswald @lovebittenbyevans @aemonds-fire @dr-aegon @vhagar-balerion-meraxes @lord-aldhelm @persephonerinyes @poppy-in-the-woods @anjelicawrites @gemini-mama @mrsarnasdelicious @livmondcole @sylasthegrim @thenameswinter99

[mxtxfanatic]

Thinking about @ninjakk’s post paired with this, and truly and honestly, the mob doesn’t get enough smoke from this fandom. Not only did a few thousand people scrape themselves together to massacre a group of 50 political prisoners composed of children, elders, and the weak—all unarmed—they did this knowing full well from the very beginning that this was the group they would be killing. From the moment all the clans gathered for the emergency conference post-liberation of the Qionqi Path labor camp, it was stated exactly who was missing for everyone to hear.

At midnight, in the Golden Pavilion on Koi Tower sat over fifty sect leaders from sects of all sizes. Jin GuangShan sat in the foremost seat. Jin ZiXuan was away, while Jin ZiXun didn’t have enough experience, so Jin GuangYao was the only one who stood beside him. In the front row sat sect leaders and famed cultivators like Nie MingJue, Jiang Cheng, Lan XiChen, and Lan WangJi. All of their expressions were solemn. The next row sat sect leaders of lesser importance. ... “... Four inspectors were harmed. Around fifty of the remaining Wen Sect members escaped. After Wei WuXian led them into Burial Mound, he summoned hundreds of fierce corpses to patrol the base of the mountain. Our people still can’t get any further.” When [Jin Guangyao] finished, silence filled Golden Pavilion.

—Chapt. 73: Recklessness, exr

The guards at the camp? Disciples from multiple clans:

What Jin GuangShan wanted, however, wasn’t his apology or his compensation, “Sect Leader Jiang, at first, for your sake, the LanlingJin Sect didn’t intend on saying anything. However, some of these inspectors weren’t from the Jin Sect. There were a few from other sects as well. This makes it...” Jiang Cheng’s brows were knitted. He rubbed the vein that throbbed at his temple and soundlessly took in a deep breath, “... I apologize to all of the Sect Leaders. Everyone, I’m afraid you don’t know that the Wen cultivator whom Wei WuXian wanted to save was called Wen Ning. We owe him and his sister Wen Qing gratitude for what happened during the Sunshot Campaign.”

They were also all present when Jiang Cheng said that he owed the Wen siblings, and anyone at any time could have followed up on that. Yet nobody except for Mianmian does, and the moment she does, it’s the smaller clans that jump to silence her. The dispute is happening so far away from where the greater clans are seated that Lan Xichen doesn’t even know what’s happening until Mianmian storms off in front of everyone. I don’t wanna hear shit no more about how the smaller cultivation clans were "only guilty because of their ignorance being used to mislead them." They knew the whole time and were perfectly eager to lead the charge, themselves, when given the chance.

"The mob has no autonomy! They're just followers! The people with the real power are the clan leaders the great clans!"

Whatever the truth was, as long as there was commotion, the villagers were happy. It wasn’t as though the Mo’s could abuse them. This display was far more interesting than the arrival of the cultivators!

—Chapt. 3: Feral II, fanyiyi

The midnight sky above the mountain forest flashed with violet light, then lit up like the morning sky, then shook with the boom of thunder, then rung with the guqin’s rich tones. The other cultivators hastily retreated to a safe distance and watched from the sidelines, trembling in fear yet unable to tear their eyes away. When all was said and done, the opportunity to observe such famous cultivators from such distinguished sects cross swords was rare, and the fiercer and more vicious it was, the better. Moreover, certain unspoken wishes circulated among the spectators: if the Lan Clan’s and the Jiang Clan’s relationship was truly ruptured, now that would be interesting.

—Chapt. 10: Pride V, fanyiyi

Would you look at that, the first ten chapters of this story explicitly portrayed the "powerless" mob as people who seek out discord amongst others—if not intentionally encouraging it—because they see violence and the destruction of other people's lives and relationships as entertainment for themselves as long as they are able to remain unaffected by the consequences. Hate to break it to you, but mxtx is absolutely calling you a bad person if you derive enjoyment from other people's suffering and bloodshed. Spectators are not innocent bystanders. You are a part of the killing machine!

[madamemiz]

sad: falling out of a hyperfixation

tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it

[sukugo]

everytime sukugo gets called a crack ship i suffer +10 damage

[kit-screams-into-the-future]

re: the last post i reblogged bc i am realizing just how much i yapped in the tags and i do not wish to subject the wider tumblr public to that rant LMAO

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

I read Hussie's author notes and they were so disappointing. He dismisses Eridan and gamzee as one-dimensional nastyboys, he claims Rose and Dave's true arc was to refuse their quests and they just needed to stop feeling guilty about it, and he says karkat's final frog didn't even matter and he was just worrying over nothing. There's so much potential clearly written in and he just throws it all away bc lol. Your analysis is so much more nuanced has so much more thought put into it both with regards to who these characters are as people and the role they serve in the plot. I'd take your ideas over what hussie thinks is canon any day of the week.

this is super funny to me because i absolutely take what hussie says into account like all the time HAHAHA

Like genuinely I go back to their formspring/tumblr/forum/book notes all the time to see how on-track i am with my analyses. If you like whatever bullshit i'm talking about, then you like hussie's writing!

[lilbirdblu]

I think my biggest gripe with twitter is that the best thing about it is also simultaneously the worst thing about it:

the ease of access to information and how quickly it can spread

On one hand, it's great for spreading news/bringing awareness to issues, allowing creatives to be discovered, befriending people from anywhere in the world, innocuous memes and photos going viral, etc. Things can quickly take off within the blink of an eye which is awesome... when the information is accurate and/or it's not causing any undue harm to anyone

But that's the thing: misinformation can and is often easily spread just as quickly, which is dangerous

And, Im not sure if I'll be able to explain this as eloquently as Id like, but a more personal view/gripe I have is that, because of how quickly anything can spread, people have become so accustomed to a constant feed that updates at a high rate, that if something takes time or is a slow process, then they begin to demand updates, constant communication and get unruly [at best] if their wants are not met. People have learned that if they're "loud" enough, they will get what they want. Can being loud be beneficial? Absolutely. But I think it can also be harmful.

If that want is not met, it often leads to more aggressive thoughts/ideas/etc being spread at that same rapid speed which creates a very hostile environment to be in. This isn't to say that communities--namely fandoms--should never be informed of anything, but rather, that there is a severe lack of patience, empathy, and willingness to understand that I think is concerning.

That's not to mention the black-and-white thinking and lack of nuance but that's a conversation for another day.

[jizskat]

Feel like I should apologize to you too, Ghost. I did not mean to start a whole thing - I did not communicate or say things in the best way possible. I understand that what I did was wrong. I will not bring up another Ky topic.

And Oh my god. I had no idea people were harassing ky. I am SO sorry. That was not my intention and I actually had no idea.

"I'm sorry Ky, I'm sorry klutzytomb and I'm sorry random citizen number 13 😔"

Jokes aside you don't have to apologize to me? The fuck I do? I had nothing to do with all that 😭😭😭😭. I didn't even read your posts, I was like "oop more drama, im done with that for the week" and clicked away. It wasn't fun but I don't think it was for anybody.

If you're worried about that, I don't think anybody's mad or thinks you're a bad person for making those posts.

[imjustavenuxwithaboomerang]

just learned that people are like legitimately pissed that mackenyu buffed up for season 2 ???

[floralovebot]

:(

[embracedthevoid]

👑

[beardedhandstoadshark]

Do you think that Shipping is what helps a fandom stay afloat? 🫠

For (by now hopefully obvious reasons) my answer may be a bit biased, but depends on the fandom? In the Onceler or Sansverse fandoms it sure did lmao. But I don't exactly see people having ship-wars about Mario everywhere, y'know? Yet the fandom stands. And then you've also got things like Genshin that, despite being 90% shipping, are just so big that the other 10% could easily carry as well. Zelda-fandom is extremely dependant on what corner you're in (youtube's side is pretty much exclusively fueled by the lore and theory side!) Also fnaf exists. Look me in the eye and tell me its shipping that fuels this fandom and not the lore craze started by MatPat (formerly) GameTheory. Also furry porn but you get the point.

Imo what actually sustains fandom isn't shipping itself (though it makes up a big part of fandom in many fandoms) but rather the overlying emotion: Indulgence in scenes that you think would be pretty cool yo! Be it shipping scenes or mary sue self inserts or crossovers or whatever. Fanart, fics, self-insert manifestos and whatnot all add to fandom as a whole, and they're basically all going "what if we took these guys and put them in these situations".

People just love putting their blorbos in situations, and a lot of those situations happen to be romance.

ALSO that doesn't even include subcategories of fandom like speedrunners etc, who're basically a completely different thing but technically still fall under fandom, but that's getting too nitpicky here XD It really depends on what you'd even define as a fandom.

[orcelito]

Ok I'm to the point of listening to iwatex's OST on spotify. I think this is terminal

[the-king-of-lemons]

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[tenpintsof-sundrop]

The concept of 'famous' fanfics in the Harry Potter fandom absolutely blows my mind...

[apollosgiftofprophecy]

being a fan does not just mean liking the show/book/ect.

it also means supporting your fellow fans.

Those people who cancelled and were mean to Elianzis for the Antinous and Telemachus drawings and for other things:

Leave my friend alone, she explained her points simply and clearly enough, and unfollow me NOW

“Don’t like it, don’t interract with. Block and move on.”