#this is not a spn hate post. it was just always the one I cared about the very least

[artemisbones]

Sherlock and co. is immensely fun and I love being completely nuts about Doctor Who again. But i’m glad I don’t give a toss about Supernatural because I might throw myself into a volcano if all three coalesced together to torment me when I barely went there the first time. Can’t do it.

[ardentpoop]

hey!! i'm new to the spn fandom (haven't finished the show yet, a couple seasons left) and i love sam dearly and can obviously see all the abuse he suffers (mainly by dean, who is actually so so so awful to him in inconceivable ways) but i'm new to tumblr and all the meta and critical thinkpieces of the people who discuss this and the amount of topics and information and posts (bc there are layers upon layer upon layers!!) is so overwhelming for someone who just got here lol so i was wondering where do you think i should start & if there's any "start here" guide to the show through the sam lens or how did you start bc obviously i can see it watching it but there's stuff i miss. anyways yeah sorry for the rambling and hope i could get my point across lol <3 ty in advance, i love reading your posts on the spn dynamics even if sometimes they make me a little confused or I can't fully grasp everything hope i don't sound dumb

oh my god hello. first of all please understand that my perspective on the show is (unfortunately) quite fringe and tends to attract hate whenever people from the broader fandom(s) notice it. doesn’t help that I get heated abt certain recurring issues sometimes 😀

overall this fandom is genuinely huge and obviously pretty old now so I understand being overwhelmed by it. frankly if you watched the show while focused on sam and especially if you care about him for personal reasons you need to be aware of how cynically and/or one-dimensionally much of the fandom interprets and portrays him - this has been going on for years because most people (regardless of fandom segment) prefer dean and shape their “meta” and their fic around that preference regardless of canon characterization and power dynamics.

speaking of fandom segments let me give you a basic overview of what those look like:

d*stiel fandom (I refer to it as “D/C fandom” sometimes and “normie fandom” often). this is the largest segment of the tumblr fandom by a MILE. most outspoken sam haters live here bc it is better for their ship if sam doesn’t exist and particularly not as dean’s long-term partner.

wncest fandom (I refer to it as “S/D fandom” sometimes). many outspoken sam haters here as well - though they would never identify themselves as such - because viewing the entire show through a Traditional (lol) shipping lens can tend to muddy individual characterizations, and because dean is the character with the louder voice in canon these fans get just as offended as others do when you turn up the volume on sam’s perspective. this is all exacerbated by fans in general wanting their favorite character to be the victim in every scenario regardless of the actual power dynamics at play.

sastiel fandom. extremely small compared to either of the above, and better off for it. I will always think of them as the chillest group of fans. what no dean does to a motherfucker (positive) <3

on top of these ship segments you have the overarching “dean g*rls” versus “sam g*rls” dynamic. you’ll see people in S/D fandom in particular claiming these separate fan perspectives as compatible/harmonious. do not believe them lmfao. a lot of people use these labels to signal a superficial preference for one brother over the other (e.g. which one is hotter to you in the context of porn) but for the more engaged fans there is a world of baggage attached to each of these labels, depending on your own view of the show. TL;DR if you love sam and are invested in his mistreatment on the show - especially if this includes his mistreatment by dean - you’ll quickly notice that dean stan circles are not for you.

non-shippers and multi-shippers will more than likely self-identify as either sam g!rls or dean g!rls. if someone calls themself a “cas g!rl” they are almost definitely a D/C shipper or only ever interacting with D/C shippers.

with All That out of the way I recommend making note of which meta posts are most interesting to you and who wrote them, and seeing who their fandom friends are/whose meta they are boosting. here are some common discussion topics that you can search sam blogs for:

sam and bodily autonomy (lack thereof)

the implications of the demon blood arc and how general audiences responded to it

the implications of the soulless!sam arc and how general audiences responded to it

the implications of the trials!sam arc and how general audiences responded to it

the implications of the gadreel!sam arc and how general audiences responded to it

sam and lucifer/sam in the cage

the case for transfem sam (beware of reductive “woman-coding” discourse)

related to the above: dean’s role in the story vs sam’s

sam and faith

sam and food

how we got from “early-seasons” sam to “late-seasons” sam

I have an entire crazy list of sam relationship tags that I won’t put here but here are a few general ones of mine that might be of interest:

#the roles

#us and them

#the audience versus sam and dean

#fandom mythbusting

#hall of mirrors

there is also the “sam winchester centric” ao3 tag which you can try using to narrow down fic/fic collections.

good luck!!!! samtuals feel free to drop recommendations of your own in the comments.

[farenmaddox]

SPN wild theory time

I will just go ahead and start with my thesis statement: I don't think that Jack killed Mary.

With that out of the way, let's get into my warnings for this post: 1. There will be spoilers for Seasons 11-15 of Supernatural 2. I wasn't in this fandom 5-6 years ago when these episodes were coming out; maybe you guys already talked this all out and your entire response is going to be "we already went through this, dude." 3. This post is actually like 3-4 posts in a trenchcoat. I may have gone slightly overboard.

All that said, buckle up, here we go.

Chuck's "omniscience" is questionable. He has been surprised by Dean's decision-making and been upset about it, and has admitted that Castiel is someone whose actions often contradict Chuck's narrative. So, by his own admission, he doesn't/can't know everything.

However, he always thinks ahead and always has multiple ideas on how to solve a situation, and he always has a contingency plan.

First, let's look at how he handled the Amara situation. I would characterize Chuck's behavior in Season 11 as writing a self-insert fic. Chuck is a writer, after all. He knew that Dean taking the Mark of Cain would either lead to Dean's destruction or to Amara being released, so he would have been ready for Amara to appear well before she actually did. But it's only in episode 11x20 that he chooses to do anything about it, ostensibly because Metatron talks him into it. We already see signs that he's kind of "done" with the prime world and the Winchesters here, but then Metratron convinces him to give it another go, and that's when it becomes self-insert fic.

He displays the ability to absorb Amara into himself in episode 15x17, so I think this was always the contingency plan if all else failed. But he wanted to be in the story. He wanted to be on the team and be a hero, so he joins up to do the big assault on Amara plan that is carried out in 11x22. I truly do not think he foresaw that Amara would win that fight. And with how badly wounded he is, the contingency plan is no longer viable. So he has to go with the Dean-as-a-bomb plan. He was already thinking about letting it all go to shit, so this is fine. But then Dean wants to save the day with his faith in familial love, which Chuck definitely didn't see coming. I think Chuck lets it happen despite the fact that he doesn't actually give two shits about Amara just because Dean is his favorite and has managed to surprise him so maybe the world should go on a little longer.

All of this is just establishing a baseline of Chuck-ness. Now we're going to talk about Jack.

See, I don't think Chuck ever planned on Jack actually being carried to term and surviving. The wild card, as always, is Cas. Who, when he had a chance to kill a nephilim (a thing he has done before! a thing he has assisted in doing in the past! it's a sure bet for Chuck!)...doesn't do that. But that's okay (Chuck thinks)! The Winchesters will probably kill the kid! And if they don't, and Lucifer wins, then Chuck can swoop in and be like "my beautiful son and my beautiful grandson, oh my me, this is delightful, we should be a family" and then kill them both.

Dean hating Jack was absolutely Chuck's first choice of potential plots for how to take care of the Jack problem when it turns out that there is going to be a Jack. He likes that story. It surely fills him with glee that Sam doesn't hate Jack and Dean does. But then... fuck, it's Castiel, again! Chuck had no involvement in Cas being resurrected, for once. No way to predict that one. And Cas being back means that Dean doesn't hate Jack and isn't going to kill him, especially since Jack helps them get Mary back, which sucks for Chuck, who is now very committed to this storyline of Dean killing Jack. Don't forget, Chuck can kill Jack whenever he wants. But he wants Dean to do it. He's bored and done with Dean and is ready for Dean to be dead.

So, how do we get Dean to kill Jack? Well, obviously Cas's death doesn't goad him to do it because the fucker just can't stay dead, so it has to be Sam or Mary. And it can't be Sam, because Sam has to watch Dean kill Jack and himself. That's the story. So it has to be Mary, right?

Chuck just has to wait for the right moment.

Jack has a strong sense of fear about hurting people by the time of Mary's death. 13x06 and 14x16 are some critical episodes where we see how he feels and reacts to hurting innocent people. And he seems to have pretty good control over his powers as well. He had just recently had a conversation with Donatello (in 14x15) about how easy it is to continue doing the right thing without a soul. His decision to kill Felix the snake was very much on purpose and very controlled, and honestly can everyone shut up about the snake. Jack fucking loved that snake. It was sick and nobody else knew how to help Felix either. He euthanized a sick pet.

So it is hard to believe that Jack just randomly lost control of his powers and killed someone whom he had no reason to kill. That's not really consistent with Jack's behavior. Even when he's in a complete rage in 14x20 after what Sam and Dean did to him, he doesn't kill them. At his most angry and while experiencing a huge surge in power, he somehow doesn't kill Sam and Dean. But we're expected to believe that in 14x17, he just "accidentally" flies off the handle and kills Mary.

The thing that is genuinely so crucial is that we do not see Mary's death in 14x17. It does not happen on screen. Deaths in this show always happen on screen, and it's not on screen. All we see is her face near Jack's, and the next episode all we see is the blast site. I think that the reason we don't get to see it is because it didn't actually happen the way we're told it did.

The fact that Mary can't be resurrected? That's weird, and new. That literally never happens. Everyone can be resurrected. People who were turned into paste by archangels can be resurrected. People who have been cremated can be resurrected. But Mary can't be? That's got Chuck's smell all over it.

Jack thinks he killed Mary, but he fucking didn't. Chuck did it. Chuck smote the shit out of that woman and Jack doesn't have any other explanation for what happened. I don't even think he is actually hallucinating Lucifer. Soulless guy who "doesn't feel guilt" and doesn't want Lucifer in his subconscious but somehow can't get rid of him? It's Chuck. It's Chuck dressed up as Lucifer to keep Jack on the edge and convince him it was his fault so he can lead everybody to the grand finale.

And then stupid Dean ruins the story and doesn't kill Jack. Which Chuck should have seen coming, because this is what happened with Amara! But he didn't, because sometimes Chuck actually doesn't know things! It's okay though (Chuck thinks), because Chuck always has a contingency plan. He has always been able to kill Jack whenever he wanted, and if Dean's not going to do it, Chuck might as well. So he does.

I'm telling you. Chuck killed Mary. Jack didn't do it.

[losers-clvb]

woman of letters pt. 13 // dean winchester

summary: sam and dean discover the bunker of the men of letters. expecting it to be empty, they get quite the shock when they meet you.

content: angst, hurt/no comfort, mentions of trauma and ptsd

word count: 2k

read on wattpad here. read on ao3 here. if you would like to be added to the taglist, let me know!

note: this is a kind of short one, but i swear we're gonna pick back up next part.

taglist: @bettystonewell @kaz-2y5-spn @never-here1992 @thestoriesfold @mostlymarvelgirl @dyhsversion @deans-baby-momma @bitchykittenconnoisseur @ladykitana90 @globetrotter28

masterlist series masterlist previous part

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There wasn’t much lately that could make you smile. Not when you had been avoiding Dean like he was a poison. You didn’t want to relive the words you had spat at him in anger. To your surprise, he hadn’t left the bunker after them. You wouldn’t have blamed him. You would have left.

Instead, Dean had made his best work of ignoring you. He would peek past doorways -- you had caught him once or twice -- to check if you were in the room. He would sleep when he knew you were awake. The rattling of bowls in the night sent pangs of loneliness to you.

You missed him.

It wasn’t just the fact that you hadn’t orgasmed in over a week and a half. It was more of missing his soft touch. You wanted his eyes to gaze over you, to drink you in like you were the only thing he lived for. His lips brushing against your skin after the sex, touching you because he couldn’t stay away.

You wanted him.

You wanted all of him.

But you weren’t going to go back to him.

It was too much, too soon. You didn’t want to push over the edge of anger again. You two hurt each other too much. It could never work again.

Even now, you knew, watching him wipe a towel over the Impala with a care you remembered him using on you.

You had stumbled upon him in the garage, meaning to grab your car to make a run to the post office. You couldn’t help but stare at him from the doorway. Your eyes drifted to the hood of the car, a flash of your first, and last, date.

You hadn’t noticed him looking at you until the silence became unbearable.

You locked onto his eyes, fingers twitching to reach out to him.

You couldn’t read him. It was as if when he had shut you out, he had closed off every door you had to see into him. His face was blank as he surveyed you.

Dean had decided he was done. He couldn’t hear how he had ruined your life over and over again. The only thing holding him together, keeping him from running again, was the constant validation that you were okay -- physically, at least.

What you didn’t notice were the glances to you. You in the kitchen for a late-night glass of water. You walking from the garage to your study. You, asleep, in the library, with a book as your pillow.

He saw it all.

He had even begun to peek into your room at night, or more of in the early hours of the morning. It was the time when he knew you would be asleep, when he could look over you without you knowing it. He hadn’t dared to take a step inside.

He was scared he wouldn’t leave if he did.

All those glances hadn’t prepared him for this moment.

Dean tried to read you, tried to get a sense of what exactly you were here for, but the moment you noticed, you mentally shut him out. He watched the hard indifference cross your face.

God, you were like a fucking robot. He hated it, but at the same time, loved that you had the ability to do something like that. He was always scared his emotions would show and give something away.

Little did he know that was exactly what he was doing now.

He was shutting you out.

You swallowed down a question. It would have been stupid, just small talk about his car, and it was only going to be used to alleviate some of the guilt you felt.

Instead, you squeezed your eyes shut and swiftly stepped over to your own car.

Dean snapped his head down when you walked past, rubbing at a nonexistent spot on the body of the Impala. You settled into your driver’s seat, flinching when you caught a glimpse of him standing only a few inches from you.

He held out a gun, handle facing you. He wasn’t looking into your eyes now. You frowned and didn’t move.

You didn’t know how to shoot. You knew that, Dean knew that. So why was he trying to give you a gun? It’s not like it had done much the last time you tried to use one.

“Please.”

If you hadn’t been awake for the past three hours, you would have thought you hallucinated the word. Dean’s voice shook through your body, despite the soft, breathy tone of it. It settled right in your gut, right where you kept your fear and guilt.

With a slight shake, you reached out and wrapped your fingers around the handle. Your skin brushed against his, and, for just a small moment, you two stayed like that. Touching, barely, but still touching.

Then Dean pulled away, clearing his throat to cut through the tension. It didn’t do much. The thing that snapped you out of your trance of him was his exit from the garage, boots thumping on the floor as he left.

You sighed and tucked the gun into the glove box, wishing he had offered himself up instead of the weapon.

----

“You two are ridiculous.” Sam bit out when Dean wandered to the kitchen.

Sam was sat at the table, laptop in front of him, a bowl of cereal off to the side. Dean chose to ignore the fact that it was your favorite cereal, a kind that he had found himself gravitating to when he had taken his self-sufficient vacation.

He also ignored his younger brother’s words. Dean reached into a cupboard, swiping up a mug for coffee. He was exhausted. He spent his days trying -- and failing -- to sleep, and the nights were used to watch over you. It was beginning to be too much, but there didn’t seem to be any other option.

Well, there was another option: talk to you and get you back into his arms. But this was what you wanted. You had wanted to never be loved by him again, something made obvious to him when you blamed him for ruining your life.

“I swear, I’ve never seen two people be so stupid.” Sam continued, scrolling through whatever lore website he had found.

“Just drop it, Sammy.” Dean grumbled, letting the coffee burn his throat as he drank it.

“No.” Sam looked up from his laptop, shaking his head at Dean. “It’s beginning to affect me. You need to fix it.”

“Why is it always me who has to fix things? Huh?” Dean set his mug on the counter by the sink, the liquid swishing up to the sides, almost spilling over. “Why can’t she fix it?”

“You’re a child.” Sam rolled his eyes. “You left her.” He chose to leave himself out of that. Yes, he had been left behind by Dean too, but this was about you two pretending you had the luxury of “normal people” love lives. Being the people you were, having the lives you lived, there was no time for the “will we, won’t we”.

Not that the fact had ever stopped either him or Dean from doing the “will we, won’t we”, but in this situation that he wasn’t apart of, Sam had deemed himself above such ways.

“Yeah, and I came back, didn’t I? I deserve some credit for that.”

“We had to find you and practically drag you back here.”

“You didn’t drag me.” Dean scoffed, flexing his jaw. He wanted to tell Sam what you had said, the real reason why he was avoiding you now. He wanted to so bad, but it didn’t seem right. He figured it would just make things worse if other people knew how badly he had allegedly treated you.

“Just apologize, say you’re sorry.” Sam shrugged off, shaking his head again. He knew that you two had been together at some point, or many points, since Dean had returned. He had, unfortunately for him, heard the results of Dean’s “magic”. He had thought, great, at least you two would go back to being tooth-rottingly in love. What he got instead were two fully-grown adults acting like they were just having one-night stands every night.

“Don’t you think I tried that?” Dean spat out, anger rising at the memory of you pushing him away even after his apologies.

“What’d she say?” Sam asked, not believing that Dean had actually said anything of the sort.

Fuck it, Dean wasn’t caring about right or wrong in this moment.

“That I ruined her life. That she hates me.” Dean took in a steadying breath. It did nothing to quench his thirst for you.

Sam could see you saying that. He’d heard it himself, the words directed to him. You’d been angry and grieving, so he mostly let it slide past, but there had been a few times he’d yelled back. It always ended up the same way: you storming past him, pushing his body out of your way while he tried not to think of how much easier it would have been if he had just gone with Dean.

Sam didn’t know what to say to it. He didn’t know if you had actually meant it when you said it to Dean, but you couldn’t have, right? There wasn’t any way that the love he had seen you direct toward his brother just dissipated like that.

“Yeah, so tell me how exactly I’m supposed to fix this, Sammy.” Dean grit out, raising his eyebrows at Sam. The taller man was still silent, looking up at him with those puppy dog eyes that used to get him whatever he wanted.

Dean scoffed and turned away, training his eyes on the brick wall above the sink.

He hated this. He hated you. Mostly, though, he just hated himself.

----

You’d been distracted the whole drive into town. Not ideal, seeing how the last time you had been distracted it led to a bomb-detonation of a horrible situation. You couldn’t stop it, the thoughts that filtered in.

You wished you could find it in yourself to apologize to Dean. It just wasn’t you. You couldn’t fake smiles and act like everything was fine when it wasn’t. It hadn’t been for a while.

Sure, Dean may look at you and still see the demon smirking back at him, but you? You could feel it in you still, like it had been covered in a goop that got left behind even after the exorcism.

You wanted to be clean, but you didn’t know the first step to cleansing yourself.

Your interactions with others went by unmemorized. Thank the gods for the physical files you were given because without them, the entire trip would have been a waste.

Now, however, you were suddenly very aware of the world around you.

You were getting a sick sense of deja vu to when Dean had, without your knowledge of it, followed you out in those first few days of knowing each other.

Only this time, you were almost one-hundred-percent positive this wasn’t Dean. Someone else was following you.

You tried to glance around, maybe looking for the person, maybe looking for anyone else to help. You came up empty. There wasn’t a soul around. But you still felt the presence near you.

You quickened your pace, trying to quiet your racing heart.

Despite everything that had happened, you still felt like that inexperienced woman Sam and Dean had found in the bunker all those months ago.

You had almost reached your car, your fingers just barely grazing against the door handle when someone, the someone who had been following you, placed their hand on your arm.

Just like the first time, you swung.

[goshen-applecrumbledore]

20 fanfic author questions

tagged by @runawaydr3amerao3 to do this, excited as always to talk about myself, let's gooooooo

1. How many works on AO3?

52 and I can only ballpark how many have been orphaned. probably about 12.

2. Total AO3 word count?

953,146. Jesus christ

3. Top 5 fics by kudos?

all of these are old as hell which is why they're top. they are not all good.

transposition ciphers (9,010) fma, roy/ed

the hang of being alive again (3,600) the raven cycle, adam/ronan

not funny (3,573) check please (eugh), holster/ransom

awful wonderful (3,564) naruto, kakagai

hard reset (3,162) fma, roy/ed

4. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently, technically, just spn, the bear, true detective and house md. but fma is never far from my mind. my otp no matter how much time passes...

5. Do you respond to comments?

Up until very recently I never did because it never occurred to me. I wasn't trying to be a dick, I just didn't know I was supposed to. then I went through a period during spn after learning that where I felt bad and replied to everything. Now I reply to comments that ask me a question or are thought-provoking. I want to answer and to applaud. people leave comments that are more beautiful than the actual fic, you people are very smart and insightful.

6. Angstiest ending?

I'm not good at writing sad endings!! I believe in love! but, for this audience, worthless cartography. sam and dean hook up for the first time right before ahbl pt 2 and then sam dies, so dean thinks it's his fault in a divine retribution kind of way, so when sam is alive again, dean rebuffs him. I always meant to write a second part, but without it, it's pretty sad.

7. Fic with the happiest ending?

I was going to say pine sweat but I remembered it takes place in S5 so sam is dead within a fortnight lmao. it's definitely hard reset, an fma roy/ed fic. it's 15 years post-canon and after a lot of yearning and trying to make it work, they make it work. very blue skies everybody wins.

8. Do you get hate?

Not much these days, but I used to. mostly for writing roy/ed, with a big age/power gap, and for my novel with the same. for writing hockey rpf ships people didn't like, someone threatened to call my office and tell my bosses I was a pedophile. also when I was 13 I wrote a very OOC house/wilson fic and someone said it sucked and I got so mad I started writing original works out of spite (because nobody could tell me they were ooc)

9. Do you write smut?

Very much so, as a treat/reward/resolution to a story, much like sex is irl, lol. I rarely write smut on its own (blood sacrifice sex magic type of thing would be the closest, or middle name) not because I have anything against it but because in my own work I wanna feel very much like it's THE characters, whoever they are, and plot is the easiest way to do that. if I wanna just crank my hog I can do that on my own time.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Nosiree, I'm boring. no crossovers or AUs. barry tells me I will want to write an spn/x files crossover though, and because he's the one that got me into spn I've learned not to tell him he's wrong.

11. Ever had a fic stolen?

Yes actually, someone put huge swaths of one of my yakuza fics into a majima/reader fic. I opened a ticket with AO3 but they said it wasn't clear cut enough. I didn't pursue because I don't care.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, this is my favourite thing!!! such a compliment and a beautiful reminder, in english speaking internet and under the shadow of the US, that there are other folks online. several of my spn fics have been translated into mandarin and 2 of my expanse fics have been translated into russian.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Once, in hockey fandom, with someone I didn't like very much. she wasn't a good writer and it was a disaster. I don't remember what happened to it. I wouldn't do it again lol.

14. All time favourite ship?

If I'm honest it's gotta be roy/ed from fma. what if this very annoying kid sauntered into your life but then he grows up and he's brilliant and noble and beautiful and haunted and also the specialist boy in the world, but you're a decorated military official in a corrupt dictatorship and the kid hates your guts and you will never be able to forgive yourself for your past war crimes so why should this beautiful genius like you anyway?? anyway. im over that now

15. WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

A wincest john finds out kind of full-house-of-wincest type situation. somebody with a fundraiser fic should email me and tell me to swap their fic to that one. who said that

16. Writing strengths?

Dialogue and canon-complianticity

17. Writing weaknesses?

Nobody tells me what I suck at so I don't FULLY know, but. Speed. Grammar. Flexibility. everything I write sounds like everything else I write and I reuse the same words and idioms, like same song syndrome but for writing. a greatest hits album.

18. Thoughts on mixed language dialogue?

Only thing I've done in my fics is kind of a crossed-out written words in an epistolary fic. I've maybe had a few french lines in a fic but I don't think so because it was referencing subtitles. haven't read much either, so, no opinions. but I will say it's shit to do a weird patois in your English language dialogue

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Naruto baybeeeee. when I was 11 my sister found my scanned fan art of naruto and sasuke kissing on deviantart. I didn't even think she was on deviantart. 

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Hangdog, easily, but I think that's only because true detective s1 is remarkably rich and good so I'm really just drafting off marty and rust's coattails. but also probably Matryoshka dolls for spn, because it feels very well considered and tied together and intentional and satisfying, to me. but it deserves merit because as any spn fan knows, you gotta have a rich inner universe in order to truly play in their space. cw gets no credit.

EDIT: or, actually, my venture bros fic, lol. there was something very lovely about writing fic for a show that in no way makes me horny. Just a show I love very much.

No tags because I don't know anyone anymore but tag me if you do it because of me and I'll read it!

[platonic-soulmates-gencest]

Happy Wincest Wednesday!

So asking people what kind of fics they liked made me really curious about all the areas of wincest fandom that aren't really places I go. The kinks I don't personally have. So now I wanna hear people talk about them and hear how they work and see why people like them.

So please talk to me about breeding kink! Or maybe just your mommy dean stuff in general. That's a side of this fandom that I decided Do Not Get. Or the breastfeeding stuff. Depends on if you want easy or hard mode on explaining things to me, I guess.

- @schizosamwincester

Happy Wincest Wednesday!

So, just as a warning, I probably have a different uhh interpretation of these things than other people in the fandom because I have my gencest/weirdcest goggles on most of the time.

So for the mommy dean thing, it's very important for me for it not to be a kink thing. It's all about Dean doing his best (and frequently failing) to take care of Sam. Like a parent-child relationship. So it's not the usual mommy kink. Not for me anyway. (If it does show up in sex scenes, it has to be somehow tied to Dean taking care of Sammy and not to "I'm your mom, listen to me" part of it.)

Breastfeeding, okay I have to admit I always had a weird relationship with this one even before getting into spn. What started my interest in it was a Tumblr post about how Dean would have hated not being able to feed Sammy as a baby (like Mary did before the fire) so that's the part of breastfeeding I am searching for. Dean "providing" for Sam. (No kidding though, I've written a gencest fic about this and it's still the favorite fic I have written, like ever. SO yeah.)

The breeding kink is a bit different in nature but essentially (for me) it's about Dean missing taking care of Sammy as a toddler and wanting kids that will actually need him 24/7 (Sam's grown a bit too independent and Dean is experiencing empty bird syndrome). How Sam is involved in it (again for me, the majority of the fandom might disagree)... It's either Sam seeing that Dean needs to look after someone and giving him the kids he so wants OR Sam misses Dean being all maternal with him and wants to rekindle that flame.

My takes on all of these are way too weird and I suspect they are far off from what other people take from these kinks. Don't use this as a point of reference is what I'm saying lol

And was this too much explanation...? Probably yes. Sorry for the essay.

[emeraldcrs]

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* get 2 know me ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

hey guys! :) my name is viv, i'm 19 years old. i was born on november 23, i feel more like a scorpio than a sagittarius (lol).

ᥫ᭡kind,caring,empatheticᥫ᭡overthinkerᥫ᭡.

ᥫ᭡in the company of those who i trust, i can be very free, sassy, ​​flirty and i can make any kind of joke about anything. this varies with strangers, or i try to give this myself there as well, but i usually start with restraint. i think my thinking is adult, i feel more mature than my age group. when I love someone, i do it with all my heart, but i can easily become impulsive.

!!! I LOVE COFFEE BTW !!!

ᥫ᭡i like to walk, during a vacation i would rather go hiking in a forest than swimming on the beach. i like the cold better than the heat, autumn is my favorite season, but i also like spring, but i really hate the summer heat. i like salty food more than sweet, but usually i always need something sweet after salty. i love hamburgers, especially spicy ones. when it comes to dressing, i prefer dark clothes: black, dark green, red and jackets are my favourites. i love it when my nails are painted burgundy. i like to wear jewelry, only silver and mostly rings. when it comes to music, i'm quite mixed, as an editor i always listen to current trending music, but i really like the early 2000s years of music, but i usually listen to lana del rey and the weekend. i like series more than movies, i usually watch fantasy, action and crime. because of this, i am very interested in witchcraft, in my dr i always imagine myself as a witch, just like in the vampire diaries or as wanda maximoff from the marvel movies. i have a leaf and a spn tattoo on my forearm. my love language is hugs and physical contact, but people rarely give me that.

ᥫ᭡oh and yes....my heart belongs to dean winchesterᥫ᭡

please comment below my post if you want to be part of my taglist!

[wooimbouttamakeanameformyself]

https://www.tumblr.com/wooimbouttamakeanameformyself/758872178203688960/you-do-know-that-multiple-marvel-actors-have

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen AAs and Hellers say that they’d be completely on board with Jensen and Misha publicly calling Jared out if he had been the one making a prequel behind their backs. Or at the very least, saying they wouldn’t have cared about them calling Jared out nearly as much.

Why? Cause they feel like Jensen and Misha are better than him/the ONLY reason SPN was a success for so long. Calling people out publicly was never THE REAL problem for them, it was the fact that it was Jared doing it. The fact that it was someone who they don’t think is worthy of doing such a thing. They can go on and on about how they PERSONALLY don’t think it was a big deal.

But in reality, they just don’t think it was a big deal that it was done to Jared.

💯

I always say this, imagine if it were the other way around, if Jared had made a prequel behind Jensen’s back and had been so fuckin shady about it, I can’t even begin to imagine the uproar.

As I’ve said somewhere in a previous post, and I’m not just saying this because I’m a Jared stan, but in a lot of aspects Jared’s character was way more important to Supernatural— especially in the earlier seasons with the yellow eye demon, the demon blood thing and the visions etc… way more important than Misha by like 1000. But it’s just salty aas and hellers who like to make their entire ‘fandom’ a hate club about Jared — majority of the time they’re hating on Jared rather than talking about their faves.

And the fact that Jensen himself excused Jared’s tweets as him being drunk, as if Jared was in the wrong for being upset about the situation.

[dontwanttochoose]

Personal opionion about Dean

I was a Dean girl for many years, almost a decade, I started SPN when I was a teenager, yet I ended up being a Sam Girl.

I know that there many discussions (like an online battle everytime) about who is the best brother etc. but this post is not about this, but about the exagegeration of the fans that many times that to see just white and black; while the show is full of shades of grey.

We know that, if we erase Dean or Sam from the life of the other, there will be no Sam and Dean, the ones that we know, because their carachters are highly influenced by the other. That's the truth, if you want to analyze one of the two brothers you can't erase the existens of the other, their interractions etc. If you consider yourself a truly Dean!girl/Dean!Boy you should know Sam and is the same for Sam!Girls and Sam!Boys.

What I don't understand is the overly, exaggerated protection of your favourite character, especially between Dean fans. There is nothing wrong with pointing out his mistakes, the way he reacts, being physically abusive, and emotionally manipulative. The same for Sam, when fans tend to portray him too many times as a poor little lamb, even when in that moment he was not. Both brothers were wrong during the show and made mistakes. Being extreme about a horror, gothic show is not going to help to fully understand the story and the characters.

(Unfortunately, personal thought, the show changed too many writers and there are some inconsistencies in the seasons, and especially a few of them worked thanks to the fans and their way to adapt the characters to the arc, even if sometimes it feels too forced)

When I started the show I was a Dean fan, I releted too him because I was the older, I took care of my little brother because my parents were always away, and unfortunatly I developed some bad behaviour, really similar to Dean. I saw myself too much in Dean. But if you are not able to see the mistakes of Dean, you will not be able to grow up emotionally as a person.

When I started to analyzed more Sam, I saw another point of view, I view that I will never be able to experience, what is like being the little of the brothers.

There is nothing wrong saying that Dean many times didn't behave well... and it can still be your favourite. It's the beauty of fiction, you can know really well a character, knows what did good and what he did wrong, and still love him. It's not wrong. It's fiction.

(This is not a hate post about Dean, I enjoy the brothers and it's thanks to both Jensen and Jared that SPN lasted so long)

[raptor-claw]

I cannot explain in words how much joy Castiel has given me, just as a character. I relate to him so much. Every single time I see ‘Misha Collins’ at the start of an episode my heart jumps and I start screaming into the void. Scenes featuring him play over and over in my head 24/7. I am struggling so much right now, but I know that Castiel and Supernatural as a whole will always be there for me when I’m upset. He has given me so much happiness in such a difficult time and I will be forever grateful for Misha Collins and all the script writers of spn.

The reason I’m saying all this is because I want to discuss how fucking horrible it is to hate on someone for loving a character. A character that they love possibly more than anything else in this world, a character that could have given them the will to continue on and not commit fucking suicide. So I think it’s incredibly shitty when people say crap like “yeah we get it, shut up”, “no one cares” and “calm down, they’re not that cool.” Like, what the actual fuck.

You’ve essentially just told someone that their comfort character, the thing that could be SAVING THEIR FUCKING LIFE RIGHT NOW, is unimportant and that they’re ridiculous and childish for being excited about them, and by extension that they’re being ridiculous and childish for liking the character/media. I have experience with this, and for fuck’s sake please don’t do or say anything to that effect to ANYONE, no matter how ‘annoying’ they’re being, no matter how tired you are and no matter how bored you are of hearing about your friend’s hyper focus.

Because, yeah, I get it. It can be annoying sometimes, it can be tiring, and it can be fucking boring, but guess what. This character is their everything at the moment, and they want to tell their friends about it because sharing hyper focuses and fixations with someone you love is the best feeling ever. And if you can’t understand that, please get a fucking clue and cure your ignorance, whether your friend is neurodivergent or not.

And if you really, truly cannot deal with them at that moment, just say ‘Hey, I’m really sorry but I’m doing something right now. Can you tell me all about this later?’ Boom. It’s that simple, that’s all you need to do.

So please, please remember this post whenever your friend is ranting to you and you’re feeling frustrated. Please, please take into consideration that they will remember anything negative you say, and they will take all of it to heart. Take it from someone who’s friends and family frequently do the same to him, it fucking sucks, and if I didn’t have four other fucking amazing friends (shout out to Oli @1amore1, Ryu @wasted-potental-ryu, Oisín and Lau @laurie849) who understand what it’s like to love a show/character/book/whatever so much it physically hurts, then my mental state would be twice as bad as it is now, and it’s already pretty fucking bad.

So please, listen to me, and fucking stop.

Reblog to ensure as many people as possible read this.

[sheisaquarius-blog]

thank you for tagging me @lilac-hecox

total number of ao3 works: 15, but we don't need to talk about 3 of them... oh, and one was posted anonymously because i was nervous about it, so on my profile it'll probably only list 14.

total ao3 word count: 255,221.

fandoms i’ve written for: what i've written for and what i've published are very different! i've published works for smosh, buffy the vampire slayer (yeesh), and naruto (YEESH), but i've written for almost everything i've ever been a fan of. sailor moon, spn, dc comics/bat fam, critical role, freakin' gossip girl, if i've cared about it, i've written for it! i'm just most often writing for an audience of one.

top five fics by kudos: (note: i wish i was doing this for just smosh fic, but this is from my ao3 as a whole!)

Shelter - naruto

i'm coming for you again - smosh, also my pride and joy

Reflection - smosh

Good Boy - smosh

We Could Be Magic - smosh

do i respond to comments?: i do! i went through a moment within the last year, though, where i got scared of "artificially inflating" how appealing my fics look because i always respond to comments but i try not to let that happen anymore. i AT LEAST owe someone a thank you for taking time to tell me they liked something about my writing, and i love telling them how it made me feel to read their comment. i'm not always the fastest to respond anymore, but i love responding to comments!

what has the most angst ridden ending?: that would require i finish things. no, um... a broken heart looks good on you is, i think, my angstiest ending. i love angst but a lot of my works are a) unfinished and b) typically at least ambiguous? but i think that's probably the angstiest ending (especially if you don't read the sequel).

what has the happiest ending?: i say i love angst and i swear i do, but looking over all my stories i think i actually have a fair amount of happy endings. Love Like Magic is very unambiguously happy in the most traditional sense. Snake Bites has a fluffy little ending too, but it doesn't hit the kind of lows i typically write so idk if it hits as "happy" as other happy endings. and then my personal favorite happy end is let's make it worth it. maybe not the happiest, but for me it's the best happy end i've written.

have i received hate?: i got one kinda nasty comment on my big bang fic but i think it might have been a bot. and my friends came to my defense so fast 🥰

do i write smut? if so, what kind?: yup! i'm not sure exactly what "kind" means here, but i really enjoy writing smut! i think it can do so much character work. i remember being absolutely terrified to publish my first smut, but it's gotten easier. i've been wanting to write some more lately, but i've been stuck on what to write.

do i write crossovers?: not really. not since my middle school self wrote a sailor moon/atla fic for funsies. i used to when i was young, before i even really knew i was writing fanfic, but i'd say no, i don't write crossovers.

have i ever had a fic stolen?: not to my knowledge!

have i ever had a fic translated?: nope! that would be so cool though. i'm a translation fanatic, but i can't supply anything useful to that community, i only have rusty skills in dead languages.

have i ever co-written a fic?: @lilac-hecox and i are trying to publish a little rp thing, and if it goes well maybe we'll do a little more? i have an absolute BLAST writing with her and she pushes me to be a better writer, so i hope so!

a WIP i’ll never finish?: HA. god. most of my works? but again, that's because they're just for me. all of my smosh fics have planned endings, so if you're curious those WILL be finished, but i'd say the two naruto fics and the buffy fic are pretty much in the "never finish" category. they may get a chapter here or there, but i think they're probably never going to get a proper ending.

writing strengths: i've been staring at this for, like... half an hour. i had to ask lilac for some help (thank you lilac!!) and she said my prose, my humor, and my world building. i'll take that!

writing weaknesses: i'm absolutely terrible at endings. i don't think i'm good at fluff. i have a surprisingly hard time generating ideas on my own (it's much easier for me to talk things through but i rarely do). i rely a lot on metaphor. i can get pretty lazy/loose with grammar. it takes me forever to write. oh, and i can't write a physical description to save my life. are all of my characters wearing clown clothes? well, i never tell you what they are wearing so maybe.

do i like foreign language dialogue?: i love languages, so it's very cool to see it from people who know what they're doing!

first fandom i wrote for: i truly do not know, that is probably lost in a notebook or binder somewhere, and i likely didn't even know it was fic at the time. maybe something pokemon or sailor moon?

favorite fic i’ve written: this is such a hard question! do i truly like anything i've written? but seriously, i'm coming for you again is something i'm very proud of, as is the one-two punch of a broken heart looks good on you/let's make it worth it, and then very selfishly i've always held bury my heart underneath these trees very dear. it's not my most popular, and maybe not even all that good but it has a special place in my heart.

i don't know many people, and i think everyone i do know has already been tagged and i don't want to bug them with another tag, but if YOU are reading this and you want to do it then i tag you!

[steddie-island]

20 questions for writers

Tagged by @puppy-steve ❤️

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24! Which doesn't feel like a lot but up until last October, my count was 1. 😌

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

42,730

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Steddie primarily, but I do RP Ineffable Husbands and occasionally Destiel.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Just Because We Get Around

Mutually Beneficial (I'm super proud of this one, and it's really cool that it's gotten enough attention to be so close to the top of the list!)

With Extra Nuts

Dustin's Dad

Vixen (Which is the most surprising one on this list for some reason lol)

5. Do you respond to comments?

It might take me a bit but I always try to! If people take the time to leave comments I want them to know that I appreciate it.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't think I have any with an angsty ending. Potentially Don't go where I can't follow, which is less than a thousand words but it might be the fic that I'm the proudest of.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of them are pretty soft and schmoopy honestly. I could say Forever Yours (Faithfully) but I'm going to go with the most tooth-rotting one which is Nothin' but the kitchen sink.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, thank god. 😬

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

😈 I'm going to say all kinds? Soft and sweet, down and dirty. I want people ridden hard and put away wet.

10. Do you write crossovers?

I almost said I don't but I'm literally working on a Baron x Eddie fic. 😂

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't think so?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I got into fandom by RP'ing, and I actually have a couple of them that we've been polishing up to post.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Destiel was my ride or die for a long time. It's how I met my spouse and a few of our friends. Like SPN was a shitshow, and Steddie has taken over the brainrot, but damn if destiel wasn't there for me when I needed it.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

Honestly I've had a hard time getting any words to go recently. Right now it feels like A leg to stand on is just going to rot in my WIP folder forever, even though it was just supposed to be PWP (what the fuck guys.) I think realistically, though, if I don't finish anything it's going to be the long fic that I've had outlined for months and also haven't touched. Like I have a playlist for it and I know what I want to do but actually getting words into a doc? Ha. Ha. Haha.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm good at writing angst. Even though I don't write a ton of it. I'm good at changing the tone between one sentence and the next (and that is why don't go where I can't follow is my favorite fic of mine.)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

My pacing is off sometimes, I always have to have spouse read and be like "Does this work?? Do I need something else here instead??" As much as I love Scream for me I feel like the ending kind of got rushed in my excitement to post it. 😅

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

It's something I would love to try but I would want to be really careful and not be an author who writes a character who speaks mainly in english, just throws out a random word or phrase of another language to say "See? It's diverse they DO speak another language!" lol. I would definitely want to not just rely on google translate and actually talk to someone who could tell me my sentences made sense.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

RP, it was SPN. But the first fic I published was for Frasier (it's called "Passionfruit", it's Niles and Daphne. Frasier is such a niche little fandom on ao3 but I wrote that in just a couple of hours and I was so fucking proud of myself. And like, it's hot. 😌

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I said it up there ^^ but I think it has to be Don't go where I can't follow. Again, less than 1,000 words but it's a little story with a lot of punch to it, and I will admit that I go back and read it regularly. 😌

Thank you for the tag, this was fun!!

No pressure tags for @pearynice @wynnyfryd @just-my-latest-hyperfixation @pennyplainknits and literally anyone else who wants to do this. ❤️

Full pressure tag for @v3llichor because I'm your wife and you have to. 😘

[jinx-on-mars-19xx]

Midnight Meeting

Not Natural

The Devil's Trap

Holy Water

The Demon's Altar

Dom x Colson (Yungblud x Machine Gun Kelly)

Warnings: SPN inspired, ABO dynamics (slick, knots, heats), demon Kells, hunter Dom, threats, fear, PTSD, nightmares, panic attack, mentions of curses and childhood abuse, cuddles, teasing, silly come-ons, needy boys, descriptions of post sex messes ⚰️ rating: mature

Kells watched as the human he was preternaturally drawn to drifted off to sleep. He could smell the sensual combination of the boy's slick and his own seed still hot and dripping between Dom's thick thighs and he had to fight himself not to play. He knew how lightly the Hunter slept, he was always on alert and never truly rested. That might make it hard for a surprise morning blowjob but for the moment he could be good. The back of his mind was circling with his actions, he was still surprised at everything that had happened between them and part of him wondered if the kid would wake up hating him again. If that happened he would definitely play- he hoped his new friend just needed a steady diet of good sex to make him stop being such a bitch. Speciesist sexy little fuck.

He groaned low as he rolled over onto his back. He was a demon, he couldn't live with himself if he sat there watching a human sleep all night. No matter how gorgeous Dominic was. He normally loved the fact he couldn't sleep, it kept his time free for more deals, death, and partying, but for the first time in centuries he wondered what it might be like to wake up next to someone. He never wanted to find out what his dreams would look like though. He'd already spent time in hell.

The world outside their little room lit up from a lightning strike that made his hair raise on end. His eyes rolled and his hand waved to soundproof the room and keep his lover at peace but with one last longing look he pushed himself out of bed. On his way to the door he grabbed the first pair of underwear he saw and smirked to himself when the scent of Dom accosted his senses. He summoned a cigarette as he slipped out the door and snapped his fingers to light it. The air outside felt thick with electricity and the air reeked of sulfur. The reminder of home rolled his stomach but he refused to show his distress.

"Keliphos. I should have known I'd find you here. You always did like stealing from your betters." A voice came out of the darkness and he fought himself not to growl. He fucking hated demons but this one in particular needed a good dose of holy water up his urethra. He took a drag and blew it out slowly, clenching his fist to keep himself calm. "Do you like my- how do they say- sloppy seconds? You know the boy is mine."

Kells turned, his glare flashing to its natural state as he searched out the bastard in the shadows. He wished he had the weaponry to kill his enemy but that was something he and Dom would have to search out. It was the whole reason he talked to the boy to begin with, only a human could find it. He hated shit guarded by magic. Now though he was driven by so much more and it made his rage a hot flame in his stomach. "You never owned him, you tried to steal a child and you failed. Why did you even want him? Why turn him into that?" He didn't mean to sound like he cared, that was dangerous for both of them but he couldn't seem to stop it.

"Oh? You don't like what he is? Your appearance and stench beg to differ." Finally the other demon stepped out of the shadows and came close. Not close enough for the dick punch he deserved but near enough Kells could see him. The meat suit he inhabited was something young and beautiful, he just hoped the obviously teen boy was doing alright.

"Still up to the same bullshit I see. Dom's too old for you now. Move the fuck on." He growled low, trying not to lash out.

"Keliphos, you know he's special. You can feel it. Unless you find a way to ruin him, eventually I will take him. Eventually he will come to me willingly."

Kells laughed, he couldn't help it. There was no way Dom would go to him and he found the idea of ruining someone too medieval. "Stop calling me that and just move on. If you don't, I swear to you, I'll kill you."

It was the other demon's turn to laugh, the sound was too high pitched for the evil he knew was in the monster, but he had always possessed young boys to lure others. Kells was just happy he never had to deal with that. "You know together we could do so much. The offer to join me is always open. I might even let you keep him once I'm done." With that the ancient teen monster disappeared in a shock of lightning and Kells cursed under his breath, put out his cigarette, and turned back to stalk quietly into the hotel room. He couldn't tell Dom what had transpired but he definitely wouldn't leave. He might never be able to take his eyes off the human again.

His gaze settled back to his human lie as he stared down at the beautiful boy in question. Astaroth was right about one thing, he was very special but he had started thinking it was because of the curse. If that wasn't true… he was almost more scared of him. He was old enough he hated mysteries, this was just one he wasn't sure how to solve without pissing the Hunter off more. He didn't think the kid would actually want to open up and talk. It didn't seem like conversation was what he wanted from their… friendship. It didn't matter, he would just stay close and find out in time. It wasn't like staying with the human was torture.

Dom gasped awake like every day, his chest tight, his heart racing, sweat soaking every inch of him. He sat straight up in bed and tried not to cry out too loud but as his fuzzy gaze searched the dark room something touched him. He jumped, full body trembling, but the touch curled tightly around him and he wondered momentarily where he left his knife. "Shit Dom I'm sorry. I'm right here. Breathe for me?" A rasped voice whispered in his ear and the scent that hit his nose was… comforting?

"Kells!" The memory of the past few days fought their way through his anxiety induced brain fog. He never had someone close to help when he woke from a nightmare but with the demon holding him he could actually breathe.

Dom crumpled against his chest, that pretty face pressing against his neck, and while he wasn't used to comforting anything he tried. "It's okay. He can't have you. I've got you. Told you I'd watch over you." He soothed, petting down the human's sweat slick spine. The boy was overwhelming like this, his pheromones strong and cloying. He could fucking taste him on the back of his tongue and more than anything he wanted to distract him but he didn't think it was the time.

"S'not 'im. Not jus' 'im." Dom tried to speak but his chest felt too tight. He didn't think the beast he took to bed would care or understand his past though. His life has never been nice or normal and it had definitely never been healthy. He had only been so easily swayed by the monster when he was younger because he was so desperate to get away from home. Most nights he dreamed of some dark combination of his parents and the bastard who cursed him. It was nothing new but actually being calmed after it was surprising.

He sighed softly and pulled back enough to look at the creature he should be stabbing but Kells just smiled at him and something in his belly flipped. "Can still feel yas." He whispered before he could stop himself and that smile turned to a smirk. His cheeks burned hot but he felt that heat between his thighs flow and something about knowing it was him and Kells mixed together got him even hotter.

"You like that?" The demon purred, his fingers drifting lower on the boy's spine until he was ghosting just over his ass. "You have dimples?" He hummed, but he wouldn't move his lover to look yet, obviously Dom needed the connection. Maybe he did too after his midnight meeting.

"Shut up. No I don't." Dom blushed hotter but the wanker teased his fingers inside the little dips and it tickled him enough he jumped.

"Scary badass demon hunter has dimples." Kells sing-songed softly. He knew they hadn't known each other long enough to tease but he always teased. "Don't worry, I won't tell." He started to lean closer to kiss the boy but Dom pulled back a little and placed his hand on the demon's inked chest.

"Wait, tha' wasn't jus' a one time fing?" He didn't know if he wanted it to be or not but he was surprised. The monster seemed like a hit it and quit it kind of guy.

Kells watched as the boy nibbled his lower lip, his anxiety was obviously still up and he knew he needed to say the right thing or he'd fuck up whatever they were building. If they were building anything. Besides, he needed the human. For revenge purposes of course. That was all. "I'm not done with you yet. If you're not done with me?" He offered. It wasn't too sweet which he knew would scare the boy off and it wasn't too standoffish. It was simple and honest and left a world of possibilities open wide. Like he wanted the kid's legs to be.

"I… shite. I should tell you to fuck off again. I should make you go but… maybe a pet demon wouldn't be so bad." A smile tugged at his lips, it was a dangerous game but maybe he could play it. At least for a while. He'd never recovered from his nightmares so fast and… maybe he enjoyed the sex just a little bit.

"Pet demon, huh?" Kells purred, his hand slinking down to grope hard at Dom's perky ass. He was shocked when the boy squeaked but it was oddly heartwarming. Dom was special. Dom was human. Right? "How about instead I be the master, and you sit?" He winked, sealing his lips over the Hunter's before he could tell him off.

Author's Note/Tags: @iamnotanearthlingmotherfucker @hollywoodxwhore @jaxbreaker @fenoy7 @cole-way-iero28 🖤

I hope this was good, I'm feeling pretty ick but I don't want to get too far off schedule. I have a bad case of brain fog though so I really hope this was coherent. Astaroth is icky, but how do they know each other? How is Dom special? Do y'all deserve a little more porn with your plot as a treat? Hope you like it! ⚰️🖤

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

A bit ill and emotionally distraught rn (over-studied amd wrecked myself, academia etc) so. here's some new spn finale thoughts

I've been convinced more or less Since Day One that Blurrywife is the final monster of spn, that she was the pointedly-never-otherwise-revealed head of the "vamp-mimes" nest, and that wherever Sam and Dean are, not only is it not "Jack's Heaven", it's not ANY heaven. While I do believe in the Chuck Won Theory (for reasons that are a whole other post unto themselves) re: Sam and Dean's endings in particular, the Faceless Woman Hovering Unsettlingly In The Corner always interested me more than possible divine intervention.

I have a pretty solid idea of what she is (ie, narratively, thematically and attack-style-wise, what kind of creature makes the most sense/is most interesting) and a few ideas, not really mutually exclusive either, about how she got ahold of Sam and Dean. But lately a certain one has seemed more compelling especially re: what Blurrywife's relation to Chuck is (if we are considering the Chuck Won theory to be true) because, well, she doesn't exactly strike me as a Heavenly entity.

...but do yall remember Becky? Crazy fangirl who tried to drug and r*pe Sam, but eventually actually got the help she needed, and had a family and a healthy life (while still being in the spn fandom and writing fic) (this show gets... so meta...) before Chuck sought her out as a sounding board for his clearly-the-actual-finale crappy ending. She hated it, he poofed her out of existence, its largely understood though never putright stated that "Jack" brought her back along with everyone else.

Now, I don't think Becky IS Blurrywife. I think Becky made a deal with something. Think about it. Assuming comes back, she has the criticial thinking skills to be just as sus about the whole "Jack Is God" thing as the fandom irl is. She has every reason to think that Chuck's bad ending is still coming for Sam and Dean- so what does she, as a supernatural fan within the supernatural universe, do? She makes a deal. Maybe not with a demon, but with a creature who promises some power over Sam and Dean's story. So, what do we know about what Becky wants for Sam and Dean?

-She writes "brother-focused" fanfic

-She most likely wants a happy ending, which most likely would include Sam & Dean being together forever

-Given when in the show she appears, she clearly had her heyday in the fandom during the in-universe book equivalent of the first 6 seasons

-At least at one point, she was romantically and sexually obsessed with Sam to the point of trying to force him to marry her

So, knowing that anything offering a "Deal" in spn is giving you a Monkey's Paw situation at best and just flat out killing you/the person you want to protect at worst. If, right after she's returned to life/existence in 15x19, Becky makes a deal with some entity to give Sam & Dean (not Cas or Jack or anyone else, JUST Sam & Dean) a "happy ending" or "good ending".... especially if part of that deal is Becky sharing her knowledge of Sam & Dean with that entity....

(now, there actually IS a creature that fits this whole description exactly, AND!!! is an Irish creature often described as Banshee-Adjacent. That leads into another read of Blurrywife that I think does good things for spn's narrative, which is that, in a reversal of the usual "Sam's Dead Girlfriends" dynamics, Blurrywife is one of Eileen's longterm hunts who essentially lays a trap for Sam (Dean is absolutely just collateral damage in this case) to get at Eileen, in the same was Sam's longer-term opponents would go after his romantic relationships)

also TO BE CLEAR, this is not me blaming Becky in-canon/blaming "Bibros" or whatever on a meta level for the finale. In-canon, this theory has Becky acting out of nothing but genuine care and concern for Sam & Dean, yet sadly meeting the fate of all those who make deals in spn, likely dying herself while her actions unwittingly set up the very "bad ending" she was trying to prevent. On a meta level, similarly, I do think that the view of spn held by "Bibros" was largely taken out of context and distorted by The CW/certain spn writers to kinda-justify their utter pile-of-shit finale.

[walkergirlsposts]

"The way you trash Dee's appearance is vile, for one. The personal attacks about how she doesn't matter too, but I'm sure you know that and don't care. If you see hate in different corners of fandom (always gonna happen. It's fandom) do you really think "well that gives me the right to also be mean as my hobby"? Okay. Sure, if that's how you want to live your life. You can definitely do whatever you want with your blog, but you're not fooling anyone. Just because you claim to not be a fain anymore, doesn't mean you stopped caring. If you did, you wouldn't have this blog. If you want to tear an actress down for breathing, and want to mock other people in fandom for just enjoying things (despite what you read into it. I promise some people just want to have fun) that's your prerogative. But I doubt it enriches your life, let alone others."

Sorry but wasn't part of the prequelgate, didn't she post a photo of Jared after he said no, didn't she fat shamed people while her boobs are fake, didn't she used her ex-fiancee for money then left him to be with jensen, wasn't she the one to be so problematic on the set of SPN that they banned her from the set for a few seasons, wasn't she the one being jealous towards Jensen's fan in conventions, wasn't she the one fedding ideas to Cockles fans while having nothing to do with Misha, telling lies... and there's more.

She's done tons of things to warrant disliking her. They're one of those people who think jenneel should be untouchable for..........reasons.

[scoobydoodean]

I just want you to know how disheartened I constantly am in the SPN fandom and how I have to constantly unfollow SPN blogs because of the way Dean gets vilified to hell and back in posts. It's so hard for me as a victim of child abuse that really relates to Dean's struggles to see Dean get accused of being abusive or scrutinized as though he were in the same shoes as John. I hate the way it's all about who is worse to each other... Sam or Dean... who is the true victim between them... when they are just both victims of impossible circumstances that get through it all by loving and caring for each other. They both do shitty stuff but everyone wants to paint one as a saint and another as a villain and it's so tasteless. They are both sad little men whose only happiness is their brother, who went through it all with them, who has always been there. Idk, I just wish people appreciated more that Sam and Dean have been through hell together and they're both a bit fucked up but Dean isn't some villain and neither is Sam. Your takes are so refreshing it's so nice to see someone who gets it. Thanks!

❤️ None of these guys are villains! They are fucked up and sometimes they do fucked up things but they are overwhelmingly well-meaning, and even when they aren't they make sense? Like I would rather talk all day about why they are the way they are than spend time vilifying them (unless I am fucking around with crits in which case Sam and Cas are evil! Horrible! Villains of all time, I tell you!)

I think it's a damn shame that a chunk of people here would rather do abuse victim vs. abuser hours with the show—in such a hypocritical way too—and this is not the first time I have, in my notifs, had someone tell me how upsetting they find that vilification from the perspective of their personal experience. Like this is a group of fans who seem to pride themselves on being "sensitive" to victims of abuse and accuse people like me of being "abuse apologists" and being "insensitive" to real people by not "acknowledging" that Dean is an abuser (as if that wasn't a take built from a vile level of hypocrisy, cherry-picking, and willful misinterpretation) but I have had you and people with related experiences in my notifs many times saying how upsetting that framing of Dean is to them based on their own experiences with abuse and relating to Dean in that.

I happen to think a balanced perspective on the show and it's clearly-meant-to-be-sympathetic and well-meaning characters with various traumas and outlooks, presents a much broader stage for real compassion for real people with very diverse lived experiences actually—instead of a state of being where only one type of victim of bad experiences deserves compassion. I mean that's just if this is how people want to talk about Supernatural (2005)—if they wanna get preachy. Personally, I just find the entire argument—the way everything is framed to vilify Dean and absolve everyone around him of any bad action—super gross and manipulative and sometimes I can tell it isn't on purpose and it's coming from a place of someone's own pain and trauma, but other times it feels 100% intentional and then it feels extra ugly.

It isn't just the cherry picking and the dismissal but also how manipulative the framing becomes in order to support the goal of villainizing Dean, and how that manipulative framing in itself can invoke memories of ones own experience with an abuser's manipulations to make them believe they "deserved" the abuse they got or it was actually all their fault. And like. None of this means people can't do whatever the fuck they want in terms of interpreting the show but I just wish they'd stop being so preachy about it and talking about how sensitive and compassionate they are when they are triggering a lot of feelings for people with different experiences from their own—they just don't give a shit about those people or refuse to see them because they don't find their experiences relatable.

I really think people just need to watch the show and 1) learn how to look at someone they don't initially find relatable and work on understanding how they tick, starting from a blank slate perspective and guided by the desire to look at them in good faith instead of seek out flaws and evil intentions 2) learn how to not like a character without jumping to find a moral justification for not liking them. It is okay to just not like a character—to say they leave a bad taste in your mouth. You don't have to start making moral judgements about people who don't feel the same way about that character or invent things to frame the character as some evil manipulative mastermind.

Like at one time I would say—the first time I watched SPN—I was a MAJOR Sam hater. I thought he was horrifically selfish and controlling and I thought he was an ugly, manipulative man-baby brat. So like from the perspective of how I thought of Sam, I can say I can understand how someone might come to similar conclusions about Dean and then feed those conclusions and build on them. But at some point you have to take a step back and ask yourself what you want from this story and why you're watching it, and I don't think the answer should be, "To make myself miserable and marinate in increasing loathing for this character and the story as a whole as I continuously look for more reasons to hate some guy who is increasingly becoming somebody I just made up while the characters around him continue to love and support him and be willing to die for him".