#this is not a headcanon btw this is me seeing and perceiving the truth

[nana-glass-chillhop-radio-hour]

fucking hilarious to me that Hayward has now been a part of creating not one but TWO separate gods and he did not think to mention his previous experience even once to his comrades-in-arms the second time around. head empty. literally just carnival music playing in there are all times.

[ayamturd]

aroace│mcyt hc

warnings: small mentions of hate, fluff

prompt: (requested) “could I request headcanons on how each mcyt would react to reader coming out as aroace? platonic btw!”

pairings: irl platonic! dream, ranboo, and tommy ; c!technoblade

a/n: as i myself do not identify as an aroace, pls correct me on any misconceptions or things i did not portray accurately 

a special thanks to new friend @youtubesthings​! they’re pretty pog and gave helpful insight to specific parts 

wc: (1.0k) - m.list

dream - 

you’ve known dream for a while now, long before he began to attract online fame

even then, you were still hesitant to come out to him 

rationally, you knew how supportive dream was for his friends, but reason doesn’t stop the fear of rejection for being yourself 

he’s an affectionate guy that isn’t afraid to express his (platonic!) love for others, and while you’re not romantically involved with him, it’s still terrifying to think that he might push you away for how you perceive relationships

whether you identified as an aroace for some time or only recently discovered the fact for yourself, you felt trapped and needed to tell someone

would approach him one evening and be closed off the entire conversation

he obviously would take note to your strange behavior and softly confront you about it

“Y/n, you okay? You seem on edge.”

“Actually, I-I’ve been meaning to talk to you about something.”

moment you managed get get the words out, there’s a slight pause before he speaks

“Oh. Is that all?” 

he’d pause and realize the implications to how his words sound and begin panicking

“No, wait that’s not what I meant. Y/n, that’s honestly so amazing, I’m so glad you trust me.”

if you were still wary to telling others, dream is the most trustworthy of your secret until you’re ready (he’s able to disclose only the things he wants people to know very well considering he’s faceless)

but if you decided to fully come out, you can bet he’s the loudest and most supportive person you know

will not hesitant to defend you from any haters or trolls and tries speak out for all aroaces 

admits he’s not the most knowledgeable but tries (will search things up in his own time)

genuinely takes your coming out seriously but treats you the same like the person you’ve always been

c!technoblade - 

let’s be honest here, technoblade isn’t canonically shown to have any romantic advances towards anyone in the smp

as a close ally and friend, you trusted techno easily and didn’t think much about coming out to him

“Hey Techno.”

“What?”

“I’m Aroace.”

“‘kay cool.”

this isn’t to say he doesn’t care, but he doesn’t see a point in fawning over the fact when it’s just you coming out as yourself

he’s closed off to some degree about how he normally feels on certain things, but your trust in him makes him feel more welcome to sharing his own thoughts and feelings

will honestly become confused should a person mock or be unaccepting of the fact, and instinctively will unsheathed his weapon

“Why are you laughing?” 

*pulls out Orphan Obliterator*

“No seriously, why?”

that being said, he honestly just forgets about it from time to time

he can keep secrets, no doubt, but considering how normalized he finds it, he isn’t really strict about talking about it if the situation comes up

if someone were to somehow imply you both were romantically involved, Techno would be so casual about it

“Aren’t you two together to something?”

“What? No, y/n’s Aroace, that’s weird.”

“…what?” :D

i mean you should’ve expected this when you first told him-

he’s the almighty Blood God, a fearless warrior that strikes down all his opponents mercilessly, and truth be told, someone who respects his friends greatly

ranboo - 

ranboo is unmistakably someone you thought of first when contemplating coming out

from his donation stream to his constant efforts of normalizing LGBTQ rights, ranboo has always been considerate of the fact

so one day you decided to tell him after a stream

it was late and he was honestly tired, but you wanted to get it out of the way before you lost the confidence go through with it again

“Hey Ranboo?”

“Yeah?”

“I’m Aroace.”

“…”

“Ranboo?”

“Sorry what? I didn’t hear you.”

he had yawned in the middle of you talking and didn’t hear you come out

honestly it was really funny to look back on, but he’d probably feel awful every time you reminded him

once you repeated yourself though, he was quick to celebrate and congratulate you

ranboo isn’t one to go into many heavy conversations, but if he noticed any hate or criticism once you fully came out, he will stop his stream just to emphasize how any hate is not tolerated on his channel, especially regarding his friends

if ever need be, he will (with your permission) speak on your behalf if someone didn’t understand what being aroace meant

he knows how to lightly joke around the topic and chooses to do so as a way to show he accepts you for how you are

that being said, doesn’t mention it often since he knows doing so can be demoralizing like a label

overall, never fails to express his support and (platonic!) love, and sees you beyond your coming out as his friend that he respects and appreciates

tommy - 

alright, okay

this is tommy we’re talking about here, a known advocate for LGBTQ rights; though he can say some mixed up intentions, his devotion to enforcing those rights on his channel and throughout his daily streams has always been endearing, but much like dream, the idea of telling someone so emotionally driven was nerve-racking 

it’s not like you didn’t plan on telling him, but he probably would have found out by accident

you had been in a discord call with him late at night and it slipped out naturally

“Have you noticed you’ve been shipped recently with (someone someone) lately?”

“I have, yeah. I hate it.”

“… why?”

“Oh it’s nothing against them, I’m Aroace.”

“Wait really?”

“…”

“...”

“Oh fuc-”

after you explained to him how you trusted him but honestly didn’t mean to tell him, he’d respect you for what it was and leave it be

tommy is sincerely mature when he needs to be, and won’t bring the subject up until you wanted to talk about it with him (since he wasn’t originally meant to know)

once you were ready though, he would go full protection mode

online, he’d make his support loud and clear, and while he’ll make mistakes from time to time, he has good intentions to heart

privately, he always tries to be subtle in his understanding if the topic or situation called for it

he’s proud of his friends (that’s a given), and will never hesitate to make it known that you are someone he admires for being themself

[kachuuyaa]

##CRiME AND PUNiSHMENT3 — g.i

g.i, headcanons, gn!reader, fyodor!reader

suggestion: hello, are your requests open? could i ask for a continuation of crime and punishment with bennett? it would probably be more lighthearted since bennett doesn’t really have a dramatic storyline like the others. and since reader is of similar age, they wouldn’t be as smart as fyodor. i love you way you write dostoevsky, not many people can characterize him so well :) (fun fact: fyodor is my top kin and benny is my comfort character) here u go !! i tried to follow as much as i could and ty for the kind words :”)

1CHARACTERS; BENNETT

2GENRE; FLUFF

3INCLUDES; u are the same age as Bennett, Bennett absolutely head over heels for you, u confess at night

4AUTHOR'S NOTES; i don't write for Bennett anymore but this is the last time i will be doing so (btw I don't do requests, merely suggestions!) LAST PART OF THE CRIME N PUNISHMENT SERIES

5SYNOPSIS; “Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid.” You, however, were a walking enigma, and they wanted to solve you.

BENNETT

For a young person, you were one who waltzed with the arms of mystery, intelligence, and confidence. Although you were quiet and reserved. The many people of Mondstadt knew not to mess with someone like you-- for you are as prodigious and gifted, as they would say.

You met Bennett on your way back to Mondstadt, and you have heard of the unfortunate boy, obviously, you were quick to decipher who the young boy was due to their seemingly endless complaints about him.

You found him-- seemingly breathless, you observed, despite this, you remained quiet.

He was no stranger to mishaps, you figured, it was obvious, really. He was littered with scars and yet, he seems to be smiling.

You two were similar in age and in height, however, you two are drastically different. It doesn’t take a genius to see that.

You silently walked over the unknowing man, and when you uttered a simple ‘hi’ he seemed to jump, making your hand retract from the reaction. He seemed perplexed at why someone like you would help him because he knew who you were, the people of Mondstadt talked highly (save for your arrogance) about you.

You stared at him, coat swaying from side to side due to the wind hitting your coat. Even in this setting, you looked intimidating, you were one that exudes power without knowing, and that made him quite afraid of you.

A broken, stuttered ‘Hello!’ was sent to you in response, but you paid no mind to it, extending your hand in silence.

He was confused, at first, he didn't know why you want to help someone who is as hopeless yet as positive as he. It was probably out of pity, really, out of most good things that come from his life, he perceived it as pity.

“You-- why are you helping me?” he meekly questioned, not wanting to be caught into that sharp and cold gaze of yours. You were quiet, merely staring at him, like you were judging him, yet that was the opposite of what you were doing.

Extending your hand to him was risky, you knew this, you knew about his luck, and for him to be affected by your ability will bring nothing but his demise, as you know.

Did you care, though? You just wanted to help the poor boy. You swiftly locked your sharp, piercing eyes to his, and he took that as a sign to take your hand.

You helped him up, not uttering a single word, yet when he seemed stable enough to stand, you voiced out, “Do you know why the man seems to thrive when alone?”

You remind him of someone he knows, and it was evident in his eyes. But you were more intimidating than they say, he believes that he doesn’t deserve your help, but you don’t care.

He doesn’t know how to respond, thinking that if he utters even a word you will laugh at him for so.

You don’t laugh at the simplest things, though. You think that the truth for everything is better than the sweetest lie. You knew this, obviously, and although you may be young your intelligence and the way you act don’t match that of a normal teenager. Do you care though? It’s better to grow at a young age rather than living in a world that provides you with lies.

When he doesn’t answer you, though, you simply walk back to your destination, silently indicating that he will follow.

He didn’t take the hint, so you stopped walking, and you turned to him, sharp eyes boring into his. Sending an apologetic smile to you, he ran.

You were observing him, making sure he didn't fall again.

Suddenly, you tell him, “You are awfully too optimistic for someone who is alone.” Not even bothering to look at the boy who widened his eyes at your proclamation.

But, ever the optimistic, he smiled, eyes turning into crescents, and said, “It has always been like that!”

You simply shrugged your shoulders, looking over to the boy who you’d describe as the sun, while you were the moon. He was the brightest among the both of you, and in the dead of night, you were as dark as the moon. Yet, here you were, being illuminated by the moonlight.

“Man grows used to everything, and in that, they might not learn to grow.” You muttered, not leaving any room for discussion. You didn’t like lively people, but yet, even alone, he seems to enjoy himself.

That’s what you wanted to be. Even though you were left by people you still remain pure-- you still feel hopeful.

Even in life, you need to learn how to grow without people, don’t you? That was always how it is. Men are selfish and power-hungry, yet they yearn for human validation. To live without hope is to cease to live.

You found yourself looking for Bennett, almost every day, to see how he is doing, and to comfort him as best as you can. (You can’t comfort people well, and you know this, yet he seemed like he really needed it.)

For a person as intelligent as you, you seem to be reckless, although you knew how to make plans on the spot. You don’t seem to remember things that you deem unimportant, but in actuality, could benefit the both of you.

He was genuinely surprised when you appeared unfazed when threatened by a few treasure hoarders. Needless to say, they were terrified of how young you look yet your looks deceive.

Don’t get him wrong, he loves your company, but he doesn’t know why you stay. Normally, people who have experienced unlucky events due to Bennett, leave. But you? You stayed.

You were atop one of the pillars of the Thousand Winds Temple, and you weren’t surprised when he started rambling about your eventful journey today.

His rambles were like a symphony for you, you would listen to him talk all day. Imperfect speeches could make the most impact, you know.

You found yourself drifting off and for once, you thought it was a good idea to trust the boy, and he seemed all the more delighted. You were known to be secretive-- a walking paradox. You don’t bother analyzing him, though, you don’t need to. You don’t need to deduce him until there is nothing left for you to note of him, since his laugh proves himself to be a good man. You don’t need to analyze a man down to understand him more. You’ll get better results if he laughs. If he laughs well, he is a good man.

He flinched when he felt some pressure onto his shoulder. He spun his head around in the direction, accompanied by the winds who were secretly watching them both, only for his expression to be painted with a newfound expression, fondness.

He never wanted to admit it, (men, in itself, never want to admit such foolish things.) even if you don’t answer him, or if you bask in each other’s presence, he enjoys it when you’re with him. He knows that you don’t do it out of pity, and that was one of the many reasons why he loves you.

He knows that it was a strong word to describe his feelings for you, but if that was the only word he deems fit, then that was the right one.

Under the moonlit night, two teenagers realized that their hearts were intertwined. Though the human emotions are much more complex and varied rather than man’s explanations of them, under the same moon, was then you realized how much you felt for this boy.

And when he muttered a confession that was quick to be sent to the winds; to tell a story that will forever remain in the night, you heard him. He was sure that only the gods above and the stone that has told tales of age and has survived the worst would hear them, but in turn, you heard him.

“I don’t have the courage to say this-- at all, really, but I really, really want to spend eternity with you.” in the softest voice you have heard, he recited, yet again, “I hope I can tell you this someday, just not today. Maybe then we will spend eternity together.” It was short, yet you knew he wanted to add more, but you were not sure what he wanted to add more.

You shifted your head so that Bennett was in your peripheral vision, hearing nothing but crickets and the never-ending ballads of the wind. Your eyes were wide open, not straying from your usual cold, calculating gaze.

There was a glimmer of endearment present in your eyes, and when he turned back to you, he swore that your eyes were the prettiest of stars he’s ever seen.

Letting out a yelp in surprise, you were quick to shush him down, muttering, “Love is an… intense feeling.” Who are you kidding? You wanted to get straight to the point. You sighed, intertwining your gloved hands with his scarred ones, “I am a fool to walk the earth unable to love, but I can’t call myself a fool when love comes to me. My epiphany is loving you.”

And under the same moon, his heart swore he was the luckiest man on earth, even for a split second.

04062021 , © kachuuyaa | don’t claim my work as your own.

[know-the-way]

Alright, I'll bite, what's your headcanon for Faustus/Zelda/Edward?

*cracks knuckles* Okay, we’re gonna start with Edward.

So we know Faustus was Edward’s mentor and that they had a shared respect for each other (at one point in time, at least). I imagine this relationship began and blossomed through Edward and Faustus’ formative years in the academy and - when you grow up with someone, especially when you are coached and guided and vice versa, it tends to forge a pretty strong bond.

Now, the things we know about Edward as a character in canon are, quite frankly, really boring. A golden boy who did no wrong and became a martyr after overcoming adversity to enter a cishet mortal marriage? BOR-ING.

But imagine this… Edward really valued Faustus’ mentorship. For the longest time, he looked at him as his hero with stars in his eyes. He taught him so much, supported him, molded him, and challenged him. Every time Faustus walked into the library to join him in research and discussion, Edward brightened. He couldn’t wait to tell him all his ideas and hear about his. It meant everything to Edward to have (what felt like) a brother. He adored him.

Then, his younger sister comes to the academy and suddenly, Zelda and Faustus are getting close. Edward can’t really understand why, but it bothers him. Why does it bother him? He loves his mentor, he loves his sister… so what is the problem? Like he gets it… Zelda is magnificent and beautiful and intriguing. His sister is an absolute prize. It just… they used to confide in Edward separately and now they seem to be confiding in each other. It’s just different, that’s all. He notices that Faustus starts speaking more of her during their study sessions, even though that’s kind of he and Edward’s time to talk, but whatever. And like sure, they always got ready for Lupercalia by having a boys night at Dorian’s and now Faustus would rather snog his little sister in the hallways instead, but okay. It’s not like he needs him, not like it hurts to feel cast aside and unimportant after years of near-inseparable friendship, not like he’s jealous…. Is he jealous?! Satan, fuck… is he???? Why, though????

Then, one day when he and Faustus are studying like old times and Edward finally starts to feel at peace again, Zelda walks in the room and he sees his best friend’s face brighten like the sun. And he realizes… Faustus is in love with his sister. Which means… oh no… he used to get that same look on his face… for Faustus. Oh NO.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with having feelings for another man. He’s had plenty of trysts with his brothers in Satan before. (Sisters, too, but anyway.) The Dark Lord encourages us to live authentically, so long as we continue to serve him. But… oh, he doesn’t think Faustus feels the same. No, Faustus feels that way about Zelda. And he… can’t… He can’t lose his friend by telling him the truth, but he equally can’t watch his little sister be the object of his affections when it burns like a hot knife to his heart.

And he knows Zelda doesn’t love Faustus. He asked her. Maybe her face turned a little red when he did, maybe she looked down shyly for a moment and a smile crept up her face… but then she turned her chin up and told him in her haughtiest voice that her heart belonged to the Dark Lord and how dare he suggest otherwise.

So when Faustus confides in him that he plans to ask for Zelda’s hand in marriage, the absolute bite with which Edward says no is entirely justified. Zelda does not love him. And… you know… if anything, Edward’s protecting her. Who knows when Faustus will get bored of her, too, and move on to the next pretty thing that catches his eye?

Yeah, you know what? Actually, Faustus is fucking villain. A manipulator. A deceiver. Making Edward fall for him and then going after his sister. How did he not see before? What a cunt. Like yeah, he really loved watching Faustus manipulate and deceive other people, that was always really cool and endearing, but you deceive Edward? You kick his heart like a football? Jail for mentor! Jail for suave, good-looking man with a voice like velvet for ONE THOUSAND YEARS!

Yeah no, not only can he not marry Zelda, he’s gonna take all his fancy teachings and surpass him to the high priesthood. Play stupid games Fausty, get stupid prizes, m8! Take that.

Meanwhile, Faustus is out here like, “If you wanted me to fuck you, you just needed to ask, like it’s chill or whatever, the coven orgies exist for a reason. Me, you, and Zelda could’ve found a quiet corner and you two could’ve shared. Like???? But oh yeah btw my heart does belong to your sister ‘cause she’s way more interesting than you and makes me chase her, but then she lets me devour her like a bear emerging from his winter slumber and I kinda like that, so… “

And Edward’s ultimate “fuck you” is when he doesn’t tell Zelda that he said no to Faustus asking for her hand. So when Faustus distances himself, Zelda is confused and hurt, which turns to resentment, which she then confides to her dear older brother. And “oh, big brother is here to protect you, love you, cherish you. We have each other, that’s what matters, right? Yes, we’re a team, aren’t we? Bolster me and support me with stars in your eyes, sister, and we’ll both go to amazing places together.”

And Faustus… well, maybe he will finally feel a fraction of the pain Edward felt as he watches Zelda’s attention and love and adoration go to Edward instead. Not so nice when the person you want most likes another more, is it? How ya like them apples, bitch?

TL;DR - Full homo, my own personal headcanon is that Edward is a jealous wank who didn’t know how to process his feelings and his biggest feeling for a long time was that he really wanted to be topped by his mentor. And when that (perceivably) couldn’t happen, he metaphorically topped him instead.

This was all over the place, but hopefully you get the jist. A couple more folks asked about this, so next up is Faustus (if anyone cares, which you shouldn’t and probably won’t, it’s garbage anyway 🙃✌️).

[dustydreamsanddirtyscars]

(1)Hey :) I'm really curious to hear your thoughts on the Empty. It was already a theory, but this episode pretty much confirmed that that's where Cas is (at least it seems the most plausible to me). I always imagined the Empty as well.. pure non-existence. It's hard to put into words, because the concept itself kind of defies how we perceive reality and existence, so I always wondered how they would show it on screen. A completely black "room" is probably the simplest and most

straight-forward way. They can’t exactly show ‘nothing’. I’m wondering how they’ll play this out. From the little that we’ve heard about the Empty, it always sounded to me like the absolute end. As in, when you end up there you’re done for good, you don’t exist anymore, there’s no coming back. Whereas your soul can go to heaven, hell or purgatory and, for all intents and purposes, continue to exist there, the Empty is just an empty void (hence the name) where nothing exists. But if somethingdoesn’t exist (i.e. Cas and whoever the other mystery person they hinted at is), how can it come back to life? On that note though, angels don’t even have souls, do they? So what part of Cas is in the Empty? His physical body was burned, and if he doesn’t have a soul that would leave his grace? So is angel grace not just their angel power, but also sort of a soul or consciousness equivalent? - Sorry, got a bit carried away there lol And a second question: How do you feel about Sam’s behavior this episode? Dean pretty much called him out in the end, but to me the show (not for the first time) had a huge clash between show and tell. We’re told (by Sam) that Sam cares about Jack and thinks he deserves to be saved and all that, but what I SAW was Sam pushing and pushing almost relentlessly because he needs Jack to bring back Mary. He didn’t act very caring at all, so his whole speech that he gave Jack felt really hollow to me.     

Hey dear!

Sorry it took a while for me to reply. So not to lose more time, right on to your questions. :)

Yes, I think the show has alluded rather heavily throughout hiatus that Cas would end up in the Empty. I do think that simple blackness is indeed the easiest way to portray the Empty - and small headcanon btw, I also think that a) this was where Amara may have been locked up or b) where Death had intended to put Dean in 10x23 “Brother’s Keeper” - unless he meant another reality, like the one Mary and Lucifer are trapped in. When talking about the Empty I weirdly always had to think of “The Nothing” in “The Never-Ending Story” and I can very well imagine that SPN may draw some inspiration from it (especially when taking Jack’s powers ito account and how fantasy is what saved Fanatasia in Michael Ende’s book).

That said, to me the Empty as described on SPN isn’t such much non-existence - that would be nothingness to me - but hollowness. To me the Empty lacks everything that makes life commonly a place worth living, the memories and dreams that built your world and the people in it. I have alway headcanoned that the Empty in that regard for the people trapped there may be a realm that shows life, but for the one trapped there unable to touch and connect with it - Empty, so to speak. If you have watched “Being Human US”, I basically imagine it a bit like limbo/purgatory was portrayed there.It is indeed a very complex realm and we don’t know a whole lot about it. I have rambled and speculated a bit already about how Cas may be able to return in this post, so I will not type it all up again, but point towards the link and will just say that partially my headcanon is that Cas can come back from there because aside from his angelic grace he has grown a soul (in S12 with Lily Sunders we learnt that she could channel angelic abilities by scarificing parts of her soul, with Cas I’d see it kind of as the opposite). :)

Overall however I had the impression that Billie’s description of the Empty (she is btw also the character I think Cas will meet there - since she was the one who introduced the realm in the first place) could definitely imply the end of existence, but somehow I always only thought of it as a realm unable to return from. Meaning souls, etc. would still exist, but would be impossible to return. I guess we’ll find out soon what it’s going to be.

As for Sam in this episode. We always have had a major show vs. tell within the show and regarding the brothers. I do think that Sam cares about Jack in some proximity, because he sees himself in him, but he also didn’t fight Dean on his description of why Sam cares about Jack. So in that regard I’d say there is truth to that. And without wanting to give anyone room to start a fight here. Even if Dean’s treatment of Jack is of course very harsh and unfair, at least he is honest with him. If we take Sam’s reaction at face value then it must be even harder for Jack to hear that Sam told him he cared about him, because he can relate (which I believe 100 %) to his story, but that ultimately much more than that he cares about what Jack can do for them. It’s the dishonesty that must be tough for Jack.

In general to me Sam has shown to be very controlling in this episode and invading Jack’s provacy by surveilling him, etc. He did acknowledge at least though that the way he has been pressuring and pushing Jack was the wrong approach.