#this is my word vomit ig
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myths and beliefs
rafayel x MC / 455 words
rafayel and Mc have a discussion on the credibility of myths
MC doesn't know that rafayel is a lemurian. inspired on his card "myths", slight spoiler of his myth if you squint
"do you really need me to be here? I don't think you need protection while you're painting at home"
"it's not just protection your presence helps me with this painting specifically"
MC raised an eyebrow at him but decided not to go too deep into it, opting to plop herself down on the couch across from him and scrolling on her phone. it wasn't the first time rafayel had called her over just to be there, sometimes it was for a couple of minutes, othertimes t was a few hours. he was unpredictable and at this point, should not be questioned.
the sun had started to set when the artist spoke to her again
"do you believe in myths?" "that's a sudden question um, sure. i mean not all of them"
"like?"
"greek mythology sometimes doesn't make sense to me. but i do get that they're supposed to be like warnings to children or just nice stories so i usually don't pay much mind to it."
"if something doesn't make sense to you, you do not believe it true?"
"you're sounding suddenly poetic"
he put his brush down and laid down on the couch with her, his head on her lap. "what about lemurians?"
"lemurians?"
"do you believe in them?"
"even if i did, wouldn't they be extinct? that's what grandma used to say"
"your grandma talked about them?"
she smiled, her hand brushing some purple strands from his face
"she used to tell me a bedtime story, about a lemurian and a human princess. the adventures he'd take her on and the world he would show her. i think it had a tragic ending but i always fell asleep before i heard it. the details of the story are foggy, its been a while."
"if i ever told you something that seemed impossible, would you believe me?"
"you usually mess with me a lot so-"
"MC, i'm serious."
she frowned. "yel, what are you not telling me?"
"do you trust me?"
"with my life but you've got to understand why im kind of aprehensive, youre being rather cryptic"
"you won't remember, you'll break the promise" he mumbled
"what'd you say?"
rafayel smiles, his serious demeanor quickly fading
"i said its nothing, just some artistic trail of thought"
"you sure?"
"yeah" he grabbed her face, pulling it down for a quick kiss "all this talking has made me hungry, feed me an apple?"
"you're so childish, you have to get up for me to go do that"
"hmmm... im sure you can figure out a way to do it with me on top of you"
"i think i have! i'll just throw you off"
rafayel quickly stood up "threatened by my own bodyguard? wow! scandalous"
#i never beta read my posts can you tell#i also dont really revise them that much#this is my word vomit ig#if youd like to be a beta reader lmk ig??#rafayel x reader#otome#rafayel#love and deepspace#love & deepspace
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man as much as I understand why we bind/tuck and that it's not a bad thing if I could wish one thing upon the world it would be for everyone to get so much more normal about men with boobs and women with bulges (and everyone in between w whatever secondary sex characteristics). bc it sucks. it's uncomfortable and can be super super damaging even if you're using the best methods in the world.
and ofc it sucks from cis society but I think I have even more beef w people in the trans community that push this idea that if you're not binding/tucking you're not Serious about being trans.
#just some word vomit ig#bc this is my first summer in YEARS not binding#bc I finally got top surgery#and being outside in this heat/humidity just reminded me how fucking bad and hard it was w a binder#like it would hurt to Breathe sometimes and that's just... normal#which sucks. you rarely get out of long term binding without rib or back problems#I don't know As Much about tucking but afaik it can be even More dangerous#and uncomfortable#which isn't do demonize binding or tucking it just sucks that we're Expected to do it
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i cannot wait for the next form of anti-form and rage form in the kh4 art style.
i keep having this idea of a scene where Riku finally finds Sora and is trying to get him to listen but just.
"I'm dead Riku."
"What do you mean? You can come back, come with me Sora."
"No Riku, I died. I'm here as punishment. I'm dead, Strelitzia's dead, you can't be here after everything I went through to save you, you can't!"
"Sora, what are you talking about? I'm not dead, Sora. I'm alive."
"If you're here, then you're dead. After everything I did..."
"I'm alive. Sora listen to me, I'm alive!"
Sora looked up at him, a different look in his eyes than Riku had ever seen before.
"Strelitzia and I had a theory. We were going to test it on her - neither of us thought it would work on me because I'm here on punishment, but if it works..."
"Sora, what are you talking about?"
"It makes sense, truly, I wanted to experiment more before trying it but if you're here... you need to go back..."
"Sora, stop, we're both going back, just calm down and listen to me."
"If you die to get here, it only stands to reason that dying in this reality will send someone back to ours."
"What?"
"You'll be sent to the final world, and then you can pass through to ours."
"Sora... what are you doing?" Sora had started walking closer to Riku, splaying his arms out slightly while darkness began to swirl around his feet with each step.
"I'm sorry Riku, but you can't be here. Your heart will be sent to the final world, but then you'll be able to navigate to back through to our reality. From what Strelitzia's contact has learned, the final world acts as the bridge."
"Sora, stop, you're not making any sense, and there's darkness all around you just-"
Sora's eyes flashed gold for just a moment and the darkness began to envelope him the way it did when Xehanort killed Kairi.
"Riku, forgive me." The transformation completed, the dark Sora raising his arms above his head and summoning what looked like the X-Blade but cloaked in the same darkness as the rest of him. His eyes were a brilliant blue. The X-Blade he held split in two as he brought his hands down, the shape of the two shadowy keyblades changing to be reminiscent to Riku and Kairi's new ones.
also yes dual wielding Sora should come back again. I do find Re:Mind's implication that he and Roxas can both still summon Oathkeeper and Oblivion very funny because I'm just imagining them fighting to summon them. Like there's only one copy.
Roxas, in the middle of sparring: take this! *hands suddenly empty* Roxas: ... DAMN IT SORA
Sora, fighting a wave of heartless and nobodies: I need two hands for this *keyblades won't come to him* Sora: what? shit! *finally summons them just for them to be pulled back again* Sora: SHIT SHIT SHIT Roxas, fighting some nobodies: why does Sora keep pulling these!
#sora#kh sora#kingdom hearts#ficlet#ig#i didnt mean for it to be#its more just a word vomit of a scenario that keeps swirling around in my brain#riku#anti form#rage form#roxas#i guess#im sorry i dont want the roxas tag to be all sora shit#kh4 speculation
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Friendlocke Violet Gijinkas (Part 3/7)
PART 3 RAAAAGH!!! SO SORRY THIS ONE TOOK SO LONG AAAH!!!! But it's here now, yippee!!! And just in time for Christmas too, wowie!
I plan on posting them in order by groups of three, so there's gonna be seven parts in total, all of which I'll be linking here when done vvv
(Part One) (Part Two) (Part Four) (Part Five) (Part Six) (Part Seven)
!! These will contain personal headcanons I have for the cast, little fun facts, and also spoilers for Friendlocke Violet (for both the edited vids and the streams) !!
@saltydkart-reblogs
Designs under the cut!
GRACE:
The light scars/ cracks on her body were injuries formed while she was accidentally sent through Turo's time machine. Unlike the paradox pokemon/ miraidon, GrAce's body isn't made of iron or metal, so her body wasn't able to withstand the large amount of tera energy used to power the machine as easily as the paradox pokemon were.
Luckily, she was just barely able to hold out against the time machine's energy until she made it to Turo's lab in the present day. Unfortunately, she can't be sent back because she would literally die if she went through the time machine again. Sooooo she's stuck in the modern era.
Very familiar with Area Zero and the various pokemon that reside down there, but moved out in order to continue producing music as well as familiarize herself with current-day Paldea.
She only vaguely know Clavell back when he was a rebellious teenager, though she didn't know his name. Clavell, on the other hand, was one of her biggest fans back in the 50s-60s.
Funny enough, when she sees "Clive" for the first time, she recognizes him! But not as Director Clavell, she just barely recognizes him as the random teenage fan that would occasionally ask her to sign various GrAce posters he had bought. She is also under the belief that he too, was sent from the past into the present, unaware that he simply just grew up.
Likes doing random poses for absolutely no reason whatsoever.
BRAIDY:
Believes that everything can be solved without violence, but can and will throw hands if need be.
Everyone in Braidy's family greet each other by playfully ramming into one another. So when Peppy and his team were getting chased down by Braidy's family during their journey, they weren't trying to attack them, they just wanted to say hi!
Braidy is really good with kids due to his experience with being the eldest sibling, as he'd often have to take care of his younger siblings.
Mykyie and Braidy shop at the same clothing store.
Speaking of Mykyie, the lighter parts of Braidy's fur appeared only after Mykyie passed...
As of now, he's still an apprentice, but he has great potential to become an all powerful wizard... someday.
CHRISTENE'S:
Artist's note: I couldn't fit their children in the bio sorry girls and gays. I'll probably draw them out later on after I'm finished with everyone else.
Their stomachs are basically voids, so every time they eat the food just disappears, which is why they're ALWAYS hungry.
HIGHLY flammable.
It is speculated that they're poppets, but you don't have any proof of that, do you?
If you listen closely, you can hear soft bell noises every time they walk. It is unknown why this happens, but I believe it is best not to ask.
Aaaaand that's it! I plan on taking a short break from these bc I wanna draw some other stuff. Dw, I'll continue to work on these very soon!
#You guys will never guess who's lore I spent the most time on...#A knee ways... sorry for the word vomit in GrAce's funfacts I just really like the lore I came up with for her#time traveling bird just hit different ig#Also if anyone has noticed: Yes I changed the spoiler warning image on the previous post#Having the same image on both posts was starting to confuse me a bit so I made a different one for that post as well as one for this post#I hope you like the lil Peppys i drew for each one lol#lil guys... look at them go!#again. sorry these took so long yall I got caught up with life and other stuff and yaknow what? That happens sometimes and its ok.#but I got these done in time for christmas! So ig this is my Christmas gift to yall haha#Merry Christmas yall!#cherris canvas#saltydkdan#friendlocke#friendlocke violet#violet gijinka au#also just noticing this but the quality is better if u click on the image bc sometimes it looks like i drew this on 144p u get what i mean?
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Hey y'all! The merry-go-round of doctors* I am on seems to be cycling back around towards an allergist again, and I have a question for y'all because idk how to word this for doctors: How do you word "if it walks like and allergy and quacks like an allergy it's an allergy" to an allergist? Less flippantly, I have allergy symptoms that multiple doctors have said allergies should not be able to cause. Mainly, my first allergy symptom is high blood pressure**, which if left untreated will progress to migraines, stomach issues, and eventually a bad blood pressure crash***. I have been told allergies do not raise blood pressure, but mine is caused by specific foods most of the time and taking a benadryl stops the reaction, so I have no idea what else it could be? But my main food allergy is acetic acid/vinegar, which I have also had multiple doctors tell me it is not possible to be allergic to
*the "you have a problem but not one I can fix try this kind of specialist instead" mobile **130s/80s, not super high, but high for me ***80s/40s
#the person behind the yarn#medical mention#I do sometimes have allergic reactions caused by acute stress or anger#so that's. fun. pretty sure that's MCAS though#but like idk how to convince doctors it's allergies#I know they might not be IgE mediated allergies but still allergies right? if benadryl fixes them?#most people don't get like two day headaches from eating peas?#I do think coconut might be my one true IgE mediated allergy on account of the immediate wheezing when I eat it#but the rest I fully admit are weird#the last allergist wants me to get a blood test DURING an allergic reaction#but I have learned the magic words about that one!#the magic words are: I tested on the very high end of normal tryptase levels when NOT having an allergic reaction#and my main severe allergic reaction symptom is uncontrollable vomiting. which makes it difficult for me to get that bloodwork done#so far I've only said it to like three doctors and every single one was like yes! fair! understandable!
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also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#this is true for like most of these guys [gestures vaguely to comicbook men] but frank is the one that makes me want to chew on rocks rn. s#like yeah i selfship with him for fun and i like to think about cutesy or funny stuff involving him but the reality is he makes me so sad#ig thats part of why i do it. you make me so sad old man. but youre not real so in some version of not real you can be a little better#not happy but yk better#but like. just. fuck man hes so deeply damaged and hurt it drives me up the wall. my hurt person hurting people#as always i struggle to string words together this isnt news if you know anything about him you know exactly what im getting at#he would have been a wonderful father and husband. the way hes so devoted to them still. always. its killing me#sometimes i see canon moments of him where how just fundamentally deeply broken as a person he is and augh#nothing can help you nothing can make things any better but my god you cannot be left alone in this state#eh maybe thats it. i cant help him i cant make him feel better. but i cant let him be alone like this#i dont think he should have to be alone like this#bleh sorry word vomit. im tired and sleepy. i wrote 4 essays this week. need to write 2 more. going a little bonkers#brain is fried.
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thinking about how "high school is killing me" begins with richie and ruth singing about how dead & scared they are and ends with steph, pete and grace standing together and how cyclical npmd is and how max kills richie & ruth when things start to get bed and the play starts with richie's corpse being discovered and it ends with steph and pete together at homecoming and grace being ready to screw things up even more and how max isn't mentioned and doesn't show up once during the number and everyone forgets him after his death. thinking about this freaking musical way too much.
#don't mind my word vomit#i just#hdjdkjhdkjgf#i need sleep <3#ughhhhh#just remembered smth i gotta do by tmrw#no sleep for me ig#hatchetfield#npmd#npmd spoilers#grace chasity#richie lipschitz#ruth fleming#steph lauter#stephanie lauter#peter spankoffski#pete spankoffski#max jagerman#i have unhealthy brainrot about this thing#npmd analysis#starkid#team starkid#nerdy prudes spoilers#nerdy prudes must die
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A long rant about Winters and Liebgott under the cut:
This is also unedited and written on the way back to work so it probably doesn’t explain my points very well but what can you do-
Winters’ relationship with Liebgott is so intriguing to me because it exposes one major flaw Winters’ seems to have, which is his inability or unwillingness (?) to see the war from someone else’s point of view.
To him, the war so far has been fairly impersonal. He joins the paratroopers because if they’re going to war he wants to fight with the best. But his motivation as to why doesn’t go deeper than that. The war is pretty simple and clean cut. They train, fight in either Europe or the Pacific, win and return home. It makes sense for him, after all until that point in his life he has experienced the world as a heterosexual white male in the 30s and 40s. Safe to say he hasn’t faced any discrimination focused at him ever. And It’s reflected in his worldview, To him, the germans are just that; germans. They are just soldiers fighting a war just like them, nothing deeper than that.
But for Liebgott, he knows what the Nazi’s are doing. It’s very personal to him. In the show, he even wears the star of David next to dog tags. Which if he was captured, would’ve been a death sentence. We know this. Lieb is proud of what he is, A Jew. He probably knew what was going on in Europe before even joining the army. As word of what the Nazi’s were doing travelled quickly in the Jewish community.
His anger towards the Germans is justified and understandable. For me (and I’m sure many others) at least, as someone who has grandparents that are still alive and well who grew up during ww2 and experienced it first hand. And even had conversations with my great-grandparents about how it was/what they experienced.
It’s is the big obstacle in their relationship. Winters views Liebgott as someone quick to anger, one can’t be trusted with prisoners. (Which were SS’ers, so save to say Liebgott hated their guts, and once again for good reason) their interaction in crossroads is the first time we see them at odds. And it is a glimpse of what is coming in why we fight.
Because oooh that episode (alongside the scene in points) is were we see it in full. It is a good episode. However here is where Winters also messed up majorly. After finding the camps, having Liebgott translate once. Finding out they’re Jews. The realisation for Liebgott that they’re his people. That he could’ve been one of them. It would’ve messed up anyone.
Yet Winters then asks Liebgott to shut the camps, which to this day I have trouble watching that scene. To ask him to order them back into the camp when Webster is right there! To see Liebgott break down, to see that anger fester. He hated the nazi’s before but now, any good nazi is a dead nazi. And you understand him, because who wouldn’t feel that way after what he saw.
Yet the show seems to suggest Liebgott is in the wrong. It feels like Winters punishes him by having him translate what the nazi general is saying. It almost feels violating.
And it does a huge disservice of Easy co. as a whole by making direct links of the nazi prisoners and them.
Anywho, I forgot were I was going with this and I’m not sure if I put it in the right words. Something about never having your world view disturbed and Winters inability to see how bad it all affected Liebgott, maybe because he never experienced it. I don’t know. But definitely one of Winters worst decisions ever in the show.
#I have reread this about 3 times and now nothing makes sense anymore#this is just one big word vomit ig#if im compelety missing the point sometimes I am very tired#but they been spooking through my mind all day today#sal rambles#for real this time#band of brothers#joseph liebgott#dick winters#I also love both of them dearly so its very interesting to poke at why they clash
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listen. ash will stop getting stuck in pitfall traps dug by team rocket when he's dead, and no sooner.
#▸ lord rid me of my word vomit. / ooc#unfortunate news for everyone's favourite gay immortal ig#ash is actually just a displaced looney tunes character. in this essay i will—
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giggling and kicking my feet while writing right now
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"Lyra"
(Rating: Creator Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings; No Archive Warnings Apply)
(Relationships: Vega & Warden)
(Content/Trigger Warnings: Cultural/Religious Trauma)
Read Here on AO3
#heyy pookies#this is me word vomiting abt my warden oc btw#just to let yall know#anyways#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redactedaudio#redacted vega#redacted warden#redacted demons#vinn says fandom things#vinn writes fics#redacted headcanons#ig that applies#redacted fanfic
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westerners (especially white straight ones) love to think that they know anything about anything when it comes to issues like homophobia in other countries and then will make life actively worse for the lgbt+ people in those countries and still come out of it thinking that they're the hero
#fuck matty healy btw always that#this makes no sense but it isn't fair that the only consequences he faces for causing more harm to lgbt+ ppl in malaysia is that he's just#banned and can go back home happy and high off his ego thinking that he did something#sruthi's silly sentences#it's not activism if it's a one time thing and many more ppl get hurt bc of ur actions while u get off scot free#i really can't articulate my feelings but yeah word vomit ig
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for the ship ask game
matt lafleur/jordan love
I think that they seem to have a good relationship! Generally I’m not really big on coach/player ships but like the vibes seem to be nice. A lot of ppl here post about it and elsewhere so I sort of absorbed that info via osmosis and passively support I think.
Probably does help the ship that the previous qb LaFleur coached was Aaron Rodgers bc like 💀 yeah. So Jordan must be a breath of fresh air compared to that. And ofc his last name is Love so many a joke can be made about that. They both seem like decent dudes, so I think the relationship could work. I know someone wrote something about contrasting Rodgers and Love and their relationship with LaFleur which I think is an interesting idea.
Unpopular opinions hmm… I dunno if I have one but I think it would be interesting to explore LaFleur being a hot mess internally. Like he’s so put together on the outside I wonder what it’d be like if he was more all over the place mentally 🤔 questioning if this relationship with the young QB is based on something solid or a product of his disastrous life decisions (and then this being resolved beautifully). Tbh someone has probably explored this before but I need to catch up on the backlog of fic 😭 so yeah
#I feel bad bc when i get an ask abt matt/julio i word vomit and then everything else is like#oh yeah this is cute ig#thank you for the ask! hopefully you find my answer interesting#my asks#ship ask game#nfl rpf#matt lafleur#jordan love
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i am so fucking tired of being alive
#everyday is just like disgust at myself disgust at myself disgust at myself#i can’t take it and nothing helps or lasts and i’m just tired of having nothing#i forgot to take my meds today and idk if i should take them now since i’ve drank or tomorrow ig i will wait cause ik they’ll make me sick#pink’s word vomiting#FUCK sorry i hate everything i’m tired of it all and tired of hating it
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Just finished writing something embarrassingly sappy. Ideally I will edit it tomorrow but who knows tomorrow I might look at it and feel so embarrassed ill curl up and cease existing
#it was about choso of course because i cannot help but blather on about him now ig#it will probably need rewriting because im sure its just word vomit#i feel like such a loser im so emotional over him#ignore me its late i am too tired to win my battle against my own emotions#romy can talk
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ok so like early October I started trying to make lifestyle changes or whatever to get a handle on some health issues (high blood pressure, insulin resistance, bleh) and then almost immediately got hit with more health issues related to my gallbladder and stomach for which i had to go to the er and a little while after that my mom mentioned that I had lost some weight (in a concerned way, not a weird way) and at first I didn't really buy it? I was like you're imagining things cause you're worried but now I'm noticing that I am in fact a bit less round in my stomach lol and then today a friend (she's in her early 70s) said that I keep looking skinnier and I focused really hard on not saying thank you bc that is not a compliment I am seeking or working towards but then I got home and really realized that I have lost a bit of weight and then to top things off I went to target and found a crewneck I liked and normally I'm a large but I got this in a medium cause the large was simply too big and part of my brain was like "it's just an oversized sweater, that's all" and maybe that's it but idk.. i have spent a lot of my adult life trying to move away from my body as something that I focus on too much but my health issues have made it so I have to pay a lot of attention, even if it is sometimes in ways that i would not necessarily prefer and it's weird! I don't love it! and i'll probably need surgery (i find out tomorrow) and i'm just exhausted by it all. why can't my body just cooperate and relax and be fine :/ girl help me help you
#woof just needed to word vomit that out ig lol#soph's journal#new tag perhaps! who knows! my 30s have been so weird!
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