#this is my current mood tbh
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#daddy issues#mommy issues#bpd vent#bpd yandere#bpd problems#actually bpd#bpd#mood tbh#moodoftheday#current mood#not my tiktok#not my content#mental problems#mentally unstable#mentally drained#mentally fucked#mentally unhinged#small rant#yandere vent#vent post#cw vent#vent tag#vent blog#vent#ranting#parental issues#attachment issues#trust issues#mental heath issues
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Every once in a while I come back to Tumblr because I've fallen victim of a new obsession and I genuinely need to consume every art I can find about that current obsession ahah I'm doing so well I swear
#help#im obsessed#hyperfixation#im hyperfixating again#genshin impact#honkai star rail#boku no hero academia#a sign of affection#the apothecary diaries#bts#kpop#ateez#cherry magic#my new boss is goofy#link click#opla#blue lock#etc etc#there's so many tbh#tired of twitter sometimes#sky children of the light#nu carnival#nucani#current mood#so me#real#literally#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#dungeon meshi
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Does anyone here draw in both desktop & mobile? I'm planning to get a galaxy tab at some point and since I don't really have any experience drawing on a (mobile) tablet, I'm curious abt how it feels to draw on one vs. drawing on pc w/ a graphic tablet 🤔
#once I have all my commission slots filled up that's when i'll buy one#i've been hesitating bc i'm not used to spending a big amt for something but honestly it's more of an investment than a simple want#my poor 10 year old laptop + monitor + keyboard setup is the 'pc' im currently using#both the laptop screen & keyboard isn't working properly anymore so i have a separate monitor + keyboard for it#it's pretty laggy most of the time#not sure how it's still holding up#ngl sometimes i'm worried it'll just give up on me & break at any moment#so I kinda wanna have a backup device#anyways! I get easily tired drawing on pc for some reason#I think it's bc i unconsciously tense my neck? whenever i stare at the monitor for too long#also my eyes hurt + the extreme hot weather lately is making me dizzy so i can't work for long periods of time 😔#I see a lot of artists use ipad so i'm guessing drawing on a tab would also feel nice???#also would that get you in the mood to draw more bc you can bring it w/ u anywhere?#i'm hoping to be able to draw more honestly.....#also the timelapse!! csp wont let me record timelapse on my current pc and idk why that is#might be bc im still on win 7#HOPING i could post timelapse vids when i finally have a tab#tbh i want to get one asap (like as in rn) but I want to make sure I have enough budget first so im waiting for my comm slots to be full#bam blabs
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤️ (hi azia love u)
hi ells!!! love you!!!! sorry this took so long, i was rolling things around and trying to get to a place where i liked my writing again. but i think i'm here now!
these are in no particular order btw. just some recent faves :>
♥ triple play | io/estinien (modern au)
Haurchefant met Io at a Spring Break party in freshman year, where he spent far too much of the night watching her quietly hold up the corners of some upperclassman’s rented condo. He felt like he knew everything there was to know about her right away, a symptom of that bright melancholy distinctly found in art school girls, like she was only waiting on fate to catch up to her. Maybe the reality of her was less interesting than his half-baked conclusion, but god, her smile. He was so nervous to talk to her.
♥ pang | io/estinien canon (pre-relationship)
His stomach tosses, and he admits something to himself for the first time: he wants to kiss her. Something he hasn’t done often, rare even in his most eager of dalliances. She was looking at him in the way she often does, like he could tell her anything and she would not flinch, and maybe that’s the problem. He can think about more than a kiss without losing his head. It is the straightforwardness of the intimacy he desires that sends him reeling, and already she affords him something close. So he ran. The urge has been growing for some time. They catch their breath after a battle, and she’s bruised and radiant, and he shoves it down. They carry out some mundane task and Io pulls her hair back from her face, and Estinien endures a calamity. How often has he busied his hands to keep them from the simple act of tugging her to him and embarrassing himself?
♥ mustering | io/estinien canon (pre-relationship)
Io smiles patiently. “Your brother?” His eyes fall to the leaf-covered ground and he nods. “He would walk our sheep into the fold from pasture. He named them all. Even if they already had one, he’d change them to something he liked better–insufferable, really. Anyway… when one went missing, he’d beg me to join him in the search, make me scour the fields and nearby forest with him until we found whichever young, or old, or lame sheep had wandered off alone, staring up at us with that look of relief. And I was a bit bigger than him, so I would carry it home while he doted on Flopsy, or Custard, or whatever the fuck he’d named them–” he feels his smile spreading as he shakes his head, and the vacuum in his heart surrounding Hamignant shrinks, just a little. “I suppose what I mean is, he still holds me accountable.”
♥ tiebreaker | io/estinien (modern au)
The city doesn’t slow around them. Flashes of sound and color leak into the dim room, painting the wall in shifting light that disappears between drowsy blinks. Io wonders how all those passersby in taxis and on the street can go on like before, unaware a faultline has moved under their feet. Don’t they know? Didn’t they feel it? The quiet breaks abruptly. “Io, I’m not,"—his rough voice wavers. He pauses. She can almost see him turning over the words in his mind—"very romantic, if I’m honest, but I could be good to you.” His head on her chest is the only thing keeping her in orbit. “You’ve always been good to me. If you’re asking me for something…” “I’m asking.”
♥ flood | io/estinien canon (mature) ↓
His lips return to her neck, and one hand travels the length of her back to twist the strap of the bra. “Tell me, where did you get this?” Io gulps, eyes falling closed at his touch through the sheer fabric. The pale lavender lace barely covers her chest and leaves her nipples artfully exposed. It is the last remaining piece from the matching set; the bottoms and garter belt have long been removed in a racy attempt to undress. Now he fucks her without obstruction, not that they would stop him in the first place. “Shtola sent it. A gift to celebrate my finally sleeping with someone after such a long–” Estinien thrusts, hard, chuckling at the timing– “long time. Though it appears to be for you more than me.” “Then I shall have to thank her when we next meet.” The next moan comes unbidden as the hand on her back wraps into her hair, tied into a messy tail, and pulls. A short, quick jerk, and she can see half his face now, flushed red and smirking. Once more, he tests her, waiting for her reaction. Io smiles at him. “More.”
#asks#azia writes#tbh my faves are ever shifting#it really depends on mood and what i'm currently looking to improve or expand#but i've been thinking about most of these lately!!#thank you for thinking of me!! ^.^ this was fun!#long post
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currently torn between Sunset with Pinkie Pie and Twilight with Sunset. What do I do????
Its ok just do what I do and ship regarding on the mood; Sunpie is when you feel like Sunset should have a fun time indulging with the weird girl, where they influence each other's weirdest and funnest tendencies and shenanigans ensue Sunlight is when you want two lovers that saved each others lives, improved each other's lives tenfold, who support each other through every single adversity, being each other's anchors, to inherit the sun and moon and rule together for a 1000 years bringing Equestria to a golden age and making love their legacy. It just depends on the mood 👍
#and babey my mood SWINGS lol#gotta say tho twiset's a no brainer if you want a good fate for the world at large and each character to be happier than theyve ever been#while sunpie is just a goofy fun wholesome time!#also the punk girl and the goofy weird girl sex would be ridiculous.#Im currently being more and more into sunpie tbh. its cute#but Twiset/sunlight is just objectively the bestest
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Random Tuesday art dump
#current mood#my art#fan art#original character#just a bunch of random stuff tbh#cellbit#hes on the last photo
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Hey so you know Sunless Skies. Are you aware of the secret fourth Ambition? If so, there's something about it which haunts my dreams and has for years, and I need to spread the brainrot. If not, disregard this message, I don't want to give unsolicited spoilers. Sorry if the nature of the ask is in and of itself a spoiler.
i am indeed aware of it!!! i'm planning on pursuing it once i finish my current ambition in my current (and first) playthrough (the truth. i'm doing the truth as my very first ambition. because i apparently love to suffer and simply cannot do things by halves.)
#im currently playing sskies at an excruciatingly slow pace#bc like most video games i have it sitting on the steam library shelf until im in the mood to play it for 5 straight uninterrupted hours#and i dont touch it for a second sooner or longer#(blame the adhd on that one)#but i dont mind spoilers as long as they're vague or just completely batshit insane enough#especially in a setting like FL. which feels tailor made for that sort of thing#ask#sunless skies#i should talk about my sskies playthrough more often tbh..#i feel like i mention it literally every time this game comes up (which admittedly isnt that often)#but it is technically a non-canonical spinoff of scoundrel lore#i really really really enjoy what ive played so far. a good majority of my playtime (like. 20 or 30 hours already?)#has just been running around doing inventory management fetch quests#it just brings joy to my little autistic heart i guess
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ive been listening to the same song with noises that im sensitive to for hours . i am going to make it louder now,
#this instead of anything productive anyway im just tryna figure out what self-care means to me /silly#its my song of the day today. i tried listening to my absolute favorite instead but nostalgia wasnt doing it for me#and my other 2 absolute favs are for an entire other mood although i dont really know what my current mood is tbh#it takes so much effort for me to not go off about all the songs i like publicly unprompted im ngl...#waiter. waiter. more yelling and loud noises and anger in the songs i listen to please !!!#if i dont constantly listen to these i lose my whimsical nature and if i dont have that then im BORED!!!!! !!!!
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tipped my uber courier hella extra bc she helped call an ambulance for a homeless woman while waiting for my order 🥺 and idk i was chatting with her about it in the app and it just made me love people sm 🤍
#especially in this town bc all the rich transplants here are SO MEAN to the unhoused 😭#i can’t even imagine if the order was for someone else instead of me#they probably would’ve chewed this poor girl out#it didn’t even take long either but i told her to take as much time as she needs there’s no rush#what a sweetheart#i also got curious and looked her up on FB because she had the most unique name ever#and she’s actually mutuals with a ton of my circus friends#so NO WONDER she’s such a kind person 🥹🥹🥹#apple babble 🍎#non fandom#i’m actually in such a good mood today#ALSO#i found a townhouse super close to where i already live#and i’m going through a diff property manager who said i’m qualified so! i’m pretty sure i have a good chance of getting it#it’s SUCH a cute space tho omg#and my possible future neighbors are 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈#it’s also 3 neighbors all in a little gated community#and the walls of the backyard are SO HIGH YOU GUYS I DONT THINK MY DOGS CAN JUMP IT#it’s also the same price i’m paying for my current house!!!#the neighborhood is a little dodgy but i’ve lived in worse areas LMFAO#i actually like it a bit better than the other house i was trying to get#bc of the gated community and extra security#no one’s gonna steal my car that’s for sure ahahaHAHAHA#ALSO GUYS IT HAS A BALCONY!!!!!!!!!#AND THE KITCHEN IS SO HUGE AND PRETTY JFC#idk why it’s so huge actually it’s kinda wild LOL#i feel so good today tbh
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Me when I remember an embarrassing moment
#that feeling when you realize last minute that you did something cringy but it's too late#current mood#bsd memes#the more people follow me the more self conscious i become about my posts tbh lmao#it's fine. everything's fine#bruh#keysmashing cause i have nothing else to do#eflgpotgoetr#uhm#its okay just do you (note to self)#typing random things as a coping mechanism for embaRasSmeNt#aRe yoU noT emBaRrasSeD ✨ thAt's sO emBaRraSsiNg#im done#bsd atsushi memes#i feel maybe a bit better now#wait until my brain does round 2 and gives me a random awkward memory#relatable#relatable memes#idk#hahaha#okay im done#going to see myself out now#bye.
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Play Signalis!
GOD SO TRUE BESTIE
#one of my party members rec'd this to me and i trust this man's taste with my life tbh#i think the current order is gonna be obra dinn first tho..... now that i can sit in a chair. lmao#then fhunger maybe???? i gotta decide if im still in a horror mood by then#btw i kno literally nothing abt signalis besides 'matt rec'd it to me' but thats all i need. dont tell me more#asks#anon
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bts bias order go
omg marry me ♡♡♡♡♡. LINDSAY DON'T LOOK AND DON'T @ ME
namjoon -> hobi -> yoongi -> jin -> tae -> jungkook -> jimin
✩⡱ send me a group and i'll tell you my bias order
#ask game#☀ bts#the rap line is incredibly mutable and changes with my current mood but also i fear i am a rapmon truther he'd understand me#my loser cringe is recognized and raised by his loser cringe and all that#BUT HOBI?????????????? YOONGI????????????? don't remind me don't remind me#yoongi and hobi oft change places tbh i mean yoongi was my og bias right#but hobi is so <33333333333333#also you are Soooooo incredibly hobi coded clara don't let anyone lie and tell you otherwise#you're like a hobi sun jin moon or whatever the astrology girlies say#or wait is it rising or something#idk don't quote me on the logistics simply FEEL it in your heart#BUT JIN AND TAE MY BIAS WRECKERRRRRSSSSSSSSS#but jimin and jungkook <3333333 my bestie and brother <333333#so much fondness but there we go <3#tae was never one of my classic bias wreckers but i think it's the fact that i would give my left leg and right arm for yeontan's sake that#he has raised so astronomically through the rankings.#like are you not IN LOVE. WITH YEONTAN.#but jungkook my brother!!!!!!!!!!! my baby brother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my annoying but endearing younger brother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#tbh i should perhaps change his place with jimin#actually wait yeah give me a sec#BUT NO I ACTUALLY DO REALLY LOVE JIMIN OKAY#he's so funky and cool and iconic#but i have less brainspace dedicated to him#the rapline has a whole ass penthouse in my cranium and jin and tae (read: with yeontan in tow) are constantly crashing in the living room#and jungkook is my brother so obviously he comes to stand in the middle of my brain and then flexes; tells me he cooked and didn't do the#dishes; them leaves again#jimin king if you were more obnoxious in taking over my brain and making the place yours you'd be higher in the ranking
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#the last one didnt post???? ok then#this is not my edit but it is currently my hyper fixation#that transition is SO CRISP#mood tbh
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what do you mean writing a post takes actual real time. feels like it should b illegal. i meant to do some chores before having my afternoon snack!!
#guess i'm doing the chores after the snack then#tbh i'm p sure part of the current mood episode is a feedback loop spiral#between the lost appetite#the enormous energy requirement this furnace of a body has#and how i got a curse where constitution saves against hunger convert directly into psychic damage instead#and boy is my con modifier high
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