#this is my blog and I post what I want

[uniquevocashark]

POV you are lady dimitrescu

[bicheetopuff]

time to be personal so anon goes on!

Feel free to ignore this, with the discussion about these topics I just want to express myself. I’m not expecting an answer, and if this makes you uncomfortable I apologize, as it’s not my intention.

I used to believe I was a cishet girl/woman for the longest time, and even doubted myself after finding out about my queerness for so many years, because of the portrait of heterosexuality and sex as needed in fandom from a young age (9/10 years old, the same time ppl would make a challenge to watch a hentai bl which involved a child with an adult and the main critic was about it being gay; the child was still older than me, and a friend and I watched it so we could see what was the big deal and challenge ourselves into being the one who could “handle it better” or “not be affected by it”. Yeah, totally didnt it affect us/s)

I remember my first crush on a girl, one of my best friends, and thinking I needed to see her in a sexual way in order to actually like her, and it just felt so, so wrong to see her like that. It was easier to be a guy’s plaything, it’s easier to be it in my head. I hate the internet. There is no safe space to hide in, and they teach us this is our only option when it’s full of creeps.

It doesn’t make me uncomfortable at all, I can actually relate as a genderfluid/transmasc person myself.

The way the world and media views women and afabs, especially if we’re talking like 10-15 years ago, has always been “if you’re not this, this, and this, then you’re not a proper woman” and that list of requirements of what a woman should and shouldn’t be puts young girls in such a small box that they’re not able to express themselves. We feel like we’re not given a choice until we grow up a bit and realize that we can be whoever the hell we want to be after so many years of feeling ashamed of who we wished we were.

i was diagnosed with PCOS in middle school which causes a higher testosterone level and since i realized i had it when i hit puberty, my voice got deeper and i started growing a lot of body hair and beard hair by the time i reached sophomore year of high school and i had so many guys call me disgusting if i didn't shave and conform. By this time i knew i was at least bi but I didn’t realize I was probably genderqueer until I was 19.

I’m glad I realized after high school though because now I live in a pretty accepting city and I don’t have to be around a bunch of annoying teenagers lmao. I don’t shave my legs or my face unless I want to and I stopped trying to mask my deep voice and now i feel free to be who I am. But I think it took me so long because of the toxic heteronormative portrayal of women in media, feeling like I had to follow orders of a man to be considered a “good girl.”

That being said I understand being a young closeted queer in inappropriate fandoms. Personally, I think I interacted with them as a kid because I felt the need to be non conforming in some way even if it was privately/on the internet under a burner account. Interacting which such content affected the way I viewed age gap relationships so as a teenager I honestly believed 14-20 was perfectly fine which caused me to talk to older men I shouldn’t have been talking to and it took me a couple of years to decondition myself from that mindset. Like you said though, it was a lot easier to be some guys play thing than to accept that you have a crush on one of your best friends. I really liked one girl all through out high school yet I only talked to men romantically because it was easier which is depressing to say. But, it also taught me a lot about how most men think and view women so now I just don’t talk to cismen at all which is probably a blessing.

I know this post is so long but I figured if you opened up, I could open up too. Plus most of these things I’ve said on my blog in the past anyway. I’m very open about my queer experience I just figure people wouldn’t want to read about it on a bkdk blog lmao.

But all this to say, I understand you, anon. The internet sucks but so does the real world tbh. You have to choose to exist as yourself in at least one of them even if it means you’ll run into questionable characters. My ask box and DMs are always open if you wanna talk!

[neveroceanblvd]

he might be the love of my life

[monkesupreme]

ref

a satisfactory answer for Selina

[comrade-slugcat]

coincidence? i think not. starscream is secretly from luxemborg

[just-a-silent-sorcerer]

Was practicing poses but it turned into a desperate beg for certain demon cat to not kill him

[xxplastic-cubexx]

alternate apocalypse ending or something who the hcrist knows anymore

[sans-guy]

[caruliaa]

staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%

grace image os i get to look at her

[brethilach]

did you know that Tove Jansson's protrayal of Gollum in her illustrations of the 1962 Finnish translation of the Hobbit is what caused Tolkien to rewrite his description of Gollum's appearance his second edition of the Hobbit because he found it so incredibly monstrous but realized that it was still wholly accurate to the original text

imagine that the author of a story you loved thought your intepretation of what a character looks like was so egregious that he went back and changed the canon description just so it didn't happen again

[phantom-peachie]

hhhh,,, skyward sword,,

screams incoherently

[totally-sapphic-posts]

Imagine coming home after a long day and they just hug you. They hug you in a way that melts all the tension from your muscles, and makes the stresses of the day fade into some distant memory. It’s one of those hugs you feel like you could fall asleep in, but you don’t want to because you want to savor every ounce of it even though you know you’ll get a million more of them

[californiatowhee]

old fashioneds and tipsy daydreaming

bonus: the subsequent drunk texting

extra bonus, if you made it this far: what happens next, in fic form (spoiler: Phoenix and Miles kiss)

Behavioral Phenomenon | Phoenix/Edgeworth | 2.5k

[daily-dose-of-bucket]

Day 172: HAPPY (very late) HALLOWEEN!!!

[smellroy]

Mystery scars….

[cubbihue]

What would Peri’s power level be if he didn’t have his inhibitor/stabilizer wand and just went apeshit?

While Cosmo deals with too much magic in his body, Peri suffers from a slightly different issue. Cosmo has the greatest amount of magic in Fairy World. Peri is incapable of regulating his magic.

Peri cannot, not then as a child and not now in the present, control his magic. Without his inhibitor, he can easily destroy an entire realm- just as he nearly destroyed Earth as a baby. This fact has not changed, although it is less plausible today than back then.

Peri's taken extra measures in the present-day to ensure it cannot happen.

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