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LOTR (films) Review
So I finally watched the LOTR films (20 years later). Iām super excited to review these because I read the books very recently so I feel at least a little prepared to voice some opinions. Overall I loved the films, hereās a very long (but by no means exhaustive) compilation of my thoughts, which are of course, totally subjective:
(Warning: a lot of me saying āwell, actually, in the book...ā)
THINGS I LIKED
- Casting! not much to say here, I thought the casting was great. One of my favorite actors that I didnāt think iād have a huge opinion on was David Wenham as Faramir. I was kinda ambivalent on him when I saw pictures but i thought he did a great job. he showed his quality.
- Music. so much has been said about the films on the music front. I canāt offer too much original insight but when a bit of the Shire theme started to play as Frodo tries to make his way up Mount Doom I cried a little.
- Boromir and Aragorn. I liked the scene where they interact a little in Rivendell. I also like how Aragorn saves Boromir in the Moria battle and gives him this little nod of friendship. I think the films did a great job portraying the dynamic they have where Aragorn is clearly suspicious of Boromirās motivations but grows to respect him to the point where he doesnāt even blame Boromir for being corrupted by the ring because he understands that, at heart, Boromir is a good person.Ā
- Sam and Frodo in Osgiliath. I expected to be kind of annoyed with the way this plot point played out (I knew ahead of time that it strayed from the book), but I actually liked it a lot. As Iāll say later, thereās some gripes I have with the way the films extremely play up the disagreements between Frodo and Sam, but I loved the scene where Frodo pulls the sword on Sam and then seems so defeated when he realizes what heās done. I was pleasantly surprised by how emotional this scene made me. Itās admittedly A Lot, but it was done nicely, especially in conjunction with Samās āthereās good in this worldā speech.
- Treatment of the ending. I almost think I should dislike the ending as it is in the movies, but my heart is soft and I like that they sugarcoated it a bit. I know the whole point of the Scouring of the Shire and Frodoās depression conveys a lot about war and trauma and I think that is important, but after watching these things for twelve hours I just wanted Frodo & co. to be happy and I was kinda relieved that they cut the Scouring. Does that make me weak and perhaps bad at film analysis? yes. do I care? no. I was also very glad that the movies didnāt portray how depressed Sam was about losing Frodo in the end. Yes, he cries, but when he walks home to his family he seems happy and in the books that scene came off so much bleaker. I definitely liked the lighter tone.
THINGS I WAS NEUTRAL ON/DIDNāT LIKE
- Arwen. (Neutral) I donāt hate her, I donāt love her. I think the story she and Aragorn have is compelling and I 100% get why the filmmakers decided to add it to give her character more depth, but it felt misplaced at times. maybe itās just because it was the only storyline I didnāt know in depth, but the scenes with the Arwen/Aragorn flashbacks felt a bit confusing and disorienting. Donāt have anything against Arwen as a character though, I think sheās pretty alright.
- Gimli. (Complicated thoughts) I want to start off by saying I donāt dislike Gimli. I like him a lot! I just think the movies did him a bit dirty. He had some good movie-exclusive moments, but I think his character really fell into this place of being the butt of too many jokes. Would have liked to see some more serious Gimli development, especially with his relationship to Legolas. Their friendship felt too much like subtext here, whereas itās explored far more in the books.
- Two Towers Pacing. (Didnāt really like). The pacing of TTT was...weird. maybe Iām going into this with a closed mind because of the books, but it was odd to have the movie begin with Frodo and Sam and then have them only appear for a few rapid scenes after that. I think the fact that a WHOLE LOT of what happens to Frodo and Sam in TTT is moved to RotK is what makes it feel that way? In the books, Two Towers ends with Sam discovering that Frodo isnāt dead from Shelobās sting, and I was surprised by how long it took the movies to get to that part. However, I will give the films a little leeway because I think they needed Frodo & Sam content for RotK, since most of what happens in that book is them walking through Mordor basically starving and dying. Doesnāt make for great cinema I guess, so they had to put the whole Shelob/Cirith Ungol saga into the final film. Still, I think thereās a weird lack of Frodo and Samās presence in TTT.
- The go home/missing bread arc. (Full of rage abt this one) yeah. so. my criticism of this is gonna sound pretty tired because people complain and complain about this part of RotK. but Iām gonna complain some more!! I donāt think the split between Frodo and Sam does anything for the plot. I really donāt. I guess it emphasizes the fact that Sam doesnāt understand how much Frodo is projecting onto Gollum, but itās just. unnecessary angst? They had enough angst in the Osgiliath scene! Which I actually liked! And it simply doesnāt make a lot of sense for Frodo to suspect Sam of eating the bread when Sam had already offered Frodo his own food and made it clear that he would very much starve if it meant making sure Frodo could eat. But what I hate most about this scene is not that Frodo gets mad and tells Sam to go home. No. Itās that Sam actually... thinks about doing that? he actually? goes down the staircase? emotionally this is bad because Sam clearly cared enough about Frodo to follow him this far, to nearly drown for him, so why would he leave now. Practically this is bad because 1. how would Sam get out of Mordor alone and 2. where would he go. He turns around almost immediately, yes, but what was his plan. where was he going. why.
THINGS I LOVED
- For Frodo! This line, and every other shoutout to Frodo. In the books, they didnāt really actively talk about/worry about Frodo (and Sam) as much as they do in the movies. I like that they talk about Frodo more in the movies! I like that theyāre thinking about him! I know it was implied that they were in the books, but I really like how itās shown here. I think it gave a more complete picture of how much they all care about him on a personal level in addition to just needing him to succeed from a pragmatic standpoint.Ā
- Merry and Pippin! I feel like Merry and Pippin were so well rounded in the films. Iāve heard criticism about them being turned into comic relief characters (which they always were a little bit) but it honestly didnāt feel that way to me. They had a bit of a rough start because the films didnāt make their motives for going with Frodo as deep as the books did, but I think that by TTT they were absolutely amazing characters in every scene. In RotK their respective arcs hit really well and the scene where Pippin is singing to Denethor? *chefās kiss* poetic. beautiful. sad. idk man I just feel like I have such a newfound appreciation for Merry and Pippin.
- Parallels! people have pointed out the parallel of Frodo and Samās hands before (drowning scene/mount doom scene) and I love how the movie did that. Just stunning. Also! The moving of the Smeagol & Deagol scene to RotK surprised me because in the books it was like,,,at the beginning of Fellowship, but I think the placement of it in the movies really helped emphasize the similarities between Smeagol & Deagol and Frodo & Sam (and how much Frodo fears this similarity.) There were a lot of other well done parallels between storylines and a few bits of dialogue that were repeated with great timing, but I canāt remember all of them at the moment. Ā
Edit: hereās one I remembered! when Frodo wakes up after being rescued and sees Gandalf, he says Gandalfās name in a very similar tone to the one he used at the very beginning of Fellowship. It was a nice little subtle connection.
- I canāt carry it for you...alright this is self-indulgent. everyone knows I love this line. Iām just so glad it made it into the movie intact. Sean Astinās delivery was amazing. I cheered. My mom cheered. Itās a raw line and it makes me feel secret emotions...like if shrimp colors were feelings. that line makes me feel shrimp feelings. idk iām so tired i just watched twelve hours of movies this review is decreasing in quality by the minute but iām about done for now anyway
Various silly afterthoughts
- I would have liked to see Sam kiss Frodoās hands at least once. This happens 50 thousand times in the books, they could have given me one scene. one little extended edition scene. Please Peter Jackson Iām dyinā out here
- They literally made Gollum so hateable. kinda the point yes, but I was so on board with Samās murderous rage. I know why Gollumās a profoundly complex character, I know why Frodo pities him, I know why murder is bad, but I too would throw hands with that creature. also he literally body shamed Sam so much what was that skdjksdjksd. Sam is lovely. let him commit a small homicide.Ā
- the scene where merry and pippin drink the tall boy juice (as someone once referred to it in the tags of one of my posts)... not accurate to the books (since they donāt ever drink it with the end goal of getting tall) but so accurate to life. if I found some water that made me taller than my friends? let me at it
- Frodo panicking when he falls into the spider webs. so real bestie. i felt just as panicked watching that. i am terrified of spiders and Elijah Wood did an amazing job doing exactly what iād do in the situation. yelping a lot and falling down.
- I feel like itās never stated that Samās a gardener (or at least that heās specifically Frodoās gardener) until he tells Faramir he is. Did I miss this. Or do they really never say.Ā are you just meant to know. are you just meant to pick up gardener vibes from him.
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This has been a very chaotic lotr movie review. Thanks for reading.
#lotr#lord of the rings#lotr movies#vee watches (!) lotr#fellowship of the ring#the two towers#return of the king#Frodo baggins#samwise gamgee#gimli#arwen#boromir#aragorn#gollum#merry brandybuck#pippin took#veesaysthings#long post#seriously SUCH a long post im so sorry#had to get these thoughts out though#im SO tired
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For the character asks: Jon, Peter Lukas, Annabelle Cane? (giving multiple suggestions so you can pick one in case you get the same character twice in different asks)
very kind of you to assume i get many asks :') THANKS ill do all of them u_u
[Send me a character and i'll tell you...]
(under the cut bc i love talking and this got long lmao)
Jon
First impression
he's a uptight prick with obvious favoritism for sasha and tim and i love him so! much!!!!!!
Impression now
my poor little mew mew hm................I've got a complicated relationship w/ jon bc i love him a lot, but i loved s1 him the most, and literally everything else just makes me really, brutally, sad ;_; The way he tries so desperately to cling to his humanity and how other characters just call him by the title imposed to him makes me wanna cry
...also he just cares so much ;_; i cry
Favorite moment
probably his interactions with georgie at the beginning of season 3!!! From s5 id say when he killed not!sasha, it felt vindictive Ć¹_Ćŗ
Idea for a story
Dhfhdh im p basic when it comes to him ngl, either jon/tim/sasha friends to lovers or jon and desolation!tim or *something*!sasha trying to stay as human as possible, together š (or just any of them living and coping together in s4 n s5)
Unpopular opinion
Im just not a fan of monster jon, at all! He's not the type of character that i enjoy seeing having a corruption arc unfortunately!! It just hurts!!! (and this Is from someone that Loves corruption arcs!!!)
Also i really hate moth jon imagery??? For not particular reason, moths are pretty, but i still hate it u_u AND THE ASSOCIATION OF GREEN W/ JON (or the beholding in general!) I CANNOT STAND IT!! i know its bc of the tma logo but guess what! Its wrong! Purple jon rights!!!
ALSO ALSO the so called pining he had for martin just.... didnt felt like that at all! i have Many feelings abt this!
Favorite relationship
either georgie in s3, or sasha!!! i love how he always praises sasha in her research in s1 and even thought he's at his driest & sharp Trying-To-Project-Professionalism-And-Skepticism she still rolls into his office, interrupts him mid statement to banter w/ him abt pronunciation n stuff and its just Normal, like that speaks volumes of how comfortable they felt around each other! they were friends gdi! the moment he realizes she died and then everytime the not!them mocks him w/ her death makes me wanna break smth q_q
im not even gonna mention tim bc even though i love their relationship It š makes meš very š sad š
non shippy and also staying strictly canon, i love his relationship with melanie!
Favorite headcanon
sometimes i think abt that one hc that hes really good with arcade games bc he lived near the coast and i smile bc thats cute :) also hes a trans man ļæ½ļ潚š¤šš
Peter
First impression
Mystery evil captain man!!! Fog?? I LOVE him :)
Impression now
I STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! Hes an asshole and has a lovely voice and smile and hes not, hes not Dumb but also he's far from the whooooa evil lonely influence he think he is (played like a cheap fiddle). He also makes me sad in ways i cannot and wont describe, and its a shame that he died cuz he was the best part of season 4 š rip you beautiful bastard man i still miss you </3
Favorite moment
"It has blood on it" "thats Leitner's too :D". Also when martin was angry abt idk, breekon? Jon going into the coffin? Cant remember, but peter was like I said id protect the institute, that guys not my problem ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
Idea for a story
dfgdfg i have..... a petermart story that dealt with the different flavor of loneliness they both had, half smut half genuine meta of both of them and theorization on the branching of an Entity & how their powers manifested in other people...
basically, peter thinks hes hot shit when it comes to loneliness but gets overwhelmed when martin accidentally projects his feelings abt *fic's plot stuff* on him, its fun stuff!
Unpopular opinion
people either paint him like an absolute devil or an incompetent idiot and hes neither of them! hes an asshole who loves being an asshole but far from the worst monster in the show and he tried to do a clever scheme TWICE on his life and 1. while it was established that any of the rituals wouldnt work singularly the Silence was still a pretty clever attempt if it weren't for gertrude! and 2. well... he tried to manipulate someone petty and formerly supposed to be a web avatar, again not his fault, cant call him stupid for trying dfgdfg
i Do think hes kinda pathetic in some sense considering his backstory, but more out of personal pity than anything else
Favorite relationship
Canonically speaking him and martin! The pull and push of them was The best thing about season 4! Peter being a quite dangerous avatar and martin, beautiful and scared and kinda feisty, confronting him every chance he gets, peter doing his best to manipulate him and martin letting him believe hes succeeding (even thought, he is, partly). They're fascinating characters to have side by side
Favorite headcanon
Partly canonically speaking him and mikaele salesa :) they do bets together! They're lonely sea men! What else could you possibly want?
Also non shippy i like thinking abt peter's and simon's relationship but thats entirely non canon ā”
Diversity wins! The heir of the lonely is a gay man!
Also I think as every rich household(?) the lukases had many paintings and peter as a kid saw the ones w/ sailing ships and imagined sailing far far away from his family. That and seaman aesthetic fucks, which is why he always has the same vibe going on as an adult. He does Not know half of the things he'd need to know to have a ship though but hey he's rich and thats all he needs
Annabelle
First impression
thats a horrible psychological experiment they're making there D:
Impression now
THATS STILL A HORRIBLE EXPERIMENT AND ANNABELLE DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER............. idk! she makes me sad in the same way jon (and to a degree, peter) does! to be a living puppet for the thing that traumatized you as a kid and that later kinda killed you / is the only thing keeping you alive, to be devoted to it scrambling to believe in a higher reason for all of it to happen bc to believe otherwise is............. anyway. i love her, and i feel so so sorry for her
Favorite moment
her "maybe ive never been to the beach" at the end of ehr statement (that i fully believe its bullshit but, yknow, i love that she adds that), most of her convos with martin, her "i told you this might happen" "you did, you did" with mikaele
Idea for a story
i think a lot about her having conversations w/ either mikaele (platonically) or sasha (shippy) and their different points of views and treat with her making her doubt the web a bit
Unpopular opinion
listen, listen, i know it sounds like im woobifying her i Know it but reading the scraps of her story how can i Not feel sorry for her? when the story framed her very similar to jon? the supernatural childhood encounter that gave them arachnophobia and the subsequential joining with an Entity against her will? the fact that both the story and the fans treat her like a spider woman always sat very very bad to me, and the fact that the story itself always framed her like a villain (considering All The Other Characters that get the benefit of the doubt) was extremely disappointing
Favorite relationship
her and mikaele!!!!!!! wish we could have seen more scenes of just the two of them!!!!!! *singing* he is her daaaaaad, hes her dad! boogie boogie boogie! (ok no but like... their offscreen friendship is my favorite thing of season 5 ;_;)
Favorite headcanon
Sigh i dont know...i still think she's scared of spiders which make her current existence harder but thats a sadcanon :/ umm...... i love the idea of mikaele and her cooking together from time to time! Mikaele showing her some plates he used to eat as a kid as he talks stories about his life :) and she listens and sometimes tells a story of her own! its been so long since he had a quasy normal conversation! its weird yet nice!
#i say the same phrase many times but basically best parts of s4 are hands down peter. lonely!mart. peter and martin. melanie's arc. thats it#best parts of s5 are jon killing the not!them. annabelle. mikaele. annabelle & mikaele. annabelle and martin. thats it#dhfjfj sorry half of these are a bummer but you asked me... characters i have a complicated relationship with... i love the three of them s#statement ends#THANKS i love... talking
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā hlloĀ ! iām nora ( she / her, 24, gmt ) crawling back to this rp once more like the dirty sewer slug i am !! i just canāt get enough, baybeyyyĀ ! u may remember me frm such roles as alma putnam, rory bergstrom, bridget matusiak or greta oādriscoll 2 name jst a few.... sure there were more over these long years, bt the show must go on.... this is mimi, sheās dogmatic, tenacious n single-minded 2 the point of recklessness, she doesnāt like handouts n sheās funding her degree through her onlyfans account n moaning abt shit on tiktok. we love 2 see it !!Ā slam that like button n iāll creep into ur DMs like the slippery worm i amĀ Ā OR u can discord me at that bitch carole baskin#8664.Ā Ā a humble pinterest.
ćALEXA DEMIE ā CIS-FEMALE ć āæ looks like MIMI MARTĆNEZ is here for HER SOPHOMORE year as an ARCHITECTURE AND SOCIAL ANTHROPOLOGY student. SHE is 22 years old & known to be STRONG-WILLED, GOAL-ORIENTED, ARROGANT & EASILY BORED. Theyāre living in MORIS, so if youāre there, watch out for them. ā¬³ nora. 24. gmt. she/her.
this is p embarassing but i actually originally wrote mimi for a discord rp based around love island asgjag dont laugh at me but it was so chaotic n someone deleted it w-out telling any of us so i lost her bio.... all her threads....e verythin.... it was mad. but anyway we startin from scratch w this intro so bare with
mimi is a really extra character so when trying to flesh her out i thot of the most extra thing i could do n made a colour coded mindmap with watercolour paints detailing her values, aesthetics and early life. shoot me
background: she grew up in a trailer home in boulder city, abt half an hour from vegas. her mom had worked in a vegas casino for most of her 20s but relocated to boulder city for a slower pace of life / lower crime rate when she started having kids. mimi has 2 older brothers n sheās the youngest. has that invulnerable younger sibling complex n basically thinks nothing can touch her. very confident in her own intelligence and her ability to get shit doneĀ
has mexican ancestry on her momās side. doesnāt know her dad. was raised with spanish catholic principals n found it all very stained glass windows and extra n thatās why she was kinda drawn to the decadence of vegas and all these massively high key aesthetics, like dia de les muertos was her fave thing growin up just bcos the pure feel of the festival and painting a sugar skull on her face n being able to party on the streets in a flower crown where everyone was kinda anonymous but together in this celebration
in boulder city her mom worked as a carer as thereās a lot of retirees there. mimi really resented the slow pace of life, longed for some fucking energy n life. she was a cheerleader in school but outside of school there wsnāt much to do except practise stunts and go on bike rides.Ā occasionally theyād get dressed up and catch a bus to henderson, the next biggest city for them to get tht sweet night life
her teenage years consisted mostly of hanging around the renovated motel blocks used as housing projects n tanning by the pool. very florida project if youāve seen that. she reminds me a lot of the mum in that. also she started working as an avon rep going door-to-door when she was 16 bcos she wanted to have her own income. like as young as 14 sheād decided she was smart enough to go to college but she didnāt have the money n her family didnāt really see it as a worthwhile thing, her mom was very like the mom from matildaĀ āyou chose books.... i chose looks!ā which i think is where a lot of mimiās more shallow / appearance-driven traits come from
wasnāt reallyĀ ācoolā until high school. before that she was a bit of a lisa simpson type. won a spelling bee when she was 9. was in the mathletes squad in middle school. when she went from middle school to high school she started cheer and tried to reinvent herself basically. always been very concerned with social mobility and keen to socially climb, like when she enters a new situation sheāll find out who the alphas are and quickly try n befriend them
when she turned 18 she moved out and went to vegas despite her mom hating the idea bcos it was everything sheād tried to get her kids away from. she worked in the clubs there for several years as a shot girl, a table dancer, n eventually she started workin behind the bar in a strip club. in the club it ws really hard to resist becoming a dancer bcos of the sheer amount they made in tips. no one really pressured her into it she just eventually decided tht it was way more logical to do it while she was young n fit and had the stamina and ppl were willing to pay to see her body so she started taking pole fitness lessons. she also started working as a cam girl around this time
working in vegas strip clubs is basically whats paid for uni. like she didnāt go at 18 like most of her friends did bcos she didnāt have the money and she didnāt want to feel indebted to a college like she had to compete for her place and not put a toe out of line bcos she was on a scholarship. she was determined to pay her own way and it took 4 years of working really hard and saving n even tho she was working in vegas she basically never went out bcos every penny she had needed to go on uni n thts how we get to radcliffe baybeeyy
part 2Ā - interior / values / personality
values: the aesthetic !! literally loves the aesthetic so much. everything she owns is super embellished, sheās a pop socket gal, her dell laptop is covered in glitzy stickers, she always has acrylics n probs makes nail art videos on tiktok. really tuned into tiny details like painting a little hello kitty above her eye which translates into her degree when sheās doing small-scale mockups of town plans n stuff... she jst puts so much detail into them.Ā ppl often get surprised when she tells them she does architecture but it makes so much sense bcos she grew up in a trailer park n was always thinking about ways the space could be more efficiently used, like she loves re-conceptualising neighbourhoods, definitely spent hours on sims as a kid. she also grew up near hoover dam n so loads of school trips they just took them there n she was like.... this is tight but it could be cooler.... whereās the passion....
massively into photography, has such a neat instagram feed like everything just compliments the tones in the next post like mMMM. idk if any of u know any architecture students but this is literally the one constant i can findā¦. like they all have super good instagrams feeds. is that bitch that will take 40 fake candids of u in a row at different angles to get u the perfect profile picture cos she understands the importance of marketing urself and having an online #brand
has wire rimmed glasses that she doesnāt need to see BUT they r like a magnifying glass for when sheās working with really small materials to do a mock up of an urban plan, and also just sometimes wears them for the aesthetic bc sheās such a pinterest bitch
assassination nation is such a big mood. literally the aesthetics of that and lily colsonās whole brand of feminism and nudity not being inherently sexual but at the same time wanting to profit off that bcos why the fuck shouldnt she use a corrupt system to her advantage is incredibly mimi
literally a human personification of a bratz doll both in attitude and fashion sense
somehow simultaneously gansey in the raven cycle AND elle woods in legally blonde? the two gendersĀ
values cont bc i started rambling: her independence and freedom. being the best at any given task she sets her mind to accomplish because she is unable to accept failure. social mobility. sexual liberation. interested in the psychology of sub-cultures and how ppl form groups and interact w each other and cult identities which is why she minors in anthropology. pro-choice. pro-weed legalisation. pro-sex worker rights. very activist.
aesthetics tht remind me of her: von dutch. a strappy cami top that saysĀ āplease do not do coke in the bathroomā. low-waisted jeans that show off her belly button piercing. acrylic nails tapping against a heavily embellished second-hand dell laptop. heart shaped sunglasses in every colour. translucent stripper heels with barbie doll heads and plastic spiders in the heel. spraying champagne you cant afford all over the walls. narcotics in a heart shaped locket. an amazon wishlist full of lingerie linked on your tinder profile. sex tapes recorded on VCR. a religious devotion to waxing clinics. necking shots like you were born to do it.
sheās an enfj type which makes her pretty charismatic and confidence, like she has a fierce kind of energy to her, but sheās also super unwilling to accept criticism, dogmatic and can only really see her own way of thinking, quite ruthless when it comes 2 other ppls emotions despite having a poor control of her own and being prone to turbulence / throwin a bitch fit in the craft lab. easily bored. competitive. self-assured to the point of arrogance. forceful. adaptable. usually more rational than emotional but occasionally loses the ability to make rational decisions when blinded by a need for perfectionism.
very goal-oriented. money motivates her. money and clothes. she wants to look bomb while earning big bucks. when she gets her mind set on a project it literally consumes her she will forget to eat and sleep? i donāt know her.Ā like when a final design project is due for architecture sheāll be up all night doing adderall and speed to keep her awake working on the placement of a single tree for ages cos its gotta be perfect
loves chaos. will spill your secrets and pretend it was an accident. will always be that gif of kim kardashian sipping her tea while drama unfolds around her. lives for the drama like that gifset of bratz when she comes running and gets her phone out to record a fight.
im makin her sound like a really bad person but hopefully sheāll be somewhat likeable she can be very charismatic and endearing and sheās naturally quite funny. also now sheās finally in college and doesnāt have to worry so much about money she actually allows herself to party n bcos she denied herself of it for so long she kinda makes up for it by going p wild like will be the girl climbing on to stage to crowd surf at gigs or doing a summersault off the bar and being escorted out by bouncers, thats the energy were looking at, pure dionysian hedonistic impulse
really gd at talking her way out of shit like parking fines. so good at being anĀ āim babyā girl and often dumbs herself down to figures of authority to appear less like a threatening ball-breaker and more like a confused fiat 500 girl who didnāt know red meant stop she thought it meant slow down
listens almost exclusively to female artists. has fergalicious on repeat when she does squats infront of the mirror n just the biggest fergie stan. also lana del reyās whole vibe is massive mimi energy
ok ya thats all i have for now..... hopefully this is somewhat coherent and not just garbage.
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mm, for me i just refuse to put a hard date on when martin's crush began (or when it turned from friendship into romantic feelings) and fandom's like, 'he was super duper mushy in love when jon Hated him' is. consistently Bad to me, so i'll skew later.
here's the thing wrt martin putting in effort into proving himself to ppl (even for non-romantic relationships); i read that less as anything related to fawning or trying to get ppl to like him than i do as him being extremely petty and competitive? i mean yeah ok projecting, but he doesn't go break into vittery's apartment in s1 bcos he wants jon to like him, he goes bcos jon's been ragging on his work and told him all his research into the spiders was totally off-based with supernatural stuff. to me, he doesn't want to prove that he's a good employee that jon can like, he just wants to prove jon wrong.
and that's not very depression-lonely-withdrawal, but also very much in line with how i read him as angry and kind of bad at people, which is partly non-supernatural depression, and partly the various other neurodivergences i like to read him with, and partly just that i like him petty! he's exhausted and exasperated and annoyed a lot, he just hides it beneath politeness and faux-obedience bcos that's probably what got his mum off his back. i don't like reading him as super sad and genuinely trying to please, bcos in spite of him wanting everyone to get along, he's also like. so inclined to fight ppl. he'll fight jon. he'll fight tim. he'll fight michael. he'll fight daisy. he'll pour ppl a cup of tea and try to get on, but if someone annoys him or legit upsets him he'll get passive-aggressive or just flat out aggressive, even going back to s1 (his aggression with the worms, his passive-aggression with jon; we don't hear directly from him before the worms, but he's snippy with jon abt being too demanding a boss, and spending an afteroon talking to old ladies abt jigsaws while on an impossible assignment is... so petty, it's precisely what i would do to a shitty boss)
i think i wasn't the clearest abt 'no not both', bcos i don't think that sadness is inimical to the kind of petty passive-aggressiveness i attribute to martin. it's perfectly possible for ppl to be very sad and very angry at the same time (i think martin is both very sad and very angry at the same time, altho not the way fandom tends to think). what i meant in my second version of the post was that 'he's petty and also he cries into his pillow abt how he's unlovable, Why Not Both' is inimical to my intentions in the post, bcos my intentions in the post were to say no, that particular trope is not really in character for martin, it's something i do not enjoy, and i would like to suggest this alternate reading based on canon evidence
i think we are going to have to disagree on our readings of just how eager to please martin is, but that doesn't mean i don't think he has soft & sad bits inside. i think he is very sad, altho for different reasons than ppl write about. i think he is less people-pleasing (on the inside) than ppl think, but he tries to keep the peace and he's often not directly confrontational (until later in s4/s5, when he starts accepting that side of himself more openly, but like, it's always there, underneath, just hiding under good manners). i don't think his anger and pettiness cancel out sadness. i think that how he is portrayed in canon does go absolutely against him crying abt him being unlovable, but that's not bcos it's incompatible with his anger, that's just bcos it's out of character for him. the more petty & angry reading i provided was meant more as an alternative for ppl who were clinging to that other trope.
look i just. 'martin cries himself to sleep at night bcos he doesn't think anyone will ever love him'? no. 'martin deliberately left his ex-bf's fridge open to spoil all of his food when they broke up, and still his ex sometimes calls him'? yes.
#long post#is getting rly late now so i will probably bed but yeah#i did sorta put the two readings on the same post so i can see the confusion#it's not that it's impossible for ANYONE to be soft & sad & fawning and also angry#i just do not enjoy MARTIN who is mostly gooey and pathetic with only a shell of prickly layers#i LIKE him as thoroughly bitchy (altho he tries to hide it) but still a good person#(still sad but not like. super gooey abt it.)#this is like. important to me personally for uh. personal reasons.#i also do see a lot of martin's apparent people-pleasing as an attempt to avoid conflict rather than curry favor#often with extremely petty undertones#but ur not obligated to agree with me#these are just the intentions behind my post that some ppl seemed to entirely miss when i first made it#so i got caught up in explaining my reading of martin and why i have that reading and why i hate the shitty tropes#i DO have canonical basis for my reading but it involves like. putting together some of his later season behavior#and assuming his particular issues were not all newly-made but had an underlying thing#(in large part i assume this bcos of mag 170 where we see pre-series martin considering himself 'bad'#for not being perfectly loving towards his mother and withdrawing from 'difficult' people#but it's also possible to read that as the lonely house enforcing different fears on him than he had back then ig)
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