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egglain Ā· 3 days ago
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Go Ahead & Cry (Iā€™d Wipe Away All Your Tears)
incl.: nanami, choso, toji, gojo, geto, sukuna
summary: for a group of men who kill for a living, theyā€™re awfully sweetā€¦ most of the time.
a/n: ngl iā€™m writing this bc iā€™m finally processing the US election results & i justā€¦ canā€™t deal. my heart goes out to all of you. pls take care of yourselves & enjoy the drabbles šŸ«¶
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Nanami
Nanami would be the first to notice something is off.
Whether youā€™re both at home and youā€™re just a bit too quiet, or he hasnā€™t heard from you by his lunch break while at work, something is distinctly off.
He wouldnā€™t be the nosy type, or the type to press. Heā€™d bring home a sweet treat and a sentimental good (a potted flower, a stuffed animal, something that reminded him of you) without a word.
He wouldnā€™t pity you; far from it. And heā€™d never want to make you feel like that. So heā€™d leave the gifts on the coffee table and greet you with a kiss to the forehead, like always.
Heā€™d sit in silence with you as if nothing was awryā€” allow you to feel your emotions. Heā€™d put on a movie you like, something mindless and upbeat, without asking. Drag you to his chest and hold you there, keeping you warm and grounded in his touch.
If the waterworks start up, heā€™d rub your back with a large hand and press kisses to the part of your hair.
ā€œThatā€™s it. Get it out. I know.ā€
Choso
Choso is either too emotionally in-tune or completely clueless until the tears start.
But when he knows youā€™re upset, he feels it too.
He gets it wrong a lot of the time, at the beginningā€” tries to pry the cause out of you so he can minimize it. In his defence, he does it with good intentions; tries to help you see that the perceived threat is small in the greater scheme of things, that everything will work out.
But when the tears start welling, he knows heā€™s fucked up.
And god, is he so sweet trying to fix things.
ā€œSo sorryā€”ā€œ
Heā€™d kiss the salty tears off your cheeks without hesitation.
ā€œHow do I make it stop?ā€
His bleeding heart is his biggest weakness and his greatest strength.
You wouldnā€™t have to lift a finger for the rest of the day, as he tries to make things up to you. Cooking (though he burns the bottom of the pan), cleaning (though he spills the food and has to clean again), and cuddles would be the itinerary.
Though he loves to be little spoon, heā€™d let you rest in his arms as long as you need it. And once you find a spot in his arms, he wouldnā€™t dare move.
Toji
Toji is not great with words. Or gifts. Or quality time, really.
Despite his best intentions, he always manages to fuck it up somehow. Usually by minimizing your feelings with a ā€œwhat now?ā€ or a ā€œā€˜s not a big deal.ā€ or a ā€œnothinā€™ to cry over.ā€
Itā€™s not his fault you cry over the little things & that you look so cute doing it. Those fat tears and reddened cheeks scratch the sadistic part of his brain so good.
That being said, heā€™s learned what you like over the years. Even stopped scoffing when he senses youā€™re feeling down.
No, heā€™s developed a plan.
At the first signs of distress (heā€™s gotten really good at recognizing these), heā€™s got you in his arms. If heā€™s at work, you better bet heā€™s speeding things up and hauling his ass back.
He wrestles you into his big clothes; donā€™t even think about fighting him on this. He wants you comfy and cozy. Heā€™d be setting you up on the couch, dragging the comforter down from the bedroom to wrap you up. Heā€™d sit there with you for hours, massaging your feet or calves and ordering food in. Your favourite fast foodā€” and a whole lotta ice cream.
Donā€™t take advantage of his kindness though; heā€™s still Toji. Any snide comments, and heā€™d be quick to snap back.
ā€œShut up nā€™ let me take care of ya.ā€
Gojo
Gojoā€™s a littleā€¦ misguided when cheering people up most of the time. That is, unless you find his goofy antics comforting.
Heā€™s known for draping himself over shoulders obnoxiously, pinching and pulling cheeks, and light jabs that crack (only) him up.
When that doesnā€™t work, itā€™s a quick fixā€” thanks to the seemingly unending pit of his black card.
Gojo Satoru, at his core, is a gift giver.
Nothing pleases him more than sharing things with you that he thinks will bring you joyā€” whether thatā€™s an expensive physical present or a luxurious vacation abroad.
Heā€™s wrapped around your little fingers and a sniffle would have him buckling at the knees and fumbling for his wallet.
While this might look like a cop outā€” a way to get out of emotional intelligence dutyā€” itā€™s just one part of his approach. The man is actually quite sensitive and understanding once you dig beneath the layers of persona. And he can be surprisingly matureā€” though heā€™d never want to show that side to most of the world.
Heā€™d always listen to your yapping, validating your feelingsā€” heā€™d take your side always. And he is a pro at shit-talking. At the end of it, you always come out feeling a little bit better. A little bit stronger.
You are the strongest together, after all.
Geto
Suguru is a problem-solver.
Heā€™d sit and motion for you to lay your head on his thighs. Long elegant fingers would make gentle work of your roots and scalp, and the tension would be melting away. When youā€™re relaxed enough to breathe, heā€™d want to hear all the venting.
ā€œNow do you want solutions or just my ear?ā€
Heā€™s your rock; always puts things into perspective if you ask. Heā€™s always got adviceā€” though sometimes clouded by bias. Still, itā€™s nice to have someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone who actually listens.
Understands.
The flipside, however, is the darkness you find in him. He understands what to do because heā€™s hurt too. You can see it in the way he carries himself, in the bags under his eyes and the shake of his hands on the bad days.
But you care for him like he cares for youā€” braid his hair back, let him talk it out, gift whatever advice you can muster.
And as soon as youā€™re both feeling better, youā€™d be getting crĆŖpes with the girls.
Sukuna
The King of Curses does not understand human sadness.
Perhaps he had empathy for it, centuries ago, before he became the Two-faced Spectre.
But now, seeing you upset, all he can think of is how pathetic tears look in reddened eyes.
Heā€™d wipe them away with a big thumb, clicking his tongue.
ā€œUnsightly, pathetic little thing.ā€
Yet, the way he speaks down to you holds a softness. A protective nature he rarely gives voice to.
Heā€™d treat you like a porcelain doll; a prized possession. No measure was inconvenient when it came to appeasing youā€” though heā€™d be quick to reprimand entitlement. And vehemently deny any sort of feeling towards you.
When the tears come, heā€™d be signalling for Uraume to draw a bath and cook your favourite. Youā€™d find your room tidied, trinkets left on the foot of your bed as if dragged in by a wild animalā€” an ornate dagger, gold jewellery, incense.
He wasnā€™t one to demonstrate affectionā€” but heā€™d keep you close on the tough days. Whether it be making a seat for you on one of his hulking thighs or allowing you to sleep in his quarters, heā€™d allow you to do as you please.
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aayakashii Ā· 3 days ago
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I remember you did something kind of similar already, but I was thinking what if Vagastorm had an S/O that can or likes to carry them around sometimes? :3c
Omg I am obsessed with your art btw šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ I love it so so much, it always makes me laugh!!!!
And yesss I did it here!! Which is wow a LONG time ago so I'd love to give it a go again, with a fresher opinion on them all hehehe
Vagastrom with a S/O that loves to carry them around (with pictures ?!)
Alan
He's absolutely horrified with this situation
Please put him down
Doesn't matter if you're EXTREMELY strong, he still thinks and acts as if he could hurt you even if he's not doing anything
Literally the type of guy that needs to go through exposure therapy in order to get used to the most minuscule touches
So you'll have to work hard until he allows you to carry him around sometimes
You can begin slow, after he's used to you hugging him
You can go for a hug, squeeze him tight and then finally lift him for a few seconds
He'll still be alarmed, but slowly he'll get used to your random bursts of affection that lead to you carrying him around
Once he's used to it, however, he thinks it's actually kind of relaxing
Feeling weightless for a little while in your arms is an unexpected bonus of his relationship with you
And he won't lie that it brings him great comfort that you're strong
Don't get him wrong, he still acts as if you're easily breakable
But maybe not as much... Just a little bit šŸ¤
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Alan before he got used to being carried vs Alan after he got used to being carried
Leo
Oh he LOOOOVES it
But only when he wants it, of course
As soon as he realizes you are strong enough to carry him around, he WILL be using this opportunity to be as lazy as possible
What do you expect from the guy who is plenty capable of doing anything with his ghoul strength but still asks Alan to open cans for him šŸ˜­
You will become his little lackey whenever he wants to be carried and you will 100% like it
Some of those weird cats are going around cleaning the dorm? Get up and carry him somewhere else xox
He found a new trend on tiktok abt partners carrying each other? Come here real quick and let him film a new video for his feed thx
Now YOU want to carry him out of nowhere when he didn't ask for it??
Now that's some audacity
Be ready to either be pushed away or to have some bubblegum stuck on your face for a long time šŸ«¶
He's like a poisonous animal, except instead of shooting out venom when he's distressed, he shoots out hazardous, life-threatening bubblegum
But hey, you should know better...
Don't pet the cat if the cat doesn't wanna be pet, duh
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Leo when he doesn't want to be carried vs when he wants to be carried
Sho
He finds it extremely embarrassing
No, you don't understand. He LIKES it. And THAT'S why it's embarrassing.
When you come running towards him while he's working, hug him tight and then lift and spin him around...
And he knows he's blushing like a fucking school girl in front of all of his customers..........
Please stop šŸ¤š
Actually, no. Don't stop. But please do that in private so he won't lose face in front of his customers.
Especially in front of that kid from Frostheim who he almost beat up. How is he going to defend his pride when he's tucked all comfortable and cute in your arms, being held high???????
Toxic masculinity aside, he loves to be carried by you
Loves to feel like you like him so much that you can't help but hold him so tight like that
He does the same to you and soon it becomes a competition of who's gonna carry who first when you two meet afterhours at his room
His favorite thing, however, is when he manages to kiss you while he's being carried
If you're going to make him all flustered like a little lovesick dumbass, then you bet he's gonna do the same to you šŸ«µā€¼ļø
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Sho when he's screaming inside and blushing bc you're carrying him in public vs Sho when you two are alone
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yayll Ā· 2 days ago
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IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE IT!!! Opposites attract are literally my favorite trope ever, i love bad boy unhinged rockstar Dazai and him developing a crush on the cute, considered the industry sweetheart who dresses in frills and bows idol/pop star Reader, and considering that idols change their outfits to support the themes of songs/tours i can imagine they get a matching outfit set one day and its rock styleā€¦..idol reader dressed in black and other dark colors, rips in their clothes and some skin showingā€¦ā€¦Rockstar!Dazai is biting the bars of his encloser-TeenZai anon
so sorry this is so late angel.... also i may have gotten a bit carried away w this concept................ i love u teenzai anon this one's for u and all the rockstar!dazai adorers out there (and for me bc i'm INSANE for this whole thing put me downnn) basically idol reader taking up dazai's rocker aesthetic for the concept/theme of the tour is literally the DEATH of him. and not in the way he's always wishing for >:3
~ a little something about Rockstar!Dazai and Popstar!Reader finding a middle ground ~
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You show up to soundcheck one morning completely in tune with the plan for the show but thinking nothing of it, because you're sweet and cool and in perfect flow! Something Dazai simply isn't and it makes him practically gawk as you saunter past him into the dressing room. a few moments later you walk out in a matching outfit that compliments the one he's wearing and it's all over. Completely fucking done. The man practically goes non-verbal for a few moments when he suddenly calls for his assistant to fetch him his pack of cigarettes so he can dash outside to the alley of the venue to get himself together. The nerve of you to look absolutely ravishing in a completely different aesthetic... So hot. So annoying.
Of course you follow behind him, curious and also hoping he's genuinely okay (you're not just a sweetheart for show and he hates that!) You find him leaning against the wall, his lighter failing to give him the flame he needs for his sweet relaxation. All he hears is soft giggling and light footsteps.
"I'll light it."
You take the lighter from him and flawlessly flicker it alive while he just watches you with the stick between his lips, amazed and slightly aroused. He can't help but notice the way his nerves seem to immediately settle with you nearby and it both comforts and concerns him. Dazai looks down at your face as you lean forward with the lighter, a tiny moment of softness appearing in his eyes as he watches you light the end of his cigarette, the flame from the lighter making his Hazelnut eyes light up slightly. He quickly takes in a long and deep drag, his shoulders visibly immediately relaxing once the smoke hits his lungs, and his cool guy demeanor is back on. You chime in, poking your head back into his line of sight.
"Better?"
You smile at him sweetly, always keeping things cordial.
"Much."
He stares at you under his messy bangs, his narrowed eyes softening by the second as his lips curl upward. You're just too true.
You simply hum, standing around idly though not in the way that claims awkwardness, but rather the comfortable kind of silence neither of them get to experience often in this fast paced industry. You look down at your black platform leather boots, a sheer contrast from who you usually present as and it somehow feels liberating. You breathe out, matching his coolness.
"Thought so."
He almost snorts at that, and turns back to look over the features of your angelic face. no amount of black you wear could overshadow the glimmer that follows you everywhere you go. You're a lucky star that's gone as quick as it comes. One day he'll make a wish on you.
"You know me so well."
You huff into a soft laugh that lingers and eventually dies in your throat when you realize the fluttering in your chest is only growing. Yikes. You mutter, low and careful.
"I just... Didn't want you to have a bad night tonight, I guess. With the concert and the album dropping and all... I hope you don't mind I'm sort of dressed like you, heh."
You end it with a shrug as you look ahead at the clouds in the sky and for the first time in a while you feel a tinge of nerves. you, the industry's sweetheart can still feel that after your major lasting success? shocking.
He huffs slightly in response, leaning his back against the wall and tilting his head up, staring up at the sky as he mutters back.
"It's not like I ever really have a totally good time on nights like this, anyway."
You flash your attention at him, tilting your head. In all your years of the supposed 'clashing' between you, you have never heard him speak this way.
"Nights 'like this'?"
He glances back over to you, bringing the cigarette back to his lips for another quick drag before responding, watching you stare at him intently.
"Ahh, performing. All the people. The fans being all over me. The media. All of it, all the time. It's exhausting, actually. I know I'm super hot and talented, but the performance doesn't always end when I get off that stage."
This causes you to lean in just a tad and murmur, curiously.
"... So why do it? All of this?"
And just when he's about to truly spill it all, talk about his never ending battle with his mortality and his career and the way you dominate every single topic in his mind, he simply just looks at you and blows cigarette smoke in your face with that signature smirk of his you always pretend to find so irritating.
"Sometimes it feels real and constant. It's the only thing I can count on... Other than seeing your silly little imitation of me on stage. Hate the mesh, by the way."
You simply stare, taken aback by his oddly sincere and blunt answer. You mutter under your breath as you bite your freshly manicured nails.
"...Yeah?"
Dazai hesitates a moment, his dark eyes glancing away from you as he takes another drag from the cigarette, a moment of vulnerability flickering through his expression. He takes another moment before responding, his voice gruff and a little shaky.
"Yeah..."
He continues to stare off to the side for a long moment, a hint of something like longing and painful restraint crossing his expression as he seems to internally struggle with something. Dazai's expression hardens a little as he finally looks back at you, his shoulders visibly tense as he puffs on the cigarette again, blowing out a long stream of smoke as he tries to push down his own feelings.
But you can tell, you can always tell. Media training, baby.
After what feels like an eternity, you reach out for his cigarette and take it in between your lips, taking a long drag of it yourself. You puff out smoke in a far less cool way than he made it seem, feigning nonchalance as if this isn't the first time you've ever even TRIED one of these damn things.
"Minty..."
He glances at you as you take the cigarette and take a drag yourself, a small but subtle flicker of curiosity in his expression. He watches you exhale and blow out the stream of smoke, before responding in a sardonic voice.
"Since when do you smoke, little miss bubblegum pop?"
You choke out a laugh, waving away the smoke to regain your breath. You smile faintly with a shrug as you hand it back to him after taking one more drag for good measure.
"I don't."
He raises his eyebrows slightly, giving you a look of mischief.
"Then why are you puffing on my cigarette, hm? Your manager would have a stroke if they saw you like this, you know. I'd be marked as a 'bad influence'~"
You shrug again and hum with all the bravery in the world your little heart can muster.
"...Tastes like you, is all."
He just continues to stare at you for a moment, processing your answer. Dazai's expression still remains as unreadable and emotionless as ever, but his eyes flicker for a moment, something indiscernible flashing through them for a fleeting second. It's the internal panic from how badly he wants to kiss you right here and now. He seems to hesitate for a moment before responding with a small smirk forming on his face and sounding wayyy too eager.
"...Is that a good thing?"
You exhale, the smoke leaving your nostrils as you murmur softly, eyes locked on his.
"...Yeah. It's a real and constant thing."
His breath hitches, shoulders visibly reacting by scrunching up as you give your answer. He doesn't say anything, but there's a flicker of something like vulnerability in his expression, a hint of softness around his eyes that betrays his usual cool and careless exterior. He remains silent for a moment longer before responding, his voice a low murmur.
"Yeah... Real."
And before you know it, you simply decide to say fuck it! And do something you'd never have the guts to do before Dazai and his ridiculous self entered your life. You lean in slowly, inching closer and closer to his lips. You're within an inch of kissing him when you whisper.
"... For good luck tonight, Osamu."
Dazai watches you in silence as you lean forward towards him, his expression going from unreadable to filled with pure unfiltered need. As you pause just inches away from his mouth, his eyes flicker once more, his dark irises shifting down to your lips for a second before returning to your eyes. For a moment he doesn't move, just staring down at you with an almost pathetically vulnerable expression on his face. You know better than to say his name like that. Then, in a low voice, he whispers back.
"... Shut up."
He leans down suddenly, pressing his lips against yours. Dazai's lips press against yours in a firm, almost desperate kiss. One of his arms wraps around your waist, pulling you flush against his body, while the other hand moves up to cradle the back of your head, threading his fingers through your purposefully messy yet somehow still soft hair. The kiss is passionate and intense, you can't even fathom how it's all gone down like this but you don't care.
Dazai thinks about how you taste delicious, sinful, and more importantly: Real.
For a few seconds, he kisses you deeply, his tongue exploring your mouth, before he finally breaks away, the both of you gasping for breath as he speaks in a quiet and hoarse voice.
"I can't think straight around you like this you silly little thing."
You smile, suddenly back to being bashful and absolutely ready for whatever happens tonight. You both look stunning and it's not just the outfits that speak on it. It's the genuine spark between you two, the collaboration everyone wanted but you NEEDED.
Just when you're about to reply to his snarky comment, your managers bust through the door to the alley and frantically fuss over you both as they yap about how late you are to soundcheck and the pre-show meet and greet. And why do you smell like cigarettes?!
Dazai turns up the charm and bad boy persona while you play up the apologetic and totally easygoing idol who's more than happy to make up for the lost time with the fans! And now in a different color scheme than they're used to!
Before you and Dazai are whisked away into opposite ends to finish getting ready, he leans into the shell of your ear, barely grazing it with his lips as he whispers playfully.
"You drive me crazy. See you on stage, and then maybe backstage~"
You swear you can feel every nerve in your body twitch when he smugly prances away from you after saying that.
... And of course the concert is a total jam, everyone's raving about the new music + matching outfits you're both sporting along with the undeniable chemistry you're cooking up. It's in the way you smile at each other in between songs, or when Dazai's singing a particularly flirty lyric he gazes at you instead of the screaming fans in the crowd. You dance and he watches, just like everybody else always does when you're in the room. Spellbound.
He may be wishing on you a little earlier than he thought he would be, but you don't seem to mind one bit, his lucky star. ā‹†ļ½”Ā°āœ©
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itwdoris Ā· 3 days ago
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WAWA!!!!!! I was spacing out during class and I canā€™t help but share this idea šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ™
I was fantasizing abt choso but it could be anyone else of ur choice!!! Thinkin bout reader and choso hanging out in the beach shade doing devious things šŸ˜› choso making reader piss themselves in the process but the thrill is there bc nobody has no idea the stain in their bathing suit is piss bc theyā€™re in the beach!!!! How fun!!! šŸ–ļø
That was quite long but thank you always for the quick response and delivery for our gang orders šŸ”„ Unbeatable service frfr šŸ”„šŸ”„
kamo choso x afab reader.
tw; peeing in public, mentions of sex, beach ( is a warning in itself.
ā˜…
it was a sunny day so you ended up going to the beach, nothing too much, and just taking the things you needed, ridiculously matching because choso wanted to. you both wanted to have fun!
but it was difficult for him, because he couldn't bear to see you coming out of the water wet, shining against the strong sun, coming towards him like a true deity. he could barely wipe the drool from his mouth.
it got harder every time.
and now to have you standing right in front of him with that desperate face because you needed to pee...
"please cho!" you asked him to go with you to the water, holding his hand and pulling him slightly. he was a little pink because of the sun, well, catching the first light after so long.
"why in the water?" he asked, looking at your cute pout. of course, he knew no one would notice in the water, but what was wrong with doing it right there on the sand? where he could see it.
"t-to disguise..." you looked away a little embarrassed to admit it, feeling something leak out and begging again before you had an accident. "please choso, its almost leaking..."
choso felt something burn, a lot of things, looking down at your bikini bottom and sighing.
he got on his knees, making you sit on the sand and spreading your legs. he looked around just to make sure he was safe, listening you whimper without being able to hold on much longer.
you moaned softly, looking at him while pressing your lips together, you squeezed as much as you could, and still kept leaking.
"do it here." he said, approaching to kiss your face, taking his hand to your pussy to stroke it lightly over the wet fabric. "let me see..."
you let out a relieved and needy sigh, then releasing your full bladder, lifting your hips slightly as the stream of piss gushed out, wetting the sand in front of you. your head hung back as you let go, receiving a single kiss from the man next to you, looking forward again.
and choso loved watching you pee so much, smiling with satisfaction as he watched the continuous stream, so concentrated. even though he couldn't see it on the fabric, he knew it was so wet, soaked, now with your piss.
he wanted to touch it, his cock throbbed in his pants because of it, amazed at the sight, he just couldn't help himself.
knowing that you would continue to be drenched in piss at least until you entered the water again, that no one would know that you had pissed yourself in front of him.
and they wouldn't even know that he'd stuck his long fingers inside your bikini to finger you while you finished peeing, no one would hear you moaning against his mouth, needing more and more, cumming for him.
no one would know that he took you to the water just to get to fuck your wet needy hole, to get to bury his cock inside it, no one would see how tightly he holds you by the hips, how he pulls you against him until he's as deep as he can go, how his seed filled you up.
no one would notice. that's why he was enjoying the beach so much.
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im sleepy but im posting! oh it is very short, honestly didn't have many ideas, i apologize lord. ( but i found the plot so fun! ( ...think i did it mediocrely and now i feel bad... =[
BUT, anyway, hope you like it <3 love love u!
also, loved the wawa!! oh thank thank thanku!! <3 <3 <3
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irraetional Ā· 5 months ago
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Blah blah blah the house always wins blah blah
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kizzington Ā· 22 days ago
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Not aiming this at anyone specifically, but Iā€™m genuinely so disappointed & annoyed at the fact no one in my real life circles bothered to reach out to me to check up on me regarding the recent Liam Payne/One Direction news.
#ignore if you want Iā€™m just gonna vent a minute#itā€™s been over 3 days now & almost nothing#They know I was/am a fan of at least 1d or could take a pretty good educated guess if nothing else#& yet not one person who knows me personally bothered to ask if I was alright#And honestlyā€¦ Iā€™m not#Iā€™m fucking struggling#itā€™s just so complex n confusing & Iā€™m having a really hard time coming to terms with everything#I get it people are busy and have their own things going#& they probably donā€™t think itā€™s a big deal losing Liam as it was just a silly little boyband to them#but to me n to everyone who was there for those years it feels so so strangely personal#like a longtime distant friend has just been ripped away so tragically#& not only the tragic death of a person but the death of your adolescence & all the innocence of that time#the end of an era that had so much joy n significance in your life#& I know itā€™s probably not easy to tell Iā€™m upset bc I keep my emotions pretty much exclusively to myself (thanks autism)#but honestly itā€™s just so invalidating and isolating to not have anyone to talk to#I already feel so completely alone in general bc no one ever checks in with me n stuff like this just solidifies that#I just donā€™t think it would have been so difficult just to drop a quick message to say ā€˜hope youā€™re okayā€™ or ā€˜thinking of youā€™ at least#it would have made a difference#& I know this post isnā€™t gonna matter to anyone but I just had to get my frustrations out somewhere bc itā€™s weighing on me a lot#anyway if you got to here thanks for your time n I hope youā€™re doing okay!!#feel free to reach out to me if you ever want/need to ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø#wow that was a lot#personal#Kirsty talks#my posts#my stuff#1d#Liam Payne#one direction
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the-greek-mythos-project Ā· 6 months ago
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The Greek Mythos Project: What We Accept Within Submissions
Hello everyone, it is once again Camila here and I am writing this post because I decided I should probably clarify things sooner than later. I know I and quite a few other lovely people can struggle with open barriers within things, especially in such a large and "imposing" project, so I decided to write down the general specifics of things to lessen everyone's anxiety. This can and will definitely be improved if we are given more information/questions/asked for clarification so feel free to check every once in a while or reach out if you don't see a specific question you have answered. This is once again here to promote better communication within things and break down this large project to more manageable things. So, let's get into it!
[Note: This post will go from the broader, more unspecific, topics to the smaller, more specific ones so feel free to scroll down or up as you please :)]
The Biggest Thing First! One Singular POV. This is something that I, Camila, want for the project and therefore, it will be the most enforced thing within here. Don't worry, though! We will be releasing a Second Work alongside this main project consisting of things that didn't quite fit into the original project, such as works that aren't exactly (or at all) one POV but still want to be recognized or OC pieces that are like reincarnations of various gods/mortals/characters which I'll get into later. So you work has a place with us, I promise you <3.
Anyway, back to the One Singular POV thing. It genuinely does not matter whether the piece is First Person, Second Person, Third Person, or something within those parameters as long as the setting, scene, thoughts, and work are being described in that one character's thoughts/experiences. A great example of this in Third Person is in the Heroes of Olympus by Rick Riordan, a popular YA Book Series centering around Greek Mythology in a Modern Setting told by their Demigod Children, where the narrative is in Third Person POV but it only ever follows whoever's POV it's in. Such as we do see the character's actual name and "he/she/they" instead of "I" but we're not privy to anything other than what the character is experiencing.
That is what I am asking for, and I am asking for this mostly for myself!) As we all may know by now, this project was created because I--Camila--took one look at my goal to rewrite the entirety of Greek Mythology in my search to learn more about the Greek Myths, was like "yeah... no," and then proceeded to make this public with the intent to bring out those niche writers, gain a community, make friends, and generally learn more about the various communities and ideas surrounding such a vast and deep thing such as Greek Mythology (remember, people not only know this across the globe, but across centuries. It's not just our ideas and the original texts, it's the Roman Empire's thoughts, the Rise of Christianity, all of our forefathers, and even those who we have read dissecting these things and creating academic papers or other works. It's just so interesting how much character and change and even how much influence various things have had on our modern perceptions). But, this is also a Project, this is also mine, and so I am very politely asking for it to be One POV of a Greek Mythological Character--However Niche They May Be--Only.
Thank you so much for understanding and, again, I will be hosting a Secondary Fic for all the things that don't quite fit under this Main Project but may still want to have the recognition/community that this comes with <3.
Note!! Because this post ended up being a little long and would be hard to properly organize going further, the rest of it will be comprised in reblogs <33
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clickityweasel Ā· 10 months ago
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made and destroyed a friendship at work today
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c0rpsedemon Ā· 9 months ago
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oh yeah. the reason why i decided to reread tbhk (and thus it was able to hit me like a truck this time around) was actually not bc of mitsukou going canon but actually bc i maybe accidentally started a tbhk book club w my kids at work and wanted to check the contents of it justttt in case before i put the books in their hands
#tl;dr i have this one 4th grade boy who's a total weeb and knows that i'm the only one in this town who's more into japanese media than him#so he pesters me abt it every time he sees me. and the thing abt this kid is that he gets bored easily and if he does he turns into a#complete menace. now a couple weeks ago. he shows up at the program w one piece volume one and spends the entire time he's there peacefully#reading and not causing any problems on purpose. my coworker owen (the one who climbed onto the roof) and i were shocked and in awe of how#peaceful he was being and came to the conclusion that he NEEDS to have a manga volume in his hands at all times. few minutes later.#he finishes reading and isn't bored yet so he decides to go talk to me abt manga. specifically he starts pestering me abt what shonen i've#read despite the fact that i am a shoujo reader and told him that. but he knows i've read kuroshitsuji bc he previously asked me abt what#the worst anime i've ever watched is and i will never not take an excuse to drag the adaptation. and he figures that if i've read kuro i've#probably read more. and so i mention tbhk and he asks more abt it bc of the name involving toilets and him being a 4th grade boy so i give#brief overview and he wants to read it. and i come up with a scheme to make him peaceful AND to give him something to talk to me abt which#isn't 'i know you've read more shonen manga' 'let me gacha on your phone' or 'i saw an ad for rent a gf. thought it was lame. and now want#you to tell me how it sucks bc i assume you know everything abt every animanga ever' (<does unfortunately know too much abt rent a gf bc i'#a bit of a nosy bastard and watched the mother's basement video). so i offered to bring it in bc i own physicals of the whole series and of#as previously mentioned. gave it a quick reread in advance just in case. and got hit by it. hard. i love you tbhk almost as much as i love#when ppl get into things through me. honestly i think getting to live vicariously through him might be one of the main reasons it got me#this time around and not as much the first time (still loved it the first time though). flash forward a little while. one of the 3rd grade#girls is like. really into reading. and also macabre things. like ghosts. and she has two books from the school library. and has had the#same two books from the school library for over a week. she reads quickly and finished them both in under a day and is now bored out of her#mind rereading them. she asks to read the books i've been letting the other kid read. now there are two of them#romeo.txt
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nyan-bynary Ā· 1 month ago
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I kinda disagree with humanising characters to the point of going "this thing happening in the story would not be what they want" bc that's not a real guy they don't really want anything. like yea I don't think a character like gojo would WANT to live in a world where he's no longer the strongest but I think that breaking his character down and building him back up like that would've been an interesting move? it certainly would fit him thematically, finally allowing him to move on in a way he never could have and all
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piplupod Ā· 4 months ago
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sometimes i think maybe it's a good thing i'm so traumatized and fucked up mentally and emotionally bc then i never expect ppl to be kind or even just plain old nice to me, so when they ARE kind or nice i feel overwhelming gratitude and almost a sense of awe HFDSJKL like... i dont know if i would have had this appreciation for each little piece of kindness if i wasn't the way that i am. but also i know thats kind of an absolutely wild way of thinking about this LMAO
#but then on the other side of things i still get really hurt when ppl are cruel or just the usual flavour of mean#like i had a mother with a stroller get huffy and aggressive w me yesterday as i was getting off the bus and that rly stuck w me#idk what else i could've done in that situation except control my tone a little better maybe but i was really anxious#because her stroller was in the way of the aisle and i was trying to figure out the fastest way to navigate around it to exit#bc the bus drivers are always in a hurry so i didnt want to keep anybody waiting while i got around her stroller#so i just said ''sorry i just need to get by'' and i think my tone was not Perfectly Pleasant bc i was really anxious and unsure#but i meant it as a ''sorry if i touch ur stroller as i squeeze past'' dsjfkl i didnt mean it like ''u need to move ur shit for me''#alas. i think she took it as the latter. also im pretty sure she was on edge already bc she knew her stroller would be in the way#anyways i said that and she did the thing where ppl throw up their hands in a really quick defensive/aggressive half-shrug gesture#where they're gesturing like ''what the fuck !!! what are you doing !!!'' idk how common that gesture is dsjkl i see it a lot around town#and i just quickly squeezed past her stroller and tried not to touch it as little as i could and then said thank you and scuttled away#BUT IT REALLY BOTHERED ME THAT SHE GOT SO HUFFY ABOUT IT. i've been trying to figure out what i could've done differently#unfortunately i think its just one of those things where we were BOTH anxious or on edge so she was just assuming i was being aggressive#bc she probably expected ppl to be rude about her stroller so... when u expect that it'll colour ur perceptions of ppls behaviours#so i am not even upset w her at all fsdjkl i simply wish it had gone better. alas!! what a silly little encounter to be ruminating over#ANYHOWDY... I am glad that i can have such appreciation for kindness when it happens fdsjkdl#like i had a little snippet of small talk about bananas with a stranger in the grocery store last year and i still think about it happily#bc idk. it means so much to me. making little connections w ppl! its very very important to me bc i dont get it very often!#and theres some kind things ppl have said to me online that have stuck with me or will stick with me for honest-to-god years fdsjkl#and perhaps i am a sap but ... I'm just glad i can hold these small bits of goodness so close to my heart bc it makes life a little nicer#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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autistic-shaiapouf Ā· 8 months ago
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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opens-up-4-nobody Ā· 2 years ago
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#u kno what i dont like? when i talk abt doing something completely bananas that i would absolutely do if i was even a little less socially#conscious and then whoever im talking to is like lol do it#idk maybe im just slightly distorted abt it but i have a compulsive need to do what ppl tell me to and i kno ppl would think i was real#weirf for doing the things so im just like. r u making fun of me? bc truely i cannot tell#like i dont have a good grasp on how well i read ppl. sometimes i think im ok at it. like i can deduce things from context clues#but if someone is not being clean then its fucking way over my head but idk sometimes i cant tell if im being made fun of#like u kno when u make someone laugh and ur like well i wasnt really trying to b funny. i was just saying whats in my head#so was that nervous laughter bc i said something kinda off the walls or was it laughter at my expense#again im probably just distortion bc my sister used to publicly call it out whenever i was being weird but idk#i just wish ppl said what they thought more. like dont say one thing to my face and then later text me something that indicates u were#thinking something entirely different in the moment. bc that's disorienting and it makes me think i can't trust my reading of ppl#i mean. it doesnt help that i dont look ppl in the face lol but whatever#i should sleep. i have jury duty tomorrow and i pray that i am not selected. tho it would force me to have a day off#bc im fucked up like that. no fun allowed. only work. and not enough sleep :-P#idk why im even thinking this?#i guess bc i was helping one of my lab mates with coding stuff and like idk ive spent way too long around him and i still dont#kno whats going on in his head. like idk hes not too bad but he also is very quick to jump on it when i do something wrong#like when i make a lil mistake i mean. and i think its in a teasing way but idk it feels weird. like he thinks hes caught me fucking up#and im like ...yea? i mean yea that was a dumb thing i did. or like yeah i cant spell or remember plant codes? idk maybe he just thinks#its funny. it doesnt upset me or anything. i just think its kinda weird and i dont get it so it puts me on edge#idk he says things sometimes and im like... ok ur star war5 options make me nervous abt the general opinions u hold but i dont kno how to#manipulate u into a revealing conversation. idk his not that bad just puts me on edge a lil and i have to b around him a lot so i sit here#man wtf is his deal? let me psychoanalyze u#unrelated
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helielune Ā· 2 months ago
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#i was like lets make a cute little thing really quick and then i tunnel visioned for.... 20 mins?#don't open the tags unless you're prepared for a wall of text#my art#another one of those images which uncomfortably straddle the line between 'my scribbles' and 'my actual work that i put real effort into'#anyway this is me after i was like let's make a proof of concept for a productivity app it'll be fun and fast#and in order to make a full proof of concept i went back to the initial thoughts i had about the app (which i wrote down of course)#so i could. y'know. get the full concept down. and then i read like thousands of words of completely disorganized spitballing. head spinnin#but also did you know that me from what. like 3 years ago? shares remarkably similar ideals as me today. who would have thought really.#i had forgotten about half of the stuff that i originally wanted in the app and now my app idea is slightly bigger#(my already big mind palace app is already. big)#and maybe you'd be like 'wow okay that just means you grew up and developed so you don't need them anymore!' false sense of security it's#actually because i am no longer a student and also have no job so my daily life is different but my work ethic (lack thereof??)#is still the. same. so if i were ever to work in a society again i would need. them. most likely#and the other half of the stuff that i originally wanted are things that i unwittingly wrote into my recent drafts so yeah i got kinda#blindsided by myself back there. 'oh shit YOU were the one who came up with this first. wtf i thought i was being original and innovative'#slight exaggeration bc what im making is like 98% clone and 2% not clone (but maybe still 99% clone bc there might be another app out there#that i just haven't heard of but is like exactly the same as what i am thinking in my head)a nyways#okay yeah uhhhhhhh so i'll be back at some point with more fun words good night fellows#also did you know that ms paint has layers now (not that new news) and also doesn't let you save in layers that's crazy shit
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weirdlittlefish Ā· 3 months ago
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#I hate spiraling#I managed to stop before it got worse but now Iā€™m just still in a state from the spiraling and Iā€™m just. Iā€™m so tired of thinking Iā€™m dying#everyday itā€™s so exhausting and the fear is never ending and the worry that maybe I am really dying and I have no idea bc Iā€™m scared to go#to the doctor and then itā€™s my fault I waited so long etc. and then itā€™s like if I am what have I even done with my life? what is there to#be proud of or look at and feel fulfilled? atp in my life I have wasted my life Iā€™ve done nothing and Iā€™m rotting away and itā€™s like if I#found out I was dying itā€™s like thatā€™s all I got I wasted so much time etc. and Iā€™m just spiraling out tonight man it sucks I hate this I#hate my brain I just want to be fucking normal and not be scared everyday that Iā€™m genuinely dying and itā€™s my fault and that Iā€™m wasting my#life away not doing so many things I wanted to and like you think well jay shouldnā€™t that encourage you to live life to the fullest of your#ability? and yeah Iā€™d love to but then my head just thinks all those things again and the cycle repeats and I just am so terrified as soon#as something in my body hurts or something is off etc. because my immediate thought is just its fucking over man and Iā€™m too scared to go#to the doctor about things and Iā€™m just repeating shit now Iā€™m sorry if anyone Ben reads this far Iā€™m obviously having a night#Iā€™m just talking to the wall with this post but it helps me calm down a little I guess#god I need a therapist I stopped looking but I think itā€™s time I get back on that and quick because I really donā€™t think I can keep living#this way anymore it is so genuinely exhausting and I dont know how to help myself with it#sorry if anyone gets a peek at this actually. I obviously need help and this is just an outlet for me rn ig
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masqueradeoftheguilty Ā· 10 months ago
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i have to keep reminding myself im not on a deadline for a new painting (after working on my new years redraw close to the date. again) but im also working awfully slow and raaaahhhh i wanna do main painting but i also want to actually be settled on designs so i dont screw myself over laterrrr
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