#this is jsut a thing ive noticed

[sacrifical-lamb-core]

Oh no! This internet user is taking their personal triggers and treating everyone who jokes about them as evil.

[angelsaxis]

whyyyy are editors so expensive

[milchig-de]

Lighting up

Pairing: Lighter x Reader

Warnings: 18+ etc, blowjob, making out and some touching sexual style

Summary: Lighter gives you a blowjob.

Notes: 1. im not proof reading this i jsut got like crazy horny

the gif ive added is the exact thing that inspired this. idk i just want to push my dick into his mouth ahahaha *blushes*

His kisses melt your skin, leaving behind almost burning reminders of your night with him. His lips are so soft, you wish you could kiss them every night. Every part of him is overwhelming, his smell, his touch, his gaze; fixated on you, eyeing you like you're an opponent in the ring.

Yet you persist through those sensations, returning every one of his kisses, his touches. You let him undress you, ever so sensually pulling your top off to squeeze your body, flicking his fingers across your nipples. You can't help but steal a glance at his chest; though it's still fully covered, you can only imagine how full they are.

He pretends he doesn't notice your gaze, but his hands stutter in his ministrations, excited by the thought he could be seen as desirable in such a way. It makes his heart set alight and it only encourages him to slide his hands down to your pants. Taking his time in opening them he glances up at you. You're panting like you've run a marathon, utterly flushed. Suddenly he can't wait anymore and pulls them down along with your underwear, causing your very erect cock to spring against your stomach.

Lighter admires it for a second before enveloping it in his hands. They're a little rough against your dick, but it only serves to make you throb even harder, the friction positively delicious.

He slowly moves his hand up and down your cock, teasing you with a smirk on his face. You whine, plead for him to do more. Though you hardly need to do any talking when your cock keeps throbbing and even starts beading pre-cum at the tip.

He leans in to your dick, letting you feel his hot breath against it. A whimper escapes you, your hands tightly gripping the surface beneath you. Then, he licks your pre-cum off. Unyielding, he keeps giving your dick little licks. It only fuels your desire, like pouring one of Burnice's mixtures into an open flame.

Only when he's satisfied with your whining and throbbing does he take your tip into his mouth, swirling his tongue around you. You can barely handle it, unable to look down. Still, you tangle a hand in his hair, unconsciously stroking his head. The gesture only fuels him, urging him to take you even deeper. And so he does, gently taking more and more of you down his throat until his nose hits your stomach.

You make the mistake of looking down when he slides off, his lips wrapped around your cock, the drool falling out of his mouth- it's all too much for you, so you thrust into his mouth. He almost chokes at this, causing you to apologize. Worried you had seriously hurt him, you try to check on him, but he simply deepthroats you again. Unable to say anything else, you lean back again, letting him set the pace.

Each and every time he slides to take you fully, you have to suppress the urge to buck into him and destroy his face, your legs twitching around him. When he comes up, he makes sure to keep only the tip in his mouth and spoil you with his tongue, all the while using one of his hands to stroke your cock.

With this, an unbearable heat builds up in you, your dick throbbing and twitching in his mouth until you simply can't hold it anymore. You grab his head and pull him towards you, forcing him to take you balls deep, shooting your cum straight down his throat. Though he managed to prepare for deep throating you thanks to his quick reflexes, he didn't know you would cum so much. Your cum spilled out of the sides of his mouth as he gagged a bit, it was simply too much for him.

Once you've come down from your orgasm, you quickly let him go. He pulls off your dick and you swear the sight of his fucked out face, cum and drool leaking from his mouth is almost enough to make you cum again.

But instead you lean down and lick your own cum off his face, ending with shoving your tongue into his mouth. You wanted to clean him off with tissues, but you didn't have anything at hand so you had to improvise.

His heart and dick flutter at your gesture, returning the kiss with equal enthusiasm. When you retreat afterwards however, he quickly moves to get himself back in order, adjusting his clothes and wiping any remaining fluids off of him. Then he gets up, cool as ever, his sunglasses glinting in the low light.

"That was nice, thanks for the invite. See ya 'round."

And with that he simply leaves, leaving you to wonder if that was even real.

[mamadarama]

IM SO SORRY IKEEP ACCIDNENTANLY UNFOLLOWIGN U BC THE ASK BUTTON IS NEXT TO IT 😭😭😭 i love ur content so MUCH i would NEVER unfollow on purpose omgg 😭

also anyways imjust wonderign , have u ever thought abt what would happen if yumenosaki didnt exisr inthe first place ???? like. what if they all jsut go live normal lives. or maybe if any of the major events in tthe storyline never happened. cause youre so amazing at analyzing stuff so id realllyyyyy like 2 hear ur thoughts <333 THAMKYOU!!!!! have a nice day :DD

OHH LOL OK i was like hey didnt this person follow me the other day? ive done that before too

i have thought abt that!!! i think some of them would still end up being idol adjacent? also a lot of characters grew up in the same area so they might end up going to the same school or smth anyways so theyd still know each other.

wataru is a stage/movie actor and eichi buys vip seats to all his shows until he notices him . kanata and kaoru are both marine biologists. madara is still exiled and starts traveling doing god knows what, but comes home to japan sooner than he wouldve if eichi didnt stall him during the war. in japan he continues to do god knows what. odd jobs and the like. chiaki and kanata still meet and kanata is saved from the cult. chiaki might go on to become a professional basketball player? izumi and makoto dont have a falling out bc the war never caused leo to break down, so izumi doesnt get paranoid for makotos safety. both of them along with arashi are models and leo is still a composer. arashi would also be a divorce attorney purely on the basis that i think she would be really good at it. rei retains most of his 2nd yr personality and simply mellows out a little instead of acting like an old man, and his friendship with keito wouldnt fall apart. keito is a mangaka and a teacher. hes trying to keep those identities separate but who knows how long thatll last. koga and rei still form deadmanz but keito wouldnt join. instead theyd be a duo unit until koga invites adonis to join, and this time adonis actually gets the chance to since deadmanz wont disband before koga can invite him. kaoru might join later, but its more of a hobby and his primary goal is still taking over and carrying on his mothers research. he works at kanatas aquarium. adonis is a park ranger. i think souma would be a teacher. either biology or a weapons class, or both. kuro and shu are both fashion designers but kuro would specialize in costumes and shu would do mostly high fashion lines for runways. kuro also does wrestling, he intended for it to be just a hobby but he ended up being a fan favorite so now hes better known for that than he is for his costume work. mika is shus apprentice still. hiyori is dawdling and unsure of what he wants to do, but in the meantime hes busying himself with making youtube videos (think jenna marbles). he still meets jun in school. jun is a streamer but he also has a fitness blog and works part time as a personal trainer. pretty average life but with the added bonus that he lives with hiyori, so he doesnt have to worry about money as much. nagisa is a geologist and historian. he works at a museum, thats about it. he still stayed with hiyori until he was adopted by his current family. ibara is the ceo of some company. yuzuru is toris butler still and tori is learning what he needs to do as his family's heir. tsukasa is doing the same. yuzuru and ibara dont meet again after ibara leaves the military facility. ritsu is a professional pianist, hes known for theming his performances around his vampire thing and playing creepy organ music, except on a piano. mao is a freelance photographer and a tutor. makoto continues to be a model, but also does gamedev and photography on the side. he also streams with jun and natsume and has a radio show with the rest of trickstar. anzu would still get transferred to whatever all boys school trickstar is going to, but instead of being trickstars producer shes just part of their friend group and theres no war. switch exists as a magic act, performing at events and whatnot. tsumugi also has his own fortune telling business and works as a librarian, and sora is a competitive gymnast. hajime is a botanist and works for the city managing public gardens. mitsuru became an olympic athlete. when nazuna graduated he went to college to do ...whatever it is hes doing. since there was no unit keeping them together, he was able to just stop talking to shu and they eventually drifted apart painlessly. tomoya and hokuto are actors. subaru is a solo idol. the twins street performances took off and they became a well known acrobatic duo. shinobu is a radio host and has a podcast where he talks about anime. tetora is a competitive martial artist. midori happily works as a vegetable farmer with his family.

rinne and niki live the same way they did before becoming idols, except niki has a cooking show. tsukasa secretly helps kohaku escape from his family and silently passes his allowance over to kohaku so he can live somewhere safe. as soon as he can he gets back into contact with aira. he lives alone like niki did when he was 14 and spends a lot of time in the library trying to homeschool himself. aira is still an idol fanatic but doesnt become an idol. hiiro goes to look for rinne, but rinne refuses to leave and hiiro goes home after making rinne promise hell still visit home sometimes. hiiro takes rinnes place as the next monarch. tatsumi and kaname still go to the same school but kaname never has the accident, so oremeru never abandons his identity and has no reason to hate tatsumi. tatsumi is learning to be a priest from his dad and will eventually take over as the pastor at his family's church. since es was never built on the same land as the ayase's bunker, mayoi would stay underground for longer. if he left at some point hed be a visual artist and submit his work to galleries. he probably wouldnt meet the rest of alkaloid, at least not right away.

so thats what i think would happen, more or less.

[tiiiiiired]

hello! i saw you on the viktor community & i had some questions of my own! ive been considering writing a fic about him exploring his general feelings (i want to explore writing about that--rough idea but whatever), mostly bc the way he described himself feeling & looking was how i used to feel... but i am also able-bodied--& thusly i have a few quick questions! ok, so first of all; do you reckon he would experience joint pain in his knee/ankle/hip--& if so what type? i have some bc of low muscle mass, but i also know that the pain from an ankle injury is wayyy different (personal experience)... but what viktor has hits me differently. would the pain jsut be from the brace? would it be from the brace holding his leg in position? would the leg's joints hurt regardless? & on a similar note--what do you reckon is the reason for his back brace? i did notice some bolts(?) in his spine, so i assume it to be alignment-related... but do you reckon it could also help with pain? (im a big fan of compression stuff, so thats the best i can think of it as an analogy to)....... also same beat of pain/etc

ok & this is WAYYY more general, but are there any other super major things to consider? mostly just about how he'd go about his life & such! tysm! its super awesome to be able to hear about other's people experiences <3

Regarding pain, this is going to be dependent on the source of his low muscle tone, but there are a few sources of pain that are relatively universal among us low muscle tone folks. I'd actually recommend sticking to those universal experiences over trying to pinpoint his exact condition as Arcane doesn't specify, there's a bunch of genetic and environmental factors for disabilities like this, and these disabilities are all REALLY complex.

I chatted a bit about brace and leg position pain in my previous ask here, so I'll skip that topic for this ask. But a source of pain I didn't mention in the previous post is the general pain and exhaustion of the condition itself, regardless of bracing. When you don't have a lot of muscle tone, there's not a lot holding your joints steady. This results in you overcompensating with the muscles you do have. For example, if you have a really unstable leg, you'll put more pressure on the less unstable leg and often push your bad leg forward using your hips, glutes, and lower back which puts a lot of strain on them. The result is that you can get further complications in these parts of the body, including chronic pain. I was born with a dropped foot (aka I dragged my foot along the ground similarly to how Viktor does in the flashback to his childhood) so to get my foot up and off the ground I had to put a lot of weight on my good leg and kind of use my hip and low back to swing my leg forward in a sort of half-circle motion (the animators did a good job approximating this in a few scenes, iirc, but I should rewatch to confirm). This is pretty bad for your body as bodies evolved in this kind of "tall line" shape so your weight is distributed evenly to your heels when you stand and is evenly moved around when you walk. Many folks with uneven walking postures end up with pain in the lower back, hips, glutes (and, where relevant, the "good" leg) as a result.

The affected joints will also hurt regardless. I actually got diagnosed primarily because I had some pretty wicked knee pain at an age where Pretty Wicked Knee Pain is abnormal. When you lack muscle tone in these regions the affected joints lose stability and you get lateral movement of the joints of the leg (so rather than the join just hinging at the knee or twisting as per usual, there's a tiny bit of sideways movement at the knee joint. This is hard to explain verbally so if I find a good diagram I'll come back and add it here). You also get something called patellar maltracking, where the kneecap moves in directions it isn't supposed to. This wears down the cartilage that lubricates the bones and eventually results in some pretty wild pain when moving the knee or weightbearing through the knee. Similar shit happens in the ankle and in a bunch of other joints. When this wears down, it makes the affected joint stiffen with cold (yes, fanfic writers who included this, I did notice and I hope you know I love all of you). This can also happen to folks who just don't have a lot of muscle for non-disability reasons, which is why some non disabled folks seem to get injured a lot.

As for the back brace, this (mostly) exits personal experience territory and enters workplace experience territory for me. I noticed the bolts too, so I think we're both onto something there. It seems like a steampunk inspired version of an external fixator (here's the wikipedia article for it, but tw for medical imaging and healed injuries) or what the skin would look like after healing around the bolts for external fixators (once the big cage part is taken off). These are usually used to hold joints in place or to slowly expand them. When I worked in hospitals I'd see these in patients with severe scoliosis who underwent more invasive forms of spinal fusion. This fits Viktor pretty well. When you have a disability that affects your muscle tone, it'll affect the muscle tone over your whole body (thus his smaller frame, gaunt facial features, and kind of "floppy" movements in some scenes), with high movement and high impact areas degenerating faster (like your back and legs). When the muscles in your back start to go, your spine loses stability and can curve, with the curve worsening over time. For most of us, physical therapy and bracing is enough, but if the curve gets too bad or is causing serious pressure on the discs, a surgery like spinal fusion is your only option to keep your back straight and keep you from getting neurological damage as a result of the spine pressure. While I've got a degree in neuroscience and do have back complications due to low muscle tone, I'm not a doctor so I can't say for sure that's what's going on here. But that's my educated guess. In terms of pain, it's a trade off. External fixation and spinal fusion are both deeply painful because they drill into bone. However, if your spine was damaged badly enough to qualify for a surgery like that, it's probably less painful to get the surgery than to not get it, and it reduces your risk of further neurological damage like paralysis.

In terms of other things to consider, oh man that's a tough one bc it's a pretty general question. Low muscle tone affects a lot of what I do, from the way I walk to how I cook to what clothes I wear. My biggest recommendation is to be mindful of two things: his disability will affect everything he does, but he was also a very independent person (when ofc not dying) in the show. So strike a balance between these things. Like I cook for myself, but I can cook for myself because I figured out solutions like buying shorter walled pots and pans, sitting while I cook, and dragging pots of water along my counter instead of carrying them to the stove. When writing disabled characters you don't need to describe every minor accommodation they make for themselves because the character themself might not even fully notice those accommodations (I didn't notice the heavy pot dragging thing until a friend commented on it). Instead, just drop in something every once in a while to show that they noticed. We tend to notice more when something is a big burden or when something disrupts our usual methods of doing things. Those might be good moments to bring attention to the ways Viktor has to do things differently. If any specific things come to mind as you create, feel free to reach out and I'm happy to chat about how I do them!

Sorry this is another wildly long post but I hope this helps! Feel free to reach out for any clarifications!

[zgatotoon]

HAI I JSUT WANTED TO APOLOGIZE CUZ I NOTICED IVE BEEN THE FIRST TO INTERACT WITH SOME OF UR POSTS AND IM SORRY IF THATS WEIRD OR SOMETHING I JUST HAVE NOTIFS ON FOR YOUR POSTS AND GET REALLY EXCITED TO SEE YOUR ART HELP i love ur tsukasa so much oh my gosh hes so oofie goofie in ur style I LOVE UR PJSK ART IN GENERAL I LOVE IT ALL. okay yah thats it I LOVE UR ART RRRAAAHHH 💥💥💥 also have this kasa he is pocket sized and is thinking about very silly things

It's okayfhks no need to apologize <3 I feel flattered to know you get so happy to see my art :D and thank you for the pocket size Tsukasa! I'll be keeping him safe in my pocket forever!

[superpeeboy]

Evil thoughts and headcanons about benny and gcbc below

Benny is mad-scientist-adjacent in my mind. He’s almost one of those but hes an engineer instead. Still a freak.

Benny has facial hair. its in the storyboards and I cling to it like a koala to a tree during a forest fire

Benny IS short but he floats to peoples height so most don’t even notice

Old ass men. Benny would be born sometime before the 80s so he could actually grow up during that time! 1970 something.

For that matter, GCBC is also old as hell. Similar age to benny but he did not age anywhere near as well 😭😭 UGLY!

Benny and GCBC play fight like dogs.

Benny is NOT SKINNY!! this man eats ice cream every day he would not be skinny! no!

And for that matter, GCBC isn’t skinny either. Fat GCBC or death!

Hard of hearing benny. He works with spaceships those things are loud!

I dont think benny would care about pronouns. I usually use he/him for benny but i really dont think hed have a preference like everyone calls him he/him so he just goes with it.

On the other clawhand, GCBC is WOKE!!! He/it good cop he/she bad cop, collectively he/they because they are literally TWO GUYS!!!

More lgbt stuff. I think Gay Cop Bisexual Cop is funny to say so i go with it for that reason. Benny is probably also gay HE LOOKS GAY!

Good cop probably likes to go to the library. He just looks like he does. Round glasses. NERD!!

Benny is more evil than GCBC. The girls that get it get it and the girls that dont dont.

…I LOVE EVIL BENNY! i must continue. I feel like in the drafts for the lego movie benny was just absolutely deranged and they had to tone it down a bit for the final film but i love that he was such a freak! like what was his issue. all the removed stuff ive seen with benny was just him absolutely tweaking. AND HE KILLED GCBC he did that in the draft script and it was so awesome and he didnt even feel bad i love it!!

outside of like actual stuff from tlm i also think people infantilize benny a lot and its fun to just make him absolutely horrible to spite that.

also! Benny has brain damage the evil way… I project a lot for this cuz GIRL ME TOO! he has poor control over his own limbs and cant hold a train of thought very well and i dont want to continue cuz i takea lot of this specifically from my own experiences but those are just a couple things 🤔

I feel insane talking about this but i swear bad cop has an interest in cowboys. when emmet and lucy escape it seems like the first place she checks is the old west (i know its jsut movie logic… BUT STILL!), the folks in the old west recognize her theyre literally shaking cuz shes SCARY!! and she knows her way around the place pretty well which both of those are probably from her job but IDC!! now when she said “get off my train” WHAT IF what if she just felt protective over old west propertyy also in the behind the bricks video she mentions cowboys even though they were NOT that big of a part of the movie!! evil speculating on a fictional characters interests 😭😭😭

if they were birds gcbc would be an owl and benny would be a blue footed booby. also not about my main slop characters but related to bird legos, metalbeard would be an albatross.

continuing with owl cop, hes an owl because owls have large circular eyes, yet their eyes can also be very reflective, and they can twist their heads about.

if they were cats gcbc would be a tiger just so they could say “you bit the wrong tigers tail” and benny would be a serval

if they were dogs gcbc would be a german shepherd, obvious choice, and benny would be a schnauzer

if they were fish gcbc would be good cod bad cod just for the name and benny would be a pleco

when picking good cop up he would curl up like a happy kitty hed really like being picked up and when picking bad cop up he would scramble and claw at you in fear of falling (she is a frightened animal)

Good cop would watch kids cartoons in his free time, if he had any 💀

Good cop the type of guy to say “geeze louise”

Good cop the type of guy say “you wouldnt hit a guy with glasses would ya?”

Good cop the type of guy to say “ohh butterfingers” after dropping something

Good cop the type of guy to look for his tv remote and say “if i were the tv remote where would i be?”

Good cop the type of guy to close the fridge door with his hips

Good cop definitely has the urge to just collect trinkets but not the time nor money, maybe on weekends hed visit thrift shops just to get random stuff

Good cop and benny both seem like they chew on things when nervous

Both good cop and bad cop like the color pink but bad cop would be a bit more embarassed to share that. at home they definitely have pink blankets and pillows and all sorts of pink

Everyone is autistic if you think hard enough.

I love how everyone agrees that bad cop takes after his mother and good cop his father. Unanimous agreement ive never seen anyone headcanon it the other way

I say this as a joke but i dont have any way that i think gcbc wouldve come to be so its basically my headcanon even if its a joke. Good cop ate bad cop in the womb. Thats why theyre like that. And ma cop was terrified because she was set to have twins and only had one baby. 💀💀

Benny has definitely been hit with the “Hes smart but he doesnt apply himself” thing in the past.

GCBC is not a pale white man. Not happening. He would not do that!

If they participated in a chicken fight, gcbc would be on benny’s shoulders (as the cops cannot swim)

Good cop’s eyes are so big they squash his brain

[meangirlsautism]

do you have any headcanons for any ships ?? id love to hear them mean girls is like my new obsession

HEHEHE YES!!!!!!!!!!

im just kidding im like the worst person to ask this BUUUUUT i shall conjure something up.. jsut for you... ALSO NEW MEAN GIRLS FAN YAAAY

going throuhg my notes, i made a lil ship headcanons thing on my notes app in april 2020. and all i got around to making was stuff for karen/cady. completely random but ! better than head being completely empty. so i shall reference some of that and make other stuff up on the spot (for that and other pairings). enjoy!

also im like.. super unfamiliar w/ how romantic relationships Are and how human beings function in general so like.. youre fully allowed to view these however you want (platonic, romantic, etc), i just enjoy dynamics and character interactions. i know you specifically asked for ships but ! my lil headcanons will def be more vague, if that makes sense, sorry abt that! still, hope these suffice! if you ever wanted to ask for SPECIFIC pairings too just hmu or send an ask or smth :] (as a disclaimer, im not referencing a specific MG here, im more familiar w/ slash enjoy the musical the most but ! interpret them as any version i suppose)

karen/cady

not really a headcanon but the whole like "i like cady, she's nice to me." i eat that shit up. i love them and their relationship, in like, all adaptations

and specifically for the 2024 movie.. the way karen is the only person to text cady during her suspension... and how she reassures her that thyere still friends.. (similar to the bway version)... UGH!!!!!! love that so much

actually, we should be more insane for cady / the other plastics. both romantically and platonically

anyway, on to the actual hcs

karen rly likes to fidget w/ something so cady always gives her like hand or hair to play with

karen LOOVES cady's freckles. def loves to count / trace them

karen is def a tad confused as to why cady is so patient w/ her, so nice to her, etc. since i feel she's been often ... dismissed her whole life. and treated Not Great due to how she functions

that doesn't rly matter to cady. she constantly reassures karen and is there for her and reminds her that she's more than other people's opinions of her, more than her intelligence, etc. and cady never gets tired of it

cady always listens to whatever karen has to say, even if it's the tiniest, most ridiculous thing

cady helps her w/ school stuff

karen def sits + listens to cady infodump abt the wildlife she observed / learned abt in africa

i can see karen enjoying nature and whatnot. she doesn't necessarily "understand" the science aspect behind it all btu she enjoys it bc :) hehe. animals.

i can see her getting good at like.. identifying species and stuff bc of cady though

karen prob enjoys physical touch and stuff. i dont think cady is opposed to it but she's not like ... used to it much

or i suppose, used to giving it much? she's cool w/ receiving it, and as ive mentioned earlier, karen def likes to be feeling / playing w/ something. its like a fidget / stim for her

anyway autism🤝autism

gretchen/cady

ALSO autism🤝autism

they def love infodumping to each other... abt what exactly? yes

not too sure abt gretchen,still have to come up w/ special interests and whatnot fo rher but. cady its def like. math. and biology and zoology and shit

gretchen has sort of been told and taught that her input isnt needed or appreciated, so near the beginning of w/e relationship they have, she often kept to herself and didn't ramble as much

cady ofc noticed this, and tried her best to like.. encourage gretchen and whatnot

but, at the same time, she understood why she wouldnt open up RIGHT away yk. she understood that these things take time

once again, cady often reassures her, abt different things than w/ karen ofc but, its still reassurance

gretchen obv becomes like .. SUPER attached to ppl who pay attention to her and whatnot. even if the overall situation is shitty

at some point, she probably just thought she didn't deserve anything more. that what she got was the best she was going to get. and so, she felt she couldn't leave and find something better for herself

anyway. of course in canon (esp in the bway version) cady also wasnt the greatest / most understanding towards gretchen blah blah. whatever .

deep down we KNOW that cady is a kind and caring and nice person. she just wants to be well liked

whatever!!!!! cady shows gretchen what love and care TRULY feels like . and i think after some time the codependency on gretchen's end lessens a bit. esp after she realizes that . oh... this is what ive always deserved. and needed. and she understands that she's not expendable, that cady DOESN'T actually secretly hate her. that cady WON'T just throw her away if the opportunity comes

i think gretchen would chill out a bit if she's just shown true love and compassion im serious. and maybe some medication would help too

gretchen def likes / wants cady to be touching her at like.. all times. hand holding mostly, but stuff along the lines of that

gretchen is like .. weird w/ touch i think. considers it sacred, and yet craves it sooo bad

she probably only rly allows it w/ ppl she REALLY trusts . despite being very touch starved

both sooooo awkward lbr

ESP w/ deeper relationships

cady is just.. obv was homeschooled for most of her life. gretchen is just a ball of anxiety

also, based on gretchen's past experiences, her relationships (both romantic and platonic) havent been ........ the greatest, as ive talked abt before, and so she finally finds someone who like.. she's comfortable with? who she knows will Love her? she's extra awkward fr

doesn't want to mess up, lose them, etc etc

regina/cady

a loooong time ago i think, i saw a headcanon talking abt how regina has freckles. but she just covers them up

and i LOOOOVE that thought soooo mcuh

eventually wrote a little messy thing for it

but anyway. cady finds this out eventually and she is so :D

bc i see cady as having a ton of freckles too and yeah

but yeah. cady finds this out and is SO happy bc regina's sort of look like hers and ough

cady likes to compare them to like.. constellations and stars and shit. esp when regina complains abt them / is openly negative abt them

regina doesn't necessarily like her freckles bc its an imperfection in her eyes i suppose

but cady absolutely changes her mind on them

in fact, i bet they start reminding her of cady

she goes about it so nonchalantly but, some days she "forgets" to put on makeup . not just for cady or anything, nooo way

which is saying something for regina bc you just knoooow she barely leaves the house without applying SOMETHING

(i dont have freckles myself so sorry if this sounds ignorant or smth!)

cady is ..... very awkward . i think . esp w/ relationships, ANY relationship at that

regina should know this (she doesn't)

she lowkey expects these special things and whatnot from cady and cady is just :)?

bc she does NOT know what the hell is going on

most times, anyway. i t hink she sort of picks up on shit as she goes through school but like..

that's cause she purposely observes other ppl / couples / friends to see what they do . and then she basically adopts that shit

i started making these and i didnt evne like.. have a set timeline in mind for them. bc realistically a lot of these relationships would not last in canon / post canon. or form at all lbr. but lets pretend. i guess most of these follow canon / is canon compliant. w/ some wishful thinking / AUs. ...IF THAT MAKES SENSE

janis/gretchen

dont rly think theyd be toooo good for each other but. honestly who else here really is LOL most if not all the characters would have a loooot to do introspective wise before actually getting into any relationship BUT . for these few minutes . let us pretend

assuming we're talking abt them in a canon compliant world, they'd..... def have a lot to unpack together. from regina alone esp

i think they'd be able to help each other out w/ that sort of thing

ESP w/ the trauma they got from regina

it just affected them both in veeeery different ways

janis' turned into anger. where gretchen's turned into anxiety

they both realistically would NOT be ready for a romantic relationship, as i mentioned previously

and even something non romantic? i dont think theyd ever be able to form a normal relationship of ANY kind ever again

BUT. but. maybe they see themself in the other . maybe they want to help try and fix the other . bc maybe then it will help fix themself

hopefully that makes sense idk im just saying shit atp

most relationships where the ppl involved r incredibly similar dont end up working but like ..

janis and gretchen arent necessarily similar. they just have similar experiences. which could easily strengthen their relationship

they're fucked up in the same way.. you feel me

ANYWAY

i wrote this idea thing awhile back and its like.. gretchen cutting her hair short and janis seeing this and going ... hm. bc she senses the repressed homosexual or whatever. and she confronts her about it blah blah

anywho. i see gretchen as a lesbian. unsure atm whether shes like.. aware of it or not. ANYway, as we all know, janis is a Professional Lesbian or whatever, so i think janis like... helps her w/ that sort of stuff?

uhhhmmm oh right the hair. i totally see gretchen fucking w/ her hair following the canon events. and ofc i also see janis as someone who has messed w/ her hair a TON...

i think she helps gretchen experiment w/ that. her style too

sort of related.. but janis also def helps gretchen in managing and dealing w/ her anger and shit

bc janis sees that its THERE. its just buried deeeep within her

and gretchen helps janis deal w/ her more ...... softer? emotions

as seen in the musical... janis is NOT afraid to physically express her love. which seems super unlike her and her demeanor, i love it

and once again, gretchen is like ..... she needs this shit or else she will DIE (and yet touch lowkey makes her uncomfortable, depending on her mood and the time)

and so.. perfect pairing. janis isnt afraid to offer her touch.(?) and always provides it when gretchen asks for it (she asks a lot)

regina/gretchen

once again, realistically, this would not happen. esp in a canon world . even if everyone "got better"

however, i loved these 2 for whatever reason when i was younger LMAO

i had a bunch of little things written down for them in my notes but . i do not feel like going through them rn unfortunately. may revisit this at some other point. in order to see exactly what younger me thought of them

unlike gretchen w/ cady... iiii dont think gretchen's clingy-ness / codependency would get much better w/ regina

unless regina like . rly changes herself. if they BOTH rly change themselves

i think they'd both view each other as how they were in the past . regina would see gretchen as this clingy pushover and gretchen would see regina as this passive aggressive ruler . and REALISTICALLY i think they would prevent them from pursuing anything big, ykwim?

like. gretchen still admired regina and she lowkey HATED herself for that but its like.. as ive talked abt previously, shes probably not gonna get anything better yk? so she stayed w/ regina

ANYWAY. ENOUHG OF THAT SORRY

honestly? in an "everything is perfect and happy" world , i think theyd both be clingy af LOL

regina would, like, never admit but like.. shes super clingy

i think their relationships w/ touch are very ... unique

ive talked abt gretchen a bunch w/ touch and shit but regina... i dont know

she's def okay w/ it .. in terms of being on the receiving end but .. im not sure if she rly provides it much

shes def shit at recognizing and managing her emotions.. esp the more positive ones.. so i think she like. i think shes weird w/ providing affection

and i suppose receiving it too sometimes, esp if its from someone she REALLY likes

but yeah.. they're both weird w/ touch IDK hopefully this makes sense!!!!

i think gretchen is very patient w/ regina... and regina tries to be w/ gretchen, but fails most times (she's trying)

regina finds it like. embarrassing to ask for stuff (ESP affection) but.. she does learn that it is Okay eventually

and gretchen, unfortunately, is very awkward when it comes to this shit!

ESP since its w/ REGINA GEORGE

so she lowkey like.. freaks out when first asked to do ANYTHING towards her

regina tries her best to calm her down but shes shit at emotions and . yeah .

(its ok they got throuhg it) (i think)

gretchen/karen

won't lie rn. dont rly care for them much. def prefer other non romantic relationships for them

buuuut since im doing stuff for NOT just romantic relationships... i shall say a few things

as ive talked abt in previous gretchen pairings / duos... she just needs someone who'll love and appreciate her for who she is

and i dont doubt that karen would provide. she def would

they def have an interesting and fun bond, esp throughout the whole regina thing, throughout their friendship w/ regina as a whole, etc

anywho. krystina alabado once put on her story abt this like.. cactus that was in the dressing room she shared w/ kate rockwell. turns out it was fake. and kate watered it for a full 2 years

anyway thats a total gretchen and karen situation LOL

(gretchen acts liike she wasn't watering it too. she absolutely was)

karen and gretchen def buy a bunch of lil succulents and take care of them together

gretchen def feels super comfortable w/ karen, more comfortable than w/ most people

so that sort of made like .. getting a deeper relationship w/ her a lot easier

once again, gretchen is fs a lot more awkward when they take things farther in regards to their relationship

and karen has NO idea what the hell gretchen is on about

but she tries to remain as comfortable and supportive as possible

gretchen touch starved... karen touch provider... its perfect

gretchen def isnt afraid to ask for stuff from karen. she has to be a lot more precise and direct but . yeah

okay.. sorry that most of these aren't "shippy" but. hopefully theyre okay! i left out a few potential pairings bc i either 1. dont care for them much or 2. dont have much to say. HOWEVER if you still want to hear abt one i did not talk abt here, just lmk :3 i will come up w/ something.. thank u for sending this in :D

[walkyjake]

havent put anythingf on mainblog for a while ive jsut been keeping the reblogs in my drafts but i gueess i could queue them now.. i stopped usingtwitter again and i think ultimatelty i like tumblr the most for posting im pretty sure even though i think theres some kind of an ideal to not posting and being at peace but thhis is a life of nonpeace therefore. To be honest i wish i remebered how to speak normal english. im surprised i only recently put a name to thhe entity tht kind of jumbles my words when it should be thhe most obvious thing i could notice about my textspeech

[gayspock]

balalala

and its like genuinely fucking speaking where do you go or what do you fucking do at some point . im trapped in this fucking house most of the time, im too exhausted to do anything, i manage to leave to go into town but theres nowhere to go or meet people. everything where i live isjsut designed for students. everyone i workwith already have lives and ijsut dont fit with anything even if i really fucking try.i dont have hobbies im not good atanything i cant keep anything fucking going withoutjsut. vbreaking down because i fucking hate it and i fucking hate forcing myself into shtifor the sake of trying to feel like im not just an empty fuckingvcessel and i dont know what the fukign point is veen if i did find some way to fucking try i jsut catn i dont think i can take it any more blah blah blah so embarrassingnothing ever goes fucking right when i do try and wah wah wah TRY AGAIN!! HUH!!but i genuinely fuckin g cant take it any more i feel so invisible every time i have tried or had had the opportunities it still nevermeant fucking anyhting i jsut cant make it work and i can tblamepeople bwcause fucking yeah fuckign wha tnobody would WANT to fucking talkto someone whos just . fucking nothing but a miserable peiceof fucking shit but i cant fucking do any bette ri cant i dont know whats wrong with me i dont fucking care the constant fuckign "get help" spiel is just so insanelyfucking isoplating and fuckign horrible as its jsut nothing but going in fucking circles with services that dont have the resources and donthave eople that fucking care a nd leave you in the lurc for so so fucking long and thats it thats what you have when youre alone thats literally itandfuck even if you go to them its "well do you have anyonew to live for" NO!!! NOOOOOO I FUCKING DONT! I FUCKING DONT! IF I DIED NOBODY WOULD CARE. SOMETIMES I TELL MYSELF PEOPLE WOULD BE HAPPY IF I DIED TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER BECAUSE AT LEAST THEN IT WOULD BE FUCKING SOMETHING YOU KNOW!!! RIGHT!!! SMILES. BIG SMILES i jsut feel like such apathetic fucking loser all the fucking time everyoneelse seems to manage at least something sometone who would fucking notice if they droped dead i dont fucking know nobody fucking sees me i feel so fucking worthless al the time i feel so so fucking worthless dude ive just promised myself this year this year this year is the year i fucking do it somehow because its done its over its so fucking pointless literally what. WHY not. WHYEVER not any more wha tis there to lvie for what makes you happy you can try at the things that make you happy it fucking means nothing youre nothing and youre no one amen goodnight

[deadgrantaires]

ive not noticed any of my other mutuals w the booping thing enabled yet so rn its jsut be and brok attacking each other w hammers lol

[earlysunshines]

so, answer!!

first yes the hanni live btw tikkitokki uploaded this live and I really recommend you to give it a listen!! hanni has such a great taste in music and the jazz/soul blues of that lp she brought is mwah divine it was good

AND yes I did notice abt the "pretty eyes" being like the point start of them but also smth I was going to point out but didn't bc was...afraid of getting too long was like, on they death day like having a storm and not shining sun just made sense yk? like danielle little miss sunshine and rainbows and on her day is all chaos and rain and thunder for me even the sky was sad on that day and yeah made more sense in my mind

ALSO uhm I didn't know twin flame were actually a THING after your answer I actually went searching, even read two articles abt it and idk put me to think and about me and a friend very special to me, like unfortunately we're separate by distance kinda of thing but we are so... alike idk strong friendship man anyways i'm more on the sceptical side of it all and just believe is pure destiny

also² funny how you always say you're not sure about your pacing but this one was soo good with all the details connecting, tbh giving the feedback as I go is what made me remind me most of them

and I saw that ask about the makeout w dani, from the bottom of my heart thank you who sent that bc 🤭🤭for me the best scene that one, so fluflly and soft cozy and and urgrrh mo dani 😔😔

at last, yes I did actually cried babes hksjhk what messed me up the most was like the alternative universe and seeing they were meant to be made me so </3 i loved it

- 🤟anon :)

okok i’ll have to check it out soon!! her taste in music is sooo good ive knoooown since forever plus her listening to grebtperez im so happy i love him and her so bad

pretty eyes uwygehdh she has pretty eyes and i think i jsut love pretty eyes that’s why i started it off like that

this one i was much more confident w pacing but still iffy i fear but yeayyayayayay

REAL i looove making out and whatnot need that soo #needthat #sos

i can’t beleive ppl r crying omfgsggehLOL that’s omfg yeah alternate universes hit so hard sometimes esp w like marvel and whatnkt like💯💯💔💔💔😭😭😭do nnot play w me

[sealedchasm]

i miss you 🥲

I really wanna interact more!!!

HI LO!!!! 🥹🥹 I MISS U TOO IM SORRY IVE BEEN GONE SOME THINGS WENT DOWN IN THE PAST FEW MONTHS AND IVE BARELY BEEN ON TUMBLR

I HOPE WE INTERACT MORE SOON 🫶🫶🫶🫶

OH MY GOD I JSUT NOTICED I MISSED YOUR BIRTHDAY ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️IM SO SORRY HAPPY BELATED HAPPY BRITJDAY

[sleepinghollowsthehead]

ive known i was autistic since i was liek seven but its onlu recently that my mum has brought it up to me. well i think i noticed something was ‘wrong’ with me when i was around 6/7 and i didnt know much so i went through ocd or maybe adhd and i seen some of the traits in me, but i didnt think to look at autism until later. but like ive thought of myself as autistic since then(i really got into it like alot of research) anyway it was only 2022?2023? when my mum said to me (i had never said anything to her about it i thought id just have to wait until i was older to go to the doctor by myslef, but i so badly wanted her to notice) and she said she had thought since i was really young and idk it made me upset cos like if shes known this whole time and didnt do anything like i could’ve gotten help as a child. i suppose nothing could’ve been done until i was 10 but i was like 12/13 when she first even mentioned to me like maybe not 2020cause idk it was probably last thing on list of priorities but she could’ve done this in 2021 i know she obviously had more important things to focus on like yknow having a place to live and like a job and its jsut selfish to think liek tjhis sorry idk whatim saying i know not everything is about me its just what theysay to me all the time i know j dont think im better than you i fucking cant stand myself

[ge]

re: the LA adaptation + anime

heard on the grapevine that there could potentially be an animated adaptation announcement next year (at least, that's what the author had teased + kr fandom had speculated). naver webtoon seems to be going through an expansion recently by acquiring a few local animation studios so that in addition to studio lico (the studio in charge of the hsgh manhwa and main animation studio for alien stage)'s own in-house animation department, it's also super likely that the possible anime would be locally made! (unlike solo-leveling, which was being done by A-1 pictures)

an LA adaptation doesn't seem to be something that might happen any time soon (and given the orv kr and intl fandom's reaction to the live action orv movie casting, it doesn't seem too hopeful really!) + the whole potential discourse that follows with having a korean drama of a (technically) chinese-setting work, even if the og work is korean... best avoid that can of worms for now!

(though for me personally my fancast for a live action jo gul is ok taecyeon from 2pm LOL he was literally the first person that came to my mind when i first started reading the manhwa. they just look so alike it's crazy)

OHHH IS THAT SO...i swear i remember seeing fans speculating on an upcoming anime based off some things that were mentioned by the studio lico rotmhs team in an interview not that long ago so i definitely know that an anime is on the table, though when it will be announced and released... who knows..its only a matter of time..... i also noticed the acquirement of animation studios what with all the amv osts theyve been pumping out lately ..every time a new one drops ive been just rubbing my hands knowing that anime announcement is on the horizon and yeasss im definitely rooting for a locally done animated series cuz what they did w solo leveling was so sick oh my god i genuinely dont even want to think about it⬆️⬆️⬆️

i was never too hopeful for a live action, ive never really been into them in the first place tbh and ur right about the discourse surrounding it, it just sounds like too much trouble to even consider it at the moment.... the way yallre listing these fully grown adult actors for some of these characters who're jsut supposed to be younger teenagers in debut is making me giggle a little tho.. looked up ok taecyeon and imagining that guy pretending to be 17 yo baby faced s1 jo gul just made me laugh out loud.. ikwym though i suppose i can see it also

[s0lar-ch3ri]

not fandom, jsut wanting to talk about a thing in video games

okay, so, i do love puzzles, and i love secret doors and everything, but there's one thing taking me out of it: the actual door puzzle.

theyre pretty interesting, dont get me wrong, but how would the person living there use these doors with those entrance puzzles? (itd be kinda obvious theyd have access there, most games ive seen have those areas pretty dust free and it feels stupid to have house you cant get around)

lemme just pull up an example from the video i was watching that got me remembering this: charlie slimecicle's 2nd episode of resident evil village; let the bells ring.

(sorry for blurry image, ive switched from my old browser for a while now and the screenshots are hard to take with my new one lol)

the puzzle (for the player) is very simple: hit all 5 bells, and open the door. my issue? one bell is constantly moving and can be only hit at the right moment, another is really far away in the room, the fifth bell is literally outside (you have to shoot the glass first to get to it), and the distance and length are just...a lot. cause, yeah, its fun to play out in the game. but imagine having to do that each time. like as in, your living there and to enter a room you have to keep shooting the glass window and repairing it later.

this is just one of other examples, and while sometimes i dont notice when playing, thinking back on it, its not as fun from the outside perspective.

of course, the experience isnt ruined because "oh, this not realistic", because literally your being chased throughout that house by a tall vampire lady and her 3 bug daughters the last of your worries should be how they get around their house, and more so on how you can.

not to mention, you dumb down the puzzle and you risk it not having the difficulty that makes it fun, and makes it pointlessly easy (aka, making it reasonable for someone living there to do, and get the opposite effect basically).

i dont know anything on game design, i mostly watch others play them, just wanted to point that out lol