#this is gonna be so niche but I need to get it out of my system

[haleandwellmet]

Here's the other new item in my shop!

Middle-Age Man Makeouts is a 22-page zine full of sketches of my two characters Marion (they/he) and Owen (he/him) in different stages of their very gay, gender non-conforming relationship, plus notes explaining their lore, and why I'm so obsessed with drawing these two characters smooching.

It's a love letter to aging and loving while queer, illustrated through digital and traditional sketches hand-drawn by me!

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

[megumismom]

last week I was swimming in the adriatic sea thinking about devil's minion and then telling myself how pathetic I am for thinking about devil's minion when literally this is my view

today i watched the first episode of hotel portofino and was like heyyyyy the setting looks really familiar, turns out it was filmed in croatia, so assad zaman may have also been swimming in the adriatic sea thinking about devil's minion and that makes me feel a little better 🖤

[ghxst-bird]

The curse rubs a hand down Junpei’s back, along the curve of his spine, feeling the prominent ridges and the way the soul strains towards him, seeking release from its mortal coil.

The boy’s eyes are as dull as his soul as he looks up at Mahito, rage and desperation churning together, transfiguring itself into a an amalgamation of resentful emotion intense enough it could give birth to a new curse altogether.

His mother is breathing heavily on the bed beside them, her face pinched in slumber. The residual pain of being torn in half and sown back together again a memory that will not quickly fade from her mind. If she survives the night at all. Mahito has never bothered to put a body and its soul back into the correct order before, so he doesn’t know what to expect.

— sneak peek of an upcoming fix-it

[theswedishpajas]

Good morning 🦴🦴🦴

[marrfixated]

If I could animate/draw my first project would be a “Bill possessing Ford” animatic to the new THD song because it’s so him‼️

(Ooh you will listen to the song because I’m so cool and persuasive and I need to infect everybody with my obsession ooh)

[white-weasel]

UK version of The Genius save me!! UK version of The Genius! Save me UK version of The Genius

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i'll see an indepth guide for what to expect/do when going to/doing certain things and i'll clap my little hands gleefully and read it and go wow i love knowing how to behave in situations!!!

[tiercel]

Tumblr talking about making its site the same algorithmic slop pile as every other social media bc the users migrating here are too soft brained to curate their own feeds

[butchdykeorpheus]

sometimes i wonder if many non-lesbians understand that Realising You're Into Women and Realising You're Not Into Men are often two completely different processes and, at least in my experience, the latter was a LOT harder to come to terms with than the former. like i realised when i was about 19 years old that i'm attracted to and interested in dating women, but it took me about five more years after that to very, very slowly disentangle myself from cisheteropatriarchal expectations that Women Should Be Available To Men to realise that i'm, like, not interested in dating or sex with men (or that i'm not a woman but that's a different can of worms). at all. and in a society like that, it's often not enough just to love and prioritise your relationships with women/other sapphics, you have to be firm about your boundaries and explicitly Not Want Men. like your lesbianism HAS to be, in part, about Not Being Available To Men. and even then the pressure is so often there to try to make you drop that boundary. of course not every lesbian experiences their sexuality in this way, but it's not uncommon

i always think about that when i see people claim that it's inherently "restrictive" to explicitly exclude men from your sexuality/romantic or sexual life. there's this increasingly prevalent attitude floating around which echoes traditional lesbophobic stereotypes that there's something inherently "bitter" and "man-hating" about making a point of not being available to men, as if any lesbian who makes a point about their sexuality, dating and sex lives not including men MUST be a Mean Radical Bitter Lesbian Separatist

which is just.......................not anywhere closer to my experience, and also A Hell Of A Leap. my not being sexually or romantically available to men doesn't mean i live in deliberate isolation from them, it means I Am Not Sexually Or Romantically Available To Men. if anything, it's improved my ability to relate to and connect to men!!! i've been able to better contextualise the discomfort i once felt around unfamiliar men, and to see men as potential friends rather than as people who i might be expected to cater to in my appearance or in intimacy, and to assert my boundaries without guilt if a man approaches me with that sort of intent; and if the man is shitty about those boundaries, i know i have no responsibility to placate him

and that's SO freeing to me!!!! THAT'S freedom!! it's so wild to me when people say that excluding men from your sexuality is "restrictive" when i used to feel trapped by expectations of cisheterosexuality and femininity for the male gaze. being able to say No Thanks, Not Men has given me so much freedom to explore dating, sex, fashion and gender expression in ways that feel authentic and good to me; i've been able to not care about whether men find me attractive and instead find joy in being GNC and butch and making myself attractive to other sapphics. i am genuinely so happy to not be interested in men and i'm not going to be apologetic about that. (let me stress this: It Is Not A Slight Against Men To Not Want To Date Them Or To Enjoy Not Wanting To Date Them. i don't have to want to fuck a man to see him as a human being or treat him with respect. unless you genuinely think we like, owe that to men for some reason, in which case i'd like to redirect you back to the Feminism Beginner's Course)

of course, none of this happened overnight — it took me a LONG time to unpack all of this and to internalise the idea that i really don't have to be attractive or available or appeasing to men at all, and tbh even now i find myself struggling with it sometimes, because a lifetime of patriarchal socialisation will do that to a bitch. it's only recently, after a lot of work, that i've started being able to show my body hair in public and not give a shit if a man (or straight woman tbh) finds it gross. it took many, many years of deliberately choosing, over and over and over again, to not give a fuck about what men think of me, to tell myself "No Thanks, Not Men". again, not an uncommon lesbian experience. the reason many lesbians enjoy not being attracted to, interested in or available to men is that we've so often struggled against shame for that aspect of our identity, so we choose to take joy in it instead, and that joy is hard-earned

and yes, i do get frustrated with men still. i DO sometimes make jokes about being a misandrist, express my frustration with cisheteropatriarchal expectations and with men who Don't Get The Memo. many lesbians do. many women who are into men do the same. it's how we cope with the lesbophobia/misogyny lmao. but to flatten us to those moments of frustration/venting as if they define our entire lesbian experience and refuse to consider the sociocultural context of our "mean misandrist dyke moments" strikes me as kinda obtuse, deliberately or not, and also lowkey reminiscent of Respectability Politics

i've also seen the take that lesbianism should be about "loving women, not rejecting men", as if my lesbianism can only be one thing. my lesbianism contains multitudes. my lesbianism IS about loving women. it's about community and relationships with other sapphics. it's about my gender identity and expression and connecting to other trans and nonbinary sapphics. it's about my connection to and place within the wider queer community. it's also about No Men, Thanks. lesbians are like onions we have layers etc etc please refer back to paragraph 1 of this thesis for more on the topic

of course there are many people out there who DO find freedom and joy in being attracted to / available to men - i know tone can be difficult to judge on the internet so believe me when i say that, sincerely, i'm happy for everyone who does. it's just not an experience i share. and that's fine!!! my joy at not being into men isn't a slight against your attraction to men, either (and if you have experienced shitty/biphobic/panphobic behaviour from a lesbian over your attraction to men, i'm sorry, and know you didn't deserve that). just because excluding men from your sexuality sounds restrictive to you doesn't mean that's the case for everyone else, no one's experience is universal, etc etc etc

idk at the end of the day i'm just one lone genderweird lesbian on the internet and i do not speak for, like, the Global Shadow Council Of Evil Lesbians or whatever. i'm also lucky enough to have far less trauma surrounding my interactions with men than many other lesbians do (which is why i cannot demonise any lesbian who does personally choose not to nurture any relationships with men, platonic or otherwise). i can only speak for my own experience and the trends and experiences i've personally observed from being in this community. it's just strange to repeatedly see my lack of availability to men characterised by people online as something that makes me Mean, Angry and Bitter. i'm actually much happier and more chill than i've ever been lol

(begone T3RFs this post isn't for you 🔪🔪🔪)

[bisexualnamjoonie]

no but that poll. how can someone vote for golden when you have three lyrical, musical and thematic masterpieces to mesure it against. how do you actually hear music. i have so many questions. i am. yeah. 😬😬😬😬😬😬

[medicinemane]

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[dchuntress]

ohhhhhhhh i realised i need to get obsessed with a dc villain. Who, though

[shidoukanae]

i wanna finish my The Mighty Extra fan VN so badly,,,, but the art,,, it daunts me,,,,,

[heyitslapis]

i havnt had a polyship in so long my brain is buzzinnng

[spec-vp]

looking at phd programs