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What do you headcannon Dylan's necklace to be? Like do you think he has a charm or something on it or is it just a plain cord?
not to be dramatic but this is making me lose my mind. i've been looking at pictures & it looks like the cord is angled downward with the weight of a charm
so my first thought was like "oh he prolly has one of those basic ring charms or smthn" no shame, they're great but like??? it doesn't feel right???
so i was thinking it could be a good luck charm - a horseshoe, a jade piece, the evil eye - which I like. he seems like the kind of person who doesn't necessarily believe in everything but he's a bit superstitious & is like "better safe than sorry". which is all well & good, but... why does he hide it? everyone elses' necklaces are shown from what I can remember, even on other outfits, so why don't we ever see his? is this a coincidence that i'm overthinking or is it something personal to him?
maybe it's one of those chewy rubber necklaces & he hides it bc he's embarrassed :/
#this is going to drive me over the edge#thank for the ask!#any theories gladly welcome#im chewing drywall#the quarry#dylan lenivy#ask moth
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Ashton Instagram Live - 6 June 2024
Including acoustic performances of:
"Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac
"Drive" from SUPERBLOOM
A teaser of "Wild Things" from BLOOD ON THE DRUMS
"Straight To Your Heart" from BLOOD ON THE DRUMS
"Red Desert" by 5SOS
"Wicked Game" by Chris lsaak
#I 🤸🏻♀️ FEEL 🤸🏻♀️ INSANE 🤸🏻♀️#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton irwin#ashton#ai ig live#straight to your heart#blood on the drums#instagram#ai ig#video#kh4f post#listen i had such a stressful night & was still reeling this morning so this is both just what i needed & also has sent me over the edge 👹#this was so brutal oh he had no mercy#i thought the peak was going to be the Springsteen needle drop at the beginning lmaoo (which almost got me a copyright claim thanks sir 😌)#then the man immediately breaks out with Fleetwood Mac#DEVESRSTING#he 100000% needs to record this version of Drive btw ohmygod#like listen i feel like bc he has a tendency towards falsetto harmonies his low end tends to get overlooked#and that shit was WILD in that drive rendition#ohmygod?#i cannot believe any of this was real#i would screenshot the shit out of it but i have to go get ready for Luke now wtf 😭😭😭😭#INSANITY#👰🏻♀️#why i no can kiss#Youtube
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small brain: the scene where jayce gets it on w mel and the scene where sky asks viktor out and he refuses are paralleled to show that jayce has decided to focus on politics (mel) and neglect his partnership with viktor, while viktor continues to focus on science and experimentation (as well as poiting out viktors growing isolation from those around him).
big brain: the scene where jayce gets it on w mel and the scene where sky asks viktor out and he refuses are paralleled to show that viktor is not interested in women and is gay. and in love with jayce.
#not a jayvik truther or a jayvik hater but a secret third thing (i think viktor absolutely was in love with jayce but it wasnt reciprocated)#jayce said ''youre like a brother to me viktor :)'' and it kickstarted viktors villain arc#arcane#jayvik#jayce talis#wait does viktor have a last name#i googled it and he doesnt seem to have one no. only topsiders get to have surnames and hes a zaunite so he doesnt!!!!!!#i love the details in this show!!!#ive been rewatching it+watching a lot of reactions and analysis on youtube and i cant stop noticing how scenes parallel each other#every scene is a fucking parallel to another one!!! every phrase!!!! im going insane!!! this show is so fucking good!!!!!#i forgot to tag viktor#viktor arcane#i phrased the post as a joke but i truly believe this is part of his character. like an important part that helps drive him over the edge#a bit#idk if its what all the writers and animators intended but its how i see it#im rlly fascinated w viktors character after finding out what hes like in the game im so excited to see what hes gonna be like in s2
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andromeda and narcissa trying to reconnect after the second wizarding war.......
#the black sisters#andromeda black#narcissa black#thinking about them always and forever#sooooo many complicated emotions going on in that quiet room#just them sitting over tea and trying to find a place to start bc where do you start?? after all those years and everything thats happened#and the fact that there always used to be three of them. and now they're the only two left and they only have each other!!!#and bella is the elephant in the room bc its grief and anger and AAAAAAA they drive me insane!!! insane i tell you!!!#this has been swimming around in my head all day like a blind goldfish continually knocking against the edges of the tank#but like. if that goldfish makes you want to cry/die#kara’s moodboards
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#i cried over an instagram reel today#i've been so stressed in general but that sent me over the edge#it brought back a lot of nasty feelings I used to have about my body#and still do sometimes#it's gotten a lot better but#sometimes I still feel disgusting#for context the reel was a guy angrily pulling identical shirts out of his closet#while talking about how he used to be fat and now only wears the same clothes because they mean safety#and uhm. yeah. I still feel like there are a lot of clothes that i cannot wear because they will look gross on me#i'm not even fat!! i'm like barely overweight!!! and i STILL feel so uncomfortable in my skin sometimes#that reel just hit me in the sweet spot and i cried#i've been so fucking stressed#my shoulders are tight#i've had multiple stress dreams over the last week#my stomach is a goddamned mess#i can't do my homework for classes and if i don't i'm gonna fucking fail#i feel like i can't breathe#i'm trapped in this never-ending loop and everything is Bad#Everything is Bad#the world is tilting sideways as i speak#i need to go take a shower i can't think about this anymore it'll drive me crazy#lea vents#vent post
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And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"
I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse
And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa
And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house
I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished
...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)
And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff
There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government
No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)
Like have some accountability there and in every situation
Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free
If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off
I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)
But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced
Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around
I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)
...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change
(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)
(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)
#anyway; if I'm a lousy cheat or whatever least they can do is give me a gun so I can solve that problem#shit makes me wish I was canadian so I could take advantage of their sick implementation of assisted suicide#what should be a system that gives people a choice about the quality of their life; and I don't think should be relegated to terminal illne#...there was... think he was dutch; had been burned by his girlfriend all over his body; was in constant pain#and he ended up using assisted suicide in the end cause he was just in constant agony... think that's his choice to make#but of course the canadian system concretely pushes people; mostly the poor and disabled; to kill themselves#not theoretically; as in literally says word for word to them 'you should really kill yourself; just sign here'#it's sick; it truly is#but for any americans that want to dunk on it; I'm telling you we're no better#we have the exact same miserable desperation and people (again; mostly poor and disabled) into despair#only difference is we don't offer assisted suicide#the underlying issues in the US and canada are so damn similar; so much of what's happening ends up being the same#you can't act smug just cause you only make people want to die instead of also offering to help#that's like saying that you're the good guy cause while you did everything you could to drive someone to the brink#get them fired; slash their tires; just cartoon level villain stuff to personally harass this person... at least you won't hand them rope#we have such similar systemic issues to canada; and I am explicitly telling you that like the people in canada that have said#'I can't take it anymore; disability doesn't cover my expenses and I can't get any help... I'm at my wits end so I'm gonna go die'#I'm telling you that I feel that same way; just without any eugenics agency I can call up#I'm really working to get things stable; but it feels like I'm teetering on the edge of falling into permanent failure#and... and I'll actually tell you the amount even though I don't like to mention money... makes me feel guilty#my gramps left me $27k; which sounds like a lot; but I got 20 windows that need redoing (house has a lot of windows)#...if they ended up being 1k each; that's most of the money gone; if they end up being more...#and I got a whole lotta other stuff I've been putting off like plumbing around here; need to replace that faucet#it's an amount of money that helps; but it's an amount of money that isn't gonna last#...that's like a year of bills; and my mom already needs me to pay like $400 to the propane bill since she got behind#I want to use it to... to try and really get my feet on the ground; but it might loose me my insurance... it makes me want to die#and not to be a selfish bastard; but if I could I'd like to try and take and invest a bit to maybe build some passive income#given that... that a job never seems to work out for me cause I fucking suck and cause like... my insomnia has me up at 5:30 am right now#mm tag so i can find things later
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#dreamt me and some of my friends were driving through the village i lived in as a kid and the sun was setting.#and i was taking pictures of the sun and moon which were both in shot and i had the exposure very low#and suddenly even with the low exposure there was a bright flash. and i instinctively said look away.#and we did for a few moments before glancing back. and there was a nuclear explosion on the horizon. and i said we should keep driving.#and we were within the blast zone i knew that. but it wasn't here yet so we kept going up the coast.#and finally got out as it was about to arrive. and i walked to the water's edge and sat with my feet in the esk for one last time#and it suddenly struck me as really funny that there was a chance the nuclear waste beneath the beach was the same stuff in that bomb#and when the blastwave hit we all survived but just badly burnt.#and i had the realisation that most of the people i knew hadn't. and i had the realisation that despite everything i was still alive.#and it was so horrible. and i couldn't do anything but crawl back over to the others and sob.#eventually a helicopter arrived. and i just wanted to be left there on the beach.#woke up sobbing. first time that's ever happened.
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in my heart stan drives just a little recklessly
#stan uris#it#theo.txt#like. he drives like someone who doesnt care as much as he probably should if he gets back in one piece you know?#especially in college i think#like— in hs a little bit? but also he wouldnt even Dream of Scratching his parents cars so he was always careful#but in college?#he always drove just a little too far over the speed limit always turned on his turn signal a little too slowly#patty gets in his car one time & he doesnt even think to go slower to be more careful— & i think it freaks patty out a little bit#he definitely gets more careful after he gets married but hes always right on that edge of too much#to me at least#anyway
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Valentino, Vox, and Vision
Something that Valentino used to be able to handle better in their past together was the light that Vox's head put off. When they met and started their partnership, Vox's light was much dimmer and much easier to actually see.
Becoming partners with a man whose face was a light, however, was what started him wearing his sunglasses everywhere all the time. It helped him to see better than he had in eight years in Hell, though his vision still wasn't the best, any improvement was better than nothing.
As Vox improved and upgraded his head, his face grew ever brighter and even harder for Valentino to see. Once upon a time, Valentino could have fallen victim, somewhat, to Vox's hypnotism, but once his face began to brighten and it was harder and harder to see, he wasn't able to maintain that.
Now, the blue light given off by Vox's teeth is blinding for Valentino, who cannot see those winning smiles very well even with his glasses on. He struggles not to get Moon Eyes over Vox's face when he gets in close, though he doesn't often fight it.
Despite this, Vox's smile is still one of Valentino's favorite things to try to see. He loves it whenever Vox smiles at him, especially those rarer, genuine ones. He will happily deal with being blind just to know Vox is pleased with something he's done.
#HEADCANONS ➽➽➽#And If You Get In My Face Then You’ll Get A Taste Even God Would Run Son (ναℓєитιиσ)#And When His Edges Soften His Body Is My Coffin (Valentino ♡ Vox)#Catch Me If You Can With A Cigarette In Hand And It’s Love It’s Heavy And It Hurts And It’s Love (Valentino ♡ Vox)#I’ll Be Your Favorite Tune (Valentino ♡ Vox)#I Don’t Care If I’m A Guilty Pleasure For You (Valentino ♡ Vox)#We Drive Each Other Mad It Might Be Kinda Sad But I Think That’s What Makes Us Good In Bed (Valentino ♡ Vox)#And He Knows He Knows He Knows He Knows That I Can’t Resist His Ways (Valentino ♡ Vox)#Baby You’re The Highlight Of My Lowlife (Valentino ♡ Vox)#Even When I’m Crazy I’m Still Your Baby And You’re The King Of Loving Me And I’m Your Drama Queen (Valentino ♡ Vox)#You Are The One I Choose Folks Would Kill To Fill Your Shoes (Valentino ♡ Vox)#So Go And Pitch Your Fit No One Gives A Shit! Better Off If You Just Get Over It (Valentino ♡ Vox)
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stop screaming please stop i have a migrain you can talk at a lower volume i literally have sound cancelling earbuds in and you are still yelling so loud it hurts youre literally three feet away istg please stop yelling
#if this was just ome person thatd be fine but its literally every student and my boss all night they wont stop and it hurts so much ahhhhggg#my job is going to drive me over the edge istg#a student literally coughed all over me and then was like “sorry that cough sounded bad im not feeling well” like!#i know my whole job is like being the person who is supposed to teach them to not do this shit but sometimes#my patience is worn so thin at some angles its not visible at all
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Repeating to myself over and over again that there is a multi-year time gap between rebels finale and Ashoka and Filoni movie version of HTTE so the Grysk conflict is probably concluded but by fucking god am I about to go rabid thinking about unresolved plots that have HUGE sway on a character because Thrawn has stuff to do and I love the htte triology but what is he doing there rn
#turtledove yells into the abyss#I’m literally going to be on a plane tmmr for like 6 hours this is going to be rotating in my head#Thrawn books in my brain!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!#like it’s such a double edged sword for me because like on one hand YES I want to see htte trilogy adapted#but I absolutely do NOT want the Grysk plot to be brushed over#Like there is nothing that irks me more with Star Wars’ dual canons than a bit from legends being recanonized/adapted#but in the process of preservation of the original story they botch the current canonized characterization#Like there is absolutely a way to bring htte into canon. I don’t think you can take it word for word from the source tho#LIKE IM JUST RAMBLING RN but like#I’m so conflicted I’m having a lot of feelings#bc like. When I complain about the filoni interview I don’t want to sound like I’m woobifying him r anything#Bc I KNOW he’s a bad person. I know he is not a hero he is in factPretty morally bad!!!#He’s a villian with complex motives and driving forces whose ABLE to do good but let’s be fr the man looked the othr way w SLAVERY#he’s not a good man.#but on thr flipside I think it’s his capacity to do good and how he clings to what morals he has r rlly important#Especially bc like. Yk. His character trait where he’s kinda. self sacrificial??#Like he would kill himself for the Ascendancy because it’s for ‘the good of the people’#AND LIKE. Idk#I’m probably talking in circles
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#ngl rn the idea that i still have to stay here working on the same stuff when a potential phd project is on the horizon is a lil soul#crushing. like god i wanna b able to read papers abt that. not work on my existing papers. or take measurements. or stay here anymore#like probably at least 6 months more. thats so long 😭 let me shed this skin#ugh. at least the decision making is almost over. one more interview and then i should have all the decisions by the 1st week of march?#and then its just up to me to decide. rn id say the school i visited. but thats plenty of time to talk myself out of it. ugh#ugh me trying to do my job: ok i have like 7 things i could me doing *starts thing 1* oh wait but *starts thing 2*. i just ping pong#between tasks and dont get things all the way done. then im like oh i need to remember X thing later *instantly forgets* but i did just#experience the glory of being reminded to do a task via calender#listen. its like my brain has holes in it and theyre threatening to destroy my life lmao#most of the time i feel like a pinball when ur just hitting it back and forth between the bars. threatening to fall between them#ay ay ay. my poor feeble brain. someday ill fix iy#it. or like. try to manage it better so im not constantly on the edge of catastrophe. but ya kno that day is not today or tomorrow#bc i am paralyzed of driving lmao and its fucking wimby out there#ugh. i miss the snow already :-( i wanna go back :-( ugh they got their hooks in me#unrelated
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Send help. Cheese (for me). And wine (for @kueble ). We are inside that monstrosity. With 2 feral boys. If we weather the storm... will any of us be the same?
#katchy says#snowvember two point oh#literally 8 years later#lake erie why you do#still rather have snow than hurricanes#WE GOT JIM CANTORE THO BETCHES#my mom was so sad she wanted to go meet him#she calls him Weather Rambo#Cantore shows up you know youre fucked#edging on day 2 of driving ban#where tf am i gonna go im over here wasting away from long covid#remember me fondly#or at least dont talk shit about me my ghost will cry
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im going to sue madds buckley for psychological damage. for releasing the red means i love you
#YOU LEAVE ME HIGH AND DRY THE RUSH COMES TO MY MIND AT THE DROPS OF BLOOD YOU LEAVE BEHIND RUN AS YOU MIGHT MY LOVE WILL NEVER#EVER#STOP.#not only bc it changed my brain but bc it introduced me to toga himiko which just made me go over the edge insane ab. well#tasting your blood means i looooooove yoooooooou#and the fucking TRUMPEEEEEEEEET#i think thats whay that is idk instruments#but GOD drives me insane
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#ive been studying for this exam for a month now and im losing my fucking mind#i go to bed thinking about beta oxidation i wake up thinking about heme biosynthesis this has taken over my life#IM SO SICK OF THIS and theres still 5 days to go which simultaniously feels like too little and way too much time left#like i really need the time for studying but every hour i spend studying drives me a little closer to the edge#i can feel a major breakdown coming up aaaaahhhhhhh biochemistry my enemy eternal just behind analytical chemistry#nothing can top analytical chemistry in terms of evilness
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This website...
Without any modern algorithms I might add
manages to constantly and consistently!!!
Make me feel like nun trying to remain true to her vows while being dragged through all the temptations of hell.
#And I'm starting to fail miserably I might add#This website...#Is...#Driving...#Me...#Mad...#And yes I know I go here 'whillingly' but...#come on how could I not be on here I'm in too deep already#And sometimes just like now things just seem to push me over the edge of madness#You know what you did with that post!#on your own dash#that I voluntarily looked at ...#OK maybe I'm partially at fault as well but I'm still deciding to blame you#you know who you are!#It says in the Lords prayer : lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil#But the theme on this website appears to be to always do the opposite of what religious texts demand
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