#this is becoming my therapy lol
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Yuma develops an almost dangerously high fever almost collapsing outside the agency and returns to the base per Shinigami's recommendation.
Yakou proceeds to check him, sit him down and get him a blanket to keep him warm (his own bed's blanket) as well as a thermometer to read his temperature. Shinigami remains by her master's side the whole time, with slight concern.
Then he lays him down and tries to cool him off with ice, cold water and uses whatever medicine the agency had during his restless sleep.
The NDA likely cannot afford professional healthcare or a hospital visit, so Yakou's on his own here ;-; Though he doesn't really know what he's doing, he's trying his best. He felt responsible for him. He wouldn't let anything happen to him.
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Don't worry, it works out in the end c:
After hours of hard work, the high fever breaks down to being only slight. The medicine and ice water worked.
Yakou's relief felt is so immeasurable he practically almost cries, and a very dazed Yuma wakes up with next to no memory of what happened, confused by his chief's exaggerated reaction.
Until he recalls it later and thanks him for tending to him.
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#whumpcode#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#yakou furio#shinigami rain code#my edits#pixeledits#rain code#mdarc#yakou fathero#not me using some of my old edits for this draft and making a few new ones#I had to make one of him on the verge of collapsing#made this one kinda dramatic and angsty XD#illness#fever#fever whump#illness whump#I could be making these ideas into fics#but nah I wanna make them real#can't draw so making edits is the next best thing lol#I need more parental yakou in my life#I likely won't make any more edits for a while after this#so enjoy this illness whump angst food :3#whump edit#anime boys whump#sick whump#sicknario#hurt/comfort#caretaking#this is becoming my therapy lol
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So there's this account I follow on Tiktok that critiques some webtoons and LO was one of them. They're discussing the finale and my god the comments are glorious. Lots of the people commenting either fell off the comic or were once die hard fans who hated what happened. Some of them even were fans of the series who recently started hating it after the hiatus. From what I saw this was what their concerns were.
Apollo not being punished harshly enough
Last minute queer rep with Hera
Certain plots being thrown in and old ones being tossed out
The ending feeling rushed.
Some of them are blaming Webtoons for 'axing the series' so Rachel had no choice but to rush it. Others are questioning why was there a hiatus at all if this was the pay off?
So now even some of the fans are starting to feel like we former fans do.
Yeeah you know it's not good when even the fans were left going "... huh?" And frankly I do feel bad, as much as I've talked shit about the stans in the past, so many of them hung on with the genuine good faith that it was all "building up to something". There are also people who are still praising it as the best thing ever which, okay, that's them, and people who didn't love the finale but are leaving it be like reasonable non-obsessed people.
I'm not entirely convinced that Rachel ended it willingly, I've seen Webtoons cut series short during their midseason hiatuses by telling the creators "okay once you come back you have this many episodes to wrap it up", so while it is shocking to see it happen with WT's golden goose, maybe they saw the decline over the past several months and realized it was time to cut it loose. But ultimately I can't ever know if it was Rachel calling it quits or Webtoons, not unless one (or both) of them come forward and say anything regarding that. I can only wonder, and in reality, none of what I wonder really matters because it's over.
Again, I do feel bad. I remember when the trial arc was going on and the whole Eris reveal happened and I had that sinking feeling in my stomach that maybe the comic wasn't all it was cracked up to be, that maybe it wasn't going where I had been hoping and assuming it would go. I imagine there are a lot of people feeling that exact same thing right now. I do hope, at the very least, they find their closure through whatever future projects Rachel does or through other comics that fill the void left by LO. I'm definitely hoping the same for myself, tbh, now that the comic is actually over for good I feel like I can finally put my obsession with it to rest, even just a little. Although tbf I'm really just refocusing that obsession onto Rekindled, which I have a much more positive relationship with LMAO but I'm very thankful to have it and I owe that to LO, in all its perks and quirks and flaws.
#and yeah honestly i hope that anyone who becomes a critic of this series goes more gracefully than i did LOL#like i know y'all like my essays and rekindled and all that jazz but man#i really did become long-term obsessed about this one piece of media#i wonder how much therapy it's gonna take to rewire my brain back to some sense of normalcy LOL#ask me anything#ama#anon ama#anon ask me anything#lore olympus critical#anti lore olympus#lo critical
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quick lil post about coming back to art full-time while also being a full time MSW student….it can be possible 0.0
anyway ty to everyone who has supported me over the years i wouldnt be able to go back to art without you all
#muertodraws#also becoming a lil more comfy calling myself autistic even tho every autistic person i have ever me is like yea ur us lol#back in therapy and i finished my first sem of grad school off strong#next sem will be crazy but o well#hoping to volunteer at a cat shelter next yr too#i need a cat in my life or else i will explode#i would get one now as an esa but i just dont have the money#so heres to hoping#anyway i know my asks are off and thats cuz i just needed to focus on school#maybe theyll come back on next year but for now if u need to reach me feel free to pm or email me#dm me on instagram too if u gotta reach me#trying to balance being on here and also wanting to be invisible and blend in with the masses and work my 9-5 and act like i dont have like#intimate knowledge about online discourse lmfao#anyway#see u all soon
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every time i hear “ghosting” again im going to think of this and imagine your unmade animatic and cry
tfw u dont need poltergeists for sidekicks
#it's actually kinda funny because#i've had that scenario/headcanon in my head for many years#not even knowing i would eventually become the beetlejuice in that situation#so perhaps this is my way of self therapy lol
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🌸🌈 HBD Goro Akechi 🌈🌸
happy birthday and happy pride month to my most special of boys🥰🥰💗💞🌸
he's my angel and I know he's getting the mental health care he needs🥺💞 (or maybe he's worse lol idk 🤷♀️) as long as he's with akira, that's all that matters😌💗🌈🌸
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behold! an angel!!
#goro akechi#persona 5#shuake#implied#he is looking at akira#the insp for this is older akechi going to therapy and becoming a more stable person with a support network#most of that is akira ofc lol#but sojiro and the others love and support his recovery in their own way#(idk if i would say haru likes him but she does want him to atone and get better)#(and she supports whatever makes her leader happy)#(and that just so happens to be goro♡)#i just want my boys to be happy#or destroy each other in insane ways#as long as theyre together#im glad i was able to bust something out for goro's bday#ive been really sick lately#and getting any work done has be near impossible;;;#so thank you everyone for your support!!#it means the world to me#♡♡♡♡♡♡♡#shitty#(< that's my art tag)
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#first therapy session went well !#i didn't cry which is v surprising lol#maybe bc we didnt go too in depth about things but#therapist already picking up on things i didn't like#never really thought of myself as an anxious person#depression was more so what stuck out to me#but like therapist was like bestie... u sound more anxious than ur perceiving#like i put that i don't struggle with social anxiety bc generally in a group of people im pretty outgoing#but like my coping skills are isolation lol#and i often turn down invitations bc of my insecurities#and in general just hate being perceived despite wanting it#like i literally havent answered any asks on here in months bc#im afraid of what people think of me#and im scared of interaction#but im also dying for human connection lol :'))#i also avoid men completely bc trauma so yeah#and it all stems from a deep deep belief that i am not worthy of love n wOw im sad but like we can only go up from here right :'))#LMAO SORRY THAT THIS IS WHAT MY BLOG HAS BECOME BUT#idk this is my diary fr#anywho sorry for everything#will most likely delete all these rants bc its embarassing lol but#love you all#and im so sorry for not answering the asks#thank you for reading my fics#your comments mean sm to me truly#love you endlessly
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having sudden allergic reactions was not on my 2025 bingo card
#am i allergic to the air? the cold? who the fuck knows#but i'll be honest it is not helping me become less suicidal#especially not when i have to cancel on my way to therapy because i have another reaction lol#charles.txt
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#i forgot how much i like coding. makes me feel like less of a fuckup for once#like can i sit down and write for 4hrs? no. can i read for 1hr? no. can i get absorbed in R for 5hrs? yes absolutely#just give me data and let me code all day. its like doing puzzles and it makes my brain shut up bc i have to focus#but for som reason i cant do that with reading or writing. stupid#my life should b drawing. doing puzzles and becoming obsessed with media#but i am burdened with dyslexia and the necessity of reading#that should b a therapy goal for me. become less anxious abt how bad at reading i am#my mum says i got fucked over bc by the time my youngest sister was in school they were doing better interventions for#ppl with learning disabilities rip me i guess#my fault for picking a reading heavey career path lol#unrelated
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Mel for the unhinged character bingo!
yessss YEEEESSSSSSSSS
#ask me#so Mel is in the unenviable position of being a very strong character whose rights I support and whose wrongs I also fully support#BUT the way she's treated broadly in the fandom is so pervasive and so consistent and so frustrating to me that#I am in full -must protect my blorbo- mode with her at all times#-Mel's story is over so the only thing left for her to do is die-#-if Mel dies then J can get together with V and they will appreciate her for her sacrifice bc she died a hero who rejected Ambessa-#enough! enough I say!#what about proving to ambessa that she can take the throne for herself? what about the angst of defying her mother and her home country#and opposing those in Piltover who DO want war and want to raze the undercity#what about the magic that she's heavily foreshadowed to have and how it's different from hextech#and how it directly opposes but also parallels what is happening to Viktor#what about her -friends- abroad and the plot Mel was cooking through all of season 1 that has not been revealed yet#there's so much potential for her to have to confront the fact that J was slowly becoming a monster through season 1#and that she can't ignore the undercity forever#also what if whoever Ambessa says killed her brother comes after Mel too!#it is very frustrating to see Mel get dismissed as dead or evil or irredeemable or whatever when she is consistently#the most interesting person in the room in every single scene she's in and the character who shows the most conviction and change#so yeah i will take a bullet for her she is my blorbo I will despise any character who hurts her#and I would cradle her in my arms if she gave me a chance - which she would never! - but a girl can dream#however I also enjoy leaning into the idea that Mel is perceived as being a devil from the outside - Mel leans into it too when it serves#but it's in direct opposition to her ironclad values and the personality that she keeps hidden a layer down#I genuinely think that Mel will have a happy ending - or at least as happy an ending that an Arcane character can get lol#like I fully believe she will take the throne (Piltover) in the end but I can only guess at this point what that will cost her#I love putting Mel in situations but mainly to play with both how creative she can get and also how fucking far she will go to win#which is ANOTHER thing we know is probably true about Mel but has not been put on display yet#also Mel has already done a great job at separating what she wants for herself as a person from just being Ambessa's daughter#but Mel still deserves to get plenty of great therapy for that situation because OH GOD THAT CHILDHOOD FLASHBACK#also Kino is dead? maybe dead?? at least Mel fully believes he's dead so she needs therapy and hugs for that too#I am super normal about her can you tell
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i met a new therapist today and I'm feeling pretty positive about it. i think it's gonna work out okay.
#i was working off the afterglow of a two day high and also jittery as fuck from trying to wake myself up with caffeine#but i managed to say everything i wanted which. both the afterglow and the caffeine probably helped lol. he seemed like a chill person#he also listens to the wonder years and likes them so that's already a point in his favor lol#i like how that's become one of the standards i use to measure how cool a person is#if they listen to and like the wonder years then they're probably a cool person#so far it's been pretty accurate every single time so I'm gonna stick with it for now lol#anyway im feeling pretty positive about the meeting and the new therapist which is good#i wasn't a huge fan of my previous therapist so this is a nice improvement#it's nice talking to someone that i feel aligned with politically#he's also physically disabled and an abolitionist which helps a lot#just. the nature of the patient-therapist relationship and the power imbalance of it yknow#and having a therapist who acknowledges that and actively tries to work with you to reduce that imbalance#and help without taking away your autonomy or jumping to mandatory reporting. that just helps a lot#therapy#mine
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my last relationship made me realize I might actually be a little avoidant
#i think i become anxious when I’m with someone more avoidant 🏃🏽♀️ which is also what I seek out I think?#but my ex always wanted to talk things through in our relationship like just to see where we were at#and i was always like can we just vibe twin just vibe lmaooo#and debriefs after sex 😭 i was like pls can we just be normal and go get food now? please#thoughts#come to think it i think I might go after avoidant because it feels less real like I don’t actually have to be vulnerable and open myself up#and also subconsciously maybe I don’t wanna do that and be in a relationship cause I’m so used to being guarded and independent#that that thought is terrifying to me as much as I think I want a relationship#lol who needs therapy
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last rb stressed me out lowkey akakska i had an ex like that and it became a self fulfilling prophecy kinda thing..
#like oof where do i even begin#for one... would recommend looking up what pedestalling is so u can catch urself when ur doing it.#and. hm. honestly even working on self worth n whatnot i think rly internalizing not 2 pedestal ppl cuts out a lot of self sabotage#like hello ppl in ur life r there bc they choose to be. you are worth it to them and they are showing u that w action.#u gotta be vulnerable.. u gotta trust in other ppl.. cautious optimism is fine but 😮💨😮💨#i hate when ppl assume what im thinking and feeling and act upon that. assumptions on assumptions.#my mom was like that in a mean spirited vindictive way. my ex would spiral if i took too long to respond stressed as hell#thinking that i had all these horrible thoughts about her or that i was just using her like holy shit I'm just sitting here drawing ajsjka#i am trying to make friends. i am recovering from my own personal circumstances and trying to figure myself out etc.#was also actively working on finding myself as a trans woman bc it was so early in my transition.#idk. like damn ppl have Lives‚ hobbies‚ other ppl they talk to‚ they take time for themselves.#if u don't know and ur stressed about it‚ ask..? but then believe ppl when they answer idk.#sorry.. I've annoyed myself lmao. it was wild... things were dead simple on my end but she came up w hella things she swore HAD to have bee#true and after breaking up w her she kept DMing me w long ass self deprecating vents and mischaracterisations#i had to block her after a while like 😐 u ever see somebody go to therapy and get worse somehow#i cannot fw people who have low self esteem anymore but like i sympathize from a distance lol#hello from the other side of the interaction... self love/worth is hard but please try#ur mischaracterization of ppl based on assumptions is hurting them and it will alienate ppl n push them away#and then become a sort of self fulfilling prophecy.. but also take what I'm saying w a grain of salt 🤷🏾♀️#i just have my personal experiences
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I'm working on a project on my computer and vaping, this is the closest I've been to my normal pain level in days. I know it won't last, especially not when I'm trying to sleep later.
Trying to ignore the guilt of disappearing from work for three days, when the last time I did that it was my mental breakdown two years ago.
#it's not like then#not really#I mean it is and it isn't#my physical health was/is in a point of decline and the fear of pushing myself too hard became/is becoming too much#but I've grown so much in the last two years#I'm not gonna lie#sometimes I wish I had quit the work force back then#I obviously couldn't have predicted the sharp decline of my physical health over the course of this calendar year#but it happened#so the day to day question becomes now what?#now what do I do with myself/my life/my time/my energy/my independence/my god knows what else#nothing I am physically capable of doing is going to fulfill me and the things that fulfill me are now out of reach#so what fucking now?#I think this is it folks#I think it's time to start planning my exit strategy from the work force#and I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna do that when we literally just bought a condo#and I have therapy tomorrow too so I get to try and relay all this to my therapist in just half an hour lol#I don't regret dropping down to maintenance sessions#but sometimes you just need more time#tomorrow I'll get on the phone and be like ohmygodjoshitsbeensuchafuckingweek#ihadaflareupsobadicalledoutofatotaloffourdaysofworkandleftearlybythreehoursoneday#andnowimhavingcompletefearsaboutbeingsocompletelyincapacitatedthatillneverleavethehouseagain#and he'll be like well first of all BREATHE#second of all there's nothing indicating that this is unlike every other flare up that you've managed to fight through after a week plus#and then I'll be like butwhatifimstuckhomewithkaren24/7andshedrivesmebatshitwhenicantleaveonmyown?#and then he'll be like what did I just say about breathing?#but then he'll point out that the point of us moving is so we can get more space and be able to separate ourselves from her more#and then I'll cycle back to but she won't see reason and take the downstairs bedroom now instead of god knows how long down the line#trust me we do this every two weeks lol
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obsessed that the one time dandelion ever actually felt guilt in his entire life maybe was not for the cheating, not for the cucking, not for the drinking, not for the whoring, not for the cheating (reprise), not for the avoiding paying his tab, not for the petty and minor theft, but he felt bad because he felt like he was not that good of a friend to geralt
#sorry ill go back to writing to meet my deadline now 🏃🏻♂️#c: dandelion#the witcher books#it does kind of frustrate me though that other fans tend to see dandelion’s presence in baptism of fire as like random#he is also going through his baptism of fire. it’s their collective substitute for therapy#like if you’re wondering why dandelion is there just read the first and fifth chapter of BOE and the second and fifth chapter of TOC#he has to help geralt. he has to do it now. because he couldnt before. but now he can#dandelion’s arc in boe and toc is so subtle but its so satisfying like he becomes just a little less worse but still sucks#also to be clear i dont expect people to feel guilt for drinking or being a patron of sex work#i only included those things because they define dandelion#sometimes people feel guilt for that but it’s not inherent#the other things though (cheating and evading paying your bill) you should feel guilt for lol#im just saying. you dont have a guilt vision when you cheat on like over ten girlfriends at once but#you have guilt hallucinations (though they were probably real) because geralt got hurt?#dandelion is literally the phenomenon in shounen anime where#the guys seem gay but only because they prioritize their male friendship so much and disrespect women so much in comparison#dandelion can be mlm and a misogynist like i dont think those things cant ever overlap#txt
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"your fave character goes to therapy" is kind of an annoying meme nowadays but i think it's a pretty good way to portray the contrast between Boss and Gat. it sounds really funny considering just what kinda game sr2 is but i think Boss has the capability to seek that kinda help once they feel bad enough, the difficult part is they need to first realize that they're feeling those things at all. srtt is basically a separate continuity but srtt Boss does canonically go to therapy even though they don't sound too impressed by it. Johnny however he wouldn't do it in a million years, he's just too inflexible to even consider it. i think Boss' character is defined by this unwavering confidence in who they are, and even if they're not necessarily all that sure of what exactly that entails - them being customizable definitely plays into it for me - they're willing to find out. but for Johnny his identity is more of a self-imposed cage where the door must be kept tightly locked. like i think he knows exactly how fucked up he feels but it doesn't matter, you just don't seek help for that shit, end of. it's easier to just continue playing the role of dumb muscle, all that wacky funny murder oughta take your mind off it
#there are a lot of things in srtt that don't follow at all from sr2#but Boss going to therapy? yes. definitely. they'd at least try it#it's played as a throwaway joke but if the games actually ever explored it#it would make for just the kinda surreal humor that makes sr2 work so well tonally#i can see with my mind's eye an activity cutscene where they're at a therapist or maybe a psychiatrist's office#and it's portrayed like a session in progress but then they're given some kinda job lol#just a little snippet of mundane everyday life that becomes absurdist comedy by the context of the world in which it happens
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I'm just completely overflowing with feelings from that video, cause it made me think of so much shit that went on in my life. And how things that seem to be so random can change the course of your life forever. Like two nerds sitting in an ugly green carpet saying random shit for no good reason besides their own fun would change the course of so many lives, not even just their own.
All of us have been touched by their content and inspired in different ways. We created questionable art, some people even grew up with them. I know I've been watching since 2014 and when I joined there was already a big messy community. And I know it changed a lot when I wasn't around as much, but it's still such a monumental thing to imagine that this was it: pinof 1 was literally the genesis of all of the Dan and Phil stuff that means so much to us.
And sure, it's super silly, but the stuff we all gained from watching them wasn't. We watched them grow and we all grew and went through shit and they comforted us in a way that is difficult to explain. I've realized my sexuality by falling in love with someone who was also a member of the phandom way back in the day and we were together for three years. I've met so many people that came and went in these years and it's all due to something so random.
We changed their lives and they changed our lives forever.
I met my internet bestie @femslashy over our shared phandom experiences and she left but she still listens to my crazy rambles about them over text (thank u <3) and we've been friends for SO MANY YEARS NOW (literally we were just discussing how long based on her son's age earlier today lol) and we talk everyday and if it wasn't for Dan and Phil none of this would have happened. Idk who I'd be at this point, and that's so weird to say cause it's so random the ways in which they changed me and changed with me over the years.
That video broke me. I love them and I love all the stuff they built and the stuff WE built as a community. Thank you for this, thank you for being authentic and enjoying something so niche that most people in our lives wouldn't understand, but loving it with your whole heart. I hope you all understand that random choices, small things that we think would never matter amount to things so huge that I can't stop myself from believing it was just meant to be. Dan and Phil were meant to be and so were all of us meant to find them and find comfort on their silly silly content. Thank you!
#phandom#phan#dan and phil#dnp#personal#really thank you all I hope you all know that you're special#and no matter what we do no matter how small it can become something so much bigger than ourselves#we all have impact#I'm in painnnn lol#dan and phil gave me psych damage pls pay for my therapy lol
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