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like I just can't seem to make myself fit into the world no matter how hard I try, so why keep trying when there is no point
#I'm sad and I'm angry and I'm lost and alone and I don't think I can be positive about this anymore#I can't figure out a way to fix all of this#it's too much#I don't want to move again. I thought I might finally feel at home somewhere and now that's gone and there will NEVER be a home because#this is all we'll ever have#this sounds so fucking dramatic and childish but I don't have anywhere to go I don't have anyone to go to and I have no reason to keep#trying and trying and trying because there's nothing. nothing that makes me feel like a person#I want to spend time with people but when I do I just want to be alone. I'm always lonely. i can't do any of the things I want to do so what#is the point#my body and my brain will never be right and it will never be different so why keep doing it. it's all just shit anyway#I can't fix myself with positive thinking. I can't make myself better no matter what I do
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you know, I've been thinking about it, and there is actually one single scenario in which I would be okay with not getting a big ol' "Silver Vanrouge" out of Lilia.
(just kidding, I still need some "call me Silver, Mr. Vanrouge is my father" in my life, please don't let me down on this one Twst)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#(gonna do the general episode 7 tags just in case but...weirdly i don't think this is specifically spoilery for once?)#why not though. why not both of 'em.#why not all of 'em. sebek can hyphenate.#lilia gazing wistfully up at the sky: it's what meleanor would have wanted#ghost meleanor with a bucket of popcorn watching the senate absolutely implode in impotent rage: hell yeah#i'm currently about 80/20 on whether or not i think we'll actually get silver vanrouge in canon#but man do i ever want it#if we all hold hands and believe very hard maybe we can manifest this by the time we finally get back to diasomnia#WE CAN DO IT 🤝🤝🤝
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#love the plot of 2x01
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#can't tell y'all how many times i've wondered what other tva employees think about these two flirting up and down the halls#and now we know 😅🤣#stg no matter what happens we'll always have ep 1 my beloved!! they've given me all i ever wanted 💖#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#loki s2 spoilers#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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Marvel Meow (2021), Nao Fuji | Professor X and Magneto
Bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#professor x#magneto#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus leshnerr#snap scans#i dont scan ever please forgive me for. Everything jvAE:KJ i tried my best to match the purple as how it looks in person#i love the purple used for this whole comic .. its really nice#all the comics have different colors its neat yall should check it out if youre able. its a lovely silly collection#BUT GIRL PLEAAAASSSEE IM CRYING#as a part of my Visiting My Family For The Weekend trip my bro and i went to the store#and i told him about the wolverine cat comic and the whole collection and he found it while we were browsing ....#naturally i got it. because i love the idea of cats being heinous freaks ESPECIALLY to my faves#this all did happen because of a cat. btw. phoenix possessed one while scott and jean were baking a cake#which had everyone trying to catch it. leading to. this. jWLRAKJAWRLKJKJ#this is 1000% has 'we'll be back by 8PM please keep the house clean' vibes i'm sobbing LIKE WHERE ARE THEY RETURNING FROM#also can i just say ... i love it when american comic book characters get the manga treatment#idk i just love it ... i esp love how wolverine's drawn in these comics but. this aint about him#i just wanted to gush about my favorite old people LIKE PLEASE CHARLES IS GOING TO HAVE A STROKE I SEE IT#the fact they still got that goofy lil 'welcome back charles and erik' banner im going to be sick. theyre the whole mansions dads#anyway i have an assignment to do. because my prof hates me Who The Fuck Makes An Assignment due At 12:59AM#bye bye hpoefully ill be back with my own doodles ajvlekjla
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Want to know what I believe? It's right here
Dig a little deeper and it's crystal clear
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(WIP)
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#prince zuko#atla art#clear#twenty one pilots#wip#atla zuko#baby zuko#agni kai#Some random general#I have literally nine projects going on#And I started this thing today *sigh*#Good news! If I have the chance to work on it then it'll be ready tomorrow#Be prepared for some angst#fire hazard siblings#This for you two my sweet little turtleducks#You know those moments when you're listening to a random song and a particular lyric just *smacks you in the face*#Well...yeah#I present to you: TØP x ATLA#Because I can#And because Clear is SO Zuko/Royal Family/Iroh coded it's not even funny#I mean#“Where's your home? Where are you going and why are you here? Have you asked these questions? Have you been sincere?”#“I will tell you what I can but your mind will take a stand. I sing of a greater love. Let me know when you've had enough.”#If these aren't the most Iroh lines you have ever read then *takes out a gun* our deal is off#“Introspection is the name of this session. Spread this infection. Reflect it on the next one the next one the next one.”#“And when we're done we'll all have made something new under the Sun.”
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skully (scully??) in his element: alone in a quiet dark room with NOTHING but a single pumpkin and a light inside😌
#twst spoilers#twst event#skully j graves#twisted wonderland#cereal tries to draw#twst#um. son boy moment. hes a lil freak but that's okay :^]#he would fit right in at nrc bc:#they all think hes a freak [they all think each other are freaks as well]#they keep annoying each other#and. well i was going to say hes dressed all dark but thats bc of the book idk what he might look like outside but#given his whole deal i feel like he probably also dresses dark lol#put this beast in diasomnia or something#also idk if he meant like a jack o lantern when he said a pumpkin w/a light#bc he was also saying NO DECORATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway i think hes funny. i wonder if hes gonna have a meltdown next week 🤔#i also feel like the way he talked in part 1 he potentially could be in there from a different time#so idk if hes gonna come out of the book w/us or be zapped back to when he found it#MISTER BOY WHY DONT YOU KNOW WHAT A MAGESTONE PEN THING IS ANSWER ME!!!!! i guess we'll see. OR NOT IDK LOL#anyway i love the event so far it's very funny#love when these children squabble nonstop forever and ever and ever and ev
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Hermit a day May 1: Etho!
for @hermitadaymay (honestly i dont have too much faith that ill make it through the whole challenge but ill just do as much as i can! <3)
#hermitaday#itd be cool to have a whole lineup for all the hermits at the end so i wanna do as much as i can manage#but kinda busy with work & uni etc etc we'll see#then again the only time i ever made it through all of inktober was when i had the worst work schedule of my life. so maybe this works#hermitcraft#etho#ethoslab#my art
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MARRY AND SETOOO 🌸🐍💭 i've never drawn kagepro fanart before, despite being a huge fan of it!! these two are my favs <3 (textless ver below the cut!)
(his arms gave out ;3;)
#churro art#my art#digital art#illustration#fanart#kagerou project#kagerou daze#kagepro#mekakucity actors#mekakushi dan#marry kozakura#seto kousuke#theyre my everything!!!! marrys the cutest ever....#and seto is still the sweetest boy in all of existence ToT#anyways yes i think kagepro may be like oen of the franchises i hold closest to my heart...#i never finished the anime but i have the songs and the mvs TATOOED on my brain#and ofc mekakucity ms is like.... also tatooed in my brain#LOL anyways i think im slowly crawling out of my art funk but we'll see!!#its been.. an interesting summer thus far..
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The curse of episode 4 of a Heartstopper season, a.k.a. Nick Nelson's ongoing disrespect for dry bedding
S1E4
S2E4
*disapproving mother noises*
#Nick Nelson is a menace#What did dry bedding ever do to him?!#It was Nick all along#We'll have to see if the pattern holds for season 3#heartstopper#nick & charlie#charlie spring#nick nelson#narlie#heartstopper netflix#heartstopper gifset#mine
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Is it better if John erased their memories, or if they came back that way and he just decided not to fix them?
It's immensely better if he intentionally mindwiped them. TO ME.
I'm a John fan. I think he's a tremendous tragic antagonist, and that everything he does in the HtN backstory is relatable if not painful familiar. He was under immense pressure, trying to mitigate the literal end of the world, having his mind and his whole self changed in ways he had no frame of reference to understand. He went from being desperate and trying to do his best to being carried away by circumstances to going absolutely fucking insane. There are many ways to rationalise John's actions all the way to the end, which is what makes it such an effective corruption arc. If you want to engage in some blorbo apologism, there are plenty of excuses to be found.
There's absolutely no fucking way to excuse mind-wiping his friends. THAT is why it's so important to me that he did it deliberately, in cold blood, justifying it to himself as a way to take their burdens upon himself so they wouldn't have to feel guilty. He removed their agency. He didn't want any peers in the world he'd created. He could have acknowledged what had happened, for better or worse, and tried to make amends - but instead, he chose to remove their knowledge that something had even happened in the first place. It's the turning point! I need him to go into that with his eyes fully open. He's doing it on purpose! He weighed the pros and cons and prioritised his comfort over his friends' identities.
EYE believe that his story arc is infinitely more powerful if there's a point we can look at and say "here is when John's story went from things happening TO HIM to John doing terrible things". Especially in a backstory that's ultimately about divine corruption and losing touch with your humanity, I think that turning point needs to be something that has a personal value to him, something that can't be chalked up to "he was high on death" or "humanity was doomed" or even "he touched the soul of the earth and went insane."
I think it's important, thematically, that one of his first actions after acquiring godlike powers was to make sure that no one would be able to remember his human self and challenge him on equal footing, even if he's still internally lamenting his own loneliness and wishing things were different.
Obviously, this is all coming from a known John Girlie™ and Eldritch Alecto Enjoyer — I interpret John's ascension to quasi-divinity as something that was mostly imposed ON him and he couldn't control, which is why I need him to cross the moral event horizon outright with the mind violation of his inner circle. Someone who views John as more directly culpable in the end of the earth might feel less strongly about the importance of the mindwipe in his story arc than I do, but TO ME it's the culmination of the tragedy. You've become the inhuman horror, baby.
/post that inspired the question
#i'd totally read posts or fics where this happens differently but TO ME it's juicy if he does it outright :3#i doubt we'll ever find out for sure bc i think we've seen ALL that we're going to ever get of the resurrection unless it's from alecto's d#so it's really all headcanons! but this is mine#ask#anonymous#elle tlt posting#ejg#tlt thoughts#SORRY I HAVE SOOO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS
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rereading the nuca pink doujin and seeing yakumo tear himself apart re: his snake form vs his human form all this agony and self-doubt and silent suffering and fear of rejection like "if i looked less human would u hate me" , "if u saw me in my true form wouldn't that be horrible. terrifying. disgusting" , "if i admitted i want to swallow you whole would you think worse of me"
and i imagine him asking something like this to the crowd of clan members , who are , undeniably,, a group of Kinky Fuckers
they all smile with the serenity and carefully masked excitement of a horny olivine. masterful beautiful reassuring expressions (errr..... masked to different degrees depending on the clan member)
#yaku is in his head so much about that#he thinks his snake form would be gross right? right????#eiden might give me Wet Hole privileges when i look like this carefully crafted human avatar#but if i revert to my original body there's no way anyone would ever want to ..be with me... like that? right???#meanwhile eiden's just got that sly look on his face in the corner waiting for yakumo to make the proposal#i can't imagine any of the clan members being particularly freaked out about yaku in snake form.....#all the yokai are immediately eliminated from Grossed Out pool. like. that's them. they know how it be#then you got the ppl who have lived way too long to be shocked by a sweet little snakewife being more noodley than usual#rei and quincy fall into that category most likely. blade by association because . well. blade.#he's gonna make a Yakuchan Snake sculpture and it's gonna be extra cute so yakumo doesn't feel shy about his snake form anymore#(actually it's going to freak yaku out even more and he's gonna spiral thinking that he's uglier than he ever imagined)#(and he's gonna run away feeling more insecurity while blade is SUPER CONFUSED because he captured his cuteness perfectly??)#(eiden's gonna have to reconcile another misunderstanding. sorry eiden. artistic differences are rough)#and you have the general Kinky Fuckers like eiden oli and morv#morv won't care as long as you feed him LOL#and eiden and oli are just sideeyeing excitedly like. snake? snake??? can we. can we try that 👀#i imagine that the only people who might express hesitation at first are edmond and dante#eddie would probably cave though once he realises it is IN FACT still yakumo in there. and he can fully consent#(then we give way to Kinky Fucker Edmond. Welcome to the party eddie!)#hmm... dante... never really thought about him and snakekumo...#how would that even go DOWN? like what is even the siTUATION here? how did we get here??#dante catches sooley who has a tiny snakekumo in his mouth??? a tiny lil guy who was lurking in his palace for some reason???#hm. warrants more thought exploration. we'll come back to that another time.#nu carnival yakumo
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"Is [Barkov] a normal dude? Meaning like—is he just like, you're having a cheeseburger some day and he's like 'Oh, no, no, no! I need this, I need the superfoods,' like is he kind-of... is he a normal guy?" "'Is that Wagyu or no?'" "'I need, you know, the best of the best,' Like how is he?" "He's undercover really funny, especially when you get to know him. I don't think he said much for the first 3 to 5 years. But I always joke with him I've never been invited to his house and we've played together for 10 years." "Dude, Brandon Montour said the same thing! We had him on last year! He's like, 'Dude, he's never had us over! We're always like—' But he doesn't live by all you guys, right? He kind-of lives a little further out?" "Yeah, he lives 20-30 minutes away in Boca [Raton.] But, yeah, no I—Listen, it's just his personality. It's who he is, and we respect him for it. Like I said, he's a really funny guy when you get to know him, and sometimes he's got those one-liners. And, you know, he's one of those perfect humans, right? You know, one of the guys we all strive to be, and we'll all come short forever, but—yeah, he's a good person."
The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.30.24 (x)
i hope this bit never ends if not for the fact that each time ekky has to say it he has to add another year to it which adds to the comedy of it all
"Hey, who's got the best setup on your team with the Panthers? When all the boys get together, 'We're going to your crib. We're gettin' on the jet skis,' whatever. Who's got the best setup?" "Yeah, um—Aaron [Ekblad]'s probably...I mean, Aaron's been there the longest. Hopefully, Barkov hears this! He's been there the longest, but he never invites the boys over to his house!" "Oh~ Barky!" "Is he cheap?" "I'm gonna call Barky out right now, and see if he can invite the whole team over next year..." "Is he cheap? Is he cheap? What is it?" "Will he do it?" "Oh, he's up in 9 East—obviously, like quiet, unbelievable guy, but he's the only up in Boca [Raton.] So I don't know if anybody wants to even drive up to Boca..." "Oh, Fancyland Zone..." "What do you mean? How far is that away from where you are? Like, and everybody else?" "Yeah, we're all in Ft. Lauderdale, Las Olas—within probably... you know some families are in Parkland by the arena, but we're all within probably 10 minutes away and he's up 30, 40 minutes away so."
The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.25.23 (x)
the boys ribbing sasha for living so far away and never inviting them to his house but still going btw hes amazing and incredible and perfect and sososo good we say this to tease him but like this is just who he is as a person and we accept that so please dont misconstrue this into something its not this is a joke and we dont take it to heart
and on that topic its really a shame that NA media doesnt know how fucking funny and how absolutely unserious he can be. I understand the notion of diligent no-nonsense captain is a prevalent idea (which he is lets make that clear he takes hockey so seriously) but especially since this season hes said hes cut down on weight so he could skate faster (and the results show) so i understand where the questions are coming from knowing the track record but also
we've won a cup and hes ramped it up its fantastic and this is one of my favourite examples of it of how quippy he can be
happy to talk about my cappy!!! happy to tease my cappy!!!
"and you know hes one of those perfect humans right? you know one of the guys we all strive to be, and we'll all come short forever but yeah he's a good person" do you also cry about how terribly fond and sincere ekky gets about sasha
#aaron ekblad#aleksander barkov#brandon montour#florida panthers#the ever evolving “ive never been invited to his house in nth years” bit#a part of me is like itd be funnier if ekky never gets invited over#ekky teasing sasha but very quickly switching to sincerity like we accept him and love him for who he is#do you want me to die#“hes one of those perfect humans right” and other normal things to say about your captain#(writes down) ekky has used perfect to describe oel forsy and sasha#the list ever grows#”one of the guys we all strive to be and we'll all come short forever but yeah hes a good person” EKKY WHAT THE FUCK#THATS AN ADMISSION AND A HALF AINT IT#GOOD HEAVENS#i think a lot about ekky having a tendency to look away and down to focus on what hes saying#but looking up and engaging eyecontact when hes giving sincere praise#the whiplash i get seeing him switch between trying to joke about it (“well all come short forever”) and being sincere (“hes a good person”)#to which he schools his face
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How have your interactions with your floormates been? Do any of them seem particularly friendly?
I think this might be your guy to talk to, Leo, just a hunch...
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#this post has been cooking since the beginning omg. and thus ends the chronicle of my long weekend of shenanigans...#now that magnus and annabeth's designs are out I can rest T-T. this is my lovechild post I have literally been g l u e d to either#my laptop or the books putting all this together. it was the Chases' hair and those damn strawberries from 2 posts ago. my labors of love#anyway not to glaze myself but isnt this post such a cutie patootie-off btwn the 3 of them?? Leo's lil 👀😮.#and the Chase cousins obviously have the most babygirl eyes to ever. that was so important to me#I'm gonna go try to be more normal now that I'm officially a week out from moving back to uni...#but I do have at least another post for this week and obviously the inbox is open#I think someone should get Leo & Magnus to be closer friends -- maybe then we'll get the chance to talk to Maggie & figure out whats up#V²AU#valhalla!valgrace#magnus chase#leo valdez#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#mcga#hotel valhalla#leo valdez responds#answered asks#art#annabeth chase#forgot to tag pookie oh no!!#hopefully context clues and tags help explain this one lol i thought it was cute
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Morro design + a ton of notes.
#alek art#lego ninjago#ninjago#morro wu#lloyd garmadon#featured !#2024#the colors are soooo not going to stay consistent. just because i dont really work with green... ever... not the most happy with these#i need to do a ton of redraws its actually really fun... might open rqs#i know he was 15-20 when he died and its said he was a little younger than the ninja when it happened . and during s5 i see them as#18-20 so i will put him at 19 just because he gives 19 year old vibes (???)#i think i talked about the wings before. they can flap!! he does have ears !!! dont ask how it works. ninjago doesnt make sense#i say this when im the one overthinking how all their powers work and robot schematics. oops#i finished s5 .. i think we'll watch s6 tonight (queueing this on the 14th for reference) so prepare for stuff from that#art was kicking my ass and then i drew morro and all was fixed. morro my new muse ? i cant wait for day of the departed special#FUN FACT ive never seen it. and i like morro so im like itching for it dude. hes so mal core isk
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A promo sketch! It was going to be pencil and watercolour - but I left them all in Glasgow so, scribbles instead.
So a couple of months ago I was proposing the Monstrous Regiment stageplay at Edinburgh and we didn't get a slot, but reproposing will happen next semester! Fingers crossed!
Also, un-updated promo sketches under the cut! Needless to say, they leave something to be desired...
#discworld#monstrous regiment#gnu terry pratchett#polly perks#maladict#wazzer#shufti#lofty#tonker#Igorina#Carborundum#the duchess#Sgt. Jackrum#Lt. Blouse#Other productions: here have stage diagrams and moodboards and really polished posters and pamphlets and So Many Visuals#Us: HERE HAVE A FISH IN A DRESS#I wonder if we'll have better luck next year if we use an elaborate oil painting of a fish in a dress#I did everything I could#invoked lego ninjago at my learned and discerning audience#I TALKED ABOUT NINJAGO. NINJAGO. THE LEGO BRAND.#All things considered it's a miracle we even came third place to start with#Oh well#never know until you try again!#I'm very hyped for it; we'll doing a ren faire fundraiser if it ever passes
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[**VINE BOOM**]
#pkciv#pkciv spoilers#pvpciv#pvpciv spoilers#yeha. i am not immune to the minecraft...#i would say that this is a consquence of my covid obsession with dsmp#but honestly#i think it's more an extension of webnovel's decline. for me#i yearn for free easily accessible “power fantasies” with quirky worldbuilding and strange names#died 202X born 202X close enough welcome back chinese webnovel#also i feel like jay from absolute shopping addict would take pvp!evbo under his wing immediately#“i wanted this chestplate... but when i realised there were other colors... i could only use one but i needed them all...”#“i think we'll get along nicely. have you ever heard about magic limited edition sneakers”#liam and tabi shake their heads together in the corner before tabi realises that liam's weird too#anyway *slaps designs* this baby can hold so many headcanons in them#i love pvp civilization sm
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