#this is all we'll ever have
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like I just can't seem to make myself fit into the world no matter how hard I try, so why keep trying when there is no point
#I'm sad and I'm angry and I'm lost and alone and I don't think I can be positive about this anymore#I can't figure out a way to fix all of this#it's too much#I don't want to move again. I thought I might finally feel at home somewhere and now that's gone and there will NEVER be a home because#this is all we'll ever have#this sounds so fucking dramatic and childish but I don't have anywhere to go I don't have anyone to go to and I have no reason to keep#trying and trying and trying because there's nothing. nothing that makes me feel like a person#I want to spend time with people but when I do I just want to be alone. I'm always lonely. i can't do any of the things I want to do so what#is the point#my body and my brain will never be right and it will never be different so why keep doing it. it's all just shit anyway#I can't fix myself with positive thinking. I can't make myself better no matter what I do
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was anyone gonna tell me shadow saved rouge's life in sa2 or was I just supposed to find that out playing the game myself
(this worked out as a rather fitting closer for the Final Day in Year of Shadow haha, hope ya'll have a fun new year! 🎉🎉🎉)
#happy new year!#closing 2024 with an actual honest to god comic layout I know I'm shocked too#that scene wasn't in the fandub and that's all I'd ever seen so it was a Fun Surprise!#shadow the hedgehog#rouge the bat#sonic#sonic adventure 2#sa2#my art#doodles#comic#no words though! rare form#fun fact the white jungle route is the Only route I ever executed Flawlessly first try#just give me a good countdown and suddenly I know how to play video games#and a fun one too! love the Drama#fun fact originally his dash was green since i assumed he was teleporting around as usual#but my friend pointed out he actually didn't have an emerald on him at the time#which meant if he Didn't find rouge in time or if she Didn't have an emerald they were Both going to die#which is Excellent fun#I do have a shitposty bonus to this because of course I do but we'll see if I have time to make it tonight or not haha#if I was a Little better laying this out the final panel would've centered under panel 2 shadow's hand#tragically it was late enough in the game when I got to that point I didn't want to fuck with the layout anymore#maybe next time I make a comic layout in 4 years!
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you know, I've been thinking about it, and there is actually one single scenario in which I would be okay with not getting a big ol' "Silver Vanrouge" out of Lilia.
(just kidding, I still need some "call me Silver, Mr. Vanrouge is my father" in my life, please don't let me down on this one Twst)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#(gonna do the general episode 7 tags just in case but...weirdly i don't think this is specifically spoilery for once?)#why not though. why not both of 'em.#why not all of 'em. sebek can hyphenate.#lilia gazing wistfully up at the sky: it's what meleanor would have wanted#ghost meleanor with a bucket of popcorn watching the senate absolutely implode in impotent rage: hell yeah#i'm currently about 80/20 on whether or not i think we'll actually get silver vanrouge in canon#but man do i ever want it#if we all hold hands and believe very hard maybe we can manifest this by the time we finally get back to diasomnia#WE CAN DO IT 🤝🤝🤝
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Look what we've become.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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secret wars secret love you will ALWAYS be famous
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#//draws eriks weird reindeer thing differently to make this pose work// vjELAKVJEALKJV#maybe ill stick to this but i kinda like the 'barricade' vibe of the other option but anyway#mom said its MY turn to reference the famous bridal carry panel#this was supposed to be a quick warm up but as i was lining things my hand started to tremble really bad#i dont know why ??????????????? thats never happened before and my hand's perfectly fine and normal now#like my hands tremble a little from time to time but nothing ever detrimental#the trembling i had today was ACTUALLY crazy bad. had me concerned but i was also able to still draw so not that bad ig#ANYWAYS. yeah <3 i wanted to reference tha panel we all love ......#i draw this mfer carrying his mfer so much i fear i cant be stopped. charles is a princess who needs to be princess carried#i usually draw it like. An Actual Block or whatever but its flatter ... so charles may rest his weary head ...#i did draw charles getting a handful. its what he deserves. its also what i deserve but i cant have that now can i#erik living my dream too tho ..... life is so unfair i wanna carry charles xavier and kiss his head this life SUCKS#slowly being able to feed my cherik fix again we're Semi back. once i finish my work for once THEN we'll be so fuckin back jWRKLJLAKF#ok thats all from me bye bye
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#love the plot of 2x01
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#can't tell y'all how many times i've wondered what other tva employees think about these two flirting up and down the halls#and now we know 😅🤣#stg no matter what happens we'll always have ep 1 my beloved!! they've given me all i ever wanted 💖#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#loki s2 spoilers#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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Want to know what I believe? It's right here
Dig a little deeper and it's crystal clear
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(WIP)
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#prince zuko#atla art#clear#twenty one pilots#wip#atla zuko#baby zuko#agni kai#Some random general#I have literally nine projects going on#And I started this thing today *sigh*#Good news! If I have the chance to work on it then it'll be ready tomorrow#Be prepared for some angst#fire hazard siblings#This for you two my sweet little turtleducks#You know those moments when you're listening to a random song and a particular lyric just *smacks you in the face*#Well...yeah#I present to you: TØP x ATLA#Because I can#And because Clear is SO Zuko/Royal Family/Iroh coded it's not even funny#I mean#“Where's your home? Where are you going and why are you here? Have you asked these questions? Have you been sincere?”#“I will tell you what I can but your mind will take a stand. I sing of a greater love. Let me know when you've had enough.”#If these aren't the most Iroh lines you have ever read then *takes out a gun* our deal is off#“Introspection is the name of this session. Spread this infection. Reflect it on the next one the next one the next one.”#“And when we're done we'll all have made something new under the Sun.”
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hey i dont go here but jayce's speech about viktor in s2e9 isn't him saying 'u should never have tried to heal yourself, you were perfect the way u were x3' it was him saying that viktor's physical health never made him any less beautiful, never made him any less important, never made him any LESS, period. he wasn't saying viktor didn't need to pursue a cure for his ills like come on his motivation to invent hextech was to help people. to cure disease. viktor's first and foremost among them.
he said what he said because it was the thing viktor craved to hear most in his life, and that is why those were the words that punched through his defences even as the machine herald: jayce loved him wholly and unconditionally, healthy or ill, good or bad, human or inhuman. he would always be loved just the same.
#jayvik#arcane#like i said i dont go here but u cant slander my boy or that moment i wont stand for it#and yes as someone who is chronically ill i would know if it was ableist LOL (yes yes media is subjective but come the fuck on ppl i beg)#viktor's reaction to seeing inside jayce's mind really cinches it#he had fully given up on ever being loved in that way#romantic or platonic or some secret third thing whatever he had written it ALL off#so he is visibly shaken when he realizes that jayce LOVES (capital italicized underlined bold font) him and everything he is and ever was#jayce's love for viktor literally saves the entire world (also ekko W)#anyway if u wanted my onion i would say viktor didn't allow himself to consciously love jayce in return until that moment#like his need to have jayce be near him and work with him and approve of his actions even AFTER he loses his humanity is very telling#but i do think a lot of that was sort of his subconscious acting out deeply repressed desires#then when jayce confesses he finally understands (it was always about them)#anyway idk when we'll see another relationship like this in media again!!! holy shit!!!!!!!!!!
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Hermit a day May 1: Etho!
for @hermitadaymay (honestly i dont have too much faith that ill make it through the whole challenge but ill just do as much as i can! <3)
#hermitaday#itd be cool to have a whole lineup for all the hermits at the end so i wanna do as much as i can manage#but kinda busy with work & uni etc etc we'll see#then again the only time i ever made it through all of inktober was when i had the worst work schedule of my life. so maybe this works#hermitcraft#etho#ethoslab#my art
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MARRY AND SETOOO 🌸🐍💭 i've never drawn kagepro fanart before, despite being a huge fan of it!! these two are my favs <3 (textless ver below the cut!)
(his arms gave out ;3;)
#churro art#my art#digital art#illustration#fanart#kagerou project#kagerou daze#kagepro#mekakucity actors#mekakushi dan#marry kozakura#seto kousuke#theyre my everything!!!! marrys the cutest ever....#and seto is still the sweetest boy in all of existence ToT#anyways yes i think kagepro may be like oen of the franchises i hold closest to my heart...#i never finished the anime but i have the songs and the mvs TATOOED on my brain#and ofc mekakucity ms is like.... also tatooed in my brain#LOL anyways i think im slowly crawling out of my art funk but we'll see!!#its been.. an interesting summer thus far..
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The curse of episode 4 of a Heartstopper season, a.k.a. Nick Nelson's ongoing disrespect for dry bedding
S1E4
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*disapproving mother noises*
#Nick Nelson is a menace#What did dry bedding ever do to him?!#It was Nick all along#We'll have to see if the pattern holds for season 3#heartstopper#nick & charlie#charlie spring#nick nelson#narlie#heartstopper netflix#heartstopper gifset#mine
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Is it better if John erased their memories, or if they came back that way and he just decided not to fix them?
It's immensely better if he intentionally mindwiped them. TO ME.
I'm a John fan. I think he's a tremendous tragic antagonist, and that everything he does in the HtN backstory is relatable if not painful familiar. He was under immense pressure, trying to mitigate the literal end of the world, having his mind and his whole self changed in ways he had no frame of reference to understand. He went from being desperate and trying to do his best to being carried away by circumstances to going absolutely fucking insane. There are many ways to rationalise John's actions all the way to the end, which is what makes it such an effective corruption arc. If you want to engage in some blorbo apologism, there are plenty of excuses to be found.
There's absolutely no fucking way to excuse mind-wiping his friends. THAT is why it's so important to me that he did it deliberately, in cold blood, justifying it to himself as a way to take their burdens upon himself so they wouldn't have to feel guilty. He removed their agency. He didn't want any peers in the world he'd created. He could have acknowledged what had happened, for better or worse, and tried to make amends - but instead, he chose to remove their knowledge that something had even happened in the first place. It's the turning point! I need him to go into that with his eyes fully open. He's doing it on purpose! He weighed the pros and cons and prioritised his comfort over his friends' identities.
EYE believe that his story arc is infinitely more powerful if there's a point we can look at and say "here is when John's story went from things happening TO HIM to John doing terrible things". Especially in a backstory that's ultimately about divine corruption and losing touch with your humanity, I think that turning point needs to be something that has a personal value to him, something that can't be chalked up to "he was high on death" or "humanity was doomed" or even "he touched the soul of the earth and went insane."
I think it's important, thematically, that one of his first actions after acquiring godlike powers was to make sure that no one would be able to remember his human self and challenge him on equal footing, even if he's still internally lamenting his own loneliness and wishing things were different.
Obviously, this is all coming from a known John Girlie™ and Eldritch Alecto Enjoyer — I interpret John's ascension to quasi-divinity as something that was mostly imposed ON him and he couldn't control, which is why I need him to cross the moral event horizon outright with the mind violation of his inner circle. Someone who views John as more directly culpable in the end of the earth might feel less strongly about the importance of the mindwipe in his story arc than I do, but TO ME it's the culmination of the tragedy. You've become the inhuman horror, baby.
/post that inspired the question
#i'd totally read posts or fics where this happens differently but TO ME it's juicy if he does it outright :3#i doubt we'll ever find out for sure bc i think we've seen ALL that we're going to ever get of the resurrection unless it's from alecto's d#so it's really all headcanons! but this is mine#ask#anonymous#elle tlt posting#ejg#tlt thoughts#SORRY I HAVE SOOO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS
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Marvel Meow (2021), Nao Fuji | Professor X and Magneto
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#professor x#magneto#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus leshnerr#snap scans#i dont scan ever please forgive me for. Everything jvAE:KJ i tried my best to match the purple as how it looks in person#i love the purple used for this whole comic .. its really nice#all the comics have different colors its neat yall should check it out if youre able. its a lovely silly collection#BUT GIRL PLEAAAASSSEE IM CRYING#as a part of my Visiting My Family For The Weekend trip my bro and i went to the store#and i told him about the wolverine cat comic and the whole collection and he found it while we were browsing ....#naturally i got it. because i love the idea of cats being heinous freaks ESPECIALLY to my faves#this all did happen because of a cat. btw. phoenix possessed one while scott and jean were baking a cake#which had everyone trying to catch it. leading to. this. jWLRAKJAWRLKJKJ#this is 1000% has 'we'll be back by 8PM please keep the house clean' vibes i'm sobbing LIKE WHERE ARE THEY RETURNING FROM#also can i just say ... i love it when american comic book characters get the manga treatment#idk i just love it ... i esp love how wolverine's drawn in these comics but. this aint about him#i just wanted to gush about my favorite old people LIKE PLEASE CHARLES IS GOING TO HAVE A STROKE I SEE IT#the fact they still got that goofy lil 'welcome back charles and erik' banner im going to be sick. theyre the whole mansions dads#anyway i have an assignment to do. because my prof hates me Who The Fuck Makes An Assignment due At 12:59AM#bye bye hpoefully ill be back with my own doodles ajvlekjla
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I DON’T CARE IF HE’S A HITMAN I WOULD LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR FADEL
#HE MUST BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS#HE HAS DONE NOTHING WRONG EVER IN HIS LIFE I KNOW THIS AND I LOVE HIM#what an incredibly fascinating character he is and what an incredible job joong is doing portraying him#also i don't really expect coherency or continuity but. i do wonder how much bison knows of all this#like im not sure if fadel's ex died or just disappeared on him and he's going to the support group for loss for something else#but bison does know he's going there#so it's weird to think that bison would accuse fadel of not having a heart#we'll see#the heart killers
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p sure Luna's got knee pain. mom'll be talking to the vet today to see if we can get her in before christmas, or at least get some painkillers or her in the meantime
#assuming we'll get an x-ray to see how it looks in there#way back post surgery i know there was one final followup (last xray) that fell through and its been gnawing on my mind ever since#her knees have felt different all along but i wasnt there for all of it so i dont know whats what#bby :(#incredibly frustrating because ever since the surgeries she's been doing well#and in the last year shes been GREAT#so hopefully this is isnt anything catastrophic#this dog has the mental constitution of a marshmallow. cant allow bad things to happen to her
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rereading the nuca pink doujin and seeing yakumo tear himself apart re: his snake form vs his human form all this agony and self-doubt and silent suffering and fear of rejection like "if i looked less human would u hate me" , "if u saw me in my true form wouldn't that be horrible. terrifying. disgusting" , "if i admitted i want to swallow you whole would you think worse of me"
and i imagine him asking something like this to the crowd of clan members , who are , undeniably,, a group of Kinky Fuckers
they all smile with the serenity and carefully masked excitement of a horny olivine. masterful beautiful reassuring expressions (errr..... masked to different degrees depending on the clan member)
#yaku is in his head so much about that#he thinks his snake form would be gross right? right????#eiden might give me Wet Hole privileges when i look like this carefully crafted human avatar#but if i revert to my original body there's no way anyone would ever want to ..be with me... like that? right???#meanwhile eiden's just got that sly look on his face in the corner waiting for yakumo to make the proposal#i can't imagine any of the clan members being particularly freaked out about yaku in snake form.....#all the yokai are immediately eliminated from Grossed Out pool. like. that's them. they know how it be#then you got the ppl who have lived way too long to be shocked by a sweet little snakewife being more noodley than usual#rei and quincy fall into that category most likely. blade by association because . well. blade.#he's gonna make a Yakuchan Snake sculpture and it's gonna be extra cute so yakumo doesn't feel shy about his snake form anymore#(actually it's going to freak yaku out even more and he's gonna spiral thinking that he's uglier than he ever imagined)#(and he's gonna run away feeling more insecurity while blade is SUPER CONFUSED because he captured his cuteness perfectly??)#(eiden's gonna have to reconcile another misunderstanding. sorry eiden. artistic differences are rough)#and you have the general Kinky Fuckers like eiden oli and morv#morv won't care as long as you feed him LOL#and eiden and oli are just sideeyeing excitedly like. snake? snake??? can we. can we try that 👀#i imagine that the only people who might express hesitation at first are edmond and dante#eddie would probably cave though once he realises it is IN FACT still yakumo in there. and he can fully consent#(then we give way to Kinky Fucker Edmond. Welcome to the party eddie!)#hmm... dante... never really thought about him and snakekumo...#how would that even go DOWN? like what is even the siTUATION here? how did we get here??#dante catches sooley who has a tiny snakekumo in his mouth??? a tiny lil guy who was lurking in his palace for some reason???#hm. warrants more thought exploration. we'll come back to that another time.#nu carnival yakumo
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