#this is abt a very specific selfship

[chigirisprincess]

me when my boyfriends are in a band but they’re not as cool as me

[petrichorium]

I am in lock step w my mutuals abt the vast majority of characters but I do think I am alone when it comes to my take on gojo………

[shirogane-oushirou]

this shouldnt really be relevant to anyone following this blog up until now lmao, but that post i rb-ed on main made me remember that, now that i have a dedicated space for mature posts, this blog is no longer mdni. my main is still 18+ just because it's my catch-all blog for all types of posts, as is my art blog bc i'll occasionally post haha funnie adult humor + i want to retain the option to post some suggestive art if i ever feel like it, but at least here things can be more chill ✌🏻

[astrxealis]

fun fact please know my arc with sephiroth is literally enemies to maybe-lovers 👍

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ARIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A VERY IMPORTANT QUESTION FOR YOU. HOW DID ARISUGU MEET?🎤🎤🎤🎤🎤🎤 i am now steadily dragging everybody into this selfship playground hehehehhee ilysm<33 - @teddybeartoji

MICKEY!!!!!!!!……. welcome :3 take a seat :33 have some tea :333 🍵🍪 i’ve been Thinking abt this ask. intently. i got Way too into it btw

i think!! arisugu met in high school!! that makes most sense to me :> i transferred into his class and got attached to him …. pretty quickly probably. LMAO. i can see suguru being the one who gets assigned to show me around bc satoru Cannot be trusted w new students and shoko is a delinquent in the making…. so sugu is probably the one i meet first :3 and then i subtly imprint on him. like a duckling. a little ari following him around bc he has a soft silky voice. and he gets a bit of a soft spot eventually (me and the bad bitch i pulled by being socially incompetent <33)

WITH THAT BEING SAID…….. i see arisugu as The slowburn ever. neither of us are the love at first sight type, so i think it’d take a year or two for us to actually Fall in Love…. a year of getting to know each other on a deeper and more vulnerable level (ON THAT NOTE. late-night talks under starry skies are extremely arisugu coded)… so the feelings are very deep but. even though they’re mutual i don’t think we’d get together until a couple years have passed 😭😭 sugu would get tired of the ”chase” eventually and confess in our last year of hs maybe…. but i am Not Ready to accept his feelings. or my own. and i tell him that.

and so … he waits :’3 (WILLINGLY MIGHT I ADD i just think he’s the type of guy to say ”i’ll wait for you.” and Mean it yk….) until i eventually make the final push in like. our early twenties maybe…. which would mean about five total years of pining?? ish??? i just see it as a very tender, very very slow romance!! kinda like wading into deep water when you’re afraid of it. but by the time we get together we already know and trust each other so deeply that the change isn’t really too abrupt….. though he insists on taking everything at our own pace anyway. sniffle. i adore him (ALSO needless to say i’m not following canon here 🤨🤨 i firmly believe sugu wouldn’t have defected if he had a baby duckling following him around ok)

anyway. that’s how i picture it!! :3 i have Thoughts abt the overall dynamic but i think suguru is just… so patient. and so devoted. and i’m very loyal and also Very Shy. yepyep.

now . 😇 you didn’t ask for this but just as a comparison (<- this is a lie i just spent 2 much time thinking abt this)…. arigojo. i fear it’s a coworkers to lovers kinda deal. i’m Very Much picturing blindfolded gojo specifically and bc of his…. ways (crippling fear of intimacy + opening up) this is also another slowburn. and it ends with something a little less straightforward than arisugu bc i do Not think gojo asks me out…. it’s more of a gradual change yk?? bc labels are scary. but one day i don’t let him eat my portion of kikufuku and he goes ”how could you treat your boyfriend like this ;((” and i’m like . oh ok. so that’s what you are. we’re both losers sadly

ANYWAYYY THAT’S ALL i hope you didn’t run out of tea….. have some more just in case 🍵 as you can tell i had too much fun thinking of the Lore + all three of us are emotionally constipated (suguru too he’s just the most functional) but i hope reading it was enjoyable for youuu <33333 i love them. unfortunately.

[starlight-diesel]

Welcome to my blog! This is a selfship/comfort blog for my coping needs (Though my relationships with my f/os are still incredibly real and personal to me), I will post about my f/os but also just about things that I like. It's mostly a selfship blog but I will post other things from time to time. It's my sleepover and I get to choose how this blog functions.

If you need to send donation asks to me or are looking for people in need to support, go to this blog instead. I will not post donation asks on this blog for my own personal reasons.

-I am autistic and prone to overthinking, be patient with me -You can call me whatever you think fits (Star, Coda, etc.) as long as it's not rude -I am ace/bi/polyam and nonbinary, they/them pronouns only please -Still a minor (17) so if you do choose to interact please be normal and not a creep -I may post selfship content related to age regression/general stuff abt it from time to time as it is an important coping tool for me. It will be tagged as so if for some reason you'd rather avoid seeing it. -Nonhuman/system friendly Please respect my boundaries and DNI if you are a fully nsfw account or view age regression in a negative/sexual light. Also including basic DNI criteria such as incest/pedophilia shippers. Non-selfship blogs can follow me but I request that you do not reblog any of my selfship related posts to your blog, I want these posts to remain in the bounds of the community who will understand them.

!Selfship info under the cut!

All of my f/o content will be under the tag: personal f/o posting

Most of my selfship content is for a musical very near and dear to me, which is Starlight Express. I selfship with the CHARACTERS. NOT THEIR ACTORS.

My current main romantic f/os are Greaseball from the 2024 London production of Starlight Express and Roxanne from Potionomics.

My self-insert for StEx selfships is a kinsona based on the 2018 Bochum Revival version of Electra for the same musical my f/o is from, they are called Coda. I fluctuate between different design eras of the character (such as their red/blue look) my sona is based on, but I relate the most to the Bochum Revival version, so they are primarily based on him at their core. However as a machine swapping looks is fairly easy and I consider the red/blue colorset as myself too. You will see me refer to things abt my kin as me.

Wrench, Joule, Killerwatt, Krupp, Purse, and Volta (basically all of Electra's components) are all familial/platonic f/os to me. No specific labels, we just take care of each other.

I also consider Momma and Dinah (specifically the 2024 London versions) as platonic f/os. Momma is familial, Dinah is simply my buddy and pal who also happens to be dating GB.

[suosgirl]

Kicking my legs up like a school girl texting her crush while i read your kiryu selfship posts

Im honestly so baffled why they dont have more notes bc they are so pleasant to read nad you are so enthusiastic about them!!

Im currently reading through your blog and your characterization of Suo is so amazing like GIRL

But a person talking about their special interest?? Their cute lil blorbo and themself?? Like hit me tf uP

This is ann invitation for your selfship thoughts

Hit it like a BASEBALL do a HOMERUN WITH IT EVEN

Note: Omg why was I also kicking my legs up like a school girl while reading this? HAHA u are so incredibly sweet and ah your words mean so so much to me – ily and appreciate u so very very much ♡ (also so incredibly sorry abt how late this is ahhhh) It’s the way that I’ve been thinking about this religiously since I received it because – who am I? To deny a sweet sweet anon their request of my selfship thoughts? HAHA so, you get 2 for the price of one! Suo + Kiryu because I have many things to say!!

picrew link if you're interested!!!

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Kiryu

♡ Our couple songs? The Way by ariana grande feat. mac miller (specifically the live from london version) & NYC by romeo + juliet

♡ Kiryu and I would absolutely positively date to marry and have kids tbh

♡ We’d be the couple that never leaves the honeymoon stage

♡ And he would take such good care of me – like this guy is so great at communicating, so empathetic, so sweet, so kind

♡ and I feel like we’d both just want the best for each other and want to become better partners to each other as a result of that

♡ Like if I notice that Kiryu’s sleeping but didn’t get his login bonuses before the day ends, I’ll go in and do it for him

♡ Or if I accidentally fall asleep with my makeup on he’ll carefully use a makeup wipe to remove it or just gently wake me up so that I can wash my face

♡ Our habits definitely rub off on each other too like – 

♡ If he’s staying up to play games while I have to wake up early for work, then his mic is off and he’s not talking (though I'm a deep sleeper so he can absolutely talk like I don't mind) or he’s moving to another room so that I can get some sleep (even though I don't mind!!!)

♡ and if I notice his water run out while in the middle of a game, I’ll refill his water bottle without even asking him and grab him some snacks too in case he’s feeling munchie

♡ and I’d never feel insecure around him, because he’d give me words of affirmation and praise like every minute of every day!

♡ but if I do fall into that headspace, he’s sitting me in his lap while he talks about everything that he loves about me!!!

♡ and it’s not just affirmations like “you’re pretty” (though I do enjoy those) – no, he’s saying things like “you have the kindest heart I’ve ever met” or “you manage to think about something that you can do for me at least once everyday and I’m always in awe of how thoughtful you are” (lmao what I would give to hear this tbfh)

♡ also, he definitely loves giving my butt love taps whenever he passes me like it becomes so secondhand nature that sometimes he accidentally does it in public and I have to shoo his hand away

♡ he also! loves! having! a baddie gf!!!!

♡ it’s so funny bc I’ve been told that I look v intimidating so I can only imagine that we give off black cat and golden retriever vibes BUT THEN you talk to us and we’re both just big ol puppies!

♡ also always has a hand on my hip UGH

♡ sometimes he’ll squeeze the soft fat there and i’ll give him the look and he’s whisking me away so we can makeout

♡ also he's definitely weak whenever I say please or give him my doe eyes like I know that man is CRUMBLING he can never say no to me

♡ ugh and since he gets all his clothes oversized, that means that I’m positively swimming in them

♡ when we start living together, he falls in love with me all over again bc I'm wearing his sweaters and they hang off my shoulders just right, and I’ve got my big glasses on with no makeup and my hair in a messy bun and he’s fucking smitten

♡ but also he gets hurt bc he’ll see how poor my work life balance is and how much I overwork myself and he’ll scold me or force me to take breaks and even though I'm irritated as shit, I still recognize that he’s coming from a place of love

♡ we go on so many dates! To the flea market! To cafes! To bakeries! To the aquarium! To get matching tattoos! To get piercings!

♡ and sometimes I'll watch him play his little games! and explain everything to me! and I listen because I care! and I love him!

♡ Definitely has a pink PC with a Polaroid photo of me in it (and let's be so real here it's either a cute wholesome candid one of me OR it’s a lingerie pic)

♡ Sometimes when we both don’t wanna do a chore (i.e. dishes, taking out the trash, little mundane boring tasks like that) we’ll do a typing contest and whoever’s faster wins

♡ Very hit and miss sometimes – if I have my long nails then he’s fucking wiping the competition with me, but if i’ve had my iced coffee then i’m leaving him in the fucking dust

♡ loves how creative I am! He supports my ideas and endeavors and lets me ramble as much as I want! And the whole time he’s just looking at me with eyes full of love and admiration

♡ also, his affirmations definitely make me cry. He knows how emotional I can get and he just softly wipes my tears away as he drowns me in his love and worship ugh we’d be so so in love it would be sickening

♡ I’ve always felt that Leo’s love with all of their heart, genuinely, and I can absolutely picture Kiryu and I just being so obsessed with each other (in a healthy way!)

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Suo

♡ Suo and I are enemies to lovers – absofuckinglutely

♡ Our couple songs: reciprocity by susan carol (this fking song!!! and this is early in our relationship before he even asks me to be his gf!!!!) & built for love by pj morton feat. jazmine sullivan (when we actually start dating hehe)

♡ bonus songs: wetter by twista ft. erika shevon and hey daddy (daddy’s home) by usher (mwahahahaa)

♡ first and fucking foremost, this man is an Aries and I'm a Leo – but since we're both fire signs I feel like our feelings are always on the extremes 

♡ like we’re either extremely in love with each other or extremely mad at each other (though he's so good at hiding it - I, on the other hand, am not)

♡ okay so – the first time I meet Suo, I immediately have a big ass crush on him like he’s everything and more and he’s so sweet and hot and I am just a bit weak in my knees

♡ but then, I find out that he’s this sweet and nice with everyone else and I’m like??? Okay. I’m going to keep myself from liking you then because I don’t want to read too much into it.

♡ but I’m as much of a flirt as he is so we’re building up this fucking tension that everyone can see but neither of us makes a move to go further

♡ because we can’t tell if we’re serious about our flirting or not HAHA

♡ I know deep in my soul that our banter goes crazy too

♡ like we’re using such proper english just trying to get jabs at each other

♡ “Suo, that wasn’t really funny” “Maybe not to someone of your caliber.” “Oh sorry! I just don't have the humor of a Neanderthal, oops!”

♡ and I feel like he’d disagree with me on certain topics on purpose just to piss me off

♡ “sorry, I couldn’t help it – you’re so cute when you’re mad”

♡ “Suo, stop fucking talking to me.”

♡ I’m so stupidly expressive too, so I know he’s leaving little touches here and there or whispering in my ear or complimenting me out of nowhere and it’s making me so so weak

♡ but in between all of that, he’s also seeing me for who I am, my morals, my work ethic, my personality, my dorky side, and he’s falling for me so deeply but doesn’t know how to address it because oh no this isn’t a game anymore I actually really like her

♡  I fell first, he fell HARDER!!

♡ so our feelings for each other are so slowburn bc we’re both just idiots who are interested in each other but we both are so prideful (and scared of rejection) so like it just takes forever for one of us to confess

♡ I feel like it would probably be me too because I’d be so over this cat-and-mouse game – like okay I like you, do you feel the same way or are you just fucking with me

♡ but the minute that I say this? and admit it?

♡ it's like a string snaps and we are definitely definitely taking out our anger on each other in ways that I simply cannot say here

♡ but just like our signs, it's hot and passionate and fueled by such deep affection and love and loathing for each other oof

♡ when we actually start dating tho? He is a lovesick puppy for me, I make sure of it

♡ like I know he’d want to be in control and everything but I simply cannot allow that so yeah good luck with that babe

♡ because I’m arguing every chance I get 

♡ “let’s go, pretty boy. You wanna tussle?”

♡ but yes I feel like our relationship is so fiercely loyal and attracted to each other we are just so so good together and we'd actually never break up like we'd get married and have kids and grow old together and -

♡ and my parents would LOVE HIM ugh.

♡ I need him so bad you don't understand I'm frothing at the mouth punching the walls manifesting his presence so bad

[snow-on-mtsilver]

reposting from other acc :3

anyways HAIIII we have like a bunch of collective names (list below!!)

here's how we feel about certain pronouns collectively!!! (we mostly prefer he/him but kai likes they/them more, candle prefers she/her, and null prefers it/its!!!)

we're currently 15, gonna turn 16 later this year!!!

we're a non-disordered mixed origins system!! (suspected system of 23(may lower since we haven't seen candle in a long while), we nicknamed ourselves the lunar system!!) also we might possibly be alterhuman??

BIG NOTE. i am openly very pro endo, but i do not support harassment or rudeness on either side, i also do not fully feel comfortable whenever i see "____ fuck off" tags no matter what side it's from (especially since i have moots from both sides of the argument), i am okay with antis interacting if it's not for harassment or arguments

(suspected) alters, in order of when we noticed them:

- blake (🧊🌙)

- kaz (❄️🍃)

- 303 (🔥🌙)

- lost silver (🥇👁️‍🗨️)

- xander (⭐🐉)

- hoarfrost (❄️💀)

- silver (🥈🐊)

- glitchy (💥🔴)

- guardian (⬜🎩)

- kai (🐱😇)

- candle(although she hasn't spoken in a while) (🕯️🔮)

- null (⬛👁️)

- ethan (⚫🦌)

- steven (🔥🐉)

- stubborn (🗡️🐦‍⬛)

- julius

- aster

- austin

- sonic.exe

- norway

- usa

FANDOMS/FAVORITE GAMES/HYPERFIXATIONS, DNI, INTERACT, AND TRIGGERS UNDER THE CUT

our biggest fandoms n hyperfixations rn are:

- osc

- pokemon(and pokepasta)

- minecraft creepypasta

- creepypasta in general

- minecraft in general

- Fnaf

- godzilla

- args

- slendytubbies

- sorta gasa4(although we've become iffy about that bc of someone we cut contact with)

- transfur(such as kaiju paradise and changed)

- eddsworld

- countryhumans!!

- hermitcraft (or any minecraft smp really(except the problematic ones))

games we play or have played and really enjoyed:

- minecraft

- pokemon

- roblox

- gmod

- slendytubbies

- among us

- undertale

- fnaf

- tf2

collective triggers:

- basic criteria

- the names toby/tobi(although the character ticci toby is completely fine), kira, eddie/claire, nihilus, and crow

- minecraft creepypasta ships (and the artist vruzzt)

- jokingly being blocked as a "joke"

- the character skye from the "forever mine" pokepasta

- EEeEE from prevention of evolution

- beeping noises and the glaggleland theme (auditory triggers)

alter specific triggers:

- people acting weird towards source character or him (glitchy(and guardian))

- identity crisis (xander)

- being compared to source (303)

- odd ai bots or ships (guardian)

DNI if:

- basic criteria

- you post mainly NSFW or suggestive stuff (especially since we are a minor, esp don't follow if you have "minors dni" somewhere on your page </3 (somewhat targetted but in their defense we never posted anything abt our age before))

- ship minecraft creepypastas (like entity 303 and herobrine)

- you are anti endo or sysmed (EXCEPTION: if we were already friends/moots from before we found out you were anti endo or from before we knew what an endogenic system was OR if you're really chill and are nice about it (as long as you're not being hateful about it we're chill :3))

- r4dqu33r, pr0$h!p, or d4rk$h!p (censoring these because i'm scared if i don't they'll find this blog and get mad at me for whatever reason </3)

PLEAAAASE interact if:

- you like any of the fandoms we like

- you're a silly critter :3

- you selfship or like oc x canon!!

- you play any of the games we play

- pro endo (or endo neutral, we chill with both :3)

discord is r3iyo !!! ( please we need friends :[ /nf )

OTHER BLOGS BY US:

@r3iyo (original account, not using anymore, basically abandoned bc we're scared of a moot finding out we're pro endo)

@lunarmonau (gonna use for a comic/pokemon au)

@lunar-bah (build a headmate blog)

@breaking-of-the-dark-moon (minecraft documentation)

Rotomblr blogs:

@mtsilver-enjoyer - (Canon Character: Red)

@cyndaquil-supremacy (Canon Character: Gold)

@xxdark-lycanroc-slayerxx (Canon Character: SIlver) (idk if i'll consistently use this)

@the-faraway-trainer (Canon Character: Rei)

[saywha413]

Heyyy there it’s me!! Name’s Sarah, he/she/they! Bi, ace, demiromantic, genderqueer, and agendary :) pronouns page I primarily blog abt pokemon, but there’s some cookie run, and other things!!

selfship blog: @sarahs-malewives

If you know me from discord, then you’ll know abt my silly usernames lol. If you want to call me Arven/Hugh/Felix/Kaeya/Eugene/Rolf go ahead.

also I’m a big oc guy. if you don’t like oc/canon, self insert/canon, or selfshipping please dni. other than that, relatively basic dni! you know who you are

Asks are always open! Feel free to ask me about anything you want!!

(please look through the “keep reading” before interacting!)

i am the mod several blogs! Ones in the same universe will be marked with the same colored emoji !

Pokemon Ask Blogs 💕 @ask-sarah-and-co 💎🎸 (inbox: 22)

Pokemon Irl Blogs 🌸 @arven-x-drayster-4ever🥪🐉 (temp. hiatus)

🌺 @icy-chill ❄️ (eeby/faller, temp. hiatus)

🌷 @pens-and-coins 🔮🪙 (lore blog, temp. hiatus)

🎀 @silvallyandweavile 🌘🪶 (temp. hiatus)

💐 @perrins-portfolio 📸 (temp. hiatus)

🦩 @g-max-wildfire 🎇 (temp. hiatus)

💗 @suckerpunch-n-toxic 🎶 (temp. hiatus)

💧 @glacial-waltzes ❄️ (faller, active)

💎 @diamond-lost-in-time (rp, active)

Stardew Valley RP Blog

@ask-leah-sdv

Although I’d prefer questions on those blogs specifically, feel free to ask about them here too :)

I have a whole bunch of pokemon ships, so here’s a list (which I update every once in a while)

and if you’re looking for the old pinned (where I drew 12 ships) that’s here :) (individual drawings here)

here’s my old banner! linking to save for myself mostly lol

art tag is #my art writing tag is #my writing

tags relating to my fics: #a flame in the snow #what’s a rapport between friends?

random links: ao3 / artfight / toyhouse / pinterest / pokefarm / flight rising (I am very inactive on pokefarm and flight rising. I only check occasionally)

Interests + favorite /r ships, favorite /p ships, & fave char (if they apply) !

Major! (I talk/think about them a lot)

Pokemon (games + anime (fixated on jn but never finished it, interested in hz but never started it)). just check the ship list linked above (or oc/hugh if that counts). Silver & Hugh & Gladion are so friends to me. Hugh

Cookie run (kingdom). Crunchyvelvet/Velvetchip. Red Velvet & my hc for his cousins, Black Raisin & Crowberry & Prune Juice. Red Velvet

Mythology (specifically Greek, but I like all of them!). Athena

Cats. generally.

Cassette beasts. Eugene x oc. Eugene

Unicorn overlord (I am insane abt this rn). Alain x Rolf x Aubin x Aramis x Ithilion. Alain & Lex. Rolf I think

Hades game. (I have beaten it !) Thanzag. Zagreus & anyone (his silly ahh banter >>>). Zagreus

Minor! (I do post about them, just not as much!)

Octopath traveler 1. Olberus/Eisenbright, Olberic x Erhardt. My current party (H’aanit, Therion, Olberic, Cyrus) is so found family to me (two gay dads and their lesbian daughter/gay son. I LOVE THEM). H’aanit, Therion

Fire emblem (three houses). Felileth/Bylix. Byleth & Black Eagles. Felix

Dislyte. Lufal. Falken

Monster hunter (stories (2)). Alwin x oc. Alwin & Navirou & Protag. Alwin

Dragon quest (xi). Luminerik, Henjasp. Erik

Animal crossing (new horizons). It feels weird to say I have ac ships but I’m a Bianca x Audie and Freya x Fang truther. Raymond

Afk journey. Valen x Merlin/oc ig. Valen

Background! (I like these things, just don’t rlly talk abt them! Feel free to ask abt them though!)

Zelda (botw/totk). Sidlink, Revalink. Link & Zelda Link

Stardew valley. Leah x farmer, Sambastian. Leah & Abigail. Leah

Mario. Bowser

The owl house (and the shows you would kinda associate with it? amphibia, the ghost and molly mcgee, she-ra, etc). Goldric/Huntric, Willumity. Luz & Hunter. Luz, Hunter

Encanto. Luisa

Miitopia

riordanverse or whatever it’s called (specifically pjo, hoo, and magnus chase)

Grishaverse (specifically soc duology). Wesper, Darklina. The crows.

Sims 4

Omori (got into it from a yt playthrough, never played it myself). Heromari

I’m not really into these fandoms, but there’s probably like one ship I really like in there lol

Sonic the hedgehog. Sonuckles, Blazamy. Sonic & Tails & Knuckles. Knuckles

Kingdom hearts. Soriku. Sora & Riku & Kairi. Riku

Disney descendants. Jaylos. Core four

Star vs the forces of evil. Tomco, Janstarkie.

Ace attorney. Wrightworth/Narumitsu

Miraculous. I actually hate the show (even though I watched the whole thing (it was like so bad I couldn’t tear my eyes from it)) but alas. I do like Lukadrien, Zoegaminette, Feligaminette.

dunmeshi. Labru, kinda also Farcille. (I could watch it. but like. it’s only subbed afaik and I cannot watch anything without eng vas bc I basically just listen to things while I play video games or draw or smth. I do want to watch it though and I might at some point))

if we are besties (read: mutuals), feel free to ask for discord/switch friend code! I have the right to politely decline if I feel we’re not close enough though! (no need to worry though. there’s a good chance I accept)

divider credit: x / x icon/banner/header credit: x pokemon sprites: x acnh sprites: x

they’re dancing :)

[dandyshucks]

Dandy/Juno/etc || 23 || they/it || Métis

hiya hello!! welcome to my silly little blog where I have a little silly fun rbing/talking about F/Os!! F/O list is under the cut way down there ⤵

I'm totally fine with sharing F/Os except for Guzma (if you tag all your posts abt him then you're a-okay to follow, I'll just block that specific tag)!

if you need to block me please just hardblock me - I have several disorders that affect my memory so if you softblock me I will likely just end up following again and I'd hate to be a pest that way!! no hard feelings, do what you gotta do!!

🔞 there might be (very rare) occasional suggestive posts, but those will be tagged accordingly for easy blacklisting! anything Actually nsfw will be over at my 18+ only sideblog @scandydandyshucks ! 🔞

I upload my selfship fics to AO3 now!

I also have a carrd with more info about me and this blog! And I have a neocities where I'm having a lot of fun creating my own site that's mainly dedicated to Guzma :3

📰 for posts about the ongoing genocide happening, please go to @piplupod my general account. please donate to gazafunds.com if you have the means!

🚫 People who ship pedophilic or incestual pairings and people who write/draw(/otherwise create) porn of children will be blocked, I have zero tolerance for any of that ! Also, the "fiction doesn't affect reality" crowd is strictly NOT welcome here ! 🚫

If you ever see me reblog from someone nasty, please let me know so I can go investigate and deal with it! ∑ദ്ദി˙◡･)

If you need anything tagged, feel free to ask - even with the memory issues, I'm usually pretty good at remembering to tag for things when asked directly ^-^

F/O list under the cut !!

F/O list:

Main F/O:

Guzma (pokemon) (tag: "💜so good at being in trouble", ship tag: "💜a boy and his bug🪲")

Other F/Os (from most active to least):

Wardell Hurst (OC) (tag: "🕯the warmth of your doorways")

Shota and Hizashi (bnha) (tags: "🖤napping in class" and "🧡hello radio land!", ship tag: "🖤one lucky listener🧡")

Rum Tum Tugger and Mistoffelees (cats the musical) (tags: "🌟only like what I find for myself" and "✨never was there a cat so clever")

Ky ain Falcatula (OC) (tag: "🦎honey-eyed firefly")

Theodor and Philby (OCs) (tags: "🚪theodor" and "☎philby" and "🚪take me home���")

Marc, Steven, Jake (moonknight) (tags: "🤍whatever it takes", "🤎float like a butterfly sting like a bee", "🩶the man in the rearview mirror", ship tag: "🌙systems overlapping🪲")

Sun and Moon (fnaf) (tags: "💛lights on!" and "💙nightlight")

CRUSHES:

Bart (Bartine) Curlish from DGHDA (tag: "🪚inmate qt 3.14")

Shane from SDV (tag TBA)

Senshi from dunmeshi (tag TBA)

Laios from dunmeshi ??? maybe ???? (tag TBA)

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self insert tags:

pokemon: junebug🪲

cats: tickitywick⚙️

DL worldbuild: dandy🌻

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general F/O posts are tagged with 💗

op tag: "dandy.cmd"

art tag: "doodlebug.png"

writing tag: "dandy.doc"

WIP tag: "doodlebug.jpeg"

vent tag: "vent //"

[eliyafreeman]

🧡💗 INTRODUCTION 💗🧡

Real Love is temporary, Fictional Characters are forever <3

About the s\i, me ! <3

ʚ Eliya\Eli 💗 She\Her 🧡 lvl 18 💗 Aquarius 🧡 INFP ɞ

☢️ Am I new to the Selfship Community? Nope ! Done it for years but finally found out about and joined the community since january from Twitter !! (It is dying so I came here-)

☢️ What will I be posting? Selfship stuff and arts I make, me and my f/o (mainly !) and some reblogs of cute f/o imagines !!

☢️ My motives? To normalize selfshipping, Fictosexuality and Fictophilia !! It is helping to all of us in so many ways. if it's coping, to cure trauma, or anything else <3

☢️ Other stuff abt me? Yes! I'm Fictosexual and a Half-Life Girl !! (Not a part of the game's community or fandom for protective reasons.)

About my f\o ! <3

💗 Gordon Freeman from Half-Life !! 💗

☢️ Headcanons ? Yes !!

Random headcanons:

Height; 183cm

Personality; tough, strong and stoic around others but only around me alone he shows his soft self

he has PTSD like me :(

(May add more !)

Pronouns: He\Him

☢️ Other stuff ? Yes !!

❥ He is muted

❥ He is a Theoretical Physicist

❥ Is lvl 27 (i am not a minor anymore so that ain't an issue !!)

❥ has 3 brothers; Felix, John and Wyatt (he is the biggest of them all)

(May add more !)

☢️ What is he for me? My husband ! <3

☢️ Date of him becoming my f/o? July 30th, 2022 \ Marriage anniversary date: December 13th, 2022

☢️ Comfortable with sharing?

No ! Canon x Canons or Selfships/Selfshippers including him are My Severe Triggers !! It is very important to me to protect myself and to keep my selfship space safe !! (may block specific accounts but I have filtered tags, but won't be spreading hate on other selfshippers !!)

Side Note: if your f/o list does include him as platonic or familial i will be uncomfortable as well for various reasons but if your f/o list doesn't include him at all you're perfectly fine for me to interact with. I just love that he's mine alone, and that is it.

So please, CanonxCanons/Selfshippers with him DNI, tysm !! ❤

Other Stuff !! <3

☢️ Tags and Pair names !

#🧡| Gordeliya Freemeli |💗

#🧡| HEV Suited Lovers |💗

#Gordeliya Freemeli

#Gordon Freeman x Eliya Freeman

#Lambda Roses

#🧡☢️x🌹💗

#🧡💗| My Freeman !! <3

☢️ TWs (Trigger Warnings) !

Yandere, Obsessive Love and my delusional being (reality is your playground, play around with it !!)

Blood and Weapons (in drawings and in posts I upload/repost of the game)

nsfw content I may upload or repost !! Filter these tags that I made for y'all so you'll stay comfy !! #nsfw warning ‼️💗 #suggestive warning ‼️💕

DNI !! <3

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE ANY OF THOSE !! IF INTERACTED YOU WILL BE BLOCKED !!

Sexist / Racist / LGBTQIA+phobic / Freemanphobic / MAPs / Pr*ship / C*mship / Sh*ta / Lo*i / In*est / Toxic Shippers,Selfshippers / Supporters of toxic cringe culture / Antisemitics / N*zis / T*rfs / NFTs,AI Art / Pro SH,ED / Politically Active

Social Media !! <3

☢️ SpaceHey - https://spacehey.com/eliyafreeman

☢️ Discord - eliyafreeman

♡ !! NEW !! - Click here to browse stuff abt my ship !! Art, refs and etc !! (Google Drive Folder) ♡

Ending !! <3

Will be happy to make selfship moots !! 💗, I will be happy to interact and be friends with you and support your selfship !!

See y'all on the flip side !! 💗🧡

Blinkies were made in blinkies.cafe !! Check it out <3

[tazzymcclazzy]

RAAAAGH GRAAARRRGHHH AND OTHER SUCH SCARY DRAGONDOGTHING NOISES pleas e read this

tazdrgaoneyetagain -> tazzymcclazzy! first url change lets go

HELLAO! i go by taz, jevil, petco, or if youre feeling sillay, you can call me drgaone! or just dragon. if youre normal. also any variation of the word dog.

☆ he/it/that/bark/woof/any canine-related neo you can fathom but i very much like it/its, transmasc and pan! can't quite describe my exact gender its like caninegender and boygored's evil child it's like the cissest-looking trans man you know its like some shadowy creature in the woods its like a domestic puppy. you know the drill. one day ill find a xeno that fits that

☆ furry and therian (black wolfdog) and simultaneously petre because you can never be too canine i guess, otherhearted (dragonhearted of course), selfshipper!!!1!1!

☆ not whatsoever diagnosed with anythin other than a few miscellaneous conditions but everyone who talks to me agrees theres some divergent on that neuro

☆ taken and very loud about it i love bird sm. SO much. im normal im so so normal [dies

☆ chronic epistaxis i am the number one bleeder

☆ also part of the corpoverse! i'm petcotherealest

《FANDOMS :3333》

◇ wings of fire

◇ pjsk/vocaloid

◇ fnaf, specifically the dcas

◇ hfjone

◇ the walten files

◇ chonny's charming chaos compendium

◇ regretevator. its birds fault

◇ kinitopet!!!!

《F/OS !!》

♡ sun (five nights at freddys, romantic f/o)

♡ six-claws (wings of fire, father f/o)

♡ sayori (doki doki literature club, romantic f/o)

♡ shadow bonnie (five nights at freddys, caregiver f/o)

♡ the heart acoustic (cccc, caregiver f/o)

♡ kinito (kinitopet, platonic f/o)

《TAGSSSS》

♧ drgaone roars -> og posts

♧ drgaone snarls -> asks and answers

♧ tax evasion -> art tag! i used this one across all my past blogs (@taz-drgaone, and the one i had to deactivate womp womp) so going through a tag for a literal felony is fucking flooded with fruity dragons. in retrospect i should have made it drgaone draws

♧ manatee the silly! -> manatee my blorbo my silly. also used across all blogs but you dont have to scroll past political shit

♧ drgaone scrawls -> vent poetry n fanfic !!!!!!!!! pls dont look there i put those there 4 safekeepin

♧ saveforlater -> imagine me curled up on a pile of these posts like a sleeping dragon atop its horde of treasures

♧ holy shit the images are moving -> animations i post

♧ partnerposting -> me being in love

《MORE INFO I GUESS》

♤ feel free to send asks requests dms whateva!!!1! i thrive off interaction its my fucking lifeblood

♤ ask about my ocs. i beg you. hehe is that a sex reference

♤ on that topic, if it's brought up and ya get confused: carp is a dca au/selfship/crossover thingy invented via dumbassery and roleplay by me, birdic, and realguitarcenter/kaiyadrawzz, and it involves a lot of my wof oc lore (if i infodump to you abt one and redact something due to carp relation that is why), literal satanism, and lotsa heavy topics. if you wanna know about it, i will GLADLY TELL YOU and i have a loredoc in the works. my sona/the guy in my pfp is from carp, as is any characters by the name of austin, avery, or gabe. we hate gabe

♤ my discord is assignedmuckaatblucka PLEASE ADD ME i love makin friends so so so much

♤ tazzerjevil on ao3!!! read my fics boy. currently workinf on a jashling chatfic im v proud of

♤ not gonna put my triggers here due to An Incident but ask about em via dms or smth if you wish ^^ please do not ask about their origins. i will possibly block you if you try to find out

♤ PRO-PALESTINE. except i cant post much abt it because my zionist mother looks at my tumblr. but from the river to the sea palestine will be free‼️

♤ i am worlds most annoying dog. i will spam you with barking and yap about my partner so much

♤ i have many a sideblag! if you find the petre one, you get a gold star. if you find the other one and ask abt it, you get blocked. i sincerely apologize! but if u find the other one you probably have me blocked anyway ORRR youre looking here for more info about that one so uerm. hey there guys

BASIC DNI SHIT! pls if ur a jackass or bigot or anything do Not follow. also anyone against transspecies people (not one myself but its such a cool concept), mspec lesbians, xenos or neos. also if youre gonna tag me in a reblog chain plEASE dont, but especially dont do one of those ones where it says "tag [insert number of people]" i panic and have no clue who ta tag,,, also no reblog bait please! makes me nervous.

sona refs, theriotype refs, and other such images under the cut

SONA REFS:

second one by @/ratboyinastarrycoat!!

THERIOTYPE REFS:

i am simultaneously a large predator and an Oipouy. got a problem with that, liberal?/ref

OKAY THATS ALL SCAMPERS AWAY

[petrichorium]

i would like to hear about how you and Capitano came to be. and also what his kisses are like. aaaand. where he likes to grab you most :3c

answering these out of order bc the first is Lengthy so its going under the cut....... capitano kisses me sooooooo gingerly tbh he has to hold himself back so much. if hes not careful he'll go in for a quick peck on his way out and suddenly he's got his tongue down my throat in front of all his aides and every servant in the manor 😭😭😭 when we r alone its less about propriety and more bc he doesnt wanna overwhelm me so its always a game of me goading him into something heavier.

i think he is a waist grabber above all else....... very prone to putting two big ol hands on either side to set me somewhere (his desk, the edge of the tub, a balcony railing, etc) and just not quite letting go.............. also a frequent corset ripper bc those damn things just get in the way too much. likes to run his fingers up my spine to make my back arch while his thumb is pressed into my stomach n kinda squeeze. and ofc a huge fan of slinging an arm around my waist n throwing me over his shoulder ty.

The full capitano story is sooooo long and convoluted i fear LMFAOOOOOO and possibly subject to change when he actually shows up pfft but for now its the selfship where i dabble in the dynamic being kinda fucked up 🫣 he actually kills my first suitor and then subsequently the two husbands i have before he swoops in and basically pulls rank to marry me himself. there r "valid" reasons for all three of these he'd like to think he would let me be if i found a good man but clearly im incapable of it so he fancies himself a bit of a guardian ig......... have said this before but he has creepy prinecess/knight in shining armor fantasies n justifies uh. killing all the men who have ever touched me w that.

the first one is just a suitor like i said; we’re not engaged yet but it’s all but an arranged marriage bc my family is. Basically being strongarmed into it. The kill happens at a hunt—I genuinely don’t know Capitano at all at this point, and he has No idea I exist.

i have to make my suitor a cutesy lil embroidered handkerchief as like a token of my affection but im like Hell No bc my suitor is A Piece Of Shit so i give it to capitano instead, bc hes so high ranking that my suitor cant rlly complain and he gets a lot so it doesnt rlly mean much. orrrrr rather it Shouldn't but jokes on me, he actually sees me hand it off to his aide and hes kinda Immediately infatuated.

so much so that when my suitor approaches him just before the hunt to basically wheedle him into handing it off, he refuses—in fact this specifically sparks a Very specific delusion of like. viewing me as a damsel in distress pleading for help.

its not premeditated at all but once the hunt begins he overhears my suitor and his friends saying some Very Rude And Then Explicit Things Abt Me and hes like nvm u have chosen death. its a hunt, nobodys gonna think anything of a stray arrow……….

and then when he sees my reaction (thinking it was an accident; feigned shock but Clearly relieved), im kinda done for, the obsession has sunk in. he keeps tabs on me from then on.

the first husband i marry like a year after the suitor’s death. he’s a fatui officer, one of capitano's own men who commands guards at zapolyarny palace. capitano still has not openly expressed interest and is in a bit of a self-deprecating moment of not wanting to approach me, and this guy’s one of his underlings and is v sweet and seems very into me so he lets it happen. we get married and for many years we r genuinely happy.

but then he starts to stray……. capitano learns of this quickly. he’s got informants still reporting p much everything i and everyone close to me do, so hes told when my husband starts frequenting brothels and spending a bit too much time out of the house. unfortunately hes out on a campaign so he cant take care of things himself; hes forced to transfer my husband to the front lines and let the battlefield finish the job.

which is fine, tho it means i never know about the cheating and for a good few years capitano deems me still too much in mourning for him to make a move—bc, like, from my perspective the love of my life had a terrible accident on the battlefield yk. he’s solidly decided hes the only one who can be trusted and Intends to finally make his interest known……. but he waits too long. he’s sent on a campaign which drags on far longer than intended and when he returns ive remarried.

the ceremony happened literal days before he arrived, so rushed his informants didn't even have the time to warn him. this one is another fatui, but the kind that grates on capitano. one of pantalone’s top men—a slimy financier with a gross little grin and fingers in every pie. a man far too assured when he seeks out capitano as soon as he settles in, walks into his office with the confidence of someone who knows more than he ought to.

he offers to whore me out. capitano isn't even sure what the man would have demanded in return, because he's cut him down the moment the words come out of his mouth.

he begins planning before the body is even removed, determined not to make the same mistakes again. frankly he'd have begun courting me that day but he gives me a bit of time to mourn first; lets me move back into my parents' home, keeps tabs on me enough to know when i finally begin to emerge from my chambers and allow visitation from friends.

the first ball i attend is when he approaches me. and it's hardly proper, he knows, to express such obvious interest in a widow of a mere few months, but he thinks my second husband would have done this if he could so capitano has no guilt. the marriage is so rushed he actually can't even attend—he's sent off on campaign suddenly before the ceremony, and though he's only supposed to be gone for a month he insists it proceed without him, all too anxious for what might happen if he doesn't lock me down.

and then it's a slow burn After we r married i fear bc i am so weepy and volatile for very obvious reasons n once im over that ive convinced myself it's a marriage of convenience (that he approached me bc i know how to manage a household and won't be too eager for his attention like a younger, less experienced bride would be) and he's actually. rlly flustered and a bit timid around me tho nobody would Know it lmfaoooooo hes terrified of scaring me off & is actually pretty content just seeing me around his manor so its a game of us flitting around each other for a while..........

eventually i think i do confront him bc we havent. consummated the marriage and that kinda ticks me off ("i get that it didnt mean much to you but damn u dont wanna touch ur wife that badly???") and hes like O.O bc HE was just leaving me to my own devices bc he didnt wanna overstep. very cliched i kiss him he gets a "if we dont stop now i wont be able to control myself" moment and then the floodgates r opened......... frankly its like a belated honeymoon the way we do Not leave my chambers for like two whole weeks. many confessions from him at that time i am v much left in a daze of holy shit wdym hes been in love w me for yrs and still has that handkerchief from when i was like nineteen

n e way thats it,,,,,, JKHSBDFJHB so long im sorry but there u go!!!

[tetsuskei]

hi Risu! (new mootie hehe ♡) i really love hearing about peoples self ships so i would like to hear about yours if you feel comfy sharing!

for you and Kuroo, are there any specific tropes that apply to y’all? like love at first sight or coworkers to lovers?

and i am not sure if you self ship with Childe or not (i didn’t see him listed in your carrd but i notice he is a common guy on your blog ehe ;)) BUT if you do, is there anything about your self ship with him you would like to share? like perhaps how you met or what he loves about you? ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

omg hihi gray, it’s so nice to meet you :> i was so excited when i saw u follow ! 💗

for kuroo and i, we do have the coworkers to lovers trope and also the mutual pinning and/or idiots to lovers! i’m quite oblivious when someone is flirting with me and i usually just think someone is being nice, so it goes over my head ! pls i get nervous @_@ he thinks i just don’t like him so he’s discouraged that i don’t feel the same way but to everyone in the office it’s pretty obvious we both like each other. 😭

and yes, i have started selfshipping with childe more recently since ive been newly playing genshin ! him and kaeya are my faves :3 i have to add them into my carrd at some point hehe.

i find it hard to say what he likes most abt me since we are very much opposites, but i like to think that he likes how different we are. i’m pretty shy and often quiet but he finds it endearing <3 im much more of a listener than a talker, but i can have deeper conversations with those im close with, which we often do! i also know how to stand my own ground and can be quite brutally honest and mean sometimes to those who are rude or slight me. he finds it hot that i can have a sharp tongue, tries provoking me for fun bc it gets him going 🧌 he also admires how smart and observant i am. i can read people pretty well, and he knows that if he lies to me or tries to play off how he’s feeling i can tell if he’s being truthful or not. he is not a very vulnerable person but likes being so with me. 💗

[huntinglove]

OKAY QUESTION is it weird if someone occasionally selfship's using someone else's s/i?

Like, I'm specifically asking because some lovely people post art of their f/o's with their s/i and sometimes it just really makes me fawn over them and create little scenarios in my head. Like is that a weird thing to do (like, privately, not posting abt it or anything)? Or is like... intruding and taking something not meant for me? I'm a little unsure how to go about it but I really really like interacting with s/i art, I think it's fascinating. I just don't wanna accidentally weird anyone out. :(

Anyway umm kudos to you because you're very very cool <3

Hi hi nonny!! Hm... Well, I think there's two main things to focus on when it comes to this

1. There's no wrong way to selfship, but it's important to consider people's boundaries when posting content about their S/Is (especially when it comes to projecting) because each person can have a unique relationship to their S/I

2. No fantasy is immoral, as long as no real person is being harmed! So you can enjoy people's content however you'd like, as long as you're not breaking any boundaries

I think you're good, since you mentioned that you're keeping things private! Plus, this all just my opinion, since I had never heard about something like this until now, so please try to do some reflecting on it to help you figure out how you yourself feel about it 💙🫂

Always remember that your F/Os love you, no matter what!

[shirogane-oushirou]

[cw mentions of ableism. talking / venting about the sharing vs non-sharing shit (i do not lean towards supporting one "side" over the other); starts out relatively neutral-toned but i start to sound frustrated part way through. i also have a more personal ramble at the very end that has a separate cw list. it's also long... don't feel obligated to read. i just needed to say things and be Done with it.]

man. i'm ready for all of the sharing vs non-sharing back and forths to stop.

to be clear: this isn't some "i'm above this argument" thing. on the contrary; i completely see where both "sides" are coming from! i simply mean it shouldn't be so difficult for a select few shit-stirrers to Get that selfshipping is a personal thing, and we should be able to ship in whatever way makes us most comfortable.

if someone is non-sharing, they should be allowed to create those boundaries without being harassed or called "immature" or "delusional" by sharing people. beyond how supremely ableist that is, nobody has the right to say they can't view their f/os in a certain way, no matter if other people don't understand those feelings.

if someone is sharing, they should be allowed to share their feelings for a character openly with other sharing people without being sent hate from non-sharing people who think they're "loose" or who want to be their f/o's "one and only". shaming people for being open to sharing is fucked from multiple "sexual / romantic purity" and "anti poly-[sexual / romantic / platonic] relationships" angles, and nobody has the right to claim sole and total ownership over a character they did not make.

and yet, every couple of weeks, we get posts from a vocal minority making a huge fuss over "the other side", when it's just a vocal minority FROM that other side ALSO making a fuss. and then those vague posts leave their intended orbit and cause more mis-worded posts and misunderstandings and off-the-cuff bigoted statements, and the cycle starts again.

we should theoretically be able to respect each other while focusing that energy on, oh i dunno, chasing harassers out of the community? getting selfshippers who aren't part of a specific marginalized group to help selfshippers from that group when they're harassed, maybe?? especially when the sharing vs non-sharing Thing very often coincides with bigotry; people who are harassing others tend to not just stop at being petty or mean, they make it personal.

and -- not as important but a nice little bonus -- i would think that working towards a community that's more safe for everyone in it would also "coincidentally" (/s) get rid of the shit-stirrers, whether because they were kicked out or because they realized what they were doing and grew as people.

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[cw ableism, vague death ideation, non-physical self harm mention]

i was originally gonna put this bit in the tags, but i think i should put it under the cut bc it's a little personal + it got too long.

also, i try to stay in my lane and not discuss details about delusions or how to approach them -- i've only experienced them a couple of times, so i'm not going to claim to know much about them -- so if i've overstepped, PLEASE let me know and i'll edit or remove anything i've misspoken about.

but coming from someone who went too deep into selfshipping in the past and worries about the mental health of people who do: It's None Of Your Business!!

delusions aren't morally "bad" or "wrong". holding deep feelings abt a character isn't inherently delusion-based and also isn't morally "bad" or "wrong". and neither of those is the same as -- speaking from experience (above content warnings come into play here) -- being obsessed with a character to the point that you self-isolate and emotionally self harm because you wish so badly that the character was real and you believe there isn't a point to life if you'll never meet that character... and this is also not inherently delusion-based and ALSO not morally "bad" or "wrong".

these separate things -- delusions, deep feelings, and unhealthy obsession -- CAN intersect but just as often don't. none are immoral, and all are deserving of being approached with compassion and respect, in whatever way is most appropriate.

negative, harmful ACTIONS that some people take in these states are worth bringing up to them when it's safe to do so, depending on the details of their situation, but the states themselves don't have any moral weight. ie, if someone's harassing others for sharing their f/o because they're in a dark, obsessive place, that is a morally negative ACTION, not a morally negative mental state. they need to take responsibility for harm they've CAUSED, not for what they're experiencing internally.

but if you're calling people "immature" or "delusional" as an insult, something tells me you're not really considering that! whether through malice or just a lack of compassion, you don't see worth in how another person approaches this community.

you aren't better for thinking of a character a certain way, and neither is the person you're being ableist towards. if no harm is being done to you or others, you're just being a dick for the sake of being a dick. listen to other people, learn, and do better.

if you think someone is genuinely in a bad mental place because of selfshipping (wrt isolating and self harm), approach them as another human being. meet them where they're at. don't patronize them, don't call them "delusional", treat them like someone who has their own thoughts and values.

they may want help, or they may not, and you have to respect them for their choice no matter what YOU think is right. there is no truly right way to approach someone who's in a dark place, but you can at least avoid saying things that FOR SURE will make them feel talked down to, belittled, or shamed. if they aren't ready now, maybe they will be ready for help in the future, and shutting them down will make them less likely to seek that help.

(i was also going to put THIS in the tags but i should probably put it here: when i say 'learn and change' i mean it as a positive. people have the capacity to learn and grow and become better; if you've said something in all of this that can be read as harmful... consider why it's harmful and why you said it.

you aren't the same person you were a year ago. 5yrs ago. 10yrs ago. you have grown and you will continue to grow. but if you can be more aware of it and grow more purposefully and consciously? all the better.)