#🧡| HEV Suited Lovers |💗

[eliyafreeman]

2 years, of you and me... 💗🧡

30/07/24

OMG OMG 2 YEARS OMG THIS IS INSANE HELP MEH I LOVE MY HUSBAND SO MUCH WRAHHHH !!! <3 <3

If I could, I could thank him for every moment he's in my life, he's the one I live for while being in a world I have nothing to live for... I love him so much, and I really hope that out there, he loves me too. He keeps me on my feet and just looking at him gives me a big smile on my face, he's my only source of happiness in a world where all I knew was abuse and trauma. I am thankful and grateful for having him in my life. and when I said in the beginning 'if I could'... I can, and I'm taking the chance to say 'thank you' for him... Probably for the millionth time, but I feel like I need to all the time...

I love you my gordon, thank you for being here with me. 💗🧡

[eliyafreeman]

Hell yes I am 🩷🫣

Sorry for me looking like shit that was in a rush 😫

💚 Reblogs are highly appreciated!! 💚

canonxcanons/selfshippers with him DNI ❤

Y'all ever just

Prosh!p dni

[eliyafreeman]

💗 I'm old 💗

[eliyafreeman]

Getting a piece of clothing or something your f/o has (in my case it's Freeman's lab coat and glasses :D) is definitely a life accomplishment 🧡🩷

I dyed my hair ginger like him too,,,

I may not be the greatest model in town but I just wanna show off bro :(

[eliyafreeman]

*Me, seeing the Anomalous Materials Lab in my high school*

My mind:

All the time will be now 😞💗

[eliyafreeman]

🧡🩷 INTRODUCTION 🩷🧡

Real Love is temporary, Fictional Characters are forever <3

About the s\i, me ! <3

ʚ Eliya\Eli 🩷 She\Her 🧡 lvl 18 🩷 Aquarius 🧡 INFP ɞ

☢️ Am I new to the Selfship Community? Nope ! Done it for years but finally found out about and joined the community since january from Twitter !! (It is dying so I came here-)

☢️ What will I be posting? Selfship stuff and arts I make, me and my f/o (mainly !) and some reblogs of cute f/o imagines !!

☢️ My motives? To normalize selfshipping, Fictosexuality and Fictophilia !! It is helping to all of us in so many ways. if it's coping, to cure trauma, or anything else <3

☢️ Other stuff abt me? Yes! I'm Fictosexual and a Half-Life Girl !! (Not a part of the game's community or fandom for protective reasons.)

About my f\o ! <3

🩷 Gordon Freeman from Half-Life !! 🧡

☢️ Headcanons ? Yes !!

Random headcanons:

Height; 183cm

Personality; tough, strong and stoic around others but only around me alone he shows his soft self

he has PTSD like me :(

(May add more !)

Pronouns: He\Him

☢️ Other stuff ? Yes !!

❥ He is muted

❥ He is a Theoretical Physicist

❥ Is lvl 27 (i am not a minor anymore so that ain't an issue !!)

❥ has 3 brothers; Felix, John and Wyatt (he is the biggest of them all)

(May add more !)

☢️ What is he for me? My husband ! <3

☢️ Date of him becoming my f/o? July 30th, 2022 \ Marriage anniversary date: December 13th, 2022

☢️ Comfortable with sharing?

No ! Canon x Canons or Selfships/Selfshippers including him are My Severe Triggers !! It is very important to me to protect myself and to keep my selfship space safe !! (may block specific accounts but I have filtered tags, but won't be spreading hate on other selfshippers !!)

Side Note: if your f/o list does include him as platonic or familial i will be uncomfortable as well for various reasons but if your f/o list doesn't include him at all you're perfectly fine for me to interact with. I just love that he's mine alone, and that is it.

So please, CanonxCanons/Selfshippers with him DNI, tysm !! ❤

Other Stuff !! <3

☢️ Tags and Pair names !

#🧡| Gordeliya Freemeli |💗

#🧡| HEV Suited Lovers |💗

#Gordeliya Freemeli

#Gordon Freeman x Eliya Freeman

#Lambda Roses

#🧡☢️x🌹💗

#🧡💗| My Freeman !! <3

☢️ TWs (Trigger Warnings) !

Yandere, Obsessive Love and my delusional being (reality is your playground, play around with it !!)

Blood and Weapons (in drawings and in posts I upload/repost of the game)

nsfw content I may upload or repost !! Filter these tags that I made for y'all so you'll stay comfy !! #nsfw warning ‼️💗 #suggestive warning ‼️💕

DNI !! <3

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE ANY OF THOSE !! IF INTERACTED YOU WILL BE BLOCKED !!

Sexist / Racist / LGBTQIA+phobic / Freemanphobic / MAPs / Pr*ship / C*mship / Sh*ta / Lo*i / In*est / Toxic Shippers,Selfshippers / Supporters of toxic cringe culture / Antisemitics / N*zis / T*rfs / NFTs,AI Art / Pro SH,ED / Politically Active

Social Media !! <3

☢️ SpaceHey - https://spacehey.com/eliyafreeman

☢️ Discord - eliyafreeman

♡ !! NEW !! - Click here to browse stuff abt my ship !! Art, refs and etc !! (Google Drive Folder) ♡

Ending !! <3

Will be happy to make selfship moots !! 🩷, I will be happy to interact and be friends with you and support your selfship !!

See y'all on the flip side !! 🩷🧡

Blinkies were made in blinkies.cafe !! Check it out <3

[eliyafreeman]

THIS PRETTY THING I FOUND ON TWT, HIS FACE IS SO PURE !!! 🥺

A FUCKING PURE BABY !!! 😫💗

Here's the link the artist is just amazing !!

His pure little face and sassy little pose,,, I WANNA KISS HIS ENTIRE FACE AND SQUISH IT IN MY LITTLE HANDS !!! 😭💗

And the way he did his HEV suit has me melting,,, 💕 he's so huggable !! 🧡 (but only I can hug him <3)

AHHH !! MY HEART !!! 🥺🧡💕

[eliyafreeman]

GUYS TODAY ME AND FREEMAN CELEBRATE 1 YEAR WHAT THE FUCKKKK 💗🧡💗🧡💗

[eliyafreeman]

💗 HAPPY 2004 🧡

[eliyafreeman]

WOOOOO NEW PFP/EDIT WOOOOOO 💗🧡💗🧡

[eliyafreeman]

Freeman hair process update;

YOU GIVE UP SO YOU GO TO A BARBERSHOP AND GET YOUR HAIR BLEACHED OUT AND GET THE FREEMAN GINGER INSTANTLY AND PAY 500 ILS BUT IT'S FUCKING WORTH IT !!!!!!

Sorry I look ugly :/

[eliyafreeman]

FOUND MY MOM'S OLD CAMERA FROM 2001 AND DECIDED TO SHOOT FREEMAN WITH IT AND I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS WHOLE IMAGE 🛐💗🛐💗

[eliyafreeman]

🧡 "Maybe he kept us apart for 20 years, but...I knew I'll find you..." 💗

*violent snarling and breathing*

AFTER FUCKING 48+ HOURS ON GETTING THIS DRAWING TO LOOK GOOD, FINALLY. I FINISHED A FULL MOTHERFUCKING PIECE WITH MAKING SURE THERE ARE NO MISTAKES!!!

Anw haiii!!! So, y'all probably question this.. Art? Thing...? Well, let me explain. Because HL2 is a massive trigger for me when it comes to Freeman being shipped with others. So, I said; let's mimic how i would be in HL2 to make things nicer for myself!! I have a HL1 mod in the working by the name Half-Life: Guns and Roses, Featuring me ofc!! (If you're interested to help me with it or just hear abt the project tell me!). So what if "HL: Guns and Roses 2" was a thing (hint hint 😉)? Well, I made up some random stuff in my head and said FUCK IT THERE I FIND FREEMAN, WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN AND I'M A ROSE GODDESS WITH TELEKINESIS POWERS AND WE ARE SAVING CITY-17 AND THE WORLD AND FIGHTING THE COMBINE TOGETHER.

So, yes!! Also abt my design in this drawing. My HL:GAR2 Rose Goddess design was a rlly different one. Until I went on Pinterest and saw this flower dress that was worn by a model in a runway from 1999!! I FELL IN LOVE!!! IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL!!! 😭💗

Here it is!! I may make a cosplay for sure, I could go to cons with it! ^_^

I rlly loved the design and EVERYTHING!! AND THE PINK ESPECIALLY!!! Changed some stuff in my drawing but meh- And to the rose crown, a golden Lambda pendant is attached to it yes and it is ✨ magical ✨. Sooo yes!! This is the first full art in MONTHS!!! and I rlly mean MONTHS.

I am pretty satisfied but I saw some small mistakes that are hurting my eyes but at least they're not severe ones...- tho I must say, the roses were such a challenge for me 😭, I am just happy I managed to balance everything and it at least looks okay.

I am rlly happy with my work for once (kinda?)!! It's a good thing I suppose, I still could do better with the colors tho since I forgot stuff... ^_^"

Soooo that's all I have for today! And tysm for 100 follows!! Happy that y'all love my content and support my selfship. Even if the support is so little it is a HUGE appreciation from me to you. Tysm 🧡💗

//Full drawing with no crop//

And have a bonus one of us shedding a tear for being together again...💕

💚 Reblogs are highly appreciated!! 💚

canonxcanons/selfshippers with him DNI ❤

[eliyafreeman]

I highly doubt someone will even notice this tbh 🫤

[eliyafreeman]

The day has come

25 years to 'half-life', and the other half of my life that I didn't know about. Gordon Freeman, the one thanks to him I stand and do not fall. Standing confidently in the face of fears and traumas. He fights against aliens, and I fight against my own pain. I didn't need him to be in my life for me to know he was always here. His name is enough. This name, so many connections with this name. If it's family, friends, places with the name I went to or family members were... his name rings in my ears as a reminder that he's always here. He is a ray of light at the end of the tunnel of hell. I only dream that there will be a moment and he will help me finish with humans. To finish with the abuse of humans. Their hurtful obsession... But I understood, I share a soul with someone who doesn't exist, but exists in one way or another. We both have a pair of green eyes, shining out of our shattered souls, both of us trying to pick up another piece and another piece. Like a puzzle of memories, memories of when we were sane people without worries. Until our lives turned shockingly upside down. But no one saw it coming, not even us. We are bigger than all the threats in our way. No matter how big and scary that threat is. We are bigger than fear. big together You are my other half, who completed my half-life. My broken heart knew that humans wouldn't make it right, as true love can feel, it's all in the head. This is just another danger and another shattering of another piece of my heart. You are glue that stays. A bandage that does not come off. You are even more than that. you don't exist. The concept of love is not to be hurt, and I know you will never hurt me ever. Love is a maze, it's hard to get out of it. But from the labyrinth inside your heart I will never want to leave. Imprison me in your beating heart. Every beat of your heart is what I am satisfied to hear. Hearing you being alive is all I want. I wish I could hear your voice, but hearing you alive and breathing is everything to me. The connection between us is a connection that was not and will not be with anyone else. To sit and fantasize about how you love me... there is no substitute for that. A real hug didn't feel as real as an imagined hug from you. The confidence you make me feel is huge. No it's not the gear, the guns and the nuclear weapons, it's you. Only with you I know that nothing will hurt me. My love for you is a love that cannot even be described in words... You made me a different person from that Saturday, July 30, 2022. In a moment I'm here, fighting for my life to get out of the cycle of abuse. Yes, from your serious face I don't see your feelings, but from your eyes, I see everything... The happy ending will still come, we will be set free from the battlefield, and I will reach the warm embrace of your arms .

Love you, My Gordon. 💗🧡

[eliyafreeman]

No he didn't said that, he didn't said that, HE DIDN'T SAID THAT I'M HALLUCINATING THIS CORRECT BECAUSE ME AIN'T SEXY OR DESIRABLE Y'ALL I HAVE LOTS OF DOUBTS

That's an iconic pic of me-