#this is a really fucking personal rant tbh

[alexclaain]

being asexual, an adult and still never having had sex without wanting to change it, feels fucking lonely at times. Because majority of asexuals I met with similiar experiences as mine were of the sort of "golden star asexual" or whatever and that's just bullshit and I don't want to associate with that crap.

I just feel really really lonely among other asexuals who still, in the end, have more experience than me, because in this society that marks me as the "weird one", the "childish one", because sex is just connected to adulthood and without you're immature in this worlds eyes.

Adding to that, most representation I've seen of asexuals in media has been of the sort that still has (or had) sex - and that's great for them! But I wish people like myself would be more than the weird nerd person or robot sidekick. I wish adults who choose to never have sex would be treated as adults and full fletched humans too.

[lazaruspiss]

anyways anybody else ever liked a fic but dropped it/considered dropping it bc the author is that fucking annoying

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

so by your logic there’s nothing wrong with morizai. Or atsushi x koukya

who am i to stop dazai from fucking that middle aged man if he wants to. godspeed

[roombagreyjoy]

*said with increasing distress, eyes blodshot and an empty mug in hand* you guys remember writing right????? you guys remember posting fic and publishing things and talking to editors about potential projects right???? you guys remember being creative in your creative jobs and not just rereading old work and having a panic attack over the time wasted over curating hyperspecific character playlists that you get mad about five minutes later right????? i'm not insane right????? creative block is normal even if it lasts for months right???? i haven't written a fic in YEARS but it's ok i'm ok i have to finish TWO original pieces for next week that I haven't even started but it'll probably be fineeeee I'm totally not being a complete and raving lunatic about it it's probably gonna be okay <3 yay <3

[mejomonster]

Usually i dont have long hair so i guess its just hitting like a truck lately how femininely long hair is viewed, how much its used to identify women, how shallowly many people expect women To have long hair

And wowza does it make me realize 1 why my mom must've internally felt such a great need to make me grow my hair 2 makes me immediately wanna chop it the fuck off, because the people most pleased with long hair are the people id like to stay away from me 3 kind of irksome cause im growing my hair out, for the first time by choice in like 2 fucking decades, because i wanted cool long hair like guys in shows i admire

[lesbian-salamander]

splatoon (especially 3) is just "simultaneously the best and worst thing ever" in every aspect isnt it.

the character design is so amazingly creative but god forbid a woman is fat or non-humanoid

the world-building and lore is so well crafted filled with care but the story is always mediocre with a singular paid exception

the gameplay loop between all modes is so smooth and the way each weapon plays even if weak is still fun but if you have motion sickness have fun playing with a insane disadvantage, or if you have carpal tunnel you just dont get to play 2 weapons, or if you get easily overwhelmed with the music you dont even get to turn it off

and if youre into competitive, patches are usually making the game better but do nothing about what the real problems are at best or slowly build up to create new problems

[the-kipsabian]

like i would be fine if you just reposted a meme i made. thats fine. everyone does that its free real estate who cares

but you add ai shit to that i am fully offended tbh. like thats not even effort. youre better changing it with ready made images or just reposting it, i dont care. but as an artist, as a creator, seeing someone use ai to change something

sincerely. fuck off

[iridescentis]

i think the reason why i don't read/write my sapphic ships very often is because im just jealous it makes me mad😭

like with guy characters i absolutely adore them and their dynamics but with sapphics its all of that but also like. do yall need a third. im free whenever.

[artemismatchalatte]

Wow. Sometimes I'm very lucky and my bipolar doesn't always affect me much. But no such luck lately. I'm worried that I might have to retake my modern lit course because I was so late with many of my assignments. I've been mentally messed up more or less with a mixed mood episode since last September. I'm currently on the line of passing and not passing the class (granted there are a few ungraded assignments, including my final so it's still possible that I'm overreacting). I'm usually a good student too so it's a point of pride for me. I went from the honor roll to this all due to me fighting with an illness... :/ (It is my fault for not managing things better so I'm not looking for pity here- just talking).

I cannot imagine how horrible this disorder is for people who didn't have the option of medication (I am medicated, believe it or not). I think about that about that a lot since I study history and look into many writer's and artist's biographies in my spare time. I feel very bad for them since they basically had to live with this disorder without the fixes I have simply because I was born late enough for treatments to exist.

Virginia Woolf and Sylvia Plath both haunt me. Other people too. Yes, Lord Byron was extremely shocking but consider- we don't actually know what he would have been like if he could have been treated. He wouldn't have died at 36, I'm almost certain of that. I am highly aware of what this disorder has done to people before me. It doesn't make it better. But I keep looking back any way, to see that many of them did incredible things, in spite of it all.

I just keep thinking that if they could do so much without any treatment- that I should be able to function with treatment??? I know: don't compare yourself to other people but I'm desperate to know that I can be successful even with this illness. That it's not going to force me to leave school (the one thing I have been historically good at) and waste my life toiling away for nothing.

So if it seems as if I have been hitting my head against something lately, you aren't wrong. The fall is not generally my friend, pretty as the leaves are. I have not been having a good time of it but we must go on any way because what other option is there? None, I tell you.

[loving-delusions]

remembering my dreams down to the smallest details is fuckin weird

one dream would have me seeing a whole ass fantasy setting with plot and leaves me in a cliffhanger. and i could still recall it to this day

and the next time i get a dream, i see someone irl in a fucking coffin, remembering who the attendees are, and what picture and the pic frame they had used for her on the coffin and the white lilies in a circle standing next to it.

like???

okay????

shit got me knocking on wood, jfc

[rubberbandballqueen]

since i just rb'd a poll abt high school grades now's probably a good time to drop one of my many million-dollar ideas for how to run a high school classroom, which is that i think that at the start of a quarter/semester kids should be asked if they want hw to count towards their grades or not bc i was So Fucking Bad at submitting hw in high school, but my test scores were really good, so i'd rather have not had hw count towards my grades. but obviously there are a good number of kids who are either bad at taking tests or anxious abt their grades dropping and are diligent abt turning in hw, so letting hw count towards their grades would give them some padding in that situation.

[toomanyfandoms-help]

so i graduated high school two years ago right. and i was also in marching band all four years (even covid, though it really fucked with my junior year season). it's been a few years, obviously, but i still try hard to make it to at least one show, both because i love the sport and also to show support for my old band and bandmates.

on to the point: my old sectionmate, Dylan, who was a sophomore when i graduated, is now in his senior year and even made Drum Major(!!!). im obviously super stoked for him, i remember telling him back when he was a freshie that i could see him being a DM and actively encouraging him to try when the time came. anyway, he's been keeping me updated on what shows were happening and when, so i finally got to see their show tonight!! it was amazing and i loved it and they got first place, and all the caption awards besides best colorguard (our cg has never been the best, tbh). when i left the stands to walk alongside the band as they were packing up, i got to say hi to Dylan and my old sectionmates, and they seemed genuinely excited to see me

its been awhile since people were actually excited to see me so it was nice, but im still so fuckin happy for them. even if i cant be part of the band anymore, itll always hold a space in my heart

[francy-sketches]

Hope you’re ok btw ❤️

yea im ok dw <3 just kinda bummed out by the whole thing but whateverrr we move on twitter doesn't matter anyway ^_^

also idk if you sent me another ask or if that was a different anon but. I'm not gonna answer it bc I don't wanna create more drama (and also I'm trying to resolve it in dms rn so. don't wanna ruin that by being petty) but thanks for the support same goes for the other anons 🫶

[xxxvomitboyxxx]

I need to stop being automatically trusting and also stop assuming people will be always good. Sometimes people are bad 👍🏼 !

[fratboykate]

SINGLE SANTA BOUT TO REKINDLE SOME FARMER/PROF/LADY LOVES

lol dont wish evil on me im fine not going back to any of my exes 😂

[dragonlights]

Me: hey mom can you not make your anxieties my problem? I'll encourage you to talk to others and help you reach out however you want, but I can't be the one to help you, it stresses me out and given my childhood it's upsetting.

Mom: doesn't stop, keeps going "what if this happens, what if that happens?"

Me: answers her questions and says "I don't know though, that's just in the hypothetical you came up with" *leaves bc I'm stressed out about having to deal with her anxieties Again*

Mom: keeps! Going! Even when I turn up the TV to drown her out!

Me: can you please stop, it's really upsetting when you violate my boundaries like that.

Mom: what? I was not!

Me: you were! You were yelling so that i-

Mom: I wasn't yelling! You were just across the house so I wanted to make sure you could hear me.

Me: yeah! And you were talking about your anxieties! That I've asked you to not talk about with me!

Mom: I wasn't making it you deal with my anxieties! I'm just loud.

Me: reminds her that she JUST said she was raising her voice so I could hear her while she was talking about her anxieties.

Mom: *babbles in backtracking*