#this is a problem of my own creation

[fieldsofview]

I think my sense of scale is so skewed now

Because I'll look at a fic that is like 150k words and tagged with "slow burn"

and then they'll get together like 2/3 of the way through

and I'll go "wow, that was fast"

because I'm also used to reading 500k, 600k, 700k fics where they don't even have a first kiss until the last chapter

[myloveasrare]

I need to stop logging onto tumblr.

[lemons-kid]

Can’t sleep, must reblog good artwork

I love your art :)

Also 2 things uhhh

1: We saw how all the adults reacted to clover’s parents but what about OUR BEST FRIEND the 7th fallen and melty siblings initial reactions (we saw kanako’s but only after presumably some amount of time passed)

2: everyone on a super crowded sofa for movie night :) jus all squeezed up :)

fambily :)

[katnissdoesnotfollowback]

Me internally when I randomly remember that the 2026 Winter Olympics are next year

[zombiedotpng]

trying to draw but was overcome with the hubris of Frankenstein and the reluctant understanding of his creation

[alvasmadcreations]

I love when i have an idea and it expands and wriggles out of sanity so i start working on it

And then i try to explain it to my friends and they just look terrified

[solidcarbon]

small hc about drifter being unable to feel certain emotion which occupies the duviri spiral they're in (in that present moment). or, maybe, forcefully feeling the opposite one before accepting the current (giving an orowyrm a friendly pat = giving yourself a friendly pat) and being free in emotional terms for the rest of the spiral

[lustenthusiastmainx3]

Oc lore so cringe and complicated for no reason it gives people aneurysms

[mysticfairymoonlight]

Sable Blackthorn, my sad gay nonbinary goth bard actively suffering in Barovia as we speak. (Believe it or not, there is an actual story reason why they have the most hilariously edgy teenager name in all of faerûn [despite being almost 30, might I add] lmao.)

[ssruis]

(Re: tsukasa post) if you wanted to be a little uncharitable you *could* say that tsukasa cares for others just because it lines up with his goals - as in, he cares for others because he believes that’s what a star should do - rather than just genuine kindness and goodwill, but I would argue

- wrt loved ones: saki specifically (& to a lesser extent toya just because they interact less) is the greatest counterpoint against that interpretation. He wants to be the best brother possible because he loves her, not because it’s what a star should be doing (gestures at the doll event where he brought her the dolls as a kid even before he started the whole I am a world future star thing). Like yes he views that as something he *should* be doing but that’s because he believes that’s what you should do for your loved ones. I think at this point the big brother-dream of being a star thing are so irreversibly intertwined that they’re kind of one and the same. Of course a star would care for others because tsukasa cares for others and he views himself as a star etc etc. He wants to look out for/do things for his siblings/friends because he loves them.

- I guess you could argue him doing the same for strangers is solely because it upholds his star persona/image? But to that I would point out that his whole “I realized my real dream was to make others smile” thing in the main story sort of contradicts that. Given the whole “theatre is life” thing he’s got going on I think making strangers/acquaintance/etc happy in his day to day life is just like. A microcosm of what he aims to do on stage. I think he’s egotistical yeah but I don’t think that has to be mutually exclusive with selflessness. I do think there’s a discussion to be had about tsukasa being self-centered because he *is* and he’s absolutely not the completely selfless guy some people want to think he is but I also think that he can be motivated by egotistical desires *and* selfless desires. Being self centered isn’t inherently a bad thing. Tsukasa is kind because he’s a kind person and because that’s what a star should do in his mind. His own kindness is self serving. Does that make sense (no, it’s incomprehensible) great glad you’re following along. Sliding scale of how selfless his motivations for being kind are depending on the person with saki being on one end and random strangers on the other.

- I think it’s inherently difficult to ascertain whether the motives behind kindness are self serving or not. Does someone being kind because it makes them feel good mean they’re selfish? Humans are a social species, we enjoy making others happy because it makes us happy. Evolutionary adaption that helps the survival of the group. I think the idea that true kindness depends on your altruism making you miserable is stupid, although I guess you could argue that a kind person chooses kindness regardless of how it makes them feel. But then there’s the question of what motivates your kindness (a sense of doing the right thing? Upholding your morals? Because the guilt of being selfish is something you can’t bear? Wouldn’t that be just as selfish as wanting to feel good?) Whether or not true altruism/selflessness exists is a philosophical debate I don’t really feel like having over characters from the gacha miku tap tap game. Whatever. Would like to point out that tsukasa has canonically chosen to do the “right”/kind thing at the cost of his own benefit before (giving up on winning the pxl show contest/chance for a big break in favor of putting on the WMS show, which he was a little upset about doing).

I think people tend to err too far on the side of “he’s super selfless all the time with a pure heart” because they don’t want to admit their fave is an absolutely bizarre guy with a massive ego that comes into play for more than just his funny little speeches about being The Most Special Guy Alive which is tragic because Tsukasa Tenma is truly an interesting critter. He doesn’t do things solely out of the goodness of his heart but he also doesn’t not do things out of the goodness of his heart. He’s complex. Layered. A weird little freak. I’m studying him like a bug. You understand.

[musical-chick-13]

Thoughts on toxic yuri?

One of my very favorite storytelling concepts, I love it when women make each other worse. <3

I do think it's important, for me anyway, to note the difference between a dynamic that's toxic in one direction versus something that is mutually toxic. The first one doesn't really interest me a whole lot, usually because it means one character suffers constantly without being allowed to do anything else--at the very least, it will come across as the more ""normal"" character not really being that into the relationship in question. I need BOTH parties to be unhinged.

The important thing for any fictional relationship (though we're specifying toxic yuri here, obviously) is that it's interesting. If there is no limit to what the women can do within a dynamic, then there are an infinite number of ways for that dynamic to go. And while you can learn a lot about a character through examining their values and positive qualities, you can learn just as much (if not more) by considering their flaws. And those flaws really come out in the case of toxic yuri; characters get to show the uglier parts of themselves in this context, which I am always a fan of. A fraught, complex relationship, when written well, can be a really great way to psychologically explore the characters: what inspires them to act this way? why do they think this behavior is acceptable? if they don't think it's acceptable, why do they keep doing it? what do they think about the concept of love as a whole? how far would they go for intimacy or to be understood? how do they view other people in general? and probably most importantly, what led to them developing the beliefs underlying their actions in the first place?

From a more "psychologically, why do people enjoy this" standpoint, mutual toxicity often goes hand in hand with extreme obsession, extreme jealousy, and a willingness to forgive a whole lot of horrible shit. Which, yeah, in real life you don't want to be in a relationship like that. But I think there's a lot of emotional resonance in exploring those feelings. The idea that someone will never leave you. That they think so intensely about you specifically that they'll break anything and anyone to stay with you. That even if you're the worst version of yourself, someone will still want you because that's still you. Someone knows exactly how to fuck you up because they genuinely understand you. Things in fiction that we would never want in real life can be incredibly interesting or even cathartic to witness from a distance. I think we all feel things that scare us sometimes (or even simply feel an innocuous emotion so intensely that it scares us), and looking at unpleasant feelings within fiction can help identify, parse out, process, and successfully cope with those feelings. And I think, at the end of it all, a lot of people want to matter to someone, in some way. It makes sense that some creators would take that concept-of meaning a great deal to another person, of affecting them deeply-to its absolute extreme through writing.

(And also, consider. That I am very gay. And that horrible women are very attractive.)

[langfield]

personally i don’t think max being the protag of de is a problem? i understand people who think that safi would’ve made a great protagonist and i agree with that -- but i also think she works best as a non playable entity in de. while maya’s, vinh’s, and safi’s stories would be fun to explore i do not necessarily think it’s full game material? it was rather mundane seeming besides the whole book stealing shit and maya killing herself … and as for safi on her revenge tour post book canceling, i struggle to see how that would work either because safi works as an isolated party the entire time and nobody would’ve been willing to help her anyway, considering everyone’s stances on it afterwards. and safi deciding to choose peace would feel so odd because she has way more healing to do than de allows and fits better as a character who leaves the narrative after it’s wronged her repeatedly. there’s also the case of the lis protag standard which would be two love interests and with maya dead and vinh’s relationship with safi unable to ever be any sort of end game, it’s like … well who would they pick? i do think there’s more max could’ve done in the narrative and i do think it’s obvious that she was a cash cow, but i’ve never struggled with her inclusion in de the way most seem to tbh. in fact it’s her being there that helps fuck everything up and causes a climax of any kind ( safi was sort of lost without max’s investigation skills and wouldn’t have ever thought to go on stage to spill her truth without her, etc etc ) — of course, people can be creative and imagine different scenarios! it’s the fun of projects and rewrites! but also max not being there causes more of a hole than anything at this point imo

[moonsun2010]

About what kind it is, I compare the Nosferatu 2024 discourse to the old Twilight discourse, because 99% of what I've seen on X or on here or Tiktok is mainly about the "love triangle" and which pairing the creator and cast support and if Thomas or Orlok is the worst or the soulmate for Ellen, all it's missing is the werewolves 😭

Wait that's hilarious because like, I've not watched the movie yet, but from the screenshots and posts I've seen Orlok isn't even conventionally attractive enough for them to ship—don't know if this raises my respect or not lol. Wasn't there a big hoo-ha about his moustache?

[heich0e]

I JUST FOUND A BETTER KIYOOMI WIP WHY'D I POST THAT OTHER ONEEEEEE

[bueris]

god I suck at doing things I'm so easily distracted

[apathmakerstale]

What's it called when you have fanfic ideas of your own story?

Canon? Non-canon extra?? Apocryphal??? Canon-Adjacent????

My god I am so obsessed with them that I makeup ideas to use in fanfics of my own stories and then fan about it.